i have read a lot about jesus and buddha and they seem to agree that it is like a gift you simply should not accept and that the other person is simply projecting their own pain etc...
in real life this is very difficult. im sure jesus had a rough time being spit on thrown stuff at him and probably worse, same thing with buddha. i mean the stories of that occuring are endless. it seems there is no defense needed when you stop alllowing your ego to be hurt.
i find this to be extremely difficult in real life. often i have huge anger and rage the following days and i try to come up with a way to respond but i know thats not the way. im not sure how to not react to it. i dont have that flow in life. im struggling with this and a ton of other things but i dont want to give up on my ideals and principles. ive lived like this my whole life by choice. i dont see why i would want to go down to their level.
and then sometimes there is the escalation of things which im very aware of. i quickly go down the sts road. some guys are just looking for a physical fight. if it ever came to that i dont think i could keep myself from....lets just put it this way: getting a lot of negative karma. its also very difficult to keep a situation calm. most of the time i just try to keep stuff to myself. i try smiling trough it but thats not me. i would like to keep a straight face but i smile because i dont want to come off as psychopath. maybe i should just start being myself more again.
in real life this is very difficult. im sure jesus had a rough time being spit on thrown stuff at him and probably worse, same thing with buddha. i mean the stories of that occuring are endless. it seems there is no defense needed when you stop alllowing your ego to be hurt.
i find this to be extremely difficult in real life. often i have huge anger and rage the following days and i try to come up with a way to respond but i know thats not the way. im not sure how to not react to it. i dont have that flow in life. im struggling with this and a ton of other things but i dont want to give up on my ideals and principles. ive lived like this my whole life by choice. i dont see why i would want to go down to their level.
and then sometimes there is the escalation of things which im very aware of. i quickly go down the sts road. some guys are just looking for a physical fight. if it ever came to that i dont think i could keep myself from....lets just put it this way: getting a lot of negative karma. its also very difficult to keep a situation calm. most of the time i just try to keep stuff to myself. i try smiling trough it but thats not me. i would like to keep a straight face but i smile because i dont want to come off as psychopath. maybe i should just start being myself more again.