does it FEEL like your last year on Planet Earth?

[Avocado]

I don't get the feeling this is my last year on earth but I get the feeling my life is already over, has just begun and everywhere in between simultaneously. More and more as I go life seems but an instant. I'm happy for knowledge of transition and the other side as it has given me motivation and energy but for now I'm learning to love the instant. I have pondered if my body were to perish in the coming years but it feels the same as if it were to happen from old age. I ask myself is the next moment of change separated from now by eternity or just a heartbeat? I feel my spirit is on the verge of outpouring this embodiment. I will leak as much of myself out as possible. Just thinking about it I feel spirit inside me bouncing off the walls. c:

I'm seeking "simulated" death and thinking of visiting an isolation tank.