The Camelot Journal

Our question today has to do with how we travel from head to heart in any spiritual belief that we may have and in the spiritual journey overall. It is easier to intellectually understand, for example, that all things happen in their time, than to actually wait for that time to come and accept it. Is it grace that brings this about? Just the right time?

(Carla channeling)

Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose name, in whose peace, and in whose power we come as witnesses and as fellow pilgrims on a common path with you and with all who seek to know the infinite Creator. We are extremely grateful for your calling us to your session this beautiful spring day. We thank each of you for the time and attention that each gives to the spiritual life, for each brings that to the circle, and each becomes part of a circle whose strength is in all of its members. This spiritual community we find so precious, and we are most grateful for this opportunity to share our thoughts with you. Please take those which please you, or seem useful to you, and leave the rest behind, for we are not authorities but only your brothers and sisters.

We are aware that each of you has a vision, a basic concept of how a spiritually oriented being behaves. It is indeed true that orientation as a spiritual being is of primary importance in allowing the spirit to transform Earthly life into that Garden of Eden, that heaven that does lie closer than breathing, nearer than your hands or your feet. What each of you seeks is fairly clear within the mind. And your question is simply how to move from the situation where the mind grasps the concept to the point where the being lives the concept. And this is indeed a challenge. It is the challenge for which you took flesh and came into a world of shadow. For each of you seeks in this incarnation both to learn and to serve. Each of you to whom we speak, we can say with authority insofar as we are able, is one who has earned her place upon the stage of your Earth world at this time, for many more spirits than there are bodies for have wished to incarnate at this particular time. In your Earth plane’s development as a planetary spiritual being those who have made it are those who are very close to having learned those primary lessons of love which involve making that choice to follow only the good, only the true, only the beautiful and to attempt to allow the Love and the Light of the Creator a place to flow through into the Earth plane. For this is, among other things, what you are. You are, as it says in your holy works, a lamp upon a hill. It is not your light that lights the lamp. It is the Creator’s. What you are able to do as you work with your mind and your heart is, little by little, to clean the panes of your lamp so that they are transparent and so that the infinite Light may shine through, each of you, though you deem yourself unworthy. For you cannot give love to the world. You shall shortly run out in your persona as a human being, as a time-bound entity. Everything is finite, and it is as though you are in a cage of flesh and illusion. There is that within you which remembers paradise, which knows a better way, which is at peace and at rest. But that part of the self is very difficult to find access to. Until the day comes when, as the one known as R said, the journey from head to heart is made.

The culture which has birthed each of you, and cherished you, and supported you to this point in your incarnation has many qualities to offer, many values to express, and some of these values tend towards working athwart spiritual principles. When we speak of such things we cannot over-generalize, but there is that tendency in your culture to value accomplishment of whatever kind as a positive asset and to value motionless being as either a zero or a negative quality in that to those who have their life flowing from their being the list of things to do for the day, or for the week, or for the year, may never seem as important as the yellow wheat in the field or the blue of the sky on a sunny day, or the tips of the trees as they first embrace the air with their new, furled leaves. There is slim value for being within your culture, and we feel that this is a key disadvantage when it comes to that journey from head to heart. For the head is the place where things get done. The heart is the place where things get cherished and cared for. For the head there are choices of a right and a wrong, a movement to the right or a movement to the left. For the heart there is, rather, the flowing of things. Into the heart time and space themselves flow, for each of you is a citizen of eternity, and you are taking part in time during your incarnation in order to learn and to serve.

Now, how can you work to neutralize the result of a lifetime of learning? For this is what occurs as the culture nurtures the young mind and helps it to grow into a mature ability to cope with that which is within the illusion. It cannot be done with the head. To attempt with the mind to move the center of being from mind to heart is to hire a rustler to protect the cattle. There is no way for the mind itself to break one habit and begin another. We would introduce the concept of the will. There are those here such as this instrument whose will has been given to a specific lord or Christ symbol. This instrument has given her life and her spirit to the one known as Jesus the Christ. It is well to choose a principle that speaks to you most deeply of infinity, eternity, and holiness and to deposit in that basic core of belief every bit of will and faith and hope that you possess. For this is an appropriate and an honest gift to the Creator, the surrender of the Light, the willingness to follow with heart and soul and mind and strength a life lived in faith.

Our question today has to do with how we travel from head to heart in any spiritual belief that we may have and in the spiritual journey overall. It is easier to intellectually understand, for example, that all things happen in their time, than to actually wait for that time to come and accept it. Is it grace that brings this about? Just the right time? Q’uo began their reply by saying that the incarnation of souls by their seniority of vibration has allowed many entities the opportunity to incarnate at this time to learn the lesson of love and service to others and to allow the Love and Light of the Creator to flow through to the Earth plane. Q’uo went on to say that our culture tends to value what a person can accomplish in a practical way over the nature of one’s being, and the nature of the head is where things get done and where there is a right and a wrong, and the nature of the heart is where things are cherished, and where there is a natural flow of time and space through us as we are citizens of eternity who are here at this time in order to learn and to serve. Then Q’uo said that is not possible for the mind to move the center of being from mind to heart because it cannot break one habit and begin another habit by itself. Q’uo recommended that we should use our will to choose a spiritual being or symbol, such as Jesus the Christ, that speaks to our heart in concepts that are infinite and holy so that they become our core belief, and then we can make it our gift to the Creator and live our life in faith with all of our heart and soul. On February 9, 2022, Q’uo described the nature and functioning of our core belief:

To speak more to the heart of your query as to what one may offer for another by such means of inward thought, this idea has many, indeed, infinite possibilities and probabilities that are dependent upon the orientation of the seeker and a primal aspect of this orientation being the spiritual foundation of that seeker. By this, we intend to mean that the belief structures held by a seeker involved in the seeking and used by the instrument or the entity on its path imply what may be offered, for if one does not have a root or core belief of what is possible and believes this with all of their heart, then the potential is limited to what may be offered. As such, we encourage any seeker wishing to increase their ability and the scope of what they can offer to other entities by such means to contemplate deeply, meaningfully, and regularly upon what they believe to be possible—what structures of seeking, of philosophy, of metaphysical understanding has the seeker built its understanding upon—and examine this structure with care. The rigidity of the structure can offer stability, yet may also be limiting and so a regular audit or examination of the beliefs and ideals that have allowed a seeker to reach a certain point within their seeking may reveal certain ideas that can be let go or released, and as such increase what may be offered to another entity.

The tools to help you with this work are several. The very first and always the central one, in our opinion, is time spent with the Creator, time being with the Creator. The eyes that see the world see a human being sitting. The heart within knows a different reality. In that world within the self is a pilgrim seeking entrance to an inner sanctum in which the Creator already dwells in full glory and strength; from before time began until there is no more time, this is so. Before you were, before the world was, before all things, the Creator rested in Its universe. And as you are part of this universe of Love so that Love incarnate dwells within you. See yourself as a pilgrim walking up to the door of that inner sanctum, inserting the key of silence, walking in and sitting, not with other human beings, however worthy they may be, but with the infinite Creator. This communion awaits you constantly. It is not that the Creator is not with you, for the Creator is your companion from the instant of your beginning until the last fell knoll of life’s bells. It is the self within incarnation that does not remember where to go to tabernacle with the infinite One. We would encourage each who wishes to move into the heart to attempt daily to sit in silence and allow the Creator within to make Itself known to you with no words, with no dramatic fanfare but that still, small voice whose message is far beyond concept but whose surety is absolute.

The eventual goal of those who wish to be and to move from that flowing beingness is to gradually replace expectation with curiosity. The ways of the mind and of expectations and so forth involve energies which seem to grasp, and hold, and stop the flow of rhythm and attempt to control that rhythm. Frequently, it seems that such manipulation works. And usually, entities can convince themselves that they are in control. However, in the spiritual sense the only control is in how to surrender the small will and the small self to an infinite One whose wish for all is to give and to receive Love. Each time, then, that you find yourself having imaginary conversations, moving into circles of concern and worry, and, in general, finding oneself knocking up against the corners of life, find ways to stop the momentum of that relationship with what is. Stop and remember that you are a child of the Creator, a child of eternity, and a child of Love Itself. You need do nothing but welcome the rhythmic and rightful destiny that awaits. And we are not saying that there is one fate for each entity, for it is our understanding that each has free will, and that each must, of her own free will, choose service to others or service to self. Rather, it is a question of whether you wish to go a straight route or a roundabout route. If there is control attempted in a working pattern, that will change the pattern. The more faith that one is able to express in the moment-to-moment rhythm, the more gently one may meet the unfolding of your particular story. And the shorter will be that moment of centering the self within that identity of being.

Issues of this magnitude are not done with during an incarnation. They will revolve again and again into your experience, into your stream of living. What you learn at this time you shall see again. It may be at another level. It may be somewhat different, but the issues shall be the same: to offer the self with no expectation of return. Each of you came into this incarnation wishing to sacrifice the self for Love, wishing to brave the forgetting of all the spiritual principles that were known and held so dear, daring to come into a world most illusory and seemingly far from the Garden of Eden, as this instrument would call it. Yet in faith and in hope you took on this lifetime, for you wished to love the Earth and its people. You wished to serve, and this is your opportunity. In truth, it matters not what is occurring upon the surface of your life as long as you are attempting to be an instrument of Love, a harbinger of peace. Practice being. Practice at odd moments, allowing the self simply to be aware, and resting in that deep peace that is awareness of the Creator. You shall certainly get lost in the sea of confusion again and again. But that too is illusion. Trust that heart within, and as you are given the grace to do so, work with those concepts of being and doing until you begin to have a lucid idea of what it is to be yourself. This is an art of profound moment, and we encourage each of you to take it up. In your hopes and in your prayers, surrender all to the Creator and know, in confidence and in quiet, that that which is needed for you to learn and for you to serve will come to you. May you see all things with the eyes of Love.

Then Q’uo suggested that we live our life in faith as a gift to the Creator, and that we spend time daily tabernacling with the Creator that has been with us since before time began and will be with us until the end of time because we are a part of the Love of the Creator that speaks to us in that still, small voice that is beyond any concept but speaks with surety that is absolute. Q’uo recommended that we release the expectations of the mind that seek to control the flow of the rhythm of our experience and replace them with curiosity because the only control that is helpful is how to surrender our will and self to the Creator whose wish is for us is to give and receive Love. They went on to say that we are a child of eternity, a child of the Creator, and all that we need to do is to welcome the rhythmic destiny that awaits us to make a choice between service to others or service to self.  Then Q’uo said that our lesson of learning to give without expectation of return will repeat itself many times within future incarnations when we go through the veil of forgetting of all of the spiritual principles that we have learned, and we find that once again that we can become instruments of Love for the Earth and its people. Q’uo completed their response by saying that when we get lost in the illusion that we should trust our hearts and work with the concepts of being and doing to discover who we really are, and then surrender all that we are to the Creator and have faith that all that we need to learn and to serve will come to us.  On February 22, 1991, Q’uo spoke of the nature of being and doing:

The balance between being and doing is that which must be sought for each individual seeker. This will differ from entity to entity and from time to time. Those who have been overbalanced in the direction of doing may well need, in the balancing process, to go through great periods of time in which it may seem there is no doing, but only being. This may be very difficult for those entities involved, as the value systems that have been evolved in the society have placed the measure of the value of the self on those things that have been accomplished.

Ultimately, we feel that being is all that there is. The doing is all a part of whatever illusion each is operating within at any given time. This is not to suggest that the doing is not worthwhile. Indeed, the doing may be the primary means whereby each entity works out his path of service. As in all else, the determination of the value of the doing lies in the intent. However, even with the highest of intentions for the doingness to be of service, the deep self will know the balances necessary for himself and, if it deems it necessary that the balance be moved from the doing toward the being, it will effect this change. In this process we would suggest that it is most helpful to attempt to proceed in the process of knowledge of the self, that the wisdom of the deep self may be felt, trusted, and rested with. This may be a very difficult process for those among your peoples who are oriented toward the doing, especially as many of these also have strong biases towards being in control of the self and of the various situations which are encountered.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo, and we leave this instrument in love and in light.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each of you again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to attempt to speak to any further questions which those present may have for us. Is there another query at this time?

T: I have a question about the sudden appearance of a little bird that I had never seen before just after my meditation. Was there a significance to this bird, or was it just a little bird that was lost?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. As we find there is already certain knowledge within the subconscious level of your own mind moving into the conscious levels, we may speak concerning this small bird which you have observed. The decision to take your journey or not to take your journey was that concept to which this appearance of the small bird spoke, the meaning of the appearance having to do with the bird being as much out of place in your sighting of it as you would have been upon your journey.

Is there a further query, my brother?

T: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

R: Thanks for the food for thought on the concept that I spoke about earlier.

I am Q’uo, and we are always honored to be able to look upon those concerns which come from each heart and to give them the attention of our experience and our desire to be of service.

We would ask if there is any further query at this time?

Carla: I get so much out of worshipping with a spiritual family, and I want to share it with others, but that seems so impossible. Could you speak to that dilemma?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Each seeker that moves along the path of seeking the truth, of seeking the Love and the Light and the Unity of the one Creator has a unique way of moving upon this journey. Many there are who feel similarly to others and who gather together with them to worship as you say, in a community of seekers, and in this community they take comfort, joy, inspiration, and find a great meaning. This is well for each seeker, to find a path which speaks to its heart, whether there be a great company with it or a small company of one. To look upon the journey with the heart that desires to travel and the mind that seeks answers, the passion of the desire is that which is most important for each seeker. For though one seeker may find fruits upon the journey and wish to share the nourishment of them with others it is difficult to do unless those others with whom one wishes to share have the similar desire, for each has the lessons of love to learn. And the greatest sharing that each seeker can make with others is to travel his or her own journey with a full heart, with alive compassion, and with the sincere desire to know that which you call the truth. The radiance that comes from within for each seeker so traveling is as a beacon, a light to others that, when they wish to inquire as to the nature of the journey, it is most appropriate to share with them that which you have found.

Is there a further query at this time?

Carla: No. Thank you for your thoughts, Q’uo.

Q’uo: I am Q’uo, and we thank you again. Is there a further query at this time?

R: Many times you say that you are grateful for the sacrifice that each makes to come to the circle of seeking, but I want to come, and it isn’t a sacrifice, so what is the sacrifice that you are referring to?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Each entity which finds itself in such a circle of seeking as this circle has for an entire incarnation moved upon a path in such a way which has brought it to that point in that circle. Each entity has sacrificed much in each incarnation to gain that of understanding that it has gained, to have gained that of tolerance, to have gained that of continuing in the desire to seek with others. One may find oneself in such a circle and ask the question that you have asked, feeling that the sacrifices have not been that obvious. But if each searches in its own memory and experience, each will find that there were steps that were, at one time, difficult to take, rituals and routines, and responsibilities that were difficult to initiate, to continue, and to accept. Each seeker has accomplished much of work in this manner before being able to join in such a circle. These are the sacrifices to which we have spoken often, and we continue to offer our gratitude to each seeker that sacrifices much in order to join in these circles of seeking, for there are a great numbers of things that could occupy one’s time, activities that could take one’s efforts, and other concerns that would satisfy one’s desire to spend an afternoon. Thus, we are grateful for each sacrifice, great and small, that each entity has made in order to join in this circle of seeking.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: Isn’t it like a fruit that, once tasted, you do not wish to give up because there is truth in there?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. It is true that as one continues upon a journey, a ritual, a philosophy, or a practice, that the effort is easier and easier as the memory of the body, mind, and spirit begins to exercise itself within the new parameters. Indeed, this is the nature of the seeking. As one is able to continue upon a path, a program, or a path of seeking, one will find that there is a kind of rhythm or momentum that gathers behind the effort to aid the effort and to enhance one’s experience of it.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: Thanks for talking about it.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there a final query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as we have exhausted the queries for this session of working we would again thank each for asking for our presence in your circle of seeking. We are most privileged to be able to share our opinions with you. Remember, my friends, that we do not wish to provide a stumbling block for any seeker. Take only those words that we have spoken that speak to your heart, and leave all others behind. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we leave each in the love and the light of the infinite Creator. Adonai. Adonai, my friends.

This morning I made the choice to go back to using the Mirtazapine gel on Bosco’s ears to enhance his appetite even though it may be the cause of his scratching below both ears and causing wounds about the size of a quarter that I treat with Mupirocin ointment. For a couple of weeks, he was willing to take the Mirtazapine pill in greenie pill pockets, but two days ago he refused to do so. I have decided that it is more important for him to eat than to keep trying to give him ground up Mirtazapine in his food because he usually refuses to eat enough of the food to get very much of the medicine in it.

This afternoon the fellow from Shredit came by to shred about 200 lbs. of L/L papers, but he was not told that it was to be on site shredding, so he said he would send the on site shredders tomorrow afternoon.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 23

Trust, Hope And Light

I am the Spirit of the living truth, and I greet you in the full consciousness of that Love in which all truth abides.

This instrument is quite certain that it does not have the necessary state of mind for the transmission of truth and Love, as it is concerned about its friends, pondering their courses of action, caring too much for the susceptibilities of others to suffering and doubt.

Yet we say to all who care for others that the same Spirit that sustains each in its own struggles is ready to sustain friends and loved ones in that same suffering; that suffering which is universal; that suffering which furnishes good fruit; that suffering through which each pilgrim finds the value of not suffering.

Thus we say to each who is concerned for others, “Turn the attention to the self. Look for trust. Look for hope. Look for Light. And then rejoice in that Light, hope and trust and know that all is truly well.”

In this consciousness your friends may bathe as in the warmth of the hothouse, and your consciousness may then be a seal and protection for your friends. Consciousness itself, and not so-called good advice, is the primary gift of the Spirit of Love.

May the consciousness which is the Love of Jesus Christ sustain each and offer each peace, this day and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 19, 1998:

Our question this week concerns the concept of gratitude. How does gratitude work in the spiritual or metaphysical sense? It is said that it is a powerful force to have in the heart, just to be alive, to be breathing, and to serve the Creator. How does gratitude affect our spiritual growth, even in the worst of situations?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We bless and thank each of you for all that you have done to come to this circle of seeking at this time, for all that you have sacrificed and the choices that you have made that have brought you, as seekers of truth, to sit together and open your hearts to each other, to the universe whose citizens that you are, and to those thoughts of ours that might have use for you. You have truly given us a great blessing and a great gift. We hope that those thoughts that we share with you shall be helpful to you. If any thought does not please you, we simply ask that you release it and forget it, for we do not have authority but, rather, are as you: pilgrims sharing that which we have come to feel is our truth, hoping that it might be a resource for you as well. As always, we encourage your careful discrimination in listening to any and all opinion, for there is no authority as great as that which rests within you and which knows what is yours.

You ask this day about gratitude and thankfulness. We realize that this is peculiarly difficult to come to in any situation, for within the illusion that you experience as your incarnation the atmosphere is not full of clarity and illumination but rather often full of confusion and negative seeming emotion. The heart within desires to experience only a greater and greater amount of solitude, peacefulness, and beauty, but that which the world seems to offer is crowded with many different people with many different opinions and certainly seems far from peaceful as the timbers and rafters of your own personal mental interior shake and stagger under the many confusions that reign and that shall always hold sway over the incarnation, over the experience throughout the incarnation, for truly, as we often say, no one who takes incarnation upon a third-density planet is hoping for a clear and peaceful existence, but, rather, is hoping to be utterly confused and yet to remember, somehow, those truths which can only be known by faith, which can only be remembered by faith, and which can only yield hope, praise, and gratitude within the transformed heart.

It is that transformation of experience that each hopes for again and again within the incarnational experience. And as each of you looks back over patterns that have been completed in the past, each may see the working out of seemingly insurmountable confusion in ways that were unexpected and yet elegant, difficult, and beautiful. Such is the bittersweet quality of realization amidst the sea of confusion that is consensus reality within your Earth world.

What is the spirit that it should be mindful of such things as praise and thanksgiving? It is at this very basic level that so many among your peoples cannot grapple with the issue of life itself. What is the spirit within that it must take flesh and be thrust into a world of sensation that overstimulates with glorious disarray and confusion? The spirit, from the instant that it awakens into the Earth plane until that moment when the last breath leaves the body, what is this entity that it should feel anything, positive or negative? It is in facing this question of identity that the search for true thankfulness must begin. For just here, just upon that spot where the slide is under the microscope, there at that first glimpse of light of that which changes, we get the first scent of the dangers and the glories of this ephemeral and all-to-short process of incarnation. Each of you begins with that spark of Light that is your essence and your core. It is in no way different from or lesser than the Creator Itself, for it, as all things, is infinite and divine Love.

The clay from which you have been formed expresses that Love but is not that Love. There is no thing about each of you that one can pick up and say, “This is the essence of this person.” No, the essence of you is much closer to you than your body, is much more a part of you than your breathing, or your heartbeat, or the rush of blood through your veins. You are Love. It is this identity that is the only explanation for praise and thanksgiving, for positive or negative expression of any kind. When one can realize, even momentarily, that deep identity within, that congruency with the Logos Itself, the seeker then has his feet on solid ground and may say to the self, and in response to the world however it comes to him, “I am Love. I am in a state of utter confusion. But I am love. This is my nature. I take this on faith.” When one can begin with this much confidence then one is able to move into that attitude which this instrument would call the positive path or the path of service to others. If one thinks to oneself, “I am responsible. I did these things,” or “These and these things have been done unto me,” then one has become willing to begin, not from that place of love, but, rather, from a place where masks have been put on and a stage play is being acted. Once one has moved into that level of interaction and the various responses to each other’s catalyst that characterize relationships one no longer has a quick or short route to that positive place of rest within which knows, “I am Love, and the I am that is me is the I am that is you.”

