06-21-2019, 04:39 PM
This was touched upon in a separate thread, but I felt the topic was important enough to deserve its own thread, as it revolves heavily around key concepts of The Law of One, and indeed, of all Creation.
Some of the ideas here presented are influenced by what Jordan Peterson labels "psychology of evil", his views on the subject, as well as some personal experiences and observations of mine.
I would like to state that a trigger warning might be in order. The subject matter here covered will be dark in nature, and touch upon the possible mentality behind the perpetrators of crimes such as rape, mass shootings, and so on. If you have been the victim of any such crimes and have any unresolved trauma regarding the experience, this thread might be uncomfortable. However, here I am reminded of one statement by Jordan Peterson about PTSD being caused in great part by having confronted extreme "evil", without currently having a framework that helps explain the mentality behind such actions. If you've suffered through any such things and you decide to read on, perhaps some of the ideas here presented will help you in your healing.
As students of The Law of One, all of us have read the Confederation's thoughts on the importance of having compassion and love even for the perpetrators of great evil, in part due to the notion that each and every single one of us has the same potential for evil: what has often been referred to as the shadow. It is my intent with this thread to share ideas and shed whatever light we can upon this subject in order to help us find further ways of feeling love and compassion for these individuals, our shadow, and thus, for our Infinite Creator.
The framework that I'm going to work under is that we're all beings of love. Love is our essence and our north star. Love gives meaning to our lives, and we can't help but seek love. We incarnated to learn the lessons of love, as we know. And we incarnated in an illusion so thick that we would completely forget that love is our essence; an illusion where tragedy is an inseparable and unavoidable component, deliberately built-in and designed for the purpose of testing how far our belief and commitment to love can go, as Ra implied in their famous and inspiring poker analogy.
So, what happens when tragedy strikes and an entity starts believing that love is unattainable, or that the illusion is actually love itself? To what lenghts can an entity be twisted when it internalizes such beliefs? One thing is for certain: If love from others is seen as futile, another option must be embraced. One would logically have to stop seeking love, and start seeking other things. In my estimation, there's a single thought that starts the whole train of action: "This thing that is being done to me is unacceptable". What is perceived as unacceptable must be controlled. Thus, the pathway of power, control, retribution and aggrandizement of the ego at the expense of other-selves, begins.
We've come to know this as the Service to Self path. Although described as completely valid a pathway of ascension ("The Law of One blinks neither at the light or the darkness"), it neither will get an entity all the way back to the Creator, nor will one find as much truth through that path. "The path of that which is not", we've read. It's a path so dependent on illusion, that it didn't exist at all when there was no veil.
Ra referred to the STS kind of sexual arousal as "virtually unquenchable". I believe this applies to all forms of power-seeking for the STS entity, and no wonder: There is always someone more to surpass in the hierarchy; someone else to enslave; some new territory to have dominion over. The desire for power and control will never find true satisfaction (especially in an Infinite Creation!). Thus, although described still as a path of love (love exclusively of the self), STS neither begins in love nor it fulfills the immutable yearning of the soul for a more inclusive and expansive kind of love. It's a substitute. It begins being a substitute in 3rd density when the first steps towards negative polarization are taken, and it continues being so throughout the higher densities, until the impossibility of continuing through that path is realized in mid-6th density. Q'uo said, I believe (I may be paraphrasing) that there's a kind of sweet innocence to the STS entity that switches polarity at that point and starts discovering the pleasures of true connectedness, Oneness and unconditional love.
All of this cements very solidly, in my opinion, the notion that there's something lacking for the soul about the STS path. The soul is being denied something; something that it still yearns for, even if subconsciously.
Let's take the example of the rapist. It seems difficult to believe that any entity would prefer forcing themselves on someone and gaining whatever pleasure they might derive from dominating someone, over making love with a person who they genuinely love, and who loves them back. The rapist becomes so only after internalizing, first, the idea that they will not be loved, and second, that this state of affairs is unacceptable. The desire to rape is embraced, again, as a substitute, not as a true preference.
There are the mass shooters. That they were isolated from their peers and suffered from painfully low self-esteem is well known. The Choice is presented to them. In their perception that they have been rejected*, and in their unwillingness to accept and find the love in the situation, thus refusing the STO path, they move towards the only thing that is acceptable to them: Power over others; as Ra said, "the putting to death being the ultimate power over others".
*relevant: there are studies that say that rejection literally activates our pain circuitry.
