The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the channeling from Hatonn came on December 9, 1987:

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet each in the circle in the Love and the Light of the Creator. May we say, as always, when we meet with yourselves what a great privilege it is to be allowed to share our opinions with you. And, indeed, we cannot stress often enough, or severely enough, that these teachings are opinions. We have, in our way, developed a far greater and simpler technology. We have memory of each density and, consequently, we are most aware that the use of words is highly ambivalent within the channel, in regards to its contact. It is as though one were to clean a kitchen and scrub down each surface until it all was scoured clean. The surfaces may seem most fair, yet if the faucet runs with polluted water, of what excellence is the cleanliness of the room which now serves no function?

Each instrument with whom this teacher has been involved carries a certain level or complex of levels of illusion due primarily to the fact that within your culture, the science, the exactitude, the certainty, the proven, is all that is acceptable. If one may consider the fixtures in a sink or a toilet, one may see that if the water is poisonous by one means or another, there are many, many things which the person dealing with the water must accommodate in order to take from the offered water those particles of ill health.

Each Confederation entity who speaks through the channel has complete choice over the entity to whom the contact will be allowed and given. There are, as there have always been, negatively-polarized entities who dwell amongst your people and sometimes rise to great levels of power and influence. The scrapping, scratching game, “King of the Mountain,” has always been with us. These considerations are as the beautiful fixtures of commode and sink. Yet this builded structure of pipe and hardware does have a choice of the place, the time, the method, and the required tune to tap into many, many levels or principles of contact, each with its own general message to prevail. Thus, it is not possible when a contact speaks in the consciousness to determine solely from that word, that name, the identity of the contact. Therefore, the instrument must be prepared to tune for a matter of minutes after the original tuning of the group even though it seems obvious that to channel a being would be the same wherever one picked it up.

In this session Hatonn speaks about the concept of vocal channeling. They began by saying each instrument with whom this teacher has been involved carries certain levels of illusion because that within your culture, the science and the proven, is all that is acceptable, so if one may consider the fixtures in a sink or a toilet, one may see that if the water is poisonous, there are many things which the person dealing with the water must deal with in order to take from the offered water those particles of ill health. Hatonn went on to say each Confederation entity who speaks through a channel has complete choice over the entity to whom the contact will be given, for there are, as there have always been, negatively-polarized entities who dwell amongst your people and sometimes rise to great levels of power and influence, and the scratching game of “King of the Mountain” has always been with us, so these considerations are as the beautiful fixtures of commode and sink, yet this structure of pipe and hardware does have a choice of the time and the required tune to tap into principles of contact, each with its own message to prevail, but it is not possible when a contact speaks in the consciousness to determine solely from that name the identity of the contact, so the channel must be prepared to tune for a matter of minutes after the original tuning of the group even though it seems obvious that to channel a being would be the same wherever one picked it up. On March 25, 1987, Quanta said it was necessary for the instrument to tune itself before making contact with any unseen source of information:

At this stage of your experiencing of the vocal channeling we may recommend that practice upon that which you have devised is by far the most efficacious means by which to improve your art. As you choose that means by which you tune your instrument and the means by which you offer a challenge of the nature of any spirit or entity who wishes to speak through your instrument, you then intensify this technique by practicing it, and thus do you empower that which you have chosen by the repetition.

The Light, which is the prana or life, of all the universe is offered equally to those upon the service-to-self path and those upon the service-to-others path who have obtained a certain degree of confidence in accepting and rejoicing in the Light of Love, of Wisdom, and of courage. It may seem strange to wrap the mind around the concept that those who are of service to self are equally or perhaps more suffering than those which choose service to others, for the Law of Reflection requires that you shall be treated as you treat those about you, with the exception, of course, of those times when the balance betwixt two entities has lasted for several lifetimes. For souls who have been with each other repeatedly it is always the constant feeling of déja vu.

Yet, each of you is here this evening to attempt to learn better how to share that which some call philosophy and others call psychology with you. Let us speak for a moment about the concept of the “magical personality.” This instrument would prefer to call it “spiritual personality,” however, we feel that our nomenclature is more accurate. We have endeavored to offer to the new instrument a framework within which the instrument may learn to be more and more aware of the small voice that speaks in silence, as your Holy Bible puts it. In many cases it is a still, small voice and not that easily recognized. The first great challenge of the new instrument is its ability to challenge successfully and to be exercised by whatever speaking is required. The student who does not listen to the warnings can—we correct this instrument—concerning channeling by itself. There are grave difficulties at least in potential. May we say that we are having some difficulty with this contact as this instrument has some internal difficulties due to the ingestion of the many pills that was needed at this time. We are sorry for those lapses whereby this instrument must need to remain silent and wait. This indeed is another lesson which we hoped to offer to the new instrument. That is, the waiting with calm.

Hatonn went on to say the Light, which is the life of all the universe is offered equally to those upon the service-to-self path and those upon the service-to-others path who have obtained a certain degree of confidence in accepting and rejoicing in the Light of Love, of Wisdom, and of courage, but it may seem strange to wrap the mind around the concept that those who are of service to self are equally or suffering more than those who choose service to others, for the Law of Reflection requires that you shall be treated as you treat those about you, with the exception of those times when the balance betwixt two entities has lasted for several lifetimes, for souls who have been with each other repeatedly it is always the constant feeling of déja vu. Hatonn continued by saying each of you is here this evening to attempt to learn how to share philosophy with each other, and let us speak about the concept of the “magical personality,” for we have endeavored to offer to the new instrument a framework within which the instrument may learn to be aware of the small voice that speaks in silence, for in many cases it is a still, small voice and not that easily recognized, so the first challenge of the new instrument is its ability to challenge successfully and to be exercised by whatever speaking is required, yet the student who does not listen to the warnings concerning channeling by itself will discover there are grave difficulties possible, so we are having some difficulty with this contact as Carla has some internal difficulties due to the ingestion of the many pills that were needed at this time, and we are sorry for those lapses where this instrument needs to remain silent and wait, but this is another lesson which we hoped to offer to the new instrument which is the waiting with calm. On April 11, 2009, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the still, small voice within us:

And lastly, my brother, as in all things, we recommend periods of entering the silence so that you may hear the still, small voice of guidance, and so that you may rest from the endless considerations of the rational mind and give yourself over to the experience of direct company with the one infinite Creator. For the Creator awaits you in the silence of the tabernacle of your heart.

The…

We must pause and return.

[Pause]

I am Hatonn. We shall continue.

Let us look for a moment at the life pattern which is the macrocosm of which the learning to channel is a fairly elegant analogy. Within the channeling framework, the entity must learn to deal with the heart of those entities that speak invisibly for the most part. In the life experience as a whole, this is also true. The waiting, watching, meditating, and praying may seem to be the throwing of good water into the field. It is not wasted; it is only changed. And this is what we hope when we work with new instruments. That is, that they may become those who recognize within themselves a balanced, hollow place wherein the self is safe, and from the position of unassailable faith and commitment may, indeed, deal with any entity, whether it be a man, beast, bird, or thought form.

Sometimes, as in this evening, the contact comes and goes. See yourself as a person who believes passionately and as an advocate in the greatest highest principle which is possible at this time within your mind and heart. It may not be something so easily spoken as the challenge in the name of Jesus Christ. Yet, we suggest that those who find the face of God in nature or in any other way, position that self so that out of the center of that commitment and passion for life and Love, the vibration most desired shall come. The contact shall come. And when all the challenges are done, the instrument’s work is basically done, for the rest of the channeling of concepts is what one may call an intuitive rather than a rational process, whereby the instrument feels certain feelings and is able to express, in an acceptable way, the intense emotions of the spiritual search.

Hatonn went on to say let us look at the life pattern which is the macrocosm of which learning to channel is an analogy, for within the channeling framework, the entity must learn to deal with the heart of those entities that speak invisibly, so in the life experience this is also true, and meditating and praying may seem to be throwing water into the field, but it is not wasted; it is only changed, and this is what we hope when we work with new instruments, for they may become those who recognize a balanced place where the self is safe, and from the position of unassailable faith and commitment may deal with any entity, whether it be a man, beast, or thought form. Hatonn continued by saying the contact comes and goes, so see yourself as a person who believes in the highest principle which is possible at this time within your mind and heart, but it may not be something easily spoken as the challenge in the name of Jesus Christ, yet we suggest that those who find the face of God in any way, position that self so that out of the center of that passion for life and Love the vibration most desired shall come, and the contact shall come, for when all the challenges are done, the instrument’s work is done, and the rest of the channeling of concepts is what one may call an intuitive rather than a rational process whereby the instrument feels certain feelings and is able to express the intense emotions of the spiritual search. On May 26, 1985, Hatonn described the nature of our spiritual search:

We are sorry to counsel patience so often, for we know that it seems from your vantage point to be a real drawback to the spiritual search. Patience is difficult; patience is necessary; and a compassionate acceptance of yourself and your worth while you exercise the patience and wait in faith for that revelation which has not yet come, for that presence of the Creator, which you do not yet feel, is a very great and important part of your learning of the lessons of Love. We are your brothers and sisters of Love and would spend just one moment energizing the heart area of each before we leave this group. We shall pause.

We salute each of your open hearts and trust they may be filled with cheer and the joy of life, both life as you know it now and life in its infinite form which you carry within you as a seed, and for which this mortal life is good rich earth for the flowers that shall bloom an eternity upon your selfhood and your consciousness of the one Creator.

One cannot be inspired by one’s own shoddy workmanship. If it is not important to any other in the world, as you quaintly put it, it is ultimately important to the channel. It is difficult to know how to help your people. It is difficult to see what one person can do, and part of what the new instrument is going through in determining that for which they would die and that for which they shall live. This is a difficult patch of road for one who has always felt that they were to be an observer, an anthropologist gazing at the natives. We do not say that there is not some merit in this attitude in terms of accuracy of perception. But, rather, we suggest that one view all those who one may serve as equally worthy of service. The straying from the challenging process almost always turns the group responsible for this contact gradually into a point from which they cannot recover, for it is the favorite tactic of negatively-oriented entities, within your sphere, to wait for times of despair and the dark feelings of defeat in one project or another, in order to lay claim to a portion of that mind and heart.

Hatonn continued by saying one cannot be inspired by one’s own shoddy workmanship, but if it is not important to any other in the world, yet it is important to the channel, and it is difficult to know how to help your people to see what one person can do, and part of what the new instrument is going through in determining that for which they would die and that for which they shall live, so this is a difficult patch of road for one who has always felt that they were to be an observer gazing at the natives, nor do we say that there is  no merit in this attitude in terms of accuracy of perception, but we suggest that one view all those who one may serve as equally worthy of service because straying from the challenging process turns the group responsible for this contact into a point from which they cannot recover, for it is the tactic of negatively-oriented entities to wait for the dark feelings of defeat in order to lay claim to a portion of that mind and heart. On February 10, 1988, Hatonn spoke of the nature of the challenging process:

I am Hatonn, and we are pleased with the information regarding the challenging process that we were able to transmit through your instrument, and we would at this time add only one additional concern, and that is that each instrument be reminded that the process of tuning and the challenge is an ongoing process that will change as the entity grows in the ability to function as a vocal instrument, for the process of spiritual growth is a process by which the seeker continues to move closer and closer to the heart of truth and the essence of the self which harbors this truth. And as the entity becomes more aware of who it is and that guiding principle towards which it moves and for which it stands, by which it is inspired, the entity will have an additional intensity or richness to call upon and to offer as the heart of the challenge, that any contacted discarnate being might become more aware of who you are and how it is you wish to serve. Thus, the continued refining and enhancing of the tuning of the instrument and the offering of the heart of self in challenge is recommended.

We must pause. Please forgive us. I am Hatonn, and we find that this instrument is fatigued enough that we would transfer to the one known as D. I am Hatonn.

(D channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I am with this instrument. It is with some difficulty that the parameters of the challenging process are learned. When one views the challenge as a negative act, an act of repulsion of outside influence, it becomes hard to accept the benign influence until a great deal of experience has brought familiarity with subtleties of vibration of that influence or entity. We would recommend that the instrument begin to make note in a more or less objective fashion with perceptions that are encountered at the point of first contact, a cataloguing of these perceptions, the heightened ability to identify each identity upon its later contacts as well as providing a wider spectrum within which positively polarized energies can be perceived and identified, so that even strange, or should we say, unfamiliar contacts may be accomplished with confidence because of their fitting within previously established framework.

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. I am again with this instrument briefly. To conclude. The flow of information is a part of Love, of Light, as you perceive it. Just as there are varying degrees of colors and so forth of illumination, so too there are those who use the same Light. One, for service to others; the other, as service to self. As each, shall we say, soldier upon the plain of Armageddon is matched by the negative polarization of that warrior, so too there is what could be called a loyal opposition of service to self which is aware of and attempts to alter communications received. The conscious, awakened mind is not capable of discerning betwixt two voices, both of which who say, “I am Hatonn.” Yet there cannot be two of Hatonn, for ours, like many others, is a social memory complex, and one could not defy the consensus without removing the entire population which we bring to this work for healing work before we come back at all.

We believe it to be true that service to others shall prevail, and we have seen in our teacher’s eyes the certainty of that truth. Yet we know, also, that in a world where children are hungry, the positively oriented and trained vocal channel may be of inestimable value. This service is very hard work. It is intense and concentrative, and while this particular instrument at this particular time is not becoming fatigued because of the contact, nevertheless, may we say that…

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(Carla channeling)

…some altercation of personality in the direction of dilapidation inwardly frequently occurs. We very much hope that each new instrument that may see or may hear these words and be aware that there is the cosmic battle, shall we say, of fourth-density beings which have not gotten into focus the face of the Creator within each of their enemies. We ask those present to consider carefully the desire to channel as a priestly avocation. We ask the instrument to consider carefully and, above all, to keep questioning what concept or complex of concepts contains the limitless ideal for which you live and for which, if pressed, you would die. Within some entities the face of God resides upon the face of the child, the beloved. In a more spiritualized sense, we hope that each will treat the child which is growing in knowledge of service to others with the same tender care that the one known as Jesus received, albeit difficult circumstances, in a cow barn, in the middle of a snowstorm. This is, of course, recorded to your accounts within your Holy Bible. May you be the best you can. Relax into the web of Love which connects you to all in the universe, which is closer to you than your breath, and be careful of whom you seek, for though the Creator is all, yet the distortions are many. And although we are distorted, yet it is true to our best belief that we attempt to safeguard the vocal instruments of our message and are successful in the most part in doing so.

Now Hatonn said the flow of information is a part of Love, of Light, as you perceive it, and just as there are varying degrees of colors of illumination, so there are those who use the same Light, and one is for service to others, and the other is service to self, for as each soldier upon the plain of Armageddon is matched by the negative polarization of that warrior, so too there is a loyal opposition of service to self which attempts to alter communications received, but the conscious mind is not capable of discerning betwixt two voices, both of which who say, “I am Hatonn,” yet there cannot be two of Hatonn, for ours is a social memory complex, and one could not defy the consensus without removing the population which we bring to this work for healing before we come back at all. Now Hatonn said we believe it to be true that service to others shall prevail, and we have seen in our teacher’s eyes the certainty of that truth, yet we know that in a world where children are hungry, the positively oriented vocal channel may be of great value, but this service is hard work, and while Carla is not becoming fatigued because of the contact, nevertheless, may we say that some alteration of personality in the direction of collapse inwardly frequently occurs, for we hope that each new instrument that may see or hear these words be aware that there is the cosmic battle of fourth-density beings which have not gotten into focus of the face of the Creator within each of their enemies, so we ask those present to consider the desire to channel as a priestly vocation, and we ask Carla to keep questioning what complex of concepts contains the limitless ideal for which you live and for which, if pressed, you would die, for within some entities the face of God resides upon the face of the child, and in a more spiritualized sense, we hope that each will treat the child which is growing in knowledge of service to others with the same care that Jesus received within difficult circumstances, in a cow barn, in the middle of a snowstorm, so may you be the best you can by relaxing into the web of Love which connects you to all in the universe, and be careful who you seek, for though the Creator is all, yet the distortions are many, and although we are distorted, yet it is true that we attempt to guard the vocal instruments of our message and are successful in doing so. In 25.5, Ra spoke of the cosmic battle of fourth-density beings:

Questioner: You spoke of an Orion Confederation and a battle being fought between the Confederation and the Orion Confederation. Is it possible to convey any concept of how this battle is fought?

I am Ra. Picture, if you will, your mind. Picture it then in total unity with all other minds of your society. You are then single-minded, and that which is a weak electrical charge in your physical illusion is now an enormously powerful machine whereby thoughts may be projected as things.

In this endeavor the Orion group charges, or attacks, the Confederation arms with Light. The result, a standoff, as you would call it, both energies being somewhat depleted by this and needing to regroup; the negative depleted through failure to manipulate, the positive depleted through failure to accept that which is given.

We would at this time transfer the contact to the one known as Jim. I thank this instrument for operating under somewhat adverse circumstances and would wish to make one point in comment, that being that this instrument we now use might well consider carefully the process whereby the tension could be released from the system, whereby the worry can be released from the mind, whereby the heartache can be relieved. This said, we shall transfer to the one who is Jim. I am Hatonn.

(Jim channeling)

I am Hatonn. Greetings again in Love and Light. At this time, we are privileged to have the opportunity to speak to those queries which may yet remain upon the minds present, and we would seek to fulfill the opportunity to the best of our ability while reminding each that we do not operate [inaudible], yet what we offer we offer in joy. Is there a query to which we may speak at this time?

D: I felt tonight that I was initially channeling at rather a low level and so much from my own thoughts that I really felt reluctant to trust, again, what I was saying as being accurate. Could you comment on that aspect of this night, at this point?

I am Hatonn. We have another opinion, my brother, and that is that the effort which you expended this evening was one which was focused on very carefully and which you carried out with a diligence that has exceeded that of your previous attempts. We are aware that you are yet quite uncomfortable with various portions of the process and have not yet come into your own ability to receive those thoughts which we send and to transmit them in a faithful manner. Yet, we assure you that your diligence has provided a progress which it is a pleasure to note.

We suggest that the future attempts contain this same diligence and focus of attention along with the growing ability to set aside the mental concerns and attempts to analyze, for it is this characteristic of all new instruments to analyze the contact as it is ongoing which, in most cases, causes the eventual cessation or delusion of the contact due to the loss of concentration. Thus, we again encourage you, my brother, to continue apace and be at peace in your own mind for the progress you have shown is commendable, and we expect this to grow into the art of serving as a vocal instrument will continue.

May we speak on any other subject?

D: Well, having spoken about the middle, I would like to address the beginning and the end, the point of contact itself and the challenging process and the difficulty of that. Can you speak to that process as it occurred without my being more specific about how it seemed to occur from my perspective?

I am Hatonn. As you become more decided, shall we say, and choose those qualities or that quality around which your life moves in harmony most profoundly, and adopt those qualities in a conscious fashion as that standard by which you ask or challenge each contact you meet, you will discover that the experience of initiating the contact and of being assured that that which you perceive is, indeed, that which awaits your perception; you will grow with the confidence that the process is beginning as it should. The ability to place the full force of the self in a chosen mode or focus according to that which is most important to your seeking will give you the firm ground upon which to stand as you offer the challenge, as you perceive the contact, and as you relay those concepts which are given to you.

May we speak in any other fashion, my brother?

D: I tried tonight, I think more successfully than usual, when I became physically tense, to relax, and as I did I felt an opening of the mind as well but towards the end of the contact after just those two or three sentences that I spoke. When I did this, I had a feeling of great expansiveness and contact but without concept, without communication on a conceptual level. I was so confident of that feeling of contact that I was somewhat surprised when you began again to speak through Carla. Can you comment on this, on what I might have been in contact with or experiencing?

I am Hatonn. The state of mind that is achieved in the meditative practice is one which may be likened unto the carrier wave of one of your radio stations. Upon this wave may be placed information. When the instrument achieves this state for the first time in an obvious sense, as you have described, it is usually an all-engulfing experience. It is sometimes difficult for the continued transmission of thoughts especially for the new instrument which oftentimes will wander a bit within the parameters of the carrier wave and will need to be brought back, shall we say, by the transfer of the contact, if there is an instrument experienced enough to perceive this situation. The new instrument will then note that it has stepped into the river or the flow of information and will then be able to recognize this state and work with it in a more focused manner, shall we say, as the experience is gained.

May we speak further, my brother?

D: It was quite some time before I felt this feeling dissolve. Is it something that—is it a state which to be in has a beneficial effect as far as governing building the ability to establish a strong contact or is it better to be more diligent and more controlled when that occurs and try speaking about this early stage of development and still try to focus?

I am Hatonn. There is great benefit to the conscious self when this state is contacted for the practice of meditation which allows the entity to enter this state. It is one which builds a bridge between the conscious self and a greater portion of the self which may be more or less informed by the higher self and the increasingly coherent and integral magical personality. Thus, the conscious self, during these times of meditation within this state of consciousness, is being nourished by the qualities of the greater being. The attempt to be of service as a vocal instrument may be aided by the utilization of this state of consciousness to receive as the least distorted fashion as possible, information transmitted from sources outside the conscious mind.

However, in the initial experiences of this state of consciousness, the ability to serve as a vocal instrument is determined by the experience that the new instrument has in focusing its attention within this state and perceiving those thoughts transmitted to it while refusing the temptation to analyze the thoughts, and at the same time refusing the temptation to, shall we say, float hither and yon within the most pleasant confines of this state of consciousness. Thus, there is a balance as the new instrument seeks which attempts to move equally between the conscious mind and its activity and the subconscious mind and its inactivity. What the new instrument and any instrument seeks is the expression of energy or activity in a manner which is informed by the subconscious mind or sources acting through the subconscious mind in a manner which may be perceived and transmitted, then, in a more conscious sense.

D asked: “It was quite some time before I felt this feeling dissolve. Is it something that—is it a state which to be in has a beneficial effect as far as governing building the ability to establish a strong contact, or is it better to be more diligent and more controlled when that occurs and try speaking about this early stage of development and still try to focus?” Hatonn replied there is benefit to the conscious self when this state is contacted for the practice of meditation which allows the entity to enter this state, for it is one which builds a bridge between the conscious self and a greater portion of the self which may be informed by the higher self and the magical personality, for the conscious self, during these times of meditation within this state of consciousness, is being nourished by the qualities of the greater being, so the attempt to be of service as a vocal instrument may be aided by the utilization of this state of consciousness to receive in the least distorted information transmitted from sources outside the conscious mind. Now Hatonn said in the initial experiences of this state of consciousness, the ability to serve as a vocal instrument is determined by the experience that the new instrument has in focusing its attention within this state and perceiving those thoughts transmitted to it while refusing the temptation to analyze the thoughts, and at the same time refusing the temptation to float hither and yon within the confines of this state of consciousness, so there is a balance as the new instrument seeks which attempts to move equally between the conscious mind and its activity and the subconscious mind and its inactivity, for what the new instrument and any instrument seeks is the expression of energy in a manner which is informed by the subconscious mind or sources acting through the subconscious mind in a manner which may be perceived and transmitted in a more conscious sense. On July 4, 1982, Latwii described the nature of our subconscious mind:

That known to your people as the subconscious mind exists in realms and reaches far greater than has ever been perceived by those who have studied the phenomenon of dreams. Your conscious mind dwells in this illusion for the purpose of utilizing the catalyst which may teach it the lessons necessary for the graduation. The subconscious mind, on the other hand, is directly linked to the creative forces which are the foundation not only of this illusion but of all illusions within this octave of experience. The subconscious mind, therefore, includes a great array of resources which the conscious mind might draw upon for inspiration and information to expand the boundaries of its perception. The subconscious mind has the basic purpose of allowing this expansion of perception and increase in the ability to learn by providing the catalysts which provoke, shall we say, new lessons and learnings. The subconscious mind is directly connected to the planetary mind, that is, the mind that contains the total experiences of all entities who inhabit your planet at this time. Beyond this are reaches of the mind which are greater yet. These mind reaches included that known to your people as the basic motivating force of the universe, that being the Logos or Love. It is through this connection that each individual upon your planet reproduces the nature of the one infinite Creator, that is, to experience and to grow from experience. Therefore, each entity is connected to the one Creator through the deep reaches of the mind as though the one creation could be seen as a great wheel with each spoke being a portion of yet another entity’s deep mind.

May we speak further, my brother?

D: It sounds like you are, in a sense, suggesting that in meditation this state might be one in which you would . . . let me put it this way. In meditation it might be okay to somewhat dissolve into this state and go with it, whereas when attempting to channel, it’s necessary to maintain a focus of [inaudible] communication. Is that what you are saying?

I am Hatonn, and this is basically correct, my brother, for the experience of this state is that which may be harnessed, shall we say, by the one who seeks to serve as a vocal instrument, rather than the simple enjoying of this state. It is utilized in a manner which is hopefully of service to others.

May we speak further, my brother?

D: Just a quick and rather pointed question. At the point of which this occurred this evening, were you aware of my state and what I was experiencing, or do you become aware of it by my describing it and asking about it?

I am Hatonn. In most instances we are not aware of the details of the instrument’s mental contents, shall we say. We are more aware of the balances that are being achieved by the effort of the instrument and our own effort as well. If we so desire and see the need to become informed as to the specific details of an instrument’s mental workings that may be influencing its ability to serve as a vocal instrument, we may do so if we are asked and if the response does not impinge upon its free will. However, for the most part we choose to ignore the detailed or specific reasons for certain mental qualities while a contact has been established and choose rather to focus upon the blending of energies which we are attempting with the instrument.

May we speak further, my brother?

D: No, thank you very much.

I am Hatonn, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have just one. I experienced a complete mental blockage several times during the transmission and actually had no idea what they were talking about, most of the time, because I kept going out and then coming back in. I wondered . . . there are various possibilities when that happens. The possibilities range from going to sleep or in trance, which I don’t think I can do; just being a bad channeler; not keeping my mind on the game; what else? Anyway, are any assortment of things responsible for this fading out? Because I’ve had this happen [inaudible] before. It could be pills, too. I’ve taken some pills before the session. Could you comment on any of that? I’d like to know how to work around that. The way I did it was just to sit there in the darkness until I saw the next sentence, but it was an uncomfortable feeling because I didn’t know what the rest of the message was. Could you comment?

I am Hatonn, and we may comment as follows, my sister. The medications that you have begun to ingest have an effect that is noticeable as you seek to enter those states of consciousness which are somewhat below the conscious mind level. These substances are used primarily for their effect upon the conscious mind and its quieting. However, their effect is somewhat pronounced upon other levels of your mind as well.

When the lower levels of the mind are in a state of suspension, shall we say, due to this effect, we recommend that you do as you have done and that is to wait the transmission of the next thought or series of thoughts when it is possible to do so, for the effect of the medications is one which is spotty and which will in time pass. Thus, we can only suggest your patience, and we ask that you bear with us as well, for we, during those times, need to rework the balance of energies that are the fruit of the blending of our energies with yours.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: Let me think… Are we doing—Jim and I—doing appropriate cleansing to be good enough to be working on the Holy Spirit tapes? And do you have any suggestions?

I am Hatonn. We may not speak to the specifics of this query, my sister, for those preparations which you make as instruments for this service are those which are most necessarily made as free will choices. We would not seek to intrude upon this holy ground, for that effort is one which is most necessary to guard as a product of free will choice. We encourage, always, the persistence and the dedication to intention and the praising of the one Creator in all experience. These are simple requisites for any seeker and any instrument at any time.

May we speak further, my sister, about any other topic?

Carla: No.

I am Hatonn, Is there another query?

D: Not for me, thank you.

I am Hatonn, and we are most grateful to each gathered this evening for inviting our presence. As always, we rejoice at the opportunity to lend our assistance to those who would learn more of service and share that which is learned. We also learned much in these workings and are most grateful for each opportunity to learn and to teach. At this time, we shall take our leave of this group and this instrument, leaving each, always, in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Hatonn. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning the quote from The Infinite Way is: “Let us agree now to see that just as we need take no thought for oranges as long as we have the source or supply which is continually producing fruit for us, so we need no longer take thought about dollars. Let us learn to think of dollars, as we do of leaves on trees or oranges as the natural and inevitable result of the law active within There is truly no need to be concerned even when the trees appear to be bare, as long as we are conscious of the truth that the law is even now operating within to bring forth fruit after its own kind, regardless of the state of our finances at any given moment let us not be concerned or worried because we now know that the law acting in, through, and as our consciousness is at work within us, when we are asleep as well as when we are awake, to provide all those added things.

Let us learn to look at the lilies and rejoice at the proof of the presence of God’s Love for God’s creation. Let us watch the sparrows and note how confidently they trust this law.

Let us rejoice when we see the flowers in spring and summer because they assure us of the divine Presence. As we learn to enjoy the beauties and bounties of nature with no desire to hoard any of them and with no fear that there is less than an infinite supply of them, so we learn to enjoy the fruitage of our infinite supply—the results of that infinite storehouse within us—with no fear of any lack to plague us.

Enjoy these things of the outer realm, but do not consider them as supply. Our conscious awareness of the presence and activity of the law is our consciousness of supply, and the outer things are the forms which our consciousness expresses. The inner supply appears as the necessary outer things.”

Later this morning I went outside and hand-weeded the Ruins Mound Garden in the areas that I couldn’t weed yesterday with Whip Lash. Then I used Huff and Puff to blow the leaves in the parking area in front of my home into a pile, and then I put the leaves in a garbage can. Then I watered the Dianthus Flower garden along the parking area in front of my home.

This afternoon I used Huff and Puff to blow the weeds out of the Ruins Mound that I hand-weeded this morning. Then I usedWhip Lash to weed the area around the fishpond.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

August 11

The Race Of Detail And Duty

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

We see that you have many concerns upon your minds this day and are already eagerly planning how to run the race of detail and duty. How quickly you feel you must run!

Know that the Love of Jesus the Christ moves effortlessly and gracefully with you in each moment of concern, in each detail of the working day. As close as breathing is this Love which smoothes and makes plentiful time, energy, and coordination.

Indeed, there is no lack of things to do, yet neither is there a lack of service to offer in Love. Let each detail be transformed by the inner asking of the knowledge of the Love and service breathed forth by the Spirit upon all material things.

We leave you in perfect peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel the Creator’s Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Laitos channeling for this session is from November 19, 1987:

(Carla channeling)

I am Laitos. I greet you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. We have had much difficulty getting the attention of the one known as D, as we find this instrument to be placed in a position wherein the promptings of the subconscious mind are rigidly enough controlled that subconscious thought is not being given free flow into the conscious mental apparatus used for making decisions. We would suggest that the instrument known as D, as well as each within the circle, realize and give value to the shyly hidden offerings of the subconscious mind, for deep concepts arise within the intuitive portion of the conscious mind only if there is a certain level of coordination betwixt the two minds, a certain mutual respect and conscious awareness each of the other.

We would like to speak this evening about love. We choose this subject not in spite of its familiarity or its centrality, but because of it. We have a desire to express enough consciously known principles as concepts to the new instrument that it will, by simple repetition of exercises, each concept being one exercise, regain the feeling of some small confidence within the one known as D. That which each is is far other than the conscious mind can hope. These concepts which we channel due to your service are mere surface paint which glistens in the sun upon the surfaces beneath which lie the substantial metal of beingness. The process of channeling is a process of service to others. The entity which one brings to that service needs to be respected in its entirety. Both those things which are civilized, learned behaviors, and so forth, and those things which are archaic and seemingly vestigial, that is, instinct and the force deep within the mystery of the inner being, which is that very stuff which created all that there is within the infinite universe, sink down, then, within the conscious mind, becoming more and more aware, more and more attuned to the slightest lifting of the veil between conscious and subconscious.

We would speak, as we said, of love. We would offer familiar words. We would speak of that love which goes beyond human expression, that love which people seek after without any proof of its existence. We speak of a Creator whose very nature is love. Each particle of consciousness has that seed of love at its center, known as the birthright of what this instrument would call divinity. Such words are not adequate, yet language is a difficult and limiting way to communicate. Before all else was, love is, and when the last sun flares into nova and shrinks into ultimate gravity, love still is, the Creator, endlessly brooding upon infinities, [inaudible]. And yet, this vast and mysterious love may be expressed within your illusion.

