The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Monka channeling comes from February 2, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am Monka. We greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is long since we have been called to your group, and we are full of gratitude that we are able to speak and share our being and our thoughts with you as brother to brother and sister to sister. We are one being and therefore words are clumsy, yet we shall use them as best we can. May we say that we appreciate this instrument’s challenging of us. This instrument doubted that we were indeed Monka, for this instrument has heard tapes in which the contact was quite garbled. However, after three challengings, the circle of trust was completed between we who speak and she through whom we speak. The fastidiousness of this challenging tunes the contact more finely and clarity of channeling is far more possible.

It is our specialty within the Confederation to share our humble opinions upon the subject of those issues concerned with community and social responsibilities. Our planetary population had in your density and in the fourth density a very strong desire for harmony and thusly we became what has been called a social memory complex in late third density, which is the density and the period within that density which you now share. There are many questions upon your mind at this time about not just the correct way to live, for this in itself has almost no meaning, as correctness is different for each individual, but rather the most spiritually propitious way to join in community and to relate to each other within a society. We can give you some guidelines, however we ask, as do all members of the Confederation, that you remember that we are fallible, that this contact is fallible, and that it is your responsibility to use the intellect and the power of discrimination, the gifts of an infinitely kind Creator, to distinguish that which you need from that which you do not need. Anything which you hear from any source whatsoever which is not helpful to you should be laid aside; perhaps you shall come back to it in the future, and it shall make sense. Perhaps it is simply erroneous. In any event, there is a rhythm within each life, and within those tides of being information will come in a regularized manner. Trust the rhythms of information and of your own discernment.

The question of community is an extension of this suggestion. It is of primary importance that the deeper rhythms be acknowledged within those who have found companionship with each other. It is not chance or accident when two people meet and recognize each other. When this occurs, it is not to be doubted. It is also not to be abused. Thus, the first hallmark of successful sharing of experience in community is that each, while acknowledging the deep currents which brought each together with each, shall also be aware of—even militantly aware of—the individual currents and rhythms which may express themselves as crosscurrents within a community or even as contrary tides at times. Freedom is the hallmark of successful community—freedom to be yourself, freedom of each to be yourself and freedom to experiment, to make mistakes, to be at risk and to grow.

Upon other occasions, through other channels, we have spoken of that life which we enjoyed in fourth density. There was a need at the time at which we spoke for people to consider specific topics such as education, the use of money, and so forth. We do not find such concerns within this group’s seeking for a sense of true community, and for this we are grateful, for topics such as we have just mentioned are the outward and visible signs of an inward and spiritual gift. It is the inward and spiritual gift that concerns each: how does one give of oneself freely and in joy, without diminishing the self and without diminishing those other selves over whom we may have undue influence? That is a great concern, and it is for this reason that we counsel the exaggerated respect for each freedom in spiritual seeking. May we say that which is obvious so that it shall not be left out when one is working with a group of people. It goes almost without saying that each shall attempt to be honest, forthright and of service to others. Since we understand that each of you has accepted this, we do no more than mention it.

The topic which Monka spoke about in this session was the purpose of community. They began by saying the question of community is an extension of this suggestion, and it is of importance that the deeper rhythms be acknowledged within those who have found companionship with each other, but it is not by chance when two people meet and recognize each other, for when this occurs, it is not to be doubted or abused, so the first hallmark of successful sharing of experience in community is that each, while acknowledging the deep currents which brought each together with each, shall also be aware of the individual rhythms which may express themselves as crosscurrents within a community, for freedom is the hallmark of successful community: freedom of each to be yourself and freedom to make mistakes, and to grow. Then Monka said through other channels we have spoken of that life which we enjoyed in fourth density, so there was a need at the time at which we spoke for people to consider specific topics such as education and the use of money, but we do not find such concerns within this group’s seeking for a sense of true community, and for this we are grateful, for topics such as we have mentioned are the visible signs of a spiritual gift, and it is the spiritual gift that concerns each, so: “How does one give of oneself freely and in joy, without diminishing the self and without diminishing those other selves over whom we may have undue influence?” Then Monka said that is a great concern, and it is for this reason that we counsel the respect for each freedom in spiritual seeking, yet we say that which is obvious, so that it shall not be left out when one is working with a group of people, and it goes without saying that each shall attempt to be honest and of service to others, so since we understand that each of you has accepted this, we do no more than mention it. On May 5, 2002, Q’uo spoke of the nature of spiritual seeking:

We affirm each entity’s choices and can suggest again that the path which you follow in your spiritual seeking must needs be that which speaks to your heart rather than that which another suggests, whether that other be revered, and honored, and seeming to be possessed of greater knowledge or to be an ordinary entity upon your street. For there are as many paths to the one Creator as there are entities who seek that One within all and within the self. Follow, then, that which is in your heart. Follow that which speaks to your heart and be always willing to increase the intensity of your seeking, the intensity of your desire, and the meditation that we always recommend for every path, for every seeker, for meditation is the surest means that we know for any seeker in third density to approach the infinite Creator.

We would ask you to consider, then, the deeper reasons for community. Events cause a message to be given both metaphysically and physically. The coming together of entities in order to form spiritual community is an event, and the manifestation that it shall have is caught up in the event itself. The event causes a message; the message is heard by those whom you do not know and can never know, and this message in turn allows transformation among others. Thus, we suggest to you that before joining together in community the overriding goals be grasped in a unified manner so that each, while unique, shares the goal with each other in the community.

Our second observation is this. Great ideas without the addition of perseverance, the sense of humor, the light touch, shall cause each self to draw upon the human, if we may use that term, resources. Even the use of words causes variation betwixt people so that understanding cannot be shared fully. If each brings a Light and forms a community of Lights, those Lights together form a great Light, a city of light, if you will, in the metaphysical sense. And yet if you expect to sustain that Light by intellectual practice or by dependence upon logic alone, the Light will lose its luster, and it will dim, and the darkness will overcome it. Thus, we suggest that the common goal never be taken for granted, but that some form or ritual for the remembrance of that goal and the surrender to that goal be at the very heart of community.

Then Monka said we would ask you to consider the deeper reasons for community, so events cause a message to be given both metaphysically and physically, and the coming together of entities in order to form a spiritual community is an event, and the manifestation that it shall have is caught up in the event, for the event causes a message which is heard by those whom you can never know, and this message allows transformation among others, so we suggest to you that before joining together in community the goals be grasped in a unified manner, so that each shares the goal with each other in the community. Now Monka said our second observation is that great ideas without perseverance and the sense of humor shall cause each self to draw upon the human resources, so the use of words causes a variation between people, so understanding cannot be shared fully, for if each brings a Light and forms a community of Lights, those Lights form a great city of Light in the metaphysical sense, yet if you expect to sustain that Light by dependence upon logic alone, the Light will lose its luster, and it will dim, and the darkness will overcome it, so we suggest that the common goal never be taken for granted, but that some ritual for remembering that goal and surrendering to that goal be at the heart of community. On December 16, 1990, Q’uo described the value of a sense of humor:

That which your people call the sense of humor is, indeed, most helpful to any entity, no matter the position upon the path, or the placement within the life pattern. We see that which you call the sense of humor as being a sense of proportion where an entity is able to gain enough experience within the life that one may see a broader view. One stands upon a somewhat more elevated position, building experience upon experience, until that which you call wisdom is begun.

There is much in every entity’s life pattern and daily round of activities which lends itself to humor, nothing so much as the entity itself as it attempts to make a sense of and to form a cohesion from many disparate parts of the life which seem not to be held together well at all.

Community begins with one entity. This may be difficult to perceive at first. But each entity to whom we speak has had many and diverse incarnational experiences and each who grasps these ideas is, therefore, a digest or an amalgamation of many and sometimes conflicting experiential preferences, ideas, opinions and goals. Therefore, the first spiritually oriented community is you yourself. It is easiest in this context to see how easily the spiritual integrity may be shattered, the Light may be dimmed and then put out because of dependence upon intellectual analysis alone without the contact with that infinite source of intelligence which is Love and which is available from within the silence of the heart. Community then springs forth in full flower with two, and many are the words that are spent in accomplishing clarity of understanding and the harmonizing of two unique entities into one community with common goals and with the desire to surrender the self to the higher self so that those goals which have been prepared for you to seek may be sought in peace and with efficacy.

Each of you has considered what it would be to surrender to a group larger than what this instrument would call the nuclear family. It is no different than the harmonizing of the self with the self, the harmonizing of one self with another self. However, it is, as entities are added to the community, both more and more important and more and more frustrating to communicate as clearly as possible and to come into harmony rather than agreement forced upon one by a majority while pursuing the common goal.

Monka went on to say community begins with one entity, but this may be difficult to perceive at first, for each entity to whom we speak has had many incarnational experiences, and each who grasps these ideas is a grouping of many and sometimes conflicting experiential opinions and goals which the first spiritually oriented community is, so it is easiest in this context to see how spiritual integrity may be shattered; the Light may be dimmed and then put out because of dependence upon intellectual analysis without the contact with that infinite source of intelligence which is Love and which is available from within the silence of the heart, so community then springs forth in full flower with two, and many are the words that are spent in accomplishing clarity of understanding and the harmonizing of two unique entities into one community with common goals and with the desire to surrender the self to the higher self, so that those goals which have been prepared for you to seek may be sought effectively in peace. Monka continued by saying each of you has considered what it would be to surrender to a group larger than what this instrument would call the nuclear family, yet it is no different than harmonizing the self with the self and the harmonizing of one self with another self, but as entities are added to the community it is both more important and more frustrating to communicate as clearly as possible and to come into harmony rather than having agreement forced upon one by a majority while pursuing the common goal. On January 12, 1996, Carla shared her thoughts about the value of common goals of a spiritual community:

The idea of community, a community that shares a common goal and common ideals, has been part of this group in its thoughts for some time. And in the last few months the coincidences of people writing us, calling us, or speaking to us about the feeling that now is the time to get on with community have just really piled up. And when the instrument and I were talking about the idea of community today, we got, if you count all of them through the day, three hawks and two silver flecks, which is the most array of spiritual coincidence I guess you’d say that we’ve seen in a long time. These are normally taken by us to indicate that we’re talking about something that we should be paying attention to, that what we’re talking about has some value.

We would like to emphasize that while there is great potential for happiness as you call it, or joy, and for companionship in community, these states of the emotion and mind are transient, and the pursuit of them in or out of community shall result in disappointment as the moments of joy depart. We suggest to you, therefore, the possible wisdom of surprising yourself by appreciating the joys that occur without attempting to retain that state of mind and emotion, for these swings in emotion are of the surface, for in happiness one is still oneself and even in human joy, if we may use that term again, the importance of this state of mind is that of the stone which causes ripples to pass in their circular, outward gyration. Happiness is with you and then gone. To expect community to supply one with happiness is unrealistic due to the nature of that emotion. We are not saying that happiness is to be scorned. It is to be savored. But to cling to one happiness is to lose another, as if laughing too long at one jest, one may fail to hear the next cause for laughter.

Rather, we suggest the discipline in community of whatever size of the regular sharing of two things most of all. The food and drink which is symbolic of so many other necessary foods, for the soul, for the mind and for the heart and of the coming together in meditation, in thankfulness and in praise for that which is, which has been and which will be always the same. In that is joy and the heavens are full of this joy. A large portion of your creation has never left that primal joy and dwells in infinite joy. May you be one. May you be one, my children, and may you Love each other, serve each other and cause your events to serve as a message that will aid others who are seeking their own ways.

Monka continued by saying we would like to emphasize that while there is great potential for joy and for companionship in community, these states of emotions and thoughts are transient, and the pursuit of them in or out of community shall result in disappointment as the moments of joy depart, so we suggest to you the wisdom of surprising yourself by appreciating the joys that occur without attempting to retain that state of mind and emotion, for these swings in emotion are of the surface, since in happiness one is still oneself, and even in human joy the importance of this state of mind is that of the stone which causes ripples to pass in their circular, outward movement, so happiness is with you and then gone, but to expect community to supply one with happiness is unrealistic due to the nature of that emotion, and we are not saying that happiness is to be scorned, for it is to be savored, but to cling to one happiness is to lose another, as if laughing too long at one joke, one may fail to hear the next cause for laughter. Now Monka said we suggest discipline in a community of whatever size of the regular sharing of two things which are the food and drink that are symbolic of other foods for the mind, for the heart, and of the coming together in meditation in thankfulness for that which is and will be always the same, for in that is joy, and the heavens are full of this joy since a large portion of your creation has never left that primal joy, so may you be one, and may you Love each other, serve each other and cause your events to serve as a message that will aid others who are seeking their own ways. On April 29, 1990, Q’uo said that we should Love each other:

But if you wish to work for Love, if you wish to serve in Love and Light, Love each other, care for each other, be for each other, advocate each other, burn with Love and passion for the portion of each that wishes to serve. Is this not beautiful? Is this not beyond the understanding?

We are aware that there is much that we have left unsaid and are willing to take questions. However, we cannot use this instrument for this purpose. We, therefore, would attempt to make contact with another instrument in order that questions may be taken, not simply on community, of course, for there may be other concerns which you may wish to share at this time. We leave this instrument and are grateful for this instrument’s willingness to challenge us, to accept us, and to serve as channel for us. We transfer now. We are Monka.

(Jim channeling)

I am Monka, and we greet you again through this instrument in Love and Light. We thank this instrument for accepting our contact and would continue our efforts to be of service by asking if we might answer any queries which those present may have upon the mind at this time?

Carla: Just for purposes of identification, are you fifth density and did you work many years ago with a channel named Richard Miller?

I am Monka, and our level of seeking is that which is of Light and is numbered five, as you noted. We have for a significant portion of your time attempted to contact various groups and channels within groups in order to provide our service. We were those who spoke through the one known as Richard in an attempt to provide information which was congruent with the call by that group and our ability to serve.

May we respond further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. In those channelings which I have listened to that were made in the fifties, you went rather systematically through how to bring up children, the use of barter instead of money, the nature of rapid transit in a more fully articulated technology, and so forth. In other words, you were describing not just a spiritual community within a planetary sphere, but an entire society. We do not wish to remold our society… I’ll just speak for myself. I do not wish to remold our entire society, but rather to mold my life according to the highest spiritual plan which was intended. Is this difference or distinction an important point?

I am Monka. That which is sought is, indeed, that of importance, for as one seeks one shall find. To those who seek in a certain manner is brought the closest approximation possible from those that offer themselves in service. Thus, our experience in previous contacts with your people was one which sought to provide what we could within our range of abilities and to integrate this with what was sought by those whom we hoped to serve. Thus, we now find that our ability to be of service to this group is determined by the nature of seeking that we find within this group. Our services therefore will be of a different nature, relatively speaking, than previously were our services, and we appreciate the opportunity to offer what we have found in our experience in the fashion which the seeking of this group allows.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. I’ve wanted to ask this question for years. I know from the Richard Miller tapes that Monka is a social memory complex of Mars in the fifth density, although I don’t think the Miller tapes said that—they did say that you were of Mars. And so, you must have been in fifth density when the third density of Mars destroyed its own environment. What part could you play in that drama of your planetary sphere of third density, which you probably had some feelings about? What were you able to do, or was it simply something that you watched without emotional feeling of any kind, waiting to be of help, but not asked? I guess what I’m really asking, I want to clarify, is are you still sentimental about being of Mars, even though you’ve gone on?

I am Monka, and we find this query is one which is based upon somewhat of a misperception. This misperception dates back to the original contact that we made with the group previously mentioned in that when our identity was sought, we attempted to give an approximation of the nature of our being. This nature is one which is closely associated with the, shall we say, guardianship of the influence of the planet known to your peoples as Mars. In your rituals of the…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Monka, and we greet each again in Love and Light. In those traditions of your white magical rituals there is the influence of the planet Mars, as you call it, that is seen to have a part to play, shall we say. That part has been, for a great span of time, our part, for each portion of the creation is guided by many influences which serve much as do the parents within your own people’s cultures. Thus, when speaking to the group in your previous times with which we first made contact, we attempted to identify ourselves in the manner of our role as guardians of the planetary influence known to you as Mars.

We attempted in that role to be of what service was possible as the population of that planet moved into its third-density experience, and through that third-density experience began to express the bellicose nature that was eventually to render that sphere uninhabitable by a third-density population, as you are aware. It was not our proper role to save that population from the tribulations that it chose for its experience but was instead to offer ourselves in whatever manner was congruent with the call for service of that planetary population. Thus, we guided where possible and sent Light where possible and healed those wounds that we were asked to heal. We are with this planet that is your home at this time because there are many from the planetary influence of Mars who now reside within this planet’s influence and who now seek the ways of Love with you upon your sphere.

Carla asked: “I know from the Richard Miller tapes that Monka is a social memory complex of Mars in the fifth density, although I don’t think the Miller tapes said that—they did say that you were of Mars. And so, you must have been in fifth density when the third density of Mars destroyed its own environment. What part could you play in that drama of your planetary sphere of third density, which you probably had some feelings about? What were you able to do, or was it simply something that you watched without emotional feeling of any kind, waiting to be of help, but not asked? I guess what I’m really asking, I want to clarify, are you still sentimental about being of Mars, even though you’ve gone on?” Monka replied we find this query is one which is based upon a misperception which dates back to the original contact that we made with the group previously mentioned when our identity was sought, and we attempted to give an approximation of the nature of our being, for this nature is one which is associated with the guardianship of the influence of the planet Mars, so in those traditions of your white magical rituals there is the influence of the planet Mars that is seen to have a part to play, and that part has been our part, for each portion of the creation is guided by many influences which serve much as do the parents within your people’s cultures, and when speaking to the group in your previous times with which we first made contact, we attempted to identify ourselves in the manner of our role as guardians of the planetary influence of Mars. Monka went on to say we attempted to be of what service was possible as the population of that planet moved into its third-density experience, and through that third-density experience they began to express the bellicose nature that was eventually to render that sphere uninhabitable by a third-density population, but it was not our role to save that population from the tribulations that it chose for its experience, but it was to offer ourselves in whatever manner was congruent with the call for service of that planetary population, so we guided where possible, sent Light where possible, and healed those wounds that we were asked to heal, yet we are with this planet that is your home at this time because there are many from the planetary influence of Mars who now reside within this planet’s influence and who now seek the ways of Love with you upon your sphere. On October 13, 2019, Q’uo described how we may learn the ways of Love:

We would suggest that the warrior mentality is one which may be defined as fearlessness, the ability to continue in the face of seeming despair, hopelessness, or failure, to give that which is of Love and of Light regardless of the response of any entity about you. Indeed, to receive any response with Love and Light, for this is the purpose of this illusion: to learn the ways of Love. And, if you are able, under any circumstance, to respond to any catalyst with Love, you have triumphed in a warrior-like fashion over those forces of darkness which would wish for this darkness and separation to prevail upon this planet.

Thus you move forward without fear of rejection, without fear of any type of difficulty that may stop your intense desire to seek and to serve the One Infinite Creator within all entities that you meet, for if you speak to that One Creator in all entities that you meet, in Love and in Light, at some level, the Creator will respond and return your Love and Light in kind, and then the Love and Light of the One Infinite Creator will continue to grow more and more within this planetary influence as it moves more and more into the fourth density of Love and Light and understanding.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: I hate to keep dogging the questions and answers, but what’s your relationship, if any, to the entities of the vibration Yod-he-va-heh or Jehovah or Yahweh?

I am Monka, and our relationship is that of brothers and sisters within the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator. We have worked closely with these entities for a great span of what you call time, most especially in the transfer of souls from the influence you call Mars to the influence that is this planet’s.

May we answer further?

Carla: One last thing and then I’ll shut up. A very capable woman who has been in community for twelve years wrote a letter to Jim and me that we got this week, and she said from her experience that the three biggest problems in community were money, sex and children. Would you care to comment on that in any way…

L: [Sotto voce:] Life.

…or just leave it—it doesn’t matter.

I am Monka, and we would agree with the one known as L that these areas are those most frequently utilized by your people to generate opportunities for what you would call the spiritual advancement, for within these three areas, the identification of the individual self is given the opportunity to either learn the Love and acceptance of those about it or to gather for the self as much protection from and control over other selves as possible. Thus, it is natural that when entities would seek to join each with the other in a closer relationship that those areas would be primary for growth potential.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Monka. May we ask for further queries?

L: How is the instrument doing?

I am Monka, and we find that this instrument is doing well with the type of contact that we have established, that being somewhat deliberate, and we find that this instrument can accommodate several more of your queries if that is acceptable to you.

L: You took the opportunity a moment ago to correct a misconception. Are there any other misconceptions you’d like the opportunity to correct, and, if so, would you trot ’em out now so we can get it straight for a change?

I am Monka, and though the invitation is most gracious, and we warmly accept it and appreciate such an opportunity, we find that our service is most appropriately rendered by attempting to answer those queries which each may present to us, thus signifying that which is of importance in your own process of seeking. Our identity, for example, being that which was associated with the planetary influence of Mars, was not, in our humble opinion, a significant misperception, for it approached that which was in our view appropriate. All information which we shall share will approach that which is true. We remind each that we do not view ourselves as being infallible, thus we shall leave to each of you the determination of that which is important to you to query upon.

L: It’s my understanding from the subject matter you covered earlier, that your—I was going to say “appearance” for lack of a better term—here tonight is partly the result of a desire within this group to develop themselves into a community. Would you give us—whatever you possibly can—your perspective on what our communal desires in that direction consist of?

I am Monka. If we perceive correctly the query that you have asked, we have been asked to describe the call which we have perceived from this group. We have observed within this group what might be termed as a seed. It is one which has within its husk the desire to join with those of like mind, as you would say, and similar means of seeking the truth in order that these qualities might be enhanced, for each within the group is aware that the combined efforts of many can produce far more opportunities for individual growth and service to others than can the efforts of one or two. Thus, the desire has arisen and with those expressing such desire has created the call which we observed and are attempting to answer.

May we speak further, my brother?

L: I have no further questions. Thank you for your time and patience.

I am Monka. We thank you as well, my brother. May we attempt further queries?

S: Yes, Monka. I am studying a religious philosophy called Nichiren Vedaism [Buddhism] founded in Japan seven hundred years ago by a man named Nichiren Daishonin. His philosophy was a chant that we use called “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo,” simply meaning “Everyone without exception has the potential to be a Buddha and life is eternal.” What I would like to know, my question is simply, can “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo,” the chanting of “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo,” open the gateway to intelligent infinity in the third-density experience?

I am Monka and will attempt response to your query, my brother. There are more factors present than would at first glance seem apparent in the repetition of the chant of which you speak. Its specific wording is perhaps of least importance, though significant. The wording itself is that which the will of the seeker focuses the attention upon. When this focus of attention is one-pointed, as it is called, for longer and longer periods of time, the inner meaning or direction of the words becomes seated within the seeker’s being, becoming then a resource upon which the seeker may call in any life experience.

It is the experience of the daily round of activities in an unified and balanced fashion that provides the seeker with the increasing opportunity of unity with all creation or the contact with intelligent infinity, as you have called it. Thus, the chant itself is that which serves as catalyst or that which points the direction for the seeker. The mere repetition of such a chant is much like the push-up. It focuses the attention for the moment, yet the true value of such an exercise is the seating within the seeker’s being of the concept to which the chant points and the providing of the seeker thereby with the means of manifesting this concept in each facet of its life experience.

S asked: “What I would like to know, my question is simply, can “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo,” the chanting of “Nam-myoho-renge-kyo,” open the gateway to intelligent infinity in the third-density experience?” Then Monka said there are more factors present than would seem apparent in the repetition of the chant of which you speak, and its wording is of least importance, though significant, so the wording is that which the will of the seeker focuses the attention upon, for when this focus of attention is one-pointed for longer periods of time, the inner meaning of the words becomes seated within the seeker’s being, becoming a resource upon which the seeker may call in any life experience. Monka continued by saying it is the experience of the daily round of activities in a balanced fashion that provides the seeker with the opportunity of unity with the contact with intelligent infinity, for the chant is that which points the direction for the seeker, and the repetition of such a chant is like the push-up since it focuses the attention for the moment, yet the true value of such an exercise is the seating within the seeker’s being of the concept to which the chant points and the providing of the seeker with the means of manifesting this concept in each facet of its life experience. On February 13, 1994, Q’uo spoke of the purpose of a chant:

More than any one method of medical treatment the philosophical, metaphysical or religious paths of service offer a way to teach those who wish to learn how to call inwardly and move toward that inner room wherein the heart of silence speaks its blessed and hallowed chant: Love praising Love, Love thanking Love, Love having any emotion whatever to Love. The soul which seeks persistently this inner sanctuary, the mercy seat of the heart, is as the one who chooses to go into the grand hall and to set the table for a sumptuous banquet. To the human eye the banquet hall may not exist. To the heart within, beating in faith, the hall shall fill to overflowing and the feast shall take place.

May we speak further, my brother?

S: No, thank you very, very much.

I am Monka, and we thank you, my brother. May we attempt further queries?

Carla: Just a quick follow up. I’ve always been curious about whether certain words or sounds have a vibration which is unrelated to the person speaking the sound or whether the vibration of the sound is only energized by Love?

I am Monka and would respond by suggesting that both are true, for there are, indeed, certain vibrations of sound that are powerful of themselves. There are also entities who may speak any sound and imbue that sound with Love and thereby give that sound power. There are also entities who may misuse, shall we say, any vibration of sound and degrade it to the point that it is robbed of a large degree of whatever power it may have contained.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Monka, and we thank you once again, my sister. We find that we may attempt another query or two through this instrument before it is too fatigued for the clear transmission of our thoughts.

[Pause]

I am Monka. We appreciate the concern that each has for the comfort of this instrument and would take this opportunity to thank each also for being of that nature that has allowed us to speak with you. We are happy to be able to give voice to our thoughts as a service to those with whom we walk the path of seeking. We shall join you again upon your request. Until that time, we shall join you in silence in the Allness of the One. We are known to you as Monka, and we leave you now in Love and in light. Adonai, my friends. Peace and blessings.

(Carla channeling)

I am Nona, and greet you in the Love and in the Light of the Creator. We ask your patience as we vibrate for the healing of the one known as B. This entity is soon to dwell within the form-maker body and the angelic hosts are awaiting this entity with great joy. We are also called for the one known as J and the one known as G. We thank you for your patience as we know this has been a somewhat long meeting. We cease speaking through this instrument and leave you in Love and in Light. We are Nona.

[Carla channels a healing melody from Nona.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “If someone were to counsel us, “I say to you, you must stop your lawsuits. If anybody wants to take your property, let them have it; if they want your home, let them take it; if they take your automobile, let them have it; and they decide to come in and get your jewelry let them have that too, and then look around and see if you cannot give them a few extra things in addition to what they already have taken,” such advice would seem contrary to all reason.

But that is what Jesus tells us to do in the fifth chapter of the Gospel of Matthew, and at this moment we have no way of knowing whether He was right or wrong. We have no way of knowing whether we might not benefit twice over by obeying that very command because most of us have not tried the resist-not-evil way of life; and moreover, until we have reached that state of consciousness, it would probably be very unwise for us to try it.

At first thought, such a teaching might seem to mean that we are to let anybody and everybody walk all over us, defraud and take from us all that we have while we are just the sweet gentle things that permit ourselves to be walked on. But Jesus the Christ never meant that. What He meant was that we should not retaliate humanly, but He did not say what would happen spiritually if His advice were followed. He does not say a single word about what God will do for us when we stop doing for ourselves. He does not explain how the problem will be worked out without invoking the implication, however, is that a spiritual Presence comes to our rescue to lift us up above injustice and dishonesty. Is it really possible for anyone to defraud us if we stand on our spiritual identity as the child of God?

When the soldiers came to seize the Master in the Garden and the sword was drawn in his defense, Jesus refused to permit his disciples to defend Him saying, “Put up again thy sword into its place: for all they that the sword shall perish with the sword. ” To material sense, that would seem as if He were giving them carte blanche to drag Him away and do whatever they wanted to do with Him. But He was not doing that at all. Instead, He was realizing, “I have an Infinite Invisible upon which I rely. I have a divine Something that knoweth my need before I do, and it is Its good pleasure to give me the kingdom.” In that complete reliance He rested.

“Resist not evil” sounds like the most foolish and impractical of human teachings, yet it is the wisest and most practical of spiritual principles. Those who attain a state of consciousness in which they can let the enemy come at them with the armor of the world: with spears, knives, guns or lawsuits and can stand in complete confidence with no resistance can never lose, any more than could David lose his skirmish with Goliath, or than could the Hebrews, who were so greatly outnumbered by the enemy, lose their battle.

As long as we resist evil, we are not living under Grace but under the law; and the very knife that we throw at another will boomerang to pierce us in the chest, all in a blinding flash and out of nowhere. There is no way for Grace to descend upon us if we are indulging the human way of life. We can pray for Grace for a million years, but it will not come to us until we give up using the weapons of the world and arrive at Job’s understanding that He “hangeth the Earth upon nothing.” Then if we are willing to lean back on that nothingness, the Spirit rushes in to pick us up and carry us forward, appearing in and as whatever form may be necessary.”

Later this morning I went outside and Then I set the sprinkler to water the Astilbe Garden and the Hosta Gardens in the back corner of the back yard. Then I moved it to water the Hosta under the Forsythia Bushes in the back yard.

This afternoon I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply to buy some kitty litter. Then I stopped at Walgreen’s Drug Store to drop off a prescription.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 12

Whence The Spirit Shall Blow

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

At the beginning of time the Spirit moved upon the face of creation and Light shone forth upon the darkened portions of the Earth.

The Spirit of the living God is a Light which comes from beyond time, a Light which encompasses all times and places, a Light which may move as it will from past to present, from future to past.

Nothing is closed to the Light of Love, and the Spirit of that Love moves as it wills. Thus, is it ever impossible to know whence the wind of Spirit shall blow nor whither it tends. The only prayer of the Spirit-filled being is a prayer of surrender. For plans may be made, but the Spirit may well overturn the plans of man.

Yet is not the strong action suggested by Spirit more desirable than all the ordered series of actions without the Spirit of Love in the universe?

We leave you in the peace of the mind’s surrender to eternity and the forces of Love, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn, Latwii, Yadda, and Nona channelings from this session come from January 5, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. It is a great privilege to be with you, and we thank you for that you have called us. We hope that our poor words have some use for you and encourage you to discriminate carefully, so that which is not of use to you may be dropped away, for though we have more experience than you, our experience is limited and finite. Therefore, we ask that our opinions be considered as fallible, for we are wrong sometimes. We do not know with the authority of the infinite Creator. Indeed, none of us who dwell in the creation and who still have individuality may know all of the infinite Creator, for we are but splinters of the one infinite Creator. Within each of us is all the knowledge which is contained in the one original Thought which is the infinite Creator. And to the extent that we are able to release our small identities with all their biases and opinions, just so to that extent are we holographs for the one original Thought.

There are many questions my friends; there is but one answer. As the seeker gazes down at the dusty road, at the dust that lies upon their feet and covers their sandals, they may well doubt that road and doubt the security and the promise of the journey of seeking. The staff which is intended to aid may become heavy and even those few belongings which the seeker has to carry with them begin to seem a great burden. And so, the seeker sometimes removes themself from the dusty path which seems to go on forever. The seeker moves into a beautiful valley, well-watered and forested with pastures where spring the small animals, and where the sweet flowers bloom. It is good for the seeker to rest in such a beautiful meadow and smell the beautiful scent of flower and bush and to rest beneath the nurturing and sturdy trunk of one of your trees. Because, you see, my friends, to go upon the journey is to become terribly vulnerable, it is to risk all for no obvious reward, for as you seek, so you shall be sought. As you polarize more and more towards the Light, so your dedication to that Light shall be challenged. The toll the journey takes upon the seeker is never the same from one seeker to another. And when the burden becomes too heavy, it is good that the individual seeker chooses their own pasture and measure their own time of recovery.

It is acceptable and laudable for a seeker who has been overborne by experience not only to rest beneath the tree and smell the sweet smell of the wild flowers but also to fell great trees, and dry the wood, and build the cabin for shelter, for there is no shame in resting until the burden again becomes as nothing, and seeking fills the soul, and mind, and the will. It is not, shall we say, recommended that the seeker goad themself as if they were an ox or a mule, for the spiritual path is narrow and straight, and the difficulty of walking that path is various for each entity. It is not a path to be walked when the will is not strong. Let us then go to the cabin and gaze about its simple four walls. How restful and peaceful is the cabin that you build within your spirits, my friends, the household of your discontent and your pain. How healing it is that you have furnished for yourself the possibility of respite and redemption, for this search shall exhaust you not just one time, but many. Experience shall come upon you as a thief breaks into a house at an unexpected time. Yet no matter what the time, the seeker who has walked the path until his feet are dusty shall also have found his very own meadow, their very own place of healing.

