I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 8, 1991:

Dealing with the question this morning of why it seems to be that for each of us, throughout our lives, the mother and father relationship seems to be the most critical, the most important. The voice that we hear in our head when we do one thing or another, and the voice to which we seem to respond in one pattern or another, and why is it so critical as in criticizing?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo and greet each of you this morning in the love and in the light of the infinite Creator. We are pleased to be called to your group once again as it is a great joy to us to be able to share with you the great work in which we all collaborate. This being the work of attempting always to know more of the mystery of the Creator and in extending what aid we are able to others in their attempts to do so also. As always, we ask that you consider our words carefully and accept for yourselves only those words which resonate within the deepest self as true and to discard all others without a second thought. We would have you place no judgments on yourselves in considering our words.

You wish information this morning on the role each parent plays with the entity. You are aware that the relationship between each and its mother and father within this physical illusion is one which plays a central role in the life of each entity, beginning with the obvious fact that it is this relationship which allows each entity the opportunity for physical incarnation.

In addition to this starting point, the mother and father are central teaching figures for most entities within your illusion for a significant portion of time the younger years of the entity, and it is during this time that the basic personality of the entity is molded and formed and lessons desired in this incarnation are set up and well begun. It is knowing the importance and centrality of this relationship that causes entities to set up these relationships before incarnation.

You wish to know why it is that these mothers and fathers, while playing what would appear to be a nurturing role in starting the young entity out upon its life path so often have such a deeply, what you perceive to be, negative effect upon the young entity which lasts throughout a great portion, if not the entire, lifetime. You realize we must speak in some terms of overgeneralization as each relationship is most individualistic and specific, and there are, indeed, many mothers and fathers who are perceived by their children to be adequate and loving nurturers. However, there are many who may, while attempting from their own perspective to be as loving and nurturing as they know how, they yet, in the non-acceptance of the child entity in various matters which may be more or less perceived by them to be so, instill the child entity with the voice of criticism of which you spoke and, indeed, there are those mothers and fathers who do not find it in themselves to be nurturing and loving and find that all they have to offer is this voice of criticism.

“Why is this the case?” you ask. Many of your entities seem to have the bias of opinion that states that the role of the mother and father is properly that role of the all-accepting, all nourishing, all loving parent, and that whenever the parent entities fall short of this goal, they are then responsible for the damage incurred by the children. This, however, is not the case, for as you are aware the purpose for which third density entities have incarnated is in order that they might learn the lessons of love.

If each entity were born into a family where the only thing experienced was total love and acceptance, the experience of the entity would be similar to those entities who incarnated before the advent of the veil between the conscious and unconscious minds or before the availability of the choice between the positive and the negative paths, the result being that with no stimulus which is perceived as negative, very little growth takes place. Thusly, for one who incarnates for the purposes of learning the lessons of love, the perceived absence of love is essential in order that such learning may take place.

If the perception of love may be felt as total acceptance, then the perception of the absence of love may be felt by non-acceptance, which is manifested in the criticism of which you spoke. The degree then, to which this criticism is perceived by the child entity from the parents may be seen as correlative to the lessons each entity wished to set up for itself, beginning with the infancy and early childhood. This relationship is by no means the only situation by which entities may learn these lessons of love. Throughout the life, many other relationships and situations will be encountered in which again the non-acceptance or the criticism is experienced. However, most entities will choose to set up these lessons early in the life pattern so that the patterns have got an attitude having been established at a very early age, have the opportunity to grow throughout the incarnation, and interact with other situations that may be perceived similarly, thus affording the entity multiple, shall we say, opportunities for learning these lessons. The learning of these lessons, as always with the lesson of love, focuses again and again on the acceptance of the self and the other selves in the light.

The group question for this session was why is the mother and father relationship with the child so important, and why do we hear their voices in our heads as being so critical of us? Q’uo began their reply by saying that the basic nature of the parents bringing the child into the world and then raising it has the primary effect of molding the child into a certain personality in its younger years and also allows the pre-incarnative lessons of the child to begin. Then Q’uo went on to say that the negative nature of criticism of the child is a portion of its upbringing because the purpose of the third-density experience is to learn the lessons of love, and in order for this to occur the experience of the absence of love must take place for these lessons to be learned. Then Q’uo said that the degree that the child perceives the criticisms from the parents can also continue in other relationships throughout the life pattern, and the child’s learning of these lessons of love focuses again and again on the child being able to accept itself and others by using the catalyst of the experience of the absence of love. On July 1, 1984, Latwii spoke how difficult catalyst can bring about the learning of the lessons of love:

We can speak of that which is occurring by describing in brief the great cycle of evolution which is now ending upon your planet. During this great span of what you call time each entity upon your planet has had many of what you call incarnations in order to learn those lessons of love which it seeks to learn. As the cycle begins to draw to its close, the remaining few years which you have before you are those which are filled with what becomes the last chance to learn those lessons, and to provide those services which each has come to do. The opportunities, though limited, are greatly intensified in order that the time which remains might be utilized most efficiently and the graduation, as you might call it, might occur.

To offer such an opportunity to be graduated, it is, shall we say, a great honor to accept, but the brow weighs heavy, for such opportunities are usually not recognized as opportunities, for they come as the difficulty in some form. The opportunity to find love may come when one becomes what you call divorced and seemingly without that called love. Yet such an experience may cause one to seek even more fervently that known as love. When the health becomes less than functional or normal, then it may be that certain experiences are symbolized by the illness and provide the entity which is ill the opportunity to see how to focus its own desire more finely towards that seeking of love.

Most opportunities of this nature are not well-observed or taken advantage of, shall we say. Only in some portion is the opportunity accepted. Therefore, the opportunity continues to allow the full acceptance by the entity however the entity is able to do so. Yet, as we mentioned before, the opportunity may be the difficulty which is in truth the disguise of love.

This group has done much work in this area, and these matters have been spoken of before. We would say at this time that we particularly enjoyed speaking with this group about these matters in what you see as your recent past and speaking and working also with the one known as Aaron and the one known as Barbara. We have been very pleased with the dedication of this group to such workings and feel that the interactions were of a great help to those present and a value to ourselves as well. Thus the concepts of acceptance and forgiveness are those with which you are familiar.

We would reiterate only that in the dealing with the voice of criticism from the mother and the father that each entity may continue to feel and hear throughout the life pattern that the purpose of the incarnation for the seeker is not to be comfortable and happy. Thus the goal of the seeker in dealing with this voice is not to make the voice go away but to be able to accept it and continue to live the life. Gradually, becoming able to accept the self and the other self to greater extents and then becoming able to forgive the self and the other selves also to greater extents. This is not work which may be forced. As the one known as Aaron has spoken about the need for the flower bud to be allowed to bloom.

We realize that it is a difficult process to proceed with a certain course of action in learning lessons and dealing with the self and at the same time not to judge one’s progress. Yet this is what is necessary for the seeker. Toward that end, we would encourage each in attempting to learn the acceptance, to focus on the present moment, and not to attempt to swallow the entire life in a single bite, shall we say.

We feel that these words are sufficient at this time for this working, and we’d be happy to respond further to any queries you may have at a later time. At this time we would transfer to the one known as Jim in order to close this working. We leave this instrument with thanks and in love and light. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each of you again in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. At this time, we would offer ourselves for the responding to any queries, which you may have for us. Is there a query at this time?

N: Not from me, Q’uo. I thank you for answering both of the questions that were [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and we thank each of you as well for your invitation to us to join your circle of seeking once again. We are most grateful for this opportunity and we cannot express our joy at these gatherings to a sufficient degree but can reaffirm that we feel a great peace and purpose is awakened each time we gather with your group. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we leave you now in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my hedge clippers to cut down the three areas of tall, striped grass and put them in three garbage cans for yard waste pickup Thursday.

This afternoon I ran a couple of errands with my first stop at PNC Bank to make a cash withdrawal. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 27

Springtime Within

I am of that principle which is called the spirit of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

Your season of winter yields, more and more, to the gracious influence of your coming springtime. Each seed within the ground has rested in divine confidence within the deep darkness, under the soil which is its food, drinking in that moisture which it now needs to grow.

And so the human heart, whatever the outer season, may feel that each new seedling of the progress of hope and faith gasps for water and finds no true food. And then where is the springtime of the heart?

Jesus the Christ spoke of food and drink unknown to man in his earthly garb of flesh. And thus we ask each heart that seeks to bloom in ever-new springtime to seek always that precious food and drink which nourishes the spiritual seedlings of growth within each, to be undismayed and, rather, to turn to that insubstantial and invisible source of spiritual food which is the work of will and faith.

All who turn shall be fed. May you seek springtime within, for the spirit must bate its comfort until the heart within turns and asks. May you hunger no more. May your hearts be full of the peace of communion, now and ever. We leave you in this peace. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote for today comes from March 3, 1991:

Please talk about accepting and not judging the self, concepts of what we think we should do, and how this is involved in fear. How do we accept ourselves and avoid the “shoulds”?

I am Q’uo. I greet you in love, light and delight in the infinite Creator. We are most privileged to be called to your group once more, and are enabled and ennobled by the sharing of our fallible opinions with the beautiful one known as Aaron.

Fear and the “shoulds”: Where do these “shoulds” first occur? The voice of “should” is learned before the small entity has gained enough experience to count as irrelevant all suggestions that do not fall upon the heart with the feeling of truth and love. Thusly, the original voice of fear does not take into account the nature of the self or of how the self might relate to these parental and authoritarian instructions toward behavior and values.

At some point within the incarnation, most entities realize that these voices of “should” are a relic of childhood teachings. These teachings are generally intended to benefit the child and create for it a knowledge of how to move through the intricate rituals of social behavior with the lubrication of appropriate, kindly thoughts, words and actions. Thusly, the “shoulds” are valuable in dealing skillfully with the societal group at large. It is within the self and the self’s perception of the self that the “shoulds” become less than benign.

The voices of childhood come without volition of the self; however, the internalized voices of childhood, even though forgiven and no longer valid upon the outer, manifested entity’s self, may well be internalized and become the voice that seems to the self as the voice of the self. Here we may see the ultimate separation of self from self. The self needs to be aware of its inner voices and to heal, by forgiveness and acceptance, those voices of the ultimate critic which gaze upon the self’s manifested works with a jaundiced eye, an eye for not what is right with this picture but what is wrong with this picture. This is a form of self-torture, a denigration of the self which is done quite innocently. To become mature one does need to see those things within the self which are not innocent or authentic but rather judgmental and full of complex argumentation.

The amount of complexity experienced by the self is a good gauge of the authenticity of the self. Authentic selfhood is simple, pure and full; not reaching, not grasping, but content to do the best one can, as one can, however one can, and where one can. These voices, then, that denigrate the self judgmentally need to be recognized, accepted, named and then forgiven. Yet how shall one forgive? The psychology, if you will, of redemption is the choosing of a perfect symbol which then is able to forgive the self because its very nature is love, which always accepts any gift that is given.

It is no error that the one you know as Jesus was born into a mystical Jewish tradition. This tradition is chock-full of “shoulds.” It is into this milieu that the one known as Jesus chose its incarnation in order that it, a fully literate Jewish scholar, created the firm concept of constant redemption. How greatly does the Jewish tradition emphasize the positive value of fear. Concepts of kosher, of living ethically and humanely, flood the Hebrew personality. Thusly, when the one known as Jesus said, “Your sins are forgiven you,” he was speaking out of a background quite full of “shoulds” and judgment. Thusly, you may see that if the one known as Jesus could gaze at iniquity and instantaneously forgive it, then how indeed can one fail to forgive the self?

This method of becoming aware of redemption is roundabout and makes use of the illusion of separation. The Jesus that forgives is easier to hear as an other self speaking from a great distance of time than if Jesus the Christ were considered to be within the self, a part of the self, and ultimately the self. So, although all religions and spiritual systems of faith have much to recommend them in terms of finding allegories between their experiences and one’s own, one must at last meet the self upon the plane of inner awareness. Then when “shoulds” and guilt arise, one may experience redemption, not only from an imagined other self but in a hearty, earthy and substantive way as part of the process of love, which includes love itself and therefore a lack of judgment. As the one known as Aaron said, each must bloom in its own time, ripen according to its own rhythms.

Yet entities usually do not perceive themselves as either virtuous and godly seed or beautiful blossom. It seems to the self that the self is anything but that beautiful seed which grows and blooms as one sees flowers and living trees express. This creates an instant bias towards judgment. How can one learn to experience the self as beautiful, as godly, as perfect? We would let this question linger in the air as we allow the thread of this message to be elaborated by the one known as Aaron. We briefly leave you in love and light. We are those of Q’uo.

The group question for this session was: Please talk about accepting and not judging the self, concepts of what we think we should do, and how this is involved in fear. How do we accept ourselves and avoid the “shoulds”? Q’uo began their reply by saying that these shoulds were first used by parents to help their children learn proper behavior within the larger society, but it is within the self of the child that these shoulds become internalized voices that speak in a judgmental way and become a way of self-torture that need to be recognized and forgiven.  Then Q’uo used the example of Jesus who was raised in the Jewish tradition of many “shoulds” being part of this tradition, and if Jesus could simple say: “Your sins are forgiven”, why can’t we do the same for ourselves? They continued by saying that if we could imagine Jesus as being within us, we could meet our self on the inner planes of awareness and find forgiveness and redemption. On January 18, 1989, Laitos described the nature of forgiveness and redemption:

For right now, we simply ask that whenever you catch yourself being negative about the self, that you remind yourself that you are an orphan on a very unusual planet, and that you must mother yourself and nurture yourself and care within your heart for yourself, until those sore and painful places are indeed nurtured and healed at last. Until there is forgiveness and redemption within the knowledge of the heart, not only of the mind, then may you tune upwards, seeking ever higher for a more beautiful, lovely and perfect ideal, a more clarified and fine version of love divine.

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. We are attempting to offer tools and resources to the third-density entity for working toward the state of allowing and accepting. A great resource for doing work in consciousness is creative visualization. The closer the visualization comes to resonating with the timbre of memory, the better the chance that it will aid the entity at deep levels of emotion, those levels of emotion which contain true wisdom. Such a visualization about the loving self might be such as this: Within you lies the small child which is attempting to do well, and which perceives the self constantly through the awkwardness of childhood as failing to be adequate to its own requests of the self. Picture, then, the loving self; and you are indeed all very loving entities as the nurturing parent. Would the parent within you turn to a child and scold it when it has acted in self-perceived error, or would the loving parent take the child into the cradle of its arms and place the child’s head where it can again hear the heartbeat of the womb?

The child is afraid of the vampire which it has seen in a movie, and so it wakes to nightmare. The parent moves swiftly to the child’s side and offers it a sense of proportion. It does not make fun of the child for having the nightmare. It is aware that each entity has its nightmares, its fears; but when the child is cradled upon the breast of the nurturing parent, it quickly becomes comforted as the parent says, “This was a true nightmare. There are truly portions of consciousness which are terrifying. That is the way that that is. But that is only a small portion of you, my child, my beloved one.” As the parents rock and nurture this baby child, the feelings of safety, of security, and of being loved slowly and gently allow the child to accept its own vampire and to find that it is not so scary after all; that vampires, too, fall under love and care of the nurturing parent. Thus, one may invite into the self that vampire, realizing at last that although the vampire is a part of the self (and any other image is equally acceptable here), it is not the totality of the self. Thus, may your own lovingness be shined as the light that it is into the darkness of that child which is fearful.

When this inner child becomes stronger, it is, as children are, willful. Thusly, it is well for the visualization of the nurturing parent cradling the child to become more organic, more within a flowing process. The child, newly strong now, is willful. The loving parent is wise to advise the child to be silent, to let not the outer expression of new realizations become important.

