(06-10-2011, 04:40 AM)Nyu Wrote: Any time transiten!!
I remember a few years ago, my dog that I grew up with - but who lived with my mum because I went off travelling etc - up at my mums place in the country, she got into an old rusty can that had some food left in it, got botulism and ended up dying a VERY painful death that I didn't know about until my mum called me crying and told me. This poor little dog had lived a harsh life - my brother tormented her (he would scream at her to the point where she would lay there and poo herself) and poisoned her once with horse medicine, and always just treated her very cruelly, I think because he was jealous that I loved her so much and she and I would do everything together when I was young. He was older than me so i always tried to protect her but i didn't have much power against him. Then she had an even harsher death, and I was SO distraught that I was bawling my eyes out for days and I couldn't stop, my heart just hurt so badly for her and all I could think about was her life and how she didn't even get to die with any dignity. But 3 days after her death she came to me in a lucid dream, and in it she was young and vibrant again, and she was ridiculously happy and wagging her little tail as she ran around me in circles (she was a fox terrier), and she let me know she was alright and that she was in a good place now. Then after that I was ok, and she never came to me again but it gave me peace to know she moved on.
Just wanted to share some of myself again- I do that alot haha
OMG, i can't imagine how i could have endured that from a familymember, evokes my own trauma of having been almost shut out from the family by my stepmother because of jealousy although she never hit me physically...