In this session Hatonn spoke of how there is one answer to the many questions we have about how we travel our spiritual journey. They began by saying as the seeker gazes down at the dusty road, they may doubt that road and doubt the security and the promise of the journey of seeking, and those few belongings which the seeker has to carry with them begin to seem a burden, so the seeker removes themself from the dusty path which seems to go on forever, and the seeker moves into a beautiful valley, well-watered and forested with pastures where there are animals, and where the sweet flowers bloom, for it is good for the seeker to rest in such a beautiful meadow and smell the beautiful scent of flower and bush and to rest beneath the nurturing and sturdy trunk of one of your trees because to go upon the journey is to become vulnerable, and it is to risk all for no obvious reward, for as you seek, so you shall be sought, and as you polarize more towards the Light, so your dedication to that Light shall be challenged, yet the toll the journey takes upon the seeker is never the same from one seeker to another, and when the burden becomes too heavy, it is good that the seeker chooses their pasture and measures their time of recovery. Then Hatonn said it is acceptable for a seeker who has been  wearied by experience not only to rest beneath the tree and smell the sweet smell of the wild flowers but also to cut trees, dry the wood, and build the cabin for shelter, for there is no shame in resting until the burden again becomes as nothing, and seeking fills the soul, mind, and the will, but it is not recommended that the seeker  pressure themself as if they were a mule, for the spiritual path is narrow and straight, and the difficulty of walking that path is various for each entity, yet it is not a path to be walked when the will is not strong, so let us go to the cabin and gaze about its four walls, yet how peaceful is the cabin that you build within your spirits, the household of your discontent, and your pain, for how healing it is that you have furnished for yourself the possibility of redemption, for this search shall exhaust you not just one time, but many because experience shall come upon you as a thief breaks into a house at an unexpected time, yet no matter what the time, the seeker who has walked the path until their feet are dusty shall also have found their place of healing. On May 7, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the process of redemption:

The first challenge the seeker has is the self. The first work must be done to forgive and Love the self. That is why a personal symbol of redemption is necessary. Each workable myth creates a means of that redemption. Thus, those who move through that particular program of a belief system experience the emotion of faith. We encourage you to experience the emotion of faith, no matter how slender your faith. Do not make it pretentious or show it upon the outside. Let it be personal, and real, and authentic, and if it takes years in the growing, so be it. You have years. Take them. It is most important to you.

There is a danger to the seeker within the resting and the healing, and that is that there is a temptation for a seeker to feel that the cabin and the meadow and pleasantness and rest are the end of the path of seeking. Indeed, we say to you that that which you know as the Kingdom of Heaven is often harsh and abrasive and may seem decisive, for as you continue urging yourself forward and experiencing the great joy of seeking the one original Thought…

We must pause.

[Pause]

I am Hatonn. I am again with this instrument. We apologize for the pause. The instrument is experiencing some pain, and the state necessary for the transmission of these thoughts was not sturdy enough for our contact to continue in a clear manner. We shall continue.

As one seeks the one original Thought, there is the danger that one may decide that one has found what they have been seeking, and we say to you that in an infinite journey there are pauses between learning experiences, but never the full stop where one may lie back, rest upon one’s laurels and say, “Now—now I understand. Now redemption is complete, and all that I seek I have,” for there is the next learning always. We encourage you to comfort yourself when your journey is arduous, and you need a place to rest. You have that within you and need only construct it in your mind. You may also with your mind and your will construct within your dwelling the tools for healing and for rebuilding the intensity of your faith that there is a path, that truth does exist, and that there is such a thing as Love and the will to seek that which your faith tells you is there.

Although we speak in metaphor, we encourage you who seek to enjoy and praise the comrades that you shall meet along the way, for though each search is different, and each soul has its own truth, beyond words and concepts there is the one original Thought which is Love, which cannot be defined but which can be praised and shared, not by the words, but by the quality of silence between two seekers, for companionship lies between the words, the sentences, the talking, and the doing. Spiritual companionship lies in the resting that one silence may give to another, for all that there is is caught up in that silence, and when another may share it, it is a wonderful thing. Therefore, my friends, you are always alone and never alone. Always alone in that you are unique, and so is your perception of the path of seeking and the truth that you seek. Never alone in that entities both incarnate and discarnate share the intensity of your seeking in their own seeking and are, therefore, closer to you than many of your thoughts, for silence is more intimate than any word.

Then Hatonn said as one seeks the one original Thought, there is the danger that one may decide that one has found what they have been seeking, and we say to you that in an infinite journey there are pauses between learning experiences, but never the full stop where one may lie back, rest upon one’s laurels and say redemption is complete, and all that I seek I have, for there is the next learning, so we encourage you to comfort yourself when your journey is difficult, and you need a place to rest, so you have that within you and need only construct it in your mind, yet you may, with your mind and your will, construct within your dwelling the tools for healing and for rebuilding the intensity of your faith that there is a path, that truth does exist, and that there is Love and the will to seek that which your faith tells you is there. Now Hatonn said we encourage you who seek to enjoy the comrades that you shall meet along the way, for though each search is different, and each soul has its own truth, beyond words and concepts there is the one original Thought which is Love, which cannot be defined but which can be praised and shared, not by the words, but by the quality of silence between two seekers, for companionship lies between the words, and spiritual companionship lies in the resting that one silence may give to another, for all that there is is caught up in that silence, and when another may share it, it is a wonderful thing, for you are always alone and never alone: always alone in that you are unique, and so is your perception of the path of seeking and the truth that you seek, but you are never alone in that entities both incarnate and discarnate share the intensity of your seeking in their own seeking and are closer to you than many of your thoughts, for silence is more intimate than any word. In 82.9-.10, Ra described the one original Thought:

Questioner: Are these central original creations a cluster of what we call stars, then?

I am Ra. This is correct. However, the closer to the, shall we say, beginning of the manifestation of the Logos the star is, the more it partakes in the One Original Thought.

Questioner: Why does this partaking in the Original Thought have a gradient radially outward? That’s the way I understand your statement.

I am Ra. This is the plan of the One Infinite Creator. The One Original Thought is the harvest of all previous, if you would use this term, experience of the Creator by the Creator.

As It decides to know Itself, It generates Itself into that plenum, full of the glory and the power of the One Infinite Creator, which is manifested to your perceptions as space or outer space. Each generation of this knowing begets a knowing which has the capacity, through free will, to choose methods of knowing Itself.

Therefore, gradually, step by step, the Creator becomes that which may know Itself, and the portions of the Creator partake less purely in the power of the original Word or Thought. This is for the purpose of refinement of the One Original Thought. The Creator does not properly create as much as It experiences Itself.

We would encourage you to meditate and praise the silence within, for you truly are a holograph of all that is to be known. As you begin to trust the inward silence, as your mind becomes able to release and praise all the thoughts which race through it without holding on to them, you shall become more and more invested with that silence and with the truths which silence unfolds. This is not a short-term proposition, for one of your incarnations is a brief period during which one might do such intensive work. Judge yourself not then if you must pause by the way or even build a hut against the winter of your flagging faith and will. But live through those times, blaming not yourself and not the path, but realizing that this is part of the experience in an outward and manifested state, which, internalized as catalyst, will more and more inform your being. Rest as long as is necessary but do not allow your spirit surcease from silence, for as you wish to serve the Creator, so you must allow that silence which seats experience within the heart.

That is your one responsibility—to continue the seeking even as you are weak, and weary, and distraught, even as you lie upon your pallet within your hut and feel some blackness within you. Yet always we ask that you consider the possibility of completing each of your days with focused and articulate silence. My friends, each of you came to this group seeking. The group has become one, and in the silence between the words of this instrument the fruits of that seeking are already available to you and physically felt by you in that the energy or what you may call prana of creative life flows now more quickly within your energy web. As you seek together, so are you the Creator which experiences Itself. Shall we ask you to praise yourselves? To magnify your own glory? Indeed, that is what we would seem to be suggesting, for we say that you are the Creator. And yet, can the Creator praise the Creator? Yes, indeed, my friends. Such can be done and should be done, for you are all that is and all that is is within you and is to be praised and cherished. We would give thanks to you for that we have shared in your vibrational patterns. It gives us great joy to experience the beauty of each of you. It is especially joyful to us to visit groups such as yours, for we who serve the Creator cannot but rejoice at those sources of Light which generate themselves within the planetary mist of indifference. You see, my friends, it is not that your planet is negative—it is that so many still sleep and are indifferent.

Now Hatonn said we encourage you to meditate and praise the silence within, for you are a holograph of all that is to be known, and as you begin to trust the inward silence, as your mind becomes able to release and praise all the thoughts which race through it without holding on to them, you shall become more invested with that silence and with the truths which silence unfolds, but this is not a short-term proposition, for one of your incarnations is a brief period during which one might do such intensive work, so judge yourself not if you must pause and build a hut against the winter of your flagging faith and will, but live through those times, blaming not yourself and not the path, but realizing that this is part of the experience in a manifested state, internalized as catalyst, will inform your being, so rest as long as necessary, but do not allow your spirit to cease from silence, for as you wish to serve the Creator, so you must allow that silence which seats experience within the heart. Hatonn went on to say that is your one responsibility: to continue the seeking even as you are weak and lie upon your pallet within your hut and feel blackness within you, yet we ask that you consider completing each of your days with focused silence, for each of you came to this group seeking, so the group has become one, and in the silence between the words of this instrument the fruits of that seeking are available to you and physically felt by you in that the prana of creative life flows quickly within your energy web, for as you seek together, so are you the Creator which experiences Itself, and we say that you are the Creator, and the Creator can praise the Creator, for you are all that is within you and is to be cherished, so we give thanks to you for that we have shared in your vibrational patterns since it gives us joy to experience the beauty of each of you, and it is especially joyful to us to visit groups such as yours, for we who serve the Creator cannot but rejoice at those sources of Light which generate themselves within the planetary mist of indifference, but it is not that your planet is negative. It is that so many still sleep. On October 31, 1974, Oxal said that we are the Creator:

My friends, each person may seem to be a human entity. Yet they are the Creator. Each natural object, each manufactured object, the very air around you, my friends, has a consciousness which is the Creator. You yourself, the originating agency of this Love which you wish to express: you are the Creator.

If you can remember that the one known as Jesus saw each individual entity as part of the Father, then, my friends, you will be able to better express the Love of the Creator.

Those who have need of you; those whom you need, are liars. There is no need, except for the Creator. To understand this is to free oneself from illusion.

We are those of Hatonn, and we would leave this instrument at this time. May joy be yours as you travel your path. May dust cover your feet many times as you walk it, and you may always allow yourself the resting place when experience overwhelms you. You are always safe. But it is good to give yourself permission not only to seek forever forward, but to take your rest when you needs must heal some pain within. We leave you in the creation of Love and Light, for there is nowhere else but the silence of space and time, which is always and everywhere the present moment. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

(Carla channeling)

I Yadda. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of infinite Creator. We have so much trouble with instrument who want us to say we come in the name of Christ. We always end up having to say, “Okay.” But we always wonder, why not Buddha? Why not Mohammed? Why not some postman that we know of in Washington, DC who is good to his children and gives away many Christmas presents to little children he does not know? All are Christ. All are perfect in consciousness. Yes—we come in the name of Christ, for we are the vibration which cannot be reached without going along the path of the Christ.

We not speak long, but we come because we are called, and we thank you. We speak to you of “why families?” There is that question in the group this evening. You know, families sometimes difficult to be in, so why do you have them? Do you have them so you can have people that you like about you? No, my friends, many times people in family not like each other at all. So, what is lesson? Why so important that you have those people that are true kin to you?

We say to you, it is to offer you a chance to learn duty and honor, for with family, you cannot say, “You are not family, so go away!” No, my friends, you have to take care of each other. It may seem like a ridiculous thing, but it is a great learning. If you can feel responsible for each other, then you learn service to each other, not because service is always fun, but because service is freedom. Service is your only freedom, for if you choose not to serve, then you have stopped your progress and are no longer “poh-werizing,” polarizing—hah! We getting better—heh?!

Think it over, friends. Families are a pain in the neck. So why do you want a sore neck? Maybe to get your attention—heh? We leave you. We are joyful and leave you in “glate” joy for the night is full of Light and the shadows are full of Light. We Yadda. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you in that Love and Light that our brothers and sisters of Yadda have left you in. We are also honored to be here and to be able to share our humble words of praise and thanksgiving with you. As always, it is our honor to attempt to serve by also answering your queries. We also remind you that our words are most fallible. We hope that you will take those which have value and leave those which do not. May we begin by asking for the first query?

C: Yes, Latwii. It still amazes me how something can be on your mind and be mentioned during the course of meditation. But family has been on my mind quite a bit here lately. Something has occurred with my family. Each year I experience a form of depression during the holiday season, and usually afterwards I’m not that easy to get along with. But this year the feelings of the holidays were especially deep. It’s almost as if I was just sort of numbed out to everything. And now for the first time in a long time my nerves seem like they’re smoothing out, and things are flowing smoothly at this point. Can you enlighten me on what happened this time that’s different from the times before?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. It has been noted within your culture that the season which is called your holiday season is one during which many find not the joy which the holidays are noted for but find instead a lack of joy and a sense of depression and despair. This is in general due to the fact that as our brothers and sisters of Yadda have mentioned, the relationships that you know with your family are relationships that exist for the purpose of growth, and growth most often occurs as a result of utilizing catalyst that may be of a difficult nature. Yet, if families can withstand the difficult times there is a strengthening that occurs of the individuals and the bonds between them. However, in your holiday season that is noted for its joy, it is likely that those suffering the difficulties within the family structures are more fully reminded that the joy of the season exists not in their experience, and as the joy of the season is advertised widely, the entity so disillusioned becomes constantly reminded that it has fallen short of that which is possible

In your particular situation, we may speak briefly and in general and may suggest that the difficulties that all face have been noted carefully by those within your close family, have been acknowledged openly and have been met with full responsibility of each, thus there has been little taking for granted that which has been before. To clarify. As the difficulties have been acknowledged, there has been less opportunity to be disillusioned, for the Light of truth has shined somewhat more clearly, and the ability to respond to what is seen has been activated and each has thus taken strength from…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. May we ask if we have answered your query sufficiently, my brother?

C: Yes, it helps. It’s… several years ago I became aware that I’m following along in a line of entities who have been trying to work out the same problem for years and years. I know my father has the same problems I’ve had and his father also. And just by feelings that I’m able to pick up, I know that A is also part of this line. I know that you can’t assume a lesson for someone else, but I sure would like to get this line broken, and I appreciate yours, and the help I receive from the other members of the Confederation. I have no question at this time—I just want to say thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother, for the opportunity to share our humble words with you, and we would only comment that the difficulties one may encounter in the relationships in one’s incarnation are more than one might imagine them to be in that there is contained within such seeming difficulties great opportunities to learn service and to give Love, for it is not easy to Love within the circumstances where one finds the misunderstandings passed on from person to person. Yet when one can break the chain of misunderstanding and bind all in Love and compassion, one has used the opportunity provided by difficulty and has transformed that which lacked Love into that which is full of Love.

May we attempt any other query at this time?

Carla: Okay, just a little follow up on C’s because nobody’s jumping in. Is it because that we, our physical bodies, used to be second density and turned to the Light for growth, that the dark days, the short days of winter are the most difficult for so many people or is this something that’s cultural?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that though there is some degree of correctness within your assumption, it is perhaps more accurate to look at the effect of the season upon your mental and emotional complexes as the root of the difficulties which many of your people suffer during the shortened and darkened season of winter. If one will observe the plant world in the time of your winter, the leaves from most trees have fallen; the sap has moved down into roots; and there is a dormancy that approximates death in appearance.

There is a similar occurrence within the mind and emotion complexes of most of your population during this winter season in that the elements of nature, the wind, the clouds, the cold, and the snows tend to drive one’s focus of consciousness deeper down within one’s being in order that the introspective faculties might be awakened more fully to review the harvest of the season of learning just passed. As the harvest is frequently not understood and the seeming difficulties are easily discovered, one then on a most basic level becomes aware that there are those lessons not yet well learned remaining within one’s being. In many instances this awareness of lessons yet to be learned is upon the subconscious level if the entity has in some fashion during its experience consciously ignored or removed the awareness of these lessons yet to be learned because it did not yet wish to face this responsibility. Thus, during the winter season of one’s incarnation, the cycles of learning and seeking are enhanced by the driving of one’s focus inward. When there is difficulty in meeting the lessons yet to be learned, the state of the mind tends to remain in a depressed condition not having fully processed the catalyst of the previous season, shall we say.

Carla asked: “Is it because that we, our physical bodies, used to be second density and turned to the Light for growth, that the dark days, the short days of winter are the most difficult for so many people, or is this something that’s cultural?” Latwii said we find that there is some degree of correctness within your assumption, but it is more accurate to look at the effect of the season upon your mental and emotional complexes as the root of the difficulties which many of your people suffer during the shortened and darkened season of winter, so if one will observe the plant world in the time of winter, the leaves from most trees have fallen; the sap has moved down into roots; and there is a dormancy that approximates death in appearance. Then Latwii said there is a similar occurrence within the mind and emotion complexes of most of your population during this winter season in that the wind, clouds, cold, and snows tend to drive one’s focus of consciousness deeper down within one’s being in order that the introspective faculties might be awakened more fully to review the harvest of the season of learning just passed, and as the harvest is not understood and the seeming difficulties are easily discovered, one then becomes aware that there are lessons not yet learned remaining within one’s being, so this awareness of lessons yet to be learned is upon the subconscious level if the entity has consciously ignored the awareness of these lessons yet to be learned because it did not wish to face this responsibility, for during the winter season of one’s incarnation, the cycles of learning and seeking are enhanced by driving of one’s focus inward, but when there is difficulty in meeting the lessons yet to be learned, the state of mind tends to remain in a depressed condition not having fully processed the catalyst of the previous season. On May 19, 2009, Q’uo spoke of our cycles of learning:

Yet also you may picture this journey as a spiral downward or inward. It is as if you were peeling layers of a many-layered thing like an onion, where all of your suffering and all of your triumph moves you one layer closer to the center of your incarnational lesson. The center remains a mystery, yet as you move through these cycles of learning, there is an equal amount of increased insight and increased challenge.

The increase in the challenge is due to the fact that you are moving ever closer to the center of your incarnational lesson. You have earned the right to deal more directly this time with that which will aid the soul stream, of which you within incarnation are a shell of personality, in comparison to the soul stream. You are as one literally on a journey having packed your suitcases with your skills, your gifts, your relationships, and your challenges. You could not bring everything into this incarnation. You brought those parts of your soul stream which you needed in order to move through this dance, if you will, and do the work you came to do.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Yes, just something that I thought of while you were talking about how this season mimics death. I was thinking about the fact that we celebrate the holy day or holiday of Christ mass or Christmas in the very darkest, almost precisely the darkest, within four or five days, day of the year. It’s almost like the birth of Christ or Christ consciousness is the hope that comes after the little death of winter. And I was wondering whether the historical Jesus just happened on that date, or whether it is placed at this point because it is more needed at this point of the year than any other point of the year. If that’s the case, then it seems to me that one big problem that people have at this time of the year is that they’re not paying any attention to the “holy” part of the holiday, and therefore they don’t get the hope of the baby being born within them—there’s a question in there somewhere, I think.

I am Latwii, and from the statements and the comments that you have made, we draw that which we feel is the query desired. Please ask again if we are mistaken. The birth of the one known as Jesus the Christ was planned for this season in order to present the symbol of birth and re-birth to those for whom this entity lived and died. The season of your winter is, indeed, as the small death, and may be again repeated in the meditative state where one looks within for the harvest of one’s experience and seeks to find Love where Love was not. Thus, the experiences within one’s incarnation which have seemed devoid of Love may be transformed and born again when seen in the crystal-pure Light of the Christed or Christened moment, the moment christened with Love.

Thus, the one known as Jesus made entry into this illusion at the time of your year when the darkness of the season would represent the darkness of knowing, that is, the fabric of your illusion, and was born as a Light unto your world as each may look within to that same Light and see all experience within that Light so that the Love that gives birth to that Light may be found in each experience thus christened.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

M: Latwii, my name is M. Is the Confederation aware of a planetary sphere named Kreeton, K-r-e-e-t-o-n?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that although the query is simple in construction there is some difficulty in giving clear response, for within your people’s culture there are various names given to various planetary bodies, and we find that this name, Kreeton, is one name that has been used to describe a certain planetary influence of which we have some knowledge.

May we answer further, my brother?

M: Yes, Latwii. What density is the planetary sphere Kreeton?

I am Latwii and feel that we may best answer your query by suggesting that this sphere is one with the activated densities of one through five, with the remaining densities in potential form, shall we say. May we answer further?

M: Yes, Latwii. Can you approximate a time frame in age of this planetary sphere Kreeton?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that giving this information in understandable terms is not within the limits of your language. For a planetary entity which has progressed to the point which this one has achieved, it is necessary to move through a great portion of timeless being before entering a great portion of what you would call time. Thus, our answer would be quite meaningless.

May we attempt another query, my brother?

M: No, thank you, Latwii.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

M: Latwii, is the planetary Kreeton of a thought-form nature?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We must respond by suggesting that it is of the same form of manifestation as are the planets within your own solar system. However, one must realize that all forms, be they planets or atoms, are a form of thought, the thought of the one infinite Creator. The use of the phrase, “thought-form” as we believe you intend it is more of the briefer duration, that created by a mass consciousness or the consciousness of individuals such as yourselves, and in this instance, we would suggest that this planet is not of the briefer duration but of the more substantial manifestation.

May we answer further, my brother?

M: Latwii, approximately how far is the planetary sphere Kreeton in distance from the planetary sphere Earth?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find difficulty in giving this information, for once again the means of measurement are most difficult to translate. The general means of describing distance among your scientific community would be the light-year or the distance that light would travel in one of your years. This distance is somewhat difficult to approximate and transmit through this instrument, for our contact is not of the precise nature that would allow an easy translation. The distance is roughly two hundred and forty thousand light years. We believe this is correct; however, we are not adept at using your numerical system.

May we answer further, my brother?

M: No. Thank you so very, very much.

I am Latwii, and we thank you once again, my brother. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Latwii, and as it seems that we have exhausted the queries for this evening, we shall thank each profusely for offering not only the call for our presence, but the queries for our service. We hope that we have been of some small aid in the seeking for truth that each has brought this evening as the great gift. We shall be with each upon request in meditation in order to aid the deepening of that state. We leave this group at this time in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Latwii. Adonai my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Carla channeling)

I am Nona, and we come to offer our healing Love and Light. We would offer it for the entity known as R, and also for the far less serious but still significant discomfort of the one known as M. We also would be offering our presence to the one known as C and the one known as M because these entities have vibrational patterns which are very compatible with our contact. We bid you adieu in Love and Light.

[Vocal healing melody channeled through Carla.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “In the Sermon on the Mount are set forth two entirely different ways of life with no common meeting ground. The one is the ye-have-hear-it-said-of-old way exemplified by the righteousness of the scribes and pharisees, which is the way of the great majority of human beings the world over. It is also the way of almost all religious teachings on Earth today, except for those mystical teachings which rarely reach human consciousness because most people do not seek for a way of life which is such a radical departure from the conventional human mode of living; and, therefore, except among those who follow the mystical path, little, or perhaps more correctly, nothing is known of the I-say-unto-you way of life.

The Master’s great teaching in the Sermon on the Mount and in all the four Gospels is not one of weakness, expediency, or compromise; nor is it one of blindly and meekly letting the world do anything it wants to do to us and of our passively taking all the beating that it wants to give us. Rather is it one in which we resist not evil in the realization that God within is taking care of our interests.

To a person engrossed in materiality, enmeshed in and governed by that tyrannical master, the reasoning mind, this way of life would undoubtedly be quickly judged and condemned as totally and impossibly impractical. At first, it does seem impractical, but let us stop for one moment and try to discover why it is that we feel we must protect ourselves by battling and struggling mentally, physically, or prayerfully. Is not all this based on the erroneous premise that there are two powers in this world? If there were only one power, God, would there be anything to struggle against or to battle? It is true that if we judge according to what we see and hear, there are two powers. But upon what are we basing our judgment? Are we not judging soley by appearances? Are we not judging by the evidence before us? The Master wanted us not to judge according to the appearance but to judge righteous judgment. If we judge righteously, which means bearing witness not to what we see or hear but to what unfolds spiritually from within, we shall soon discover the miracle and the mystery of this teaching: there are not two powers. There is only one.

In the Sermon on the Mount, we are shown the human way of life as we have been living it, but we are also given a glimpse of the spiritual life which can be attained and which is the most practical way of life there is because it is a life lived by a spiritual principle, and that spiritual principle is God: infinite, eternal, universal, omnipresent, omnipotent, and omniscient.”

This morning I set the sprinkler to run while I ran some errands. My first stop at Kroger’s to buy some food for myself. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy more food for myself. My third stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I picked up a prescription, some Kleenexes, and more food for myself.

This afternoon I used the garden hose and watering wand to water the flower gardens beside the parking area in front of my home. Then I used the sprinkler to water the Ruins Mound Garden.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 11

The Details Of Daily Life

I am of the principality of heaven and of the nature of Love. I greet you in that consciousness which is the Love of Christ.

We find within this instrument the experience of wrestling with the dark angel of desire. For as the instrument’s brighter angel desires to tend towards the living Christ, yet the busy bee mind engages wholeheartedly and insistently in wrestling the attention towards smaller and smaller details of the daily life, so that all feeling of continuity and wholeness is lost and the earthen vessel which is the body seems in place for no reason except to attend to a myriad of details.

Yet it is truly said that great treasure may lie within and be reflected from and through just these earthen vessels. And so, the struggle is well continued.

Indeed, the simple knowledge that there is an alternative to a life without a unifying spirit enlivens and beautifies the intentions and thus the deeper desires of the pilgrim. The Holy Spirit of the living God wishes never to intrude but to invite the strength of Love to enliven the drab details of daily life. And so shall it be done. The struggle shall give way again and again to victory.

We leave you in the peace of the spirit’s continuing struggle to seek the full consciousness of Love, for that is only the surface appearance. What one seeks, one shall surely find. Peace to you, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Oxal, Yadda, and L/Leema channelings come from December 29, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Oxal, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is our privilege and our blessing to be called to you this evening, and we thank you for the opportunity to share a few thoughts with you.

This evening we would speak to you about what you call time and space. It is difficult to approximate in your language the resonances of what these two words approximate, for we are speaking of that which is the material out of which your creation is made and that creative intelligence which creates that which is made. It is not unusual, we have found, that among your people time seems to pass more and more rapidly as one’s incarnational experience builds up, and that which is known as time passes. It must occur to many logical minds that the speeding of time is a kind of illusion within your illusion, for one cannot make mechanical objects such as your clocks that speed up the passage of time in concert with each person’s subjective perception of time.

Time and space have a reciprocal relationship and are allegories or analogs of Love and Light. As these forces impinge upon each seeker’s consciousness, they present to that seeker the possibility of experience. Indeed, another word for time is experience. It seems to be untrue that some moments contain more experience than others and, indeed, herein lies the crux of what we wish to impart to you this evening. When there is no distortion in space, each finite moment becomes a unified or cosmic moment and is a thing with the properties of timelessness. It is during timeless moments that experience is seated within the seeker.

In this session Oxal spoke about time and space. They began by saying this evening we would speak to you about time and space, and it is difficult to describe in your language the meaning of what these two words describe, for we are speaking of that which is the material out of which your creation is made and that creative intelligence which creates that which is made, but it is not unusual that among your people time seems to pass more rapidly as one’s incarnational experience builds up, and as time passes, so it must occur to many logical minds that the speeding up of time is a kind of illusion within your illusion, for one cannot make mechanical objects such as your clocks that speed up the passage of time in concert with each person’s subjective perception of time. Then Oxal said time and space have a binding relationship and are analogs of Love and Light, and as these forces infringe upon each seeker’s consciousness, they present to that seeker the possibility of experience, for another word for time is experience, but it seems to be untrue that some moments contain more experience than others, and here lies the heart of what we wish to share with to you this evening, for when there is no distortion in space, each finite moment becomes a cosmic moment and is a thing with the properties of timelessness, so it is during timeless moments that experience is seated within the seeker. On November 21, 2005, Q’uo spoke of the nature the cosmic moment:

What we would wish to do, then, rather than focusing on any detail, is to focus on the general nature of this cosmic moment. You dwell in a time that is coming to an end, and yet in your body, in your mind, and in your heart, you carry the seeds of the future within you.

As you are living your life, breathe in and breathe out, for you are planting seeds that shall be reaped by those that come after you. We ask you to plant the seeds of Love and faith with a happy heart and a peaceful mind.

As you see suffering from the energies of war and from the energies of a planet that is adjusting itself as it must to new energies and new life, we ask you to become ever calmer, reaching deeply down into your store of faith and hope.

Now, catalyst is given to each seeker moment by moment, and one needs only look to your young souls to see what can be made of the catalyst of the moment. Children, being less used to the wasting of moments instinctually approach and perceive each piece of catalyst as that which will become experience. There is an overwhelming amount of catalyst in each moment. The fullness of catalyst available in each moment begins, as the child grows into what you call adulthood, to become more of a burden than a pleasure, and as one is overwhelmed by one’s catalyst, one ceases to process it into experience. In other words, the space required to use one unit of time becomes distorted in a subjective sense so that the experience time offers buckles, and bends, and shrinks because that space with which time is inextricably paired has not room enough for the transformation of that which comes to the ear, and eye, and heart.

[Pause]

We apologize for the delay, but this instrument was distracted for a moment, and we wished to allow a deeper state of meditation to reoccur that our expressions might be clearer or, we should say, as full of clarity as language can form meaning.

When the seeker chooses consciously to use catalyst, that internal space which allows time to pass, is then of sufficient length to accept fully the catalyst and its possibility of being transformed into actual experience. When the seeker becomes bemused or distracted and partakes of the mundane, that seeker eliminates from conscious use much of the catalyst which the process of day-to-day living generates. When the seeker is ready to be conscious of the moment, that present moment being one with itself, that is, full of time and equally full of space, then the seeker has the opportunity to experience a timeless moment in which all time is one. Within this moment an infinite amount of work may be done in consciousness for the gradual transformation of the self into that being which each has the capability of claiming. Yet it is part of your birthright. What is a birthright, my friends, but something with which you were born? A birthright is not something one is given partially or unevenly. Yet a birthright need not be used, just as an inheritance may not be claimed by an heir who does not wish to experience the having of money.

Oxal continued by saying catalyst is given to each seeker moment by moment, and one needs only look to your young souls to see what can be made of the catalyst of the moment, for children, being less used to the wasting of moments, perceive each piece of catalyst as that which will become experience, so there is an overwhelming amount of catalyst in each moment, and the fullness of catalyst available in each moment begins, as the child grows into adulthood, to become more of a burden than a pleasure, and as one is overwhelmed by one’s catalyst, one ceases to process it into experience, yet the space required to use one unit of time becomes distorted in a subjective sense, so that the experience time offers shrinks because that space with which time is paired has not room enough for the transformation of that which comes to the ear, eye, and heart. Then Oxal said when the seeker chooses consciously to use catalyst, that internal space which allows time to pass is then of sufficient length to accept the catalyst and its possibility of being transformed into experience, but when the seeker becomes distracted and partakes of the mundane, that seeker eliminates from conscious use much of the catalyst which the process of day-to-day living generates, yet when the seeker is ready to be conscious of the present moment being one with itself that is full of time and space, then the seeker has the opportunity to experience a timeless moment in which all time is one, for within this moment an infinite amount of work may be done in consciousness for the transformation of the self into that being which each has the capability of claiming, yet it is part of your birthright, but a birthright is not something one is given partially, yet a birthright need not be used. On June 1, 1986, L/Leema described the transformation of our self:

While you are dwelling as space/time beings, the movement into time is a movement into a freedom from time in the illusory sense. We encourage that movement, as it will with continued use facilitate the efficiency with which the seeker may process experience and transform itself, and through the transformation of the self, effect the transformation of the greater consciousness which is that of family, society, nation, continent, planet, and creation itself.

Let us again look at the small child who is greedy of its birthright, and who spends a significant amount of your time in the timeless present moment. In more and more of your young beings at this time, one is able to observe a heightened intensity of seeking and a more rapid translation of catalyst into experience which is seated within the heart. How does one become, then, as a little child? It is written in your holy work known as the Bible that unless one is as a little child, one cannot enter the kingdom of heaven. This statement is simplistic as regards that which is called the kingdom of heaven, but again, language fails to be adequate to meaning and so we must attempt to use words as well as we can.

This is a present moment. What is your catalyst, my friends? Time may be wasted. We listen through this instrument’s ears, and we hear this instrument’s voice relaying concepts, some of which this instrument is unfamiliar with. We are aware of each vibratory complex which makes up each entity within this circle this evening. We hear the blessed sound of the furnace at work warming an otherwise frigid atmosphere. We find in each entity’s mind much unprocessed catalyst. That is what each brings to time. When one seeks distraction from heavy catalyst, one puckers and ruffles the ratio between time and space and time is literally shortened in a subjective sense, for there is less space with which to match it.

Then Oxal said let us look at the small child who is greedy of its birthright, and who spends time in the timeless present moment, so in more of your young beings at this time, one is able to observe a heightened intensity of seeking and a more rapid translation of catalyst into experience which is seated within the heart, for it is written in your Bible that unless one is as a little child, one cannot enter the kingdom of heaven, and this statement is simplistic as regards the kingdom of heaven, but language fails to be adequate in meaning, and so we attempt to use words as well as we can. Now Oxal said this is a present moment, and time may be wasted, for we listen through this instrument’s ears, and we hear this instrument’s voice relaying concepts, some of which this instrument is unfamiliar with, yet we are aware of each vibratory complex which makes up each entity within this circle this evening, for we hear the blessed sound of the furnace at work warming a frigid atmosphere, but we find in each entity’s mind This is a present moment. What is your catalyst, my friends? Time may be wasted. We listen through this instrument’s ears, and we hear this instrument’s voice relaying concepts, some of which this instrument is unfamiliar with. We are aware of each vibratory complex which makes up each entity within this circle this evening. We hear the blessed sound of the furnace at work warming an otherwise frigid atmosphere. We find in each entity’s mind much unprocessed catalyst. That is what each brings to time. When one seeks distraction from heavy catalyst, one puckers and ruffles the ratio between time and space and time is literally shortened in a subjective sense, for there is less space with which to match it. On December 2, 2002, Q’uo spoke of the nature of unprocessed catalyst:

This is impossible to predict before incarnation, either how catalyst will strike the entity within incarnation or to what depth the increased load of unprocessed experience may go. When such bank accounts of undigested experience rest within an entity so that the amount of unprocessed catalyst is over the full line for an entity in terms of incarnational energy then it is that the physical vehicle may gladly accept the disease in order to plead a sensible and timely period upon an incarnational pattern.