It is not at all important that others know the insights one has gained, for these insights are fragile, just as the infant is fragile. They must be treasured and protected as they grow stronger. When the child is willful, the loving self gently reminds the child within that it may remember all the many times that willfulness has not been a skillful choice of attitude; for in willing from within the conscious mind, there is an ignoring of the greater will of the Higher Self which is lost in the Creator so that self and Creator are truly one. These tantrums of will may be gentled and healed by that nurturing parent until the child sees clearly that its will is likely not to have a very intelligent or spacious perspective.

It is not that it is incorrect to will or to use the faculty of will, but rather, that such will must be seen as sacramental so that one is aware when one uses the will, sees that volition for the choice it truly is, and surrenders that short-sighted will of self in the mundane sense, utterly and completely, moment by moment, to the will which speaks from a vast perspective of thousands of years, shall we say.

It is written in your holy works that the yoke of Christ, or the yoke of Christ Consciousness and acting according to that level of thinking, is easy, the burden is light. This may be examined as a deep truth. One within incarnation always carries baggage, always has something strapped upon its back to carry. For in finity, which the body expresses perfectly, there is always perceived effort; that is, effort perceived as effort by the self. It is the work of faith to enable that small child that is nurtured by the loving parent within to present to that child’s eyes a view of an whole and unified process. It has learned that it can use its will; and if treated gently and with respect, it shall learn to choose that will which is most well informed, which has the spacious perspective. In this way of service, one approaches such a light burden, such an easy yoke, that one becomes free. In surrendering a small volition, one is able to hear, at last, the volitions of love itself.

Thus, one who does the will of the infinite Creator is simply listening more skillfully to the voices within. One of the many conversations one has endlessly with the self is a conversation with that Self which is the Creator. How splendid and glorious it is that that which is of the dust of the earth yet may speak with the Deity and be heard, and then hear also what the will of that Deity is. Then one is free to do the best one can, single-mindedly and with a full and generous heart.

One aspect of the self is well encouraged by the nurturing parent; that is, the sense of humor. One may perceive oneself without humor and thus become heavier and heavier with the weight of solemnity. Yet does not any play, even a tragedy, have its moment of heartfelt release and catharsis?

And how much of life may be seen by the self as the soap opera or the cartoon? This is not to denigrate the importance of the self or of service, but to allow the sense of humor to strip outer experiences of fearfulness. When one may undress the object of fear and see it, however allegorically, in its boxer shorts—preferably those sprinkled lavishly with hearts, frogs, or golf clubs—one then sees the vulnerability of that object of fear. It is only strong when it is dressed majestically. Thusly, in not accepting a solemn and heavy view of the present moment, one is allowing a sense of proportion, an ever-growing spaciousness of attitude. Humor is the beginning, in many ways, of full acceptance of self, which eventually very nearly silences the voice of fear within.

Now Q’uo suggested that one way to allow and accept more of one’s self would be to use visualization, and see the self as the small child within one’s being that is failing to live up to its own desires. Then they said to cradle it in your arms to let it know that it has experienced a nightmare, but you are there to give it love that it might know that the vampires of its fears are just a small part of itself. Q’uo said that this would allow the child within to accept those fears and see that the vampire may be part of itself, but there is also love that shines through the darkness to comfort it. Then Q’uo said that as the child grows older it may become willful and should be gently reminded that this is not a good choice as it ignores the will of its Higher self which is within the Creator so that the child can see that it and Creator are truly one. Then the child can use its will to choose the greater perspective that allows it to surrender its small will to that call of love to do the will of the Creator, to speak with Deity, and to be heard by Deity. Q’uo completed their thoughts by suggesting that the child within cultivate the sense of humor which reveals that what one  fears may be seen from another perspective that allows the acceptance of itself and removes all fear. On September 22, 2007, Q’uo described the way that we may accept ourselves:

So the work of accepting the self is the work of gathering these awarenesses of self into full awareness and consciousness and then finding within that self the upwelling creatorship which is able to forgive the self for being its imperfect self.

Accepting the self is a matter of becoming a judge that is not condemnatory but compassionate. We do not argue in any way that each entity has many self-perceived imperfections. However, the nature of acceptance of the self is such that to accept the self is to forgive and to redeem the self.

And how shall that be done? It begins with the bare idea of the possibility of forgiveness. With an upwelling of faith that forgiveness is possible, a seeker may begin to have compassion upon himself. His interest is not in making excuses for himself or rationalizing things done amiss, or things not done which ought to have been done, in the seeker’s opinion. Rather, it is in the growing willingness to go after the lost sheep of imperfection and imperfect actions and to carry them back into the heart to be loved, respected, honored, and forgiven.

I am Q’uo. We greet each in love and light once more and suggest that this be the final portion of this working, as this amount of material is sufficient for one, shall we say, meal for the heart and spirit to digest. We would not be heavy on the dumplings when offering you the good protein of thoughtful insight.

We would simply ask the self how powerful it thinks it truly is? The concept of being able to infringe upon free will by an opinion is deeply narcissistic, deeply aggrandizing the mundane self’s power. Once again, there is the shadow of control, of fear. Why would this instrument be afraid of speaking honestly with its opinion or offering itself as channel for the opinion of one whose opinion the instrument values? Can this instrument or any other leap tall buildings at a single bound? Can this instrument or any other single-handedly destroy or create, or add height to the body or length to the life? Where is this notion of powerfulness?

You see, the true power is always in the Creator. Thus, as one stills that narcissistic concern, one allows oneself to become transparent; one becomes as that city upon the hill in your holy works, shining for all to see.

The very natural human tendency is to listen to a needy person, to accept that person’s expression and then to say, “Yes, I respect that, but… “ In that little word there lies the shadow of fear, of separation. Rather, can one not be humble enough to allow this entity to express and express until it is done?

And if it does not ask the opinion, or ask the opinion of an entity which one is channeling through one’s instrument, that is perfectly all right. There need be no “Yes, but… “ type communication. It is only if that other self invites either one’s own opinion or the opinion of the contact that one may offer the opinion in a very righteous and feeling manner.

When one hears the question mark, one knows that the seeker’s heart is ripe and ready for the picking, for the aid. When each hears itself say, “Yes, but… “ to one who is vulnerable and needy, one may simply observe the fear of that, the fear for another being as foolish, and fear for the self. Thus, one is free to ignore. Nearly perfect expression of a life lived in faith with no “buts” but only a loving awareness of the flowing of all that is necessary to learn, moving to each one, through each one, and sweeping into infinity—that is the true nature of consciousness as an Infinite Intelligence.

Allow yourself to stop being a bubble and to become the ocean. Allow yourself the luxury of being asked before speaking, and of feeling no responsibility for those who do not ask questions. The skillful help one may give the entity who does not ask questions, but is suffering, is simply to allow the overwhelming compassion within and send, out of fullness of Self, that loving and healing energy of acceptance of that other self just as it is, with all of its self-perceived imperfections. This acceptance is as much a catalyst for another, although it is not aware of that, as is the verbal acceptance. Entities prefer verbal acceptance because they do not understand the depth of their own perceptive abilities. Honor this simple holding of another in compassion, acceptance and forgiveness. And honor, above all, that same attitude toward the one named self, that everlasting child within which is bound to make unskillful choices again and again.

In their closing thoughts Q’uo dealt with the feeling of many seekers that they are powerful beings, and Q’uo said that this feeling of power would frequently manifest by listening to another person’s problems and, without being asked to give an opinion, would do so anyway with the “Yes, but. . .” gambit. Instead of doing this, Q’uo suggested that one should wait until the opinion has been requested before giving it. They also used the metaphor of the seeker moving away from “being the bubble and becoming the ocean” as accessing the Creator’s love and sending it to those who do not ask for the seeker’s opinion as a means of aiding and accepting them, just as they are. Q’uo also recommended sending them compassion, acceptance, and forgiveness, and also sending these to their child self within. On May 4, 2003, Q’uo spoke of how to send compassion to the child self within:

Consequently, this instrument worked for many years as an adult, consciously moving back into the child years and comforting and loving that child self, which even now sits upon this instrument’s lap, a beloved child at last, adored, pampered and given every creature comfort of which this instrument can think. [Carla had a Raggedy Ann doll in her lap that she saw as her child-self.]  For truly this instrument has discovered that the secret to recapturing its magic of youth and innocence and dream-vision was connected with the lack of forgiveness which this instrument had toward its child-self, having judged, not as a loving entity would judge the self, but as a thoughtless and critical entity would judge the self. This healing has been an ongoing process within this instrument’s experience of regathering its child self to its heart and becoming that mother and father that truly adored this very human and error-prone entity known in this incarnation as Carla. This ability to move back in thought and to do work in consciousness, having perceived a lack of love, is very helpful as a resource for an entity who is working upon how to serve others in the highest and best way.

We embrace you all. It is indeed a privilege and a great deal of fun for us to dance together with these concepts. We delight in each other as one flowing stream. How beautiful is this service, and how grateful we are to the dedication and love which allows this calling to come to us. We thank each as we participate in the great work which ever goes on, the work of learning to cease the striving, to still forever the child’s fears. We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator and recede from your consciousness at this time. We are those of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I took Bosco to the vet to have a glucose monitor attached to his back, which will also be connected to my cell phone, so I can constantly monitor his blood sugars.

This afternoon I drove to the University of Louisville School of dentistry in downtown Louisville to make an appointment with a dental pathologist to see if he can figure out what kind of sore is in the upper gumline on the left side of my mouth and what can be done to heal it.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 26

Healing The Body

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

Those who seek healing without an understanding of the sacred and divine nature of all matter seek healing in a much reduced atmosphere, an atmosphere in which the opportunity for using the forces of love to engage in healing work have been minimized.

It is easy for a studious pilgrim to consider the body a sinful beast of burden which has all the wrong instincts. And, yet it is the mind of each entity which legislates the actions of the matter of the body, not the instincts. Indeed, the instincts of man on Earth have been much subdued. Yet the sinful inclinations of the heart are only removed from conversation.

The nature of the body is, as all things made by the author of love, a manifestation of love. And love may speak to love. Thus in Christ the life of the body lies in the consciousness of love. And to imagine and pray for that light and life to be sent to every cell is, indeed, an efficacious prayer.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 3, 1991:

I would like to know how to draw anger out of my son and reestablish a calm relationship with him. There is a lot of pent-up anger and it comes out in inappropriate behaviors. He is a very sensitive, bright child. He never felt that he fit in anywhere. He has never felt like he belonged anyplace that he’s been. He’s never been able to adapt to just functioning in the everyday world. He tends to be off in his own world quite a bit, and he can’t reconcile the two and it comes out in anger which is expressed physically and that type of thing.

I am Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator through this instrument, with thankfulness that you have called us and the one known as Aaron to offer our opinions. Take what each feels is his own truth and please leave the rest behind.

The communications of a spiritual nature which promise that the result of spiritual seeking shall be a simplified, comfortable and easy existence are promising the direct opposite of that which is the inevitable outcome of living the life as a spiritual seeker that is eager to accelerate the rate of spiritual evolution. This situation is one good example of this truth. Spiritual awareness often brings pain, for one is now responsible for an enlarged grasp of the nature of illusory catalyst and its purpose. The more one accelerates this pace of learning, the more one is responsible for creating a way of living in faith that is the equal of the concepts which have enlightened one.

One such concept is the spiritual truth that all are one, and that within each one there is all of the universe of possibilities of attitudes and biases. Thusly, when one experiences another’s anger, one is, in truth, in terms of one’s spiritual growth, gazing at the self. What one has not come to forgive in one’s self, one feels far more keenly when the mirrors of intimate family members and friends express in any way. The son’s anger then becomes a mirror held ruthlessly and clearly up to the face of the parent. The parent, in assuming that the child is separated from the self, is cheating the self of the valuable, accurate mirroring of the self to the self through the catalyst of another.

Let us gaze at anger towards the self, for this is truly the spiritual situation. Has this seeker allowed an awareness of its own anger to ripen and mature until it can look at that anger it feels without judgment? If all entities possess in potentiation all qualities, should it surprise one when a seemingly negative quality appears in the mirror? Must you turn away from the mirror because it is too painful to see the self which is that behavior and painful experience of the other self? The best teacher of accepting the negative aspect of the self is the drawing of the attention, as the one known as Aaron has so rightly said, to those many times when one is experiencing, either in one’s own mirror of self to self or in the mirror held up by another to the self, all the loving, compassionate, helpful and wise portions of the self. The beginning of the healing of self-judgment is the awareness that the mirror does not always show the negative or negatively perceived aspects of consciousness.

Intellectually it is easy to say we are each all things; we contain all that there is. But much circumnavigation and rationalization is practiced by most spiritual seekers in order to avoid gazing into the mirror when it shows that which is perceived as negative qualities which the self, of course, shares, as it contains all things and all qualities. Thusly, the focus is upon the healing of the self; and that healing begins not with the head-to-head confrontation of self with the disappointment in the self but simply of the self. Sit with the self. Watch what arises and departs within the mind, within the heart. Watch each transaction to discover, not how to change the self but simply how to identify the self more clearly within the self. For until the spiritual seeker accepts itself as it perceives itself—that is, in a state of considerable error—it cannot gaze in compassion at the mirrors which reflect that self to the self.

The injunction to “Know thyself” is primary and fundamental to a life lived in faith. Again, we emphasize that as the student of spiritual principles moves further in assimilating material, the responsibility for living the spiritual principles involved in that material becomes ever more challenging. The critical observer-self seems biased toward noting not what is right but what is lacking and by this unhappy habit, many have come to the conclusion that they are unworthy and incapable of becoming that which they wish to be. This is not so. The road does not end. It is, however, occasionally very bumpy and stony. Yet the pilgrim, when it is rested, moves on as best it can, clambering over debris and stony paths with the eye always upon this precise moment, this particular resonance of infinity as it intersects with the life-stream, perceived within the illusion as linear.

Always, infinity is at the behest of one which chooses to remember the infinite Creator and the love the entity has experienced from this great source of love. Thusly, in healing the self-judgment, the parent is then able to express itself as an healed and whole entity, and is thus able to give whatever it may find possible to give out of a fullness of heart, a total and 360-degree acceptance of the self, knowing that the self is indeed all things, positive and negative, as is perceived within the illusion. When this healing is complete, then the entity may simply sit with this anger from another and see it as a catalyst which has done its job already.

There was a question as to how this parent could deal with the anger that it saw in its son. Q’uo began their response by saying that the spiritual path is often full of the difficulty of processing the catalyst that provides spiritual growth. Then Q’uo said that because all are one in a universe of unity that when the parent perceives anger in the child it is seeing the mirror of its own anger which it has not forgiven itself for, and they suggested that the parent see this anger and allow it to ripen to the point that it has no judgement for itself having anger within it. Then Q’uo said that the way to heal the self judgement was to sit with the self–In meditation I believe–and watch the thoughts that arise and fall away within the mind and heart so that one becomes aware of the variety of characteristics that it contains. Then by remembering that it is also the Creator, the parent is able to accept itself as a 360 degree being which has been able to use anger as the catalyst to heal itself.  In 74.11, Ra spoke of this same process:

I am Ra. The heart of the discipline of the personality is threefold. One, know yourself. Two, accept yourself. Three, become the Creator.

The third step is that step which, when accomplished, renders one the most humble servant of all, transparent in personality and completely able to know and accept other-selves. In relation to the pursuit of the magical working the continuing discipline of the personality involves the adept in knowing itself, accepting itself, and thus clearing the path towards the great indigo gateway to the Creator. To become the Creator is to become all that there is. There is then no personality in the sense with which the adept begins its learn/teaching. As the consciousness of the indigo ray becomes more crystalline, more work may be done; more may be expressed from intelligent infinity.

