How does Infinity simply 'become' aware.

[Shin'Ar]

Even when one closes their eyes and enters deep meditation, there is a distinct space and an originating point where there is awareness observing this space,.... The only event taking place is its thrashing oceanic "being",... There is nothing but this waltzing colorful ocean with no end or beginning,...It simply is.

Perhaps it discovered that in this frenetic, somnambulant oceanic whirlwind which is its "form" or "being", it could project a fraction of itself, within itself, but distinct from itself... True linearity, however short, comes into existence. There is a passage of events. There is awareness to be aware of this passage, of time.

All things begin and end in mystery. For what purpose does the One Infinite Creator create? What experience(s) does it seek? Perhaps it wishes to peer into what came before, a sort of scavenging for extreme prenatal memory for the very source of infinity before it developed intelligence and awareness and decided to focus its energy.

I was a geometric pattern in a tremendous sea of color, shape, and sound.

The waltzing geometry I likened to infinity, the cessation, pause, empty void as the inhalation/development of awareness and intelligence, and the One Infinite Creator as the regurgitation/exhalation/directing of intelligent energy, with the various distortions coming soon after.

Above you will see that I have portioned your actual post to ask you to read what you have put in your own words and see how, when dissected, they can speak to support that which I write below.

Godwide, above I made the suggestion to Peregrinus that what existed first, that which is infinity, was Light, not darkness. you I know will understand this because you have expressed the experience of the void as being more than darkness in your relaying of your experience as 'The Eye' looking back at itself.

An example of this is what some of us see behind closed eyes. I cannot adequately define it, nor can I know what anyone else sees there. It is an individual experience that may or may not be shared by all. Which cannot be described by any other than their inadequate attempt to express their own observation of it. But if there are others who experience something similar to myself when they close their eyes, they do not see pitch black darkness, but rather a sea of blues, greens, yellows, reds, and violets. All forming very specific central images that appear to be points of focus, that do not remain still, but seem to float away requiring the desire to try to either follow it or to control it. In trying to follow it will eventually disappear only to restart again in the center of focus. And trying to control it so that it does not drift off is next to impossible, but I find that with practice it becomes more attainable and the images become more complex in design. As a matter of fact during recent rituals I have clearly seen, (although that word is not fitting as I am not seeing anything with my eyes), a bright and colorful cross. The most beautiful image I have ever experienced in all my life.

Might I suggest that what we see behind our closed eyes, is infinity. It is when we turn OFF the darkness of physical experience, that the true Light is turned on. It is when we rise above the material experience that we see the immaterial reality. It is when we ascend to a higher point of view that we realize the divine.

This is the secret of the darkness which the Ancients have tried to preserve for humanity. And it is the Kant ‘noumenal’ reflection to which you referred. It is literally the reflection of our reflection of our reflection that Azrael has pointed to many times. It is the secret truth that is only seen when we turn off what we think is the light. It is the duality of what we believe to be singularity, and the consequence of such reality is that the duality becomes hidden within a delusion of singularity and is only revealed when that which was thought to be Light is released from our thought process to enable the True Light.

This is the casting off of the physical to ascend into divinity.

Godwide you said this,

“The waltzing geometry I likened to infinity, the cessation, pause, empty void as the inhalation/development of awareness and intelligence, and the One Infinite Creator as the regurgitation/exhalation/directing of intelligent energy, with the various distortions coming soon after.“ UNQUOTE

Might I paraphrase that in a way that will elaborate on what I am suggesting here.

Allow me say it like this:

“Infinity gave birth to the ‘process of being’, in which infinity became intelligent energy, (the Goddess/duality), and the fragmented consciousness followed in the pursuit of further experience of the duality.”

We Ancients continue to use the ancient symbols and representation because they are enchanted with vibrations that instill learning ability and enhanced comprehension. This enchanted gift brought to us from the most ancient of ancients, and passed down through the very secretive guardian of intuitive process. Thus when we use these ancient terminologies and symbols, vibrations are activated which create a field of possibility for sharing between fields that are compatible with those vibrations. This is not for all, it is for ‘those who have an ear to hear’.

What those First Ancient fields brought to this Earth were the vibrational teachings of The Serpent Goddess, which some of you may acknowledge as Intelligent Energy if it helps you to keep up via the Ra material. This Serpent Wisdom relayed to us by the Serpent Masters which were appointed by the Goddess to be the harbingers of this knowledge, was of course not always properly understood by all that heard it because they did not have an ear to hear. Meaning that they were not yet at that point of their evolution to be able to share in it. This led to what I call the Luciferian Misconception, which readers can find in another thread here in this forum.

However misleading and corrupting those misconceptions have been to many, the truth residing in that serpent Wisdom still remains for those that do have an ear to hear. And when they overcome the flesh, or come over to the dark side if you will, the noumenal reality, the place where the false light is turned off, the realization of the true nature of duality, they become connected by the Goddess/intelligent energy to the True Light/darkness/infinity that is the Source of The All.

This Serpent Wisdom brought to mankind in its origins as the servants of the Goddess/intelligent energy proceeded to further create worlds and forms, all being an active part of the ‘Process of Being’ that is nothing more than the Source thinking and seeking its self which creates via the intelligent energy/goddess that it expels as it does so.