This is most helpful for the entity so that healing may occur as would be needed to create an atmosphere within which the entity somewhat healed from its travels in its personality shell through the incarnation may recover itself, take thought after its healing, and consult with its higher self and all guides in the construction of a new incarnation which would address those unresolved catalysts.

We use the term space not only in a physical sense but in a metaphysical sense in which space is analogous to the spaciousness of one’s point of view, or to put it another way, the room or area which is acceptable for using in the transformation of catalyst into seated experience. It is no wonder that so many of your people find time to move faster and faster. Nor is it a wonder that most entities are completely unaware of why this occurs. This is very understandable due to the fact that if one does not process catalyst in this present moment, it will be carried over into the next discrete unit of time/space. If then the catalyst of the second discrete unit of time/space is also unused, the next unit of time/space is increasingly burdened with unprocessed catalyst, and by the time one is counting one’s years with dismay rather than pride most of your people have such a load of old unprocessed catalyst that to open oneself to the catalyst in the present moment is almost unthinkable, and it certainly takes a great deal of courage to begin to open to all the catalyst, old and new, which forms the catalyst of this discrete time/space unit of your incarnation.

There are very few—but it is notable enough that we mention this—who are so efficient in processing catalyst in the present moment that space begins to buckle inward under the burden of successfully approached and used catalyst. In that case, the entity who seeks will find itself in the creation in a true sense for the first time, for when time begins its full operation there is the possibility of spacelessness or the unity of all space. In this distortion lies a compassion which cannot be approached except by those few among your people who have used catalyst with a fervor and enthusiasm and a conscious knowledge of the probity of such an exercise.

Now Oxal said we use the term space not only in a physical sense but in a metaphysical sense in which space is similar to the area which is acceptable for using in the transformation of catalyst into seated experience, and it is no wonder that many of your people find time to move faster, nor is it a wonder that most entities are unaware of why this occurs, for this is understandable due to the fact that if one does not process catalyst in this present moment, it will be carried over into the next unit of time/space, but if the catalyst of the second unit of time/space is also unused, the next unit of time/space is burdened with unprocessed catalyst, and by the time one is counting one’s years with dismay rather than pride most of your people have such a load of old unprocessed catalyst that to open oneself to the catalyst in the present moment is almost unthinkable, and it takes a great deal of courage to begin to open to all the catalyst, old and new, which forms the catalyst of this time/space unit of your incarnation. Oxal continued by saying there are few who are efficient in processing catalyst in the present moment that space begins to buckle inward under the burden of successfully used catalyst, so in that case the entity who seeks will find itself in the creation in a true sense for the first time, for when time begins its full operation there is the possibility of the unity of all space, and in this distortion lies a compassion which cannot be approached except by those few among your people who have used catalyst with a conscious knowledge of the effectiveness of such an exercise. On November 17, 2018, Q’uo described the goal of processing catalyst:

However, we would also suggest that the indigo ray is the seat of that self which is the One Creator manifested as the creative power of Love. This, when realized fully within any seeker of truth, gives such seeker a sense of worth, of self-worth as you might say, that it is able to see itself as the One Creator, whole and perfect, worthy in every respect, in order to continue processing catalyst so that there is the gaining of the knowledge of the self at each lower energy center in a way in which these various aspects of the self are then put together in the indigo-ray energy center, so that there is, then, a wholeness of being experienced by the seeker of truth.

This, then, is the ultimate utilization of the disciplines of the personality, for the personality is that which is adopted within each incarnational pattern as a means by which those pre-incarnative lessons have been programmed to color, in a certain fashion, according to the lessons deemed necessary for the incarnation by the self before the incarnation.

We offer these thoughts to you this evening in hopes that as your time passes upon the face of your clocks, it may be used, appreciated and harvested by your heart. The activity of meditation is a great help in the reconciling of catalyst with the self and the claiming of that catalyst as part of the experiential self which enjoys incarnation at this time. We hope that we have been of some small service to you this evening. We encourage you to discriminate for yourself. If our words have a sense which may aid you, then let that catalyst be used. It is for that purpose we attempt to serve. If that which we have to say does not appeal, we humbly ask that you drop all portions which disappoint or do not ring true. In this instrument’s mind is the first line of one of your popular songs, “Time is on my side.” This is very true, my friends. May you use your time and find timelessness. And with that timeless understanding, may you then turn to that Light which is space and manifest within that enlarged space that which is the harvest of your experience.

Oxal concluded by saying we offer these thoughts to you this evening in hopes that as your time passes upon the face of your clocks, it may be appreciated and harvested by your heart, and the activity of meditation is helpful in reconciling catalyst with the self and the claiming of that catalyst as part of the experiential self which enjoys incarnation at this time, so we hope that we have been of service to you this evening, but we encourage you to discriminate for yourself, so if our words have a sense which may aid you, then let that catalyst be used, and it is for that purpose we attempt to serve, but if that which we have to say does not appeal to you, we ask that you drop all portions which do not ring true, and in Carla’s mind is the first line of one of your popular songs, “Time is on my side,” for this is true, so may you use your time and find timelessness, and with that timeless understanding, may you turn to that Light which is space and manifest within that enlarged space that which is the harvest of your experience. On May 9, 2009, Q’uo described the nature of timelessness:

The so-called timeline is accurate as far as it is able to go, but it will be remembered that first density begins in timelessness and seventh density ends in timelessness. Consequently, there is far more to that heartbeat than linear time. And there is no translation that would enable us or anyone with the power of words alone to do justice to the nature of that timelessness. It can only be grasped as part of the infinity in which the creation exists.

We are those of Oxal, and we leave now that our brothers and sisters may speak through another instrument. We leave you in time and space, in the Love and in the Light of the One that is All. We leave you, knowing that it is impossible to leave you any more than we could leave ourselves, for you are our very selves and we yours. Thus, we cease speaking, yet are always as close to you as your desire would have it be. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Carla channeling)

I Yadda. I greet you in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. We thank your group for calling us to you. We have missed the invitations and are happy to be with you. We not speak long but only a short bit of repartee.

We look at conversation which each has had in recent past, and we talk to you about the law. We are doing better with our accent, don’t you think? Heh! You are all lawyers, you people! Why are you so in love with laws? Do you think that if you obey all the laws of the land, all the laws of a… we must say another word—church. Do you think that if you obey the laws of your church, you will be a good person or one that is capable of advancing into some knowledge of the truth? My friends, there is no truth in that which is finite, for every law is made to be broken, and, indeed, laws are usually after the fact so that you have already broken the laws, and that is why the laws were made.

There is something called faith which defeats all laws. It is not in law but in faith that you are able to concentrate upon the business at hand. The business at hand is your spiritual development. The business at hand is seeking. The business at hand is learning. There is not motivation to learn in the law. You simply follow directions. This is a cookbook life, the law; take a little of Law Number One, take two tablespoons of Law Number Two, mix carefully with a batch of Laws Six, Seven, and Eight, and you will learn?! No, my friends, You will conform. There is a law for you and for you only. But this law is personal, intimate, and can only be found as a product of the faith that there is a truth beyond all that you see and hear. Your path is your law. That which you deem correct is correct for you. Please do not think we are encouraging you to go out and manhandle some small child. This would be breaking the law of man but requires no faith whatsoever. So, what requires faith, my friends? You do.

You close the cookbook. You shut up the mind, and you wait in faith for that meaning and central beingness which will develop within you. Do you think to yourself that you do not have the equipment to have faith? Not so, my friends. You have all that is necessary. We suggest that in your contemplations you look more and more to that within you which says against all visible and audible experience, “This is truth.” We suggest that you continue and continue and again continue, for there is something which we might call grace which aids the heart more and more as seeking continues. With each step taken in faith the next step does not become easier in the sense that your pa…

[Side one of the tape ends]

(Carla channeling)

I Yadda. We again with this instrument. She keep saying to us, “Do you come in the name of Christ?” We continue through this instrument. Taking one step in faith does not mean that the next step will be easier. However, it does mean that the experience of moving in faith will become something upon which one may count. The process is foreign to the everyday life, thus confidence must be built up little by little. We thank you for inviting us, and we especially greet the one known as J, and leave you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. Believe upon yourselves as you believe in the rightness of creation. Believe it will withstand all the deprivations which your people perpetrate. I Yadda. I, an imperishable being, leave each of you who are also imperishable beings. We do not leave you in law. We leave you in the process of faith. Adonai. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am L/Leema and am happy to greet each of you in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. We have been having difficulty making contact with this instrument, for it has been in somewhat of a deeper state of meditation than is its normal practice, and he has had some difficulty in picking up our contact and making the necessary adjustment. We are happy to utilize this instrument to attempt to answer those queries which may be present.

May we now begin?

Carla: I have a question. In the Ra material the question was asked by the Questioner having to do with what percentage of planets or people who are in the first density, second density, and so forth through seventh. And Ra gave the answer that so many people were in first, second, third, fourth, and fifth and stopped there and stated that the last part could not be given. Simple addition indicated that that last portion which could not be given was twenty-four percent of the total mind/body/spirit complexes in creation, and Don never followed up on why the information about this remaining number might have been withheld. Could you shed some light on that stricture? My supposition has always had something to do with spiritual gravity and the turning back towards the Creator so it would be difficult to count, but that’s only a supposition. Any thoughts?

I am L/Leema. We observe the query and find that there are concepts involved which are difficult to describe. The nature of the journey is one of polarity. The positive and negative portions of the journey have expressions which are… we are having difficulty finding the correct terms. The manifestations of these choices are portions of your current experience. Some are available through the penetration of the outer portion of your illusion as a result of the seeker’s own efforts. There is a blending of efforts in a fashion which is almost impossible to describe which occurs at the density of unity, so that the description, for all intents and purposes, is meaningless.

We apologize for the delays and difficulties in utilizing this instrument but find that its level of meditation is somewhat close to the trance level, and it is having some difficulty in maintaining a clear contact not only with our contact but with its own consciousness, shall we say. Therefore, we suggest that this instrument be brought from its state and the meditation assume its completion. We are those of L/Leema, and we thank you for your patience. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “In the time of Jesus, the Gentiles were the  pagans: They were the ones who lived after the flesh; they were the ones who did as so many of us do today; they took thought—much thought—about what they were to eat, drink, and wear. But Jesus reminds us that the truly Christian life is a dependence upon the Infinite Invisible; it is a life lived with the understanding that the Soul within us is our bread, wine, and water, that that Soul is our intelligence, the strength of our body and that which renews the body, making it youthful and harmonious for the purpose of wholesome and fruitful living.

To live without thinking thought is not sensible humanly, but as we find ourselves being fed from those inner waters of life eternal, our life is supported and maintained by the inner Soul-faculties. Living the spiritual standard, we live what in Christian terminology is called the life by Grace. There is that within us which we call our Soul, the substance of our Ife, upon which we can draw as we would upon our checking account, but with this difference. With a checking account we are limited to what we have deposited in the bank, but in the spiritual way of life we are limited only to what God has. We can draw upon our Soul for strength or wisdom, for all in our profession or even in driving an automobile, in running a business or a household.

When the spiritual capacities have been developed, there is absolutely no limit to what can be accomplished because it is not we who accomplish it. God it is who does these things. God it is who goes out invisibly into this world and experiences, and we find ourselves drawn to the place where we should be at the right time, receiving that which we should have.

Paul called it living by the Christ, letting the Christ live our life, letting the Christ do all things—not through muscles, not through bank accounts or by revenge, but through the Christ which strengthen us. To live by the Christ demands that we give up the personal sense of life with its reliance on physical force, human reasoning, and material resources.”

This afternoon I went outside and used the garden hose and sprayer to clean the filters of algae. Then I positioned the schemer so that the fountain would land in the fishpond just short of the plastic board that keeps the fountain from shooting out of the fishpond.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 10

Become Part Of Your Creation

I am the Spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the fullness of the blessing of Love.

There is so much in a day that goes unnoticed; the beautiful color of the sky and the twitter of birds. Seen from the windows of your transport, the world seems surreal and apart from you.

Let it not be that way this day for you. Enter into the majesty and glory of the creation of the Father. Raise your hands in joy to the sky. Feel the life beneath your feet. Touch the living branches of the beautiful trees. Do these things as a blessing to yourself. For this beauty was made for you, and if your eyes do not appreciate it, it must bloom unseen. Become part of your creation this day. Find the peace and the joy that leaps from every living branch.

We leave you in that peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Latwii, L/Leema, and Nona channelings come from December 15, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator, and we thank you for calling us this evening to your group. It is a privilege to share this meditation with you and to be able to attempt to be of service in our small way. We would share with you some thoughts upon the nature of that which you call judgment.

Once there was a boy with a wise father. This young man was eager to be of service and to show through his life the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. He questioned his father concerning all of the choices which presented themselves to him as he looked for the best way to be of service.

“Shall I go to be a soldier to protect my country and to stand for the ideals upon which our nation is founded?”

“That is a way to serve,” answered the wise father. The young man thought. This was not a “yes” nor was it a “no,” but as intensely as he questioned his father, his father would say no more.

“Shall I then be an athlete who can win the ears and the hearts of many because of my skill?”

“That would certainly be a way to be of service,” said the wise father. And he would say no more.

“Shall I learn to play and sing music and share that gift, and as I gain in fame, serve the many who listen to the words of my songs?” asked the young man of his father. The answer was the same.

The well-intentioned son suggested as many ways to be of service as he could think of. The father was no more in favor of one way than another.

Finally, exasperated, the son said, “Well, then, shall I become a hobo, to walk along the streets and the roads of the country and the city and get my living by asking for money from strangers?”

“That would be a way to be of service,” said the unruffled father.

By this time the son had become thoroughly upset. “I shall choose a life of crime,” he said to his father. “I shall take what I wish, go whither I wish, and experience the freedom of being above the law.”

“That is a way to be of service,” came the answer from the wise father.

For many days the young man pondered what he knew to be a secret which he had not discovered and that was how best to be of service. He was capable of doing many things, but could not choose among them.

As the young man’s life progressed onward, it shaped itself. The young man met and wed a young woman for whom he felt passion. Soon there were children, and he found what job he could and worked very hard to support his family. The young man became a man in his middle years, still as dedicated as ever to serving, but unable to puzzle out what he should have done. It was a source of anguish to him, for he knew he was not a wise man, only a good man. He was unable to give his sons the dispassionate advice that his father had given him, for he did not understand his father’s cryptic comment. But he questioned and continued questioning.

And as he grew in years, as his physical vehicle began to show the effects of the planet’s turning around the sun time after time, he felt that he had begun to penetrate that which his father was attempting to tell him so many years ago. So he went to his father, who was by then an aged man, and he said to him, “My father, it has been the goal of my life to be of service, and yet of all the things that I thought of, all of which you said would be helpful to others, I did none. Instead, I did that which I did not comprehend or anticipate. And many things have occurred. And I believe now that I begin to understand that which you say.”

“Very good, my son,” his father said, “Please tell me so that I may bask in the reflection of my wisdom.”

The son, never able to feel quite adult around his father, was suddenly bashful, for he was not sure, after all, that he had begun to understand.

“Well, father,” he faltered, “I think I have found that service is something I cannot see.”

“Very good, my son,” said his father. “What else?”

“Well,” continued the son, “I believe I have begun to see that I do not see very well.”

“Very good, my son,” said the father. “What else?”

The son mustered up his courage. “Father, I believe that I am of service, and that I cannot help being of service.”

“Sit down, my son,” said the delighted father, “for now we can talk together.

The son sat quickly, eager to listen to his beloved father unravel the riddle at last. The father pointed to the springtime flowers nodding in the breeze. “Which one of those flowers, my son, is not beautiful?”

“Oh, they are all beautiful,” answered the son.

“And upon what do you base this opinion?” asked the father.

“The evidence of my eyes and my nose and my touch,” said the son.

The father pointed to several flowers which had withered early.

“Do you find these beautiful?” the father asked.

“No,” replied the son, “they are dead. They should be removed from the bed. I did not see them before.”

“It is time for you to consider,” said his father, “whether you are alive or dead. For if you are alive, you are as beautiful and fragrant and lovely to the touch as any other human that dwells upon the planet. You may be a great president and run a country well; you may inspire by writing or by the singing of songs and poetry you may inspire many. You may heal or you may feed your family. Or, indeed, you may do nothing. But if you are alive within yourself, if you question rather than accepting blindly, then you are precisely as beautiful as those who share your condition, your illusion, and your density.”

My friends, it is most easy to judge yourself and others upon the basis of those things which you have accumulated within you which pass for knowledge among your people. And it seems, indeed, as if there is a striking variance among the great variety of peoples upon your planet, and so the illusion is intended to work. And yet because that which is metaphysical is by its very nature that which is unseen, there is no way to judge oneself or another upon the basis of opinion, for there is no knowledge from seeing the fruits of one’s labor of what the intentions and the desires of the laborer are. That which is action on the physical plane is illusory. That which is intended within the heart is of the spirit and is eternal. When you leave this particular incarnation, each of you shall gain a far wider viewpoint. You shall become what is now called your higher self, and shall dwell far more consciously within the Creator, and you shall judge yourself. You shall not look at the effects which you have produced within your environment, but rather at your state of mind and heart during the incarnational experience.

That, my friends, is why there is no judgment possible among people, and why there is acceptance of any road whatsoever that the seeker wishes to travel in order to enlarge its experience, for many are the experiences, yet one is the quest. Insofar as the quest is for light, for truth, for the one original Thought, just so shall one’s steps spiral ever upward as service is given. And insofar as the seeker looks for the effect, just so shall he be pulled into the illusion and away from service. We come not to give you answers as much as to encourage seeking. We have no dogma, although we do suggest meditation. We offer no structure except that structure which is builded by the student as a result of seeking. We do not want you to accept this or any material, and we take steps to remind groups such as yours that the last thing that we wish is to have our advice followed blindly. We want you to fight with this information, to question it, to doubt it, to work with it, and to make it your own.

In this session Latwii spoke about how we should not judge ourselves as we follow our spiritual path. They began by saying it is easy to judge yourself and others upon the basis of those things which you have accumulated within you which pass for knowledge, and it seems as if there is a variance among the variety of people upon your planet, and so the illusion is intended to work because that which is metaphysical is by its nature that which is unseen, and there is no way to judge oneself or another upon the basis of opinion, for there is no knowledge from seeing the fruits of one’s labor of what the intentions of the laborer are, but that which is action on the physical plane is illusory, and that which is intended within the heart is of the spirit and is eternal, so when you leave this incarnation each of you shall gain a wider viewpoint, and you shall become your higher self, and you shall dwell more consciously within the Creator, and you shall judge yourself, but you shall not look at the effects which you have produced within your environment, but at your state of mind and heart during the incarnational experience. Latwii went on to say that is why there is no judgment possible among people, and why there is acceptance of any road that the seeker wishes to travel in order to enlarge its experience, for many are the experiences, yet one is the quest, and insofar as the quest is for Light, for truth, for the one original Thought, just so shall one’s steps spiral ever upward as service is given, and insofar as the seeker looks for the effect, just so shall they be pulled into the illusion and away from service, but we come not to give you answers as much as to encourage seeking, for we have no dogma, although we do suggest meditation, and we offer no structure except that structure which is built by the student as a result of seeking, but we do not want you to accept this or any material, and we take steps to remind groups such as yours that the last thing that we wish is to have our advice followed blindly because we want you to question this information, to work with it, and to make it your own. On September 25, 2010, Q’uo spoke of the nature of judgement:

The function of judgment is to place within you a picture, a way to think, a way to be, a way to feel that you may examine for what you would consider to be virtue. My sister, there is no escaping judgment. The faculty of judgment or differentiation between various characteristics is part and parcel of the human personality. In an entity which has not yet chosen its polarity of service to others or service to self, the faculty of judgment is largely wasted, because that judgment is not questioned. As the parents taught, so the child thinks. As the society teaches, so the person thinks. As the companies give advertisements, so the consumer thinks. Judgment is infinite. And yet it goes nowhere for it is not questioned, it is not used except as a bat to hit at that which is other than that which the person has been taught to think is good.

In one who is aware, and alert, and attentive, the function of judgment in human experience is to bring from the hall of mirrors a thought to be used as grist for the mill. The seeking entity gazes upon that judgment and asks itself, “Where is the Love in this thought?” For there is Love in every corner, cranny, and nook of creation.

That question takes the seeking spirit on many wondrous side trips. Indeed, the entire hall of mirrors around you is designed for nothing as much as to give you opportunities to feel things, to react and respond to things, so that you have something to chew on, you have decisions to make, you have, shall we say, judgments to hand down to yourself.

In one who is oriented towards service to self, judgment will be refined and honed for its own uses: the inclusion of the elite, the exclusion of all others, the relegating of those others to the condition of slavery and non-humanhood.

In the hands of the mind and the heart of service to others oriented entities, the faculty of judgment is to bring to one’s attention some part of the personality shell or ego, some part of that self, that universal self, that is not yet recognized by the seeker as itself. Thusly, in a way you could see judgment as an indication of spiritual illness—and a solution to that judgment that separates as the medicament of Love that does not vary from the truth one iota, and yet finds the harmony in disparate things.

Spiritual seeking is not a hobby, although many take it up as a hobby and go on to something else when enough time has passed that the hobby becomes tiring and progress slows. We hope instead that you will see the illusion as a hobby that you have taken on for a few of your years. There are many things to play with in this illusion, many variations upon the game of being a human being, as you call yourselves. And if you can look at your experiences as points in a game, each of which offers opportunities for questioning, fighting, tearing apart and working with the experience, this attitude is an helpful one.

We do not wish to denigrate the nature of incarnational experience, we merely wish to point out the nature of the illusion. Learn from your own questions. We attempt to tell you enough of the rules of the game called incarnation that you may have many clues and may form your own tools with which to deal with your experience within this illusion. And yet the instantaneous product that you are, that instantaneous vibration which shall be judged, is a product not of how you have bent and molded the illusion, but of how you have worked within yourself to produce a being that lives a life that is full of light.

Then Latwii went on to say spiritual seeking is not a hobby, although many take it up as a hobby and go on to something else when enough time has passed that the hobby becomes tiring and progress slows, so we hope that you will see the illusion as a hobby that you have taken on for a few years, for there are many things to play with in this illusion, many variations upon the game of being a human being, and if you can look at your experiences as points in a game, each of which offers opportunities for questioning and working with the experience, this attitude is an helpful one. Then Latwii said we do not wish to criticize the nature of incarnational experience, but we wish to point out the nature of the illusion, so you may learn from your questions, and we attempt to tell you enough of the rules of the incarnation that you may have clues and may form tools with which to deal with your experience within this illusion, yet the being that you are, that instantaneous vibration which shall be judged, is a product not of how you have changed the illusion, but of how you have worked within yourself to produce a being that lives a life that is full of Light. On January 6, 1991, Q’uo described the nature of the illusion:

That is to say, that the nature of the illusion is helpful, so that, in order to transcend experience, one must enter freely into experience. The way to realization of the nature of the soul and the nature of the Creator is through the illusion, not around it in any way. It is when moving through experiences that are appropriately valued and respected that one may begin to transcend them, and to achieve an immediate awareness of the presence of Love, that is, the one infinite Creator.

Thusly, if you wish to move from shadow to Light, it is well first to realize that the search shall be in shadow, and that you shall be in the shadow more and more, in pain more and more, as you continue to learn, to evolve, and to grow. You are in pain because of the subjective nature of experience. It is painful to reprogram your computer, but as you go through especially traumatic experiences, or as you go through nontraumatic experiences in attentiveness, you begin to have the motivation to use each opportunity for learning amidst all the shadows.

The most apparently criminal of entities can choose under the press of experience to turn towards the Light and seek and be far more zealous for the good than those who have never experienced living the darker life. Indeed, there is no situation which is not also an opportunity, not just on one level, but several. We do not wish for you to become indifferent to your illusion. That would spoil the effect of the illusion. We wish, rather, that you continue to question that which lies beyond the illusion, to ask and ask and ask again, for as you ask, it shall be given you. And only as you ask shall it be given you; that which is not asked for is seldom used.

We wish for each of you to find the deeper and deeper satisfaction within your internal existence. We wish for you to refine more and more your own ideals of Love, and beauty, and service. But we do not wish to shape for you the life of mind and heart any more than the wise father would tell his son what path to take to be of service. Picture if you will the stars, and planets, and comets, and all the heavenly bodies racing with what seems to you incredible speed through incredible distances, hurtling through space. All is in motion, and yet all is in balance. This is a concept we would ask you to consider. We have suggested that it is a good thing to become a balanced entity, a clear channel through which Love and Light may flow, and yet we do not in any way wish to suggest stasis. Balance is not still, for you are never still, for the infinite consciousness of your mind and deep mind breathes in an infinite amount of time and space with movement.

Now Latwii said the criminal entities can choose under the press of experience to turn towards the Light and seek and be more zealous for the good than those who have never experienced living the darker life, for there is no situation which is not an opportunity on several levels, but we do not wish for you to become indifferent to your illusion, for that would spoil the effect of the illusion, so we wish that you continue to question that which lies beyond the illusion, for it shall be given you, and only as you ask shall it be given you since that which is not asked for is seldom used. Now Latwii said we wish for each of you to find the deeper satisfaction within your internal existence, and we wish for you to refine your ideals of Love, beauty, and service, but we do not wish to shape for you the life of mind and heart any more than the wise father would tell his son what path to take to be of service, so picture the stars, planets, and comets, and all the heavenly bodies racing at an incredible speed through space, for all is in motion, and all is in balance, and this is a concept we would ask you to consider, for we have suggested that it is a good thing to become a balanced entity, a clear channel through which Love and Light may flow, and yet we do not wish to suggest balance because balance is not still, for you are never still, for the infinite consciousness of your mind and deep mind breathes in an infinite amount of time and space with movement. On November 18, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the value of becoming a clear channel:

To describe such an entity by the density to those who honor this entity would be perhaps in some cases to skew this appreciation in an undue manner, which would obscure perhaps the message this entity had to offer. Each entity of this nature comes to serve those of this planetary vibration by hollowing the self in such a fashion that it becomes a pure and clear channel for the one Creator in order that information and inspiration of a certain nature may be offered. This is the message and the purpose of the incarnation for such an entity and each such entity wishes that the message might be delivered as clearly as possible with as little tendency towards distortion as possible.

It is not a wrong thing to seek the cave and become still and learn silence, and that is one path of service. Yet the son who loved a woman and had affection for his children and kept them as he would himself is of precisely as much service as the so-called holy man, if both hearts are equally full of the desire to serve and the continued questioning and discipline and refining of the way to serve. We wish that your movements through this incarnation may be graceful, and that your hearts may be increasingly full of peace as that which you find in the illusion reflects to you that which is within each part of any illusion in the creation. And that is Love. Can you suspend your judgment? We believe you can. Do you wish to? What level of seeking do you wish to pursue? What have you pursued this day? What dreams lie within your heart and what attempts have you made to become clear within yourself? We speak to you but not for you. All the choices are your own. We offer you support and our Love and encourage you to see that same Love and support in all situations.

Any experience which masters the seeking entity to the exclusion of questions and further seeking is not helpful, or shall we say, is of a far more limited kind of helpfulness. We offer you not a structure, not a dogma, but what limited knowledge we have of what consciousness is and how you may seek to evolve that consciousness within yourself within this illusory incarnation. Use what you will and know that that which serves may bear fruit upon the physical plane. Or that same impulse may seem…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

…or that same impulse may seem to flounder and be useless.

There is that within you which is imperishable and which carries the traces of those energies of love and service to others. These shall not be judged within this illusion, although many attempt that judgment. Therefore, take courage and find each your own truth and then use the truth that you have found to seek and seek and seek again, and to forge for yourself a life that is its own teaching, that is an expression, inwardly speaking, of all that has been learned.

Latwii went on to say it is not a wrong thing to seek the cave and become still and learn silence as that is one path of service, yet the son who loved a woman, and had affection for his children, and kept them as he would himself is of as much service as the holy man, if both hearts are equally full of the desire to serve and the continued discipline of the way to serve, so we wish that your movements through this incarnation may be graceful, and that your hearts may be full of peace as that which you find in the illusion reflects to you that which is within each part of any illusion in the creation, and that is Love, so: “Can you suspend your judgment? We believe you can. Do you wish to? What level of seeking do you wish to pursue? What have you pursued this day? What dreams lie within your heart and what attempts have you made to become clear within yourself?” Then Latwii said we speak to you but not for you, and all choices are your own, so we offer you support and our Love and encourage you to see that same Love and support in all situations. Latwii continued by saying any experience which masters the seeking entity to the exclusion of questions and further seeking is not helpful, and it is of a more limited kind of helpfulness, yet we offer you what limited knowledge we have of what consciousness is, and how you may seek to evolve that consciousness within yourself and this illusory incarnation, so use what you will and know that which serves may bear fruit upon the physical plane, for there is that within you which is imperishable and which carries the traces of those energies of Love and service to others, but these shall not be judged within this illusion, although many attempt that judgment, so take courage and find your truth, and then use the truth to seek again, and forge a life that is its own teaching, that is an expression of all that has been learned. On October 28, 2023, Q’uo described the energies of Love:

And you may then ask that these energies move out of your heart into those around you not just in your family or your community but move around the world to whatever location you feel needs the energies of Love, and acceptance in the seeing of each other as the Creator. You may ask that those energies of the full moon move into your blue-ray energy center. That of communication, that of clear communication, that of inspiration, that of sharing with anyone who would care to know about your spiritual journey more of what makes you tick, shall we say, in a spiritual sense so that you are able to speak to any person that asks you a question whether it is a friend, a neighbor, a stranger on the street, or any person whatsoever that requests any kind of a spiritually oriented kind of information.

We hope you are a little uncomfortable with this message, for that which is physical dislikes change. And what we urge upon you is continual reexamination which encourages change, perhaps not change in the outside world of experience, but certainly change that is equally uncomfortable within the heart, and the mind, and the understanding that you may have of how things work, of who you are, and of what service really is. May you seek in joy and may joy be added unto you, for the Creator laughs with great joy at every question, for so the Creator questions Itself and learns about the Creator.

Latwii concluded by saying we hope you are a little uncomfortable with this message, for that which is physical dislikes change, and what we urge upon you is continual reexamination which encourages change, perhaps not change in the outside world of experience, but certainly change that is equally uncomfortable within the heart, and the mind, and the understanding that you may have of how things work, of who you are, and of what service really is, so may you seek in joy, and may joy be added unto you, for the Creator laughs with great joy at every question, for so the Creator questions Itself and learns about the Creator. On May 11, 2024, Q’uo spoke of who we are:

This is, indeed, the case for as your mind, your body, and your spirit change. These changes are enhanced by your opening to them, seeking them and using the biophysical changes that you have mentioned as a means of accelerating the seeking of the change, the manifesting the expanding, and the making more personal and powerful your own journey of seeking both within yourself for more meaning of who you are, and without yourself for more meaning of how that you is expressing itself in the world around you.

Thus, you could say that your DNA is being multiplied in a fashion which gives you more opportunities for transformation. You are becoming, through your own faith and will, a greater being that has the opportunity to share the Love and Light of the Creator more fully and freely with those about you.

The portion known as Latwii bids farewell to this group in order that our brothers and sisters of L/Leema may speak through the one known as Jim. We leave you in the creation of Love and Light. Adonai. Adonai, my friends.

(Jim channeling)

I am L/Leema, and we are grateful to greet each of you in the Love and the Light of our one Creator. We are pleased to be able to utilize this instrument in our attempt to be of service. We hope that we may serve by answering those queries which those present may find value in the asking. May we now attempt any such query?

Carla: Well, since no one is asking an important question, I’ll ask a real dumb one. At the beginning of the meditation, I heard from Hatonn, Oxal and Latwii, and waited a considerable amount of time after I’d opened myself for channeling before I was able to tell which one was going to speak. Towards the end of the channeling, I again was feeling both Hatonn and Latwii. Who was talking? Was Latwii talking? And why was Hatonn there if Latwii was talking?

I am L/Leema, and we find that in this instance your ability to perceive the entities of Confederation known as Latwii and Hatonn was correct, in that those of Latwii were utilizing your instrument for the vocalizing of thoughts while those of Hatonn were providing a service by stabilizing, shall we say, the carrier wave or depth of your meditation in order that those of Latwii might utilize your instrument without undue fatigue, for their message was of some length and their normal effect upon your instrument is somewhat wearing. Therefore, it was decided that those of Hatonn could aid best this evening by anchoring the contact in your instrument by somewhat stepping down the voltage, as you may call it.

May we speak further, my sister, upon this query?

Carla: No, that fits with what was happening inside my head. Thank you.

I am L/Leema. We are grateful to you, my sister. Might we attempt another query?

Questioner: Yes, I have a question. I spoke earlier of an experience I had during meditation, either a dream, a consciousness projection, or something in which I seemed to see what I perceived as a very large space craft. Could you comment on this? If this was a dream was this, indeed, basically the same as a projection? Your thoughts.

I am L/Leema. We find that with this experience you are entering into a realm of your own subconscious mind in which were present those elements necessary for the interpretation and initiation of a somewhat expanded mode of perception that you are currently in the process of utilizing for another type of resource upon which to call in your seeking of what is known as the truth.