There is eventually no self-perceived need to assign any quality to the other self, for that quality has clearly been seen within the self and forgiven within the self. It is in this acceptance and rest that the child may come to believe that it is possible to be miserable and yet to be hopeful, for the child knows well the parent and knows well the parent’s version of this same negative trait, as perceived within the illusion. When the parent authentically establishes an healed awareness of self, when it is capable of saying, “Just as I am, just this much is perfect in a way I do not understand but perceive by faith alone,” then compassion flows from that womb which is the true heart, which is ever pregnant with the fullness of love and ever propagating itself in seeds of fullness out of fullness that may rain upon those about it. Thus, in finding the peace and acceptance of the self, one finds the acceptance of the unquiet mirror offered by another self.

[Pause while the tape is turned over.]

I am Q’uo. We continue. When one is able fully to accept that self, one then becomes the healer who has healed the self first and is willing simply to act as catalyst, as the light upon the hill which gleams forth hope to those who are mired in pain.

So much between parent and child is a learning for the child based upon simple imitation. When two spirits with the same sort of areas of perceived weakness are parent and child, it may clearly be seen that each is the teacher of each. Thus, in allowing the self to heal, one by definition has allowed the entire creation to heal.

What is concern but a kind of fear, fear lest that loved one not be happy? We ask you, can any entity create happiness either for the self or for another? The answer, as far as we know, is that happiness is like a visitor that never stays long. It brings its gifts, it holds in its embrace the self, it shares in rejoicing and love; and quickly, perhaps before the self has even grasped the source of this happiness, the weather of the emotions becomes cloudy and the happiness is gone, leaving the self, perhaps, to brood overmuch on loss of happiness.

What baggage creates anger? What is it that is picked up and held and cherished that creates the anger of the self? Perhaps we may suggest that anger, at base, is anger at the lack of complete acceptance of the self. Thusly, to work upon one’s own anger, it is well to perceive the benefits of not striving to become anything, not trying to advance, but simply trying to allow an awareness of the full nature of the self, to be held in the gentle arms of that nurturing portion of the self. Once one’s own inner child, which is often angry because of lack of control, has been clearly perceived, then the attempts of a young soul—that is, young within this incarnation—to control the environment in order to make the self heard or in some way more secure can be accepted as the spiritual process it truly is.

Each of you sees the self, unless one is careful, as a solid object; that is, a solidified being which is such and such a way. However, the present moment insists that there is no solidity of being or of the qualities of being, either positive or negative, but rather that the present moment flows from present moment to present moment to present moment. To see oneself in process, and that the process is ongoing in far more large terms than one incarnation, is to allow oneself the perception of the enormous malleability and plasticity of the self in process: The Creator is not done with any. None is finished. All are in process. Let this sink into the heart so that it feels less and less judgment; and when it experiences judgment, it accepts that judgment also as a portion of the self. When all is seen clearly, choices may be made more skillfully. Once the element of fear is removed, the loving heart is content to offer itself without condition and without over-concern for the pain of a beloved other self.

Now Q’uo said that when the parent is able to love and accept itself for its own anger, then it is able to love and accept the child as it is, and each has become the teacher of the other. Then Q’uo said that this process of learning to love and accept the self is one that continues from one present moment to another and another as we are infinite beings on an infinite journey of accepting ourselves as well as any judgement of our many characteristics. Q’uo completed their response by saying that once fear is removed one may offer itself in service without condition or over-concern for the pain of the child. On May 1, 1994, Q’uo emphasized the value of learning how to accept the self:

Thusly, to move from tolerance to celebration of others, the first challenge is to begin to perceive the self within this larger view which does not judge but rather uses energy in a positive and creative manner, in self-acceptance, self-forgiveness and self-empowerment. To keep faith, continue in hope and do all such good works as open before the eyes. When this has been perceived as a goal towards which to move, then it is that the self becomes able to extend this charity to other selves.

Is there at this time a following query?

T: I have just a short question. Most was answered by the previous channeling. My question is, in my life I am looking for love, for someone to be with and share my life with. I realize that I have to accept myself, and there are many things about myself that make me angry and that I cannot accept. I realize that I have to do this first. My question is, While I attempt to accept myself, am I being counterproductive in even attempting to find this love outside of myself?

I am Q’uo. To continue this thought, we would bring the attention back to a fundamental concept regarding the nature and purpose of the third-density incarnational experience. Earlier this instrument was singing a phrase from your holy works, “for he is like a refiner’s fire.” In this pioneer density, it is not expected that all the slag and dross of self shall be purified. It is expected, rather, that in the darkness of unknowing and by faith alone, one may see that the incarnational experience is a process, first of choosing the way that the self wishes to be distilled, of what essence it wishes to smell; and then having made that fundamental choice of how to love, opening oneself to the very painful process (to the self, which does not like to change) of distillation or refining. This instrument often sings a prayer which is, “Temper my spirit, O Lord. Keep it long in the fire. Make me one with the flame. Let me share that upreaching desire. Grasp it Thyself, O my God, Swing me straighter and higher. Temper my spirit, O Lord. Temper my spirit, O Lord… “

The densities above your own are densities in which this refining process progresses from the point at which you are when you graduate from the third-density schoolroom. Shall we say that in third density, the Higher Self, which is the Creator, evaluates and grades, shall we say, using the curve, as this instrument would call it. There is not absolute perfection possible. Thusly, one is simply hoping in a relativistic way to approach nearer and nearer to a heartfelt dedication to begin the refining process in a conscious manner, not simply reacting to the stimuli in this thick darkness of unknowing but choosing rather to live a life in blind faith and to prosecute that first choice of service to others which does begin in love of self with every possible vehemence and passion.

There is always much to forgive when the self perceives the self. We suggest that each entity may helpfully see all the dross of self, not as shameful but as inevitable—as, to use the one known as Ram Dass’s phrase, grist for the mill. Thus, one can refrain from fear of one’s own fears, anger at one’s angers, judgment at one’s own unskillful judgments, so that the process may be seen mercifully, that the self may see that the self plunges into the furnace by choice. Yet we would suggest that loving-kindness and mercy be a portion of self-awareness, so that one is able to move into the refiner’s fire only when it will not do violence to the young, precious spiritual self that was born immaculately within when the first decision was made of how to serve the infinite Creator. The choice to serve others is not a conclusion; it is the cornerstone or beginning of a process of distillation that will continue for a long, long time, as you understand time.

We would conclude with a comment about emotion. Entities over-value the intellect because it seems to the intellect that one has only the intellect with which to analyze situations. In the strict sense of analysis and linear thinking, this is so. Yet by depending upon that analytical ability, the attention is drawn from the true intelligence of the self, the true seat of wisdom, which is the mercy seat of purified emotion. It is not your lack of self-acceptance, it is a lack of self-acceptance, a quality which you now dip into and experience and use. It is not personal to you. It is an emotion felt by you and by many. In emotion one is never alone, for the emotions run like the underground waterways which bubble up in clear springs at their own time and season. One who wishes to dig a well to tap this underground or subconscious source of the water of spiritual refinement needs to go gently, to go deep carefully, so that one rather woos or courts the earth away which lies between it and the water of purified emotion, which is a portion of the deep wisdom of the self. Honor each emotion. Look at it as you would gaze at a gem, at a crystal. You may see it as imperfect, but it is your truth. As you turn that crystal, flawed as it is, you may see that though it refracts light unevenly, yet the refraction is full of beauty and color. Thusly, in honoring the emotions for the wisdom that they truly convey, one is able to bear the pain of self-revelation, which is the essence of conscious entrance into a safe and gentle refining fire, a fire that does not burn away that which you still need.

T wanted to find a life mate and believed that he needed to be able to accept himself before he would be able to do so, but his question was whether he should try to find that mate while he was trying to accept the anger he had for himself. Q’uo began their reply by saying that in this third density the process of purifying the self is one which takes a great deal of time with its goal being to make the choice of how to love and open the self to the painful process of change. They said that perfection in this process of learning to love and serve the self and others was not possible, and that one must move forward in blind faith using the catalyst of change and feel mercy and kindness towards the self as it makes the basic choice of serving others that will continue through all the higher densities. Q’uo continued their answer by saying that it is well not to depend overly much on the intellect in this process of learning to love the self, and they said that it was the emotions of the deeper self that needed to be utilized in a gentle way in order to tap into the deep wisdom of the self. They concluded by saying that we should honor each emotion for the wisdom it contains and allow the pain of self-revelation to burn away the emotions that we no longer need. On November 23, 1996, Q’uo revealed the nature of our deeper self:

In working with the self in this regard, we find it helpful to ask that which the one known as Ra first offered through this instrument: “Where is the love in this moment?” By turning to this universal question, by asking, by desiring that quality, that question, you open doors within your deeper Self—that self which abides in the awareness you do not have access to in your conscious mind. This deeper Self knows where the love is. Therefore, by asking that question and then by abiding in faith with patience and an inner knowing, that which is sought shall come to you. The thousand and one specific details of everyday occurrences are taken from that world of manifestation and handed up as a noble and holy offering to the Creator: “Here is my confusion; here is my pain; here are all my emotions; here is my confusion; here is my mental anguish.” And that great Being which lies within embraces the self, the concern, the anguish of unknowing, and responds in silence with love.

Within the moment of asking lies the perfect and balanced response. The skill of the seeker is to trust that process and to keep the mind upon the question, “Where is the love?” and to keep the mind upon the moment wherein the question is asked. If you can come to the present moment and know it, you have entered eternity.

I am Q’uo. In parting, we would offer to each that which is not original or new, but that which seems at this particular moment to be helpful. We would preface this by saying that each entity is far more than it realizes itself to be, yet the ruthlessly literal nature of logical processes in which the mind is so often engaged creates a situation wherein the body is indeed the creature of the mind. But the body, in its literal hearing of the mind, expresses itself as literally as possible in response to catalyst that has not been used by the mind, thus expressing within the body in a very dogmatic and fundamentalist way, if one were to speak in terms of spirituality, those blockages or difficulties encountered by the mind as stimulus.

Thusly, we would ask each to perceive again that there are indeed, as we have been speaking of in these last few sessions, two hearts and two minds. The mental mind is shallow, but extremely useful for dealing with the illusion. The second mind is that heart or emotional self wherein lies deeper knowledge, deeper wisdom, and true awareness. Likewise, there is that heart which is the heart of wisdom and which would give anything and everything to ameliorate or palliate pain, either self-perceived or perceived by another who comes to the self for helpful advice. This first heart strives in its wisdom ever to become more wise, more purified in its emotions and its wisdoms. The second heart is indeed the heart which needs to be worked with in softening the self to “resist not evil,” as the phrase goes.

This heart, whether male or female, can be imagined as a womb which is full, soft, and pregnant with unlimited fullness. Each time that one experiences the tightening of any portion of the physical vehicle, it is well to move gently, slowly, down this tree of mind and heart to the full heart, which gives a fullness without diminishing itself. Feel the tension in all of the body, but especially in this womb-heart and literally in the way the abdomen is tensed. One may even push at the abdomen to feel the degree of tension and explore this as a physical sensation. Then one may guide one’s breath ever deeper, breathing in mercy and loving-kindness, allowing that rigid belly to be soft, literally soft. You will find that as soon as the attention wanders from the softness of that abdomen, of that womb, the belly begins once again to tense. The entire body, when facing the catalyst of pain, reacts quite literally in defense by tensing against a danger. Thus, it is very, very healing to work continually with patience at the unending task of relaxing that creature of mind which is the body, and especially allowing the breath to flow into the heart-womb, bringing its gentleness and its healing to dissolve tension, and breathing out all that tension in deep, spontaneous breathing, not to attempt to breath deeper than usual but simply to breath in visualized love, nurturing light, and spaciousness in which the self may relax.

In the case of a solidified pain due to illness, there are many, many layers of tension and tightness. Thus, it is not enough to do this exercise once or periodically, but rather to honor the self by paying the coin of attention and mindfulness that it deserves. Attend to the state of the tenseness of the body; and whenever it is perceived, in whatever company or circumstance, allow the mind to do its visualization of softening that heart-womb of fullness and allowing that fullness to give out of fullness into fullness at the cellular level for all of the body. Then, the feedback of body to mind becomes that which the mind cannot create; that is, mercy and merciful forgiveness.

May each respect its own striving to be more and more a channel for the love and the light of the infinite One, but may each also perceive the mercy and kindliness of a Creator which is love, and allow that love to inform ever more deeply the conscious being which often feels unloved.

You are all beautiful. The blending of your vibrations is that which gives us enormous aesthetic pleasure; and the joining of our hearts to yours in shared thought is a more precious gift than we can convey with mere words. So allow the love of the Creator which is channeled through us and through each other to rest upon you, now and in each moment. We would leave you in the love, the light, and the peace of the infinite One. We are known to you as those of the principle, Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning Anna and I gave each other updates on what has been happening in our lives since the last time that we listened to Carla channel Ra. Then we synchronized our computers, hers in Nashville, and mine in Louisville, and listened to Carla channel Ra in Session #15 while we were able to see the words that she was channeling as well. Once again,we were able to pause the channeling from time to time and talk about a concept that we didn’t fully understand that the slowness of the channeling gave us more time to think about.

This afternoon I did my weekly cleaning of the upstairs, and my first work was to use the carpet sweeper on the hall runner rug. Then I used my broom and dustpan to sweep up the kitty litter in Benny’s room. My last job was to use the dust mop in all three rooms and the hall.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 25

Free At Last

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ. I come in the power and wholeness of the consciousness of divine love.

This creative force hatched the universe and formed all things in beauteous array. This love created you and sustained and protected you until this moment. This creative love is part and parcel of your own selfhood.

Why, then, are you so full of doubt? Do you not know the power of divine and creative love? Do you not recognize the spirit of that love as a powerful good within your own life?

Take up what you consider to be your burdens and let your shoulders bend under the weight. And then take up the light and the life of love and add it to your burden. And feel the weight diminish and cease to be. Feel your back straighten, your broad shoulders free at last. For service in the strength of creative love is no burden, but a pleasure.

May your work be a joy to you. May your self-perceived burdens fall away under the light of divine love, in the spirit of helpfulness and comfort. For do you not seek to be a servant of love? And in that service do you not perceive your true nature?

Go into freedom.

We leave you in love and peace abiding, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 2, 1991:

We all have questions about fear. Barbara has fear of responsibility she is not able to meet, fear of the unknown, and fear of going beyond her prior limits. Carla and Jim fear being unable to measure up to their own standards, ability and potential. K does not wish to rely on outer authority but fears she is not equal to the task of establishing her own inner authority. Would you please speak to these fears, or fear itself?

I am Q’uo, and greet each once again in joy, love and light. And how shall seekers learn to bloom into adventurous and fearless citizens of the universe? One good resource is one’s own imperfect memory; for fears upon the catalyst of an outer happenstance are merely the top layer, in most cases, of what could be seven or seventy times seven layers of similar and repetitive situations which ended in a perceptive judgment that this situation is frightening. The lines of genealogy of fear go back like the long listings of who sired whom in your holy works. The most recent fear can be worked with helpfully by assessing gracefully and accurately the present fear and all it connotes, and comparing it to previous similar experiences. The pile of repetitive experiences may eventually begin to be seen as a repeating pattern; and as one peels away the onionskin layers of memory, one comes at last to the initial occasion of fear.

We may not be able to forgive the self for its present fear; however, we surely may be able to gaze upon the helpless infant and see with compassion the utter and complete dependence of this helpless consciousness. The infants have chosen parents which shall offer them the fears; that is, the unmet desires which will not be met. Talking is out of the question. Writing is out of the question. Even independent movement is unthinkable to the newly born. It routinely experiences areas of sheer terror. Since the infant is in a very small universe within the illusion, the fear is deeply rooted because of the absoluteness of its lack of ability to control situations in order that it may be clean, full of nutrition, and comfortable.

