04-10-2020, 01:36 PM
(04-10-2020, 10:59 AM)Diana Wrote:(04-09-2020, 11:41 PM)Black Dragon Wrote: Something really awful happened last night that I though was just more torture from the universe and a falling apart of what little I have in life. I don't want to go into details, but it was a family altercation in which I defended myself(on a physical level) and defended another who tried to intervene to break it up.
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For the first time in a long time I feel there might be hope for this particular situation to reach a much more healed, loving, and respectful paradigm for my family. Nothing changes overnight and it will take continuous effort, my own work in regards to healing and my shadow included(still have a ways to go), but it looks like I'm finally starting to see a way forward.
Kudos to you for moving forward in conscious evolution.
I understand the situation. I grew up in this sort of familial discord, including violence.
I only want to caution that the others involved in this may not change. So acceptance would be the key in my opinion. Whether or not any more violence occurs, there will be processing for each individual, which is, individual. In my case, some individuals were just too wounded to heal enough for it to show in conscious reality. However, they may have learned what they needed to learn even if they didn't appear to change.
Family stuff is really difficult in 3D, as detachment is that much harder to achieve (not getting caught up in the maelstrom). Many families have generational patterns, and one thing that may help is to imagine you are changing that generational pattern by not succumbing to it—by forging another set of behaviors for yourself, not for anyone else, because they must forge their own paths. Most people think they are different than their families, then decades later find they are doing the same things their parents did.
There is so much seeming existential injustice. All the way up to the idea of taking issue with the Logos regarding the architecture of this existence. But I find this thinking to be nonproductive though natural and at times impossible to quell. The thing I find most useful is to stay focused on my own mission, which includes my own evolution and how I can effectively serve in this reality.
Thanks for the thoughtful reply. I understand your words of caution and know nothing is automatically perfect. What makes me believe there will be some change is that though my family has a history of discord, yelling, and emotional strife, this was the first ever time it came to physical violence. It is not part of the normal patterns of distortion in my family. This was a Jekyll and Hyde type Situation that involved intoxication and repressed stress and emotions. I've been willing to look into the mirror at that shadow side of myself lately, but this person hasn't made such an effort consciously, and seeing this side of themselves honestly shocked and scared them. As for the other part, your right, focusing on my mission. I'm coming to understand it's pretty multifaceted. The current architecture is in the process of shifting. I think the Logos is beginning to understand that such an arbitrary excess of misery is counter productive in that creates inefficiently small harvests not much better than pre-veiling conditions.