In this session Laitos speaks of the concept of Love. They began by saying we would like to speak this evening about Love, and we choose this subject not in spite of its familiarity or its centrality, but because of it, for we have a desire to express consciously known principles as concepts to the new instrument that it will, by repetition of exercises, each concept being one exercise, regain the feeling of confidence within D, so that which each is is other than the conscious mind can hope, yet these concepts which we channel due to your service are surface paint which glistens in the sun upon the surfaces beneath which lie the substantial metal of beingness, so the process of channeling is a process of service to others, and the entity which one brings to that service needs to be respected in its entirety, for both those things which are civilized, learned behaviors, and those things which are seemingly incomplete, that is, instinct and the force deep within the mystery of the inner being, which is that very stuff which created all that there is within the infinite universe, sinks down within the conscious mind, becoming more aware and more attuned to the lifting of the veil between conscious and subconscious. Then Laitos said we would speak, as we said, of Love, and we would speak of that Love which people seek after without any proof of its existence, for we speak of a Creator whose nature is Love, for each particle of consciousness has that seed of Love at its center, known as the birthright of what Carla would call divinity, but such words are not adequate, yet language is a difficult and limiting way to communicate because before all else was, Love is, and when the last sun flares into nova and shrinks into ultimate gravity, Love still is, the Creator, endlessly brooding upon infinities, yet this vast and mysterious Love may be expressed within your illusion. On November 19, 2000, Q’uo spoke of the nature of mysterious Love:

That which to the eyes of third density seems to be chaotic is, at another level of experience, that which has rhythm, motion, and pattern. However, there are those mysteries for all created entities that go beyond the ability of mind, body, and spirit to penetrate. For though we are all of the one Creator we never forget that the heart of the Creator is a mysterious Love that has the power to create and to destroy that which we call the universe, the very creation itself. So, there is this movement of consciousness that is, itself, an infinite stream of being that may from time to time have ripples in it and eddies and that kind of experience which seems to be chaotic. Yet, when those consciousnesses which perceive it are able to become one with it through their understanding of it, then that which appeared to be chaotic then appears to be smooth and unified, harmonious, and able to be perceived in a fashion that is coherent.

We will transfer to the one known as D at this time, asking as usual that the instrument accept thoughts as they arise, speak them, and be unafraid, refraining always from analysis during the exercise. I am Laitos. I transfer now.

(D channeling)

I am Laitos, and greet you again with our greeting in Light and Love being our way of answering your challenge. We wish to be channels of the infinite Love that comes from one Source, conduits by performing our humble service of Love, brought from that source to the beings of third dimensions…

[The rest of D’s channeling is not transcribed.]

(Carla channeling)

I am Laitos, and I am again with this instrument. We would like to thank the one known as D for his work and his willingness. We continue to feel that we are making good progress. The instrument will wish to know whether the variances in level of relaxation affect the channeling work, and perhaps the instrument need only remember the varying state of mind during this channeling exercise while gazing at or listening to the words to discover how very helpful it is to maintain a single point of focus during the channeling, for neither worrying nor considering—that is, neither worrying about what has been said nor considering what shall be said—and focusing only upon the immediacy, the breathing, the heartbeat, the slight but audible sound of the pressure of blood in the ear, the night sounds, all those things which go into being in the present and focused upon an inner listening.

We suggest as an exercise that the instrument works with imagery in meditation, holding shapes and colors within the mind for as long as possible. The instrument should not be discouraged at discovering the willfulness of the mind which wishes not to concentrate upon one image. A few seconds at first shall be a challenge to sustain. Yet this type of concentration is most helpful to the work of channeling, and where the conscious mind in its restless intelligence is used to roving in thought, there must needs be means of disciplining that very helpful thing, the intellect and stilling its forward pace for the purpose of experiencing the present moment, as would one without the rational mind.

Laitos went on to say we feel that we are making progress, and any instrument will wish to know whether the variances in the level of relaxation affect the channeling, so the instrument need only remember the varying state of mind during this channeling exercise while listening to the words to discover how helpful it is to maintain a single point of focus during the channeling, for neither worrying about what has been said nor considering what shall be said is important, but it is important to focus upon the breathing, the heartbeat, and the night sounds which go into being in the present and focused upon an inner listening. Then Laitos said we suggest that the instrument works with imagery in meditation, holding shapes and colors within the mind for as long as possible, but the instrument should not be discouraged at discovering the willfulness of the mind which wishes not to concentrate upon one image, and a few seconds at first shall be a challenge to sustain, yet this type of concentration is helpful to the work of channeling, and where the conscious mind is used to moving in thought, there needs to be a means of disciplining the intellect and stilling its forward pace for the purpose of experiencing the present moment, as would one without the rational mind. On March 30, 1990, Laitos described the work of channeling:

Those energies which you feel shall not always be overwhelming. It is extremely common to the new student to find great disorientation when beginning the work of channeling, for you upon your sphere of existence have the concept of solidity, of objective reference. We simply offer thoughts to your subconscious in the form of concept rather than language. It is the portion of the channel to hear the clarion call of those thoughts, to waste no time considering whether it is you channeling yourself, or yourself channeling an outer source. This process moves on despite all doubt, all questioning, and all fear, as long as the entity who wishes to channel continues to feel that this service is a path of service chosen.

Since much has been said already about preparing for contact, we shall await questions in order to clear up any confusing points you might have, but at this time we wish to speak directly to the teaching process of channeling. Channeling is a process much likened unto the catching and the throwing of a baseball, in a rapid fashion, which requires that the mind be kept single-mindedly upon the succession of balls, and the hand be nimble to empty itself of the ball it has just caught, that it again may be empty to receive the new ball. In this analogy we equate these balls with intuitionally validated thoughts and inspirations which are yours alone as you move along the path of life.

We do, however, continue to emphasize that the rational mind be tuned carefully before the control is given over to the intuitive self, and further we suggest that the powers of analysis are most helpful in revealing the experience of the intuitive mind and its fruit in collaboration with us who are of the principle of Love. We feel that the encouragement which we offer the instrument is to an extent blocked by the instrument’s dissatisfaction, and we ask that the instrument set aside that dissatisfaction or need to please the self, for in this matter the process of learning to serve as a vocal channel is greatly helped by a veritable lack of interest in the excellence of one’s own work when one is not within the channeling mode of perception.

What we are saying is that this phenomenon is most natural and is, in fact, a portion of the birthright of the intuitive mind, that portion of the mind which is the largest, that being the frontal lobes of your brain, yet being by far the least respected and the least used by your culture. Intuition vanishes upon attention and advances upon a relaxed peripheral view. Those who see intuitively see without focus and speak without hindrance, so many learn to channel themselves in spontaneity and joy and some few discipline that faculty for use as a medium through which impersonal principles may find an attuned gateway which resonates in energy with itself and which can thus be used to be of mutual service to those who may find value in words of love.

Now Laitos said we emphasize that the rational mind be tuned carefully before control is given over to the intuitive self, and we suggest that the powers of analysis are most helpful in revealing the experience of the intuitive mind and its fruit in collaboration with us, who are of the principle of Love, so we feel that the encouragement which we offer the instrument is, to an extent, blocked by the instrument’s dissatisfaction, and we ask that the instrument set aside that dissatisfaction, for in this matter the process of learning to serve as a vocal channel is helped by a lack of interest in the excellence of one’s work when one is not within the channeling mode of perception. Laitos completed their reply by saying this phenomenon is natural and is a portion of the birthright of the intuitive mind, that portion of the mind which is the largest, that being the frontal lobes of your brain, yet being by the least respected and the least used by your culture, intuition vanishes upon attention and advances upon a relaxed peripheral view, and those who see intuitively see without focus and speak without hindrance, so many learn to channel themselves in spontaneity and joy, and some few discipline that faculty for use as a medium through which impersonal principles may find an attuned gateway which resonates in energy with itself and which can thus be used to be of mutual service to those who may find value in words of Love. On March 24, 1991, Q’uo described the value of the words of Love:

If you can rest in the peace of stopping when you are tired, and starting when you are inspired, you shall be at all times learning as much as you can, transforming your field of awareness in positive ways to the utmost, and honoring the Creator of all. If there seems to be something that you wish to do that cannot be done, avoid frustration and judgment, and instead speak to yourself, this body that has carried you, in words of Love, and comfort, and divine peace. In this way your sacrifices shall be those guided by the spirit of infinite Wisdom, and you will know when your time is upon you, and when it is far better to rest and recoup your strength for the ordeals to come.

At this time, we would transfer to the one known as Jim that this instrument may field queries and speak further. We transfer at this time. I am Laitos.

(Jim channeling)

I am Laitos, and greet each again through this instrument. We realize that we have exercised the one known as Carla and the one known as D to an extensive degree this evening, hopefully providing both exercise and information to each instrument. At this time, we would offer ourselves in the attempt to speak upon any topic which those present may find the value in the asking. Is there a query to which we may speak?

D: Is what you were just saying about concern for the excellence of the material or for the excellence of the channeling meant to… I’m a little confused as far as my own efforts to get your feedback and make use of it, and whether that whole effort to do that through these questions is somehow misguided. I need a little clarification about that still. Does it show a wrong sort of concern of mine, for instance, in my questions in the past about the details of my own channeling?

I am Laitos, and, my brother, we would encourage your queries for as long as the information which is given in response to them has meaning to you. It is eventually hoped that each new instrument, through the exercise of its vocal channeling ability and through the resolution of difficulties and queries, both from our source and from those serving as teachers, might provide the necessary confidence that will allow a new instrument to proceed fearlessly and even foolishly in the chosen art. Thus, we are happy to speak to any query which you may find necessary in order to enhance your own understanding of the process that is now being actualized within your being, my brother.

Is there another query?

D: Well, I still don’t quite understand what you were saying a short while ago about concern for the performance except during the performance. I’ve kind of lost my question, but I got the impression that the concerns that prompt me to ask about my performance were somehow misguided and… I’m sorry, I don’t know how to ask this question. I do have another, however, and that is just very simply, if tonight I completed my channeling of you at the point at which you were ready to end it. I’ve felt in the past somewhat as if I stopped it because of my own fatigue and tonight, I felt no fatigue, I just felt…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Laitos and am again with this instrument. We would speak to your first query, if we may, before addressing the second. We suggest the concern for the excellence of the effort be the focus of one’s attention previous to and then following the exercise of the vocal channeling ability, and the giving over of any concerns for such excellence while one is serving as a vocal channel, for it is at that time that the analytical mind does not serve one well, for it is that analysis which is the greatest stumbling block for the new or old instrument. It is at that time that such analysis is given over to a surrender that will allow a clearing of the mind in order that impressions of those such as we are might be transmitted through the instrument.

In regards to your second query, we were quite happy to have been able to utilize your instrument for the greater portion of the time which we felt was appropriate for the exercise of a new instrument before either physical or mental fatigue tends to remove the one-pointed focus that is so critical in being able to transmit concepts as they occur and are perceived within the mind complex. Thus, we this evening were able to utilize your instrument to a greater degree than we have previously and are very pleased to be able to make this report.

May we speak further, my brother?

D: I appreciate that. I really was wondering if I responded to your ceasing to come through me, or if you would have gladly—if you were continuing to attempt to stimulate concepts that I had become just unable to respond to?

I am Laitos, and we were able to stimulate those concepts which we were utilizing both from our own source and those which we wished to choose from your experience and framework of conceptualization, shall we say, for we wish to use that which each instrument has to offer as an unique portion of its own seeking to enhance the message which is always and ever the same. Each seeker will refine the shared path of seeking in a manner which enriches that path when shared with another. Thus, this evening we were able to blend your offering with our own in a manner which we found of a balanced nature.

May we speak further, my brother?

Carla: I think what he’s asking is, “Was the next thought that you were going to transmit that you were going to transfer?”

I am Laitos. We had some further information available that we could have transmitted had the instrument’s focus been steadier at that point. However, it was beginning to falter, and there was then seen the need for the transfer of the contact in order that the new instrument not become disheartened that it was not maintaining the validity that it had previously demonstrated.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: Not on my account. I spoke only for D. You need anything further, D?

D: I have another question. In weeks past you and—I’m sorry I don’t remember whether it was Hatonn or who—made the analogy of channeling with catching a baseball and throwing it in order to free the hands in order to catch the ball again. In other words, to receive a word or a few words, speak them, in order to free the mind to receive more. And yet it’s also been stressed that you work through stimulating concepts on the subconscious level through which we find the words. And I see these two ideas being somewhat in conflict with each other. Can you resolve that and help me to understand a little more deeply just what this process is?

I am Laitos. Whether the words which are perceived are words which we transmit in a word by word fashion or words which the instrument fashions in order to describe a concept which has been transmitted, the idea of throwing or speaking these words fearlessly is that which is helpful to the instrument, for the passing of the words is that which clears the way for further words, be they those which we have distinctly transmitted or those which the instrument has found to be the most nearly appropriate to describe the concept which we have transmitted as well. We utilize from time to time combinations of the concept and the word-by-word transmission as is most efficacious for each instrument. Most will find the concept means of transmission the easiest to utilize in the beginning of the service as a vocal instrument, with the addition of the word-by-word method of contact being that which is undertaken at a later or more advanced stage of serving as a vocal instrument.

May we speak further, my brother?

D: No, thank you very much.

I am Laitos. We thank you once again, my brother. Is there a further query at this time?

D: None from me.

Carla: Thank you, Laitos.

I am Laitos, and we also wish to thank each for the great offering of attention and service which we have experienced this evening. We appreciate the opportunity to speak our humble words through each instrument and find a great joy in being able to transmit concepts through both the old, shall we say, and the new instruments in order that there might be some small enlightening of service and of the mental preparation for service in each instrument. We, ourselves, gain a great deal of experience as we work with each instrument, and feel that that which you offer to us is far greater than you can imagine, for we learn as we teach to be clearer channels for the Love and Light of the one Creator.

At this time, we shall again thank each instrument, and, as always, leave each in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Laitos. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning the quote from The Infinite Way is: “Since money is not supply, what is? Let us digress for a moment and look at the orange tree which is laden with fruit. We know that the oranges do not constitute supply because when these have been eaten or sold or given away, a new crop starts at once to grow. The oranges are gone, but the supply remains because within that tree, there is a law in operation. Call it a law of God or a law of nature, the name of the law is not too important, but the recognition of the presence of a law operating in, through, or as, the tree is important. That law operates to draw in the bough, the roots, the minerals, substances, elements of air, water, and sunshine which it then transforms into sap that is drawn up through the trunk of the tree and distributed through the blossoms. In due time, this law transforms the blossoms into a green marble, and this becomes the full grown orange. The orange is the result or effect of the operation of the law acting in, though, and as the orange tree. As long as this law is present, we will have oranges. The orange of itself cannot produce another orange. Thus, we understand that the law is the supply, and oranges are the fruits, the results or the effect of the law.

Within you and within me, there is also a law in operation—a law of life—and our awareness of the presence of this law is our supply, money, and the things necessary for daily living are the effects of the consciousness of the activity of the law within. This understanding enables us to take thought off the things of the outer world and abide in the consciousness of the law.

What is the law which is our supply? The universal or divine Consciousness, your individual consciousness, is this law. This law actually is your consciousness. Thus, your consciousness becomes the law of supply unto you, producing its own image and likeness in the form of those things necessary to your well-being. As there is no limitation to your consciousness, there is no limit to your conscious awareness of the action of the law and, therefore, no limit to your supply in all its forms.

The divine or universal Consciousness, your individual consciousness, is spiritual. The activity of this law within you is likewise spiritual, and, therefore, your supply in all its forms is spiritual, infinite, and ever present. What we behold as money, food, and clothing, automobiles, and homes represents our concepts of these ideas. Our concepts are as infinite as our mind.”

Later this morning I went outside and hand-weeded the Liriope garden on the west side of the fishpond. Then I set the sprinkler on top of the fishpond to water the five gardens that surround the fishpond. While the sprinkler was running, I went to my neighbor’s driveway and used my hedge clippers to trim back my Spirea Bush and an Arborvitae Tree that were hanging over the property line. Then I made an errand run to Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up a frame to hold the Muhammad Ali stamps that I got in the mail yesterday.

This afternoon I went outside and used Whip Lash to weed the Spotted Ivy on the perimeter of the Ruins Mound Garden.

From The Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

August 10

Put On Spiritual Clothing

I am of the principle of the Love of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

Putting on the clothing is part of the preparation for the day’s business. We suggest to you that you also put on the spiritual clothing of Light which may aid the process of seeking during the day to come.

Visualize and call to the self that great armor of protection that goes before, follows after, guards upon each side and permeates each part and cell of your body. This armor of Light enables the seeker to dwell within the state of joy and peace which the living waters of Love, caught up in the armor of Light, can bear.

Without such armor, without such deep remembrance of Light, it is difficult to dance throughout the daily experience. Each time Light is forgotten, be not discouraged but call in again upon yourself that great protection.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel the Creator’s Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

 I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Quo channeling for this session comes from November 1, 1987:

Concerns wanderers, the difficulty that wanderers frequently encounter being within the third-density illusion, having to go through the forgetting process, and having some kind of a memory of previous existence and purpose for the current incarnation, yet running into, perhaps, problems in making that happen or manifesting it.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is a great privilege to be with you this evening, and we wish especially to greet those new to the group, new to the circle of this seeking, new to these particular vibrations. We bless and greet each. We would like to make a note at this point that we may have to pause in order to clear the breathing passages of this instrument. We hope you will be patient during these moments.

You have requested that we speak to you upon the subject of being wanderers. Perhaps we should begin by stating that the majority of your people did not arise from the planet, upon which you now enjoy existence, from second density, but have wandered in third density form to your planet, so that there is the archetypical or racial memory within quite the majority of those entities now incarnate upon your planet’s surface who have come to finish their third-density experience from another place, another influence, another circumstance. With this said, we wish to acknowledge, first of all, our compassion for the deep ache and loneliness of those who feel that they are strangers in a strange land. It is in no way a cowardly thing to feel the pangs of being where home is not. It is not an act of cowardice to wish for the climate and the friendly faces of a family half-remembered. Yet we speak to those who wish not merely to receive sympathy for their plight, but to learn more about how to celebrate that challenge and to rejoice in the time ahead.

Each of you has in your past either the experience or the sincere wish to experience the form of hands-on aid to needy people, which works such as your Peace Corps offers. In this organization, those who have much to teach aid those who have much to learn, both being equals in the experience, both learning, both teaching. Those who have had this experience most generally feel that the tasks, while arduous, have been most worthwhile. Such periods, however, are intense. To a wanderer, the entire incarnation is this type of experience. You will feel life more acutely moment by moment than others who are more comfortably lulled and distracted by the various gadgets and toys of your culture. Wanderers remain more of the time aware of the energies which riffle the waters of peaceful consciousness and break down ideals into ethics and ethics into situations.

In this session Q’uo speaks about wanderers. They began by saying you have requested that we speak to you upon the subject of being wanderers, and we begin by stating that the majority of your people did not arise from the from second density but have wandered in third density form to your planet, so there is the racial memory within the majority of those entities now incarnate upon your planet who have come to finish their third-density experience from another third-density planet, so we wish to acknowledge our compassion for the ache and loneliness of those who feel that they are strangers in a strange land, for it is  not an act of cowardice to wish for the climate and the friendly faces of a family half-remembered, yet we speak to those who wish to learn more about how to celebrate that challenge and to rejoice in the time ahead. Q’uo went on to say each of you has in your past either the experience or the wish to experience the form of hands-on aid to needy people which works such as your Peace Corps offers, and in this organization, those who have much to teach aid those who have much to learn, both being equals in the experience, both learning, both teaching, for those who have had this experience feel that difficult tasks have been worthwhile, for to a wanderer the entire incarnation is this type of experience where you will feel life more acutely moment by moment than others who are distracted by the gadgets and toys of your culture, yet wanderers remain aware of the energies which riffle the waters of peaceful consciousness and break down ideals into ethics and ethics into situations. On August 4, 2004, Q’uo described the link between the Peace Corps and wanderers:

It is a profoundly uncomfortable thing to enter third density from a higher density, especially upon your planet. There would be no reason to undergo such suffering and to put oneself into the maelstrom of such near insanity as this particular planet has entered into as a culture except to serve, and to serve in such a way that one person makes a difference. You are familiar with the concept of the Peace Corps where ordinary citizens go into a culture which seems to have needs which they can help satisfy. They have only themselves, their hearts, their willingness to serve, and yet time and again if one interviews those who have been a part of such a program, they state that it has truly been a wonderful thing in that they really did feel that one person could make a difference, and they saw that it was so. In this case, you came in as a member of a Peace Corps, a Peace, Love, and Light Corps, shall we say, your aim being to make a difference even though you were only one being. You are already making a difference, as is everyone upon planet Earth. You are not part of an elite simply because you are a wanderer. All of those upon planet Earth at this time are harvestable. In terms of how they came into the incarnation, there are no hopeless souls here, all are able to make a difference, all have what it takes to Love in a powerful and real way, to Love beyond judgment, beyond limit, beyond holding back something for special people. Every entity here has the potential to make this difference. The advantages of being a wanderer are that your memories of how things can be are much clearer, much closer to the surface and less veiled by the veil of forgetting than those who are native to the planet and are simply waking up for the first time.

But, my children, you came here, glad with the challenge of serving the Creator, and the key to moving gracefully through a sometimes distressing illusion is trust, trust in the greater self that is you, for before this incarnation, when you chose the manner of your being within this illusion, you created a place wherein you felt you could offer your Love to the environment about you. Those people which you have met and will meet, those combinations of circumstance and people which trigger new beginnings, all of these things you laid up as treasures that during the incarnation you shall mine. Further, you carry with you on the other side of the veil of conscious thought a level of consciousness which is tuned to a fuller Love, because of your experiences before this incarnation. Your unconscious self, therefore, is uncommonly rich as a resource. It behooves wanderers, then, to pay especial attention to regular daily meditation, for the true self, which is your gift to a planet in need, lies waiting for you behind the door of conscious thought, within that unconscious part of your being wherefrom intuition and passion for Love spring.

The conscious mind of any entity incarnate in third density is dealt the same approximate hand, as this instrument would say. Regardless of intelligence, each consciousness bears certain identifiable characteristics and can manipulate the tools of the culture. It is within your greater self, which is available to you largely through meditation and dreaming, that the harvest of your previous experience lies. And, as wanderers, each of you have excellent intuition. However, without trust in the self and the self’s connection with the Creator, such resources forever lie a bit beyond reach. It is a difficult thing for one who is humble to perceive that each consciousness is a gift. Many are the times when one feels more like the before picture than the after picture, as this instrument would say, lacking in insight and seemingly powerless to aid a troubled planet. However, although we do not wish to interfere with your free will, we may say that as a general rule very few within your illusion are aware of just when they are working at their best in service to the one infinite Creator. You will find each time that you attempt to evaluate your service, that you have stopped the flow of that service. By this we mean not that it is not good to examine one’s actions, but rather that it is an excellent idea to withhold judgment from the self.

Q’uo went on to say you came here, with the challenge of serving the Creator, and the key to moving gracefully through a  distressing illusion is trust in the greater self that is you, for before this incarnation, when you chose the manner of your being within this illusion, you created a place where you felt you could offer your Love to the environment about you, for those people which you have met and will meet, those combinations of circumstance and people which trigger new beginnings, all of these things you laid up as treasures that you shall mine, yet you carry with you on the other side of the veil of conscious thought a level of consciousness which is tuned to a fuller Love because of your experiences before this incarnation, but your unconscious self is rich as a resource, so it requires wanderers to pay attention to daily meditation, for the true self, which is your gift to a planet in need, lies waiting for you behind the door of conscious thought, within that unconscious part of your being where intuition and passion for Love spring. Q’uo went on to say the conscious mind of any entity incarnate in third density is dealt the same hand, and regardless of intelligence each consciousness bears certain characteristics and can manipulate the tools of the culture, so it is within your greater self, which is available to you through meditation and dreaming, that the harvest of your previous experience lies, and, as wanderers, each of you have excellent intuition, but without trust in the self and the self’s connection with the Creator, such resources are beyond reach, for it is a difficult thing for one who is humble to perceive that each consciousness is a gift, yet many are the times when one feels like the before picture than the after picture lacking insight and being powerless to aid a troubled planet, but although we do not wish to interfere with your free will, we may say that as a general rule few within your illusion are aware of when they are working at their best in service to the one infinite Creator, so you will find each time that you attempt to evaluate your service, that you have stopped the flow of that service, and by this we mean not that it is not good to examine one’s actions, but, rather, that it is an excellent idea to withhold judgment from the self. On March 11, 1989, Q’uo spoke how it is well to withhold judgment:

It is all too tempting, within your illusion, to work with the negative energies of judgment. Turned in upon the self or out upon others, this faculty is equally damaging to the one who generates it. The entire lifetime experience, then, we are suggesting, is the period of the narrative of each entity’s incarnational story, each entity’s incarnational journey. Because it is an illusion that is nearly perfect and complete, it is most important to withhold judgment upon the self and others completely, in that one is never condemned but is seen as an entity which shall be, and, indeed, truly is, perfect, for the reality which you are experiencing at the same time that you experience space and time is the reality of the present moment, or to put it another way, the reality of eternity. The appropriate time for careful judgment is that moment called the day of judgment by that holy work which you call the Holy Bible, and that day shall arrive for each, and the judge shall be yourself. It is you that you must please. It is you that you must convince. It is you that are the critic. It is you that will write the outline of your next play, when you decide in the far more enlightened atmosphere outside of your particular illusion what biases you still wish to emphasize and what ones to de-emphasize.

Perhaps we may invoke the law of relativity upon the question of wanderers, wanderers such as the one which asked the question. Wanderers may have a greater treasure of experience on the unconscious level to bring to the drama of living the life within the illusion. Whatever the gifts that you have been born into incarnation with, it is this amount which you have to make prosper within this environment. Some of those who have arrived as wanderers have perhaps a relatively small amount of Love and Light compared to others. Those within third density who have not yet been able to deal with the strength of Light necessary to move into higher density may have less. But in the currency of Love, it matters not how much you have, but that your intention be to increase the flow of that infinite supply of Love which is the result of your constant awareness of your contact with the infinite One.

As the instrument has previously stated on her own accord, we also state that the work of the wanderer is to exchange Love in a completely open manner with those entities with which the wanderer comes in contact. All other activities are derivative of this service, for what is one who wanders except one who wishes to serve. The serving may be done in a very humble manner, yet if you serve one entity with purity of intention, it is as though you served the planet in its entirety. The difficulty within your conscious mind is that it does not seem as much a service to Love another unconditionally as to form new social organizations or create some consciousness-raising project. We may say that those wanderers who choose these more public and dramatic life scenarios suffer in accordance with the magnitude of loneliness which renown brings. For the wanderer, it is a great blessing to be obscure.

Q’uo continued by saying we may invoke the law of relativity upon the question of wanderers such as the one which asked the question, for wanderers may have a treasure of experience on the unconscious level to bring to the drama of living the life within the illusion, so whatever gifts you have been born into incarnation with, it is this amount which you have to prosper within this environment, yet some of those who have arrived as wanderers have a small amount of Love and Light compared to others, and those within third density who have not been able to deal with the strength of Light necessary to move into a higher density may have less, but in the currency of Love, it matters not how much you have, but that your intention be to increase the flow of that infinite supply of Love which is the result of your awareness of your contact with the infinite One. Q’uo continued by saying we also state that the work of the wanderer is to exchange Love in an open manner with those entities with which the wanderer comes in contact, and all other activities are a result of this service, for what is one who wanders except one who wishes to serve, so the serving may be done in an humble manner, yet if you serve one entity with purity of intention, it is as though you served the planet in its entirety, but the difficulty within your conscious mind is that it does not seem as much a service to Love another unconditionally as to form new social organizations or create some consciousness-raising project, yet we say that those wanderers who choose these public and dramatic life scenarios suffer in accordance with the magnitude of loneliness which renown brings, for the wanderer it is a blessing to be unknown. On May 16, 1982, Q’uo described the life of a wanderer in the third density:

There are certain situations in which this might occur and those are based upon the intended acts of service that will be performed by the wanderer as a preincarnate condition for incarnating. For example, a wanderer might incarnate upon your planet, and later in life experience a hypnotic regression that enables the incarnate wanderer to recall certain experiences that occurred on different planets or in different densities. This generally is to serve the purpose of motivating the wanderer to initiate the acts of service previously agreed upon before incarnation. The remembrance in this situation is of a type that is somewhat vague and hazy, thus resulting in a lack of confirmed belief by the wanderer. The wanderer is aware that there is an amount of confusion or perhaps imagination involved in the memories. In this fashion the wanderer is motivated on cue, so to speak, but is never given what might be called an unfair advantage in that the attainment of polarity accomplished in performing their service would be greatly lessened if the wanderer were operating under conditions of confirmed status as a wanderer. The wanderer, therefore, must always function in an atmosphere of some doubt so as to attain their own polarization.

Now let us move on to the greater realization that all who are conscious of self and conscious of the Creator are moving upon the same path, gazing at the same challenges. We ask you to think of yourselves as seeds. All that is is the Creator. You are the Creator. You are Love. You speak, and gesture, and move in Love, and you see Love from all whom you meet. The distortions of Love are many, so that Love expresses itself often in negative forms, yet all are on the path, by the side of the path, sleeping by the side of the path, or somewhere in the vicinity of the path. It is impossible for that seed to be lost. You are very young expressions of the face of the Creator. Those who are wanderers will find it easier than those who have been moving through third density for the first time to make the choice of service to others. It will seem more obvious.

Thus, since you have made the choice, instinctively you are in the position of the older son. Now, those who are in the third density of this planet are in the position of the prodigal son. We refer to that parable in that holy work called the Bible, where the master known as Jesus described this prodigal son, this son who went away, taking his share of his father’s wealth and mistreated himself in every difficult way, until he was penniless and humbled to the ground. The older son never left the father’s side. Years later the older son gazes at the prodigal, limping home, hoping to be a slave in his father’s house and happy for the chance. He has made the choice. He has come back to the positivity he left at birth. And the father blesses the prodigal with joy, and laughter, and feasting. But what about the older son? You wanderers, surely you can feel that plight. The older son says, “You never gave me a party, father, you never made a fuss over me.” And the father turns and says, “But everything I have is yours.”

Now Q’uo said let us move on to the greater realization that all who are conscious of self and conscious of the Creator are moving upon the same path, gazing at the same challenges, so we ask you to think of yourselves as seeds, and all that is is the Creator, for you are the Creator, and you are Love, for you speak, and gesture, and move in Love, and you see Love from all whom you meet, yet the distortions of Love are many, so that Love expresses itself often in negative forms, yet all are on the path, sleeping by the side of the path, or somewhere in the vicinity of the path, but it is impossible for that seed to be lost, for you are young expressions of the face of the Creator, but those who are wanderers will find it easier than those who have been moving through third density for the first time to make the choice of service to others since it will seem more obvious. Now Q’uo said since you have made the choice, instinctively you are in the position of the older son. Now, those who are in the third density of this planet are in the position of the prodigal son, and we refer to that parable in the Bible, where Jesus described this prodigal son who went away, taking his share of his father’s wealth and mistreated himself in every difficult way, until he was penniless and humbled to the ground, but the older son never left the father’s side, but years later the older son gazes at the prodigal, limping home, hoping to be a slave in his father’s house and happy for the chance, for he has made the choice to come back to the positivity he left at birth, and the father blesses the prodigal with joy and feasting, but what about the older son? So, you wanderers can feel that plight when the older son says, “You never gave me a party, father, you never made a fuss over me,” and the father turns and says, “But everything I have is yours.” In 65.12, Ra described the purpose of wanderers:

You may at this time note that as with any entities, each wanderer has its unique abilities, biases, and specialties, so that from each portion of each density represented among the wanderers comes an array of pre-incarnative talents which then may be expressed upon this plane which you now experience; so that each wanderer, in offering itself before incarnation, has some special service to offer in addition to the doubling effect of planetary Love and Light and the basic function of serving as beacon or shepherd.

Thus, there are those of fifth density whose abilities to express wisdom are great. There are fourth- and sixth-density wanderers whose ability to serve as, shall we say, passive radiators or broadcasters of Love and Love/Light are immense. There are many others whose talents brought into this density are quite varied.

Thus, wanderers have three basic functions once the forgetting is penetrated, the first two being basic, the tertiary one being unique to that particular mind/body/spirit complex.

May we urge each wanderer to make the journey of the prodigal son in consciousness, not in action, to let the mind go blank, to start with a clean tablet and make that choice from the beginning, all the way through as a meditation, as a contemplation, as a prayer, and finally as a thanksgiving. For you shall not feel that you have come home to the kingdom of Love until you have allowed yourself to experience the going away, the temptations, the failures, and the return as one who has had all assets of privilege stripped away. You see, it is fatal, spiritually, for a wanderer to put any particular emphasis upon this situation in terms of the expectation of increased closeness to the Creator or increased awareness of the Creator’s will for you. Indeed, you must work harder, for you are only prodigal in your imagination, and it is very nearly impossible for you to deny your link with the Creator. Narrow your focus, my children, when these puzzlements come upon you and the discomfort of this illusion lies heavy upon your shoulders. You have come here to work. You have come here to carry the burden, a burden which is heavy, yet which is not more than you can bear. You have encased yourself in a very necessary and useful physical vehicle which effectively shields you from the awareness of your companions. For you are not alone. There are invisible forces which are with you, and those people whom you need to meet, you shall meet. Those thoughts of which you need to be aware shall come in front of you. Indeed, once trust is established between yourself and your whole self or higher self, you need but do that which is in front of you to do, moment by moment and day by day. And at the end of each day gaze back over the day and see where a smile, a word, a touch, or a sincere loyalty to an ideal has lightened the road for others.