I think it's extremely important to point out the intense pain these people are under, and here I say again, that although STS is called the path of love of the self, it most certainly does not begin in love. I believe it was in the manifesto of one of the Columbine shooters where it was said how much they hated everybody, but with a caveat: they admitted to hating most of all those individuals who reminded them of their own selves. These people are not in love with themselves. Whatever clumsy attempts they may have made at finding love before, they ended with the belief that even if love does exist, they themselves are unlovable. Elliot Rodger is someone who repeatedly talked about wishing for nothing more than finding the love of a woman, in the videos that he made before his shootings. He would talk about looking back at his childhood, yearning for the simplicity, innocence and naivete of that period. After internalizing the notions that women had rejected him and that they were the enemy, he would talk at length from that hatred and resentment that kept festering and festering. He would speak words that would rob women of all humanity, hating men who had found love, too, because they were living symbols of the failure that he perceived himself to be. "I will be the alpha male", I believe were some of his words towards the end. Again, STS is shown as the alternative, the substitute; not the actual preference.
A hatred for life itself seems very common under these situations. As Jordan Peterson points out, the fact that most of these people end up killing their own selves is meant in part as a statement. It's a desire to show to the world that life, existence itself, is worthless. What better way of driving that point home could there be than the taking of one's own life?
Obviously, due to this, the mass shooters walk into the STS path only so far. We can only guess whether they enjoyed the feelings of power and domination that they were seeking in their crimes, and to what extent. For the STS entity that has a longer incarnation, the process continues. As they begin to experiment with the feelings of power and domination, the pain and feelings of self-worthlessness that drove them towards a substitute for love probably subside. I would imagine that they start feeling re-invigorated, their self-esteem being progressively restored, until a new realization becomes self-evident in their minds: power, control and domination is what life is about. The entity declares that that's what he or she will live for. Thus, a newfound love is discovered. The love of the illusory self.
There's a popular belief that true STS entities operate only from positions of extremely high power and status. This is not so, as stated here by Q'uo:
The topic of determinism, how much free will we really have, and whether some entities are more prone to others than walking the STS path is interesting. These are some relevant extracts:
Q'uo, from the following session:
https://llresearch.org/transcripts/issue...0_0513.pdf
What I get from this is that there's some inherent bias in each entity, but free will having the potential to overcome said bias (which is to say, itself??) and being capable of making The Choice one way or the other.
Another point of interest is that STS depends upon the lie of fear. Fear is a lie in that there's no reason to be afraid of anything, from a higher perspective, given that we're eternal, immortal, and unconditionally loved. The first steps towards STS are usually walked because of one kind of fear or another (fear of being unlovable; fear that if life is not controlled, tragedy will surely strike; etc). We've all heard of how 4th and 5th density negative entities resort to instilling fear on 3rd density entities. Fear is how they get recruits for their empire.
Another point is the seeming masculinity of the STS path, applied in its most extreme and dark form. This begs the question, what is the role of the female in the STS path? Why would a soul ever incarnate whether in higher negative densities or as an aspiring STS harvestable 3rd density entity, as a female? For this, these quotes seem relevant:
Given that being a willing slave increases one's negative polarity, it would seem to me that STS females would reward and willingly submit only to the most powerful males they could gain access to, thus instilling into others the idea that they are only as worth as they are powerful and strong. I believe a perfect 3rd density example of this can be found on the women who would send the serial killer Ted Bundy love letters while he was in prison. No doubt these women also came from situations of tragedy and lack of self-worth. In this sense, I believe these women wouldn't so much seek direct power over others, but instead indirectly seek power through submission to an STS man.
Some of the ideas here presented are influenced by what Jordan Peterson labels "psychology of evil", his views on the subject, as well as some personal experiences and observations of mine.
I would like to state that a trigger warning might be in order. The subject matter here covered will be dark in nature, and touch upon the possible mentality behind the perpetrators of crimes such as rape, mass shootings, and so on. If you have been the victim of any such crimes and have any unresolved trauma regarding the experience, this thread might be uncomfortable. However, here I am reminded of one statement by Jordan Peterson about PTSD being caused in great part by having confronted extreme "evil", without currently having a framework that helps explain the mentality behind such actions. If you've suffered through any such things and you decide to read on, perhaps some of the ideas here presented will help you in your healing.
As students of The Law of One, all of us have read the Confederation's thoughts on the importance of having compassion and love even for the perpetrators of great evil, in part due to the notion that each and every single one of us has the same potential for evil: what has often been referred to as the shadow. It is my intent with this thread to share ideas and shed whatever light we can upon this subject in order to help us find further ways of feeling love and compassion for these individuals, our shadow, and thus, for our Infinite Creator.
The framework that I'm going to work under is that we're all beings of love. Love is our essence and our north star. Love gives meaning to our lives, and we can't help but seek love. We incarnated to learn the lessons of love, as we know. And we incarnated in an illusion so thick that we would completely forget that love is our essence; an illusion where tragedy is an inseparable and unavoidable component, deliberately built-in and designed for the purpose of testing how far our belief and commitment to love can go, as Ra implied in their famous and inspiring poker analogy.
