I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 12, 1992:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the capacity of attempting to speak to any further queries. Is there a query at this time with which we may begin?

Questioner: When one is cycling in the negativity understanding that there may be a judgment of self occurring, a lot of times that manifests in the physical. One can feel it through tension headaches or through difficulty with stomach or intestines. It will affect you in the body in some manner. There’s concern as to whether that negativity that is festering… obviously it’s turning into internal damage in the physical body.

How do you define the difference between healthy negativism and negativism that actually goes deeper, and, in effect, ends up being destructive to that self who, in essence, is only trying to heal the self? It seems to be a paradox. Are there ways in which you can either attempt, through that period of negativity when you don’t seem to be able to get to your higher self and understand the higher concepts… is there some other way or other methods that you can work towards healing the physical aspect of what you’re feeling and what you’re doing to yourself in terms of being able to block that from happening so that you don’t further self-destruct with the negative patterns while you are attempting to heal yourself of being negative?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The overriding concept, in our opinion, as regards this query is the feeling that is at the heart of the entity as it is attempting to move itself into a new pattern of being, perceiving, and doing. There is that fear of not living up to the ideals that is a kind of angst, which we have suggested may be utilized by the seeker in a manner which will have the overall effect of enhancing the transformation. This is that small, quivering fear that remains at the corner of the mind reminding one that there is the need to give the best effort at each moment. This kind of fear we find to be not deleterious in the usual sense, but that which spurs the entity on to its best effort.

The kind of negativity that takes center place upon the inner stage of being and thinking, and tends to cause a gathering about it of further fear, is the fear which begins to rot, shall we say, various connective points within the mind/body/spirit complex, and eventually causes physical degeneration of those organs connected to the emotional bodies, as you have been studying them. This kind of fear is that which is indulged in by those who have either little reign upon their inner doubt or who have a tendency from time to time to indulge in self-destructive, as you would call them, behaviors and thoughts, tempting the good intentions of the entity itself, so that the entity becomes divided within itself as to how it shall expend its energies, attempting for a good portion of time to affect those positive changes in which it has invested its ideals and its concept of self, and, at the same time, seeking to undermine those ideals and the effort to match the life pattern with them.

This darker side of fear is that kind of fear which has given a certain sort of pleasure to the entity in its previous experiences, a kind of punishment of the self which the entity has seen as necessary according to those experiences with the parental and other authority figures within the early life experience, so that the entity does, then, when there is the challenge that presents itself in the form of transformation and change, is to behave in a split fashion, so that one portion of the self exhorts the self to move to those high ideals, and the other portion of the self, for a variety of potential reasons, assumes the punishing parental figure and punishes the self with the kind of fear that not only undermines the desire and effect of the change, but also can cause the physical disease as well.

For this kind of fear, and any other behavior or thought that moves one into the areas of disharmony and imbalance, we recommend the daily meditation and use of the balancing exercises which each in this group has utilized for some portion of time in the past. This looking at the inventory of mental and emotional experiences for each day can find the roots of such fear and remove them by balancing them with their polar opposite in the manner which those of Ra gave as the balancing exercises. We recommend the daily review in the meditative state of all thoughts and behaviors that have passed through one’s being, as the water moves through the river channel, so that disharmonies may be detected as early as possible and balanced in a manner which makes more whole the entire range of experience of the seeker.

Questioner asked about the difference between healthy negativity and unhealthy negativity that resulted in judgement of the self, and how she could deal with negativity so that it did not get into the body and manifest in a destructive way there? Q’uo began by saying that the basic principle here was the decision to go through transformation and use fear in a way which helped one live up to one’s ideals. They continued by saying that sometimes one exercises fear in a manner that causes one to behave in a way that undermines one’s good intentions and causes injury to the inner organs that are related to the emotional body. Q’uo said that this kind of fear-based behavior was a reflection of how the parents related to the child, and it was now being experienced as the deciding of how one would seek to engage in personal transformation which could also cause physical disease. Then Q’uo recommended that meditation be used in conjunction with the balancing exercises that Ra suggested to remove the roots of fear by balancing them with their polar opposites. In 5.2, Ra gave the basic practice of the balancing exercises:

To begin to master the concept of mental discipline it is necessary to examine the self. The polarity of your dimension must be internalized. Where you find patience within your mind you must consciously find the corresponding impatience and vice versa. Each thought that a being has, has in its turn an antithesis. The disciplines of the mind involve, first of all, identifying both those things of which you approve and those things of which you disapprove within yourself, and then balancing each and every positive and negative charge with its equal. The mind contains all things. Therefore, you must discover this completeness within yourself.