As an entity proceeds along this journey of seeking in a sincere and diligent fashion, there are opened to such a variety of avenues which can provide the information in the precise fashion which the entity will understand, and through which the entity may continue in its mode of seeking. Thus, this particular experience was but one of many which have the purpose of offering new opportunities for gathering experience and information that might prove helpful in answering those inner queries both asked and unasked.

May we answer further, my brother?

Questioner: I’m not sure if I completely understand. In other words, I believe you’re saying that the experience that I had was the work of my subconscious or my higher self of commenting on the validity of the direction that my seeking has been taking? Because I definitely had some doubt about some of the material I was reading, even though at the same time I fully believed it was possible. So, are you saying that this was the way I had of telling myself, telling my everyday self that this was, indeed, one of many valid ways of proceeding along my path? I believe that was what you said. Is that correct?

I am L/Leema, and we find that you are in part correct. However, the experience of which you speak was not so much a verification of the information which you had recently read as the experience was itself an outgrowth triggered by that information, and an outgrowth which is in itself an outgrowth that is in itself a portion of your journey which is now opening before you in response to your continued desire to seek what is called the truth.

May we answer further, my brother?

Questioner: No, I think I understand. Thank you.

I am L/Leema, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: I’d sort of like to follow up on that a little bit. Carl Jung suggested that UFO’s were archetypical, and by that he meant subjective but projected. He felt that each archetype had some function. You speak as a UFO entity. If you are part of an archetype, what function does the visual UFO play? What function does it have?

I am L/Leema, and we find that you have asked a query which has many ramifications, for there is the experience of a phenomenon by many which is known generally as the UFO phenomenon. There are those who experience this phenomenon, or portions of it, in many unique ways and thus utilize this experience in fashions unique to the needs and perceptions of each who experiences it. Those who move in service in the crafts which are perceived as UFO’s are of many sources and natures. Many take the form or shape that is most easily perceived by the subconscious and conscious minds of those to whom they reach in service, and thus they are perceived in an outer fashion in a manner which shall cause the least distortion and trauma to those witnessing their presence. The message or service which is imparted is the portion of the experience of greatest import.

Again, this message may be perceived in many ways. As each entity is a portion of a greater mind that is archetypical in nature, each individual entity may utilize a portion of that mind or seek from a portion of that mind a message of the nature that matches their needs. Thus, various areas of one’s mind or being, shall we say, may be seeking, and various deeper portions of that mind or being may respond in a fashion which seems to be external to the self, and, indeed, many responses to such seeking may be aided by entities external to the seeker. Thus, there is a blending of response to a seeker’s call that blends both the seeker and its perceptions with a greater portion of that same seeker and those who guide this seeker and who are drawn to it according to the nature of the seeker, what is sought, and those who respond.

Carla asked: “Carl Jung suggested that UFO’s were archetypical, and by that he meant subjective but projected. He felt that each archetype had some function. You speak as a UFO entity. If you are part of an archetype, what function does the visual UFO play? What function does it have?” L/Leema replied by saying there is the experience of the UFO phenomenon, and there are those who experience this phenomenon in unique ways and utilize this experience in ways unique to the needs and perceptions of each who experiences it, for those who move in service in UFO’s are of many sources and natures, so many take the form that is easily perceived by the subconscious and conscious minds of those to whom they reach in service, and they are perceived in an outer fashion in a manner which shall cause the least trauma to those witnessing their presence, for the message which is shared is the portion of the experience of greatest importance. L/Leema went on to say this message may be perceived in many ways as each entity is a portion of a greater mind that is archetypical in nature, so each entity may seek from a portion of that mind a message of the nature that matches their needs, for various areas of one’s mind may be seeking, and various deeper portions of that mind may respond in a way which seems to be external to the self, and many responses to such seeking may be aided by entities external to the seeker, for there is a blending of response to a seeker’s call that blends both the seeker and its perceptions with a greater portion of that same seeker, and those who guide this seeker, and who are drawn to it according to the nature of the seeker, what is sought, and those who respond. On September 20, 1987, Q’uo spoke about our greater mind:

Each entity is utterly responsible for itself. The influences of early, late, and middle childhood, all influences whatever, let us say, are designed as catalyst, chosen by the self before incarnation, and encountered while the mind dwells within an illusion which keeps the entire mind from knowing how the greater mind hoped that the lesser mind would react. However, you will find that you and those who helped you before your incarnation used a fairly heavy hand with the hints that point the seeking self to do the work along the lines that were intense before incarnation. Again and again throughout an incarnation, you will find that there is a return and again a return to a particular theme of learning about Love and service, something that is difficult, something with which you grapple, and each time that you face it, you understand just a bit more, and you recognize the bones beneath the flesh of catalyst, so that you can say, “Aha, I know this anatomy. I have healed the break in these bones before.” And thus, little by little, you work with that lesson which you have given yourself to learn, healing more and more the distortion that you have wished to heal, and turning more and more to a clearer, more lucid perception of the great thought of Love, which is the life of all creation.

I am L/Leema. May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: I’ll have to read that one. Thank you.

I am L/Leema, we thank you, my sister. Might we attempt another query?

Carla: Not from me.

Questioner: Well, I have a couple of things I’d like to ask, but at this time I don’t think I know clearly just what I want to ask, so I believe I’ll put it off until another time.

I am L/Leema. We are happy and humbly so to have been able to speak with this small but vibrant group. We are hopeful that our meager attempts to serve have had some small success, and we again remind each that we do not have final answers. Our opinions and experiences are most fallible. Use those which feel the most helpful—leave the rest. We shall join you again. In joy we leave you. In Love and in Light we leave you. We are those of L/Leema. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Every time we believe that there is something or somebody to be gained or won—some name, some fame, some fortune—we are at that very moment in violation of the spiritual principle of life which is givingness. As the offspring of God, the Spirit of God made flesh, all that God is we are, and all that God has is ours. To believe otherwise would be to break that relationship of oneness in much the same way as the prodigal son did when, thinking and believing that what he had was his own even though given to him originally by his father, he lived his riotous life, spent, and wasted his substance.

So it is with us, even if we begin by realizing that God is our wisdom, our supply, and God is our this, that, or the other thing, and then forget to continue acknowledging our Source and instead claim it and use it as if it were our own, often what we do is to deplete and exhaust that supply because in claiming anything as our own we thereby cut ourselves off from the Source, and such separation results in limitation.

In understanding God as the Source, there is nothing that we are spending—not strength, years, wisdom, substance, or life-force—because it was not ours to begin with. It is all pouring through us as we call upon it from an infinite Source. To believe in a limited supply is very much like gauging the water supply of a community by the amount of water in the pipes at any particular moment, forgetting that there is a reservoir close by and that that reservoir is constantly being replenished from the never-failing source of the rain and snow.

The conviction that it is our intelligence, our wisdom, our strength, our vitality, and our years that are being used stems from the ignorant belief that we of ourselves are something, and that the length of our life can be determined by using that generally accepted threescore years and ten as a measure. Had we been taught from the beginning the lesson that the Master has so plainly given us of our true relationship to God—that it is not our life that  is being lived but God’s life; it is not our strength that is being used, but God’s strength; it is not our understanding or supply that is infinite but God’s; and that we are but the instruments through which God pours It’s life forth to glorify Itself—we would long ago have realized that it is our function to live, not as ailing aging human beings, but as the image and likeness of God drawing upon God for our daily wisdom strength, and supply.”

At 10 am I went into the living room and arranged the chairs to accommodate the attendees who will be attending our last public channeling meditation of the season that starts at 1 pm today.

Today we had two instruments and six attendees. Some of the questions that were asked of Q’uo were: “How can we know that we are channeling our guides?” “What did my out of body extraterrestrial experience mean when I was 19 years old?” “What does Q’uo think about the government’s release of UFO experiences?” and “How can I tell it is my higher self that I am channeling?” I really enjoyed all of the spiritual seekers that were here today. I hope to see all of them again at some point in the future.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 9

You Are The Holy One

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness which is divine Love.

Sometimes it may seem that troubles surround you, that your easy path seems hedged in at every turn and filled with boulders difficult to climb over and impossible to remove.

It may seem to you that you are then comfortless. This is not so. The Spirit of Jesus the Christ lives in the world this day, this moment, and for you. You are the holy one we have come to comfort. You are the seeking saint we hope to console. You are the doubting spirit we hope to renew.

Share your responsibilities, your troubles and the difficulties of your path in prayer with those of us who love you most dearly. In that sharing there shall be joy amidst hardship and strength amidst weakness.

In joy, in strength and in peace we leave you now and ever. Amen.

[Carla chants a vocal melody.]

I am Nona. We send vibrations to the one known as R. We are with you in Love and Light. Adonai.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings come from December 8, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator, and it is a great blessing for us to be able to make contact with you and to speak some humble words to you that may or may not have some significance to you at this time. We hope we may be of service to you, and it is in that spirit that we speak, as always.

Outside your domicile at this time the trees stand dignified, stately, and without reserve in their winter’s clothes of bark and root. The roadside shines pale in the dim light of your short day and your moon creates its special magic, shining luminously at this time of your year. All those things in your world of nature have gone home for their season of gestation and inner growth. Within the Earth the slow process of transformation has begun. And that which is home to the seed and tree nurtures, heals, and protects the delicate life within its mantle of soil.

And what of you? Each of you seeks a home. Let us go on a journey to find that most precious of all things. Each of you came into the incarnation in a geographical place, and some call this place home, and yet the new consciousness of the babe does not hold the concept of home and geography. The place where one of you may grow up may seem to be home, a home to which you return from time to time, a home which still feeds you in some way. And yet most of you find that one cannot find home once one has left it. As one grows, one finds work to do and many find a home in work. Many find themselves relaxed and comfortable in the work situation as they are not when they enter the domicile in which they dwell. Many others as they are grown make homes for themselves and again attach themselves to geography. Your people may call this putting down the roots or settling down.

In this session Hatonn spoke about how we can find our spiritual home. They began by saying outside your home at this time the trees stand stately and without reserve in their winter’s clothes of bark and root, and the roadside shines pale in the dim light of your short day, so your moon creates its magic, shining luminously at this time of year, for all those things in your world of nature have gone home for their season of inner growth, yet within the Earth the slow process of transformation has begun, and that which is home to the seed and tree nurtures the delicate life within its mantle of soil. Hatonn went on to say each of you seeks a home, so let us go on a journey to find that most precious of all things, for each of you came into the incarnation in a geographical place, and some call this place home, yet the new consciousness of the babe does not hold the concept of home, so the place where one of you may grow up may seem to be home to which you return from time to time, a home which still feeds you in some way, and yet most of you find that one cannot find home once one has left it because as one grows, one finds work to do, and many find a home in work, for many find themselves comfortable in the work situation as they are not when they enter the home in which they dwell, but others make homes for themselves and again attach themselves to geography, so your people call this settling down. On August 4, 2004, Q’uo described the nature of the concept of a home:

It is in this wise that we would confirm the feelings of the one known as P concerning his tendency to be one who develops an ever-stronger, shall we say, home within the particular geography within which he has found himself, so that he may be ever more able to feel that safety which is connected with the concept of home in an emotional sense and also in a spiritual sense. The land and the energies of any area are quite individual and alive, and the one known as P has been able to enter into the spirits of the land and the energies living upon that land wherever this entity has been. We would simply assure the one known as P that in any geographical location which resonates for this entity, the same enmeshing and familiarizing insertion into the niche within that particular geography will be forthcoming, as it is a gift connected with the challenge of being from elsewhere and has been brought into incarnation as a gift of personality where that ability to bond with the spirit of a location is given as an endowment of the personality shell.

And then, finally, there are many who find homes with other souls along the path of seeking. And so, it matters not where one is, for one has always the joy of the presence of the loved mate or friend about which to spin the home. We would like to take you further than this, my friends, in your search for home. We would like to take you into the smallest atom, to stand within that nexus of energy and to be given the eyes to see the path of creative power of articulated Light. This is your home, my friends, this is part of your home. We would take you with us away and further away, coming away from the planetary surface, moving towards that which you see as blackness. And as you move into what you call outer space and gaze back upon your beautiful planet, yours is now the larger view. You are a citizen of all that there is. And lest you think that geography has any lingering contact with home, let us bring you with us and fling ourselves all into unimaginable reaches of space and time, further than the largest of your telescopes can see, beyond the range of any human experience. You may fall into a planet of fire—and yet that is home. You may come upon a planet of ice as cold as absolute zero—and that is your home, your hospitable and welcoming home.

Now let us come back, slowly, so that you may see first your solar system and then the beauty of your planet. Let us walk among the streets of your cities and look into the faces of your people. Look into the eyes of the man who is poor and you see the Light of home. Gaze into the eyes of a couple in love. You are still home. Exchange glances with one who rapes and murders and lives a dark life. You are still home, for you are a citizen of the creation. You are part and parcel of everything that there is. What must needs be stripped away from the concept of home is all concept of physicality, for home is that which is invisible to the physical eye and unknowable to the physical apparatus. Your metaphysical home is a thing of mystery and omnipresence. You cannot leave home. There is no home to find. All places are familiar and all souls a part of you. How then can you shape your mind to ignore all of those rational and sensible signals of experience which inform you of a chauvinistic love for geography, political ideology, or any of the other reasons you may choose a physical home?

Then Hatonn said and there are many who find homes with other souls along the path of seeking, and it matters not where one is, for one has always the joy of the presence of the loved mate or friend about which to share the home, for we would like to take you further than this in your search for home, so we would like to take you into the smallest atom to stand within that nexus of energy and to be given the eyes to see the path of creative power of articulated Light, and this is part of your home, yet we would take you with us further away, coming away from the planetary surface, moving towards that which you see as blackness, and as you move into outer space and gaze back upon your planet, yours is now the larger view, for you are a citizen of all that there is, but if you think that geography has any contact with home, let us bring you with us and fling all of us into unimaginable reaches of space and time, further than the largest of your telescopes can see, beyond the range of any human experience. You may fall into a planet of fire, yet that is home, or you may come upon a planet of ice as cold as absolute zero, and that is your home. Hatonn continued by saying let us come back, slowly, so that you may see your solar system and then the beauty of your planet, and let us walk among the streets of your cities and look into the eyes of the man who is poor, and you see the Light of home, so gaze into the eyes of a couple in love, so you are still home, and exchange glances with one who rapes and murders and lives a dark life, but you are still home, for you are a citizen of creation, a part of everything that there is, and what needs to be stripped away from the concept of home is the concept of physicality, for home is that which is invisible to the physical eye and unknowable to the physical apparatus because your metaphysical home is a thing of mystery and omnipresence, for you cannot leave home, since there is no home to find, so all places are familiar, and all souls a part of you, so: “How can you shape your mind to ignore all of those rational and sensible signals of experience which inform you of a prejudiced love for geography, political ideology, or any of the other reasons you may choose a physical home?” On June 8, 1986, Yom described the nature of articulated Light:

Light itself, being alive and being the first creature created of Love, forms all that there is. It furthermore in its creative freedom surrounds and interpenetrates in original form the structures which have been created by the influence of Free Will upon Light. Thus, all that there is is not only made, mechanically speaking, of articulated Light, but is also interpenetrated by limitless Light, which some among your students of metaphysics call prana. We have, then, a vast array of crystalline structures, for you may term each atom a beginning crystalline structure, that is, the active elements are just beginning, some being without the need to bond with other elements, are themselves articulated. Each element has the capacity to bond with other elements and form either non-crystalline or crystalline structures.

We cannot see for you, and yet the silent ear and the closed eye hears and sees impeccably. Have you allowed your eye to see and your ear to hear this day, this day that is filled with all the joy that the word home suggests? We ask you to realize that that which is native to you, that which is part of you, that which is part of your life plan as devised by your higher self and offered as a feast for you, will come to you and will be your physical home. You may be fortunate in your geography, in your choice of mates, in your choice of professions, or in any of those ways which may make you find an identity or home. And yet, until you look for a home, for that in you which is eternal, that in you which is most precious, and that in which partakes of the mystery of the one infinite Creator, you have not begun seeking your true home, nor have you earned your citizenship in the creation.

And why should you look for a home that is so abstruse? May we say to you that it is, in our humble opinion, of utmost importance to place your consciousness where you feel you may find value in progressing and evolving spiritually. We do not suggest that you cease seeking harmony in your geographical location, in your work, or in relationships. Rather, we suggest that overshadowing any of these considerations is the home of your soul or spirit. Many there are who would have no idea of what I say, and to those people, we say, “Enjoy your sleep. Wake up when you wish to wake up, and let no word of ours interfere with the pleasure of your dreaming.” For seeking one’s spiritual home means the discipline of transformation, a transformation in thinking which eliminates limitations and makes all things in creation one great gigantic being full of Love, creative energy, and thought whose consciousness is evolving and whose great heart is beating and will continue to beat infinitely. This is the eternal home of the spirit, and you shall see one end of the creation to the other, one refinement of understanding after another, and always desire shall power you. Desire to seek beyond the bounds of your physical illusion for your identity and for your sense of security and home.

Hatonn went on to say we cannot see for you, yet the silent ear and the closed eye hears and sees impeccably, so we ask you to realize that part of your life plan as devised by your higher self and offered as a feast for you will come to you and will be your physical home, so you may be fortunate in your geography, in your choice of mates, in your choice of professions, or in any of those ways which may make you find a home, and until you look for a home, for that in you which is eternal, that in you which is most precious, and that in which partakes of the mystery of the one infinite Creator, you have not begun seeking your true home, nor have you earned your citizenship in the creation. Now Hatonn said it is of utmost importance to place your consciousness where you feel you may find value in evolving spiritually, but we do not suggest that you cease seeking harmony in your geographical location, in your work, or in relationships, so we suggest that casting a shadow over any of these considerations is the home of your soul, and many there are who would have no idea of what we say, and to those people, we say, “Enjoy your sleep. Wake up when you wish to wake up, and let no word of ours interfere with the pleasure of your dreaming,” for seeking one’s spiritual home means the discipline of transformation in thinking which eliminates limitations and makes all things in creation one great being full of Love whose consciousness is evolving and whose great heart is beating and will continue to beat infinitely because this is the eternal home of the spirit, and you shall see one end of the creation to the other, one refinement of understanding after another, and always desire shall power you, so desire to seek beyond the bounds of your physical illusion for your identity, your sense of security, and home. On August 5, 1984, Latwii described the great being full of Love:

As the viewpoint is widened and as Love is seen in those places and beings in which it was not previously seen, there is less and less seen to be a threat, until finally, all is seen as one Being, full of Love, and that Being is not only the self and not only a Creator which exists outside the self, but is all things, all thoughts, all experience. Thus, each seeker begins with a narrow point of view and travels the path of truth which then allows the experiences that will aid the seeker in widening the point of view and the point of Love.

As always, we suggest that the quickest and most efficient way to empower this desire to seek is meditation, and we encourage you to do that regularly, for there is much about which you may get excited within the illusion, but if your consciousness of yourself is that of a citizen of the creation, a co-creator with the One Who Is All, how can you then be so far removed by emotion from your home? The illusion may seem to take many homes away from you, but in reality you have never left home, you have merely veiled part of it from yourself so that you may come to an illusion and refine some lessons concerning how to Love one another. And how shall you Love one another, my friends? Freely and gladly, with a clear conscience and a pure heart. How wonderful that would be. The bare trees lean towards the whole creation in that Love and the seeds beneath the sod sleep contentedly in that same Love.

We have so much more consciousness than a tree or a seed. It is a question to ask oneself—why cannot we have the consciousness of purity which encompasses your natural life upon your planet? Lords of creation, you have been called, and like the lords, the gods, and other beings in your midst, you squabble and fight and do not see the Creator in each other and do not find a home in each other’s hearts many times. Seek harder, my friends. Seek your home, for your identity and your home are one.

Now Hatonn said we suggest that the most efficient way to empower this desire to seek is meditation, and we encourage you to do that regularly, for there is much about which you may get excited within the illusion, but if your consciousness of yourself is that of a co-Creator with the One Who Is All, the illusion may seem to take many homes away from you, but in reality you have never left home, for you have veiled part of it from yourself, so that you may come to an illusion and refine lessons concerning how to Love one another, and you shall Love one another freely and with a pure heart, so how wonderful that would be, for the trees lean towards the creation in that Love, and the seeds beneath the sod sleep in that same Love. Hatonn continued by saying we have more consciousness than a tree or a seed, and it is a question to ask oneself—why cannot we have the consciousness of purity which encompasses your natural life upon your planet? Then Hatonn said lords of creation you have been called, and like the lords and other beings in your midst, you fight and do not see the Creator in each other, for you do not find a home in each other’s hearts, so seek your home, for your identity and your home are one. On March 25, 2007, Q’uo said that we can see the Creator in each other:

And so the couple that wishes to express sacred sexuality and to become entities who serve in a certain way in the environment of planet Earth agree together, very consciously, to set forth on a journey together in which they woo each other with true affection and patience, in which they see the Creator in each other, and in which they feel the power of the Creator’s Love and the Creator’s Light. Each mate dedicates itself to loving the other unconditionally.

We would leave at this time, so that our brothers and sisters may speak. We leave you in the creation, produced by extravagant free will, born of Love, fashioned of Light. We thank you, and we leave you in peace, Love and Light, at home wherever you are and whoever you are. We are known to you as those of Hatonn. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we also greet you in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is again our privilege to join this group, and we are eager to begin with any queries which those present may have value in the asking. We hope that we may serve in some small way this evening, my friends. May we accept the first query?

Carla: Okay, I’ve been thinking lately, and especially today, about making 1986 a special year in that I would make more special efforts during the year to do more transformational work and get a better idea of who I am, and where I want to go. Could you comment on that and give any suggestions in general that you might find appropriate?

I am Latwii, and weare aware of your query, my sister. In the great search, each seeker shall find many ways to accelerate that journey. It is helpful from time to time to take a specific action that will have as its only goal the revealing of self to self, or as you have called it, the transformation of the small self into that which it truly is, the one Creator. The taking of time and the making of effort to construct a channel through which greater realizations might pour forth is most helpful to those who have consciously sought for a great portion of the life the truths that underlie all that which is known in your illusion as life.

The power behind such thoughts and actions is the power of your desire and your intentions, for by such desires are you moved in any direction according to the desire. As you have moved over a portion of time in a conscious fashion, it becomes more and more necessary for succeeding movements to be the product of further conscious choices. Thus, one who has consciously evolved over a period of time will find it difficult to maintain progress without further conscious choice and the setting aside of such portions of time in order that such desire might be further defined and might further enhance the evolutionary process. That you choose is of primary importance. What you choose and how you choose to make this progress manifest is of secondary importance, yet is important in its own way according to your unique needs. Thus, we can reaffirm the heart of your intentions or the desire to know the One and to serve the One in all is that portion of the seeking that is crucial and is that which is received that will be made manifest according to the strength of the desire, and as conscious attention continually focuses upon this desire, the seed shall be nurtured and shall produce the fruit. The fruit then shall further empower the journey as it nourishes the desire to know.

Carla asked: “I’ve been thinking lately, and especially today, about making 1986 a special year in that I would make more special efforts during the year to do more transformational work and get a better idea of who I am, and where I want to go. Could you comment on that and give any suggestions in general that you might find appropriate?”  Latwii replied in the great search, each seeker shall find many ways to accelerate that journey, so it is helpful to take a specific action that will have as its only goal the revealing of self to self, or as you have called it, the transformation of the small self into that which it truly is, the one Creator, for the taking of time and the making of effort to construct a channel through which greater realizations might pour forth is helpful to those who have consciously sought for a great portion of the life the truths that underlie all that which is known in your illusion as life. Now Latwii said the power behind such thoughts and actions is the power of your desire, for by such desires are you moved in any direction according to the desire, and as you have moved over a portion of time in a conscious fashion, it becomes necessary for succeeding movements to be the product of further conscious choices, for one who has consciously evolved over a period of time will find it difficult to maintain progress without further conscious choice and the setting aside of such portions of time in order that such desire might be defined and might enhance the evolutionary process, and that you choose is of primary importance, but what you choose and how you choose to make this progress manifest is of secondary importance, yet it is important in its own way according to your unique needs, for we can reaffirm the heart of your desire to know the One and to serve the One in all is that portion of the seeking that is crucial, and it is that which is received that will be made manifest according to the strength of the desire, and as conscious attention continually focuses upon this desire, the seed shall be nurtured and shall produce the fruit, so the fruit shall empower the journey as it nourishes the desire to know. On August 6, 1989, Latwii described our desire to know the Creator:

The desire that is at the heart of each life experience is in truth for each entity the desire to know the Creator, to know the self, to know the purpose for the life. Many have called this the seeking for the Holy Grail. This desire is at the heart of all creation, for it is the desire of the Creator, which is all creation, to know Itself. There are as many means of fulfilling this desire as there are portions of the creation.

There are many entities, such as those gathered here this evening, who have put form to this desire in a manner which has meaning to the entity. The form will undoubtedly vary from one entity to another because of the uniqueness that is the hallmark of this creation. Though the forms may vary there are certain attributes, shall we say, that are fundamentally of necessity in order for entities to take pleasure in sharing the parallel journeys that are moving each entity closer toward the desire to know the Creator. The ability to accept that which is other than and different than and even to find a fascination in that which is different from the self, is of paramount importance. The ability to open the mind and the perceptions to alternate expressions of selfhood and of the desire to know the Creator is far more important, shall we say, than sharing each step of the journey in a congruent fashion, for there is the enrichment that comes from contrast and comparison that does a great deal to enhance the journey of each because of the other’s differences.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. The second part of the question had to do with the tools that one might use for making the seeking more manifest. To be more specific, although I don’t know whether that helps or not, I was thinking about trying to write some things down on a regular basis, keep records of any important dreams, and any important thoughts, and maybe let a few automatic handwritings come through, and of course study the Sunday meditations and see how they’re going. Could you suggest other tools or suggest tools that are especially efficacious?

I am Latwii, and my sister, we would suggest that for any who has such a desire as you have described, the utilization of the phenomenon of dreams is most helpful, for if it is known that during the time you call sleep that one may do work in consciousness, and if it is consciously sought, the dreams that one experiences can be utilized in order to enhance the waking process of learning and serving, for within the state of dreams one is able to receive information in a fashion which is unlike most forms of communication in that the communication may proceed through the subconscious mind and by certain configurations produced there reveal to the seeker those areas within the self which remain dark and mysterious and await the discovery and then shall become portions of a transformed being.

Within the dream state it is also possible to receive the aid of those which serve as guides and guardians for the incarnational self. These entities, as well as the subconscious mind, stand ready at all time, as you would call it, to lend assistance to the conscious seeker in direct proportion to the strength of the desire of the seeker to know. The assistance is usually given in a manner which the seeker is most familiar with, thus inspirations and ideas and hunches from time to time are experienced by one who seeks in a manner that does not consciously utilize the dreams. If these dreaming experiences are made available to the seeker through its own desire, communication can proceed from these sources in a much more, shall we say, rich and fulfilling manner.

Carla also asked: The second part of the question had to do with the tools that one might use for making the seeking more manifest. To be more specific, although I don’t know whether that helps or not, I was thinking about trying to write some things down on a regular basis, keep records of any important dreams, and any important thoughts, and maybe let a few automatic handwritings come through, and of course study the Sunday meditations and see how they’re going. Could you suggest other tools or suggest tools that are especially efficacious?” Now Latwii said we would suggest that for any who has such a desire as you have described, the utilization of the phenomenon of dreams is helpful, for if it is known that during the time you sleep that one may do work in consciousness, and if it is consciously sought, the dreams that one experiences can be utilized in order to enhance the waking process of learning and serving, for within the state of dreams one is able to receive information in a fashion which is unlike most forms of communication in that the communication may proceed through the subconscious mind and reveal to the seeker those areas within the self which remain mysterious and await the discovery, and then they shall become portions of a transformed being. Latwii continued by saying within the dream state it is possible to receive the aid of those which serve as guides for the incarnational self, so these entities, as well as the subconscious mind, stand ready at all time to lend assistance to the conscious seeker in direct proportion to the strength of the desire of the seeker to know, and the assistance is given in a manner which the seeker is familiar with where inspirations are experienced by one who seeks in a manner that does not consciously utilize the dreams, yet if these dreaming experiences are made available to the seeker through its own desire, communication can proceed from these sources in a more fulfilling manner. On September 1, 2018, Q’uo spoke of the use of dreams to solve our problems:

If there is a kind of trauma within your life experience that seems so large and difficult with which to deal that you need extra help, shall we say, from your subconscious, in perhaps another fashion, we would recommend that you utilize your dreaming experiences. Take then, the tablet and the pencil, placed beside the bed, perhaps with a lighted source of some kind, a flashlight, shall we say, and be prepared to record any dream that comes when you are preceding the sleep time with mental contemplation upon the trauma that you have experienced. Your dreams can give you these clues, as can the automatic writing, as can the intuitional flash.

You have many sources upon which to draw, including your inner guides and those angelic presences that are drawn to you because of the nature of your own being and your seeking. Look, then, with both the conscious and subconscious minds, to the experience of being able to ask with a whole heart, from those portions of yourself and your guidance that they may aid you in your conception and perception of additional information that may aid your growth.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Yes. I had asked a friend of mine to go on this transformational journey with me, and I wondered if there was more chance for polarization working with a companion than there is working alone or if it is all the same?

I am Latwii, and we find that it has been well said, my sister, that those who of like mind together seek shall far more surely find. That which one misses is more likely to be noticed by the other and vice versa. Thus, the old saying that two heads are better than one is surely true in any such endeavor, and we heartily encourage the joining of companions upon such a journey.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, as always, my sister. Is there another question?

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We find that the queries this evening are few. Yet we are not discouraged, my friends, for we know that the work that is done in any metaphysical sense is not measured in any ordinary terms. We thank each for inviting our presence this evening, and we hope that we have provided some small measure of service. We, as always, suggest that one take the portion that has meaning and leave all that which has none from our words. We thank you again for your gracious and ever-present invitation to join you in your meditations. We shall be with you again. We are those of Latwii. Adonai vasu borragus.

[Tape ends.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “In the Sermon on the Mount the Master made a clear distinction between the Old Testament teaching, the ye-have-heard-it-said-of-old way, and the new teaching of My kingdom which is not of this world—something different from being merely a good person humanly, and living by the standard of two powers. Here was a complete departure from the old Hebraic teaching; here was a whole new standard which took no cognizance of either good or evil.

We can know how close we are to My kingdom by observing to what degree we still react to good and evil. How joyously do we react to the good, and how much are we disturbed by the bad?  In what measure are we becoming indifferent to either the human good or the human evil?

There is a spiritual kingdom, and dwelling in it would make us completely indifferent even to the good things of life. Only at the beginning of our journey on the spiritual path do we think that the ultimate goal is the improvement of our human experience, that doubling our income is a good demonstration or that having our heart, liver, or lungs function a little more normally—or even perfectly according to human standards—represents spiritual demonstration and is an indication of progress on the spiritual path.

The true demonstration that we should be seeking is not merely the increase of dollars or an improvement in health as desirable as they are, but rather it should be a rebirth, an entrance into that state of consciousness which is the My Kingdom not of this world.

If we want merely to be humanly happy, healthy, and wealthy we should remain nominal Christians because trying to follow the teaching of Christ Jesus demands a tremendous price, a strict and a disciplined way of life. True, there are inner joys untold and inner peace beyond the imagination but for a long time there will be a Soul-stirring struggle with the little devil called self—a struggle with the personal sense of “I,” “me,” and “mine”

We are responsible to a large extent for our lives as we find them at this moment, not responsible in the sense that it is necessarily the mistakes that we have consciously or unconsciously made or our deliberate transgressions and offenses, as much as because of our ignorance of life and life’s principles which has made us an easy prey to world beliefs. Had we been properly taught from infancy, and had we possessed a knowledge of spiritual law, we would have learned to avoid many of the discords in our experience. Certainly, the bulk of our trouble has been due to our ignorance of life, and even some of our good fortune may have come through what the world considers luck or fortuitous circumstances.

From our earliest years the desirability of being a go-getter, having a strong personality being dynamic, knowing what we want and going after it, and the importance of getting, achieving, and accomplishing have been impressed upon us, whereas those very qualities may be responsible for some of our problems because through these acquisitive traits of character we have undoubtedly violated spiritual law. Not only the bread that we have cast upon the waters has been gathered unto ourselves, but very often, depending upon the extent of our cleverness and oftentimes unscrupulousness, we have maneuvered so as to capture some things that belongs to others, and in doing this that violation of spiritual law was bound to react upon us. Similarly, whenever we have pushed or elbowed someone aside mentally or physically or reached out for that which is rightfully someone else’s in that degree have we also violated spiritual law.

Even that for which we have legally and legitimately struggled was sometimes the very thing that destroyed us because inasmuch as we are infinite and, according to the teaching of the Master, have within us all that the Father has, and any attempt to add to that infinity is in itself a violation of the law of God. To be spiritually attuned and live in accordance with the laws of God we must begin with the realization that all that the Father has is embodied within us—the bread of life and the wind of inspiration—the whole kingdom of God is established within us. Then instead of starting out in life with the idea of gaining, getting or achieving, we would reverse that, and our attitude would be one of serving, giving, bestowing, sharing, and co-operating. We would be living out from our withinness in the confidence and assurance that our joy is in sharing and cooperating. In such a state of consciousness our good on the human plane would be the reflex action of our giving and receiving.”

Later this morning I went outside and transplanted the Pansies in one of my flowerpots on the front porch to the small garden beside the parking area in front of my home. Then I transplanted a tray of Impatiens into the flowerpot where I just removed the Pansies.  Then I water both with fertilized water. Then I ran  two errands with my first stop being at Kroger’s where I bought some food for myself. My second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought more food for myself. When I got home I vacuumed the first floor of my home.

