Hi Rax0r, I enjoyed reading all your thoughts as you discovered the material. For me personally, since I have struggled with many of the same things you've struggled with, and I also have a very busy mind like you, meditation has been the most beneficial in relaxing about our current reality, and realising it's perfect.
Your epiphany about it all starting with you was the most important moment in your journey. It all starts with self; loving self, forgiving self, accepting self, and then after a while because the universe is one being, you realise loving self, forgiving self and accepting self extends to others as well, since all is one.
It took me a long time to reach the point of feeling deep within that everything is perfect just the way it is, no matter what it may look like.
And welcome! Looking forward to more a-ha moments as you progress through the material, with Ra they never end.
Your epiphany about it all starting with you was the most important moment in your journey. It all starts with self; loving self, forgiving self, accepting self, and then after a while because the universe is one being, you realise loving self, forgiving self and accepting self extends to others as well, since all is one.
It took me a long time to reach the point of feeling deep within that everything is perfect just the way it is, no matter what it may look like.
And welcome! Looking forward to more a-ha moments as you progress through the material, with Ra they never end.