The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from December 29, 1997:

We would like to have a look at the information, if possible, today about the Earth changes that may be occurring in the next few years, what form they might take, and what impact they might have upon our lives as spiritual seekers.

(Carla channeling)

Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is a privilege and a pleasure to be called to your circle of seeking at this time. We are most grateful for your desire to seek the truth and for your calling us, for sharing our opinions and views is our chosen form of service at this time, and each time we are able to use instruments such as this one to share these views, we feel that we have offered our service, and this is very precious to us. We ask only that you use your discrimination for we have many opinions, and we are known to be wrong and would not put ourselves forward as any authority. We ask each entity to know that there is a good and adequate power of discrimination given to each seeking soul. There is a genuine and authentic feeling that accompanies the hearing of what we may call a personal truth. Many are the views discussed that may appeal to one and not to another, for many are the paths of seekers. So, we ask you to listen and take what you will, leaving the rest behind. We do not come as those in authority, but rather as those who also seek the truth. We share the mystery to which we are called, for which we hunger, and upon whose end we all gaze with awe and worship, for each entity is as a spark of Love that is precisely like Love itself, that great original Thought for which there is no better word than Love.

Many are the distortions. Very general is the confusion of many people with distorted views attempting to see clearly that which cannot be seen clearly. That is to say, you now inhabit a very deep illusion. Within you is the truth, and you are the truth that you seek. And yet, in order to have the opportunity to accelerate the rate of your spiritual evolution, each of you has chosen to come into precisely this confusion, precisely this space and time, for here you have found a chance to work upon your own polarity, a chance to work upon that faith which is no accomplishment without the confusion of the illusion.

So, you are here specifically to be confused and to undertake to follow the desires of your heart. It is easy to gaze upon the world about you as a thing, a geographical location, an island in space. The heard music of language and culture, of buildings and ways of relating, all those things that make up the environment and habit have prepared you to attempt to make sense of this illusion. In many ways you have succeeded in carving out, each for yourself, that identity that you are pleased to wear as the mask of self, that face that you wear to meet those whom you meet. Yet each mask that you see is the Creator, and you yourself are also that Love divine, which is the Creator.

We describe this essence that is you to be able to stand at this viewpoint and then gaze at that which is occurring upon the physical planet whose surface you now inhabit. This planet of yours is indeed under much stress. The details of the havoc that has been reached by third-density humankind is all too well known to those here. And we do feel that there is the potential for difficulties such as your floods, your earthquakes, those ways the planet has of being comfortable within its own skin, for it, too, is a living being. This level of concern is appropriate. It is well to be aware that the ground under you is alive, and that that life is compromised by the actions of humankind. We also are aware, however, that each difficulty has a solution, and as the wheels of destiny turn, there will come balance, and renewal, and new life where there is to the eye now only death and barrenness.

Upon a level deeper than this, we would speak of the roots of mind, for as you move over the threshold into the unconscious, and move deeper within the memory, you pass through a level at which the Earth changes, as they are often called, strike a chord with humankind’s fear of not continuing. For those who are fascinated with Judgment Day, Armageddon, or conversely the New Age, the Second Coming, and so forth, we would suggest that, archetypically-speaking, one is gazing at the self, gazing at death, the death of the personal self, for each knows that it is physically a creature of dust. It is made of earth, and that bone and sinew that moves this vehicle about shall one day again be dust. All of the civilization and training that the culture gives upon this death of self has a tendency to be very fear-driven. Thusly, it may be seen that those who follow intensely a scenario of planetary disaster may well be more concerned with issues to do with the self than those to do with the planet. It is our opinion that at this time there has been a radical upswing, shall we say, in awakening souls. It is for this reason that some within this group chose incarnation upon this sphere at this time. This is indeed a harvest season for those entities who now dance the dance of third density. This is the time when each of those who has been allowed to incarnate has the possibility of graduating into the next density at the end of the incarnation. The line to get into the physical third-density planet Earth atmosphere is a long one, for the need here is great at this time.

Focusing upon the difficulties having to do with magnetic shift may reward one with some meager harvest of information. However, we would suggest that a more appropriate response to that feeling that the fields are ripe with harvest is to dedicate the self more and more to being a spiritual entity first, and an actor who functions and does things second. If indeed there were a planetary disaster, a chance at survival would not in any case avail. Indeed, when one sees difficulty and disaster, there is a choice to be made as to what you will think about. Many things enter the senses of your vehicle, far too many things for you to be able to acknowledge and think about them all. The way one prioritizes the incoming data, therefore, is quite important. And we would encourage each when faced with thoughts of difficulty or disaster to consciously and eagerly to move into that tabernacle within, for the Creator Itself sits in Light and in perfect Love.

The question for this session was: “We would like to have a look at the information, if possible, today about the Earth changes that may be occurring in the next few years, what form they might take, and what impact they might have upon our lives as spiritual seekers.” Q’uo began by saying that we are that which we seek, but we have incarnated to increase our polarity and to work upon our faith which cannot be done without working through the confusion of this third density illusion, and we do this by following the desires of our heart and make sense of this illusion by creating an identity that is like a mask that has the Creator within it and sees the Creator in all others as well. They went on to say that this essence of our self is able to observe the great difficulties that our planet is suffering through floods, earthquakes, and other disasters that are created by mankind, but that there is a solution to each problem as the destiny of the planet and its population is realized. Q’uo went on to say that if we go deeper into the subconscious mind we will find mankind’s archetypical fear of not surviving taking the form of “Judgment Day, Armageddon, or conversely the New Age, and the Second Coming” which reflect the fear of many people of their own death rather that the well-being of the planet, but that there were also many people who were awakening to the desire to be part of the movement into the fourth density. Then Q’uo said that the best way to deal with planetary disasters was not to try to find an intellectual or scientific answer but to focus first on being a spiritual entity and to “eagerly move into that tabernacle within, for the Creator Itself sits in Light and in perfect Love.” On February 6, 2000, Q’uo spoke of the value of spending time in that tabernacle within the heart:

Thusly, when all human habitation fails to comfort or to simplify there is that tabernacle within the heart to which you may go in meditation, in contemplation, in prayer. In a moment of remembrance you may suddenly be in the Light, bursting with joy and peace, and aware that things will rise; things will occur; and things will pass away. And that the one infinite Creator and you will be just fine in weal or woe, in life or death, moving through all of the interesting confusions and conundrums of everyday life. When you live in the heart you shall still be confused, but you shall not begrudge that confusion so deeply. Nor shall you find yourself in the state of irritation for as long a time, for the heart, in its intuitive way, has a kindness, a gentleness when the mind would cut with its sharp edges.

That sun within that warms the soul waits for each to come to its own heart and knock and enter. The joy of opening the heart cannot be described. The experience of flying free of judgment, borne on the arms of compassion, is a heavy one. And this is the response that best addresses the difficulties of your planet. To the outer person, this sounds patently absurd. How can meditation or prayer or the centering within the self upon Love affect a deadening ocean, a deadening land, a deadening atmosphere, and all the numerous other difficulties your culture is aware of? And yet, it is at being at peace within, and thusly being free to open the heart and allow the Love and Light of the infinite One to move through the self and out into the world, that is, by far, the most effective answer that you can give to the world of concerns everyday. For each of you is as a star. Each eternal, each unique, and each [inaudible] truly perfect. Incarnation and learning are peculiar things. It does seem peculiar to want to come into a darkened world, and spiritually speaking, there is some darkness upon your planet at this time, which you were speaking of earlier.

Know this and all darkness to be but the reflection of the darkness within. Know all confusion, all difficulty, and all disaster, as reflections of those parts of the dark side of self within. That which you see is as a visual aid explaining you to yourself. And as you enter this season of harvest, you know there is service to perform, and you wish to be about it. We say to you that the way to serve the Creator at this time is to open the heart to the present moment and practice that precious oneness with the Creator. When there is confusion, when there is awkwardness in the rhythm of the day, move back into the heart where the Creator waits patiently.

Again and again, center the self upon its deepest truth. And you will gaze at a world made different because of the way you think. And as more and more people find peace within themselves, the harvest will begin to be plucked. So, we ask you not to fear. It is written within one of your holy works, by the one known as John of [inaudible], that in the beginning was the Word and that Word or Logos made all that there is. And this entity also described the Earth scene as a spiritual darkness, and concluded by observing that, as the Light came into the world, the darkness has never overcome it. Each of you is a being of pure Light. Each of you has complete freedom to choose the way in which you will manifest that life. All these so-called evils of the world are but Love distorted. We encourage you to find ways to choose Love over fear, Light over darkness, surrender over control, for the attempt to control is a hard service to self.

Know as deeply as you can, and as often as you can, who you are, where you are going, and for the rest, trust destiny. For as the one known as M and the one known as L have both said, one is led to the work that has been prepared for you to do. But the greatest work of all, and the work that will harvest this planet in safety, is being who you most deeply are, a child of the Creator, a miniature of the Love that is so powerful that It has created all that there is.

Q’uo continued by saying that the way to deal with planetary disasters was to go within the heart in meditation to find peace within our self that will allow the Love and Light of the one infinite Creator to move through our hearts and out into the world to deal with its difficulty and darkness. They went on to say that all difficulty and darkness is a reflection of our dark sides and opens our hearts to the infinite Creator so that we can practice oneness with the Creator in the present moment. Then Q’uo said that the world can be changed by the way that we find peace within ourselves because we are beings of pure light, and they encouraged us to: “find ways to choose Love over fear, Light over darkness, surrender over control, for the attempt to control is a hard service to self.” Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that in order to aid the harvest of this planet, we should remember who we are and why we are here since we are “a child of the Creator’s Love which has made all that there is.” On November 8, 2004, Q’uo spoke of the value in choosing love over fear:

There is a true hope among your peoples that is growing daily for the energies of love, and trust, and peace to come swelling up like buds opening into flowers in spring. When each of you chooses love over fear, you start something happening in the unseen worlds. You create an energy that is compatible with fourth density. Each time you choose to trust, to love, to have forbearance and compassion, to see the other person’s point of view and truly walk in his shoes instead of your own, you are expanding the kingdom of fourth density right where you are. And the more people that begin consciously to do this, the faster this kingdom will expand. We say to you plainly, fourth density is all but complete. As you walk about in third density, the fourth density energy is stronger every day upon your planet. The Earth itself is vibrating largely in fourth density now. That is why so many entities are sensing the need to become closer in contact to the Earth itself, touching the ground, working with the Earth, working with plants and animals and those things that abide in the creation of the Father and have nothing to do with the world of the mind of man.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument and leave it in love and in light, for we are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again, in love and in light, through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to ask if there might be further queries which those present would find value in the asking. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Well, I have a question. You mentioned the change in the magnetic field. I was wondering if the difficulty has something to do with our rotating into the new area of space that our planet hasn’t been in before.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To this query there are many components that comprise the answer. There are indeed new and more available, shall we say, energies in the portion of time and space through which this planet now moves. There is also the effect of the planetary entity realigning itself because of previous distortions offered by the third-density population in the way of the deleterious effects upon the planet. There are those entities in your circles of government who have sought to influence the patterns of weather. All these together may be seen as potential influences that have caused the patterns of weather to become somewhat more erratic. However, each of these potential sources may, as we have said, be affected by the love that emanates from the open heart of each seeker within your illusion. Thus, each may offer healing to this planetary entity and to all other entities, as well, each time the heart is open in compassion, forgiveness, understanding, mercy and tolerance.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: Not on that subject, thanks, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Our experience here on Earth is described as an illusion. Is the illusion basically just that so many of us have in a sense separated from God or from the Creator, and from each other? Is that what is meant by the illusion?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. You are correct in your assumption that the illusion is that which is more than it appears to be, for each does appear to be separate from each other entity and from your environment itself. The unity of all things is the underlying truth in this matter. The illusion of separation exists so that each portion of the one Creator, the personalities who each of you are, may have the opportunity to explore within the one Creator’s boundless field, the opportunities for discovering love and service for each other, though these may not seem to be the primary reasons for which each was incarnated. The illusion offers many other alternate answers for why each is here: to gather wealth, to be powerful, to do this or that great thing. All of these are but means by which each entity may find the heart of Love and Unity within itself. Each uses the artifacts of the illusion to travel the spiritual journey, though all around one the material world is given ascendancy.

This is the illusion so finely created by each portion of the one Creator for the purpose of finding the one Creator’s Love and Light in each heart and also providing that one Creator within the opportunity to know Itself in ways that would not be possible were this illusion and your choices within it not creative.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Just a follow-up to his. When you say illusion, I sort of think of the fact that no one has seen an electron even as far as mass goes. They see the path of energy that is left behind, but they can’t find any mass, so that’s really where I was thinking the illusion came in is just that level where there really isn’t anything but energy. Does that have validity?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. This is indeed true, and is a most salient observation. The nature of the illusion may be described in many, many ways. And in your pursuit of the explanation of particles of creation that you call physics, there is the discovery by more and more of those who pursue this field that indeed, what each sees is most mysterious. There are a variety of ways that explanation is offered, and yet, none satisfy completely unless one sees the entire creation of many-ness as a unified concept of the one Creator’s expression of love and light.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I had a guy write in from Turkey, and he was very upset over people being born retarded, and otherwise handicapped or born starving, and what was that all about. I just wrote him back and said that it was part of the mystery, that we all did suffer, those that obviously suffered and those that don’t look like they suffer at all. Everybody suffers. I wondered, do you have any comment on that? I’d love to be able to answer better.

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. To love and to find love is an easy thing when there is no barrier to perceiving love. Within your illusion, there is a great deal of darkness, shall we say, spiritually speaking. So that it carries far more weight in the mind/body/spirit totality that you call the spirit or soul to find Love and Light in an incarnation in which there is great difficulty, great darkness, great challenge. Each entity which incarnates within this illusion enters into the undertaking of this challenge and will gain in the spiritual awareness and power, shall we say, by being able to accomplish the discovery of love where it is most difficult to find.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: I have a question. In my search throughout my life to find out more about myself and what my path is in life, I’ve had many thoughts, so to say, that have followed me throughout my life and I’m wondering if these thoughts are symbolic of what I am to do. But they have troubled me in their authenticity of what they actually mean. I was wondering if you had any comment, so to speak, on that?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Each entity which incarnates within this illusion offers to itself those guideposts or milestones, these thoughts which you have described, that pose to the incarnated entity the questions that you are indeed asking yourself. These thoughts, these images, these impulses within, then seek to guide, to lead, if you will, the entity within a certain line of inquiry that will eventually prove fruitful to the entity as it faithfully follows that which it feels within to be leading it. You will, within your incarnation, discover certain synchronicities, coincidences, the bringing together of information of entities, of experiences, of shared thoughts and dreams. These will serve as those kinds of directions that will lead, that will nurture, that will inspire and support when the way seems difficult and dark. Look then, especially in your prayerful times, and in mediation and in those times where you seek within the answers that are of importance to you. Look there upon a regular basis that you might inquire into the wisdom that you have provided yourself, and which the Creator and those angels and spirits about you have provided you, so that you may become inspired at those times when it is open to you to seek, and to ask, to serve, to give. That you are aware of these images, these thoughts, is important. Important not only at this time, but throughout your incarnation.

Is there a further query, my brother?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as we perceive that there are no further queries from this circle of seeking, we would at this time offer our gratitude to each entity for inviting our presence and for sharing with us your thoughts and your concerns. We are honored to have been a part of your seeking this day. And would remind each again that the personal discrimination is most important at all times, including listening to our words when information is being sought that has meaning in your own journey of seeking the truth. You indeed have the answers that you seek within and when there is information given to you that rings of truth, then you may welcome into your…

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This morning I went outside and changed out the sugar syrup in my three hummingbird feeders and my neighbor across the street’s two hummingbird feeders. There was not much sign of hummingbird activity, and I would guess that the hummers are headed south for the winter. Then I ran a couple of errands to pick up some cat food at Feeder’s Supply and a couple of prescriptions for me at Walgreen’s Drug Store.

This afternoon I went upstairs to the recording studio and recorded the second section of Chapter One of 102 on the topic of Catalyst.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 15

Carelessness And Forgetfulness

I am the Spirit of the Lord Jesus Christ who speaks unto the world this day, this hour, and this moment through the mouth of this instrument and in the heart of each and every soul that exists.

O, how abundant is the Spirit! O how rich and inestimably close is the comfort which you seek!

It is mere forgetfulness, not willfulness, that draws most of you from the Spirit and consciousness of Jesus the Christ. It is a carelessness of fine trust that one may go forward and forget the center of being.

Yet to move in thought and action without the Spirit is to invite the calamity of a careless confusion, one less able to be penetrated in the end by Love and peace.

Yes! We ask you, rejoicing, to carry the strength, the comfort, and the laughter of the Spirit of Jesus the Christ in your heart each hour of this day, calling into remembrance all of Christ’s passion and remembering Love itself made manifest, as that Love made us manifest to you, for all time.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. In the name of Jesus the Christ. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 19, 1997:

The question this evening has to do with individual or group efforts to make energy or technological advances available for humanity. The Confederation of Planets had this problem in pre-World War Two when they were giving information to the Manhattan Project scientists who then developed the bomb. Is humanity ready for further technologies such as free energy, or if we wish to be of service to… [inaudible].

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo, and we apologize for our premature beginning. We were saying how much of a privilege we consider it to be asked to speak with you and share our thoughts. As always, we would ask that you pick and choose among these thoughts, taking those which are helpful to you and leaving the rest behind. For we have no illusion that our own concepts of the truth are any final word; rather we are happy to share our opinions with those who have discrimination. And each does indeed have that discrimination that recognizes that which is one’s own personal truth.

The question this evening concerns the application of gifts, and we would, as we often do, wish to begin by placing the concept of gifts in some kind of context. When each incarnate being gazed upon the incarnation to come, each selected from the infinite self those gifts and quirks of being, thought, and attitude which would provide the resources and tools to prosecute various purposes for which the incarnation was chosen. Often, these eccentricities and biases do not seem in the life experience to have any direct application. However, the indirect use of gifts is frequently an enlarged group of service.

Secondly, we would encourage the concept of the personality shell that makes use of these gifts and a kind of focus for the deeper reasons for incarnation. As the self gazes at the self, the self is actually gazing at the personality shell. This is the first fruit of self-knowledge, that knowledge of the personality shell. Now, this personality shell is created of the blending between the second-density life-form which is your physical vehicle, and whose mind and instincts are unimpaired, and the consciousness that is that infinite self within its vehicle.

