I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Ra quote comes from 103.4-.5:
“Questioner: The instrument asks the question why she lost her joy in the recent past? Would Ra comment, please?
Ra: I am Ra. The instrument made a free-will decision not to address the physical catalyst causing great pain by means of the allopathically prescribed chemical compound which the instrument was sure would be efficacious due to its reliance upon the suggestions of Ra. Thus the catalyst was given in a more complete form. The outer service to others became nearly impossible, causing the entity to experience once again the choice of the martyr; that is, to put value in a fatal action and die or to put value on consciousness of the creation and of the One Creator and, thereby, live. The instrument, through will, chose the latter path. However, the mind and mental/emotional distortions did not give the support to this decision necessary to maintain a state of unity which this entity normally experiences and has experienced since its incarnation’s beginnings.
Since this catalyst has been accepted, the work begun to remove distortions blocking the indigo ray might well be continued apace.
Questioner: Could Ra recommend work appropriate for removing indigo-ray blockage?
Ra: I am Ra. We cannot recommend for the general situation for in each case the distortional vortex is unique. In this particular nexus, the more appropriate working is in the mental and mental/emotional powers of analysis and observation. When the strongest and least distorted complex is set in support, then the less strong portions of the complex shall be strengthened. This entity has long worked with this catalyst. However, this is the first occasion wherein the drugs to dull the pain that sharpens the catalyst have been refused.”
In the first question Don asked Ra why Carla felt that she had lost her joy in the previous few weeks. Ra said that Carla had made a decision not to use the drugs Ra had suggested to treat the great cramping pain that she had in the area of her stomach and digestive tract that Ra described as acidic and which was causing ulcers in that region. Ra had earlier described this situation as relating to the yellow-ray energy center which manifested as pain and cramping because Carla had momentarily become upset with me when I asked for an open relationship. She was able to heal the feeling of being upset fairly quickly, but it provided a target of target of opportunity for our negative friend to intensify the pain and suffering for Carla. This pain made it nearly impossible for her to be of service to others, and this caused her to lose her joy. If she had not healed the feeling of being upset with me when I asked for an open relationship she would have been “putting value on a fatal action” which could have caused her death. Instead she healed the feeling of being upset and “put value on consciousness of the creation and of the One Creator and, thereby, live.” However, Ra suggested that Carla had not given enough mental and emotional support to this decision, so she was not able to maintain the state of unity that was normal for her. Ra completed their answer by saying that now it was up to Carla to use the full impact of the catalyst I provided for her by seeking to remove the blockage of the indigo ray. Ra had previously mentioned this blockage as Carla’s feeling of unworthiness as Ra detailed in 12.31:
Questioner: Is there a best way for these entities to heal themselves of their physical ailments?
Ra: I am Ra. This will be the last complete question of this time/space.
The self-healing distortion is effected through realization of the intelligent infinity resting within. This is blocked in some way in those who are not perfectly balanced in bodily complexes. The blockage varies from entity to entity. It requires the conscious awareness of the spiritual nature of reality, if you will, and the corresponding pourings of this reality into the individual mind/body/spirit complex for healing to take place.
We will use this instrument as example. The portions of its ailment, as you call this distortion complex, that can be perfected in balance are due primarily to a blockage of the indigo-ray or pineal energy center. This center receives the intelligent energy from all sources lawful within the one Creation; that is, lawful in this third-density distortion or illusion. If there is no blockage, these energies pour or stream down into the mind/body/spirit complex perfecting moment by moment the individual’s body complex.
This instrument also experiences some distortion of the green-ray energy center which you may call the heart center. It is overly open due to an intensive desire distortion on the part of this mind/body/spirit complex towards service to others, or as you may call it, universal love. This entity, therefore, spends itself without regard to its reserves of mind/body/spirit complex distortion in regard to what you call strength or energy. This distortion is primarily due to the blockage of the indigo ray. As we have said before, the misapprehension distortion of the instrument responsible for this blockage is the basic orientation towards a belief in unworthiness. The unworthiness distortion blocks the free flow of intelligent energy.