Without this feeling of self as Love, one simply begins to see oneself as positioned in such and such a way and aiming to get positioned in such and such a way. Then the self has a story that is not being created in rhythm and according to destiny’s often slow pace, but rather the self is creating the self with masks at a level which does not fill the heart. The conversation before this meditation several times touched upon the many ways in which that feeling of humble thankfulness comes to one as a blessing and a special visitation much like the spring rain feeding the young plants. We encourage each of you to be willing, when thinking upon this subject of identity, to see the self as a deeply impersonal, a deeply true, entity. For truly each of you is that which is beyond personality, and if the spirit can rest in that most basic and profound identity there stems from time and attention spent here a strength and flexibility of emotional responses that is part of the rhythm of faith.

We are often aware of the degree of suffering among your peoples. The sorrow of your peoples is great. The yearning for that which is remembered is great. There is a hunger for heavenly things, as this instrument would call it, a thirst for that meat and drink that feeds the soul, and yet in so many ways the restless heart cannot find quiet enough to connect with that great heart of Love Itself, which is the source and ending of each and every spark of Light within the infinite creation.

The group question today was: “Our question this week concerns the concept of gratitude. How does gratitude work in the spiritual or metaphysical sense? It is said that it is a powerful force to have in the heart, just to be alive, to be breathing, and to serve the Creator. How does gratitude affect our spiritual growth, even in the worst of situations?” Q’uo began their response by saying that within our third density illusion the concepts of clarity and illumination are seldom experienced because of so many negative and confusing situations, but it was our desire when we incarnated to be completely confused so that we can remember those truths that can only be known by faith and yield the gratitude that can be felt within our transformed heart again and again. Then Q’uo asked what was the nature of our spirit that it is aware of the concepts of praise and thanksgiving and then incarnates into a world of confusion and seeks the positive and negative experiences? They went on to say that it is in this search for identity that the process of thankfulness begins as we become aware of the dangers and beauties within our brief incarnations which we have begun as a portion of the Light and Love of the Creator. They said that when we can realize that we are the Love of the Creator while being in a state of complete confusion, and then have the faith that we are this Love, then we can begin to make choices that lead us to the positive path. Then Q’uo said if we don’t come from this place of Love and, instead, have the attitude that we have failed to behave well or that others have hurt us, then we become actors in the stage play of the third density which means that we are taking the long path of realizing that we and all others are the Love of the Creator. They went on to say that if we cannot see ourselves as Love, then we are putting on masks that make it difficult to see the rhythm of our destiny unfolding before our eyes, so Q’uo reaffirmed that we can: “connect with that great heart of Love Itself, which is the source and ending of each and every spark of Light within the infinite creation.” On September 28, 2022, Q’uo said that it is our destiny to realize that we are the one Creator:

These steps that you take are informed by Love and by Light and in a balanced manner, so that the power of the combination of Love and Light may be able to manifest in your own life journey as the ability to make the choices of service to others, that are the fundamental nature of your journey. This choice is that which moves you as a pendulum, moves the air, indicates the direction, the choice, the movement in consciousness that is the path of the conscious seeker of truth.

This type of power is a kind of fuel for the spirit, which is the heart of your being of a mind/body/spirit complex. This spiritual nature connects you with all of the qualities of the One Infinite Creator that have made the entire creation so that you are a portion of that cosmic mind, that infinite intelligence, that has decided to know Itself in a manner which is possible through all of the choices that you make in all life experience, as you move consciously along your spiritual path into the realms of service to others that are more and more varied, more intense, and more pure, as you continue your journey of seeking and serving the One that is in all.

This is your journey. This is your joy. This is your destiny. You are all a portion of the One Infinite Creator, and this is what you are here to do: to be of service to the One that you see in each entity around you, in each portion of the creation around you. For the entire creation is alive, and the Creator breathes Its breath of life in all places. So, look you there within and without to find that which is your goal in life, to serve that One who is in all.

When entities attempt to feel gratitude they may well fail, for gratitude is not that which may be approached head-on with the most effectiveness but, rather, a sense of thankfulness or gratitude comes as a natural efflux or emanation from the soul which is willing to be still and allow the world to find its balance within the self. This is not something that is easily done by those within incarnation, for the living without faith is that which is taught and practiced by your culture, not here and there, but as a general rule. Young ones within your culture are taught to work, to give a good effort, to follow certain paths in order to further ambition. The soul is taught that worth is in what one does, and so each growing spirit faces the self, attempts to find that which will earn the money, attempts to prepare the self for doing this, and then spends the life following a certain career, profession or job, and as one is wending one’s way through the various obstacles that seem to pop up from day to day in the execution of these various professions and jobs and so forth, any entity that is able to help or facilitate one or another of these ambitions is seen as someone to whom to be grateful while those who are stumbling blocks seeming to be in the way between the self and the ambition are seen to be irritations and of negative help.

When we, or any, attempt to speak upon spiritual things we are often tempted simply to tell stories, for there is within stories that which words alone cannot express. And when dealing with gratitude perhaps the story that this instrument is most familiar with is the story of the Prodigal Son. There are several different ways to look at this little story that was told by the teacher known to you as Jesus. In this story the sons of a wealthy man have two different natures. The older son is the good son, and this son never thinks of anything but simply staying at home and working on the family estate. However, the younger son is impatient and ready to have fun, have a good time in his life. And so this younger son asks his father for his inheritance. He has decided that he wishes to go to the city and have a good time. The father is willing to give his young son his fair portion of his accumulated fortune that he has to offer. And so the Prodigal Son trots off to the big city and engages in various excesses of various kinds until he becomes penniless, homeless, and forlorn. Finally, the young man is reduced to living with the pigs, eating what is given to the pigs in order to stay alive. And it occurs to this Prodigal Son, “You know, I could go back to the country, back to my father’s house. Of course he wouldn’t take me back, but I could be a slave and eat much better than this because my father treats his slaves much better than this.” And so off he goes, but when the father sees him coming he rejoices greatly and orders a great feast to be prepared. Now the older son is very jealous of this, and says, “Gosh, dad, I’ve been with you all the time. I’ve always been a good boy. I’ve done everything you wanted me to do. You never killed a fatted calf for me, and here you are having a huge party for my idiot brother who never did anything.” The father says, “But don’t you see? I thought I had no son and now I do.”

Look at the gratitude in all of these people. The father, grateful because he has regained the son whom he loves. The Prodigal Son who is grateful simply to be accepted back as a slave, much less as a younger son. And look at the hard heart, the pain of the older brother who does not feel his father’s love since he has never done anything wrong for which his father has had to forgive him.

Each of you is a prodigal. Each of you has squandered precious things. Each of you greatly and humbly seeks to return to the house of the Father, to that place of Love that is undefiled and pure. For in that state gratitude is natural and flows effortlessly and this is a great truth for each of you, that you are loved deeply, that you are welcomed in spite of any and all failures, and that the Creator does give great thanks for you. Truly, it takes the movement of thought from the little self experienced in every day to that self that each knows is a truer and deeper self. Gazing at life from the standpoint of the everyday self, there is hardly ever a completely trouble-free or worry-free experience. There is hardly ever a reason to feel completely or profoundly grateful. And yet if one can move back into that prodigal self that is coming home, you may see that all of experience is such that the only response is thankfulness and praise.

Why is this gratitude so powerful? Simply because it is the truth. In truth everything that occurs to you is a gift. Each situation delivers to you the sisters and brothers of experience, Sister Sorrow, Brother Pain. The list is different for each entity. Brother Anger. Sister Depression. Each spirit will have its own guests that seem to be difficult indeed to be hospitable towards, and yet each of these guests comes with great gifts to give you. There is a natural rebellion against having to see things from such a deep perspective. The mind does not want to move to this level where it can be seen that all things are gifts. The mind wants to distinguish between things. The mind wants to make choices and stack everything in neat and orderly piles. “This is that. This is the other. This is something else entirely.” But that spark of true self within you is ever ready to spread and illuminate the spirit within, the heart within.

Each entity, each spirit that has taken flesh comes to the experience of incarnation with an agenda, with the hope of learning and the hope of service. It seems very simple before incarnation, this whole remembering of things through the veil. And it is not so simple, for the veil is surely there and surely appropriately thick and impenetrable. But for those who can live within the open heart, who can face the difficulties of the day from that place of the open heart, there is the opportunity to see each day as part of a dance that is all too short, a dance of rhythm and grace, a dance of living and feeling and expressing the truth within. We hope for each of you the grace to see into that rhythmic and muscular pattern that is prepared for you to walk upon. May each of you have the courage to wait when it feels right, to wait even though to the world this may make no sense. For if each of you can stay within the heart and can sense for the rhythmic delightfulness of things, that attitude of gratitude shall come easier and easier until finally you may experience whole days at a time for what they really are: one moment, one now that is ever fresh, ever beautiful, and ever perfect.

May you learn to express this faith by an increasing stubbornness in holding to that attitude that has its source in the spark of Love itself. For the attitude which you bring to your experience shall make a great deal of difference in that experience, and every moment that you spend attempting to center the self and balance the self, turning always again to that center of Love within, each moment is an experience of truth. We realize that this is a concept difficult to work with words, for the emotional content of thankfulness is far greater than words can express. The power of a thankful heart is truly infinite. May your heart have that great benefit of your protection of it, of your nurturing of that spiritual self within that more and more yearns to dance the dance of incarnation with rhythm, grace, and beauty.

Now Q’uo said that attempting to feel gratitude by itself is not the way that true gratitude develops within the soul, but, instead, it is in the willing of the soul to be still and allow the world around it to find its balance within the soul. They said that this is not easy to do within the culture which does not teach faith in this process but focuses on getting a good job, making money, having friends, and being grateful to those who help us to do this and feeling irritation towards those who hinder these efforts. Q’uo used the parable of the Prodigal Son to say how each of us has wasted useful things, and now we seek to return to the Love of the Father where we are greatly beloved in spite of all of our failures. They went on to say from the perspective of our everyday self we seldom have worry-free experiences or any reason to feel completely grateful, but if we can see ourselves as the Prodigal Son returning home, we can feel profoundly grateful. Q’uo went on to say that gratitude is so powerful because everything that happens to us is a gift, and is the way that we learn the truth through all of the difficult experiences that each person has in their own unique ways to learn the lessons of the incarnation and how to be of service. Q’uo continued by saying that these lessons looked much simpler before we moved through the veil of forgetting, but they said that if we could experience each lesson with an open heart that each day can become a dance of living, of seeing, and being able to express the truth within us. Then they said that if we can stay within our hearts and feel the rightness of our experiences, then gratitude will become easier for us to enter into for greater periods of time of feeling the perfection of the present moment. Q’uo completed their reply by recommending that we develop an attitude of faith and determination to center and balance our self, and to turn again to that Love within us so that each moment is an experience of truth because each moment is a dance of our incarnation full of rhythm, grace, and beauty. On October 19, 1986, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the truth within us:

Each choice, however, to be most efficacious, in our opinion needs to be based upon the great desire to seek what you may call the truth within each portion of one’s life, and then in a particular portion of the daily experience choose to reflect the Light which one has received back to the Creator in a manner of communing with the one Creator which will allow the seeker then to become aware of the essence of all things within the life pattern.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet you once again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present might have use in the requesting. Is there a further query at this time to which we might speak?

T: Could you comment on my meditational experience from last Sunday?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We may speak to a certain extent. The boundary which we do not wish to cross is that which infringes upon your own free will. However, we find that we may suggest that the catalyst which faces you now in the world of illusion is that which has significance to a deeper portion of your being. And as it does have a potency it therefore affects the perceptions that you experienced when you attempted to enter the meditative state and reach down into a deeper portion of your conscious mind in order harmonize your vibrations as a part of the group meditation. The difficult nature of the catalyst which you now face had its effect upon the images which were being fed to you from your subconscious mind and were attempting to give an indication of the effect of this catalyst upon a basic portion of your personality structure. Therefore, the distortions in your perception occurred as a means whereby the effect of the deeper levels of your being was presenting itself in symbolic form to the conscious mind.

May we speak to any other query, my brother?

T: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I would like to ask about this sense that was suggested to me that my reluctance to work on this book was related to it being my swan song, the last thing that I would do before leaving this incarnation. Could you comment on this possibility?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Again, we may speak only in a limited sense in this instance. To look upon a project or an activity as that which shall be the final statement of an incarnation is an attitude and an experience which could be utilized at any time by any entity within the incarnation, for, indeed, no entity knows the length of days which await in the future, as you call it. Whether this particular project is indeed the final curtain of your incarnation has little value in whether or not an entity such as yourself might decide to undertake it. For to think in this manner is to put a limitation upon one’s own perceptions and experience whether the perception may eventually be true or false. Thus, we would counsel you, my sister, to worry not in this regard, for it is well said in one of the cultural sayings of your people that “what will be, will be.” Your attitude in partaking in this experience is that which will make it as it will be for you.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[No more questions.]

I am Q’uo, and we would once again thank each entity present for inviting our presence in your circle of seeking this day. It is always a great privilege for us to be invited to your meditation gathering, for we, in these experiences, are able to have our being within your illusion and are able to see the Creator in each and every entity and activity, observing the effect of illusion upon Love. We would remind each that there is no entity which walks this path alone. For each here and, indeed, each person of your planetary population, has a guide, a teacher, a counselor, a friend, and many of them that accompany each upon this journey. Within those moments of meditation, of prayer, and of contemplation retire you there to speak with those who walk with you and who offer you unseen hands in times of need. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we leave each of you in the love and light of the infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went upstairs and recorded the section on Exercise from Chapter Three of 101. Then I went outside and changed out the sugar syrup in my neighbor’s two hummingbird feeders. Her feeders seemed to have some activity last week, but mine didn’t so I am not changing out my feeders because this is the time of year that the hummingbirds head south. Then I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco, and my second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up some Kleenexes.

This afternoon I went upstairs and recorded the sections on Mental Health and Emotions from Chapter Three of 102. Then I went outside and transplanted the ten chrysanthemums that I placed at the bottom of the Flower Fall Mound, to replace the Sun Patiens that the deer ate, into the ground with the plan of leaving them there as they are perennials.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 22

Guard Your Thoughts With Love

I am the Spirit of all compassion, which speaks with the voice of Jesus the Christ to the needs of the world today. I greet my beloved brothers and sisters in spirit in the consciousness which is divine Love.

You are surrounded by that Love. Each cell of the body acknowledges and dwells within that Love. All things are held in balance by divine Love: planets in their courses, blood in the veins, the breath in the body.

All that is left without the confines of the perfect and perfectly understood Love of Jesus the Christ is the free will of humankind. Therefore, your thoughts are not necessarily protected by the consciousness of Love.

Allow your thoughts, therefore, to dwell with those things which are full of Love: your own body, cell by cell; the creation about you, blade of grass by blade of grass. And Love Itself may come to comfort you as your consciousness prays to the consciousness of divine Love.

May you be in prayer this day, for the Comforter is always with those who request it. In this surety and in this peace we leave you, with blessings, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 4, 1998:

Our question has to do with a quote which Ra made, “The source of all distortion is the limitation of the viewpoint.” We are wondering how, since each of us seems to bring various distortions with us into the illusion, these distortions affect that which we produce, whether we raise a family, create laws, beauty, dance, channel, whatever we do? How do our distortions in our personalities affect that which we hope to produce in our learning and our service in this incarnation?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator in whose service we come to your peoples. We want to thank each of you for calling us to your group, for enabling us to learn from our own way of offering service. For truly without your call we could not be useful in our present occupation, for we hear the cries of the sorrowed of the Earth, and we seek to lighten that sorrow by sharing our thoughts and our opinions. We ask that each of you exercise discrimination in listening to our words or any words. For we are not authorities, nor is anyone else when it comes to the spiritual journey, for each person is unique. Each spirit has its own journey, and though there are many, many points of similarity each path is unique. Each spark of the Creator is unique, and each will recognize and treasure those truths that are meant to be heard. Those thoughts that we offer that do not meet that demanding criteria, we ask that you leave behind. For truly you shall recognize those concepts that can be to you a tool or a resource in your evolution.

Your query this evening concerns distortion, the distortion seen in personality. And in order to discuss this we must move back to examine that concept of distortion. This is the way that we use the word distortion. To our way of thinking, all that there is in the manifested world is distortion. The lack of distortion, when absolute, describes intelligent infinity, the Creator Itself, in Its unpotentiated state. The first distortion which approaches the unmanifest intelligent infinity is Free Will. This produces that manifestation of the Logos which is known to this instrument as intelligent energy, or Love, and the next distortion is known to your scientists as the photon, or Light. When we come to you in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator we are coming to you in those distortions, for were we to come to you as undistorted Creator we would have no being in a manifested universe. We would be unable to act in any way, for all would be one in an absolute sense.

So, when we gaze at the distortion of a particular personality shell, at the systems of energy blockage and bafflement which causes what seem to others as an unbalanced or distorted personality, we gaze upon distortions of distortions of distortions. We gaze upon systems of energy, all of which are distortions of the one great original Thought which is Love. To us, then, that a person is distorted in such and such a way, in the context of an incarnation, is not a bad, a wrong, or an incorrect thing. For we are aware that each entity before incarnation selects the personality shell which contains those gifts and those physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual limitations which will create biases or distortions, which will then set up both the personal learning for that entity for that incarnation and the path of service or paths of service that become available to the entity during incarnation, given that various systems of distortion do indeed prove to stand the test of incarnational time.

It is not that an entity incarnates with one mission and can either fulfill it or fail to fulfill it. Rather, there is the setting up of circumstance which may provide the catalyst which was considered desirable by that spirit before incarnation. The system of distortions or biased opinions can show themselves very simply in the growing entity as preferences. Each young spirit in incarnation discovers things that it likes, things that it wishes to avoid. As the incarnation progresses there are repetitions and cycles of experience that lead the entity repeatedly to the crossroads of incarnational choice, not simply once in an incarnation but reliably and dependably again and again. Each spirit will face one or more basic incarnational questions. For instance, this instrument is already aware that its incarnational desire for personal learning was to find situations in which it was able to give without expectation of return. This is, in fact, a fairly common incarnational goal. And to this end, certain biases were chosen by this particular entity. In just this fashion each evolving spirit will in the processes of incarnational living meet situation after situation in which the metaphysical question is repeated, and the choice may again be made for service to others, for service to self.

So, the biases given to oneself certainly create avenues of learning and avenues of service. However, the metaphysical twist, shall we say, of fate deposits in each spirit’s experience a universe in which gifts are not necessarily used for what that entity thinks they should be used for. The ability to dance, the ability to sing, the ability to do mathematical equations, the ability to do any particular thing which is considered unusually skillful or to constitute a talent or a gift may logically be assumed to lead one to a specific career or line of work or avenue of expression. In many cases, this is simply not the goal in a metaphysical sense. Because one can, for instance, play the piano it is not necessarily one’s fate to become a pianist. The delicacy with which the music is heard and felt, the dexterity of mind and muscle that is involved in producing a heartfelt and intelligent piece of music has many metaphysical uses which are not necessarily apparent and do not have much to do with music.

Consequently, biases in the form of talents and gifts, in a metaphysical sense, do not equate from talent to expression. There is always the mystery of that rhythm of destiny which, if looked for, and listened for, and heeded when heard, can greatly facilitate and ease the accomplishment of that destiny which was, in fact, metaphysically hoped for, illogical as it may seem in Earth terms.

In the sense in which the question was asked, the distortions had to do with producing a pure channeling, the three entities involved in producing this channeling being obviously distorted and biased and in many ways unbalanced. The question put to this instrument by the original questioner in this regard was, “How can such an unbalanced group produce a pure and clear contact?” And we say to this entity, the one known as J, and to this group, as we have said before and as others have said through this instrument, that, metaphysically speaking, it is the intention, the desire, and the hunger of the entity in visualizing service that creates the service, not the system of distortions which have set up a particular dynamic. However, it is to be noted that in line with what we have said about distortions, although it is in no way obvious that various distortions would create these dynamics, nevertheless, the distortions chosen by each of those three entities were exquisitely utile in creating an atmosphere in which three confused and highly distorted entities could support each other’s desire to serve and could support such with a purity of intention that, for each, had been honed over a period of time.

Again, we note that distortion, seen in a metaphysical sense, is a matter of mechanics, of setting up a situation which may produce a system of energies that harmonizes for a specific kind of service. When any group unites for service there is a great explosion of potential energy, and it is to those entities who have spent the time or the effort or have the gifts to be of a sincerity that is profound that service in a group shall be most successful. The way distortion feeds into group effort, then, is both obvious and mysterious. Obvious in the sense of seen attributes, talents, and gifts. Forever mysterious in that seen by human eyes each entity is less than perfect. Seen as systems of energy that may harmonize, distortions may be seen as most fortunate and most powerful in combination.

Our question has to do with a quote which Ra made, “The source of all distortion is the limitation of the viewpoint.” We are wondering how, since each of us seems to bring various distortions with us into the illusion, these distortions affect that which we produce, whether we raise a family, create laws, beauty, dance, channel, whatever we do? How do our distortions in our personalities affect that which we hope to produce in our learning and our service in this incarnation? Q’uo began by saying that it was their belief that all of creation is distorted, and only the Creator is not distorted. They said that the first distortion is the Free Will of the Creator which then uses the power of Love to create the third distortion which is Light that manifests as the photon that is the material of the creation. Then Q’uo said that when they looked at any entity’s personality shell, they could see many distortions of mind, body, spirit, and emotions that give the entity the means of learning its incarnational lessons and of being of service to others. Q’uo went on to say that as we grow up our distortions manifest as things or experiences, some which we like, and some that we don’t like, and our pre-incarnative lessons will present themselves many times during our lives such as in desiring to give without expectation of return so that we can make the basic choice of service to others or service to self. Q’uo continued by saying that we are all born with a variety of gifts that may not always be used in the way that we think that they should be used in the metaphysical sense, so they suggested that we look for that rhythm of our destiny to determine how we can use our gifts. Q’uo went on to say that it was the intention to use our gifts to be of service that was the most important factor in how the gifts should be used, and that distortions seen in the metaphysical sense could be utilized in an harmonious way to provide a certain kind of service. Q’uo completed their thoughts on distortions by saying that: “The way distortion feeds into group effort, then, is both obvious and mysterious. Obvious in the sense of seen attributes, talents, and gifts. Forever mysterious in that seen by human eyes each entity is less than perfect. Seen as systems of energy that may harmonize, distortions may be seen as most fortunate and most powerful in combination.” On March 23, 2019, Q’uo defined how distortions might be used:

We would suggest using the term “expression of” so that any quality that might be considered a distortion might also be seen as a quality that is an expression of a certain kind of an experience. In this way there could be more and more intensity of expression of beauty, of truth, of separation, of ugliness, of adversary relationship, so that there is the quality of more of one sense of an entity, or of beauty, of joy, of understanding, of separation, and so forth. There is, indeed, then, the different type of use of distortion in this regard that sees distortion as a range, as a degree of expression of a certain kind of quality, rather than a simple movement away from unity.

