Anyone else feel the huge energy influx these last few days?

[Shin'Ar]

Ups and Downs.

Light and dark.

Spirit and Matter.

Live and Die.

This is our existence.

Go with it or sit it out and wait to see what happens next.

The only sure thing is that existence will continue with or without our participation.

But if one is going to take the ride, they better be mentally prepared to accept the downs along with the ups because existence is a roller coaster ride, and it is by the experiences of the hills and the valleys that we evolve into higher understanding and ability.

We all get tired and become frustrated with the continuous struggle. But as many will tell you, it is the pain of the pinch that lets you know you are alive.

The Ancients emphasized the need for balance and alchemy was the greatest practice of achieving that goal.

One can deny duality and polarity, but they cannot deny the need for balancing the ups and the downs because that is the natural landscape of the journey.

Indeed, I feel good now. The fire I experienced was meant to burn me out, I think a part of me died, a bad part of me. I don't think there is much more for me to balance, I feel strangely at peace after that whole night, a calm I have never had before.

Seams like I get new feelings every week. The energy is still there humming, just not a roaring fire consuming me until I burnt out like before.

You will be down again at some point. But by balancing efficiently you can see the downs as the beginnings of the ups, instead of permanent situations that will not change. On the seesaw of existence one of us kids has got to be down for the other side to be up.

Take your turn knowing that your next to go up..

[jacrob]

I feel like it's an upward spiral, the intense darkness, then elation, then dark again, but not as dark as before, then elation slightly higher than previously. It's a constant drain. The dark times seem to sap every bit of energy left, and when you feel happy and joyfull you just know you're going to feel terrible in a couple of days. But when you feel terrible you feel like it's going to be like that forever.

There is an intense instreaming of energy at the moment. I hear constant loud rushing sounds in my ears, and can't sleep. I slept 2hrs last night. Several people in my office complained of not being able to sleep and were up at 2am playing video games or reading books.

I think it's doing something to the third eye because at night when the lights are off I see swirling indigo patterns in the dark. Very similar to the Norway spiral. When I close my eyes it disappears, I only see them when my eyes are open. Like DMT activation or similar.

[AnthroHeart]

In light of what you said jacrob,

My dark times are such a toll on me that they put me out of work for a month. Even my ups had me fooled into thinking I was in heaven and had no further need for work, causing me to skip work.
It used to be very bad till I got on psych meds. I had to go to the ER because my mind kept expanding out of control.
The ups for me were really intense as well, such as feeling like I was an angel ascending into heaven.
I've been diagnosed bipolar schizophrenic. My dark just kept getting darker and the light kept getting lighter.
I couldn't sleep either. I went about 6 days with very little sleep.

Yeah, in the darker times, it felt like everything was out to get me. When my friend was moving some chains
from one place to another, I feared that they would be used against me later on. My love that I held for my friend kept me from totally flipping out.
The ups definitely felt like heaven on Earth. Like I was a child again.

[jacrob]

Gemini are you seeing an upward spiral i.e. an improvement or just cessation of manic thoughts/behaviour? El Collie wrote some very interesting things about her extreme kundalini awakening which you may find helpful at link below. You may find your kundalini rising exacerbating already existing conditions, or infact be the cause of certain symptoms. Scroll down to the chapters of her book Branded by the Spirit:

http://www.elcollie.com/st/st.html

July's astrological outlook sounds promising though...

http://www.novamagazine.com.au/article_a...ening.html

[Sagittarius]

I feel like it's an upward spiral, the intense darkness, then elation, then dark again, but not as dark as before, then elation slightly higher than previously. It's a constant drain. The dark times seem to sap every bit of energy left, and when you feel happy and joyfull you just know you're going to feel terrible in a couple of days. But when you feel terrible you feel like it's going to be like that forever.

There is an intense instreaming of energy at the moment. I hear constant loud rushing sounds in my ears, and can't sleep. I slept 2hrs last night. Several people in my office complained of not being able to sleep and were up at 2am playing video games or reading books.