We do not encourage the exercise of moving backwards to discover the root of a present fear as any kind of parlor game or diversion. When each fear is followed to its root, that root is as strong as a lifetime of distortion in recurrent patterns can make it.

When one has found the root of that fear, one is then able to become aware of the portion of the identity that has been lost. However, like wearing an old shoe that never fit, entities tend to accept fear stoically. There is far more use in full and clear communication of the self. Each self has an observer that is a portion of the self and integrated with it. It is an art to avoid doing violence to the beingness of the self when one is rooting out a portion of that identity. Thusly, it must be done courteously and honorably, as the one known as Aaron has said, as the gentle stripping away of any minuscule portion of the blockage which is no longer needed. Thusly, one is able to have spiritual cleansing without attendant violence to the integrated mind, body and spirit.

Perhaps the greatest anguish of all to each self is the inevitable iniquity which is part of the experience of being in what you call human manifestation.

The question today was how to deal with fear. Barbara, Carla, K, and I each had our own fears and wanted to know how to deal with them. Q’uo began their response by suggesting each entity look at their most recent fears and compare them to previous fears as there could be a repeating pattern of fears that is discovered, and then the initial cause of these fears could be revealed. Then Q’uo said that one’s initial fears may have been created when they were an infant and unable to control the world around them to be clean, fed, and safe. They said that one might utilize the observer of the self to lovingly remove that portion of the identity which has created the fear which would allow a spiritual cleansing of the self to be experienced without doing any damage to the mind, the body, or the spirit. On April 12, 1989, Q’uo described the observer and how it functions:

The conscious mind, the conscious entity, moves through its life observing itself and its interaction with others. This, many have called the Observer, that which talks to the self, critiques, motivates, reacts. Just so, the unconscious mind has such an observer quality that has a far broader point of view and a greater wealth of resources to offer in its commentary upon the conscious life. Thus, through the dreaming process is this commentary made available to the conscious self in order that both the conscious and unconscious portions of the mind—that male and that female quality—might be utilized in a fashion when well done is of a balanced nature. Therefore, to rely only upon the conscious mind and its analysis of the life pattern is to utilize only half of the resources which are available to each entity within your illusion.

Q’uo: The ones known as Barbara and Carla this day were speaking about the concept of prayer pills. This concept was visualized as a simple recognition and respect for conditions perceived, the particular condition being the one known as Barbara’s clear awareness of outer-plane contact which is unlike inner-plane contact, which is the privilege of only those teachers that have incarnated upon this planet at one time and which cannot harm the self, as it is within the energy web of that particular consciousness’s field. At some level inner-planes contact has been accepted personally by the self or it would not come into manifestation.

There are many outer-plane influences upon entities. For instance, the astrology which many use is a way to become more aware of circumstances, although, because the exact moment when the soul enters the physical vehicle must remain unknown, astrology will remain inaccurate specifically and is only helpful in mapping out the topology or neighborhood where catalyst is now occurring.

No matter what the personal situation may be, the tools of prayer—contemplation, meditation, inspiration and all of those intuitional qualities—are of much aid. The outer-plane confluences are from stars, galaxies and in truth any external consciousness which has been perceived. When affirming and praying, one is able to experience fearlessness, for one is involved in worship; and all else may be put aside for that moment of worship. It has been suggested to pray without ceasing. This is excellent advice, for the outer-plane entities which speak through instruments such as this one are cosmic energies which influence the self. A continual “medication” of meditation in ceaseless remembrance, love and praise of the infinite One places one’s conscious awareness in a state far more resonant with unity than an unprayerful state would be, in relation to its ability skillfully to perceive.

Respect and honor the need for heavenly food of the self. If positive and negative outer-plane entities rain upon all alike, like the cosmic influences that they are, and if free will is to be maintained, the self must be independent and thoughtful; for above all, fear is uninteresting.

May you each find the gentleness and tenderness to re-create and re-experience that helpless and brutalized infant whose space has been invaded again and again, whose needs are not often adequately met in some area or another. Be gentle with this and patient, and remember to remember the one infinite Creator, whose nature is limitless love and whose every manifestation is light. We greet you and offer benediction in all that there is—the love and the light of the one infinite Creator.

Now Q’uo mentioned that Barbara and Carla had experienced inner and outer planes contacts with Aaron and Q’uo respectively, and these were appropriate sources of information for each of them. Then Q’uo said that astrology was an outer planes source of such information about the self and its nature. Q’uo also mentioned intuitive sources of information like prayer, meditation, and contemplation that could be of aid in determining information about the self. Q’uo especially recommended praying as it was a state of worship that praises the infinite One and puts one’s consciousness in touch with this unity and renders one independent of fear. They completed their response by saying that each should re-create the helpless state of their infant self, whose needs have not been met, and be gentle with it, so it will be fed by the love and light of the one infinite Creator. On September 28, 2019, Q’uo described the power of prayer:

Prayer is that facility that rises from within the heart of one’s being to make contact with the One Creator in order to become more fully aware of the One Creator; to be able to then express the heartfelt beingness of the seeker of truth to the One Creator in order that the will of the One Creator may move in some fashion through the seeker of truth, not only at the moment of praying, but more importantly, in the daily round of activities, so that in some way, the one who prays becomes an instrument of the One Creator through which the will of the One Creator moves and has an effect upon some portion of the one who prays, or the environment about the one who prays, or some other entity that the one who prays is knowledgeable of and wishes to be of service to. Thus, the praying is that which seeks to make a contact of a universal nature with the One who exists in all, that some portion of that entirety of allness or beingness may be enhanced by a greater appreciation of the One Creator who resides within all beings.

May we of Q’uo speak for the one known as Aaron in thanking each for the passionate love of the Creator and of service to others that has called us here and given us an incredible opportunity to triangulate upon a central question. We find working with Aaron a delight, and are humble before this entity. We offer our blessings and our love, our peace and our joy, our love, our light. All that there is, is that condition in which we leave you, never truly leaving, but merely receding so that the raindrops of our positivity may not fall upon the unprepared heart. Adonai. Adonai. I am Q’uo.

This morning I got the chairs in the living room arranged for the public channeling meditation that we will have this afternoon, and then I ran some errands with my first stop being at the Walgreen’s Drug Store in Eastwood to pick up some hair thickener. My second stop was at the PNC Bank to make a deposit. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself.

This afternoon we had our public channeling meditation with four instruments and eight attendees. We all had been together before in a number of channeling sessions, so our round robin check-in was a great chance to see what had been happening in their lives since we were last together. Our channneling session lasted a little over an hour, and the questions that were asked were all regarding some understanding of their spiritual paths that needed clarification. I think that everyone was pleased with Q’uo’s responses to their questions, and we enjoyed quite a bit of time together talking with each other after the channeling was completed.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 24

The Calm Beneath The Storm

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the consolation of the perfect consciousness of divine love.

Oh, perfect consciousness: as simple as the blue sky and as steady as the steadiest rudder upon a calm sea! This consciousness of love permeates all. Yet how quickly it is lost to the human heart, to the eye, and to the ear that cannot see the calm beneath the storm of mundane, personal events.

This is your sky. This is your rudder. In your faith, say to the events of the day, “Peace, be still.” And in the fleeting moments that follow, feel the constancy of the love that remains always as it always has been and as it always shall be: creative, joyful and merry, leaving blossoms and wonders as a flower leaves behind a scent.

The day may be full. Your difficulties may well be many. But recall in faith the underlying peace that is not of your mundane experience but of the consciousness within. In faith you experience eternity within.

We leave you in this peace, this healing, and this love, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 1, 1991:

Yesterday’s talk from Q’uo didn’t record on my tape recorder, and I got just what little I was able to lip-read. I had meditated on the content I’d gotten and felt Q’uo’s presence, felt Q’uo knew what I did or didn’t understand. I didn’t want to ask Q’uo to take responsibility for me or my questions, but I also didn’t want to ask for repetition. Would Q’uo reshare whatever they feel I missed, that they shared last night?

I am Q’uo. I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, Whose presence permeates all and is all that there is.

My sister, there is no such thing as repetition in responding to the needs of a consciousness, because each entity is at this moment a new and different person, unlike the entity of any other moment. This is why history, especially personal history, is largely irrelevant to the great work of living and loving in this moment, just this one moment.

We would speak of the saying of the one known as Jesus, that saying which he gave to his disciples: “Feed my sheep.” Many are the loving servants of the one Creator who are eager to feed other sheep but who do not realize that first they also need food, not the food of the earthly vehicle alone, but far more importantly, the bread and wine of spiritual companionship. There is a great companion which awaits all who heed her heart; that is, the first and second densities of your sphere. The very earth beneath your feet is alive and pulses with undiminished, infinite love. Each rock, each portion of grass, meadow, or pine needle beneath your feet connects a third-density entity with the heart of the grand mother Earth. How this being loves you! The friendship of the elementals of earth, air, wind and fire; the devas of plants of all kinds; the ever-rising consciousness of animal forms, all wait to embrace the one who stops to pay attention and to take comfort in the cathedral of what you call nature. When an entity allows itself to admit the entrance of these divine and loving spirits, the air is filled with cherubim, the trees with the laughter of the seraphim, and angels ascend and descend in every fire, in every storm, in every calm, in all beams of living sunlight. Here lies food indeed for the spirit.

We would move further and speak of another very true and real companion. Many are aware of this entity as Jesus the Christ. Others find it helpful to think of this Christed energy as the living Holy Spirit of the Christ, which speaks to the world yesterday, today, and forever. Imagine the spirit form of the one known as Jesus beside you and mentally take the hand that is offered. Thus, palm to palm, heart to heart, love divine to love in manifestation—a companionship of infinite trust, infinite mercy, infinite kindness, and infinite love is born and forged anew every moment. The need for companions along the way seems to the third-density eye impossible to be met when one is alone in the way in which it has chosen to walk the path of love and service to others. Yet every zephyr of breeze, every silent bird, and all that the senses experience are your loving companions; and the fellowship of the Christ, however it is perceived, is nearer than your breathing, closer than your hands or feet, infinitely more intimate than any third-density companion. So, in any weather of life, in storm or calm, it is the third-density entity which must call to remembrance in each present moment the very present help and companionship that those who are yet asleep do not find themselves perceiving. The love and caring is always there. It is the entity who must remember to open the door to that friendship, reach out the hand to that love which is so palpable one could almost imagine the incarnative form of the Christed One.

Especially when outward circumstances seem murky and turgid with heavy cares, the seeker will find those cares lifted so easily away simply by remembering to reach out the hand to the friendship of the sanctified Christ. Now that sanctified presence is truly within each seeker, as is all the universe. You are the creator of your particular creation, and co-Creator with infinite Intelligence of that which is experienced and how it is experienced. Although you cannot be another’s creation, you cannot help but be the creator of your own. So, in making the choices from moment to moment, do not let your heart flag or falter because you are alone; for there is companionship more real than the manifested forms of your density, ever waiting for your simple recognition and acceptance. How loved all entities are! Yet without the intention to reach out in trust for that love, an entity may walk forever in a fog of self-created solitude.

Barbara asked Q’uo to repeat their message to her from the session from the day before because it didn’t record on her tape recorder. So Q’uo began by saying that many seekers wish to be of service to others but do not realize that they also need the food of spiritual companionship, and they may find this loving companionship within the first and second densities of Mother Earth. They said that Mother Earth loves each third-density being that moves through her cathedral of nature which contains the elementals of earth, wind, fire, and air . . . the devas of each plant and the growing consciousness of animals, and the presence of angels and devas that become the food for the spirit. Then Q’uo said that another spiritual companion for the seeker was Jesus Christ who offered infinite love, trust, mercy, and kindness in every moment, and we simply need to reach out our hands to that Christ consciousness that is within us in each present moment, and It loves us with a love that is more real than any other manifested form in the third density. On January 5, 1986, Hatonn described the nature of spiritual companionship:

Spiritual companionship lies in the resting that one silence may give to another, for all that there is, is caught up in that silence, and when another may share it, it is a wonderful thing.

Therefore, my friends, you are always alone and never alone. Always alone in that you are unique and so is your perception of the path of seeking and the truth that you seek. Never alone in that entities both incarnate and discarnate share the intensity of your seeking in their own seeking and are therefore closer to you than many of your thoughts, for silence is more intimate than any word.

I am Q’uo, and would ask if there is a further question at this time.

Barbara: Thank you. Q’uo, I’m aware of a desire in myself to serve that seems to come from two places. When I sense that the desire to serve comes from any place of ego or self, it makes me pull back in fear that ego will distort the work. Then that fear touches and distorts the honest places of loving and worshipful desire to serve. It confuses me. When there’s fear, although I hear Aaron, I doubt even that. Yet when there’s love and the full experience of God and of that love from Aaron that surrounds me, I know no doubt. Aaron has talked about this at length with me, but I wonder if there’s anything you would add that would help me to understand and balance these forces?

I am Q’uo. We would speak of two minds and two hearts. The first mind is the mental mind. In it there can only be mentally feared obstacles. For one who is an adventurer within its own mind, the barriers of fear do not arise. However, the mind that is mental deals almost exclusively with the relativistic illusion in which each now experiences and enjoys the dance of incarnation. Thusly, although one may be mentally curious, one cannot use that mentality to plunge into that abyss which must be accepted in order to reach the second mind.

The second mind is often called the heart. In the open heart is stored the true mind which begets wisdom and compassion, which is as infinite and effortless as the love of an open heart. Many things, however, occur during an incarnation which may tend to cause an entity to erect defensive barriers in order that this precious heart may not be wounded more than it already is.

Thusly, in order to open the second heart—the heart of wisdom—one must first gaze at the erected barriers in acceptance and love for the self that needed those barriers, allowing them to remain until they are no longer needed. Then the heart may open, and wisdom may be fearlessly received and equally fearlessly manifested forth.

It is said in the holy work called the Bible by the one known as Jesus, “I am the vine, you are the branches.” Let us look at I am. I Am is the true name of the infinite One. I Am. Say this in your heart: “I Am. I Am with you always. I Am the way. I Am the truth. I Am the life.” Each is I Am. Thusly, each open heart receives, reveals and manifests the fruit of that great root of Consciousness, the I Am of all that there is. When the branches of the vine surrender their self-importance in an humble awareness that without the root I Am, their I Am would be dust and ashes, then the branches bloom, flower and bear fruit and seed to replenish the earth inexhaustibly.

Let us now speak of the first and the second heart. This, too, is helpful in finding and allowing the release of fear; for in the first heart there is wisdom, but there is only the perceived awareness of the nurturing constancy that is love. The first heart often attempts to bloom, to nurture, and to give simply because it is full and those about it need replenishing and filling. The first heart, though wise, when full because of its unstinting compassion, is also foolish. This folly is beautiful to us, and a testament to the incredible generosity and power of the open heart. Yet there is a second heart, and that heart may be conceived to be—whether we speak of the male or female form—the womb of life. That heart moves in fullness with no need to serve, no need to do anything other than be full. The second heart is the womb, ever pregnant with love, ever giving birth out of fullness into that which is actually full. Thus, the second heart responds not because of the needs of others, but because it, like sunshine, must propagate its light and give birth ever and ever and ever to its own I Am, which—as the womb of this second heart is more and more maturely experienced—becomes more and more nearly the undistorted, uncreated Logos, which is Love.

