07-30-2009, 08:04 PM
Hi all,
I've been reading the forum for a while and thought it was about time I should post my awakening story. I'm very new to this - I only 'stumbled' across the Ra Material a couple of months ago and it instantly resonated with me. What i have to tell came from absolutely no prior knowledge to anything Ra related and I had no spiritual background at the time of the awakening.
Seven months ago (I'm 25) I had a spontaneus Kundalini awakening induced by LSD and my life hasn't been the same since. I was a skeptic when it came to anything psychic, paranormal and even spiritual. I liked the idea of such things but was the kind of person that needed proof before believing....
I had always experimented with drugs socially and for partying etc and am the kind of person that is aware enough not to lose control or over do it. I've smoked weed for years because I enjoy chilling out and listening to music. I took ecstacy many, many times and enjoyed it but it's not something I'm addicted to (or can become addicted to). I thought those kind of states where the best you could feel although you do pay for it the next day.
I was always intrigued with LSD, I don't know why but I knew it had powers and I think in some way I always expected it would unlock something within me. I took a couple of trips at home, just me and a friend - I went off to the bathroom on my own. The next thing I felt was the rush of energy coming from my spine (I now know to be kundalini energy). My arms raised on their own - at this stage i was on automatic. My heart chakra opened and energy and light like I never felt fefore came down from above, I closed my eyes and saw an image of Jesus Christ come into my heart with the white light/energy accompanied with the feeling of pure bliss and infinite LOVE. Baring in mind at this stage in my life I had absolutely no belief or interest in Jesus/God and had never heard of the chakras. I felt really weirded out and knew something spiritual happened to me. What? I had no idea.
At this stage i was speechless and returned to my friend who was wondering where I had gone. Oh! I might add shortly before all of this we were out looking at stars which i think played a part in my connecting with the universe. Anyway, he went home because I think he sensed i needed to be alone (I did).
Later on I was still baffled and I had another energy release. This time I opened the third eye chakra and the crown chakra. I looked at my hands and saw them age rapidly, I saw a vision of what felt like my own funeral. What I can only describe as a portal opened up in front of me. Something that transcended physical reality. I could actually feel streams of air (now known to be chi) running through it. If any of you have ever saw Donny Darko it was very similar to that. Again after feeling fearful and confused I was filled with the great love and light from above again. it was wonderful. Not all of it was wonderful though. I felt what I thought was me being judged for my sins which really scared me. I felt a kind of judgement and I pleaded that I be forgiven. I felt the light/love again. That night i was no longer afraid of death. Strange but true.
It was very spiritual yet very paranormal. In the following days and weeks i felt like I had learned the secrets of the universe or something. Yup, it was that extreme!
From then on I've been pursuing what happened to me that night by using websites like wikipedia etc. It's brought me here. it's opened me up to meditation, astral projection, self awareness, positive thinking, intuition, greater creativity, psychic abilities etc. All things I had previously disregarded.
I feel blessed because i know for other people it could've been the worse experience of their life. I think I was ready for it which is why it was so beneficial. My friends think I'm a different person.
I've used LSD since then but I realise now I don't need drugs to reach those levels of consciousness. Although in the times I've taken it since I felt what i think is pure awareness - where I could literally watch myself and feel that everyone in the room was just a reflection of me! I came to my own conclusions about subjective reality before knowing such a theory even existed!
I haven't taken LSD though since a couple of months ago where I freaked myelf out. I was able to feel everyone in the rooms emotions and more than that, control their emotions. I got scared when it felt like how i can only describe as my mind catching up on itself. Almost like I was out thinking my own awareness of being aware!
I haven't taken LSD since then but would still smoke. I feel like quitting alcohol and I'm not bothered about ecstacy anymore. For me and only for me i can say that drugs have been beneficial but I know that I am a rare exception. They've changed me in a positive way but I still wouldn't recommend them for anyone else... As much as that probably doesn't make sense.
Since the initial awakening I've been trying to make sense of the true nature of reality.
I was especially intrigued by what I came across whilst reading The Law of One Book One: (Page 90, session 6)
"There are many upon your plane who have a random hole or gateway in their spirit energy field, sometimes created by the ingestion of chemicals such as, what this instrument would call LSD, who are able, randomly and without control, to tap into energy sources. They may or may not be entities who wish to serve. the purpose of carefully and consciously opening this channel is to serve in a more dependable way, in a more commonplace or usual way as seen by the distortion complex of the healer. to others there may appear to be miracles. To the one who has carefully opened the door to intelligent infinity this is ordinary; this is commonplace; this is as it should be. The life experience becomes somewhat transformed. The great work goes on."