So, what happens when tragedy strikes and an entity starts believing that love is unattainable, or that the illusion is actually love itself? To what lenghts can an entity be twisted when it internalizes such beliefs? One thing is for certain: If love from others is seen as futile, another option must be embraced. One would logically have to stop seeking love, and start seeking other things. In my estimation, there's a single thought that starts the whole train of action: "This thing that is being done to me is unacceptable". What is perceived as unacceptable must be controlled. Thus, the pathway of power, control, retribution and aggrandizement of the ego at the expense of other-selves, begins.
We've come to know this as the Service to Self path. Although described as completely valid a pathway of ascension ("The Law of One blinks neither at the light or the darkness"), it neither will get an entity all the way back to the Creator, nor will one find as much truth through that path. "The path of that which is not", we've read. It's a path so dependent on illusion, that it didn't exist at all when there was no veil.
Ra referred to the STS kind of sexual arousal as "virtually unquenchable". I believe this applies to all forms of power-seeking for the STS entity, and no wonder: There is always someone more to surpass in the hierarchy; someone else to enslave; some new territory to have dominion over. The desire for power and control will never find true satisfaction (especially in an Infinite Creation!). Thus, although described still as a path of love (love exclusively of the self), STS neither begins in love nor it fulfills the immutable yearning of the soul for a more inclusive and expansive kind of love. It's a substitute. It begins being a substitute in 3rd density when the first steps towards negative polarization are taken, and it continues being so throughout the higher densities, until the impossibility of continuing through that path is realized in mid-6th density. Q'uo said, I believe (I may be paraphrasing) that there's a kind of sweet innocence to the STS entity that switches polarity at that point and starts discovering the pleasures of true connectedness, Oneness and unconditional love.
All of this cements very solidly, in my opinion, the notion that there's something lacking for the soul about the STS path. The soul is being denied something; something that it still yearns for, even if subconsciously.
Let's take the example of the rapist. It seems difficult to believe that any entity would prefer forcing themselves on someone and gaining whatever pleasure they might derive from dominating someone, over making love with a person who they genuinely love, and who loves them back. The rapist becomes so only after internalizing, first, the idea that they will not be loved, and second, that this state of affairs is unacceptable. The desire to rape is embraced, again, as a substitute, not as a true preference.
There are the mass shooters. That they were isolated from their peers and suffered from painfully low self-esteem is well known. The Choice is presented to them. In their perception that they have been rejected*, and in their unwillingness to accept and find the love in the situation, thus refusing the STO path, they move towards the only thing that is acceptable to them: Power over others; as Ra said, "the putting to death being the ultimate power over others".
*relevant: there are studies that say that rejection literally activates our pain circuitry.
I think it's extremely important to point out the intense pain these people are under, and here I say again, that although STS is called the path of love of the self, it most certainly does not begin in love. I believe it was in the manifesto of one of the Columbine shooters where it was said how much they hated everybody, but with a caveat: they admitted to hating most of all those individuals who reminded them of their own selves. These people are not in love with themselves. Whatever clumsy attempts they may have made at finding love before, they ended with the belief that even if love does exist, they themselves are unlovable. Elliot Rodger is someone who repeatedly talked about wishing for nothing more than finding the love of a woman, in the videos that he made before his shootings. He would talk about looking back at his childhood, yearning for the simplicity, innocence and naivete of that period. After internalizing the notions that women had rejected him and that they were the enemy, he would talk at length from that hatred and resentment that kept festering and festering. He would speak words that would rob women of all humanity, hating men who had found love, too, because they were living symbols of the failure that he perceived himself to be. "I will be the alpha male", I believe were some of his words towards the end. Again, STS is shown as the alternative, the substitute; not the actual preference.
A hatred for life itself seems very common under these situations. As Jordan Peterson points out, the fact that most of these people end up killing their own selves is meant in part as a statement. It's a desire to show to the world that life, existence itself, is worthless. What better way of driving that point home could there be than the taking of one's own life?
Obviously, due to this, the mass shooters walk into the STS path only so far. We can only guess whether they enjoyed the feelings of power and domination that they were seeking in their crimes, and to what extent. For the STS entity that has a longer incarnation, the process continues. As they begin to experiment with the feelings of power and domination, the pain and feelings of self-worthlessness that drove them towards a substitute for love probably subside. I would imagine that they start feeling re-invigorated, their self-esteem being progressively restored, until a new realization becomes self-evident in their minds: power, control and domination is what life is about. The entity declares that that's what he or she will live for. Thus, a newfound love is discovered. The love of the illusory self.