Barbara said that when she desired to be of service to others, sometimes she felt that desire came from her ego, and that made her fear attempting to serve at that time because she might distort Aaron’s messages. Then she said that when she felt God’s love she felt no doubt about her ability to serve others, and she wondered how she could understand and balance these two experiences. Q’uo began by saying that there are two minds or hearts that one has access to. The first mind is the intellectual mind that deals with the relative nature of the illusion which is the incarnation, and it cannot plunge into the abyss to access the deeper mind or heart. Then they said that the second mind is the open heart where wisdom and love are balanced, but that there are barriers erected around it to protect it from further injury. Q’uo said that the way to remove those barriers was to accept them and love them until they are no longer needed, and then the heart would open and be experienced as the Love of the Creator, the great I AM of true consciousness, also known as the Logos. On January 2, 1994, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the open heart:

Perhaps we could suggest that the center of the universe is the center of each entity’s heart. The open heart of the great Self which each self is, is that center which is a unity. All of the portions of the Creator, shall we say rather misleadingly, seem to themselves to be in time and space each unique, each separate and each apart. Yet, in truth, the center of the constellations is the open heart. All measurement, all numbering, all ways of detailing and patterning the observed creation fall to dust before the open heart. Love is of a certain nature. The fullness, breadth, depth and height of the nature of Love is both revealed and concealed by Its visibility and ready accessibility for each self contains this center without distortion within the open heart.

I am Q’uo. Is there a further question, my sister?

Barbara: I have no further questions at this time. Thank you, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo. We thank you, my sister.

Now we would speak just a moment about that which is called patience. How boring to be patient, to wait and to watch, when the heart leaps like a deer and wishes to fly higher than the highest mountain in joy, in radiance, in awareness of perfect love! Yet the will of entities in incarnation is made perfect, not by its use, but by the surrender of its use to the will of the one infinite Creator. In your illusion it seems there is a passage of time. Outside of this illusion, all times are one, all times simultaneous. Yet within the illusion, darkness broods over the mind and over the heart, and sometimes the night watches seem to go on forever. Yet it is in the darkness of midnight that the messenger of realization, illumination, and Love comes ever so quietly, walking on feet of I Am, I Am, I Am… silent feet that cannot be heard unless the heart is watching and praying and waiting.

This is the use of patience—not time to be spent quickly, but time to treasure that expectancy that the bride and bridegroom feel as they wait for the wedding day that has already been set. Within an incarnation, the spirit has many wedding days, many glorious feasts; but those feasts are punctuations—gifts, we may say—which give the commas and the periods to the long sentences of expectation. Thusly, it is well to give great respect to the practice of waiting, watching patiently in complete faith that, although the seeker does not know the next wedding day, yet it is known and it will come. In this joyful readiness lies a fearlessness which does not quail at the darkness of the hour or the solitude of the night watch. Rather, it waits in a patient faith, in a honed edge of will to listen, to surrender, and to be that I Am which is the wedding present of the consummation of the present moment.

We would leave this instrument at this time, thanking each for the beauty of your vibrations. It has been a great joy for us to be with you, to be called to your group by the intensity and beauty of your calling and your needs. We hope we may have offered helpful opinions, but as always, ask each to remember to cast aside anything that does not speak to the personal truth. We are of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai. I am Q’uo. I leave you in the love and in the light of the infinite Creator.

This morning I took Bosco to the vet to see if there was an explanation for his drinking a lot of water in this last week. I thought that it might be that he had UTI again, but the vet thought that it was related to his diabetes and his blood sugars going up and down. So she suggested that I buy a glucose monitor that we could attach to his back and link it to my cell phone so that I could always keep track of the level of his blood sugars. When I got home I ordered a monitor on the internet, and I will make an appointment with the vet to attach it to Bosco when the monitor arrives.

This afternoon I did my usual Friday vacuuming of the first floor of the house.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 23


I am the living spirit of divine love and I greet you in the blessed name of Jesus the Christ.

Has the concept of “blessed” touched your life, your thoughts and your feelings in the last little while? Does the sweep of your life include consecration? We surely hope that it may.

And if it does not, we who speak of divine love and bear the consciousness of that love urge each seeker to gaze in faith upon the blessedness of that which lies before you this day. For each moment is sanctified to the sanctified eye, ear and heart.

Surely we who came to comfort shall comfort still and be with each. And if blessedness is escaping your consciousness, turn within and ask in humility to be shown that vision of beatitude which lies within each event which comes before you.

For those who act are all blessedly loved by the divine consciousness which is love. That love strives to move into a world of illusion and shadow. May your consciousness of blessedness lighten the area about you. May your vision, given by grace and produced by your will to worship, bless in turn all those about you.

We leave you in peace, that undergirding strength of love divine, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 28, 1991:

The next five Q’uo channeling sessions were shared with a friend of Carla’s and mine, Barbara Brodsky, who was also a channel for her guide, Aaron. Carla and Barbara would channel Q’uo’s and Aaron’s answers to questions that both of them would ask. I will only work with Q’uo’s answers because working with Q’uo channelings is the format of my Camelot Journal entries, and I also don’t work with other Confederation sources for the primary message that Carla and I channeled for the same reason. However, I do use the other Confederation sources for examples that confirm what Q’uo has channeled.

Barbara: We seek to know ourselves and the Creator but do not know how to do this, as we fear we are imperfect in ourselves and our understanding, and incapable of this. How can we proceed?

I am Q’uo: Be aware that the Creator is often blocked or banished by third-density entities due to lack of awareness of the journey each came to make. However, the earth is never away from the heart of unity, love and concord.

We would suggest that you again investigate yourself within this incarnational experience. Each entity is all that is lovely and all that is not. Yet each entity can make many choices which bias him or her towards being a loving, giving source of love; for in surrendering the life to serving, the entity becomes a miracle, a wonder. Let the self come to know, respect and love this entity more and more. Let this entity become the great comfort, protection and above all, companion. For when the self realizes its selfhood as a living testament to loving choices, the entity receives the greatest gift of all: true friendship, true companionship. This is not to say that an entity whose self is one’s best friend will ever seem impeccable, but to say that friendship and trustful companionship must begin with the self with all of its self-perceived errors. In accepting this friendship, the pores of the spiritual skin open to drink in the elixir of felt, palpable love. When you are friends with yourself, you can relax into an aloneness which retains the comfort of true friendship.

Barbara asked Q’uo how we can come to know ourselves and the Creator when fear of our imperfections seems to keep us from doing so. Q’uo began their response by saying that each entity is all that is positive and that is negative, and it can make choices during the life that bias it towards becoming dedicated to loving and serving others. They said that then the self can become a friend of its selfhood that is such a testament to loving choices, and then it has a true companion. On September 25, 1993, Q’uo described how we may see our self as a worthy companion of our own love:

Yes, each of you is all too aware of the missed steps, the erroneous conclusions, the impulses which do not do love justice. Yes, you are completely unfinished. Is this a reason not to be in love with your self? Can your self, in all its distortions, depart one iota from the truth of Love? Yes, it may seem to, just as all whom you come in contact with may seem to. Yet the heart that loves knows that beneath, above and around all confusion, all missed steps, all seeming imperfection, lies the One—unblemished, unbroken, beautiful and perfect. Your nature is love.

May we speak further, my sister?

Barbara: We are eager to surrender to service, but we know how limited we are and have the fear that we cannot succeed, that we’ll run out of the food of love and energy to serve. How can we address this?

I am Q’uo: As a spirit you need not food. As an entity in third density, respect for the incarnated self suggests an overwhelming love for that sheep which must be fed so that it may sit in perfect fullness of being and allow the voice of spirit to flow through without diminishing or exhausting the third-density, manifested self.

Is there a further question?

Barbara: How can I learn to love and accept myself fully when I see in myself so many imperfections?

I am Q’uo. We do not find it difficult to love your self. We gaze at your courage as you walk in spiritual darkness, making choices by faith alone. We are deeply moved by the bravery of those who choose to express manifestation when it seems risky and almost hopeless.

The solution to perceived lack of perfection is so simple that it escapes notice. This third-density experience was designed expressly so that perfection would be quite improbable. It is in the furnace that brittle steel is tempered until it becomes flexible, supple and strong. The third-density spirit learns in the furnace of self-perceived fire, the fire of ever ongoing, never decreasing imperfection. Were an entity to express perfection in this, your density, such an one would be responsible to all to whom that incarnation became known. Such a responsibility is beyond the intention of your Higher Self at this moment. The imperfections of which you speak are your links to those to whom you wish to offer heartfelt love.

There is one state in which perfection may be well realized, and that is the sitting in the presence of the infinite Creator, the great original Thought or logos that is love. That perfection does you great good. When you are in tabernacle with the Infinite One, there you may be fed the infinite perfection that is love. When you open your eyes, retain that sharing of perfection. Remember at each moment this infinite perfection, and allow it to make resonant, deep, wide and spacious your perceptions of the specifically limited and often misleading events, entities, relationships and occurrences of your relativistic time/space continuum. Perfection does not aid, except when embodied in third-density entities; that is, it does not aid the self or others. This furnace of incarnation is that which burns away the dross. Although the heart of self is always perfect, the incarnated manifestation of self is useful, more and more, as the self perceives the harsh but meaningful, halting steps of will led by faith alone.

We speak to you from a density wherein we approach what you might accept as perfection; however, were we in the third density, we would have become a gambler—nothing more, nothing less. Your self gambles that, in spite of all self-perceived failures, the self will not be afraid or bow to indecision but will choose to love—again, nothing more and nothing less. Whether you perceive the self as successful or unsuccessful, perfect or imperfect, the intention will burn away the dross of which you are so aware. If you can find the courage to proceed in hope of expressing love, then you shall be as perfect as one may hope to be within the dust-laden confusion of perceptions of your illusion. Do not be deceived by the perceptions of the senses or the intellect, both of which were designed to embrace the illusion to the exclusion of all things absolute.

Now Barbara asked how she could love and accept herself when she had so many imperfections. Q’uo began their answer by saying that all imperfections could be used as catalyst to move further towards being able to offer love to those that she wished to serve. Then Q’uo suggested that she use meditation to experience the perfection of the Creator which is infinite love, and then she should remember that love as she sees the world around her reflected in that quality of love. Q’uo completed their response by saying that she should always choose to love, no matter what the situation was, as this choice would burn away more and more of her imperfections. On September 22, 2007, Q’uo described the process of accepting the self:

Accepting the self is a matter of becoming a judge that is not condemnatory but compassionate. We do not argue in any way that each entity has many self-perceived imperfections. However, the nature of acceptance of the self is such that to accept the self is to forgive and to redeem the self.

And how shall that be done? It begins with the bare idea of the possibility of forgiveness. With an upwelling of faith that forgiveness is possible, a seeker may begin to have compassion upon himself. His interest is not in making excuses for himself or rationalizing things done amiss or things not done which ought to have been done, in the seeker’s opinion. Rather, it is in the growing willingness to go after the lost sheep of imperfection and imperfect actions and to carry them back into the heart to be loved, respected, honored and forgiven.

May we answer further, my sister?

Barbara: Thank you very much, Q’uo. I have one more brief question. I need to wait. I think I will have further questions. I will go over what you said to me sometime tomorrow and then talk to you again, because I don’t want to ask you to repeat. I have lost too much already.

I have one very brief question. As I relaxed and stopped trying to get all of K’s words, as she is signing what Carla is channeling, 1 there were many times when I felt that I was getting the material without lip-reading and that it was coming in telepathically; not in words the way I channel Aaron, but picking up concepts telepathically. Is it possible that I was hearing the words, only telepathically, when I relaxed and stopped trying to lip-read?

I am Q’uo. You may perhaps hear our laughter. Yes, my sister, we are those known by many names, but above all, [as] messengers of love. As social memory complexes, we may speak to any entity which is tuned to our frequency. You are indeed a sensitive instrument, and we are having difficulty keeping this instrument Carla from grinning like a fool because we are so happy; we laugh in joy. We thank you, my sister, for the pleasure of communicating with your beloved self.

I am Q’uo. We feel that this is sufficient for this working, and at this moment would leave this instrument and this group in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. We bid you Adonai. We are known to you as the principle, Q’uo.

*Barbara mentions lip-reading and signing because she is deaf.

This morning I had an appointment with my dentist so he could see what is happening with the two sores on my upper gums. Today marks two weeks that I have been putting a steroid cream on these sores, and they have less pain, but there still is pain. He referred me to a pathologist at the University of Louisville to see if he can figure out the appropriate treatment to remove the sores.

This afternoon I went to a couple of Walgreen’s Drug Store to look for 2% milk, AA batteries, and more Pepsi Zero.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 22

Love Is Ever Available

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the consciousness of full love.

This day lies before you as the landscape spreads out before one who gazes from the tower of detachment. Gaze well at this portion of your existence and plumb the depths of its resonance, for the spirit is always and everywhere available to each thirsting spirit.

Once one descends from the point of view of early morning observation into the busy noontime hubbub, one may well have forgotten the beauty and resonance one saw from on high. Let not the descent into the valley of experience rob you of the gift of conscious sight.

The spirit is there to help you. We ask you to seek that comfort and guidance within each situation at all times, for love is ever available to serve the needs of those who wish to be servants of love Itself.

We leave you in that blessed, healing love which is the love of Jesus the Christ. Peace be with you now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 24, 1991:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves to those who may have queries for us. If there is another query at this time, may we begin with it now.

Questioner: Could you speak a little bit more on how one can accept the self?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The self that is to be accepted must first be known. This knowing of the self requires a careful observation upon a regular basis—daily, we would recommend—so that you have the opportunity to review those expressions and responses of the self to the catalyst that has come before you, and that in this observation you make careful note of those responses which are other than you would desire, which are other than the ideal by which you have chosen to live your life. This observation and notation of response may be accomplished in the meditative state, in the contemplative state or through prayer if that is a means by which you find nourishment.

When you have noted those deviations in thought, most importantly in word, secondarily and of least importance in deed, then within your inner room retire there to consider in meditation once again those deviations. Begin first with that which seems to you to be of most significance. See again the situation which brought it about. Relive in the mind this situation. Intensify in the mind the response that was the deviation from the ideal, until the response is ridiculously large and as all-encompassing as you can imagine. Then, without further conscious thought but remaining in that feeling state associated with the enlarged thought, allow the polar opposite response to grow within your conscious awareness. Allow that opposite response to grow until it is as large as was the first response with which you began. When you have felt this feeling for as long as you are able to hold your attention upon it, then see both as the means by which the one Creator has come to know Itself more fully and richly and with greater variety through you and through your experiences.

Continue in this manner until all deviations from your ideal have been considered, meditated upon and balanced with their opposite. This means of balancing is most effective when carried out, as we have said previously, upon a daily basis. This means of balancing is, in effect, a speeding up of the normal process which occurs in each life pattern, for if you will look in that which you call your past of this life and note those experiences that were of difficulty in whatever manner, you may, with the perspective of the present moment, see that within yourself there is more acceptance of the self at that time than there was acceptance of the self while the experience was occurring. Time and experiences within time tend to seat themselves in such a manner that the emotional charge one gives to a situation begins to dissipate and it is easier to forgive and accept the self for that which has passed than it is to forgive and accept the self for that which is currently being experienced as a distortion within the life pattern.

To balance the self in meditation upon a daily basis, then, is to intensify, to speed up the process which each entity finds itself within during the entire length of the incarnation.

Questioner asked Q’uo how one could go about accepting the self. Q’uo began their response by saying that the self that is to be accepted must first be known, and this could be done by Questioner observing his daily catalyst and make a note of the responses that were not acceptable for his spiritual journey.  Then Q’uo said that in meditation Questioner could see the situation that created the deviation in thought or behavior and enlarge it to ridiculous proportions, and then allow the opposite of that behavior to do the same. Then Questioner should accept itself for having both of these qualities within it as a means for the Creator to know Itself and for Questioner to know himself. Q’uo said that this balancing process was a means by which the normal pace of growth and acceptance of the self was accomplished over a great span of time since it is easier to accept one’s self for previous behavior than for one’s present behavior. In 104.2, Ra gave the basic principle for this type of balancing exercise:

It is the way of distortion that in order to balance a distortion one must accentuate it. 