Far beyond the apparent nature of the self, with its temptations and duties and positive and negative thoughts about many things, there is a deeper self, a self that may ultimately be identified as the great original Thought, which is Love. This Logos is complete and utterly within, and it, Love itself, is the nature which you may come to know in the most trustworthy way. For Love is Love. Love created all that there is. There is no sham, no falsity to divine Logoic Love. And this is the vibration, this is the essence which each is beneath the personality shell.

When one considers what one is to do with one’s gifts, we would encourage each seeker to contemplate first the greatest gift, that gift of consciousness. There are duties and responsibilities that go hand in hand with the awakening of awareness of one’s spiritual identity. One responsibility is to remember who you are, and what you are. For it is that essence that you came primarily to offer as your service. As each comprehends these words, each is fulfilling her major, primary service. For the primary service is to share sacrificially the essential vibrations of self with the planet that you call Earth in order that the planetary consciousness may be lightened at this critical time, metaphysically speaking, in Earth’s history. So, no matter what occurs within the outer world, as the one known as C observed, no matter whether one develops a new physics or works and retires, the primary service is performed as you breathe in and out, and as you are most deeply and truly yourself.

It is this vocation for which you took flesh. Primarily, this is why you came. You came here to be yourself, to offer yourself sacrificially to a world greatly in need, a relatively unbiased vibration of Love. The sacrifice is life itself. Not that which is within the life. It costs something for each to come here. You have paid that price. We encourage each then, to relax, to trust, and to surrender to that destiny which is a gift carefully chosen by yourself before incarnation. You have prepared ways to serve in the outer world. It is not terribly important whether or not this or that which was prepared is taken up and manifested. However, it is from this standpoint, and from this context, that we would prefer to deal with the question of the use of gifts.

The question for this session was: “The question this evening has to do with individual or group efforts to make energy or technological advances available for humanity. The Confederation of Planets had this problem in pre-World War Two when they were giving information to the Manhattan Project scientists who then developed the bomb. Is humanity ready for further technologies such as free energy, or if we wish to be of service to… [inaudible].” Q’uo began by saying that before we incarnated, we chose certain gifts from our infinite self, or higher self, that would help us learn our lessons, but that sometimes these gifts do not seem to help us learn our lessons, so they must be looked at as part of a larger group’s service. Q’uo went on to say that our personality shell is who we are and is a combination of our second density body and our infinite consciousness, and our personality shell uses our gifts to focus on the deeper reasons for our incarnation. Then Q’uo said that beneath our personality shell is the Love of the Logos which created all that there is. They went on to say that the greatest gift that we have to share with Mother Earth is the awakening to the spiritual nature of our consciousness that will help to lighten the vibrations of Mother Earth as she moves into the fourth density vibrations and also will allow us to share the simple gift of our being with everyone that we meet. They said that this is why we came here, so we should surrender to our destiny which is the gift that we chose before our incarnation. On September 10, 2000, Q’uo spoke of the spiritual nature of our consciousness:

This is a huge change in consciousness: to become self-aware that one is a citizen of eternity. This is a real awakening, and when this occurs, there is a shift. It is as if before you were plodding upon the land, and suddenly now you are on the ocean and moving quickly. And you cannot walk out of the boat and onto the water and onto safe shores. Indeed, you are on a path that cannot be predicted beforetime and that has many elements that are not linear. Consequently, there is a tremendous amount of experience that comes very quickly when the awakening occurs. To our way of thinking, it is a time for rejoicing when the spirit that you are has this sense of awakening to a deeper level of reality, to a fuller sense of life, to a wider appreciation of the possibilities of the present moment. It is not that learning can be accumulated like bricks until a wall can be built to house the knowledge of the mysteries involved in being who we are, but rather, that the fuller the light that we are standing in and working with the more of that light that we can send through our selves and into the creation to lighten those energy patterns about us.

When an entity wakes up it is as if a light has been switched on. It is not a light that can ever truly be put out again, for there is an awareness there. A change has been made, and it cannot be undone.

As each contemplates the future, each is immediately aware of a sense of tumultuous change as your solar system rotates into a new area of space. The vibrations are changing. The density is changing. Time itself is altering. And the old paradigms grow increasingly awkward. There is in such a time a need for those who are able to move with the rhythm and the information surrounding that change, that energy, or dynamic of transformation. In such a situation as your Earth is at this time, it is to the scientists who look carefully at the actual knowledge of humankind a time when there is seen by all to be a crying need for a new paradigm. Much goes into shift or transformation in consciousness. The entire panoply of arts and sciences, disciplines of every kind, factor into a new creation, a new way of being, that model known as life experience. And so, it seems simple and true that if one’s gifts include a vision of a transformed physics, cosmology, economics, social model… this would be a good time to explore areas which seem to draw you forward. This instrument, for instance, knows she must write a book. This instrument will continue to question her ability, her knowledge, her rights, her worth. However, this entity is persistent and will produce that fruit of her particular gift of which she is capable. And we encourage each to move with those gifts that draw your interest forward.

We are aware that the one known as C has serious concerns, for indeed many are the newly discovered items that have quickly been co-opted for their military use, or otherwise been used for the detriment of humankind rather than its welfare. And indeed, we agree that the only safe area for an entity to work is within the self. Working with the self, it is difficult to infringe upon anyone’s free will. It is difficult to find oneself suddenly aghast over the misuse of the fruits of your labor. For that which you do within yourself is yours to do. There is no possibility of infringement. And this work is at the center of the life, this being rather than doing. We realize that we are more or less simply describing the situation which the question attempted to address. We wish to eliminate the landscape rather than to choose one road or another as this instrument and the one known as Jim both said earlier. We are not those who feel that any should do this or that; this is not a concern of ours whatsoever. Our concern is simply to share anything that we know or think that might constitute a resource to those seekers who we came to communicate with and to serve.

There is a delicate, yet surprisingly robust, middle, or golden mean, or as this instrument would say. There is a groove coming from the jazz groups that she has, and when one is in that groove, one is simply responding to a rhythmic unfolding of destiny. It is this feeling of rightness and rhythm that will come to the one who is making right use of her gifts. And we commend to your processes of thinking the inclusion of that feeling sense that lets you know when you are on the beam and when you are not. For each has the intuition and the inner knowing that one can draw on and depend on.

It is after all, your creation, for each entity, whether it be one of us, one of you, or any within the creation of the infinite Father.

[Pause]

We are those of Q’uo, and we must apologize… we are those of Q’uo. [Laughs] This instrument almost went to sleep on us, and we are sorry, and the instrument is sorry, and we must regroup. We were saying that each within the creation of the Father has an infinite rightness, for each is a citizen of the time, each is a spark of the infinite Creator and from creation to creation, the sparks shall fly out, become homesick, and return. And you are flying and wishing for home—and you shall return—only to be sent out again by an ever-inquisitive Creator to see just what Love can be, what It can do.

Then Q’uo said that our planet is moving into a new area of time and space in which the old ways of thinking need to go through a shift in the way that consciousness is utilized in: “The entire panoply of arts and sciences, disciplines of every kind, factor into a new creation, a new way of being, that model known as life experience.” So, Q’uo suggested that we look into areas where we might use our gifts to help this time of transition draw us forward into the new paradigm as was the case with Carla considering writing a book which eventually became known as A Wanderer’s Handbook. Then Q’uo made a general statement of how to share our gifts most appropriately which was to focus more on the nature of our being and then to use our intuition to share whatever resources we felt to be of the most aid to seekers of truth. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that each of us is a portion of the infinite Creator that has made this journey of serving the Creator from one creation to another, and we shall want to return to our home in the Love of the Creator, and then we shall be sent out again by the Creator that wants to know Itself; what It can be: and what It can do. On September 13, 1981, Q’uo spoke about the true nature of our being:

There are some items which are available to one who wishes to purchase knowledge. One may learn how to make the illusion work. What one may not purchase for any price from outside oneself is the knowledge of why things are as they are, why we are here, and what is the nature of our being.

To look in the mirror is to see an infinitely small part of the creation. This, my friends, is to the best of our knowledge, a creation made entirely of Love. As you view yourself, you may see a tiny portion of an infinite Love and yet, within that image in the mirror, there lie depths through which you may only see given a great deal of desire, time, and discipline, for that which you seek within yourself, that which is the true heart of Love, is locked within you like a seed within the earth or a babe in the womb, and it is through quietness, confidence, and meditation that you may let this plan germinate, this babe be born. This entity is that part of yourself that is more fully the original Thought of the Creator: the original Thought of Love.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo, and we leave this instrument with thanks and love and light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each of you in love and the light through this instrument. We have attempted in this session of working to speak to the query which has been most important upon the minds of those present, especially the one known as C. And we would ask at this time if there is any further query that any present might ask.

Questioner: Well, I don’t have a question, but my mind sure was wandering all over the place, and yet I wanted to thank you for your words because there seems to be some general truth in it because I usually find inspiration in dealing with my concerns that are on my mind.

I am Q’uo, and we are grateful that we have been able to provide the information that has set your mind in motion. We are always hopeful that we are able to speak in some way to the heart of the concerns which are offered to us in the form of queries. We are aware that much within your illusion is confusing and difficult. There is the need for the ray of light, shall we say, within each daily experience of each seeker to shine the way for the seeker and to inspire the dedication to service. And to give the seeker the knowledge that to be is the greatest service that any can offer. For to be is to reproduce the nature of the Creator in the individual incarnation. For the Creator exists in a fashion in which the creation is much like your computer program, running in such and such a fashion with infinite participation and possibilities. There is great harmony within this intricate and infinite moving energy individually expressing as each personality. If you can be and allow the harmony and the Love and the Light of the one Creator to shine through your being in your words, in your thoughts, in your actions, then you have offered that is which most helpful to offer. An incarnation, an illusion, and all those about you, as you move through your incarnation within this illusion it is your free will choice what you shall do with your being. But first be, my friends. Then that which is appropriate for you to do will present itself as clearly as the sun shines on a clear summer day.

At this time, we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, thanking each again for inviting our presence, and cautioning each to take only these words we have offered that ring of truth to you, leaving all others that we have spoken behind without a second thought, for we would not be stumbling blocks upon your path. We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I set the sprinkler in various locations around the yard to water my flower gardens as it has been over two weeks since we have gotten any rain. Then I went upstairs to the recording studio and recorded the last section of the Prologue to 102 which was about how Don, Carla, and I worked together during the Ra contact. Then I made an errand run to the vet to pick up some meds for Bosco. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to drop off a prescription and to pick up another one.

This afternoon I went back up to the recording studio and began recording the first chapter of 102 which is the only chapter that Carla wrote and wrote so well! I recorded the first section of Chapter One which was titled Life on Earth.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 14

Contention And Disagreement

I am the active principle of Jesus the Christ, the Spirit which speaks to the world this day. I greet you in the consciousness of full and divine Love.

This day this instrument goes to a convention to do business for her church. This instrument seems to expect a good many differing and potentially hostile opinions.

It is encouraged, in this instrument and in all who see contention in the world outside the self, that all the various opinions and disagreements without be taken within, that it may be recognized that that which is seen as a picture with the eyes may be understood to be a way of seeing that contention, that confusion, which is within the self.

When once the peace of Christ has penetrated the inner being and the heart is soft and compassionate, the outer confusion will never again seem threatening but merely noisy, for there is a peace which passes all understanding.

It is the understanding of Love, and in this Love and peace we leave you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 16, 1997:

Our question has to do with the harvest and the positive and negative entities who are here with a chance to graduate, so we are seeing a lot of both positive and negative activities and a lot of confusion. Would Q’uo comment on this situation and how we may respond as spiritual seekers, living as though we might die at any moment, living as spiritual warriors, so that each day could be our last day?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the One Infinite Creator whose mystery we worship, and whose service is truly our pleasure and our privilege. We are so grateful to each of you for desiring to investigate and seek the truth, and for choosing to call us to your group as you do by those vibrations that you bring to this circle this day. Without your questing spirits our services would not be needed, and we would not learn or grow as we may do as we serve you. And so, we thank you as each teaches each in the infinite mirroring of Love reflecting Love.

Your question this day revolves around that dance of birth and death most closely associated with the seeming end times, whether that be of a life, of an era, or of a culture as a whole. And indeed, as you come to this subject your planet revolves into that season of cold and dark and stark bareness when the only evidence of light is the frozen and battered ruins of summer’s paradise of leaves and blossoms. And as wise prophets of all cultures and religions have noted that which blooms also dies; that which blossoms also withers; and that which lives also dies. This is the condition into which you were so eager to come, this peculiar situation of inter-related energies that do not necessarily know how to pull together, how to cooperate to achieve that clarity and balance which is possible within illusion.

It is said in your Holy Bible that the fields are white with harvest and yet there are so few harvesters. We might suggest to each of you that you do exist at this time as a harvester to the extent that you embrace and attempt to live that inner focus of self as a vessel and a channel for that Love that is the One Great Original Thought. For the harvest of souls that lie among those deeply slumbering upon your Earth plane appear as do other sleepers, yet they are sleeping but lightly. It is not to the one who is aggressive as a light-bringer but to the one who simply allows light to flow through the instrument that the, shall we say, the coincidences fall to bring sleepers whose time has come to awaken into that circle, that gambit which includes one who is functioning as a light-bringer.

Each of you may profitably think about the concept discussed within the question of being a spiritual warrior. The term is not exact, for the term, “warrior”, suggests an enemy, and yet the enemy of the spiritual warrior is the spiritual warrior herself, just as the ally of the spiritual warrior is herself. To the spiritual warrior all of those outside of the spiritual warrior are reflections of the spiritual warrior. The work which the spiritual warrior does is upon the self, and as the warrior disciplines her personality and finds ways to step out of the way of the One Original Thought, that entity becomes more and more a bearer of Light, a channel through which Light may come into the Earth plane. And this Light, rather than the warrior herself, is the alarm clock which each of you carries and which each of you has as an offering to give to those about you. For each of you has her environment, and as you move through the routines and duties of everyday living, you come within the purview of many entities. It does not matter what you think of these entities or what they think of you in terms of doing spiritual work or of being of spiritual service. For the great service which the spiritual warrior offers is that emptiness of self which allows Love to flow freely through the heart chakra and out into the world to bless, to heal, and to awaken deep memories within those whose time has come.

We feel that you have a fair grasp of the logic involved in the great evidence of negativity as well as positivity upon the Earth scene at this time. The concept of incarnation by seniority by vibration is very helpful when it comes to grasping just how precious the opportunity to be incarnate at this particular time is, for as the one known as Jim was saying, there is a waiting list, shall we say, of entities who wish to enter the Earth plane at this time to be of service and to learn spiritual lessons having to do with faith and love which can only be worked upon within the illusion which completely hides the unity and truth of oneness that underlies your illusion. For there must be confusion in order for choices to be valid. There must be no way to understand spiritual choice, but rather there must be that growing awakening within to the voice of Spirit that tells in concepts greater than words within the silence of the heart the story of Love, Free Will, and the Creator’s world.

Your Earth scene shall continue to be chaotic and the energies of many somewhat dissimilar cultures, all striving alike for balance, may well create more and more confusion in the physical and societal sense. Yet the spiritual warrior sees each day alike, as an opportunity to meet the moment, to give that moment the honor and respect which creates a depth and resonance to that moment. Indeed, you may think of your entire existence as taking place within the twinkling of an eye, for as the Creator breathes creations are born and die. Infinite and everlasting Intelligence broods upon Itself in unending Love, and again and again It chooses a dance that tells of self to self, and again and again the Creator sends forth those sparks of Self that were created before any world was and will be created after all have gone. And each of you is that spark; each of you part and parcel of the Creator; and your moment is now.

Our question has to do with the harvest and the positive and negative entities who are here with a chance to graduate, so we are seeing a lot of both positive and negative activities and a lot of confusion. Would Q’uo comment on this situation and how we may respond as spiritual seekers, living as though we might die at any moment, living as spiritual warriors, so that each day could be our last day? Q’uo began their reply by saying that the question today revolved around the seasons of change for the life, the culture, and the planet, and that the prophets of many religions and cultures spoke of the philosophy of that which blooms also dies. They said that we have chosen to incarnate into these end times to work with the various inter-related energies that don’t always work together to help us to achieve clarity and balance within the third density illusion. Q’uo continued by saying that those in the circle were here to help with the harvest to the fourth density by simply living as a channel for the Love of the One Original Thought that can help those souls who are asleep to their identity to awaken to their purpose in life. Then Q’uo defined the spiritual warrior as one who disciplines herself to allow the positive and negative reflections of herself to step out of the way so that she may serve as a channel for the Light that comes to the Earth at this time. Then Q’uo said that each within the circle also served as a spiritual warrior by: “emptying the self which allows Love to flow freely through the heart chakra and out into the world to bless, to heal, and to awaken deep memories within those whose time has come.” Q’uo said that the concept of the seniority of vibration was now being used to allow those entities with the best chance of learning how to work with the lessons of love and faith to be incarnated because these lessons can only be worked upon within the confusion of third density where there is no way to understand the spiritual choice. Then they said that the voice of the Spirit must be awakened that speaks in concepts greater than words of the story of Love, Free Will, and the Creator’s world. Then Q’uo said that our Earth’s vibrations would continue to be chaotic as its environment of a variety of cultures, who were seeking balance, would continue to create confusion, but the spiritual warrior would see each day as an opportunity to experience Love in the eternal present moment as creations are born and die as the Creator expresses Itself in everlasting Love. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that the Creator sends forth sparks of Itself that exist before all worlds were created and which will exist after all are gone, and each of us is one of those sparks, a part of the Creator, and our moment is now. On February 2, 2003, Q’uo described the nature of the spiritual warrior:

So let us end by looking at the silence. For this is the most potent weapon that the warrior of light, as this instrument has called the spiritual warrior, possesses. The silence has been described as that which unlocks the door to the room in which the one infinite Creator dwells. It has been described as that which unlocks truth. It has been described as that which enables and ennobles the process of catalysis, chemical reaction, and result: catalyst and experience.

Silence is as the open hand. Come to the Deity empty, empty-handed, empty-minded, empty of all but the thirst and the hunger for the presence of the one infinite Creator, the one original Thought that created all that is. Come empty, for you shall overflow. What concerns you? Come to your heart, and come empty. Come into the sea and dive deeply. Dive for that deep, deep water where truth has been crystallized within your own process, where you can enjoy the company of the angels of the deep that are there to comfort you, hold you, love you, strengthen you, and send you back into the fray.

We would transfer to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each of you again in love and in light through this instrument. We would offer ourselves at this time in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may have upon their minds. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have a question from a reader. He wants to know about a person who is called Adida and is supposedly the returned Christ. What can you tell him about this entity?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. From your experience with our contact and those of the Confederation you are well aware that we are most careful in the attempt to maintain each seeker’s free will. In many cases our attempt to do so presents a seeming lack of information for which we apologize for we do wish to provide that which is helpful to each seeker. In this instance we would be unable to speak in a specific sense about the entity, Adida, for we are aware that each seeker is seeking that information which is most helpful at this time for the seeker.

Many entities seek and await contact with the entity known in your planet’s history as Jesus the Christ, for one of the promises, a covenant if you will, which this entity made with those which followed it was that this entity would return in some form to aid in the harvest of souls as this third-density illusion finds its end upon this planetary influence. Indeed, those of Ra have also spoken of the occurrence of the one known as Jesus speaking through what you have called a channel, that this was to occur, has been known by many of your Earth population for a great portion of its history. Thus, when any channel or group suggests that it is in contact with this entity, known as Jesus the Christ, there is a great likelihood that it will gather about it those seekers of truth who gravitate towards this entity’s teachings and desire to hear more about them.

That entities are willing to make rooms in their hearts and in their minds for the teachings of the one known as Jesus is an helpful thing, for it is the heart of this entity’s teachings that each seeker seeks and that is Love. The one known as Jesus was steeped in the great energy of the One Creator, the creative energy which has made all things and which each entity instinctually seeks out within this third-density illusion, for even at the level of each cell in each body there is the knowledge of Love. There is the desire for Love. There is the pull towards Love. Whether or not a channel is channeling the one known as Jesus, each entity which claims to be channeling this entity is helping in one respect seekers to come into a greater relationship with Love. For it is well known that the one known as Jesus replaced all the laws of Moses with the two great commandments which revolved about the concept of love: to love the Creator with every fiber of the being and to love the neighbor as the self.

Thus, this entity has its influence to this day in a most harmonious way upon each seeker, and we would encourage each seeker who reveres the one known as Jesus to seek within the life pattern where Love rests, where Love remains, where Love may be found. Is there any other way that we may speak to this query?

Carla: I think that is just great and I will deliver it to the person who asked the question.

Q’uo: And we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: How can I improve my personal meditation periods?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. We have discovered through our own experience that it is well to seek the silence of the meditation in a daily fashion that this becomes a part of each day, perhaps at the beginning or at the ending, that it be a central feature for each day, that one take the time for this meditation at the same time and in the same place each day, that one reserve these times and places for what could be seen as the axis upon which your experience turns. For as you complete your daily round of activities there are many, many forms of catalyst that assault the senses and give one a great deal to think about, to digest, and it is within the meditative times that what can be learned is seated in a spiritual sense within the soul of the self.

Thus in your meditations it is well that you put aside, for the time period of the meditation, the concerns of the day, perhaps ritualizing this concern in a fashion such as taking off the cares as one would take off a hat and placing them aside on a table so that during the meditative time one seeks as purely and clearly as one can the inner silence that will allow one to hear with the heart the speaking of the One Creator in whatever form or fashion in which it may come. Any thoughts that occur at this time may be allowed to move in and out and allowed to go their way. One need not fight against the mind but bring it back gently each time that it wanders to the center of silence.

After enough practice at this endeavor, one will begin to open a bridge, shall we say, from the conscious daily round of activities to one’s own subconscious mind and through the roots of the tree of your subconscious mind contact then may be sought with the shuttle that is the spirit that moves in unity with the One Creator. Thus, you open a door or a bridge, as we have previously mentioned, to the deeper, more informed portions of your own consciousness and through your own, to the One Creator. Is there another query, my sister?

Questioner: I thank you for that response. No further queries from me.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister, for your query. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo and we are grateful that we have been able to speak in some fashion to the concerns of those present in this circle of seeking this day. It is always a great honor and privilege to be asked to join you here, and we do so eagerly. We would at this time take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each as always in the love and in the light of the One Infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends, Adonai.

This morning I was able to listen to Carla channel Ra in Session #51 with Anna who was in Nashville. The topics were harvest, UFOs, and the energy centers of the body. Then I went upstairs and cleaned Benny’s apartment by using my carpet sweeper on the hall rug. I used the broom and dust pan to clean up the kitty litter in the room where she usually stays that has two litter boxes. I completed the cleaning by using the dust mop in the room upstairs. Then I stayed upstairs and went into the new recording studio in the closet of what used to be Carla’s office. I recorded the portion of the Prologue about how Don had chosen to live The Choice.

This afternoon I went back upstairs and recorded the part of the Prologue about how I had chosen to live The Choice before I met Don and Carla.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 13

Hope And The Experience Of Love

I am known as the Holy Spirit. I greet you in the full consciousness of the Love and the creative energy of Jesus the Christ.

As that active energy called Love invisibly swirls and moves throughout each atom of creation, opportunities are constantly being given for that which is of a less spiritual nature to take on the vibrations of a spiritualized Love. Thus does the Spirit bring out the song in stone, the clapping of hands of the trees, and the rejoicing of the mountains.

Thus also the spirit of the Holy One moves invisibly and energetically within the heart of humankind, creating seemingly from nothing a strong and lasting faith. The seeker who wishes to experience the movement of the active principle of Love need bring to the encounter with that transformative energy nothing but a heart full of hope.

Not all encounters with new life are as dramatic as Paul’s vision upon the road to Damascus. May you be willing to support within yourself those promptings of energetic Love which whisper from deep within your heart. May you hope in the Spirit.

We offer you the peace of this ever-fulfilled desire, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from August 3, 1997:

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet each of you in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. May we thank each who sits within this circle of seeking at this time. We are aware of the choices and the sacrifices each has made in order to be a part of this circle, and we offer our thanks and our blessings to each for all that they bring to the honest search for the deeper truth.

We are honored and privileged to share our thoughts and ask only that each of you listens with the ear that hears that which is truth for you. Those thoughts which do not ring true to you we ask that you leave behind without any thought, for when your truth comes to you, there is a special resonance which your discriminatory powers will offer to you. Use that discrimination not only with regard to that which we might share from our humble experiences but also [inaudible], for that power of discrimination which each has is knowledge, and its impulses are worthy that [inaudible].

We find the group energy most pleasant and thank each again for allowing us to be a part of this session of working. We ask ourselves what we would wish to offer before moving to questions, and we find we have very little to say that has not been said by the one known as Carla and others within this circle. Our basic message is always the same. It is a simple message, too simple for most to believe or to use. However, it is what we have to offer, and that is that all that there is, is Love, not merely words describing romance, not a pale word describing friendship, nor any of the ways that the word love has been used, for the Love in which we come is the Logos, that one original Thought from which all else has been created.

Using free will, the Logos chose to create the manifested illusions which you now are in the midst of enjoying. As you dance through these illusions, we simply ask you to remember that each is Love, each is a creature of that Love which creates and destroys. The Love within each entity’s energy nexus is, as are all things within your illusion, quite limited. If a seeker attempts to offer love from the self, that seeker shall soon run dry of love and be left in the emotional precincts of exhaustion and irritation. However, each has the ability to so clear away the daily clutter that the interior can become calm and silent, and, within this hollowed out space within, there can flow through the seeker an infinite Love.

We suggest to each the effort to remember who you are, to remember why you came to this difficult illusion. What was important enough to pull you into the great illusion of the Earth plane? As far as we ourselves know, that reason in each case has been the wish, the genuine wish to serve the infinite One. Each has worked hard to gain the right to incarnate at this especially critical time within your present cycle of learning. Each was able to come here because of the seniority of vibration of each, that is there being fewer physical vehicles than souls who wish to use them. The vehicles have been given to those whose vibrations more nearly accommodate the fourth-density Love and Light of the one infinite Creator.

Each of you, then, is either here as a wanderer from a higher density or here because you have the ability to graduate within this present incarnative experience. We find there are both wanderers and what we might conveniently, if inaccurately, call Earth natives within this particular circle. Know that each of you, whether wanderer or Earth native, is completely and equally beholden to that Light that awaits at the end of your present incarnation, for the steps of Light that each shall walk are one in the same for all.

Even if an entity has incarnated into the third-density experience from fourth density or fifth density, yet still, through incarnation, those entities have become Earth natives in the respect that they must enter those steps of Light carrying each and every experience, balanced and unbalanced, which have occurred within the present Earth density incarnation. In other words, wanderers can get caught in what this instrument often calls a karmic situation.

So, we suggest and encourage each to take the time daily to center the self within the heart, to spend that moment of knowing that you are loved, and that you can channel infinite Love to a world that is starving for that vibration that is unconditional Love, for this you came into this incarnation. Whatever your manifested excellences and achievements, they shall always fall far short of the service that you are doing by being who you are and by meeting the moment with the maximum amount of Love which you may find yourself able to open to within your heart.

Q’uo said that they didn’t have a topic for today’s session that went beyond their usual message which was that there is nothing but Love, and the Love in whose name they come is Love of the Logos that has created all that there is, and as all move through these illusions each is a creature of that Love that has the power to create and to destroy. They went on to say that if the seeker attempts to use its own limited love that it will soon run out of its love and become emotionally exhausted, but if it is able to clear away the thoughts of the mind, its interior can become calm and silent so that infinite Love can flow through it. Then Q’uo suggested that each seeker should remember that it came here to be of service to the infinite One, and that it has been able to incarnate in a physical body at this time because of the seniority of vibration that each has been able to harmonize with in order try to obtain the fourth density Love and Light vibrations of the one infinite Creator. Q’uo said that each within the group today was either a wanderer or a native of Earth, and both had the ability to walk the steps of Light at the end of the incarnation which are the same steps for the wanderer and the native of Earth. They also said that the wanderer is the same as the native of Earth in sharing the need to carry with them the balanced and unbalanced experiences of the incarnation as they walk the steps of Light. Q’uo suggested that in order to avoid getting caught in a karmic situation it would be helpful take time daily to center the self within the heart and to know that it is loved, and the reason it came into this incarnation is to channel infinite Love to a world that is starving for unconditional Love. Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that no matter what the wanderers’ achievements, they will always fall short of that which can be shared by simply being who they are and meeting each moment with the Love that is within their open heart. On May 22, 1994, Q’uo spoke of how the steps of light may be walked by a wanderer:

So, at the heart of being a wanderer is that feeling of dislocation, of being in the world but not of the world in which you find yourselves. Because this situation seems full of discomfort many who have wandered here are simply miserable without finding any comfort. To respond to that need for comforting some who have responded have leaned in their discussions heavily towards comforting wanderers by encouraging a sense of separation from native Earth humans. We do not encourage this line of thought because each wanderer, in coming into your Earth’s sphere of influence, took upon it the responsibility of citizenship of this Earth. As much as any other native inhabitant, wanderers will be expected to walk the steps of light when this incarnational experience is at an end, and, just as much as any native inhabitant of Earth, if the steps are walked to a point of comfort within third density the wanderer shall not return to its home vibratory nexus but, rather, shall continue in third density until graduation is achieved.

Therefore, we greatly encourage all wanderers to take up the burden of a dual existence, for that is precisely why you have put yourselves to this task. As difficult and disagreeable as it sometimes is to live with this double vibratory pattern, this difficulty is worthwhile and one hundred times worthwhile, for the basic vocation of every wanderer is to bear witness to the Light and the Love of the one infinite Creator. Therefore, the life may be seen to be full of everyday matters, yet offer ample time and space for the spiritual vocation to which wanderers have called themselves, that of bearing witness.

We would at this time ask for the first question.

Questioner: What is the meaning and purpose of reincarnation?

We are those of Q’uo, and, my brother, we are aware of your query. The concept of reincarnation has at its core the assumption that entities continue before, and after, and during each incarnative experience not as those bounded by time and space but as those bounded by eternity and infinity. These arrangements of densities and the repetitive lifetimes within those densities have been developed from creation to creation as each sub-logos, that being one of your suns, has taken the basic offering of the previous creation, those densities that have been developed so far, and offer in each case a slightly different way of approaching the matter of learning.

The reason for reincarnation is that previous octaves of creation gradually discover the need for periods of learning followed by periods of rest, recuperation, healing, and planning. The goal of the entity throughout all incarnations remains singular, that being the effort to more and more approximate the vibratory complex of Love itself, for each of you has within you that perfect and unconditional Love that created all that there is.

It is a matter of the untaught self being as the rock from which the elephant is carved. In each incarnation, the seeker chips away at that which is not an elephant. Imagine how many strokes of the tools of sculpting it takes to create—we correct this instrument—or, shall we say, recover the articulated statue. So, each of you gazes at the self before incarnation, riffles the pages of previous incarnative experiences and comes to conclusions concerning what facet of love, loving, and being loved needs the most study, for each entity is unique, each entity has its own path.

Thusly, each of you in the present incarnation has a plan, has made sure that there are ways for you to be presented with the circumstances in which you may choose to enlarge your ability to give and to receive unconditional love. There are many angles to coming to this realization of love itself, and so each of you will find at times that there are few to talk to about your particular task. Nevertheless, trust your inner guidance and the perseverance in following that guidance, for this is the precious opportunity. This is, as this instrument has said previously, the opportunity to offer love by faith alone, knowing nothing, sensing everything.

The more that you may find yourself able to release attachment to any outcome and dwell in love, the more you are able to cooperate with that destiny which you have set up for yourself. Mind you, we do not suggest that you can learn more by giving up more. We do not wish to suggest that you must go begging with a bowl in order to gain understanding. Rather, we simply suggest that each will have impulses and intuitions and feelings of rightness that are trustable, and so we encourage each to have faith in the destiny and in the self that can fulfill that destiny that has been set up. In every case, there shall be the confusion and suffering that comes because there is a forgetting of the scheme of Oneness and Love, a forgetting of true nature. As one takes on the curtain of flesh, one shuts out the knowledge of unconditional Love and Unity. Nevertheless, that Unity lies within you, so we encourage each to visit that heart within that is the sanctum within which your work may be done.

May we answer you further, my brother?

Questioner: Thank you for your response.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there another question at this time?

Questioner: I am curious as to why this group of people is assembled at this place at this time.

We are those of Q’uo, and grasp your query. Ah, my brother, what a delightful question! Why, indeed, is each of you here? What have you sacrificed? What have you done? What have you failed to do in order to be able to arrive at this remote and unlikely destination? Within each there is the knowledge; there is that recognition. Within each there is the ability to sense those meetings with entities with whom one has work to do in service to the light. Within each is the heart that responds to the benefits and the blessings of companions along the way. Upon each head rests a crown, and it has thorns. Upon each shoulder, there is a burden and a harness to pull that burden that is his, but, if each pulls together, the load is shared, and though the crowns may prick a bit, there is so much blessing in companionship that the duties and the labors of the light are glad and merry.

May we answer you further, my brother?

Questioner: if you wish. It was a very beautifully put answer. I do understand.

Q’uo: Very well, my brother. At this time, we would transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from August 3, 1997:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. We would ask if there would be another query at this time?

Questioner: Yes. Once we attain and realize our inner unconditional love, what then should we seek?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The great quest for this “pearl of great price” is that quest which, for most, encompasses the entire life, for to open the heart in unconditional love to those about one is a task difficult enough that it eludes and confuses most. For it is far, far too easy and tempting to take offense, to give offense, to be confused, and to move through the incarnation on unsteady metaphysical feet. However, when one has been privileged to taste that unconditional Love moving to and from one’s own heart, then the blessings of this experience tend to open for one the next step and the next and the next so that the opportunity to share this Love is ever present.

This Love has a power unto itself that is like no other. It draws to one who expresses it those experiences and those entities which are in need of the service of unconditional Love. Worry not, my brother, about what you shall do, for it is set before you, and it shall be yours.

Is there another query, my brother?

Questioner: That’s fine, thank you.

I am Q’uo. Again, we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Yeah, I’d like to know if there’s a relationship between what we call Spirit and what we call consciousness.

I am Q’uo. Indeed, my brother, there is a most close relationship between these concepts. Each entity here and all entities, indeed, are those portions of the one Creator that have been sent forth much like explorers, adventurers into the great unknown of creation to discover the relationship between the self and the creation and the Creator, to discover that these are all one. Each portion, then, has a need for the various vehicles and accoutrements of each density or level of the creation.

Within this third-density illusion, there is the necessity of the physical vehicle so that the Spirit that is whole and perfect within each may have a means by which to experience that which this illusion offers concomitant with this physical vehicle and preceding, and the Spirit is the consciousness, the identity of each entity. The Spirit, then, through the use of the mind, the consciousness, utilizes the physical vehicle and most particularly the energy centers or chakras of this physical vehicle which move upwards from the base to the crown located within the physical brain in order to form the incarnational patterns that each will travel in order to discover the Creator within and in order to give that Creator the experience of the self as a means for the Creator to know Itself.

Thus, the consciousness that each possesses is the dynamic rules by which each may co-create the illusion in which you move, that each may co-create the experience of giving and receiving love. These experiences are many, through many incarnations and many densities, for this creation is rich and varied and offers to each seeker the full reach of the one infinite Creator.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: So, is it that spirit and consciousness are one and the same thing, or are they closely related, or does one create the other, or what?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The spirit of each entity, the soul identity, if you will, is the core concept with which all begin. From this core concept, then, comes the creation of the consciousness that shall inhabit various physical vehicles, both the vehicles and the consciousness being the tools of the spirit or soul’s identity.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, you clarified it for me, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Who is Q’uo?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, and we congratulate you on being far quicker than either this instrument or the one known as Carla in asking this query, for those entities took a great deal of time before remembering that there is a meaning to this title, this name that we have chosen for their benefit. We are a principle that has been created to maintain a stepped-down contact between those of Ra and this group. The ones known as Latwii are also a portion of this principle and are also students of the ones known as Ra and offer to this group a means by which there is the possibility of communication upon the many concerns of the incarnational experience.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: The word, principle, is unclear. Could you attempt another description?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Those of Latwii, being also students of those of Ra, serve as an intermediary, shall we say, a kind of relay so that the entities known as Ra may blend their vibrations in some degree with those of Latwii and continue the communication through this group.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Then, who is Ra?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query. Those of Ra are the social memory complex or planetary consciousness of a group of entities formerly residing upon the planet known in your terminology as Venus who have for a great portion of the history of this planet attempted to teach the Law of One, of singularity, of unity to those upon this planet who have sought this information. There has been success in some cases and some lack of ability to communicate in others, yet they persist to serve the One in each.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Not at this time.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you.

Questioner: Thank you.

Q’uo: Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Yes, is our species from different planets? Is there an indigenous Earth species, and are there other species that in ancient times may have interbred with our species on Earth, and is mankind from diverse locations in the solar system or even farther?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The population of this planetary sphere is, indeed, from many places located throughout this galaxy. The planet itself has generated its own population as well from its own first and second-density vibratory complexes. The number of other sources is sixteen, as other third-density planets have reached the culmination of their seventy-five thousand year third-density cycles and found a portion of the population unpolarized and therefore unable to proceed to fourth density. Thus, these planets have contributed to the population needing further polarization to this planetary sphere, some entering sooner than others and, as you have mentioned, some experiencing the mating or interbreeding with what you would call extraterrestrial sources in order to work with the genetic make-up hoping to aid in the ability to polarize in either the positive or in the negative sense so that the evolutionary process for each may continue beyond this third-density illusion.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Well, just historically, are there any important points in history when these beings from other locations have intervened that we should perhaps investigate or be aware of?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query. We find this information is relatively harmless and unimportant, thus, we give it without recommendation that study is necessary. At the beginning of this seventy-five thousand year cycle there was the transfer by Confederation entities of the population of the planetary sphere known to you as Mars to this planetary sphere as it was beginning its third-density illusion. The entities upon the planet known to you as Mars had engaged in bellicose activities to the extent of rendering their planetary sphere inhospitable to third-density life-forms. In addition, there has been and continues to be a transfer of entities form the planet known by some within this solar system as Maldek to this third-density illusion in order that these entities, having destroyed their planetary sphere through warfare, might also begin a series of karmic restitutions and continue their evolutionary journey through the third density within this planetary sphere.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: That is wonderful. I thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Questioner: I have a question about the bellicose activities. Is there a purpose and a need for bellicose activities? Do the higher powers need a group of people to try to destroy the planet in order to enhance spiritual growth on the part of certain people, or is it a test of the human species to try to protect the planet against these bellicose-wanting people?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query. It is not so much that the bellicose activity is needed for spiritual advancement as it is the case that entities of higher densities need to be of service to those who follow them upon the great evolutionary journey in order to continue their own evolution, for the process of service to others for the positive polarity posits the need to be of such service in order to continue the process of polarization in consciousness and the evolution of the entity. The activity of the bellicose nature is that which proceeded within this solar system…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

Is there another query, my brother?

Questioner: If someone is a victim of bellicose activity, does that retard their spiritual growth?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We would look first at the term, “victim,” and suggest that each entity in every situation has chosen at some level of his being to participate in the experience whatever its nature, for all experience is of the one Creator, and all experience teaches some portion of love, light or power that is in relation to the one Creator.

The second point which we would investigate is the term, “retard.” We would suggest that some learn more than others, as in all studies and in all students. However, all shall learn the lessons of love, for there is as much time as is needed for each entity to proceed through this illusion at whatever pace is comfortable to that entity, for indeed each entity partakes within an infinite creation and will find those lessons most pertinent to it at its own pace.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Not at this time. I thank you very much for answering those questions.

I am Q’uo. We thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Is the Earth soon to birth into fourth density and the people upon it to ascend to fourth-density vibration state?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. This planetary sphere has entered the fourth-density vibration approximately fifty of your years ago and continues to move into this green-ray vibration at a steady rate. This planetary sphere is indeed to become the home planet to fourth-density positive entities within the near future with some aid from elsewhere.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: Are we soon to go into the photon belt [inaudible] to transition us to fifth density by 2012?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Though some students do indeed learn quickly, we find that it shall take a great span of time longer than the figure which you have named in order for this planet to enter into the fifth density of wisdom. Indeed, there is within this planet the fifth, the sixth, and the seventh densities in potentiation. However, the fourth density is one which spans a great portion of your time, and those lessons await the fourth-density population.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: Thank you, no.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: I have one. Is Ra in any way associated with ancestry of the people we know as Maya?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that those of Ra have had an influence upon these entities. It is one which is telepathic and information giving in nature, inspirational, shall we say.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Who is on the outer planets?

Q’uoI am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We are assuming that you are referring to the outer planets of this [inaudible] solar system.

Questioner: Correct.

Q’uo: And it is our view that there is a population of entities from elsewhere who are utilizing these planetary spheres as kind of bases, for at the present time there is no second or third-density population which inhabits these particular planets.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: I want to ask one question. Are there any techniques, physical or spiritual techniques, that we can use to help stimulate our awareness of reality and the truth and help us to grow in our quest toward the goal that we should be directed in and assurance of which way we should, what our ultimate goal of becoming loving beings is, things that we can use, tools that we can use to help ourselves?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We always recommend one great tool for each seeker of truth, for it has shown its value to us throughout our experience in the processing of experience and the learning of the ways of love and wisdom, and this tool is that of meditation. Retire within, my friends, to that quiet room in which you go to be in communion with the one Creator. Shut there the door and on a diurnal period each day retire there to listen with the heart, with the being to the voice of the One.

When you have found this peaceful place within your heart, look then to the daily round of activities which has preceded your meditative time. Look there to any injury, difficulty, joy, learning, inspiration and so forth that has left its mark upon your mind. Look to those difficult times, re-experience in there, see as much as you can how they came about, the part you played, how you could re-script that situation, how you might heal that which was injured, how you may unify that which was broken, how you may clarify that which was confused.

Resolve in this place and at that time to take whatever steps you can to do these things that will restore love to your heart and to the heart of any others about you. Make this a portion of your daily round of activities, for, during most of your days, you are active: you think, you do, you speak. There needs be a balance, a time during which all of this activity and the possibility of learning that depends therefrom needs be seated within your being that it might be used for further learning or growth into love and into the unity with those about you.

To meditate each day for a short period is a simple thing to do, yet it is a means by which you may reconnect yourself, your consciousness to the infinite Creator, to receive the eternal, life-giving waters that nourish one’s very soul. Look there, my brother, for love and share this love then with those about you.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: I do have one more question. I thank you for that wonderful answer. The other question I have is, are there beings out there that will try to take the place of the one true infinite Creator God and try to misrepresent the true God during these meditations, that we have to be aware of and watch out for?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, those entities who have chosen the service-to-self path as the means by which they shall move beyond the third-density illusion are entities which, by the nature of the path chosen, attain further progress upon this path by controlling the power of others.

This third-density sphere has a population that nears its graduation and which seeks in many, many ways to grasp the nature of this process. For those who have engaged themselves in the process of spiritual seeking in general and in the channeling or receiving of channeled information in particular, there must needs be taken those steps of engaging one’s discrimination in order to determine those who serve others and those who serve themselves, for those who are upon the negative path, the path which tends to absorb the light rather than radiate it to others, are most desirous of replacing the positive efforts of their brothers and sisters who serve the light.

Thus, we recommend to each the engaging of the discriminatory powers so that within your own being you search for that feeling of lightness or its lack when appraising any catalyst which comes your way. For those who serve as instruments or channels, it is most necessary to find a means whereby any entity wishing to channel information through it might be challenged in whatever concept the instrument would live and die for so that those who come to it and wish to speak through it might be filtered, and only those who serve others and radiate the light of the one Creator to all may be allowed voice through any instrument.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: You’re saying that when we meditate within ourselves in these quiet times that you spoke of before, that, if we can discern that the Spirit is right, we know that we’re talking to the correct person? Is that correct?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. There are two aspects of seeking with which you deal. The first is the seeking, within your meditative time, of the one Creator. These times are your sacred, spiritual journey and are far, far less likely to be encroached upon by those of negative polarity than those times during which an entity would seek to be an instrument and to channel from other entities information, inspiration and so forth.

When one seeks to be an instrument of that nature, it is most necessary to have a means of challenging spirits. For one who does not wish to serve in this capacity and merely wishes to seek within the meditative state, there is not the necessity for the challenge and for the protection as there is for an entity who does wish to serve as an instrument. For one who does not wish to be such an instrument, it is well, however, to engage the powers of discrimination so that when one hears information, reads information, speaks with other entities, that always the discrimination is used to determine that which is of value and that which is not to the entity’s own spiritual guidance.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: I think that answers my question. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time.

Questioner: I have a question I’d like to pose on behalf of a sister of mine who’s shy. Does there exist a spiritual form of virus which influences human behavior?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We would need more definition of that which you have described as a spiritual virus, for there are many interactions between the population of this planetary sphere and those from elsewhere of the negative polarity that could be described as a virus or means of infection.

Questioner: A virus in terms like a biological virus causes damage to our physical structure. This would be a virus that would cause damage to the spiritual structure.

I am Q’uo, and we feel that we more fully grasp your query and would respond by suggesting that, to our knowledge, there is not such a virus, for the spirit of each entity is whole and perfect and resides in complete unity with the one Creator at all times.

May we answer any further questions, my brother?

Questioner: Can you clarify your definition of the word “spirit”?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We call spirit that individuated portion of the one Creator that has chosen to take form within the physical universe in order to proceed upon the great evolutionary journey of seeking and knowing the one Creator.

May we speak further, my brother?

Questioner: Yes.

I am Q’uo. We do not mean to confuse. We meant to ask if you have a further query.

Questioner: No, not at this time. Thank you.

I am Q’uo. We thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: I have a question. What are the essential foods that are ideal for our bodies and then, in turn, our minds and spirits, and what effect does having artificial pesticides and other things in our foods have on our spiritual growth and our spiritual being, and is meat intended by the infinite Creator to be eaten by people?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. It is intended by the infinite Creator that each entity have—we correct this instrument—has an exercised free will. Thus, each entity is free to do as it will. As far as the foodstuffs which may be ingested to the benefit of the physical vehicle, we are aware that many within this circle of seeking are aware of those food stuffs. To be brief, we would suggest the virtue of the grains, the vegetables, the fruits, the, what we shall call, secondary animal products such as your milk, your cheese, and so forth, the preserved animal muscle itself, to be utilized upon one’s own discretion in the minimal quantities and of the highest level of quality, shall we say. The use of your chemical additives is that which is not recommended, for the intensity of their chemical nature often produces detrimental results upon various portions of your physical vehicle.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Yeah, and does that detrimental effect on our physical vehicle, in turn, affect our spiritual consciousness and awareness and our spiritual vehicle?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We find, rather, the cause and effect relationship to be reversed. That is, that the entity’s ability to express the nature of his spirit is that which determines the kind of foodstuffs that are utilized in this incarnation.

Is there a final query at this time?

Questioner: I understand, and I appreciate your answer, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you. Is there a final query?

Questioner: Third density has a seventy-five thousand-year cycle, approximately. What is the cycle in fourth density?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The third-density experience is by far the briefest experience in the evolution through the seven densities of this particular octave of experience. We speak of octaves with the understanding that the total unification of all portions of the one creation at the end of seventh density completes the octave. The fourth density experience is the second-shortest experience, being thirty million of your years.

At this time, we would once again wish to thank each entity present for allowing us to speak with you and to join you in your circle of seeking this [inaudible]. It is a great privilege for us to be able to do so, and we look forward, as you would say, to each opportunity.

We are those of Q’uo and hope that we have been able to be of some small service to each present. Again, we recommend that each take only those words and thoughts which ring of truth to you, leaving behind all others that we have spoken that do not ring of this truth. We are those of Q’uo and would at this time take our leave of this group and this instrument. We leave each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I discovered that the fountain on the fishpond was barely running, and there were about 300 gallons of water gone once again. So I filled the pond back up to its normal level and turned on the fountain. It shot the water out of the pond, so I removed one of the stones under the fountain, so the fountain had to go through a couple inches of water which kept the water in the pond. Hopefully, this will solve the problem, but only tim will tell. Then I came back inside and got all of the extra chairs set up in the living room for our public channeling meditation this afternoon. I also turned off the printer and house phone so that there would be no phone calls to interrupt the meditation.

This afternoon we had eight attendees and two channels, so there were about 14 questions asked on topics like dealing with low self-worth, conspiracy theories, and how to be of service without martyring one’s self. Everyone stayed for about an hour afterwards, and we had a lot of great conversations on a lot of different topics.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 12

The Response Of Worship

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

Worship, worship, worship! This word is important above all others to the pilgrim upon the path of Jesus the Christ. For there is no part in man of the Father if there is no appreciation and love of the greater Self within.

Worship and rejoice!

Worship and confess!

Worship and give praise and thanksgiving!

See the heart attempting to issue more and more refined and intensified emotion, and realize that each and every moment of each and every day holds the opportunity of seeing things in such a way as to provoke the response of worship. For all things are worshipful when done mindful of the Father.

Oh, desirous ones who doubt and seek, worship first and find security after the gamble has been taken. This is the way of the pilgrim.

We leave you in the peace and the love of Jesus the Christ, both now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 25, 1997:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which may yet be upon the minds of those present. Is there another query at this time?

B: Could you explain more about what healing really is?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, the area of healing is that area which encompasses the entire incarnation, for healing of any distortion is the balancing of that distortion in such a fashion that the particles of experience are made whole, that that which has been torn is brought together, and that which has caused injury is found to be a portion of the experience which has taught a lesson that has been planned by the entity itself, either before the incarnation or as a portion of the incarnation.

The apprehension of any experience, the perception of stimuli, are all means whereby the seeker interacts with its environment, with its larger self. Thus, as one perceives in such and such a fashion one prepares the self for experience, for the perception, the apprehension, the experience of an entity is a reflection of the lenses through which the entity sees. By being biased in one fashion or another, the entity in effect throws off a portion of the balanced self so that it spins or pulls the entity into a certain mode of receptivity. There is the phrase, “preconceived ideas,” that is applicable here. As one conceives a thing to be, so it becomes for that entity, and so that entity experiences that which it has conceived previously in a fashion which allows a kind of dance to occur. The entity focuses upon that which it perceives and moves with it in its experience until there is an harmonious blending of entity and experience which you would call healing.

Many times the dance between entity and experience—or to be more precise, between entity and catalyst—is what is often called a disease or a disharmonious experience, for the entity, or some portion of the entity, is thrown off its normal balance and forced by the imbalance to pay attention to the dance it is now engaged in. When this perception and this dance is accomplished mentally and emotionally then there is a reestablishing of the balance, of the harmony, of the seeker. When the perception is distorted enough—or perhaps we should say ignored enough—then it may be that catalyst is given by the mind to the body and physical ailments of one form or another ensue to further guarantee the capturing of the attention of the seeker. This kind of discomfort then focuses the attention of the seeker upon that catalyst that has not been well used. As catalyst is used and the dance is completed, then also is that which is called healing achieved.

Healing, then, is that balancing of distortions so that that which is perceived more closely approaches love, compassion, understanding, tolerance, and so forth rather than the distorted perceptions that come when love is not seen.

B asked Q’uo: “Could you explain more about what healing really is?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that healing was the balancing of distortions that have taught a lesson and have been planned before the incarnation, or which have occurred during the incarnation, so that the experience has been made whole by being balanced. Q’uo continued by saying that the perception of the experience of catalyst by the seeker was a means by which it may interact with the greater self, or the subconscious mind, so that it perceives the catalyst in a way which was “preconceived”, or biased, by the subconscious mind. Then Q’uo said that this perception becomes a kind of dance where the entity feels the balancing of its being and the catalyst of experience that allows healing to occur. Q’uo went on to say that this dance between the entity and its catalyst occurs when a disease is experienced that throws the entity off of its balance in order to cause it to pay attention to the disease, and when this done mentally and emotionally the balance can be restored, and healing is the result. But Q’uo also said that if the disease is ignored, then the disease is given to the body to capture the attention of the seeker so that the catalyst may be balanced, and healing is achieved. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that healing was the balanced use of catalyst so that the distorted image more closely approached the feeling of love, tolerance, and understanding. On November 26, 1991, Q’uo spoke of the value of love in the healing process:

For indeed, each entity upon your planet may be said to be seeking healing, for each is wounded by a perceived lack of love in some degree. And the healing process, in its most basic elements, is that process which introduces love into some portion of the entity’s personality where it has been lacking previously. Thus, as an entity seeks to construct a location that will facilitate the healing process, the entity is constructing a subconscious understanding of the environment of healing within the subconscious mind. There are certain relationships that are brought forth into the conscious mind and therefrom into the physical environment that will, by their placement, inspire this feeling of harmony, wholeness, health, and healing.

Is there a further query, my brother?

B: I am assuming that balance is achieved in relation to the self as well as the other self?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. This is most emphatically true, for all balance must begin with the self, with other selves simply playing a role for the portion of the self that needs balance.

Is there a further query, my brother?

B: What does the one who serves as healer actually do in the healing process?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The one serving as healer provides the opportunity for the one who has sought healing to open its centers of red and violet ray that hold in place the current level of awareness in its expression in the entity’s incarnation, so that that which has been held in place may for this moment be released, and if it be appropriate for the one to be healed then this entity at that time will release the old manner of being and will accept a new manner or attitude of being, this then being the healing process.

Is there a further query, my brother?

B: At the deeper levels is healing simply the realization of the perfection of the entity?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. This is indeed so, for each entity is a portion of the one Creator, whole and perfect, with the free will to choose the path of its seeking. The third-density portion of this experience, and, indeed, the higher densities as well to a lesser extent, is a process whereby an entity has forgotten a portion of its perfection, has forgotten its unity with all creation, has forgotten these foundation stones of being in order that it might provide the Creator with experience that will enable It to know Itself. Such experience cannot be gained when each portion of the Creator knows itself to be the Creator, whole and perfect. Thus, it is what you may call a great service and sacrifice for an entity to engage in the forgetting in order to voyage forth into the creation with the desire to serve the Creator.

Is there another query, my brother?

B: As you answer these questions I feel a tightening in my lower energy centers. Does this affect the contact in any way?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The impact is to intensify seeking, and thus aids in the overall experience of each in the circle of seeking. The manner and reasons for this action and occurrence within the energy centers described we must leave to your own discrimination.

Is there another query, my brother?

B: No. Thank you very much.

Q’uo: Is there another query at this time?

Carla: What is the best way of thinking about people’s emotional pain? I have trigger points in my body that are very painful, but it feels good to release it by pushing on it. Do people have such trigger points to release emotional pain? How to handle it?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The points of pain that trigger the emotional response are those areas that may be seen both physically and metaphysically as a knotting or tying into knots of portions of the physical and metaphysical vehicles so that when one is able to find such a point one may focus the attention upon the untying or releasing of pain.

In this experience lies an entire field of discovery, for each entity has woven into the life pattern a number of these points which may then lead to a greater and greater understanding of the nature of the entity, leading eventually to the fully experienced presence of the one infinite Creator, many steps along this path.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Do you have any suggestions how a listener like myself can support this process?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To listen with the compassionate ear, accepting that which is heard without judgment, is the most nurturing attitude that one may assume in such a relationship of entities. The answers to the puzzle, the untangling of the pain, is a process which can only be accomplished by an entity for itself in the ultimate sense. Other entities such as yourself may provide the listening ear, the compassionate heart, and occasionally the insight or wisdom to direct the entity where one’s intuition discerns that motion and movement may take place profitably, shall we say. It is the seeker itself that must engage the listener, that must engage the self, that must search relentlessly for the clues in this untangling process. It is this experience of untangling that which has been tied and fused together that provides the means whereby the entity will eventually find the Creator within, and the Creator within will come to know Itself more fully because of the experience of the seeker.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Just one more. You have talked about untangling, but you have not talked about cutting the knot out like a mother will often do with a child’s hair that is tangled beyond untangling. You can’t just cut it out, can you?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister, and would agree wholeheartedly, for each portion of the knot is a portion of the self and of the one Creator. If the surgery is attempted, another knot will grow.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you again, my sister.

[Tape ends.]

This morning I went outside to work on the fountain on the fishpond that I had gotten into such a perfect configuration yesterday, and then when I went out to feed the fish this morning the fountain was hardly running, and about 300 gallons of water was gone from the fountain. So, I filled the pond with water to about the correct level, and when I turned the fountain back on it was running the way that it should have been. So, the mystery remains. Then I went back inside and vacuumed the first floor of my home. A little later I went back outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the front yard into the area between the fishpond and the pet cemetery where I will mulch them with Venus this afternoon. Then I ran a couple of errands, and I stopped at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. I also went to Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for my self.

This afternoon I used Venus to crunch the leaves and turn them into mulch which I can use on my flower gardens next spring to help hold more moisture in the soil.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 11

Newness And Clarity

Greetings in the consciousness of the Love of Christ. We are the Spirit of that Love in the vibration which comforts this instrument.

We find this instrument’s vocal apparatus ready to serve and her desire strong. And we find one more element which improves this child’s opportunities for being of true service. That is that there is little preparation made beforehand as to what this moment of contact will bring.

It is an uncomfortable way to enter into acts of communication, and yet it bears the stamp of the consciousness of Christ. For the essence of Love is freedom. The less guessing that you offer about what shape the communication will take, the greater scope the mind has to accept information.

Seek, then, to put on the nakedness of no expectation, and remove from yourselves the clumsy, heavy shoes of fantasy and design and feel the burst of newness and clarity spring through into your conversations.

Peace be with you, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 25, 1997:

No group question. Potluck today.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as those of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are most happy to have been called to your circle this day, and have enjoyed your conversation. It is beautiful to us to see those of you who have sacrificed much to be within the circle of seeking move in ways small and larger to attempt to be of service to each other as each deals with the daily diet of catalyst that is the grist for the mill of seeking experience.

We have an almost giddy sense of “What shall we talk about first?” because of your broad range of topics and the possibilities of relationships between various portions of those things which are upon your minds at this time. And yet perhaps it is best to move back to a place within the mind, within the heart, within those halls of eternity where your citizenship truly exists, to sound once again the glad bell of Union and Love, for beneath all of the illusions that tease and delight and frustrate mind, all—with no exceptions—are deceiving, and beyond all of the illusion and chimera there lies the One, that Thought which is Love in its creative and fiery sense. Not the Love of mates or friends or family, not the affection, or the agape, or any of the myriad of words which exist in your language, but a Love that is beyond any word, a Love with the power to create and to destroy. It is this stuff that you are made of, this and none other. It is the mating of this thought of Love with Light that has builded the entire universe. It has made all of the interpenetrating illusions of inner planes and outer planes throughout the infinite creation. It is that Love of which each of you is made.

And if Love can be said to have the body then that body is that spark that is without weight, without form, but most specifically is within the heart of each, in its perfection, undistorted, undilute, a perfect spark of that Love which created and sent each forth to gather experience, to ripen, to become heavy with the fruit of learning and loving and being loved. How loved each of you is by this Love that made you and that awaits your return. Yet at the same time you are already home, for there is that spark of perfect Love within, for there is a secret tabernacle within each, that soul’s shrine wherein one may lay down the sorry candles, burned to guttering, of the day’s efforts, the day’s emptiness, and all the concerns within the sea of confusion within which your illusion dwells.

That shrine can be forgotten. That shrine can be closed and become dusty. One waits there whose Love is beyond all telling. This instrument would call this consciousness Jesus. However, the one known as Jesus would be happy for us to call this energy perfect Love. But this perfect Love is for you, unique to you, awaiting no one but you. Patiently. Silently. This energy, this essence of Love, waits for you to put your hand upon the door, to turn the knob, and walk through, from that outer heart that sees the light of day to the inner place that only you can go. There is nothing in this holy of holies except you and the Creator and the perfection of that shared vibration that is Love itself. Whatever trouble, whatever the illness of mind, emotion, body, or spirit, this Love wants to share, wants to embrace, desires nothing more than to tabernacle with you. There is no judgment there. There is no test to pass. There is only absolute Love.

When your center of self dwells within that shrine, the sea of confusion continues all about you and you swim, and do many things, and go many places, and see many people, and yet as long as there is that awareness of perfect Love you do not drown in the sea. You do not become lost of heart when relationships do not seem to be availing either with learning or with peace. We are aware that it would not be desirable in terms of incarnational learning for an entity to spend all of her time in that secret tabernacle, and we do not suggest that the life pattern be changed so that the indwelling Spirit may be beheld and enjoyed full time. We are aware that none of you wishes to come into incarnation and then dwell in the shadows of that incarnation. Rather, each has an urgent and profound feeling or sense of purpose. Each of you wishes to accomplish that true vocation that each feels within has been made or prepared for each. And we feel that this is a true and authentic sense or feeling, the feeling of having a purpose that is spiritual in nature.

No group question. Potluck today. Q’uo began speaking about the place within our minds and hearts where the true nature of our being exists beyond all illusion and falsity: the One great Thought of Love that has the power to create and to destroy. Then Q’uo said that when Love is mated with Light, It has created the entire universe, and It is the Love out of which each of us is made. Q’uo went on to say that this Love is within the heart of each of us, and It sent each of us on our spiritual journey to gain experience and learn how to love and be loved, and It awaits our return, but, paradoxically, we are already home because this Love is within us, and we can tabernacle with It in meditation in order to deal with our confusions within the illusion of the third density. Then Q’uo said that it was possible to forget that a shrine exists within us, but all the while the Love of the Creator is waiting for us to walk through the door of our heart into that sacred shrine within our heart where we can share our difficulties of mind, body, emotions, or spirit, and the Love of the Creator seeks only to tabernacle with us there without any judgement. Q’uo continued by saying that when we have spent time within this inner shrine, we may go out into the world around us, and as long as we keep an awareness of this perfect Love, we do not become discouraged when problems occur in relationships. Q’uo also said that they did not recommend that we spend all of our time within our inner shrine of Love because each of us has incarnated with a sense of purpose to travel our spiritual path in the outer world in a way that is unique to us. On September 17, 1989, Hatonn spoke of the value of having a sense of purpose:

My sister, there is, of course, a great ambiguity in the quality of Love and of space. However, they are not completely identical. Love is that peaceful, creative energy which accepts all as a portion of Its being. When one loves unconditionally one gives of the self, the acceptance of another, the complete embracing of that other of a portion of the self, this acceptance given without condition or expectation that the other shall be any form or manifestation other than that which is.

When one has faith in the other, one begins with an acceptance that is equal to Love, and extends that quality of Love as a kind of protective field, shall we say, that shields or protects one’s sense of purpose or rightness, in order that the sense of rightness within the pattern might firm that pattern or attitude of mind in a way that is likened to the construction of a firm foundation for a building. But when one’s heart chakra has been opened enough to allow the movement of this creative energy called Love through it, and one has experienced this quality moving from the self to another in a service dependable manner over a period of time, then it is possible to feel the extension of this quality into that quality known as faith.

The faith that is all is indeed well, for all is made of Love. These are poor words for the great concept of which we speak, and we offer our apologies for our inability to describe in greater clarity the concept.

When the soul awakens to its spiritual identity concomitant with the gladness of knowing who one is, comes the honor and responsibility involved in the feeling that there is work to do, and for each entity that work has been prepared in the sense that each seeker has gifts and talents for which there is a use. We encourage each to flow with those talents, to support the self in using those gifts that have been brought into incarnation, that have been carefully chosen by each for the outer service, for the actions and accomplishment that each may choose to offer.

However, far more important than these outer ministries or ways of being of service there is, as each is aware, the true and central service of each which is to be the self, to be that self that rings the truest and the deepest. Simple to say; difficult to do, to truly be one’s self. For how can one connect with the self? Is it not more often gotten through the echo gotten back from others that each sees the self most accurately? How can one be and know that that is the best being? The values of your peoples’ culture make it very odd to be thinking of how to be, for your people value fruits. The one known as Jim was saying, “I like to get things done.” And all could identify completely with this sentiment.

You are in an illusion full of things, and you want to see things accomplished. You want to see where you have been, yet in terms of being you cannot see where you are, or where you have been, or where you are going, for the value of being is in its unforced spontaneity. What evolves for the seeker, then, is the challenge of learning how to take away from the self extraneous material and enlarge that freedom of movement of the spirit vibrating without thought, for there is a native vibration that is as the signature of each entity. We know each spirit within this circle not by the name but by the music that each heart is singing, that complex of tones and harmonies that is each person, each spark, and each is uniquely lovely. There is no repetition. There is no possibility of boredom, listening, and joining in with the songs of each person and each two people in relationship, and then each within the group creating that song of the group.

Beyond the illusion, beyond the extraneous material there lies the music that is within each that must sing, and will sing, and does sing. The one known as B was saying that the word “allow” was very helpful to him, and we offer this word again, for each is already singing a perfect song, but this is a silent and hidden part of self, and it must be allowed the room, the space, and the attention of silence. It is for this reason that we often remind each of the benefits of a regular, daily period of silence. Certainly, as we hear through this instrument’s ears, between the snores of her pussycat and the calls of the ravens, the silence within may not be literally silent. However, the point is to attempt at any rate the disengaging of the mind from the gears that work continually and churn out so much to consider.

It is not even important that that babble of self be stopped. What is important is that the effort be made to disregard it and to tabernacle with the infinite One and to listen, to simply listen to that silence within and then to hear the door open, and at once to feel the bliss of that presence that awaits.

Now Q’uo said that when we awaken to our spiritual identity that there is an honor and a duty to use those talents that we chose before the incarnation to do the outer work of serving others, but then they said that it was more important for the self to do the work that is of a truer and deeper nature and which reflects the heart of one’s being. Q’uo said that this was done by removing unnecessary material from our being that will allow our spirit to vibrate without thought, for we have a native vibration that is our signature. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that they could distinguish each person in this group by the unique music that each person’s heart was singing, and that as each joined in singing with each other that there was a silent and hidden part of each person that was discovered which needed the room and intention of using silence as a part of a daily meditation; to disengage the workings of the mind; to tabernacle with the infinite Creator; and to feel the blessing of Its presence. On October 21, 2017, Q’uo spoke of the value of feeling the presence of the Creator:

We, of the Confederation of Planets of the One Infinite Creator, serving that One Creator for all of our being, and all of our time, as you would call it, have always suggested that meditation is the path to the One Creator within. This is the means by which each seeker of truth can access some portion of that One Creator, whether it be to feel some of the presence of the Creator, to feel the grace of the Creator and to live by that grace, to feel the Love of the Creator and to share that Love with all about one, including oneself, to feel the Light of the Creator, the Power that has made all that is made, to feel the Unity of the One Creator, so that the self is seen as the One Creator, for indeed, you are here to be the One Creator to those around you, as they are here to be the One Creator to you. There is not only Love in every moment, as has been previously said, there is the One Creator in every moment and in everything, for there is nothing but the One Creator in all of the one creation.

We have come to a place where we feel it would be helpful for questions to be asked. And at this time would transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, thanking this instrument and leaving it in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I began to water various flower gardens around the yard since it has been over a week since we have gotten any rain.

This afternoon I went outside and pumped one quarter of the water out of the fishpond, cleaned the filters, and then refilled the pond with fresh water. Then I went upstairs and recorded the Preface to Living the Law of One 102: The Outer Work.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 10

See Love Within The Self

I am of the principle of the Love of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

We ask you to use the eyes of Love to look upon yourself at this time. See the principle of Love which sustains the physical body with the breathing, the movement of the blood which gives life to the body, the movement of your digestive processes which offers to the body nutriment, those cleansing and purifying forces of body which carefully remove those things harmful to the body and eliminate them.

Know and feel that the Spirit of the living Christ dwells in this good body, this healthful, lively clothing of flesh.

Gaze at the inward thoughts and shed upon them the light of living Love. Praise those tendencies within the self which tend toward the Love of Christ and its reflection within the thoughts of each and every moment. Come into a state of Love with the self, acceptance and praise of the self, knowing that the Creator moves through each part of the body, every portion of the mind.

Then, and only then, armed with a Love of self in Christ, gaze outward and see Christ in every body, every mind, and every yearning soul. It is your choice to love and invite, with every portion of will, the viewpoint of love towards self and all.

We are with you in peace, both now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 18, 1997:

Could you tell us about The Choice, how much we make consciously and how much subconsciously, what we discover as we go through our lives as we consider being of service to others. What about giving over one’s identity in serving another in what are called co-dependent relationships? How does that differ from true service? What really are we doing when we make any choice?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet each of you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator whom we serve. We bless and thank each for making the choice to be a part of this circle of seeking and for inviting us to share with you our humble opinions. We are most happy to share with you. It is for this reason that we are within your inner planes at this time. It is of great service to us to be allowed to speak through this and other instruments, for this is our means of being of service at this time, and you make this service possible. Thus, you teach us much more than we you. As always, we ask one thing of you and that is that you discriminate carefully in listening to us and any who would seek to offer their views and thoughts, for each entity is the guardian and keeper of its own heart and soul, and each has within that ability to discriminate, that ability to recognize personal truth. If we are fortunate enough to offer a thought which is a resource or a tool, we are happy, but if we do not, we are just as happy if you will put our thoughts down and move on, for truly we wish for each to find his and her own way, as each is as unique as a snowflake, and as crystalline, and as delicate.

This day you wish to consider that choice that is the hallmark of the third-density world which you now enjoy. And certainly, the density is one of endless choice, but let us look first at the first choice, and that was the choice of the Creator to know Itself. In choosing to know Itself the Creator flung from Itself innumerable and infinite sparks of Love which coalesced into each awareness that dwells within the infinite awareness. Each of those sparks of awareness is the Creator, and yet, because the Creator chose free will in the manifesting of sparks of self, each spark is unique and has been unique since before time began. Each of you is eternal and in many ways immutable, a citizen of infinite nature, worth and value. Each one a holograph of the Creator and yet each one different.

Thus, the choice that birthed each of you was a choice to know the truth, to know the self, and as the Creator is Love, so is each entity Love. This is the central truth. This is that which does not change. Yet this is that which is ever wrapped in mystery. Each within this circle has come through many planes of existence, has learned a great deal, and each within this circle chose not only this incarnation now being experienced but also that cast of characters with whom each entity interacts in the family, in the close associations of friends, and all those who have significant connections with the self. There were agreements made before incarnation, most notably with the parents and those within the bonds of kinship of blood and of commonality of interest. Each difficulty, each crux that leaves one in a position of being forced to discover the self has been placed not with a hand that desires to punish but with a hand of loving self that wishes to serve ever more deeply, ever more purely.

Before incarnation it appeared to each of you that remembering who you were and why you came would be possible, indeed, might be easy. Such is the attitude of those who gaze upon a thing from the outside. With the first breath taken as an infant newborn into a strange world the veil of forgetting who you are, where you are going, dropped. And the illusion, an excellent illusion, became that which was real. And yet within each of you there was that awareness that this was not quite as it should be, that this culture, this way of being, and relating, and living was significantly different and substantially less harmonious than each somehow remembered deep within the self. And so was born a divine discontent within each breast, a restlessness with the surface illusion, a desire to penetrate that veil of forgetting and come to an honest and authentic realization of who each entity is. And where each is going. And why.

There is a hunger that overtakes the spirit when it has recovered a sufficient amount of that memory that cannot quite be veiled. And so, each that hears these words has already made difficult choices, sacrificial choices that enable the seeking process to gain momentum and to become more valued within the life pattern. We are aware that each is quite familiar with the choice of service to self or service to others that is the foundation choice of this particular density. In addition to this choice of service there is a component which has to do with the purity or extremity of service. We have often called this aspect of the choice polarity, for something can be chosen with a wide range of urgency, a wide spectrum of intensity of desire. There has been the puzzlement expressed in the conversation preceding our remarks concerning how one can truly be of service. The paradox is that when one is of service to others one is automatically serving the self, for that which is offered is returned a hundredfold. It seems clear that each other person is also the self, is also the Creator, and so serving others is serving self. Further, before one can be free to serve another, one must come into relationship with the self, and the process of arriving at a love and acceptance of the self may seem very selfish and egotistical.

The hallmark of spiritual issues is paradox. The answers trail off into mystery without exception. Thusly, we cannot define for you or make absolutely clear to you with any words, no matter how lucid, the whole and complete nature of choice. However, we would speak to you of the will, for this aspect of self is heavily involved in work upon the self, especially that work upon self which would best be described as indigo ray, for there is work upon the self at each level or each energy center of the being. It is appropriate and important to work at each energy level, to work with issues of survival, of relationship, of groups, to work at opening the heart, to work at open communication, and to do this work one must use the will. Yet it remains the greatest challenge of this particular illusion to find the right use of will.

