Choosing polarities, survey/discussion.

[J.W.]

Now to answer your questions.

3. With your current incarnated experience, how much of it influenced your "choice?" Imagine if you would have incarnated on a very positive or negative planet, do you feel that it would have affected your decision making?

Yes I believe the illusion into which we come has a very great influence on our choices. Wanderers are no exception. We only carry a bias of where we were on the path before the incarnation.

Yet in my current incarnation this positive bias has served me well within the maelstrom of this planet.

I can remember ever since I was 6 years old that I could not understand how God could have permitted evil to exist and I have spent my whole incarnation trying to understand why evil exists if God is a God of love. This intense seeking is what has shown me at some point that the evil I was judging was also a part of me (it is in fact a part of everyone). So I was judging a part of myself to be unacceptable. There was work needed in the area of integrating the shadow self. This is also the case for almost everyone as far as I know. So then while doing this work it came to me the path that I had travelled to get here. But I will note here that it is difficult for me to differentiate if this comes from the individual entity that I am or from myself as a social memory complex or myself from an even higher vantage point. But I guess that at that level it does not make any difference. And of course at the highest level, all of us are all polarities and did all the deeds done in all of the multiverse.

This is interesting, I really enjoy what you shared about your childhood, I appreciate that.

I had similar experience around the same age, I couldn't understand "evil" either.

But once I started to seek, that is when I learn the "layers" and complexity of duality in existence.

In example, the first level of the so called "evil" could be.. bullying, fighting, tricking someone for "fun."
Then it gets deeper... Killing, stealing, destroying....
And deeper.... Controlling, domination, conquest...
Then suddenly.... there is a threshold where it started to backtrack...into things like... "necessary evil" .... "sacrifice" ... "preservation of a cause, or the self"... etc. etc.

vice versa with the "good" side. It also had similar progression, and at some point, it is hard to distinguish... between the two. (7th-8th)

The biggest question that most of us eventually come across is.... Why does "god" allow extreme suffering?

"Servitude" was the answer that came to me. (Before reading the Law of One.)

It was extremely deep to view it from that perspective, to see the good that comes from "inaction" .. "stillness" .. To allow the natural flow of the black and white, to allow the "dance" to happen. Knowing that it eventually and naturally will flow back and forth on it's own.

Then... "Peace"... dawned on me, when I understood and felt that part of intelligence in all creation, it was love at the core, undeniably.

To be comfortable in the present of the infinite, It is a void, and yet, also everything.

"Acceptance" is the correct word Dtris.

The constant gripping and letting go... I saw it in all things... in vibration...in frequency... in people... in souls...

A very, very old dance that is in all of creation.

l/l