There's a popular belief that true STS entities operate only from positions of extremely high power and status. This is not so, as stated here by Q'uo:
Quote:R: In looking at the nature of negative polarity and karma, there is the assumption that when one polarizes in the negative sense, for example, as a slave master, then the karma would draw to him the opposite experience of being the slave. When you are in the position of one who suffers and is on the receiving end, will you still polarize in a negative way?” Could you comment on this question?
We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. It is entirely possible and quite probable that an entity, as you say, on the receiving end of power; that is, being powerless, can polarize very greatly towards the negative.
If you think about the nature of the negative polarity, the negative polarity has to do with seeing all others as objects to be used and to feeling of oneself that one is the king of creation. When such an entity, with this basic turn of mind, is in a position of powerlessness, he is free to spend the entire incarnation honing the edge of his rage. He can use every slight, every insult, in order to make himself more finely sharp as an axe-blade in his distain and distaste for all but himself.
And talking of negative polarity metaphysically speaking, you are not looking so much at the outer estate as you are looking at the possibilities of employing the path-that-is-not. Employing the path-that-is-not means denying that you and the other are one. Whether a negatively polarized entity is on top or on the bottom in terms of the estate he enjoys in society, he is equally capable of honing the edge of his anger and his separation from all others.
The topic of determinism, how much free will we really have, and whether some entities are more prone to others than walking the STS path is interesting. These are some relevant extracts:
Quote:19.17. Questioner: Can you tell me what bias creates their momentum toward the chosen path of service to self?
Ra: I am Ra. We can speak only in metaphor. Some love the light. Some love the darkness. It is a matter of the unique and infinitely various Creator choosing and playing among its experiences as a child upon a picnic. Some enjoy the picnic and find the sun beautiful, the food delicious, the games refreshing, and glow with the joy of creation. Some find the night delicious, their picnic being pain, difficulty, sufferings of others, and the examination of the perversities of nature. These enjoy a different picnic.
All these experiences are available. It is free will of each entity which chooses the form of play, the form of pleasure.
Q'uo, from the following session:
https://llresearch.org/transcripts/issue...0_0513.pdf
Quote:And so it created its children, children of love and free will, one unit of absolute love that can never change and will never be unique, and [an] absolutely equal portion of infinitely various free will. That is your nature. Your uniqueness lies not in that you are children of love, but in that no two unions of love and free will are the same.
(...)
that you bond your free will in a general way, either to learning and expressing love by loving all that there is, yourself, love itself and all children of love, or choosing to deny that any but you is unique, that you are the center of the universe, that you are to be loved.
(...)
This is seen by those who are neutral or working positively, as negative, because the negative entity will of course arrange, control and create its universe [in the way] which is most comfortable and advantageous to it. It does, however, have its own logic, and should never be treated with disrespect, but with the understanding that there are those whose uniqueness creates for them a free will which seems to be more paramount than the love that binds one to another. There is no less worship, there is no less sanctity in the negative than in the positive. It is simply a different distortion of the one love.
What I get from this is that there's some inherent bias in each entity, but free will having the potential to overcome said bias (which is to say, itself??) and being capable of making The Choice one way or the other.
Another point of interest is that STS depends upon the lie of fear. Fear is a lie in that there's no reason to be afraid of anything, from a higher perspective, given that we're eternal, immortal, and unconditionally loved. The first steps towards STS are usually walked because of one kind of fear or another (fear of being unlovable; fear that if life is not controlled, tragedy will surely strike; etc). We've all heard of how 4th and 5th density negative entities resort to instilling fear on 3rd density entities. Fear is how they get recruits for their empire.
Another point is the seeming masculinity of the STS path, applied in its most extreme and dark form. This begs the question, what is the role of the female in the STS path? Why would a soul ever incarnate whether in higher negative densities or as an aspiring STS harvestable 3rd density entity, as a female? For this, these quotes seem relevant:
Quote:one entity experiencing the pleasure of humiliation and slavery or bondage, the other experiencing the pleasure of mastery and control over another entity. In this way a sexual energy transfer of a negative polarity is experienced.
Quote:The negative path posits slavery of the less powerful as a means of learning the desire to serve the self to the extent that the will is brought to bear. It is in this way that polarity is increased in the negative sense. Thus fourth-density entities are willing slaves of such a fifth-density entity, there being no doubt whatsoever of the relative power of each.
Given that being a willing slave increases one's negative polarity, it would seem to me that STS females would reward and willingly submit only to the most powerful males they could gain access to, thus instilling into others the idea that they are only as worth as they are powerful and strong. I believe a perfect 3rd density example of this can be found on the women who would send the serial killer Ted Bundy love letters while he was in prison. No doubt these women also came from situations of tragedy and lack of self-worth. In this sense, I believe these women wouldn't so much seek direct power over others, but instead indirectly seek power through submission to an STS man.