The second mental discipline is acceptance of the completeness within your consciousness. It is not for a being of polarity in the physical consciousness to pick and choose among attributes, thus building the roles that cause blockages and confusions in the already-distorted mind complex. Each acceptance smoothes part of the many distortions that the faculty you call judgment engenders.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: I think I understand what you’re saying, and the split I well understand. The only other question I have, I guess, are fears that I seem to have and confusion in reference to being able to identify them. I will certainly attempt to do so during my meditations. The only other concern I have is, are some of these fears so deep-rooted that I may not be able to consciously find them in my day-to-day experience? Are they things that will come up in the future as I do these practices? Or are there certain fears that are innate and part of the incarnational experience that will eventually cause this continued split? Is there a way to mend the split in this particular incarnation, or is this going to be part of the learning lesson that I must experience? And are some of the negatives that I seem to be experiencing—are they “old” negatives that I seem to be harboring or are they just a continued perpetuation of a lot of little things that seem to add up and turn into a pattern, that seem to coagulate into this big, huge pattern that then seems to self-perpetuate itself?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Within each entity there are fears, not because there is the necessity for fear to be a fundamental portion of this illusion or any incarnation, but because that which is mysterious, hidden within the depths of the self, unknown and which has obvious effects upon the conscious seeker, is that which poses the potential threat.

The seeker which moves upon the journey of illumination and which moves into the depths of the self is well advised to look at the overall perspective of each incarnation, and the creation as a whole, as that which is made of love. Any deviation from that love is, in some form, a distortion of love which may be discovered by the persistent application of daily meditation and the review of the experiences of each day’s round of activities. There is no fear buried so deeply that the love-inspired seeker of truth cannot uncover and balance this fear with love.

We do not mean to seem to be naive in this regard, for our recommendation in many instances where seekers feel confusion and fear is to focus upon the fundamental quality of love. We continue to recommend this focusing upon love as the foundation stone of all creation and all incarnation, not only because this is so as we have experienced it, but because it is well for each seeker to look for that love within the life pattern in order that the desire to see and to seek this love may perform its part in attracting this love to the seeker. For it is a metaphysical principle that you shall find that which you seek. We recommend, therefore, that as you plumb those depths of mystery within that you remind yourself that you move within a creation of love, a creation which is in harmony with itself and with you.

These fears that motivate from the depths of one’s being have power only because they are distortions of the power of love. When you are able to untangle the distortion of love, then you shall see how this distortion was first caused. The cause is almost always within the early portion of this life experience in accordance with choices that were made before this life experience regarding that which one wished to learn.

Questioner asked whether she would be able to find the deeper fears within her, and how could she heal that split behavior of aiming for transformation and then sabotaging her efforts? Q’uo replied by saying that she should use meditation to discover the mystery of how any of her behaviors have moved away from the concept of love and then balance these behaviors with love. Q’uo completed their response by saying that these deep fears are distortions of love which have come from the early years of the incarnation and are products of pre-incarnative choice as lessons that are to be learned. On June 7, 1980, Latwii spoke of how distortions of love can aid in learning lessons:

You must realize that in the creation of the Father, there are many distortions of love. When you view a distortion of love, you may not intellectually realize in that moment that this distortion will eventually begin its positive evolution towards love in its true state. But, if you train yourself from time to time, the muscle memory, shall we say, will give you strength.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: Not at this time. Thanks.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have an observation and a query. Being the channel, I couldn’t really catch everything, but it seems to me that in describing the way you go about getting through transformation it’s a lot like the way you go about channeling, in that all of the work that a channel does is done before the channeling ever begins, and it has to do with cleansing the self of human opinion and world opinion and just the junk of everyday thinking, and trying to tune oneself to the highest and best in one, but then also to ask for the highest and best that one can carry in a stable manner. And when you were talking about change it seemed to me you were saying that the work that you do is done before the change really begins—it’s when you desire to change something about yourself, and that desire is purified to the point where it actually starts a change occurring. And, at that point, your work is over, and what you need to do is, in the midst of your desire, to say that you want to approximate your ideals—the highest and best that you’re capable of—and the change that you’re capable of in a stable manner. Is this a just observation and is this a valid point?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister, and we can agree wholeheartedly that you have made a point that is quite valid. For each seeker of truth is a channel for the life experience, and when one finds oneself in the midst of change or transformation, this experience is the result of much desire previous to the beginning of the change, for first must come the recognition of oneself as one is at a particular moment. Then there comes, or perhaps does not come, the desire for change in a certain area of the life experience. Only after these recognitions have been achieved is the seeker able to undertake any portion of the change, which then may be manifested to the eye, the ear, or the emotions of the seeker undergoing the change.