In what is willed and what is desired lies the teaching, the learning, the confusion, the difficulties, all of that which comes forth from that desire or from that use of will. For the polarity which is service to self, the use of the will is never in question, for the will is that which takes charge. Whatever is decided to be desired is simply willed and the negatively-oriented entity has full sway in determining that which will come to him. To such an entity the will is sent to grasp and take. In many ways, although this sounds like plunder, service-to-self’s use of will can be uncannily hidden, and it is not at all obvious to the service-to-others polarity when something is appropriate to desire and when it is not. All things that come into the sensing apparatus seem natural and it is only by extensive repetition that the entity begins to form a structure of priorities which listen to the incoming data and chose what to pay attention to.

This instrument, for instance, is notorious for not knowing where she is, but this is not because this instrument is not paying attention. It is simply that this instrument has chosen to prioritize some of the deeper levels of incoming data so that that which is occurring upon the surface is often left far behind by this instrument as it desires to penetrate to the heart of catalyst. This has been a progression spanning this instrument’s incarnation which is well over half the century that the one known as Jim is now rejoicing at achieving. Each of you has done to some extent—some greater, some lesser—conscious work in disciplining the awareness so that the incoming data will make not only some sense but more and more a particular kind of sense.

In the parables of the one known as Jesus this entity frequently said at the end of a story, “Let him who has ears to hear, hear.” And this is the quest of each seeker, to develop ears that hear ever more accurately the song of Love that rushes through each moment of experience. Third density, your Earth plane, is a world of great solitude and sorrow, with each entity shut up from each other entity in ways that do not occur before this density or after it. This is a density of metaphysical darkness lit only by that pale moon of hope and faith. And yet in this dim light there lies a depth of truth that shall never be touched again, for only in this density has the Creator given Itself the luxury of not knowing. Thusly, as each experiences himself, the Creator experiences Itself in an unspoiled and untouched way, totally spontaneous and totally free, and if that entity that is you finds that heart of Love that is the deepest truth, that finding is completely real for it is not at the surface of things that this truth is obvious. It is not obvious that all is one. It is not clear at all that each entity is a creature and a child of Love. Indeed, it is only by blind faith that we can begin to apprehend that which we do not know, and yet that which we do know Love itself.

The question for this session was: “Could you tell us about The Choice, how much we make consciously and how much subconsciously, what we discover as we go through our lives as we consider being of service to others. What about giving over one’s identity in serving another in what are called co-dependent relationships? How does that differ from true service? What really are we doing when we make any choice?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that the third density is the density of choice, but the first choice that was made was the Creator making the choice to know Itself by creating an infinity of beings out of the power of Love so that each entity is a unique and eternal manifestation of the Creator. Q’uo continued by saying that: the choice that birthed each of you was a choice to know the truth, to know the self, and as the Creator is Love, so is each entity Love. This is the central truth. This is that which does not change. Yet this is that which is ever wrapped in mystery.” Then Q’uo said that in many incarnations we have made pre-incarnative plans with our family and friends to help each other learn our lessons of love which could be accomplished sometimes by needing to process difficult catalyst. They went on to say that before we incarnated this looked like it might be easy to accomplish, but the veil of forgetting works very well to shield our pre-incarnative choices from us so that there is an inner feeling of discontent within our being to know more of the truth of the nature of reality, who we are, and where we are going. Q’uo continued by saying that when we awaken to our spiritual path that there is a hunger within us to know how to make choices that will allow us to become more of service to others, but, paradoxically, serving others seems to benefit our self in gaining more positive polarity because the service returns to us is greatly enhanced. They also said that since each person is the Creator each service to another person also serves the self, and before anyone can serve another it must love and accept itself which sounds egotistical, but then they said that there were really no words to describe how these choices of service to others worked. So Q’uo decided to approach this situation from the perspective of the right use of the will which would require work within each of the energy centers, especially the indigo energy center. They went on to say that what is desired or willed determines the learning and the confusion which comes forth from that use of the will, and this is not difficult for the negative polarity because it uses its will to control all things, but for the positive entity it is not easy to know when certain desires or choices are appropriate, and it is only after a number of repetitions of certain types of choices can the positive entity feel it is making the right choices. Then Q’uo said that it was important to give more priority to the data that is coming into the deeper mind in order to hear the song of Love that is available in each moment of experience. Q’uo said that third density is full of solitude and sorrow because of the spiritual darkness created by the veil of forgetting, and only faith and hope can shine a small light within us so that as we experience our self the Creator also experiences Itself, so if we can exercise blind faith and look deep within our self we can find that all are the Creator, and we do know Love itself. On May 27, 1990, Latwii spoke of the value of faith and hope:

We shall not, this evening, attempt inspiration, for each entity is aware that first the great power of the self that lies beyond abandonment, unworthiness, and loneliness is that mystery of self which does not reveal itself except in darkest shadow. You are creatures starving, and you have only faith and hope, because you see that there is Light, and there is Love, and no one can deny either, and you see yourself as one whose quest for the truth cannot be denied. Does this then ally you with infinite and imperishable things? The intuitive answer is, “Yes,” and this is the rock-bottom of despair, the thirst and blankness and emptiness of the desert, the time of no hope, except that there is always hope, because you cannot help but ask, “Why?” and seek “Why?” yet find the infinite values in substance to remain. Who among you or we can expect to remain in hopeful, cheerful, and joyful conditions always? This we do not promise you, but rather promise you despair, darkness, loneliness, and hopelessness. But never is that condition complete, because of that within you which hopes and lives by faith. “If you go to Sheol, I AM there. There is nowhere you can go that I AM not present,” declares Love.

So, when the seeker comes to those moments of startling lucidity, when that knowing which is beyond unknowing lights the sky of consciousness with that fullness of light which is true self-knowledge, there is a degree of joy that cannot be attained by those who already know the score. Around this habitation we are able to see each flower, and plant, and tree moving rhythmically in the joy of perfect knowledge. The second-density world embraces itself without self-knowledge but with full knowledge of Love. There is no doubt. There is no argument. There is no confusion in the growing of seed into bud and bud into flower, in the dying down of that which is born and in the rising again from seed. All is felt in that cyclic rhythm that is perfect, and all harmonizes, each serving each in infinite detail.

Beyond this density, the choice having been made how to serve, the veil is again lifted, and each is again aware—in the way that each of you is aware of the shape of this house and the color of the paint upon the walls—that all are one. Each knows the thoughts of the other and sees the complete commonality between that and the thoughts of the self. Yes, there is a great deal more to do beyond third density, but it is finicky work, careful, time-consuming, tedious even compared to the adventure that you now are embarked upon, who live and breathe the air of the Earth world. This is then, in a real sense, your moment of glory.

And so, what is the choice, precisely? Although we cannot speak precisely, although the choice is always veiled in mystery, we would point in the direction of the will which is as the verb in a sentence in which the nouns are made of faith, hope, love, and charity. What is the right use of will? The one known as Jesus spoke very clearly when it said, “Not my will but Thine.” For you see, the choice truly is to surrender. The choice of the Fool is to leap into mid-air, knowing absolutely nothing about what lies at the bottom of the chasm of unknowing. One chooses either to have complete faith and thus to remain calm in the midst of this sea of confusion which is the Earth world. This is not an obviously good choice. The choice to believe blindly seems quite foolish and may we say that it is foolish. Upon the surface of events such a choice as pure faith shall only rarely be obviously validated by experience and yet the energy that is released when a seeker chooses to live by faith is tremendous. It certainly flies in the face of logic. Logic dictates that one maintain control in order to better serve.

And yet the way of logic is the way of death, for service is a living and vital thing. It blows as does the wind, and to be of service to another is an art. The beginning of this art is the refraining from using the will in eagerness to serve. As you attempt to serve others, always ask the self, as this instrument said earlier to the one known as B, “What is being asked of you?” For it is in response to what is asked that one may serve another. And upon a deeper level, as events impinge upon you, a good question to ask as a touchstone is, “What does the Creator ask of you?” The answer to this can be known only from the heart, only from the intuition, for what the Creator asks is often illogical, often puzzling, even though one feels to do or not to do something. One cannot precisely explain why. But when there is a strong intuition, we recommend and encourage the will to follow that intuition.

Now, we do not suggest that you give up desiring. Indeed, we would encourage you to hone your will, to sharpen your desire, but let that will and that desire be to know the infinite One. For the basic choice of one who is, shall we say, trapped in time is how to meet each moment of that time. Do you meet this moment with your heart open and with your spirit at peace? If you cannot say that you do, then there is introspection, thinking, ruminating, meditating that might aid in achieving your clarity. There is a great art to nurturing that self which has so much within it, but which needs the kindness, the acceptance, the awareness of a supportive self.

We leave you, as far as this first question is concerned, in mid-air. This is not the density of firm ground. Truly, when at last you do not mind free-falling you shall have arrived at a reasonably comfortable metaphysical stance from which to gain a somewhat more accurate view of the rhythmic beating of destiny. Blown by the winds of free will, that destiny has a surety, a sure-footedness that cannot be moved by decisions that turn you from one direction to another. You cannot go away from the right path, for those lessons that you came to explore, those lessons of how to love and how to allow being loved, are fluid and living and they can move with you wherever you go. So, in the sense of making tragic errors, we ask you to be fearless. You cannot make a mistake, metaphysically speaking, for your lesson and your destiny shall follow you wherever you are moved to go. Yet to cooperate with that defined destiny is often to allow the little world to die away that the greater Self and the greater Will might be presented more clearly.

Now Q’uo said that when the seeker experiences those moments of clarity of the knowing–of that which is beyond the unknowing, lights the inner sky with the true self-knowledge–this creates a joy within that cannot be experienced by those who are already living this truth such as the second-density plants that have no self-knowledge but have no doubt about the full knowledge of Love. Q’uo went on to say that in the higher densities the choice has been made and each can communicate telepathically, but there is still work to be done on refining the choice, so Q’uo said that our third density experience is a great adventure and a moment of glory. Q’uo continued by saying that the choice in third density is to release one’s own will; to become the Fool; and to use faith to leap into mid-air in order and remain calm in this sea of confusion. They said that living as the Fool releases a great deal of energy and flies in the face of logic which requires that control always be maintained in order to serve better. Then Q’uo said that using logic to determine how to serve is the way of death because service is an art, and in order to be of the most service we must release our will and ask, “What service the Creator is asking of us?” And the answer can only be known from the intuition of our heart because sometimes what the Creator asks of us is illogical, but we should use our will to do the will of the Creator. Q’uo suggested that we increase our desire to know the infinite Creator because our basic choice is to meet each moment with the heart open and our spirit at peace, and if we cannot do that, we should meditate on why we can’t do that because we need to be supportive of our self. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that as time goes on we will become aware of the sure-footed nature of our destiny so that as we make choices there will be no way to make a mistake because our lessons of learning how to love and be loved are fluid and will follow us wherever we go, but it would be helpful if we let the world around us die away so that our greater Will and greater Self might be perceived more clearly. On March 12, 1995, Q’uo spoke of the value of contacting the greater Self:

The one known as Jesus the Christ is an example of one who has been true to the greater Self from which each springs to the degree that the words which this entity spoke were the ideal which was realized in this entity’s life pattern. This entity set the goal, shall we say, in such clear statements as many others like this entity have done as well. For those who value such entities and their words and lives these goals become as the beacon which guides the journey. However, there may be many missteps upon the journey before the goal is achieved. This is the stuff of your illusion and the grist for your mill, shall we say.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, thanking this instrument for its service and leaving it in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time ,it is our privilege to ask if we might speak to any further queries which remain upon the minds of those present. Is there another query at this time?

B: I just want to express my gratitude for your speaking to us at these meetings.

I am Q’uo, and, my brother, we share your sentiments, for it is in these joining together of vibrations in these circles of workings that we are able to not only be of service to you but are able to experience much of what you experience as you query us concerning your life patterns. We are most grateful to each for these opportunities.

Is there another query?

Carla: When Abigail hollers like that is she talking to you and responding to your vibrations?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We are aware of the entity known as Abigail, and that this entity is, indeed, able to perceive our vibrations. In many cases this small entity finds our vibrations somewhat jarring, and, indeed, as the contact was transferred to this instrument the one known as Abigail vacated the lap of this entity in this working. The one known as Abigail was also responding vocally to the other second-density creatures feeding outside the window.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No.

Q’uo: We thank you. Is there another query at this time?

B: Is it in the application of the will towards the deeper desires that brings the lessons to an entity so that they might hone the application of the will and desire?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We would substitute for the word, “application,” the word, “surrender” of the will. As the entity moves further along its path of seeking, the ability to fall freely through the experience is an ability which opens the entity’s inner resources and channel, shall we say, to such an extent that the pre-incarnative choices are more easily accepted and danced with. The attempt to apply will and through discernment plot a practical and wise course is in itself useful more for the direction of intention and the cultivation of one’s motivation than for the actual plotting of the course.

Is there another query, my brother?

B: [In general, the query concerns just surrendering the will and going along for the ride.] Is this correct?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query. In general, we would agree with your summation, but would also emphasize the importance of the means of surrender—that the entity seek within the meditative, prayerful, and contemplative state to open the self to such a degree that the one Creator moves through the being; that the entity surrender to the Creator, rather than to circumstances or to other entities.

Is there a further query, my brother?

B: I am still confused by “application of will” and “surrender of will.” Could you elucidate?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. One applies the will well when one is able to look at the experience about one, to ascertain the choices available, the opportunities presenting themselves, and much as one feeds this information into a computer and lets the work of the mind take place, then it is the balancing operation to seek in meditation the voice of the greater will. There one surrenders preconceived ideas about how the experience should be and the entity should partake. There this surrender opens the self to greater possibilities, to the greater will, to the higher self, to the one Creator, and when this has been felt at the heart of one’s being, whether the choice be yes or no, to follow that choice though it may present difficulties to the mind and preconceived notions.

Is there a further query?

B: When a seeker chooses to seek the Creator are the difficulties that arise from that choice like initiatory experiences, the letting go of preconceived ideas?

I am Q’uo. Again, in general, this is correct, for the perceived difficulties of the nature of the experience in its entirety is the meeting of the incarnational self with destiny, and various notes in this musical score that we are calling destiny may seem discordant, disharmonious, and out of place, yet when examined carefully and taken within the being as a portion of the self there can be harmony achieved and the great score of the pre-incarnative composer may then be completed.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S: Sometimes one has traveled a goodly distance down a certain path before one realizes that it is not the path one wishes to travel, but one has invested a certain amount of emotional energy in that path. Can you describe the need one feels to continue down the path because of this emotional investment?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The path is the path for each whether every portion is recognized or appreciated. Many times the need to change a course is more the need to clarify the present moment. Each entity will move itself upon its path in a manner which is most comfortable to that entity in the metaphysical sense, for much in the physical illusion will seem to be greatly discordant and very uncomfortable.

It is well for each to remember that no seeker travels alone, though each may feel great loneliness. It is well to remember that unseen hands—teachers, friends and companions from before time—move with each entity and offer guidance and counsel whenever sought by the seeker. It is well again for each seeker to remember that the course being traveled was chosen, that this is not the density of understanding. It is the density where little is understood, yet within this environment and these circumstances it is possible to so strengthen the will and the faith that the experience gathered is vivid and unique, pure and of great variety that would not be possible were there great understanding here. Thus, this is the treasure of this illusion. The constant need to understand what cannot be understood builds great strength of faith and will.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

R: It is very comforting to know that you are our friends.

I am Q’uo, and we indeed are your friends. We walk with you upon your journey. We consider it a great honor to do so at your invitation.

Is there a further query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and as it appears for the nonce we have exhausted the queries once again, we would once again thank each present for inviting us to join you this day. It has been a great honor to do so. We would remind each that our words are but guides and possibilities. Take those that ring true to you and leave behind those that do not. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group at this time. We leave each in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I made an errand run to Walmart to buy a staple gun and some staples. Then I stopped by Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. When I got home, I used my vacuum cleaner to clean up the mess that was left when Austin’s cat Sassy got shut in the new recording studio, and Austin had to tear away some of the blankets where she was hiding so he could take her home. Then I used the staple gun to replace the blankets in their proper locations. Later in the morning I went down to Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up a prescription and get a flu shot.

This afternoon I took Boscoe to the vet to have the vet remove the glucose monitor from his back and to look at where he has been scratching his fur away under both of his ears and causing bleeding. I also picked up some meds for him while I was there.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 9

Rest In That Peace

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of unconditional Love.

To this instrument comes Light. To each comes Light. To each also comes the appearance of darkness, shadow and penumbra.

Jesus the Christ promised that we who comfort would be with each seeker until the end of the age. His promise is being kept most devotedly, most persistently, and most joyfully. The waves of consciousness are moved by tides through which it is not necessary to move if there be that self within which may say, “Peace, be still.”

Allow the morning light to be a symbol to you of the hope and the faith that calms the sea of reaction, distortion and upset. In an ultimate sense, all is well, and all will be well.

Rest in that peace and allow the waters to move as they will, teaching, with every tide, one more lesson in Love.

We are always with you. We who comfort hold you always in our arms. Become aware of us but know that we shall not change for you the tide, but only comfort you as you make your progress upon the sea of consciousness.

We leave you in the peace and Love of Jesus the Christ, both now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 26, 1997:

The question this evening has to do with a phrase from the Ra contact which said that the price of each action of a positively oriented nature was in direct proportion to the purity of the action; and we would like some information upon this price that we seem to pay with each desire we have to be of service. And the situation that it puts us within presents us with challenges, difficulties, confusions and so forth, and these seem to be part of this price. We would like to have any information that you could give us as to the price that we pay, how we pay the price and what it is that we’ve bought with this price.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. We greet you with the light, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator in Whose name we come to serve. It is such a pleasure and a privilege to spend this time with you, to enjoy the blending of your vibrations and the beauty that lies about your domicile, and we thank you from the bottom of our collective hearts for this privilege. It is a true service to us, for it allows us to be of service as we hope to, and this is a precious thing to us. So, we thank this instrument and, indeed, all of those who comprise this circle of seeking, for as we have said before, each of you has made sacrifices in order to be sitting in this circle at this time. And as this is your requested topic of the evening, we shall share some of our thoughts, always with the understanding that each of you shall exercise your full discriminatory dominion over your own truth and your own way, for within your heart lies that awareness that is absolute of that which is yours, and when those gems of truth come to you, you shall hear them or see them and recognize them as if remembering them. If truth does not fall upon your mind in a grateful way, allow it to pass, and do not be concerned that there might be a point that you have missed, because each seeker has those triggers for transformation that are subjective and unique to that one seeker. And so, each will react in a way unlike any other. We may say the same thing any number of times, and each time there is a novelty in the approach that cannot be gotten at in any of the preceding ways of stating that simple truth which, in fact, we do come to offer; and that is that all that there is, is Love. And all that is manifest is Love, quantized and rotated and turned into Light.

Each of you is as a starry messenger that has become tangled in flesh. There is that portion of yourself that is eternal and infinite. That eternal and infinite being is steeped in unknowing—truly a mystery of mysteries. Each entity is as deep a mystery as the mystery of the Creator, for each, truly, is one face of the Creator. And in each manifested illusion, each entity is the face of the Creator, and each face shall be unique. But to all these sparks of Love sent forth upon the winds of free will there is given the knowledge of home and the desire to be moving in the direction that home lies.

In the portion of the spirit’s journey through the present octave that is third density, the crux or focus of the learning that is offered in third density is The Choice. This archetype of The Choice was referred to by the one known as (name). This archetypical image is of a young man stepping off into thin air—no suggestion of a bridge, no suggestion of another shore, but simply the walking off of a cliff in perfect faith. As each entity awakens to her spiritual identity, that which has awakened is in part that Fool, and that which lies before that entity is a step into midair. And once that step has been made, and the air has seemed to solidify about the new vantage point, a cliff will appear once more and the Fool must needs step over that one as well, and the next, and the next. And each time that this occurs, that seeker, that Fool, has recomprised the choice.

To define this choice is a deceptively simple thing, for The Choice is that either/or of morality and ethics that seems straightforward. We have called it service to self as opposed to service to others, negative as opposed to positive, following the way of attraction and control over others as opposed to following the way of radiation and the releasing to all others of that which flows through. The creation of third density gives evidence, again and again, and again as one observes the natural world about one, that this is a world of duality: of light and dark, heat and cold, and so forth. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually… repeatedly the nature of this experience of incarnation causes entities to see their dilemmas in terms of clear-cut choices. When things do not seem so clear, and the choice likewise is unclear, the person tuned to hear the ethical either/or is in a quandary, and often in the midst of change, a seeker shall have to simply wait with patience that is difficult to come by, simply wait until all the ripples have quieted, and the horizon can once again be seen. And in those times, there is no choice except the choice to trust. To trust in what—this is a subjective thing. But to trust, certainly this is the recommended action. For indeed, to deal with concern by moving the mind in ceaseless circles is a wearying thing. Trusting, upon the other hand, is a release that can be seen to be helpful.

The question this evening has to do with a phrase from the Ra contact which said that the price of each action of a positively oriented nature was in direct proportion to the purity of the action; and we would like some information upon this price that we seem to pay with each desire we have to be of service. And the situation that it puts us within presents us with challenges, difficulties, confusions, and so forth, and these seem to be part of this price. We would like to have any information that you could give us as to the price that we pay, how we pay the price and what it is that we’ve bought with this price. Q’uo began by saying that each of us is an unique, infinite, and eternal part of the mystery of the one infinite Creator, and we are here to exercise our free will to find our way home. Q’uo continued by saying that in the third density we begin that journey home by awakening to our spiritual identity as that of the Fool and exercising the quality of faith by walking off a cliff into the midair, and with each step the cliff solidifies under our feet, and we have made the choice again. Then Q’uo gave a basic definition of The Choice was that of either service to others or service to self, but then they said that not all choices are so obvious when we are in the midst of change which would require that we be patient and trust that all will be well. On May 18, 1997, Q’uo described how The Choice may be made by the Fool using faith to walk off a cliff into mid-air:

And so, what is The Choice, precisely? Although we cannot speak precisely; although The Choice is always veiled in mystery; we would point in the direction of the will which is as the verb in a sentence in which the nouns are made of faith, hope, love, and charity. What is the right use of will? The one known as Jesus spoke very clearly when He said, “Not my will but Thine.” For you see, The Choice truly is to surrender. The Choice of the Fool is to leap into mid-air, knowing absolutely nothing about what lies at the bottom of the chasm of unknowing. One chooses to have complete faith and thus to remain calm in the midst of this sea of confusion which is the Earth world. This is not an obviously good choice. The Choice to believe blindly seems quite foolish, and may we say that it is foolish. Upon the surface of events such a choice as pure faith shall only rarely be obviously validated by experience and yet the energy that is released when a seeker chooses to live by faith is tremendous.

You have asked about the price of choices made by those who wish to serve others, and have said that the one known as Ra suggested that the more purity with which the choice is made, the steeper the price will be. If you can enter into the deeper portions of your own mind, perhaps you may see the heart as a dark room, full of shadows and yet containing the Most High, the infinite One. In that darkness nothing can be discerned, and yet, this is where the learning comes. And that which is taught one in those deep, private moments has a tendency to spring forth once the seeker has gone out into the daylight world again and joins that dance of manifestation that you experience as you live within incarnation. Within that deep and dark heart, within that holy of holies, that portion of you which is beyond space and time dwells, perfect, complete, ineffably whole. It is as the buried treasure.

If one attempts to take the self that has not realized the nature of its heart, the holiness of its center, and asks it to make a choice, the entity may make a positive choice, but this entity is making a choice that has no depth of root. A little wind can blow it over. A newer idea can take its place. And so, the entity that has not gone down deep, diving into the heart, may skate happily across the pond of life, skittering along the meniscus, happy as a dragonfly in the summer sun, and like the ephemerid, it shall pass, and it shall not pay a price, for it has not bought very much. To the one who has begun to discover the utter and intense purity at the heart of self, a choice that is made is made not simply upon the surface, but in profound depth, and to the extent that the purity of the heart has been penetrated in the making of a choice, this action in the metaphysical world is as that which turns on the bright light.

When entities consciously choose the service-to-others option in a difficult situation, because of pure awareness of the purity of self within the heart, this takes the clay of flesh and shoves it aside until the light begins to shine through. The more deeply the entity knows his own heart, the more pure that choice can be made, and in the world of time/space, this movement of Light is an energy flow that automatically triggers the attention of what this instrument has often called the loyal opposition, for there are those forces within the dualism of third, fourth, and fifth densities that appeal to entities who wish to take the path of service to self. And they hunger for the Light that they may use that Light for their own purposes. Attracted by this Light, entities move, looking interestedly to see what they might see. Where is this Light coming from? What is this entity’s weak points? How can we put this Light out?

There is a very wide range within which entities can experience imbalance. Indeed, we encourage seekers not so much to work upon the energy centers one at a time as to become the entity that knows its instrument, and in a state of balance allows the energy to flow freely through that instrument, making those intonations and notes that naturally flow from the rhythmic intersection of the self and the moment. To an entity of negative polarity, such activity is irresistible, and once attention is drawn, the natural course shall be that each weak point or imbalance within that energy web of self shall be offered. And this is, in a very real sense, a service, for at each point of testing the seeker being tested has the opportunity to see the test, to see through the test, and to see that attack and defense is not necessary, but rather, that these times are the times to trust and have faith in the self and in the perceived Light.

Indeed, the greater the purity of desire, the more numerous and the more telling shall be the challenges to that positive choice in a state of balance. What the natural resistance of negative thought in essence wishes to do is move entities who are radiating Light off balance so that they become less than transparent, so that they become fearful and defensive and ruled by the impurity of considerations that are based upon fear. And yet, we say to you, once you are able to touch the purity within that deep, dark heart, once that Light within has been perceived for but a split second, never again can that seeker truly say that she does not have faith, for she has touched the heart of the Creator, and this is a knowledge that none can remove from the seeker who once claims it.

We encourage each of you to seek within the self for that heart, to look for and to bless the purity within that has values and ideals that are completely impractical and unearthly. We encourage each to dream the highest dreams, love the deepest beauty, and know the deepest truth, and embrace, as this instrument said earlier, the deepest and most authentic passion. And if that purity calls forth the testing and the trial, we hope that each shall be able to know that the fire that burns does not burn away the heart of self but only the dross of flesh. Fear not that fire, and if that which is called the ego by your peoples loses a bit of a chip here and there, is that any great loss? For that which replaces that small self, though far more impersonal, is that which marries peace and ecstasy, quietude, and joy.

Now Q’uo said that: “Ra suggested that the more purity with which the choice is made, the steeper the price will be.” Q’uo gave an example of this when they said that if we can enter into the deeper part of our mind and move into the dark room of our heart nothing can be seen, but this is where learning occurs, and then we find the buried treasure of our being which springs forth from us when we return to the manifested world of our incarnations. Q’uo went on to say that if one has not realized the nature of its heart and asks it to make a positive choice, it will blow away like dust in the wind because it has no roots within the being whereas if one has discovered the intense purity of the nature of its heart, its choices will turn on a bright spiritual light within it. Q’uo continued by saying that when entities use the purity of their awareness of the self to choose the service-to-others path in difficult situations–and the more purely the entity knows the heart of its being–the stronger the Light shines through it in the metaphysical realms and attracts the attention of negatively oriented beings who wish to use the Light for their own purposes if they can find a weakness in the positive entity, and if not, then they try to put the Light out. Then Q’uo said that the positive entity should attempt to be aware of the balance within its energy centers because any imbalance can be used by negative entities to enhance the imbalance, so Q’uo suggested that this is a good way for the seeker to see the centers that are being tested, and then have faith in the self and in the strength of the Light within it. Q’uo continued by saying that the negative entity wishes to cause the positive entity to become fearful and react in a defensive way, but if the positive entity can contact the purity within its deep heart and experience the Light, then the seeker knows that it has faith, for it has touched the heart of the Creator, and this can never be taken away from it. Then Q’uo suggested that each person seek its heart of self, to bless its purity, and live by ideals that are considered impractical in the consensus reality and to: “dream the highest dreams, love the deepest beauty, and know the deepest truth, and embrace, as this instrument said earlier, the deepest and most authentic passion.” Q’uo completed their reply by saying that if the seeker is tested that it should not worry that the heart of self will be damaged, for only the small self will be burned away, and that which remains will be felt as peace, ecstasy, and joy. On April 7, 1996, Q’uo described the nature of the heart of our self:

I am Q’uo, and we are most grateful to each for the offering of those questions which have been given to us in love and in true desire to know the truth, and we again thank each for the being which each brings into this circle of working, for it is your being which is of inestimable value, though most are unaware of the value or the being, for it is that which is at one’s center of heart, and this is the journey my friends, to move to the center of the heart, which would seem to be a quick and easy journey. For do you not carry it with you? Oh, but, my friends, this is the infinite journey, for are you not all things and are you not the one Creator? So, when you seek the heart of Love, you seek the heart of self, and you contain and express the heart of self in ways which even you do not begin to understand. Have faith, my brothers and sisters, for this is a journey that you each are well set upon. There shall be difficulties. There shall be challenges. How else shall you learn that which you do not know? But if you have faith and continue with a strong will, you shall find the heart of yourself and the heart of the one Creator in the same place.

May you each go forth rejoicing. This instrument kindly informs us that we are asked to shut up now, which we shall do, sparing each the traditional question and answer session in the interest of this instrument’s failing energy. We thank this instrument and this circle for bringing us to you this evening, and you to us as well. And we leave you in all that there is: the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and put new sugar syrup in my three hummingbird feeders, and then I went across the street and did the same with my neighbor’s two hummingbird feeders.

This afternoon I helped Gary get his cat, Squash, and all of his belongings into his car now that he, Austin, and Trish are back from the Law of One Gatherings in Prague and Berlin. Then I vacuumed the room that Squash was in so the bedroom would be ready for any public channeling meditation guests that would like to stay overnight before driving home.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 8

What Is Truth?

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

What is truth? Open your eyes, your mind, and your heart and gaze at truth.

See the air which you breathe, the life-giving air of the body and, yet, also the energetic expression of Love, food born in every particle of your air for that soul which so craves the breath of Spirit.

Gaze upon that which immediately meets the eye. Dwelling within each atom, each tiny portion of that which you see is truth, the truth of energetic fields which contain in infinite number expressions of the Father.

It is sometimes difficult to see in a worn-out chair or a disreputable-looking human the truth expressed perfectly through each portion of consciousness. Fix your mind first on truth and then on appearances and allow the higher realization to interpret for you the surface pictures of an unkind world. We say unkind and so it looks, yet know that all will be well in the harmonious outworking of each appearance, so the truth is continually being uncovered by each growing spirit.

We leave you in the peace which is above process and which informs each process, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 16, 1997:

We would like to know what you can tell us about spiritual community, how one can be formed and how we can partake in a spiritual community.

(Carla channeling)

Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as the principle Q’uo, and we thank you and bless you for inviting us to blend our vibrations with your own in this circle of seeking. As always, we ask each of you to realize that we are not authorities, but, rather, travelers upon the road which you travel who treasure the opportunity to share with those who might have the interest in knowing our opinions and thoughts on those various subjects which seekers revolve about in their minds and ruminate upon in cycles throughout their incarnate and discarnate times of being.

Each of you dwells in a very heavy illusion, but each has penetrated that illusion to the extent that each has seen the illusion as illusion and Love itself as a truth that is higher than the seeming truth of fact, figure, and measurement. We, too, have our illusion. We, too, move towards a mystery which we cannot plumb. Our illusion is sheerer, yet the work of evolving is far slower. So, we do not feel that we are in any way your superiors, but, rather, companions, very, very honored and privileged to have the chance to speak with you, especially upon a subject which is dear to our own hearts in that we find spiritual community the infinitely appropriate way of looking at all that occurs between that spark of Creator that is one and that spark that is another.

For what is it to commune? The very first syllable of that word means “with.” Further, we have the prejudice or bias that the spiritual community is the preferable form of dwelling within vehicles of light, whatever they may be, for entities come together for many, many reasons, and yet in that all groups consist of the one infinite Creator, and in that all entities are made of the very stuff of Love, all community is, if healthy, possessed of a spiritual aspect.

Let us look together, then, at third density, the density of dramatic and pivotal choice. An entity by itself must make many choices, but that entity makes them, if completely alone, without friction; that is, with only the resistance of self against self. Although the work of self with self is often subtle and sometimes very difficult, it is not the same experience at all as that of working with other entities and choosing how to manifest to those other entities the heart of self. So, community is as the natural state of third density. The reason for the nature of the illusion as each sees it is that this configuration of awareness and perception offers the richest potential for entities to learn about love and about polarity.

Now, Love itself is infinite and without polarity. It is the unlimited infinite and eternal Light that is the manifestation of the Love of the one infinite Creator. Each who incarnates into third density does so with the expressed purpose of interacting with the society, the community, the neighborhood into which she has been placed by birth, by circumstance, and by that personality shell which has been chosen for the most efficient use of the hoped for processing of catalyst, especially at this time as the sphere upon which you enjoy your incarnation enters into a new area of space and time, and the vibrations are moving through that birthing process. Each entity that achieves incarnation has won her place because of seniority of vibration. That is, those who have most hope of achieving harvest, that illusive fifty-one per cent service to others, have been allowed to come at this particular time.

Some of those who seek to graduate are, shall we say, natives or those who have not come from higher densities. Some of those who seek to graduate have indeed come from other densities, yet each, regardless of the history of self, is in precisely the same situation at harvest. That is, there is one and only one way to graduate into the next density or back to the home density, and that is to be of the essence that can welcome the intensity of light, the fullness of illumination which is the characteristic of higher densities.

The very word, density, is misleading, for it would somehow suggest that each succeeding density is more pallid or frail. The opposite, however, is true in that in each density further than the last there is a higher density of Light. There is no emotion involved in moving from density to density by graduation. There is simply the ability to enjoy Light. As entities reach the Light at which they feel most comfortable they simply stop. If it happens to be in the fourth density, then that is the future for that entity. If that entity stops on the third-density side of this division of quanta we call density, then that entity shall enjoy more of the third-density Light, and work for another period upon those lessons of Love and polarity which he came to ponder. There is no particular reward for moving onward, any more than there is a reward for moving from the grade in school to the next highest grade. And yet there is tremendous emotion in the process of becoming that essence that does welcome Light and that has chosen how to use, how to spend, how to offer or allow the increase of that Light through radiation through the self.

So, community is that necessary and natural linking of energies, often by geography alone, sometimes by family, usually by environment. Each entity deals with the family community, with the work community, with environments of those who are involved in one particular hobby or interest. It is part of the nature and character of each entity to link with other entities. It is as though those sparks of the Creator, which infinitely fly from the heart of creation out into that manifestation of experience that starts that great spiral of being moving back to its Source, each has the energy and urge to link up with those of like mind, for each craves the mirror that shows the self to self.

The group question for this session was: “We would like to know what you can tell us about spiritual community, how one can be formed and how we can partake in a spiritual community.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that spiritual communities were made up of a group of seekers, and each had the Love of the Creator within them, so they could help each other open their heart and make the choice of third density to love and serve each other much easier than if this work was attempted by only the single self. Q’uo went on to say that each entity who incarnates at this time chooses the groupings of society, community, and its personality shell as the way in which to most effectively use its catalyst in the third density as the Earth is moving into a new area of space and time where the seniority of vibration determines who will have the opportunity to make the choice of fifty one percent service to others. Then Q’uo said that both the native entities of Earth and the wanderers have the same need to demonstrate the choice of service to others by being able to walk into the Light and graduate to the fourth density or to be able to return to their home density. Q’uo continued by saying that when walking into the Light one simply walks until it feels the most comfortable and then stops, and if it stops at the fourth density level it has graduated, but if it has not reached that level of Light, it will repeat the third density lessons of Love and service to others. They said that the graduation process itself does not contain emotion, but there is great deal of emotion involved in becoming that essence that is able to welcome the Light and to be able to radiate it through the self. Q’uo went on to say that the great variety of communities give each seeker the opportunity to join with other seekers of like mind to aid each other on the great journey of moving back into unity with the Source of all by being able reflect the self to the self, or from the Creator to the Creator. On April 16, 2006, Q’uo explained the process of walking into the Light:

This is your last opportunity to make and sustain the choice of polarity that shall lead you through graduation and into your taking up higher-density work. Those who do not make a choice of polarity and sustain that choice until polarity is built up to the point where you are able to bear the Light of higher densities shall experience another cycle of third-density incarnations upon another planet and shall once again take up the lessons of Love.

We emphasize that in our opinion there is no true downside to this equation. If you are not ready to make that choice, you have all the time in the world to consider it further. If you are ready, then this is the opportunity to seize the day, to take hold of the direction and path of your spiritual evolution and to invest your walk into the Light with every fiber of your being, every hope, and every joy and enthusiasm. Give thanks, my friends, for these are wonderful days for those who wish to make that choice and to walk that path towards the Light.

