Welcome to the forum. 
I find traditional higher education (and traditional education in general) not only dubious, but I get the struggle with the structure and dogma of it. The first time I attended college I just couldn't stick it out, as a lot of it just didn't make sense to me. The second time was a short stint and was focused on something specific, which worked better for me but didn't teach me much (I was studying design and advertising and went on to the first leg of my career as an illustrator); I learned 90% of what I know doing what I do. That said, in your case, you will need the degree, and the training will be efficacious at least in some respects.
I actually entertained the idea of being a surgeon at one point in my life (and a pilot, and a zillion other things because I would really like to do EVERYTHING), but some of the things I would have had to do (namely using animals to learn on—I had no issues with human cadavers) was not something I could or would do. And, the dogma of allopathic medicine was not something I lined up with in general.
However, I totally get wanting to be a healer in an accepted industry where you can be of great service to the most people. I would encourage you to stay the course as long as it doesn't compromise who you are and your own convictions and principles. Very good luck to you.
I find traditional higher education (and traditional education in general) not only dubious, but I get the struggle with the structure and dogma of it. The first time I attended college I just couldn't stick it out, as a lot of it just didn't make sense to me. The second time was a short stint and was focused on something specific, which worked better for me but didn't teach me much (I was studying design and advertising and went on to the first leg of my career as an illustrator); I learned 90% of what I know doing what I do. That said, in your case, you will need the degree, and the training will be efficacious at least in some respects.
I actually entertained the idea of being a surgeon at one point in my life (and a pilot, and a zillion other things because I would really like to do EVERYTHING), but some of the things I would have had to do (namely using animals to learn on—I had no issues with human cadavers) was not something I could or would do. And, the dogma of allopathic medicine was not something I lined up with in general.
However, I totally get wanting to be a healer in an accepted industry where you can be of great service to the most people. I would encourage you to stay the course as long as it doesn't compromise who you are and your own convictions and principles. Very good luck to you.