This afternoon I used Venus to cut all of the grass in the Magic Kingdom, as Carla always called our property. Then I used Huff and Puff to blow all of the walkways clean.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 8

The Garden Of The Spirit

I am of the principle of the full consciousness of Love.

I am the garden of your heart. I am the fountain of joy. I dwell in the midst of experience, and no creature is far from me at any time.

The difficulties of experience may seem like many waters separating the soul from Light, separating the thirsty one from wholesome drink. And yet the water of troubles is shallow. And with the feet under one, the soul may stand up into good air and see the fountain of life.

Know that if you are in trouble of any kind today, it is a shallow and unstable trouble, a mere shadow waiting only for the heart to pound with courage and faith, that the feet may be gathered under one and the soul’s body be thrust upright.

For truly it is said that man has never left the Garden of the spirit in any but the most shallow sense. A little round of salvation may seem large. Yet because it is a perfect circle you have never been without it.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from December 1, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We paused with you, my friends, to enjoy the plangent silence of the harmony of this group and the haunting sound of your wind chime. As you remain warm and protected within your domicile, the harsh winds of winter begin to cause the environment about you to become less hospitable to your form of chemical life which you enjoy within this illusion.

There are times, my friends, when there are severe patterns of internal weather as well, for the illusion is as dense within the mind as it is without the mind unless steps which we have recommended time and again are taken. Let us begin with simple principles. There is that which is unchangeable. This is not within your presence, but this is what you seek. Yet upon the sphere which you call Earth, all that you see is changeable, and all that you see within yourself from time to time may seem to be all too changeable and undependable. If that which you seek is that which is unchangeable, then there must be tools which can be used within the illusion to find that kingdom of unchangeability which is findable within the illusion. These tools are the will to know and the faith to believe that grace, or kindness, cosmologically speaking, will offer you that which there is to know.

This instrument has experienced an ongoing series of lessons in the art of facing an illusion and accepting an illusion. Most of those upon your planet who seek will find periods wherein their will is not equal to the task of processing the catalyst which they have to process. When the force of will breaks down the illusion is complete, many things may be distorted. Moreover, this process does not continue and then stop. It is steadily degenerative and is a bleeder of polarity in that that which consists of the worry, the fear, the apprehension, and has the nature which subtracts positivity from an entity which harbors and continues to harbor the more serious of fears and apprehensions. This message is not for those who are still asleep, for those who sleep learn precisely from the catalyst which we are urging the seeker to consider facing with a renewed vigor of will. Those who sleep, having no consciousness of a need for will, react in a random manner, learning at a somewhat slow rate the lessons of love.

In this session Hatonn spoke of the nature of traveling our spiritual path. They began by saying there are times when there are severe patterns of internal weather, for the illusion is as dense within the mind as it is without the mind unless steps which we have recommended are taken, so there is that which is unchangeable, but this is what you seek, yet upon Earth, all that you see is changeable, and all that you see within yourself may seem to be too changeable, and if that which you seek is unchangeable, then there must be tools which can be used within the illusion to find that kingdom of unchangeability which is findable within the illusion, so these tools are the will to know and the faith to believe that grace will offer you that which there is to know. Then Hatonn said Carla has experienced a series of lessons in the art of accepting an illusion, so most of those upon your planet who seek will find periods where their will is not equal to the task of processing the catalyst which they have to process, for when the will breaking down the illusion is complete, many things may be distorted, yet this process does not continue and then stop since it is degenerative and is a bleeder of polarity in that which consists of the fear and has the nature which subtracts positivity from an entity which continues to harbor the serious fears, but this message is not for those who are still asleep, for those who sleep learn from the catalyst which we are urging the seeker to consider facing with a renewed vigor of will, yet those who sleep, having no consciousness of a need for will, react in a random manner, learning at a slow rate the lessons of Love. On June 6, 1982, Latwii spoke of the nature of the lessons of Love:

The lessons of your density are the lessons of Love. When enough of your people learn to Love one another, then the entire creation sings and resounds with that harmony, and each atom rejoices and seeks to join more fully with each part of creation. Therefore, by whatever means is available to the entity; each entity might therefore send the Love and Light to the one creation in which your planet resides, to your planet itself, to each entity upon its surface, indeed into the self, and thereby assure the unification of all that is.

However, we speak to those who have already seized that path and named that path for their own, that path which leads towards truth. When one is overcome by the illusion it may well seem as if one is doing some violence to one’s inner self by imposing upon it affirmations and meditations. This is to a certain extent worth some consideration. An entity which is experiencing catalyst may well wish to declare a period of examination of thoughts and behavior. During this time, it is best to allow the self to be without influence from within or from without. We recommend this sort of analytical overview as taking no more than a period within one of your days. We do not recommend retaining the lack of affirmation, the lack of seeking, for the nature of the illusion can be seen and the poignancy of experience grasped within a relatively short time.

When the entity is convinced then that all that is observable has been observed, it is time for the entity to recall that which invigorated and enlivened the entity and sent it upon the journey in the first place, for it is easy to begin a journey, but it is difficult to retain the energy of the journey until one has made a complete and irreversible choice of polarity. The fidelity of will is most important. Thus, we suggest to those whose head is bowed with some anguish, difficulty, or pain, that the faculty of mind and observation be applied, but then the mind be cast back to the memory of joy, and peace, and love which is the frequent fruit of the seeker. This is the fuel which is internal and organic and not applied from without, which enables a suffering entity to make its own affirmations, to seek again its own silences, and to bring into being an entity built about the center of seeking.

Then Hatonn said we speak to those who have already seized that path and named that path which leads towards truth, and when one is overcome by the illusion it may seem as if one is doing some violence to one’s inner self by imposing upon it affirmations and meditations, so this is worth some consideration, for an entity which is experiencing catalyst may wish to declare a period of examination of thoughts and behavior, for during this time it is best to allow the self to be without influence from within or from without, and we recommend this analytical overview taking one of your days, but we do not recommend retaining the lack of seeking, for the nature of the illusion can be seen, and the sadness of experience grasped within a short time. Hatonn continued by saying when the entity is convinced that all that is observable has been observed, it is time for the entity to recall that which enlivened the entity and sent it upon the journey in the first place, for it is easy to begin a journey, but it is difficult to retain the energy of the journey until one has made a choice of polarity, for the fidelity of will is important, so we suggest to those whose head is bowed with some pain that the faculty of observation be applied, for then the mind is cast back to the memory of joy and Love which is the fruit of the seeker because this is the fuel which is internal and not applied from without, which enables a suffering entity to make its own affirmations, to seek again its own silences, and to bring into being an entity built about the center of seeking. On July 4, 1992, Oxal spoke of the nature of our center of seeking:

All are fellow seekers in the spiritual world. All of the distinctions which can in the veiled experience seem so important vanish into utter nothingness, leaving but a full democracy of spirit. One seeks, then, with all of creation, and the seeking of all creation is within one.

We ourselves seek with you as we attempt in reaching out to you and in reaching within ourselves to touch this center of seeking, and to allow it beingness that it may be the more our beingness, which we most happily share with you as you have most happily shared your beingness upon this occasion with us.

We ask those who suffer to free themselves if it takes a day, a season, one of your years, or longer, for the self which is buried in the illusion which suffers without thought is opaque, and the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator shines not through opacity but through transparency. Turn and turn again and once again and always again to the seeking that has occupied your ideals, your desire for knowledge, and your seeking of Love, for although you continue experiencing when sunk within the illusion, the processing of that experience is greatly slowed without the retaining and developing of desire. The need for desire, fresh each day, does not fall away when the student is not an introductory student. Indeed, the need for purer and purer seeking grows as the student begins to partake somewhat of that for which it seeks.

My friends, we speak for the most part for those who are beginning upon the path of seeking. We attempt within the clumsy confines of your language to identify terms to express inspiration that words cannot encompass. And yet, there are few indeed among your people in third density which are able to sustain the keen point of seeking in a steady state over the period of an incarnation. Therefore, we speak to the most experienced and the most learned of seekers. The key to upsetting experiences is that they separate the experiencer from the seeker within. The experiencer is a small portion of the personality unless it is linked within the seeker within.

Hatonn continued by saying we ask those who suffer to free themselves if it takes a day, one of your years, or longer, for the self which is buried in the illusion which suffers without thought is opaque, and the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator shines not through opacity but through transparency, so turn to the seeking that has occupied your ideals and your seeking of Love, for although you continue experiencing when sunk within the illusion, the processing of that experience is slowed without the developing of desire, for the need for desire does not fall away when the student is not an introductory student, yet the need for purer seeking grows as the student begins to partake of that for which it seeks. Then Hatonn said we speak for those who are beginning upon the path of seeking, and we attempt to identify terms to express inspiration that words cannot encompass, and there are few among your people in third density which are able to sustain the point of seeking in a steady state over the period of an incarnation, so we speak to the most learned of seekers, for the key to upsetting experiences is that they separate the experiencer from the seeker within, yet the experiencer is a portion of the personality because it is linked within the seeker within. On January 1, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the seeker within us:

Each seeker pursues a path that wends its way through experiences according to the programming that it has provided itself and according to the guidance that it receives in a loving and wise manner from those unseen spirits whose hands yet ever enfold the seeker within their protective and nurturing grasp. We would recommend that when you desire to communicate to others your experience or understanding of any quality or concept, whether it be of relationships, of commitment, of seeking, of desire, or of whatever nature, that you give fully and wholly of yourself with as much clarity as is possible and also with the qualification that that which you give is your opinion and your learning, for it is a dynamic process that one is engaged in as one pursues the path of the seeker of truth, and this dynamism is a fundamental necessity for one who would teach and instruct others, for if one teaches what one is learning, then one is engaged in a living and growing process, rather than the recapitulation of dead facts which have little bearing upon one’s life experience.

And so, my friends, when the air seems to grow dark, and the winter of the soul sets in, know once again that all seekers are ever beginners and that the simplest of rules, if we may use that word, apply. Seek and seek and seek yet again. And do not feel that you have let yourself down when you have fallen away from the seeking wrapped up in overwhelming experience, but without judgment and without impatience, turn again to seeking. And from that seeking, from that meditation, from that inner silence, draw once again from the inexhaustible supply of love and joy. The kingdom which is all of Love and joy awaits within you—but you must seek it.

We give you encouragement and sympathy, oh you who dwell within that which seems to be and yet is not. How very dim the Light is and how very much there is to be seen as one seeks along a trail seemingly plunged in darkness—and yet this too is an illusion. Determine, therefore, to voice that within yourself which is your best, and persevere. Remember one difference between the beginning seeker and the seeker who has chosen his path. The beginning seeker may go from knowledge to knowledge, from system to system because this is the first step in seeking, to find the correct path for the entity who seeks. But once the path has attracted the seeker, and the path has been taken by the seeker, that special and unique path which each seeker chooses alone, it is well to retain that path to the end of the incarnation. Developing, learning more, adding always to the depth of experience, but letting the intellectual mind and its limitations give way to the constant stream of acute perception which is available to one who seeks in fidelity along its unique path.

Now Hatonn said when the air grows dark, and the winter of the soul sets in, know that all seekers are beginners, and the simplest of rules apply, so seek and seek again, and do not feel that you have let yourself down when you have fallen away from the seeking wrapped up in overwhelming experiences, but without judgment and without impatience, turn again to seeking, and from that seeking and from that meditation draw from the inexhaustible supply of Love and joy, for the kingdom which is Love and joy awaits within you, but you must seek it. Now Hatonn said we give you encouragement and sympathy, oh you who dwell within that which seems to be and yet is not, for how dim the Light is, and how much there is to be seen as one seeks along a trail plunged in darkness, yet this too is an illusion, so determine to voice that within yourself which is your best, and persevere, but remember one difference between the beginning seeker and the seeker who has chosen their path, for the beginning seeker may go from knowledge to knowledge because this is the first step in finding the correct path for the entity who seeks, but once the path has been taken by the seeker, that unique path which each seeker chooses alone, it is well to retain that path to the end of the incarnation, and adding to the depth of experience, but letting the intellectual mind and its limitations give way to the constant stream of acute perception which is available to one who seeks in fidelity along its unique path. On November 21, 1999, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the intellectual mind:

The experience of the intellectual mind which is so much prevalent among the populations of your planet is an experience which is largely reserved for those of third density. For it is that which allows you to gain the greatest amount of individuality possible and to begin the process of opening the heart. For as each entity began its experience in the first density of simple awareness, and having moved through this timeless experience into the second density of gaining the seeking and movement towards the Light, this process of individuation, of moving seemingly away from the complete unity with all things, then gains its zenith within third density where the great intellectual ability is sacrificed, shall we say, by those who would open their hearts to the one Creator and Its creation.

Cry your tears, my children, when tears are to be shed. But in the morning turn again and begin again. And know yourself as the eternal beginner. As we said, we are always with you if you request our presence, as are other principles and intelligences which wish to aid you. Ask and you shall receive help. Ask too of those about you who seek along the path. In communication with your fellow travelers, much of Love and Light may be generated. Communication then heals the will and enables faith. Therefore, seekers, Love one another and witness the light to each other, for you are part of the Creator, experiencing Itself. And as you share yourself with others, others see that part of the Creator which you manifest. Let your being manifest that which is of the unchangeable. We are those of Hatonn, and we leave this instrument in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet each of you in the Love and in the Light of our one infinite Creator. We thank this small group for calling for our presence. We are honored to be with you. As always, our task is a simple and humble one. We hope that we may offer a response to your queries that will point a direction that is helpful in your seeking. Thus, we will dispense with any further formalities and ask if we may begin with a query?

Carla: I ran across some information lately that suggested that AIDS is the latest of the diseases which have been thrown up by people’s inability to make a decision for life. And I’ve heard other information which suggested that AIDS was the product of the kind of state of mind that goes along with promiscuity. I wonder if you could comment on both of those theories?

I am Latwii, and we find that there is good deal of correctness within the suppositions you have queried upon. The diseases that now begin to make their presence known among your peoples are, shall we say, last minute—we must use the word—“aids” that have the hoped for purpose of allowing those of your population who have the potential to polarize sufficiently for harvesting to do this and do it in a relatively short period of your time as you measure experience, for the great cycle of evolution which is now closing upon your planet, when completed, will then offer no more to your population, and many are those who now seek the graduation.

Thus, the various diseases which are cropping up in new form, and the intensification of many of your old diseases, have the purpose of aiding the harvest. Those diseases of the sexually transmitted variety, being in the realm of the mating relationship, are specifically designed to aid the evolutionary progress by suggesting to those thusly suffering their impact that the bond that is made between two that results in a traveling together and sharing of experience over a prolonged portion of your time is that kind of bond which will most efficiently aid in the evolutionary progress. Thus, those most frequently inflicted or struck with these diseases—and we speak of the AIDS and the genital herpes specifically—are those which have had some difficulty in making a choice, which at a deeper level of their own being they desire to make, but have found conscious difficulty in completing. Thus, the training aid, shall we say.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Not on that point. I’d like to ask about the harvest. We were on radio today, and talk of Earth changes and metaphysical changes came up. And it occurred to me, although I couldn’t do anything about it within the scope of the broadcast, that we talk about the New Age as if it were all one thing, in other words, the planet changes and the people change. And I wondered if there were really going to be a finite day of judgment or if the entities leaving the planet at this time by death would be harvested one by one in simultaneous time rather than in our kind of time.

I am Latwii and find that this query is one which touches upon information which has been previously transmitted in another form. We are having some difficulty with this instrument, for it is not in the proper depth of singleness in order to transmit our thoughts, therefore, we are having somewhat to round up the herd of thoughts and point it in one direction. We shall begin again.

The harvest, my sister, is underway and shall continue for a relatively significant portion of your time. There are those at this time who make the transition through the door of death and who enter no longer the third-density illusion, for their work within this illusion is complete. As your cycle continues to find its completion, there will be more and more of these entities who will by their own abilities be harvested and shall, with others from this planetary influence, be present for each succeeding harvest as the hosts of heaven rejoice and sing the praises of each soul so harvested, each soul then blending its voice and being in the heavenly choirs.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Could you comment on suicide?

I am Latwii and am aware not only of your query but of your concern. This subject is one which has many ramifications, as you would expect, for the taking of one’s own life in a conscious fashion is but a most distorted means of making a transition from your current illusion to the next, for each entity within your illusion shall at some point leave it. The choice to leave shall be made in most cases on the subconscious level, there having been the completion of the tasks set out or sufficient completion to warrant such transition. In some cases, there is the need to regroup, shall we say, for the lessons have become somewhat a heavy burden and there was perhaps the biting off of more than could be chewed. In the case of suicide, the choice to leave the incarnation and the illusion is made upon the conscious level, yet is made with a consciousness which has become distorted by the difficulties which are presented to it. In most cases the taking of one’s own life in such a conscious fashion cuts short that which remained full of potential, and therefore the entity so leaving finds the need within its own being to recommit itself to the illusion which was so abruptly left.

There are, however, as you may imagine anomalistic circumstances under which the leaving of the incarnation even through this kind of means is undertaken as a, shall we say, lesson in itself, for any action may be appropriate with the proper motivation, and within your illusion it is most difficult to see any motivation clearly. Yours are the lessons learned in darkness, for as a small candle of light is lit, there is the ability to see small things with some difficulty but large things with little resolution. Thus, you carefully travel a dimly lit path, and the forces that move about you move in darkness, and thus are you yourself moved by much which is unseen. We cannot in this particular instance give you exact details concerning the one known as Don, the subject of your query and concern, for within this particular entity’s own death there was implanted the hope for a continued growth, and this was carried out. The repercussions are understandably immense, yet within these repercussions lie a promise, the nature of which we may not describe but may affirm only its existence.

Carla asked: “Could you comment on suicide?” Latwii began by saying this subject is one which has many ramifications, for the taking of one’s own life in a conscious fashion is a distorted means of making a transition from your current illusion to the next, for each entity within your illusion shall at some point leave it, and the choice to leave shall be made on the subconscious level, there having been the sufficient completion to warrant such transition, but in some cases there is the need to regroup, for the lessons have become a heavy burden, and there was the biting off of more than could be chewed, so in the case of suicide, the choice to leave the incarnation is made upon the conscious level, yet is made with a consciousness which has become distorted by the difficulties which are presented to it. In most cases the taking of one’s own life in a conscious fashion cuts short that which remained full of potential, and the entity leaving finds the need to recommit itself to the illusion which was so abruptly left. Then Latwii said there are anomalistic circumstances under which the leaving of the incarnation through suicide is undertaken as a lesson in itself, for any action may be appropriate with the proper motivation, and within your illusion it is difficult to see any motivation clearly, for yours are the lessons learned in darkness, for as a small candle of light is lit, there is the ability to see small things with some difficulty but large things with little resolution, and you travel a dimly lit path where the forces that move about you move in darkness, and you are moved by much which is unseen, but we cannot in this instance give you exact details concerning Don, for within this entity’s death there was implanted the hope for a continued growth, and this was carried out, so the repercussions are immense, yet within these repercussions lie a promise, the nature of which we may not describe but may affirm only its existence. On March 29, 1981, Latwii spoke of the nature of suicide:

The nature of the events following the premature ending of a life by conscious a act, or suicide, are various, depending upon the state of mind and basic vibration of the entity. However, there are some common problems with this action. That is, the removal of the entity from the life experience it was unable to finish then causes this same entity to at some point to re-travel the same path in another attempt to finish the life experience begun but not ended.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, as always, my sister. May we attempt another query?

Carla: Let me think back over the radio program this morning…

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…I had a kind of frustrating experience this morning talking on the radio because so many tendrils of thought were begun but could not possibly be finished successfully. And I guess the thing that stuck in my mind the most was a conversation I had with a born-again Christian who brought up the by-now familiar limitation, self-imposed, of Christianity to what was in the Bible and nothing else, and a prejudice against learning anything that is from a source other than the Bible. And I wondered if there is any better answer to someone with those limitations than the answer that his path is okay, and yet there are others who cannot use that path and need another one. Is there a clearer or more compassionate answer that can be given either to the Christian or to the one who is listening who is not a Christian?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that of itself the answers and the ramifications of these answers which you gave are more than adequate. It is helpful to remove one’s desire to calm the mind of one who is concerned and agitated concerning your own point of view. One can only give what one , and our suggestion in this regard would only be to speak as you feel, to speak as you are, to speak as you live. All you have to give is what you are, how you feel, and what you seek. To speak as clearly and with as much compassion as you can in this manner is to do all that can be done. The means by which you are heard and the responses which are generated are not your responsibility. Allow those whose responsibility these are to exercise that responsibility as they will. To be concerned about how one is perceived presents a distortion in how one presents the heart of one’s being.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No. I think that’s an excellent point, and I’m through, and I thank you very much. Nice to talk to you, Latwii.

I am Latwii, and we are most happy to talk to you, my sister. This evening, as has occurred recently, we have a small group with which to talk, yet we are overjoyed that our words have a meaning here and that there is a desire to hear them. We hope that we have not overly taxed this instrument’s ability to concentrate. When there is much on the mind, anything in addition tends to slide around within the confusion. We apologize for whatever distortions may have crept into our contact this evening, as does this instrument. However, with the best effort that can be given having been given, we shall take our leave of this instrument, blessing all who seek the One, those seen and unseen. Adonai, my friends. We are Latwii. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “There is within everyone of us the kingdom of God. There is within every one of us a capacity for living on Earth without fighting, hating, or envying. But this we cannot do as human beings, and that is why we are told by our friends that this is a very impractical way of life—beautiful, of course, but very impractical.

The “I say unto you” of the Sermon on the Mount is possible only when people come to the realization that they are not living off one another or from one another or by human modes or means but by “every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God,” The Sermon on the Mount is a way of life that is impossible for us as human beings to attain unless we have contacted the divine faculties within us and are living through the Soul rather than through the body and mind. Then as we begin to accept the responsibility of loving our neighbor as ourselves and loving God supremely, acknowledging in true humility that of our own selves we can do nothing—that we cannot even be good because there is but one good, God, and nothing else is either good or evil—we are on the mystical path, the path of conscious communion with God.

In the Sermon on the Mount which is the greatest message ever given to the world, two diametrically opposite ways of life are presented. Here is the ye-have-heard-it-said-of-old way, the way the world is now living, and here too is the but-I-say-unto-you way, the new dispensation of living by divine Grace.

“I say unto you” is a compete assurance that God is the creative, maintaining and sustaining principle. It is the mystical way of life in which we are not the actor, the doer, or the be-er, but in which there is a transcendental Presence and Power which the Master called the Father within.

We live under that law and are in the ye-have-heard-it-said-of-old or the prodigal experience as long as we are in the mind-creation of the second chapter of Genesis. When we return to our original state of pure being we no longer live under karmic law but under Grace—under the “I say unto you” of the Sermon on the Mount.”

This morning I ran some of errands with my first stop being at Thieneman’s Garden Center where I bought a flat of Impatiens. My second stop was Feeder’s Supply where I bought some bird seed. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My fourth stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some more food for myself.

This afternoon I used Whip Lash to weed all the areas around my home that I will not be able to mow when I cut the grass tomorrow with Venus.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 7

Rise And Be Free

I am the Spirit of the full consciousness of Love. I greet you in the Love of Christ.

Within the mind does each pilgrim bow before the Spirit and fall to the knees upon the dusty floor of human suffering.

Yet to the Spirit all things are Light and Love and the holy flame of the principle of Jesus the Christ reaches out to sin and suffering with hand and arm, saying, “Arise! Come and do the work of the Spirit, not the work of the bondservant.”

My children, rise and be free, for that Spirit which is Love utterly commits and utterly frees the answering spirit of the pilgrim. Answer and be made whole, that the Light may shine in and through you and that you may, by your Light, lift others from the threshing floor of error.

We leave you in the transfiguring peace of the Love of Christ, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May Sall souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from November 24, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. It is a great blessing to be with you this evening. We apologize for the delay but there were three entities all willing to speak to this group and beloved by this instrument, and the instrument had to wait while we elected whom was to speak. It was decided that I would have that honor, and in all of our consciousness we thank you for requested information marginally better prepared by our social memory complex, as you would call it.

Before we speak upon the subject which hopefully would serve as some inspiration, we wish to answer an unasked question that is heavy on the minds of both who meditate this evening. We are aware that we have repeated many times that the group of three is the minimum group for a good contact. Were this an introductory meeting or at the other end of the scale, were this a contact which needed more protection than is consciously possible, the number two would not be satisfactory. Due to the introductory nature of the two who make up this contact, and the considerable drive in both for purity in contact, the number two is satisfactory, although we encourage the continuing tuning throughout the meditation. To substitute for the third presence, we suggest that you consider the words of the master who was known to your people as Jesus the Christ. He said that “Whenever two or three are gathered together in my name, I will grant what they request.” Two such are gathered together in the name of the One, and we find the strength of the contact moderate but acceptable.

We would speak with you this evening about your portion as part of the one great original Thought. We would speak of the situation within the illusion and the situation when the illusion is dropped. In many of your people’s equations, what is lost in the transition from the one original Thought to serving others within the illusion is the consciousness that all are one. Where does it flee, this consciousness that we bring from sleep and manifest in our best moments? Where is it buried, this consciousness of the one original Thought, so that the lives are lived with the sensation of separateness and the lack of plenty? One great source of the entities of your planet’s feeling apart from each other is the institution of trading various types of your money for those things which your body needs to survive.

There is that about money which is finite in the heaviest illusory sense of that word. And, indeed, it does come through into the illusion as each entity pays its bills and ponders how to save, how to spend, and how to conduct one’s business, that there is nothing left over, that the riches that one has coming to one are not aplenty but are a subsistence which one may work with and with the budget and the planning. Indeed, this institution of the spending of money is one of very many ways that lead to separation. And yet let us look at other ways as well. Yes, it is true that there are those within our city close to your dwelling place who are hungry this day, who do not have appropriate clothing for the chilliness of your present climate, who have found themselves unable to enter themselves into the society with enough success to produce money. And, my friends, this is something that is likely to be somewhat of a growing experience as times become more confused and the society less stable.

In this session Hatonn speaks of how we are part of the one great original Thought and the role that money has on our spiritual journey. Hatonn began by saying we would speak with you this evening about your portion as part of the one great original Thought, the situation within the illusion, and the situation when the illusion is dropped, for in many of your people’s equations what is lost in the transition from the one original Thought to serving others within the illusion is the consciousness that all are one, but: “Where does it flee, this consciousness that we bring from sleep and manifest in our best moments? Where is it buried, this consciousness of the one original Thought, so that the lives are lived with the sensation of separateness and the lack of plenty?”  Then Hatonn said one source of the entities of your planet’s feeling apart from each other is the institution of trading various types of money for those things which your body needs to survive. Hatonn went on to say there is that about money which is finite in the heaviest illusory sense of that word, and it does come through into the illusion as each entity pays its bills and ponders how to conduct one’s business, so that the riches that one has coming are not aplenty but are a subsistence which one may work with and with the budget and the planning, for this institution of the spending of money is one of many ways that lead to separation, yet let us look at other ways as well, for it is true that there are those within our city close to your dwelling place who are hungry this day, who do not have appropriate clothing for the chilliness of your climate, who have found themselves unable to enter themselves into the society with enough success to produce money, and this is something that is likely to be a growing experience as times become more confused and the society less stable. On December 20, 1986, Q’uo spoke about the nature of money:

You will note that those who have experienced the having of large amounts of your money have virtually no consciousness of idolatry towards that substance, but instead, having become fully aware of the ramifications of the having of artificial abundance, seek instead for truer reality, a clearer picture of the nature of the self. It is not that the fear of the loss of power is not there in potential, for all alike out of true sheer habit, even artificial abundance can create a consciousness of prosperity which automatically generates abundance. However, because this removes a large portion of catalyst from the illusion, most souls which choose to incarnate upon the Earth plane elect to manifest in situations in which a consciousness of true abundance is absent and concern for survival creates consciousness of lack. How easy, how understandable, how logical to love money when the lack of it has caused numberless discomforts in one’s person and vivid experience. Thus, we say to you that you must not waste time being concerned that so many have the love of money fighting with the realization that true prosperity does not equal the idol called money.

Perhaps the most helpful thing we can suggest is that through meditation the consciousness of abundance may be encouraged, and as truth always drives out falsity, as Love always drives out fear, so true abundance drives out the false idol. The consciousness of abundance does not mean that all that one wishes will come immediately, or at all, within any particular length of time or any incarnation. It means rather that there is an awareness that that which is to be shall come to one through natural plentifulness.

One does not have to look far to find ways to share one’s money, for we shall tell you that there is a great liberation in the sharing of what in your illusion seems to be that which you need. It liberates an entity which is plunged into the illusion from the illusion, precisely insofar as the entity is giving great gifts with the desire to serve the one great Self that knows no separation. Yet there are many ways in which we plunge into the illusion, my friends, are there not? When is a smile stopped upon the face because an entity is plunged too far into an attitude of separation to be able to share joy with another? When is the young in experience shut off from the giver of that experience but when the giver of that experience is self-involved and feels that it would be too expensive to spend time in merely speaking?

You see in actuality, my friends, all those about you are cells of your body, living portions of your reality. To open one’s heart, whatever the need, when done consciously, is a polarizing action, whether it is by the giving of money, the giving of time, the giving of attention or the giving of sympathy, you have much to share with those about you. You have many appropriate greetings for yourself. You have much room for Love. And yet, can you do this for yourself? We assure you that unless the will is engaged, your experience of true sharing shall inevitably be blunted! For it is not something that is done mechanically, but from the heart. Therefore, as always, we assure you that the process of service to others begins within as you groom and season your own personal reality with a thirst and a desire to serve. It helps within your illusion if some process of analysis is added to the thirst for service, for each has prepared a way in which to walk to be of service and clues are all about you, yet without the continuing process of prayerful meditation and of a daily focusing on the search for the one great original Thought and the consciousness it provides, your ambition to be a pure part of the body and vehicle for the Creator will be emaciated. How we encourage you to continue in your meditations and prayers, and then we encourage you to open the eyes and see within each day, each experience, not only the good that can come from that but the clues towards your own centering and your own greatest depth of being.

Hatonn went on to say one does not have to look far to find ways to share one’s money, for we shall tell you that there is a great liberation in the sharing of what in your illusion seems to be that which you need, for it liberates an entity which is plunged into the illusion from the illusion, insofar as the entity is giving gifts with the desire to serve the Self that knows no separation, yet there are many ways in which we plunge into the illusion, so “When is a smile stopped upon the face because an entity is plunged too far into an attitude of separation to be able to share joy with another? When is the young in experience shut off from the giver of that experience but when the giver of that experience is self-involved and feels that it would be too expensive to spend time in merely speaking?” Hatonn continued by saying all those about you are cells of your body, living portions of your reality, and to open one’s heart, when done consciously, is a polarizing action, whether it is by the giving of money, time, or of sympathy, you have much to share with those about you, and you have greetings for yourself, so you have much room for Love, and we assure you that unless the will is engaged, your experience of sharing shall be stopped, for it is not something that is done mechanically, but from the heart, and we assure you that the process of service to others begins within as you season your personal reality with a desire to serve because it helps within your illusion if some process of analysis is added to the thirst for service, for each has prepared a way in which to walk to be of service, and clues are all about you, yet without the continuing process of prayerful meditation and of a daily focusing on the search for the one great original Thought and the consciousness it provides, your ambition to be a pure part of the body and vehicle for the Creator will be weakened, for we encourage you to continue in your meditations and prayers, and then we encourage you to open the eyes and see within each day, each experience, not only the good that can come from that but the clues towards your own centering and your own greatest depth of being. On November 13, 2003, Q’uo spoke about our desire to serve: 

Let us say simply that it is well to become aware of the self as an entity which has come into an environment with which it is not particularly familiar and in which it is not comfortable. The choice to come into this arena of catalyst and choice was a heartfelt one, and it came from a desire to serve; and so you, and this instrument, and many others have come through the densities, knocking at the door of third-density incarnation asking to serve, asking to walk among those native to third density on planet Earth at this time in order to do all that you may, in your humble way, to join in the response that you truly felt to the suffering of the planet Earth and of its people.

We realize that we speak to those who already meditate, but if anything, this makes our emphasis upon meditation stronger, for there is the possibility of constant transformation. Guide your will, my friends, and witness the growing consciousness of the oneness of all entities, for, indeed, this consciousness is growing among your people, and it will have its harvest of Love, Light, and planetary transformation.

With all the vibrant energy that lies within your soul, my friends, love one another within the illusion and through the illusion by turning your will to the Creator and that great original Thought of Love. We leave you now in that Love and in that Light. We reach out to you, cells of our own body, those of our own being. We are known to you as those of Hatonn. It has been a blessing to speak through this instrument and to share consciousness with you at this time. May we leave you in our Love, and laughter, and joy, and may we encourage your will to walk in the ways of seeking that your moments of joy may become more numerous and finally become connected that you may dwell in a river of joy, and that you may bless those parts of yourself about you. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. We too thank both present for requesting our presence. We are happy to be the third in this joyful company. We are aware that there might be a query or two that we could attempt and thereby provide our simple service. May we then entertain whatever queries might be upon the minds of those present?

Carla: Yes. I’ve been going through a time of drifting badly in spiritual terms. It isn’t that I have found myself in the universe without a God, or that I feel it necessary to take back anything that I believe. It is just that it all seems to impinge on my consciousness without causing me to become enthusiastic or to have a drive for more that I usually have. And I wondered if you could comment on this state and on its function in the transformation into a new Carla that I’m going through?