Thanks for taking the time to read. Any thoughts?
I've been reading the forum for a while and thought it was about time I should post my awakening story. I'm very new to this - I only 'stumbled' across the Ra Material a couple of months ago and it instantly resonated with me. What i have to tell came from absolutely no prior knowledge to anything Ra related and I had no spiritual background at the time of the awakening.
Seven months ago (I'm 25) I had a spontaneus Kundalini awakening induced by LSD and my life hasn't been the same since. I was a skeptic when it came to anything psychic, paranormal and even spiritual. I liked the idea of such things but was the kind of person that needed proof before believing....
I had always experimented with drugs socially and for partying etc and am the kind of person that is aware enough not to lose control or over do it. I've smoked weed for years because I enjoy chilling out and listening to music. I took ecstacy many, many times and enjoyed it but it's not something I'm addicted to (or can become addicted to). I thought those kind of states where the best you could feel although you do pay for it the next day.
I was always intrigued with LSD, I don't know why but I knew it had powers and I think in some way I always expected it would unlock something within me. I took a couple of trips at home, just me and a friend - I went off to the bathroom on my own. The next thing I felt was the rush of energy coming from my spine (I now know to be kundalini energy). My arms raised on their own - at this stage i was on automatic. My heart chakra opened and energy and light like I never felt fefore came down from above, I closed my eyes and saw an image of Jesus Christ come into my heart with the white light/energy accompanied with the feeling of pure bliss and infinite LOVE. Baring in mind at this stage in my life I had absolutely no belief or interest in Jesus/God and had never heard of the chakras. I felt really weirded out and knew something spiritual happened to me. What? I had no idea.
At this stage i was speechless and returned to my friend who was wondering where I had gone. Oh! I might add shortly before all of this we were out looking at stars which i think played a part in my connecting with the universe. Anyway, he went home because I think he sensed i needed to be alone (I did).
Later on I was still baffled and I had another energy release. This time I opened the third eye chakra and the crown chakra. I looked at my hands and saw them age rapidly, I saw a vision of what felt like my own funeral. What I can only describe as a portal opened up in front of me. Something that transcended physical reality. I could actually feel streams of air (now known to be chi) running through it. If any of you have ever saw Donny Darko it was very similar to that. Again after feeling fearful and confused I was filled with the great love and light from above again. it was wonderful. Not all of it was wonderful though. I felt what I thought was me being judged for my sins which really scared me. I felt a kind of judgement and I pleaded that I be forgiven. I felt the light/love again. That night i was no longer afraid of death. Strange but true.
It was very spiritual yet very paranormal. In the following days and weeks i felt like I had learned the secrets of the universe or something. Yup, it was that extreme!
From then on I've been pursuing what happened to me that night by using websites like wikipedia etc. It's brought me here. it's opened me up to meditation, astral projection, self awareness, positive thinking, intuition, greater creativity, psychic abilities etc. All things I had previously disregarded.
I feel blessed because i know for other people it could've been the worse experience of their life. I think I was ready for it which is why it was so beneficial. My friends think I'm a different person.
I've used LSD since then but I realise now I don't need drugs to reach those levels of consciousness. Although in the times I've taken it since I felt what i think is pure awareness - where I could literally watch myself and feel that everyone in the room was just a reflection of me! I came to my own conclusions about subjective reality before knowing such a theory even existed!
I haven't taken LSD though since a couple of months ago where I freaked myelf out. I was able to feel everyone in the rooms emotions and more than that, control their emotions. I got scared when it felt like how i can only describe as my mind catching up on itself. Almost like I was out thinking my own awareness of being aware!
I haven't taken LSD since then but would still smoke. I feel like quitting alcohol and I'm not bothered about ecstacy anymore. For me and only for me i can say that drugs have been beneficial but I know that I am a rare exception. They've changed me in a positive way but I still wouldn't recommend them for anyone else... As much as that probably doesn't make sense.
Since the initial awakening I've been trying to make sense of the true nature of reality.
I was especially intrigued by what I came across whilst reading The Law of One Book One: (Page 90, session 6)
"There are many upon your plane who have a random hole or gateway in their spirit energy field, sometimes created by the ingestion of chemicals such as, what this instrument would call LSD, who are able, randomly and without control, to tap into energy sources. They may or may not be entities who wish to serve. the purpose of carefully and consciously opening this channel is to serve in a more dependable way, in a more commonplace or usual way as seen by the distortion complex of the healer. to others there may appear to be miracles. To the one who has carefully opened the door to intelligent infinity this is ordinary; this is commonplace; this is as it should be. The life experience becomes somewhat transformed. The great work goes on."
Thanks for taking the time to read. Any thoughts?