Dear Friends

[Elle]

meadow-foreigner, I also struggle with why there is suffering in the first place, as my understanding of it at the time could be considered a major starting point of my seeking “something else out there.” I’d heard the phrase “life is suffering” as a sort of punishment for past “misdeeds,” but as someone who responds best to positive reinforcement vs. negative reinforcement, this is something I have a hard time processing.

I tried applying my understanding of the Law of One to the purpose of suffering and I keep going back to the one constant I find at the root of all things: experience and learning. I consider how one person is supposed to truly understand the concept of suffering unless that one person also experiences suffering, and the polar opposite as a whole for a full understanding: experiencing suffering of self/inflicting suffering on others, and being relieved of suffering of self/relieving others of suffering.

Perhaps among other concepts, once suffering is fully experienced and learned to a state of understanding, it is only then that one is able to consciously or subconsciously choose their path in the fourth density: service to self or others. This path by validated choice and action in any given scenario: does one choose to inflict or attempt to relieve suffering of self and others?

I consider whether these choices present themselves as something predetermined at carnation or complete randomness/free will. As I interpret the Ra Material, this carnation is a combination of choice and opportunities in tandem with randomness or chaos. As I understand it, the third density is an existence of combined polarities, so I consider how could choice exist without chaos? Perhaps adding chaos to the mix is how the concept of free will exists in a sort of harmony with choice. If I consider if everything is the one creator, then is choice and chaos not the same thing? If so, how many carnations of choice combined with chaos would it take for us as individuals to fully understand the concept of suffering and other concepts of polarity?

Even then, I still have to consider the purpose of suffering in the first place, and based off the Ra Material, my interpretation and logic still goes back to the one constant: experience and learning, for are we all not the one creator infinitely existing and experiencing itself?

I’d like to thank you again for this dialog. I can think of no better way to learn as being able to contemplate and bounce ideas off someone else – the learn/teach teach/learn concept as I understand it. I’d also like to throw it out there that I’m really not sold on anything: all I know is that I feel my own personal engine has driven me on a path at this time to a seeking of balance and understanding.