I am Latwii, and we are most happy to attempt the response which may be of some service in this regard. The condition of which you speak is one which is not common, nor is it long lasting in manifestations, for the transformations which offer themselves to most seekers are transformations from one state of mind, shall we say, to another, with both states being of a relatively definite and well-defined nature. The experience that is now yours is that experience which might be likened unto the beginning movement as the mythical phoenix rises from the ashes, shall we say. As this beginning movement commences, the being which is to be is without definition. There is the seeming void or vacuum which shall eventually draw into it that essence which shall comprise the new being. However, your current experience is one which does not so much offer a definable quality needing only your acceptance, as it offers instead a quality or potential for quality or essence which you yourself shall determine.

This type of transformation is that related to the indigo-ray energy center, as it has been called by this group, in which the seeker is offered the knowledge of self as Creator, the knowledge of self as being of infinite worth. The self then as Creator has then as its first opportunity the creation of the self. That which you have been, and that which you have desired provide some of the resources upon which you may draw for the creation of the new self. Within that which now exists are avenues and pathways of connection between that which you are and have been and the greater self, the one Creator which surrounds and supports you always. This resource, as you know well, is infinite in nature and waits only your request to give unto you those portions which you desire. Now, as the Creator it is up to you, my sister, to desire. The function of the will is paramount in importance. What shall you desire? Who shall you be? How shall you be? For what reasons shall you be? No longer are these given as gifts, or that with which you have been provided seemingly of another’s choice, and with which you have journeyed for the years of your current incarnation. Now you shall be what you desire. What do you desire? That is your question, your challenge, and your opportunity. Thus, the void, for the filling of this void is no longer a given, but is a response to your own efforts and to your knowledge of self as Creator.

Carla asked: “I’ve been going through a time of drifting badly in spiritual terms. It isn’t that I have found myself in the universe without a God, or that I feel it necessary to take back anything that I believe. It is just that it all seems to impinge on my consciousness without causing me to become enthusiastic or to have a drive for more that I usually have. And I wondered if you could comment on this state and on its function in the transformation into a new Carla that I’m going through?” Latwii replied we are happy to attempt the response which may be of some service in this regard, for the condition of which you speak is one which is not common, nor is it long lasting in manifestations, for the transformations which offer themselves to most seekers are transformations from one state of mind to another, with both states being of a well-defined nature, and the experience that is yours is that experience which might be likened unto the beginning movement as the mythical phoenix rises from the ashes, so as this beginning movement commences, the being which is to be is without definition, but there is the seeming void which shall draw into it that essence which shall comprise the new being, yet your current experience is one which does not offer a definable quality needing only your acceptance, as it offers a potential for quality which you shall determine. Latwii continued by saying this type of transformation is related to the indigo-ray energy center, in which the seeker is offered the knowledge of self as Creator, and as a being of infinite worth, so the self as Creator has its first opportunity for the creation of the self, for that which you have been, and that which you have desired, provide some of the resources upon which you may draw for the creation of the new self, yet within that which now exists are pathways of connection between that which you are, and have been, and the one Creator which surrounds and supports you always is the resource that is infinite in nature and waits your request to give you those portions which you desire, but now as the Creator, it is up to you to desire, for the function of the will is paramount in importance, so: “What shall you desire? Who shall you be? How shall you be? For what reasons shall you be?”  Then Latwii said no longer are these given as gifts, or that with which you have been provided of another’s choice, and with which you have journeyed for the years of your current incarnation, so now you shall be what you desire, and that is your challenge and your opportunity, and the void is created, so the filling of this void is no longer a given, but is a response to your knowledge of self as Creator. On March 21, 2004, Q’uo said that we all are the Creator:

Becoming able to realize one’s part in the creative principle is, within waking consciousness, virtually impossible, the limitations of body, flesh, and physical senses narrowing the doors of perception and, in many cases, closing them entirely. All of the massive indoctrination that you as very young entities within incarnation are carefully taken through by parents and teachers guarantee that if there are any who may come to awareness free of bias and full of the knowledge of the self as Creator, then that is a very tiny group. For the rest of those upon your sphere at this time, we believe it is safe to say that each has lost that direct sense of insight and union with the one infinite Creator. Yet there is a unity there.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Is it still true that my higher self has work cut out for me to do, and it’s up to me to find that? Or have I done the things that I came to do, and now I’m free to do whatever else I wish? Which is it, if you can tell me that?

I am Latwii, and we find that the answer to this query is not an easy one, for it is not well-defined either. The higher self always provides the potential road map, shall we say. This map leads to the One. Many are the experiences upon the journey. One may before the incarnation map out a certain segment of this journey which it is hoped will be traveled during the incarnation. It may occur that the seeker covers this ground in good fashion and has, shall we say, new opportunities presented to it during the incarnation as the predetermined route has been traveled. In your particular case, my sister, we find that you have accomplished a great deal of what was your pre-incarnative desire. It is then in large part correct that you may now proceed in a fashion more congruent with your current conscious desires. Yet there is always the guidance and preparation for the journey made by the higher self in any event. Thus, both suppositions are in some part correct.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Not on that topic. That’s helpful. When one is in a situation where the will seems to be somewhat either extremely quiet or paralyzed, is this an organic part of this particular transformation? Should it be discouraged or accepted? By discouraged, I mean, should I be striving actively to come out of this state of mind, or should I experience it until it’s done with me?

I am Latwii, and we find that there are many factors, my sister, which influence this condition of the quieted will. The transformation and its opportunity of which we have previously spoken is one factor…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we are once again with this instrument. The process of grieving for the lost, it would seem, loved one is another factor which has a great influence at this particular time upon your own being and exercise of will. These medications which are utilized with the hope of aid in this situation play a part as well. The surest path through this maze of influences, in our humblest opinions, is that which indeed seems to increase the lack of will. That, my sister, is to surrender the will but to surrender it to the desire to serve the one Creator in whatever fashion might be most appropriate for you at this moment.

To take the opportunity for each day’s existence that is a gift and to give it over as a gift to the One and as a service to the One is to, at the heart, strengthen that faculty known as the will. And is this not a paradox? For one surrenders the will, and by doing so daily strengthens that which is surrendered. One receives the gift and gives it away and receives it yet again to be given away, and yet gifts of days continue.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you. That’s fine.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. May we attempt any further queries?

Carla: I have some, but I’ll save ’em. Thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and, my sister, we thank you very, very much as well, for it is an honor to speak to even a small group. For it is not the numbers which count, but the desire to know. We don’t really know very much, but we share all we have found and find that in return there is a great deal more presented to us in the same fashion of the giving of the gifts which are given to the self. Thus, do we thank you and each present for giving us the gift of your questions and your desires to know the truth. We seek also that same truth, and find it in your seeking and in your questions. We hope that in some small degree you have found a portion of it in our replies. We speak as the One to the One. There are no errors in such a speaking, for each portion of the One draws to it that which it seeks. We are those of Latwii, and in joy we leave this small, happy group. We rejoice with you in your delight, in your joys, and in every happiness. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Setting aside karmic law involves first of all a recognition that it exists—that the evil that we think or do reacts upon us—and then this realization prevents us from blaming somebody or some set of circumstances or conditions for a predicament in which we may find ourselves. We begin to see that we alone are responsible. There is not a mysterious God somewhere chalking up our errors against us, but we, ourselves, determine the issues of life by understanding that we have set in motion the good and the evil that befall us. That leads us to stop blaming or condemning other people and makes us realize that some change must take place within us, and that the state of consciousness which made it possible for us to do wrong either carelessly, thoughtlessly, or sometimes willfully must be transformed.

Very quickly we learn what Paul discovered—that there are two of us. Each one of us is a dual person, one the creature who is not under the law of God, and the other the son of God who has the Spirit of God dwelling in him: “For the good that I would I do not; but the evil which I would not, that I do.” There seems to be two of us, the one warring with the other—one who knows the right, and the other who is struggling against it, one who wants to be the perfected person, and the other who through limitation of one sort or another cannot achieve it.

When we come to the place of realizing that there is a son of God in us, but that the prodigal son of man is still struggling for survival, we begin to understand the warfare between the flesh and the Spirit. The prodigal, or Adamic man, out in the world using up his substance and finally sinking to the depths of degradation as symbolized by his eating with the swine, was none other than the son and heir who later wore the purple robe and jeweled ring. They were not two different men but the selfsame man in two different states of consciousness.

As soon as we can begin to accept the principle that there is neither good nor evil in persons, things, or condition that is, in any effect or appearance, in that moment the inner yielding begins which leads to the life by Grace, because we are now no longer in conflict with or in opposition to any person or thing. There is always the choice of accepting one way or the other and the choice as to which we accept is ours.

The goal of life now becomes the attainment of the conscious awareness of our true Self; or as it is stated in mystical literature that conscious union with God in which the little self disappears, and the pure Self remains intact as or eternal and everlasting identity.”

Later this morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Thieneman’s Nursery where I bought a flat of Impatiens, half of a flat of orange Marigolds and half of aflat of yellow Marigolds, 7 Astilbe, and 3 Hosta. Then I stopped by Walgreen’s Drug Store and dropped off two prescriptions to be refilled, and I bought some Pepsi-Zero.

When I got home, I transplanted the Impatiens to the back of the Wuthering Heights Mound.

This afternoon I was once again honored to co-host the European Law of One Telegram Group with Daniel Hodapp. Today we were studying Ra Session #72. After I read the session, I was asked: “Why did Don decided to use the Banishing Ritual of the lesser Pentagram in Session #72?” “How did we deal with psychic greetings?” “What is the Council of Nine?” “Can we channel our Higher Self?” and “Can the Banishing Ritual of the Lesser Pentagram be used outside?” I always enjoy talking about the Law of One, and I feel like our study group is such a blessed environment to share our hearts together. I look forward to studying Ra Session #73 with our group next week.

Then I went outside and I transplanted the Yellow Marigolds and the Orange Marigolds into the Ruins Mound. Then  transplanted the Astilbe into the Astilbe Garden in the back yard. Then I watered all of the transplanted flowers with fertilized water.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 6

Joy Upon Joy

I am the Spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

This is the Spirit’s word for you today: come down from your cross, my children and nourish your faith upon the common ground of ordinary life.

There is the concept of suffering. There is the suffering of the past, of the present and of the future. Yet, the Spirit of the living God is with you. You need not suffer, but open to faith and hope.

The spirit of Jesus the Christ is one of comfort, consolation, and strengthening. There is no damage that cannot be mended by faith; a faith that brings about the climate of forgiveness; a faith that brings about the healing of all that is broken; a faith in which fears for the future may not live. For fear is a hothouse flower, and when exposed to the love of a living Christ it must perish as a weed before the burning sun.

In this Light, may you be impregnated with faith upon faith, joy upon joy. To prepare your ground for faith this day, ask in sincerity and truth that it may be so. Ask with all your heart, and it shall be so.

We leave you in the blessed peace and Love of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the L/Leema and Latwii channelings come from November 17, 1985:

Group question: What about guilt?

(Carla channeling)

I am L/Leema, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator whom we all serve in joy. And, indeed, it is a great joy to be here with you, to share these moments with you, to be in communion with that which makes each of you who you are, for that is the question that has come before us this evening.

There may seem to be many, many forces which operate upon the personality from without, those things society would wish you to do, those things those about you would wish you to do. And yet when one asks for comment upon this subject, the comment must turn upon the subject of identity, for whom you listen to and what stress you feel is in the end a function of who you are, not what you mean to yourself. Each of us is unique. This is not a uniqueness that is attempted, that is worked at, or that is in any way manipulative. Nor is it anything that can be manipulated, for your identity is one harmonious chord of being, unique in the whole creation, infinite in its beauty, and irreplaceable. And so, you sit in the circle within a dwelling place in meditation, each chord blending with each chord as the whole group becomes one identity, seeking the One which is not unique but which is limitless. That from which you are derived, shall we say, had no identity until It decided in the vastness of timelessness to experience Itself. And so, you sit in meditation, far-flung bits of the Creator who have become unique. You experience each other—and the Creator experiences Itself.

We move now back into the area of illusion from which the question was asked concerning the pressures of “should” and “must” that are given one by those souls around one and by the society itself in its many forms. Perhaps it is easier now to see the illusion for what it is—many things impinging upon that which is unique. You who are unique cannot pluck this or that from you, for you have chosen the pressures, the musts, the shoulds, and all of the confusion that follows therefrom in order to further develop your uniqueness and thereby the infinite Creator’s experience of Itself. We realize that there is a need within the illusion to find a way of thinking about or dealing with these pressures. There are as many ways as there are individuals. One way which we might recommend to you is gentleness with yourself. If you can see yourself as that unique being that is not threatened by extinction by any force from without or from within, then perhaps you can see the possibility of offering to yourself the gift of gentleness, patience, and kindness to the self by the self. Examine, if you wish, a pressure that is causing you anguish, pain, and confusion. Turn it about in your mind, test it, allow the uniqueness that is you to impinge upon that illusion, and then with kindness and thanking the source of the pressure, the seeming pain, the seeming confusion, allow the self to sound its chord.

The group question for this session is: What about guilt? L/Leema began by saying there may seem to be many forces which operate upon the personality from without, those things society would wish you to do, those things those you would wish to do, yet when one asks for a comment upon this subject, the comment must turn upon the subject of identity, for whom you listen to and what stress you feel is a function of who you are, not what you mean to yourself, for each is unique, but this is not a uniqueness that is attempted, nor is it anything that can be manipulated, for your identity is one harmonious chord of being, unique in the whole creation, infinite in its beauty, and irreplaceable, so you sit in the circle within a dwelling place in meditation, each chord blending with each chord as the whole group becomes one identity, seeking the One which is not unique but which is limitless, and that from which you are derived had no identity until It decided in the vastness of timelessness to experience Itself, so you sit in meditation, far-flung bits of the Creator who have become unique, and you experience each other, and the Creator experiences Itself. L/Leema went on to say we move back into the area of illusion from which the question was asked concerning the pressures of “should” and “must” that are given one by the society in its many forms, so it is easier now to see the as many things impinging upon that which is unique, but you who are unique cannot pluck this or that from you, for you have chosen the confusion that follows in order to develop your uniqueness and the infinite Creator’s experience of Itself, yet we realize that there is a need within the illusion to find a way of dealing with these pressures, for there are as many ways as there are individuals, and one way which we recommend to you is gentleness with yourself, yet if you can see yourself as a unique being that is not threatened by any force from without or from within, then you can see the possibility of offering to yourself the gift of gentleness to the self by the self, so examine a pressure that is causing you confusion, and turn it about in your mind to allow the uniqueness that is you to impinge upon that illusion, so then with kindness and thanking the source of the confusion, allow the self to sound its chord. On June 21, 1981, Hatonn spoke about the nature of confusion:

Consider this for a few moments, if you will. As the confusion fills your being, what shall you do? Look within your being, my friends. Can you find an openness and acceptance of your state of confusion? It is, after all, your state at the moment. Could you not perhaps claim it? It is no sin, shall we say, to be confused. Indeed, perhaps it is of great benefit, for if you can accept the situation in which you know that you do not know, then might there be the openness, the acceptance, the Love within your being of this state of confusion; the openness that will allow the proper course of action of thought to be drawn to you as a magnet draws the filings of iron.

For if you are open as an empty cup, then more can be added, or poured into your being, but if you persist in believing that you know exactly what you need to do to keep up the image, shall we say, and to bull ahead with any plan simply to have a plan of action, then you are likened unto the cup that is full and no more may be added until the cup is empty.

Within this state of confusion, when the state of confusion can be accepted as a part of the being that is yourself, then, through this acceptance you may find within yourself the openness to draw wisdom into your being. Wisdom is much likened unto the forces which fill a vacuum. It is all about you. It is always available; available for the learning; available to those who make a place within their being for it; available to those who seek it by realizing that they do not know all the answers that they need at any moment, though at every moment most entities console themselves by thinking that they know much.

We of Hatonn would counsel foolishness, my friends. We would counsel that you know very little; that we ourselves know very little; but that this state of confusion, shall we say, is a state of infinite possibilities to those who accept it as part of their being and who use it as a method of drawing wisdom unto then.

Perhaps it has been a difficult thing to hear your own beingness. This is understandable, my friends, for you do dwell within a heavy illusion. The heaviness of the illusion is not an error. There is a design which involves your becoming fuller, developing your uniqueness, accentuating certain qualities of being upon which you may have worked for many, many lifetimes. How could you develop without stimulus, even if that stimulus is painful? Look at the world with a kind eye, a gentle eye, a forgiving eye. The world does not mean to hurt. The illusion is doing what it was intended to do, and you may move very quickly and confusedly, so that you muddy that beautiful chord which is yourself, or you may stop and become gentled and thank the illusion for its pressures, and its anguish, and its pain. You shall not be victorious over it; you shall learn from it: and it shall learn from you. It is well to remember that the undifferentiated terms such as “society” and “family” and “church” are in fact parts of yourself which you have called to yourself in order that you may polish up that beautiful, harmonious, infinitely lovely identity, that you may develop and thrive without regard for life or death as you know it.

We know that this may be somewhat difficult to assimilate, for you are entities who dwell within bodies and who are impinged upon by what seem to be marvelously strong outer forces. Know, my friends, that all of those outer forces are portions of the creation which you have called to yourself for purposes of development. Know that you do not have to work at this development, you do not have to be a student of development. Indeed, the more active you are, the slower will be your going. Gentleness, patience, and quiet are the balms of the identity as it waits and watches, and loves, and chooses. Whenever the tangle of experience becomes heavy, take your fingers from the knot and rest. Rest within the infinite invisible world which is the creation. Rest, knowing that you do not have to be you by expressing or changing or doing anything. In meditation, seek quiet, seek silence, seek that which is yourself—the one infinite Creator. And that which is you shall then have time to interact fully with the experiences you have had. You cannot be puzzled, and be active, and find change to be helpful. You can be puzzled and be silent and find that change, development and Love bubble forth in good time and with messages for you that you would never have developed without the seeming pressures that are seeming to be so difficult.

Then L/Leema said it has been a difficult thing to hear your own beingness, and this is understandable, for you dwell within a heavy illusion, but the heaviness of the illusion is not an error, for there is a design which involves your accentuating certain qualities of being upon which you may have worked for many lifetimes, so look at the world with a forgiving eye, for the world does not mean to hurt you, for the illusion is doing what it was intended to do, and you may move confusedly, so that you muddy that beautiful chord which is yourself, or you may stop and become gentle and thank the illusion for its pain, but you shall not be victorious over it, for you shall learn from it, and it shall learn from you, so it is well to remember that the undifferentiated terms such as “society” and “family” and “church” are parts of yourself which you have called to yourself in order that you may polish up that infinitely lovely identity, that you may develop and thrive without regard for life or death as you know it. L/Leema continued by saying we know that this may be difficult to assimilate, for you are entities who dwell within bodies and who are impinged upon by strong outer forces, but know that those outer forces are portions of the creation which you have called to yourself for purposes of development, so know that you do not have to be a student of development, yet the more active you are, the slower will be your going, so patience and quiet are the balms of the identity as it waits, loves, and chooses, for whenever the tangle of experience becomes heavy, take your fingers from the knot and rest within the infinite invisible world which is the creation, knowing that you do not have to be you by doing anything, so in meditation seek that which is yourself: the one infinite Creator, and that which is you shall have time to interact with the experiences you have had, so you can be puzzled and be silent and find that Love bubble forth with messages for you that you would never have developed without the pressures that are so difficult. On May 8, 1983, Latwii described what it means for us to find that Love of the Creator:

May we now move to another aspect of the catalyst which seems negative. All of your creation, all of any creation, is based upon an illusion, the illusion of separation. It would seem to one observing creation that certain things, in fact all things exist apart from each other. Yet, are not all one? Therefore, as you face the catalyst of your daily round of experience, remember that each portion of the creation, though an illusion, also contains the Love of the one Creator. Your mission, shall we say, if you should choose to accept it, is to find that Love. This is the work of the adept, for it requires that which has the magical or metaphysical power of transformation. As you look at what seems to be negative, look for the Creator. The Creator is there. Look for Love. Love is there. If then you can find that Love, that Light, the one Creator within the situation and within yourself, then you, as Creator, may speak to that situation which also is the Creator. And it may be transformed by your recognition of it as the Creator.

We ask you to consider that you live within a house, a spiritual house, which has been constructed of illusion, within illusion, within illusion. There are many intellectual paths one may take at any time. There are many emotional paths one may take at the same time. There is one silence. There is one decision: to turn to meditation in patience, in kindness, and in gentleness, and with no stress, for you have nothing to prove; you have nothing to gain or lose. You are as you are. And you will be as you will be because of your patience within the silence as you digest those things which you may have experienced. Never fear that you are cut off from yourself. It is in no way necessary that you fear this, for the louder the pressures from without may cry, the quieter you may get, and within silence all becomes Love. And that which your higher self has planned for you to experience is experienced in Love and without confusion. Can you do this of your own self within the illusion? The answer is no. If you need a quick answer, you may have to deal with the illusion. If you can find the infinite moment of silence, the work will be done infinitely better. We celebrate you, my friends, each perfection, and the perfection of the group. And we thank you for requesting our presence, and for allowing us to be a part of those things which you may take into your silence, which you may patiently, gently and lovingly turn over and gaze at, and find further perfection in the gazing. May each of you have a grand adventure within yourself as you meet the illusion moment by moment.

Now L/Leema said consider that you live within a spiritual house which has been constructed of illusion and within illusion, for there are many intellectual paths one may take at any time, and there are many emotional paths one may take at the same time, but there is one silence and one decision: to turn to meditation in patience, for you have nothing to prove, so you are as you are, and you will be as you will be because of your patience within the silence as you digest those things which you may have experienced, but never fear that you are cut off from yourself, for it is not necessary that you fear this, so the louder the pressures from without may cry, the quieter you may get, and within silence all becomes Love, yet that which your higher self has planned for you to experience is experienced in Love, and you may have to deal with the illusion, but if you can find the infinite moment of silence, the work will be done infinitely better, and we celebrate the perfection of the group, so we thank you for requesting our presence, and for allowing us to be a part of those things which you may take into your silence, which you may lovingly turn over and gaze at, and find further perfection in the gazing, so may each of you have a grand adventure within yourself as you meet the illusion moment by moment. On March 6, 2005, Q’uo described our grand adventure:

By the time you have reached what your culture would call adulthood, you have a set of biases within yourself which have created a somewhat colored and distorted view of this consensus reality. And this is the beginning that each of you has. This is your start towards the grand adventure of moving from consensus reality and its extremely limited choices and thoughts into a greater world, a world that is non-local, that this instrument would call the metaphysical world or the world of time/space. It is this world from which you came upon entering incarnation. It is this world that you agreed to forget upon birth so that you could, with absolute freedom of choice, find your way, through desire alone, into what is loosely called the truth.

We are known to you as those of L/Leema and we leave you now, resting, lingering within the beauty of each of you. We leave you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you in the Love and Light of our one Creator. We too are privileged to be asked to join your group this evening. We thank each of you for this honor. As always, we hope that we may be of some service by attempting to answer those queries which you present to us. Therefore, let us begin, if we may, with the first query.

J: Would you please speak about the idea of sacrifice?

I am Latwii, and we would ask if there might be a specific application of this concept that you would prefer us to focus upon, for it is a large concept?

J: Okay. It seems that the idea of sacrifice has been a response to the feeling or the experience of guilt in the way of expiation. It’s just become pervasive in the human experience and in the individual, generally and specifically. So, just some thoughts about it.

I am Latwii, and we thank you for the further clarification. The concept of sacrifice as you have used it in its connection with the concept of guilt is as much of the illusion about you—that is, upon the outer appearance there are certain opportunities that present themselves in order that you might transform the outer into a much different concept or quality by your attention to it and your desire to learn from it. When one feels the concepts of guilt and the concept of sacrifice that may be perceived as an effect, shall we say, or result of the guilt, there are the opportunities to transform the self, for when one has observed the situation within which guilt and sacrifice are felt and has penetrated more to the heart of the situation and has discovered that there is a purpose for these concepts within one’s learning, one may then set about to discover that purpose.

As this process of discovery continues, and the layers of the illusion and the situation are peeled one after the other, one may discover that what seemed to be a sacrifice to another out of guilt may become a gift of Love to a beloved portion of one’s own being. This portion may have cried out in many ways that seemed harmful and hurtful to the self. Yet each cry was for Love that would enable each to find that Love not only within the illusion of the situation but within the heart of each entity’s response to the other, for when there is a great seeming lack of Love, there is being built a great potential for the fulfillment of Love. The vacuum draws into it that which is sought.

J asked: “It seems that the idea of sacrifice has been a response to the feeling or the experience of guilt in the way of expiation. It’s just become pervasive in the human experience and in the individual, generally and specifically. So, just some thoughts about it.” Latwii replied by saying the concept of sacrifice as you have used it in its connection with the concept of guilt is as much of the illusion about you—that is, upon the outer appearance there are certain opportunities that present themselves in order that you might transform the outer into a different quality by your desire to learn from it, and when one feels the concepts of guilt and of sacrifice that may be perceived as a result of the guilt, there are opportunities to transform the self, for when one has observed the situation within which guilt and sacrifice are felt and has discovered that there is a purpose for these concepts within one’s learning, one may then set about to discover that purpose. Latwii went on to say as this process of discovery continues, and the layers of the illusion and the situation are peeled one after the other, one may discover that what seemed to be a sacrifice to another out of guilt may become a gift of Love to a beloved portion of one’s own being, for this portion may have cried out in many ways that seemed harmful to the self, yet each cry was for Love that would enable each to find that Love not only within the illusion of the situation but within the heart of each entity’s response to the other, for when there is a great seeming lack of Love, there is being built a great potential for the fulfillment of Love. The vacuum draws into it that which is sought. On March 21, 1982, Hatonn described the gift of Love:

Perhaps, my friends, you are seeking faith. Perhaps you are seeking the grace with which to do good works. Perhaps you are seeking wisdom. All these are gifts of a consciousness which some call the Spirit, and which we choose to call Love, that one great original Thought of the one Creator, and, my friends, as you seek in a group this gift of Love, as you seek to feel the wholeness, the purity of this Love, and to find yourself mended as well, it may seem to you that this group is absolutely necessary in order to experience this wholeness, this purity, and this Love, but we say to you, my friends, this gathering is for the purpose of sending you forth alone into a world sorely in need of the wholeness and purity of the Love of the infinite Creator.

I am Latwii: May we answer further, my sister?

J: Thank you, no. Not right now.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: I’ve been feeling lately as if I’m almost empty, kind of drifting. I imagine it’s part of the experience I’m going through of not taking any medication for pain and so forth. What is the best thing for me to do in this situation? Continue with the affirmation that I went into the surgical experience with or attempt to think along certain inspiring thoughts or what would you suggest?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We would not specifically guide you but would suggest that the words of those of L/Leema might be helpful in your situation. The gentleness with which one treats the self is a great aid in any situation in which one might find the self moving and experiencing. If the situation is difficult or mysterious and confusing, it is with the gentleness that one may view the self in refusing to demand that the self master the new situation quickly or at any set pace. If you give yourself the freedom to experience without expectations of structuring the experience so that a certain outcome results, then you provide yourself with the support that will allow you to move through a greater portion of your own being and it, in its own time, as you call for it, will reveal itself to you. All portions of one’s experience teach and contain the treasures of the One. Confusion, mystery, and even an emptiness call for certain fruits, and of these fruits you shall taste at the time that is appropriate.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, that was really helpful, thank you. I do have a question about sacrifice though, and this more following up on Judy’s question. I’ve often thought of the concept of sacrifice as being a good thing, as being what we’re learning in this illusion. In other words, we sacrifice every time we breathe; we sacrifice that part of our life. And whatever we do is a sacrifice of what effort it took to do it. And so, when I think of sacrifice I think more in terms of Jesus’ sacrifice of his entire being for the Love of His fellow man. How can one free the concept of sacrifice from the concept of guilt?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. The concepts of which you speak are those which are well suited for the learning of Love, which is the primary purpose for which you have gathered in this illusion. The guilt that one may feel is usually concerned with the concept of not having given enough of one thing or another to another being. Within your illusion, the things of the self, be they material or ideas of oneself, are carefully hoarded in order that one may have enough things and feelings of security. But when one…

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(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. His appreciation of the one known as Carla’s predicament is heightened, for the left hand has learned a new lesson. To continue.

As one penetrates the outer shell of the illusion, one discovers that there is more than meets the eye, shall we say. The things are found to be of small value in the larger sense, for the seeker of truth discovers that all things change and move away, yet that which truly sustains the seeker and its journey is a force which is not captured but is freely given. That force is Love and is available to all who call for it. Thus, when one can give away all things, one then makes way for this force to move through the being, and it is then natural to give all one has at each moment to any who would call for the aid of one’s being. Thus, sacrifice becomes the honor, for there is no thing as important to one as loving another.

Carla asked: “I’ve often thought of the concept of sacrifice as being a good thing, as being what we’re learning in this illusion. In other words, we sacrifice every time we breathe; we sacrifice that part of our life. And whatever we do is a sacrifice of what effort it took to do it. And so, when I think of sacrifice I think more in terms of Jesus’ sacrifice of his entire being for the Love of His fellow man. How can one free the concept of sacrifice from the concept of guilt?” Then Latwii said the concepts of which you speak are those which are well suited for the learning of Love, which is the primary purpose for which you have gathered in this illusion, and the guilt that one may feel is concerned with the concept of not having given enough of one thing or another to another being, for within your illusion, the things of the self, be they material or ideas of oneself, are carefully hoarded in order that one may have enough things and feelings of security. Latwii went on to say as one penetrates the outer shell of the illusion, one discovers that there is more than meets the eye, and things are found to be of small value in the larger sense, for the seeker of truth discovers that all things change and move away, yet that which sustains the seeker and its journey is a force which is not captured but is freely given, so that force is Love and is available to all who call for it, yet when one can give away all things, one then makes way for this force to move through the being, and then it is natural to give all one has at each moment to any who would call for the aid of one’s being, so sacrifice becomes the honor, for there is no thing as important to one as loving another. On April 1, 2006, Q’uo described the nature of Love:

The seed of any thought is thought itself. The Logos is the original Thought. All thoughts spring from the Logos. Unconditional Love is the essence of the Logos. Therefore, the seed of every thought is Love.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

J: Would you please comment on the way I understood what you said about sacrifice? It seems to me that I heard you say that Love and the willingness to give openly and freely in Love then transforms sacrifice into just pure response, pure willingness to give, which is entirely different from the Old Testament attitude toward sacrifice, which was a sort of penalty that was required in order to pay a debt. Could you comment on that?

I am Latwii, and we shall do our best, my sister. The concepts of sacrifice and guilt with which we have been dealing this evening are primary concepts for any who seeks the nature of the process of evolution and how one may best move along this path. The finite nature of your illusion presents one with the situation which reproduces the illusion of limitation. Sacrifice is a limited concept, for one who feels that it is sacrificing moves within a limited perception of what is available to the self at all times.

The limitless Love of the one Creator enables each entity at all times to experience and to be. By limiting one’s awareness of this concept, many experiences become available that would not be available with the wider perspective. This is the nature of your illusion, and the reason that progress is possible in a rapid fashion within your illusion. For when one has worked long enough upon the concept of sacrifice and limitation and has through many, many experiences discovered that what is necessary is always provided, one discovers then that what was previously seen as sacrifice is a distorted perception which has allowed one to see the infinite nature of another, of a situation of the self. This is not a quick process, my sister, yet it is one which teaches well, for that which is limited is seen to give way to that which is infinite, and that which is seen as the sacrifice gives way to that which is seen as another opportunity to give freely of the infinite Love which is available to all at each moment.

J asked: “Would you please comment on the way I understood what you said about sacrifice? It seems to me that I heard you say that Love and the willingness to give openly and freely in Love then transforms sacrifice into just pure response, pure willingness to give, which is entirely different from the Old Testament attitude toward sacrifice, which was a sort of penalty that was required in order to pay a debt. Could you comment on that?” Latwii continued by saying the concepts of sacrifice and guilt with which we have been dealing this evening are primary concepts for any who seeks the nature of the process of evolution, and how one may move along this path, for the finite nature of your illusion presents one with the situation which reproduces the illusion of limitation, but sacrifice is a limited concept, for one who feels that it is sacrificing moves within a limited perception of what is available to the self at all times, and the limitless Love of the one Creator enables each entity to experience and to be, so by limiting one’s awareness of this concept, many experiences become available that would not be available with the wider perspective since this is the nature of your illusion, and the reason that progress is possible in a rapid fashion within your illusion, for when one has worked long enough upon the concept of sacrifice and limitation and has through many experiences discovered that what is necessary is always provided, one discovers that what was previously seen as sacrifice is a distorted perception which has allowed one to see the infinite nature of another, of a situation, and of the self, but this is not a quick process, yet it is one which teaches well, for that which is limited is seen to give way to that which is infinite, and that which is seen as sacrifice gives way to that which is seen as another opportunity to give freely of the infinite Love which is available to all at each moment. On April 7, 1996, Q’uo described the concept of sacrifice:

We encourage each to lift those blinders as often as possible to lift the self into faith, into hope, into peace, by thinking upon these things. Thinking upon the concept of sacrifice, the concept of a Love that would give itself and spend itself to the point of death. Each has known great heroes and read of mighty deeds, but each is a hero within their own creation. In one season, it is easy to see the self as together, efficient, able.

May we answer further, my sister?

J: That was really helpful. Thank you. I have a question on another subject. When there is a person who is experiencing pain and fatigue and general depletion, or really using up of vital energies, and others or another would like to somehow share strength and resource, is there any way that this can be done?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We are somewhat unsure as how best to pursue the response, for there are many, many ways of transferring energy from one entity to another. The energy that enlivens each entity has been called the vital energy. This is a sum of the physical, mental, and spiritual energy complexes of an entity. These complexes each then lend a portion of that energy which enables an entity to feel vital, alive and vibrant. The enhancing of the vital energies for one who is somewhat depleted may be approached from any of these three basic areas.

The spiritual energy system may be enhanced by any number of means which have as their common denominator, shall we say, the inspiration of the entity, as the narrower channel of influx is widened by song, reading, chanting, the visualizing of healing Love being sent and surrounding the entity, and so forth.

The mental energy system may also benefit from the same procedures as well as the dialogue, shall we say, in which the one who has become depleted participates and exchanges the, shall we say, food for thought, and is nourished by those who provide the dialogue which also moves into the channel that feeds the vital energies.

The physical energy system is much aided by other techniques including the exercise, the nutrition, as of your foodstuffs, and the sexual energy transfers done with the intent of aiding the one depleted.

May we answer further, my sister?

J: No, thank you. That was very helpful.

I am Latwii and thank you as well, my sister. Is there another query?

N: I have a sort of extension of the last question. There is a vibratory science of sound which was used in ancient China which has been rumored not only to heal but revitalize and reenergize individuals on not just the physical but the spiritual. The name of this ancient science is Shat Chai Mernis. Is there any way that you can channel information concerning Shat Chai Mernis or refer to material that can be read upon it or to an individual who may channel that information?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We are somewhat limited in our ability to transmit specific information through this type of contact but can suggest that the use of sounds and colors is a specific means of utilizing the very, very general suggestions that we made concerning the revitalizing of the mind, body, and spirit energy systems of one who has become depleted in the vital energies. The use of such sounds or tones is, in general, based upon the supposition that each energy system or center, when in a balanced or healthy, as you would call it, configuration vibrates at a certain frequency. The frequency then being reproduced in a somewhat artificial fashion is then used to aid the one depleted in a process of revitalization that first provides the model, shall we say, of the balanced center that the one depleted may then, shall we say, see the goal and be more able to harmonize one’s own center with that goal.

The process is more complex in its application than this very simple description, for each seeker has a somewhat unique configuration associated with each energy center and, therefore, vary somewhat from the norm, shall we say, for each center.

May we answer you further, my brother?

N: Well, thank you. Does this in some way refer to Michael Helius’ interpretation of an astrological variation for each entity as far as the sound vibration?

I am Latwii, and I believe that your statement is correct, my brother. For each branch of science, shall we say, that seeks to provide a means or blueprint by which the seeker may approach evolution there is the necessity for each branch or study to recognize the more subtle aspects of each entity that are not generally given in the more broad interpretations and applications of any philosophy or school of thought.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: I don’t know about the sound vibrations, but in Atlantis they did use the Light vibration through various crystals to energize as well as to heal. Did they also use sound?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We are aware of many uses of sound vibrations by the entities who comprised the culture known to your peoples as Atlantis. This is correct, my brother.

May we answer further?

N: Is there anywhere that we can find a channel, or seek a channel, or an entity that might be able to enlighten us on the healing effects of sound vibration as well as the ability to energize the individual, through the mind, body, and spirit complex—all three?

I am Latwii. We are unable to give the specific place or entity which might be so consulted, but we can assure you, my brother, that there are those within your culture who are quite adept at this practice. It is not that difficult to find such an entity if one perseveres.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: Thank you, no. I have looked, but I have not been able to find anyone who can enlighten me on Shat Chai Mernis. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. We find that this instrument grows somewhat fatigued. We would therefore ask for another query or two, if they are somewhat short, as the final queries of the evening. May we attempt such a query at this time?

Carla: Well, I have a little one. I still feel L/Leema’s presence, and that’s the first time that L/Leema has lingered. I wondered if it was just her favorite group or if I wasn’t complete in my channeling.

I am Latwii, and we find, my sister, that those of L/Leema have chosen to remain for a period of time in order that their vibrations might provide some aid to your own depleted energies which call for a certain nature or essence that is possessed by those of L/Leema.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we again thank you, my sister. Is there a final query for this evening?

A: I have an off-the-wall question. Please make your answer as short as you can. Out of curiosity, do entities mostly tend to reincarnate within their original racial complexes to work out karma, you know, racial karma, or are they free to hop in and out to whatever group would look like it would provide good balancing or good different experience?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Though it is possible for any entity to incarnate within any group, be it race, or sex, or philosophical persuasion, it is most usually the case that each entity will gather about it those companions upon the journey. It is with these companions that one has traveled previously, shall we say, and has as a result been able to develop a certain ease or fluidity in the incarnational experiences that eases the evolutionary process, shall we say, once again. These groups also gather about them other groupings loosely held together, that serve the same function, yet upon the wider scale, therefore, the entities and groups find it helpful to continue as groupings throughout the incarnations that are found to be necessary in order that all might eventually learn the lessons set before each.

Thus, the groupings tend in the racial sense to remain as originally constructed. This, however, may result throughout the great span of time in one group inhabiting a certain racial configuration at one period of time and another racial configuration at another period of time. Thus, all avenues of learning become available to each seeker.

May we answer further, my sister?

A: No, thank you. That was very enlightening, and it’s a pleasure to be with you all in person tonight.

I am Latwii, and we are also honored to be in your presence, my sister. We thank each for those queries offered, for by our humble attempts to respond, we learn more of the Creator in Its seeking and experiencing of Itself, and thus do we learn of ourselves. We thank each for inviting our presence, and we shall leave this group at this time, rejoicing always in the peace and power and in the Love and Light of the one Creator. We are those of Latwii. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “When we hate, we are invoking the law, and when we love, we are invoking the law; when we give or share, we are invoking the law, just as we are when we hold on to things. On every hand, nature testifies to the truth of this law. For example, unless the fruit on the tree is plucked, or in some way removed from the tree, the tree will stop bearing. We do not blame God for that. God is not punishing the tree. It is a law of nature that the tree must yield up its fruit in order that it may bring forth more fruit. So, unless we yield up, surrender, or release good, we become barren because the law is: “Whatsoever a person soweth, that shall they also reap.”

This law of sowing and reaping is applicable to individuals as well as to nations. There is no way to avoid the penalty of wrongdoing—not that there is any God who is going to do anything about it but because there is a karmic law that each person sets in operation by their actions.

All this the Master revealed in that part of His teaching in the Sermon on the Mount in which he said “Ye have heard that it hath been said . . . “But the Master never taught that God punishes—no, not even the thief on the cross, not the woman taken in adultery, not the man born blind. Always it was, “Go, and sin no more.” What evil we are experiencing we are bringing upon ourselves. It is not God inflicting it on us.

When Christianity became organized it adopted the Old Testament teaching of a punishing God, perhaps in the vain hope that it might frighten people into being good. But as a matter of fact, that very teaching, far from being a deterrent to evil-doing, is probably responsible for many of the sins committed in the world today. Evil-doers soon discover that there is no God who does anything to them, and the evidence they see about them does not convince them that God will punish either their evils of omission or commission.

If people were taught that the evil deed itself punished them, they would understand Jesus’ interpretation of karmic law, and then they would be prepared to accept their higher teaching of how to overcome that law. It is possible to set aside karmic law, wipe out all punishment for our former misdeeds and live under Grace, but this cannot happen to anyone individually or to the world until the karmic law as explained by the Master is first learned and understood.’’

The deed itself carries with it its own reward and its own punishment. It does not have to be an overt act, because the act itself is only the outward expression of the thought impelling the act. Therefore, for example, it is not necessary to steal to bring down the punishment of karmic law: it is only necessary to think of stealing, and actually it is not even necessary to think about it. Merely desiring what somebody else has is sufficient to set in motion karmic law. It is not necessary to strike a person, to become angry with them is enough to bring the law down upon us.

People in grosser states of consciousness do not feel the repercussions of karmic law as quickly as those on the spiritual path who suffer more as a result of a minor infraction of the law than others from a major one, because they have a greater awareness of what is right and what is wrong, and the slightest deviation from the way sets the law in operation.”

This morning I went outside and fed the goldfish, and then I pumped enough water out of the fishpond to show the Economical Aquatic Gardens employee where the patch is on my fishpond, so that he doesn’t spray it while he is cleaning the algae off of the liner with his power sprayer, and cause a leak in the pond.

Then I began using Whip Lash to weed the Astilbe Garden, the Striped Lariope Garden in the back yard, the Lariope Garden, and the Orange Spirea Bushes around the fishpond.

This afternoon I went outside and used my hand snippers to cut the dead stalks out of the Cotton ball Hydrangea just outside of my bedroom window.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 5

Anchored In Love

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the consciousness of pure, whole and divine Love. May you feel that Love as these words surround you and penetrate you, that you may begin your day and continue your day anchored in Love.

This instrument was concerned during this morning’s offering that she was so irreverent as to make jokes and to laugh with an unexpected caller. May we say forcefully that if the life is lived in the spirit of Love, it is a life lived in laughter. It is a life lived in joyful humor. And one who spreads the laughter and the humor spreads the peace and the healing of Jesus Christ, Lord of all.

Are you afraid of the words “Lord” and “King”? Know that Love, the very fabric of consciousness, is Lord and is King of that kingdom of Love which you seek. And you do not need to seek in vain. We are of the spirit of Jesus the Christ, Comforter to the world today. And at this moment we say to you, “Live and laugh! Live and be joyful! And you shall live sacramentally and in the kingdom of eternal life.”

We leave you in the peace which passeth all understanding; in the Love of Jesus the Christ, now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from November 10, 1985:

[Carla had surgery on her wrist and hand this week.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Hatonn, and we greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. Again, it is with joy that we greet each of you and join your circle of seeking this evening. We shall attempt to work with this instrument in a manner which is novel for this instrument. We hope to be able to transmit our thoughts on more of a word-by-word basis, perhaps relying from time to time upon the phrase in order to aid this instrument in his development as an instrument. Therefore, we apologize in advance for any delays in the transmission.

This evening we should attempt to speak to a concern which each seeker of truth may discover upon the path of seeking. It is often a concern to such a seeker that there is no clearly discernible pattern of thought or constructed philosophy which serves all needs of any seeker. Each seeker wishes to proceed upon the evolutionary path as efficiently as possible, and as this journey is undertaken, there is the discovery that many philosophies exist concerning how best to travel. No matter how many sources the seeker may consult, there continue to be more and more aspects of this seeking and even divergent philosophies as to how best to proceed. The concern, then, of many who consciously pursue their own evolution is, “What is truly of value at this moment in this process?”

Adding to the concerns of such a seeker is the observable fact that for any such seeker there is the ever-changing experience and pattern of thinking that develops within the seeker over a period of time. Thus, at one point within the seeker’s experience, the mind may be configured at quite a different fashion than it may later be found to be configured. Thus, there is placed before the seeker’s attention the ever-changing nature of the resources which may inform the choices that a seeker makes. Yet within each is the nebulous though persistent feeling that there is an absolute essence, shall we say, which is at the heart of all philosophies. And it is quite often the heart’s desire of the seeker to know this ultimate, shall we say, truth. Thusly desirous and propelled upon the journey, a seeker will find a multitude of reflections of that one image which as the holy grail, as it has been called, leads on and draws unto each seeker.

In this session Hatonn spoke about how we can determine the best spiritual path to travel. They began by saying this evening we should attempt to speak to a concern which each seeker of truth may discover upon the path of seeking, for it is often a concern to such a seeker that there is no discernible pattern of thought which serves all needs of any seeker, so each seeker wishes to proceed upon the evolutionary path as efficiently as possible, and as this journey is undertaken there is the discovery that many philosophies exist concerning how best to travel, but no matter how many sources the seeker may consult, there continue to be more aspects of this seeking and other philosophies as to how best to proceed, and the concern of many who consciously pursue their own evolution is, “What is truly of value at this moment in this process?” Then Hatonn said adding to the concerns of such a seeker is the observable fact that for any such seeker there is the ever-changing experience that develops within the seeker over a period of time, so at one point within the seeker’s experience, the mind may be configured in a different fashion than it may later be found to be configured, for there is placed before the seeker’s attention the ever-changing nature of the resources which may inform the choices that a seeker makes, yet within each is the nebulous though persistent feeling that there is an absolute essence which is at the heart of all philosophies, and it is often the heart’s desire of the seeker to know this ultimate truth, and propelled upon the journey, a seeker will find a multitude of reflections of that one image which is as the Holy Grail that leads on and draws unto each seeker. On April 30, 1989, Q’uo described a way of seeking the Holy Grail:

Let us look at the compelling myth of the Holy Grail. It has perhaps seized the imagination of mystics in a more direct way than any other spiritual system, for it involves entities in a myth which is adventurous. The hero must go forth alone. It must pass impossible tests. It must bring back that which is unavailable, seemingly, and it must do it for the Love of the infinite Creator. It is, of course, in the journey itself that the transformation of the hero occurs. When the hero returns, this entity, then, becomes the teacher, able to speak in parables and stories, anecdotes that may make sense to those about one.

As you move within your own individual illusion, you are aware that there are patterns within your seeking. There are methods which seem to be more related, shall we say, to you than any others. When you discover this feeling, you may determine then that there has been a recognition upon some level of your own being for that which you seek in that which has come before your attention. This harmonious feeling or intuitive inspiration then becomes the great ally of the seeker of truth, for the mind of a person can construct many magnificent structures of thought and philosophical expertise, shall we say, and if a seeker is left only with its intellectual evaluation of potential aids in its journey, then it is quite easy for a seeker thus limited to become confused when one philosophy sounds as good as another.

And, indeed, my friends, this may well be true, for each philosophy is a construction of a portion of the one Creator and thus offers the essence in some degree of the one Creator to any who hold this philosophy. Yet, to be able to discern not with the intellect but with that feeling from within which wells up in spontaneous recognition of that which is most helpful at the present moment for the seeker is to rely upon a more trustworthy friend, shall we say, for these intuitive inspirations which well up from the deeper portions of one’s being are in some fashion that which is sought or point the direction towards that which is sought. For at its heart, my friends, the process of seeking the truth is a process whereby one calls for a greater portion of the self and calls for this portion from the self.

Then Hatonn said as you move within your own individual illusion, you are aware that there are patterns within your seeking, and there are methods which seem to be more related to you than any others, so when you discover this feeling, you may determine that there has been a recognition upon some level of your being for that which you seek in that which has come before your attention, for this intuitive inspiration becomes the ally of the seeker of truth, for the mind of a person can construct many structures of thought, and if a seeker is left only with its intellectual evaluation of potential aids on its journey, then it is easy for a seeker thus limited to become confused when one philosophy sounds as good as another. Hatonn continued by saying this may be true, for each philosophy is a construction of a portion of the one Creator and offers the essence of the one Creator to any who hold this philosophy, yet to be able to discern that within which wells up in spontaneous recognition of that which is most helpful at the present moment for the seeker is to rely upon a more trustworthy friend,  for these intuitive inspirations which well up from the deeper portions of one’s being are in some fashion that which is sought, for at its heart the process of seeking the truth is a process whereby one calls for a greater portion of the self from the self. On June 12, 1983, Latwii spoke of seeking the truth:

The process of the seeker in seeking the truth sets in motion many opportunities for the seeker to experience that which is sought. That portion of yourself which you have come to call the higher self often sends a symbolic message to the conscious seeking self so that by the process of contemplation and meditation the conscious seeking self might penetrate further into its own being, and find more of that which it seeks within itself. As you seek to know in order to serve, that seeking shall manifest in many and various ways.

It is the nature of a single creation that each portion or facet of the creation is contained within each individualized expression of that creation. You as such an individualized expression, then, when you seek, seek more of that which you are from your own self. Therefore, it is most helpful not only to analyze with the conscious mind that which is placed before one’s conscious attention but then to also give over that thinking and analyzing at some point in order that the greater portion of one’s own being may be allowed to move through the channel which you have created with your desire and make itself known in whatever fashion is recognizable and discernible to your conscious mind which propels your seeking.

Now Hatonn said it is the nature of a single creation that each portion of the creation is contained within each individualized expression of that creation, for when you seek, seek more of that which you are from your self, for it is helpful not only to analyze with the conscious mind that which is placed before one’s conscious attention, but then to also give over that thinking at some point in order that the greater portion of one’s being may be allowed to move through the channel which you have created with your desire and make itself known in whatever fashion is recognizable to your conscious mind which propels your seeking. On January 23, 1983, Latwii described the function of our conscious mind:

You may see the balancing of the intellectual and analytical abilities of your mind with the intuitive information from your subconscious mind as that which is most helpful in accelerating your evolution of mind, body, and spirit, for with the analytical abilities of your conscious mind, you are able to chart the path which you shall travel. By listening to those intuitive impulses which spring from some portion of your subconscious mind, then is your conscious mind informed as to larger parameters within which it might have its sway. Thus, the two portions of your mind operating in balance provide you with the means by which you are able to move upon your path of evolution within your illusion.

Our message this evening is of necessity somewhat briefer than most, for the collective energies of this group this evening are somewhat lessened, and it is our discernment that it would be best that the briefer message be delivered. We shall therefore at                                   this time take our leave of this group, thanking each wholeheartedly for inviting our presence, and we would ask that the proper discernment be applied by each to those words which we have given that you may further exercise that intuitive knowing which allows you to weave your way through the illusion which you inhabit on your journey of seeking. We are grateful to have been able to speak this evening. We are known to you as Hatonn, and we leave you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we too greet each of you in the Love and Light of our infinite Creator. We too are aware that the energies of this group are somewhat diminished. We shall, therefore, spare this instrument of the necessity for the word by word communication, hoping that we might be able to spend more, shall we say, information with you as the time might be shortened. May we attempt our usual service of attempting those queries which those present may have use in the requesting? May we begin with a query?

L: I’d like to ask a question or perhaps ask for whatever you would care to offer to help me understand a facet of my life which seems that there are people who go away and then return, people whose influence seems to be potentially beneficial in some aspects, other people whose potential influence seems destructive. And it’s almost as if each one is acting as a comet in its trajectory, and they disappear and they’re out of my life and then come winging back in again, and then they’re gone again, and then they come back again. What could you be able to offer to assist me in understanding this?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We ask that you picture a tapestry which has many colors and is designed in such a fashion that the colors move in and out, each with the other, in somewhat of a rhythmic and yet somewhat of an irregular pattern. If one looks at any one point within the tapestry, one will note that there is a, shall we say, given set of colors, each in a certain relation with the others. If one follows two or more of these colors as they thread their way through the tapestry, one will note that there is a mingling from time to time and a departure of colors again from time to time.

So, it is in the life of any seeker, for each of you, my friends, before the incarnation made general and specific agreements with many other seekers of truth. During the incarnational pattern, then, there will be the attempt to fulfill those agreements, to provide those lessons and services that were deemed a necessary part of the incarnation prior to its beginning. It may be that for a certain portion of what you call time there will unfold a relationship in some way or another with a variety of entities. Thus will your incarnational pattern unfold as the interaction between this grouping of entities creates the catalyst that offers the opportunity for the learning of certain lessons and the providing of certain services as a balancing function to the learning of lessons.

L asked: “There are people who go away and then return, people whose influence seems to be potentially beneficial in some aspects, other people whose potential influence seems destructive. And it’s almost as if each one is acting as a comet in its trajectory, and they disappear, and they’re out of my life and then come winging back in again, and then they’re gone again, and then they come back again. What could you be able to offer to assist me in understanding this?” Latwii began by saying we ask that you picture a tapestry which has many colors and is designed in such a fashion that the colors move in and out, each with the other, in a rhythmic and an irregular pattern, so if one looks at one point within the tapestry, one will note that there is a given set of colors, each in a certain relation with the others, and if one follows two or more of these colors as they thread their way through the tapestry, one will note that there is a mingling from time to time and a departure of colors again from time to time. Then Latwii said it is in the life of any seeker, for each of you before the incarnation made agreements with other seekers of truth, and during the incarnational pattern there will be the attempt to provide those lessons and services that were deemed a necessary part of the incarnation prior to its beginning, for it may be that for a certain portion of time there will unfold a relationship with a variety of entities, so will your incarnational pattern unfold as the interaction between this grouping of entities creates the catalyst that offers the opportunity for the learning of lessons and the providing of services as a balancing function to the learning of lessons. On October 3, 1982, Latwii described the nature of some of the agreements that we make with each other before our incarnations begin:

We would once again respond by suggesting that there are no mistakes within your illusion. When an entity chooses to enter within your third-density illusion, it is well aware of the parameters within which it shall move, of the resources which to it shall be available. The agreements made before the incarnation are agreements made in the light of this knowledge. Therefore, there is, in truth, no action which can be undertaken by any during the incarnation which were not seen as possibilities before the incarnation began. Thus, each activity which is engaged in during the illusion does have its effect, yet each activity was also known to be a possibility before the incarnation was begun. Therefore, such actions are not undertaken in a willy-nilly fashion, shall we say. Though their effects shall be felt by those in their vicinity, these effects have also been chosen.

Thus does the pattern of one’s life find a movement in and out of other selves who join in the rhythm of learning and the serving. The specific nature of any one entity’s relationship in your own pattern is of an unknown nature to any within the illusion. Thus, as one sees the appearance and disappearance of any entity or group of entities, one may assume in the general nature that there are those lessons and services which yet remain, for though there has been time and distance which has come between shared experience, yet there remains a certain affinity between these seekers of truth who have before the incarnation agreed to travel this incarnation in such and such a fashion.

As a small addendum to this response that we fear may have grown somewhat lengthy, we would also remind each seeker that what appears to the naked eye, shall we say, may not be in its essence in agreement with the appearance. Which is to say, it is difficult to discern the nature of any experience completely within your illusion, for what seems most helpful, happy, and harmonious in one instance may not in truth yield the harvest of lessons that another situation which seems most traumatic, disharmonious and frustrating might yield, for it is within the bounds, shall we say, of the difficulty that the spiritual strength is put to the test. This is a general description, but we hope can provide somewhat of an insight into the illusion which you inhabit, for truly it is an illusion, that which is not at its heart what it appears upon the surface to be.

Latwii went on to say thus does the pattern of one’s life find a movement in and out of other selves lives who join in the rhythm of learning and serving, for the nature of any one entity’s relationship in your pattern is of an unknown nature to any within the illusion, so as one sees the appearance and disappearance of any entity or group of entities, one may assume that there are those lessons and services which remain, for though there has been time and distance which has come between shared experience, yet there remains a certain affinity between these seekers of truth who have before the incarnation agreed to travel this incarnation in such and such a fashion. Now Latwii said as a small addendum to this response that we fear may have grown somewhat lengthy, we would also remind each seeker that what appears to the naked eye, shall we say, may not be in its essence in agreement with the appearance, but it is difficult to discern the nature of any experience within your illusion, for what seems most harmonious in one instance may not yield the harvest of lessons that another situation which seems disharmonious might yield, for it is within the bounds of the difficulty that the spiritual strength is put to the test, but we hope we can provide an insight into the illusion which you inhabit, for it is an illusion, that which is not at its heart what it appears upon the surface to be. On January 6, 1991, Q’uo described the nature of the illusion of third density:

That is to say, that the nature of the illusion is helpful, so that, in order to transcend experience, one must enter freely into experience. The way to realization of the nature of the soul and the nature of the Creator is through the illusion, not around it in any way. It is when moving through experiences that are appropriately valued and respected that one may begin to transcend them, and to achieve an immediate awareness of the presence of Love, that is, the one infinite Creator.

Thusly, if you wish to move from shadow to Light, it is well first to realize that the search shall be in shadow, and that you shall be in the shadow more and more, in pain more and more, as you continue to learn, to evolve, and to grow. You are in pain because of the subjective nature of experience. It is painful to reprogram your computer, but as you go through especially traumatic experiences, or as you go through nontraumatic experiences in attentiveness, you begin to have the motivation to use each opportunity for learning amidst all the shadows.

May we answer you further, my brother?

L: No, that’s given me quite a bit for thought. I appreciate it. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

N: Last week you said that the angle of a pyramid was 76 degrees for the healing chamber. But is the angle—I checked it, or at least the great pyramidal Giza, Cheops, was 51 degrees, 51 minutes and 14.3 seconds. How do you measure these 76 degrees for the healing chamber?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. The angle of 76 degrees and 18 minutes, approximately, is the angle of the apex of the so-called great pyramid at Giza, and it is the angle which allows the formation of the King’s Chamber, as it has been called by your peoples, and this location was the location used in days of old for the healing. Yet it is the position which has been suggested to be of a potentially dangerous nature for those entering it who are in any degree distorted towards the distortion of power of others, shall we say. The lack of purity in the desire to utilize this position can be further distorted by the apex angle that is greater than 76 degrees.

I am Latwii. May we answer further, my brother?

N: There was an approximate thirty feet of top cap for the great pyramid. Was it ever put on? And if it was, what happened to it?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. This capstone, as it has usually been called among your people, was in place at the initial period of construction of this structure and was at a later time replaced with a capstone made of your granite material. This was itself removed at yet a later date by those many entities who sought to remove the outer portions of this structure for the purpose of constructing yet another structure.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: Well, thank you very much. Carla and I were talking about the Christ-like consciousness, that there was a book written that shows that there were fifteen or sixteen over the eons. Have there been that many? Or more? And was Jesus Christ the man reincarnated from other Earth entities previously, and if so which ones?

I am Latwii and shall attempt response to this query by suggesting that there have been a larger number of entities upon your planet in its past who have achieved that state of awareness which has come to be called the Christ consciousness. The number of entities described in the book of which you speak is a number which has been given to a specific portion of your planetary surface, most notably that area of the desert known as Sinai. There has been, however, throughout other portions of your planetary surface, the gaining of the perspective, shall we say, which is known as the Christ consciousness. Various traditions, cultures, and practices have been utilized over a great portion of your planet’s third-density experience by various individuals who have sought the heart of the lessons of this illusion and have found in great part that heart of Love within their own experience.

The entity known to your peoples as Jesus of Nazareth was an entity of this nature who had in previous incarnations achieved various levels of consciousness as a portion of its mission as what you would call a wanderer, and in this progression of incarnations sought to be of service in a manner which then was culminated in the incarnation of which you are aware. We are not able to utilize this instrument in giving names of the entity known as Jesus of Nazareth in its previous incarnations for there is a good deal of energy required to focus upon names not familiar to this instrument, and it is within the levels of what you would call trance that such energy is available for the retrieval of these names.

N asked: “Carla and I were talking about the Christ-like consciousness, that there was a book written that shows that there were fifteen or sixteen over the eons. Have there been that many? Or more? And was Jesus Christ the man reincarnated from other Earth entities previously, and if so which ones?” Latwii said there have been a larger number of entities upon your planet in its past who have achieved that state of awareness which has come to be called the Christ consciousness, and the number of entities described in the book of which you speak is a number which has been given to a specific portion of your planetary surface, mostly in the Sinai desert, but there has been, throughout other portions of your planetary surface, the gaining of the perspective which is known as the Christ consciousness, and various cultures and practices have been utilized over a great portion of your planet’s third-density experience by individuals who have sought the heart of the lessons of this illusion and have found in that heart of Love within their own experience. Now Latwii said Jesus of Nazareth was an entity of this nature who had in previous incarnations achieved various levels of consciousness as a portion of Its mission as a wanderer, and in this progression of incarnations He sought to be of service in a manner which then was culminated in the incarnation of which you are aware, but we are not able to utilize this instrument in giving the names Jesus of Nazareth in His previous incarnations, for there is a good deal of energy required to focus upon names not familiar to this instrument, and it is within the levels of what you would call trance that such energy is available for the retrieval of these names. On February 10, 2024, Q’uo described the nature of the heart of Love:

When one looks out upon the world about one, one must remember, that this third density is an illusion. It is an experience of seeming separation from each other, from the One Creator, and from the heart of Love. And yet, if you are aware that the Creator exists within each entity, you are aware that each entity is giving the Creator a means by which it may know Itself better, even in those areas which might seem of a negative or traumatic way. This is a means by which each entity in this third-density illusion and in all third-density illusions may be of service to the Creator.

And also there is the sure knowledge that the Creator exists within each entity, and that at some point each entity will find within itself that great desire to seek more of what is within the world around it in a spiritual sense, so that it may travel that positive path into service to others and eventually move into the fourth density of Love and understanding.

Thus, both the seeming negative experiences and the positive are means by which the Creator can know Itself better, and the spiritual seeker can know the Creator better and itself better. So that in the final analysis, shall we say, all is one, all is well, and all will be well.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: No. Thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We are aware that we have been somewhat brief in our stay with this group this evening, but are most appreciative for each moment that we have been allowed to share. We thank each for allowing our presence and our words. We also remind each that our words are but our fallible attempts to be of service. Take those which have meaning. Leave those which have none. We shall leave you at this time rejoicing in that Love and Light which propels and guides us all in our seeking of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. We are those of Latwii.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “In the Sermon on the Mount, Jesus summarizes the difference between Judaism and His new teaching which was not yet known as Christianity but as the teaching of a radical and independent-thinking Hebrew rabbi. And what is the teaching of this man who was undoubtedly the most illumined and spiritually developed of anyone ever known, so illumined that today the world practically revolves around His teachings?

The word Grace will reveal what it is. The law came by Moses, “but the truth by Jesus the Christ.” This grace and truth mean something quite different from what is meant by the law. And so for three hundred years after Jesus’ ministry, there were people traveling up and down the Holy Land, crossing over into Rome and Greece, teaching and preaching, not the law as set forth in the Hebrew faith, but a something new, a something startling, something different called grace and truth which gradually came to be known as the teaching of Christianity.

The first followers of His teachings were called Jewish Christians because they were Jews who were followers of the Christ. In fact, in those early days, only those who were Hebrews could become Christians. But eventually Paul and Peter realized that this Christ-teaching was more than just a different kind of Judaism. It was unique, something separate and distinct of its own, and gradually it came to pass that in order to become a Christian, it was not necessary to be a Hebrew first: circumcision was no longer required, and many other time-honored practices were forsaken; the disciples began to preach to the Gentiles and to acknowledge that this teaching of the Christ was universal in its nature, until the day came when even the pagans of Rome and Greece or any person, regardless of their background could, if they would, become a Christian.

So, for several hundred years this was the state of the Christian teaching, and then one of the strangest events that has ever happened in the history of the world took place. A church was organized that adopted all the rites and rituals of the Egyptians and other pagans of the day, that accepted bodily and literally Judaism as taught in the Old Testament, discarded all the Christian teaching except the name of its revelator, and then called itself the Christian church. But what happened to this Christ-teaching of “resist not evil,” or did it still cling to the ye-have-heard-it-said of old teaching of an “eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth”?

The practice of true Christianity lifts the Adamic man who would wreak vengeance on his enemy from the karmic law state of consciousness to the consciousness of grace and truth which reveals a God of Love instead of a God of rewards and punishments.

The God Jesus revealed was of an entirely different nature from that of the Old Testament, and in that part of the Sermon on the Mount which deals with karmic law, Jesus taught that sin is punished by the sin itself, but no reference is made to a God who punishes. It is clearly explained that as we do unto others it will be done unto us—not by God but according to the karmic law of as ye sow, so shall ye reap under which all human beings live. Our deeds of Love are reflected back to us in Love, and our evil deeds are brought back to us in evil effects by the very act itself. By our own state of consciousness, we set in motion both the good and the evil. “With what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again”—not by God, but by the law.”

Later this morning I went on an errand run. My first stop was at Thieneman’s nursery where I bought two flats of Impatiens, four flats of Zinnias, two Lenten Roses, and one flat of Pink Lantana. My second stop was at Frank Otte’s Nursery where I bought four flats of Gerberas.

This afternoon I had an appointment with my dentist, and he replaced the temporary filling where I had the root canal 16 days ago with a permanent filling. After I got home, I transplanted the Zinnias, Pink Lantana, and Gerberas on the top of the Wuthering Heights Mound in my front yard. Then I transplanted one of the flats of Impatiens on the bottom of the Wuthering Heights mound, and I put the other flat of Impatiens on the front porch. Then watered all of the flowers on the Wuthering Heights Mound with fertilized water. Then I took the two Lenten Roses and transplanted them in the Lenten Rose Garden in my back yard. Then I watered them with fertilized water.

From A Book of Days channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 4

The Wellspring Of Life

I am the Spirit of the living Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

The living wellspring of life comes to each and yet awaits the asking, just as water remains in the pipe until the faucet is turned.

The holy city of God stands with plain streets and glass stones until the seeker within its gates opens those gates to let in that vivifying spirit which turns glass to gem and plain streets to crystal seas and golden portals.

Each seeker already stands at the wellspring of life within the city of God. Yet until the call goes out in full sincerity from the heart of the pilgrim, the manifestation of joy and wholeness cannot be felt.

We stand waiting without the gates for the principle of the full consciousness of Love to be asked to enter.

We await each call in perfect confidence of the glorious outcome. For all consciousness shall see Christ. We leave you in peace, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer for the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings come from November 3, 1985:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and the Light of our infinite Creator. We greet and bless you, welcoming those who are new to this particular group and greeting old friends as well. It is a great privilege for us to be called to speak to you, and we are extremely appreciative of your allowing us to share our humble thoughts with you that we may attempt to be of service.

Picture with me if you will the Earth upon which you now are situated rolling and spinning in the darkness. It is the night side of Earth upon which you look, and there seems to be darkness within darkness as the eye seeks to fathom the dark sphere in the midst of the dark sky. Such, my friends, is the nature of your Earth sphere, not in the physical sense, as you would call it, but in those portions of your density which may be called spiritual or metaphysical. Suddenly one small flare of Light is seen. You know what that is, my friends. That is one entity whose will has been turned to offering the one Love and the one Light inherent in the one original Thought of our infinite Creator. What a glorious Light in such a darkness may we see when one entity alone orients itself to the One.

When groups of entities meet together, the Light blazes far, far brighter than by merely addition, for each gives each strength, clarity, and purity of being, each giving unto each the gift of Light. That is why your so-called Light groups are crucial, always have been, and always shall be. They are centers, if you will, of focus for that which is lightest in all people to have a safe place to be vulnerable and to shine forth in the darkness. We who have served with the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator within your sphere of influence for some time, as you call it, have seen more and more and more Lights glowing in the darkness. Their radiance is growing brighter, and there are beginning to be networks formed, networks of Light, traceries like lace encircling the darkened spiritual metaphysical planes of your Earth world. However, we do not want to emphasize overly much the function of the group, for each entity goes forth from the group, and yet is still an entity holding as in the holograph all of the Light of consciousness, all of the fresh and living radiance of the one original Thought.

In this session Hatonn speaks about the Light that spiritual beings form and share that Light in spiritual groups. Hatonn began by saying picture with me the Earth upon which you are living spinning in the darkness, and it is the night side of Earth upon which you look, and there seems to be darkness within darkness as the eye seeks to fathom the dark sphere in the midst of the dark sky, for such is the nature of your Earth sphere, not in the physical sense but in those portions of your density which may be called metaphysical, so suddenly one small flare of Light is seen, for you know that is one entity whose will has been turned to offering the one Love and the one Light within the one original Thought of our infinite Creator, but what a glorious Light in such a darkness may we see when one entity alone orients itself to the One. Hatonn went on to say when groups of entities meet together, the Light blazes brighter than by addition, for each gives each strength, purity of being, and the gift of Light, and that is why Light groups are crucial and always shall be, for they are centers of focus for that which is lightest in all people to have a safe place to be vulnerable and to shine forth in the darkness, so we who have served with the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator within your sphere of influence for some time, and we have seen more Lights glowing in the darkness, and their radiance is growing brighter, and there are beginning to be networks of Light formed, ornamental like lace encircling the darkened metaphysical planes of your Earth world, but we do not want to emphasize the function of the group, for each entity goes forth from the group, and yet is still an entity holding as in the holograph all of the Light of consciousness, all of the living radiance of the one original Thought. On July 20, 1986, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the one original Thought:

We would speak to you about the manifestation within your incarnational patterns of the one original Thought which is the Creator. The one original Thought upon which all creation was founded and with which all creation redounds is Love. Yes, my friends, Love is a thought, a principle, a Logos. You, by your very consciousnesses, are the Logos in a holographic representation, yet you are completely unlike any other holographic representation of the Creator, for your experiences are unique to your particular consciousness. Your field of energy is completely unique and precious to the one infinite Creator, and your greatest gift is your being, for by your mirroring of your perceptions, the Creator learns of Itself.

We ask each of you to value yourselves, not because of anything you have done or will do, any grand thought that you have thought or will think, but because of your innate and inherent nature. It is your birthright to be the Creator, and it is your challenge to find that same Creator in all that you meet, whatever the outward circumstances, whatever the challenges of personality. It is a fine thing to sit in meditation and glow with the inner and living Light of the one Creator. And yet we say to you, my friends, it is incumbent upon you insofar as you are able to turn from daily meditation outwards into your planetary sphere, wandering wherever you go, trailing the pristine and untouched Light that you have received during meditation. Then you shall truly be radiant, and those about you shall be blessed. It does not take a group in order to do this, although, as we said, when more than one person gathers in meditation, the strength of the meditation is increased far more than by simple addition.

We ask for your patience as we work with this instrument. We are giving word by word communication and, therefore, this instrument must wait at the most unlikely places. As far as we can tell this instrument’s thoughts, this instrument is impatient and wants to know the story. Yet this instrument is the story, and so are each of you. Pretend for a moment that you are a small child. You walk along the path kicking pebbles and gazing at the leaves on the trees, catching acorns in your hand and feeding them to the squirrels. The sun of childhood’s fall is warm and golden. The path grows circuitous as one gains in incarnational experience. It winds and turns, and the golden sun of childhood seems to become sickly and wan under the bruising influence of experience. And yet this is in no way necessary. One may retain that golden childhood, one merely needs to surrender the bruises, the anger, the hurt, and pain which have grown up around various circumstances and experiences which seemed quite negative. These experiences are a great deal like old and heavy clothing. They have become tattered; they have done their service, and it is time to shed these garments and put on fresh linen and go forth into that golden sunlight once again.

Hatonn went on to say we ask each of you to value yourselves, because of your innate nature since it is your birthright to be the Creator, and it is your challenge to find that same Creator in all that you meet whatever the challenges of personality, for it is a fine thing to sit in meditation and glow with the inner Light of the one Creator, yet we say to you it is necessary that you are able to turn from daily meditation outwards into your planetary sphere, wandering wherever you go, trailing the untouched Light that you have received during meditation, for then you shall be radiant, and those about you shall be blessed, but it does not take a group in order to do this, yet when more than one person gathers in meditation, the strength of the meditation is increased more than by simple addition. Then Hatonn said pretend that you are a small child, and you walk along the path kicking pebbles and gazing at the leaves on the trees, catching acorns in your hand and feeding them to the squirrels, and the sun of childhood’s fall is warm and golden, and the path grows circular as one gains in incarnational experience, so it winds and turns, and the golden sun of childhood seems to become sickly under the bruising influence of experience, yet this is not necessary, for one may retain that golden childhood, and one needs to surrender the anger and pain which have grown up around various experiences which seemed negative, for these experiences are like old and heavy clothing that have become ragged, but they have done their service, and it is time to shed these garments and put on fresh linen and go forth into that golden sunlight once again. On January 2, 2000, Carla spoke of how to use anger and pain honestly:

About a recent experience that I had, I had attempted to meet a relative’s questions over many years on the subject of channeling with patience and tolerance, and although this has seemed to be the right way to handle things in actuality, during this last Christmas I became unable to be tolerant and patient and expressed strong emotions such as anger and pain at this objecting that my relative was doing to me. It seemed to create a much more rapid and healing response from him than all my patience and tolerance had, and this surprised me very much.

We ask you to remember the lesson of the pearl. The oyster does not turn its back upon the gritty sand of experience; when sand irritates the inside of the shell a pearl begins to be formed. The irritation may continue, but the pearl grows more and more beautiful, more and more lustrous and full of light. Look ye therefore also to the gritty sand of your experiences, whatever they may be, for within that experience is Love. And the fruit of that experience is crystallization and radiance if you but choose it. We ask that you seek to know the truth, and if anything that we say to you rings false upon your ears, we ask that you forget it immediately and move on, for we are very fallible entities and would never ask you to believe that things that we say are implicitly true; for still we learn also; still we are corrected by experience; still we are refined by the refining fire of catalyst. Oh, radiant voyagers, shine for yourselves and for each other so that those about you may wonder at the Love within the group and within each individual.

Then Hatonn said we ask you to remember the lesson of the pearl, for the oyster does not turn its back upon the sand of experience, and when sand irritates the inside of the shell, a pearl begins to be formed, so the irritation may continue, but the pearl grows more beautiful and full of light, so look to the gritty sand of your experiences, for within that experience is Love, and the fruit of that experience is crystallization and radiance if you choose it, so we ask that you seek to know the truth, and if anything that we say to you rings false upon your ears, we ask that you forget it and move on, for we are fallible entities and would never ask you to believe that things that we say are implicitly true, for we learn, so we are corrected by experience, and we are refined by the refining fire of catalyst, so radiant voyagers, shine for yourselves and for each other so that those about you may wonder at the Love within the group and within each individual. On December 10, 2022, Q’uo described the nature of our catalyst:

For each individual seeker of truth, we would recommend that you utilize your personal catalyst in your daily round of activities, to become able to move forward on your own spiritual journey of opening your heart in unconditional Love. As you open your heart in unconditional Love by the use of this catalyst, you allow a portion of the river of Love that has created the entire universe to move through you and out into your daily round of activities, so that you share that Love, that Light, that is within all, and you allow it to move with you as you interact with your brothers and sisters on planet Earth. Knowing that they may not have the same success as you, but you can share with them the Love that is the product of using your personal catalyst, not concerning yourself with the mass hysteria and hypnotism on planet Earth that makes people think they are separate one from another.

Your own catalyst is that which is helpful to you. You need not take on the catalyst of the world around you. That can only be affected by doing your own inner spiritual work, using your catalyst as food for growth, becoming able to shine with the Light and Love of the One Infinite Creator, and then be able to move into the fourth density of Love and understanding, hoping that your brothers and sisters upon the Earth will be able at some point to do the same with their own catalyst. For this is the great work. This is the spiritual journey. This is what all have come to do, and you can play your part as you have done so well.

I am known to you as Hatonn. I leave you glorying in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we are also grateful to be asked to join your group, and greet each of you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. It is once again our privilege to attempt to respond to those queries which those present may offer in the service of all. May we then begin with the first query?

N: Yes. I was wondering, is there any way the vehicle of the mind/body/spirit complexes of the star seeds, Light workers, and so forth in California, since there is supposed to be a catastrophe in the next two or three years—is there any way to channel their energies and themselves out of that area prior to this occurrence or will they have to go ahead with the harvest?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. You must look at the occurrences of the daily round of activities, be they traumatic or trivial, as that which has been chosen by each for lessons and services that such occurrences offer. As each entity moves through the incarnational pattern there will be various events that will mark the entity’s progress and offer opportunity that no other events could offer. Many of your people are concerned that various geophysical events shall end this or that incarnation prematurely and shall do so on a grand scale as has been spoken of in many teachings. This causes in many a fearful response and a desire to avoid one or another event. Yet we say to you, my brother, that for as long as an entity’s lessons and services remain there is no power upon your planet that can remove this entity. And when an entity has completed those lessons and services chosen by that entity there is no power that can keep this entity. For the progression of evolution is that stream of beingness that moves ever onward and the ending of one pattern is the beginning of another.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: Well, I understood that particular point, and I wasn’t referring to any specific or particular entity. It was just that I was thinking that there are so many extremely advanced light workers in California, and that the fact that during the decade they would be needed in other areas of the United States so significantly that it would be nice to have their expertise to help with the next decade, and as I said, I was not referring to any specific entity but I’m sure that they could be of help in other areas to those of us, many of us, who are not so far advanced to help with the harvest and enlightenment.

I am Latwii, and from your comments, my brother, we draw the heart of what we hope is your query. Please requestion if we have mistaken the query. There is the need upon the part of each seeker of truth to develop the concept that you may call faith, the faith that, indeed, those truths which bind us all as one, indeed, exist. And there is the need to develop the will to power the faith and to seek continually, and to know at the heart of one’s being that all needs shall be met. Where there is the call for Light, Light shall respond in one form or another. If Lights are removed in one location, they shall spring again in another.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: Thank you very much. I believe that [inaudible] channels master Kuthumi, and he mentions a term, “tensor” organization or “tensor” enlightenment. I wonder if you would elaborate on that particular terminology? Tensor orientation, I believe it is, t-e-n-s-o-r.

I am Latwii, and we must confess our own fallibility and ignorance, my brother. We have no knowledge of this concept. May we be of service in any other way?

N: Well, I have one other item. That is in reference to the Reiki healing. Reiki healing enumerates seven keys, and of course this is supposed to be a healing method that is approximately ten thousand or more years old and is a vibratory science. I wonder if you would elaborate on the seven keys of the Reiki healing?

I am Latwii, and though we have a basic grasp of your query and shall attempt response according to that grasp, we do not hope to cover this topic fully, for as with many forms of healing, there is much of the philosophy, shall we say, that accompanies the teachings. We shall attempt our understanding, small though it is.

With each of those centers of energy which have long been called chakras by those metaphysical students upon your sphere, there is a nature or essence or tone, if you will, which allows the entity so possessing these energy centers to utilize the Love and Light of the one Creator in increasingly intensified fashions. This Love/Light of the one Creator then enters the energy center system of an entity and allows this entity to pursue its pre-incarnatively chosen series of lessons and services in such and such a fashion according to the choices freely made. Within each energy center then there will be the distortion, or bias, or tendency to utilize this Love/Light in one fashion or another corresponding to the chosen lesson or service. Thus, the white Light of the Creator becomes reflected in various colors and biases that may be also seen by those attempting to serve as healers as a blockage of energy, for as the white Light is reflected and diffracted it is in some degree blocked in order that a pattern of experience may develop.

If these blockages or biases go, shall we say, unnoticed and unworked upon for a prolonged portion of your time, there may develop within the entity that situation called disease. Thus, there are within each entity the potentials for various lessons and services which can provide the opportunity to find balance and wholeness when attention is focused upon the bias or blockage. Without the proper attention and work in a conscious fashion upon these blockages, then the disease may call for the healer. Those of the philosophy of which you describe seek in a certain fashion to discover the tone of each energy center as it would be heard and felt if the center were freed of all blockages. The tone of one in a diseased, as you would call it, configuration is then matched to that which may be seen as the ideal, the differences noted and various efforts are then made to bring the two into harmony, or more correctly stated, to remove the difference between the diseased tone and the ideal tone.

N asked: “Reiki healing enumerates seven keys, and of course this is supposed to be a healing method that is approximately ten thousand or more years old and is a vibratory science. I wonder if you would elaborate on the seven keys of the Reiki healing?” Latwii replied by saying with each of those centers of energy which are called chakras by those metaphysical students upon your sphere, there is an essence which allows the entity possessing these energy centers to utilize the Love and Light of the one Creator in increasingly intensified fashions, and this Love/Light of the one Creator then enters the energy center system of an entity and allows this entity to pursue its pre-incarnatively chosen series of lessons and services according to the choices freely made, so within each energy center there will be the tendency to utilize this Love/Light in one fashion or another corresponding to the chosen lesson or service, for the white Light of the Creator becomes reflected in various colors that may be seen by those attempting to serve as healers as a blockage of energy, for as the white Light is reflected it is in some degree blocked in order that a pattern of experience may develop. Latwii went on to say if these blockages go unworked upon for a prolonged portion of time, there may develop within the entity that situation called disease since there are within each entity the potentials for various lessons and services which can provide the opportunity to find balance when attention is focused upon the blockage, but without the proper work upon these blockages the disease may call for the healer, for those of the philosophy of which you describe seek in a certain fashion to discover the tone of each energy center as it would be heard and felt if the center were freed of all blockages, and the tone of one in a diseased configuration is then matched to that which may be seen as the ideal, the differences noted and various efforts are then made to remove the difference between the diseased tone and the ideal tone. On January 29, 1989, Latwii described how blockages of energy in our minds can cause diseases in our bodies:

When there is a limitation of the viewpoint, and the mental configuration of an entity is unable to accept some portion of its experience, some portion of itself or another self which represents itself to it, then that energy which moves through the entity is constricted to some degree according to the limitation of the viewpoint which the entity has placed upon itself.

This continuing blockage of energy of the mental nature, when allowed to be prolonged without significant movement in understanding is given to the physical vehicle in some symbolized manner that will be noticed by the mind more quickly, it is hoped, than it was noticed in its original mental configuration.

Therefore, the hardening of certain muscle groups, as you have called them, as well as many ailments which move into various of the organs and structural portions of the physical vehicle are representations in a symbolic fashion of the original blockage of energy which first took place within the mind complex.

Therefore, the removal of the physical blockages of energy and their various expressions or manifestations is most effectively undertaken first upon the mental level and then allowed to move into the physical level as a result of working first upon the source or root of the blockage. The focus upon the physical blockage only, or before focusing upon the mental, tends to work primarily upon the symptoms, shall we say, or the outgrowth of the root cause.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: Yes, thank you. I’m sure others have questions—that I don’t tie up the floor, so to speak, and I do appreciate the answers—but it seems that an individual who is presented as a healer does so by just merely initiation, and this healing can be transferred to the patient irrespective of the healer or the “healee”? And it just seemed to be, I just wondered, they talk about seven keys of which are sort of mystical, and I don’t really understand it. I thought perhaps you could elucidate on the seven keys or the way to increase the speed of healing and so forth that we who are trained as the healers can accentuate the treatment of the “healees” or the patient?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. To begin, may we suggest that the healer, the one who has healed itself by the inner work that each seeker attempts, has no will in relation to one seeking the healing, for the healer is one who offers itself as a vessel or a channel through which the healing power of the one Creator may move. The healer then surrenders its will and stands aside. This type of healing requires upon the part of the one to be healed a desire to be healed and upon some level of its being an understanding of those lessons symbolized by that condition called disease. It is, however, possible for some who serve as healers and who yet retain a will that they may serve efficiently to achieve a temporary state of healing within the one to be healed. However, if the one to be healed has not requested the healing and has not upon some level of its being understood the lesson, the healing shall not long last for it does not have the foundation built for it.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: Well, thank you. That’s the way I had always understood it. But they explain that the “healee” doesn’t have to request it; it can be sent to other areas, and of course more advanced training will allow us to send it in increased speed, something like fourfold, and I thought perhaps you might elucidate on that particular method of increasing the rapidity of healing for those of us that have been so initiated along with the understanding that it is a down-spiraling as contrasted with Kundalini which is an up-spiraling of energy?

I am Latwii, and in our humble opinion, those seeking healing and its increased or speeded up effects may achieve such by increasing the meditative attention upon those areas needing the healing, and upon unraveling the riddle posed by the disease. The process of evolution for each portion of the one Creator is a function of the efficient application of free will and the choice to seek and to learn. There may be many techniques that one may perform that will serve as models in this process, be it healing or simply seeking the meaning to each portion of one’s life, and such models may indeed be helpful. But that which powers the progress is the will and the faith of each seeker of truth.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: Thank you very much. I would like to relinquish the floor at this time. They explain that by further training you can accentuate the initiation that you already have of fourfold and that the healer does this, not the patient. If you have anything to add I’d appreciate it, but otherwise, thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we appreciate also your comments, my brother, and feel that we have spoken as well as our small understanding will allow.

May we attempt another query at this time?

Questioner: Latwii, it has been said that the ascended masters and other Light entities will converge or convene in Peru in January at Machu Picchu. Are you aware of such a meeting of Light energies there at that time, and if so, can you speak if it would be beneficial to try to be there?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We are aware that from time to time, as you call it, there is the convergence of those servants of the One upon certain levels of your experience within this planetary sphere. This convergence is not necessarily that which finds a place upon which to converge but is more usually a convergence which finds a vibratory frequency upon which to send those answers of Love and Light that respond to the calls and questions posed by the various portions of your peoples’ population, be they conscious or unconscious calls for aid.

Thus, as the mass mind, as you may call it, of this planet’s population turns its attention to one area or another within the great evolutionary journey, there is the need to provide…

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(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. To continue. There is then periodically the need to provide a sustenance or nourishment that is in response to the call of the people of your planet. This response then becomes available to all who seek and to each so seeking there is the unique opportunity presented that will allow the seeker to utilize this nourishment. The vibrational frequency of the seeking will determine that which is received. It is not, in our knowledge, usually necessary for those unseen servants of the One to meet at a place and to focus from that place the service that is called for. We, however, are not aware of all that occurs upon your planetary entity. We in our humble way seek to serve in a relatively small fashion, and our point of viewing, therefore, is not one which seeks in the large scope of things to fathom each and every movement of Light upon and within this planet’s influence.

May we answer further, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have one just out of curiosity following up the Machu Picchu question. It isn’t just there but in other places on the planetary surface that ley lines of energy and cosmic force converge. And I wondered if the ley lines are as they are because pyramids or other buildings have been built at those places or if the reason that those buildings were built was because of the high energy that could be felt in those places. Which came first?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. The ley lines, as they have been called, or grid lines of energy are set for the planet much as one’s aura surrounds and informs one’s physical vehicle. Thus, many from days of old have constructed various structures in concordance with these lines of energy in order that they might take advantage of the increased influx of the love/light of the one Creator at these points. It is at such points that the nourishment of which we spoke previously may enter into this planetary influence and then move whence called and find the mark of the seeker.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, that’s very clear. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

N: May I ask about… there’s a house that was built outside of Kenosha, Wisconsin in the shape of a pyramid. Is there any harmful effects to the individuals within this house, then, having the down-streamings of energy occurring even though this house may not be on a ley line, or what does occur?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. Within the structure known as the pyramid, that is a pyramid of the 76 degree apex angle, may be found a position known to your peoples as the King’s chamber position. This is the position which from days of old has been utilized for healing. However, those who were responsible for the giving of this form to this planetary influence were of a naive enough nature to be unable to see the danger of this position within this structure to those who entered into this position seeking not healing and the desire to serve others as a result, but who entered this position desiring power, as you may call it, over others, and seeking to coerce others to serve the self. Thus, the danger to any entity residing within this King’s chamber position is that the more disharmonious elements within one’s being may become intensified and the entity may leave such a structure more rather than less distorted.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: Yes, thank you. The healing chamber which was then transformed into the King’s chamber was about 33 to 40 percent elevated above the base of the pyramid. What about those, say, that were down close to the ground level, would it injure them? Would that energy be in focus? And I thought it was around a 51-degree angle rather than a 76.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. The angle of the apex of the so-called great pyramid at Giza is of the 76 degree measurement, and is the angle that creates the King’s chamber position which can be deleterious to those residing therein. The location of an entity at any point other than the King’s chamber position is not deleterious in this fashion.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: Thank you very much. Did the old pyramids, the great pyramid at Giza, didn’t they enter that primarily from an underground… I know they have above-ground entrances, but didn’t they enter it primarily from an underground tunnel?

I am Latwii, and this is correct, my brother. May we answer further?

N: Well, there are no external entrances I assume, on the pyramid itself. There are some pyramids in—some Mayan pyramids like Chitzenitza or Tatoum down south of Cancun, and they say that these are over a thousand years old. Would it be erroneous to suspect that they were in the vicinity of four to six thousand years of the great pyramid or are they truly much newer?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. The actual dating of a great number of these pyramid structures is much younger, shall we say, than those found within the land known as Egypt. However, the structures within the south and central American locations are the offspring, shall we say, of older structures found in the more remote locations of your South American continent, and these structures, then, are of roughly the same time origin.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: Do the pyramids such as Chitzenitza or Tatoum have healing chambers in them, and are they sealed to outside entrance except through an underground entrance, and do they have the same 76 degree lead in to the healing chamber?

I am Latwii. We find that there were various construction methods and various purposes utilized in the structures of which you speak, therefore some are of the 76 degree apex angle and others are not. Some were utilized for healing and initiation, and others were utilized for what might be called the balancing of the energy grid system of this planetary sphere.

May we answer further, my brother?

N: No, thank you very much. I appreciate.

Questioner: I’d like to ask something. Am I to understand from what you said about the older pyramids in the Americas, in South and Central America, that there are older pyramids that are still yet—older and larger pyramids that haven’t been found yet that are covered by the jungles? Is that correct?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. This is basically correct, for there have been civilizations within this portion of your planetary sphere for a great portion of what you call time. There were some of these civilizations which achieved the necessary harmony in the seeking as a civilization to be aided in that seeking by those from elsewhere, shall we say, who had the privilege of serving and answering the call, and did so in part by giving information as was given in the land known as Egypt, this information having to do with the time/space ratio complexes known to you as pyramids.

May we answer further, my brother?

Questioner: No, that satisfies that question. I want to ask, it has been imparted to me at some point that the mammals that we know as whales, that they think spherically, and that are able to transcend into the various densities through this spherical type of thought, and I’m wondering if their collective consciousness of the whale species now is trying to impart a message to us, and if the whale that has been named Humphrey outside of San Francisco, it is hoping to act as a catalyst for this message?

I am Latwii and am aware of many portions of your query, my brother, and shall attempt in our poor fashion to respond. We are aware that there are species of beings upon your sphere other than the human that have achieved a state of consciousness which is somewhat more unified, shall we say, than is that state exhibited by the great majority of the human population. Some of these entities are known to your people as the whale and the porpoise. These creatures have proceeded upon their own path of evolution, and have achieved certain awareness of the unity of all things and have sought to demonstrate to those with the opened ear and eye the greater truths that are sought by all.

May we answer further, my brother?

Questioner: I guess my query is, by this display of unified conscious thought are they, by the whale known as Humphrey in California, is this mammal trying to open up more receptive humans towards this unity of consciousness?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. As the mystery is presented, it is hoped that the seeking will be intensified, thus within the bounds of mystery the lessons of Love are eventually found.

We at this time note that this instrument begins to grow fatigued, and would suggest that one or two more queries find the end then to this session. May we ask for such a query?

Questioner: Yes. I’d like to ask you a question about as we’re going through our lives and our interactions with people on the planet, how might we ourselves make ourselves more clear and able to be perceptive of the needs of those around us as we’re living and seeing and being with each other?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. May we suggest that when one looks upon the daily round of activities, what immediately presents itself to the eye is not what remains to be found. The seeming disharmonies and distresses that one may find within one’s experience are but the shadow of that which awaits. Then it becomes necessary, for one who seeks to be of service by sharing the Love of the One with all about one, for such a seeker to penetrate the surface, the illusion, the outer shell of appearance. For within all experience, be it the most difficult, or the most confusing, or complex, there exists the Love of the one Creator, whole, perfect, and balanced. The more difficult it is to see such love, the greater the opportunity for growth.

Be then not so concerned with appearance and the first effects and impressions of interactions with those about you, but in your meditation look to the heart of the interaction. Find where Love lives. Find then where Love has sought to be known, and has perhaps for the moment gone unrecognized. Look to the heart of those who share with you in any degree a portion of their lives, for that which they share is Love seen in many disguises. Do not let disguise fool you. It is there to teach and there is one lesson. That is love.

May we answer further, my sister?

Questioner: Yes. I’d like to know when we are in our lives amid some other brother who was doing rebirthing, and thus cleansing the nervous systems of the body/mind/spirit complex, and I wonder how we might maintain or through our thought further cleanse our nervous system, and thereby cleanse our being in the world?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We shall speak to this query as our final response.

The entity that each is has encoded within not only the nervous system but within the entire system of energy centers those pre-incarnatively chosen lessons and services. When one discovers a certain distortion or imbalance within one’s thinking and behavior, one may take this discovery into meditation and observe it carefully. The distortion may be allowed in the meditative state to expand and increase in intensity until it is beyond all reasonable proportions. Thus, it finds its full sway within one’s being, and all potentials to gather experience thereby are observed. One then may see the polar opposite quality planted as a seed within the being also within this meditative state. This opposite quality then may also be allowed to intensify beyond all reasonable proportions. The entity thus meditating may see then both qualities contained within its being, and may see these qualities as means by which the one Creator may know Itself through this entity’s experience.

This entity may also see these qualities as means by which it may know the one Creator through its experiences. Without any quality of judgment then, the entity observes the wholeness of its being and fully accepts the self for containing these qualities. Thus, as acceptance within the being is increased, the ability of this being to learn the lessons associated with these qualities is enhanced. As the lessons become learned, the qualities are smoothed, shall we say, in such a fashion that the white Light of the one Creator no longer needs be diffracted, and may in this regard at least remain until diffracted by another pattern of distortion which symbolizes lessons and services to be learned and offered. Thus is the life pattern pursued and the pre-incarnative choices completed.

Questioner asked: “I’d like to know when we are in our lives amid some other brother who was doing rebirthing, and thus cleansing the nervous systems of the body/mind/spirit complex, and I wonder how we might maintain, or through our thought further cleanse, our nervous system, and thereby cleanse our being in the world?” Latwii replied by saying the entity that each is has encoded within it not only the nervous system but within the entire system of energy centers those pre-incarnatively chosen lessons and services, so when one discovers a distortion within one’s thinking and behavior, one may take this discovery into meditation and observe it carefully, for the distortion may be allowed in the meditative state to increase in intensity until it is beyond all reasonable proportions, and it finds its ability within one’s being to gather experiences are observed, so one may see the polar opposite quality planted as a seed within the being within this meditative state, so this opposite quality then may be allowed to intensify beyond all reasonable proportions, and the entity meditating may see both qualities contained within its being, and may see these qualities as means by which the one Creator may know Itself through this entity’s experience. Latwii continued by saying this entity may see these qualities as means by which it may know the one Creator through its experiences, and without any judgment the entity observes the wholeness of its being and accepts the self for containing these qualities, yet as acceptance within the being is increased, the ability of this being to learn the lessons associated with these qualities is enhanced, for as the lessons  are learned, the qualities are smoothed in such a fashion that the white Light of the one Creator no longer needs be deflected, and it may remain until deflected by another pattern of distortion which symbolizes lessons and services to be learned and offered, and the life pattern is pursued, and the pre-incarnative choices are completed. On January 23, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the nature of our life pattern:

One may look at each life pattern as having various vehicles for expression. The relationship with the mate is one of primary importance. The relationship with those with whom one labors in the daily round of activities is another. Each relationship or situation of an enduring nature that one encounters in the life pattern may be seen as the vehicle through which the pre-incarnative choices find a field of play, shall we say. It is within such relationships that those opportunities to express the lessons and services pre-incarnatively chosen appear. It is less important to the supposed effect upon another entity that one may assume has been made than it is to observe the effect of the experience upon the self.

We at this time find that we have approached the limit of this instrument’s ability to continue to serve as an instrument in a relatively clear fashion. Therefore, we must take our leave at this time of this instrument, and we thank each present for allowing our presence and for requesting our humble service. We remind each that we are also quite humble and fallible seekers of truth. We do not claim any infallibility whatsoever. Take that which we have given and use it as you will; leave that which has no value. We leave this group at this time rejoicing also in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator which resides in all. Adonai, my friends, we are Latwii. Adonai vasu.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “At any moment of our experience it makes no difference whether we are nine, nineteen, or ninety we can begin the return to God’s house. But let us not believe that we can return to that Edenic state by continuing to be the same person we were yesterday with all our human virtues and failings, vacillating constantly between good and evil. Our human virtues will not gain us entry into Eden any more than will our human failings, We have to lose both human failings and human virtues and take on the mantle of the Christ by rising above the mental creation of the second chapter of Genesis which has chained us to the law of good and evil.

“The law was given by Moses, but grace and truth came by Christ Jesus.” For hundreds of years before Moses, the Hebrews had been living in a state of slavery with little or no opportunity to make advances in education, culture, religion, art, or the sciences; and under such circumstances it is not surprising that they were living without any greatly developed moral sense. To these people, Moses presented a higher way of life, the backbone of which was the Ten Commandments. If those commandments were obeyed, a person was considered as fine a type of citizen as could be expected, and moreover, if in addition to that they also obeyed the dietetic laws and a few other customs, they merited the title of a good Hebrew. If the laws were disobeyed, all the offender could expect was to be stoned or excommunicated. Little or no concept of love was embraced in this teaching. It was strictly a teaching of moral and ethical laws.

A moral or ethical sense, high as it may be, however, is only a step on the way to spiritual consciousness. While a person may live in absolute obedience to the Ten Commandments, they may still be eons away from the spiritual life because the true spiritual life is a living above the pairs of opposites.

When Jesus came, He taught a way of life which was not primarily concerned with changing the negative sense of life into the positive, but with rising above both the negative and the appositive into the spiritual. It should not be forgotten that as a Hebrew rabbi in the organized Hebrew church, Jesus was authorized to preach from its platform; nor should it be forgotten that what He preached was not called Christianity: there was no Christianity. Moreover, He did not preach to Christians: there were no Christians. He was a Hebrew rabbi preaching to Hebrews.

But now a miracle takes place. This man Jesus received an illumination which gave Him an entirely new religious teaching, something which heretofore had been unknown to the Hebrews, Now He goes far beyond the karmic law of the Old Testament in His teaching of one power. As He taught this revelation to the men and women of His day it made them free of all ritual and dogma, so free that the church would not tolerate the man or His teaching. What else but hatred and fear could they feel for one of their own who turned His back upon some of their long-established and most cherished practices, such as the insistence on a pilgrimage to Jerusalem once a year for the purpose of paying tithes as well as the observance of other rituals. Jesus’ very turning away from these observances was a silent criticism and condemnation of that in which they had placed their trust for so long.

Jesus brought to light the truth that spiritual welfare is in no way related to the rigid observance of any forms, but has to do with the state of consciousness developed by the individual. He preached a new dimension of life, a higher consciousness, which required a dying to old beliefs. He made it clear that new wine cannot be added to old bottles, that is, that this new dispensation could not merely be added to the old Hebraic mode of life, but that the old would have to be changed for the new because the two were contradictory.”’

Later this morning I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some cat food and AquaSafe. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My third stop was at Speedway Gas where I bought some regular gas for Venus, my big mower, and I bought some premium gas for Stanley. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some moisturizing cream.

When I got home, I took the netting off of the Hosta Garden, and then I used my hedge clippers to cut back the long Forsythia Bush stalks that were covering the Hosta below them. Then I weeded the Hosta Garden with my hands. Then I replaced the netting over the Hosta Garden

This afternoon I went outside and pumped enough water out of the fishpond to allow the fountain to shoot higher without going out of the fishpond. Then I hand weeded the Yellow Creeping Jenny Flower Garden.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 3

True Reality Beyond Doubting

I am the spirit of living Love, and I greet you in the consciousness of Christ.

We find this instrument full of self-doubt. And it would be impossible to use this instrument were it not that the instrument is willing to be clear, regardless of her doubts. We would ask each to use this as a parable for the life experience.

Of course you will have doubts. Of course you will be discouraged. Of course there will be many things that you do not understand. But the strength, the power, and the divinity of the consciousness of Love is with each always, far closer than your breathing, far more yourself than your skin and your bones.

Know the true reality beyond the doubting. Call upon the Spirit of the living God, for you live your life not only in doubt but in the certainty of eternity.

We leave you in the everlasting peace of the infinite Love of Jesus the Christ. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.