I think it's doing something to the third eye because at night when the lights are off I see swirling indigo patterns in the dark. Very similar to the Norway spiral. When I close my eyes it disappears, I only see them when my eyes are open. Like DMT activation or similar.

I just drove into the countryside at 12 last night and drove around for 4 hours thinking, can't sleep at all. Buying lots of weed tonight so should help me sleep. Took 5 strong ass sleeping pills and they did nothing.

I would say the awake wanderers are the ones to fall first, to be honest I'am at the bottom, I can't bring myself to react to anything, I just don't care anymore. The anger and sorrow from the weekend has just turned into complete emptiness with a few rays of hope to keep me going.

I want to be glad that others will start to fall in the storm but I don't even care I just want out of this prison, my pride is gone, my shame is gone, my guilt is gone and my control is gone, I'am faceless and nothing just a ghost waiting to pass on. I'am just waiting now, I feel the end is near, nearer then 21/12 at least for me. I'am quitting my job, not paying my fines, nothing. I refuse to keep feeding this machine.

This is the point I needed to reach, release awaits me. There is no winning or losing this game, it is a game of nothing. The only thing I have left is the hope of never feeling this again.

[Shin'Ar]

I feel like it's an upward spiral, the intense darkness, then elation, then dark again, but not as dark as before, then elation slightly higher than previously. It's a constant drain. The dark times seem to sap every bit of energy left, and when you feel happy and joyfull you just know you're going to feel terrible in a couple of days. But when you feel terrible you feel like it's going to be like that forever.

There is an intense instreaming of energy at the moment. I hear constant loud rushing sounds in my ears, and can't sleep. I slept 2hrs last night. Several people in my office complained of not being able to sleep and were up at 2am playing video games or reading books.

I think it's doing something to the third eye because at night when the lights are off I see swirling indigo patterns in the dark. Very similar to the Norway spiral. When I close my eyes it disappears, I only see them when my eyes are open. Like DMT activation or similar.

I just drove into the countryside at 12 last night and drove around for 4 hours thinking, can't sleep at all. Buying lots of weed tonight so should help me sleep. Took 5 strong ass sleeping pills and they did nothing.

I would say the awake wanderers are the ones to fall first, to be honest I'am at the bottom, I can't bring myself to react to anything, I just don't care anymore. The anger and sorrow from the weekend has just turned into complete emptiness with a few rays of hope to keep me going.

I want to be glad that others will start to fall in the storm but I don't even care I just want out of this prison, my pride is gone, my shame is gone, my guilt is gone and my control is gone, I'am faceless and nothing just a ghost waiting to pass on. I'am just waiting now, I feel the end is near, nearer then 21/12 at least for me. I'am quitting my job, not paying my fines, nothing. I refuse to keep feeding this machine.

This is the point I needed to reach, release awaits me. There is no winning or losing this game, it is a game of nothing. The only thing I have left is the hope of never feeling this again.

The end is near, only to begin anew and start all over. Why not deal with it now in this time instead of having to do it later. Do you think the next time will be better. What if the next time is even worse because of the fact that you balked on this opportunity. there are no guarantees in the future. all you have is now. The end nor the future is optional. It is Mystery.

What you are trying to starve is not your present dilemma, but your reality, and instead you feed your delusion that there is some other future opportunity to find freedom from your struggle.

instead of starving hope, starve the delusion.

you don`t have to care and you don`t have to be happy, but you also don`t have to be delusional. At least your suffering is real. And that can change. delusion will not sustain you or evolve you.

be sad. be mad. be frustrated. be real.

And apply some wisdom to your situation by seeking help from those who offer it, and by seeking truth instead of delusion.

[Patrick]

...And apply some wisdom to your situation by seeking help from those who offer it, and by seeking truth instead of delusion.

Sagittarius, this is good advice. This catalyst is there just to show you that you have access to all the help of the multiverse. You just have to say it, that you accept all the help that is offered and then see the next few hours start to change.

[Aaron]

Dear Sagittarius,

None of those things you describe, like feelings and stuff, are what brings you true and lasting joy. It's really that connection to higher being, connection to the larger part of yourself, connection to the Creator that does that.

