08-15-2011, 01:11 PM
These thoughts have really been building up inside of me, and I would like to share them before I explode.
I'm so tired of people being separated by what potential density they are from, or what planet or whatever. I hear people comparing it, even arguing about it, all the time. And I'm tired of "wanderer" being used as a blanket excuse for everything.
I am as guilty of this as anyone else. Finding out about the wanderer concept made me feel "special". It was a way to get over the boring, mundane routine of my life...I was an alien! That made it all exciting! It also gave me a reason to justify my poor social skills and my disdain for people in general. I was a wanderer! Surely it was the influence of being from another planet, and not my own laziness and energy blockages that made me completely unable to get along with people.
Also, every bad thing that happened to me was a "negative attack." Bad dream? Negative entities. Weird, violent thoughts? Negative entities. Got a chill up my spine? Surely it was all a plot of the demons to bring me to the dark side. It was a great way to make myself paranoid, and to make myself a victim. It was also a way to ignore all the inner work I so badly needed to do. Surely all this crazy stuff that was happening was all the fault of demons...it had nothing to do with the fact that I've been blocking off my lower charkas since I learned how to talk.
Ra described negative attack as a very rare and specialized thing, yet everyone I know seems to have a negative 5D entity trying very hard to overthrow their lives by making them trip while walking up the street. Now, I realize that some people DO have very real, very nasty negative greetings. I know it is a real phenomenon that occasionally requires very specific steps to be taken for protection, but I'm just so tired of this wave of paranoia that is causing my friends so much pain.
Beyond all this, I also became obsessed with where I was from. I spent too many hours and way too much money trying to get to the bottom of something that I purposefully chose to forget in this incarnation for what I now realize was a good reason. I don't remember because my purpose in this life isn't about some other planet. It's about Earth.
We are all 3D right now. We are humans, and we are in this together. What does it matter where we came from or where we are going to? What about NOW? We all chose to come here from whatever place to help this planet, so isn't helping it, regardless of whether you are 3D, 4D, 5D, 6D or 1'000'000D the most important thing?
I spent so long trying to figure out my past that I was forgetting about the life I'm supposed to be living. So I refuse to identify myself with any particular group, density or planet besides 3D Earth. In the face of planetary harvest, I can't see that stuff as important anymore. There is just too much work to do. I am casting off the title "wanderer". I'd rather go by "seeker", for my seeking will never stop, no matter what dimension I happen to be residing in.
I'm so tired of people being separated by what potential density they are from, or what planet or whatever. I hear people comparing it, even arguing about it, all the time. And I'm tired of "wanderer" being used as a blanket excuse for everything.
I am as guilty of this as anyone else. Finding out about the wanderer concept made me feel "special". It was a way to get over the boring, mundane routine of my life...I was an alien! That made it all exciting! It also gave me a reason to justify my poor social skills and my disdain for people in general. I was a wanderer! Surely it was the influence of being from another planet, and not my own laziness and energy blockages that made me completely unable to get along with people.
Also, every bad thing that happened to me was a "negative attack." Bad dream? Negative entities. Weird, violent thoughts? Negative entities. Got a chill up my spine? Surely it was all a plot of the demons to bring me to the dark side. It was a great way to make myself paranoid, and to make myself a victim. It was also a way to ignore all the inner work I so badly needed to do. Surely all this crazy stuff that was happening was all the fault of demons...it had nothing to do with the fact that I've been blocking off my lower charkas since I learned how to talk.
Ra described negative attack as a very rare and specialized thing, yet everyone I know seems to have a negative 5D entity trying very hard to overthrow their lives by making them trip while walking up the street. Now, I realize that some people DO have very real, very nasty negative greetings. I know it is a real phenomenon that occasionally requires very specific steps to be taken for protection, but I'm just so tired of this wave of paranoia that is causing my friends so much pain.
Beyond all this, I also became obsessed with where I was from. I spent too many hours and way too much money trying to get to the bottom of something that I purposefully chose to forget in this incarnation for what I now realize was a good reason. I don't remember because my purpose in this life isn't about some other planet. It's about Earth.
We are all 3D right now. We are humans, and we are in this together. What does it matter where we came from or where we are going to? What about NOW? We all chose to come here from whatever place to help this planet, so isn't helping it, regardless of whether you are 3D, 4D, 5D, 6D or 1'000'000D the most important thing?
I spent so long trying to figure out my past that I was forgetting about the life I'm supposed to be living. So I refuse to identify myself with any particular group, density or planet besides 3D Earth. In the face of planetary harvest, I can't see that stuff as important anymore. There is just too much work to do. I am casting off the title "wanderer". I'd rather go by "seeker", for my seeking will never stop, no matter what dimension I happen to be residing in.
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