In the second question Don asked Ra if they could recommend a way in which Carla could remove her indigo-ray blockage. Ra recommended that Carla use her “mental and mental/emotional powers of analysis and observation”. I believe that Ra is suggesting that Carla take an objective look at her situation from a mental position and from an emotional position. Her mental powers of analysis might reveal to her how maintaining a state of unity was the best path to follow rather than the hurt emotional feelings she first felt when I asked for an open relationship. Then Ra continued their answer by saying that “When the strongest and least distorted complex is set in support, then the less strong portions of the complex shall be strengthened.” Here I believe that Ra was saying that if Carla focused on her strength of mental analysis in this situation then her weaker feeling of emotional pain would be strengthened. Ra completed their answer by saying that Carla had worked for a long time in her life with the feeling of being unworthy, and now that she had refused to take the drugs that would dull the pain she would need to work with this enhanced catalyst. A couple of questions later, in 103.8, Don asked again what Carla could do to improve her situation, and Ra linked her present feeling of unworthiness to Carla’s recent decision to give up buying clothes for herself as she felt it was an addiction to love clothes so much:
Questioner: I didn’t mean to cover previously covered material. I meant to add any of this to specifically focus on at this time, the best possible thing that we or the instrument could do to improve these energies, the salient activity.
Ra: I am Ra. Before responding we ask your vigilance during pain flares as the channel is acceptable but is being distorted periodically by the severe physical distortions of the yellow-ray, chemical body of the instrument.
Those salient items for the support group are praise and thanksgiving in harmony. These the group has accomplished with such a degree of acceptability that we cavil not at the harmony of the group.
As to the instrument, the journey from worth in action to worth in esse is arduous. The entity has denied itself in order to be free from that which it calls addiction. This sort of martyrdom, and here we speak of the small but symbolically great sacrifice of the clothing, causes the entity to frame a selfhood in poorness which feeds unworthiness unless the poverty is seen to be true richness. In other words, good works for the wrong reasons cause confusion and distortion. We encourage the instrument to value itself and to see that its true requirements are valued by the self. We suggest contemplation of true richness of being.
This morning I worked on Chapter 5 of Living the Law of One 102: The Outer Work. It was a short chapter about how we apply our spiritual principles in the work place. I finished my first run through and feel that I was able to add a few thoughts that enhanced the nature of work for the seeker of truth. Then I went outside and watered most of the flowers in the back yard as it has been about a week since our last rain.
This afternoon I went back to Dana’s Crystal corner where I placed 8 more solar-powered lanterns yesterday afternoon. Last night I took a picture of the area and it showed that there were too many new lanterns and old lanterns that I didn’t know still worked located in one area. So this afternoon I spread them out so that they are more evenly spaced. I will go back out tonight and see if they are more clearly in a pyramid shape. Then I went up to The Home Depot and bought a tray for an asparagus plant that I hope to give away and also bought six cone flowers that I planted in my Ruins Mound were I already had a few cone flowers.
From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:
Come, Holy Spirit
I am of the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of creative love.
Your generation shall pass away, just as this morning shall pass away into evening and all the works of your hands and the thoughts of your minds shall seem as shadows.
Gazing at one’s day and one’s life in terms of the losses involved is a logical and understandable method of dealing with the accidents of experience. Yet in each cell of your body lies a consciousness of love, joy and peace, a consciousness which can speak only mutely and only when asked for.
It is the consciousness of the Holy Spirit, as you would call us, for we are closer to you than you can imagine and instantaneously ready to flood the consciousness with comfort and healing. You have but to ask, truly wishing to release the sense of loss that experience sometimes brings; truly being willing to yield your sorrows, let go of bitterness and forgive iniquity.
This instrument’s favorite musician, Johann Sebastian Bach, has expressed the musical thought, “Komm Heilige Geist.” This simple prayer, “Come, Holy Spirit,” is that which opens the door to that peace in which we leave you now and ever; the perfect peace that lies forever beyond the understanding but is more real than any loss. Amen.
I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:
We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.