Existence is not a matter of simultaneity, it is a matter of the continuing process of intelligent energy seeking its source; or in Serpent Wisdom language, the Goddess connecting to the Spirit.

She is the conduit, the portal, the cauldron, the key, and the energy by which All comes to realize the Process of Being, or their divine nature/divinity.

The Source/Infinity constantly seeks the Goddess, intelligent energy, which in turn constantly connects the fragmented experiences to the Source.

This is the ’process of being’ within a divine design which was not formed by intelligent energy, the Goddess, but rather formed by the very ‘process’ of the Source ‘being’, or seeking.

This is why you, when you viewed through the field of the Goddess felt as though you were looking back at yourself. As intelligent energy, that process looking anywhere will be looking at The Source because that is what it is. The source seeking its self and experiencing the process as it does so. Creating what the fragments experience as existence, which is nothing more than It’s, the Source, existing/being/seeking/comprehending/calculating/learning/evolving.

Infinity is not the space background of creation or the blackboard on which creation is drawn. Infinity is the Mystery sought by the Source, the Process of It’s Being, which continues infinitely because The source is not a singularity, but a duality of Infinite stillness combined with Infinite energy. It is the result of still awareness becoming motion into that awareness creating moving awareness/process of being. This is why I have asked you in the past to elaborate on your use of the term stillness. I had hoped that you would come to that realization of the point of actual duality.

Let me show a few texts from ancient teachings that were set in place by the Ancient Serpent Masters, even though they may have been misconstrued by many.

Speaking of the origin of creation or the moment of creation the Bible says that ‘The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.’

Let’s consider that this is not suggesting that before creation there was darkness and then the Light shone into it. Let’s read this as the moment of creation where now that darkness has been created by the duality of separating from the Light as it becomes aware of its existence, that the darkness created could not comprehend the Light from which it spawned because it was the dual nature of that Light seeking its own origin.
In other words both Light and darkness are One, and yet neither can comprehend the other and the process of seeking and connecting begins.
This was the two opposing forces of action and reaction. The birth of existence. The Spirit and the Goddess. Infinity becoming Intelligent Energy. True Light/Infinity/The Source becoming darkness/Intelligent Energy/The Goddess becoming the Process of Being becoming creation in the process. All develops from that process and continues to do so because The True Light is infinite.

The Sumerian texts reveal this:

1. When in the height heaven was not named,
2. And the earth beneath did not yet bear a name,
3. And the primeval Apsû, who begat them,
4. And chaos, Tiamat, the mother of them both,—
5. Their waters were mingled together,
6. And no field was formed, no marsh was to be seen;
7. When of the gods none had been called into being,
8. And none bore a name, and no destinies [were ordained];
9. Then were created the gods in the midst of [heaven],

Here we see the revelation of the Serpent Goddess Tiamat, intelligent Energy, the mother of both/duality. Their waters were mingled together. And then came the gods, her servants.


Judaism gives this account to us,

“The light created at the very beginning is not the same as the light emitted by the sun, the moon, and the stars, which appeared only on the fourth day. The light of the first day was of a sort that would have enabled man to see the world at a glance from one end to the other. Anticipating the wickedness of the sinful generations of the deluge and the Tower of Babel, who were unworthy to enjoy the blessing of such light, God concealed it, but in the world to come it will appear to the pious in all its pristine glory.”

Here we see that in the beginning Light was created, and it is said to have been hidden from man until a later time, clearly suggesting that there was an absence of light, darkness. Or a false light, not the True Light of Infinity. It also clearly suggests that the True Light was a light THAT COULD HAVE enabled man to virtually see the entire universe.

Is that familiar to you Godwide? Have you experienced that Light?

Might I offer this for thought?

That which we know as creation, is the absence of that True Light which actually proceeds from infinity, hidden from us by the veil. And it is when we ascend beyond the physical light/matter we think is the true light, we discover that what we thought was light is actually a delusion for the purpose of causing us to seek, to proceed, to be, to exist, to continue. What we discover is that the True Light is ‘light creating darkness’, the process of Infinity becoming aware, which becomes the dual nature of creation.

Infinity becomes aware, and in that thought process being emitted is the consequence of duality, in that what becomes aware also seeks to discover why. And that which is established in the process cannot comprehend its origin any more than the origin can understand its origin.
The EYE looking upon itself, sees its result of thinking, creation, but cannot rejoin with the unawareness that preceded it. And so it continues to seek after that origin creating the process of being as it does.
The two forces of equal and opposite action/reaction establishing that which is existence of thought process/intelligent energy/the Goddess of All.

The Divine Feminine to the Divine Masculine, which we must discover within ourselves in order to evolve into the higher being of further understanding the process of being, and in order to connect to the conduit which guides us to that realization. And within that Divine Process of evolution, seeking and development we shall traverse the many various vibrations that form within the countless possibilities of the ongoing future of the Process, because we are that process unfolding.

We are not The Source/Infinity/Light, but we are The Goddess/Intelligent Energy/Darkness/False Light/Process of Being.

We are human, in this temporary state, and we are also divine in the process. One with The All. One Consciousness thinking into Infinite Mystery. To desire to remain in a temporary state for the enjoyment of it is Free Will of the fragmented consciousness. To desire to seek the divine states of the process is procession into that Mystery.