Now Q’uo said we urge each wanderer to make the journey of the prodigal son in consciousness, not in action, to let the mind go blank, to start with a clean tablet and make that choice from the beginning, all the way through as a meditation, as a contemplation, as a prayer, and finally as a thanksgiving, for you shall not feel that you have come home to the kingdom of Love until you have allowed yourself to experience the going away, the temptations, the failures, and the return as one who has had all assets of privilege stripped away because it is spiritually fatal for a wanderer to put any emphasis upon this situation in terms of the expectation of increased closeness to the Creator or increased awareness of the Creator’s will for you, for you must work harder, and you are only prodigal in your imagination, so it is impossible for you to deny your link with the Creator, so narrow is your focus when these puzzles come upon you, for the discomfort of this illusion lies heavy upon your shoulders, so you have come here to work and to carry the burden which is heavy, yet which is not more than you can bear since you have encased yourself in a useful physical body which shields you from the awareness of your companions, for you are not alone because there are invisible forces which are with you, and those people whom you need to meet, you shall meet, and those thoughts which you need to be aware of shall come in front of you, so once trust is established between yourself and your higher self, you need to do that which is in front of you, moment by moment and day by day, and at the end of each day gaze back over the day and see where a smile, a word, a touch, or a sincere loyalty to an ideal has lightened the road for others. On August 9, 1979, Hatonn spoke of our link with the Creator:

Much has been taken from your worry that you may turn your will and your desire more deeply into the mystery of who you are and where the truth lies that suffuse your identity. Do you really wish to know? Have you sought in meditation today, even for a few seconds, that link with the Creator that gives you the key that unlocks the door to knowledge of yourself? What do you know of yourself besides the fact that you are comfortable and that you enjoy comfort? You have been placed into this world by yourselves for experience, but you are not to be hungry and at risk by bullets, by tidal waves, by heat, by exhaustion. For what, then, were you put into this world?

Many are the laws of Love which you have discovered, and for that we congratulate you. But we tell you that you have only scratched the surface of your own consciousness. We tell you that there is a vast geography beneath the surface of your knowledge of yourself, and in this area of yourself lies an understanding that goes beyond comfort, beyond the physical body, beyond the physical life that you know. How can you seek less, my friends, even for one day?

We do not ask you to lose your sense of humor, to deny yourself any comfort that you may find pleasant. We ask only that you see the place of these things and the importance of these things relative to the real business of your lives: finding and sharing the truth that is within you.

How we wish we could take you within our vibratory web, that you might feel for a few moments that Love without the baffling impediment of the physical vehicle, yet we cannot do this for you. You may, however, through meditation, find yourself upon holy ground and share heart-to-heart and hand-to-hand with the infinite Creator. My children, the Creator is a Love that is astonishing in its intensity. The imagination reels at the infinity of creation. Yet this Love is that which built, created, energized, and enlivened all that there is with only a tiny portion of infinite energy. This is a Love which is awakening within you, the love of the co-Creator for the Creator, the Love of the child for the Creator, the Love of the beginning for the Source and the End. Center yourselves upon Love and compassion. Attempt to intend well and to be harmless and above all to Love each other. And when you consider yourself to have failed, grieve if you wish, but not overlong, for the intention is that which is recorded spiritually, the action within the illusion relatively incidental. We ask you to…

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(Carla channeling)

We ask you to nurture the relationship betwixt yourself and the Creator, tuning, honing, and intensifying the joy and Love that you feel in communion with the One Who Is All, so that you may tap into the bubbling, joyous, free ecstasy which Love is. This exercise of homing upon the Creator brings each entity, no matter what its vibratory level, to the highest level possible for that entity at that time. Each of us has still lessons to learn, and the source of the answer to the questions we have to ask, at whatever level they are, is the infinite Creator which is within each and every piece of consciousness. Trust yourself more and more deeply. Woo your own unconscious as does the lover the maiden, gently, lovingly and caressingly, and respect those things which you receive in dreams, visions and intuitions.

Now Q’uo said we wish we could take you within our vibratory web, that you might feel that Love without the baffling impediment of the physical body, yet we cannot do this for you, but you may, through meditation, find yourself upon holy ground and share heart-to-heart with the infinite Creator, for the Creator is a Love that is astonishing in its intensity, and the imagination reels at the infinity of creation, yet this Love is that which created and enlivened all that there is with only a tiny portion of infinite energy, so this is a Love which is awakening within you, the Love of the co-Creator for the Creator, the Love of the beginning for the Source and the End, so senter yourselves upon Love and compassion and intend to be harmless and to Love each other, and when you consider yourself to have failed, grieve if you wish, but not overlong, for the intention is that which is recorded spiritually, the action within the illusion is incidental. Then Q’uo said nurture the relationship betwixt yourself and the Creator, tuning and intensifying the joy and Love that you feel in communion with the One Who Is All, so that you may tap into the joyous ecstasy which Love is, and this exercise of homing for the Creator brings each entity, no matter what its vibratory level, to the highest level possible for that entity at that time because each of us have lessons to learn, and the source of the answer to the questions we have to ask, at whatever level they are, is the infinite Creator which is within each piece of consciousness, so trust yourself deeply, and woo your unconscious as does the lover the maiden, gently and lovingly, and respect those things which you receive in dreams, visions, and intuitions. On April 21, 1991, Q’uo spoke of the experience of the ecstasy of feeling the Creator’s presence:

As the small self reaches, then, with this experience of ecstasy, the one Creator begins to reach in return in a fashion which allows the harmonic expression of the creative power of the universe to reverberate in the sine wave fashion within the small self which has offered itself and its experience as a means by which the one Creator might be known and glorified.

And above all, know that you are doing that which you came here to do. You cannot get far off track, for those forces within you which you devised before incarnation shall forever be giving you the proper vector toward the action that is appropriate. May your communion with infinite intelligence be ever more wonderful, and may your trust in each morning, each noontime, and each eventide be sufficient for you to do the will of your greater self, of that self which is closer to the Father and Mother of All That There Is. Each of you shall shine from within. May you also shine to yourselves. May you Love and respect the Creator within you. Wanderer or native, these things are so, in our humble opinion.

This instrument is informing us that we have been talkative again, and we are sorry. It is a great joy to share thoughts with such a receptive group. Because you are so receptive, we wish especially to caution each to know that we are not infallible, but only your brothers and sisters somewhat more along a path than you, knowing the terrain, where the potholes are, where the rockslides might occur, and we come back to you, wanderers of our kind, in thought. We wish we could take every boulder out of your way and fill every treacherous piece of ground, so that you could walk straight and plain upon the path of seeking. Alas, we must watch you toil uphill and stumble down, become weary and find despair. Yet we and many others are right there with you in that despair, and if you request aid from the Comforter, such shall be offered to you immediately. You have only mentally to ask, and you will no longer be dealing with pain without help. Some call these entities guides, some call them the Holy Spirit. Whatever the name, the function is nurturing. For a wanderer this is sometimes vitally important. Wanderer, in your agony, you shall comfort many; in your loneliness you shall share love, and every tear, every ache, every pain can be, if you respect these feelings, a crystallized bitter-sweet gift to the Creator, a memento of a dramatic play which seemed to have an unhappy ending. Trust that it is only play and that your true life-stream dances and rejoices. So, in the end may wanderers reclaim within the illusion their deeper selves. Mourn first and then rejoice.

Q’uo continued by saying and above all, know that you are doing that which you came here to do. You cannot get far off track, for those forces within you which you devised before incarnation shall forever be giving you the proper direction toward the action that is appropriate, so may your communion with infinite intelligence be wonderful, and may your trust in each morning, each noontime, and each eventide be sufficient for you to do the will of your greater Self, of that Self which is closer to the Father and Mother of All That There Is, for each of you shall shine from within, and may you also shine to yourselves, and may you Love and respect the Creator within you, for wanderer or native, these things are so. Then Q’uo said we wish to caution each to know that we are not infallible, but only your brothers and sisters somewhat more along a path than you, knowing where the rockslides might occur, and we come back to you, wanderers of our kind, in thought, for we wish we could take every boulder out of your way so that you could walk easily upon the path of seeking, but we must watch you stumble, become weary, and find despair, yet we are there with you in that despair, and if you request aid from the Comforter, such shall be offered to you, for you have only to ask, and you will no longer be dealing with pain without help, so some call these entities guides, and some call them the Holy Spirit, yet whatever the name, the function is nurturing, for a wanderer this is important since in your agony, you shall comfort many; in your loneliness you shall share love; and every tear and pain can be, if you respect these feelings, a bitter-sweet gift to the Creator, a memento of a dramatic play which seemed to have an unhappy ending, but trust that it is only a play, and that your true life-stream dances and rejoices, so in the end may wanderers reclaim within the illusion their deeper selves. On May 11, 1986, L/Leema described the nature of the Comforter:

The source of which you speak may be called the Comforter, for within the service of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator are vibrational complexes which offer themselves according to the quality and nature of the call to those such as yourself who seek what may loosely be called an inner guidance. These sources of comfort move as they are called and speak as they are allowed in a fashion most likely to be understood by the entity who calls. In your case, at this particular time, the form which this communication takes is the one of the expressing of a heartfelt concern and the awaiting of an answer that takes the form of writing upon the paper. Thus, it is correct to see this communication as a type of channeling, yet do not all entities channel the one Creator in one form or another, thus the form you have chosen is unique to the purpose that you have chosen.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, with thanks to this instrument. I am Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo and greet each again in Love and in Light. At this time, it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to answer those queries which may yet remain upon the minds, again reminding each that we offer that which is our opinion, offered joyfully, yet not infallibly. Is there a query with which we may begin?

D: Do we create the illusion by our own approach? Do we create the density that makes it hard for us to see the true Light, or is it what we’ve come into?

I am Q’uo, and the answer to this query is one which is not easy to explain, yet it is that which you, as a greater portion of yourself—which is frequently called by many of your peoples the higher self—have created upon a cooperative basis in a specified and refined fashion, beginning with that which is given, shall we say, by the Logos, the creative intelligence of the one Creator. As you move into the incarnation within this illusion, you move into that which has been prepared for you by a greater portion of your self, and according to the way in which you have programmed your biases and attitudes for learning and service, you perceive and experience the creation in a certain fashion which is unique unto yourself. Thus, you are responsible both for the creation and the illusion within which you move and the manner by which you perceive it, in order that you might learn in such and such a fashion and also serve others thusly.

Is there another query, my brother?

D: Is it our job to untangle the illusion, or are we supposed to simply work within it?

I am Q’uo. That which is your responsibility within this illusion you have before the incarnation set for yourself. Thus, you shall move through the incarnation within the illusion in a manner which allows you to utilize each facet of the illusion in a manner which will aid those goals which you have set for yourself. A portion of each entity’s incarnation is given to the learning and is oriented towards the growth of the consciousness of the self. Another portion, which increases in ratio as the consciousness of the self grows, is given to the service of others, so that that which is learned by the self might be shared as the fruit of the incarnation with other selves. Thus, as you learn and as you serve, you become yourselves transformed by that which is your awareness, and as your awareness and as yourselves become transformed, the illusion about you is seen with new eyes and is itself transformed by your perception of it as yet a greater portion of the one Creator knowing Itself through each other portion of Itself.

Is there a further query, my brother?

D: No, that made very good sense. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another question?

Carla: [Carla has been coughing.] I know the physical reasons why it’s difficult to keep infection down in hospitals, but most people in hospitals are not sick with contagious diseases. It’s almost like comparing a hospital to a hotel, and people don’t get sick in hotels, whereas it’s quite common for patients to pick up a bug in a hospital. I was wondering if there was any metaphysical aspect to this, somewhat of psychic greeting going on when people’s immune systems are down and stress levels are high? I don’t believe that germs have any polarity, but can they be directed by unfriendly polarities?

I am Q’uo, and we feel that we might best respond to this query by suggesting that the ground for such infections is prepared by the mind which has fed certain concepts that then reflect within the body complex, often by means of reducing the immune defense system so that the condition of what you would call the disease of one form or another is able to find an opening and work in a fashion which corresponds to the pattern of thought expressed by the entity. Within the environment which you describe may be found many entities who have found the need to experience an imbalance of the mental complex to the degree which would then allow the physical vehicle to reflect this distortion in a manner which then would make it apparent to the conscious mind that certain distortions were in need of attention. Thus, the mind reflects to itself that upon which attention needs be given in order that greater balance and harmony within the mind/body/spirit complex might be achieved.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

Carla: [Inaudible]

I am Q’uo. Is there another query?

Carla: Not from me.

C: I’d like to have a better understanding of what happens inside the consciousness of those that our culture has labeled schizophrenic.

I am Q’uo. It is difficult to give the general description to a condition which is quite unique unto many of those who experience this splitting of the personality. However, a few comments may be given that will hopefully add some understanding to this condition. The entity which faces the challenges within the incarnation which seem to overwhelm the ability to resolve them may, in some cases, choose to face these challenges with a smaller and smaller portion of the personality, with the larger portion choosing an alternate means of experiencing the nature of the illusion which the entity would find more able to cope with. In some cases the entity finds the necessity of dividing the personality yet again in order that various portions of the deeper self may be allowed expression without the need to interact with other portions of the same self which are in basic conflict, each with the other, upon a certain point.

This conflict, then, is that which the entity has found it unable to resolve in the normal, shall we say, fashion. Therefore, the compartmentalizing of different portions of the personality allows the entity to express basic features of the personality without the need to bring these features into harmonious balance with other facets of the personality which are more aware of the basic conflict. Yet, in each expression there will be the distortion of the characteristics expressed that is due to the primary conflict remaining unresolved. Thus, in each personality or portion that is thus expressed will be found a faint trace or trail that will lead to the conflict for the entity to travel eventually in order that the conflict might be harmoniously resolved.

C asked:” I’d like to have a better understanding of what happens inside the consciousness of those that our culture has labeled schizophrenic.” Q’uo replied it is difficult to give the general description to a condition which is unique to many of those who experience this splitting of the personality, but a few comments may be given that may add some understanding to this condition, so the entity which faces the challenges within the incarnation which overwhelm the ability to resolve them may choose to face these challenges with a smaller portion of the personality, or with the larger portion choosing an alternate means of experiencing the nature of the illusion which the entity would find it was more able to cope with, yet in some cases the entity finds the necessity of dividing the personality again in order that various portions of the deeper self may be allowed expression without the need to interact with other portions of the same self which are in basic conflict, each with the other, upon a certain point. Now Q’uo said this conflict is that which the entity has found it unable to resolve in the normal fashion, so the compartmentalizing of different portions of the personality allows the entity to express basic features of the personality without the need to bring these features into harmonious balance with other facets of the personality which are more aware of the basic conflict, yet in each expression there will be the distortion of the characteristics expressed that is due to the primary conflict remaining unresolved, for in each personality or portion that is expressed will be found a faint trail that will lead to the conflict for the entity to travel in order that the conflict might be harmoniously resolved. On March 14, 1982, Latwii described how a schizophrenic may deal with problems:

We do, however, wish to add that such a safety valve, as you have called it, is not the only particular, shall we say, cause or result of the entity’s protective measures which it used to ensure the continuation of the mind/body/spirit complex. There are numerous protective measures or safety valves which entities may utilize for such a purpose. The mental condition which your peoples describe as neurotic or schizophrenic, and even that known as catatonic may be used for various purposes, as we have mentioned previously. Their greatest use, however, as you have mentioned, is that of providing a mechanism whereby the entity may be put into a holding pattern until the stabilization of the catalyst and experience of the entity is achieved.

Is there another query my sister?

C: What would be the most beneficial way to help this type of person in the healing process?

I am Q’uo. Again, our lot is the generality, for each case is unique. The offering of the self in unconditional Love and acceptance of the other self provides the basic environment of healing in which the entity experiencing the splitting or separating of portions of its personality might find helpful. The acceptance of such an entity, given in an unqualified manner, will provide the support that is needed to encourage the revealing of the primary conflict by any portion of the personality which is most vulnerable or moved or sensitive to the giving of the Love. Thus, the one experiencing the separation of personality may begin through some portion of its personality to move into an harmonious resolution with other portions of the personality.

May we speak in any further fashion my sister?

C: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there any further query at this time?

Questioner: Yes. Among the people whom I know there seem to be two theories, that is, that everything is going along fine as it should on the planet, and the other theory is that something’s horribly wrong, evidenced by the fact of torment in so many people, children included, especially in the third world, the poisoning of the planet and the disruption of the planet’s surface. Is something horribly wrong? And if so, are we supposed to do something about it?

I am Q’uo, and, my brother, we may suggest that the illusion, in which you find yourselves at this time, is one which seems most disharmonious and in need of great attention. We may suggest that the illusion has offered to many the opportunity to learn lessons great and small, intense in many ways, difficult, yet not without solution. By experiencing what seems to be the greatest separation of one entity from another, may each eventually find the bond between each that reveals the unity of all creation. It is for each within the illusion to take those opportunities for growth and service that will provide the further opportunities for expanding the realization of unity for each entity.

Thus, we look upon your illusion and those of your people which inhabit it as a child that is progressing through the lower grades of a school. There may be many disagreements among the pupils within the classroom and many, shall we say, bloody noses upon the playground, yet each shall learn much from the illusion and continue forward in the schooling, moving the boundaries further and further to include those about one, and eventually through the seeming separation of one from another, to begin to resolve those illusions of separations in order that each may look upon the face of the Creator, not only within the mirror, but across all boundaries which seem to separate nations and entities.

Questioner asked:” Among the people whom I know there seem to be two theories, that is, that everything is going along fine as it should on the planet, and the other theory is that something’s horribly wrong, evidenced by the fact of torment in so many people, children included, especially in the third world, the poisoning of the planet and the disruption of the planet’s surface. Is something horribly wrong? And if so, are we supposed to do something about it?” Q’uo went on to say we suggest that the illusion, in which you find yourselves at this time, is one which seems disharmonious and in need of attention, and we suggest that the illusion has offered to many the opportunity to learn lessons great and small, intense in many ways, difficult, yet not without solution, so by experiencing what seems to be the greatest separation of one entity from another, may each find the bond between each that reveals the unity of all creation, for it is for each within the illusion to take those opportunities for growth and service that will provide the further opportunities for expanding the realization of unity for each entity. Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying we look upon your illusion and those of your people which inhabit it as a child that is progressing through the lower grades of a school, and there may be disagreements among the pupils within the classroom, and bloody noses upon the playground, yet each shall learn much from the illusion and continue forward in the schooling, moving the boundaries further to include those about one, and through the seeming separation of one from another, to begin to resolve those illusions of separations in order that each may look upon the face of the Creator, not only within the mirror, but across all boundaries which seem to separate nations and entities. On September 26, 1982, Latwii described the value of seeming separation within the third density illusion:

Within your illusion it is most common to concentrate on that which is apparent, the seeming separation of all beings, and the ability to act in an infinite variety of ways because of this seeming separation. This then allows the Creator within each entity to know Itself more fully. It then becomes the task of each individual to balance the activity with the being. It is not easy within such an intense illusion to penetrate even the simplest mysteries of being. Seldom does an entity within your illusion truly ponder the reason for its being, the purpose for its life. Yet at some time, each does this, and whether the decision is made upon a conscious or upon a subconscious level, yet each decides to act, to be, and to balance as determined before the incarnation.

May we speak in any further fashion, my brother?

Questioner: Well, what about the specter of atomic war? Is it not possible for our world to be obliterated in that fashion?

I am Q’uo, and we shall speak briefly here, for we find that there is the need to bring the session to an ending.

There is the opportunity for the resolution of energies set into motion from times far distant in the past of many races upon your planetary influence. The seeds of these difficulties have once again found their flowering within your current illusion and are being worked upon in their current manifestation by those entities which have been responsible for their sowing in times and places far distant. There is room within the universe of the Creator for all possibilities. The use of the atomic energy which you have described is a portion of the creative energy of the one Creator which can be utilized in many fashions. The destructive capability of this energy has been released upon your planetary surface within your recent past and is that primary concern which now offers the nations of your world the path by which the resolution of difficulties might be achieved.

We beg your indulgence at this time. We find that there is the need to bring this meeting to an end, for there is the energy which is being drained at this time. We thank each for inviting our presence, and we leave each in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

This morning the quote from The Infinite Way, is: “When the Christ dawns in individual consciousness, the personal sense of self diminishes. This Christ becomes our real being. We have no desires, no will, no power of our own. The Christ overshadows our personal selfhood. We still perceive in the background this finite sense, and at times it tries to assert itself and even dominate the scene. “For the good that I would I do not; but the evil which I would not, that I do, “says Paul.

But let it be clear to you that the personal self cannot heal, teach, or govern harmoniously. It must be held in abeyance in order that the Christ may have full dominion within our consciousness.

The work that is done with the letter of truth, with declarations and so-called treatments, is insignificant compared with what is accomplished when we have surrendered our will and accountability to the Christ.

The Christ comes to our consciousness most clearly in those moments when we come face to face with problems for which we have no answer and no power with which to surmount then, and we realize that “I can of mine own self do nothing.” In these moments of self-effacement, the gentle Christ overshadows us, permeates our consciousness, and brings the “peace, be still” to the troubled mind.

In this Christ, we find rest, peace, comfort, and healing. The unlabored power of spiritual sense possesses us, and discords and disharmonies fade away as darkness disappears with the coming of Light. Indeed, it is comparable only to the breaking of dawn; and the gradual influx of divine Light colors the scenes in our mind and dispels one by one the illusions of sense, the darker places in human thought.

The stress of daily living would deprive us of this great Spirit unless we are careful to retire often into the sanctuary of our inner being and there let the Christ be our honored guest.

Never let vain conceit or a belief in personal power keep you from this sacred experience. Be willing Be receptive. Be still.”

Later this morning I went outside and hand-weeded the small Hosta Garden beside the Fern Garden in the back yard. Then I set the sprinkler going in that area to water the Fern Garden and the Astilbe Garden.

This afternoon I ran some errands with my first stop being at Kroger’s where I bought some food for myself. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought more food for myself. My third stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some Tylenol and some non-food items.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

August 9

You Are The New Jerusalem

I am of the Spirit of Jesus the Christ, the consciousness of divine Love which lives within the world today and which pours through the clouds of mundane sin and sorrow like sunshine awaiting the grateful eye.

Do you not know that you are the city upon the hill, that you are the new Jerusalem, and that in every cell of your body you may find, recognize, and celebrate the renewing and recreative energy of the Spirit of the living Christ? You may say, “Jesus,” and mean it not, yet the vibration shall come to you.

You may say, “Come, Holy Spirit,” and doubt greatly, yet eventually that energy shall come to you. Know each member, each thought, each cell of the wholeness of your body, the twelve upon twelve, upon twelve which one hundred forty four thousand represents.

Allow, await, and expect the power and the peace of the Love of Jesus Christ and the new Jerusalem shall shine through you. And the city upon the hill be a beacon of Light.

We leave you in joy and peace, both this day and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel the Creator’s Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Oxal channeling for this session comes from November 12, 1987:

(Carla channeling)

I am Oxal. We greet you in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. We greatly appreciate this instrument’s willingness to function, although in its own opinion it was marginal. We feel we have a good contact, and we thank this instrument for trusting the bond between us. We also thank this instrument for the extensive challenging which it did prior to our greeting you. It was, indeed, a well-executed challenge and a needed one in terms of the service-to-others distortion. The opening in the group, and we say this for each instrument to hear, was that the instrument known as H in the beginning of the transmission was enough distracted by the experience, that the naming of the entity contacted by the instrument was not vibrated, nor was the source of all our desire and also its end phrase, “We come in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator,” and though we do not always speak these words at the beginning of each transmission, we did at that particular time, that is to say, the ones of Hatonn. We fear this instrument is going to sleep. We must pause.

[Pause]

I am Oxal. We wish to say at this time, for this call has come to us, that the Love and Light of the infinite Creator takes great measures of energy to probe into at any depth at all. The delicate balance between the positive and the negative move and turn, sway and twist within the distortions of each mind/body/spirit complex’s universe, within each heart and each mind. For every excellent ideal and symbol, there lies upon just the other side of the coin, terror, need, ugliness and violence. The drama of your third density is the drama of discovering duality and beginning the long trek toward balance. In this the student, the journeyer, the worshipper must choose one path to move, one face of the Creator to worship; one, and not the other. This is a most difficult choice. It is so difficult to make within your illusion that most do not begin to make that choice but rather remain dancing about the bonfire of neutrality, tossing their garlands to and fro within the ethical and metaphysical universe, laughing, crying, hating, and loving and moving neither towards the one great stage or the other, the glorious heavenly universe, or the equally glorious negative, each strong in its own way, each full of the Creator which is all things. Yet only by strong feeling, only by that feeling which this instrument would call worship, is either path traveled to the end.

We are those of the service-to-others path. We find that each within this circle has also advanced the cause of the great drama in the negative sense. Each has danced close and into the flaming fire of the glory and of the beauty of negative emotion and feeling. Each has in the mind and heart judged him or herself; each has been convicted and has lived within what your soul wishes to call hell, and each has for that very reason chosen. For when one path or the other begins to be intense, begins to move forward, then it is that the choice must be made, never in the happy middle of things, never around the bonfire. Thus, as each travels along the path of service to others, let us say again what has been said often upon your planet. Let us respect and appreciate those circumstances of suffering, of judging the self, and of despair which have produced hearts and minds set with determination and persistence, but better yet with passion, the passion of experience and lessons learned and choices made. We ask each to respect that within the self which makes such a choice, to know that each will inevitably fail from time-to-time but that, the choice having been made, the life shall be, if such desire continues, a walk hand-in-hand with the Creator, for there is passion in the Creator for each of you, such a passion as you cannot imagine. We exalt in the joy of the love the Creator has for us, and we answered it with Love and thanksgiving and turn ever again to service to each other, and thereby to the Creator. And then in the end we turn to the Creator alone and see the Creator known as the One.

In this session Oxal spoke about the concept of making the choice of service to others or service to self. They began by saying we wish to say that the Love and Light of the infinite Creator takes great measures of energy to probe into any depth, for the balance between the positive and the negative move and turn within the distortions of each mind/body/spirit complex’s universe, and within each heart and mind, and every ideal and symbol, there lies upon the other side of the coin, terror, need, and violence, so the drama of your third density is the drama of discovering duality and beginning the trek toward balance, yet in this the student, the journeyer, must choose one face of the Creator to worship; one, so this is a difficult choice to make within your illusion that most do not begin to make that choice but, rather, remain dancing about the bonfire of neutrality, tossing their garlands to and fro within the metaphysical universe, laughing, crying, hating, and loving and moving neither towards the one great stage or the other, the glorious heavenly universe, or the equally glorious negative, each strong in its own way, each full of the Creator which is all things, yet only by strong feeling, only by that feeling which Carla would call worship, is either path traveled to the end. Then Oxal said we are those of the service-to-others path, and we find that each within this circle has also advanced the cause of the great drama in the negative sense, so each has danced into the flaming fire of the glory and beauty of negative emotion, and each has in the mind and heart judged him or herself; each has been convicted and has lived within what your soul wishes to call hell, and each has for that very reason chosen, for when one path or the other begins to be intense, then it is that the choice must be made, never in the happy middle of things, never around the bonfire, yet as each travels along the path of service to others, let us respect and appreciate those circumstances of suffering, of judging the self, and of despair which have produced hearts and minds set with determination but better yet with passion of lessons learned and choices made, so we ask each to respect that within the self which makes such a choice, to know that each will fail from time-to-time, but the choice having been made, the life shall be, if such desire continues, a walk hand-in-hand with the Creator, for there is passion in the Creator for each of you, such a passion as you cannot imagine, and we exalt in the joy of the Love the Creator has for us, and we answered it with Love and thanksgiving and turn ever again to service to each other, and to the Creator, but in the end we turn to the Creator alone and see the Creator known as the One. On April 9, 1989, Q’uo described why the choice must be made:

There is an energy that radiates outward, blessing, shining, warming. The sun that you experience is a good example of such radiance. This is the radiance of unity, and in its promise lies the bloom of many kinds of qualities that may be considered positive and radiant—love, peace, unity, consolation, hope and joy. There is another sort of energy which may be worked upon to empower it, that is magnetic or attractive energy, in which the entity creates the self as the Creator and controls the creation about it as would a king his kingdom.

These two energies manifest in many, many different ways; they are two sides of the one coin of the infinite intelligence that created all of the densities of space and time through which in this creation we shall move. The trip may be longer for some than for others because the basic choice that this particular density asks the seeker to make is the choice of which energy to use in order to further understand the mystery of the one infinite Creator, the one original Thought or Logos that created all that there is. This choice may seem a simple one to make when gazed at theoretically, however, this particular illusion is designed to confuse, and befuddle, and trap, fool, and mystify any and all attempts to make black and white out of the warp and woof of speckled gray that is this illusion.

Thus, this choice must be made with the only real evidence pointing in the direction of personal power as more effective than the radiant path of acting as the servant of all shining upon all freely, spontaneously and generously. Therefore, the person who has not thought deeply upon these matters moves through their life doing one good turn for a neighbor and then cutting another off in traffic, feeling murderous toward a fellow worker, and then noticing how beautiful is the sky at sunset upon the return home. The net result: dead zero; the changes in consciousness have moved back and forth in the gravity well of indifference.

We leave you at this time. We have been with you in sorrow, all those of us, those principles, entities, teachers and powers which move within the world of thought about your planet, within your metaphysical realms. We are losing transmission with this instrument. We are those of Oxal. We leave you in love and in light. Adonai.

This morning the quote from The Infinite Way is: “The peace within becomes the harmony without. As our thought takes on the nature of the inner freedom, it loses its sense of fear, doubt, or discouragement. As the realization of our dominion dawns in thought, more assurance, confidence, and certainty become evident. We become a new being, and the world reflects back to us our own higher attitude toward it. Gradually an understanding of our fellow beings and their problems unfolds to us from within and more Love flows out from us—more tolerance, co-cooperativeness, helpfulness, and compassion. We find that the world resounds to our newer concept of it, and then all the universe rushes to us to pour its riches and treasures in our lap.

Many fine treaties and covenants have been signed by nations and people, and nearly all have failed because no document is any better than the character of those who administer it. When we become imbued with the first of our inner being, we no longer need contracts and agreements in writing because it becomes first nature with us to be just, honest, intelligent, and kind, and these qualities are met in all those who become part of our experience in the home, office, shop, and in all walks of life. The good revealed in our consciousness returns to us, “pressed down, and shaken together, and running over.”

In this new consciousness, we are less angered by the acts of other people and less disturbed by their failings. And likewise, instead of being hampered and restricted by external conditions, we either do not meet with them or else we brush right by them with but little concern. We realize that something within us is ruling our universe; an inner Presence is maintaining outer harmony. The peace and quiet of our own Soul is the law of harmony and success to our world of daily experience.

All that has gone before this is as nothing unless you have seen that over and above all knowing of the truth, you must be overshadowed by the Christ.”

This morning I drove down to Nashville, Tennessee to visit my friend, Anna. The first thing that we did was to take a hike around the Cheekwood Botanical Garden where there was a great variety of flowers, bushes, and trees along winding trails that crossed in many places. We also went into a building that looked like a castle that was built in the 1800s, and on the third floor there were many paintings of rivers, the ocean, trees, and people who were exploring the woods, rivers, and beaches on the ocean.

This afternoon we ate lunch at a restaurant that specializes giving women from all over the United States, who were bridal maids, a chance to eat and celebrate the upcoming weddings. Then we went back to Anna’s home and listened to Carla’s voice on my cassette player as she was giving spiritual advice to a friend of ours who was having difficulty with her husband. This afternoon I drove back home through a thunderstorm that took about 20 minutes to drive through at very slow speeds.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

August 8

Peace And Joy Undisturbed

I am that principle that is the divine love of Jesus the Christ. I greet you and bless you in the full consciousness of unconditional love.

Negative thinking lies all about you. You do not have to partake in it. When there is something which crosses your consciousness and turns the mind to negative emotion, move back into an awareness of the infinite love that is the principle of your life and know that the Christ within may find a positive answer in each and every situation; may find a way to increase light rather than discourage light; to find the words to heal and not to wound; to find the compassion that aids those who are bothersome rather than ignoring such entities.

The living spirit of Jesus the Christ is available at the present moment and at each moment of the infinity of creation. It is the gift of Jesus the Christ to all who follow in His footsteps.

