07-07-2020, 03:21 AM
ADDENDUM
I don't know why, but I'm fixating on the puzzle of just what you did in your adventure story. Here's a thought.
If you think of first density conscious awareness, that of the most simple awareness of being, spiraling upwards towards awareness of otherness (2D) spiraling up towards self-conscious awareness (3D)--skipping ahead--spiraling up to awareness of all as one, if you think of that and then think of your spiral representation of oneness, here's a way to think of what happened to you. Somehow, through some quirky talent of yours, you installed a jumper wire connecting an inner coil with an outer coil so that energy could travel from your celestial awareness directly to your most primal sense of animal self, skipping everything in between. And it turns out that these two levels of consciousness are not directly compatible with one another absent the intervening levels of awareness to "modulate the frequencies," if you will.
My sense is that you need to walk the whole thing backwards, like a labyrinth in a church, and begin again, not with the highest revelation, but with the most basic revelation of self (1D as represented in your own root chakra). From there, go to the next level, and so on, withholding the highest revelation until you are ready to proceed to your sixth chakra, having properly traveled through the preceding ones. This might help you disentangle the twisted mess of your introduction to spirituality. Welcome to the neighborhood, kid.
I don't know why, but I'm fixating on the puzzle of just what you did in your adventure story. Here's a thought.
If you think of first density conscious awareness, that of the most simple awareness of being, spiraling upwards towards awareness of otherness (2D) spiraling up towards self-conscious awareness (3D)--skipping ahead--spiraling up to awareness of all as one, if you think of that and then think of your spiral representation of oneness, here's a way to think of what happened to you. Somehow, through some quirky talent of yours, you installed a jumper wire connecting an inner coil with an outer coil so that energy could travel from your celestial awareness directly to your most primal sense of animal self, skipping everything in between. And it turns out that these two levels of consciousness are not directly compatible with one another absent the intervening levels of awareness to "modulate the frequencies," if you will.
My sense is that you need to walk the whole thing backwards, like a labyrinth in a church, and begin again, not with the highest revelation, but with the most basic revelation of self (1D as represented in your own root chakra). From there, go to the next level, and so on, withholding the highest revelation until you are ready to proceed to your sixth chakra, having properly traveled through the preceding ones. This might help you disentangle the twisted mess of your introduction to spirituality. Welcome to the neighborhood, kid.