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Q’uo, it has occurred to me that there have been not just one, but many exemplary lives lived on this planet which offer to spiritual seekers a kind of template by which to live their lives in such a way as to approach an immediate realization of infinite intelligence. Is it possible… or let me put this in another way. I have thought to myself that it is possible that Jesus, the Christ, as well as many other entities, are part of a social memory complex which at the so-called time of the end of fourth density, beginning of fifth, have chosen to offer themselves when the need is found for a new telling of the story of Love. Could you comment on this supposition: that there are many individuals who deserve [inaudible] and that Jesus is one of them but not all of them, but rather a social memory complex which we could call Christed has offered sacrificial entities in order to express the nature of love so the people can polarize and move into civilization. Could you comment?

I am Q’uo, and we are aware of your query, my sister. Your supposition, by itself, is correct, for many entities which have been both known and unknown to the majority of the population of your planet. There are many entities whom you call wanderers who have offered themselves in attempts to be of service along the same line or means of providing that which you have called the template to this planet’s population, but who have done so in a manner which is far less well-known and observable. There are also many entities who have come from this planet’s second density through graduation into third and what you might call the normal progression of evolution, who have been able to so balance and crystallize their own energy centers that there has been the contact with intelligent infinity and the resulting channeling forth of the intelligent energy of the one Creator in a manner which is also that which offers a viewpoint, a template once again, or a blue print, shall we say, or portions thereof for many entities upon this planet’s surface.

There are those who have come to this planet from other third-density planets which have joined this third-density progression and who have accomplished this same feat, shall we say, for it is rare upon your planet but is that which is the goal of each entity which incarnates within the third-density experience, for within your experience there is the veil that covers so completely, it would seem, every hint of the trail that leads to the One, and each entity that finds itself a conscious seeker upon this path lends some assistance to others that also seek and receives assistance from others that have gone yet further ahead and who have turned back to offer the helping hand.

There are many entities who have reached that point in their own conscious development where they have been able to establish a stable contact with the one Creator and have been able to channel some form of intelligent energy as a result of this stable contact. These are those whom you have called the Christed Ones. They have attained a level of development which allows them to share, as the Creator shares, from Creator to Creator. There are those who have chosen to be more visible, shall we say, and to offer themselves to a larger portion of your planet’s population. There are those who have chosen to remain hidden, and who seek to work upon the development of the planet itself and upon the development of the population of this planet as a whole by offering the love and healing vibrations in what you may call the magical means of visualization and the sending of love.

Questioner asked if there was a social memory complex of entities like Jesus the Christ that was coming to Earth now, at the end of the third-density cycle, to give the population of Earth a template as to how the nature of Love could be learned as a means to be able to graduate into the fourth density. Q’uo responded by naming a number of types of entities that were now on Earth to aid the people of Earth in their evolution into the fourth density which included Wanderers, third-density entities from Earth’s second density which have been successful in achieving graduation into the fourth density, entities who have made the graduation on other third-density planets and have come to Earth early to aid in the graduation here, and some who remain hidden and work magically to send love and light to the planet and its population to aid in the graduation. In 52.9, Ra describe why Wanderers have come to Earth at the time of harvest:

Questioner: Well, I would just include the question as to why time of harvest is selected by so many Wanderers as time for incarnation?

Ra: I am Ra. There are several reasons for incarnation during harvest. They may be divided by the terms self and other-self.

The overriding reason for the offering of these Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow in incarnative states is the possibility of aiding other-selves by the lightening of the planetary consciousness distortions and the probability of offering catalyst to other-selves which will increase the harvest.

There are two other reasons for choosing this service which have to do with the self.

The Wanderer, if it remembers and dedicates itself to service, will polarize much more rapidly than is possible in the far more etiolated realms of higher-density catalyst.

The final reason is within the mind/body/spirit totality or the social memory complex totality which may judge that an entity or members of a societal entity can make use of third-density catalyst to recapitulate a learning/teaching which is adjudged to be less than perfectly balanced. This especially applies to those entering into and proceeding through sixth density wherein the balance between compassion and wisdom is perfected.

And in 63.15, Ra speaks of the entities that have made the graduation on other third-density planets and who have come to Earth to help with its graduation:

Questioner: Would the purpose in transitioning to Earth prior to the complete changeover then be for the experience to be gained here during the harvesting process?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct. These entities are not Wanderers in the sense that this planetary sphere is their fourth-density home planet. However, the experience of this service is earned only by those harvested third-density entities which have demonstrated a great deal of orientation towards service to others. It is a privilege to be allowed this early an incarnation as there is much experiential catalyst in service to other-selves at this harvesting.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: No, my brother, you anticipated my follow-up by talking about different parts of entities working with planetary needs. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?


I am Q’uo, and we are aware that we have spoken for a great portion of your time at this session of working, and we are very grateful both for the call to join this group and for the patience to listen to our somewhat lengthy responses. We shall be with you in your future at your request. We look, as you say, forward to these gatherings with great joy and anticipation. We shall leave this group at this time. We are those of Q’uo, and we leave each in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning our practice channeling group had a channeling circle where we asked Q’uo to speak to the group question regarding how our Logos was biased towards kindness, and how did this affect the second-density animals and our third-density population on Earth.

This afternoon I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought a bag of bird seed. My second stop was at Kroger’s where I bought some kitty litter and some shredded cheese. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreens’s Drug Store where I picked up a prescription and some Kleenexes.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 21

The Key

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

We who dwell in love ask that this day be a day of forgiveness.

In each situation betwixt two entities there is the constant opportunity for miscommunication, misunderstanding and hard feelings.

In every situation where one must wait in traffic or in your stores, there lie many, many opportunities for the forgiveness of rudeness in others and that same impulse in yourself.

Make this a day when there is nothing so terrible that it cannot be forgiven in your heart. Allow your heart to be made soft. For forgiveness, given again and again and again, is the key to the full realization of the love of Christ.

We leave you in love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 24, 1991:

How important is the knowledge of the self for a channel and for the contact? This is knowledge in the metaphysical sense, the knowledge of the essence of the self by which a channel may offer a challenge to any discarnate entity, and why, when such a challenge is offered, cannot a discarnate entity lie about who it is when it is thusly challenged. How does its knowledge of itself keep it from lying?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings to each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. How tender is the mercy that allows us to come to you! How blessed the event of our joining! We greatly appreciate the opportunity to share our views with you and hope they may be helpful, for that is our service and your service to us is to ask for the teacher, who is still learning. We experience each of you as colleagues, and the deepest blessing of all perhaps is the beauty we experience in sharing the vibrations of each of you and the group as a whole.

It is as a teacher, although one prone always to error, that we address the question of the importance to a channel of its knowledge of itself. Any person that experiences contact and channels it in an outward form that may be perused by others is responsible to the effect that information has upon those beings about it. Thusly, one who channels incomplete or outright false information does so in a situation that sets up for that entity an honor and responsibility to that body of teaching. Such an entity is responsible firstly for living the life promulgated by the information as being the most spiritually evolved. Further, if one is teaching, whether one can or cannot see that student which is also that colleague, one is still responsible to the results of the catalyst to others that has been offered.

Consequently, it is, while literally unnecessary, spiritually efficacious to have gained sufficient knowledge of the self to be able to be responsible stewards of the gift of channeling. It is sometimes felt, especially as many of your peoples are engaged in combat, that words, as this instrument’s old time rhyme says, “cannot hurt one,” whereas bullets and other destructive weapons can hurt one. This is indeed so. Within the relativistic illusion which you occupy, the round sphere upon which you live and abide seems to be one in which there are few true examples of the connective tissue between words and consequences. Certainly, words do not drill a hole in the body. However, metaphysically speaking, they do indeed carry a tremendous weight. Depending upon how listeners are able to have access to the information, whether a teacher is considered a spiritual teacher, an academic teacher or any other kind of teacher, the teacher’s awareness that it is expressing itself with authority may be understood. How, then, can one become responsible stewards of a gift, such as channeling?

As always, the answer lies within the self. Each of you, each of us, and indeed all of creation which is conscious of the self is imbued in a vast ocean of overlapping and various illusions, some of which are brighter than others. In order to be able to find words that are evocative of the truth, the channel is most well prepared who has deeply considered the nature of the self, for the depth of the channeling, in its most appropriate configuration, is equal to the depth of spiritual solidity within the channel.

Let us give you an example. Say that an entity discovers itself able to heal but not able to continue the healing. The entity whom the one who channels healing wished to help has been given the illusion of health, but it finds it must return to that fountain of health that exists within the healer. Insofar as this is so, the healer has become negatively oriented in that it is causing dependency in the illusion that one entity intrinsically knows more than another. Far better that the healer first ride the horse of ego, experience self-importance and generate sufficient hubris to create nemesis, surrender to that force which has given this gift.

In just the same way, if one who channels does so from even the dearest and sweetest hearts, but is not able to ground that channeling in self-knowledge, that entity will be unable to refrain from responding to any and all questions that are asked without discrimination. This is due to the fact that when personal and freedom-robbing questions are asked of one such as we who are merely messengers and not planetary entities, we become, in the inept channeler’s mind, the same identity, subjectively, to the channel, but quite a different energy altogether in terms of the metaphysical qualities of the entity which is calling itself by the same name as did the positively oriented entity which it first contacted through this gift.

Thusly, the instrument takes it upon itself to claim that it is psychic. It does not shrink at prophecy or dream interpretation or information about Earth changes or any other of the myriad of phenomena which assaults any channel. In the same way as with the healer, the clumsy and inexpert use of this gift creates learners which are dependent upon the teacher, and increasingly so as time goes on. Thusly, instead of the channeler being able to aid those about it, it may well become, through infringement of the free will of the questing entity, a negative, controlling, authoritarian voice.

We do not come among your people in thought to be authorities, to give worldly advice or to contemplate out of the vast range of possibilities and probabilities events, situations and processes that are beyond the scope of a free will outer planes entity. Thusly, we may say that in our opinion it is extremely important that one who wishes to use the gift of discernment of spirits learn first to discern the nature of the self. Any channel which is not so grounded in self-knowledge is open to offering misinformation and thus creating far more folly than aid to humankind upon your globe.

The group question for this session was: “What is the value of the one serving as a channel to have metaphysical knowledge of itself, and what is it about this knowledge that aids in the challenging of negative entities that can keep them from lying?” Q’uo began their response by saying that spiritually-oriented knowledge of the self is an important ingredient for one serving as a channel. They said that the reason spiritual knowledge of the self is important for the channel is that, without such knowledge, it may channel information that is psychically impressive but not in fact accurate, and this information could mislead those who hear or read the channel’s words and even cause them to become dependent upon the channel itself in a negative way of being controlled. So, in order to avoid this situation, Q’uo said that the channel must have a knowledge of the nature of itself to use in discerning the polarity of any spirit that would wish to channel through it. On December 10, 1995, Q’uo described a way one might obtain knowledge of the self:

Yes, there is also another side to be considered in this issue. And that is that the Creator has placed humankind within the paradox that affects the deep personality, and that is that the self sees the process of learning about the self as one of delving into and clarifying what the self really thinks and feels, thereby adding unto the beingness a higher degree of self-knowledge, while at the same time the Creator has so arranged the processes of learning so that the path to self-knowledge is actually the path of turning the gaze beyond the self and being able to allow the falling away of self. And in spiritual terms this losing of self is also a positive and wise effort to enjoy.

It is not logical that the way to self-knowledge is the allowing of that which may fall away. Yet that entity who knows itself most deeply is the entity who has given much of the personality away.

We have materialized and attempted to work within your peoples face to face, and we have found that not one single experiment of this kind has added to the richness and the depth of third density experience. Indeed, the reverse is true, for there are, in the majority of entities in third-density, enormous desires to be secure, to be safe, to be invulnerable. Thusly, before a spiritual teacher may lead others beyond the illusions of time and space, that entity must first reckon with eternity within itself. Certainly, most entities have a vaguely ethical code by which it leads the little life of one incarnation, but this can be related to true spirituality as impulsivity created—we correct this instrument—compared to well thought out suggestions grounded in the best ideation, analysis, creativity and intuition of which that instrument is capable.

How, then, does one work upon knowing the self? Firstly, we would say that one does not work upon the self by the use of outward authority. For instance, this instrument is a devout Christian. However, this instrument also does not see Christianity as an authority, or, indeed, even the one known as Jesus. But rather, it sees the realized human entity living a life that is an exemplar for all peoples who are able to respond to this particular narrative of a life lived and lost in joy, love and charity. The instrument does not give authority to any but the Creator. Nor does it give it to itself, for it has done the great work to the point where it realizes that it is merely a steward harboring, abetting and polishing those gifts which are its own unique gifts.

One of an infinite array of paths is the correct path for each individual spirit. No two entities are able to come to self-knowledge in the same way. However, there are things with which one may begin to learn about the self. Simple observation of behavior is a good beginning. Allow the observer within the self to become stronger without hindering the spontaneous choices created by the catalyst of the present moment. You may observe yourself being angry and throwing an object against the wall to hear the satisfying sound of breakage. However, one is also observing just how the object is tossed, just precisely the feelings within and the expression upon another’s face. If an entity finds it difficult to observe the self and act spontaneously, it is well—and this is for the most part tending towards a truth for the majority of entities—to refrain from analysis until the day has darkened into the sweet evening dusk, the work of the day is over and one is ready to lay the head upon the pillow and surrender to sleep. Then one is able to go over the behavior, the responses, the thoughts, the actions and inactions that were the harvest of that day.

It is well, in order to use a deeper source of information about the self, to work with the dreaming. There are no two who dream in the same symbology. Many generalizations are true in the majority of cases, but there are no images within dreams that are precisely and archetypically the same for any two entities. Consequently, when studying the dreams, as in studying behavior, it is well to allow a large portion of your time, which this instrument calls years, in order that this process may bear fruit.

There are other means of working upon knowledge of the self. One passive but extremely helpful way is meditation. Now, meditation has been greatly misunderstood among your peoples. It is thought that one is to make one’s intelligence a blank tablet, a “tabula rasa.” One is supposed to find silence within. Only then in that silence is the meditation considered successful. This is not our understanding of the helpful value of meditation. The intention of those who meditate is that they may be open to spiritual grace—not knowledge, for there is no such absolute within third density—but grace. Thusly, whatever thoughts come into the mind, even if they pelter one, moment by moment by moment, it is the resistance to this listening to the voices within that cannot be stilled that creates a poor meditation.

If one is simply mindful, and notes without emotion or condemnation each thought that moves through, allowing it to arise, allowing it to dissolve, then meditation has done that which it was intended for. It has allowed the entity to step back from the trees and see the forest. It has removed the tension of judgment and consideration and allowed a time that is truly free, a time in which the observer may simply watch thoughts arise and dissolve. Not turning them away, not holding onto them. One may plan an entire menu, a shopping list or any other thought whatsoever during meditation if it is observed without that feeling of necessity to solidify the intelligence of the mind around the shopping list or the menu.

Let this thought about meditation sink deeply within each, for when one judges oneself for having a poor meditation, one has just stripped oneself of the saving help which is available to the meditator. The key of meditation is a silent, accepting and nonjudgmental observer, not that “thing in itself” [ding an sicht]. Never judge, calibrate or measure in any way the spiritual work that you do. Firstly, that which is done out of fear—the fear of not being worthy or any other fear—is liable to catastrophe. It is far, far better to have what is subjectively called a bad meditation and find the self being able to accept the bad meditator.