No matter what you may suffer today, cast your mind always upon the positive; upon the loving and compassionate aspects of those things which are occurring and you shall find your peace and joy undisturbed in the heart of your being, as your being speaks the truth of unconditional love.

In that love and peace we leave you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel the Creator’s Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Latwii and Yadda channelings for this session come from November 1, 1987:

Concerns the higher self. When does an entity develop the higher self? Do second-density entities, for example, have a higher self? And after it is developed, how is it called upon and how is it used? What is the function that it performs?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo. We greet you in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator, and we are most grateful to be called to this circle of seeking. We wish to greet and express our Love and blessing on each present and to be the deliverer of the message from those of Oxal to the one known as H that this entity joyously greets the instrument known as H and is happy to take time during this meditation period to touch into this instrument’s energy web in Love and greeting. We would like to correct the instrument who edited Oxal’s desire. The desire of Oxal was the name J. This instrument chose to express the sound vibration with which she is most familiar.

You wish to know more about the higher self, and, indeed, it is good that you should, for the concept of a self that is larger and greater than that which is before the face in the mirror is a centrally powerful one. It is a concept without which humankind’s understanding of the Creator would be severely crippled, for if one gazes in the mirror of mundane experience, one quickly observes that the self is not overly saintly, as this instrument would say. It is the nature of the illusion which you now enjoy that the microscope of criticism is relentlessly placed before one’s own and other’s actions, thoughts, and intentions, and in an illusion designed to confound the most noble sentiments, this is not surprising. Yet there is implicit, and inherent, and abiding in every third-density heart and mind an instinct as clear and true as the instinct for breath or food. That is the instinct to seek a higher purpose, a higher beingness, an enlarged point of view, and ultimately a movement decisively from the often uncomfortable illusion and its limitations which are meat and drink in third density.

Let us examine considerations concerning time. The higher self is a concept which is impossible to view in a sensible manner if the concept of linear time is clung to. The concept of one having the beginning and the end, either within one lifetime or within a creation of countless lifetimes, is a concept which creates unsolvable paradoxes with respect to considerations of the higher self. Your linear experience of time is a portion of your illusion, just as is space itself and all that you perceive with your senses. Within that illusion which we see as being the most sheer and least distorted of which we are aware, we see time as simultaneous; that is, the linear river of time perceived by the human self is deep within the self within, rounded into infinity, so that what you see as past, present, and future are experienced at one time, that time being the present moment. At this precise moment as we speak, you contain all that you have experienced and will experience from the beginning of your consciousness until the sublime reentry of singular consciousness into the universal consciousness which is the Creator.

In this session Latwii spoke about the higher self. They began by saying you wish to know about the higher self, and it is good that you should, for the concept of a self that is greater than that which is before the face in the mirror is a powerful one, for it is a concept without which humankind’s understanding of the Creator would be crippled, for if one gazes in the mirror of mundane experience, one observes that the self is not overly saintly, and it is the nature of the illusion which you now enjoy that the microscope of criticism is placed before one’s own and other’s actions and thoughts, and in an illusion designed to confound the noble sentiments, this is not surprising, yet there is abiding in every third-density heart and mind an instinct as clear and true as the instinct for breath or food, so that is the instinct to seek an enlarged point of view, and a movement from the uncomfortable illusion and its limitations which are meat and drink in third density. Latwii went on to say let us examine considerations concerning time, so the higher self is a concept which is impossible to view in a sensible manner if the concept of linear time is clung to because the concept of one having the beginning and the end, either within one lifetime or within a creation of countless lifetimes, is a concept which creates unsolvable paradoxes with respect to considerations of the higher self, and your linear experience of time is a portion of your illusion, just as is space and all that you perceive with your senses, yet within that illusion which we see as being the least distorted of which we are aware, we see time as simultaneous; that is, the linear river of time perceived by the human self is deep within the self, rounded into infinity, so that what you see as past, present, and future are experienced in the present moment, for at this  moment you contain all that you have experienced and will experience from the beginning of your consciousness until the reentry of singular consciousness into the universal consciousness which is the Creator. On November 7, 1999, Q’uo described the nature of the present moment:

In order to become a citizen of eternity it seems necessary to become one that is athwart society. You may think of it in terms of being radical or in terms of being other than the mind control of the culture. This may seem an extreme statement but there is a seduction of principles and values that goes on within the daily intellectual life that the culture offers through its newspapers and various other information sources which offers to its citizens much information.

The present moment comes to you and stays with you. It is catching the magic, of letting go of the past and the future that is the trick. There are many ways to slip out of consensus reality and into the kingdom of the Creator to join the dance of the flowers, and the trees, and the stars, and the wind, and the rain. Some have found music to bring their hearts back to the present moment. Some find the present moment in the exhaustion of dance. Try each of these avenues of remembering and see which of them work for you. But above all realize that there is a switch, shall we call it, in the deep mind, a toggle switch that is on and off. And when it is on, you are in consensus reality and working within the strictures of society. Move that switch in thought, not in action, but in thought, and you are a subversive element, as far as time is concerned. For you now stand upon the eternal, and time means nothing. And, ah, the bliss, the relief, the release of experiencing the plenum that is all that there is in the present moment. Let your heart be open. And know that within you there is the bliss of this present moment. To get to it, often it is not a matter of adding things but of subtracting things and not things that are out there but the things of the mind, the things of the intellect, the things that you may never have questioned seriously having to do with time and responsibility.

You contain memory of past and future, yet these memories are most deeply placed within what is known as the unconscious mind. They dwell within a zone to which the conscious mind is denied access. Without the concept of the higher self, it is yet possible for an entity going on faith alone to open gradually the gates of perception and to become aware little by little of a larger beingness within the self, larger and larger that beingness, until it eventually encompasses all that there is, and for the first time you are aware of your true identity. Such determination and persistence is very rare. For most, not only ultimate discoveries of wisdom, Love, and power, but simpler understandings pertaining to specific mundane affairs, come hard. The way often seems unclear, the emotions frayed and worn, the spirit numbed with the repeated shocks of a callous and seemingly indifferent world. It is into this arena that what is known as the higher self appears. The character of the higher self may be perceived as glorious and majestic, or it may be perceived intimately as a boon companion and dear friend. The personality of the higher self is much more amenable to that which is needed by the everyday waking self. Its identity, insofar as we are aware—and we wish to express that we are not infallible—is that of a future self, as you would call it, a self that is entirely yourself, yet a self which has experience, through that which you have experienced, to the present moment and onward events, far into lessons of Love, Wisdom and unity.

When your consciousness has reached that point where the lessons of unity are being well studied, this self turns and reaches back to the third-density self, to the self that is confused, puzzled and insecure. It is the most loving of presences, for by the middle of sixth density you shall have learned to Love yourself, to embrace yourself, to protect yourself in Light and Love rather than with weapons of defense, words of anger, and gestures of fear. This self is to you a great resource, dwelling within your consciousness, within those deep areas of consciousness where time is simultaneous and the great issues of Love and service are always in incredible and lambent focus. Thus, the avenue to the higher self is a road within the mind, a road which opens, seemingly impossibly, after one has left space and time behind in meditation. Perhaps what we are trying to express may be best approached by saying that the image of what we wish to express is that of one who, sitting in meditation, moves within the mind higher and higher until one has reached the very top of the watchtower of consciousness, and at that point when one is in a very small, protected environment, there is a harmless ordinary-looking door. Yet, through that door is the beginning of a highway that grows larger, wider, more capacious, more beautiful, more stately, until at last the inner vision opens and the self that is more you than you are now waits to greet you.

Latwii continued by saying you contain memory of past and future, yet these memories are most deeply placed within what is known as the unconscious mind, and they dwell within a zone to which the conscious mind is denied access, so without the concept of the higher self, it is possible for an entity going on faith alone to open the gates of perception and to become aware of a larger beingness within the self, larger and larger until it encompasses all that there is, and for the first time you are aware of your true identity, but such persistence is rare, for most, not only ultimate discoveries of wisdom, Love, and power, but simpler understandings pertaining to specific mundane affairs, come hard, but the way seems unclear, the emotions worn, the spirit numbed with the repeated shocks of an indifferent world, so it is into this arena that the higher self appears, and the character of the higher self may be perceived as glorious, or it may be perceived intimately as a dear friend, for the personality of the higher self is more amenable to that which is needed by the everyday self, and its identity is that of a future self, a self that is entirely yourself, yet a self which has experience, through that which you have experienced, to the present moment and onward events, far into lessons of Love, Wisdom and unity. Then Latwii said when your consciousness has reached that point where the lessons of unity are being well studied, this self turns and reaches back to the third-density self, to the self that is confused and insecure, and it is the most loving of presences, for by the middle of sixth density you shall have learned to Love yourself, to protect yourself in Light and Love rather than with weapons of defense or words of anger, so this self a resource, dwelling within those deep areas of consciousness where time is simultaneous and the issues of Love and service are always in focus, for the avenue to the higher self is a road within the mind, a road which opens after one has left space and time behind in meditation, or what we are trying to express may be approached by saying that the image of what we wish to express is that of one who, sitting in meditation, moves within the mind until one has reached the top of the watchtower of consciousness, and at that point when one is in a small, protected environment, there is a harmless ordinary-looking door, yet through that door is the beginning of a highway that grows larger and more beautiful until the inner vision opens, and the self that is more you than you are now waits to greet you. In 36.7, Ra described the nature of the higher self:

The higher self aspect is aware of the lessons learned through the sixth density. The progress rate is fairly well understood. The choices which must be made to achieve the higher self as it is are in the provenance of the mind/body/spirit complex itself.

Thus, the higher self is like the map in which the destination is known; the roads are very well known, these roads being designed by intelligent infinity working through intelligent energy. However, the higher self aspect can program only for the lessons and certain predisposing limitations if it wishes. The remainder is completely the free choice of each entity. There is the perfect balance between the known and the unknown.

The consciousness which invites the higher self to help is one which in humility gazes at the world and says, “In and of myself I see only illusion. I must seek further.” Seeking is the key to contact with this greater self, this larger edition of you. This higher self cannot choose for you that which you must or must not do. It is not an authoritarian presence. Each decision is your own to make within this illusion, and no responsibility can be given to any higher self, guide, or teacher. Each is responsible for the self. We would also encourage the seeker to open the self in meditation to those presences which are about each seeker, waiting to aid in deepening the meditative state in comfort and in succor. These guides, these presences, are also yours if you seek them. They are powerful helpers, yet it is always the turning from despair and sadness to hope and joy, the thought in confidence of sure help and the reaching out for it, that make these energies available to each who seeks.

[Pause]

We are sorry for the pause. The concept which we gave this instrument was unwieldy, and this instrument found herself in the position of being unable to express that which she could not grasp. We believe we have found a way to feed the concept to her a bit at a time.

The higher self ultimately is the Creator, just as you are the Creator already. There is what seems to be an impossibly long eon wherein the creation bursts forth into existence, flowers, and moves back into the uncreated, that Highest Self. Each relationship which you enter into, if shared heart-to-heart and hand-to-hand, creates the higher self of the mated couple or the strongly bonded friendship. Each family has the group higher self, and insofar as that family may seek in unison, just so far shall its higher self be there in seeming intuition and interesting dreams to convey messages concerning the most progressive and helpful service for the family to the family or for the family mated pair or friendship to the world which you experience about you. Similarly, each group to which you may belong, if there is a common purpose which is idealistic and service oriented and sought in unity, develops a group higher self, one which can be enormously helpful, and so each nation, race and any group which bears a common identity can develop, and will ultimately develop, the higher self. Indeed, we, as social memory complexes, are an existing group mind. The higher self, then, is ever more clearly and intimately available. It is our dear wish and happy desire to join the ocean of the Uncreated, that Logos of undifferentiated Love from which all is created and to which all shall return.

Now Latwii said the consciousness which invites the higher self to help is one which in humility gazes at the world and says, “In and of myself I see only illusion. I must seek further,” so seeking is the key to contact with this this larger edition of you, but this higher self cannot choose for you that which you must or must not do since it is not an authoritarian presence, for each decision is your own to make within this illusion, and no responsibility can be given to any higher self, guide, or teacher, so each is responsible for the self, yet we would encourage the seeker to open the self in meditation to those presences which are about each seeker, waiting to aid in deepening the meditative state in comfort and support, and these guides are also yours if you seek them, for they are powerful helpers, yet it is always the turning from despair and sadness to hope and joy, the thought in confidence of sure help and the reaching out for it, that make these energies available to each who seeks. Latwii continued by saying the higher self is the Creator, just as you are the Creator, and there is a long eon where the creation bursts forth into existence, flowers, and moves back into the uncreated, that Highest Self, so each relationship which you enter into, if shared heart-to-heart, creates the higher self of the mated couple or the strongly bonded friendship, for each family has the group higher self, and insofar as that family may seek in unison, just so far shall its higher self be there in seeming intuition and interesting dreams to convey messages concerning the most helpful service for the family to the family or to the world which you experience about you, so each group to which you belong, if there is a common purpose which is service oriented and sought in unity, develops a group higher self, one which can be helpful, and so each nation, race, and any group which bears a common identity will ultimately develop the higher self, and we, as social memory complexes, are an existing group mind, so the higher self is clearly and intimately available, for it is our desire to join the ocean of that Logos of undifferentiated Love from which all is created and to which all shall return. On March 13, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the nature of undifferentiated Love:

This instrument visualizes the white Light, the full armor of Light, placed upon its form, missing no spot, of undifferentiated Love manifesting as pure white Light. Once that feeling has been achieved—and it is often so that there is a lightness, either physical or mental, experienced during this portion of tuning—one then visualizes, as does each of the support group, this same white Light that is first simply a small ball of enormous beauty and luminosity in the middle of the group, by bowing before its Wisdom, by accepting its protection, you each allow it to expand, until all of you are bathed in unconditional Love and Light, the greatest protection available within the personal reference frame.

It is a blessing to have been able to speak with you. We would at this time transfer this contact. We are those known to you as Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo and greet each again in Love and in Light. At this time, it is our privilege to ask if we may speak to any further queries which those present may have to offer to us. We preface this service with what must now be well known to each, that we gladly offer opinion, and do not wish our words to be taken in any other fashion than opinion. Is there a query with which we may begin?

Questioner: Did I understand you correctly in saying that couples or families share a higher self?

I am Q’uo, and this is correct, my brother, for those who seek together in a dedicated and consistent relationship form that which is an energy of consciousness blended of the total being of each participating entity, thus the patterns of life experience become available as resources of learning and potential resources of service to each entity within the grouping that has joined itself of desire and experience.

May we speak further, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: When you were talking about others, guides and so forth, you were, I guess, intentionally vague. Is it because the distinctions between terms like angel, inner teacher, inner plane master, and personal guides are different ways of perceiving the same energies?

I am Q’uo, and in some cases this is true, my sister, for many within your illusion see but dimly those entities and forces which serve as resource for guidance and inspiration and tend to name what is perceived in many fashions, each helpful to the one who names, according to its ability to conceive of such possibility that there is a greater portion of the self and of the creation which lies beyond the physical senses and awaits the request for assistance.

In many cases there is the perceiving of a portion of what entities or sources of energy answer such calls, and this portion, then, is described in such and such a fashion. It is also true that those unseen resources upon which each third-density entity may call for assistance are various in ways unique to each entity. Thus, in some cases, the higher self will manifest a contact in a manner which utilizes intermediary means, shall we say, which may include those beings known as guides, those known as teachers in specific areas, and the coincidental events of an entity’s life experience that, though seemingly small, prove to provide a point of turning for the entity in attitude or seeking or desire. Thus, there is an interweaving of unseen assistance from various levels of a seeker’s greater self and the more unified portions of the creation itself.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

Carla: Well, my brother, I just had one more question, a little bit of a different angle. You didn’t say specifically when the higher self starts, but you did say that it was timeless, and from that I would intuit that from the very beginning of creation when our consciousnesses were moving through the elements and into time itself, and then into second density and so forth, from the beginning until the end, the higher self is there for us, and it’s just a matter of learning more and more in each density to make it a conscious part of our experience. Is this, in general, the truth of it?

I am Q’uo, and this is a most rough approximation of that which is the condition of the higher self in relation to the individualized portion of the Creator which moves through the evolutionary cycle. We give this instrument the concept of the vague definition of energy and intelligence which is ever-present for the individual entity in its process of evolution, and which at some point is called by your people the higher self. This intelligent energy permeates each portion of what is the creation, as the first-density experience of simple awareness becomes drawn by the upward spiraling line of light towards the increased vibration of second-density movement and turning toward the Light, the concept of what shall be known to you as the mind draws unto itself a vehicle for expression that will serve as what you call the body. And as this blending of energy complexes occurs in increasing frequencies of manifested expression, the mind and body complex of the second-density creature or entity becomes more and more individualized and partakes more of that which is the consciousness of self in contrast to that which it has experienced previously, which is the concept of the groupings.

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo and am again with this instrument. To continue.

The groupings known as the flock, the herd, the school, and so forth. Thus, as the consciousness becomes aware of the self, the mind and body complexes then begin to draw unto themselves a concept that you would call the spirit, and through this concept are able to partake more intimately of the intelligent energy which shall continue to become available to this complex of mind, body, and spirit as the higher self. Thus, the third-density entity is the self-conscious entity which is complete in that it contains the mind, the body and the spirit fully functioning and individualized according to the unique pattern of experience that has developed, is developing, and shall develop for the entity that moves within the creation toward the unity of All That Is.

Carla asked: “That from the very beginning of creation when our consciousnesses were moving through the elements and into time itself, and then into second density and so forth, from the beginning until the end, the higher self is there for us, and it’s just a matter of learning more and more in each density to make it a conscious part of our experience. Is this, in general, the truth of it?” Latwii replied by saying this is a rough approximation of that which is the condition of the higher self in relation to the individualized portion of the Creator which moves through the evolutionary cycle, so we give this instrument the concept of the vague definition of energy and intelligence which is ever-present for the individual entity in its process of evolution, and which at some point is the higher self, for this intelligent energy permeates each portion of what is the creation, as the first-density experience of simple awareness becomes drawn by the upward spiraling line of Light towards the increased vibration of second-density movement and turning toward the Light, the concept of what shall be known to you as the mind draws to itself a vehicle for expression that will serve as the body, and as this blending of energy complexes occurs in increasing frequencies of manifested expression, the mind and body complex of the second-density creature becomes individualized and partakes more of that which is the consciousness of self in contrast to that which it has experienced previously, which is the concept of the groupings.  Now Q’uo said the groupings of the flock, the herd, and the school, as the consciousness becomes aware of the self, the mind and body complexes begin to draw unto themselves a concept called the spirit, and through this concept are able to partake intimately of the intelligent energy which shall continue to become available to this complex of mind, body, and spirit as the higher self, and the third-density entity is the self-conscious entity which is complete in that it contains the mind, the body, and the spirit fully functioning and individualized according to the unique pattern of experience that has developed, is developing, and shall develop for the entity that moves within the creation toward the unity of All That Is. On July 14, 1994, Q’uo described the unity of All That Is:

Perhaps we may say that the lesson here is that as the Tree of Knowledge figure suggests, seekers do, indeed, have a quest for truth, that truth which does choose, yet within these choices, there needs to be within the entity’s heart that portion which praises, gives thanks, and blesses that mystery which lies behind and beyond all that seems and configures all that there truly is.

When a seeker goes too far with the knowledge of good and evil and begins to attack and fragment the basic unity of all things, then that entity must needs, either by personal choice or by catalytic action, be made humble once again and aware of the over-arching unity of All That Is.

The difficulty humankind has in accepting the limits of its knowledge is amazing to us. There is much pride within the hearts of your people who feel that all things may be known. This pride is fatal, for within the life of the spirit all that seems so in the world is indeed far otherwise.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you, that was quite eloquent.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we feel that we have for this evening spoken to those queries which each has so graciously offered to us, and it has been our great honor to have offered our humble words in this joining of our paths of seeking this evening. We thank each for allowing our presence, and we shall be with each in your future gatherings. We shall at this time take our leave of this group. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. We leave each, as always, in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

(Carla channeling)

I Yadda. I greet you in Love and Light of infinite One. We could not resist the opportunity to speak about the breath—you know, that a pretty good question. We feel there are points to be made and we will make them briefly.

The concept of life as breath and breath as life is natural for you, for you must breathe to live. However, the true breath is the breath of Light—not the oxygen, but the prana which comes to all who recognize the tremendous power of that which move on the face of the water. You see, you as the body are like the planet. Your being, cell by cell, is water. Thus, as the physical breath moves upon the face of the water of your body, you have life. And as that which this instrument calls spirit moves upon the face of consciousness, you have another kind of life, that which in your Christianity you call Holy Spirit. We do not wish to devalue the infinite goodness of heavenly food, which is Light, but we wish to have you respect yourselves, for what could this Light enliven if it were not for the wonderful complex of vibrations which create the energy field which is yourself. You are the water of life. You are the material of the universe. You are the expression. Open, as you would open the lungs to breathe air. Open to that which moves upon the face of the water. Think not about your condition, your foolishness, or your virtue, but only that you are material waiting for more abundant food. Such is the breath of the spirit.

We happy to speak with you, and we give this instrument trouble and more trouble, and we apologize. But she irritate us with this Jesus Christ, Jesus Christ, Jesus Christ. However, Christ is Christ, and we always are happy in the end, no matter how provincial we find an entity’s expression of Christ, to come in the name of Christ, for that is the name of Love. And it is in that Light and Love—how you like our L’s tonight? We doing better, eh? Heh, heh? It is in that Love and Light that we leave you now. Adonai. Adonai. We Yadda. Adonai.

This morning the quote from The Infinite Way is: “No longer is it necessary to try to dominate our business associates or members of our family The law within us maintains our rights and privileges. Every right desire of our heart is fulfilled now and without struggle or strife, without fear or doubt. The more we learn to relax and quickly contemplate our real desires, the more quickly and more easily are they achieved. It is not required of us that we suffer our way through life or strive endlessly for some desired good, but we have failed to perceive the presence of an inner law capable of establishing and maintaining our outer welfare.

It seems strange to us at first to realize that inner laws govern outer events, and it may at first appear difficult to achieve the state of consciousness wherein these laws of our inner being come into tangible expression. We will achieve it, however, in proportion to our ability to relax mentally, to gain an inner calm and peace, and therein quietly contemplate the revelations which come to us from within. Quietness and confidence soon bring us face to face with reality and the real laws governing us.

Lest the question should arise in your thought as to how a law operating in your consciousness, without conscious effort or direction can affect individuals and circumstances outside yourself, let me ask you to watch the result of your recognition of the inner laws and learn this through observation.

We are yet to become aware of the fact that we embrace our world within ourselves; that all that exists as persons, places, and things lives only within our own consciousness. We could never become aware of anything outside the realm of our own mind. And all that is within our mental kingdom is joyously and harmoniously directed and sustained by the laws within. We do not direct or enforce these laws: they eternally operate within us and govern the world without.”

Later this morning I used the garden hose to refill about two inches of water in the fishpond which had leaked out over the past few days because the fountain was hitting skimmer and splashing water out of the fishpond. While the water was filling the fishpond, I began hand-weeding the area behind The Fern Garden in the back yard. When the level of the water in the fishpond was at the right height, I turned the water off, and then I threw a cup of AquaSafe into the fishpond to neutralize the chlorine in the fresh water. Then I set the sprinkler to water The Moss Garden. Then I hand-weeded the weeds around each Striped Liriope plant in the Striped Liriope Garden in the back yard.

This afternoon I went outside and hand-weeded the Flower Garden in the middle of The Moss Garden.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

August 7

This World Of Wonder

We are of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and we greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

Before you lies the vista of this fair and lovely day, soft and shimmering with summer colors, with the sweet exhaustion of heat and the generous beauty of nature’s palette of many colors. Consider how you will approach this the creation of the Father through which you walk.

There are three ways to walk in this world of wonder. Most walk with their eyes averted from the beauty entirely. These are those who have not yet learned how precious the beauty of the creation is.

There are those who seize the beauty and hold it to them, counting each sight as a possession and rejoicing withal in the wonderful collection of sensual experiences. These are the takers, those who feel that all of creation is made for them and as a king or queen, so they declare sovereignty over all that they see. Even in their appreciation there is ownership.

There are those who, seeing all the beauties of the evanescent passage of time, give glory and thanks to the One which created them all and which created the appreciator as well. This appreciator is not the Lord of that which they survey, but its shepherd and its servant; its trustee, if you will, as it is held in trust for generations to come.

Open your eyes and see the beauty but see it as one who gives to beauty the glory of Jesus the Christ, that you may treat all aright and not be ashamed before your children and your children’s children. For they, too, need beauty.

We leave you in peace and in love, both now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel the Creator’s Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Latwii channeling is from October 25, 1987:

Reinvestigating the question of why it is so difficult for people to share the Love and Light good vibrations with those near and dear to family and friends, especially the mate.

(Carla channeling)

I am Latwii. We greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are most grateful to be with you once again and bless each and offer our Love. We wish also to express gratitude to the one known as Carla for her reliance upon feelings which many among your peoples move aside, assuming that intuition is imagination, for we indeed did wish to continue upon the subject of the difficulty each seeking soul encounters in expressing the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator in an intimate relationship over a sustained period of your time.

You shall recall that we spoke of joy, of a kind of joy which had to do with the inward realization of an immediate relationship with the Creator and Sustainer of all that there is. This concept requires more careful consideration, for in the context of the question there lies the implication that joy is the very thing which eludes discovery. Entities would be only too happy to manifest joy, compassion and understanding, could they only feel it within the heart, the mind, and the soul. Thus, let us consider how it may be that the seeker may accelerate the process whereby an expanded and strengthened inner realization will bear the sweet fruit of a joyful peace.

Because each of you has five senses and must operate within an illusion designed specifically to register upon these senses, that which is unseen is often not abandoned, but simply undiscovered. Yet, when the search begins for Love, we would like to suggest that in our opinion that search first has what one may call a vertical axis, that is, at the base of this axis is the self; let us put that value at minus ten. At the height of this line is a plus ten. Neutral ground for the soul is the middle, the zero point. It is about this point that the individual which is reacting to the stimulus of the environment without spiritual consideration will hover, first perhaps a bit up towards the peak of the line, which is the Logos, the Creator, divine Love, then move somewhat towards concentration upon the self, hovering around and round the zero point of neutrality. We point out that neutrality, or a lack of bias, is the one thing which this illusion is designed to lessen or eliminate, for it is the purpose of this illusion to create the consciousness which contemplates spiritual choice: the choice to focus more upon the self or more upon the Creator.

The topic for this session is: “Reinvestigating the question of why it is so difficult for people to share the Love and Light good vibrations with those near and dear to family and friends, especially the mate.” Latwii began by saying we spoke of a kind of joy which had to do with the realization of an immediate relationship with the Creator of all that there is, and this concept requires careful consideration, for in the context of the question there lies the implication that joy is the thing which eludes discovery, so entities would be happy to manifest joy and understanding if they could feel it within the heart, the mind, and the soul, but let us consider how it may be that the seeker may accelerate the process where a strengthened inner realization will bear the fruit of a joyful peace. Then Latwii said each of you has five senses and must operate within an illusion designed to register these senses, and that which is unseen is not abandoned but undiscovered, yet when the search begins for Love, we would like to suggest that that search first has a vertical axis where at the base of this axis is the self, so let us put that value at minus ten, but at the height of this line is a plus ten, and neutral ground for the soul is the middle, the zero point, so it is at this point that the individual which is reacting to the stimulus of the environment without spiritual consideration will hover, first up towards the peak of the line, which is the Creator of divine Love, then move towards concentration upon the self, hovering around the zero point of neutrality that is the one thing which this illusion is designed to eliminate, for it is the purpose of this illusion to create the consciousness which contemplates spiritual choice: the choice to focus more upon the self or more upon the Creator. On June 14, 1992, Q’uo spoke of the nature of our spiritual choice:

Before we leave this topic, we would focus once more upon the fertile land of spiritual choice, the dark world within. Each of you gaze within. Do you feel magical? Do you feel powerful? If the answer comes too easily it is likely that there is that within you which would choose the easy way towards power, that is, the path of negativity, for each step upon the negative path seems from within to be positive: one wishes power so that one may help people; the way to help people is to give advice, give teaching; make sure that all is well by controlling various people and circumstances. All these things feel natural and good. Most beginning negative entities have no idea that they are embarking upon the path of negativity.

Contrasting with this is the positive path, where power is gained by being the weakest, and greatness is achieved by being the servant of others, where advice and teaching are given only when offered.

By the self in this axis, we intend to convey not the whole self but that self which obtains and values tangible possessions, useful friendships, and advantageous arrangements of social, economic, and political influences. It is written in the holy work known as the Holy Bible that the master known as Jesus, when asked what it was important to do, that is, which commandments were the greatest within this master’s tradition, the reply was, first to Love the Creator with all the heart, the mind, and strength, and secondly to Love the neighbor, the associate, the intimate, the stranger, the enemy as the self. Those who attempt in all goodness of heart to achieve improved communication and a softening of heart, mutual expression, by going directly towards working upon the relationship have moved one step too soon and are very probably doomed to an unsatisfactory communication and an unchanged difficulty, for until one has achieved more and more consciousness centered upon the Creator, until one has lived in the immediacy of the very real Love that lives between each consciousness in the universe and that great Consciousness of which each is a part, the results are bound to be disappointing.

Thus, we suggest that, as usual within an illusion, what apparently seems the difficulty is, shall we say a smoke screen to those who wish to meet problems seemingly head-on, for such problems are a by-product of a lack of closeness to Love. The Creator is a mystery, yet like any unexplored land, or person, or idea, the mystery beckons, and through what you would call eons of time, many, many consciousnesses have come to what may be called the understanding that there are certain reportable aspects of divine consciousness which have been common to pilgrims upon the journey in planetary consciousness development time and time again. The reported manifestations emanating from Love, when found within the relationship with the individual consciousness, are love, joy, peace, and compassion.

Latwii went on to say by placing the self in this axis we intend to convey, not the whole self, but that self which obtains possessions, friendships, and arrangements of social, economic, and political influences, for it is written in the Bible that Jesus, when asked which commandments were the greatest within this master’s tradition, the reply was, first to Love the Creator with all the heart, the mind, and strength, and secondly to Love the neighbor as the self, for those who attempt to achieve improved communication and a softening of their heart by going towards working upon the relationship have moved one step too soon and are doomed to an unsatisfactory communication and an unchanged difficulty, for until one has achieved more consciousness centered upon the Creator, until one has lived in the immediacy of the very real Love that lives between each consciousness in the universe and that great Consciousness of which each is a part, the results are bound to be disappointing. Now Latwii said we suggest that what seems the difficulty is a smoke screen to those who wish to meet problems head-on, for such problems are a by-product of a lack of closeness to Love, but the Creator is a mystery, yet like any unexplored land, the mystery beckons, and through eons of time many consciousnesses have come to the understanding that there are reportable aspects of divine consciousness which have been common to pilgrims upon the journey in planetary consciousness development many times, and the manifestations emanating from Love, when found within the relationship with the individual consciousness, are love, joy, and peace. On February 14, 1988, Q’uo spoke of the mystery of the Creator:

All paths are valid, and each path shall in time lead to the face of mystery. We have gazed into that face as have you in timelessness and in time, in darkness and in Light, in nothingness and in space, and we say to you that the mystery recedes before you as the waves do move out at low tide, always coming in again to immerse the seeker in power, Love, beauty and joy, but always then moving again out to sea so that the path leads ever onward, the mystery beckons always. And as the path unfolds, it becomes clearer and clearer that that mystery which we so seek to know is the only concern which we may carry with us through eternity. We know not the Creator. We know only the intimations and reflections, the currents and the winds of a beautiful mystery which we have learned to call Love Itself.

In all your deliberations, my friends, we urge you to return always to that which this instrument calls the watchtower, to call to the self, that most nearby Creator, that Its Love and Light may fill and transform the self and the self’s service. May you Love one another, may you know, as we feel that we know, that we are most beloved by the Creator who is Love. May you find joy in your seeking.

Thus, the first mental, emotional, and spiritual discipline of one’s seeking to accelerate the pace of future tranquility’s arrival is to dwell as much as possible upon that relationship with the Creator which may be honestly and sincerely felt within the self in times of meditation, contemplation, conversation with others, indeed, at any time whatsoever, although the quiet times are the best for invoking the discipline of seeking to feel at one with the Creator. This relationship is the most important and the most intimate within the seeker’s experience, in or out of incarnation. And if this be not so, then it is that the seeker has work to do in consciousness, moving into quietness, moving into a trust that can only be grasped by blind faith that there is a Creator and that the reports that you have had of this Creator are correct.

Each entity whom you may become intimate with is a portion of that Creator, and you must know yourself to be the Creator’s own son or daughter. You must grow up within the house of prayer and meditation, argue with the Creator, complain to the Creator, praise, thank, bless or curse the Creator; but accept for awhile the premise that you can have an intimate, lively, spontaneous, continuing and dynamic relationship with that great Self which is All That There Is. This Creator is not One which shall tamely do your bidding, nor are you one who shall tamely do the Creator’s bidding unless much time has been spent, much realization gained concerning the dependability of the Creator’s will. Therefore, there is work to do and much, much time to do it.

Now Latwii said the first mental, emotional, and spiritual discipline of one’s seeking to accelerate the pace of future tranquility’s arrival is to dwell as much as possible upon that relationship with the Creator which may be felt within the self in times of meditation, contemplation, conversation with others or at any time, although quiet times are the best for invoking the discipline of seeking to feel at one with the Creator, for this relationship is the most important and intimate within the seeker’s experience, in or out of incarnation, and if this be not so, then it is that the seeker has work to do in consciousness, moving into quietness, moving into a trust that can only be grasped by blind faith that there is a Creator, and that the reports that you have had of this Creator are correct. Then Latwii said each entity whom you may become intimate with is a portion of that Creator, and you must know yourself to be the Creator’s own son or daughter, so you must grow up within the house of prayer and meditation complain to the Creator, praise, thank, or bless the Creator; but accept for a while the premise that you can have an intimate and dynamic relationship with that great Self which is All That There Is, yet this Creator is not One which shall tamely do your bidding, nor are you one who shall tamely do the Creator’s bidding unless much realization is gained concerning the dependability of the Creator’s will, for there is work to do and much time to do it. On January 22, 2011, Q’uo spoke of how we can do the Creator’s will:

There is, indeed, a difference between asking for guidance and the releasing of the will so that the Creator’s will may be done. Both are positive and loving actions. It is your way to ask for help and to ask for guidance. And we are aware that you have found it to be, in its way, quite effective in your experience many times

It is in the intimate relationships that one is most prone to begin to expect from another a seemingly just or fair exchange of service for service, and this seemingly innocent and obvious assumption of fair play and justice is the mask behind which hides the difficulty, its root, its wellspring—that is, expectation from another consciousness rather than expectation from the Creator. The suffering spirit which is locked in weary combat with another consciousness is far less able to alter for the better or more positive the intimate relationship than to offer service to those from whom one expects nothing. Therefore, we would commend to the consideration of the seeker the virtue and efficiency of turning, after the relationship with the Creator has been established, to those in need which come before your notice, those in whom you can seek to offer Love, yet not seek be loved. It is comparatively easy to sit down with the prisoner, the orphan, the indigent, and the elderly in need, and share the fruit of that joy-filled time when the soul and its Creator were intimate together.

A further word concerning communication. The value, metaphysically speaking, of conversations from the heart is inestimable. It can be only on faith that these conversations may be had. Indeed, within the intimate, troubled relationship, there is often such a great burden of negative baggage, extraneous to the core of the difficulty, that communication may seem impossible, for at every turn there is blame upon both sides, and as each feels not only guilt but confusion, each becomes defensive and knows not the words or the ways to express or describe the pain, the need, the hope for peace. We would, therefore, recommend that conversations be attempted only after the entity who wishes to improve the situation be grounded firmly within the primary relationship, that relationship with the Father, the Mother, the Sustainer which is often called God, but in reality is not separate, but rather All; for you are within the Father, the Mother, and the Father/Mother within you. It is from the vantage of high upon the vertical graph, moving towards the Kingdom, which is exemplified by ten, that one may look down upon a very small, very local, very foolish difficulty, where one may see the humor of two who love yet cannot speak, two who love but cannot help but contend. From the vantage point of Love, creation is possible, and that includes the recreation of the self and the healing of relationships. From the higher vantage point, one may release the other self from all expectations.

Then Latwii said it is in the intimate relationships that one is most able to expect from another a fair exchange of service for service, and this assumption of fair play and justice is the mask behind which hides the difficulty and the expectation from another consciousness rather than expectation from the Creator, but the suffering spirit which is locked in weary combat with another consciousness is far less able to alter for the better the intimate relationship than to offer service to those from whom one expects nothing, so we would offer to the consideration of the seeker the virtue of turning, after the relationship with the Creator has been established, to those to whom you can seek to offer Love yet not seek be loved, for it is easy to sit down with the prisoner, the orphan, or the elderly in need and share the fruit of that joy-filled time when the soul and its Creator were intimate together. Latwii continued by saying the value, metaphysically speaking, of conversations from the heart is inestimable, but it can be only on faith that these conversations may be had, for within the troubled relationship there is often a burden of negative baggage, and communication may seem impossible, for at every turn there is blame upon both sides, and as each feels not only guilt but confusion, so each becomes defensive and knows not the words to describe the pain and the hope for peace, so we recommend that conversations be attempted only after the entity who wishes to improve the situation be grounded within the primary relationship the Father, the Mother, the Sustainer which is called God, but in reality is not separate, but rather All; for you are within the Father, the Mother, and the Father/Mother within you, and it is from the vantage of high upon the vertical graph, moving towards the Kingdom that one may look down upon a small and foolish difficulty, where one may see the humor of two who love yet cannot speak, two who love but cannot help but contend, but from the vantage point of Love, creation is possible, and that includes the recreation of the self and the healing of relationships, and from the higher vantage point, one may release the other self from all expectations. On November 13, 1994, Q’uo described the nature of our primary relationship with the Creator:

We now ask each to seek within the self. As you awoke, what thought you? Did you think of the Creator first, or last, or in the middle? You seek skills and resources for learning better to flow with the catalyst as it is presented to you, and there are certainly many ways in which the self may remind the self that it truly wishes to transform its stale, stiff, and seemingly deadening over-regularity. Yet, beyond all these skills lies a basic attitude which, once grasped and persistently returned to, shall substantially transform each experience which occurs within the consciousness of the one who remembers. You see, beyond any logical, linear plan for improving the flow of events lies a simple attitude that contains more wisdom than all learning placed together. That wisdom is a point of view which includes as its primary relationship a real, living, conversational relationship with the one infinite Creator.

The unthinking spirit naturally cries, “That is not fair, that is not just,” yet we say to you that fairness and justice are not absolute concepts related to a dualistic illusion. It is well for fairness and justice to exist as concepts and to be used carefully for the regulation of social intercourse, yet it is not well to gaze upon them as what they are not, that is, absolute virtues, for that which is fair and just is always a relative choice, cases being able to be made for each side. It is in the interest of the serious seeker to be able to view all relationships from the same stance, and that is the desire to Love, to understand, to forgive, to give. It is the choice of priorities for most that the one whom the seeker wishes to serve the most is that intimate mate of the days and the nights, the months and the seasons of a lifetime. Yet the joy bubbles forth more and more freely as the entity is able to retain the memory of who that intimate soul to you truly is. That soul is, as you, a student seeking after truth, a soul searching for the source of Love, a wanderer seeking a home. This consciousness, as yours, suffers, attempts to change, fails and succeeds, and moves through all the private seasons of anguish and pleasure. This soul has been given into your care, as are all whom you meet, not in an absolute sense—that is, not in the sense that one soul can be responsible for another, far from that—we mean that one soul’s hope in contacting and blending with another’s life stream is that he may be able to be of service.

Once the expectations are laid aside, that is, once the barnacles of barter and expectation are removed from the hull of that entity’s spiritual vehicle, the waters betwixt your consciousness and theirs shall be far more peaceful. For if one calls another husband, one inadvertently within your culture thinks of a number of suppositions regarding the relationship. Yet when such a relationship is breaking down, it is well to go back to that which is in no way illusory, that is, the absolute principle that each entity whom you meet is a child of God, as yourself, to be loved as yourself, and to be served, if necessary, at the expense of the self if, in Love’s opinion within you, that service is appropriate. That is, we do not wish to advise needless sacrifice, for that is martyrdom for no cause. We advise only that that person with whom you hoped to spend a lifetime of Love is worthy, as are you, of the greatest service.

Latwii continued by saying the unthinking spirit cries, “That is not fair, that is not just,” yet we say to you that fairness and justice are not absolute concepts related to a dualistic illusion, so it is well for fairness and justice to exist as concepts and to be used carefully for the regulation of social intercourse, yet it is not well to gaze upon them as what they are not, that is, absolute virtues, for that which is fair and just is always a relative choice, cases being able to be made for each side, for it is in the interest of the serious seeker to be able to view all relationships from the same stance, and that is the desire to Love, to understand, and to forgive, yet it is the choice of priorities for most that the one whom the seeker wishes to serve the most is that intimate mate of the days and the nights, the months and the seasons of a lifetime, yet the joy bubbles forth more freely as the entity is able to retain the memory of who that intimate soul to you truly is since that soul is, as you, a student seeking after truth, a soul searching for the source of Love, a wanderer seeking a home, but this consciousness, as yours, suffers, attempts to change, fails and succeeds, and moves through all the private seasons of anguish and pleasure, for this soul has been given into your care, as are all whom you meet, not in an absolute sense—that is, not in the sense that one soul can be responsible for another, so we mean that one soul’s hope in contacting and blending with another’s life stream is that they may be able to be of service. Now Latwii said once the expectations are removed from the hull of that entity’s spiritual vehicle, the waters betwixt your consciousness and theirs shall be more peaceful, for if one calls another husband, one inadvertently thinks of a number of suppositions regarding the relationship, yet when such a relationship is breaking down, it is well to go back to that which is in no way illusory, that is, the absolute principle that each entity whom you meet is a child of God, as yourself, to be loved as yourself, and to be served, if necessary, at the expense of the self if, in Love’s opinion within you, that service is appropriate, so we do not wish to advise needless sacrifice, for that is martyrdom for no cause, and we advise that that person with whom you hoped to spend a lifetime of Love is worthy, as are you, of the greatest service. On April 7, 1991, Q’uo described when service is appropriate:

The extent of any service to another entity is limited by the amount of service that is desired and requested by that other entity, for service is not possible if it is not desired or requested. Thus, it is necessary for the one desiring to be of service to others to operate first upon the basis of a request, then to continue in as clear a communication as is possible with the one being served in order to ascertain whether or not a continuation of service is appropriate.

How difficult it is, my friends, we know, to see past the hurtful lack of communication…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

…to move beyond the harsh and seemingly betraying acts of one’s mate, how easy it is not to trust, not to nurture, not to stand firmly upon the two feet, knowing that one is completely and utterly safe and secure in a loving relationship with the Creator, and thus hold out the hand and say, “I Love you. I accept you just as you are, I see and sympathize with your difficulties,” or even for those whose hurtful behaviors include still others, “I accept your needs to be happy, and wish you well.” These thoughts seem to be a way of subtracting the self from the relationship, removing the emotion from, and thus the intimacy from, the relationship. Yet, it is the best beginning of which we are aware for those who cannot read each other’s thoughts to move into a situation in which the relationship becomes more trustworthy. It often takes a great deal of an incarnation to rebuild trust betwixt two which have hurt each other in heart, mind, or spirit. Yet it can be done in a moment if each turns first to the Creator, and then, knowing a new world within the self, turn to each other. Turn and turn and turn, becoming more and more graceful as each conversation and confrontation is experienced.

We may say in closing that many, many incarnations have been planned by entities incarnate at this time to include very serious challenges to faith and a life lived in Love and service. Before the incarnation, each of you considered well that which you wished to accomplish. Now that you are experiencing the actual classes which you chose for yourself, you may feel, in this instrument’s scholastic vocabulary, that you have taken too many hours, that you have enrolled in too many courses, and that you cannot possibly conclude and do well in this exercise of study and expression of the fruits of that study which is commonly called life upon your sphere. When you become alive, as you shall after the gateway of death has been entered, you shall finally experience that which you think you experience now. Meanwhile, those of you who face a seemingly intractable intimate relationship, and yet have the feeling that there is something which has drawn you together, something which you must learn together, please know that it is possible, even probable, that you hoped for yourself that your mature reaction to seemingly negative circumstances shall be the recognition that as you are experiencing negative circumstances, so must your mind not be full yet of the Creator.

Now Latwii said how difficult it is to see past the hurtful lack of communication and to move beyond the betraying acts of one’s mate, and how easy it is not to trust, not to nurture knowing that one is completely safe in a loving relationship with the Creator, and thus hold out the hand and say, “I Love you. I accept you just as you are, I see and sympathize with your difficulties,” for these thoughts seem to be a way of removing the emotion and the intimacy from the relationship, yet it is the best beginning of which we are aware for those who cannot read each other’s thoughts to move into a situation in which the relationship becomes more trustworthy, but it takes a great deal of an incarnation to rebuild trust betwixt two which have hurt each other in heart, mind, or spirit, yet it can be done in a moment if each turns first to the Creator, and then, knowing a new world within the self, turn to each other and become more graceful as each conversation and confrontation is experienced. Latwii continued by saying many incarnations have been planned by entities incarnate at this time to include serious challenges to faith and a life lived in Love and service, for before the incarnation, each of you considered that which you wished to accomplish, and now that you are experiencing the classes which you chose for yourself, you may feel that you have enrolled in too many courses, and that you cannot do well in this exercise of study and expression of the fruits of that study of life upon your sphere, but when you become alive, as you shall after the gateway of death has been entered, you shall experience that which you think you experience now, and you have the feeling that there is something which has drawn you together, something which you must learn together, so know that it is probable that you hoped that your mature reaction to negative circumstances shall be the recognition that as you are experiencing negative circumstances, so must your mind not be full of the Creator. On October 3, 1982, Latwii spoke of how we create plans for our incarnation before our incarnation:

We would once again respond by suggesting that there are no mistakes within your illusion. When an entity chooses to enter your third-density illusion, it is well aware of the parameters within which it shall move, of the resources which to it shall be available. The agreements made before the incarnation are agreements made in the Light of this knowledge. Therefore, there is, in truth, no actions which can be undertaken by any during the incarnation which were not seen as possibilities before the incarnation began. Thus, each activity which is engaged in during the illusion does have its effect, yet each activity was also known to be a possibility before the incarnation was begun. Therefore, such actions are not undertaken in a willy-nilly fashion, shall we say. Though their effects shall be felt by those in their vicinity, these effects have also been chosen.

And so, you must mount once again to the watchtower which gazes upon the kingdom of the Creator which dwells within that kingdom. It is something that you must do by yourself, yet that Lover which you pursue, that divine Love which you seek, sought persistently shall become to you real, intimate, and very dynamic. And more and more as you seek consciously immediate experience of the Love of the one infinite Creator, what you seek shall come to you. And as you seek that which is the highest of all things to seek, thus all else begins to fall into perspective. And more and more, regardless of what happens in the intimate relationships, and in all areas of incarnation, your experience shall be that of joy, for the Creator has tucked joy into every atom of the infinite universe, has woven joy into sunlight and starshine, has plaited joy up in the leaves, branches, and roots of your trees, the gurgling of the rivers, the busy hum of life. Each bee moves upon its way hearing the rhythm of the dance within. That great central sun which is the Creator in manifestation speaks as clearly to you and gives direction from within.

May you be blessed in your seeking. May you seek persistently the highest that you know, for that which you shall seek you shall find, and all else, once the highest begins to unfold, unfolds before you in reflection. Perhaps it shall be a sustained effort, and as we said, some lessons are designed to be greatly challenging. Yet keep always the goal in mind, and seek not simply to serve others, but more to serve the Creator in others. And the reflections of life which come back to you shall more and more dance and sing with joy. You in the watchtower, you who suffer, you who watch, and weep, and walk this day and night, you are not alone, for within you lies the greatest Love, the only reality. Seek it in earnestness, experience in joy, and laughter, and lightness, and become the lamp set upon a hill. Not in and of yourself, but only as one in Love, knowing the peace of the most intimate of all relationships—yourself and the Creator, your heart and love itself.

Latwii went on to say you must mount the watchtower which gazes upon the kingdom of the Creator which dwells within that kingdom, and it is something that you must do by yourself, yet that that divine Love which you seek shall be intimate and dynamic to you, and as you seek the experience of the Love of the one infinite Creator, what you seek shall come to you, and as you seek that which is the highest of all things to seek, all else begins to fall into perspective, for regardless of what happens in the intimate relationships, and in all areas of the incarnation, your experience shall be that of joy, for the Creator has tucked joy into every atom of the infinite universe, has woven joy into sunlight and starshine, has plaited joy up in the leaves, branches, and roots of your trees, the gurgling of the rivers, the busy hum of life, for each bee moves upon its way hearing the rhythm of the dance within, and that Central Sun which is the Creator in manifestation speaks clearly to you and gives direction from within. Latwii finished their reply by saying may you be blessed in your seeking the highest that you know, for that which you seek you shall find, and all else unfolds before you in reflection, so it shall be a sustained effort with some lessons designed to be challenging, yet keep the goal in mind, and seek to serve the Creator in others, and the reflections of life which come back to you shall dance and sing with joy, for you in the watchtower who suffer and walk this day and night, you are not alone, for within you lies Love, the only reality, so seek It in earnestness, and experience in It joy and become the lamp set upon a hill as one in Love, knowing the peace of the most intimate of all relationships—yourself and the Creator, your heart and Love itself. On December 27, 1987, Q’uo described the purpose of the watchtower:

To those who wish to be priests, ministers, and light-givers, to those of you on the watchtower, mending fences, gazing into the heavens as sentinels of the Lights of the cosmos, we urge you above all to find within the self that fundamental character which can offer the highest praise, the deepest felt purified emotion. If that means that you must function upon your own, then it is that you shall be lonely. It is unfortunate in the short run that experiences such as loneliness are considered to have great possibilities for learning among those who have chosen to live the life of the minister or the one upon the watchtower. Thusly, in the second place, it is your greatest hope to find those who are able to share the darkness, the misunderstandings, the despair and the doubt which accompanies a life lived in hope but executed with human error. May you find those who comfort you.

Lastly, to you whom we may call shepherds, there is sent a glorious company of those who surround you, Love you and Love the one original Thought that is slowly taking place and growing within each. Call upon those helpers which you know by names such as Holy Spirit, guardian angel, and inner guides. More than that, rest back into the recollection of the enormous web of caring, trusting, hoping, and Loving which your most mixed-up planet does, indeed, send out greatly.

We would like to thank this instrument again for its insistence in following a quiet inner voice. We did have these thoughts to convey and are most grateful for the opportunity to have the time to complete those thoughts which we felt might have some use to those who have asked this question. We encourage in this instrument close attention to such promptings, for through this means each answer may be given as we of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator may feel it is best, no longer limited by your time, for it takes much of your time to transmit these thoughts with words.

We would like to move to the one known as Jim, if this instrument would accept our contact. We are those of Latwii, and we shall transfer.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and greet each again in Love and Light. At this time, it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may offer to us. Is there a query at this time?

Carla: I received the impression that that was the end of the transmission on that subject. Can you confirm that?

I am Latwii, and this is correct, my sister. You have once again correctly perceived the nature of the inner response to our contact, and we again encourage this inner listening, for it shall be of assistance in many ways.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: On a related issue. When I was challenging your contact—I do it the same way every time basically, and I always say, “Do you come in the name of Jesus the Christ, whom I serve with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind, and all my strength?” And you answered not what I’m used to hearing, which is something like “Yes, my child, I am pleased to come in the name of Jesus the Christ,” or from Yadda, “Of course.” You said, “We are with Jesus the Christ.” Was there a reason for the change of language?

I am Latwii, and we have used this phrase this evening, for it best exemplifies that state of our being which we have activated in order to continue the transmission of concept which was begun previously. This has been our choice for this topic, for it is one which deals most wholeheartedly with the concept of Love or compassion, and it was our feeling that our own tuning or placement of focus of being would be most helpful and informative with this level of understanding available. Thus, we called upon that manifested by the one known as Jesus the Christ within ourselves in order to be of service to those gathered this evening.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: So, from your perception, the phrase which the fundamentalists use, “Christ is Lord, Jesus is Lord”—what you’re saying is that for you as well as for us, you see this Jesus consciousness as being the basic redeemer of human experience, the highest of compassion of Love? Is that so? Or would you express your feeling about that phrase, “Jesus is Lord,” in the context of challenging. I don’t challenge that way. It doesn’t seem necessary.

I am Latwii, and if we understand that which has been asked, we would say that that which is Loved and accepted is that which has been redeemed. Thus, it is within the heart of Love that redemption occurs.

May we speak in a further fashion upon this topic, my sister?

Carla: No. I was off on a wild goose chase when I first asked the question because I just wondered if your social memory complex was the one that Jesus went to when he got through his incarnation two thousand years ago on Earth. I know he went to a fifth-density complex, and I thought perhaps it might be yours, since you said, “I am with Jesus the Christ.”

I am Latwii, and our connection with the one known as Jesus the Christ is not as you have assumed but is, rather, that which we may call upon and join with.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: Well, just one more, then. Do you find as a fifth-density social memory complex, trying to do your work here with us, that it’s better for us to ask questions and thereby give a focus, an overt focus, or to, as we call it, take potluck, and receive whatever comes through? Which do you feel is more advantageous for fifth-density contact?

I am Latwii, and we seek to be of service. We do not know that which is most effective as a means by which we may serve in every case. We may in many instances assess the entities gathered in a circle of seeking and note great similarities in that which is sought, whether it be of a conscious or unspoken nature and thus speak upon that topic to seeming effectiveness. However, when we are offered a query which has been considered by the group, we then feel a greater confidence in that which we offer, for it has been called forth from us by those gathered in the seeking, and as a focus for the transfer of concepts is usually more efficient than the unspoken and undirected wishes of a circle of seeking.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: One last question that just occurred to me. I have no concept of being here, of time passing during that transmission. How close am I to being out of it? And is it safe and is it okay as long as Jim’s holding my hand?

I am Latwii, and it is our estimation that your condition is that which is within the limits of safety as long as the hand is held, for it is not possible for the untrained entity to leave the physical vehicle while the tactile pressure is exerted by another entity upon the vehicle, thus infringing upon the auric field and requiring the spirit or enlivener to remain with its vehicle. We find your state of meditation to be quite effective as one through which information may pass with minimal distortion and are honored that we are able to utilize your instrument in this manner at this time.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: I want to thank you for the compliment. It means a lot to me. I just wonder, is a cat on the lap good enough?

I am Latwii, and it is our understanding of the relative effect of the electrical bodies or auric fields of the second density feline that its interaction with your own would not, in most cases, be sufficient for the causing of the spirit enlivener to remain with its vehicle, for the spiritual component of the second density creature is most usually lacking, as it is at the level of development at which the mind begins to emerge in an individual fashion with the rudimentary functioning only, thus the infringement that it makes upon your own auric field is far less than that made by another third density entity which has the spiritual component developed to the minimal degree that the third-density experience allows.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you. Thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Latwii, and it is our observation that we have, for the evening, exhausted the queries, and we thank each for allowing our presence this evening. We have been most privileged to have been able to join this group of seeking. We are hopeful that we shall be able to continue the transfer of concepts to this group in its future gatherings when possible. We are aware that there are various factors which determine the most appropriate response, and, indeed, the most appropriate entities to give response to the queries which this group offers to the Confederation of Planets in Service to the One Creator. It has been a great honor for us to join you this evening. At this time, we shall take our leave of this group. We are known to you as those of Latwii, and we leave each in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Infinite Way is: “Release from fear, worry, and doubt leaves us free to function normally, healthfully, and confidently. The body acts immediately from the stimulus coming to it from within. New vitality, strength, and bodily peace follow as naturally as rest follows sleep. Little do we know of the depth of the riches within us until we come to know the realm of our own consciousness, the kingdom of our Soul.

When we become still and go into the temple of our being for the answer to some important question or the solution of a vital problem, it is better that we do not formulate some idea of our own, outline a plan, or let our wishes in the matter father our thought. Rather should we still the thinking mind so far as possible and adopt a listening attitude. It is not the personal sense of mind, or conscious mind, which is to supply the answer, nor is it the educated mind or the mind formed of our environment and experience, but the mind of God, the Reality of us, the creative Consciousness. And this is best heard when the senses and reasoning mind are silent.

This divine Consciousness not only shows us the solution to any and every problem and the right direction to take in any situation, but being infinite, It is the consciousness of every individual and brings every person and circumstance together for the good of the whole.

Obviously, we cannot look to this universal Consciousness to work with us for anyone’s destruction or loss. What is accomplished in and through the kingdom of our mind is always constructive individually and collectively. It can, therefore, never be the means of harm, loss, or injury to another. Nor do we direct our thought to another or project it outside ourselves in any direction. That which our mind is unfolding to us is at the time operating as the consciousness of all concerned. We need never concern ourselves with reaching some other mind or influence any who can possibly be affected by or concerned about the problem or situation.

There are no unsolved problems in Consciousness, and this same Consciousness which is our individual consciousness is the only power necessary to establish and maintain the harmony of all that concerns us. It is our turning within that brings forth the answer already established. Our listening attitude makes us receptive to the presence and the power within us. Our periods of silent contemplation reveal the infinite force and constructive energy and intelligent direction always abiding in us. Thus, we discover in our mental realm our Aladdin’s Lamp. Instead of rubbing it and wishing, we turn within in silence and listen, and all this is necessary for the harmony and success of life flows forth abundantly, and we learn to live joyously, healthfully, and successfully, not by reason of any person or circumstance outside ourselves but because of the influence and grace within our own being.”

Later this morning I went outside and transplanted two trays of colorful flowers on the top of the Wuthering Heights Mound in the front yard. Then I watered them with fertilized water. Then I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Walmart’s to buy some artificial flowers. Then I stopped by Walgreen’s Drug Store to drop off a prescription and to pick up two prescriptions.

This afternoon I spread pine straw on the Hosta on the north side of the Wuthering Heights Mound and on the Hosta in the back yard that I transplanted yesterday morning.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

August 6

The Natural World As Teacher

I am of the principle of Love, and I greet you in the consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

I, the Comforter, ask you to allow the natural world that lies so close at hand to be your teacher this day. Gaze upon the mighty strength of the shoots of grass which grow in concrete. Look very closely and see the fecundity of the living God expressed in all the tiny insects which scurry across that busy sidewalk seeking sustenance and finding it. Listen to the sounds of the birds which ring out as joyful Psalms to the Creator and feel the wind of creation at your back.

We do not ask you to take these things into your mind and hold them where they will become lifeless and wither in the world of the hypothetical. Remain open, rather, to the revelations of the present moment, for the Creator has infinite lessons to teach to those who have understanding hearts and open ears.

We leave you in Christ’s own peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel the Creator’s Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Latwii channeling for this session comes from October 11, 1987:

(Continued from last week.) Why is it so difficult to radiate in Love and Light to those nearest and dearest to us, our mates for example, rather than being as easy as to those we don’t know as well?

(Carla channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my brothers and sisters, in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is our great privilege to join this circle of Light to feel the oneness of honest seeking and caring to know. We are fellow pilgrims who have perhaps walked a few more steps than you upon this path of service and Love, and we most thankfully hope that we are able to share some thoughts with you which may bear fruit. Please know that our thoughts are our opinions only and may, unbeknownst to us, be blemished in some way by inaccuracy or bias. Therefore, please listen to what we have to say with your discrimination, knowing the truth by recognition and not by authority, for, my friends, as you have said yourselves, the truth is already within you; you have only forgotten it.

May we say we were most pleased that this instrument realized that there was that material which we would wish to share upon the topic of difficult relationships and situations. We were unable to condense our thoughts enough to satisfy this instrument who requested us to bring our discourse to an end. However, we are so pleased to have an opportunity to share with you further thoughts upon this interesting subject. For you see, my children, when one encounters difficulties, one experiences what is universally known as negative emotions, and within the framework of what we may call the surface thinking among your people, it is evaluated as a situation to be ended, avoided, ignored, or changed. It is in the interest of one who seeks a deeper truth to move beyond that which satisfies some, the quick answer, the hasty action, the removal of pain. There are other points of view, there are other possible realities which may be discussed and considered.

We would speak with you this evening upon the central theme of trust. Yet, we must build a framework for our discussion by moving to first principles, for trust is a trust of something or someone, and thus we cannot speak of trust without establishing that in which we are suggesting the seeker may trust in order to ameliorate difficult situations and relationships. Each of you is a portion, or may we say perhaps more clearly, a miniature replica of the Creator, that one great original Thought of Love, Love which dwells in the most part uncreated, unmoved, unbiased, and singular. That part which has never come into manifestation, that part being the greater part, is unconscious of its consciousness. Through the action of free will, that great original Thought which has thought the creation, that Logos which we often call Love, is at the very core of each of you in an undistorted and true verity. Surrounding this core in energetic vibratory patterns are the biases which you as an entity have accumulated through experience and evaluation of that experience.

As you have been through many, many lifetimes, you have also evaluated many, many experiences. And each lifetime of experience gives you its harvest of biases. These biases or distortions of the great original Thought often seem unlovely, for many there are who have the biases of prejudice, meanness of thought, selfishness, anger, and all those ways of being and doing which seem not at all to reflect the Creator that is Love. The creation has in the infinity of time a beginning and an end, just as each of you as a creature has a beginning and an end. The creature dies; the Creator is eternal. Thus, the scale of bias and learning and seeking moves on not only from lifetime to lifetime, or from beginning to the end of creation, but you who have been in one creation shall be the seeds of those who learn in the next. Thus, all activity within the creation upon whatever scale of activity is part of an infinite process wherein Love’s great desire to learn of the self is more and more satisfied. For that which is eternal within you records everything which you have learned.

In this session Latwii speaks about the concept of trust. They began by saying we speak with you this evening on the theme of trust, yet we must build a framework for our discussion by moving to first principles, for trust is a trust of something or someone, and we cannot speak of trust without establishing that in which we are suggesting the seeker may trust in order to improve difficult situations and relationships, for each of you is a miniature replica of the Creator, that one great original Thought of Love which dwells in the most part uncreated and unconscious of its consciousness, but through the action of free will, that original Thought which has thought the creation, that Logos we call Love, is at the core of each of you in a true way, so surrounding this core in energetic vibratory patterns are the biases which you have accumulated through experience and evaluation of that experience. Latwii went on to say as you have been through many lifetimes, you have evaluated many experiences, and each lifetime of experience gives you its harvest of biases or distortions of the original Thought that seem unlovely, for many there are who have the biases of prejudice, anger, and all those ways of being and doing which seem not to reflect the Creator that is Love, so the creation has a beginning and an end, just as each of you has a beginning and an end, but the creature dies, and the Creator is eternal, and the scale of learning and seeking moves on not only from lifetime to lifetime, or from beginning to the end of creation, but you who have been in one creation shall be the seeds of those who learn in the next, for all activity within the creation upon whatever scale of activity is part of an infinite process wherein Love’s desire to learn of the self is satisfied, for that which is eternal within you records everything which you have learned. On January 6, 1980, Hatonn described the nature of the original Thought:

It does not seem possible that you could live without law. But we say to you, my friends, that there is a greater law. And it is a law that extends beyond anyone’s concept of law. It is the law of the original Thought. If you could understand the original Thought, you would know what there is to know, and your soul would no longer journey, it would no longer seek, nor harvest, nor share. For it would be one with all seekers, all harvesters, and all sharing. If you could understand the original Thought, you would be Love. You would not be seeking Love. The original Thought is within you. It is not without you. When you look at the world with the original Thought in your heart you can see Love. If you look at the world without the original Thought you can only see the illusion of disharmony, and naturally you will desire to ease the situation by using laws. But when you understand the original Thought, you find yourself viewing this same world with eyes that see Love.

The goal of one who incarnates into third density, designed before your incarnation, is to attempt to sow experience and evaluate the experiences of the lifetime that your self, your beingness, your consciousness becomes more and more as you would have your gift to the Creator to be. For ultimately, at the end of an intentionally lived life, is the giving of the life as a gift to that Creator whence you sprung and whither you are bound once again to lose yourself. Very well, then, the way in which one sees life is all-important to the interpretation one makes of it, and that is where trust becomes most, most helpful. The truth which we ask you to trust, if, indeed, your heart vibrates in tune with this thought, is the truth that as eternal beings we have one purpose more primary than any other, for before circumstance came to be, our consciousness came to be. And that which is most important, therefore, is an investigation into the nature of our consciousness, the nature of that force which created us and the nature of our relationship with that force or principle of creation.

Therefore, we do not speak of trusting entities, yourself, or others, of institutions, be they ever so grand, or the opinions of any, including us, be they ever so eloquent. If your heart and mind resound with an echo of recognition when we say that your Creator is Love, then you shall see why we ask that the key word of trust offers much to one whose illusory or Earth life is being experienced as tragic, sorrowful, difficult or upsetting. Equally, we would say that of all who are successful in some way, for you see, the experiences of an incarnation are ever up and down, ever positive and negative. The clue is given in the lack of consistency of either state of mind within what is called the human condition. When one is content, one does not agonize over one’s proper point of view, one’s appropriate relation towards the Creator. It is the sorrows, the difficulties, the upsets, the tragedies which bring mind and heart to a state of attention, to a state of questioning, and we hope that this is persistent and determined, for there is a good outcome, that is to say, a satisfying and positive outcome to such a search.

