My awakening

[Ali Quadir]

Thanks for the excellent insight into my awakening. I should really have posted my story much sooner but I guess I've just been taking my time to get through it myself before posting it publicly.

You were wise. If you take no time to digest what it means to you. How are you going to evaluate other peoples opinions?

You say you came to your own conclusions about the theory of oneness. I'm more impressed by your spontaneous self initiation though

Could you maybe expand on this part? When you talk about initiation, what do you mean?

Basically initiation is a handshake with the divine. The spiritual lineages in mans society work according to the principle of taking people up to the divine and giving them a moment for the handshake and the rest depends on tradition.

Some people who were strongly connected in past lives will create the possibility to become reinitiated. Often by formally joining a spiritual lineage. However, some of them, like you, disperse with those formalities, probably similar to how you don't ask someone to introduce you to someone who is already a friend. I think there's a lot more of these people these days. I technically walked the lineage path though I can hardly be considered typical there. I just kinda hopped in front of some people on lineage paths and inherited from them.

It's just an initiation though. There is a lot to figure out. I don't think anyone can really tell you how it all works. There's a huge body of knowledge on the topic and everyone has a different opinion on it. Not to mention that there's no replacement for experiencing it. Best to do is to follow your intuitions and diligently apply discernment. Read various opinions on a matter, compare, feel your way around and find your personal sweet spot, the spot where you feel most confident about. Don't be afraid to change your mind. And try to have as few expectations as possible so it can be what it is and not something that is compared to expectation.

Looking into past lives is something that seems to be coming up more and more for me. What is the best way to go about this?

Actually don't worry too much about this, it's not essential. The most relevant bits of past lives are exactly the same in your current life. Basically it means you're karmically so similar that you share experiences opinions and thoughts. What is relevant to know does not need to be found in a past life. And the details of past lives have a real potential to misguide us. Some consider karma like debt. It's something you have to repay. Others consider it identification. You've become so covered in blue paint that you start to think you're actually the color blue and create a life that expresses this belief.

But if you wanted to explore past lives there's a lot of choice. Just be discerning. Not everything is useful appropriate or even related to you.


My understanding of individual lives are that they're not exactly individual, they're not exactly lives either. The psychoverse is a huge collection of experiences opinions patterns and interactions. Any life is just a random cross section of the whole. For example the human experience is shared with billions, the initiate experience is similar.

Superficially lives seem extremely separated individual units. But they often share the same karmic patterns. Any two cross sections of the psychoverse are more or less alike and able to resonate. If they resonate particularly well then information starts to bleed through and the living beings become aware of each other. You could see two past lives as one individual in two lives working on the same karma. Or you could see them as two individuals working on the exact same karma. If one solves it, both solve it. It's a different understanding of the same principle.

From one point there is two individuals having separate lives encountering similar issues either resolving or not resolving it at some point not necessarily the same point. From another point there's one issue that the psychoverse is working on through two different human beings.

What we all are and what you felt is underlying nature of this psychoverse. Basically all the lives are simultaneously experienced by this underlying nature. We, because we are connecting to a specific life, cannot experience this totality but by shutting down the mind with lsd spiritual practice or unfortunate incidents can sometimes trigger glimpses of the underlying superconsciousness. We can cultivate this to the level of a living understanding but individuality remains we just perceive it as less relevant.

I feel uncomfortable explaining the passage of Ra to you. I am just a beginner in understanding the Ra material. The story above is my own experience sometimes helped by others. I brought here from another field. You should not see my opinion as his.

I think though that he's just basically directly stating that some people discover their psychic potential. Meaning that they discover another way of understanding life that allows for considering some events normal that others might consider miracles.