By the time the changing and the frustration that comes with change is noticed, most of the work of the seeker has been accomplished as regards setting the change in motion. The work that remains for such a seeker, noticing the change within its being and experience, is the work of moving in harmony with the change. For this reason, we recommended the lighthearted approach which tends to see that all is well, that discomforts can be humorous and certainly can be survived, and can be survived most efficiently when there is this lighthearted approach.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, Q’uo. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. And, as we appear to have exhausted the queries for this session of working, we shall take this opportunity to thank each seeker present for inviting our presence into your meditation and circle of working this day. We are very happy to be invited and privileged to partake in your seeking. We offer our words and opinions freely, with the only admonition being that you take those which ring of truth to you and leave behind those that do not. Again, our great gratitude for your desire to seek and for your invitation to us that we might seek with you.

D: Wait! Before you go, can I ask another question?

I am Q’uo, and we are happy to entertain another query from the one known as D.

D: Okay, great. We were discussing earlier about tones and things that we receive here, and I guess as we become more aware, at least in my own experience, I’ve become more aware of certain things that would not seem to be the norm to most people. The discordant tones that I heard in one particular instance—which were all very loud and buzzing in my ears—I wanted to know why that occurred? What was happening when that did occur? What happens on other occasions when just one single tone occurs? Does this have something to do with discord always, or are there various reasons for these particular things?

And the other thing that I’ve been lately experiencing which was the freeze-frames of patterns which I see, which have only happened in the last couple of months. Is that just another awareness happening? They’re interesting when they happen. They seem to crop up more and more as I become more aware, and I was wondering if you could define these? And, if there are reasons for the discordant tones, is there any way that I could work with them when they do occur so that I can either rebalance myself when it occurs, or is there another reason that it occurs?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To begin, we must speak carefully in these queries, for we do not wish to infringe upon your own free will discovery of the symbols which your subconscious mind provides to your conscious mind as a means of focusing the attention. Those tones which sound disharmony are often utilized to signify just this. Look at that experience which was most important and which preceded such tones in your previous experience and correlate those experiences with these tones. As the number of tones of disharmony increase, look at this symbol of increased disharmony.

The query concerning the freeze-frames is one which we must be most careful with, for this means of communication from the subconscious mind is one which is more specific in its indication of the need for attention. Look at the frames. Meditate upon the images. Make the correlations which appear within your inner view as you meditate upon the images.

Was there a further query, my sister?

D: Just in reference to the freeze-frames. Right now, at this time, they appear to be so fast I can’t grasp them, perhaps because it is just meant to be an attention-getter, seeing as my attention is not always there in meditation. Should I focus on attempting to draw them out so I can recognize those as patterns, or is it just occurring because my attention span is not where it should be when I am meditating? It’s not just when I’m meditating though, it happens all the time now. So, when I close my eyes, and whether I eat or go into prayer or just attempt to close my eyes for a few minutes, they occur. And they occur quite frequently, so I take it as some kind of signal that I should be doing something, but I can’t seem to grasp it. And I can’t seem to grasp the patterns because they are so instantaneous. They’re almost quicker than a second. I’m just not sure as to how I can do as you said and take those frames and meditate upon them, when I can’t even seem to catch them.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To meditate upon that which moves quickly before the inner eye is perhaps to move into a different kind of meditation. That is to say, that as the images move quickly, rather than attempting to stop the movement and capture an image, it would be helpful to feel the feeling tone that such rapid moving images leave as their residue. Perhaps an image will remain with a feeling tone. Perhaps just a feeling. Perhaps just an image. Perhaps a series of images. Whatever is the residue, the charge, the power of the experience, then, take that residue and meditate upon it and make whatever correlations present themselves.