It seems like you are probably going through a very big shift/rearrangement right now.

Perhaps when one is so empty and disconnected as you are feeling now, it's well to look beyond the boundaries of your current life, state of being, and self. I think that's maybe what you're doing in physical analogous fashion with the quitting your job, not paying bills, etc...

No matter what you do, how you feel, or who you are, you have access to love and help here. (Unless you're a spammer. They ALL go to 4D negative) And no matter what, you are always with your guides and other loving, helping non physical beings. The love of the universe is just a thought, just a request away.

Sending you a wave...

[Patrick]

...
Sending you a wave...

Excellent idea! Let me square the effects by adding my own wave.

[Patrick]

http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/is..._0519.aspx

...Within your illusion that which seems difficult, that which seems unforgivable, that which seems unacceptable, are those experiences which test your strength to love those who seem unlovable and to forgive that which seems unforgivable. Thus, you are as the one who lifts the weight: as the strength is gained, further weight must be added if further strength is desired. When you have passed from this illusion and you look back upon it and thumb through your own book of life, you will have quite a different point of view. You will see those times which seemed most difficult as being of the greatest opportunity to love, and those times then will seem as great treasures, whereas now they seem as they seem as great burdens. It is all a matter of the point of view, my brother. You have the narrower point of view now in order that you may test and strengthen your ability to widen this point of view...

[xise]

Sagittarius, here's another wave of love coming your way

[AnthroHeart]

Gemini are you seeing an upward spiral i.e. an improvement or just cessation of manic thoughts/behaviour? El Collie wrote some very interesting things about her extreme kundalini awakening which you may find helpful at link below. You may find your kundalini rising exacerbating already existing conditions, or infact be the cause of certain symptoms. Scroll down to the chapters of her book Branded by the Spirit:

http://www.elcollie.com/st/st.html

July's astrological outlook sounds promising though...

http://www.novamagazine.com.au/article_a...ening.html

Thanks for the link.

I did have a period of limbo as well, not knowing if I was alive or dead.

Wow, I didn't have near the physical symptoms that she experienced. I feel it's more a cessation of the manic thoughts than an upward spiral, but I went on meds so that it sort of cuts out at least some of my spiritual growth. I got afraid easily, so it was just easier to go to a mental hospital then having to deal with the issues. Of course they just medicate you. It helps with the symptoms, but I'm not sure how it affects my spiritual growth. I feel like I'm in the right place now. It's just that work, I really don't want to be there. I'd much rather be doing nothing at all. After work I often get thoughts of death and dying and then I realize there are those who love me and I love my pets. Not sure why because everything is going well for me. I just get anxious easily.

[Sagittarius]

Much better today guys. Feel so much lighter. Much surer. Like a weight is off my shoulders. Like I have almost gotten rid of something big. Feels like I'am in constant contact with my higher self, I can put my ipod on shuffle and every song that pops up is relevant to that moment and that train of thought. I'am just wondering what is next.

[AnthroHeart]

I'm glad for you Sagittarius. It's always wonderful when you overcome your trials.
Can't say what is next. Usually these things seem to come in cycles.

[Sagittarius]

I'm glad for you Sagittarius. It's always wonderful when you overcome your trials.
Can't say what is next. Usually these things seem to come in cycles.

Thanks mate. I think I can definitely sympathize with what you have been through as well after that. It ain't fun.

[Daydreamin]

Haven't been around for a week or so and just saw this.


Yes! At that time around the 23rd I actually got sick for a couple days and my vibe's were low to say the least! And I very very rarely get sick and when I do it's for a half day or so but I was even out of work for a day and a half which never happens.


Feeling tremendously better these days though!

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In light of what you said jacrob,

My dark times are such a toll on me that they put me out of work for a month. Even my ups had me fooled into thinking I was in heaven and had no further need for work, causing me to skip work.
It used to be very bad till I got on psych meds. I had to go to the ER because my mind kept expanding out of control.
The ups for me were really intense as well, such as feeling like I was an angel ascending into heaven.
I've been diagnosed bipolar schizophrenic. My dark just kept getting darker and the light kept getting lighter.
I couldn't sleep either. I went about 6 days with very little sleep.

