Where is the Love in the Moment?

[Sacred Fool]

Well, the next question that pops to mind is.....

I view it as square one on a different level of the same game.  It is not a stable state and is susceptible to derailment, for example.  I feel it's an introduction to a different balance of the upward and downward spiraling of energies, as Ra depicts it.

Another way of phrasing your question is, "So, what's different now?"  There's a different sense of self, not conceptually, but in terms of.....maybe "center of gravity," if that makes sense?  Speaking figuratively, it feels like I'm buoyed up in my heart more so that my weight doesn't hit the ground so hard....as if there's a bit of an anti-gravity effect.  I'm continuing along on my same unseen path but.....it's like the character of the space around me is lighter and more comapassionate.....I feel much more connection between my own lower energies and earthy energies in general and more celestial energies.  That is, there's less impermeability. 

In the non-perceptive state, it's as though each vector of force or each radiative force is being met by it's exact opposite, causing a comprehensive equilibrium--a little bit like the space between in breaths--and now my relationship to the outer world is more like that.  The inner and the outer, the upper and the lower, they are less oppositional, as if things are more equidistant, more spherical.


Trying this all over again: what happens outwardly no longer feels like a mere allegory to what's inside, rather, it's no longer theory, it feels exactly like one hand doing this and the other hand doing that together.  You don't think about it, they instinctively co-ordinate, not over years or weeks, but in real time.  That's the sense I get.  Of course, I'm not yet fully operational by any means.