In this way, we feel that you may begin to follow a trail, shall we say, which is being left for you by your subconscious mind which has been alerted by the conscious mind, through your intensity and desire of seeking, that information is desired in regards to a certain kind of level of seeking. This trail is that which is of importance. Follow the trail to the best of your abilities, realizing that the methods used are those to which you are the most susceptible or most able to glean information from.

Is there a further query, my sister?

D: The only other query I had was in reference to the dreams. You had mentioned earlier that we were a series of complex illusions of dreams within dreams. In reference to the framework of information between my self and my higher self, how can I go about deciphering what seems nonsensical dreams? I find patterns that I begin to recognize. Carla has been a great help in reference to helping me to decipher some of these. But is there a better way, is there some kind of thing, seeing as I have a tendency to work in the dream field… It’s very natural to concentrate on something before I go to sleep so that I may be able to attain the highest clarity of connection between myself and my higher self, so that I can begin to also work in conjunction with meditation and prayer. When I do this, is there a method of visualization or something that I can do just prior to sleeping—while just on the verge of going to sleep—so that I can mentally attune myself to receiving the highest or the best work, for either that particular day or for the particular situation that I’m in where I need help?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of you query, my sister. We feel that you have well prepared yourself for the work with dreams, and can only suggest that you provide yourself with the tools for recording your dreams as soon as you have experienced the dreams as is possible. The repeating and reminding to the self that you wish to remember the dreams is most important. And the preparation for the dreaming by mental contemplation upon the topic of most concern is also recommended so that the brain will have access to as much information as is possible to feed into the dreaming process. This is helpful as a preparation at all times.

Is there another query, my sister?

Yes. I’ve experienced, in the past, hearing telepathic messages through my dreams from what seems to be various different entities when I’ve asked certain questions. One of the reasons I’ve refrained from doing this for the last year was the caution involved. But there were times when I telepathically received things. Was that coming from my higher self? Was that coming from guides? And should I continue to attempt to work with those who have obviously worked with me in the past through dreams, or should I really within the next year continue as I have been doing, working directly with the higher self and from the higher self into God?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We must apologize for being unwilling to give advice in this regard, for it is in the area that is of most importance in the exercise of your own choice-making ability to determine those practices which are more helpful than are others in your seeking. Thus, we leave these choices to you, reminding you that you are aware that your higher self portion does indeed communicate with you in your dream state.

Is there another query, my sister?

D: No, but thank you very much for all the information.

I am Q’uo, and we would ask if there are any final queries at this time.


I am Q’uo, and once again we shall thank each entity for the honor of spending time and opinion and inspiration with you. We are inspired by you as much as we hope that you are inspired by us, for you seek within the illusion of the third density, where so much of the Creator must be sought in darkness and in mystery. Brave and courageous souls are you who so seek…

[Tape ends.]

This morning I vacuumed the first floor of the house and then went outside to transplant the flowers that I bought yesterday afternoon. I was able to complete the transplanting of the dianthus in the garden beside the parking area in front of the house. Then I made an errand run to Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself, and I also stopped by Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some Pepsi Zero and some non-food items.

This afternoon a friend and I went to visit Connie in the care home in southern Indiana. We took along some non-sugar snacks for each of us before I began reading The Things We Don’t Forget by Dianne Aprile. We had some thoughts to share with each other at various points in the reading as there is so much spiritual information in this book. We concluded our visit with our usual meditation.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 19

Be Still And Adore

I am of the consciousness of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in that full consciousness of love.

Be still!

Be still, each soul which seeks within and without for that stranger that you would identify as mystery.

Be still, each portal of sense and every shadow of pleasure and pain.

Be still! Let all come to rest, to kneel and adore. Let the self become a zero; a heavenly nothing. For only in the zero lies the infinity which then may fill the infinite space within which has been opened to the infinity without.

It is not by striving but by still surrender that the pilgrim of Earth shall know the place where he has been all the time.