Now Q’uo said that we can begin to know ourselves by letting what they called the “observer within” observe ourselves as we are spontaneously moving through our day with various thoughts and actions that we can analyze at the end of the day to determine more of the reason for the thoughts and actions. Q’uo suggested that meditation is another way to get to know more about ourselves through our opening to spiritual grace that looks at the thoughts that arise in meditation and then lets them fall away. Q’uo said that if we can allow these thoughts to arise and fall without any emotion or condemnation of ourselves we have learned more about our self. On May 19, 1985, L/Leema spoke of how we can learn more about ourselves in meditation:

Without the meditation, the various concepts and ideas with which one comes into association in the conscious seeking, there are no roots formed and no lasting connections to such concepts, and the entity then must reacquaint itself with that which is consciously sought in order to provide the opportunity once again for meditation to do its work. Meditation is as the watering of the plant which has been set in fertile ground. The plant must be good; it must be strong; it must be consciously formed and analyzed; it must be placed within the fertile ground, and the intuition must then serve as the analog to the fertile ground and connect through meditation the concept with the inner being or heart of one’s being. This is the watering and the nourishing of the plant that was consciously formed. Thus, in meditation one is as the gardener, plucking those weeds and leaving the flowers and the fruit that shall form the harvest.

Self-knowledge can also be called self-acceptance. Self-acceptance can also be called self-forgiveness. Self-forgiveness can also be called self-redemption. Within you lies all these things. Not because you are a wise and powerful being, but because the self is one with the Creator. Would you suggest to the Creator that It may be having a bad day? Would you berate the Creator for having roses grow from gravel? It is not likely that one who is not hit by outward catastrophe would find reasons to blame the Creator for that which is occurring to one. Thusly, as the realization begins to dawn through immediate experience that the Creator is truly within, that all lore and love flow through rather than from the self, the entity who wishes to channel is more and more able to invest in that tenuous quality called faith or trust.

Faith is quite important to any entity and to any channel. How can one then encourage faith? When the groundwork has been laid in knowledge of the self by observation of behavior, observation of the subjects and hints of dreams, and aware of the aid given in meditation, one is then beginning upon a long, long journey. As one walks upon the journey, observing the self, observing the dreaming self, and investing in meditation, one begins to collect to itself a floating sea or ocean of catalyst that is not necessarily chosen to solidify about the heart of the self. Just as thinking about food or seeing it in pictures can make one hungry, so entities are endlessly suggestible, and as they open themselves more and more to the resonances of the present moment the catalyst which occurs from that point ceases to become feared and begins to become appreciated.

Since the third density is rife with duality and confusion, if not downright chaos, on the part of the entities of humankind which dwell upon its surface, it is only to one who is doing the inner work that there ever appears even the thought of finding a positive choice in a seemingly impossible situation. Yet, that is what each incarnated to do, that is, to find positive choices where none seem to exist, to love the unlovable, to console the inconsolable, to accept the unacceptable and to allow its grip upon the consciousness to loosen little by little, until finally one’s heart does not find it necessary to hold the armor of the past and the future over the vulnerable and naked self.

This instrument has said recently that history is relevant. This is quite true. All that happened before this present moment has been harvested and lies whole, intact and progressively healed within the deep mind. One who begins to know the self begins to lose fear, for gradually one becomes aware that if one believes not in the Creator, then one is liable to believe virtually anything, and one is then truly adrift in an abyss of unpolarized feelings and thoughts.

Another tool for inner work is the gazing at the kingdom of the Creator which is visible. All the beauties and balances and rhythms of life as you perceive it can be seen to be endlessly and over-generously beautiful. The more sensitive one is to the vast numbers of miracles which occur with regularity in blooming, in fruit and in harvest, the more one is able to perceive a love that created balance, harmony and rhythm. If the Creator created that which you can observe, then what has the Creator created in you? Would the Creator depart from Its basic nature in Its creation of anything? We think not. We find, rather, that the Creator has given to us a creative power and the freedom to make choices. The Creator has infinite faith in each entity, for It allows each entity complete freedom to believe, doubt or disbelieve any and all qualities and absolutes, all of which are invisible and unreachable by the measurement of your scientists.

Each pilgrim is on its own walk, but it certainly does behoove those who are going to have to be responsible for that which they have uttered or done, first, to know the abilities of the self so that one does not overstep those abilities, and, instead of being a voice of truth, becoming a voice of confusion. We would, however, broaden the scope of this answer to include all beings, for the essence of polarization in the positive sense…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

…experience the leaping into the abyss of unknowing to find that there is a rainbow bridge that faith creates. Once that bridge has been crossed the first time it stands slender, frail, but there. It has been erected. And each time the spirit moves to that bridge, to eternity, and crosses it, it becomes more and more aware that it is a citizen of eternity. We do not encourage, in those who are doing inner work, complete retreat from the world unless that be a specific and heartfelt calling. For, you see, each entity comes to this incarnation with gifts, and until the entity knows the self well enough to appreciate the gifts that have been given and to dedicate themselves to the right use of those gifts, such a person shall be forever unsure, forever dithering, dallying, sitting upon the fence, as this instrument would say.

We urge each to find the path that comforts him the most, to move off the fence and into the green and growing life that expresses itself within your nature as the grass, but which, in a metaphysical sense, is the healthful, healing and supportive ground upon which right knowledge stands firm and may be shared. We ask you to understand that whenever we use terms like knowledge or understanding that we are approximating that which is possible within third-density experience.

To know the self is to know the universe. An entity which does not know itself sees many things and believes them. An entity which starts upon the path of spiritual seeking finds one after another landmark disappearing. It realizes that it does not know anything, that it cannot depend upon its five senses or upon logical thought in order to make skillful choices within third density.

Perhaps the goal of knowing the self in the end is to find that one does not know and cannot understand, except within that great open and radiant energy which is called the heart. It is from heart wisdom that channeling springs, and it is well, when working at that level or any other within third density, to bring to the occasion the tools and resources of spiritual self-knowledge. Who are you? Who am I? Take this question which has been asked so often and ask yourself that question many times a day. In this way you shall discover just how scattered your identity may be and just how much you need to discover the true roots of your consciousness and being.

Now Q’uo said that each person who serves as a channel should have the faith that the Creator is within it so that the love of the Creator may flow through it rather than from it. Q’uo suggested that the one seeking to be a channel should do the inner work that will allow it to find positive uses of the catalyst that it experiences constantly in the third-density illusion, and this will open its heart to the Creator within it. Then Q’uo said that another tool for doing this inner work is to observe the beauty, balance, and harmony of the natural environment about one that the Creator has made, and then realize that these qualities have also been created by the Creator to exist in each entity. Q’uo continued by saying that the Creator has given each of us the ability to make choices and to choose the path that we walk so that eventually we utilize our faith that will allow our spirit to cross the rainbow bridge to know the self as a citizen of eternity with many gifts that it dedicates to using in a positive way. Q’uo completed their answer by saying that the self can only be known in the open and radiant energy of the wisdom of the heart as this is where true channeling originates. On May 26, 1991, Hatonn described the experience of the wisdom of the heart:

An entity with an open heart is likely to speak the truth in a desire to express the compassion of one who does not care whether or not this speaking will gain any advantage, but cares only to offer the entity with which the difficulty is experienced the chance for the healing that is possible only through sincere honesty and fearless communication. The open heart is the ultimate optimist. That is the wisdom of the heart. The heart does not lose hope, even if the end is not in sight and not known. The open heart gives every entity in every situation the benefit of all possible ways of gazing in compassion at that entity, be it the self or the other self. The open heart is not a compromiser, for it does not try to get anything for itself. It is ready to move into adaptation; it is ready to change if that seems wise. It is ready for anything, and since anything often happens, it is the skillful heart that is the open heart.

May the Creator become apparent to each of you. May clarity light your path and may you never judge yourself as you strive to learn, to love and to bear the fruit of your gift’s bounteous tree. We apologize for speaking overlong, as usual, and we would at this time transfer with thanks to this instrument, to the one known as Jim, that this instrument may of its own gifts move towards the ending of a session which we have greatly enjoyed and are still enjoying. We are those of Q’uo. We would now transfer.

This morning I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some fruit for myself. My second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up a couple of prescriptions.

This afternoon I read a number of the Channelings from the Holy Spirit from A Book of Days, that I thought were particularly inspiring, so that I could choose one to have Austin post on our website. I try to get a new channeling every six weeks or so to serve as an inspiration on their spiritual journeys.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 20

Illumined From Within

I greet you in the perfect love of Jesus the Christ. I am of the principle of that love and am as the wind which blows the pollen of lively faith and strength to those who seek in quiet surety the boons which the consciousness of love may offer.

The spirit of love has many faces. One beautiful face is the face of serenity and peacefulness, of mist upon mountaintop and cloud upon valley. In the luminescent fog of spiritual seeking, few things are clear but all is shot through and illuminated from within.

May you trust in the internal source of light which is the spirit and move always in confidence, knowing that that face of the Creator, though silent, lies always with you and speaks in silence at dusk and dawn, noon and midnight.

We leave you in peace, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then I got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 22, 1991:

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo and greet each of you, my friends, in the love and light of the Infinite Creator. It is our great pleasure to be with you and to experience with you the quiet and peace of your surroundings on this morning. We thank you for this opportunity and privilege to share with you, and for the opportunity to be of service in working with the local channels of your group.

You wish information this morning on being and doing. These concepts represent the passive and active principles of nature itself. They are manifested most initially in the concepts you know of as “love and light”; love being the primary state of beingness of the infinite Creator and light being manifestation thereof. We see these basic principles extrapolated in all of the creation around you. In many cases it may be difficult to differentiate between the two. For example: the entity which you call your sun is, in its very nature, a body which emanates light and heat. It is difficult to tell how much of this is the being aspect of the sun body and how much is the doing; how much, shall we say, is passive radiation and how much is active. In most cases, however, it is easier to differentiate between the two, or at least seemingly so.

We have spoken to you before regarding the nature of service and the types of service which, in our humble opinion, we deem to be most important. The most important and effective service, as you know and as we have spoken about previously, is simply the radiance of being. That is the emanation from the self of the Creator, which is in all. As you also know, your peoples, especially in your Western societies, are very often not able to appreciate this, for the societal conditioning from birth has been oriented toward the doing, the accumulation of tangible results of work done in the life. Your Eastern societies are much more able to understand this concept, it being indigenous to the various wisdom teachings which permeate these cultures. There is a certain amount of integration that is taking place among your peoples in these days. As those from your Western cultures feeling the imbalance of the teachings they have been exposed to, have searched out the ideas in the Eastern cultures. Conversely the technologies of the Western cultures have been introduced into the Eastern societies as well. These exposures may not all be deemed to be beneficial; however, they do serve to effect more of a balance in the differing types of energies.

The balance between being and doing is that which must be sought for each individual seeker. This will differ from entity to entity and from time to time. Those who have been overbalanced in the direction of doing may well need, in the balancing process, to go through great periods of time in which it may seem there is no doing, but only being. This may be very difficult for those entities involved, as the value systems that have been evolved in the society have placed the measure of the value of the self on those things that have been accomplished.

The topic for this practice channeling session was being and doing which Q’uo described as the passive and active portion of nature itself which are manifested as love and light. They described love as the nature of the Creator which manifested as the light of the created universe. Q’uo used the sun as an example both of the being which created light and also as its manifestation of light. Then Q’uo said that the most important service that we could offer was our being which is an emanation of the Creator within us, but most of our culture is focused on doing and accumulating the tangible results of working for a living. Q’uo also mentioned how some of the Eastern countries had a better grasp of being as their indigenous cultures were examples of this, and some people in our Western cultures had become familiar with this concept of being. On September 23, 1990, Q’uo gave a basic definition of being and doing:

I am Q’uo, and we feel that we have a grasp of your query, my sister. You have two desires: to be, without adornment; and to be helpful, to others. One concerns, it would seem, only the self. The other concerns, it would seem, only others. It is true that your nature is of that kind which seeks to give where there is need, and seeks little in return, if anything is sought, for such actions. On one level of understanding, it could be said that a choice must be made: for one desire to be fulfilled and the other to be dropped.

However, rather than dwell upon this more shallow interpretation of your question, we would suggest that what you seek in the heart of your being is how to be in the presence of the one Creator in all your life experience. This, of course, is a product of the attitude, the motivation, the initial impulse for all that occurs in your life pattern.

Thus, we do not see the query as one which needs to make a choice between being and doing, but that which seeks an attitude of being filled with the presence of the one Creator, so that the moment is sufficient unto itself, and that as you exist in that moment that is ever-present, that which is appropriate for you to be or do will present itself to you without question. This attitude is that gift of grace which all seekers seek and revere, yet achieve not so much by ritual, by action, by prayer, or by any activity. It is rather that which is born in its own time through the persistent exercise of desire to know the truth.

Ultimately, we feel that being is all that there is. The doing is all a part of whatever illusion each is operating within at any given time. This is not to suggest that the doing is not worthwhile.

Indeed, the doing may be the primary means whereby each entity works out his path of service. As in all else, the determination of the value of the doing lies in the intent. However, even with the highest of intentions for the doingness to be of service, the deep self will know the balances necessary for himself and, if it deems it necessary that the balance be moved from the doing toward the being, it will effect this change. In this process we would suggest that it is most helpful to attempt to proceed in the process of knowledge of the self, that the wisdom of the deep self may be felt, trusted and rested within. This may be a very difficult process for those among your peoples who are oriented toward the doing, especially as many of these also have strong biases towards being in control of the self and of the various situations which are encountered.

It may be felt that by being, rather than doing, one is losing any control one has had over the self and of the life. This may be a very frightening thing for many. And indeed learning to know and rely on the deep wisdom of the self, rather than the conscious decision making processes in which entities of your Western culture have been trained, is also frightening for many.

Lastly we would suggest that each entity keep uppermost in his consciousness the knowledge and assurance of aid that is available to each at any time. These resources are both within and without you. Each is in a process of discovering both types of resources for each, and there are more yet to be discovered. You need not go through these process alone and unaided.

Q’uo continued by saying that being is all that there is, and that doing is a part of whatever illusion one is operating within to learn its lessons of service. They said that in order to know what lessons of service are meant to be learned that it is well to access the knowledge of the deep self to determine how one should balance the being with the doing rather than depend upon one’s conscious mind to make this decision. Q’uo also said that this inner aid to discovering this balance could be added to by sources outside of ourselves as well, and I would imagine that they are speaking of guides. On December 12, 1993, Q’uo spoke of the nature of balancing being and doing:

And if your desire is to balance being and doing, then you shall surely notice, again and again, that you wish to be given more tools and resources to aid you in combating and working with the self as it is perceived by the self to be acting out of balance.

So those things which concern or worry, like this repetition, are not in our opinion negative, but rather merely indicative of where the energy is within each of you in the circle. Please consider how long this spiritual journey is, and how infinitely fine the distinctions and the enlightenments become as the spirit progresses through the densities to gaze at the long view. Not only are you attempting within incarnation to balance the being and the doing, the resting and the acting, but there are millions and millions of your years ahead in which you shall only tighten and magnify the scope of that which you observe, looking always not at what has been gained, but at what there is to do. These lessons, shall we call them, go on forever, until time itself becomes meaningless and spiritual gravity takes over.

We feel that these words are sufficient for a beginning upon this topic, which is one of great breadth and depth, and would be happy to answer further questions at another time, as you measure. We thank this group once again, for the opportunity to speak and thank this instrument for its conscientiousness in focusing upon a contact.

We would transfer at this time to the one known as Jim. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each of you again, in love and in light. At this time we would ask if we may speak to any query, which may be of service. Is there a query at this time?