Yeah, in the darker times, it felt like everything was out to get me. When my friend was moving some chains
from one place to another, I feared that they would be used against me later on. My love that I held for my friend kept me from totally flipping out.
The ups definitely felt like heaven on Earth. Like I was a child again.

Kind of sounds like what I went through last year. And I will say it does go away and you will look back and laugh at the tests you were given. When I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night sometimes it felt like I was almost grasping for air and would have to go outside and stand in the grass barefoot. May sound crazy but boy did it help and ground me.

It's hard to explain how the 'feeling' but to me it's almost like during some of those times I was not comfortable in my own skin and yes looking in the mirror was very awkward. But once the negativity is recognized and you learn how to turn it into positive or just simply learn how to not attach your emotions to the thoughts. Remember emotions are tools like a hammer or screwdriver that are gifts that help us 'experience' Life b/c We almost never have all the answers.


Sending LOTS of Love & Light to all my Space Brothers and Sisters out there!

[xise]

Crazy energy today. My heart was felt like it was going to beat out of my chest for not apparent reason on and off for about 4 hours. I felt a 5 second quivering energy on my third eye area when I wasn't meditating. They both seemed related to no particular thoughts - I was reading up on some non-spiritual/leisure stuff when this seemed to happen.

Both were probably the most powerful/strongest sensations I've felt since this whole journey started.

Anyone else?

EDIT: As an aside, I've started taking supplements to strength my pineal gland this past week. (thanks godwide_void ) - namely switching to non-fluoride toothpaste, taking a 400-800 mg of wood betany, and taking 36 mg of Iodine/Iodide supplements. Perhaps there is a relationship. My meditations haven't seemed to change - the same as always - completely hit or miss, maybe a tad bit more restless.

[Sagittarius]

Crazy energy today. My heart was felt like it was going to beat out of my chest for not apparent reason on and off for about 4 hours. I felt a 5 second quivering energy on my third eye area when I wasn't meditating. They both seemed related to no particular thoughts - I was reading up on some non-spiritual/leisure stuff when this seemed to happen.

Both were probably the most powerful/strongest sensations I've felt since this whole journey started.

Anyone else?

EDIT: As an aside, I've started taking supplements to strength my pineal gland this past week. (thanks godwide_void ) - namely switching to non-fluoride toothpaste, taking a 400-800 mg of wood betany, and taking 36 mg of Iodine/Iodide supplements. Perhaps there is a relationship. My meditations haven't seemed to change - the same as always - completely hit or miss, maybe a tad bit more restless.

Try not to go to fast bro and be ready for whatever comes, I had a major high like you have been describing just before my fall. I would say this is how the dynamics of the fall works, build you up just to crash you back down, it is needed though and I can see clearly how my mind was still infected with negative concepts during that high and how dangerous any power given to me would have been with those thoughts still there.

Know that your higher self is you so he knows exactly how to put you on your knees so to say.

[Patrick]

All of this is perfectly fine. The real challenge after this though is to ground back down to Earth and go on living in this world.

[Meerie]

we have a monster solar flare coming our way:

[Shin'Ar]

we have a monster solar flare coming our way:

The other day I exprienced something that I have never before, and I thought to write it into this thread, but decided it was probably not going to interest anyone else but me.

But this post made me change my mind.

I have spoken before about the fact that I do not see blackness when my eyes are closed, but a myriad of colors and geometric patterns. And I am able to focus very intently on them as though viewing them with my third eye. I use it as a meditative technique and I also use it for simple practice of pineal gland enhancement and development.

I have done this all of this lifetime.

but the other day I experienced an extremely radiant fiery reddish orange that completely overwhelmed every pattern or other color that is usually available.

i realized I had made a connection with the field of the sun and was heavily aware of a sense that it was trying to get my attention.

Sounds a little like inventing my own ideas, but I am very keen to such interaction and am certain of the connection.