So, in the sense of the more general use of distortion, there is the original answer that we gave concerning movement away from unity as we proceed in the creation towards more and more individualization of the creation. There is also the use of distortion in the sense that there is more or less of a certain quality available in the creation of a certain aspect, shall we say, of the creation.

We are those of Q’uo, and we would welcome further queries upon this point before moving on to another question.

H: I want to know if you can enlighten me on my father who died last August and the fact that I have a real sense of him being with me, and I am not sure what I mean by that. Perhaps you can help me understand a real sense of his presence with me at this time?

We are those of Q’uo, and we grasp your query, my sister. When entities leave the Earth plane there is, in many cases, much healing that needs to take place, and adequate time and space for this healing is supported, nurtured, and provided. There is no time limit upon this period of balancing and review of incarnation, and often a portion of this healing is the continued ability to, as this instrument would say, keep track of those entities [which one has] a particular kind of connection, affinity, or dynamic with. In many cases there is the opportunity during this period for comfort in the company of those still living who have this particular connection, affinity, or dynamic. This is not necessarily evident from closeness within incarnation and, indeed, when there has been some lack of communication within incarnation it is extremely healing for the entity moving through that review of incarnation to sit on the shoulder, indeed, to lie within the heart as comforter and supporter. And most of all to breathe the odor of a beloved personality, for even though the personality shell is chosen out of a vast self that is the true self for incarnation, that personality shell is turned into art, turned into beauty by the creative Spirit. And when an entity gazes back over an incarnation and sees that bright light of a particular shell that for this entity has shone, or as the song said, “Helped the universe to shine,” for this entity, there is great comfort in the company of that entity. It is not that there is a great message to be shared or that there is a concern, but, rather, simply an enjoyment and appreciation that could not be felt within incarnation but that is seen from the wider standpoint of larger life beyond that veil of illusion which is the Earth plane.

May we answer you further, my sister?

H: What I think I hear you saying is that the entity that manifested on Earth as my father is now sitting on my shoulder in appreciation of having a broader view now that he is no longer manifested physically. He is more of a total spirit. It is more like that entity is looking at me, and that is an interesting perspective for me to see because I wondered if I was in some way invoking him. Or wanting to, or this was a hope. I didn’t know where it was coming from. Thank you for your explanation.

We are those of Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. We believe that you have the gist of it as we offered it. This instrument is having difficulty expressing this concept. The puzzle of personality is that puzzle where pieces keep trying to fit together, and after incarnation after incarnation is experienced each entity in relationship finds the fit a bit better and a bit better. And as entities move in and out of illusion they can, when out of the illusion, have far greater appreciation of the healing and healthful aspects of a given relationship and find transformative healing within appreciation of the living entity that is within incarnation seen from that broader context. Indeed, for a person to heal from incarnation there is the self to be forgiven. And each relationship is gazed upon. The surprises involved in this gaze from larger life are many. And we would simply say that in most cases where there is that intuition of presence the source of that intuition is not the self in the personality shell of incarnation but the other self that is in relationship and that is relating from larger life as a part of its healing. So, in a way that entity that is you is a healing presence to this entity as it is in larger life reviewing the incarnation that has been and gazing at the self to see what perhaps shall be the next choices of incarnation, of personality shell, of mission, of purpose.

Is there a further question, my sister?

H: Thank you very much. That was very clear.

Q’uo: We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument and leave it in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. We would continue to entertain further queries that those present might have for us at this time.

E: I am wondering if it is possible to meet yourself in the form of another person in this life?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. In the largest possible sense this is always true with each entity that you meet, for each entity is an other self, an other aspect of your self and of the one Creator from which all aspects move into experience through the illusion.

In the sense which we feel you are asking at this time we would also suggest that is also quite possible for entities to have the opportunity to interact with other portions of the self which have incarnated from other periods of the, as you would see it, the river of time moving from one point to another. However, we would suggest that this experience is one which has the purpose of allowing each aspect of the larger self to integrate with another in order that there might be a more complete experience for that portion of the self which might be termed the oversoul or the higher self. This portion of each entity’s self exists at a level of experience which can be seen as existing in your future. However, it also is that which exists in what you see as your past. The experience of each of its portions is undertaken in order that an overall balance might be achieved.

Is there a further question, my brother?

E: How would you recognize such a meeting?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We would suggest that the recognition is most difficult, for the great majority of the third-density population is unaware of the possibility of such an experience and would not be able to identify the feelings of familiarity and the intuition that alerts the conscious mind to the recognition that is subtle, profound and powerful.

Is there a further query?

E: No. Thank you. I think that that was a very accurate answer.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: H and I were talking about how I could help myself with diet. I feel that I am living on faith and nerve pretty much after a lot of experience with diet. Why would I give myself such a bankrupt system? Why would I not react to food which I so love to see growing and that I so love to cook for other people? I have no logical anything to illuminate that feeling. It’s just an intuition.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. As you are so well aware, the experience which you have had with the ingestion of foodstuffs has been one which has seen a full circle of variety and preparation, tailored so that the gastrointestinal tract which your physical vehicle is saddled with may be able to pass the foodstuffs in a regular fashion. There has been the pre-incarnative choices to limit the physical vehicle in many ways in order that the efforts of the incarnation might be focused inwardly and might look toward those areas towards which it has looked. The side effects of the physical vehicle’s limitations are many, including those concerning the ingestion of foodstuffs, as you are aware. The fact that the physical vehicle is still incarnate is a fact that should bring great rejoicing, for this physical vehicle has gone through much stress and difficulty throughout its incarnation in order that the focus be maintained. It is part of your present understanding that the low-residue diet is of central importance, and this suggestion is one which we continue to recommend. This in itself has its limiting factors according to the variety of foodstuffs that are within the range of the low-residue diet. If there is the desire to further improve the diet, we are aware of some small measures that can be taken but in the overall sense would continue to recommend the course which has been traveled of late.

We would at this time once again thank those present for inviting our presence in your circle of seeking this day. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai.

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply to buy some cat food. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My third stop was at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. My fourth stop was at Speedway to get 5 gallons of gasoline for my big mower, Venus. I also filled up Stanley with gas as well. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some paper plates. When I got back home, I went upstairs and recorded the section of 102 called The Chakra System/Energy Body.

This afternoon, after lunch, I went back upstairs and recorded the section of 102 called Balancing Exercises. Then I went outside and used my hedge clippers to cut down the dying Peony plants near the fishpond, and then I put them in a garbage can for yard waste pickup Thursday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 21

Credo

Greetings in the Love of Christ. I am the Spirit of the consciousness of Christ in the vibration which comforts this child.

Can you consider yourself as one of the company of the faithful because you know that the means of eternal life is at hand? Can you rest in the glory of your future experience while dwelling in the present difficult times?

We find your hearts to be lax, for in your appreciation of the inevitability of salvation, you forget that the moment of salvation for any soul is that moment in which the soul may turn to its Creator and vibrate, “Credo. Credo,” with a whole and single heart.

Peace be with you, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 1, 1998:

Our question today concerns the principle of spiritual pride. We are wondering how it fits into the sequence of catalyst that each of us works with in our lives. We all work with pride at some time or another. Some have said that it comes up last in our pattern, that it is sort of the culmination of all of our work. We would like for Q’uo to give us an idea of what spiritual pride is and how we work with it and if there is any particular time that is more appropriate to work with it than any other?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as the vibration, Q’uo. And we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose service we are. We feel very privileged to be called to your circle at this session of working, and we bless and thank each within the circle who has come to seek the truth. We share that seeking and are glad to share our poor thoughts, as long as each of you will feel completely comfortable listening without needing to agree or to disagree, for if you disagree we would ask that you would leave behind those thoughts. And if you agree, then we would ask that you would simply make those thoughts part of your own resources and tools, always subject to the moving rhythms of learning and experience, for personal truth is both clear and moving. There are journeys to take in this seeking of truth, ways of going that develop and lead to other levels, other facets of that infinite mystery that is Love.

This instrument finds it amusing that one of the cats that is a denizen of this house has chosen this moment to begin to snore. We hope that that is not in reaction to our words, but we cannot be sure. At any rate, we find it humorous, for we are not proud, and we take pride in that. We seek to be humble, and we know that we may be speaking complete nonsense to any of your ears, and if that is the way that it comes out, that is fine with us, that is what we wish to say. For you are the arbiter that is important to you. It is your judgment that counts and no one else’s. No authority. No book. No person. For within you is all that there is, and within you is a finely honed system of sense, the physical senses being but the beginning of those senses into which you may pour your attention and from which you derive the biases that distort your life in just the way that you live it. These biases and distortions are yours. No one else’s. You are unique.

We are aware that you wish to talk about spiritual pride, and we find that, as is often the case, when we are asked concerning a specific subject, we need to move back into the generalities upon which we may base those opinions that we would share with you. Let us look at this concern of pride. What is the general concept of pride? When someone is proud it is generally of some thing. A person may take pride in many things: his physical strength, her physical delicacy, the abundance of supply, or the lack of dependence upon supply, the work that one does, or the work that one will not do, the relationships that one has, or the barrier to relationships. In all these things one may take a certain pride, may say, “I feel that this is a strong point of my being. I feel I can be proud of this accomplishment, this relationship, this situation.” And there is nothing more distorted about pride than there is about the illusion in general. However, in general the illusion is very dense, and this illusion creates the distortion that it is what one does that is the avenue for pride, for feeling worthwhile. The conversation of strangers tends to begin in your culture with an examination of the work that each is accomplishing in order to make money or in order to express self. Whether the work is routine or creative, it is a starting point that people recognize in each other, the place of comfort where one can divulge something about the self and be receptive to hearing something trustably understandable from others. It is very awkward to go up to a stranger and say, “What sort of vibration do you have? What kind of being are you?” Entities tend not to take pride in who they are, in the being that they express moment to moment. So, you may see all of spiritual pride as a thing basically one with mental and emotional pride and physical pride.

Now let us look at pride as [in] your religions, especially the Christianity, the Muslim, and the yogic systems. In those systems spiritual pride is considered a negative value. Why is that? It is assumed that if one is proud, then there is something that must be overcome in order for him to continue with his spiritual unfoldment and evolution. Perhaps the principle, the spine, shall we say, of reason for the mistrust of pride by spiritual systems is best illustrated in the little story within your Holy Bible wherein two men are described, one of whom has made it very obvious by the way that he is dressed, by the spiritual accouterment of his costume and the books that he holds, and beside him a beggar man with tattered clothing and dirty skin, an empty stomach, and a full awareness of his iniquity. While the rich and well-satisfied man is praying, “Oh Lord, I give more to the temple than anyone else. I fast three days a week. I pray without ceasing,” the beggar is saying over and over, “Lord, have mercy on me, a sinner.” Can you see the walls that have come up about this rich man, the wall of wealth, of dress, of possessions, and of actions? All of them offered in a sincere effort to be holy but offered as an accomplishment. These walls make it possible for this man not to realize that in addition to all of these things that he has done right, there remains a basic and intrinsic identity within the illusion which the rich man and the beggar share with total equality. And that is the human state. The human state itself is the basis of pride, for it seems to each human, without recourse to any physical evidence, that she is alone, that the walls of skin surround the self and cut it off from oneness with all else that there is.

To those who are not seeking spiritually, this may seem fairly obvious and not worth mentioning. Of course, each entity is separate. Of course, each entity is alone. Each has common concerns with others of like mind, but with physical eyes, physical senses, there is no question but that each entity is alone, apart from and over against other selves, outer situations in general, and the entire environment in which the entity dwells. It is instinct, the instinct of the physical body, that carries you about, that begins this discriminatory process. The infant slowly realizes that some of its needs will not be met. It begins to realize that some things can be hurtful and does not want to repeat experiences of pain. And so, the walls begin to go up about the young heart. “Don’t touch the stove. Don’t pat the cat too hard. Don’t pick up the dog. Don’t. Don’t. Don’t.” As the child grows it learns how to defend the self. It experiments with ways of relating to other selves. And except in very unusual situations, by the time this entity is considered a mature adult by the surrounding society, this entity has become one to some extent controlled by fear.

We changed from pride to fear because the one known as J was asking which was the ultimate catalyst to be dealt with within third density. And we would respond in general that the only catalyst dealt with in third density is fear and love. The entity begins its babyhood wrapped in love, love known throughout its system, and it learns to close itself, to become apart, and to become defended because it seems fairly obvious that there are things to fear. There are entities and objects out there that can harm and hurt. So, the spiritual life within third density may be described as either a learning how to love or a learning how to release fear, for fear is that distortion of love that posits a separation betwixt beings and things, thus occasioning the necessity of having some sort of response to these persons or things that will tend to increase safety and comfort.

We are not saying that these contents are incorrect, for the entity’s fears are real. There is that which is feared. It is an illusion. However, the illusion cannot be brutally penetrated and torn away, for that would also do harm to the developing self. Indeed, when one is working with one’s fears, attempting to see the love behind the apparent separation, the most nearly correct attitude is simply the slowing down of self, quieting the mind, stilling the emotion, until you are able to sit with whatever fear that is, not removing it harshly, but perhaps moving away strands from that tapestry in front of you, gradually making an opening through which you can see the light beyond.

We could picture the fear in one as being within a cave of safety with a good stout blanket over the hole of the cave to hold back those things of which they are afraid. If one rips away the blanket, then one must deal with all of the distortion at once. However, if one is satisfied to sit with and accept and be conscious of that particular fear that you are experiencing, then one may gently, gradually, with persistent effort, see a lightening of the burden, see a nearer and nearer distance to where that blanket has a place in it where one can go in and out and venture a step or two into that world beyond the cave.

The group question for this session was: “We would like for Q’uo to give us an idea of what spiritual pride is and how we work with it and if there is any particular time that is more appropriate to work with it than any other?” Q’uo began their response by saying that third-density entities don’t usually take pride in the nature of their being, so they gave a general definition of pride in the third density illusion as that which one feels proud of in the areas of the mental, emotional, and physical accomplishments. Q’uo then said that most of our world religions view pride as something negative that needs to be overcome, and that the basic human state that creates pride is the feeling that one is isolated and alone, cut off from any feeling of oneness. Q’uo went on to say that if one is not a spiritual seeker that being physically alone is obvious and is first realized in childhood when the child is told a series of actions that it should not do which eventually causes the feeling of being controlled by fear. Then Q’uo said that they mentioned fear because the only catalysts that are dealt with in the third density are fear and love, so the spiritual life in third density is either learning how to love or how to release fear as fear is a distortion of love which suggests that there is a separation that requires that people find a way to be safe. Then Q’uo suggested that the way to deal with fear was to quiet the mind and carefully examine the cause of any fear so that the fabric of the fear may be slowly separated, and the light that is beyond the fear may be seen. On August 9, 2002, Q’uo described how releasing fear may be accomplished:

However, there is just as much efficacy in the smallest improvement in releasing fear. As the entity perceives fear where before it did not, thusly it begins to perceive those key elements which provide the catalyst that increases fear. Once these imbedded points of entry for negative catalyst are located, it may be seen that these are like triggers towards contraction, self-protection and fear. Thusly, the process becomes more and more transparent to the seeking self, and the self begins to be able to disconnect the seemingly fear-producing catalyst from the actual process of turning catalyst into experience. It is a matter of identifying that point when an entity is entering into fear, and, as we said, this is a subtle and usually long-term process. It is an awakening that is most salubrious and certainly, usually, most dearly bought.

There are those things which enrich and deepen an entity’s ability to work with catalyst, and predictably we feel that this bliss begins with the silence. Entering into silence is an unnatural decision to the earth-bound entity. There is a tremendous amount of letting go implicit in the training of the self to enter into the silence and to release the contents of the intellectual mind. We heartily recommend this entering into the silence upon a daily basis, because it is a kind of training that is like the exercise of the body that strengthens the muscles.

Each of you has come to feel comfortable with imaging and ideating of the self as a spiritual being. Each of you is awake in a land where many slumber. And so to each of you there are special opportunities, both for service and for pain, and spiritual pride is a distortion which each seeker becomes aware of in a subtle way, over time. It is that which remains when the fears have been shaken up and the cave has been left. It is the distortion or fault peculiar to those who have worked the hardest to realize who they are, and where they are going, and whose they are. So let us look at the possible way to work with this dynamic of spiritual pride.

Within this instrument’s spiritual system, pride, like envy, greed, lust, sloth, is considered more of a vice than an actual sin, a kind of excess of a good thing. It is good to be humble, and yet one can justly be proud of one’s good works, one’s good habits, one’s ethics, one’s conduct. When one is attempting to do everything that one can to live a good and holy life, one is peculiarly apt to feel some pride in oneself. Now can you see how that feeling is a separator between the self and the world about the self? It is based upon the assumption, which is an illusion, that one is responsible for the self and at the base of the self, one is oneself. This is a sticky, sticky point, and we would ask you to look closely at this matter of identity, for as long as there is self, there will be pride in self or a feeling about self that does separate one from other. If one is still thinking that one is still living one’s own life, one is not yet beyond spiritual pride. This instrument is aware that she is not beyond spiritual pride and has often said that this is the one vice that she cannot find a way to remove from her personality, for even though she attempts to work on her humility she has a pride of self that thinks self is right. There is a righteousness there. There is an inherent lack of eagerness to taste other souls’ flavors. There is a desire to retain some boundaries, some uniqueness of self, which is completely understandable in an illusion where there is no way to discover in any way that can be proven that one is not separate, that one is not, at base, oneself. And yet we say to you that as far as we know, at base there is only the one great Self, that Love which is reflected in each of the Creator’s children, which each of you is.

As long as you think that you have a self that you need to defend you shall be working with spiritual pride, and so entities for the most part are working with this no matter how persistently and purely and devotionally they have sought year after year, yet still there is the sense of “I” am searching. “I” am looking. “I” am seeking to become the best that “I” can. Conversely, we have found that coming into a fuller awareness of self is actually a process of subtraction, simplification, and elimination of things from the defended self until finally the self is empty and the barriers are down. Is this safe to do within your density? No. Not at all, not in the sense of the preservation of the physical body, the emotional body, or the spiritual body within incarnation.

What we are trying to say is that it is not a terrible thing to be working with pride or in general to be working with one’s fear. This is part of what one is doing in this illusion. This is what you are supposed to be doing. This is your subject matter: fear and love. Boundaries and unity. Each time this instrument tunes she repeats a prayer that we would like to repeat at this time. “Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace. Where there is hatred, let me sow love. Where there is injury, pardon. Where there is discord, union. Where there is doubt, faith. Where there is despair, hope. Where there is darkness, light. Where there is sadness, joy. Oh, divine Master, teach us to seek not so much to be loved, as to love. Not so much to be consoled, as to console.” And this instrument often says, “Not so much to be controlling, but to allow control. For it is in pardoning that we are pardoned. It is in giving that we receive. It is in dying that we rise to eternal life.” Do you see the imagery of this prayer? The darkness that separates. The light that joins. The hatred that separates. The love that unites. This Prayer of St. Francis is the outcry of the soul who wishes to be free of self and subsumed into the service of the infinite Mystery that it worships and adores.

Then Q’uo said spiritual pride is that which develops in the spiritual seeker when it has left fear behind and has worked long and diligently to know the true nature of its being, and it is in this situation that it is easy to develop spiritual pride in how well one has lived a spiritual life. Q’uo went on to say that if one thinks that they are living their own life, wishing to retain spiritual boundaries, and thinking that they are right, they are not yet beyond spiritual pride. And then Q’uo said: “as far as we know, at base there is only the one great Self, that Love which is reflected in each of the Creator’s children, which each of you is.” Q’uo went on to say that as long as we think that we have a small self to defend and feel that it is achieving a great number of goals and desires that we should consider coming into an awareness of the true nature of our self is a process of subtracting qualities of the defended self until it is empty, and our defensive barriers are down. Then Q’uo said that it is all right to be working on our pride, on the concepts of fear and love, because this is the work of the third density, so they used The Prayer of St. Francis as an example of: “The darkness that separates. The light that joins. The hatred that separates. The love that unites.” They said that these concepts give us the opportunity to be free of our self and move as our soul into the service and worship of the infinite Mystery. On June 12, 1994, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the infinite Mystery:

When the desire to serve is felt within, and a channel is opened to the infinite Creator by means of praise and thanksgiving to that infinite One, then it is that this infinite mystery may flow through you, and as a star shines out into the infinite reaches of the one infinite and unified Creation there is no time or space. There is no size of large or small. Each speck of consciousness contains the Creator. Therefore, the wish to serve followed by the dedication to the mystery which is the one great original Thought, that Creator whose name is Love, know and take comfort in this truth as we understand it: you are effective. As you desire to serve, so do you serve. That soul whom you touch may never know you, may never be on the same continent as you, yet that universal Love which you channel forth in that silent witnessing finds its target, for it is called and it goes where it is called. You have only to sit and know the truth that all is Love.

