11-20-2015, 01:12 PM
If you want to see something that is undistorted, then gaze at the Source of all things because all things are but focused distortions of it.
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11-20-2015, 01:12 PM
If you want to see something that is undistorted, then gaze at the Source of all things because all things are but focused distortions of it.
(11-20-2015, 08:50 AM)Adonai One Wrote: Strictly theory and hypothesis: If you are referring to Ra's use of the term bisexual in the material then you have misunderstood their point. In every case where Ra uses the term bisexual they are referring to bisexual reproduction, i.e. procreation that requires both sexes. Edit: actually I can't even understand the point you are trying to make with this post.
11-20-2015, 02:48 PM
To cut the conversation short: I think this community is going to be increasingly dissatisfied with the fact that I have never truly had a point. I provide only statements to contemplate, in full compliance with the first distortion.
My opinion really goes no further than the title of the book: The Law of One. I am just here to satisfy my desire for social interaction. Indeed, I had nothing to say towards that use of bisexual.
11-20-2015, 06:40 PM
(11-20-2015, 02:48 PM)Adonai One Wrote: To cut the conversation short: I think this community is going to be increasingly dissatisfied with the fact that I have never truly had a point. I provide only statements to contemplate, in full compliance with the first distortion. This made me laugh . Btw, is that you in your avatar?
11-21-2015, 12:02 AM
I've been increasingly dissatisfied with your lack of annoying things said, Adonai
Socratic paradox, I mean, modern, correct, anything sounds like a good starting ground on what not to be. Funny quote, I think it was by Mark Twain. "If you ever find yourself on the side of the majority its time to rethink your side." I feel this applies. How did people like Socrates friggin survive back then??? You'd think humanity would just kill off people that disagreed with it. Or at least imprison them.
I'd love to reply to each and every post but I don't currently have the focus, energy or intelligence to do so. I would just like to thank everyone for their kind replies.
Instead I will express some more brutal honesty. I recently took the following test: http://www.understandingprejudice.org/iat/ My result showed a strong preference for white people over black people. If I am being totally honest with myself, I feel that the result is actually quite accurate. I think that the most insidious aspect of this type of discrimination, for me anyways, is that it extends to children as well. It is quite an unbearable realization, that I have a preference for one child over another simply because of skin colour, but it is true none the less. Not to excuse myself, but I see the same type of behaviour and attitude in the media and in the society I live in. I live near a store, for example, which takes professional photos of children and their families, and almost all of the photos on display are of white children with maybe one or two of children of another ethnicity. To have a preference, in this context at least, indicates a greater willingness to extend compassion and value to those 'of your own kind' and a lesser willingness to do so to those who are 'other'. Classic tribal mentality I guess. I have often wondered if we would see a greater response to the poverty and starvation in Africa if the people there were white.
11-21-2015, 02:54 AM
I think I see your worry.
It stems from identifying an-other as not similar to you when you know they are. I live in America. This country has a fetish in porn for black male dominance (yet a white male dominated society...). The prejudice extends to every race in some fashion. Black master race, white slut race (male and female), asian kink race...Its all just there to imbue racism subconsciously in the viewer. Tribal mentality? You mean Genomic Habits or 'Hereditary Existent Habits' or 'preincarnational lessons'. Or Genetic predisposition/inclination? Congratulations! You've found a Catalyst! Now's the time to handle it. I personally just ignore it, curse OIC for making it this way and feel sorrow for all involved and try not to be such as the Creator made me to be. Others thank OIC for torturing them and are grateful for discovering darkness in themselves. Billy. Do you actually treat people via word and action with prejudice (even silent prejudice like judging them for doing something otherwise nonjudgeworthy?) or do you treat the black guy as the Infamous Archer calls 'em, "Like People?" Do you not think you're "Not People" the way you think your prejudice views others? If so, if you identify as evil in some dark fashion or just dark. Good, you're doing what you're here to do. Literally, this suffering, the insidious reality of being a bigot, is probably exactly right where you'resupposed to be, learning, experiencing. I'm in hell. Alone. Sad miserable and dark and too shy and pissed off at people to want it any other way. Yet I'm content enough not to suicide and go cry at my tormentor for torturing me. (See: myself). You're doing good man. Don't eat yourself thinking you deserve to be chewed up and hurt for how you 'really' are... I can't condone that. Otherwise I'd be asking to be set on fire myself. Ps. I hate everything, I'm a misanthrope, I hate people. I'm not a bad person, just sensitive to and surrounded by somewhat assish people constantly. I can't stand: whites, blacks, asians, mexicans, cubans, europeans, americans, africans, indonesians, austrians, I hate birds and dogs and cats and children and machines. I hate computers and eating, genitalia, organs, hate drinking and crapping and breathing. I promise you, you're being hard on yourself. Treat people like people and don't beat yourself up. Or. Treat people like Not People and beat yourself up. Its all valid. No right or wrong. Just illusion of such, experienced through empty vessels called bipedal hominid Human's who have preprogrammed certain bias and prejudice. Its okay to let the machine run in my opinion. Its why we're here. Just don't treat it like a machine, Think about your 'Person'ality too. Are you a bigot to yourself or are you a bigot through others to yourself? There really isn't much more to examining why than to start there. Is it originating from you, those feelings of bigotry, or through another from you? (Are you the judger or the judged? How do you know your bigotry is actually coming from your being and not from another projecting through you?)
