How does Infinity simply 'become' aware.

[Siren]

You are a fervent one, brother! And although I find your methodologies, conceptualizations and terminologies rather theatrical and at times awkward ("Process of Being," "Goddess," "Wisdom Serpent," "The Ancients," et al), I still nevertheless find congruency in what you say (despite apparent contradictions you may choose to nitpick on).

I agree in that there are various gradients of intensity/purity of the One White Light, if you will, and that the light diffracted as the yellow-ray spectrum (3rd density) is exponentially different from green-ray light, blue-ray light, indigo-ray light, etc. Yes, from this particular vantage point, there is a "greater" or "truer" light, so to speak, that we may look upon—which is what the growing, evolving entity continually seeks, whether consciously or un-consciously (and what is being sought is ultimately the Source of that light—the light being the medium, the vehicle, the ladder to that Source).

I won't go into detail, but I will tell you I have experienced a "greater" light than 3rd density light (within this 3D locus), and upon doing so, this reality (3D) seemed suddenly extremely dark and devoid of life (in view of this I have been able to see 3rd density with greater understanding, compassion, love, humility, awe and gratitude). So I believe I do understand what you are trying to convey.

An example of this is what some of us see behind closed eyes. I cannot adequately define it, nor can I know what anyone else sees there. It is an individual experience that may or may not be shared by all. Which cannot be described by any other than their inadequate attempt to express their own observation of it. But if there are others who experience something similar to myself when they close their eyes, they do not see pitch black darkness, but rather a sea of blues, greens, yellows, reds, and violets.

I too, when I close my eyes, "behold" that blackness and "see" an infinite sea of colored pixels as you do, vibrating, jittering, full of life (and I have often likened it to "how Infinity must look like"). But the reason why I see light in this blackness is because this blackness is the canvas* upon which all light is drawn upon/from—this blackness is the potential. And for as long as I am this focusing or thought (of infinite potential), light will continue to be formed, arranged, generated through me, from me, before me, within me and all around me.

When the Thought is dissolved into the All—having no memory, no identity, no past or future, but existing in the All—I shall behold, for an infinite, timeless moment, that One White Light (before it was prismatically diffracted into the rainbow-densities), and thus see myself in that light; then I'll close my Eye and know myself in my total beingness before finally dissolving once again into Nothingness. None of this will have existed a trillion, billion, million aeons ago—and the Mystery shall properly remain a Mystery.

27.12 Questioner: I would like for you to define love in its sense as the second distortion.

Ra: I am Ra. This must be defined against the background of intelligent infinity or unity or the One Creator with the primal distortion of free will. The term Love then may be seen as the focus, the choice of attack, the type of energy of an extremely, shall we say, high order which causes intelligent energy to be formed from the potential of intelligent infinity in just such and such a way.

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*Not a 2-dimensional canvas, not a 2-dimensional blackboard, but an omnidimensional infinite space/void/plenum of infinite potential without edges or limits or boundaries or delineations or differentiations.