And this is the door that opens into a larger and less fear-filled view of living within the illusion, this realization that there are different ways to look at each situation, that it is not terrible to have faults or to have sins or to have pride about the good things and fear about the bad things. That one is intended to be very confused by this illusion. That there is positive value in this confusion in that it, and it alone, tears most people away from those things that they cling to in fear.

You are attempting to set yourself free of an illusion, and yet within you there lies the self that is completely free, and often this instrument will recommend to people that instead of working intellectually upon some perceived problem that the person simply visualize a perfect state that is the actual truth of the situation. In truth, all is Love. In truth, all is perfect now, this instant, just as it is. For there is no time or space. This is an illusion. This is the stuff of the illusion. And each of us upon our journey are illusions also. And yet unique and wonderful beings, beloved of the Creator and persisting through octaves and octaves of creation to infinity, as those very sparks that learn again and again more and more as the creation’s heartbeat pulses and universes live and die and other universes are born.

It is easy to think of the spiritual life as a kind of school out of which one shall one day graduate, and certainly within the illusion of time life is graduated by larger life. There is a periodicity to things. Then for that universe in the fullness of that system of illusions, all the sparks of the Creator will have completed their journey and lost themselves within the Creator again. And all comes together in that universe at that time in an unimaginable ending of illusion into nothingness. For when there is no one to perceive, what is there but the Creator? And then the Creator dreams again and a universe is born, and the sparks are sent out again to learn more. And so, you are all on a journey that the Creator is fascinated with. You cannot do anything that will turn the Creator against you, for the Creator loves all that It has made with an unimaginable fervor and absolute tenacity and embraces each spark with a Love so profound and so great that it cannot be expressed.

We recommend to each the Prayer of St. Francis. When working with fear, and working with pride, and working with any perceived distortion that keeps one from that tuning that is the truest and the highest of the self, the remembrance that there are always ways of perceiving things that change your choices and options is a tremendous tool. Simply remembering that you can explore any situation for alternate ways of perceiving it, for alternate patterns into which to put it is a great resource. We encourage each to go ahead and be proud and to know that that is a distortion that is not particularly service-to-others oriented. And so, you shall work with it as you shall work with all you perceive false, and yet you shall remain human and error-prone, as we are error-prone. But beneath the time and space, the incarnation and the concerns of the incarnation, there abides a well of being that is infinite within you, an identity which creates unity with all that there is. And those moments when one is lost in communion with the Source and ending of all things are moments of blessing and healing where there is no distortion, for time and space have flown away and you are tabernacling with the Most High.

The next time that you experience the catalyst of feeling that you are yet an incomplete spiritual being, remember the truth of subtracting, of dropping away that which is not. And as you experience those realizations that enable you to drop a part of the ego away, rejoice. You cannot make it happen. You cannot rush it. But there come moments, and you perceive that you no longer have that pride or that particular fear. And of that you may be proud and happy, and if that is a distortion also, then so be it. For you are not here to go beyond distortion but to live within distortion by faith, to express within this confusion a trust in the plan that placed you here, a trust in the destiny that is absolutely yours. A feeling that cannot come from proof or words that all that is yours will come to you and that you do not need to reach but only ask “Thy will for me today. What is it? And I will try my best.” That is all that you must do. So do not give up upon the self because it continues to have distortions and confusions. That is all right. You are not supposed to be without illusion. Ah, precious incarnation. If we could but share with you the opportunity that is now yours. If we could share that perception with you fully you would jump for joy. You would rejoice most fully and heartily, for here is the place where you choose by faith alone, and this choice, this expression of faith, however imperfect, creates within that permanent self which is beyond space and time tremendous changes in consciousness which you cannot achieve outside of this third density of yours. For in other densities the veil of knowing is lifted, and what virtue is it then to realize that you are your brother and that all those things your brother has are you? There is no virtue in perceiving the color red if your eyes are open. But, ah, with the eyes closed, here you are in a world of color with your eyes closed. For you are in the equivalent of a black and white movie. You are up there on the screen watching yourself. The pigment of the movie screen is grainy, and some of the voices are distorted, and it’s kind of a corny story, and it’s over too soon. But, ah, when you come out of the theater into the light and you look back on that black and white movie and you see the hope and the faith, and the caring and the love, and the compassion that you truly have had, with no reason for it but just that constant desire for love, to know love, to know the truth, to express that love. Each of you is a gallant, gallant soul and we both envy you and honor you, for you do much that you do not know; even as you suffer, you heal worlds.

So be content. That is what we would say to you. Be content, and simply look carefully, and more carefully, and with opener and opener eyes at all that there is about you. And see into things as you can, as you are able, as you are given grace, remembering who you are, remembering in whose service you are and letting yourself be yourself, for that is a wonderful and special thing. Each of you is very beautiful.

Then Q’uo said that it was not bad to have fears, pride, and different ways to look at this illusion because that is how we can free ourselves of fear, or we can simply realize that all is perfect, that all is made of Love, that all is an illusion in which we help the Creator to know Itself in one octave after another as universes live and die and are born again infinitely. Q’uo continued by saying that as we all travel our spiritual journeys into unity with the Creator that the universe will dissolve into nothingness, and then the Creator will dream another dream, and another universe will be born where there are no mistakes as all is loved and accepted by the Creator and embraced by Its Love. Then Q’uo said that there were many ways at looking at any situation, and to learn from it, and from working with pride, for we all are error-prone, but beneath all time and space there is a portion of us that is a well of beingness that creates unity with all things, and then we are communing with the Source of all and tabernacling with the Most High. Q’uo went on to say that when we feel that we are inadequate as a spiritual seeker that we should remember the concept of subtracting those parts of our ego that help us to realize that we are working with our destiny when we are working with distortions that require that we live by faith that all is well. Then they said that when we wonder if all that is meant for us will come to us, we can simply ask the Creator: “What is Your will for me today?” Then they said that we should not give up on ourselves when we have distortions and confusions because working with them is the purpose of our incarnation as we create changes in our eternal self that are beyond time and space, and which cannot be created outside of this third density illusion.  Then Q’uo said that when our incarnations are over and we look back at our experiences within our incarnations that we will see: “the hope and the faith, and the caring and the love, and the compassion that you truly have had, with no reason for it but just that constant desire for love, to know love, to know the truth, to express that love.” Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that we should be content and look at our lives and all around us with clearer sight with the grace that has been given to us and remember in whose service we are and to let our selves be who we are as we are all unique and beautiful beings. On May 18, 2019, Q’uo spoke of the purpose of our incarnation:

As each seeker begins the day, knowing that there is much work, as you would call it, of the physical sense, of the mental sense, and of the spiritual sense awaiting it, it is well to retire into the meditative state and to open the heart in that state to the One Creator; to move within the heart of the being of the seeker that the will of the Creator may be done that day through the seeker in all the actions, in all the thoughts, in all the words; that the seeker becomes a vessel then for the One Creator to move upon the waters of consciousness, both subconscious and conscious realms, so that there is a fuel, shall we say, that the seeker then is powered by, knowing that it has given itself over to the basic reason it exists. The purpose of the incarnation, the destination of each seeker of truth, [is] to open the heart in unconditional love to all and to aid this process by inviting the One Creator to move within the heart, within the mind, within the body, within the experience of the day, that this aid may be given to the seeker to share with all that comes before its notice. In this way, there is an enhancement of the ability of each seeker to find a way to give love where love seems to have no home.                                                                             

We would apologize for our wordiness upon this subject, but we feel that this concern is a very deep one and wish to probe into it somewhat. We thank each once again and would leave this instrument in love and light, transferring to the instrument known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo.

[No questions asked.]

[Tape ends.]

This morning I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Walmart’s to pick up some Choc-Zero chocolate candy. My next stop was at Feeder’s Supply to pick up some bird seed and some fish food. My third stop was at Pet Smart to pick up some greenie pouches. My fourth stop was at Kroger’s to pick up some Pepsi Zero. My last stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself.

This afternoon I went upstairs to the recording studio and recorded the first section of Chapter Three of 102 which was titled “Is There an Unnatural Self.” The I went to the Providence Care Home in Southern Indiana to visit Connie who has been there for the last six years after suffering two strokes in 2018. I took along some treats to share with her and a video of my living room so she could see what it looks like now with all of the house plants in it and the chair she used to sit in when she came to our public channeling meditations. We caught up on what has happened in our lives since the last time I visited her and about her interest in St. Barbara.  I also read a few chapters to her from The Things We Don’t Forget by Dianne Aprile. We ended our visit with our usual silent meditation.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 19

Become Christ To The World

I am the spirit of the ineffable Love of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

When this instrument challenged our presence, we, as Spirit, said simply, “We are the Christ.” This instrument was surprised. But the principle of Love is active and powerful, and that which is Christ is wrapped and bound by love ineffable.

Thus, he who carries the Spirit of Christ carries Christ, and as we are the very principle of this Love, so are we Christ too. And now we turn to you with a gift of fire, hoping that the bellows of your conscience and faith cause you also to become Christ, to carry the Love of Christ to those whom you meet; to the world that you accept with eyes and ears. May your senses be filled with the full consciousness of Love, that you, in turn, may be Christ to the world.

In limitlessness Love I leave you in peace, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 15, 1998:

The question today has to do with guides. What guides are available to us? How are they available? How might we gain access to them and feel that we are being guided?

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator whose servants we are. May we thank you from the bottom of our hearts for calling us to your session of working this afternoon. We thank each in this circle for hungering for truth and for being willing to allow us to speak through this instrument and share our humble thoughts with you. As always, we ask that each of you listens with discrimination, for you shall recognize those thoughts which are able to be resources and tools for you in your path, a path unique and not like everyone else’s, so that no two entities can take all of the thoughts that may have merit in a general sense but, rather, each will find those that are companions and fit into that puzzle that each is putting together in the search for what is loosely called the truth.

You ask this day concerning guides, angels, guardian spirits, and guidance in general, and this is a subject peculiarly unsuitable to words. Indeed, the very nature of the metaphysical universe is such that the guidance which is always and constantly with you is not that which translates into materialistic or fleshly body-oriented thinking. The common concept of a guide or a guardian angel is of a specific being. However, not all of those who are part of your guidance system are beings in the same sense that you consider yourself an individual self.

In order to clarify we must retreat first to express some more general concepts. Firstly, let us look at the concept of personhood or personality, for each of you is a person and has personhood. This is, within the illusion, something that you can trust. The flesh that rests upon your bones is flesh, and it shall continue until the spirit that enlivens that vehicle needs it no more. A skeleton remains a skeleton. The organs remain the organs. These things are physical, and they are obvious. Consequently, entities, even spiritually oriented entities, tend, by and large, to think of the self as the flesh, the bones, the organs, the body, as though the self had no other connections before, or will have no other connections after the incarnation that you now experience. Certainly, it does not occur to many that you have within the physical vehicle connections with and contact with non-physical and non-bodily energies and essences which are as much a part of who you are as those things that can be named, counted, and measured concerning your physical beingness.

However, we feel it is true in our observation that the personality shell that animates the incarnational body is a very shallow, very limited selection of portions of your self, in the greater or metaphysical sense, that you have chosen because these are the attributes and the limitations that you put together in order to be challenged and in order to meet the challenges you would find within the body and within incarnational experience. As beautiful, sacramental, and worthy as this bodily personality shell and all that you see of yourself in the mirror is, it remains as insubstantial as a shadow next to the profound and infinite nature of your whole self. Indeed, it is difficult to explain or express, but within this very limited mind which you sense within yourself and are aware of within yourself, you have direct connection to all energy whatsoever. The entire universe is within your self and with care, regardless of the circumstance of incarnation and limitation within a body, there are ways in which the seeker may improve its connections with these deeper energies of self. It is in these deeper strata of self that the many kinds of guidance available to the seeker dwell.

One of the advantages, therefore, of meditation that is silent is that when the inner silence is entered the door betwixt the conscious and unconscious levels of mind opens, for some very slowly, for others with a great bang, for most at a steady but relatively slow pace, interrupted occasionally by real leaps forward in awareness. This is the general pattern for people who have become conscious of their spiritual identity and now wish to accelerate the pace of spiritual evolution by making more efficient and thoughtful use of the resources available.

The group question for this session was: “The question today has to do with guides. What guides are available to us? How are they available? How might we gain access to them and feel that we are being guided?” Q’uo began by saying that our guidance is always with us but is harder to describe than the beings of flesh and bones that we are within our incarnation, but we have connections with these non-physical essences that are always with us. They went on to say that we have chosen the limitations of our personality shell to provide challenges to help us grow, and there are ways that we can access: “The entire universe that is within your self and with care, regardless of the circumstance of incarnation and limitation within a body, there are ways in which the seeker may improve its connections with these deeper energies of self. It is in these deeper strata of self that the many kinds of guidance available to the seeker dwell.” Then Q’uo said that meditation is the way that the deeper levels of the mind may be accessed to accelerate the pace of evolution for the spiritual seeker. On January 30, 1994, Q’uo described the deeper energies that are within the spiritual seeker:

At a deeper level, there is a true self. That true self within has its vagrant moods and there is emotional truth in hewing with fidelity to these inner moods. It is excellent practice to know what is going on within, to be as aware as possible of the deeper energies, the emotions which underlie the experiences. Without judging the self, there is great healing in simply acknowledging the nature of the self as it is self-perceived. The acceptance of the emotional makeup of the self is very freeing if it is wholehearted, for there is great difficulty in altering that nature if it is not first completely accepted, yet the truth for which each seeker yearns is that truth which cannot be accessible, not by words, not by converse, but only by the inner experiencing of things far too inimitable to be available for description.

The hunger within the seeker is to see the face of the infinite One, and there is no face for that infinite intelligence, rather that face is your own, and that face is the entity next to you and that face is the face of nature. Everything that you see both displays and completely obscures that face of deity. Spiritual seeking is a process in which the attempt is made and made and made again to be honest with the self, to submit the self to the disciplines which strip away illusion, how the seeker strives to clear the mind, to become more authentic, to become more self-aware, to confront the self where it is hiding from the self.

Secondly, let us look at the concept of vibration. It may be helpful to you to begin to see into things as vibrations. This instrument produces a sound vibration by moving air through a voice box while distorting the face in various ways in order to produce what you call language. Language has to be made up of words because it is finite. It has to be made up of units of thought that are smaller than a concept. This, in itself, is very troubling to those in the metaphysical system of illusions that are attempting to speak with you because the common communication used in the metaphysical universe is concept sharing or telepathy, as this instrument would call it. Communication by concept is a direct envisioning of a whole system of thought that is in a certain pattern and that can be offered as a whole. To unravel a concept and exhaust its possibilities can be a lengthy process, the translation into words being awkward and elephantine compared to the cleanliness and lucidity of concept communication. This is but one kind of vibration.

Most within your culture are aware that heat is a vibration; light is a vibration. Most entities are not aware that all things are vibrations, and certainly it is not a common thought within your Earth plane that qualities, consciousness, essences, and energies are vibrations. Indeed, if one could choose one term to describe the manifested world it would be vibration. The first vibration is that infinite Love of the one Creator, and each of you is a system of distortions of that vibration. Very simply put, the goal of the seeker is to become more and more congruent with the undistorted vibration of Love, infinite, universal Love. The Love that creates. The Love that destroys. The Love that is the “I” of you. This Love is not a manifested vibration. The first manifestation of vibration within the outer world which you now experience is Light, which this instrument has learned to call the photon. And it is from this building block of Light that all collections of vibrations and systems of rotation spring, [as well as] all your elements that you have learned go into the making of the various things that you can touch and see. All of these things are systems of vibration.

When you seek guidance, you are not simply asking a friend to talk to you, not unless you wish to access a certain person who is within the inner or teaching planes of your illusion. Now, this instrument does not crave, shall we say, the personal guide and, therefore, has not had experience with that specific contact that comes from finding an inner planes teacher. For those who desire a named person, a person to count on as you would a being with that personhood of personality shell, we recommend studying within the Oriental systems and Asian systems of philosophy and theology, for it is within these cultures that the concept of the Creator as teacher creates a place or a space for inner plane guides. To become more familiar with that entire way of devotion is to bring the self more into the kind of setting, shall we say, of the inner expectations that would be more likely to produce the experience of contact with a specific entity.

Within your Western philosophy, although many spiritual teachers are greatly revered, esteemed, and loved, they are not worshipped as incarnations of the Creator. Consequently, their beingness within the inner planes is quite different and, generally speaking, will move more into the vibratory levels wherein one is contacting a consciousness field of a certain vibration. For those who simply wish by whatever means to surrender to the will of the infinite One there is the feeling of the way, the tentative moving towards an orientation with one’s own energies, with one’s own essences, with one’s connections into the deeper and deeper portions of the self. It is not necessary in order to be guided that you have any particular vision of your guide. However, as this instrument has often said, it is helpful to choose a mythical system such as Christianity, Buddhism, or any other spiritual or religious system of thinking and realizing the cosmos that you feel, personally, the most kinship to. This is a matter not necessarily of the mind but, rather, of the emotions and of the spirit.

The universe is far from blank. It is filled with the vibration of all that there is. Consequently, guidance is always very, very near. Using one spiritual system to realize guidance for yourself is wise. It organizes the effort made. It gives you some starting points from which to move forward. This instrument, for instance, desires to be led by what she calls the Holy Spirit. In choosing the Holy Spirit this entity has done two things. Firstly, she has chosen, within the mythical system she has felt most kinship to, to trust and cast her loyalty upon a certain kind of entity. Secondly, she has called upon herself, for guidance comes from the deeper or higher self. Each mythical system gives one a way to realize these connections.

Now Q’uo said that vibrations that create sounds are one way of communicating by words which are finite and smaller than a concept, but in the metaphysical world communication is accomplished by telepathically transmitting concepts which are a more effective type of vibration for communication. Q’uo continued by saying that all things are vibrations such as heat, light, and consciousness, and the first vibration is the Love of the Creator that is the goal of the seeker to become one with. Then Q’uo said that Love is not a manifested vibration. They said that Light is the first manifested vibration which could be seen as the photon which exists as all things that can be seen and touched. Q’uo continued by saying that when we seek guidance we could look to the Oriental traditions where various inner plane entities are seen as guides, but in the Western traditions the means of seeking to do the will of the Creator is more usually approached by going deeper within the self to find guidance than one feels a kinship with emotionally and spiritually. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that it would be wise to choose a guidance system that we can feel an affinity for such as the deeper mind or the higher self. On March 18, 2006, Q’uo spoke of various entities that could be part of our guidance system:

A large category of the interaction between spirit and flesh is the interaction of the self with the guidance system of that self. Your guidance system is, in the words of this instrument, the Holy Spirit, and in the words of the social memory complex known as Ra, the higher self. It is helpful to think in terms of the latter configuration of words in terms of determining who your guidance system really is, for your guidance system is not an entity other than yourself; rather, it is an access point into your larger self.

Without choosing a mythical system to work with the seeker must create a way of proceeding. Shall it be to name the name and to call upon that name? Shall it be to call upon a certain vibrational level that is desired? This is creative work in consciousness for the individual seeker. The one thing that is sure is that guidance is all about you. The one known as Jesus often said, “He who has ears to hear, let him hear.” And certainly in this instrument’s experience we find a constant conversation with the forces of nature, with beings of bird, and bush and flower and sky, an overheard comment, and chance happening. Anything and everything is material for this instrument because this instrument has come to the belief that all things are sacramental. Each person, each seeker, must first realize her own way of perceiving, her own belief system, her own need in terms of guidance. Some need a named person; some need a level of vibration. But behind all of the mental and conscious ways of gaining access to this guidance there lies the identity of self with self. All guidance is from your self in a less distorted configuration of vibration to the self within incarnation, that incarnation in third density being deliberately and carefully cast into confusion and disarray.

It may seem that there are emergencies where guidance must be had, but, indeed, the greatest friend to one who seeks guidance is Sister Patience, for there is the abiding, the waiting for the rhythm of things to come into the configuration which is harmonious and right. There is that moment when the one who has the heart to understand can almost feel the situation clicking into rhythm. And when that moment of the feeling of rightness comes, there is no doubt. There is only the awareness of and the great gratitude for guidance.

Each kind of myth creates ways of thinking about this guidance. No one way of thinking is wrong. Each is an attempt, by finite intellect, to describe processes that are infinite and that take place outside of the bounds of time and space. Consequently, there are as many ways to think about guides and guidance as there are systems of thought. To this instrument the mind goes to angels because this instrument has been steeped in the Christian faith. To other entities familiar with and finding comfort in other systems’ doctrine there are other kinds of beings configured a bit differently, moving perhaps from a different inner plane, and these are all genuine. For what is happening is beyond all of the systems of thought. It is energy relating to energy, Love reflected in Love. That is what guidance truly is, Love reflected in Love.

To attempt to tell one about guidance one must use finite words and thus great confusion is born. “Well, is it this way, or is it that?” It is all the ways that you can think of and none of them at all. With this paradox we know again that we are in spiritual territory. Yet that which is sought is ever at hand, closer than your own body, closer than your own thoughts, for the silence within those thoughts and within that body is beyond all time and space. And however you realize your guidance in this little life of the Earth plane, you remain a citizen of eternity, and your guidance is sure.

In third density a great veil drops, and one cannot see into the metaphysical universe, or to put it in terms of the mind, into the subconscious mind. One is not supposed to see into this mind for the reason that it is this density’s lesson to learn to live by faith, by those qualities of love, faith, patience, and trust that defy the limitations of personality and confusion. Within each of you there is a stubborn and sure conviction that this little life is not all that there is, and when you have thought this for the first time it is as if you have become awake in the land of the slumbering. We can only say to you who wish to become more aware of the guidance sought that it is all about you, that there are ways of thinking about guidance and methods of guidance that you may consider and choose between, but know this: beyond all of your choices the information that you need comes to you again, and again, and again. If you miss it this time, there will be another time. Your work, indeed, can be very simple if you choose to make it so. If you choose to be a simple and unintellectual seeker you may simply sit in the inner silence expecting nothing, desiring nothing but communion with Love, and that desire you may encourage and feed with the fodder of your thoughts, the branches and the trunks of your emotions.

There is a yearning within each seeker for home. And when the angel, or the guardian, or the guide, or guidance itself, is sought there is that hope of a letter from home, of a pat on the back, or a hint of what the situation is from an older and wiser relative. Whatever the way you choose, you are seeking that home when you seek guidance. You are sensing that you are on a journey, and you are asking for some information closer to the source and ending of that journey. Be aware that you may be someone else’s guide. Be aware when questions are asked of you, for that which is Love may speak through you if you are empty enough and clear enough. Be aware that others may be your guide for a moment without any conscious intention, or with conscious intention. It makes no difference. For what is happening is that vibration is harmonizing with vibration, or not. And connections are being made, or not. Thusly, if with patience you attend to the present moment and desire as purely as possible to know the Love of the one Creator, that which is yours to do and that which is yours to be shall rhythmically come to you and express to you. And when you feel resistance, stop. Wait. Be aware. There is something that you need to know. Make space for that knowledge. Go into the silence and ask. Then be prepared to wait for that moment when the heart knows, and there is no more doubt. May Love always be reflected in Love for each of you, and may all of those difficulties that are such good teachers find their ways into your heart as blessings indeed.

Then Q’uo said that if the seeker doesn’t choose a mythical system for its guidance, then it must choose a name or a vibrational level to call upon, and this needs to be the choice of each individual seeker as there is guidance everywhere in the creation that is from a greater level of our self to our self within this the illusion of confusion. Q’uo continued by saying that if the seeker has the heart to understand and the patience to wait, that guidance comes when the time is right, and all thinking about the nature of guidance is beyond time and space and all systems of thought because true guidance is simply Love relating to Love that is closer to us than our own thoughts. Then Q’uo said that the veil keeps us from seeing into the conscious mind because this helps us to live by love, faith, and patience, and when we can feel that inner resonance that the outer life is not all that there is, then we have awakened to the nature of reality, and the guidance that we need will come to us so that we can sit in the silence expecting nothing but to commune with Love. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that each seeker is looking for guidance of some kind to help it to get back home, and if resistance comes at any time, we can go into meditation and ask when the time is right to know the Love of the Creator. On March 6, 2005, Q’uo spoke of how our guidance works:

You came into incarnation supported and bolstered, without any possibility of being abandoned or isolated, with a very solid, sturdy guidance system. It is up to you to create the structure with which you feel comfortable as a person for receiving this guidance. To some extent, you may do reading into religions, philosophies, myth, and archetype, for each culture has ways of describing and structuring guidance. For the Native Americans, for instance, every animal has a role to play in guiding. Each animal that you meet, therefore, is a messenger. There are systems of guidance which employ inspired human beings who act as gurus; and these gurus are able to focus spirit in such a way that realizations come to the student who is devoted to the guru. There are those religious systems which ask of one that one follow a certain master such as the one known as Jesus, the one known as Buddha, or the one known as Allah and his prophet. There is an almost infinite array of ways to approach beginning to become aware of guidance.

In general, we would say that you must follow the path of greatest resonance. If there is a master who resonates to you so much that you wish to follow in the footsteps of that master, then you will take a certain path towards guidance. If you find that you are more comfortable following the chain of coincidences, of those things that speak to you from day-to-day, then life itself becomes the messenger of guidance. And, in many cases, by the simple discipline of beginning to record one’s dreams or one’s thoughts after meditation, one is able to gain access to that web of Love and support that is all around you and waiting with the greatest of eagerness and joy for the opportunity to be heard. We describe this and characterize this as guidance of a positive or service-to-others nature.

May we thank each again for inviting our presence within your circle of seeking this day. We shall now take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went up to the recording studio and recorded the section titled “Where do Emotions Come From?” from Chapter Two of 102. Then I came downstairs and vacuumed the first floor of my home.

This afternoon I went back upstairs and recorded the section “A Choice in Perspective” from 102 which completed Chapter Two.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 18

Claim Your Birthright

Greetings in the Love of Christ. I am of the principle of that consciousness which is Christhood, in the vibration which comforts this instrument.

Although it is well that you gaze searchingly on each face of Christ which you meet in your daily round of activities and experience, it is better for you to be inspired by these exaggerated delineations of the characteristics of Love, turning from them to a truer expression of that Love in Christ.

For to call your experiences by their true name is to bless them and own them, claiming them as part of your birthright. For you and they and all that is are not only created by God, but are of God, and to behold your likeness is far more blessed than all the careful judgments you may make, wise though those judgments may be.

The consciousness of Christ is the consciousness of Love, that Love which creates, Christ being the truest expression of that potent quality in your waking consciousness. Turn you, then, to that source of Light and let Love illumine all the facets of your life.

Peace be with you, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from January 18, 1998:

The question today has to do with the concept of, “Not my will, but Thy will,” and when we are able to realize that this is the way we wish to behave and to live, what else can we do intellectually to assist bringing forth “Thy will” into our lives? How can we know “Thy will” and get out of the state of confusion in which we most often find ourselves, having given up our will and yet no particular direction shows itself to us? Is there anything that Q’uo could recommend to us that might strengthen our faith and our will?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are always pleased to be called to your group, and this session is no exception. We thank and bless each of you for turning once again to that interest that we have very much in common, that consciousness that lies between us, linking us and all that there is into one vast being, one consciousness, one basic core vibration. This is the mystery that drives us ever onward, seeking always that which lies beneath illusion.

We have found many illusions, and we are aware that you also have your experiences within the illusion of your Earth life. We are glad to speak to you of that issue of confusion and decision, for, indeed, there is an art and an appropriateness that one can only sense, one can only record finding. It cannot be created by will. It cannot be created to a time frame or a schedule. Indeed, in issues of will, this is subtle work. When one perceives working upon one’s own consciousness it is easy and tempting to stay within the confines of that particular issue, that particular concern. When you as a human being in your illusion decide to make the purchase of the choice of everyday things, there is usually a very superficial level of will involved. Many, many things simply need to be done. However, what you ask about this day is that way of knowing when the will of the infinite Creator has been expressed to one. There is, indeed, the rub, as Shakespeare would say. There is the difficulty, for one can make decisions using logic, using the will, using each and every aspect at the command of mind. And that decision has no promise of being the will of the Creator in any way of knowing that can leave one at peace.

Intellectual questioning into the issue of, “Is this Thy will or mine?” almost always involves one in a tautological circle, like the dragon eating its tail. It is forever eating and forever unfinished. However, now that we have taken away the habitual and normal use of mind, what have we left for you to work with in this particular kind of larger decision? We have left your consciousness. Let us look at that which remains when logic, and mind, and intellect are, if not removed entirely, certainly placed in a less conspicuous and influential position in respect to decision-making. We have an entity whose resources are infinite, whose citizenry is of the universe, who does not belong in space and time. We have a stranger in a strange land. Indeed, were we to pull back to see where the self is in self, we would find each of you and all of your affections in the illusion that you now enjoy to be but the merest shell, your personality shell, that expresses perhaps one or two percent of the total beingness and experience which you possess within the deeper reaches of the roots of mind.

Having taken the conscious mind out of the consideration we now chose to use the unconscious portion of mind, for within it lie the resources needed to sort out issues of will and faith. Whatever your energy level within the illusion, resting back in the divine, letting the self be, evokes a contentment that does not reach, nor does it shun those things which are about one. This is the self that is often accessed by meditation. One of the benefits of meditation, indeed, is that the door betwixt the conscious intellectual mind and the subconscious in the roots of mind is, if not wide open, at least ajar. Time spent in the silence is time spent listening to the voice with no sound that indeed does carry the messages of faith and choice, but not to a schedule. And this is where the entity within your illusion, feeling confused, loses that quality that so well supports the spiritual seeker. That quality is patience.

Patience is a powerful spiritual quality. The one known as Jim spoke earlier of persevering no matter what. This is another way of stating the same sentiment. If one can become patient and willing to wait whatever time it seems to take, one then is prepared for messages that do come from the unconscious self. This instrument has seen a popular cliché on refrigerator magnets that reads something like, “Lord give me patience and give it to me right now.” And that is where the third-density illusion comes in and kidnaps the spirit who is not completely staid upon patience. To be content to wait is an attitude that will always prove the best resource possible for the spiritual seeker. For the person who does not mind waiting no matter how long it takes, results can often come quickly. When the entity moves at all from the attitude of “waiting is” and “waiting is good” then comes in the desire. It is not that the desire is wicked or wrong. The universe moves upon desire. It is that beyond a certain point the seeker cannot know himself. There is just so much inner work an entity may do, and that work is more deleting confusion from the way the mind works than it is adding information to the mind. You are in the situation of having a wealth of knowledge that purports to be about the spiritual but having almost no assets concerning and dealing with that which lies beyond the words.

It is a frightening and seeming illogical choice to move beyond logic and trains of thought. There is no victory promised the seeker who chooses to wait. Entities persistent enough to wait a long time have spent incarnations waiting when there was a need to express this quality in order to balance the personality shell. And yet there is no glamour or reward to the practice of waiting, to the practice of patience. Yet that willingness, that abandoning self can and will communicate at the appropriate and rhythmically right time. You see, you experience life within the illusion as if you were walking down a road or moving down a river. There is motion involved from yesterday to tomorrow, from Louisville to Chicago. There is space and time and someone occupying both. In reality this is an illusion, within an illusion, within an illusion. That which seems so full of self is only the paltriest shell of personality from that powerful Self that you are in totality. Time and space actually do not exist, and there is no possibility of making a wrong choice, for all has already occurred, and all is perfect.

The group question for this session was: “The question today has to do with the concept of, “Not my will, but Thy will,” and when we are able to realize that this is the way we wish to behave and to live, what else can we do intellectually to assist bringing forth “Thy will” into our lives?” Q’uo began by saying that it is not possible to determine how to do the will of the Creator by use of the will of the intellect because it takes a kind of art and feeling of appropriateness to feel that one is doing the Creator’s will. Q’uo went on to say that when the intellect of the mind is removed from the equation that there are infinite resources of the subconscious mind that go beyond the personality shell that have the ability to work with the will and faith. Then Q’uo said that within the state of meditation that the concepts of faith and choice may be used to listen to the silent voice within, but this is not done by setting a schedule so: “this is where the entity within your illusion, feeling confused, loses that quality that so well supports the spiritual seeker. That quality is patience.” Q’uo went on to say that exercising patience and perseverance is an effective way to get a great wealth of information from the subconscious mind that the seeker cannot know consciously as words cannot describe this information. Q’uo continued by saying that it can seem frightening to move beyond logical thinking to balance the personality shell, but because we live within an illusion of many layers, if we do wait for the appropriate time we can get far more information from our greater Self than we can from our personality shell so that there is no way that we can make a wrong choice because: “Time and space actually do not exist, and there is no possibility of making a wrong choice, for all has already occurred, and all is perfect.” On July 5, 1981, Hatonn described how time and space do not exist:

For your true self, my friends, is one which is beyond the human joys and sorrows that you experience in this illusion. Your true self, my friends, is one which is part of the creation of the Father and as such, experiences the entire creation outside of time, outside of space, outside of all things but the unity of the eternal present of the creation.

For those who are not able to have hearts to understand, this entire concept makes no sense, and we accept that. We do not attempt to make sense but rather to share our observations of how things work. What you are attempting to do is in reality not to make the choice but to be the person who puts the self to the choice with the most desire, the most polarity of desire. Both of these are important. The most desire. To hone the desire is so important. To move within those well-worn words, “Not my will, but Thine,” not once, not twice, not a hundred times, but with every breath. This is the goal: to consume the self in the divine. To so empty the self that the divine makes its own colors moving through you so that you have only to say, “Oh see, I should do this now. Here this is.” There is a level upon which this is possible for each entity within the illusion, yet this soft spot is surrounded by hard rocks on every side. For truly it is difficult to let go.

Perhaps one suggestion that we could make to one who feels decisions must be made to a schedule is simply to say that if something does not strike before someone’s schedule comes to an end, perhaps this also is information being communicated. Know that when the right time comes you will know the choice that the Creator has for you, and you will feel it to your bones, to the end of your heart, to your depths. And you will be able to jump on it and work with it with all of your self.

Letus look again at this question of mind, for we feel that it is always the razor’s edge to work with the mind within incarnation. Upon the one hand, if you use no mind you cannot communicate with others or share your observations with others. You may be a wonderful light, but you cannot teach except by your being. On the other hand, any use of the intellect tends to pull one away from that seat of joy and delight that is present in the one infinite Creator. The heart that dwells in this opened Love, or the heart that is open to this Love and willing to allow It to run through that heart and into the world of manifestation, has done healing work for the planetary energy, the local energy, and the energy of self. In a normal decision-making the programs that are used are those run by logic. As the one known as R says, “The pros the cons, for and against,” and one can indeed line up all of the pros and cons. They do not add up to a tidy sum, for nothing is simply that surface appearance. Things have the necessity of being more real than that, more subject to free will, more uncatchable than that.

As one becomes more able to use that surface mind without becoming emotionally swayed by one’s rhetoric, one can open more to what this instrument would describe as deeper programs, programs below the level of consciousness that do not work on logic or linear thought but, rather, contain the essences of self that have been purified and worked upon through many, many incarnations and many experiences. These are the assets of the deeper self, and it is here that the soul must go who wishes to learn patience, for patience lies within you, a powerful, slumbering, elegant beast. Truly your brother and your sister, if you are seeking spiritually, there is no friend that is more faithful than patience. There is no challenge that cannot be won with patience. Letting go of the surface of things, being willing to rest in the mid-air of not knowing: this is an art, and it is this that we encourage you to practice. You have, not simply “the answer.” You have all that there is.

To the surface of things, you attempt to make a certain choice. To the reality of things, you are working upon your vibration. Whatever situation you are in or will be in is a fine and splendid opportunity to develop the self, to work on that vibration. And so, we encourage the slowing down, the resting, the quietness of mind that is willing to pass up an opportunity if the time is not right, and is willing to grasp an opportunity when that inner knowing occurs, and it will. In a moment you shall know. Yes or no. And for you that will be the correct decision.

Then Q’uo said that we are not so much making the choice to do the Father’s will but to experience that choice with a greater and greater desire with each breath that we take, and then we empty our self so that the Father moves through us so that we know what we should do. They said that this was not easy to do, but when the right time comes for us to do the Father’s will, we will know it in our bones and in our heart. They went on to say that it was necessary to use the mind to communicate with others, but if a seeker is wishing to share its light with others and to teach them, that is done by sharing the nature of one’s being and opening the heart to let the Love of the Creator to move through it to aid in the healing of planetary energy, the local energy, and the energy of self. Q’uo continued by saying that if one can use the logic of the mind without being swayed by emotions then it is possible to access the deeper mind to experience the essence of the deeper mind gained through many incarnations, and the greatest asset is patience which can help us to meet all challenges that come from our not knowing so that we may know the answer to all that there is. Q’uo completed their response by saying that on the surface of things we are attempting to make a choice while in reality we are working on the nature of our vibration, and if we can slowly contemplate our response to any situation that we find ourselves in, and wait for that inner knowing, that our decision will be the right one. On August 10, 1980, Latwii revealed how patience can help us to meet all challenges:

There is no premium upon suffering. It is simply a very efficient tool for learning the lessons of patience and cheerfulness. When you can be patient, when you can be cheerful in the face of adversity, then you have become a potentially loving person. If you have come into the world with patience and with happiness, then whatever suffering you may have may not be for your learning at all, but only, shall we say, to hold you down, to keep you fixed upon your goal.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are the ones of Q’uo, and we thank this instrument and leave it in love and in light.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time we would offer ourselves to the potential answering of any further questions that those present may have upon their minds. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have a question. I wonder if you could comment on my frame of mind. Sort of feeling listless and lethargic and at the same time not being discontented or upset.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We may speak in somewhat of an abbreviated fashion, for, indeed, it is well for the student to have a fairly good grasp upon her query before we may respond without the problem of infringing upon free will. We can note that which has been noted concerning this attitude of mind, that being that the one known as Carla has in her past served as an instrument for a contact which has as a residue a certain amount of weariness that is inevitable. For when one has been able to contact those more harmonious realms of being, as the instrument known as Carla did during the Ra contact, and has been faced with the necessity of returning to a more dense, in illusion that is, realm of being there is the relative experience of wearying the physical vehicle. This has a cumulative effect, and the one known as Carla has experienced this in some intensity, shall we say. There is within the mind complex of this entity dual needs to achieve and to rest. This is not unusual for many of your entities, for there is the need to accomplish activities and projects that are concomitant with your third-density illusion. All within the illusion experience the drive to move, to gain, to master, to achieve. This is the nature of the illusion. This is the grist for the mill, as we find has been described accurately.

However, there is also within many entities, and this entity in particular, the feeling that to be is sufficient. And this is indeed correct, especially when seen through those eyes that are metaphysically oriented. The being that one expresses is the heart, the essence, of one’s self. And in truth each entity is whole and perfect, having entered this illusion with such wholeness and perfection in abeyance that there may be further exploration into the individuation of consciousness that each entity has undertaken as a portion of the one Creator. The fueling of the beingness being sufficient is a feeling which we can encourage in entities, for it is not only accurate, but within the illusion that you inhabit, a proper balance for the unending activity and seeming restlessness that so signifies those of your peoples that partake in the daily round of activity and experience.

That this entity feels somewhat ashamed of being uninspired, as she says, may be examined for the particularly biased view of the self that this entails. This entity is not unfamiliar with its own criticism of itself. Thus, we feel that we have reached the limit of that which is helpful and we ask if there might be any other query that this entity might ask of us?

Carla: No, Q’uo. That was very clear and helpful. Thanks.

I am Q’uo, and we again thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

R: I have noticed a little fear or anxiety when I participate in these sessions. I sometimes just want to ask a question as if there was an opportunity lost if I do not ask it. I do not know where that fear is coming from. I feel like a little boy standing with a group of grown-ups and am saying, “Me too. Me too.” Could you talk about that please?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We feel that this query concerns an area which is natural for the human experience: that is, when faced with what seems to be the wiser or more informed point of view, one wishes to partake of that point of view in order to enhance the evolutionary process, feeling that if the opportunity is not taken it shall be lost, and there will be the failure to move forward as quickly as would be possible as if the opportunity were taken. We appreciate this experience of our blending of our vibrations with your own, and we appreciate the opinion that you hold us in, but we would again remind each entity that we and others who serve as teachers and guides for each third-density entity are available at all times so that in your own contemplative or meditative times you may ask whatever query is upon your mind or upon your heart and therein find a response that will point the direction in the same way that we would frame a response to your query within one of these sessions of working.

This again moves back to the primary query for the day and to the remark that we made concerning how an entity may perceive the Creator’s will when it stands before one and remains unrecognized. Oftentimes it is simply a matter of realizing the perfection of the moment, for each entity has spent the entirety of its previous life experience to reach the moment of the present. All that has gone before has brought one to this point, thus there must be something important in the present moment. And we would again affirm the perfection of each entity but also of the moment in which each entity finds itself. This is not to say that there will not be changes in what you call your future, for, indeed, there shall be many of these. But each of them, as well as that moment which you now experience, shall be perfect. And when you are able to accept the perfection of the moment, the perfection of your own self, then perhaps you shall not feel quite the fear or anxiety of missing an opportunity to find a more perfect moment.

We hope that we have not further confused you, my brother. Is there another query?

R: No, you have not confused me. I do believe what you have said. Another thought is that I feel a lot of gratitude for these sessions. I feel some love flowing that generates the response and oftentimes I have no questions but just feel like I want to say, “Thank you for speaking to us.”

I am Q’uo, and we are aware of the experience of which you speak, my brother. Indeed, the gratitude for the blessings for the one Creator that come in various forms is a blessing in itself, for it creates within the mind/body/spirit complex of each entity feeling it a certain ambiance that enhances the experience of unity and of harmony that is available to each. When one has been able to feel true gratitude for that which one experiences then this is a kind of opening of a door through which the entity wishes to pass, in that it moves into a finer appreciation of that which it is and that which it experiences. The gratitude of the spiritual seeker is a kind [of] lubricant that enhances the friction of daily experience and relieves much of that which is rough and unrefined.

Is there a final query at this time?

[No further queries.]

We are those of Q’uo, and we would take this opportunity to express our heartfelt gratitude to those present for once again inviting our presence within your circle of seeking. It is a privilege and an honor for which we cannot express enough gratitude, my friends. At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went upstairs to the recording studio and recorded the section on Resistance Leads to Growth from Chapter Two of 102. Later in the morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply to buy some kitty litter and some cat food. My last stop was at my dentist to have the temporary crown removed from one of my molars and then have the permanent crown put on.

This afternoon I went back upstairs to the recording studio and recorded the section on Where do Emotions Come From? from Chapter Two of 102. Then I went outside and cleaned the filters for the fountain in the fishpond because the fountain was getting lower and lower. After the filters were cleaned the fountain went a little higher than I had planned on, so I opened the top of the schemer box which houses the filters to let the fountain run into the box.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 17

Signposts Of Joy

I am the Spirit of that consciousness which is the Christ held sacred by you. We greet you in the Love of Christ.

It is not only in good circumstances that the Comforter is available to those who seek inspiration but in those perceived as difficult as well. It is well to turn to the inspiration of Godly things, eschewing attachment to the transient joys of the day in exchange for fuller and deeper understanding of the greater good and the Spiritual essence of mundane happiness.

For happiness as well as sorrow is a state of mind peculiar to an illusion in which your consciousness is impinged upon by all of those distractions of the senses which please and cloy.

View pleasure, then, with the same eye with which you view pain, not disowning your senses but rather appreciating them as signposts of a deeper, spiritual joy.

May the peace of the consciousness of Love be with you now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from January 11, 1998:

We would like to ask about the two ways that we experience ourselves: being caught up in the illusion, wandering about from thing to thing without being in the flow, of being there, and of enjoying the love and the light of the harmony of the moment. The other is being in the flow, which is the goal which most of us have. We are wondering if Q’uo could give us a description of how work in the metaphysical sense is being done both when we are not in the flow and when we are.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We regard it as a great privilege and blessing that you have called us to your circle of seeking this day. We are very glad to share our feelings with you, asking only that you use your discrimination and not simply accept our thoughts because they are our thoughts. Let your own sense of recognition be the standard by which you accept information. You will find that your power of discrimination is great for you can indeed recognize and have a certain feeling towards that which is your own personal truth, that which for you is a resource and a tool. Let the rest go.

You ask today about the relative merits of attempting to live life consciously, aware of the self as a spiritual being, observing and, conversely, being caught up completely in the illusion. Were we to recommend one mode of expression over the other for third density we would be forced to choose the confusion and the babble of the unthinking everyday carnival, with all its amusements and rides, that greets you each morning as you gaze out of your physical senses at the physical world. It is not that living consciously is a lesser thing. Indeed, whole densities are spent in such work. It is, rather, that third density is valuable because of and not in spite of that heavy pall of confusion and illusion that animates this Earth world.

Were each present to be able to satisfy herself that all was being done appropriately in the moment to moment relationships there would indeed be a kind of bone-deep pleasantness to the incarnation. However, although weary, battered, and tired as you are you may now wish for the contentment and peace of the lifting of the veil, as spirits you hunger to come into this illusion because it is only within the illusion that an entity can work upon that pivotal first Choice: service to self or service to others. When one has all the rules in hand, knows all the players, knows all the values, one may play well at that game but feel or learn nothing. It is when the spiritual entity is thoroughly mixed up with the clay and mire of life in the physical illusion that the challenge may be raised to live by faith and not by what you see.

It is felt by the spirit who is descending into matter that incarnation within the material world is a pearl of great price, something eagerly hoped for by far more entities than can be accommodated at this time. Your sphere experiences forces inevitably moving through that which can be considered a dying and rebirth, or a time of initiation and a time of peace, and since this is a harvest time, each of you hoped to come into this confusion to paddle about in it and to meet each choice in a way that discovers the self to the self. One thing that one cannot do as an observer is surprise the self, and it is when you surprise yourself with who you are that you feel and sense into your spiritual identity, which is quite a bit larger than your physical identity. You are a personality shell; that is, you are consciousness which has adapted itself to incarnation within a second-density physical vehicle.

This consciousness cannot be brought completely into the illusion, for this consciousness that you are is all that there is. To bring all of self into the illusion would be to erase the illusion, and this illusion creates for each of you other selves to relate to in order that you work upon yourself by reflection. Lost in the running of the everyday chores you make choice after choice after choice, in little ways and in larger ways, and when those choices are easy and obvious the polarization value of them is measured. Those moments when you discover yourself being or acting in an unpredicted or unpredictable way are little nuggets, little treasures. For this personality shell that you are was carefully chosen to contain those gifts and limitations of character and personality that will best serve you at this time. The material before you, the relationships in your life, all of these things you gave yourself as gifts. Some of them gifts to wallow in with pleasure, some of them gifts to challenge yourself. And the entity unknowing is the entity at the cusp of Choice.

The question for this session was: “We are wondering if Q’uo could give us a description of how work in the metaphysical sense is being done both when we are not in the flow and when we are.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that the confusion of the third-density illusion is a most valuable tool for the spiritual seeker because it allows the seeker to make the Choice of either service to others or service to self through living by faith and not by what the seeker sees in the world around it. Q’uo went on to say that it is the time of transformation and harvest for the Earth, and seekers see incarnations at this time as a great opportunity to evolve spiritually because they can use each choice that they make as a way of knowing the self better since each one is a combination of consciousness living within a second-density body, or a personality shell. They went on to say our consciousness cannot be brought into the illusion in its completeness because it is a portion of all that is and would remove all illusion, so the personality shell contains certain gifts and limitations that can be used to make a great variety of choices that can lead to the ultimate Choice of polarity. On December 12, 2005, Q’uo spoke of how we use the personality shell to aid our spiritual evolution:

However, the personality shell of entities is created almost the way that you would create the packing of a suitcase to take on a trip. You have packed for this incarnation the elements of personality that you feel would be helpful or that you felt at the time, before incarnation at which you packed the suitcase, would be helpful.

You packed some items that are for your upkeep and your health. You packed some items that would enable you to serve and share your gifts better. And you packed some few seemingly less attractive items in your personality, realizing that you would need a certain amount of these shadow energies as a point of departure and a point of reentry so that you could go beyond your comfort zone in various ways, looking for ways to balance dynamics within you.

Some entities have dynamics which have to do with truth and justice, as opposed to love. Some entities have issues about the dynamic between wisdom and love. Some entities have dynamics with even more complicated structures such as truth, power, and love.

However, all of these characteristics that you packed are what this instrument would call integrated rather than unitary. They have formed a personality shell for you, but they are actually made up of components, each of which is shared by all beings whatsoever who are moving through spiritual evolution. It is not that you are just like everyone else, for you are not. You are quite unique. Rather it is that your component parts are each shared throughout the system of the human tribe.

We would balance speaking of the unknowing, incarnational self by talking also concerning work in consciousness, the other alternative, shall we say, that life observed that each thirsts for. This instrument, by nature, by the gifts of personality, character, and will, which she and the Creator cobbled together for this particular incarnation, spends a good deal of time, perhaps a higher percentage of time within incarnation than most within this circle, being completely within the moment, having that experience of the present self observed. To this instrument this is not a gift or an accomplishment. It is a simple fact of her nature. This instrument, therefore, is more aware of the negative aspect of such a frame of mind than the positive aspects. To this entity it is simply irritating to discover time and again that one has not been on the right page or even opened the right book as far as knowing what is occurring. So, this entity has the inner experience of scrambling upon the surface of life in order to take a look around at the illusion. Therefore, this entity, more than most, grasps the value of the unobserved self, the self completely within the illusion. For this entity finds itself involved in causing inconvenience to the self and to others because of her lack of awareness of space and time.

There is, of course, much to be said for the entity who has been able to so live the life so that a rhythm has been caught, and that marvelous beating heart of all that there is informs, enables, and blesses all experience. It is a joy indeed to find the self in that holiday delight, that thrill of knowing that all is as it should be. These moments, however discovered or achieved, are wonderful, true and lovely. We encourage each, when those moments of delight occur, to mark them down in the heart, to look at the significant self, for these are moments of truth when the illusion falls away and all is real. It is not the reason that you are in the Earth world. Nevertheless, such moments are most blessed.

This instrument has a favorite phrase, “the prayer without ceasing,” and this is her version of being in the flow or being the observer, and there is such feeling in those measured moods of awareness when the self feels awake and alert to the world about. There is such pleasure in staying within that upper triad of energy centers, the heart, the throat, the brow, of green, of blue, of indigo. And this is the crux of the situation. Each spiritual student hungers and thirsts for these feelings of certainty, of orientation within the larger universe. It desires to cast off the shackles of culture, to spend all of the time, if possible, rejoicing and delighting in the beauty, the truth, and the unity of all that there is, for the joy to be aware permanently that you are part of that harmony.

Yet this Earth world remains that extremely vast stage upon which you and those about you dance, and sing, and speak with each other, discovering self, other self, and offering the reflection of self to self. This instrument has often said to those working upon the path of spiritual evolution, “Try not to work in the upper energy centers more than you work in the lower energy centers.” And we feel that this is a key to your own use of both modes of awareness. Mental, emotional, and physical health as well as spiritual health are a matter of balance. Each entity is unique and has an ever moving, ever developing, always spiraling path of energy flow. When one has not yet awakened to one’s spiritual identity, yet still one is aware of the flow when one is in it. There is not anyone who does not do good work while asleep. There is a drawback to those who are not awake and are not consciously aware of wishing to accelerate their rate of spiritual evolution, nevertheless this does not keep them from progressing. And in the fullness of time the entity most completely immured in the illusion shall one day, without conscious effort achieve realization. Evolution is absolutely inevitable. The rate of evolution is that which is questionable.

And with this instrument we would encourage each not to be laggardly or to feel better than the entity who is not aware of spiritual evolution. Insofar as you have become aware of the process of evolution, of the kind of thing spiritual evolution is, yet still you are equipped with the full array of challenges, physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, and all of these threads of being have their own best luster and strength. So much of the tapestry of life is created from difficulties, the dark side of things that we cannot overemphasize the value of these lower energies and working upon them as though they were as exciting to work with as the higher centers.

Then Q’uo said that as a balance to the unknowing incarnational self would be the self that is observed in the present moment such as Carla was as she scrambled upon the surface of her life in order to take a look at the illusion, but she did not appreciate this as it caused inconveniences for herself and for others. Then Q’uo said that occasionally there are moments when the love of one’s heart blesses all experience, and the illusion falls away. Then they said that Carla saw this as “prayer without ceasing” when she felt in the flow which would be like the activation of the green, blue, and indigo energy centers so that one would experience: the beauty, the truth, and the unity of all that there is, for the joy to be aware permanently that you are part of that harmony. Q’uo said that upon this Earth all seekers interact with each other in ways that see the self reflected in others, and Carla always advised: “Try not to work in the upper energy centers more than you work in the lower energy centers.” Q’uo thought that this was a good way of balancing the mental, emotional, and physical health with the health of the spirit, and then they said that even the person who was spiritually unawakened would eventually achieve realization because spiritual evolution was inevitable with the time of realization being the only unknown factor. Then Q’uo recommended that we should not feel more advanced than those who are still asleep because everyone will continue to face challenges in the lower three energy centers that can aid their spiritual evolution as much as working with the higher energy centers. On April 21, 2002, Q’uo described how the path of our spiritual evolution may be traveled:

We feel that your image of constructing a road, a path by which those who seek love and seek to serve the Creator in all may move ahead, is indeed a most adequate image to envision at this time in your spiritual evolution. We give this instrument the picture from your tarot images of the Fool who seems to walk off the cliff and who is momentarily suspended in mid-air. As the seeker of truth moves along the path of spiritual seeking, many times this is the image which functions well to describe this journey. For when one seeks beyond what the world about you recognizes as real then there is that magic of the thinking, and the acting to follow the thinking, which creates the sure fundament under the foot as it is placed foolishly upon the path, and we say foolishly, for many will feel that it is foolish to seek to love all beings. For is there not evil in this world? It is foolish to move intuitively in a world where reason wrests its reward from all. It is foolish to seek to give the self full of love to those whom you do not know.

And yet, my friends, is it not foolish to love the Creator that you have not yet met? Is it foolish to seek the heart of Love when Love is that force which has created all that is? Is it foolish to walk upon the dusty trail of the seeker of truth when that trail so often seems isolated and alone, yet when explored fully is filled with fellow seekers and pilgrims who walk that same trail and who seek in that same vein to love without end, to give without stint, and to be in harmony with all that there is? Yes, you build a road. It is a road that is made of things not of this world but those principles and qualities that are the center of the heart of a Creator of Love.

You see, work in consciousness proceeds from the heart. However, the heart’s energy is entirely a creature of the power, shall we say, that is brought to the heart. Those who wish to skip working on the self in relationships, with regards to issues such as sexuality, survival and so forth, may wish that they could spend all of their time working on communication and consciousness itself, yet unless the energy centers of red, orange, and yellow, of survival, self-identification and association with others, are addressed, and that with respect, there will be a lessening of the flow of energy into the heart. And one can only work from the heart upward with that energy that has come through to the heart. Those who have experienced the rising of kundalini, that flow of energy up the spine, know that its origin is the root chakra, those organs of generation, reproduction, and elimination that together form the great taboo, the great unspoken subject in your culture. Yet there is great need here for much balancing with regard to the issue of life itself. This is strictly red-ray. And so much depends upon that way in which you meet this opportunity for life.

The self in orange ray seems a bit drab to work upon. “How do I comfort myself”? These questions of self to self can burn the midnight oil within one’s mind and create endless and often agonizing tangles. Often work in this energy center is not fun. And with yellow ray there comes an even greater burden of the learning curve which must be achieved in each and every relationship, in each and every joining of all groups, working with all desires. The heart may wish that it could break out of these cages of lower energies and burst the illusion of maya. And yet you came here specifically to be tied down, specifically to be confused, and to work within this great unknowing.

We cannot make the lower energy work more fun by sugar-coating the process involved. It is hard work to work from the self in relationship, the self with issues, and yet it is that for which you have come. You have come here to be confused, to be challenged, to enter a learning situation such as this one. We encourage each to see the whole panoply of the self from the lowest to the highest reaches as one seamless wheel, each part of which is as important as the other. There is not a favorite place in which the personality shell shall choose to work. Indeed, the most reliable method of becoming one with the flow of things is simply to wait until they come to you, as the ones known as R and J have both expressed. And how difficult is that waiting, yet once one has been able to surrender in one wise, on one front, once one has been able once to say, “OK, I give it up. I don’t care. Whatever your will is, that is what I want,” that surrender makes the next one easier. The life of faith, if it has a beginning, begins in the dirt, the dust, and the mire.

That clay self must be tossed into mid-air and this is the way it must be for you again and again. And each of you has found far more than once that moment of resolve, that moment of choice, and you have said, “I surrender. Not my will, but Thine.” We encourage each to continue to have the courage to take that leap into mid-air. When you are not one with your environment, when you are at odds and are very much a human being, know that you are still learning. Indeed, you are probably learning more than you are in those moments when you feel supported, for the learning is in the strife and friction of life. Consider yourselves as little distilleries. Now, a distillery is something that takes a raw material and refines it until its nature changes. And each of you is a spiritual distillery taking in the odor and muck of daily living.

And so it is that in yielding to it and cooperating with it in trust, hope and faith, that you maximize the transparency of your self and your personality. When you are suffering, when you are confused, when you are lost in the illusion, know that you are working, that you are on the journey from head to heart. Of course you are not within the heart all of the time, not within this illusion! It is far better that you stay within the illusion. When you come out of that illusion and have those moments, this is wonderful. This delicious. This is dessert. But the meat of living is in the ordinary and the often-ignored daily affairs. Your mind is infinite. If you could only see into the self, the roots of mind come through the life of one self into the life of many, into the greater and greater groups, and finally into the All. And each of the steps and ramifications is a universe unto itself, and this infinite repository and resource indwells each of you. You have all the material that you will ever consciously pursue and adore resting comfortably and in fullness within your being. A portion of that infinite Self that begins with your personality shell knows this fire. But for you within this density at this time, embrace the confusion. Do your best to live consciously, aware of the issues of free will, love, and service. But do not be upset or discouraged with the self or with getting lost within the illusion. You are supposed to be lost most of the time. This is how you learn. And this pattern of the discovery of your self, it will show you to yourself, and that self that it shows you, ah, what an infinite thing you will find!

The self unaware, the self aware. The self undone and the self composed. These are one. It may seem like a vast difference to each of you, but we assure you that the basic vibration inside of incarnation and outside of incarnation is the same. You may muddy your vibration by being unhappy with the self or unhappy with others or in some way moving athwart of living, but you are still yourself and you are still at work on your path no matter how deeply confused or suffering you feel.

This instrument hears the unpleasant cry of two of this instrument’s cats in the upper floor of this dwelling. These two entities are deeply enmired in their illusion and yet they too learn, and they sound unpleasant to other ears. But each thing that they do is appropriate for them. Begin to have this kind of feeling about yourself. Know the satisfaction of putting up that first floor before ascending to the higher second floor of inspiration.

Now Q’uo said that work in consciousness begins in the heart, and unless the lower three energy centers of sexual reproduction and survival of the red center, the orange energy center of the self and one-to-one relationships, and the yellow energy center of group interaction are open that the intelligent energy of the Creator cannot get into the heart and then the higher centers as well. Then Q’uo said that each of the lower three energy centers provided a difficult challenge to work with, but we have come into the third density to be confused and challenged because this is where our growth will come from if we simply go with the flow of what catalyst comes to us in these three energy centers and begin to live a life in faith that all is well. Q’uo went on by saying that when we are lost and confused that this is the beginning of the journey from the head to the heart and that we have all of the resources necessary to travel this journey when we realize that the roots of our mind come from the One Mind, and a portion of our personality shell comes from this infinite Mind, so we should welcome the confusion and try to live a life of free will, service, and love. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that we should not become discouraged for getting lost in confusion because we are still on our spiritual path, and each difficulty is another step on our path. On March 3, 1996, Q’uo described the nature of the spiritual journey from the head to the heart:

Those who seek tend to put a great emphasis upon learning the truth. However, that which is true lies already as the heart and soul of all that depends therefrom, including the energy field which is each seeker’s location or body in space and time. Thusly, one may add fact upon fact upon fact, all in the name of spiritual seeking, and become an entity whose head is filled with many, many facts. However, the journey of spirit is a journey from head to heart and that which comes from or through the consciousness of an entity in the way of the basic vibration, the basic way of perceiving, that is the clearest indication and gift of self to spirit which seekers are capable of offering.

Far more high, if you will, or exalted are the puzzled, confusing thoughts of one who loves with the whole heart than those words, however wonderful, which build an intellectual house for truth or have a central place for the heart. It is the heart that holds truth. It is the heart that can be disciplined to show those truths which now seem murky to the mind. It is the heart from which will, hope, and faith journey into expression. It is the heart that gives meaning to the whole. The function of the intellect is the prosecution of that which needs to be done in order to make the physical being comfortable and happy within the world.

We do not denigrate the use of the intellect. We were simply affirming our opinion, which is that the truth embodied by the seeker is a far more whole and full truth than any words, however brilliant.

We would at this time transfer to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and in light. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each of you again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time we would offer ourselves to any further queries that those present might find the value in asking.

R: I am confused. You are not saying that there is no value in mediation and opening yourself to the energies that work with you?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We spoke at the beginning of our response to the primary query for the day by saying that if we had the necessity to choose between these two ways of being we would choose the confusion of your third-density illusion over the feeling of atonement and peace that each seeks within this heavy, physical illusion. Our choice would be thus for it is within this confusion that one can learn a great deal more than is possible to learn in a more harmonious environment. Indeed, this is the reason that this third-density illusion is such an intense place for growth and such a valued experience for each spirit which seeks incarnation here. The learning that is possible when there is mystery and darkness all about carries far more weight in the total beingness of an entity than does the learning which is inevitable and obvious in the harmonious realms of existence. We also recommended, my brother, that when these opportunities are present for feeling atonement and the presence of the one Creator in all His or Her perfection, that one enjoy and luxuriate in them, for they are the frosting on the cake. However, as we spoke earlier, the meat of this incarnation is to find Love and Light in the confusion of the daily round of existence. To find those gems of inspiration embedded in the muck and mire of everyday experience is far more valuable.

Is there another query at this time?

R: No. Because I am much lost. I will think about it some more.

I am Q’uo, and we would make an addition to our response. When one finds oneself at the cusp of choice and is confused as to how to respond, perhaps with another entity, an argument, a disagreement, a miscommunication, one has at one’s disposal the entire previous store of experience from the incarnation to use in creating a response to the situation. One has a range of emotions that the choice may be embedded within. One has a range of reactions from the one with whom one speaks and interacts. All of these are bits of information, opportunities to learn, to learn the power of the Love of the one Creator to transform, for instance, when one is able to tap into this resource. To learn regret that one has caused injury, to learn the determination that one shall not do so again, to learn a vast array of possible responses. Indeed, the experience offers an example of the infinity of the moment. In this moment one may learn how to give love in a way that is much quicker, intense, and efficient than this learning could be accomplished where harmony, oneness, and the power of Love and Light are obvious, and the proper response is given without thought, without effort, and the entire mind/body/spirit of the entity is affected but little. Whereas in the intense moment of third-density confusion the love and light that you find there carries a great deal more value and weight in your total beingness and moves your mind/body/spirit further along the line of evolution than is possible in the same amount of experience within the higher realms of harmony and oneness.

Is there a further query at this time?

J: What is the value of meditation in the daily experiences?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. As one has gathered about one all the various confusions, experiences, communications and so forth one draws certain tentative conclusions about how best to respond within the incarnation in order to determine how to find and share those qualities of love, of light, of harmony, of service, and so forth. Within the meditative state these tentative conclusions and experiences may seat themselves in a manner which allows their influence to have its sway within the total being. One is able to more clearly make sense of one’s experiences by allowing a certain kind of settling out to occur, and for the allowing of inspiration to make its natural response as one considers the events of the day, allows them to have their weight and go their way, and then finds the sitting and the listening to the one Creator to produce an inspiration, a motivation, or simply a recognition. It is in meditation that the confusion and distraction begin to fall away and the foundation of one’s being begins to be revealed and becomes more accessible to the entity in the daily round of activities when found in meditation.

Is there a further query, my sister?

J: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you. Is there a further query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo. As we have apparently exhausted the queries for this session of working, we would again take this opportunity to express our gratitude to each entity here for inviting our presence and again remind each that those words that we have spoken that ring of truth, take them and do with them as you will, letting all others fall away. We are those of Q’uo, and at this time would take our leave of this instrument and this circle of seeking. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I went upstairs and recorded the last section of Chapter One of 102 which was entitled Emotions. Then I ran some errands with my first stop being at the vet’s  to get more meds for Bosco. My next stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to get some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up a prescription.