We leave you in peace, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 12, 1992:

The question this afternoon deals with the concept of change and transformation, and the confusion, the anger, the frustration that comes when we don’t feel that we’re changing in the way that we wish to change. Most students of their own evolution look at their lives, and, at some time, attempt to match the life with the ideals that they hold, and feel that there are certain things that they can do. But most of us look at our attempts to change and feel that we are inadequate in our change, and that we are perhaps not even moving in the right direction. And as we begin to change and have this confusion and anger, we become further befuddled when we don’t move as we wish. It seems to be a self-perpetuating cycle, and we’re wondering if there’s a way that we can make the process of change one more easily accomplished; or is there some necessity for change, in order for it to be seated in our being, to become a tumultuous sort of experience? Are we supposed to be in turmoil? Is there some benefit that we can gain from being in turmoil? Is there some way to deal with the turmoil that is erroneous? Can we communicate with our higher selves through dreams? Can we do exercises? Can we watch our diet? Can we meditate more? What can we do that will make our perception of our change more balanced and harmonious? How can we accomplish change in the most efficient manner as seekers of truth?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo. Greetings and blessings to each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We wish you the peace of heart and mind that seekers have, yet often know not that they have, and would offer our thoughts in reaction to your query upon the ways of dealing with confusion when the changes in life feel as though they were coming too quickly to understand or guide. As we offer our thoughts, we remind each that our opinions are fallible, and, if any thought disturbs any of you or feels misplaced, simply to omit it from your memory, as we would not offer even more confusion of an unhelpful kind.

We imply that change can be helpful. Confusion can be helpful, and do so on purpose. There is a difference between discomfort and injury. The confusion of incarnate life in general is massive, and was meant to be so in order to challenge and successfully baffle the intellectual mind, which thinks in black and white, yes and no. The point of this baffling effect is to coax the seeker into opening the heart to the processes of thinking, evaluating, and decision-making. Those with unawakened hearts may reason perfectly, yet come to inappropriate or inefficient decisions and conclusions relative to their own deeper desires. The spiritual journey is many things, but is not linear or logical.

Earlier this day, this instrument was thinking of a story within its holy work. It is an apt tale to share at this time. It concerns a traveler who was robbed, beaten, and left upon the road. He was passed by a very well-placed gentleman who had an appointment. The man left the traveler on the road, as did another wealthy man. But there was a stranger who found the man, and although he was not from this particular region, the stranger took up the robbed and beaten man, carried him to a place of safety and succor, and made sure the beaten traveler had what he needed to recover.

In the context of the Holy Bible’s story, this was an answer to a question concerning who one’s neighbor is. The answer indicated that all were neighbors, not simply those clustered geographically around one. In the context of the query concerning confusion in a time of change, the story may be seen to be an inward representation of a frequent circumstance which occurs when the seeker attempts to monitor, review, analyze, and interrupt the process of change in order to make it more like the picture the seeker has in the mind.

When a seeker becomes an actor not only of desire, but of grasping the life as it is being lived, and attempting to help the process of change along, the seeker is standing athwart what may loosely be called “desire-driven destiny.” The resulting cross tides of confusion are a mechanically created artifact of this stance. Yet, each seeker wishes to so live the life and so cleanly make each choice that it is in charge of the life experience and gives it up to the infinite One as a beautiful gift.

The group question for this session was: What can we do that will make our perception of our change more balanced and harmonious? How can we accomplish change in the most efficient manner as seekers of truth? Q’uo began by saying that change and confusion can be helpful because they are part of opening one’s heart to the process of thinking and making choices. Then Q’uo used the story of the Good Samaritan from the Bible to illustrate that we can’t intellectually evaluate who our neighbors are, since we are all one, and we can’t evaluate that which occurs when we attempt to analyze the process of change and how it may occur outside the bounds of what we see as change. Then Q’uo said that when we try to manipulate the changes occurring in our lives, we are interfering with our destiny which causes confusion, and the best course to follow would be to make the choice to give up the changing life experience to the infinite One as a beautiful gift. On March 19, 1989, Hatonn spoke of using change as a means to turn to the mysterious face of the Eternal One:

It is well that the change takes place slowly enough that one’s mate may deal with it as well as one’s self. The process of change is sometimes painful, and we urge each to be extremely courageous and pick oneself up after each and every self-perceived failure to turn one’s face again to the mysterious face of the Eternal One.

Of course, seekers wish to help along the process of transformation. But if the seeker can pull the point of view back far enough to gaze upon the conscious self living through the confusion of change, which has been put in motion because of purified desire, this seeker may see that once the desire is honed and tempered then there comes the time of faithful patience. The intellectual mind may rush ahead and seem to predict accurately outcomes which are not actual outcomes, thus creating confusion on top of the necessary initial confusion which accompanies any change.

How much better to respect the work in consciousness which has been done, and then to see the self as the first neighbor, the nearest one to the observing portion of the self. The conscious seeker moving through the frustration, pain, and anger of not yet understood changes is a weary, broken, tired and needy traveler. Yet, there is a portion of the self which may remember to forget the rush towards the next appointment, to let go of the control of happenstance, because there is a neighbor, a self—which happens to be the self, rather than an other—which needs aid and comfort in his travail.

The seeker is so eager to go through the process of transformation, yet it is a long, subtle process. The implications of any one decision seem on the surface limited, but when one is transforming the being the seemingly limited ripples of effect give way to a much more complex field of interwoven options or varieties of tone and color in the, may we call it, “sub-programs” within the mind which are in fact effected by seemingly simple changes in the way of being.

To change an action is relatively simple in its effect upon the essential core meta-program of beingness. It often does not touch any deep programming to change a behavior. But you are asking about changing a beingness, changing the way of perceiving and experiencing one’s own essence and this is endlessly subtle work.

You can, and may well, take the uncomfortable self and visualize the giving of healing and love to this self. You would do just such for another. You also may do this for the self. When the self is somewhat comforted, the gaze again may be turned to the observation and watching of the working out of the destiny requested by the purified desire already spent. Faithfully and trustingly place the deeper observational self, with eyes clear and alert, at the right hand of all that occurs; but ask for the patience and the faith to remain an observer while a process seems to be working itself out.

All your work as an entity of spirit is groundwork laid in before confusion overtakes one. Once the cloud of confusion is there, the realization simply may be maintained and remembered that this was asked for, this is occurring, and this is a time-bound phenomenon. In this way, you are able to affirm your own desires, to comfort your own discomfort, and to position the heart open and lovingly addressing the confusion in tones of faith in the process and trust in the kindly nature of the Creator, which allowed you as co-creator to create this vortex of transformation and to go through it, powered by desire.

Now Q’uo said that if one strongly desires to experience the transformation of change it is necessary to look from the larger perspective to see the confusion that comes with change and exercise patience and comfort for the self because “you are asking about changing a beingness, changing the way of perceiving and experiencing one’s own essence, and this is endlessly subtle work.” Then Q’uo said that one could give love and healing to the uncomfortable self and then faithfully become the observer of one’s destiny that has been so strongly desired as this process works itself out. Q’uo went on to say that this process of transformation was pre-incarnatively chosen, so it is well to open the heart to love and faith in the confusion of the process of change, and to trust the kindly Creator which allowed the creation of this vortex of transformation which is powered by one’s desire. On November 2, 2003, Q’uo described the process of transformation:

One cannot drag oneself, reluctantly, to embrace transformation. It certainly can happen that way, for the energies of transformation are absolutely unstoppable. Evolution will occur automatically. It is just rather slow compared to the rate of change that is possible when an entity has decided to cooperate and to lean into the process of transformation.

Again and again it is necessary to come to the center of self with open hands, empty hands, full of unknowing, full of all of the colors that have painted your world within the last little while, whether those colors be bright and cheerful chintzes or deep purples and browns and blacks coming from difficult experiences. All of these gifts may be taken into that place and laid before the infinite One, so that you have empty hands, you have an open heart, and you are on your knees, in terms of being without pride, without arrogance, without the need to be sure or to be right.

You ask, “What can be done to aid the process of change, to ameliorate the discomfort of the confusion?” Firstly, we do not recommend attempts to become comfortable. If change is comfortable, it is likely not to be effectual. One wishing change is dealing with power which is moving in one direction. This power and all its ramifications are being asked to alter their vectors. In any study of movement of things with weight, one can see clearly the mechanics of turning to be those of the braking, the balancing, the changes in the steering, and so forth. A good deal of dynamic work is done when there is momentum to overcome and a new direction to be taken and then to be accelerated in the new direction.

