Having complete faith in higher selfs plan vs personal ambition

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Edit: It appears as if this should have been in the life on earth forum but I can't delete it so if a mod wants to move it, I'm ok with that

One of the hardest points right now for me is finding the balance between the two. At this current juncture in my life, I am in a precarious position in that to be able to pick myself back up financially speaking and get off of the mattress on my parents floor after a nasty divorce, I am forced to find a second job due to child support

I am an X-ray tech and jobs are ridiculously hard to find so I'm having to constantly check job sites along with various hospital sites to ensure that I can apply as soon as the job is posted so that I have a chance at it.

The problem that I run in to is that a some points, if I'm to have faith in my higher selfs path, it feels like I'm forcing the issue thus reenabling an already estalished pattern of impatience that I have come to realize.

So with that said, to have complete faith in your intended path, are you supposed to just sit back and allow your intended path to simply jump into your lap or is there some sort of benefit to having ambition to improve ones life outside of the spiritual path?

I realize that I have all that I need in this particular illusion to allow my spirtual evolution but it's to a point where I feel like I'm limiting the amount of service to not only my daughter but to my hopeful new relationship along with any hope of actually being self reliant ever again.

First off, the plan that you worked out, in conjunction with your Higher Self, prior to incarnation is a very general one in most cases. Keep in mind, there is no predestination. You have various intentions to learn certain lessons when you come in, but apart from those lessons you basically have the power to create your own experience.

Your thoughts, beliefs, desires, and intent are the programming language for life as you know it. And your emotions are your communication from your higher self. Your emotions are the relativity between your desires, and your beliefs relative to those desires.

The desires that you have, were the ambition you were programmed with. It's not that mysterious. You have to "follow your bliss." When you truly line up with what you want, meaning, that you brush away all pessimistic thinking and turn your attention to optimisitic faith that what you truly desire is in the process of manifestation, you will feel your emotional state change in response to your new, more positive focus. That is the signal, from your Higher Self, that you are in balance with your Selves.

So the basic answer to your question is, do what brings you the most happiness in this moment. Think those thoughts, in this moment, which bring you the most happiness. Remember those things, in this moment, that bring you the most happiness. The only thing that ever stops what you desire, from coming into your experience, is your own blocked energy -- your own resistance -- created by your focus (where you have placed your attention). Clear up the contradiction in your energy (which is registered by your emotional state), and the rest will manifest easily.

All negativity is simply resistance to the natural well being of the universe.