08-04-2014, 10:06 PM
I'm in my early 60s now but I always had a subtle feeling of not belonging here. I've never felt "at home" anyplace that I've lived. I have always had a quite a bit of anxiety (which has gotten worse recently) which I kept hidden from others and never felt very happy here. But, for the first half of my life, I didn't believe in UFOs, aliens or metaphysical phenomena. I would've laughed off the idea of "souls" reincarnating and having lives on different worlds and dimensions as utter nonsense.
I have to add that I have few memories of my childhood before I was around 8, but the one clear early memory I have was of being in a baby carriage (I'd say at less than 1 yr old) waking up, looking around and "saying" to myself (not in words but in "thoughts" if you will) "OK, I made it. I'm here." And then going back to sleep. It always kinda baffled me why I remembered this and not much else from my early life.
Anyway, the hyper-skeptical non-believer in me began to change when I hit my 30s and began to discover how good the evidence for paranormal phenomena actually was. The turning point came in my mid 40s when a woman I was dating, who was prone to having spontaneous OBEs in her sleep, came to me as a yellow-orange orb and tried to wake me up one night when I was asleep. It was a shared experience that neither of us knew that the other was aware of until we compared notes after the fact. That convinced me that consciousness is not a product of the brain and paved the way to a complete turnabout. Since that time, I've had numerous non-dramatic but subtly profound experiences that convinced me that first paranormal experience was not a fluke.
I stumbled upon the Law of One material about 7 years ago, linked from another site. Even though the prose is difficult to read, I could understand some of what was being said and it made sense to me. It had the ring of truth, shall I say, and I felt like it explained a lot of things about this world and the meaning of life in general.
The Ra material was my first introduction to the concept of a "wanderer" and I began to wonder if that could be the explanation for the way I felt for most of my life. I have been convinced of the validity of reincarnation for quite a while but my attempts to try and recall a prior life here were fruitless. I have never felt like I had had a prior life on earth before - I saw myself as very naive in many ways in the ways of the earth - but at the same time felt myself a little too advanced spiritually to be a recent graduate from 2nd to 3rd density. If I really were a wanderer, that would provide the explanation for those apparent contradictions. It didn't seem possible to me but I decided to keep an open mind about it.
After reading some material by Dolores Cannon, I realized that many wanderers here have absolutely no clue (i.e. they had even LESS of a clue than I did) they were from somewhere else before they underwent her regression technique. That made me think that perhaps it could really be true of me.
Earlier this year, I had a session with a psychic and inquired of her if she could see any past lives of mine. I gave her no information about myself aside from my name and there was no pre-arragned list of questions to be discussed - she would just read me and tell me what she got. She told me she did not see me as being in a physical body prior to this lifetime although she did see me involved on Lemuria in some fashion as a light being. She also told me I was destined to be a healer and that I would be "graduating." She also suggested, ironically enough, that I read some ooks by Dolores Cannon to gain an understanding of what she was saying.
I found the reading fascinating for she had no idea I had been thinking about this. If she simply wanted to con me, she could have told me I was Napoleon or something; but the fact that she gave me this unusual (and for all she knew, disappointing) reading which jived with the ideas I had been exploring made me feel I was on the right track. She also told me my guides did not think it was worthwhile to explore prior existences any further because "they don't make a difference at this point", something which Dolores Cannon said she had also been told by guides increasingly as we approach the end of 3D.
So maybe I am a wanderer, albeit a reluctant one. At the very least, it's likely I'm not from around here. My path to here has been as Ra suggests: ambiguous, subtle clues were left for me and I was free to believe or not. I chose to follow the breadcrumb trail and will continue to do so until I get to where I'm going. Wherever that is.
I have to add that I have few memories of my childhood before I was around 8, but the one clear early memory I have was of being in a baby carriage (I'd say at less than 1 yr old) waking up, looking around and "saying" to myself (not in words but in "thoughts" if you will) "OK, I made it. I'm here." And then going back to sleep. It always kinda baffled me why I remembered this and not much else from my early life.
Anyway, the hyper-skeptical non-believer in me began to change when I hit my 30s and began to discover how good the evidence for paranormal phenomena actually was. The turning point came in my mid 40s when a woman I was dating, who was prone to having spontaneous OBEs in her sleep, came to me as a yellow-orange orb and tried to wake me up one night when I was asleep. It was a shared experience that neither of us knew that the other was aware of until we compared notes after the fact. That convinced me that consciousness is not a product of the brain and paved the way to a complete turnabout. Since that time, I've had numerous non-dramatic but subtly profound experiences that convinced me that first paranormal experience was not a fluke.
I stumbled upon the Law of One material about 7 years ago, linked from another site. Even though the prose is difficult to read, I could understand some of what was being said and it made sense to me. It had the ring of truth, shall I say, and I felt like it explained a lot of things about this world and the meaning of life in general.
The Ra material was my first introduction to the concept of a "wanderer" and I began to wonder if that could be the explanation for the way I felt for most of my life. I have been convinced of the validity of reincarnation for quite a while but my attempts to try and recall a prior life here were fruitless. I have never felt like I had had a prior life on earth before - I saw myself as very naive in many ways in the ways of the earth - but at the same time felt myself a little too advanced spiritually to be a recent graduate from 2nd to 3rd density. If I really were a wanderer, that would provide the explanation for those apparent contradictions. It didn't seem possible to me but I decided to keep an open mind about it.
After reading some material by Dolores Cannon, I realized that many wanderers here have absolutely no clue (i.e. they had even LESS of a clue than I did) they were from somewhere else before they underwent her regression technique. That made me think that perhaps it could really be true of me.
Earlier this year, I had a session with a psychic and inquired of her if she could see any past lives of mine. I gave her no information about myself aside from my name and there was no pre-arragned list of questions to be discussed - she would just read me and tell me what she got. She told me she did not see me as being in a physical body prior to this lifetime although she did see me involved on Lemuria in some fashion as a light being. She also told me I was destined to be a healer and that I would be "graduating." She also suggested, ironically enough, that I read some ooks by Dolores Cannon to gain an understanding of what she was saying.
I found the reading fascinating for she had no idea I had been thinking about this. If she simply wanted to con me, she could have told me I was Napoleon or something; but the fact that she gave me this unusual (and for all she knew, disappointing) reading which jived with the ideas I had been exploring made me feel I was on the right track. She also told me my guides did not think it was worthwhile to explore prior existences any further because "they don't make a difference at this point", something which Dolores Cannon said she had also been told by guides increasingly as we approach the end of 3D.
So maybe I am a wanderer, albeit a reluctant one. At the very least, it's likely I'm not from around here. My path to here has been as Ra suggests: ambiguous, subtle clues were left for me and I was free to believe or not. I chose to follow the breadcrumb trail and will continue to do so until I get to where I'm going. Wherever that is.
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