This afternoon I was on a zoom meet with my two friends of over 50 years, and it had been since June since we have had a zoom meet, so we took up a lot of time to catch up on what has happened in our lives since June. Then we read from Session #39 in The Ra Contact stopping now and then to discuss the concepts that were being discussed. Then I went back upstairs and recorded the first section in Chapter Two of 102 which was entitled Resistance Leads to Growth.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 16

The Gates Of Your Heart

Greetings in the love of Christ. I am the spirit of the consciousness of love in the vibration which comforts this child.

You who understand so many things about your daily life and make so many connections between events so as to bring them into order, would find comfort in turning for a deeper understanding of events to the contemplation of that Thought which created you.

For even as you appreciate the gift of father and mother in offering the possibility of breathing and living incarnation, so even more may you appreciate the ultimate Creator of you and of all things.

Nor is it possible to contemplate the infinite order of the creation without assuming, finally, that unacceptable and difficult circumstances are, nevertheless, intentionally organized for your benefit.

Look, then, at the same situation which you have analyzed so well within your mind and open the gates of your heart, letting confidence and peace in the rightness of all that you see wash over you. And in that atmosphere the birth of the deeper understanding will aid the child of God in making the deeper sense of any circumstance.

My peace be with you, now and forever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from December 29, 1997:

We would like to have a look at the information, if possible, today about the Earth changes that may be occurring in the next few years, what form they might take, and what impact they might have upon our lives as spiritual seekers.

(Carla channeling)

Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is a privilege and a pleasure to be called to your circle of seeking at this time. We are most grateful for your desire to seek the truth and for your calling us, for sharing our opinions and views is our chosen form of service at this time, and each time we are able to use instruments such as this one to share these views, we feel that we have offered our service, and this is very precious to us. We ask only that you use your discrimination for we have many opinions, and we are known to be wrong and would not put ourselves forward as any authority. We ask each entity to know that there is a good and adequate power of discrimination given to each seeking soul. There is a genuine and authentic feeling that accompanies the hearing of what we may call a personal truth. Many are the views discussed that may appeal to one and not to another, for many are the paths of seekers. So, we ask you to listen and take what you will, leaving the rest behind. We do not come as those in authority, but rather as those who also seek the truth. We share the mystery to which we are called, for which we hunger, and upon whose end we all gaze with awe and worship, for each entity is as a spark of Love that is precisely like Love itself, that great original Thought for which there is no better word than Love.

Many are the distortions. Very general is the confusion of many people with distorted views attempting to see clearly that which cannot be seen clearly. That is to say, you now inhabit a very deep illusion. Within you is the truth, and you are the truth that you seek. And yet, in order to have the opportunity to accelerate the rate of your spiritual evolution, each of you has chosen to come into precisely this confusion, precisely this space and time, for here you have found a chance to work upon your own polarity, a chance to work upon that faith which is no accomplishment without the confusion of the illusion.

So, you are here specifically to be confused and to undertake to follow the desires of your heart. It is easy to gaze upon the world about you as a thing, a geographical location, an island in space. The heard music of language and culture, of buildings and ways of relating, all those things that make up the environment and habit have prepared you to attempt to make sense of this illusion. In many ways you have succeeded in carving out, each for yourself, that identity that you are pleased to wear as the mask of self, that face that you wear to meet those whom you meet. Yet each mask that you see is the Creator, and you yourself are also that Love divine, which is the Creator.

We describe this essence that is you to be able to stand at this viewpoint and then gaze at that which is occurring upon the physical planet whose surface you now inhabit. This planet of yours is indeed under much stress. The details of the havoc that has been reached by third-density humankind is all too well known to those here. And we do feel that there is the potential for difficulties such as your floods, your earthquakes, those ways the planet has of being comfortable within its own skin, for it, too, is a living being. This level of concern is appropriate. It is well to be aware that the ground under you is alive, and that that life is compromised by the actions of humankind. We also are aware, however, that each difficulty has a solution, and as the wheels of destiny turn, there will come balance, and renewal, and new life where there is to the eye now only death and barrenness.

Upon a level deeper than this, we would speak of the roots of mind, for as you move over the threshold into the unconscious, and move deeper within the memory, you pass through a level at which the Earth changes, as they are often called, strike a chord with humankind’s fear of not continuing. For those who are fascinated with Judgment Day, Armageddon, or conversely the New Age, the Second Coming, and so forth, we would suggest that, archetypically-speaking, one is gazing at the self, gazing at death, the death of the personal self, for each knows that it is physically a creature of dust. It is made of earth, and that bone and sinew that moves this vehicle about shall one day again be dust. All of the civilization and training that the culture gives upon this death of self has a tendency to be very fear-driven. Thusly, it may be seen that those who follow intensely a scenario of planetary disaster may well be more concerned with issues to do with the self than those to do with the planet. It is our opinion that at this time there has been a radical upswing, shall we say, in awakening souls. It is for this reason that some within this group chose incarnation upon this sphere at this time. This is indeed a harvest season for those entities who now dance the dance of third density. This is the time when each of those who has been allowed to incarnate has the possibility of graduating into the next density at the end of the incarnation. The line to get into the physical third-density planet Earth atmosphere is a long one, for the need here is great at this time.

Focusing upon the difficulties having to do with magnetic shift may reward one with some meager harvest of information. However, we would suggest that a more appropriate response to that feeling that the fields are ripe with harvest is to dedicate the self more and more to being a spiritual entity first, and an actor who functions and does things second. If indeed there were a planetary disaster, a chance at survival would not in any case avail. Indeed, when one sees difficulty and disaster, there is a choice to be made as to what you will think about. Many things enter the senses of your vehicle, far too many things for you to be able to acknowledge and think about them all. The way one prioritizes the incoming data, therefore, is quite important. And we would encourage each when faced with thoughts of difficulty or disaster to consciously and eagerly to move into that tabernacle within, for the Creator Itself sits in Light and in perfect Love.

The question for this session was: “We would like to have a look at the information, if possible, today about the Earth changes that may be occurring in the next few years, what form they might take, and what impact they might have upon our lives as spiritual seekers.” Q’uo began by saying that we are that which we seek, but we have incarnated to increase our polarity and to work upon our faith which cannot be done without working through the confusion of this third density illusion, and we do this by following the desires of our heart and make sense of this illusion by creating an identity that is like a mask that has the Creator within it and sees the Creator in all others as well. They went on to say that this essence of our self is able to observe the great difficulties that our planet is suffering through floods, earthquakes, and other disasters that are created by mankind, but that there is a solution to each problem as the destiny of the planet and its population is realized. Q’uo went on to say that if we go deeper into the subconscious mind we will find mankind’s archetypical fear of not surviving taking the form of “Judgment Day, Armageddon, or conversely the New Age, and the Second Coming” which reflect the fear of many people of their own death rather that the well-being of the planet, but that there were also many people who were awakening to the desire to be part of the movement into the fourth density. Then Q’uo said that the best way to deal with planetary disasters was not to try to find an intellectual or scientific answer but to focus first on being a spiritual entity and to “eagerly move into that tabernacle within, for the Creator Itself sits in Light and in perfect Love.” On February 6, 2000, Q’uo spoke of the value of spending time in that tabernacle within the heart:

Thusly, when all human habitation fails to comfort or to simplify there is that tabernacle within the heart to which you may go in meditation, in contemplation, in prayer. In a moment of remembrance you may suddenly be in the Light, bursting with joy and peace, and aware that things will rise; things will occur; and things will pass away. And that the one infinite Creator and you will be just fine in weal or woe, in life or death, moving through all of the interesting confusions and conundrums of everyday life. When you live in the heart you shall still be confused, but you shall not begrudge that confusion so deeply. Nor shall you find yourself in the state of irritation for as long a time, for the heart, in its intuitive way, has a kindness, a gentleness when the mind would cut with its sharp edges.

That sun within that warms the soul waits for each to come to its own heart and knock and enter. The joy of opening the heart cannot be described. The experience of flying free of judgment, borne on the arms of compassion, is a heavy one. And this is the response that best addresses the difficulties of your planet. To the outer person, this sounds patently absurd. How can meditation or prayer or the centering within the self upon Love affect a deadening ocean, a deadening land, a deadening atmosphere, and all the numerous other difficulties your culture is aware of? And yet, it is at being at peace within, and thusly being free to open the heart and allow the Love and Light of the infinite One to move through the self and out into the world, that is, by far, the most effective answer that you can give to the world of concerns everyday. For each of you is as a star. Each eternal, each unique, and each [inaudible] truly perfect. Incarnation and learning are peculiar things. It does seem peculiar to want to come into a darkened world, and spiritually speaking, there is some darkness upon your planet at this time, which you were speaking of earlier.

Know this and all darkness to be but the reflection of the darkness within. Know all confusion, all difficulty, and all disaster, as reflections of those parts of the dark side of self within. That which you see is as a visual aid explaining you to yourself. And as you enter this season of harvest, you know there is service to perform, and you wish to be about it. We say to you that the way to serve the Creator at this time is to open the heart to the present moment and practice that precious oneness with the Creator. When there is confusion, when there is awkwardness in the rhythm of the day, move back into the heart where the Creator waits patiently.

Again and again, center the self upon its deepest truth. And you will gaze at a world made different because of the way you think. And as more and more people find peace within themselves, the harvest will begin to be plucked. So, we ask you not to fear. It is written within one of your holy works, by the one known as John of [inaudible], that in the beginning was the Word and that Word or Logos made all that there is. And this entity also described the Earth scene as a spiritual darkness, and concluded by observing that, as the Light came into the world, the darkness has never overcome it. Each of you is a being of pure Light. Each of you has complete freedom to choose the way in which you will manifest that life. All these so-called evils of the world are but Love distorted. We encourage you to find ways to choose Love over fear, Light over darkness, surrender over control, for the attempt to control is a hard service to self.

Know as deeply as you can, and as often as you can, who you are, where you are going, and for the rest, trust destiny. For as the one known as M and the one known as L have both said, one is led to the work that has been prepared for you to do. But the greatest work of all, and the work that will harvest this planet in safety, is being who you most deeply are, a child of the Creator, a miniature of the Love that is so powerful that It has created all that there is.

Q’uo continued by saying that the way to deal with planetary disasters was to go within the heart in meditation to find peace within our self that will allow the Love and Light of the one infinite Creator to move through our hearts and out into the world to deal with its difficulty and darkness. They went on to say that all difficulty and darkness is a reflection of our dark sides and opens our hearts to the infinite Creator so that we can practice oneness with the Creator in the present moment. Then Q’uo said that the world can be changed by the way that we find peace within ourselves because we are beings of pure light, and they encouraged us to: “find ways to choose Love over fear, Light over darkness, surrender over control, for the attempt to control is a hard service to self.” Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that in order to aid the harvest of this planet, we should remember who we are and why we are here since we are “a child of the Creator’s Love which has made all that there is.” On November 8, 2004, Q’uo spoke of the value in choosing love over fear:

There is a true hope among your peoples that is growing daily for the energies of love, and trust, and peace to come swelling up like buds opening into flowers in spring. When each of you chooses love over fear, you start something happening in the unseen worlds. You create an energy that is compatible with fourth density. Each time you choose to trust, to love, to have forbearance and compassion, to see the other person’s point of view and truly walk in his shoes instead of your own, you are expanding the kingdom of fourth density right where you are. And the more people that begin consciously to do this, the faster this kingdom will expand. We say to you plainly, fourth density is all but complete. As you walk about in third density, the fourth density energy is stronger every day upon your planet. The Earth itself is vibrating largely in fourth density now. That is why so many entities are sensing the need to become closer in contact to the Earth itself, touching the ground, working with the Earth, working with plants and animals and those things that abide in the creation of the Father and have nothing to do with the world of the mind of man.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument and leave it in love and in light, for we are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again, in love and in light, through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to ask if there might be further queries which those present would find value in the asking. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Well, I have a question. You mentioned the change in the magnetic field. I was wondering if the difficulty has something to do with our rotating into the new area of space that our planet hasn’t been in before.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To this query there are many components that comprise the answer. There are indeed new and more available, shall we say, energies in the portion of time and space through which this planet now moves. There is also the effect of the planetary entity realigning itself because of previous distortions offered by the third-density population in the way of the deleterious effects upon the planet. There are those entities in your circles of government who have sought to influence the patterns of weather. All these together may be seen as potential influences that have caused the patterns of weather to become somewhat more erratic. However, each of these potential sources may, as we have said, be affected by the love that emanates from the open heart of each seeker within your illusion. Thus, each may offer healing to this planetary entity and to all other entities, as well, each time the heart is open in compassion, forgiveness, understanding, mercy and tolerance.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: Not on that subject, thanks, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Our experience here on Earth is described as an illusion. Is the illusion basically just that so many of us have in a sense separated from God or from the Creator, and from each other? Is that what is meant by the illusion?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. You are correct in your assumption that the illusion is that which is more than it appears to be, for each does appear to be separate from each other entity and from your environment itself. The unity of all things is the underlying truth in this matter. The illusion of separation exists so that each portion of the one Creator, the personalities who each of you are, may have the opportunity to explore within the one Creator’s boundless field, the opportunities for discovering love and service for each other, though these may not seem to be the primary reasons for which each was incarnated. The illusion offers many other alternate answers for why each is here: to gather wealth, to be powerful, to do this or that great thing. All of these are but means by which each entity may find the heart of Love and Unity within itself. Each uses the artifacts of the illusion to travel the spiritual journey, though all around one the material world is given ascendancy.

This is the illusion so finely created by each portion of the one Creator for the purpose of finding the one Creator’s Love and Light in each heart and also providing that one Creator within the opportunity to know Itself in ways that would not be possible were this illusion and your choices within it not creative.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Just a follow-up to his. When you say illusion, I sort of think of the fact that no one has seen an electron even as far as mass goes. They see the path of energy that is left behind, but they can’t find any mass, so that’s really where I was thinking the illusion came in is just that level where there really isn’t anything but energy. Does that have validity?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. This is indeed true, and is a most salient observation. The nature of the illusion may be described in many, many ways. And in your pursuit of the explanation of particles of creation that you call physics, there is the discovery by more and more of those who pursue this field that indeed, what each sees is most mysterious. There are a variety of ways that explanation is offered, and yet, none satisfy completely unless one sees the entire creation of many-ness as a unified concept of the one Creator’s expression of love and light.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I had a guy write in from Turkey, and he was very upset over people being born retarded, and otherwise handicapped or born starving, and what was that all about. I just wrote him back and said that it was part of the mystery, that we all did suffer, those that obviously suffered and those that don’t look like they suffer at all. Everybody suffers. I wondered, do you have any comment on that? I’d love to be able to answer better.

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. To love and to find love is an easy thing when there is no barrier to perceiving love. Within your illusion, there is a great deal of darkness, shall we say, spiritually speaking. So that it carries far more weight in the mind/body/spirit totality that you call the spirit or soul to find Love and Light in an incarnation in which there is great difficulty, great darkness, great challenge. Each entity which incarnates within this illusion enters into the undertaking of this challenge and will gain in the spiritual awareness and power, shall we say, by being able to accomplish the discovery of love where it is most difficult to find.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: I have a question. In my search throughout my life to find out more about myself and what my path is in life, I’ve had many thoughts, so to say, that have followed me throughout my life and I’m wondering if these thoughts are symbolic of what I am to do. But they have troubled me in their authenticity of what they actually mean. I was wondering if you had any comment, so to speak, on that?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Each entity which incarnates within this illusion offers to itself those guideposts or milestones, these thoughts which you have described, that pose to the incarnated entity the questions that you are indeed asking yourself. These thoughts, these images, these impulses within, then seek to guide, to lead, if you will, the entity within a certain line of inquiry that will eventually prove fruitful to the entity as it faithfully follows that which it feels within to be leading it. You will, within your incarnation, discover certain synchronicities, coincidences, the bringing together of information of entities, of experiences, of shared thoughts and dreams. These will serve as those kinds of directions that will lead, that will nurture, that will inspire and support when the way seems difficult and dark. Look then, especially in your prayerful times, and in mediation and in those times where you seek within the answers that are of importance to you. Look there upon a regular basis that you might inquire into the wisdom that you have provided yourself, and which the Creator and those angels and spirits about you have provided you, so that you may become inspired at those times when it is open to you to seek, and to ask, to serve, to give. That you are aware of these images, these thoughts, is important. Important not only at this time, but throughout your incarnation.

Is there a further query, my brother?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as we perceive that there are no further queries from this circle of seeking, we would at this time offer our gratitude to each entity for inviting our presence and for sharing with us your thoughts and your concerns. We are honored to have been a part of your seeking this day. And would remind each again that the personal discrimination is most important at all times, including listening to our words when information is being sought that has meaning in your own journey of seeking the truth. You indeed have the answers that you seek within and when there is information given to you that rings of truth, then you may welcome into your…

[Tape ends.]

This morning I went outside and changed out the sugar syrup in my three hummingbird feeders and my neighbor across the street’s two hummingbird feeders. There was not much sign of hummingbird activity, and I would guess that the hummers are headed south for the winter. Then I ran a couple of errands to pick up some cat food at Feeder’s Supply and a couple of prescriptions for me at Walgreen’s Drug Store.

This afternoon I went upstairs to the recording studio and recorded the second section of Chapter One of 102 on the topic of Catalyst.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 15

Carelessness And Forgetfulness

I am the Spirit of the Lord Jesus Christ who speaks unto the world this day, this hour, and this moment through the mouth of this instrument and in the heart of each and every soul that exists.

O, how abundant is the Spirit! O how rich and inestimably close is the comfort which you seek!

It is mere forgetfulness, not willfulness, that draws most of you from the Spirit and consciousness of Jesus the Christ. It is a carelessness of fine trust that one may go forward and forget the center of being.

Yet to move in thought and action without the Spirit is to invite the calamity of a careless confusion, one less able to be penetrated in the end by Love and peace.

Yes! We ask you, rejoicing, to carry the strength, the comfort, and the laughter of the Spirit of Jesus the Christ in your heart each hour of this day, calling into remembrance all of Christ’s passion and remembering Love itself made manifest, as that Love made us manifest to you, for all time.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. In the name of Jesus the Christ. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 19, 1997:

The question this evening has to do with individual or group efforts to make energy or technological advances available for humanity. The Confederation of Planets had this problem in pre-World War Two when they were giving information to the Manhattan Project scientists who then developed the bomb. Is humanity ready for further technologies such as free energy, or if we wish to be of service to… [inaudible].

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo, and we apologize for our premature beginning. We were saying how much of a privilege we consider it to be asked to speak with you and share our thoughts. As always, we would ask that you pick and choose among these thoughts, taking those which are helpful to you and leaving the rest behind. For we have no illusion that our own concepts of the truth are any final word; rather we are happy to share our opinions with those who have discrimination. And each does indeed have that discrimination that recognizes that which is one’s own personal truth.

The question this evening concerns the application of gifts, and we would, as we often do, wish to begin by placing the concept of gifts in some kind of context. When each incarnate being gazed upon the incarnation to come, each selected from the infinite self those gifts and quirks of being, thought, and attitude which would provide the resources and tools to prosecute various purposes for which the incarnation was chosen. Often, these eccentricities and biases do not seem in the life experience to have any direct application. However, the indirect use of gifts is frequently an enlarged group of service.

Secondly, we would encourage the concept of the personality shell that makes use of these gifts and a kind of focus for the deeper reasons for incarnation. As the self gazes at the self, the self is actually gazing at the personality shell. This is the first fruit of self-knowledge, that knowledge of the personality shell. Now, this personality shell is created of the blending between the second-density life-form which is your physical vehicle, and whose mind and instincts are unimpaired, and the consciousness that is that infinite self within its vehicle.

Far beyond the apparent nature of the self, with its temptations and duties and positive and negative thoughts about many things, there is a deeper self, a self that may ultimately be identified as the great original Thought, which is Love. This Logos is complete and utterly within, and it, Love itself, is the nature which you may come to know in the most trustworthy way. For Love is Love. Love created all that there is. There is no sham, no falsity to divine Logoic Love. And this is the vibration, this is the essence which each is beneath the personality shell.

When one considers what one is to do with one’s gifts, we would encourage each seeker to contemplate first the greatest gift, that gift of consciousness. There are duties and responsibilities that go hand in hand with the awakening of awareness of one’s spiritual identity. One responsibility is to remember who you are, and what you are. For it is that essence that you came primarily to offer as your service. As each comprehends these words, each is fulfilling her major, primary service. For the primary service is to share sacrificially the essential vibrations of self with the planet that you call Earth in order that the planetary consciousness may be lightened at this critical time, metaphysically speaking, in Earth’s history. So, no matter what occurs within the outer world, as the one known as C observed, no matter whether one develops a new physics or works and retires, the primary service is performed as you breathe in and out, and as you are most deeply and truly yourself.

It is this vocation for which you took flesh. Primarily, this is why you came. You came here to be yourself, to offer yourself sacrificially to a world greatly in need, a relatively unbiased vibration of Love. The sacrifice is life itself. Not that which is within the life. It costs something for each to come here. You have paid that price. We encourage each then, to relax, to trust, and to surrender to that destiny which is a gift carefully chosen by yourself before incarnation. You have prepared ways to serve in the outer world. It is not terribly important whether or not this or that which was prepared is taken up and manifested. However, it is from this standpoint, and from this context, that we would prefer to deal with the question of the use of gifts.