Latwii went on to say the goal of one who incarnates into third density is to attempt to sow experience and evaluate the experiences of the lifetime that your consciousness becomes more as you would have your gift to the Creator to be, for at the end of an intentionally lived life, is the giving of the life as a gift to that Creator where you came from and where you are bound to lose yourself, so the way one sees life is important to the interpretation one makes of it, and that is where trust becomes helpful, for the truth which we ask you to trust is the truth that as eternal beings we have one purpose more primary than any other, for before circumstance came to be, our consciousness came to be, and that which is important is an investigation into the nature of our consciousness, the nature of that force which created us and the nature of our relationship with that force of creation. Latwii continued by saying we do not speak of trusting yourself, or the opinions of any, for if your heart and mind resound with an echo of recognition when we say that your Creator is Love, then you shall see why we ask that the key word of trust offers much to one whose illusory Earth life is being experienced as tragic, and we would say that the experiences of an incarnation are positive and negative, so the clue is given in the lack of consistency of either state of mind within the human condition, for when one is content, one does not agonize over one’s appropriate relation towards the Creator, for it is the difficulties which bring mind and heart to a state of attention, to a state of questioning, and we hope that this is persistent, for there is a positive outcome to such a search. On April 17, 2005, Q’uo spoke of the concept of trust:

For truly the days are here for each of you to experience incredible waves of energy. Some of the energy is what this instrument would call the highest and best, and it enlivens and energizes you. Others of the waves of energy are those which are shrinking from the Light and the Love of the one infinite Creator, energies that are fleeing from the lucidity and the clarity of these times that are among you now. The new heaven and the new earth lives upon the planet Earth. It is being born, more and more. And so, there are retroactive energies that are shrinking away from this clearer and brighter Light, shall we say, not very accurately.

When these waves of energy hit you, it will feel to you as if all things are resisting and are failing. We ask you to know that this is baffled and confused energy that does not tell you the truth, for you are succeeding. You are thriving. You are growing. And in that growth, things must fall away so that new things can emerge. We can only say to you: let it flow through you, let it fall away as it will; cling not and do not reach, but be. And allow the energies that are yours to come to you. Your desire is honed, your focus is becoming more and more clear. Trust yourself. Trust the system of guidance that surrounds you. Trust the Earth beneath your feet which is learning little by little to trust you. You are becoming creatures of Love involved in a Loving environment, and from the earth to the sky, from the East to the West, and the North to the South, your planet is coming alive with Love. Know then that this which is unseen has a power, and that you are part of the web of Love. Open yourself, therefore, to those energies of Love that are awakening within you, more and more.

The obvious and only reaction to Love is Love. When we speak of the Love of the infinite Creator, we speak of the Love that has created stars and all else, seen and unseen, within an infinite universe. We do not speak of personal love, for we find that among your people it is necessary to make this distinction. Neither do we speak of completely impersonal Love. We are speaking of a Love that is beyond any definition of Love which words may offer. We ourselves know not how to convey what we have experienced. Words are paltry and often little more than useless. What we can say is that as we have studied more, we have found more and more evidence that those words which we share with you have some validity and usefulness to the seeker. Now, if your consciousness partakes of Love, and your Creator is Love itself, but Love which reaches down to you in a personal manner, in an immediate manner, in a present tense manner, you may perhaps see that a relationship with this Love shall be intimate and trusting. Portions of the Creator’s Love have expressed themselves to you before your incarnation as what you may call your higher self, your guardian angel, your teachers. We care not what the words be; we care that you know that you and these helping entities gazed at the harvest of your biases and your distortions, noted where there were lessons still to work on, lessons of Love which you wished to learn, for this is the density of learning how to Love and how to express Love.

What you are experiencing now is the outworking of this plan. You have complete free will within this plan, although you were given nothing which you could not, with prayerful help, may we say, experience successfully. Yet still each entity has the complete right and privilege of altering whatever circumstance seems beyond bearing. This does not faze the higher self. It simply means that the same lesson which has been aborted shall be experienced again and another chance shall be had by the soul within you to reap the benefits of the harsh illusion which you experience at this time. For nothing of what you see is what can by any means be called an accurate picture. You know, for instance, that you do not see Light in its fullness, but only a small spectra within the great larger spectrum of Light values and Light vibrations. You know that you cannot hear, sense by touch, or smell. Each of these senses is inadequate to convey to the self the completeness of the experience offered within your illusion.

Latwii continued by saying the only reaction to Love is Love, and when we speak of the Love of the infinite Creator, we speak of the Love that has created stars and all else within the infinite universe, but we do not speak of personal love, for we find that among your people it is necessary to make this distinction, nor do we speak of impersonal Love, for we are speaking of a Love that is beyond any definition of Love which words may offer, so we know not how to describe what we have experienced, for words are little more than useless, but what we can say is that as we have studied more, we have found evidence that those words which we share with you have usefulness to the seeker, so if your consciousness partakes of Love, and your Creator is Love itself, but Love which reaches down to you in a personal manner you may see that a relationship with this Love shall be intimate and trusting because portions of the Creator’s Love have expressed themselves to you before your incarnation as your higher self or your guardian angel, but we care not what the words are, for we care that you know that you and these helping entities gazed at the harvest of your biases and your distortions, noted where there were lessons still to work on, and lessons of Love which you wished to learn, for this is the density of learning how to Love and how to express Love. In 36.7, Ra described the nature of the higher self:

The higher self aspect is aware of the lessons learned through the sixth density. The progress rate is fairly well understood. The choices which must be made to achieve the higher self as it is are in the provenance of the mind/body/spirit complex itself. Thus, the higher self is like the map in which the destination is known; the roads are very well known, these roads being designed by intelligent infinity working through intelligent energy. However, the higher self aspect can program only for the lessons and certain predisposing limitations if it wishes. The remainder is completely the free choice of each entity. There is the perfect balance between the known and the unknown.

Add to this the fact that it is an illusion, designed so that each experience would have impact far greater than it would have were you not within an illusion, and you have a challenging situation. It was intended to be a challenging situation. Each of you chose, with good spirits and much hope, to enter this land of forgetting that you call Earth, enter the strong illusory vibrations which yield to you the limitations of what you see and sense, give to you your seeming separateness from each other and from the truth. The basic goal within any illusion is to penetrate the illusion. Which brings us back to the seeking soul, that Creator which is the original Thought of Love and the relationship of that seeking soul with the infinite Love of the one Creator. That relationship, my friends, is trust. Trust is not only for the good times. Trust is not only when the parking place opens up next to the store. Trust is an emotion which can be evoked only by implanting above the illusion of distance and difficulty another picture of what you are seeing, based upon your understanding of the Creator.

You see yourself as Creator, attempting to learn how to be a Creator; you see others equally befuddled, equally holy, and you come into various relationships with them and experience various situations. This is what is occurring—the Creator experiencing the Creator, whether the times are good or difficult. And the trust is that you shall not be given more than you can handle, that there is a plan and that all is, indeed, well. This is, my friends, central. All is well right now, because your deeper reality is that you are Love, and that all about there is Love, so distorted sometimes it is an incredible challenge to perceive. Yet this deeper reality is an experience which is more and more substantial as the seeker persists in the journey undertaken by one who knows the way is long, infinitely long, and often rocky and lonely, for each must find answers for the self, and this means that in the end the soul is alone with itself to choose its manner of being.

Now Latwii said add to this the fact that it is an illusion, designed so that each experience would have impact greater than it would have were you not within an illusion, and you have a challenging situation, and it was intended to be a challenging situation, so each of you chose to enter this land of forgetting called Earth with the illusory vibrations which yield the limitations of what you see, and sense, and give you seeming separateness from each other and from the truth, so the goal within any illusion is to penetrate the illusion which brings us back to the seeking soul, that Creator which is the original Thought of Love and the relationship of that seeking soul with the infinite Love of the one Creator, for that relationship is trust, for trust is not only for the good times, but trust is an emotion which can be evoked by implanting above the illusion of difficulty another picture of what you are seeing, based upon your understanding of the Creator. Then Latwii said you see yourself as the Creator, attempting to learn how to be a Creator, and you see others equally befuddled and holy, and you come into relationships with them, so this is what is occurring: the Creator experiencing the Creator, whether the times are good or difficult, and the trust is that there is a plan that all is well because your deeper reality is that you are Love, and that all about you there is Love that is so distorted that it is a challenge to perceive, yet this deeper reality is an experience which is more substantial as the seeker persists in the journey undertaken by one who knows the way is long and lonely, for each must find answers for the self, and this means that in the end the soul is alone with itself to choose its manner of being. On January 9, 2006, Q’uo described how all is well for us:

We would only say to you that to balance the intensive dedication of each of you to manifesting, it is a good idea to spend a significant amount of your time becoming aware of the present moment, relaxing all tension or worry, and simply spending time knowing that all is well, and that all will be well. Lighten up and find the light touch, the laughter, the bliss, and the joy that are only available when you are focusing on the present moment. Have fun with this, my friends, just as we are having the time of our lives working with you.

We speak to those who already believe that there is a plane of absolute values. We speak to those who tentatively accept that God, as you call the Creator, is Love, and that each is a portion of that Creator, a holograph of that Creator, and that the basic thrust of the life experience is to live it more and more Lovingly and be of more and more service to the Creator and to each other, that Love may abound, and that this illusion may be penetrated. We realize that those who are in mated relationships have special problems. This is due to their expectations of each other. Had you no expectations of another entity, it would be very easy to be polite. However, among your people the mated relationship is one in which two become intimately involved enough that each attempts to learn to treat the other as Creator, to trust each other. Yet each is a very distorted version of Love, a very confused rendition of creation; therefore, trust is hard to come by between people. We do not ask you, therefore, to trust each other first, but rather to step back from the mate, from the difficulties which intimacy brings and choose instead to live within the least distorted creation which you are aware of, to refrain from forcing changes, right or wrong, shall we say, in a situation, until you have moved your consciousness to a higher and therefore more real and less distorted plane of consciousness.

That plane of consciousness is that which one uses to meet with the Creator within. We speak here of meditation. What each of you truly is is an eternal spirit. Your natural state is so joyful that we can best compare it to your physical sensation of orgasm, held in a steady state. This is the consciousness of Love which created all that there is, and in its distorted form as the sexual orgasm, created each; that is, not the spirit, but the physical shell or vehicle. Let yourself be who you really are. Let yourself trust the Creator, yourself, the fact that you did plan on learning lessons and most of all the fact that you are never alone as you attempt to interpret and evaluate your experiences. Then you may with eyes of trust and an eye to seeing love look again at the difficulty. If it still makes no sense, it is well to return to the independent idea of the self in loving relationship with the Creator and allow your deeper mind or intuition in cooperation with inner silence to open to you those realizations which will aid in seeing the lesson to be learned.

Then Latwii said we speak to those who believe that there is a plane of absolute values, and we speak to those who accept that God is Love, and that each is a holograph of that Creator, so the thrust of the life experience is to live it more Lovingly and be of more service to the Creator and to each other, that Love may abound, and that this illusion may be penetrated, but we realize that those who are in mated relationships have special problems that are due to their expectations of each other, yet if you have no expectations of another entity, it would be easy to be polite, for the mated relationship is one in which two become intimately involved enough that each attempts to learn to treat the other as the Creator, to trust each other, yet each is a distorted version of Love, so trust is hard to come by between people, but we do not ask you to trust each other first, but to step back from the mate, from the difficulties which intimacy brings and choose to live within the least distorted creation which you are aware of, to refrain from forcing changes, right or wrong in a situation until you have moved your consciousness to a higher and less distorted plane of consciousness. Then Latwii said that plane of consciousness is that which one uses to meet with the Creator within meditation, for what each of you truly is, is an eternal spirit, and your natural state is joyful, so we can compare it to your physical sensation of orgasm in a steady state, so this is the consciousness of Love which created all that there is, and in its distorted form as the sexual orgasm, created the physical vehicle, so let yourself be who you are, and let yourself trust the Creator, yourself, the fact that you planned  on learning lessons, and the fact that you are never alone as you attempt to evaluate your experiences, and then you may look again at the difficulty, but if it still makes no sense, it is well to return to the independent idea of the self in a loving relationship with the Creator and allow your deeper mind, in cooperation with inner silence, to open to you those realizations which will aid in seeing the lesson to be learned. On February 23, 1997, Q’uo described the nature of our deeper mind:

Take a look at the self, and you can see that as the roots of self move through the threshold of consciousness down into the roots of mind there are passageways that are crystalline and regular in shape and function. Each ritual aid that opens those passageways, especially within the emotional body, is helpful in regularizing and enlarging that ability to channel Light and Love through the deep mind into the roots of mind, securing the self, rooting the self again and again in the deepest truth possible, the deepest truth that is seen, or felt, or sensed by that individual. The deeper mind has a desire to be used, a desire to open, a desire to yield its contents. One could, in terms of computers, which have many qualities in common with the mind, one could see these deeper structures of mind as programs that are hidden and are only accessed from within other programs and are never directly accessed. Ritual is a tool which does eventually connect the self more and more with one’s deeper and more accurate programs. The knowledge, shall we say, or inarticulate wisdom of the deep mind which lies beyond word and even beyond concept can be triggered by ritual. Therefore, ritual can be a great aid in becoming more the person that one truly is, for each is well aware of the number and the subtlety of the masks that each has worn within the lifetime. The heart yearns for that which lies behind that mask. And certainly, ritual is a resource that aids in revealing the self to the self.

Often the lesson is one which you do not wish to learn consciously. Patience, restraint, caution, all these qualities have seemingly little to do with Love and compassion, but many, many of the lessons of Love concern the meticulous disciplining of the consciousness, so that no matter what the outer circumstances, the truer, higher self is expressed, that self which is love and which expresses in a loving manner those good works which you and the Creator have planned together for this day, this hour, this moment. Once you trust in the process and trust in your ability to sustain the Loving attempt to learn Love, that which happens before the eyes may distress and scatter one to the winds, but not for long, for you always come to that place within yourself once again and close the door behind you and tabernacle once more with the Creator. We are with you, and we have ultimate, infinite trust that each of you is full of Love and beautiful.

Our illusion is much less difficult to penetrate, our work is far more subtle, and we gaze with a mixture of fascination and remembered fearful distress at the violent emotions and reactions which are brought forth from one experiencing within your density. You chose, each of you, to work very hard in this lifetime, to learn much, to serve and manifest to others the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator…

[Side one of tape ends.]

We are with the instrument. We are Latwii, and greet you once again in love and light. We continue.

Know that the difficulties that you have are perfectly designed to offer to you a gentle lesson, a way, another way, yet another way, of throwing up something which is semi-permeable; you can almost see through it but not quite with the physical eyes, and sometimes you cannot see through it at all. But if you gaze at it with your heart’s eyes, trusting in the utter perfection of what is happening to you, and allowing nothing to sway that trust in the kindliness of the Father, you will see in the end the lesson to be learned. Perhaps nothing needs to change except the viewpoint, or perhaps once the lesson is learned, the situation may be left.

Latwii said the lesson is one which you do not wish to learn consciously, and patience and caution have little to do with Love and compassion, but many of the lessons of Love concern the disciplining of the consciousness, so that no matter what the outer circumstances, the higher self is expressed, that self which is Love and which expresses in a Loving manner those good works which you and the Creator have planned together for this moment, and once you trust in your ability to sustain the Loving attempt to learn Love, that which happens before the eyes may scatter one to the winds, but not for long, for you always come to that place within yourself and tabernacle with the Creator, so we are with you, and we have infinite trust that each of you is full of Love. Latwii continued by saying know that the difficulties that you have are designed to offer you a way of throwing up something which is semi-permeable, and you can almost see through it with the physical eyes, and sometimes you cannot see through it at all, but if you gaze at it with your heart’s eyes, trusting in the perfection of what is happening to you, and allowing nothing to sway that trust in the kindliness of the Creator, you will see the lesson to be learned. On May 8, 1983, Latwii described how we see the lesson to be learned:

We spoke in general terms in our previous response to your query and indicated that Love is the primary lesson to be learned. It is quite true that each entity shall refine the means by which this lesson is learned, and shall refine these means in many, many ways so that unto each entity falls unique configurations of catalyst programmed, may we add, by the entity itself that it might learn certain lessons.

You see, you are the professor which constructs the tests and the queries. Then you forget who you are and join this illusion and begin the class of Love and become the student taking the test which it seems it has never seen before. Yet, as you continue upon your journey, you shall discover that you become more and more familiar with the questions and the testing, and you shall discover more and more the unique nature of each catalyst, each question, each test.

These decisions are up to you, indeed, all of your incarnation basically, in our opinion, has but one end: to allow you to make choices which will polarize you more and more towards being a manifestation of Love to those about you, to yourself and to the one Creator. This is your reality; this is who you are, pieces, entireties, of the Creator, covered all up with illusion, seeking to find the Creator within. May you water your Creator-heart with silence, Love, and trust and allow no outer circumstance to sway you from Love, trust, and service. May you hold your head high and allow no one to demean you. May you be harmless, and above all, my brothers and sisters, may you Love one another with an ever more compassionate Love.

Latwii continued by saying these decisions are up to you, for all of your incarnation has but one end: to allow you to make choices which will polarize you towards being a manifestation of Love to those about you, to yourself, and to the one Creator, and this is your reality; this is who you are as pieces of the Creator, covered up with illusion, seeking to find the Creator within, and may you water your Creator-heart with silence and Love and allow no outer circumstance to sway you from Love and service, so may you hold your head high and may you be harmless, yet above all may you Love one another with an ever more compassionate Love. On January 21, 1974, Hatonn spoke about the manifestation of Love:

Let us simply say that whatever those who analyze desire to call the various forms of energy, which are used during the mechanism of reincarnation, each is a manifestation of Love, shaping Light in such a way that the soul may have the experiences which it desires. We would like to comment, also, about the use of the term morality. We will simply say this, and you may take it for what it is worth. It is difficult to understand intellectually. My friends, there is no morality. There is only Love. If you will radiate Love for all, you will never need to know what is right and what is wrong.

We have been told twice by this instrument that it is time for us to leave, and we, as always, are very sorry. It is such a joy to share thoughts with those who would seek them, and, indeed, as we desire to be of service greatly, you are our benefactors and we can but humbly thank you. We realize that there may be some questions, so before we conclude our discussion, we would transfer to the one known as Jim for that purpose. We would send greetings to the one known as S. Greetings and Love, my sister. We are those of Latwii.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to ask if we might be of any further [help] by attempting to respond to queries which may remain upon the minds. Again we remind each that we offer that which is our opinion. May we attempt a query at this time?

A: I just want to extend Love and thanks to you for caring for us and helping us.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there a query at this time?

Carla: When you said we are not alone, did you have in mind invisible presences or did you have in mind friends, visible ones, other seekers?

I am Latwii. My sister, you are joined on your journey by those both seen and unseen, and even though there may be times on the journey that seem quite lonely, we assure you that many marching feet and loving hearts move with you.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

A: Is there a way that we can get closer to our gods or our people that are in-between lives to help us?

I am Latwii, and each time that you move into the silence of your inner seeking, be it in meditation, contemplation, prayer, or even that which you call the daydreaming, you move closer to those sources of inspiration, guidance, and assistance that constantly surround you. It is the placement of the focus of the inner attention that allows you to touch more closely and clearly that reality which underlies all illusion.

May we speak further, my sister?

A: Yes.

I am Latwii, and we feel that we have failed in making our manner of speaking the clearest possible. We were asking if there might be a further portion of the query to which we could speak.

A: Not at this time.

I am Latwii. We thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: So, you’re not saying if you have a difficulty then obviously the thing to do is stick with it; there are other ways of evaluating it. The reason I’m asking this—let me put it in a specific context so that you’ll know what I’m saying. I have an acquaintance who is very rigid in her belief system, whom I wish to aid, and I have in the past found it completely impossible because we deal as Christians with each other and she wishes me to help her with a Christian pursuit. Unfortunately, she has discovered that I disagree with her on key points, like evangelism, which I don’t believe in, and she does. I am contemplating moving back into a relationship with her in order to serve not just her, but mostly the cause which she happens to have something to do with right now. So, you’re not saying just because she’s difficult, I should go and get in relationship with her again, right? You’re not saying that; you’re saying to evaluate it and see the lesson and once you’ve seen the lesson, then you’re more informed about what to do. Am I reading you right?

I am Latwii, and this is correct, my sister. When you have informed yourself to the greatest degree possible concerning the nature of the relationship and that which may be learned from it, then you may offer yourself as a more informed and aware entity that may contribute that which is yours to contribute in a clearer and more loving fashion because of that which you have found through your own seeking.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

Carla: Merely a comment from me that it seems that though we’re really destined to dance in the dark, because we can sort of come up with these feelings that we think we have, these realizations, but still there’s no way to check them empirically. I guess you just have to go with the best that you know—which is what we knew in the beginning.

I am Latwii, and, indeed, that dance which you do is one which is filled with mystery, for within your illusion the knowing is not possible. Only the seeking is that which is important. That which is sought with the loving heart, the strong faith, and the persevering will is that which reveals itself to you as the truth of your experience and the fabric of Love which enfolds all experience.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

Carla: Along another line. I got the same feeling tonight, believe it or not, that I got last week on the same question, that is that you had a whole lot more that you wanted to put through. Is this correct?

Latwii: I am Latwii, and it is a correct perception upon your part that there is an unending amount of information available, for as the one serving as instrument becomes more sensitive to the contact which it experiences, it begins to notice the avenues of connection between what may be seen as pools of information available upon a given topic and those which are related to this topic. We are able to transmit that which is most earnestly called for, shall we say, that which is of most importance or appropriateness at a particular time. The information which is transmitted, then, is a response to that which is sought, and the refinements of each point may continue in a parallel fashion when a certain grouping or level of information has been successfully transmitted. Thus, there is refinement and refinement further possible as well as the correlation between related subjects.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: I was evaluating whether I already knew the question. I guess I don’t. So if we ask the same question next week with the same thing that we did this week, that we feel there is more, what you say is we get refinements, or what you’re saying is we get a new body of information with endless refinements which is related organically to the original request? Is that what you’re saying?

I am Latwii, and we are having some difficulty with this instrument, for it is attempting to analyze that which we give it at this time. We shall pause for a moment and allow the deepening of the meditative state.

I am Latwii, and we shall continue. There is information available upon any topic according to the degree of attraction that is generated by the group which seeks the information. As the instrument which is utilized in the transmission of the information is able to perceive the available information, the perception and transmission of this information then creates what may be seen as a metaphysical vacuum which draws into that vacuum further information that is related to the information originally asked about. There then is the connection seen between the information given and that which may be offered in response to further querying as further levels of the information are discovered and then transmitted. The one serving as instrument, if sensitive to the contact, will be able to perceive the connections between various portions of the information and then be able to transmit the further refinements and additions to the original information that was requested.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

Carla: No, and my apologies to the instrument. I was persistent because I really wanted to know whether I should proceed next week with taking up the public meeting with this question, and I see if all are agreeable and each person in the circle would find that question interesting, that it would be satisfactory, so that’s what I wanted to know. I thank you, and that’s all for me.

Latwii:I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there a further query at this time?

A: Are there any accidental deaths?

I am Latwii. We speak of the general experience, and in this sense there are no accidents or mistakes, for the experience of each entity is carefully planned and considered before the incarnation, this including the experience of the death or the movement from the incarnation at its completion. There are, however, occasionally that which may be seen as surprises which the entity was not fully aware of. These, however, are not usual, and may be seen as somewhat of an anomaly.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

A: No, that’s all.

I am Latwii, and we thank you once again, my sister, for your query. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Is the instrument fatigued?

I am Latwii, and we find that the instrument is not fatigued, but is somewhat concerned about its level of meditation and ability to transmit in a clear fashion.

Is there another query at this time?

A: I have a new grandson. How may I best help him?

I am Latwii. We cannot speak in any specific fashion upon this particular theory, or those which might allow for the infringement of free will, for we do not wish our words to direct another’s choices, but we may speak in general in suggesting that the new entity be greeted not only upon the physical level of interaction, but also upon the metaphysical or spiritual level of experience in the meditation that sees the new entity welcomed to its new environment with the Love of the heart and the dedication of the life to walk upon the journey of seeking with this entity and to serve in whatever manner is most appropriate as each has already agreed upon and as each seeks to fulfill in manifestation those agreements made in spirit.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

A: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Latwii, and as it appears that we have exhausted the queries, and perhaps the instrument as well, we shall again thank each for inviting our presence, reminding each that we wish to offer those concepts which may be of value in the seeking, and we look forward to each such opportunity in your future. We are known to you as those of Latwii. We shall take our leave of this instrument and this group at this time, leaving each in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning the quote from The Infinite Way is: “Whenever you are faced with a problem, regardless of its nature, seek the solution within your own consciousness. Instead of seeking an answer from this or that person instead of looking for the solution outside of yourself, turn within. In the quiet and calm of your own mind, let the answer to your problem unfold itself. If the first, or second, or third time you turn in peace to the kingdom within, you fail to perceive the completed picture, try again. You will not be too late, nor will the solution appear too late. As you learn to depend on this means for the working out of your problems and experiences, you will become more and more adept in quickly discerning your mind’s revelation of harmony.

Too long have we sought our health, peace, and prosperity outside ourselves. Now let us go within and learn that here is never a failure or a disappointment in the whole realm of our consciousness, nor will we ever find delays or betrayals when we find the calm of our own Soul and the presence of an infinite Principle governing, guarding, guiding, and protecting every step of our journey through life.

Do not be surprised now when the outstanding truth unfolds to you that your consciousness is the all-power and the only power acting upon your affairs, controlling and maintaining your health and revealing to you the intelligence and direction necessary for your success in any and every walk of life. Does this astonish you? No wonder! Heretofore, your have believed that somewhere there existed a deific Power, a supreme Presence, which, if you could reach It, might aid you or even heal your body of its ills.

Now it becomes clear to you that God-consciousness is the consciousness of individual people; It is the all-power and ever-presence which will never leave you nor forsake you, and It is closer than breathing. You need not pray to It, petition It, or in any way to seek Its favor: you need but this recognition leading to the complete realization of this truth. From now on, you will relax and feel the constant assurance of the presence and power of this illumined consciousness. You can now say, “I will not fear what anyone shall do unto me.” No more will you fear conditions or circumstances seemingly outside of you or beyond your control. Now you know that all that can transpire in your experience is occurring within your consciousness and, therefore, is subject to its government and control.

Nor will you ever forget the depth of feeling accompanying this revelation within you, nor the sense of confidence and courage that immediately follows it. Life is no longer a problem-filled series of events, but a joyous succession of unfolding delights. Failure is recognized as the result of a universal belief in a power outside of ourselves; whereas success is the natural consequence of our realization of infinite power within.”

Later this morning I went outside and transplanted 9 Hostas in the Hosta Garden in front of the Forsythia Bushes in my back yard.

This afternoon I co-hosted the European Law of One Telegram Group. After I read Ra Session 85, some of the questions I was asked were: “What was the significance of knowing our negative friend’s name?” “How does the green-ray energy center function?” “How could I control my blood pressure like those entities before the veil of forgetting could do?” “What is the value of working on the first three energy centers?” “How did Carla react to me when I got angry and broke things?” and “Would I be open to channeling Q’uo with another instrument who channeled another unseen entity?”

Later this afternoon I drove to Thieneman’s to buy three bales of pine straw and some Miracle Grow fertilizer. My second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to drop off a prescription. When I got home, I transplanted 7 Hostas on the north side of the Wuthering Heights Mound. Then I watered the Hostas on the north side of the Wuthering Heights and the Hosta Garden in the back yard under the Forsythia Bushes with fertilized water.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

August 5

The Spirit Speaks To Each

I am the Spirit of Jesus the Christ. I greet each of you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

Each morning this instrument requests that she may offer the highest and best contact with us that she may. Then she names those within the meditation circle and holds them up to us.

We find, as we have so often found in those larger realms of which this instrument is not aware, that the Spirit of Jesus the Christ speaks not to Christians but to those who Love; speaks not to those who call themselves this or that kind of Christian but to those who act in a Christ-like manner whenever possible.

And we speak to those who may feel that they are lost from the Love of Jesus the Christ. We say that the Spirit speaks to each of you in a language that each understands, with comfort, strength and Love.

For the principle of Jesus the Christ is the principle of divine Love, a fiery and creative principle that makes things happen, that renews minds, souls, and hearts and gives them strength for service. The Spirit of the full consciousness of Love lies upon and is available to each who may request it.

There is peace. There is the water of peacefulness. There is the realization of the reason for that ineffable and unworldly peace. These things the Spirit leaves within you to ponder in your heart.

We leave you in the Love, the joy and, above all, the peace that endures from everlasting to everlasting. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel the Creator’s Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn channeling for this session comes from October 9, 1987:

(Carla channeling)

We are known to you as Hatonn, and we greet you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. What a privilege it is to speak with you and to be called to your meditation. We greatly enjoy merging our vibrations with your own in the silent seeking [inaudible].

We are pleased that these new instruments have been persistent in the practice of vocal channeling. The excellence which the more experienced channel may seem to have is only that excellence relative to the first beginnings. Indeed, the discipline of a life which involves the service of channeling is a rigorous one, not necessarily materially, but in the sense of the entity requiring of itself the discipline in constancy of attention and acceptance of the need to persist continually in moving in life experience ever closer to that personality which the instrument uses to stand before all external personalities which are unseen. We encourage you in the unending process of growing to know the self, appreciate the self, and discipline the self in appropriate ways to enhance the manifestation of the service which you have chosen. These words, indeed, apply not only to those who serve through channeling, but to all who seek to serve in whatever manner.

We are greatly encouraged to view so many new instruments developing well or poorly in so many portions of your Earth plane. May we say we appreciate those such as this instrument and the one known as Jim, who attempt to nurture entities which are in the process of learning the discipline of the self, the freeing of the spirit, and the art and gift of vocal channeling. Such companions upon the way are, indeed, most helpful to those attempting a new skill. We find the energy moving much better now. We, indeed, hope that these remarks have been helpful, but more than that we wish to improve the tuning of the group, for the energy is quite low for this group, and it is gaining more and more as you and we sit in meditation and approach that inner sanctum of the self, move through the inner door, and rest once again in the infinite darkness of inner space.

We shall transfer at this time to the one known as D.

(D channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you once again. We gave this instrument somewhat of a shock, hoping to take advantage of the mental state which would somewhat have enabled the sidestepping of the usual analytic tendencies. When the mind is drifting in a state which is known to you as hypnogogic, it is a relatively simple feat to direct the stream of thought. To use this state with facility might be thought of as the worthy initial goal or step along the path to vocal channeling. Becoming the passive observer of this state has other practical advantages in the growth and development of sensitivity to inner processes. Unfortunately, like the electron which quantum physicists disturb by observing it, to make use of this state and to report on it as in the act of channeling, is disturbing to the state itself until sufficient practice enables one to attain a [inaudible] processes.

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and we move to this instrument and greet you again in the Love and the Light. To continue. It is, indeed, a challenge to the new instrument to remain tuned, open, and accepting of concept, yet discriminating in the choice of those thoughts’ clothes which are words. Perhaps it may aid each instrument to consider that at each and every moment, an entity is making some use of the deeper level of consciousness. The powers of concentration lie not within the rational mind, but within the more instinctive, [inaudible] or intuitive mind, thus achieving a state of concentration which approaches sleep yet is awake and remaining there while using the other side of the mind to choose those daughters of thought with which you shall clothe our concept.

It is a frame of mind which has the pointed lesson within it, for is not all of manifestation within your illusion is benefited and enriched by the most relaxed and most focused point of view, the very point of view which instruments attempt to attain? One great fallacy of channeling theory is that the message is apart and other from than the messenger, yet we say the channel, the message, and the creator of that link ’twixt teacher and student partake of one mind and one heart, so we move from a point external to your incarnate self to find our place nestled as a part of your enlarged self, and this involves laying down the barriers which keeps self from self. We cannot come without invitation. Once asked and once there, we are an extension of your self, and both of us are an extension of the Creator, a cooperative instrument to share helpful thoughts with those who may find them of use.

