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(10-16-2016, 10:43 PM)Mahakali Wrote: At this point, I crave spiritual development deeply, and not much else.
Maybe learning the past can help me develop spiritually, but I really want fifth-density light-alteration kinda s***, or to live on the astral plane in a lucid-dream type way with access to advanced science, mathematics, books, pornography, appealing spiritual concepts, time alteration, tesseracting, maybe a little bit of dank-ass weed... the works.
You literally do what you want every night most likely, but this is not truly what you seek because when it ends you come back to this place and your spirit re-aligns with your body and you become again the mind of this life with a slightly different ego because there is an higher aspect of yourself that does desire to experience this and makes the choice of coming back to this time and space again. I think you can like get out, grow a whole lot in experiences but this window will remain and you will come back to it.
Also understand that if you want to reach a higher degrees of consciousness, you gotta align yourself with them. This is where ego resistance comes into play. The core of yourself is spirit, your mind is the mirror of your spirit and your body is a creature of this mirror. The ego is a formless construct created from the patterns of the root of the mind. To have 5th density awareness you require to align your mind with your spirit at that vibration and if your ego is driven by lower rays distortions, this obviously does get in the way.
This is where ego death comes into play, ego death can really just be letting go of your resistance to change and instead allow yourself to align with your own spirit when you are provided with a window of opportunity. I think people call those initiations.
(10-16-2016, 10:43 PM)Mahakali Wrote: At this point, however, I could die if I don't figure out how to fix the brain thing, and unless some very high-level being makes the unlikely decision to intervene, it means figuring out how to do it myself.
I guess there are more things willing to help you than there are who desire to work "against" you. Sometimes you gotta learn to say yes when you are offered, and ask if you really feel a need for help.
Even if you don't get instant results, just saying "yes" can allow some to work with you over time each time you give them windows they can use.
(10-16-2016, 10:43 PM)Mahakali Wrote: Which is fine. But I really do need to figure it out, or else it's death and then Hell until the universe ends, or at least death and something else. And that would be a shitty ending to a really shitty story; I think it's far more interesting if I overcome this.
Why would you want Hell until the universe ends? I think you'd get bored with that kind of game long before then, everyone does.
(10-16-2016, 10:43 PM)Mahakali Wrote: Preincarnative decisions are whatever; I think most of the negativity has been accrued in this lifetime, and I need to figure out how my mind and matter interact.
I do think the core of Creation lies in the seeking of yourself and even more so with a veil on your mind. What do you hope to achieve when you know nothing about yourself?
So they may be whatever but they do teach about yourself, what lies at the core of your being.
(10-16-2016, 10:43 PM)Mahakali Wrote: This is also a grand opportunity to make a massive leap in spiritual development, if I play my cards right.
What is spiritual development? From a simplistic truth standpoint?