This is a first for me and I was distracted in the midst of it so that I could not bring anything to fruition.

All I can say with certainty is that there is something very different about the sun at this time and it means to reach out to us for some reason I cannot yet realize.

As strange as that may sound to most here, I write this in the hopes that someone else may have something to pass on regarding this.

[Patrick]

In my case, solar flares are felt as very great pressure on the 6th and 7th chakra and associated with much increased intuition.

[xise]

For some reason that image you posted about the solar flare doesn't come up on my phone, so I am curious if it refers to today 7-5-12.

This morning since I woke up I'm feeling a light spiralling energy at the top.of my head.basically constantly for the past 4 hours...probably first time I've felt this outside.of meditation.

[Sagittarius]

All of this is perfectly fine. The real challenge after this though is to ground back down to Earth and go on living in this world.

Exactly. Not really a challenge after the fall though, once you go through that faith in-tact, I can't think of anything that would make me fearful or nervous, f*** it I'am already dead.

[AnthroHeart]

Exactly. Not really a challenge after the fall though, once you go through that faith in-tact, I can't think of anything that would make me fearful or nervous, f*** it I'am already dead.

This is how I feel sometimes. I often get thoughts of dying though, usually in the same gruesome manner. But I know I'm alive since I have to work. Your words bring up some questions I have to myself. Am I alive or dead? Well, the heat here is pretty hot, and my a/c is barely keeping up. But at least I have a pet dog that shows me love at times. I wish I could just know. I remember dying, worn out and broken. But here I am as if nothing happened.
With all this I'd rather be on the other side. But if I were, I'd probably wish I were back here on this side. I definitely don't feel the unconditional love that those who go through Near-Death experiences go through. Even though I remember dying, I didn't feel the overwhelming bliss. It was very hot, a lot of heat the whole experience.

I think my frustration with this life is that I just want to get on with it already. Funny thing, I'm not suicidal, but just feel the other side is better.

I remember during part of the experience I felt like a child. I knew for sure then that I had died. Then it went back and forth between living and dead, and I thought it would be really cruel to still be living after all those experiences I had of such love. I did feel love now that I think about it. It wasn't overpowering though. But it was more fascinating and intriguing.

I think I'm slowly coming out of my slump. having to see psychiatrists and therapists and taking meds now isn't really helping my mood and outlook on life. It's a somewhat dark time. And it's a slow cycle.

[Patrick]

Don't forget that the "normal" perspective on this planet is actually viewed as an "insane" perspective for the great majority of the multiverse. I like being completely insane the way I am now, because it means I am actually normal.

[AnthroHeart]

It's easy to feel ok with being insane, except those times when things really seem to spin out of control. When one experiences the quick and cruel catalyst that Ra speaks of. During these times, I am not ok with being insane, like when I see freaky crap, or simple things just freak me out.
Like when I have that experience, I cannot listen to dubstep music. It wears on me too much.

[Patrick]

The kind of insanity that I am talking about is stuff like being a kind, loving, accepting and altruistic person. Altruism is viewed as a dysfunctional behavior by most "normal" people.

What you are talking about seems more like some chemicals in the brain of your physical vehicle being out of balance. That's not really what I was referring to.

[AnthroHeart]

Ok, got it.

[xise]

I also have something to add that I didn't feel like talking about because I honestly did not know if I was going crazy or not: Near about midnight at 7-2-12 (right around the time it turned 7-3-12 pst), I was sitting in front of my 32" monitor reading about spiritual matters when a small grey feather materialized in the middle of my screen.

I don't have any feathers (no down, pillows, etc) of any kind of my room, neither does the roommate whose room is closest to me. I haven't asked my third roommate.

I saved it, and I took a photo (hopefully will post soon!) and did not know if it was a so called angel feather, but a part of me felt it was.

Today, my one real life friend who also spiritual that I mention earlier in this thread, whom I shall call Jay, just sent me a text with a big ass feather he said he found on his bed when he came home...and he doesn't have any feathers either...we both feel like we are losing our mind....

The feather I found (maybe the length of a quarter):


The feather my friend found: