The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 27, 1994:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time we would ask if there might be any further queries which those present may have for us. Is there a query at this time?

Questioner: How does a human break through the wall of fear that we all have in order to do new things? The wall of fear which demands security, false security, since human life is so fragile anyway?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that much of the existence which your peoples experience, especially at this time in your cultural evolution, is filled with fear of one kind or another. This fear, as you have described it, is that which keeps the mind and the spirit confined in smaller quarters than are normal to these complexes when they are fully functioning. The fear that each entity feels within the life pattern may be likened unto the weight that one who builds the muscles of the physical vehicle would lift in order to strengthen those muscles. One may see this fear as a kind of barrier that increases the value of free choice and action as it is attempted by those who choose to either ignore the fear and go forward, or to accept the fear and to work with it nevertheless.

It is a basic human quality that is derived from the fight or flight mechanism, as we observe your peoples to have called it, and it has its effect in each entity’s life, for there is much of your existence that is comprised of building a safe surrounding in which one may move quietly, without the bother of fear. To break forth into that which lies beyond the safe environment is the challenge of each entity in each daily round of activities. However, we find there are many who choose not to accept such a challenge, and choose rather to remain within the safe confines so constructed for the safety.

This is acceptable to each entity insofar as this is necessary for a certain portion of time, until what we may call a ripening within the entity occurs. This ripening may have as its potentier—we correct this instrument—may have as its potentiator any of a number of sources, be they curiosity, boredom, fearlessness, the desire for more or whatever may be the stimulus that provokes or pushes the entity forward. We observe that this quality of breaking forth is that which must come from within each entity’s existence, though it may be in some cases inspired by another. Yet each must for the self decide to take a chance to surrender the description of the safe environment, to surrender the self to the unknown, to give of the self to a higher principle that will offer an avenue of expansion of that concept of the self which one has held dearly for so long.

This decision, this movement towards breaking the boundaries of fear, is that necessary ingredient that will allow the doughty seeker to go forth regardless of fears, in spite of that which has held one in place for as long as one has been held. Thus, it is a decision made by the entity itself to try that which has not been tried and to venture forth, to accept whatever comes, to see that the environment is that which responds to fearlessness, shall we say. That as one does go forth, there is a kind of momentum of exploration that tends to align the experiences awaiting one in such a fashion as to offer to the seeker those treasures and fruits of the journey as one can only begin to imagine before the making the first step. Thus, there must be a willingness to be foolish, shall we say, a willingness to surrender, and a certain spark of adventure that takes one out of one’s ordinary self.

The timing for such experience is that which is the mystery of being for each, for one cannot push forever against the river. One cannot speed the process for another or for the self. One can only intend, and attempt, and try, and go forth with as much faith in the process and in the self as possible. And add to the faith the will to persevere against the disturbances and distractions that hinder such efforts.

Questioner wanted to know: “How does a human break through the wall of fear that we all have in order to do new things?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that fear is like the weight that one lifts to strengthen the metaphysical muscles of the mind and spirit so that one can either ignore the fear or accept the fear and move beyond one’s safe environment in order to expand the concept of itself and move into the unknown. Q’uo went on to say that this decision to break one’s boundaries of its fear, and accept whatever comes fearlessly, awakens one’s sense of adventure and allows the gathering of the fruits of this journey that are beyond one’s ability to imagine before the journey was undertaken. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that the time for such breaking of boundaries is a mystery for each, and one can only go forward with faith in the process and the will to persevere against the distractions and difficulties that hinder such efforts. On March 7, 2020, Q’uo described the use of faith and will to enhance the spiritual journey:

The faith that all shall work out fine is that which is the foundation stone upon which each seeker may build the spiritual journey, for there are no mistakes for any spiritual seeker. Each seeker grows and changes according to an individual rhythm of expression of intelligent energy or the Light of the One Creator. Each seeker has the opportunity and the ability to accelerate this path or type of movement along the spiritual journey as it becomes more aware of how faith and will can use the moment to grow. Each moment is pregnant with possibilities. Each moment has a variety of layers of opportunity that can be utilized, if the will of the seeker is strong enough to investigate beyond previous investigations.

If the desire, the will, and the faith are utilized by the seeker in a conscious fashion (so that there is the potential for greater growth, and is seen by the seeker to be a potential that resides within its own being), then the seeker can take this faith, this desire, this will, and apply it to any present moment. So, the fruits of the moment may be more evident to the seeker, and the seeker will not only be fed physically in a manner which propels the body forward, but can be fed spiritually, mentally, and emotionally in a similar fashion so that there is food aplenty for each portion of the seeker’s spiritual anatomy, shall we say. Thus, the seeker itself can determine the rate of progress in its own spiritual journey, according to how it applies its desire and its will, encompassed within the larger facility of faith.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: No.

I am Q’uo. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Yes, I have a question. Would you please comment on the use of sexual energy for a spiritual seeker, by oneself or with a partner?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We must preface our response with the notation that this is a large field of inquiry, and we can only make the barest beginning for an answer at this time. However, we may suggest that the sexual energy exchanges between the mated pair are one of the most powerful means of advancing the spiritual journey that is known to your peoples, for as each seeker is able to clear each ascending center or chakra of energy, there is therein released the energy that has been holding the consciousness in a certain place, and this freed energy then can allow each seeker to move the level and quality of perceptions higher and higher within the centers of energy until each is able, either individually or together, to move into the brow center, the indigo ray as we have heard it described by this group, and is able to experience the one Creator in full and without distortion.

This holy experience has been called by many names in various of your peoples’ cultures: the enlightenment experience, the samadhi, the kensho, the nirvana, etc. The overall effect of the sexual energy transfers is to so align the energy centers of each entity as to create an harmonic resonance between them that serves as a kind of generator of energy that pulses one forward so that the physical orgasm that is experienced then releases the mental orgasm, which then frees the spirit to serve as a shuttle and a connector to the experience of the one Creator.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Tape ends.]

This morning I vacuumed the first floor of the house, and then I went outside and noticed that the fountain in the fishpond was glancing off the schemer again and going out of the pond onto the path around the pond. So I took the thin stone off of the brick and put the fountain funnel on it to reduce the height of its arc. Then I mixed up the cement I bought yesterday into a metal tub and repaired on corner of the fishpond where some sandstone had chipped away. I put the rest of the cement on the mound in front of the garage that keeps heavy rains from coming down the driveway and into the garage in the part of this mound that has broken up by my driving my car a little too fast once when I was parking it in the garage so that the trailer hitch broke the mound. But I discovered that I needed another bag of cement to finish the job. Then I completed the transplanting of the flowers that I bought yesterday into the flower mound in the flower garden in the middle of the Moss Garden.

This afternoon I made an errand run to Thieneman’s Nursery to buy more fertilizer and another tray of flowers. My second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to have them make 15 copies of a picture that was taken of my baseball team in 1963 when we won the state championship, and the picture shows our coach, Monte Kiffin, receiving the trophy with a number of my teammates standing with me as coach Kiffin accepted the trophy. I just heard from one of my teammates this morning that coach Kiffin passed into larger life July 11, and there will be a graveside service for him in our hometown of Lexington, Nebraska August 4, and a Celebration of Life for him afterwards at Kirk’s Café, but I won’t be able to attend it because Bosco needs two insulin shots a day for his diabetes, and I am the only one that can do that for him. So, I would like to be able to send my teammates that picture of coach Kiffin. He went on to become a defensive backfield coach in the NFL for 30 years, and in 2002 his Tampa Bay Buccaneers won the Super Bowl. Just recently he was inducted into the NFL Hall of Fame. Then I went to The Home Depot and bought another bag of cement and, after putting it on the cement from this morning I discovered that I will need to buy another bag of cement tomorrow to finish the job.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

July 26

Your Joy Transforms And Enables Others

I am the Spirit of the living Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

Many are the shepherds whose joy in their service to the sheep has been lost, although duteously and faithfully they continue to serve.

Yet joy is all about each and every shepherd and each and every sheep. Joy is the constitution of the creation, Love and Peace its watchwords and its description. The shepherd who has lost joy must needs seek it again, for what one does not feel, one cannot truly express.

Take time to experience the joy of existence, the joy of interaction with others, the joy of giving and receiving, and the joy of sharing. For it is the joy in service that transforms and enables the joy in others.

We leave you in joy, in Love and in Peace, now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 27, 1994:

Group question: We’re going to take potluck this afternoon. We have no particular question. We’ll see what Q’uo has to say from what all the information was that we had to offer beforehand.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo. Greetings to each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is, as always, a great blessing to be called to this circle of seeking. We bless and thank each who has so desired to seek the truth that this circle has been formed. We especially greet and bless the one known as D, who is new to this particular group. It is a privilege and a pleasure for us to offer our opinions and thoughts. We ask that each seeker evaluate these thoughts for himself, for many are the personal truths within each entity, and that which does not ring true to an individual may easily be left behind. We are not authorities, and we are fallible. Therefore, we call each to discriminate for the self.

We are those which have been known to your people as the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator. Our desire and purpose for being within your planes is communication, for there is, shall we say, a great call upon your planet at this time for truth. More and more of your planet’s peoples are crying out within, seeking a truth that they cannot find, for all the places which are traditionally considered as sources for spiritual food have, in one way or another, been spoiled and made unpleasant as paths of seeking, and consequently the seeker must seek without the structure created by another and must instead create that structure within which the seeker feels best positioned to accelerate the pace of his own spiritual evolution.

What we have to offer such seekers is at base, as this instrument said earlier, a very, very simple truth. It is in that truth that we greet you, and in that same truth that we leave you each time we visit with your sessions of working. This thought that we bring is a living, creative, and vital force which also encompasses the powers of darkness and death. This force, this one great original Thought, this Logos, is Love. Your word “love” does not in any way fulfill a satisfactory position as a symbol for that which we speak of. However, love is the closest which your language has to describe the nature of the Creator. This Love, this Logos, is that which has created all that is.

In untold amounts of what you call time, each of you has gradually developed as a consciousness, and all that has come before has fallen in such a way that you are experiencing the dance of living, the incarnational experience, together at this precise time and place. Each has walked a crooked path to be in this circle this day. The seeking has largely been isolating, lonely, alienating and difficult. Yet within each seeker’s breast, we are quite aware the hardships have not been counted. The suffering has been accepted, either gladly or with complete resignation.

From this circle each shall again move into what seems to be the ocean without direction. Love creates; Love is; and each is that Love. Yet, you are that Love clothed in flesh. Your heavy, chemical, physical vehicle ensheaths that which is Light, created of Love in such a way that you may walk about within the illusion that is your third density. You gaze about at your second-density friends—the trees, the birds, the grass—and you can see in these simple things clear and lucid examples of Love. The trees offer to the seeker the oxygen which aids that seeker. The seeker itself is offering carbon dioxide to the trees, a food they need to eat. All within this second density tends toward the perfect order. Not that it is neat or tidy, but that it is in balance.

Now, you exist within the sheathing of your physical body, a flower opening toward the sun. You came into incarnation from the seed and as you blossom, so shall you surely perish from this illusion. And that which was earth shall again become earth. Yet the spirit within flies free, both within incarnation and on each side of that parentheses in eternity which is your lifetime.

And if you are creatures of Love and Light, then what shall you do to fulfill the truth of your being? This instrument has worked for the last several of your years to bring itself into the physical condition necessary that it may do physical work within this incarnation. The hunger within, that desire which controls, was that which it was taught, that which the culture teaches: to become worthy is to work. Many among your peoples are moved into the situation of labor not simply for that which is salary, but also to fulfill the desire to seem to be worthy, busy, and productive. We have been glad to see this instrument moving towards a more natural attitude towards right vocation.

Each within this circle searches for that right vocation, but we say to you, and we know this is not at all original, that the first vocation of each of you, by your very nature, is the vocation of living a life of devotion and faith. In this way, the deepest portion of your true nature is also the basic portion of the outer experience. When this attitude of mind, this bias or prejudice, shall we say, is realized within as a true desire, that which is within you of Love has, for the first time, a voice. That voice is a voice which speaks in silence.

Consequently, we encourage each seeker to devise for itself that ritual or period of time which feels most appropriate to each individual seeker for a spiritual practice. We always encourage each to include in that practice a period of silent meditation. If this can be done daily, we encourage each to make that commitment, and turn each diurnal period to that silence within, for within the heart of self, within that vast creation which lies within your consciousness, there is a holy of holies, and within that room waits the Creator. The door is guarded and locked against intruders, and yes, you yourself are an intruder to yourself if you attempt to storm that door, to wring something out of truth. The key to that door is silent meditation. It may take five minutes, it may take years. However, there comes the time when the seeker knows that the door has been opened, for within that entity the incarnational experience becomes transformed.

Within this transformation lies a tremendous degree of surrender, and because this surrendering feels like dying, the path of the seeker is often perceived by the self as difficult, painful and awkward. However, we encourage each to consider that there is a natural tendency to resist change. Within each cell of the body and brain there is a tendency towards holding on to the status quo. The spiritually directed life lacks not in joy, however, it does increase suffering as it increases the rate of change within the entity.

There was no group question for this session. Instead, the decision of the group was to take potluck and let Q’uo choose the topic that they wished to speak upon. Q’uo began by saying that they were answering a call for information from seekers of truth that were suffering difficulties in finding any reliable source of spiritual information. They said that they were here to share the simple truth of the Love of the one great original Thought of the Logos, the Creator, which has created all that there is. Q’uo went on to say that through countless eons of time each seeker has developed as a consciousness and walked a lonely path within its second-density body created by Love out of Light, and now Q’uo asked what will be the life’s work of the seeker that fulfills the truth of its being? They answered their question by saying that each seeker must live a life of devotion and faith that reflects the true nature of their being which is the voice of Love that speaks in silence. Then Q’uo suggested that daily silent meditation was the means by which the seeker could, after some period of time, discover that its spiritual journey had become transformed as the seeker’s image of itself suffers its death so that a new self can be born. On April 21, 1995, Q’uo spoke about the process of transformation:

And as one says goodbye to times in one’s life, to things which one has loved, to relationships that have changed beyond recognition, we encourage each to find strength and courage to praise and give thanks for each and every experience that has created within perhaps much pain and suffering. In the process of transformation there is almost always a great deal of sorrow and feelings of loss, for when change is going to occur naturally it simply takes one as destiny will and almost never is it a completely smooth road from that one way which was to that other way which has yet to be worked out. And yet we encourage you to have the faith to praise that which is past and to open the heart to that which is, was, and shall be.

The keeping of silence, the keeping of the listening ear as part of the daily round of activity is always, we feel, an excellent practice, for in the silence, in the listening lies the key that unlocks the door of your own wisdom, that which is within the deep mind, that whose voice is silence, and which can only be heard by the open and listening heart. If you can trust destiny enough to release the attempts to control it the natural waves of energy moving out from the center of that kindly destiny which is each seeker’s will gradually take that seeker upon the path and in the direction which is deeply desired.

Consequently, we ask each who wishes to know the truth, wishes to find true vocation, wishes to truly serve, to gaze unblinking at the cost of walking this dusty seeker’s path, for it shall cost all that you are and all that you have to become that truth which you are seeking. We say to you that as far as we know you cannot know the truth; you can only become true. As each hews as best as he can to the seeking of that one great original Thought, we ask each to realize that each may teach each, each may support and encourage each other. Truly, the seeker’s path is lonely. The hard choices made must be made alone. Yet, how much empowering strength does the fellow traveler give the weary pilgrim?

You each have chosen to be seeking within this incarnation. A destiny awaits you. Your choice of how to fulfill it is always your own, and upon that fathomless, directionless sea of consciousness there remains much confusion. Yet, the love within others shines to light your way, and the light which moves through you from the infinite One is a lighthouse to others. Your being, your essential self, is your main service to the one Creator and to all of those upon your planet. As you enter this silence again and again, as you seek and seek again, you hollow out within yourself an ever smoother channel for Light, for Love, for the Creator, so that what is seen is not you but the Creator which shines through, and when those moments occur in which the self realizes that it has been that lighthouse, then indeed does that entity finally feel the joy of right vocation.

You dwell in a sea of confusion, whose chief characteristics are distraction and sorrow. Yet overarching all the tawdry precincts of your Earth world lie shining—we find we do not have this word within this instrument’s vocabulary, so we shall remake our sentence. This instrument is thanking us for doing that. Know that that which overarches your world is more deeply true than that illusion which you now perceive with your senses. We would indeed liken the truth which overarches and surrounds your illusion to that program within a computer which controls programs which are subprograms to it.

There is within the deep mind of each of you an archetypical self which often is objectified by your people as the Holy Spirit, or the guide, or the inner teacher. There are many names for this source of wisdom and compassion. When a seeker is able to access this program, then it may do much good work in reordering the priorities with which sense impressions are received. So when there is that time in which the seeker enters meditation and listens to that silent voice within, much is occurring which acts as does yeast within the life experience. Small though that yeast may be within, shall we say, the loaf of life, yet it does create a complete transformation of the dough, and you too are made of a malleable material, which can indeed become [instinct] and honeycombed with life and light.

Then Q’uo said that the seeker who desires to be of service to others must sacrifice all that it has in order to become the truth that it is seeking, and when the journey seems lonely it can share the light of the Creator with other seekers so each may teach each other. Q’uo said that as the seeker continues to feel the presence of the Creator in meditation that the Light and Love of the Creator begins to shine through it in a way that others feel the Creator’s presence coming from the seeker, and the seeker has now found its true vocation. Q’uo completed their message by saying that the third density is full of confusion and difficulty, but when the seeker uses meditation it can listen to the silent voice within it, and it can access portions of its deep mind which could be seen as archetypical and which manifest as the higher self, the Holy Spirit, or a guide that transforms the seeker so that it is filled with light and life. On June 13, 1976, Oxal spoke of how the seeker’s life may become transformed:

The life, my friends, that has power, the life that has begun to spring from the inside, from the core of your being, so that it is an enabling life, so that the person living it is able to give with love and with energy—this life is available to the seeker who has truly sought and found that which transforms his life. Within the religion with which many of you are familiar, this experience has been called “being saved.” And yet the Redeemer is your own consciousness. It is a closer thing to call it the Holy Spirit, as it is also known within the religion which has sprung up after the teachings of the master known as Jesus.

The Spirit, my friends, created all of the creations of the Father, you among them. So, we say to you, yes, find the beauties and see the services but at the very core, after you have observed the laws of the Father, which are beauty and service, observe the true power—Love itself—that has created all this in its perfection.

It is this Spirit that can transform your life. You do not need to struggle from moment to moment, from thought to thought, from action to action. You only think you do, my friends, because you have not been taking your meditation into your life. If you cannot do it all the time, do it once. And then, do it again. Five seconds, one minute of focused concentration in the Spirit to far more beneficial to you than you can imagine.

At this time, having given all of these thoughts to you, we shall transfer to the instrument known as Jim, to continue this contact. We are those of Q’uo, and leave this instrument in love and in light.

This morning I went outside and transplanted the flowers that I bought yesterday into the flower garden in the middle of the Moss Garden. Then I went on an errand run with my first stop at The Home Depot to buy a bag of cement. My next stop was at Bachman Subaru’s Express Lane to get them to show me how to open the hood of my Subaru so I can check the oil. My last stop was at Feeder’s Supply to see if I could find some low-carb cat food for Bosco as my Amazon order is late getting here, and I have just one day’s worth of food left for him. When I got home went outside to refine the work on the fountain in the fishpond yesterday by adding another thin stone on top of the brick I put in yesterday so that the height of the fountain would be higher without hitting the schemer and splashing water out of the pond.

This afternoon I went outside and used my big mower, Venus, to cut the grass. Then I checked the oil in my car and discovered that the dipstick did not register any oil at all, so I went down to AutoZone and bought three quarts of 5W30 oil and eventually put a quart and a half in Stanley that registered full on the dipstick.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

July 25

Peace Is Active

I am of the principle of the consciousness of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in perfect Love.

Peace, I cry to you. Peace, I offer to you.

How shall you find this peace if you believe not that the Spirit of the living God speaks to you this day; is available to you this moment; is a strengthener and a comforter to you in a real way, in an active way, and in a living way?

Peace is, above all things, active, not passive. The peace of the consciousness of Love is an active and surpassing peace, a peace that you may feel as joy as well as peace; as power as well as peace; as harmony as well as peace. There is no such peace without the Spirit of Love.

Peace is not the absence of war. Peace is not the absence of spoken conflict. Gaze within your heart this day and see if you find the peace that passes understanding. If you do not have it, ask for it of the Spirit that dwells within and speaks to each who wishes to hear the voice of Christ in the world today.

We come in peace, and you shall be at peace, insofar as you wish it. We greet you and leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

 I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 20, 1994:

Group question: Realizing that each person comes into an incarnation with sort of a plan of lessons to learn and services to offer, we are wondering if it is possible to do what could be called the “healing of the incarnation,” which would be doing everything that you had planned to do and then going on to “Plan B” since you had accomplished “Plan A.” Is it possible to heal the incarnation to the point that you are able to simply improvise from that point on and put frosting on the cake, shall we say? We would like whatever information you could give us on the healing of the incarnation.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. As always, it is a pleasure and a privilege to speak to you. We thank each for calling us to this circle and ask only that our thoughts be considered. Certainly, those that do not seem correct may well be left behind, for our service is to offer our thoughts and our opinions, and to do this is truly a pleasure, for it is our way of polarizing at this time.

As you speak of healing, we feel that you speak of balance. The healing of an incarnation, then, is the genuine crystallization of the fruits of an incarnation at a given point that has created [such] a depth of equanimity within the spirit that it becomes free to create further harmony in ways that, until the incarnation is seen as being in balance, are impossible.

For instance, if one has created the hoped for actions within an incarnation but has been unable to balance relationships created or taken up again in the process of offering the service to the creation, there will not be the clarity of perspective necessary in order to effectuate further healing. For many entities, then, the incarnation shall not be healed within the incarnation because there has been created within the seeker no firm rock, depending solely upon the relationship with the Creator, upon which that balance might be viewed clearly. For you see, you cannot precisely cause the self to come into a balanced perspective.

Work in consciousness is work without an object. However, [it is] this work, done in the bits and pieces, which creates the miracle of continuing consensus reality among your people. The confusion which reigns universally within your density is simply too thick to penetrate. The mind attempts to create balance within the self and certainly there is work which the mind can do, and do well, which adds to the balance which may be achieved by a seeker. However, although it feels, when one is ideating and thinking about balance and about healing, that this process should be able to be done mentally, for it is seemingly quite logical, however, this is only apparently so. Deeper and closer to the truth lie ocean depths of bias and prejudice which function subconsciously as a natural portion of the process the spirit is going through within the incarnation, but on the metaphysical or time/space level or dimension. There is no mental access to these subconscious processes which have far more to do with the archetypes of selfhood than with any conscious logical or developed line of reasoning. Therefore, one is relatively helpless to heal one’s own incarnation consciously.

However, there is a clear and lucid path towards aiding one’s self in the balancing of an incarnation. That way is the way of faith. The most vivid blossoms along that path are those of self-forgiveness, forgiveness of the Creator, and forgiveness of all those whom the heart has held in thrall with anger. Once these dusty cobwebs of past negative emotion are swept from that subconscious place then forgiveness may blossom and then the seeker discovers almost by reflex that the circumstances of the incarnation have been transformed. The first few epiphanies or times of transformation within a seeker’s experience are those which free portions of the self so that various energies are sequentially set free within the individual, clearing the channel on a higher and higher level.

Entities who work with healing the incarnation are those which have gone through those times of testing which may be seen to be partial and, therefore, have come to a place where the next time of transformation is that one which was the final transformation within the life or incarnation which has to do with oneself only, and at this time of final transformation, or initiation, the whole self, the whole life becomes soft and malleable, if the seeker is at that time perfectly willing to forgive all. Therefore, the way of faith being followed, in due time the healing of the incarnation becomes a gift given to the self by the subconscious levels of self, aided by what this instrument would call the Holy Spirit and what we often call the higher self.

The group question for this session was: “Is it possible to heal the incarnation as planned before the incarnation and then go on to a “Plan B” of further improvised learning?” Q’uo began by saying that healing could be seen as having all of the energy centers in balance, or crystallized which would give the spirit the ability to create more harmony. Q’uo went on to say that the inability to balance relationships would not allow the healing of the incarnation within the incarnation due to a lack of a firm relationship with the Creator in others. Then Q’uo said that it was difficult to heal the incarnation mentally because balance and healing are done in the subconscious mind which has its own biases and prejudices, but they said that there was a path to balance and healing that was based in faith when one is able to forgive the self, other selves, and the Creator which frees the energies of the self on higher and higher levels so that the life itself becomes transformed. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that as these times of transformation continue, and the seeker is able to forgive all, then the healing of the incarnation becomes a gift given to the seeker by its subconscious levels of its mind with the aid of the higher self or the Holy Spirit. On April 16, 2000, Q’uo described the nature of how the incarnation may be healed:

The ability to forgive, to have compassion for that for which there was previously no compassion, is the healing of the incarnation, as we have heard it said. Indeed, the efforts that each entity makes in every area of the incarnation may be aided by the ability to forgive, whether the forgiveness is of another or, more especially, of the self. For we find that forgiveness of another and of the self are intertwined in a manner that is irrefragable; that is, they are one. As you see another entity and feel one emotion or another for this entity, it is for yourself that this emotion is truly felt. For each entity is a mirror unto you that shows you yourself and the face of the Creator at the same time. When you are unable to perceive that this is what is being shown to you, then there arise a myriad of emotions, both those that are what you call positive and those that are what you call negative, that you attribute to this entity. When, through your own personal work and perseverance, you have been able to see that the world about you reflects your attitude back to you, then you are able to open the door to forgiveness, to compassion, to mercy, to understanding, and to those qualities that truly stop the wheel of karma and allow you that progress that you desire: the opening of the heart so that compassion is felt, not just for those about you, but for yourself, for the Creator, and for all of the creation about you.

As the energy is very low in this circle, we shall limit our remarks to these very few, thanking each again for calling us to this circle. We would open the meeting to queries before we leave. And, in pursuit of this, would transfer to the instrument known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo, and leave this instrument in love and in light.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. May we ask if there are any further queries at this time?

E: I want to know how two people can prepare to leave this incarnation together. I want to know what spiritual preparations two people can make to leave this incarnation together.

I am Q’uo, and we are aware of your query, my brother, but as it is one which requires a great deal of consideration in order to answer properly, we may only speak with some notations and thoughts which we hope might be of service to you. We do not expect to be thorough in this particular area, for it is the work of each entity within this illusion to progress along a certain path of seeking and of service that has been chosen for its excellence in balancing those weaker areas within the total mind/body/spirit complex of each entity. There are many entities within your illusion who are so well attuned to the mate, shall we say, for want of a better term, that the paths coincide to a large degree and may even end at the same time as each exits the illusion together.

However, it is more nearly the case for seekers within this illusion to pursue paths that, though they may join for a great portion of the illusion, may also find individual points of departure, for within the larger frame of reference, looking at this illusion as a small portion of the experience that is available to mind/body/spirit complexes, the actual timing of the departure from the illusion is seen as relatively unimportant, the important portion of the incarnation being those efforts to find the talents which have been inlaid and perhaps hidden, to find those services which are in the provenance of the seeker’s abilities and talents, to find those lessons that have been secreted in various latent potentials and meetings with others that are incarnating for the purpose of the meetings and the catalysts that can depend therefrom.

However, there are many entities who are so well attuned, each to the other, in pairs or in larger numberings, that there is the melding of the seeking and the serving to the degree that the incarnational patterns become more or less congruent, including the departure from the illusion itself.

We would recommend to all seekers that in order to make, shall we say, the grand and completed exit, that there be the attempt within each portion of the consciousness to give what can be given, to forgive all, and to seek to learn all that is within the possibility of the incarnation. This is not a simple exercise, for it requires the constant attention and the attending to the moment to the degree that one is fully able to realize the possibilities of each moment in seeking and in serving and in reflection, to learn that which can be crystallized as the seed or fruit of each effort at seeking and at serving.

May we ask if there is a more specific avenue that you would wish us to speak upon, my brother?

E: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we appreciate your words and your heartfelt gratitude, and are on our equivalent of the little rock as we begin to say our farewells to this group. We realize that there is an energy deficit at this time, for there has been the expenditure of much energy this past—what you would call—week, as many have given the experiences and efforts towards making one from a distance feel at home and feel nurtured. This is a good effort, my friends, and we can recommend to you that you always see each other as the dear friend from afar that appreciates the love and support of its close friends and family.

Each of you is a portion of a greater family that moves within the illusion at this time, helping those that need help, inspiring those that are weary, and lending assistance to those who walk with difficulty. This is a grand illusion and a grand journey that you are upon, my friends. There are many adventures that await you and many moments that may disappoint you, but you may always take comfort in knowing that the love of the one Creator resides in full in each and but requires the smallest of need or inspiration to be kindled into flame.

We can tell you from our own experience that there is no greater joy than to share the flame of love of the one Creator with those kindred souls that walk with you upon this dusty path. We take great pleasure and feel a great privilege to be some of those who walk with you. There are many, my friends. There are many.

At this time, we shall take our leave of this group, thanking each for inviting our presence. We are those of Q’uo, and leave each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator.

This morning I went outside and began weeding my flower gardens starting with the Ruins Mound, the Astilbe Garden, the Yellow Creeping Jenny Garden, and the flower garden inside of the Moss Garden.

This afternoon I ran some errands with my first stop at Thieneman’s Nursery to buy some flowers for the flower garden in the Middle of the Moss Garden. My second stop was at Feeder’s supply to buy some cat food for Benny. My next stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My next stop was at Anderson’s Sales and Service to drop off my trimmer for repair. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some hair thickener.

This afternoon I cleaned the filters on the fishpond, and then I put a brick in place of the present stone under the fountain. Since this brick is thicker than that stone that was under the fountain, it shot the water higher, without shooting it out of the pond, after I added about five inches more water that will give the fish more room to swim in and also be as high as the water level can go before the pond begins to leak.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

July 24

The Glory Of The Son

We are those who come in the name of Love and we greet you in the full consciousness of perfect Love.

As you awaken you open your eyes to the glory of the sun. All radiant, as the sun kisses the Earth, it engenders life.

As you gaze upon your inner being, seek and find the Son of Man, a fully radiant being whose creative touch is perfect blessing. May you, in turn, caught between beauteous outer sun and marvelous inner Son, find inspiration to choose to be radiant also, a blessing to those upon whose presence you shine.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 13, 1994:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege to be with this group this day, and we are most grateful to be invited to join you in your seeking for truth. At this time we would ask if there might be any other queries that those present would have for us.

E: I’d like to ask if it is possible to stay with another by leaving this incarnation when they do.

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my brother. We are aware of many of your peoples who do this very thing. The process of evolving in mind, in body, and in spirit is a process that is much aided by groupings of entities undertaking this effort together so that there is the sharing of many, many life experiences that together are able to offer the appropriate circumstances for pursuing the balances that each entity is desirous of achieving. It is often helpful for such grouping of entities to exchange the positions within your illusion that have been shared in previous incarnational experiences, so that in one experience there is the assuming of the identity of perhaps a sibling to another, and in a further incarnation, these entities shall perhaps be friends or mates, or be related in another fashion that has meaning to each that is relative to previous experience and also to the present objective of learning.

Indeed, we find that it is more nearly the common case for clans or groups of like-minded entities to move together through the third-density illusion and those which follow it. Oftentimes these groupings will enlarge themselves as further contact is made with other entities that will enhance this process for each grouping. It is well for those entities comprising the groupings to be able to rely upon fellow travelers, shall we say, to provide the appropriate assistance, catalyst, challenges, and support for this process of discovering the heart of love within each entity and to enhance the expression of this love in each succeeding incarnation.

E asked: “I’d like to ask if it is possible to stay with another by leaving this incarnation when they do?” Q’uo began by saying that often groups of entities reincarnate together many times to help each other learn the lessons of the evolution of the soul. Then Q’uo said that the like-minded entities within these clans would assume different roles in each incarnation within the third density and higher densities as well to assist each other in meeting the challenges of learning of the lessons of love. On December 14, 2019, Q’uo spoke of how spiritual families aid the evolution of the members of the spiritual family:

Indeed, this is a great likely outcome of such a relationship, for within the entire octave of densities that are traversed in order to move back into unity with the One Infinite Creator there are levels of experience that may be shared by the various entities within the spiritual family, as you call it, or the clan, or the group which has evolved as a kind of family that sees incarnations as opportunities to experience a variety of roles or types of learning that may be shared within the family grouping. This is what we were referring to previously when discussing the narcissistic entity and those around it that would incarnate in order to help it and them move along the path of evolution. There are always opportunities for entities to join spiritual families of this kind when they are able to incarnate in a situation in which their talents and desires are mixed into the blend of that of the group so there is the chance that a certain role may be played by an entity of the second density that is just joining the third-density experience, that being a more basic role, utilizing the more fundamental abilities and desires of the new third-density entity. There is a vast panoply of differences and qualities that each spiritual family may contain so that each entity has those abilities and desires that enhance the personal growth and the overall growth of the group as well as individual entities within the group so that there is a constant blending and interbreeding, shall we say, of abilities and desires that aid each within the group in the evolutionary process.

Is there a further query, my brother?

E: No.

I am Q’uo. Is there another query at this time?

P: Yes, I want to ask about the point of surrender. How to know when to remain in control and when to surrender?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. We feel it is an important point that one be aware that though one might give great value and effort to the quality of control, that it is not possible to retain control in the ultimate sense within your illusion, for there is the necessity to offer oneself to the moment of inspiration. This is to say that surrender in the fullest sense will prove to be a far, far better friend than any ability to control events or entities about one. It is even difficult, my sister to be in control …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. Again, we would thank the one known as P for the assistance with the recording device.

The surrender of the self at each opportunity is far more helpful than attempting control, though we do understand the need to feel that one has a definite effect upon the surroundings and the situations that one finds oneself in. However, it is more helpful to examine and experience the spontaneous responses to each situation, rather than to construct the desired outcome and then attempt to cause the situation to fit into this desired outcome.

The reason that surrender has far more value to the seeker than does control is that in surrender to the spontaneity of the heart one may get a truer reading, shall we say, as to the true nature of that portion of the self that one is attempting to balance. As one allows the spontaneity and love within to express itself outwardly to others, one is able to feel and experience a fuller and truer representation of one’s position, shall we say, upon any particular point that might be of any importance to the self, this being the greater self or the soul which inserts a personality into each illusion and experience.

Thus, though each might feel that a certain amount of control is necessary in order to give coherence to one’s experience, we would suggest that one always be open to the surrender of the moment as the moment requires. In this way one moves more in harmony with those lessons and balances which are being pursued for the purpose of the evolution.

P asked: “I want to ask about the point of surrender. How to know when to remain in control and when to surrender?” Q’uo began by saying that it is not possible to control situations within the third density, and that the best opportunity for spiritual growth comes with the spontaneous response within the present moment. Q’uo went on to say that allowing the spontaneity of the heart gave one the opportunity to become more aware of the lessons that one is attempting to balance according to the pre-incarnative lessons chosen by its soul. On October 27, 1985, L/Leema spoke of the value of being spontaneous in the moment:

To conceive of what shall be the course of action with too much emphasis upon thought, shall we say, is to proceed in a manner which does not include the spontaneity which is the great enabler of lessons and services within your illusion. To examine the actions so closely as to rob them of the natural spontaneity which wells up from your own deeper self, shall we say, is to put limitations upon the possibilities of the moment. Thus, when one is puzzled as to what to do or how to do it, it is best for the moment to do nothing and to once again move into the current of your existence and be somewhat taken by it and to allow the channeling of this current to move through your thoughts and your actions and to later examine the results in order that the fruits of these labors might be harvested. To attempt to visualize the fruits before the harvest frequently affects the harvest in a deleterious manner.

Is there a further query, my sister?

P: No, thank you, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and I thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

R: I don’t have a question, but I want to thank you for being a source of inspiration to me. Again, you did it.

I am Q’uo, and we are grateful to you as well, my brother, for the response to that opinion which we have offered. We are grateful to have been of service and can assure you that you have served us just as certainly. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and as we observe the exhaustion of the queries we shall again …

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This morning I went outside and put the Quickfix solution in the fishpond to enhance the water clarity. We got four inches of rain yesterday, which was a real blessing for all of my flower gardens, but it also put so much water in the pond that the fountain is only reaching half of its normal height. So, I used a pump and hose to pump out enough water that the fountain could get back to its normal height. Then I changed out the sugar syrup in my three hummingbird feeders and the two feeders for my neighbor across the street. While I was there, I also weeded her flower garden since weeding is so easy when the ground is wet.

This afternoon I weeded the Morning Glory garden in the middle of the cross area in the back yard, and then I walked around the yard and picked up the small tree limbs that came down in the two thunderstorms yesterday and put them in a garbage can for yard waste pickup this Thursday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

July 23

The Day To Forgive

I am of the principle of Love, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Christ.

This is the day to forgive. Select someone, another or yourself, whom you have not forgiven and bring to bear the Love of Christ which, seeing all, forgives all. Christian compassion does not deal in halfway measures but forgives utterly, so that a new life may be born where hardness of heart had created a death. Open your heart to creative and divine Love this day and let it pour through you to cleanse and purify your heart.

We leave you in the Love and Peace of Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 13, 1994:

Group question: The question today has to do with the attitude that might be most helpful when in our daily round of activities we find ourselves in the position of having to change our plans and having to surrender to a new set of circumstances. We wonder if there is a value to this being out of balance, to this learning by trial by fire, if there is a way that we can adjust our perception or responses and our thinking to help this process go more smoothly. Is it helpful if it does that? What can we do to help ourselves in such a situation?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the infinite Creator. How pleased we are that you have called us to your meeting this day. It is a privilege to be asked to share our humble opinions with this circle of seeking, and we greet and bless each who has thought this day to seek the truth, for surely there is no greater desire, no better hope than the seeking of that truth which is not transient, for years and millennia pass, yet above all space and time the truth remains perfect, whole and utter. All else, all in manifestation is illusion. But, oh, what an illusion. And into this illusion come entities across the timeless into this particular coordinate system. What unimaginably long journeys has each spark of consciousness traveled and, oh, how long the journey ahead still lies waiting.

You wished this day to ponder ways to deal skillfully with the untoward catalyst of the daily life. May we say that we also work with this catalyst, that higher densities as you call them remain nonetheless the native land of impatience and frustration, for we too seek the truth, and yet that truth recedes in front of us infinitely, so that we always are reaching and never grasping. Yet we suggest to you that this reaching has independent merit, that is, a merit independent of an outcome.

Now, as we share these thoughts may we please ask each to use discrimination as each hears these concepts, for we would not constitute a stumbling block for any. Therefore, if that which we say seems good to you then you are most welcome to these thoughts. If, on the other hand, anything which we say does not ring true then leave that thought behind, for this is not your truth. Always we urge each seeker to safeguard its own powers of discrimination when listening to any opinion, no matter how authoritative it may seem, for truth has two faces. One is hidden, the other is an illusion. You dwell now with an illusion, yet when you leave this illusion, no matter how many truths you can name, yet still the truth itself shall not be in these things, but merely the shadow which the truth invisible and eternal creates. Beyond all imagining lies that mystery, that collector of paradoxes, that is the one great original Thought, Love, or Logos.

Move as we pretend that we are living one of your days. Come with us into your third-density illusion. The morning dawns, and the seeker awakes. Shall it remember the Creator this morning? The day stretches ahead unsullied, pristine, without any flaw apparent to the eye. Those with the orderly minds immediately begin sorting through those duties and chores which are first to do upon the usual long, long list of things to do. A structure begins to take shape within the mind. Then the seeker moves into the quick paced rush of full morning and broad noon and by early afternoon the schedule has been first changed, then changed radically, and then perhaps discarded entirely.

Another seeker, one who does not have the orderly mind, awakens in the morning with the dawn. Does it remember the Creator? This entity moves into the day, its mind responsive to that chore and duty that first comes to greet the eye. This entity begins to work with that concern until a second item catches the eye, and for this careless one the day is quickly spent in moving between this and that chore or pleasure doing a little of this and a little of that.

We say to you that each of these ways is a skillful way to move through the day. The Earthly personality that you are should indeed follow its nature. If one is orderly, then make the list; if one enjoys freedom, seeing it not as chaos but as the liberty to do that which feels right, this entity has at the end of the day completed perhaps the same amount of the orderly one. Yet have they thought of the Creator today?

We now ask each to seek within the self. As you awoke, what thought you? Did you think of the Creator first or last or in the middle? You seek skills and resources for learning better to flow with the catalyst as it is presented to you, and there are certainly many ways in which the self may remind the self that it truly wishes to transform its stale, stiff, and seemingly deadening over-regularity. Yet, beyond all these skills lies a basic attitude which, once grasped and persistently returned to, shall substantially transform each experience which occurs within the consciousness of the one who remembers. You see, beyond any logical, linear plan for improving the flow of events lies a simple attitude that contains more wisdom than all learning placed together. That wisdom is a point of view which includes as its primary relationship a real, living, conversational relationship with the one infinite Creator.

The key phrase that addresses the whole array of questions concerning right use of time, energy, and talent, is that which the teacher known to you as Jesus stated: “Not my will, but thine.” You see, you and your consciousness are as the tip of a great iceberg. Your self, that profound and illimitable self that you truly are, has only a small amount of selfhood showing. That selfhood is wrapped within your personality, or your ego, if you will. It is not supposed to show, for indeed that true self is to you a goal towards which you strive in consciousness, for when your consciousness is awakened fully, then you shall see that you have held the truth safely within your deep mind all of your existence. Moreover, this silent wisdom, that spark of Love within, moves into and transforms pain, suffering, misunderstanding, and each and every negative emotion. It is as though the seeker dug within the earth of selfhood, making the garden of self broken into smaller and smaller clumps of self until the self has become broken up completely and lies ready and fallow for the seeds of new transformation.

The earth within you, your sticks and stones of expectation, must be broken up so that good seed may be planted in the soil of your lives. This plowing of the self in order to plant new awareness is painful. It feels as though the self were being torn down like an old house, and that old self is being torn down. Yet we have a promise, and that is that that which is being torn down shall seem to you in the future not a self. When service to others is attempted, you serve not only that personality but primarily you serve the Creator self within that is the truth of that entity. Therefore, pour yourselves out in service to others, worrying not whether you have succeeded, but only working toward more purity of desire to serve.

Above all let not your heart be troubled. This is under your conscious control, if you choose to claim the mastery over the self. Work when you can towards that point of balance within which you are able to see clearly, not removing yourselves from the thick of things, but rather bringing into the thick of things that sacred aspect, that relationship with the Creator within. An attitude is only one word, yet this attitude is the key to the spiritual devotional life, for all things are sacred to the one who has the eyes to see, the ears to hear, and the heart to understand.

The question today has to do with the attitude that might be most helpful when, in our daily round of activities, we find ourselves in the position of having to change our plans and having to surrender to a new set of circumstances. Q’uo began by saying that they too deal with such changing catalyst as the truth for all of us recedes infinitely into the future of the mystery of the one great original Thought of Love. Then Q’uo said that one seeker who has an orderly mind may begin its day of chores with a list of what needs to be done, but discovers other chores that it wishes to do instead at some point in the day. Q’uo gave another example of a seeker who takes one chore at a time and adds another and another in a flexible way. Q’uo said that the important consideration for each of these seekers is: Did they think of the Creator while they were doing their chores? They went on to say that the desire to change the daily round of activities can be done by flowing with the catalyst in a variety of ways but engaging in a conversational relationship with the Creator that is our true self, which is hidden within the heart of our being, was of the most aid in creating this transformation of pain and suffering into love. Q’uo completed their reply by saying: “Work when you can towards that point of balance within which you are able to see clearly, not removing yourselves from the thick of things, but rather bringing into the thick of things that sacred aspect, that relationship with the Creator within. An attitude is only one word, yet this attitude is the key to the spiritual devotional life, for all things are sacred to the one who has the eyes to see, the ears to hear, and the heart to understand.” On February 15, 1998, Q’uo described the value of the heart to understand:

Each person, each seeker, must first realize her own way of perceiving, her own belief system, her own need in terms of guidance. Some need a named person; some need a level of vibration. But behind all of the mental and conscious ways of gaining access to this guidance there lies the identity of self with self. All guidance is from your self in a less distorted configuration of vibration to the self within incarnation, that incarnation in third density being deliberately and carefully cast into confusion and disarray.

It may seem that there are emergencies where guidance must be had, but, indeed, the greatest friend to one who seeks guidance is Sister Patience, for there is the abiding, the waiting for the rhythm of things to come into the configuration which is harmonious and right. There is that moment when the one who has the heart to understand can almost feel the situation clicking into rhythm. And when that moment of the feeling of rightness comes, there is no doubt. There is only the awareness of and the great gratitude for guidance.

We would continue this channeling through the one known as Jim. We would leave this instrument in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I used a needle and thread to repair the patch on the pillow in the living room that I keep on my lap when I eat my meals in my chair and when I meditate there. Then I went outside and transplanted the five petunias, that I bought at Thieneman’s Nursery yesterday, into the flowerpot on one corner of the fishpond where the old ones had died out. When I finished the transplanting, I noticed that a small Juniper tree was shading the petunias and the Nandina bushes in that area, so I used my hedge clippers to trim back the Juniper tree.

This afternoon I made an errand run to the vet to pick up some meds for Bosco, and then I stopped in Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some paper plates and some Pepsi Zero. When I got home, I pumped out one quarter of the water in the fishpond and watered the gardens around the fishpond with the water from the pond. While the fishpond was filling up with fresh water, I fertilized the water lilies in the pond and dead-headed the zinnias on the top of the Wuthering Heights Mound in the front yard.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

July 22

Stop At This Very Moment

I am the consciousness of Jesus the Christ living in the world today and I greet you in perfect Love.

“Christ consciousness” is a term used by many, but how many feel that Christ consciousness within? How many seek the Christ consciousness within? How many ask for the Holy Spirit, which is that consciousness in the world today?

Stop at this very moment.

Stop and feel the beating of your heart, the pulsing of the blood in your veins, and the silence that has suddenly come upon your soul.

And then feel the consciousness within that silence. This is the Spirit of Love, the Consciousness of Christ. It is strong. It is your heart. It is your pulse. It is your being. You have but to claim it. You have but to ask for it. The Spirit of Christ is your birthright.

We are here. Seek us that you may see, this day, with eyes of love; with hands that serve; with hearts that are at peace.

We leave you in this peace, both now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 6, 1994:

Group question: The question this afternoon has to do with healing. We would like to know what are the prerequisites for healing; when is healing appropriate for an entity; when would healing not be appropriate for an entity to experience; and just anything in general that you can tell us about the healing process and how we can partake in it.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the infinite Creator. It is a blessing to be called to your circle of seeking, and we thank each who joins this circle for the privilege of being asked to share our opinions with you on this subject of healing, reminding each, as always, that we are fallible and prone to error. Therefore, we request that each person listen with discrimination, rejecting those things which do not seem fruitful for you, and retaining only those truths which have the quality of being remembered rather than being strange, for those truths which are yours are as those memories which are awakened.

As we gaze at the substantial subject of healing, we find that perhaps the first item on our agenda is the crystallization of a common grasp of the term “healing,” for not all who are cured are healed, and not all who are healed are cured of any indisposing illness or condition. When a cure is effected there is a clear and physical process involved: a diagnosis of pathology is made; harsh chemicals are often given; the physical body sometimes is cut into and adjustments made to the various processes of the physical vehicle. The patient, then, is pronounced cured, for that illness has been vanquished, or that condition has been fixed, as a mechanic would fix a car.

A healing, on the other hand, is a state of balance within the entity. Illnesses and conditions are sometimes evidence of imbalance, blockage, or weakness. At other times that illness or condition which is not cured is, on the other hand, balanced. This is true of those who carry an illness or condition in order to learn a lesson concerning love, and many there are who do choose some indisposing condition, not for the joy of it, but for the precise kind of suffering which shall ensue.

Next, we would gaze at the fear which your people understandably express concerning illness, severe illness, and death itself. As this instrument is most familiar with those teachings of the one known as Jesus, we would move now into some of this teacher’s sayings. Most people know these sayings as the “beatitudes.” “Blessed are the poor in heart.” “Blessed are they who are reviled or persecuted,” and so forth. Each blessed entity is blessed because of its suffering. When illness comes, suffering does also come, yet it is from the suffering that the blessing is received.

So, where does this great fear come from concerning these illnesses and this ill health? Certainly, it is easy to see where a great deal of fear is engendered. One need only gaze at the passing of the seasons to see that the seasons of decay and death are within each living entity. As each was born, so each shall pass from this illusion. However, the physical vehicle does not wish to decay or to die. There is a deep and primal instinct towards the continuance of living, the prolongation of the breath. That is a necessary portion of the physical instinctual net of reactions and responses to stimuli. Although this is instinctual, it need not be the attitude which a seeker might choose to work with within the daily life, for the entity that each seeker is, is infinitely more than the physical vehicle.

The forces of finity and limitation are here for very good purposes, but they work upon the consciousness of a being that is eternal and unlimited, either by space or by time. This consciousness and awareness which each has in common is that which endures as though there were no space or time, but only infinity and eternity. This being which each seeker is, is a being of pure Love, that primal and original energy which created all that there is. When this awareness, which is the deepest portion of your identity, is first housed within the physical vehicle which carries you about, the limitation and frustration of being in that heavy chemical vehicle is immense.

The awareness of the total being, then, begins the incarnation on bad terms with the physical body. The awareness that you are could not make its arms and legs move or its tongue speak for such a long, long time, and, indeed, the awareness never seems to completely embrace the physical vehicle. This distance which is perceived between the self and the ills of the body is an imbalanced perception, and we encourage each in the daily meditation and contemplation which each may offer to the Creator to do work which more and more creates that bond of unity between consciousness and physical vehicle. Much of illness is due to the disrespect paid to the physical body as that which is not holy.

So, if the physical vehicle has the aches, the pains, then we suggest and encourage giving this situation respect and attention. This attention may be simply seeing the physical vehicle as the perfect mechanism, which it is. It may be sending light to those portions of the physical body which are perceived as hurting or ill. Each seeker may find its own way of coming more and more into loving relationship with the physical body, but it is work which will aid in the balance or health of the body, mind and spirit together.

The group question for this session was: “We would like to know what are the prerequisites for healing; when is healing appropriate for an entity; when would healing not be appropriate for an entity to experience; and just anything in general that you can tell us about the healing process and how we can partake in it.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that there was a difference between a cure which deals with a physical portion of the body being made well by medicines or surgery and a healing which involves a balance of energy centers that that might include suffering in a way which aids in the learning of love. Q’uo went on to say that the fear which many feel regarding illness is associated with the decline of the physical body over time as the body’s instinctual reaction to its death, but the seeker need not be concerned with this because it is infinitely more than a physical body: it is a consciousness that is part of the Love which created all that is. Then Q’uo said that when this consciousness is housed in a physical body at the beginning of its incarnation, the baby has no control over the body which is reflected in its lack of respect for the body as the child grows older. Q’uo suggested that meditation be used as a means of setting the intention with the Creator to create a bond of unity between its consciousness and the physical body, and to see it as a perfect being when it feels ill in order to develop a loving relationship with it that creates a balance between the overall health of the body, mind, and spirit. On March 8, 1997, L/Leema spoke of the relationship between consciousness and the physical body:

I am L/Leema, and we feel that our response might be most direct if we suggest that the physical vehicle which provides the means of locomotion through this third-density illusion for each of its inhabitants is a conscious and intelligent portion of the same Creator that creates all experience within and beyond your illusion. Thus, the physical body is a being with a type of concept system which operates in what seems to be an independent fashion from the mind and spirit complexes, in that the physical vehicle is nourished by the constant application of direction, movement, and the qualities of fertility, shall we say, that are associated with the root or base energy center, those related to the sexual reproduction, the nourishing of the vehicle through food intake, the rest and exercise, and the preservation of the integrity of the vehicle.

Thus, the physical vehicle in its own right perceives the illusion in which you find yourself at this time, and rejoices in the aliveness that propels it, and in the direction of the conscious mind which focuses this vitality. Thus, its divinity is pure in its beingness and its uninhibited expression of the life force which moves through it.

We can give no clear or provable way to determine whether or not an illness or condition is ready to be dropped from the experience of the awareness. Consequently, the seeker must pursue this question for itself, for it is a fairly important question. If the seeker has no idea what the illness may be working upon it may ask for the clear dream, or it may go to the hypnotherapist, and ask the higher self to give a reading on whether or not that illness or condition has done its condign work and is ready to be dropped. Once the seeker has decided for itself that the illness is ready to be dropped, then it may choose the manner of its healing.

For some few entities the only healing necessary is the seating of the realization of why the illness had virtue and was needed. Perhaps the seeker feels that the lesson has been learned. Then the seeker becomes ready for the next step in healing which is to gaze carefully into health and wellness, seeing if the self is ready to take responsibility for the work of living which is given to each healthy entity. For there are times when the lesson has been learned, but the healing will not prevail because the seeker is not ready to take up that lesson which full mobility and lack of limitation shall surely offer.

We ask each to see the subtlety of the process of healing. Each entity responds to different stimuli. One entity might be healed because of another entity which was able to create the atmosphere within which the seeker could indeed take responsibility. Much of the therapy of psychologists and psychiatrists is involved in bringing such material before the seeker and aiding in the grasping of this material. Some there are who will find changing the diet to be helpful. For others this would not have the effect. Each entity has an unique balance. Each entity, then, shall need to find its unique healing. What works for another may not work for you.

The energies within the physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies are infinitely, carefully, lovingly arranged so as to express a central vibration which is the essential self manifesting at this space and time. The higher healings, then, will more and more pinpoint that essence, that essential vibration, and find ways of increasing the harmony with which that vibration may move. The best of the techniques for opening this essential nature and clarifying it remain meditation, contemplation, prayer, and as this group was speaking before, the remembering of that context of sacredness within which all of what is known as life and all that is known as death involve. All is sacred. That which your feet rest upon this moment is holy ground.

Pause to feel the breath that moves in, the breath that moves out. The health begins with the breathing deeply in and deeply out, and feeling the peace of breathing in and breathing out, for no matter what an entity may do, it shall breathe in and breathe out.

No matter how complex the life of the mind and emotions becomes the physical vehicle expresses the infinite Creator by the living breath—in and out. You breathe into you the love of the infinite Creator and breathe out of you all that is tired, old, and ready to leave. So, you take in health with each inhalation, and express the detritus of imbalance with each and every exhalation. Healing is not a process which stops. Rather, each entity is constantly in a state of healing, balancing, and strengthening that energy web which is your essence.

Then Q’uo said that it was up to the seeker to determine the cause of its illness, and if it did not know the cause it could seek it in dreams, or regressive hypnosis to seek the answer from its higher self. They said that once the cause has been determined the seeker can decide if the lesson has been learned, and then it could seek the healing of the illness which each seeker might obtain in a unique way such as seeing a psychologist, changing the diet, meditation, contemplation, and prayer. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that the seeker should remember that all is sacred, including the breathing where the love of the Creator is breathed in, and illness is breathed out so that: “each entity is constantly in a state of healing, balancing, and strengthening that energy web which is your essence.” On February 8, 2020, Q’uo spoke of healing as a product of learning lessons that were pre-incarnatively chosen:

Healing, in the very most basic sense, is creating an atmosphere within an entity’s mind/body/spirit complex where each energy center is able to allow the intelligent energy of the One Infinite Creator to move clearly and cleanly through each center, and ascending to the violet, eventually realizing unity with the One Creator. This is the ideal. However, the various blockages that are found in the lower energy centers are usually a product of pre-incarnative choices that represent lessons that the entity wishes to learn during the incarnation.

The blockages oftentimes are a representation of how the mind has failed to apprehend the lesson at hand. And thus, the lesson has been given to the body in a symbolic form that will hopefully concentrate the attention of the seeker upon the catalyst or the situation which has brought about the blockage. Usually, this is a certain configuration of mind which sees a certain kind of relationship in a distorted fashion, so that there is the need to balance the perception.

If these balances can be achieved by the seeker, then the blockages can be removed. If this is not possible for the seeker alone, oftentimes a healer may aid in such healing by offering to the one to be healed an opportunity to see the blockage more clearly in the metaphysical sense, so that it may choose to release the distorted perception and embrace a novel configuration that would equate with healing. The healer does this by allowing the entity to reach contact with its higher self that then appraises the situation and determines whether the appropriate degree of learning of the lesson has been achieved. If this is the case, then the healing very likely will take place, and that which is broken will be made whole.

At this time we would transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. This is indeed a substantial subject, and we have not exhausted it by any means. However, this instrument is beginning to give us signals that we need to move on. Therefore, we leave this instrument in love and in light and with thanks. We now transfer to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our honor at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may find valuable in the asking. Is there another query at this time?

P: I have a question. I would like to ask; how can you help a person who you perceive may need healing without infringing upon their free will?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Many times in the history of this particular planetary sphere have those of Confederation origin asked that same query, for there have been many, many instances where there were groupings of your peoples who were much in need of healing, yet we were not asked by them to offer healing. Thus, we have found in our own experience that to send these entities love and light and the wishes for the regaining of the whole balance is the most that we can do without infringing upon an entity’s free will, for in order to be of service to an entity in an overt manner one must be invited by that entity to attempt to serve.

To attempt to serve without invitation is not a service, in our humble opinion. Thus, even though the desire may be great to reach out the hand in service to another, without the invitation it is only possible to send these entities love and light for the use that they may have for it, whatever that use may be.

Is there another query, my sister?

P: No, thank you, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Questioner: I have a question. If the individual finds this balance, will they be open to healing?

I am Q’uo, and we believe that we grasp your query, my sister. If an entity is able to find a balance within itself in an area which has been imbalanced, then this finding of wholeness becomes the foundation stone upon which the healing of the entity is built, for it is true for each entity that as wholeness, unity, and perfection are realized deep within the self, then that which is in need of healing is indeed healed.

An entity may seek the healing process from any number of sources, yet there shall be no healing until the entity itself—through the catalyst of others, perhaps—finds this wholeness and this perfection. Thus, the healing follows the finding of this wholeness.

Is there another query, my sister?

Questioner: Yes. [Inaudible] speak of regarding this wholeness, or feeling of wholeness. Are there any other tools?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. There are many tools, as you have put it, that are available to an entity for the finding of the wholeness within. There are, for example, the uses of meditation, contemplation, the prayerful attitude, which are most helpful in preparing the entity for healing. There is the examined life, shall we say, that looks at the need for healing and sees many behaviors, perceptions, thoughts, and attitudes, which flow from the distorted being that is in need of healing. These behaviors and attitudes may be worked upon by the conscientious seeker to bring them into a balanced state. The entity may seek the healing catalysis from one of your medical profession that may utilize any number of healing modalities that themselves become tools for the healing to occur.

The entity, in the long run, shall we say, will rely upon an inner faith that will take form in whatever manner has meaning to the entity. This faith will then provide a channel, or a doorway, through which the healing efforts of others may move into the life pattern of the one to be healed. Thus, you may find that there are many, many tools available to an entity seeking healing, yet the attitude of this entity and its ability to exercise its own faith, coupled with the entity’s work in consciousness focused upon its own patterns of thought and behavior, are those tools which are most efficacious in this healing process.

Is there another query, my sister?

Questioner: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Questioner: Yes. There are people that seek to help and heal others, yet the reception is not there, especially among the [inaudible]. How much effort and energy does one put into reaching out when one sees and realizes that they are pushing you away. It’s done out of love and concern for these individuals. What [inaudible] to do?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. When the healing and loving efforts offered to another are not accepted, it is well, then, to leave the door open to such entities that they will know that they are welcome always to move through that door and to accept that which is offered. More than this is not possible to accomplish without the infringement upon the free will of another, for it is necessary for entities to seek in order to find. It is not usually possible to find for another that which it does not seek. Thus, to remain open in the heart, to remain open in the offering, and to continue to give that of love from your heart to the other’s heart without expectation of return is the most that can be done. This is difficult for many who seek to be of service, especially to those that are loved dearly, yet it is that which must be accepted, for the free will of each entity is of paramount importance. For any progress to be made, the steps must be taken by each entity for the self.

Is there another query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Questioner: Yes, I have one more question. What [inaudible] an entity to be a healer—would perform healing?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. In order for an entity to serve as an healer it is necessary in most cases for the entity to have worked enough upon the self within the energy centers or chakras that its centers of energy are in enough balance that the energies that may be used for healing can move through them with minimal distortion. These healing energies, then, are utilized as a means by which the one to be healed’s auric field will be temporarily interrupted in order to allow the older, more distorted pattern of thought to be replaced by a newer, more harmonious pattern of thought that will allow the healing to occur. This is the process, whether the entity needing the healing seeks such from one of your orthodox medical professionals or from an entity that offers the healing catalyst from the more metaphysical background, or modality, of healing. It is necessary for the healer, then, to be able to assist in the interruption of the older patterns of thought that exist within the aura of the one to be healed.

[Tape ends.]

This morning Anna and I synchronized our computers and listened to Carla channel Ra in Session #39. There were a few questions that regarded Andrija Puharich’s serving as the scribe for The Nine, which I believe is the Council of Nine, located within the rings of Saturn. Apparently Puharich’s love of puzzles influenced how The Nine answered his questions.

This afternoon I went upstairs and cleaned Benny’s apartment by using the carpet sweeper on the hall runner and then the broom and dustpan around the litter boxes, followed by the dustmop in all three rooms and the hall. Benny is continuing to do well with her condition of heart failure and kidney problems. Then I made a short errand run to Thieneman’s Nursery to buy some petunias for one of the pots around the fishpond where all of the petunias died out. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was a Speedway Gas to fill the tank up for Stanley.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

July 21

How Love Shows Forth

I am the principle of the Love exemplified by Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

Many times those who seek the Love of Christ with the most effort are those who mistake that Love, thinking that it may show forth in one way instead of another. In actuality the Spirit of Love moves in as many ways as do those sons and daughters of the Lord who spend their lives in many and various conditions.

Love is not merely a strong and vital creative force. It also contains that subtlety which partakes of wisdom. Thus the Spirit may appear in a different way for each entity. Trust that, no matter what your situation, the Spirit of Love is willing to transform each experience, if you invite that Spirit to enter the heart of your being.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 30, 1994:

Group question: We are going to take pot luck on our question this afternoon with the feeling that all of the conversation we’ve had previously concerning how people with 180 degree opposite realities and interpretations from ours in our experience can help us to look within for a direction for our own seeking that is neither too stubbornly consistent with our own thinking in spite of other people’s opinions and which would take other people’s opinions too much into account so that we are constantly changing our course. We would be interested in hearing what Q’uo has to say about this and the other topics that we talked about this afternoon.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We apologize for the delay, but this instrument was challenging a spirit which eventually had to leave. We commend this instrument for its care. Accepting that particular vibration was well not done.

The vibratory complex of this entity was very like a well-known and familiar contact. However, this spirit was of the service-to-self polarity. This describes the kind of difficulty each seeking spirit has in attempting to learn from other selves who, as you were speaking of earlier this afternoon, show a façade of behavior which seems to vibrate in a positive manner. The actual vibratory complex of one service-to-self seems on the surface to be robust and strong, full of energy, and when a negative spirit wishes it so, the imitation, shall we say, of that familiar light vibration is almost precisely as positive energy on the surface.

The challenging of spirits, then, is a process of digging deeper within the self to find that ground of being which rings so true within the self that that which does not ring true within and below the surface of that spirit’s façade is detected and isolated so that it can be sensibly decided whether or not to accept that particular spirit. This is not the work done quickly, and we confirm this instrument’s suspicion that it shall be learning for as long as it continues to avail itself of the opportunity to do that which is called channeling.

Each entity, each self that you meet is just such a spirit as that which was discerned accurately by this instrument, and each of you, each in your way, is capable of the same challenging of spirits dealing with those other selves with whom you interact day by day. The truth of an individual is a unified vibratory complex, a state of being. The exterior of this state of beingness might be seen as a ball or orb. Now, this orb has the surface and that within. The surface tends to be regular and unblemished. Within that sphere of being, however, the various internal connections made by choices chosen and re-chosen over a period of time will come to differ in various ways from the seeming truth of that smooth-surfaced orb.

Now, the way in which the seeker attempts to grow may be seen in one way to be simply a matter of the seeker looking at the vibratory complex which is the Creator or intelligent infinity brought into manifestation, so that the goal of each seeker is to so act and think that the vibratory complex which is the truth of that seeker becomes more and more like the vibration of Love, the Logos, the great original Thought Itself. The spirit within seeks and yearns for deity, unity, and rest. This completely natural process of spiritual evolution moves on instinct within the life of the seeker so that there is a ground of being within which becomes slowly, gradually awakened as that attempt to move closer to the Love and Wisdom of the infinite One is followed persistently.

Now, if a seeker finds that it is experiencing turmoil and difficulty with several entities at once or over a period of time then it is that the entity does need to gaze into that mirror and ask why this image so painful to see keeps recurring. However, in those remarks made previous to this session of working, it was said between each in the group that these were occurrences within the life path were remarkable for their rarity, that it was remarkable that such and such occurred. When this rare occurrence happens and it is not often repeated, then the seeker may relax that question within, “Is this my vibratory complex which I am perceiving?” However, even though the seeker looks into the mirror and sees no true reflection, yet, still that too, for all its rarity, is part and parcel of the self, and it is well to open consciously to the task of accepting and reintegrating into the full self, that shadowed, darkened portion of self which can be seen to be grossly distorted so that the mirroring effect is that of the carnival fun house, or “house of mirrors,” where you may be two feet tall and four feet wide in one mirror and ten feet tall in the next.

However, these entities have gifts to give. They are people, as you, suffering as you. That suffering has overwhelmed them, just as suffering overwhelms all entities in your illusion from time to time. We see that none has chosen in the personal experiences under discussion to seek revenge or to correct or judge the other. This is well. However, more than this also may be done. Refraining from judgment is well, but there is still that suffering that has come to your attention. Given this information, the seeker then has the honor of responding to that suffering. It may be the response of one who holds the entity in the mind to send light to it. It may be that the personal style of the seeker is such that prayers within each daily offering might be included for that suffering soul, but whatever the way chosen to nurture, support, and tend that entity in thought, in silence, in that which is divine within each . . . this is the work of consciousness with regard to others.

The group question for this session was a combination of the topics talked about in the group before the channeling began, but primarily they wanted to know how to deal with people who had beliefs the opposite of theirs. Q’uo began their reply by mentioning that Carla had challenged a negative spirit before accepting Q’uo’s contact, and they used this experience as an example of the opposite thinking found in the third density. Q’uo said that just as the negative entity attempted to appear positive when it tried to channel through Carla, each seeker will discover that many people who they meet will have a surface appearance that seems compatible with them, but in actuality there is a deeper quality that they are not revealing that may be totally opposite of their surface appearance. Q’uo went on by saying that the way that the seeker attempts to grow spiritually is to look to the Love of the Logos within it and attempt to reproduce this Love when dealing with others and to do so in a consistent manner. Then Q’uo said that when the seeker experiences difficulties with others that it is helpful to see those difficulties as a mirroring of the dark side of the seeker by the other self with whom the difficulties have been experienced as these difficulties have a gift to give to the seeker. They said that this gift could be experienced when the seeker realized that these entities were suffering just as the seeker was suffering, and the gift would be that the seeker could send them light or pray for them as a way of nurturing and serving these entities which is the work of consciousness for the seeker in relating to others. On February 23, 1986, L/Leema spoke of the Logos within the seeker that aids it in serving others:

How wonderful each of you is, my friends, how full you are of the Creator, how at one with the Creator you truly are, how joyful is the greater part of you. Yet it is a part that cannot speak to your conscious self; it is a part that cannot be taught; it is a part that is not of time and not of space. Within it lies your future, for from its infinite regions, you yourself will require some small portion for each lesson which you accept the responsibility of undertaking and if possible, completing.

In other words, my friends, that which is neutral, that which is your neutron, that which is of the Logos within you, waits and waits without time. My friends, each of you has one or more things which are desired at this particular juncture, yet the time has not yet come for this lesson to be undertaken. We ask you, therefore, to take the lesson of the atom to heart. Sometimes it is time to wait, for that which is unmanifest cannot be pushed or pulled or bullied. The rhythm of the Father is such that only in the Creator’s time, which is your inner time, shall your lesson emerge from timelessness and act out its drama upon your world’s stage, and then you shall learn and know, and you shall go on and again you will wait. But for each of you now, there is waiting to be done.

We suggest, therefore, that you wait happily, knowing that that which is necessary for you to do is single—that which you must do is ask, for is it not written in one of your holy works, “Ask and it shall be answered.” Therefore, we always and ever caution seekers to be careful of that which they ask, for in good time that which is asked will be received. Be sure that you are asking for that which you truly desire.

We would say this in closing. Many are the notions that seekers have of the appropriate fruits of seeking. The products of seeking in many persons’ opinions are quite visible, often dramatic and most astonishing. Each seeker naturally wishes to be of service, to advance in seeking, to develop as a spiritual personality, and so forth. And yet we ask you to look at some of those whose lives have produced a content of speaking and action which people have followed for many of your years.

The challenge always is to see distortion without being distorted by it to the extent that balanced action becomes impossible. It is the work of many years, as this instrument would measure time, indeed, the work of many incarnations to begin to respond to the suffering that is given to the self as though the self were responsible for that suffering. That presents the prime challenge, for the self wants to correct that misperception, “Oh, no, I am innocent.” However, in such an entity’s mind the ways of thinking and behaving have become hardened or crystallized and that entity is a prisoner within those distortions just as each imprisons or frees itself again and again simply by how it chooses to think. It is well to see that each entity creates its own prison and chooses its own freedom. The prison walls are felt when they limit and hold an entity where it wishes not to be limited or held. To one who is blaming others much is lost of sense. To one who works rather with the constant attempt at new or non-crystallized mind the limits are not immediately there or obviously there. So the more the seeker refrains from distortions in making judgments, the more freedom that seeker creates for the self.

As the seeker working with service-to-others polarity develops, many, many opportunities are given that test, teach, and help to develop the values and choices that seeker has made. Distortion is to some extent due to the illusory quality of the face of reality within your incarnative experience. All is distortion seen from the viewpoint of intelligent infinity. It is not then necessarily a bad thing to be distorted, it being impossible to avoid. The wise seeker, however, attempts so to make choices that it does not become boxed in and bound up with judgment and opinion which more and more hides the eye from the full range of present and continuing change.

In sum, we would encourage each to seek within always that Creator’s perfect original Thought, to seek that state of being which is deity, and to find within that relationship the energy which moves one to seek more, to hope more, to offer the self with less reserve to the work which is prepared by the infinite One for each day of the incarnation. Moving upon that plumb line of connection with the Creator, the seeker finds it increasingly easy to be persistent in practice, in seeking the good, the true, the beautiful, in seeking to express love. As the seeker becomes more loving it may find it must work upon receiving love, and then when an entity such as you have spoken of comes to you to share its suffering with you, you might not need to pull away from this distortion, for you have not the fear that blinds you from seeing this suffering spirit.

In your heart hug this suffering soul and bless it as it moves along its life path, for much sorrow and suffering shall be for that entity, and by its choices it is more and more isolated. Let your heart become softer and softer, more and more open and willing to love when the surface picture is no longer beautiful, good, or true, for just as within the self who attempts to make the impression, the surface is gleaming, but the interior may not be. With the unhappy soul who screams and abuses, even that surface has become marred, yet within there lies in perfection the one infinite Creator, and the truth of this entity remains deity. As you love, as you serve, look always to that infinite, original Thought which is Love and see the life fall into place.

May you love each other in good and in evil times. May you redeem each other by forgiving, and may you allow suffering to occur with your sympathy, for these are the sorrows of one who is growing and learning, and from these mean beginnings shall come great heights of learning and service. Nothing is truly as that which it seems, for there is one truth beyond all appearance and that truth which unifies all can be seen by none in fullness. Yet, as you seek and seek again, over and over and over, so shall you become free.

This instrument has a prayer within her church with the phrase, “in whose service is perfect freedom.” My friends, as you seek always to serve that highest truth within know that each seemingly slavish action, each act of humility, is that which increases freedom. Find that simplicity as you move in the dance of your days and your life.

Then Q’uo said that the way the seeker thinks about itself is the way that the seeker can imprison itself in a painful reality since the way one thinks about itself is another way of judging itself. So Q’uo suggested that the acceptance of the self is the way to free the self into a larger reality that continues to change over time as more acceptance is given to the self by the self. Q’uo continued by saying that the seeker should go within itself in meditation to become more and more the Thought of Love of the Creator so it can express love of others each day of its life and eventually balance this with being able to receive the love of others. Q’uo said this would give the seeker the ability to give love to those who are suffering, and if seekers could love each other in the good and the bad times, and see this as the Love of the Creator, then their lives would begin to fall into the place of harmony with all. Q’uo completed their response by saying that as we help each other through our times of suffering, serving the highest truth of love within, and can forgive each other in humility, we can discover the simplicity of freedom for the rest of our lives. On September 13, 1981, Hatonn said that sharing the Love of the Creator with others was of great value:

May we only suggest that in any seeking which you may undertake, if you should wish to evaluate its effectiveness as regards your own spiritual evolution, you may simply ask yourself the question, “How may I serve others through this activity?” If you can find ways to share the Love of the Creator with those brothers and sisters who are one with you upon this planet, then you have done that which is of great value, and you have accomplished a feat that few upon your planet can name as their own.

We would, at this time, transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

October 30, 1994:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. We are honored at this time to be able to ask if there is any other query to which we may speak as a portion of our service with you this day? Is there another query at this time?

P: I wonder if you could give me any insight as to what I have been experiencing for the past three years in my relationship with my ex-husband?

I am Q’uo, and we would need a more specific type of query in order to respond in a fashion which does not infringe upon one’s free will. We are not free, by our own decision, to pluck those concerns of most importance from your mind and from your heart without your first delineating them yourself. Is there a more specific manner in which you may phrase this query?

P: No. I think I will think about it. Thank you.

I am Q’uo. And we are grateful, my sister, even in the general form which we may make a small response to, since it is so general. However, the broad nature of the response may not satisfy and thus may bring forth a more specific query.

The nature of any relationship is a placing in dynamic tension, shall we say, of two different points of view that have enough points of agreement in common that there is the attraction, one to the other, for the purpose of further illumination of that which is mysterious. The points of commonality, then, which form the basis of the initial attraction are the first areas to be explored in any relationship and are those areas which shall begin the process of providing catalyst as each entity moves from that which is known to that which is unknown within the self and within the relationship. As this movement continues for each entity, other areas of the self and of the relationship become available to the light of shared consciousness.

As these other areas are explored and are added to the catalyst-producing process, the relationship is continually altered and there are changes in the perception of the other self for each entity, and in the relationship itself as well. As this process continues, it is the question of the strength of the original attraction, those areas of commonality, that will determine whether there is the continuing growth of that acceptance of common ground, shall we say, within each entity.

As this process continues there develops the quality of harmony or the quality of disharmony depending upon the basic areas of agreement and the primary desire of each entity to be able to open the self enough to each other so that each entity is offered the opportunity to accept not only one’s own self but the other’s self as well as a part of the growing self of the relationship and the growing desire of each entity to place that relationship self before the smaller self.

As you can surmise from this model of relationship that we have constructed, there are numerous opportunities for each entity to reject either a portion of the self that is one’s own or a portion of the self belonging to the other or a portion of the greater self being created by both. The desire of each entity to truly be in relationship and be willing and able to undergo this process becomes the true strength of the relationship.

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

We shall continue, with thanks to the one known as P for the assistance with the recording device.

To continue—each entity will have continuing opportunities to choose to give that which the relationship needs at the moment, or to continue to hoard for the self that which is felt to be needed. This is a dynamic which all entities partake in as they join in groupings with other selves. This is the illusion of third density where the social self is explored as an extension of the smaller self that exists within the family structure, and, indeed, with the individual self that exists within its own perceptions. The continual expansion of the self outward is a preparation for the process of becoming what you have called the social memory complex, where each entity, although quite distinct and individual in its expression and experiences, willingly blends the vibrations of its soul self with others of its own kind or desire for seeking.

Thus, the relationships which you experience within your own illusion are preparation for that which is to come as well as a continuation of the process which has been ongoing for this entire third-density illusion, that of the development of the self to the point it is willing and able to become a greater self.

P: This is not a question. To restate what you said—to transform our smaller identities into larger ones to become ready to establish a social memory complex. Is that right?

I am Q’uo, and this is quite correct, my sister. Although it is also well to make note of the individual process of growth that occurs in any relationship due to the mirroring effect, there is also the opportunity for the self to expand into a greater and greater self.

Is there a further query, my sister?

P: No, thank you.

Q’uo: Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we are most grateful for your invitation to us once again, and we cannot thank you enough for the honor and joy of blending our vibrations with yours as you seek your own paths of truth and light, my brothers and sisters.

We would, at this time, take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in [the] light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I used the sprinkler to water the two flower gardens in the front yard and the one garden in the side yard for thirty minutes each as I was editing my Camelot Journal entries for the next few days. Then I went outside and used the watering wand to water the flower gardens along the parking area in front of my home. Then I did some weeding in the driveway, the parking area, and along the little creek in the back yard. After that work was done, I made an errand run with my first stop at Thieneman’s Nursery to buy a new watering wand as my old one has developed a leak where it connects to the hose. My second stop was at Feeder’s Supply to pick up more bird seed. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up some Tylenol.

This afternoon a friend of mine went with me to a care home in southern Indiana to visit our friend, Connie, who has been in the care home for the last six years after suffering two strokes in the summer of 2018. We shared some snacks with Connie as we talked about how things were going in our lives. We spent a very energetic two hours talking about female saints throughout history, the medical profession, indigenous people around the world having contact with extraterrestrial entities for thousands of years, graduation to the fourth density, the nature of the news media, our gardens, our ancestral heritage, and where to find the best organic foods. Before we left, we had our usual short meditation.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

July 20

Open To Radiance

I am the great principle of Love unbounded, the Love of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in that unconditional and sacred emotion.

Dawn has thrust its rosy fingers into the night and pulled up the sun to make morning come. And now, as the mist of dawn burns away and another day begins, the sun above is radiant and generous, beaming its warmth and comfort upon all, regardless of each entity’s condition.

You are this principle, potentially, within this little lifetime that you now experience. You have within you a door to open to radiance, a door to open to the principle of unconditional and sacramental Love.

Are you worthy of such Love? This is not a question for you to ask. Rather have faith that Love loves unconditionally and causes the unworthy one to be worthy. Know that you are in a state of forgiveness, and allow the radiance of the most divine Love to shine forth from you this day.

As you move through a world of shadow and sham, be the light that is true and real. You cannot make of yourself an inspiration of Light and Love. You can, of yourself, will to be and to manifest the Love which pours through you and, as a channel, which you may pour forth in turn. We encourage you to be radiant this day, to feel the Love and the peace which is yours and all entities’, now and ever.

We leave you in this peace and love. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 23, 1994:

Group question: Our question this afternoon has to do with the situation that so many of us find ourselves in from time to time where we have a disagreement with someone else and even though we give our very best effort at communicating clearly, being compassionate, and of doing everything that we can think of to bring everyone into harmony, these efforts seem to do nothing other than throw kerosene on the fire. It seems like the negativity and hostility seem to have a life of their own. It seems like one can do nothing to affect the situation, and we are wondering if there is something that can be done. Is there an attitude of mind, of heart, of spirit that we can invoke at these times? Is there some deeper lesson or process going on that we don’t really have any idea about? Are we destined to be victims in these situations, or is there something that we can do to bring harmony to the other person, ourselves, and to the situation as a whole?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is our privilege and blessing to be sharing this circle of seeking at this time. Your afternoon sun shines so beautifully on this pretty autumn day, and we relish the sights that we see because of our interactions with you. Your planet is most fair.

We thank you for this privilege, and request of each only that you listen with an honest heart, leaving behind any of our thoughts or opinions that do not ring true for you, for we are not infallible, but, rather, travelers upon the Pilgrim’s path, as are you.

To begin a discussion of anger within your density one might well move backwards in your historical time to the time when the physical vehicles which carry you about were developing to be opportunities for consciousness of third density but had not yet achieved that third-density link and were completely instinctually second-density beings. You would call these the animal, and it is that physical vehicle which transports you and gives you sensual input that is the source of what you call anger, and the source, too, of negative emotion in general.

This animal that carries your consciousness about is a proud and rather noble animal in that it attempts social cooperation. It forms lasting attachments in mating. It cares deeply for its young. This great ape, the featherless biped, makes decisions for its survival. When occurrences overset the plans made for survival the reactions are in place instinctually to alert the mind of this animal that it needs to act. We wish to be sure you grasp the difference between that portion of mind that is the mind of the animal within as separate from and distinct from that consciousness that you truly are. The brain of this animal is a fine one, skilled in making choices. The apparatus for thinking is built around these choices and their prioritizing. This mind begins and ends. It copes with the living it does.

Immersed in this web of flesh, this field of instinctual consciousness, is an eternal awareness. Sitting as the bird in the cage, the awareness that you are and that you will be in ten thousand or ten million years sits rather placidly, for the most part rather unaware of the extent of its confinement in the world of sensual input. This awareness attempts to express its true nature. The awareness that is you shall always attempt to express its true nature. However, this nature has no anger, has no fear, and is free.

Contrariwise, the mind of the body has instincts towards anger which exist because they are needed, or so that animal within is certain. The instincts, those instantaneous responses, ungoverned by logical, reasonable awareness, work usually quite well, landing the seeking pilgrim repeatedly off the beaten track of devotion and lovely thoughts, taking that awareness and flinging it aside in the rush to defend territory. For that animal which you are, which carries your awareness about, is territorial. It measures and sifts. “This is good.” “This is mine.” “That is bad.” “That is not mine.” “That should be mine.” “That will be mine because I deserve it.”

There the anger comes in: the hunger for possession, the hunger for safety, the desire to defend. The search for peace, dear ones, is a search for true identity. Who are you? Are you that limited mind that must protect against unseen danger with the same gusto that was used to defend the self from a predator? Or are you that awareness that gazes unblinking on the human scene, knowing all things as love?

The group question for this session was: “How can we resolve difficulties in communication with others when our attempts to do so continue to fail and even make matters worse, so is there an attitude of mind, of heart, of spirit that we can invoke at these times? Is there some deeper lesson or process going on that we don’t really have any idea about?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that it is our second-density ape bodies that are the source of anger because when they were in the second density they needed to insure their survival, and this animal mind is a part of our mind but is separate from our consciousness which is our true mind which has no anger or fear and is totally free. Q’uo went on to say that the instinctual animal mind is not governed by logic but is concerned with defending its territory, its safety, and its possessions, so Q’uo asked which mind do we manifest: the animal mind or the true mind that sees all things as love? On March 1, 1991, Q’uo spoke about these two types of minds:

We would speak of two minds and two hearts. The first mind is the mental mind. In it there can only be mentally feared obstacles. For one who is an adventurer within its own mind, the barriers of fear do not arise. However, the mind that is mental deals almost exclusively with the relativistic illusion in which each now experiences and enjoys the dance of incarnation. Thusly, although one may be mentally curious, one cannot use that mentality to plunge into that abyss which must be accepted in order to reach the second mind.

The second mind is often called the heart. In the open heart is stored the true mind which begets wisdom and compassion, which is as infinite and effortless as the love of an open heart. Many things, however, occur during an incarnation which may tend to cause an entity to erect defensive barriers in order that this precious heart may not be wounded more than it already is. Thusly, in order to open the second heart—the heart of wisdom—one must first gaze at the erected barriers in acceptance and love for the self that needed those barriers, allowing them to remain until they are no longer needed. Then the heart may open, and wisdom may be fearlessly received and equally fearlessly manifested forth.

The difficulty is that these two kinds of mentation, this double mind, is supposed to be working together to create maximum confusion. You are supposed to be baffled; you are supposed to be confused; you are supposed to feel that there is almost no hope. This is planned in order that you may do work in consciousness. The great spiritual desires drive the great religions of your kind which revolve about suffering. Your Eastern strain of religions looks at suffering and, as this instrument has thought recently, says it is not real. The Western tradition looks at the suffering and flings the self upon the cross so that others might not suffer. Both of these paths work for those to whom they are suited.

Each path will have to deal with this issue of suffering. In dealing with the self and the self’s anger we encourage each seeker to be patient and to realize and re-seat within the deep mind, over and over again, the dichotomy betwixt the temporal and the eternal. Have mercy upon yourselves for your anger, for indeed that which you see is the mirror; the anger directed at you is within you, like the werewolf baying at the moon that only comes out when the moon is full. Know and accept this part of the dark side of self. There is a price to life. That price often is that one wishes to prolong life, and, therefore, attempts to control all elements so that life is safe, secure and protected. See this within the self. Love this self which has so little time to live, and when it is seen in another, attempt that same degree of understanding. See the fear, the true desire to protect, in the negative emotions of others, for however distorted these emotions are, they are distortions of love.

The energy within anger is so close to the positive extreme of freeing the self that it actually tends to feel good to be angry, for it is in this kind of fire that life is created. The creative principle of Love is also the destroying principle of death. Passion has its inevitable counterpoint in tragedy. Life and death go together as concepts. Anger is the other side of the coin of love within limitation.

Let us, then, move back in concept, moving away from the particular, seeing the fear, the suffering, all the negative emotions. See them within the context of life abundant, yielding its harvest of wisdom and compassion to those who simply persist at gazing at that which goes before the eye, comes before the ear, arrives at the nose or the skin. For the creature that you are is most special. We encourage each again and again to touch into this space where love may be felt in the silence, where comfort moves deeply within, opening the heart, relaxing the grip of circumstance. Move away from the particular often within your days and nights, moving in mind to the more profound ground of your being, that eternal, undying awareness beyond all distortions. It is love. You are love. This is the deeper truth.

Then Q’uo said that these two minds are meant to work together to cause confusion because the way that we grow spiritually is to suffer in order to do work in consciousness. They said that we should be patient in dealing with our anger and suffering and realize the difference between that which is of the moment and that which is eternal. Q’uo continued by saying that we should accept our dark side which seeks to control all the events in our lives, and we should see and accept this fear and anger in others as these emotions are distortions of love. They said that both anger and Love were creative principles when they said that: “Anger is the other side of the coin of love within limitation.” Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that we should look at all of our negative emotions as that which produces wisdom and compassion and the opening of our hearts to move more firmly into the deeper truth of our being, which is that we are love. On October 11, 1981, Hatonn said that we all are love:

We wish to say that one need not affect many by allowing oneself to flow with that light within them, but we say that as one shines, that they are seen and that they, by flowing within themselves, touch others, whether they actively seek to do so or not, for we all are love and light, and the flowing of love and light touches all those around those who become aware.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are those known as Q’uo, and leave this instrument in love and in light.

This morning I went outside and used my trimmer in any flower garden or area that had weeds in it.

This afternoon I weeded the small Lilac bushes beside the Moss Garden by hand. Then I made an errand run with my first stop being at Thieneman’s Nursery to buy an azalea bush to replace one that died in the cross area. Then I stopped in at the Rainbow Blossom Health Food Store and bought some Vitamin B Complex. My next stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s to buy a greeting card for a friend and some Pepsi Zero for myself.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

July 18

Yours Is The Power

I am of the living Spirit of Love which is the fully developed consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

How very un-powerful most feel within their life structures! My children, there is no reason to feel a lack of power. Yours is the power to forgive, to have compassion, and to change.

Yours is the power to right the wrong that you perceive, to bless those things for which you are grateful, and to give thanks.

Yours is the power to produce within your experience and that of those who mingle with you a sense of holiness, peace, joy and sanctity, all wrapped up in the laughter and joy of unconditional love.

How powerful is the awareness of unconditional Love! Never doubt that each of you is a powerful, powerful entity. Cast your allegiance and your desire toward the principle of unconditional Love and ask for the Comforter. And as you strive, you shall be comforted. You shall be inspirited. You shall be nurtured.

We leave each bright being in the peace of Jesus the Christ and in His healing Love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 16, 1994:

Group question: The question today has to do with the concept of pride. We’ve been talking about being honest in relationships and how we behave and how we sometimes build a persona, whether it’s used positively or negatively. It seems to be used in the way we feel like we will get what we want out of a relationship or communication, whether it is a harmonious experience or being honest or maybe telling a little fib and just letting that go. Our pride seems to be the motivating force behind a lot of the things we do and why we do them, and we would like some indication as to perhaps the description of pride, how it arises, if it has any beneficial uses, if pride has a balance to it that we can come in contact within our daily lives.

(Carla channeling)

Greetings to you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Q’uo. May we say how privileged we are to be called to your group this day. We bless and thank each for seeking and for attempting to discover that which is called the truth. We also seek that illusive perfection and are your comrades on the way. Therefore, we ask that each listen to our thoughts, retaining only those which have use for you in particular.

To gaze at the pride within an entity is to gaze upon that portion of the self that has been created by the self for the purpose of self-defense. That is, one who has pride has attempted to discover a good, right, or noble way to think, or behave, or speak. Then one adopts the mask that is most efficient, most in line with the desired making of an impression on others. It is as though a man with a modest garden were to put a wall twenty feet high about the garden, certainly more than the garden needs in order to be a protected plot.

The one known as Jesus pointed out that when the spiritual seeker attempts to do everything right in order to become worthy of the kingdom of what this instrument calls heaven—we shall start that sentence again—when a person attempts to reach what this instrument calls heaven by piling up and accumulating good deeds and appropriate attitudes, that path is the center of the emotion or emotional imbalance which can be seen as pride. In the person of pride there is the unspoken assumption that there is one right way. And that by remaining true to that right way, the self may maintain the attitude of pride, an attitude which functions as an armor against the encroaching world so that the self may hide behind its good works and appropriate attitudes and not uncover that truth which each entity within third density, becoming more conscious of the self, becomes aware of, and that is that there is no possible way to become worthy of the nature which the Creator has shared with each and every entity within the limitless creation.

Now, why is pride considered such an inappropriate emotion, or imbalance, or distortion for the spiritual seeker? The seeker within the spiritual or metaphysical world is creating itself, nurturing itself within just as the physical self is born with flesh and blood, so the spiritual self may be seen to be born within the consciousness of the seeker when that first choice to seek and to serve is made. The beginner is humble knowing that it is a beginner. This attitude tends quickly to wear off for many seekers and the balance of inquiry and contemplation is overset by each choice which moves away from inquiry and answers new questions with old answers. For the truth or the ideal is actually far more subtle than one truth, one ideal. There are currents and movements within truth which the seeker moves into and out of repeatedly throughout the process of receiving essential input and choosing the portions of that input that the self shall react to in first priority.

If you would characterize pride in a simple way, it could perhaps be seen to represent the Earth itself and the kingdom upon it which humankind has built. In this model, or way, or parable of seeing pride, the world becomes a worldly, corrupted, and imperfect world, whereas the world of the spiritual is seen as that which is better, non-material, a higher way. Spiritual pride may be measured by how far from the everyday experience the seeker has placed itself, by which we mean that if an entity decides it cannot worship, or seek, or meditate, or learn spiritually in the everyday world, then to that extent the entity is dealing with spiritual pride. For the energies that are metaphysical are energies that move as the wind into any situation and burn like fire, tempering and refining in the very crux and heat of the everyday.

Now, we are not saying that those who choose to be solitary or within religious orders and seek spiritually are all filled with pride. We simply say that insofar as an entity seeks, eschewing and looking down upon the world without it, and feeling scorn for that everyday world, to that extent the entity is dealing with a false image or idea or paradigm of what spiritual seeking is about. For the service-to-others seeker the path of seeking lies squarely through servitude and servant ministry. The more of humility and the less of grandeur that seems to adhere to a position or line of investigation, the greater chance that line of investigation has of being a good and appropriate model to follow.

The group question for this session was: “Our pride seems to be the motivating force behind a lot of the things we do and why we do them, and we would like some indication as to perhaps the description of pride, how it arises, if it has any beneficial uses, if pride has a balance to it that we can come in contact within our daily lives.” Q’uo began their response by saying that pride is like a person wearing a mask that allows it to make a certain impression on others and defend itself from them since it believes that there is only one right way to live, so it hides itself within its good works and appropriate attitudes. But then Q’uo said that doing this would not allow the seeker to realize the truth that more conscious entities in the third density are becoming aware of that nature of the Creator is within every entity in the infinite creation. Q’uo went on to say that as a person becomes a conscious seeker of truth the spiritual nature of itself is born as it begins to learn more about the path of service to others, but after a while the seeker begins to use old answers to new questions and misses the currents and variety of truth that the seeker moves in and out of as its path goes on. Then Q’uo said that spiritual pride could be seen as the seeker’s feeling that the material world is too corrupted for it to be able to seek, meditate, or learn spiritually within it, when in truth the metaphysical energies move within the heart of each moment of the everyday world. On March 1, 1998, Q’uo described spiritual pride in detail:

When one is attempting to do everything that one can to live a good and holy life, one is peculiarly apt to feel some pride in oneself. Now can you see how that feeling is a separator between the self and the world about the self? It is based upon the assumption, which is an illusion, that one is responsible for the self and at the base of the self, one is oneself. This is a sticky, sticky point, and we would ask you to look closely at this matter of identity, for as long as there is self, there will be pride in self or a feeling about self that does separate one from other. If one is still thinking that one is still living one’s own life, one is not yet beyond spiritual pride. This instrument is aware that she is not beyond spiritual pride and has often said that this is the one vice that she cannot find a way to remove from her personality, for even though she attempts to work on her humility she has a pride of self that thinks self is right. There is a righteousness there. There is an inherent lack of eagerness to taste other souls’ flavors. There is a desire to retain some boundaries, some uniqueness of self, which is completely understandable in an illusion where there is no way to discover in any way that can be proven that one is not separate, that one is not, at base, oneself. And yet we say to you that as far as we know, at base there is only the one great Self, that Love which is reflected in each of the Creator’s children, which each of you is.

As long as you think that you have a self that you need to defend you shall be working with spiritual pride, and so entities for the most part are working with this no matter how persistently, and purely, and devotionally they have sought year after year, yet still there is the sense of “I” am searching. “I” am looking. “I” am seeking to become the best that “I” can. Conversely, we have found that coming into a fuller awareness of self is actually a process of subtraction, simplification, and elimination of things from the defended self until finally the self is empty, and the barriers are down. Is this safe to do within your density? No. Not at all, not in the sense of the preservation of the physical body, the emotional body, or the spiritual body within incarnation.

What we are trying to say is that it is not a terrible thing to be working with pride or in general to be working with one’s fear. This is part of what one is doing in this illusion. This is what you are supposed to be doing. This is your subject matter: fear and love. Boundaries and unity.

The teacher known as Jesus offered a simple parable which may aid this discussion. This entity pointed out that there was a wealthy man who was very, very careful to say all of his prayers, to cover himself with ashes in the public streets, to show the depth of a religious penitent. This sort of man, then, was seen as one who would say to himself, “I am glad I am not as other men are, thieves and robbers. I have two fast days a week. I give much money to the temple.” Then there was another man beside this proud man who only knelt upon the ground and said, “Lord have mercy on me.” The one known as Jesus then asked, “Which of these two men went home justified?”

Dear ones, we know that you know the answer. That entity who asked for mercy had a clear and honest awareness of its position, spiritually speaking. For any of the infinite Creator’s creatures, the honest evaluation of self shall inevitably include a request for mercy, for there is no way an entity within illusion can build perfection. This is not a goal that we would recommend to any. The striving for perfection is seen by many, and certainly this instrument, to be an important goad, urging the self always onward to a more wholehearted effort, a more total attempt to be perfect. We suggest that a little of this thinking will be adequate. In other words, it is acceptable and wise to keep the ideal in mind, to aim for. However, to give the self the hard time if that perfection is not reached, or to give oneself the patting upon the back if the self perceives perfection has been reached, these are not the ways that shall produce learning.

We find that there is a true desire within each to relate the self back into the society in a way that produces more love, more compassion, more understanding, to make the world a better place. While this is certainly a good attitude, the center or middle way that this entity spoke of earlier must move back into that place where the self is seen as a servant and the question is, “Not my will here, but Thine needs to be known. So, Creator, what is Your will for me?” Then if the impulse or inspiration moves to small or great success, neither matters, for the attempt given in wholehearted and single-minded effort is the total and sum of that which metaphysically matters.

To bleach the pride from this attempt to strive towards perfection, simply remove the editor and judge of the self from the picture so that you are free to do your best and then let that be good and sufficient. The pride will take you back many times looking for how the perfection could have been more closely approached. These deliberations are seldom fruitful, for the self shall not build a stairway to heaven by any good works or appropriate attitudes or systems of knowledge and understanding, but, rather, all that you shall judge of yourself after this experience will be held within that basic vibration or thought which is yourself. No works shall you take with you, nor thought, nor attitude, nor behavior, but that vibration that is you, integrated, unified, harmonious and whole. You cannot, by any knowledge or work, no matter how good, affect this vibration. You can only empty the self as often as you can, hoping always to become as the window through which all may see the Creator and all may feel Its Love.

You cannot be proud or embarrassed about that vibration because you cannot get at it. You can only work on those things which are beginning, just beginning their descent into the roots of mind. You can only fuss around with responses. It is that sum total that is never seen in your illusion which shall be sum and substance of who you are always forever. It is that which is you. And what is there to be proud or not proud of in something you cannot ever, ever see?

We encourage each to take up the dance of life, dancing around judgment, moving away from vanity and glory and pride, seeking to serve, seeking to be servant. For every entity whom you meet is Love itself, and, if you speak always to angels unawares, let your heart be humble, your hands be empty, your heart at rest that you may seek to love, and reach the hand to touch, and lift the heart to share love.

Then Q’uo said that the path of seeking perfection was not the goal of the spiritual seeker because perfection was not possible, and if we failed to accept ourselves for failing to achieve perfection, or if we felt pride that we had achieved perfection, these were not the ways to achieve learning. Q’uo said that it was not the personal desire to be of service that was most important for the seeker, but the desire to do the will of the Creator, and they suggested that we remove the judge within ourselves, the pride of our achievements, and the determination of how we could have done better so we could empty ourselves of pride and become the window through which all may feel the Creator’s Love. Q’uo continued by saying that this vibration of the Creator’s Love cannot ever be seen, so how can we feel pride for it? They said that we should remember that all we meet are Love Itself, so we should be humble and open our hearts to share the Creator’s Love. On May 18, 2019, Q’uo spoke of the way doing the will of the Creator is to share Love with all:

As each seeker begins the day, knowing that there is much work, as you would call it, of the physical sense, of the mental sense, and of the spiritual sense awaiting it, it is well to retire into the meditative state and to open the heart in that state to the One Creator; to move within the heart of the being of the seeker that the will of the Creator may be done that day through the seeker in all the actions, in all the thoughts, in all the words; that the seeker becomes a vessel then for the One Creator to move upon the waters of consciousness, both subconscious and conscious realms, so that there is a fuel, shall we say, that the seeker then is powered by, knowing that it has given itself over to the basic reason it exists. The purpose of the incarnation, the destination of each seeker of truth, is to open the heart in unconditional love to all and to aid this process by inviting the One Creator to move within the heart, within the mind, within the body, within the experience of the day, that this aid may be given to the seeker to share with all that comes before its notice. In this way, there is an enhancement of the ability of each seeker to find a way to give love where love seems to have no home.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and in light. We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time we would offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may have for us. Is there a query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we are satisfied that we have for the [nonce] spoken that which those present need to hear, and we are most grateful to be able to join your group at your invitation. We remind each of you that we are available for aiding the deepening of your meditations during your week, as you call it. A simple mental request is all that is necessary for us to join you in the presence of the one Creator. We, of course, will not speak at that time, but will blend our vibrations with yours that your meditation might be deeper and hopefully richer as well.

At this time we shall take our leave of this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning the technician came and installed my new dishwasher in the kitchen, and it was just in time as I tried to do a load of dishes twice last night, but the washer didn’t work. While they were installing the dishwasher I went upstairs and used the carpet sweeper and duster to clean Benny’s apartment.

This afternoon I made an errand run with my first stop at Cavalier’s Alterations to have a new pair of pants’ inseams shortened by about an inch. My second stop was at the vets to pick up some meds for Bosco. My third stop was at AutoZone to get some black masking tape.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

July 17

The Attitude Of St. Patrick

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

Sometimes it is difficult to know how to move in the Spirit instead of stumbling in the darkness of the mundane world. Yet we say to you that that dark world is illuminated for those who have eyes to see the Light that is in all things and all circumstances.

Let your attitude be that of St. Patrick, who armored himself in Christ before, behind, above, and beneath. Wearing the armor of Christ’s Love, he and you may find a changed and renewed mundane world.

Allow Love to speak to the Love within you, and you will soon find that you may tabernacle with the Creator in any and all circumstances through faith.

We leave you in peace, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 2, 1994:

Group question: The question this afternoon has to deal with the energy centers and how we can balance the activation and the energy that moves through the centers, whether it be red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, or violet. We would like some information on how we can use the experiences that we feel at those centers in our daily meditations to balance that experience and to help the energy move through in a more normal fashion without distorting it by our own personal wishes.

(Carla channeling)

We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are most happy to be called to your circle of seeking at this time, and thank and bless each entity whose vibrations are so beautiful. It is a true joy to mingle our vibrations with your own, and we do join you in that meditation circle. We are offering our opinion on the question that you have asked, though we wish always to remind each that we have only an opinion. We do not grasp the ultimate and absolute truth, but rather are as you, those who seek the truth and who follow this desire with a full and dedicated heart. Thus, we ask each entity to use his or her discrimination with these words or with any, for that which is your personal truth shall be recognized by you at the time that you hear it, and you shall feel as though you had just remembered something that you already knew.

The balancing of energy within the mind and body and spirit of an entity is not the work of one week or one year or one lifetime, but is a process that is as natural a function as growing up physically, going through puberty, opening to the forces of insemination, pregnancy, and birth, and being, in good time, shut down gradually from these energies as the spirit moves on through the incarnational process. The balancing of energies is then an on-going concern, an on-going process, one which we would not expect to end but rather we would expect from our own experience that this process moves on infinitely until such time as the spirit chooses simply to release and relinquish these concerns. At that point the self is becoming the Creator and moving back into that great, unknowing, unconscious well of infinite intelligence which is the infinite Creator.

In terms, then, of actually working day by day to balance the energies within at their optimum is not to solve a problem but rather to allow a natural function to be molded to some extent by either the opinion of the self as to what that balance should be or by the dedication of the self in whatever capacities might be required in order that the will of the Creator be accomplished for this one entity. As the one known as Carla was suggesting earlier, the goal in balancing is certainly not to attempt to climb that ladder of energy into the treetops of the highest spiritual seeking, but rather to observe without judgment those energies which exist at the present moment, to look with compassion upon this inevitably imperfectly balanced configuration of energies, and without blaming or causing grief to the self by judgment suggest to those energies those activities which might more closely bring the desired confirmation of energy—we correct this instrument—energies into the lucid focus which is always the hope of one sensitive to these energies.

This is not a simple or short project. However, the beginning is one word long and that word is “accept.” The first job of one who comes to work in consciousness is to accept the 360 degrees of selfhood. This 360 degrees of complete humanity is also a 360 degrees of complete divinity. The energies of each are necessary to the other at this time and this space. This intersection is your selfhood. Thusly, you are accepting yourself as you murder, steal, lie, commit adultery, take holy things in vain, and all the other heinous crimes connected with grocery shopping, doing chores, and living the day-to-day life. There is much catalyst for anger, irritation, even rage, in the bumping up against other entities which mirror back to the self the self’s dark side.

How painful it is to see that dark side of self, yet when this is seen, should the heart not rejoice, for this is a portion of a perfection. That perfection is shrouded in mystery. Why it is perfection to have both the virtue and the vice is a question forever unanswered except by internalized experience. It is difficult, indeed, to accept the whole self, to love and nurture that very self: none other, none better, or wiser, or sweeter, but that self at that moment. The acceptance of self by self is perhaps the most difficult, and yet the most fundamental work in consciousness one can do, and you shall do it time and time again for there is no lack of opportunity to gaze into the mirror of other selves and see the criminal mind at work.

Forgiving the self, accepting that self, in its imperfection and error as perceived by the self, is difficult precisely because the self knows what it is thinking at all times. The public speech often does not reflect the inner thoughts, yet these thoughts are, metaphysically speaking, real, valid, and, as this instrument would say, “out there.” Simply because they are not spoken, much is preserved of harmony for other entities. However, within the self, there is much work to do to humble that self that does not want to have a dark side to the point that in all humility the self may say, “Dear, dear self, I do accept you and I want to nurture you and love you and comfort you.” This acceptance of self by self is absolutely fundamental to work in consciousness and you shall be working on this one always, for the truth recedes infinitely directly in front of the gaze of the seeker.

The question for this session was: “We would like some information on how we can use the experiences that we feel at the seven energy centers in our daily meditations to balance these experiences and to help the energy move through in a more normal fashion without distorting it by our own personal wishes.” Q’uo began their response by saying that the balancing of these energy centers is the work of many lifetimes and will not be complete until the seeker has become one with the Creator. Q’uo went on to say that the process of balancing the behaviors associated with the energy centers was best approached by accepting these behaviors without any judgment because each behavior allows the seeker to serve the Creator by helping It to know Itself better. Then Q’uo said that the seeker is attempting to balance the light and dark sides of the self that make it a 360 degree being as the light and dark sides of the self are an expression of the mystery of divinity that the seeker perceives in any other self as they reflect this perfection of their behaviors back to the seeker. Then Q’uo said that it was important for the seeker to accept and forgive the self in any perceived errors in both the thoughts felt about another self, as well as the words spoken, and the actions taken as the acceptance of the self is the fundamental work in consciousness that will continue infinitely. On September 22, 2007, Q’uo described the necessity of accepting the self:

Yet accepting the self goes beyond describing oneself as a wretch, as does the old hymn Amazing Grace. It is almost, in this song, as if grace were the Lone Ranger that comes riding into town and saves the wretch from whatever peccadilloes or villains the western desert has brought forth to threaten or to condemn. There is, in accepting the self, the necessity to move beyond the need for others’ acceptance of you and, likewise, to move beyond the need to beg acceptance of a higher power. For if one depends forever upon a higher power to be acceptable or to achieve acceptance or goodness as a spirit, then one can never become the Creator, but shall always remain a beggar at the Lord’s table.

And many are content so to be. Yet the intent of the instruction to accept the self has to do with allowing the redemptive power such as a figure as Jesus the Christ to become internalized. It is to acknowledge the oneness between the imperfect self and the perfected self. It is to accept the power of one’s ability to judge. It is to accept one’s essence as magical and creative.

If all the world accepts you, yet you reject yourself as unworthy, you shall be unworthy; you shall not be acceptable. So the work of accepting the self is the work of gathering these awarenesses of self into full awareness and consciousness and then finding within that self the upwelling Creatorship which is able to forgive the self for being its imperfect self.

When the self-acceptance has been addressed for the moment, then there is a kind of housekeeping that can be done that is quite helpful in the short run, and is a good habit to get into. This uses the ability to visualize, which we find in this group is exceptionally good, except for this instrument, therefore we shall instruct this instrument as well as the rest. We apologize for any extra time.

For this instrument it is well to visualize the chakras as a roll of candy, a roll of Lifesavers. This is a familiar visual aid, and the seven colors, then, would be visualized—red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, violet. For those with more experienced visualization ability—we correct this instrument—more developed visualization ability the visualization may become much more subtle, involving brightness, degree of rotation, a degree of color, and whatever other subtleties come to the consciousness of the one visualizing.

The goal, firstly, is to simply become in touch with what is occurring in that energetic system at the moment. There is the recommended time of silence before beginning this work to quiet the waking mind and to awaken the sleeping subconscious, for the intuition plays a great roll in visualization, and it is well to request that the mental ground be cleared and a degree of awareness be reached concerning the work being done. The dedication of the self in any work with consciousness to the service of the one infinite Creator is recommended.

Firstly, then, one wishes to simply see into that system of energetic displacements, to see the energies as they are. Then, imbalances as perceived may be addressed, either mentally or verbally, asking a sluggish energy to rotate, a clotted color to brighten and elucidate, to ask an overactive center to become more congruent in energy level with the other energies. This visualization can be done not once but several times during a diurnal period if there is the need to pursue this concern, for this is a short-term solution to the problem of feeling temporarily out of balance, and is a resource for the worker in consciousness.

Now, notice that we have not encouraged an actual change in the energy system, but, rather, an adjustment of one energy to another to bring the system more into a comfortable balance as it is. Once this practice has become comfortable then there are, indeed, ways in which one may further work to improve and energize the entire system, but this work is not done chakra by chakra. The work which informs this energy system and improves it is work on the whole self, for it is always the balance of energies which expresses the nature of the self, rather than the most active or most developed energy center. Consequently, work such as the silent meditation, the prayer, and the contemplation, works which address the whole self, these are the more advanced and productive techniques for further developing that energy system and encouraging its degree of evolution.

For, dear ones, beyond the perceived experiences of the energy of the self there lies beyond perception the infinite Creator expressing through the self. The ground of being, which the energy system informs, is fed by time spent with the infinite One, whether in meditation or in the rush of everyday life. Know yourself to be whole, to be complete, and to be unified beyond all harmonization. This knowledge, this faith of wholeness creates the atmosphere within which the evolution of the spirit is accelerated. The result of this meditation, or prayer, or contemplation, may manifest in many ways: healing, loving, a channeling such as this instrument. There are so many gifts, most of them quite unappreciated, such as the mothering, the parenting in general, the chores, the cooking, the cleaning, the driving. Each activity done by the whole self becomes a devotion, and the practicing of the presence of the infinite Creator becomes constant.

To this end do those within this density of the flesh seek to come. To this end, to this choice, to love and serve were each born. This very incarnation is the one into which each was born to seek the infinite Creator. All is ready for the present moment. May each open the heart and say, “Yes,” in whatever way is most true to the self.

Then Q’uo said that when self-acceptance has begun the seeker may use the concept of visualization of the chakras stacked one upon the other from the red through the violet and might also include their brightness, their rotation, and their vividness. They continued by saying that meditation may be used to quiet the mind and awaken the subconscious mind and one’s intuition to determine what is occurring within the chakras, and that any work in consciousness that is attempted at this time be dedicated to the service of the one infinite Creator. Q’uo said that the next step was to balance the energy centers in their speed of rotation, their brightness of color either mentally or verbally at various times during the day. Q’uo went on to say that once this balance has been achieved then prayer, contemplation, and meditation could be used to address the evolution of the whole self so that the seeker can realize its wholeness as the Creator.  Q’uo completed their response by saying that the seeker may manifest this wholeness in any activity in the daily round of experiences in which one focuses on practicing the presence of the one infinite Creator so that it becomes a constant state of being, and to love and serve all is the reason that each has incarnated into the third density. On March 27, 1994, Q’uo spoke of the value of practicing the presence of the one infinite Creator:

There is a witness which each gives by the way it lives, by the way it moves through the being, and the doing of everyday living. If you are practicing the presence of the one infinite Creator, if you are living in faith rather than seeking and scrabbling for proof, if you have hope, and trust, and love, and a smile, these things will speak for you, without your doing anything, and this silent witness may bless without invading, for it is primary that each entity freely choose that which it chooses for the choice made is so very important.

What choice would that be but the choice of how to love? There are two ways of expressing more and more love. One is the way of the sun, the radiant energy of free giving. In this way of accelerating the process of spiritual evolution the seeker attempts at each point of choice to make the choice which is of the higher amount of service to others, feeling that in each face which it sees is the face and nature of the Creator.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, realizing that we have barely scratched the surface of this interesting topic, but realizing also that, as this instrument has reminded us, we speak sometimes too long. Thank each—we correct this instrument—we thank each for allowing us to ramble on. We are those of Q’uo, and would transfer at this time.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may have for us. Is there a query at this time?

Questioner: I have one.

I am Q’uo, and we would be happy to speak to your query, my sister.

Questioner: Why—when … Why did I get a sort of a heat rush, and get sort of dizzy [inaudible] …

I am Q’uo, and we are aware of your query, and will attempt to speak in a general fashion concerning this experience of the heat rushing through your physical vehicle.

The heat is a byproduct, shall we say, of the energies with which you work as you are offering yourself, or attempting to offer yourself, as that known as a healer. These rushes of energy will not only appear at the opportunity for offering yourself as a healer, but will from time to time be experienced even when there is no opportunity to serve as a healer present before you. This is much like the testing and clearing of the system that is your mind/body/spirit complex. Thus, you have these pulses, and may expect more in your future as you are, shall we say, fine tuning your vehicle for the service that is yours to offer.

Thus, we would recommend no concern that is necessary for this experience. It is a portion of that which is to come. Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: I wondered why I got so dizzy when it happened.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. As your physical vehicle becomes aligned with these healing energies you will find that the dizzying effect leaves slowly. However, at this time the physical vehicle is, shall we say, at the limit of its ability to experience and express these energies. Thus, the byproduct of such is, again, the dizzying effect and the heating effect. Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: No, thank you very much.

Q’uo: I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I’d like to follow up on hers, by asking is this analogous in a healing channel to conditioning in the kind of channeling that we do because I can relate to that better if I understand that that’s the same kind of thing.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. This is a good analogy for each is, indeed, an instrument through which energies move and each vehicle that has been offered in service needs the tuning, the conditioning, the preparation for the greater service that is to follow, so you may expect that this will continue, and is an effect about which there is no need for concern, but is simply a portion of that process of offering the self as an instrument for service to others. Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query?

P: I have a personal question. I’ve been noticing an energy in my throat chakra and—for a while—and it feels like a blockage at times. Would you be able to speak about this?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that due to our desire not to infringe upon your own free will that we can only affirm that which you have assumed, that the energies of the blue-ray center are those which have some need for expression within your own experience at this time. For us to specify the nature of this expression, or with whom it may occur, would be, in our opinion, inappropriate and we must apologize for leaving this portion of the mystery to your own discrimination.

Is there a further query, my sister?

P: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we feel that we have exhausted the queries for the nonce, and we would at this time take this opportunity to once again thank each present for the great honor of being invited to join your circle of seeking. We are always overjoyed with this opportunity for we are allowed at these times to move more closely with you upon your journeys and to experience that which you experience through your questions, your comments, your concerns. This allows us to see the action of the one Creator knowing Itself through Its many portions in a way which we are not usually privy to. It is a valiant effort that you make in accomplishing your daily round of activities, remembering the one Creator as you move each foot in front of the other. We know, my brothers and sisters, that this is not an easy task, for the illusion in which you move has been so constructed to obscure the unity and love which binds all things and which is an easy reminder for those such as ourselves. We realize that this experience of the third-density illusion is one which is most confusion—we correct this instrument—most confusing to many of your peoples, for it works so well, does it not, my friends, to hide the one Creator where one would not think of looking—into the eyes of a friend, a stranger, a situation which seems most out of harmony. Yet, there the Creator also resides, my friends, waiting for your seeking, waiting to reach a hand as you reach yours, waiting to respond to each moment, to each breath. We commend your persistence and take courage from your efforts.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went to my doctor’s office and had fasting labs done to see if I have improved my pre-diabetic diagnosis that was made last February. The test results will be back in a couple of day, and I have asked that they be faxed to me. On my way home I stopped at The Home Depot to buy more Sun Patiens to replace the ones that the deer ate on my clay tile pyramid in the back yard. I also bought some netting to cover the entire pyramid so that the flowers will be protected from the deer. When I got home I transplanted the new Sun Patiens into the clay tile pyramid and transplanted what was left of the Sun Patiens that the deer ate into the Sun Mandala behind the garage.

This afternoon I put the Quickfix solution into the fishpond to improve the water clarity. Then I changed out the sugar syrup in my three hummingbird feeders, and then I went across the street to do the same with my neighbor’s two hummingbird feeders.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

July 16

Do You Walk Too Quickly?

I am of the principle of the spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

Where are your steps leading you this day? Do you walk too quickly to keep in contact with the Spirit of Love? Shall the mind desire Love to follow and surround the experience of the day?

It is tempting to allow the consciousness of Love to slide away from one as the load of mundane detail causes the pace to quicken and quicken. The busy mind cannot stop and ask for Love, for it is too busy taking care of mundane business.

Yet the Spirit is in constant association with you and may make itself known at any time it is called. No matter how quickly you are running this day, we ask that you turn in mind and heart to Love and ask that all things that you see and do be seen first and done always in Love.

We leave you in the peace of constant Love, now and ever. Amen.

P.S. Today would have been Carla’s 81^st birthday. Happy Birthday, Carla!

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.