In this session Hatonn spoke of the nature of vocal channeling. They began by saying it is a challenge to the new instrument to remain tuned, open, and accepting of concepts, yet discriminating in the choice of those thoughts’ clothes which are words, and it may aid each instrument to consider that at each moment an entity is making some use of the deeper level of consciousness, but the powers of concentration lie not within the rational mind, but within the intuitive mind, thus achieving a state of concentration which approaches sleep yet is awake and remaining there while using the other side of the mind to choose those daughters of thought with which you shall clothe our concept. Hatonn went on to say it is a frame of mind which has the pointed lesson within it, for: “Is not all of manifestation within your illusion enriched by the relaxed and focused point of view, the very point of view which instruments attempt to attain?” Then Hatonn said one fallacy of channeling theory is that the message is apart from the messenger, yet we say the channel, the message, and the creator of that link ’twixt teacher and student partake of one mind and one heart, so we move from a point external to your incarnate self to find our place nestled as a part of your enlarged self, and this involves laying down the barriers which keep self from self, but we cannot come without invitation, yet once asked and once there, we are an extension of your self, and both of us are an extension of the Creator, a cooperative instrument to share helpful thoughts with those who may find them of use. On November 16, 2019, Q’uo described the nature of our intuitive mind:

Thusly, when this entity becomes active on a conscious level within the third-density illusion and begins to seek within itself those lessons that it feels it has begun to sense throughout its life experience to the awakening of its consciousness to the journey of spiritual seeking, then these pre-incarnative lessons are offered to the conscious seeking self by the soul level beingness, so that the unconscious mind, then, which is in contact with the soul level, begins to color those types of lessons or catalyst that the conscious-seeking entity encounters repeatedly within each day of its incarnation in one manner or another.

Thus, if the entity uses both its conscious mind to evaluate its experiences and its intuitive mind to become more aware of what lessons may be appropriate for it and may be presenting themselves to it, then the intuition and the analytical mind can work together to give the conscious seeking self an idea, a framework, a sketch of what it is that it wishes to learn, for each such entity, on the conscious path of seeking the truth, there are but a handful of such lessons. These lessons will repeat themselves time and time again in one form or another, so that the conscious seeking self may become aware of the lessons by utilizing both the conscious mind and the intuition, to flesh out the skeleton of the lessons to be learned.

We ask that you begin more and more as entities and as instruments to trust the self, to relax within the self, so that there is within the heart a growing atmosphere of who the self really is. We ask you to feel good about yourselves. Simple words, but difficult in their application. As each uses the tools of meditation and contemplation, converse with those of like mind, and the communication of self with nature, each will find more and more that the state of mind which is conducive to the practice of vocal channeling is approached by the self in more and more life experience, which means that upon a personal level, the deep mind and all of the riches which it has to offer shall be in a position to be channeled from the self to the self, those deeper thoughts and intuitions coming forth into manifestation and greatly informing the process of ratiocination.

For most, this focused, peaceful, receptive state of mind is one learned through experience. Though some are naturally gifted, most must practice to achieve that state of mind wherein deeper desires and sources of information may [inaudible] and make themselves known. And what shall come out of such discipline? Not only the vocal channeling though this is, indeed, if this be your application, most greatly appreciated by us in levels [inaudible]. Yet more than all this, when we hope that these disciplines of knowing the self’s identity, of declaring the self confidently, and that of surrendering to the will and the Love of the Creator, will be those which you may use in the life’s experience. The self-consciousness of humankind is a great stumbling block, a block thrown up by the [inaudible] self to prevent change, yet each of you wishes to change, and we are most happy at your desire to serve.

Hatonn went on to say we ask that you begin as entities and as instruments to trust the self, to relax within the self, so that there is within the heart a growing atmosphere of who the self really is, and we ask you to feel good about yourselves, for as each uses the tools of meditation and contemplation, with those of like mind, and the communication of self with nature, each will find that the state of mind which is helpful to the practice of vocal channeling is approached by the self in more life experiences which means that the deep mind and all of the riches which it has to offer shall be in a position to be channeled from the self to the self, those deeper thoughts and intuitions coming forth into manifestation and informing the process of rational thinking. Now Hatonn said for most this focused state of mind is one learned through experience, but some are naturally gifted, yet most must practice to achieve that state of mind wherein sources of information make themselves known, and this is vocal channeling, so if this is your application this is appreciated by us in levels [inaudible] yet when we hope that these disciplines of knowing the self’s identity and that of surrendering to the will and the Love of the Creator, will be those experiences which you may use in the life’s experience, for the self-consciousness of humankind is a stumbling block thrown up by the [inaudible] self to prevent change, yet each of you wishes to change, and we are happy at your desire to serve. On May 11, 1986, L/Leema described sources of information:

All sources of information within or without the Confederation of Planets are the Creator and yet speak for the Creator as instruments. Yet as an instrument, each may utilize its own experience to give a richer, deeper, and perhaps purer view to a specific entity which is of like vibration, shall we say. Thus, many, many upon your planetary surface throughout its recorded history have been touched in what may be called a sacred way and have through such inspiration shared with others the words of wisdom and of nourishment which they themselves have found useful.

We will at this time transfer to the one known as N. I am Hatonn.

(N channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you once again. We ask that the instrument occasionally receives [inaudible] physical change [inaudible] to make a change while the instrument is just that [inaudible] required such as [inaudible] occasionally happens. We are pleased with the perseverance of this group, and feel that, because of its [inaudible] and informality, proceedings—the procedures are advancing quite nicely. We are again pleased to join this group and happy that the entities [inaudible] are giving their time to teach their [inaudible] brothers.

We take leave of this instrument at this time. We leave you in love and light. I am Hatonn.

(Jim channeling)

I am Hatonn, and we teach once again through this instrument. At this time, we shall ask if we may serve in a further fashion by attempting to respond to any queries those present may have to offer us. Is there a query with which we may begin?

N: Yes. I may ask—you had said earlier tonight that this group was one of low energy. Did you mean at this point, at this session, or [inaudible] this group is perhaps with more low energy than others?

I am Hatonn. Our reference to the level of energy of this group was directed toward this particular evening, for each of those present has a marked degree of physical and/or mental weariness, which is not characteristic of this group, for each [inaudible] in the more normal configuration of energy complexes is quite well supplied with the necessary energy levels, and we made that comment to assure each that we can work with this group when it is experiencing less than normal energies, and that we were aware that each was experiencing some degree of fatigue.

May we speak further, my sister?

N: No, thank you.

I am Hatonn. We thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

D: Well, one of the most valuable, the priceless thing about this experience, opportunity, that I have here is the immediate feedback you are able to give me on my own experience. Tonight I felt like I was really carrying the ball on my own, that I did not feel a contact. I felt that I was generating most of what I was saying. Was that the case tonight more than usual? Could you comment on what you refer to as the proportion factor tonight?

I am Hatonn. At the outset of our contact through your instrument, we were pleased that we were able to make the contact quickly and, as you may say, cleanly, in that there was an easy initiation of the transfer of our thought through your instrument. The contact for the most part was of the majority of our transmission. However, as the ending…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Hatonn and am with this instrument once again. The physical sensation of the shock was an attempt upon our part to alert you in a fashion which would be easily apparent that the contact was impending. We are not always successful with this technique, for we are not well trained in the adjustment of our contact to new instruments, and we were hopeful that we could provide a physical reassurance that the contact was being made without causing undue discomfort.

D: Well, I wasn’t sure if I generated that myself, because I was expecting you to transfer to Jim, and besides, it’s reassuring to have that kind of feedback about the sensation.

I have another question, unrelated. N, do you have anything to ask while I formulate this, or Carla?

Carla: No, I don’t have any questions tonight.

N: I can’t think of anything right now.

D: You spoke earlier, and I don’t remember the exact context—it’s gotten away from me—about what I have been thinking of as fears of the ego, the self-consciousness or embarrassment, and something which to a higher level might be a fear of ridicule or loss of self-esteem. I’ve been thinking just in the last week or two of the origin of that kind of ego-based fear as opposed to fears which might be more based in our instincts and wondering what the connection between them is. I’ve had a sort of a theory through much of my life that most of our fears that lead to neurotic behavior have roots in the fear of death, and our other fears are just transformations of that basic fear, but I do not see a connection between that type of fear and these other ego fears. Would you have anything to contribute to that subject in response to this very poorly asked question?

I am Hatonn. Within your third-density illusion, the process of the individualization of a portion of consciousness which you call your self has reached its zenith in that there is no doubt to any of your people that each exists as an entity unto itself. The process of this individualization of consciousness has evolved through the state of the second density, plant and animal alike, as you know them, in which the preservation of the self through the mechanism that you know as fight or flight is the foremost concern of the entity. This almost universal drive for survival, then, carries forth into the third density, and is diversified or refined by the conscious description of the self to the self in terms that are learned as a part of the socialization and educational processes which each of your entities undergoes in some fashion.

Thus, each third-density entity thinks of itself as being this and that, not this and not that, in the various areas of study and learning, until each entity has compiled a foundation sense of self with variations for each entity in certain areas. Thus, the entity begins to think of itself in a manner that has certain boundaries. When these boundaries are challenged or threatened by any other self, whether it be the physical challenge or the mental and emotional challenge of ridicule, questioning, and the like, the conscious self begins to gather its defenses when the alarm of fear of losing a certain portion of the self is felt.

D asked: “I’ve been thinking just in the last week or two of the origin of that kind of ego-based fear as opposed to fears which might be more based in our instincts and wondering what the connection between them is. I’ve had a sort of a theory through much of my life that most of our fears that lead to neurotic behavior have roots in the fear of death, and our other fears are just transformations of that basic fear, but I do not see a connection between that type of fear and these other ego fears. Would you have anything to contribute to that subject in response to this very poorly asked question?” Hatonn said within your third-density illusion, the process of individualization of a portion of consciousness of your self has reached its zenith in that there is no doubt to any of your people that each exists as an entity unto itself, for the process of this individualization of consciousness has evolved through the state of the second density, plant and animal alike, in which the preservation of the self through the mechanism of fight or flight is of most concern, and this universal drive for survival carries forth into the third density and is refined by the conscious description of the self to the self in terms that are learned as a part of the educational processes which each of your entities undergoes. Then Hatonn said each third-density entity thinks of itself as being this and that, not this and not that, in the various areas of study until each entity has compiled a foundational sense of self with variations for each entity in certain areas, so the entity begins to think of itself in a manner that has certain boundaries, and when these boundaries are challenged by any other self, whether it be the physical challenge or the mental and emotional challenge of ridicule, the conscious self begins to gather its defenses when the alarm of fear of losing a certain portion of the self is felt. On December 9, 1987, Hatonn spoke of the nature of our conscious self:

There is great benefit to the conscious self when this state is contacted for the practice of meditation which allows the entity to enter this state. It is one which builds a bridge between the conscious self and a greater portion of the self which may be more or less informed by the higher self and the increasingly coherent and integral magical personality. Thus, the conscious self, during these times of meditation within this state of consciousness, is being nourished by the qualities of the greater being.

May we speak further, my brother?

D: So you might say they’re sort of similar and synchronous effects, but one doesn’t derive from the other. They have a common root. Is that correct?

I am Hatonn. The first is more of the unconscious mind and the second—that of the conscious description of the self to the self—is of the conscious construction of the entity. However, since this construction takes place throughout the entire period of the incarnation, the feeling of selfness thus constructed is quite strong and in various areas way be liable to the threat of intrusion or dissolution, depending on the nature and strength of the perceived threat.

May we speak further, my brother?

D: No, not at this time. I would like to study what you said. This has been a major issue in my life, and I may like to ask you about it later. Thank you very much.

I am Hatonn, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

D: I have nothing else.

I am Hatonn, and we thank each for presenting the queries that are of importance in the personal seeking, for we learn much about each within your illusion when we observe such queries, and are grateful for the opportunity of offering our humble opinions in each area of concern. We again commend each in this group for the continued pursuing of the practice of serving as a vocal instrument, and we look forward to each gathering as an opportunity to refine not only each instrument’s abilities, but as an opportunity also to refine our abilities to work with each instrument in a fashion which allows the greatest development of the potential for service that exists in each entity.

We shall at this time take our leave of this group, thanking each again for inviting our presence. We are known to you as those of Hatonn. We leave each in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends, Adonai.

This morning the quote from The Infinite Way is: “The story is told that when Marconi was very young, he was confident that he would be the one to give wireless to the world and not the many older scientists who had been experimenting for years. After he had fulfilled his promise, he was asked why he had been so certain that he would succeed. His answer was that the other scientists were seeking first to discover a means to overcome resistance in the air to the messages that would be set through the air whereas he had already discovered that there was no resistance.

The world is fighting a power of evil, but we have discovered there is no such power. While materia medica seeks to overcome or cure disease, and theology struggles to overcome sin, we have learned there is no reality to disease or sin, and our so-called healings are brought about through this understanding.

We know that there are these human appearances called sin and disease, but we know that because of the infinite spiritual nature of our being, they are not realities of being; they are not evil power; they have no principle to support them; therefore, they exist only as unrealities accepted as realities, illusion accepted as condition, the misinterpretation of what actually is.

We bind ourselves by believing that there is a power outside of us—a power for good or for evil. All power is given to you. And this power is always good because of the infinite Source whence it flows. The recognition of this great fact brings a peace and a joy untold yet felt by all who come within range of your thought. It makes you beloved of people. It brings you cognition and reward. It establishes you in the thoughts of men and women and becomes the foundation of an eternal good will.”

Later this morning I went outside and discovered that there was one more weeding job that would require me to use Whip Lash to weed The Moss Garden. I began by using Huff and Puff to blow the leaves and tree bark off of The Moss Garden across Little Locust Creek. Then I used Whip Lash to weed The Moss Garden. Then I used Huff and Puff to blow the weeds across Little Locust Creek.

This afternoon I kept a 1 pm appointment with my dermatologist to have my prescription for Mupiricin refilled. Then I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Thieneman’s Nursery where I bought 27 Hostas. My second stop was at PNC Bank where I made a cash withdrawal. My third stop was at Frank Otte’s nursery where I bought two trays of various colors of flowers. My fourth stop was at Kroeger’s where I bought some food for myself. My last stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought more food for myself. When I got home, I took 12 Hostas, a shovel, and two 5-gal. buckets to my next-door neighbor’s driveway where deer had eaten many of their Hostas. I weeded them and filled one of the 5-gal. buckets with the weeds. Then I transplanted the 12 Hostas in the open spaces between the Hostas, most of which had been eaten. Then I watered all of the Hostas. Then I put the netting over all of the Hostas.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

August 4

The Languages Of Love

I am of that principle of Love which has been embodied forth in full manifestation in Jesus the Christ. I greet you in that Love and in the living waters of its manifestation even unto this day, this hour, and this minute.

This instrument has wondered why we speak both as “I” and as “we.” We are all one principle, yet each seeking entity has its own perceptions of pain and comfort, and so to one we shall appear upon one vibration and to another, another, just as your languages differ. Yet all may be used by the Spirit to speak words of peace, comfort, and transformation.

There is no circumstance, no personality, no mind, or spirit, or emotion which can keep one who seeks from the fire of Love: Love that may transform, Love that may enable the Love that lies within you, each of you.

Know that there is nothing that may keep you from the principle of Love.

Know that comfort comes to you as you, in your unique way, as you ask for it, seek it, and are able to hear it.

We leave you, as always, in the one peace which comforts all, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel the Creator’s Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Latwii channeling for this session comes from October 4, 1987:

Why is it so difficult to radiate in Love and Light to those nearest and dearest to us, our mates for example, rather than being as easy as to those we don’t know as well?

(Carla channeling)

I am Latwii. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of one infinite Creator and in gratitude do those of us who call ourselves Latwii send blessings and Love to each, yet most especially to the one known as B whom we have not sat with in this circle for some time. Please know that we travel, even to Nova Scotia, and are with the one known as B at her request. It is, indeed, a delight to be with this group. We have great delight in sharing your meditation and are even hopeful of taking a flyer at the question posed this evening. We hope you will pardon us our adjustments and non-meaningful comments as we adjust ourselves to this instrument whom we have not used for some of your time. We would tell jokes, except it would disturb this instrument’s concentration; for our sober delivery we do apologize. We like to put a little more color in our meetings, but this instrument has grown sober minded of late, we fear. We feel we have good contact now.

You state that Love and Light seem far more easily given to any besides the immediate family, the mate, the loved ones. And you wonder why this is so and what can be done to bring the situation to balance. We would like to take a long look, a look from another vantage point, at this same situation in hopes that we may be of some service. As always, we could be wrong, for we are only pilgrims, as you. Therefore, we pray that you will use your discrimination to recognize what is true for you and pass the rest. The entity which is in incarnation within third density upon your planet’s surface at this time is an entity of a certain kind. This is an entity which is, within the heart, and the heart of hearts, one with the Creator and co-Creator of the entire universe. Around this seed of Love, Love being the nature of deity, there grows a large amount of material, thoughts, biases, motives, opinions, understandings, experiences, mind, heart, emotions, the body and the demands of the body. And where the field of force of a unit of consciousness seemingly stops, there starts the vibrations of all else which are perceived by the incarnate being as those things which are other than the self and which in some way may need a reaction from the self. This is your incarnate situation.

Perhaps you have thought about why you are in incarnation at this particular time under these particular circumstances. When the circumstances are difficult, that concern, that query, that, “Why me? Why now? Why this?” becomes a threnody of unspent tears, restrained grief, quiet sorrow. And it is all too easy to see things from within the body, which is within the other and far, so very far, from the Light whence all sense they have come and for which each pilgrim yearns. Yet, let us examine this stance and see if we really think this is the situation. It is the opinion of Latwii that the situation is other. It is our understanding that the one infinite Creator and all those helping forces, which you call by name such as guardian angel, higher self, spirit guides, and teachers, have conspired with you in your heart of hearts, e’er incarnation ever began, gazing at the plan of the one infinite Creator for harmonizing all things, balancing all things, offering the maximum opportunity for service, for learning, for growth.

In this session Latwii spoke of why it is so difficult to radiate in Love and Light to those nearest and dearest to us. Latwii began by saying you state that Love and Light seem more easily given to any besides the immediate family, the mate, the loved ones, and you wonder why this is so and what can be done to bring the situation into balance, so we would like to take a look, from another vantage point, at this same situation in hopes that we may be of service, for we could be wrong since we are pilgrims, as you are, and we pray that you will use your discrimination to recognize what is true for you and pass the rest, so the entity in incarnation within third density upon your planet’s surface at this time is an entity of a certain kind, for this is an entity which is, within the heart of hearts, one with the Creator and co-Creator of the entire universe, but around this seed of Love, Love being the nature of deity, there grows a large amount of thoughts, experiences, mind, heart, emotions, and the demands of the body, and where the field of force of a unit of consciousness stops, there starts the vibrations of all else which are perceived by the incarnate being as those things which are other than the self and which in some way may need a reaction from the self, and this is your incarnate situation. Then Latwii said perhaps you have thought about why you are in incarnation at this time under these circumstances, and when the circumstances are difficult, that concern, that query, that, “Why me? Why now? Why this?” becomes a quiet sorrow, and it is easy to see things from within the body, which is within the other entities and far from the Light where all sense they have come, and for which each pilgrim yearns, yet let us examine this stance, and see if we really think this is the situation, so it is our understanding that the one infinite Creator and all those helping forces such as your guardian angel, higher self, spirit guides, and teachers have conspired with you in your heart of hearts, before your incarnation began, gazing at the plan of the one infinite Creator for harmonizing all things and offering the opportunity for service and growth. On March 29, 2001, Q’uo described the nature of our guardian angel:

And it is perhaps helpful in terms of what we would give to this entity at this time to figure forth this Potentiator as the guardian angel, the guidance, the guru, the agent of divine change. This is an entity royal with that same Creatorship, full of the essence of that great Self which is the one original Thought which is Love. Although each may fruitfully, at other times, see this agent as the self, yet in this discussion we will allow the seeing of this agent as a gift-giver to one who opens the hands without knowing what it has.

It is our understanding that out of this creative collaboration of the personal self, the impersonal self, and that great non-personal self, which is the Christed deity of Love, have offered an incarnational plan which is without reference to what might have been or what should have been, the precise plan for maximizing the opportunities of the incarnation for learning, for growth, and for service. Thusly, when the question is asked, “Why this? Why now? Why me?” the question by itself, by its very nature, blocks the flow of the harmonious unfoldment of the self’s plan which is the Creator’s plan as it concerns your precious, much adored and eternal self. With this said, it may be seen that, in our opinion, the correct question to ask in the circumstance of seeming disharmony is along the lines of a Love letter to the self: Dearly beloved, sweet confused Self,“ you should say to yourself. “It must be so that this circumstance is blessed, for there is nothing in all creation that is not blessed. Therefore, Creator/Creation, show me, speak to me, let me know where the Love is, where the learning, and where the service in this situation which I know beyond all appearance to be good. Signed, Your puzzled surface mind.

Let us suggest that the surface self—by which we mean the entire conscious thinking self of which you are aware—is a hostage sent out into a seemingly chaotic sea of experiences which are grounded in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. Upon your planet you have the trading of money and the buying of land and ownership seems to be reality. In truth, one has only to gaze upon your beautiful planet from the vantage point of orbit about it to see that it is the Creator’s planet, every square inch. Your life also is not owned by you. You are rather a tenant, one who rents temporarily the honeyed spark of Earth life, the sharp sting of experience, for pleasure or for woe. Now, how does a lease-holder operate when the landlord is seemingly absent? Often, because there is no ownership, the premises are not fixed up or repaired, the grounds are not beautified, and the rented place has the look of transience, not the look of Loving care. Yet, what if that property were owned by the Creator, who gives freely, Loves dearly and asks only that as you rent the property, you Love it, cherish it, beautify it, harmonize it, so that it welcomes all in comfort. Such is your choice in the living of the tenanted life in a temporary physical vehicle. Know and remember that the circumstances that you have are the house of your experience at this time. Treasure the Creator’s house and know it to be good and bring it increase by planted seed which takes faith, in brightly covered pillows and cushions of thought and deed, to beautify even more the Creator’s wonderful gift. Know that your stewardship of this life which you count from the first breath to the last of your physical body is the stewardship of a spark of infinite creation, a consciousness that is the consciousness of Love itself, and honor that which you are.

Latwii went on to say it is our understanding that out of this creative collaboration of the personal self, the impersonal self, and that great non-personal self, which is the Christed deity of Love, have offered an incarnational plan which is without reference to what might have been or what should have been, the precise plan for maximizing the opportunities of the incarnation for learning, for growth, and for service, so when the questions are asked, “Why this? Why now? Why me?” the question by its very nature blocks the flow of the harmonious unfoldment of the self’s plan which is the Creator’s plan as it concerns your eternal self, and it may be seen that the correct question to ask in the circumstance of disharmony is along the lines of a Love letter to the self: Dearly beloved, sweet, confused Self,“ you should say to yourself. “It must be so that this circumstance is blessed, so Creator/Creation let me know where the Love is and where the service is in this situation which I know to be good. Signed, Your puzzled surface mind. Latwii continued by suggesting that the conscious thinking self of which you are aware is a hostage sent out into a chaotic sea of experiences which are grounded in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator, so upon your planet you have trading money and buying land, and ownership seems to be the reality, but one has only to gaze upon your planet from the vantage point of orbit about it to see that it is the Creator’s planet, and your life is not owned by you, for you are a tenant, one who rents for pleasure or for woe, yet: “How does a lease-holder operate when the landlord is absent?” Latwii said because there is no ownership, the grounds are not beautified, and the rented place has the look of transience, not the look of Loving care, yet what if that property were owned by the Creator, who Loves dearly and asks that as you rent the property, you Love it and beautify it, so that it welcomes all in comfort, for such is your choice in living the tenanted life in a temporary physical body, and remember that the circumstances that you have are the house of your experience at this time, yet treasure the Creator’s house and bring it increase by planted seed which takes faith, and know that your stewardship of this life which you count from the first breath to the last of your physical body is the stewardship of a spark of infinite creation, a consciousness that is the consciousness of Love itself, and honor that which you are. On January 4, 1976, Hatonn described the consciousness of Love:

Even the least of those have been born in Love, and if you can realize this Love within them, you have given them the reality within their center. Such service as this is what links you to your center; is what keeps you within reality. The consciousness of Love will continue forever. Your consciousness of Love will be your spiritual personality for eternity. Within this consciousness, the cycles of life and death are merely periods which seem as meaningless as the ticking noise of a clock seems in a year.

Within the consciousness of the physical illusion, life and death are weighty and serious matters, and shocking even to discuss. Within the consciousness of Love, all is one, and there is nothing to fear. And no one to resist. All that you see is Love. We say this to some of you especially who are anointed with the ability, yet who have not used this ability on all occasions.

Those who hear these words may also take comfort in the following thought, and that is that some of you have chosen not only to experience within the incarnation to learn to grow and to serve, but also to maintain the high places within the consciousness, the watchtowers of Love, which beam forth as Light sources to the planet upon which you now enjoy incarnation, to the entities upon it, to the Earth itself, and to those energetic vibratory levels within the Earth’s atmospheres which are in dire need of that great watch, faithfully held. Those of you to whom these words express a recognizable duty and honor may know that whether you seem to be a businessman, a homemaker, a queen, or a shepherd, there is that inner citadel, at the top of which is a watchtower, and the only lamp that is lit is the lamp lit by the deepest heart as it gazes in worship and adoration from Light into Light, knowing Light, accepting Light, blessing Light and allowing the crystal of the heart of hearts to turn the self into the metaphysical lamp upon the hillside, the city upon the hill, not for the notice or understanding or thanks of mankind, but for the doing of it alone, for the keeping of the watch. In many cases this, the keeping of a faithful watch, is the primary mission or task set for the self before the incarnation.

There are many wanderers which will recognize themselves in these words, wanderers who have come to a confused and baffling plane and are saturated in the intricacies of incarnation, yet who still, again and again, in thought stray to the watchtower. If it calls you, go, not only in meditation. Allow the watchtower to call you again and again, for moments, for minutes, hours, for the incarnation, until your desire to serve as conduit for Light and Love on the totally unspoken vibratory planes is satisfied. One more thought as we leave you through this instrument. The entities which have come within the care of those who find these relationships difficult are entities that you may have chosen to learn from by suffering, coming to understand the expectations and attachments which lead to suffering and moving thence more and more towards a balancing of “the way of a man with a maid,” as this instrument would quote.

Latwii continued by saying those who hear these words may take comfort in knowing that some of you have chosen to learn, to grow, and to serve but also to maintain the high places within the watchtowers of Love which beam forth as Light sources to the planet upon which you now enjoy incarnation, to the entities upon it, to the Earth itself, and to those energetic vibratory levels within the Earth’s atmosphere which is in need of that great watch, faithfully held, for those of you to whom these words express a duty and honor may know that whether you seem to be a businessman, a homemaker, or a shepherd, there is that inner citadel, at the top of which is a watchtower, and the only lamp that is lit is the lamp lit by the deepest heart as it gazes in worship from Light into Light and accepting Light and allowing the crystal of the heart of hearts to turn the self into the metaphysical lamp upon the hillside for the doing of it alone, for the keeping of the watch, so in many cases the keeping of a faithful watch is the primary mission set for the self before the incarnation. Then Latwii said there are many wanderers which will recognize themselves in these words, wanderers who have come to a confused plane and are saturated in the intricacies of incarnation, yet who in thought stray to the watchtower, so if it calls you, go, not only in meditation, but allow the watchtower to call you again and again for hours or for the incarnation, until your desire to serve as conduit for Light and Love on the totally unspoken vibratory planes is satisfied, but we have one more thought as we leave you through Carla is the entities which have come within the care of those who find these relationships difficult are entities that you may have chosen to learn from by suffering, coming to understand the expectations which lead to suffering and moving towards a balancing of “the way of a man with a maid,” as Carla would quote. On December 20, 1987, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the watchtower:

The successful channel, whether vocal or otherwise, is one whose heart is happy, one whose wings are spread, yet one who is not impatient for the song to sing or the winds to take wing. It is up to each to decide in what way service lies. Many there are upon your planet who sit, shall we say, at the top of a great watchtower, gazing upon infinity and bearing the sadness and futility of apparent human existence, and with that open and terrible gaze, that pitiless eye, seeing the perfection, the beauty, and the harmony of that great plan wherein self shall meet self until all selves have met and merged and again we are One, the one Creator, the one original Thought which is Love, not Love as you and I know it in a personal sense, but the Love that builds and explodes the very stars themselves.

It is rare, in these latter days of your cycle, that any two mated entities are together for the first time. Often the two are together, one to challenge the other and the other to challenge the first, for those things which are the most difficult within physical incarnation are, indeed, the expressing of a clear Love energy to the entity closest to one. This has nothing to do in general as a principle with the relative pleasantness or unpleasantness of the personality with whom you are involved. It has to do, rather, with the dailiness of experience and that great tendency of the personal self to form attachments to the outcome of one’s behavior. It is, if not easy, certainly easier to Love the stranger, the acquaintance, or the friend whom one sees only socially, to share with that person all Love and all Light, than it is to express that full-fruited, open-hearted song of joy to one who has not fulfilled your expectations.

Now, my friends, we ask you to examine your human personalities. There is within them a strong instinct for justice, for rightness, for fairness, for absolute values. These desires, these hopes are excellent. The difficulty lies in attempting to apply them in service to self, for it is service to self to wish that others might behave toward you in a certain manner, might give you certain portions of the time, the money, the caring, the touching. How difficult it is to set one’s mate completely free and to stand only and eternally as friend and partner within the life experience. How very difficult that challenge feels. We do not negate it for you and tell you it is a small thing. It is one of the greater lessons of third density to cease in the expectation of any outcome for any action which you may choose to do in your desire to be of service.

Now Latwii said it is rare, in these latter days of your cycle, that any two mated entities are together for the first time, for often the two are together, one to challenge the other and the other to challenge the first, for those things which are difficult within incarnation are expressing a clear Love energy to the entity closest to one, but this has nothing to do as a principle with the relative pleasantness or unpleasantness of the personality with whom you are involved, for it has to do, with the dailiness of experience and that tendency of the personal self to form attachments to the outcome of one’s behavior, and it is easier to Love the stranger or the friend whom one sees only socially, to share with that person all Love and Light, than it is to express that open-hearted song of joy to one who has not fulfilled your expectations. Latwii went on to say we ask you to examine your human personalities, for there is within them an instinct for fairness and absolute values, and these hopes are excellent, but the difficulty lies in attempting to apply them in service to self, for it is service to self to wish that others might behave toward you in a certain manner, for how difficult it is to set one’s mate free and to stand only as friend within the life experience, and how difficult that challenge feels, yet we do not negate it for you and tell you it is a small thing because it is one of the greater lessons of third density to cease in the expectation of any outcome for any action which you may choose to do in your desire to be of service. On October 11, 1987, Q’uo spoke of the nature of natural values:

We speak to those who already believe that there is a plane of absolute values. We speak to those who tentatively accept that God, as you call the Creator, is Love, and that each is a portion of that Creator, a holograph of that Creator, and that the basic thrust of the life experience is to live it more and more lovingly and be of more and more service to the Creator and to each other, that Love may abound and that this illusion may be penetrated.

Think of yourself, then, as a spiritual being, as the Creator Itself, one which does not need others except so that it may be of service to the Creator by means of service to them. Experience the joy in a mated relationship of knowing that that entity which is your mate will mirror to you those very things about the self that are out of balance so that the self may work upon them. There is a harmony within the universe which is absolute. All that you experience, and all that you see, and all that of what you hear is a portion of an harmonious development of creation which in every fiber praises, expresses and manifests that great original Thought of Love. If you are weary, move in thought to the citadel which has windows to heaven, and gaze beyond the stars at the profound and tumultuous joy which is crystallized in every star, in every piece of the infinite creation, in every piece of consciousness, and know that you are in the process of shaping, and faceting, and crystallizing your own expression of the infinite Creator so that your consciousness more and more has a heartbeat of joy and peace. And if that joy and peace flees before the footstep of the dearly beloved mate, one with which one does not agree, acknowledge the disagreement, smile at the thought of remaining upon the surface, and move away from the here and now of illusion into the far deeper, timeless present of infinite Love.

Five seconds within the citadel of that consciousness may, indeed, create that mind even upon the surface of things which may see the true harmony that is the plan of the infinite Creator, a plan which incorporates free will at every turn, a plan where the essential and unmovable lessons are there in emotional and mental structure awaiting the clothing of circumstance, so that if you face a circumstance and are not able to see Love within it, you may rest secure and peaceful in the realization that that same circumstance shall come to you again, and it shall be a time of testing. And each time, it matters not whether you win or lose the game of consciousness-raising; it matters greatly whether you purely, deeply, lovingly intend so to create Love.

Those about you may not understand your point of view. It is not necessary…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

…it is not necessary that any understand you. Let it be your hope, rather, to gaze upon the situation with the faith and truth in the Creator’s plan, in your own plan, and with firm intention to offer to the situation your Love, your understanding, for you shall not receive Love, and you shall not receive understanding by seeking it, but only by attempting to give it.

