Welcome!!! We're glad you're here! Just fact that you are here, indicates to me that it's not 'too late.' Remember what Q'uo said? Read my signature at the bottom of this post!
Many Wanderers don't ever wake up at all. You have awakened!!! That in itself is already a success, and is highly significant!
I would suggest asking yourself this question: Why would you have felt so compelled to start preparing for the military at such a young age? Evidently there was some reason that you needed to pursue that path, if for no other reason than to realize that it was NOT the path for you! Who knows what sort of karmic patterns were alleviated by your time in the military...whose lives were touched by you being there...Think about the fact that we even have a Density of Choice at all...why is there darkness but so that we can choose the Light? That single choice you made - to walk away from an environment in which violence is perceived as a solution - might have created an energy that rippled out to others and will end up helping others to wake up to that truth too. In other words, it's easy for someone who's never seen the face of violence to say they wouldn't choose it, but for someone who's actually been there in such an environment, the choice would, methinks, be much more powerful.
This is all speculation on my part, of course. I have no way of knowing what your experience in the military meant to you, or what significance it might have had for you and those whose lives you touched. These are just some ideas that occurred to me, so I am offering them for your consideration. The point is that, we have all had experiences in our pasts that we wouldn't choose now, but if we had not had those experiences, we wouldn't be where we are now!
Love/forgiveness/acceptance is what is needed in the present moment. I would suggest reaching deep inside to make sense of your experiences, and be grateful for what you have learned...rather than feeling that the time was somehow wasted or that you were not on-track for your destiny. Each experience is valuable. Find the value in that experience and be grateful for the lessons learned. It's what we all must do when reviewing our past. We all have had experiences that we might consider 'mistakes' but are they really? Or were they necessary for our spiritual growth at that time?
I'm suggesting some reflection, but I'm not suggesting dwelling on it too much. Some amount of reflection might be beneficial, if you feel to do so, but then again, if you feel ready to move on, then move on!
In answer to your question, I would say emphatically No! it's not too late! As long as you are here on this planet, you still have the present moment!
Some lyrics from Rage Against the Machine come to mind:
It has to start somewhere
It has to start sometime
What better place than here
What better time than now
Actually, the only thing that's starting now is your current choice. The present moment is the most important.
Friend, we all have experiences in our pasts that we may feel weren't optimal. My gosh, over the past year I struggled with extreme guilt over perceived mistakes I made in parenting my child! I even felt that I had failed in the most important task of all: giving him a firm spiritual foundation.
I'm not totally out of the woods yet on that, so I can relate to what you're feeling, even though our circumstances were completely different.
Here is a quote that is helping me tremendously:
10.14 Questioner: For the general development of the reader of this book, could you state some of the practices or exercises to perform to produce an acceleration toward the Law of One?
Ra: I am Ra.
Exercise One. This is the most nearly centered and useable within your illusion complex. The moment contains love. That is the lesson/goal of this illusion or density. The exercise is to consciously see that love in awareness and understanding distortions. The first attempt is the cornerstone. Upon this choosing rests the remainder of the life-experience of an entity. The second seeking of love within the moment begins the addition. The third seeking empowers the second, the fourth powering or doubling the third. As with the previous type of empowerment, there will be some loss of power due to flaws within the seeking in the distortion of insincerity. However, the conscious statement of self to self of the desire to seek love is so central an act of will that, as before, the loss of power due to this friction is inconsequential.
Exercise Two. The universe is one being. When a mind/body/spirit complex views another mind/body/spirit complex, see the Creator. This is an helpful exercise.
Exercise Three. Gaze within a mirror. See the Creator.
Exercise Four. Gaze at the creation which lies about the mind/body/spirit complex of each entity. See the Creator.
The foundation or prerequisite of these exercises is a predilection towards what may be called meditation, contemplation, or prayer. With this attitude, these exercises can be processed. Without it, the data will not sink down into the roots of the tree of mind, thus enabling and ennobling the body and touching the spirit.
The planet needs your Light. Yours. Your own contribution is unique. And I would venture to say that you have already contributed in many ways, even though you might not have realized it. You might have thought that your life got sidetracked until now, but I doubt that. I would suggest that your entire life has been very significant to others, as well as to yourself, in profound ways that you might not realize. That time was not wasted!
At the same time, your new focus is also highly significant. We're glad you're here now. If the entire world could polarize in a single instant, then just think about how much could be accomplished if one more Wanderer wakes up! We welcome you and, as Carla says, embrace your Spirit. Many blessings to you on your journey henceforth.
Many Wanderers don't ever wake up at all. You have awakened!!! That in itself is already a success, and is highly significant!
I would suggest asking yourself this question: Why would you have felt so compelled to start preparing for the military at such a young age? Evidently there was some reason that you needed to pursue that path, if for no other reason than to realize that it was NOT the path for you! Who knows what sort of karmic patterns were alleviated by your time in the military...whose lives were touched by you being there...Think about the fact that we even have a Density of Choice at all...why is there darkness but so that we can choose the Light? That single choice you made - to walk away from an environment in which violence is perceived as a solution - might have created an energy that rippled out to others and will end up helping others to wake up to that truth too. In other words, it's easy for someone who's never seen the face of violence to say they wouldn't choose it, but for someone who's actually been there in such an environment, the choice would, methinks, be much more powerful.
This is all speculation on my part, of course. I have no way of knowing what your experience in the military meant to you, or what significance it might have had for you and those whose lives you touched. These are just some ideas that occurred to me, so I am offering them for your consideration. The point is that, we have all had experiences in our pasts that we wouldn't choose now, but if we had not had those experiences, we wouldn't be where we are now!
Love/forgiveness/acceptance is what is needed in the present moment. I would suggest reaching deep inside to make sense of your experiences, and be grateful for what you have learned...rather than feeling that the time was somehow wasted or that you were not on-track for your destiny. Each experience is valuable. Find the value in that experience and be grateful for the lessons learned. It's what we all must do when reviewing our past. We all have had experiences that we might consider 'mistakes' but are they really? Or were they necessary for our spiritual growth at that time?
I'm suggesting some reflection, but I'm not suggesting dwelling on it too much. Some amount of reflection might be beneficial, if you feel to do so, but then again, if you feel ready to move on, then move on!
In answer to your question, I would say emphatically No! it's not too late! As long as you are here on this planet, you still have the present moment!
Some lyrics from Rage Against the Machine come to mind:
It has to start somewhere
It has to start sometime
What better place than here
What better time than now
Actually, the only thing that's starting now is your current choice. The present moment is the most important.
Friend, we all have experiences in our pasts that we may feel weren't optimal. My gosh, over the past year I struggled with extreme guilt over perceived mistakes I made in parenting my child! I even felt that I had failed in the most important task of all: giving him a firm spiritual foundation.
I'm not totally out of the woods yet on that, so I can relate to what you're feeling, even though our circumstances were completely different.
Here is a quote that is helping me tremendously:
10.14 Questioner: For the general development of the reader of this book, could you state some of the practices or exercises to perform to produce an acceleration toward the Law of One?
Ra: I am Ra.
Exercise One. This is the most nearly centered and useable within your illusion complex. The moment contains love. That is the lesson/goal of this illusion or density. The exercise is to consciously see that love in awareness and understanding distortions. The first attempt is the cornerstone. Upon this choosing rests the remainder of the life-experience of an entity. The second seeking of love within the moment begins the addition. The third seeking empowers the second, the fourth powering or doubling the third. As with the previous type of empowerment, there will be some loss of power due to flaws within the seeking in the distortion of insincerity. However, the conscious statement of self to self of the desire to seek love is so central an act of will that, as before, the loss of power due to this friction is inconsequential.
Exercise Two. The universe is one being. When a mind/body/spirit complex views another mind/body/spirit complex, see the Creator. This is an helpful exercise.
Exercise Three. Gaze within a mirror. See the Creator.
Exercise Four. Gaze at the creation which lies about the mind/body/spirit complex of each entity. See the Creator.
The foundation or prerequisite of these exercises is a predilection towards what may be called meditation, contemplation, or prayer. With this attitude, these exercises can be processed. Without it, the data will not sink down into the roots of the tree of mind, thus enabling and ennobling the body and touching the spirit.
The planet needs your Light. Yours. Your own contribution is unique. And I would venture to say that you have already contributed in many ways, even though you might not have realized it. You might have thought that your life got sidetracked until now, but I doubt that. I would suggest that your entire life has been very significant to others, as well as to yourself, in profound ways that you might not realize. That time was not wasted!
At the same time, your new focus is also highly significant. We're glad you're here now. If the entire world could polarize in a single instant, then just think about how much could be accomplished if one more Wanderer wakes up! We welcome you and, as Carla says, embrace your Spirit. Many blessings to you on your journey henceforth.