I am Q’uo, we can confirm your supposition, with an addition to it. The entities so gathered have offered themselves as, what you might call, a spectrum of contacts which would allow the one known as K to open herself to that vibrational frequency which was most in harmony with her current vibration of frequency at this time, thus giving her the opportunity to partake in a contact which would be more easily maintained for a significant portion of your time, in order that the exercising of her instrument might be accomplished with the greatest facility. It is also true that the one known as K would, in this selection of contacts, have the opportunity to discriminate between the entities; and, we are pleased to observe and report that one known as K was able to discern and offer itself as instrument to the vibration that is our own and, at this time, according to the harmonics developed between her and our group, was the contact most easily initiated and maintained.

Is there another query, my sister?


I am Q’uo and we are grateful to you, as well, my sister. Is there another query?


I am Q’uo, we thank each present for partaking in this session of working, for it is the means by which we are able to offer our service to you and to others of your peoples who would have interest in this work. We always give great praise and thanksgiving for the opportunity to join this group, whether our thoughts are voiced or whether there is the simple enjoyment of our conditioning and deepening of meditation vibrations.

We are those of Q’uo, we leave each in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and picked up small tree limbs that had been blown down by recent winds and put them in a garbage can to be picked up by yard waste this Thursday.

This afternoon I went to my PCP for my yearly physical. In general, my lab report was good, but my blood pressure was high enough that she suggested that I take two lisinopril per day instead of two. Plus, my hemoglobin was high enough to put me in the range of pre-diabetic, so I need to concentrate on eating more protein and less carbohydrates. She also said that recent studies have shown that people who have had the Covid vaccinations are more likely to become diabetic.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 19

Stop, Rest And Listen

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

Stop, rest and listen. Let these be the watchwords of your busy day.

Into this day there shall come those sounds which distract the senses, for the world of the city makes powerful noise with its engines and business. And those who dwell in pastures, plains and mountain farmlands may hear too the distracting noises of nature, that noisy, joyful mistress of the Creator’s manifestation of love and service upon your planet.

Let not these sounds disturb and distract without using this energy to return and to remember love. May each distraction then become a prayer and each disharmony, harmony, by the realignment of the ear to inner silence.

For the peace of Jesus the Christ is not found without effort; without the turning of the will; without the remembering of the heart. Let these be your works when noise disturbs and clamor seems to overwhelm the senses. For you are strong within and, within, you tabernacle with the silence.

We leave you in joy and peace, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from January 31, 1991:

The question for our intensive meditation is: Discuss the male and female relationship—why each of us is born with a desire for a committed love relationship with another person, yet why it is so difficult to obtain.

(Carla channeling)

Greetings to each of you this evening in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator of All. We are pleased, as always, to be asked to join this group for the purpose this evening of the exercising of the instrument. As you know, it is our service to work with you and you offer a service to us in allowing us this opportunity. For this, we thank you.

We would, as always, ask each to use the faculties of discrimination to the fullest extent to which they have been developed, in listening to our words this evening and at any other time. Indeed, we urge that this be the approach to all the information encountered by the seeker, as each is responsible only for the self, for the thoughts and words and deeds that proceed from the self and create the world about each. There is no other entity who knows you and your path, no other entity who is capable of judging what is appropriate for you. So you must each do it for yourselves and for no other.

You wish information this evening on what many view as the most central core relationship known to your peoples. We would agree that the relationship between man and woman is important in many ways, but we do not agree that it has the most central importance. The relationship of central importance is that of the self with the self. Information has been given on this and each is urged to consider this relationship first of all and to request additional information at a later time if so desired.

The next most important relationship is that of the self with the Creator, or in a sense, with all that there is. This, also, is a topic for discussion at another time if so desired.

After these two centrally important relationships have been worked with and balanced to some extent, then and only then is each individual ready to consider a relationship of importance in the sense of a committed life partnership relationship between a man and a woman.

Some of the advantages of this type of relationship for the seeker have been related previously. It has been said to this group before that a relationship between male and female is most advantageous in the polarization process and in the seeking process in general. Firstly, because the energy generated by two seeking together far surpasses that of each one’s own; and secondly, because of the complimentary natures of the male and the female. For these reasons, this relationship is deemed to be most efficient in terms of the usefulness to the seeker. This is not to say that this is the only possibility available. It is certainly the most common type of partnership among your peoples. There are other partnerships that may be extremely successful, of between members of the same sex or between groups of more than two. However, in larger numbers, while the energy generated will be greater and if properly focused will be extremely effective in the polarization seeking processes, with greater numbers it is much more difficult to maintain the degree of harmony necessary for such focusing. Therefore, the partnership between one man and one woman is most often chosen, not because it has any particular moral preeminence, shall we say, over any other type of relationship; but because, in many senses, it is the simplest, even with all its many complexities.

The group question for this practice channeling session was:  Discuss the male and female relationship—why each of us is born with a desire for a committed love relationship with another person, yet why it is so difficult to obtain. Q’uo began their reply by saying that even more important than the male and female relationship was the relationship of the self with the self and also the relationship of the self with the Creator, and these two relationships should be balanced in some degree before the male and female relationship is pursued. Then Q’uo spoke of the advantage of the lifetime partnership of the male and female as that which allows each to aid the other in the polarization process because of the greater energies that are available by two seeking together and the complimentary energies of the male and the female. Q’uo said that other relationships of the same sex could also work in the same manner, and that a group of more than two might also be possible although it would be harder to maintain the harmony of larger groups. On November 8, 1992, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the male and female relationship:

Now, how can male and female, which have such complex powers over each other, find a way to be fearless in a relationship and therefore begin not only to be able to express the self in its conscious way, but also to begin a more inner balance? We might suggest above all other things any exercise between male and female in which the strengths of each are together used. The male which has been able, for instance, to express an idea in such a way that it is heard because it has listened to those with more intuition speaking about how to approach the matter in communication, has given respect to the female intuition. Likewise, and we realize these are simplistic examples, the female which is able to ask a stronger, more powerful male to aid in some situation, not needing to defend against that difference but being willing to accept it enthusiastically, awakens that portion of the self which is deeply male.

The desire that most among your people feel for this type of relationship has its basis in the realization of the deep self that all are one. It is, therefore, a striving for unification. In this relation, you are aware primarily of separation rather than unity. The grossness of the physical bodies makes this unavoidably apparent to you in your lives and daily activities. Thus, the sexual union between male and female may be seen to be the greatest attempt that may be made to overcome this most obvious of barriers; and, as such, is also a symbolic permeating of them. The illusion of separateness evidences itself only in the other levels of the ways each views itself as a mind/body/spirit complex on whatever level of awareness each has, as being separate from an other such mind/body/spirit complex. [Inaudible].

The fact that each person’s thoughts and feelings are not obvious to others except on a fairly surface level, and to a greater or lesser extent, depending on the intent to which such are broadcast and the receptibility of those perceived as such, also serves to perpetuate the illusion of separateness. This barrier, as you are aware, gradually is permeated as the social memory complex forms, and the thoughts of one are available to all as are the resources of all to all.

There are many efforts among your peoples at this time to attempt to share more of the self with others, and again, this is taking place on many levels. The giving of the self merely to another or to many others in the sexual energy sharing is one means by which this is attempted. The progress of your peoples in a technological sense of developing communication networks over your planet’s surface is another way in which this is attempted. And in the sharing of self with self, as it takes place on an individual basis, is the most common means whereby this is accomplished. There are those among your peoples wherein the process of opening the self to another self seems natural and is fairly easy. For others, it is extremely difficult. There are many reasons for this. There are many wanderers on your planet at this time who know quite well this sense of unity and openness they shared elsewhere and have an innate sense of the appropriateness of this, and, therefore, attempt to manifest it in their lives. Likewise, there are many of third density on this planet who, in reaching toward fourth density characteristics, are becoming aware of this trend, shall we say, also in making the same attempt. These attempts are greeted sometimes with open arms and sometimes with hostility and violence, as there are still many, many of your people who are not open to this openness, shall we say. As each seeker attempts to know the self to a greater extent and to make connections with other selves, each must be aware of the possibilities of infringement in this area.

All these attempts at greater communication stem from that underlying awareness of the oneness of all, which is an [inaudible] for the committed relationship between male and female.

The strong attraction or compulsion that they feel for such a relationship stems from this awareness and also from the magnetic connection possible between male and female as being complimentary energies. The difficulties with this type of relationship are many. The causes stem from sources within the self and within their society’s training process of each. The problems in this type of relationship or any other will stem from expectations which are held by the self which are not being met. Each, in feeling the strong attraction toward those types of relationships, will develop certain biases which are molded by the society to which each belongs; that is, the views of family, friends and culture. The expectations one has are deeply rooted so that one may not even be consciously aware of their existence. However, if at any time a difficulty arises, upon its examination there will always be found an expectation of some sort that is not being met. This is not to suggest that one should have no expectations, it is merely an analysis of how things work, shall we say. And that, therefore, to be aware of the expectations one has in a given situation, is the first step in dealing with whatever difficulties may arise. Once one is aware of one’s expectations, this may be worked with and perhaps adjusted if found to be unsatisfactory.

The great difficulties with the committed relationship between the male and female, we would suggest, therefore, are due to the sometimes extremely stringent expectations placed upon such a relationship by the individual and the culture which the individual functions within. We would urge each to consider these factors and the question at a later time if additional or more specific information is desired. We feel that these thoughts are sufficient for a beginning of ponderance at this time.

Now Q’uo said that the desire for a mated relationship stems from the deep self that is aware that all are one and are seeking unity, but in the relationship of the mates their separate nature is enhanced by the obviously separate nature of their bodies. So the sexual union is the most natural means by which the overcoming of this seeming separation is experienced. Q’uo went on to say that the various types of communication networks around the planet are another means of joining together. Then Q’uo said that many Wanderers and third-density spiritual seekers were aware of the unity of all, and they were manifesting this in how they lived their lives. However, Q’uo suggested that there were problems that could be experienced in this type of relationship as subconscious expectations of the mated pair that are created by the society may not always be met, so Q’uo suggested that each in the mated relationship should become aware of these expectations and adjust them if they are not acceptable. On November 17, 1985, Latwii described how removing one’s expectations will aid our spiritual journey:

The gentleness with which one treats the self is a great aid in any situation in which one might find the self moving and experiencing. If the situation is difficult or mysterious and confusing, it is with the gentleness that one may view the self in refusing to demand that the self master the new situation quickly or at any set pace. If you give yourself the freedom to experience without expectations of structuring the experience so that a certain outcome results, then you provide yourself with the support that will allow you to move through a greater portion of your own being and it, in its own time, as you call for it, will reveal itself to you. All portions of one’s experience teach and contain the treasures of the One. Confusion, mystery and even an emptiness call for certain fruits, and of these fruits you shall taste at the time that is appropriate.

We transfer at this time to the one known as Jim. This instrument was to take the offer, shall we say, and to continue with the contact we have made. We leave this instrument now in the love and the light and transfer to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. We would ask if there may be any queries at this time to which we may speak.

Questioner: [Inaudible]

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We also have observed that this particular session of working has been free of attempts of intrusion by those of negative polarization, and can only surmise that the continued strong desire of this group to seek and to provide itself with those aids to protection that it has learned to use have made this group [inaudible] of lesser interest to those of negative polarization, for if these entities are not able in some degree to control the proceedings of such a working, this lack of ability to control tends to depolarize and reduce the metaphysical power of such entities. Thus, they find the need for retreat and for the regathering of their polarity while keeping, shall we say, an eye on this group for any possible target of opportunity that might present itself and offer an easier entrance into the circle or any entity within it.

The question was, apparently, why this channeling group had not felt the presence of negative entities recently. Q’uo responded by saying that the efforts of the group to seek and provide means of protection by their strong desire to be of service did not provide any opportunity for the negative entity’s being able to cause problems for the group. Q’uo said that the inability of the negative entity to find any targets of opportunity would depolarize it since it could not control the group. In 85.4, Ra spoke of how this depolarization of negative entities worked:

Questioner: What is the nature of this crisis?

Ra: I am Ra. The nature of this crisis is the determination of the relative polarity of your companion and yourselves. You are in the position of being in the third-density illusion and consequently having the conscious collective magical ability of the neophyte, whereas your companion is most adept. However, the faculties of will and faith and the calling to the light have been used by this group to the exclusion of any significant depolarization from the service-to-others path.

If your companion can possibly depolarize this group it must do so and that quickly, for in this unsuccessful attempt at exploring the wisdom of separation it is encountering some depolarization. This shall continue. Therefore, the efforts of your companion are pronounced at this space/time and time/space nexus.

Is there another query, my sister?

Questioner: [Inaudible]

I am Q’uo, and we would agree that the conflict of which you speak is one situation which has attracted a great deal of interest of those of the negative polarization. For at such a time and in such a situation, entities of negative polarity may find a great many opportunities to enhance their own power by the manipulation of those energies which are already strongly biased in the direction of control and manipulation. However, those entities which have stationed themselves with this group in previous times are utilizing not only that means but others as well to regain the polarity that has been lost by the inability to control, in any sufficient degree, the workings of this group. If there were, present within this circle, an opening that allowed negative entry, this would be attempted, no matter what other conditions prevailed upon the surface of your planet, for negatively-oriented entities are quite willing and able to undertake more than one task, if you will, in any of your diurnal periods and would find it easy to participate in the depolarization of your group if this was possible, as well as utilizing any other avenues for the increasing of the negative polarity.

The question seems to have referred to a war that was happening in some other countries, and Questioner wondered if this would be a way negative entities could utilize their psychic attacks in those wars and maybe upon this group as well. Q’uo agreed that wars give negative entities more opportunities to manipulate and control others, but there would have to be an opening of a negative nature created by this group for the negative entities to be able provide psychic greetings to it. In 57.3, Ra confirmed this:

The Orion group cannot interfere directly but only through pre-existing distortions of mind/body/spirit complexes. [Which we discovered would have to be disharmonious choices that we made.]

Is there any further query, my sister?

Questioner: [Inaudible]

I am Q’uo. And we are also grateful for this blessing, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: [Inaudible]

I am Q’uo. And it appears that we have exhausted not only the instrument, but the queries for the nonce. We do not speak of this instrument. We are very happy to have been able to speak through the one known as K, and are aware that our exercising of this instrument may be somewhat wearing upon it as it is already quite fatigued. But we hope that the instrument will take heart and feel the joy of being exercised and working in a manner which continues to impress us with its dedication and its meticulous attention to detail.

The one known as K is working quite efficiently as an instrument, and we do not feel it is any longer appropriate to describe her as a new instrument. This one is gaining experience [inaudible].

I don’t know why Q’uo made these comments about how they were able to speak through K since this transcript does not show any channeling from her in this practice channeling session. She definitely channeled in other practice channeling sessions but not in this one.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I did my weekly cleaning of the upstairs beginning with using the carpet sweeper to clean the hall runner carpet. Then I used my broom and dust pan to sweep up the kitty litter on the floor in Benny’s room. Then I used the dust mop to dust in all three rooms and the hall.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 18

The Hardy And Careless Lover

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

What protection have you from the events and circumstances of this day? Do you indeed need protection? Must umbrellas keep you from the rain of internal weather? Must you indeed armor yourself so that you never shiver, so that you are never cold or miserable? Are these estates indeed to be so avoided?

Perhaps it is better to see oneself as a hardy and careless lover of all conditions of life and take no thought for the umbrella, the warm coat, and all the armor of emotion.

It is often said, “Fear not, for I am with you.” We are of the principle of Jesus the Christ. And when this entity said, “Fear not,” He did not suggest that you would not be rained upon or shiver from the cold but only that you would not be alone or overwhelmed by experience.

Stride forth, then, into the world, recognizing its difficulties and affirming them in peace.

We leave you in that peace which does indeed pass all understanding, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.