Then Latwii said think of yourself as a spiritual being, as the Creator Itself, one which does not need others except that it may be of service to the Creator by means of service to them, and experience joy in a mated relationship of knowing that that entity which is your mate will mirror to you those things about the self that are out of balance, so that the self may work upon them, for there is a harmony within the universe which is absolute, and all that you experience, and all that you see, and all that of what you hear is a portion of an harmonious development of creation which in every fiber manifests that great original Thought of Love, but if you are weary, move in thought to the citadel which has windows to heaven and gaze beyond the stars at the joy which is crystallized in every piece of the infinite creation and know that you are in the process of crystallizing your expression of the infinite Creator, so that your consciousness has a heartbeat of joy and peace, yet if that joy and peace flees before the footstep of the beloved mate, one with which one does not agree, acknowledge the disagreement, smile at the thought of remaining upon the surface, and move away from the here and now of illusion into the deeper, timeless present of infinite Love. Now Latwii said five seconds within the citadel of that consciousness may create that mind upon the surface of things which may see the harmony that is the plan of the infinite Creator, a plan which incorporates free will, a plan where the essential lessons are there in emotional and mental structure awaiting the clothing of circumstance, so if you face a circumstance and are not able to see Love within it, you may rest in the realization that that same circumstance shall come to you again, and it shall be a time of testing, but each time it matters not whether you win or lose the game of consciousness-raising, yet it matters whether you intend so to create Love, but those about you may not understand your point of view, and it is not necessary that any understand you, but let it be your hope to gaze upon the situation with the faith in the Creator’s plan, in your own plan, and with firm intention to offer to the situation your Love, for you shall not receive Love, and you shall not receive understanding by seeking it, but only by attempting to give it. On September 11, 1994, Q’uo described the nature of the Creator’s plan:

Within this web of sense perceptions, within this inner universe, seemingly the self is at the center, and events impinge upon that self from without. The telephone rings. The mail lands upon the desk. The door opens to bring more concerns, more things into the environment. Each seeker alone is not trapped but certainly encouraged to remain within that perceptive web, seeking the infinite One as best it can.

However, the Creator’s plan for your particular illusion contains one essential adjustment to this personal world view. That adjustment is in the perceptual shape of the realization from the inside rather than from the outside that others, other selves besides the self, are those who are able to express lucidly and clearly the presence of the infinite Creator. At first the seeker is involved in the perceptions having to do with seeing the self without regard to others. As this attempt deepens, the seeker begins to collect the memories of those entities which said just the most helpful, the most correct thing in order to open the door within the heart which invites the Creator in. And we find that we become for others that same witness to the Light. Perhaps we, ourselves, might not feel like the mirror of the infinite Creator, yet another may find within what we say that encouragement and support that turns the seeker’s heart to remembrance.

We shall be with you in the citadel of the waiting, trusting, loving consciousness. We shall be with you, as part of you is in the citadel, and the other doing the ironing, the dishes, the blueprint, the lesson plan, the design, the painting or whatever occupies the life. Those who serve most effectively are quite simply those who remain persistently, and doggedly, and joyfully aware that there is rightness, appropriateness and wonderful opportunity in your situation right now. You certainly do not know all about why the situation is helpful. This is far better learned in meditation, and may we say that we see meditation as a time of moving up into the citadel and then moving away from the window into the inner room, into the darkness, into the silence, into that which seems nothing, that you may trust and allow the silence and the darkness to teach you, to fill you, to repair you, to nurse, cherish and comfort you. Then you may in mind climb down the tower steps, step out onto your tenanted life experience, gaze at the troublesome mate, the difficult situation, with faith and Love anew and know that you are an ambassador, an ambassador of Love and Light.

May each of you treat his or her mate as a friend, expecting nothing, offering all, and knowing when that balanced all is sufficient, so that you do not become the martyr, but rather do all things in joy, without reference to any other, but acting as a sovereign, a king or queen of the great kingdom of your consciousness you shall be a bad tenant no more, but, rather, exercise great stewardship in your days and nights, moving into whatever streets, whatever alleys, whatever situations your harmonious unfolding plan offers you, yet remaining more and more within the citadel where a portion of you keeps faithful watch for all of humankind. If you knew the tears of joy that we feel as we gaze upon those who keep that lonely watch, lost to true knowledge of what they are doing, going only on faith and trust, you would perhaps feel comforted, for you are never alone in the citadel that gazes upon the Creator.

Latwii continued by saying we shall be with you in the citadel of the Loving consciousness as part of you is in the citadel, and the other doing the ironing, the dishes, or whatever occupies the life, for those who serve effectively are those who remain joyfully aware that there is a wonderful opportunity in your situation now, but you do not know why the situation is helpful since this is better learned in meditation, and we see meditation as a time of moving up into the citadel and then moving into the silence, into that which seems nothing, so that you may trust and allow the silence to teach you and comfort you, for then you may in mind climb down the tower steps, step out onto your everyday life experience, gaze at the troublesome mate, the difficult situation, with faith and Love anew and know that you are an ambassador Love and Light. Latwii finished their thoughts by saying may each of you treat your mate as a friend, expecting nothing, offering all, and knowing when that balanced all is sufficient that you do not become a martyr, but rather do all things in joy, acting as a king or queen of the kingdom of your consciousness you shall be a bad tenant no more but exercise stewardship in your days and nights, moving into whatever situations your harmonious unfolding plan offers you, yet remaining more within the citadel where a portion of you keeps faithful watch for all of humankind, yet if you knew the tears of joy that we feel as we gaze upon those who keep that lonely watch, lost to true knowledge of what they are doing, going only on faith and trust, you would feel comforted, for you are never alone in the citadel that gazes upon the Creator. On August 25, 2006, Q’uo said that we are never alone:

Know that you are never alone. Your guidance is with you. Many angelic presences surround you. The world of nature is very aware of you and responds to every heartbeat and every footfall of your life. It is an interactive universe, my sister. And all of it is in Love with you. And all of it thanks you so much for Loving it. Keep that feeling. Remember it and let it bring you home to yourself.

We have been most grateful to have used this instrument which is somewhat fatigued. We hope that we have not spoken overlong. We were attempting to be very brief and snappy, but perhaps the question was too good for us to answer in any briefer way. We appreciate the great concern each of you has for the living of a Love-filled life. We leave this instrument at this time, and we transfer to the one known as Jim. I am Latwii.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and greet each again in Love and Light through this instrument. At this time, we are honored to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may offer to us. Again, we offer that which is our opinion and wish it to be known that it is no more than that. Is there a query with which we may begin?

Questioner: My mother is very ill. I would like very much to be part of a healing. Can you shed some light on her illness?

I am Latwii, and that which we may share in this instance is perhaps far less than you had hoped, for we desire not to tread upon the life path of another to the degree that we may alter the steps taken in any fashion. But we find that there are some general qualities of this life experience which we may share. The entity is one which has for a great portion of its incarnation given in a selfless manner to those that are close to it and has felt the Love in return for this service. That it would give in such a manner was a portion of the choices made previous to the incarnation, as each entity sets about the blueprint, shall we say, for the incarnation prior to its beginning. The difficulty which is now apparent within the physical incarnation is that which provides a symbolic representation of further ramifications and refinements of the balance to the giving, that is, in some degree and in some sense, to receive.

The exact nature of this process is that which must remain, from our point of view, yet hidden, for the untangling of each knot of experience offers to those who work the puzzle a certain inspiration and strength of being and doing that is, shall we say, nutritious to the soul, however mistaken or ignored by the conscious mind. The overall movement in this physical difficulty is one which is toward the Light of illuminating the life pattern in a sense which would not be possible without this experience.

May we speak further, my sister?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: I didn’t really hear all of the foregoing because I was channeling it, but I didn’t hear anything in the channeling which really gave me an instant handle on, say I’m a wife; and I’m working very hard; and my husband isn’t making any money right now; and he comes home; and he criticizes my housework. This is manifestly unfair because I’m totally overworked, but he does it anyway. How exactly do you stop yourself from reacting to the unfairness? What can you use to keep yourself from entering into a transaction at that point?

I am Latwii, and it is not that we suggest one block the normal and spontaneous response to any situation, for it is most necessary that each entity not only express that which, shall we say, bubbles forth in a spontaneous fashion from within the depths of the being as a response to any situation, but that there be an attempt made following such a response to remove the small conscious self from the world of mundane things and place the consciousness within that location we have termed the citadel, that the greater view might be taken of the experience just past. By such retreat, one may begin to appreciate a greater purpose within the life pattern for the transaction which has occurred and might take, then, this appreciation into further communication with the other self in the Light of the greater view and with the dedication to Love and the granting of perfect freedom to the other self, that the wounds that may have been created might now be healed. It is not that difficulties should be avoided, but that they might be utilized as catalyst for further growth and service and inspiration to others.

Carla asked: “I didn’t really hear all of the foregoing because I was channeling it, but I didn’t hear anything in the channeling which really gave me an instant handle on, say I’m a wife; and I’m working very hard; and my husband isn’t making any money right now; and he comes home; and he criticizes my housework. This is manifestly unfair because I’m totally overworked, but he does it anyway. How exactly do you stop yourself from reacting to the unfairness? What can you use to keep yourself from entering into a transaction at that point?” Latwii began by saying it is not that we suggest one block the spontaneous response to any situation, for it is necessary that each entity not only express that which bubbles forth in a spontaneous fashion from within the depths of the being as a response to any situation, but that there be an attempt made following such a response to remove the small conscious self from the world of mundane things and place the consciousness within that location we have termed the citadel, that the greater view might be taken of the experience, and by such retreat one may begin to appreciate a greater purpose within the life pattern for the transaction which has occurred and might take this appreciation into further communication with the other self in the Light of the greater view and with the dedication to Love and the granting of perfect freedom to the other self, that the wounds that may have been created might now be healed, for it is not that difficulties should be avoided, but that they might be utilized as catalyst for further growth, and service, and inspiration to others. On June 23, 2021, Q’uo described the value of the greater view:

This type of balancing of the scales of justice, shall we say, of the Love and the Light of the One Infinite Creator is that which is hoped shall occur upon all levels of government, from the local, to the state, to the national, to the worldwide experience of all races and all beings, so that this may become a signal event and give to all entities on Earth the greater view, the expanded overview of all entities as being the One Creator, with the rights, that are equal to all; that the responsibilities are equal to all; that the opportunities are equal to all; that all entities may see that they see their other selves in any other entity they perceive; that there are no racial boundaries any longer that separate, that allow one entity to have dominance over another entity; that there is the ability to give the self to the other self in a type of repairing a tear in the garment of unity, which we all wear unbeknownst to most, for we are all One.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: Yeah, I’m still not satisfied. I got a clear impression towards the end, there was a sentence something about treat your mate as a friend. Now what you do with a friend, we basically know, is you comfort them when they’re discouraged or down, and we pat them on the back when they’re great and we hope for the best for them and like that. That’s friendship. But when somebody’s coming at you in a confrontational manner, it’s hard to react to that person as a friend, because usually friends don’t do that to you, at least not without good reason, you know, not that unjustifiably—although I admit that there are some friends… But I’m trying to figure out how you can do that, how you can make your spouse, or your mate, or your lover your friend, and really make that primary. I think that was what you were trying to say, wasn’t it?

I am Latwii, and, indeed, my sister, this was a significant portion of that which we intended to convey, for if two spirits who have joined in the third-density illusion to learn and to serve in a certain fashion can begin to recall together within the illusion a greater and greater portion of the plan, shall we say, for the incarnations, then the difficulties that arise within the daily round of activities might at some point within their resolution be seen from the wider perspective of those mates of the soul who travel the same journey together and who, though convinced from time to time within the small moments of the life that such a thing must occur in this or that manner, realize more fully that each is there to serve the other and the one Creator in all and that the small, dedicated decisions that are used to pilot the daily round of activities might be released, and each might seek and praise the one Creator within the experiences that provide catalyst and growing difficulties for those who are unable to appreciate the opportunity within difficulty.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: So, basically you’re saying at some point the instinctive reaction will be, “Look at this person, this person is not in harmony with his plan, therefore he’s run afoul of certain immutable laws and he’s in trouble. I feel for this person; I’m sympathetic to this person; I want to console this person.” This is the transformation that you’re suggesting might come out of more time spent in the citadel. Is this correct?

I am Latwii. Not only is this correct, but there is the further implication that as one becomes more completely involved in the mutual attempt to utilize catalyst fully, that one will not only develop a compassion for the other, but one will begin to see the self within the other and will begin the more intensive work upon the self and the point of view that is bounded by the conscious beliefs that there might be work done upon the self in a fashion which alters the point of view to the extent that where others may see difficulty, one begins to see an opportunity to serve and to learn before any other feature of the situation is noticed.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: No, that really spoke to the heart of my query. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: If everybody’s through, I’ll just be frivolous, because I Love to know. What color are you in these days? Are you still doing your scientific work?

I am Latwii, and we have shown this instrument a variety of colors, for we are experimenting, shall we say, with the blending of various subtle, what you could call, plum, with the apple green and tangerine, in order that the subtler energies that produce these vibratory oscillations that are perceived as colors might be available for study of their correlations within your planetary population, as it seeks to move from the individualized self that corresponds to the orange or tangerine and begins its movement into the all-compassionate Love of the heart or green-ray energy center, and through further catalyst and processing of such begins the transformation that affects the Buddhic body or that which is of the violet ray. We study the color emanations, for within these vibrations there is contained much information of a nature that cannot be discerned by the outward eye. It is within our own citadel that we study in this manner.

May we speak further, my sister?

Carla: Those colors are the colors of Ariel, the west archangel. I was just wondering if this principle of Earth, and harvest, and fullness is aiding you from the Earth plane in this study?

I am Latwii, and, indeed, it is the harvest, as you have called it, and the energies that are now a portion of this season upon your planetary sphere which we study intensively now in these realms of which we have spoken.

Carla: Yes, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We have enjoyed greatly, my friends, the opportunity to join your meditation. It has been a great portion of your time since we have had this great privilege. We rejoice at such opportunity to be with you and to step upon the same journey with you. At this time, we hope that we have not worn out your ears. We are so happy to have had the chance to speak, and we fear we may have gone a bit far. “Too many words,” it may be said, but we hope that our joy at being with you has made this endurable for you. We shall take our leave at this time, thanking each again for inviting our presence, leaving each, as always, in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Latwii. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

The quote today from The Infinite Way is: “There is no evil. Let us therefore stop the resistance to the particular discord or inharmony of human existence which now confronts us. These apparent discords will disappear as we are able to cease our resistance to them. We are able to do this only in proportion to our realization of the spiritual nature of the universe. Since this is true, it is evident that neither heaven nor earth can contain error of any nature, and therefore the unillumined human thought is seeing error in the very place where God shines through, discord where harmony is, hate where Love abounds, and fear where confidence really is.

The work on which we have embarked is the realization that we are individual infinite spiritual consciousness embodying within ourselves all good. This is the song we will sing, the sermon we will preach, the lesson we will teach, and until realization comes, this is our theme, our motif. It is the silver cord of truth running through every message.

Nothing can come to you; nothing can be added to you. You are already that place in consciousness through which Infinity is pouring. That which we term your humanhood must be still so as to be a clear transparency through which your infinite individual Self may appear, express, or reveal itself.

When we look at Niagara Falls, we might assume that it would run dry with so much water continually pouring over as the Falls, but looking behind the immediate scene, we see Lake Erie, and we realize that actually there is no Niagara Falls, that this is but a name given to Lake Erie at a point where the water pours over a precipice and becomes the Falls. The infinity of Niagara Falls is assured by virtue of the fact that actually the source of Niagara, that which constitutes Niagara, is really Lake Erie.

So, with us. We are that place God becomes visible. We are the Word made flesh. Our Source, and that which constitutes us, is God—infinite divine Being. We are God-being, God-appearing, God-manifesting. That is the true glory of our being.”

Later this morning I went outside and used Whip Lash to weed around the fishpond, the pet cemetery, the side yard and the front yard.

This afternoon I went outside and used Whip Lash to weed behind my home and behind the garage to finish the weeding with Whip Lash. Now my weeding, for the next two days, will be by hand.

From The Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

August 3

Cast Thy Burden Upon The Lord

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of Love: that Love which shines from the beginning of space and time; that Love which created all that there is; that Love which sustains you at this moment.

We find this instrument most perturbed, for it is in pain and has been so for many months. It did not expect this ordeal and can no longer emotionally refrain from a lack of cheerfulness. Bluntly has she asked, “What has the Holy Spirit to say to one such as I?”

And to this one, and to any who suffer, we can only repeat the words, “Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain you.”

To cast one’s burdens upon one’s family and friends is to find no more certainty of Love and understanding than you find within the self. Thus, the suffering will be aggravated by the guilt of complaint.

Yet the Spirit of Love only embraces the complaints and the sufferings of those who Love and are Loved by Him. And thus, each complaint is blessed and the suffering, quieted. Turn not to man but to the consciousness of Love for that peace which passeth all understanding.

Now, always, in times of need and evermore, we leave you in this peace. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel the Creator’s Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn channeling for this session comes from October 1, 1987:

(Unknown channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the Love and Light of the infinite Creator. We have spent some time dwelling in thought with each in the circle, conditioning each, making those contacts, those reference points within each of your feelings that would make it more comfortable for us to use each of the instruments. We find that each has a great deal upon their mind, many concerns, and yet we find because of deeper truths which each is seeking, the difficulties of the day have caused undo confusion, and we find this to be most appropriate for those who are seekers upon the path. For there are many in the fad and fashion who speak of deeper truths, yet there are few whose devotion and faith in those deeper truths are such that the search itself creates its own peace. Each of you creates your own peace, each of you creates your own understanding. Each of you uncovers and recognizes your own wisdom. Each of you, by being careful, have prepared that self for the overshadowing of the one great religion so that Love and compassion flow through you.

We would speak on, and I would transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument for now. We are the ones of Hatonn.

(Jim channeling)

I am Hatonn. We shall continue through this instrument. As you move in your daily round of activities, it is the design of each incarnation to partake more and more intimately and consciously of this Love and compassion. However, the process is unique for each entity, and one cannot necessarily from any one experience extrapolate the degree of success, shall we say, of another entity’s expression and experience of Love and compassion. Each entity has fashioned that which may be called a channel of their incarnation, and more than this, of its entire, what you may call, soul history which has then achieved as a result of many forages, shall we say, into the third-density of illusion which you now inhabit.

Thus, each incarnation is entered by a unique entity, lived by such and exited by the same. Thus, each seeker of truth is, indeed, a channel for the connection of each with the one great original Thought that is near enough at hand that all further refinements of this one great Thought may be seen as the creation of a channel through which moves the great power of Love and forms through Light a certain field or configuration of energy or Love that becomes the soul experience which partakes of the incarnations. Thus, the work we do this evening as you study the art of serving as a local channel is further and specific refining of this funneling, forming, or channeling process which all creation joins with you in. The perfecting, the study of the vocal channel then becomes the consciously chosen focus for the expression of various facets of this great creation which renews and creates itself again and again, moment by moment. Each entity steps into the stream of experience and is not only enriched by the living waters of Love and Light but by the interaction of its own field of experience, and enriches that which it touches by its own being.

In this session Hatonn spoke of the Love and compassion that is a part of each entity’s life, especially vocal channel’s lives. They began by saying as you move in your daily round of activities, it is the design of each incarnation to partake more intimately with Love and compassion, but the process is unique for each entity, and one cannot determine the degree of success of another entity’s expression of Love and compassion because each entity has created a channel of their incarnation and of their soul history as a result of many forages in the third-density of illusion which you now inhabit. Hatonn went on to say each incarnation is entered by a unique entity, lived by such and exited by the same, so each seeker of truth is a channel for the connection of each with the one great original Thought that is near enough that all further refinements of this one great Thought may be seen as the creation of a channel through which moves the great power of Love and forms through Light a certain configuration of Love that becomes the soul experience which partakes of the incarnations, and the work we do this evening, as you study the art of serving as a vocal channel, is specific refining of this channeling process which all creation joins in with you, for the study of the vocal channel becomes the consciously chosen focus for the expression of various facets of this great creation which renews and creates itself again and again, and each entity steps into the stream of experience and is not only enriched by the living waters of Love and Light but by the interaction of its own field of experience and enriches that which it touches by its own being. On March 28, 1993, Q’uo described the stream of experience:

There are reasons that this work is work well done. Firstly, to allow any thought-form to have control over the screen, if you will, of the mind’s eye is to release the stream of experience to flow into limited pools of stagnated, situational experience where nothing new is learned. Thought forms take the place of acquiring new and transformative information. Third density is for making choices, not for repeating the same program over and over with no clearing or solution or moving on.

At this time, we shall transfer this contact to the one known as D. I am Hatonn.

[The group sings “Listen to My Heart.”]

(Jim channeling

I am Hatonn, and I am again with this instrument. We are aware of the challenge which the one known as D and the one known as N face, for we have spoken through experienced channels, and now wish to speak through inexperienced channels. We would like to express our deep appreciation for difficulty that this has as an illusion to the one known as D. We would like to assure this instrument that there is no competition betwixt those who receive our contact, for each has something unique and eternally special to offer.

When we move to inexperienced instruments, we expect a large percentage of what we give to a more experienced instrument to be unavailable to that new instrument because that new instrument cuts off the train of thought by the question of the one the analysis is about. This is acceptable to us, and, indeed, acceptable were that to be all we were ever able to express, merely the most simple of thoughts, yet we would be extremely pleased, for, you see, it is our nature to be extremely simple. This is a sincere reflection upon our part of our understanding of the nature of creation. That is that the creation is extraordinarily simple and being of one substance or energy or self or one intelligence.

We have to correct this instrument and an extremely simple message to offer that message were it to be offered nakedly, unclothed with poetry, for circular concept might still, if heeded, tune this planetary population in [inaudible] and kindly preparation. Congratulations, Mr. [inaudible].

We would again move to the one known as D, with the request that the instrument simply repeat that which comes to him. We say this also to the one known as N, that is, refrain from the analysis, refrain from the hesitation, speak foolishly and promptly that which comes up through the subconscious into the mind when a contact has been made. Picture yourself as one working in an exercise knowing that one may become somewhat better through that exercise. That also one may continue becoming better through any conceivable number of such exercises.

The process of achieving clear reception of telepathic vibration is an infinite one for those which dwell within the physical form. Even as the self that you are, you do not express fully. How could you express a telepathic contact fully? Let this be the exercise, the work out, and the dedication always to this energy, this Love, this hope, this service to the one infinite Creator. Again, we shall transfer to the one as D. I am Hatonn.

(D channeling)

I am Hatonn. We find that, as in the past, this instrument speaks most fluidly on the least analysis acknowledge that it states and progresses from that acknowledgment and who uses that knowledge as a truth process of origination. We are comfortable allowing gratitude and encouragement when a new channel is able to find [inaudible], to speak in the process of organization, this one hurdle overcomes with us which leads to the next, which is nothing more than permitting us to guide the speech which has been established. Thus, we ease him to a process expressing ourselves through a new channel in such a way that it is second guess, and analysis is accepted in the first instance which is virtually avoided thereafter.

The growth and the process of the coming channel which is manifest in the setting aside all factional processes and question the analogy in spiritual growth within anyone who comes in closer contact with the inner planes. It is analogy. In fact, this can be a time to tune one’s attitude toward life, and one can become more spiritual through the practice of channeling and learn to trust impulse and to trust the nature of Love. The fabric of life is is made to control the thought and speech during channeling is given up on one’s analogy and the flow of totality of one’s life as life offers his abilities as a channel and stops listening to others and practices.

Once again to the entire pattern of life…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(D channeling)

We have begun to establish a surer contact with this instrument. And share its help this [inaudible] establish more easily emotionally in the future, and now we take our leave of this instrument and transfer to the one known as N. We are Hatonn.

(N channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you with Love [inaudible]. We feel most glad to be with this instrument, and we feel that through contact with or loss of there is more acceptance to accept with us [inaudible]. We would like to answer this instrument’s questions although we feel that to handle these transmissions with us each in transfer to a form [inaudible] instrument. We found also [inaudible] a feeling that although a person on this Earth is surrounded by nonproductive thoughts of others, and a person can use that to return their own positive thinking not always will a person come to negative difference. We would like to leave this instrument and answer questions that are always a way of learning. We leave this instrument. We are those of Hatonn.

(Jim channeling)

I am Hatonn and greet each again in Love and Light through this instrument. At this time we would open this meeting to those queries for those that are present might find the value in asking. Again, we might remind each that we give that which is our opinion, and though we give it in joy we do not place great weight upon it, for we wish each to take that which has value to the personal journey and leave that which does not. Is there a query to which we may speak?

Questioner: Yes, Hatonn. I have a couple questions. Do you come to join with us to seek, help us in our search to become better people? Do you in turn, when you are with an entity, do you get anything out of our relationship? Do you learn from us?

I am Hatonn. Indeed, my sister, that which we learn is great though not often easy to express in your words for we see from a vantage point that you are not privy to at this time, for in the region which you inhabit you pursue those lessons that you have set for yourself. There are many veils and hindrances, shall we say, to clear seeing. It is as though you climb a great mountain that has many ridges and valleys, trees, streams, and outcroppings of stone and earth that restrict the vision of the climber so that the summit of the great mountain is not seen. And the experiences through which it passes, the beliefs that it holds in its mind form for them the foliage, the trees, the outcropping, and the very structure of the mountain itself.

When we join in your meditations with you and become aware of those pieces of information for which you seek and for all we become aware of many different ways of perceiving the creation of unity and the means by which a unified creation may be utilized to pursue various lessons which seek to join that which seem separate within an entity’s balances, so, once again, they can restore them, and the vision becomes clarified upon point after point and piece after piece of the great puzzle of your existence. We see and we learn how entities such as yourself can valiantly struggle when inner and outer circumstances become chaotic and frequently seem to present little else but challenges for the seeker. We see, in short, how each entity may wander through what seems a metaphysical darkness and yet with delight, and hope, and faith, and those qualities of compassion, and mercy, and Love continue to search for greater Light and greater Love and greater experience amidst the darkness. We learn of courage, of endurance, of faith, of a variety of perceptions that provide endless possibility of learning, of growth and of service. Yes, my sister, we learn a great deal, far, far more than can be described through your words, and we hope that we may offer even a tiny fraction to you of that which we learn.

Questioner asked: “Do you come to join with us to seek, help us in our search to become better people? Do you in turn, when you are with an entity, do you get anything out of our relationship? Do you learn from us?” Hatonn replied that which we learn is great though not often easy to express in words, for we see from a vantage point that you are not privy to at this time, and in the region which you inhabit you pursue those lessons that you have set for yourself, so there are many veils and hindrances to clear seeing, yet it is as though you climb a mountain that has many ridges and valleys, trees, and streams that restrict the vision of the climber so that the summit of the mountain is not seen, and the beliefs that it holds in its mind form for the climber the foliage, the trees, the outcropping, and the structure of the mountain itself. Hatonn went on to say when we join in your meditations and become aware of those pieces of information for which you seek, and we become aware for all of the different ways of perceiving the creation of unity and the means by which a unified creation may be utilized to pursue lessons which seek to join that which seems separate within an entity’s balances, so they can restore them, and the vision becomes clarified in the pieces of the great puzzle of your existence, for we see and learn how entities such as you can struggle when inner and outer circumstances become chaotic and frequently seem to present little else but challenges for the seeker, but we see how each entity may wander through a metaphysical darkness, yet with delight, hope, and faith, and those qualities of Love continue to search for greater Light, and greater Love, and greater experience amidst the darkness, so we learn of courage, of faith, of a variety of perceptions that provide an endless possibility of learning, of growth, and of service, so we learn more than can be described through words, and we hope that we may offer a tiny fraction to you of that which we learn. On June 28, 1987, Q’uo spoke of the nature of metaphysical darkness:

We would begin by suggesting that even to the eye in what seems to be an obvious and clear manner, much is hidden within your illusion, for within your experience there is the shielding, shall we say, of the conscious knowing so that much experience is gained in groping through what you might call a metaphysical darkness. You live, and move, and have your being in mystery, and you seek portions of that mystery with every thought and action that proceeds from your being. With each thought and action that sums into experience, you are able to piece together more and more of the picture of the creation about you and your place within it. As you move into those relationships which are of primary and profound significance within this journey of seeking, there is much which the conscious mind will assume and presume to know.

May we speak further, my sister?

Questioner: No, thank you, Hatonn.

I am Hatonn, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

D: As usual, I’m interested in feedback. At about midpoint in my channeling tonight, about where the train of thought shifted, I felt a sort of expansive feeling in my mind. It was almost overwhelming in a subtle sort of way, if you can be overwhelmed. I wonder if you were aware of that process going on in my mind at that time, and if it had to do with the direction between our energies? Can you shed any light on it at all?

I am Hatonn, and this subtle overwhelming, as you called it, is the product of two qualities which you were able to demonstrate in the reception of our contract. The first was the resolve on your part to begin the channeling process when it was offered for the second time with as little hesitation on your part as possible so that you could initiate a new process. The second feature of this contact on your part was the ability to maintain the contact and continue receiving thoughts in a steady stream long enough to be able to feel a certain confidence and comfort with the contact. This confidence, then, combined with your resolve to speak without analysis enabled our contact to mesh more firmly and completely with your own present vibratory being, thus revealing expansiveness and facility was our contact becoming synchronized with your own receptiveness.

May we speak further, my brother?

D: Is—was this, in a sense—is this a sensation that I would expect to feel in general when a contact is established and confirmed in the future? Is this something I can accept as a kind of signal, this happening when we are coming together in a good way?

I am Hatonn, and this is probable, my brother. There may be new sensations that you as a new instrument may experience as further example and confirmation that the contact is progressing in a satisfactory manner.

May we speak further, my brother?

D: This was a sensation which was a natural outgrowth of our contact rather than a sensation used intentionally by you. Is that correct?

I am Hatonn, and that is correct, my brother. The experience we share with you during our contact is an unique one, which is both your nature and ours and the present moment that we share.

May we speak further?

D: No, thank you.

I am Hatonn, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Hatonn, and it appears as we have spoken to those concerns of the evening, we shall take this opportunity to thank each for allowing our presence. We feel there has been great progress made this evening, and we would like to say to the one known as N that the regaining of their former facility in the channeling shall be possible with her perseverance, and we commend her for it, again seeking this means of service and for offering herself as a vocal instrument. At this time, we will take leave of this instrument and this group. We are known to you as those of Hatonn. We leave each in the Love and the Light in the infinite Creator, my friends.

This morning the quote from The Infinite Way is: “We come now to face our orthodox superstitions and to leave them. Was Jesus sent into the world by God to save it from sin, disease, or slavery? No, God, infinite Principle, Life, Truth, and Love, knows no error, no evil, no sin, and no sinner. Jesus so clearly apprehended this truth that this apprehension became the Saviour, healer, and teacher even as it will in you. The activity of Truth in individual consciousness is the only Christ. No person is ever the Christ. The activity of Truth in individual consciousness constitutes the only Christ, the ever-present Christ who was “before Abraham.” The activity of Truth in your consciousness is the Christ of you. The activity of Truth in the consciousness of the Buddha is revealed in the nature of sin, disease, and death to be illusion, or mirage. The activity of Truth in the consciousness of Jesus Christ revealed the nothingness of matter; it unfolded as a healing consciousness before which sin and disease disappeared, and death was overcome. Every erroneous concept, whether of body or business, health or church, must disappear as the right idea of these appears in the individual and collective consciousness.

What about the immaculate conception, or spiritual birth? The immaculate conception, or spiritual birth, is the dawning in individual consciousness of the activity of Truth, or the Christ-idea. It appeared in Jesus as the revelation that “I am the way the truth, and the life. I am the resurrection and the life. He that seeth me seeth Him that sent me.” The activity of Truth in my consciousness, is the Christ of me, is revealing that I am individual, infinite, spiritual consciousness embodying my universe, including my body, my health, wealth, practice, income, home, companionship, eternality, and immortality.

Let the activity of Truth in your consciousness be your first, and last, and only concern, and the Christ of you will also reveal Itself in an individual, infinite way.”

Later this morning I went outside and hand-weeded the Ruins Mound and the Day Lily Garden on the south side of the garage.

This afternoon I went outside and hand-weeded the Ruins Mound. Then I refilled my neighbor’s hummingbird feeder with sugar syrup and took it across the street to put it on its metal stand.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

August 2

Be The Quiet Heart

I am the principle of the Love of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

We see here before us a heart which is unquiet and a will which allows much lack of discipline in the meditation. Why is your heart unquiet? What causes this disturbance? What war rages near your door?

We see none. Love sees none. But if the human heart cannot be disciplined, it will be unquiet.

What must you say to your brother? Think you that any words can completely satisfy? Nay, rather you must be to your brother the quiet heart that you must be to yourself. This day finds more and more this need, for it is disquieted within.

We leave you in the love and the peace of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel the Creator’s Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen