07-29-2021, 12:48 PM
Quote:you know deep down that if it wasn't for fear you would have chosen the opposite path. What is holding you back ? Not that I care but permit me to say that you are weak, choosing a path out of fear (*LAUGHING HARDER*).
au contraire mon cher... choosing Love, when violence, attack, deception, one-upmanship, greed, selfishness, scheming, domination, control, are choices with immediate and short to mid term self preserving/self benefiting results - is the brave choice - is refusing to cave into 'fear'
(fear of not 'mattering', not being warm, fed, wealthy, powerful, influential, fear of lack of control...)
STS is all about fear and self protection - structuring yourself into an impenetrable vampiric life force crushing Void
it takes no bravery to be a bastard; a brutal, vicious, slave 'owner' (etc)
people regularly take the selfish choice for fearing the consequences of being caring, loving, risking themselves and their needs - to help other selves
To quote you from the Ghengis Khan thread:
Quote: You can love me all you want as long as you are my slave and abide by my rules. Prove your faith toward your ideology and be obedient to me. Serve me.
My goal is not recruitment as I have explained lengthily in one of the forum topic called [STS entities and Wealth] , my openess is self serving. And as an STS if I wanted to recruit, it wouldn't be here, rather it would be in competitive field such as business, sport etc. And I would only recruit those who dominate their respective field and understand what it takes to win not the losers.
You seem to have an incomplete understanding of 'the Ra Material' and this forum.
We will not become your "slave/s" or abide by your "rules". We won't be obedient to you - to 'STS'.
and there's no "ideology", no "rainbows" - just - that ultimately all is One. But no zealous enforcement of that idea either.
You demand 'serve me' - yet state you aren't here for recruitment - so - as you state, you're here to get 'slaves'.
Highly unlikely to happen.
Particularly when you've been so transparent in your agenda.
It might be an interesting 'thought experiment' to ponder, that with so much abuse, suffering and (as you describe), your path of 'STS" laid out for you since birth, through your thorough and utterly horrifically abusive familial indoctrination into 'STS' - you're actually a slave - on auto-pilot from your psychological and metaphysical conditioning since infancy - simply following a trajectory you actually haven't consciously chosen (as you were a vulnerable, powerless child)?
You're doing all that you know - surviving the only way you know how to - and now 'upping the ante' - 'improving' the darkness and bitterness by surrendering fully to it, going from victim to victimiser - turning your abuse into your stepping stones to climb a mountain of crushed skulls
Of course you chose this incarnation and it's 'scenery' - but consider that you may have chosen to try to do the far harder but ultimately far more rewarding work of, at a certain point, going against all your conditioning (for you're currently quite possibly only just beginning to transmute being completely under the 'thumb' of your conditioning and abuse since birth - into becoming 'the thumb' that presses down mercilessly) - when instead, doing the far harder, brave work of switching to Love/Light, including self love (actual self love) and transforming yourself into an entire radiant hand that lifts yourself (and later on others) up high to feel light and warmth and freedom
yes - this would be a terrifying prospect to you - as it'd feel utterly vulnerable and alien. Very threatening to where you think your safety (through domination) lies. To feel what at that point are the very frightening sensations (at first) of developing a sense of deep genuine self respect - from which then flows such happiness and peace - that you find yourself wanting to share that love with others without thought of return (self respecting boundaries in place of course)
You have been very brave so far - to keep on breathing after the life you've had is very brave, and to choose the path to survive and 'prosper' that you are doing is very understandable and logical. When we're so battered, brutalised, suspicious, wounded, furious, vengeful; letting down our armour, even a tiny crack - is at best very uncomfortable - and at worst can give us existential terror. Let alone letting down our guard any more than that.
But 'Control' /Power is always (ultimately) an illusion. I can think I'm in control of my life - but I could suddenly drop dead in the middle of typing this - or an earthquake take the floor from under me - or a murderer break down the door... there is no real, lasting control. Get a gun? Won't stop a heart attack, or a car crash or a disease carrying mosquito, etc. The only control is in doing your best to be sensible, to best address/prepare/try to prevent life's worst challenges, then surrendering to 'The Great Mystery', to 'Love/Light' or whatever words, sense of that you personally have.
One last thing - have you ever considered that you're uniquely positioned to do a far more magnificent, amazing thing - to switch polarity NOW - in this incarnation - to find deep peace, happiness, freedom, and genuine soul safety?
Have you considered the possibility that maybe you chose the challenge of your thus far, excruciatingly awful incarnation, because your Soul is already 'STO' and you wanted to test your integrity to this extremely (almost impossibly) harsh degree?
If that's the case - how very brave you are.