The question for this session was: “The question this evening has to do with individual or group efforts to make energy or technological advances available for humanity. The Confederation of Planets had this problem in pre-World War Two when they were giving information to the Manhattan Project scientists who then developed the bomb. Is humanity ready for further technologies such as free energy, or if we wish to be of service to… [inaudible].” Q’uo began by saying that before we incarnated, we chose certain gifts from our infinite self, or higher self, that would help us learn our lessons, but that sometimes these gifts do not seem to help us learn our lessons, so they must be looked at as part of a larger group’s service. Q’uo went on to say that our personality shell is who we are and is a combination of our second density body and our infinite consciousness, and our personality shell uses our gifts to focus on the deeper reasons for our incarnation. Then Q’uo said that beneath our personality shell is the Love of the Logos which created all that there is. They went on to say that the greatest gift that we have to share with Mother Earth is the awakening to the spiritual nature of our consciousness that will help to lighten the vibrations of Mother Earth as she moves into the fourth density vibrations and also will allow us to share the simple gift of our being with everyone that we meet. They said that this is why we came here, so we should surrender to our destiny which is the gift that we chose before our incarnation. On September 10, 2000, Q’uo spoke of the spiritual nature of our consciousness:

This is a huge change in consciousness: to become self-aware that one is a citizen of eternity. This is a real awakening, and when this occurs, there is a shift. It is as if before you were plodding upon the land, and suddenly now you are on the ocean and moving quickly. And you cannot walk out of the boat and onto the water and onto safe shores. Indeed, you are on a path that cannot be predicted beforetime and that has many elements that are not linear. Consequently, there is a tremendous amount of experience that comes very quickly when the awakening occurs. To our way of thinking, it is a time for rejoicing when the spirit that you are has this sense of awakening to a deeper level of reality, to a fuller sense of life, to a wider appreciation of the possibilities of the present moment. It is not that learning can be accumulated like bricks until a wall can be built to house the knowledge of the mysteries involved in being who we are, but rather, that the fuller the light that we are standing in and working with the more of that light that we can send through our selves and into the creation to lighten those energy patterns about us.

When an entity wakes up it is as if a light has been switched on. It is not a light that can ever truly be put out again, for there is an awareness there. A change has been made, and it cannot be undone.

As each contemplates the future, each is immediately aware of a sense of tumultuous change as your solar system rotates into a new area of space. The vibrations are changing. The density is changing. Time itself is altering. And the old paradigms grow increasingly awkward. There is in such a time a need for those who are able to move with the rhythm and the information surrounding that change, that energy, or dynamic of transformation. In such a situation as your Earth is at this time, it is to the scientists who look carefully at the actual knowledge of humankind a time when there is seen by all to be a crying need for a new paradigm. Much goes into shift or transformation in consciousness. The entire panoply of arts and sciences, disciplines of every kind, factor into a new creation, a new way of being, that model known as life experience. And so, it seems simple and true that if one’s gifts include a vision of a transformed physics, cosmology, economics, social model… this would be a good time to explore areas which seem to draw you forward. This instrument, for instance, knows she must write a book. This instrument will continue to question her ability, her knowledge, her rights, her worth. However, this entity is persistent and will produce that fruit of her particular gift of which she is capable. And we encourage each to move with those gifts that draw your interest forward.

We are aware that the one known as C has serious concerns, for indeed many are the newly discovered items that have quickly been co-opted for their military use, or otherwise been used for the detriment of humankind rather than its welfare. And indeed, we agree that the only safe area for an entity to work is within the self. Working with the self, it is difficult to infringe upon anyone’s free will. It is difficult to find oneself suddenly aghast over the misuse of the fruits of your labor. For that which you do within yourself is yours to do. There is no possibility of infringement. And this work is at the center of the life, this being rather than doing. We realize that we are more or less simply describing the situation which the question attempted to address. We wish to eliminate the landscape rather than to choose one road or another as this instrument and the one known as Jim both said earlier. We are not those who feel that any should do this or that; this is not a concern of ours whatsoever. Our concern is simply to share anything that we know or think that might constitute a resource to those seekers who we came to communicate with and to serve.

There is a delicate, yet surprisingly robust, middle, or golden mean, or as this instrument would say. There is a groove coming from the jazz groups that she has, and when one is in that groove, one is simply responding to a rhythmic unfolding of destiny. It is this feeling of rightness and rhythm that will come to the one who is making right use of her gifts. And we commend to your processes of thinking the inclusion of that feeling sense that lets you know when you are on the beam and when you are not. For each has the intuition and the inner knowing that one can draw on and depend on.

It is after all, your creation, for each entity, whether it be one of us, one of you, or any within the creation of the infinite Father.

[Pause]

We are those of Q’uo, and we must apologize… we are those of Q’uo. [Laughs] This instrument almost went to sleep on us, and we are sorry, and the instrument is sorry, and we must regroup. We were saying that each within the creation of the Father has an infinite rightness, for each is a citizen of the time, each is a spark of the infinite Creator and from creation to creation, the sparks shall fly out, become homesick, and return. And you are flying and wishing for home—and you shall return—only to be sent out again by an ever-inquisitive Creator to see just what Love can be, what It can do.

Then Q’uo said that our planet is moving into a new area of time and space in which the old ways of thinking need to go through a shift in the way that consciousness is utilized in: “The entire panoply of arts and sciences, disciplines of every kind, factor into a new creation, a new way of being, that model known as life experience.” So, Q’uo suggested that we look into areas where we might use our gifts to help this time of transition draw us forward into the new paradigm as was the case with Carla considering writing a book which eventually became known as A Wanderer’s Handbook. Then Q’uo made a general statement of how to share our gifts most appropriately which was to focus more on the nature of our being and then to use our intuition to share whatever resources we felt to be of the most aid to seekers of truth. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that each of us is a portion of the infinite Creator that has made this journey of serving the Creator from one creation to another, and we shall want to return to our home in the Love of the Creator, and then we shall be sent out again by the Creator that wants to know Itself; what It can be: and what It can do. On September 13, 1981, Q’uo spoke about the true nature of our being:

There are some items which are available to one who wishes to purchase knowledge. One may learn how to make the illusion work. What one may not purchase for any price from outside oneself is the knowledge of why things are as they are, why we are here, and what is the nature of our being.

To look in the mirror is to see an infinitely small part of the creation. This, my friends, is to the best of our knowledge, a creation made entirely of Love. As you view yourself, you may see a tiny portion of an infinite Love and yet, within that image in the mirror, there lie depths through which you may only see given a great deal of desire, time, and discipline, for that which you seek within yourself, that which is the true heart of Love, is locked within you like a seed within the earth or a babe in the womb, and it is through quietness, confidence, and meditation that you may let this plan germinate, this babe be born. This entity is that part of yourself that is more fully the original Thought of the Creator: the original Thought of Love.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo, and we leave this instrument with thanks and love and light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each of you in love and the light through this instrument. We have attempted in this session of working to speak to the query which has been most important upon the minds of those present, especially the one known as C. And we would ask at this time if there is any further query that any present might ask.

Questioner: Well, I don’t have a question, but my mind sure was wandering all over the place, and yet I wanted to thank you for your words because there seems to be some general truth in it because I usually find inspiration in dealing with my concerns that are on my mind.

I am Q’uo, and we are grateful that we have been able to provide the information that has set your mind in motion. We are always hopeful that we are able to speak in some way to the heart of the concerns which are offered to us in the form of queries. We are aware that much within your illusion is confusing and difficult. There is the need for the ray of light, shall we say, within each daily experience of each seeker to shine the way for the seeker and to inspire the dedication to service. And to give the seeker the knowledge that to be is the greatest service that any can offer. For to be is to reproduce the nature of the Creator in the individual incarnation. For the Creator exists in a fashion in which the creation is much like your computer program, running in such and such a fashion with infinite participation and possibilities. There is great harmony within this intricate and infinite moving energy individually expressing as each personality. If you can be and allow the harmony and the Love and the Light of the one Creator to shine through your being in your words, in your thoughts, in your actions, then you have offered that is which most helpful to offer. An incarnation, an illusion, and all those about you, as you move through your incarnation within this illusion it is your free will choice what you shall do with your being. But first be, my friends. Then that which is appropriate for you to do will present itself as clearly as the sun shines on a clear summer day.

At this time, we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, thanking each again for inviting our presence, and cautioning each to take only these words we have offered that ring of truth to you, leaving all others that we have spoken behind without a second thought, for we would not be stumbling blocks upon your path. We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I set the sprinkler in various locations around the yard to water my flower gardens as it has been over two weeks since we have gotten any rain. Then I went upstairs to the recording studio and recorded the last section of the Prologue to 102 which was about how Don, Carla, and I worked together during the Ra contact. Then I made an errand run to the vet to pick up some meds for Bosco. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to drop off a prescription and to pick up another one.

This afternoon I went back up to the recording studio and began recording the first chapter of 102 which is the only chapter that Carla wrote and wrote so well! I recorded the first section of Chapter One which was titled Life on Earth.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 14

Contention And Disagreement

I am the active principle of Jesus the Christ, the Spirit which speaks to the world this day. I greet you in the consciousness of full and divine Love.

This day this instrument goes to a convention to do business for her church. This instrument seems to expect a good many differing and potentially hostile opinions.

It is encouraged, in this instrument and in all who see contention in the world outside the self, that all the various opinions and disagreements without be taken within, that it may be recognized that that which is seen as a picture with the eyes may be understood to be a way of seeing that contention, that confusion, which is within the self.

When once the peace of Christ has penetrated the inner being and the heart is soft and compassionate, the outer confusion will never again seem threatening but merely noisy, for there is a peace which passes all understanding.

It is the understanding of Love, and in this Love and peace we leave you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 16, 1997:

Our question has to do with the harvest and the positive and negative entities who are here with a chance to graduate, so we are seeing a lot of both positive and negative activities and a lot of confusion. Would Q’uo comment on this situation and how we may respond as spiritual seekers, living as though we might die at any moment, living as spiritual warriors, so that each day could be our last day?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the One Infinite Creator whose mystery we worship, and whose service is truly our pleasure and our privilege. We are so grateful to each of you for desiring to investigate and seek the truth, and for choosing to call us to your group as you do by those vibrations that you bring to this circle this day. Without your questing spirits our services would not be needed, and we would not learn or grow as we may do as we serve you. And so, we thank you as each teaches each in the infinite mirroring of Love reflecting Love.

Your question this day revolves around that dance of birth and death most closely associated with the seeming end times, whether that be of a life, of an era, or of a culture as a whole. And indeed, as you come to this subject your planet revolves into that season of cold and dark and stark bareness when the only evidence of light is the frozen and battered ruins of summer’s paradise of leaves and blossoms. And as wise prophets of all cultures and religions have noted that which blooms also dies; that which blossoms also withers; and that which lives also dies. This is the condition into which you were so eager to come, this peculiar situation of inter-related energies that do not necessarily know how to pull together, how to cooperate to achieve that clarity and balance which is possible within illusion.

It is said in your Holy Bible that the fields are white with harvest and yet there are so few harvesters. We might suggest to each of you that you do exist at this time as a harvester to the extent that you embrace and attempt to live that inner focus of self as a vessel and a channel for that Love that is the One Great Original Thought. For the harvest of souls that lie among those deeply slumbering upon your Earth plane appear as do other sleepers, yet they are sleeping but lightly. It is not to the one who is aggressive as a light-bringer but to the one who simply allows light to flow through the instrument that the, shall we say, the coincidences fall to bring sleepers whose time has come to awaken into that circle, that gambit which includes one who is functioning as a light-bringer.

Each of you may profitably think about the concept discussed within the question of being a spiritual warrior. The term is not exact, for the term, “warrior”, suggests an enemy, and yet the enemy of the spiritual warrior is the spiritual warrior herself, just as the ally of the spiritual warrior is herself. To the spiritual warrior all of those outside of the spiritual warrior are reflections of the spiritual warrior. The work which the spiritual warrior does is upon the self, and as the warrior disciplines her personality and finds ways to step out of the way of the One Original Thought, that entity becomes more and more a bearer of Light, a channel through which Light may come into the Earth plane. And this Light, rather than the warrior herself, is the alarm clock which each of you carries and which each of you has as an offering to give to those about you. For each of you has her environment, and as you move through the routines and duties of everyday living, you come within the purview of many entities. It does not matter what you think of these entities or what they think of you in terms of doing spiritual work or of being of spiritual service. For the great service which the spiritual warrior offers is that emptiness of self which allows Love to flow freely through the heart chakra and out into the world to bless, to heal, and to awaken deep memories within those whose time has come.

We feel that you have a fair grasp of the logic involved in the great evidence of negativity as well as positivity upon the Earth scene at this time. The concept of incarnation by seniority by vibration is very helpful when it comes to grasping just how precious the opportunity to be incarnate at this particular time is, for as the one known as Jim was saying, there is a waiting list, shall we say, of entities who wish to enter the Earth plane at this time to be of service and to learn spiritual lessons having to do with faith and love which can only be worked upon within the illusion which completely hides the unity and truth of oneness that underlies your illusion. For there must be confusion in order for choices to be valid. There must be no way to understand spiritual choice, but rather there must be that growing awakening within to the voice of Spirit that tells in concepts greater than words within the silence of the heart the story of Love, Free Will, and the Creator’s world.

Your Earth scene shall continue to be chaotic and the energies of many somewhat dissimilar cultures, all striving alike for balance, may well create more and more confusion in the physical and societal sense. Yet the spiritual warrior sees each day alike, as an opportunity to meet the moment, to give that moment the honor and respect which creates a depth and resonance to that moment. Indeed, you may think of your entire existence as taking place within the twinkling of an eye, for as the Creator breathes creations are born and die. Infinite and everlasting Intelligence broods upon Itself in unending Love, and again and again It chooses a dance that tells of self to self, and again and again the Creator sends forth those sparks of Self that were created before any world was and will be created after all have gone. And each of you is that spark; each of you part and parcel of the Creator; and your moment is now.

Our question has to do with the harvest and the positive and negative entities who are here with a chance to graduate, so we are seeing a lot of both positive and negative activities and a lot of confusion. Would Q’uo comment on this situation and how we may respond as spiritual seekers, living as though we might die at any moment, living as spiritual warriors, so that each day could be our last day? Q’uo began their reply by saying that the question today revolved around the seasons of change for the life, the culture, and the planet, and that the prophets of many religions and cultures spoke of the philosophy of that which blooms also dies. They said that we have chosen to incarnate into these end times to work with the various inter-related energies that don’t always work together to help us to achieve clarity and balance within the third density illusion. Q’uo continued by saying that those in the circle were here to help with the harvest to the fourth density by simply living as a channel for the Love of the One Original Thought that can help those souls who are asleep to their identity to awaken to their purpose in life. Then Q’uo defined the spiritual warrior as one who disciplines herself to allow the positive and negative reflections of herself to step out of the way so that she may serve as a channel for the Light that comes to the Earth at this time. Then Q’uo said that each within the circle also served as a spiritual warrior by: “emptying the self which allows Love to flow freely through the heart chakra and out into the world to bless, to heal, and to awaken deep memories within those whose time has come.” Q’uo said that the concept of the seniority of vibration was now being used to allow those entities with the best chance of learning how to work with the lessons of love and faith to be incarnated because these lessons can only be worked upon within the confusion of third density where there is no way to understand the spiritual choice. Then they said that the voice of the Spirit must be awakened that speaks in concepts greater than words of the story of Love, Free Will, and the Creator’s world. Then Q’uo said that our Earth’s vibrations would continue to be chaotic as its environment of a variety of cultures, who were seeking balance, would continue to create confusion, but the spiritual warrior would see each day as an opportunity to experience Love in the eternal present moment as creations are born and die as the Creator expresses Itself in everlasting Love. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that the Creator sends forth sparks of Itself that exist before all worlds were created and which will exist after all are gone, and each of us is one of those sparks, a part of the Creator, and our moment is now. On February 2, 2003, Q’uo described the nature of the spiritual warrior:

So let us end by looking at the silence. For this is the most potent weapon that the warrior of light, as this instrument has called the spiritual warrior, possesses. The silence has been described as that which unlocks the door to the room in which the one infinite Creator dwells. It has been described as that which unlocks truth. It has been described as that which enables and ennobles the process of catalysis, chemical reaction, and result: catalyst and experience.

Silence is as the open hand. Come to the Deity empty, empty-handed, empty-minded, empty of all but the thirst and the hunger for the presence of the one infinite Creator, the one original Thought that created all that is. Come empty, for you shall overflow. What concerns you? Come to your heart, and come empty. Come into the sea and dive deeply. Dive for that deep, deep water where truth has been crystallized within your own process, where you can enjoy the company of the angels of the deep that are there to comfort you, hold you, love you, strengthen you, and send you back into the fray.

We would transfer to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each of you again in love and in light through this instrument. We would offer ourselves at this time in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may have upon their minds. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have a question from a reader. He wants to know about a person who is called Adida and is supposedly the returned Christ. What can you tell him about this entity?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. From your experience with our contact and those of the Confederation you are well aware that we are most careful in the attempt to maintain each seeker’s free will. In many cases our attempt to do so presents a seeming lack of information for which we apologize for we do wish to provide that which is helpful to each seeker. In this instance we would be unable to speak in a specific sense about the entity, Adida, for we are aware that each seeker is seeking that information which is most helpful at this time for the seeker.

Many entities seek and await contact with the entity known in your planet’s history as Jesus the Christ, for one of the promises, a covenant if you will, which this entity made with those which followed it was that this entity would return in some form to aid in the harvest of souls as this third-density illusion finds its end upon this planetary influence. Indeed, those of Ra have also spoken of the occurrence of the one known as Jesus speaking through what you have called a channel, that this was to occur, has been known by many of your Earth population for a great portion of its history. Thus, when any channel or group suggests that it is in contact with this entity, known as Jesus the Christ, there is a great likelihood that it will gather about it those seekers of truth who gravitate towards this entity’s teachings and desire to hear more about them.

That entities are willing to make rooms in their hearts and in their minds for the teachings of the one known as Jesus is an helpful thing, for it is the heart of this entity’s teachings that each seeker seeks and that is Love. The one known as Jesus was steeped in the great energy of the One Creator, the creative energy which has made all things and which each entity instinctually seeks out within this third-density illusion, for even at the level of each cell in each body there is the knowledge of Love. There is the desire for Love. There is the pull towards Love. Whether or not a channel is channeling the one known as Jesus, each entity which claims to be channeling this entity is helping in one respect seekers to come into a greater relationship with Love. For it is well known that the one known as Jesus replaced all the laws of Moses with the two great commandments which revolved about the concept of love: to love the Creator with every fiber of the being and to love the neighbor as the self.

Thus, this entity has its influence to this day in a most harmonious way upon each seeker, and we would encourage each seeker who reveres the one known as Jesus to seek within the life pattern where Love rests, where Love remains, where Love may be found. Is there any other way that we may speak to this query?

Carla: I think that is just great and I will deliver it to the person who asked the question.

Q’uo: And we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: How can I improve my personal meditation periods?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. We have discovered through our own experience that it is well to seek the silence of the meditation in a daily fashion that this becomes a part of each day, perhaps at the beginning or at the ending, that it be a central feature for each day, that one take the time for this meditation at the same time and in the same place each day, that one reserve these times and places for what could be seen as the axis upon which your experience turns. For as you complete your daily round of activities there are many, many forms of catalyst that assault the senses and give one a great deal to think about, to digest, and it is within the meditative times that what can be learned is seated in a spiritual sense within the soul of the self.

Thus in your meditations it is well that you put aside, for the time period of the meditation, the concerns of the day, perhaps ritualizing this concern in a fashion such as taking off the cares as one would take off a hat and placing them aside on a table so that during the meditative time one seeks as purely and clearly as one can the inner silence that will allow one to hear with the heart the speaking of the One Creator in whatever form or fashion in which it may come. Any thoughts that occur at this time may be allowed to move in and out and allowed to go their way. One need not fight against the mind but bring it back gently each time that it wanders to the center of silence.

After enough practice at this endeavor, one will begin to open a bridge, shall we say, from the conscious daily round of activities to one’s own subconscious mind and through the roots of the tree of your subconscious mind contact then may be sought with the shuttle that is the spirit that moves in unity with the One Creator. Thus, you open a door or a bridge, as we have previously mentioned, to the deeper, more informed portions of your own consciousness and through your own, to the One Creator. Is there another query, my sister?

Questioner: I thank you for that response. No further queries from me.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister, for your query. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo and we are grateful that we have been able to speak in some fashion to the concerns of those present in this circle of seeking this day. It is always a great honor and privilege to be asked to join you here, and we do so eagerly. We would at this time take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each as always in the love and in the light of the One Infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends, Adonai.

This morning I was able to listen to Carla channel Ra in Session #51 with Anna who was in Nashville. The topics were harvest, UFOs, and the energy centers of the body. Then I went upstairs and cleaned Benny’s apartment by using my carpet sweeper on the hall rug. I used the broom and dust pan to clean up the kitty litter in the room where she usually stays that has two litter boxes. I completed the cleaning by using the dust mop in the room upstairs. Then I stayed upstairs and went into the new recording studio in the closet of what used to be Carla’s office. I recorded the portion of the Prologue about how Don had chosen to live The Choice.

This afternoon I went back upstairs and recorded the part of the Prologue about how I had chosen to live The Choice before I met Don and Carla.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 13

Hope And The Experience Of Love

I am known as the Holy Spirit. I greet you in the full consciousness of the Love and the creative energy of Jesus the Christ.

As that active energy called Love invisibly swirls and moves throughout each atom of creation, opportunities are constantly being given for that which is of a less spiritual nature to take on the vibrations of a spiritualized Love. Thus does the Spirit bring out the song in stone, the clapping of hands of the trees, and the rejoicing of the mountains.

Thus also the spirit of the Holy One moves invisibly and energetically within the heart of humankind, creating seemingly from nothing a strong and lasting faith. The seeker who wishes to experience the movement of the active principle of Love need bring to the encounter with that transformative energy nothing but a heart full of hope.

Not all encounters with new life are as dramatic as Paul’s vision upon the road to Damascus. May you be willing to support within yourself those promptings of energetic Love which whisper from deep within your heart. May you hope in the Spirit.

We offer you the peace of this ever-fulfilled desire, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.