11-21-2015, 03:28 AM
(11-21-2015, 02:54 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: I think I see your worry. I think I'm more worried about you than myself. You sure you're not being too hard on yourself? Your posts more and more seem to be a cry for help. Anything I or anyone on this board can do to help? I'm not really doing anything at the moment, not studying or working, so feel free to send me a private message or anything if you fee like it. As for another projecting through me, that would be great, but I feel that is just me not wanting to take responsibility for this.
11-21-2015, 08:03 AM
(11-21-2015, 02:54 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: I think I see your worry. At the end of day you chose to be here so there is no point complaining.You might hate everything in this world but it's not something that you can change for the better.
11-21-2015, 08:07 AM
At the end of day you chose to be here so there is no point complaining,just saying.
11-21-2015, 08:44 AM
Honestly, I don't want help. I'm here. I did this to I. Am doing this. My higher self has me here, I'm here.
I'm 'in it', my views are pretty much constantly changing, I know OIC is Loving and (I imagine) wont deposit me into...say. a large yellow plane where I'll wander depressed aimlessly bumping into infinite others like me until I get a clue or something as per NDE accounts. I also know OIC is selfish, brutal, lethaly efficient, and views 3D beings as empty vessels to operate. Ra calls our body a vehicle. Do you attribute your car as the same as you? An empty vessel that transports you in various ways? Some NDE accounts basically do without outright saying so. Hell, NDE's provided all I needed to know regards how Ra means for one to lose a significant portion of 'mind complex' at death, my personality given by my physical brain's and DNA's design fade as well. I do 'Die'. My soul does not. I as a human, will cease to exist beyond a memory (that will fade at higher densities/octaves) at death. If my physical body continues on after death, it does so seperate my soul apparently. I've read enough and been given enough contradictory aid to recognize a farce. All is One, Many are One, One is All, All is OIC, One is OIC. We don't have Free Will, OIC does. We don't change anything, change is its own being occurring apparently. We as a species are altered by various similar 'distortions' of civilizations apparently (hence the Quarantine) as a form of 'higher' will enacting upon our genes to influence a different form of reexperience. Yet those other civiizations are tge same density at times if you go by Sphere Alliance stuff (which I personally don't believe). What gets me is how the OIC could have infinitely various other ways, taught us the lessons of love. But chooses to teach through punishment instead. Recite what happens to one who ignores catalyst, like me? I've seen. Avoidance leads to more catalyst. My first and only clue to existing in Hell. My desire to pause is an 'excuse'. My will is 'indifferently accepted and loved' My questions are 'not my place to ask' And even if so, my desire to know is met with 'this isn't the place for that'. If I don't learn the higher self lessons I am hit by more catalyst. But apparently I'll never get more than I can handle (but see suicide rates rising, not falling, specifically in Japan ESPECIALLY and, very BIG AND, Veterans.) This is a beautiful Philosophy until you dissect it. Then a much darker thing is aapparent. There is no right or wrong. Torture, rape, murder. Acceptable. Infinite tiers of darkness, existent. Horrors existing in the Eternal Realms, allowable, plausible, probable. Pure undistorted darkness, yup. Hows that play on Earth? Don't murder an innocent soul, doesn't mean you won't, there's no actual physical protection, if yer guides fail to steer you away, its on as far as OIC cares. WHICH AGAIN. It really doesn't. It loves, doesn't mean it cares. Whats there to invest in a grain of sand? Its the sand itself that's loved, human being is loved. I doubt human being personalities and individuals are regarded equally as their sum-total. And