Now let us look at spiritual community. When this instrument says the words, “spiritual community,” she immediately thinks of her church, that Christian edifice of stone into which she pours, and has poured for many years, great devotion and love. And those feelings which this instrument has about that spiritual community are characteristics that each tends to seek. This instrument is not different from those who cannot find community within the traditional church in what she craves but rather in finding a way to deal with the many irregularities which have crept into that institutionalized church over many centuries of history. She moves into that environment in order to worship, in order to be taken out of the self, in order to spend time and attention upon the divine, upon the blessed, upon the sanctified and holy things which she hungers for.

These are the things that a spiritual community does offer. Looking further at the experiences of this entity, the particular church to which she goes worships together by taking a stylized and ritualized meal, by the taking of food and drink. And that magical ritual which this instrument calls Holy Eucharist or holy communion is a way of placing into the very cells of the flesh and blood of physical vehicles the essence and energy of the Creator. It is said that the one known as Jesus asked his students to eat and drink together in remembrance of him. It is written that he took bread, and when he had given thanks he brake it and gave it to them saying, “Take. Eat. This is my body which I give for you. Do this in remembrance of me.” Then he took the cup and drank when he had given thanks and gave it to the disciples saying, “Drink all of you of this, for this is my blood, a new covenant. Do this in remembrance of me.”

The center of that church is manifest only by symbol, and yet there is deity in that wafer and that sip of blessed and holy food. That service brings Christ consciousness not simply to that place but to each member of that place, and then it sends each into the world to love and serve. This is the essence of spiritual community. A spiritual community is a place that has moved through the sacrifices necessary to allow it to offer spiritual food to those who would wish to share such food. The center of a spiritual community is not the people. It is that ideal that is worshipped and loved and believed in by those who gather to remember the one infinite Creator, to spend time and attention in community with and in worship of the Divine that is so hungered and thirsted for.

Upon the surface the question of what is a spiritual community, what makes a spiritual community, almost answers itself and yet as one probes more deeply one can see that the heart of community is very open-ended. Certainly, it is the nature of a functional community to find ever more ways to foster and nourish, nurture, and support each other. And as one finds such a community and enters into communion with those in that community there is a strengthening and a stability which becomes possible only as entities group together and offer themselves for that which is greater than they are. When two join together there is already a community. It is a strong and powerful community, and yet the addition of one more entity doubles the strength of that group, and the next entity doubles the strength of that group until soon you have a few people and yet the strength of thousands. Or a thousand people and the strength of millions.

Now, at this particular time many who may call themselves wanderers are awakening to their spiritual identity. As the awakening occurs there arises within the seeker a great hunger to know more, to find ways to serve, to become comfortable with this state of consciousness that is so completely different from that round of work and play that is not reflected upon. The routines may be precisely the same, but the viewpoint has changed. And once awakened the seeker cannot return to sleep but must live awake within the incarnation.

Each intended to remember his own nature. Each felt fully confident that she would be able to break through that veil of forgetting. And each of you has indeed become more aware. The community, as this instrument said before this contact began, has that function of being the focus point which acts as a spiritual or metaphorical anchor, or point of stability, or leverage. The desire to serve is greatly enhanced by those who have banded together in order to support each other in service. So, the community feeds entities, and, at the same time, entities feed into community by their participation in the activities seen and unseen, by their sharing with others that which they have thought and talked about in community. It is as though there were a net being made of golden thread, and each time one awakened wanderer links up with another and establishes a spiritual community another piece of the net is woven, and eventually that net will cover your orb like a golden seine and the Earth shall be completely surrounded in unified Love. We see this occurring at this time. It is moving towards fuller manifestation rather quickly as more and more entities awaken and establish connections and share with others their own focal points or spiritual communities so that more and more entities may feel secure and stable and part of something that is higher and bigger than the everyday concerns of living, for truly these concerns are constant throughout third-density experience. It is completely up to each seeker as to how she wishes to express the self and the Love of the infinite One in each person of the daily round.

At this time, we feel that we have spoken enough to prompt thought, and if there is further interest we would be happy to speak further upon aspects of this interesting subject. For now, we shall simply say to each that each truly serves within the community that is meeting within this dwelling place. Each embodies that communion that flows between those present. Each carries within the self the seeds of divinity that have been planted, aided by the energy of the group as it turns its heart and attention to the one infinite Creator. Each shall hope to serve greatly, and each shall be disappointed in the self, and yet each shall have done so much that is not and cannot be known, for light radiates in ways each seeker cannot know, and service is done in many cases that are not known to those offering their services. Thusly, we encourage each to enjoy that peace that dwells in the hearts of those who do have a spiritual community, a source of support and encouragement, safety and dwelling. But there is that hunger to evolve that can only be realized in community. Each of you is a blessing to each.

Now Q’uo said that when Carla thought of the concept of the spiritual community she thought of her church where she went to worship, but she was no different than those seekers who could not find the sense of community in the church, so the way she felt when going to church was to spend time to worship and to be taken out of her self so that she could spend time with the Divine and spend time seeking for the holy things that she hungered for. Q’uo went on to say that the basic definition of a spiritual community was a group of seekers that gathered together to support each other in finding that which is greater than they are, and each time that another person joins the community the power of their seeking is doubled. Then they said that many people were awakening to their spiritual identity and were seeking to find ways of how to know more, to serve more, and to become more comfortable with their new state of consciousness because once they have awakened to their spiritual identity there is no turning back. Then Q’uo said that the spiritual community provides a manner of anchoring seekers together so that each seeker strengthens the community, and the community strengthens the seekers so that the relationship between the seekers becomes like a woven web of Love that surrounds the Earth. They said that each seeker is part of something that is bigger than the everyday round of activities, and it is up to each seeker as to how they seek to express the Love of the Creator to each person that they meet. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that each member of a spiritual community serves the community well by embodying the sense of community as each turns their hearts and attention to the one infinite Creator and is of service to others in ways that cannot be known and: “We encourage each to enjoy that peace that dwells in the hearts of those who do have a spiritual community, a source of support and encouragement, safety and dwelling. But there is that hunger to evolve that can only be realized in community. Each of you is a blessing to each.” On March 7, 2002, Q’uo described the way that a spiritual community aided its members on their spiritual journey:

We would suggest to you that there is a great deal of unseen, hidden work possible during communication which creates far better collaboration. Conscious acceptance of the ideal of a spiritual community where each is nurtured by each, is helpful for communicators, for each of you has the ability to comfort and feed others by the attitude with which you greet your compatriots, and all of those about you have that same ability to function as support, encouragement, and humor for you. Beyond all considerations, the chief lessons of the enterprise have always to do with accepting love from others and giving love to others without pride, vanity, or feelings of unworthiness. The work that each of you does in truly entering into the energies of each of you will create creative pathways that will link in a more, shall we say, telepathic or whole-concept level so that the synergy of energy fields becomes consciously validated by belief in the opinion of those present, thus freeing those energy exchanges between each to take place at an enhanced rate.

We would at this time transfer the contact to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each in the love and in the light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any queries which yet remain upon the minds of those present. Is there another query at this time?

[Tape ends.]

This morning I went upstairs and cleaned Benny’s apartment. I used the carpet sweeper to clean the rug in the hall, and then I swept up the litter in the room where Benny stays most often in the cat tower. Then I used the dust mop to clean the other three rooms.

This afternoon I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some cat food. My next stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some Tylenol hair thickener.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 6

Harness The Power Of Consciousness

Greetings in the consciousness of Christ. I am of the principle of the consciousness of the Love of Christ in the vibration which comforts this child. Greetings and peace to you!

My children, what mighty energies move at this moment within your consciousness! What tremendous raw material consciousness truly is!

To what use do you put this great resource this day? Shall you work on behalf of those things which do not offer life, or shall you turn to the service of that which is life-giving? For in every situation there is a response which creates the optimal amount of service grounded in love. If you are preparing to plod through a day that does not feel alive to you, first find our vibration, that the breath of Spirit may enliven those things which are dead in your perception.

For all things are alive in the consciousness of Love.

Peace be with you this day and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 6, 1997:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each once again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any queries which those present may have for us. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I would like to ask for a few words of inspiration for P. You were probably listening to us talk before the meeting and know that she is depressed and under stress. She would appreciate whatever you could tell her.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your request, my sister. When we observe those of your peoples in difficulty, feeling lost and depressed and without immediate hope for the rescue, we observe those within the depths of darkness living within this illusion and without the guiding star, shall we say. Each entity who enters this illusion does so in the hope that there will be, as a fruit of this effort, a movement along the line of serving others and of realizing the Creator in all that there is. As this is an infinite journey, it is not surprising that there are for many, indeed, at some point for each, a portion of the journey which moves into those kind of difficulties that can sap the spiritual strength of even the strongest seeker of truth. In such times it is well that friends such as are gathered here today remember the entity in need and hold this entity each in his and her heart as each here has done for the one known as P.

The sending of love, whether by phone or by heart, is felt and does its work, for there is nothing in your illusion but Love. The one known as P could at this time testify that this Love has many disguises and there are a multitude of the forms of Love that offer the challenge to the spiritual seeker. When one is challenged as is the one known as P, and can find no easy or obvious remedy or way out of the difficulty, then it is that the inner strength is tested. Then it is that the earth within one’s being is being plowed, shall we say, being made ready for a seeding that will, in its time, produce the flowers, the weeds, and the grasses that are being produced now by your springtime weather and the turning of this planet on its axis.

So, too, must each seeker who finds itself in travail begin to turn the inner self so that this inner self is able to see some light once again, is able to see hope on its path that the journey might proceed with more ease and with more harmony. The inner strength and the seeking for the light within are the rod and the staff which comfort the seeker as the seeker walks in that valley wherein lies many shadows and much darkness—danger it would seem, and confusion it is certain.

The one known as P is a seeker who has a strong inner compass and a great desire to know the Creator’s will for it that it might do what it can to serve the Creator. When all seems to be crumbling in and the ground even gives way under the feet, we encourage each seeker in this situation to remain, to continue seeking, not just for the momentary remedy, but for the part or piece of the puzzle that represents the overall plan for this entity. In each struggle and difficulty there is a pointer, a reminder, a milestone that will illumine a portion of the darkness for the eye that is ever aware, and watching, and waiting. There is much to be said of the difficult times within your illusion, for these are those times in which great strides are made inwardly, metaphysically, though there is little that will show to the outer eye. The seed there planted, nourished by hope, given strength by faith, will crack the hard shell that protects the treasures inside and the seedling will send out roots, will send out leaves. There will be a growth that comes from this difficulty that will be able to provide for the seeker the sense of purpose and certainty that each feels the need for. There will be a progress where the feet will continue moving upon the path though the mind seems confused. At such times it is well to continue those routines that give one strength: the readings of inspirational material, the singing, the dancing, the poetry, all those means by which an entity can reinvent itself, nourish itself, inspire itself, and keep the faith that all is one and all is well.

We encourage the one known as P to remain strong in heart, and dedicated to service, dedicated to learning, and to remember that even in the difficult times such as it now experiences there is much to learn, and much service to be offered. It is also well that each seeker in this position remember that it does indeed have friends which are both seen and unseen who walk with it on its journey. No seeker travels alone. All tears, all bruises, all difficulties are seen, and shared, and treasured, in fact, by those who walk with unseen feet. The time upon this planet may seem interminably long when difficulties are encountered. We can assure each that your time is but the blinking of an eye. Be sure to notice that situation in which you find yourself and to remember that you placed yourself there for a reason. Persevere. The reason is there. It remains. The joy can be found. The purpose is at the center of one’s heart and, all around, friends cheer you on. You are not alone. You shall walk again in sunshine.

Carla wanted to know if Q’uo could give some information to P about P’s feeling depressed. Q’uo began by saying that each seeker enters the darkness of this illusion with the desire to serve the Creator and others, but at some point on the spiritual path each experiences difficulties that can drain their energies as has happened to P, so it would be helpful to send her Love because there is nothing in the creation that is not Love. Q’uo went on to say that P has experienced many disguises of Love that have challenged her inner strength, and such challenges will eventually produce some seeding of the inner light that will help her to move through the darkness of the valley that is filled with confusion and seeming danger. Then Q’uo recommended that P should remain strong on her search for the overall pieces of the puzzle that are basic to her learning her spiritual lessons because the difficulties that she encounters can eventually allow her to make great progress on her spiritual path that may be likened to the seed that is planted and nourished by faith will produce growth and a sense of purpose on her spiritual path. Then Q’uo suggested that P should continue the patterns that give her strength such as: “the readings of inspirational material, the singing, the dancing, the poetry, all those means by which an entity can reinvent itself, nourish itself, inspire itself, and keep the faith that all is one and all is well.” Q’uo completed their reply by saying that P should remember that a great deal of growth can come from difficult times, and that she has friends to walk with on this journey; that all experiences happen for a reason; and the purpose of her life is at the center of her heart. On August 18, 1989, Q’uo spoke of how the reach the center of the heart:

However, upon that journey each shall—even with very pure intentions—find that the effort falls short. This is the way of all learning for there is the attempt to offer the self within an illusion in which the self and other self are seen less distinctly and clearly than truly do they exist. Thus, with such hindrances, shall we say, it is to be expected that there will be the efforts which fall short. However, to be able to reflect upon one’s experience and to see each portion as a puzzle piece and to refine the fitting of each piece in succeeding efforts to serve is the means by which wisdom is gained.

However, within your illusion the intention, the desire, the motivation, the passion to serve is that which is of most importance, for it is the nurturing of this passion that opens the center of the heart that one may give in an universal and unconditional sense and by so giving express most purely the compassion and unconditional love which are the foundation for all of creation.

Is there another query at this time?

B: I have a tendency to take your words and the words of other authorities and run with them. Everything is so subtle and related, and I get blind-sided often by something from another front. Would you have any suggestions for me in my confusion?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We are aware that you utilize the tools of persistence and faith to a great degree. It cannot be overemphasized to any seeker how persistent and yet how, shall we say, relaxed in that persistence it is necessary to be over the long run of the life experience, for as you have mentioned in your query, to run wholeheartedly with each idea can be wearing upon the vehicle—physical, mental and emotional—of the spiritual seeker. Thus, there is a kind of balance, as in all things, between the kind of persistence that needs to be exercised upon a continual basis and the attitude of mind that exercises this persistence without, shall we say, a wholehearted dedication to the outcome, an effort which is much like the one known as Jesus mentioned in the casting of the bread upon the water. That the effort is made to the best of one’s ability, and then one gives oneself permission to rest, to relax, to allow the fruits of this effort to manifest that they, in their own time, may be noticed.

We know that the illusion in which each entity moves upon this planet is difficult and confusing, full of what seem to be mistakes or missed turns. And yet we would suggest to each that there are, indeed, no mistakes, even being over-dedicated to an outcome, being hard on oneself, failing to forgive oneself, all of these actions and efforts designed by oneself to move one forward do, in their own way, that very thing. However, each entity, being fully apprised of free will at each moment, is free to choose how to place the feet upon the path.

When we are asked for advice as we are this day, we give advice in a way which allows each seeker the freedom to accept or refuse that which we give, for we are well aware that the only true authority for any seeker resides within that seeker. What may be appropriate at one moment may not be so at another. This is the fluid nature of the experience that you have as conscious beings in a heavy chemical illusion. When we give advice, when you seek advice from a book, from a friend, from whatever source, we are aware that that élan vital, that energy of life within you, will take that advice and move with it in whatever manner is appropriate. If you in the moving decide that there is something that is yet to be realized in your choice of moving then we applaud you in your second choice, in your third, and your fourth, and so forth.

We do recommend that you move with those feelings that grow from within and that you move with them until you feel another feeling; that you continue in this fashion for as long as you feel the motivation to do so. Continue to gather information. Continue to seek from every source that which it has to offer. In this way you constantly reevaluate, reposition and take yet another step in the dance. When it is said that there are no mistakes it is truly said, for the dance you do is just for you, and you do it well, no matter what you think.

We hope that we have not confused you. Is there another query?

B: No, thank you.

Q’uo: Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and as it appears that we have exhausted the queries from those present we would take this opportunity to thank each again for inviting us to join your circle this day. We are aware that the season of spring indeed fills every portion of air. We hear through this instrument the wind that moves pollen through the air, the sound of the cutting of your new spring grass, the movement of entities to and fro in your world, and we are also aware that the seasons of your world greatly affect each entity upon your planet, and we hope that with this new season of growth that each will find within its heart a new spring bursting forth with love and joy in full bloom, for in your springtime there is much of joy that can be rekindled in every heart that feels any opening at all—just a crack will do.

There is inside of each of you a seed that will send forth its roots, and stem, and leaves, and flowers. Nourish that seed, my friends. It is the seed of love, the seed of hope and faith, the seed of unity, the seed of whatever quality you feel is highest and best in your experience at this time. We feel through each here a feeling of renewal, a feeling of rededication, of purpose and place, a centering within all that is. We encourage each to be the gardener: to pull the weeds, to water the seeds, to give praise and thanksgiving to the One who provides all that is necessary for this growth and movement through this illusion.

Remember, each, that you do have friends. They are here with you. They are always with you. They are legion. At this time we shall take our leave of this group. We leave each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I was a guest on the Law of One Gathering in Berlin where I participated in a Q & A session via a Zoom Meet. It was an hour long and was filled with some of the most open-hearted questions that I have ever heard. It was a great honor for me to try to give answers that were as inspiring as the questions. Gary, Trish, and Austin helped to facilitate this Gathering just a few days after helping to facilitate a similar type of Gathering in Prague.

This afternoon I went outside and used my chainsaw to cut up some tree limbs from my neighbor’s yard across the street, and I was able to fill a garbage can with the limbs. Then I went around the yard and picked up a few more small limbs and put them in another garbage can.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 5

The Sense Of Inner Blankness

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the ineffable Love of divine Consciousness.

When the world seems to make no sense, when the skies are blank of being and the landscape bare of meaningful detail for you, then it is time to turn inward and avoid the distraction of the self in meaningless pursuit.

If there is only a small amount of time to be spent inward turned, it is enough. For the sense of inner blankness is the sense of being lost from the self, not of being lost from the world.

To find the self, one must turn to the Christ within and ask that the great story of selfhood be expressed in yet another way, that you may understand your nature and your birthright and know who you are: sons and daughters of the Divine; those who give meaning to sky and earth.

In your troubled spirits lies the dance of the present. May you be at peace within your trouble as you turn within to Christ.

In that peace we leave you, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.