even if they are, I don't see it. No, I mean I see a lot of great beauty and love. But I'm not here to frolic in joy while children get raped and killed for some Deity like being in a cult spanning half(all) the globe. Holocaust means 'Great Burning Sacrifice to God', who named it 'The Holocaust'? I live in Hell, this place is in its own ways heavenly and Hellish, heaven and hell ARE here, on EARTH. I am in a hellier spot (lol...hellier, least I can laugh at my own horror). And in Hell, even the Law of One shows you that God is a Monster. Horror, as illusion, but real, but not to higher beings who constantly in interfere with our progress as a civilization and species. As far as I know, Confederation sources speak of love and forgiving hoping we do such towards them if we ever find out half our predicament and suffering stems from infringing on our species. God, religion, holy commandments. We're not protected or free. We're pawns on a board game, get ready to be taken, cause when that bishop gets ya. You go in a different box than the king and queen and the Rook and Bishop and Knight. You go to the cannon fodder box. You're the most important piece. Used. Abused. Ruled. Manipulated. Loved. That's my reality. So yes, I am apparently a self filled narcissistic righteous uncaring hypocritical ass. Who still gives homeless guys in the rain towels, coffee and a warm store lobby to wait it out. Its not about the horror inside your brain. I hate. But I am smart, Love is still better. I still choose love. I'm just not going to fucking suffer for it anymore If anyone wants to know why I am greatly disturbed by much of the 'Love and Light' attitude, its because a candle lit for darkness does more than a fire made for light. War accomplishes more efficiently than peace. Hatred incites change faster than Acceptance. Sure, they do less long term, but Humanity doesn't really think much on those areas beyond what it wants the future to be. And to boot, we're too stupid to figure it out collectively. I mean, I'm awaiting WW3 and my Federal Financial Aid Draft Paper Work to Enlist me into something worse than Hell. War. Cause I see an FBI labeling peace groups as domestic potential terrorists, russia and US dancing the tune of Shadow Gov't enlisted War, I'm seeing the poverty grow and the kids messing up. I see bad, but I try to await positivity. But I do not intend to live through the trials of Jobe's Faith (Bible story). God is no better or worse than Satan. I live in Hell. Its not Hell for someone standing right next to me. The power of Reality. We can be so close, yet so far apart. Don't worry about me...I seek out people when I'm in a bad bad bad bad place (suicidal). I don't feel like reliving this life AGAIN. and AGAIN. AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN, from suiciding over and over. That is literal hell even in T/s. All thanks to nonacceptance of suicide because the sick higher echelons deem it, wrong. Despite there being no wrong or right. Its a great riddle of madness. I jumped into the rabbit hole. I found a jet bike that runs on life force! I can leave, but I gotta die. ...lolnaw, dun wanna die. I think I'll go look around on my AWESOME FUZZY VAMPIRE JET BIKE! I'm happier in my dreams. They feel more natural than reality itself. Where in order just to live, I have to consume life endlessly. We're all monsters. That my surmise of the LOO in all honesty for here on Earth. We murder life just to live. Sow the stalk, reap the fruit. Consume. Its fun to the fruit to be eaten? I say that about genetalia. Except, the genitals dislike being biten. I don't know if the fruit feels happy or misery at consumption. I wouldn't. So I must assume since I DON'T KNOW that the fruit doesn't either. I mean, does fruit hope to grow, drop, and rot. Or grow, drop, and be eaten? How could I know? Even Grass screams at pain or people who cut grass (Source Field Study book). -shrugs- Just a freak in hell. Nothing to see here Billy. I won't burden people to help me if its a waste of time. That's just cruel and a waste of their time. I'm trying not to be cruel. Besides, I obviously still care. I wouldn't be here complaining about it otherwise. Pre-edit: Oh and as far as you go Steampunkish, your replies to me when I first posted on this forum haven't left me. Do consider leaving me alone indefinitely. Your opinions are as wanted as you show your desire for mine to be. Or more bluntly, I can feel you're not 'jus saiyan'. You can always block me if I annoy you that much my friend. I honestly don't care about that. Wondering why you do though. I'm okay, Billy. Thank you for worrying and caring. Just in my own dark place where I need to help myself. (But am not as a silent form of spiritual protest against the way Life is treated by design.) (Was gonna make a thread positing my honest results in time. So far, it seems that if you protest enough life does absolutely nothing different. Not surprising lol. However, the severity of catalyst has dropped, its not so intense. Still pretty frequent though in terms of darkness.) If anyone ever finds themselves 'in it' (in hell for serious, like waking reality feels like hell), please talk to me, hell is just heaven inversed as far as mine is concerned. I'm not in a pitch black bleak hell, mine's pretty tame, akin to 'Limbo' from Dantes Inferno. I'd call it... Fluffy. But true horrific torturous horror exists here for others. Its that which births my own hell. Seeing suffering hurts. Feeling it in everybody hurts. What am I to do about it? I can't do anything about it (donate? Pray? 'Send love'? Doesn't change anything). So I'll force myself to watch. After all. Creator wants to suffer. I'm just doing what it wants. Even when I'm trying not to. Its a nice cozy hell. Or maybe I just know how to get cozy. Fact is I question sanity at all. What is sane about what our species does? What our Creator does? Don't even know if I'm sane, you guys. Faith is the only reason I still observe and even TRY. To be faithless, I'd just suicide. I'm rather proud of myself for how its all going... I could've been gone so many times back home by now. I'm still here. Yay.
11-21-2015, 09:11 AM
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(11-21-2015, 09:11 AM)earth_spirit Wrote: Far as I'm concerned, every "horror" that exists had to exist as a natural consequence of Infinity. Every possiblity, every modicum of experience must be explored without distinction. There isn't necessarily anything monstrous about that. I also agree with this earth_spirit. Infinity just is. All just is. It is almost like a cube in an ice cube tray, as a strange analogy, and some of the ice cubes are angry that they are this particular ice cube in this particular place and not another particular place. The ice cube asks why? Why am I me? Why am I in this particular spot, and not another better spot? Or even worse? The question has no answer, because all the cube slots had to be filled up with water. Differentiation didn't happen before, only after. Before being made into frozen ice cubes (into individuals), there was just a pool of water. The creator, who was this pool of water, said to itself: I will pour my substance into each condition, each slot in this tray of possibilities. There was no initial preference, because all experiences were to be experienced. And after the cubes of water have been frozen, and have lived out their frozen life cycle form, they will melt, and return to the undifferentiated pool of water, and then, at that point, who had the better life, or better reality? All is one. It ceases to matter. All experience is shared -- good, bad, neutral. A vast panoply of reality. (11-21-2015, 08:44 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: Honestly, I don't want help. I'm here. I did this to I. Am doing this. My higher self has me here, I'm here. Silence is nowhere. Also, a hint as to the fruit is maybe in the seeds. Fruit is functional for the plants they grow on as a means of spreading. Great way to do this is in the bodies of other creatures or through the elements as the seeds are specially protected for such. Not to be crude, but do you think your sperm laments after the orgasm? What exactly is the emotional spectrum of a sperm or fruit?
11-21-2015, 11:10 AM
11-21-2015, 11:25 AM
(11-21-2015, 08:44 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: I also know OIC is selfish, brutal, lethaly efficient, and views 3D beings as empty vessels to operate. I'd rather say that the OIC views 3D beings as Itself. You are the one attributing a concept of value to higher and lesser consciousness, in truth there is no higher nor lower, you'll always be right at the middle of the infinite evolution. Just like consciousness make up your body, you also have been part of something greater than yourself and still are even now. You can dislike this concept, but that's pretty much the only way (maybe not..) that existence can be, as systems within systems, inter-enabling each others to be. (11-21-2015, 08:44 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: Ra calls our body a vehicle. Do you attribute your car as the same as you? An empty vessel that transports you in various ways? Some NDE accounts basically do without outright saying so. Hell, NDE's provided all I needed to know regards how Ra means for one to lose a significant portion of 'mind complex' at death, my personality given by my physical brain's and DNA's design fade as well. Well every dream has an end and the end enables a different one to take place. Infinity is full of wonders and stories to take part in. (11-21-2015, 08:44 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: I do 'Die'. My soul does not. I as a human, will cease to exist beyond a memory (that will fade at higher densities/octaves) at death. If my physical body continues on after death, it does so seperate my soul apparently. Well yeah, the veiled mind/body/spirit complex experience is an interesting one in itself. (11-21-2015, 08:44 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: All is One, Many are One, One is All, All is OIC, One is OIC. Well that is because the free will of the OIC is your own free will as the OIC, there's a hierarchy of your own free will and the first distortion which enables existence is that WE desire to know Ourselves, to be. You can regret it halfway, dislike portions of it, but through your own evolution you will eventually wake up to being what wanted to just be something, to be what it was experiencing being just as everything else. There's "external" influences because the Creator can only act upon Itself, consciousness evolves in it's role as co-Creator in greater ways to take part in higher and higher order. Everything is a perfectly united system in which harvest of experience in turns create newer experience to be explored. (11-21-2015, 08:44 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: What gets me is how the OIC could have infinitely various other ways, taught us the lessons of love. Well you can blame the OIC as the root of everything for this, but it seems to me you are blaming your own self before incarnation to have set up your experience as it is. My experience is programmed very differently than your own. So all you can do is meditate on why you wanted to experience what you experience. (11-21-2015, 08:44 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: Then a much darker thing is aapparent. There is no right or wrong. Torture, rape, murder. Acceptable. Well the core of everyone's free will is a desire to know ourselves. If there was right and wrong and nothing would be allowed, then we surely wouldn't be able to know ourselves. (11-21-2015, 08:44 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: Hows that play on Earth? Don't murder an innocent soul, doesn't mean you won't, there's no actual physical protection, if yer guides fail to steer you away, its on as far as OIC cares. Well everything is the Creator, so I guess everything can only be viewed as the Creator by the Creator. The grain of sand is the whole of infinity focusing itself into being just that, a grain of sand. (11-21-2015, 08:44 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: If anyone wants to know why I am greatly disturbed by much of the 'Love and Light' attitude, its because a candle lit for darkness does more than a fire made for light. Amen to that Every consciousness wants to co-exist, and co-existing does come in many shades. Your experiences, catalysts and feelings are a mirror upon yourself. You have created this whole experience of hell for yourself, now it is up to you to either pierce your veil and remember why it is that you desired this over an easier lifetime with much less catalysts or you know.. just being elsewhere entirely. Or you can simply wait until it ends to still wake up and remember.
11-21-2015, 12:34 PM
13.13 Wrote:Questioner: Was the galaxy that we are in created by the infinite intelligence or was it created by a portion of the individualized infinite intelligence?
11-21-2015, 02:07 PM
(11-21-2015, 11:10 AM)Spaced Wrote:(11-21-2015, 12:02 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: I feel this applies. How did people like Socrates friggin survive back then??? By being forced to drink the yumyum tea of Home Return. His death deserves a heavy metal album. I share my views now for others to contrast with. I could just be a big cry baby whiner wimp weakling loser. But I'm not. Just a guy who likes his salmon colored long sleeve v neck shirt...Its exactly like the brown one Dexter wears bahaha... Aion, I implore you to read Hands of Light and The Source Field Studies. Their emotional ranges include pain, fear, and suffering. Grass screams, trees vocalize their death, leaves aura's turn red when injured, I imagine the same happens to fruit. Just Is. In a present/future/past moment. Designed from the Eternal Timeless Realms of the OIC to reexperience itself reexperiencing itself, designed from the end/beginning to the beginning/end. Mathematics, Quantum Physics, the manner of Existence, the underlying intelligent design of reality from Alpha to Omega. Not predestined, self-created then reexplored. To me. Just is. Is an illusion. A silent neutralization of actuality on Earth for what it means regards all we currently know. Its like saying Life isn't fair. That's madness! Life IS fair! You came from a journey of life allowing life to propagate. On a planet supporting such flawlessly. On a spiraling system hurdling through space with a sun perfectly placed. You've food at your feet. You've water at your feet. You've shelter at your feet. Humans make life unfair, NOT life. OIC designed the Just Is. Created it. Experiences it. It too makes it horrific for itself. Not by coincidence such as accident or just because. There is a reason, a purpose for its designing things this way. And I can't even know what that is here. -fidgets with shirt- I'm sorry my views are so radical or extreme. Please believe me when I say I don't intend for them to be, extremely so... I am just so. Serious. Pain-oriented. I just want to offer comfort to hurting people... lonely people. Kind people. Decent people. It sucks, but only because I've not many I can bond with because of it...
11-21-2015, 03:06 PM
I'll reiterate the analogy - do you think your sperm scream in agony when you ejaculate? And why is a red aura a bad thing? I posted my aura pic, it is decidedly red... red is vitality, life, and yes pain, but also sex, and passion. The agony and the ecstasy is available in all things.
Fruit is created by a plant specifically to be eaten. If they experience pain in this process, I would assume this is also by design, and for their evolution. Trees grow, and trees die. Leaves get injured and die each year. You can find peace in these things as they are not inherently negative as you so choose to see them. Humans make life unfair, because it is their free will choice to see things as unbalanced and unfair. But as you said, the OIC just is. The design is painful, not necessarily by choice of the OIC Itself, but our Logos that we have incarnated with has chosen a very specific veiling process that allows us to be as removed from the Creator as possible. It's an experiment in that which is not, through that which is all. (11-21-2015, 02:07 PM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote:(11-21-2015, 11:10 AM)Spaced Wrote:(11-21-2015, 12:02 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: I feel this applies. How did people like Socrates friggin survive back then??? Those are all things that would still be attached to the body. Do you think a tree suffers when it naturally sheds its leaves in the fall? The fruit naturally falls and detaches from the tree, then subject to all of the natural processed of decomposition. Is it better that it is eaten by worms? For damaged leaves, broken branches and shredded grass, yes there is pain. I have often argued this. Fruit? I don't think so because they are designed to leave the body of the tree. If you were to look through some of the 'meat debate' threads you would see me say that I think fruit is actually the only completely free will respecting form of consumption and I lamented many times about the 'consumer' state of reality. I assure you, I have well considered the cyclic nature of consumption and the seemingly cycle of abuse that is involved. Everything I eat I offer healing to. I have read Hands of Light and I'm familiar with the other and the feelingness of grass and trees is something I have often argued for. However, there is still sensibility. Does my hair writhe in pain when it is detached from my body? What it is is that everything emits frequencies and we have taken particular frequencies to mean particular things. However, I'm not sure frequencies can be translated through the same model for all other creatures as humans since I don't think the sensitivity is the same. There is also the matter of body structure. Grass is incredibly flexible in body, naturally designed for flex and cushioning. I am very sensitive to vibrations and emotions emitted. I even get strong empathy towards stones which sometimes hold powerful emotions in them. However, to view things in only one way is a very imbalanced view of reality in my eyes because I try to view the completeness of all things. These things don't exist only in pain and it is not the only thing one can focus on. The range may go as low as pain and suffering, but it also goes high in to joy, do you see that you have given attention to only one of these ends of the spectrum? What I think you are seeing is your own pain being mirrored back at you a thousand times over because you want it. I think you might even be a bit addicted to your pain which is actually probably more normal than not in this society.
11-21-2015, 08:50 PM
11-21-2015, 11:26 PM
Well, who knows, maybe I'm totally wrong, but I have experimented with this exact thing a fair amount because it was a big issue for me for awhile. I had been having a hard time eating anything at all because I only focused on the pain and suffering. Food appeared 'dirty' to me. I eventually realized that I was generating a lot more negative energy through this attitude than the apparent benefits of avoiding consumption.
It all evened out when I realized that I will also be consumed and in some ways am already being consumed. Maybe it's not pretty, but it appears to be balanced to me. One day when I pass I would rather be consumed and feed a new generation of life than to be fearful of the cycle. You can view it as a curse, or you can view it as a gift from our ancestors. I think it's an insult to the ancestors of all creatures to disdain the cycle of Life because your life is nourished through so many others. Maybe it might feel a little better to be grateful rather than lamenting? Imagine how the creatures feel that you are using their energy to be miserable? I realized that the most respectful thing I can do is to make positive, empowering use of the energy I receive from food so at least that way any negative or neutral energy which may have been involved can be polarized to the positive. I understand how hard it is to see beyond the suffering because the suffering reflects our own pain and fears. It isn't always easy to see the magical circumstance in reality.
11-22-2015, 12:11 AM
Course, I'm just sharing my perspective, not trying to refute or deny or anything. Just sharing my experience.
11-22-2015, 06:38 AM
Its all valid...
I refuse to argue my reality's perspective. Blood red aura's denote pain as far as I know. Does everything naturally have to suffer to die via natural processes? Iunno. But I percieve pain. My sperm do suffer when ejaculating into a vaginal space. Many proud cells burned in a flood of acidic content upon exiting the battlestation upon successful departure (oh god I laughed so hard typing that!) Every example arguing against honestly contains my point. That's my reality. Does it make me sick? How I see through the construction to a variant/version of 'why' that quietly inferences what many already questioned of the Biblical God. Is any Creator moral? How does one experience self and infringe? How does anything not get accepted? (Suicide, point blank example). I've laid out the contradicting logic I've seen. And I see quite a bit sadly -points to 216 Phi Thread I made- -Points to 3 6 9 12 15 thread referencing Pi as the hidden pattern of Hydrogen Quantum states- I don't disagree with the Law of One, instead I see its just too incomplete for me personally, offers too much without the underlying context, maybe even a lack of syntax being available, the seeming unknowing behaviors. I mean, the Orion Empire? Demonic tier entities assaulting us 'metaphysically', no wrong, but can't suicide? Free Will belongs to Creator, I'm just an atom sized spark of light to even lesser variants of Creator. What does snuffing me out matter? It only does when I do it to myself or an innocent (didn't karmically 'deserve it') I could write a book on...no, actually I couldn't. Wouldn't. Just understand, there's lies everywhere. You can't know anything here. You're literally a piece of designed equipment to get abused and hurt to learn. To do kindness in a dark cruel place. To love and enjoy whatever and whenever you can while dealing with pain and suffering all around you. Yeah, its a nice pleasant place. But someone suffers, always. By design. No wrong except what Creator deems. I don't even know! I'm just relaying observations!! I can't argue what I don't know! I think I know but I don't! If I just knew something for certain... Life feels like a dream constantly again now. I guess that's no surprise. Because it literally could be. And. I'd never know. Acceptance? There. Done. I. Am. Ugly. Bag. Of mostly water!! I. Feel... Pain. Darkness... Terrible. Everywhere. Truce? Will God accept a truce by Human? I desire to not be bombarded with 'directed' catalyst cobstantly day after day. Bargaining? I'm in Hell, there is no making Souls accept anything, that burden is on the machine operated by the soul. I wanted to be alone specifically to protest againsr God. If the only miniscule utterance of power over Creator is through being able to screw myself, should tell you what kind of Creator it is to humanity, as a species. Just some design. How do we know we aren't repeating everything that's already happened before? I'm 0-80% sure I've redone this incarnation at least 5-7 times due to suicide. Yeah, I feel like I'm stuck in hell. I can't fix that except to finish the hell, up. No one else can unless they can make everyone else stop hurting and suffering and causing others to hurt and suffer. I'm tired. That's the Truth. I don't want to bother with life anymore, just wanna finish'er up and do something else where I'm not useless beyond passively giving light to my environment... Assuming I'm even a Wanderer. The worst part is I can't let go of this. I'm only here now because of it. I was done with Life right when this all showed up, and now its bleak and pointless too potentially by its own logic. I'm only here because of it, I think I have said in the past how I attribute my still living to the Law of One. Talked me out of ssuicide. Now that its how it is to me, as I said, I literally ONLY continue via Faith. Survival? So tired of it. Just want to finish it up. Maybe I'll write some jazzy blues while in this place. Thats what that genre was for, wasn't it?? (But wow, Jazz sounds really nice! I wonder if Hell has Death Metal Opera Angel's who's voices sound like guitars shredding solo's to an epic chorus. Or maybe its just that puddle o' lava over there... lol. ...Or maybe I'm just a very dark soul or person. I wish I could afford an lbl session. Wait, I kinda can. But at 23. Supposedly it'd be a waste of time and money until I'm in my 40's... -fidgets with post- I hate arguing. Every reality is different, why the balls did I choose this one as my incarnation? -shakes soul self- TELL ME YER SECRETS SO HELP US GOD, SOUL I'LL ENNNDD YOOOUUUU (somehow. Lol)
11-22-2015, 07:59 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-20-2019, 06:59 AM by earth_spirit.)
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11-22-2015, 10:08 AM
(11-22-2015, 07:59 AM)earth_spirit Wrote: @TTP I know, as are all of you. I don't get why that doesn't bother you guys honestly. It freaks me out. How my neighbors, customers, friends, and family are potentially going to screw me for themselves. Its happened plentifully in my life. I'm sick of it. I forgive and it keeps happening, I learn, it doesn't stop. I'm not trying to escape myself. I'm trying to spiritually murder the god inside of me... (or make it all stop/cease?) Somehow...lol... You could say I'm mirroring monstrosity unto myself, not intentionally but not completely unintentionally. I see a Monster. I want to kill it, I often remark to myself angrily, I'm the Monster who kills monsters. I've made mention of this on a different thread (though f me if I remember which one...) If I could, I would be a monster hunter (the games are really fun too actually), and I'd just vigilante horrible people. I see a monster. I don't like monsters. I'm ready to show them that. I have been too, each little jerk remark from people are met with witty sarcasm and similar jabs. I don't let Creator walk all over me, and since I hate telling people to stop being p.o.s I avoid p.o.s people's verbal navigations. I just shrug and gloss over idiot customers now. I give up on drunks and highs and just glaze over and wait it out. And for worse, I honestly wish murdering people infringing upon you was legal, no one would do it unless they were really really wanting to. What's a life in our (USA) society anyways? (Might make a thread on these thoughts and realizations I had today.) I don't condone coldblooded murder, but this planet won't just fix itself with how broken this society and others are. Threaten life, watch it Come Correct, that's what Creator does to our comfort. Learn your catalytic lessons or else the distortions increase along with physical pain, mental issues, and emotional instability (cough, look at me.) -shrug- Or... I don't even know, I just want horrible people to LEAVE ME ALONE so I won't feel like a horrible person for being upset over being mistreated so damn much, losing my cool wanting to go bury myself trying not to go crazy wanting to kill horrible people! Bad people, go away! Why can't everyone just Be Nice to each other??? You can still be nice and disagree or even argue issues. Its bad behaviors where people start stealing, profusely lying, and not caring. And don't tell me bad isn't real please. It might be a dream but pinching myself doesn't work here. Its just as much a nightmare at times, OH! And I still feel pain, can't fly, or create worlds, or enjoy a beach, thank the water I don't need to burn away in my stomach. Its a dream. A very...Real...Dream. That is also an illusion! Who would've thunk.
11-22-2015, 10:23 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-22-2015, 10:27 AM by The_Tired_Philosopher.)
Excuse me. I'm in a very irritated mood. I don't really censor myself for you guys.
I don't actually want anyone to die. Just threaten it. (Will Shoot On Site/Sight signs as my main example.) Will Shoot Shoplifters' signs. A strong deterrent. Nothing more. But does anyone need a gun? No. Though Australia gun laws raised crime rates. So maybe yes, naw. No. No one needs to die. Ever. That's what prison is for. So tranquilizers would be cool! So like, yeah guys don't go freaking out if I sound dangerous. I freak out with despair over hitting a cat with my car... What a world. What a life. Whoo...
I don't get why you always come to say that the Creator does not care. How does the Creator not care when it is what is experiencing your every pain and processing the every thoughts you are sharing. You words are the Creator's words about it's own experience of itself.
Picture that there is the Source, nothing else but one singularity that is perfectly unified, and that your awareness is exactly that but veiled into being individualized of the rest of yourself, finite among infinity. Spiritual evolution works toward breaking down these barriers/veils until no octaves, densities, separation of any kind are left. Just an intelligent infinity that always come to accept/love every experience it ever has and incorporates the mirror unto itself.
11-22-2015, 10:42 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-20-2019, 06:59 AM by earth_spirit.)
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11-22-2015, 10:48 AM
(11-22-2015, 10:08 AM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote:(11-22-2015, 07:59 AM)earth_spirit Wrote: @TTP Well we are the potential to be everything at our core but currently are a particular manifested potential that derives from given experiences. As part of my awakening I had to accept that I may wake up to being a monster and want to kill people or whatever. These kind of feelings lasted about half a day and since then I did not have any similar feelings. A monster hunting monsters seems like something that would only create worse monsters. Hey a broken soul! maybe if I break it further it'll change into something good. |
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