So, too, when doing work in consciousness, you have a certain amount of spiritual mass which has a certain amount of momentum. When change is desired, prayed and asked for, visualized and preparations made, then there is a very graceful moment available when the realization may come that the spiritual visualization preceding change has been completed, and now the spirit, along with the conscious self in incarnation, must hang on for a bumpy ride, for there will be the braking to overcome momentum, the proper shift in direction which takes several adjustments, and then the process of gradual addition of power to the direction so that the pace is accelerated once again. The one who attempts to wrest change too quickly is doing work against the self and subverting his own spiritual, purified desires.

The various helps mentioned as possibilities—such as working with dreams, changes in diet, and so forth—are valuable individually insofar as they offer to a seeker a comfort. What is most uncomfortable about confusion? It is the disorder. It is the feeling that one is out of control. Those who seek tend to see this feeling, which is natural, and say “I should not be feeling off-balanced; I should be clear.” But “should” is not an helpful word. The way one should be is the way one is. We do not mean to split hairs, but to take one word out of the language would be perhaps rewarding to those moving through change, and this word is “should.” The heart has a wisdom concerning time which the mind lacks. Thusly, it is well to let the heart choose what form of comfort it may appropriately and skillfully take to bolster the endurance while going through transformation.

Such things as the cleansing of the diet may well give one a feeling of more control. The keeping of the dream notebook is a way of glimpsing the material which the deeper mind is discovering, recovering, and restructuring, and this may give one a deeper sense of some control in understanding the process. But, intrinsic to the process are two things: the willingness to endure through discomfort, and the faith that invokes unlimited patience, for the time of change is, in spiritual terms, timeless. Yet, that instant which in time/space exists for so long, being fully potentiated to come into manifestation in space/time, occupies a variable amount of space/time in the experience of one in incarnation. Thusly, there is not a standard waiting period, and patience needs to be given without limit.

One thing we do recommend for all who experience confusion is a very well-encouraged sense of humor. The most helpful point of view for a changing spiritual seeker is light-hearted irreverence. Play with that which is occurring. Be playful. Allow the vision to relax, the eyesight to become less than entirely single-mindedly keen when the pressure mounts and the anxiety builds, when frustration and anger begin to accumulate. Lighten your own load with laughter. And if you can laugh with another, the strength of this joy is doubled. Part of the service spiritual seekers may be to each other is to exhort and encourage each other to take it easier with the situation and the self.

Many are the times when a serious seeker feels very inadequate to that which he wishes to accomplish. The earnestness begins to become more tight and urgent. The seriousness is taken further and further until this beau geste consumes one. To a point, this intensity is helpful. Beyond that point, it always needs to be remembered that the most serious things in a life experience are made more clear and understandable by the enhancement of turning the spotlight off the seriousness of the situation and onto the beauty, the praiseworthy beauty, of the overall plan.

When one may praise the plan and give thanks for going through the necessary confusion, one is then taking very seriously and single-mindedly the transformation itself, but has let up the pressure on the self to do “such and such” or not do “such and such” in conjunction with this transformation. To take the principles, the ideals, seriously is excellent; to take the self seriously is folly. Let the self be human. Laugh at this humanity. Love it and see that it is perfectly normal to fear that which is painful.

Here Q’uo said that we should not attempt to be comfortable in times of change as our life’s momentum is moving us in a different direction, and we will also subvert our spiritual desires if we attempt to change too quickly. Q’uo continued by saying that the most uncomfortable thing about change is things being out of order or out of control, but we would benefit by letting the heart, rather than the mind, determine the process and time of transformation to occur. Then Q’uo said that we could gain some sense of control of this process by changing our diet or working with dreams to access the workings of our deeper mind, but more important would be the willingness to endure discomfort and the faith that invokes unlimited patience since spiritual transformation is timeless. They also suggested that when the process of change evokes anxiety, anger, or frustration that a sense of humor is a valuable ally, especially if shared with a friend. They said we should let our self be human and laugh at the process of change and love it. In 34.6, Ra made this same suggestion:

We observed your interest in the catalyst of pain. This experience is most common among your entities. The pain may be of the physical complex. More often it is of the mental and emotional complex. In some few cases the pain is spiritual in complex-nature. This creates a potential for learning. The lessons to be learned vary. Almost always these lessons include patience, tolerance, and the ability for the light touch.

In this group there is not the holding of the fear to the self, for which we would need to request correction; there is only the judgment of the self by the self as the self sees that it has fear. May we say that, in our opinion, fear is a normal and healthy reaction to pain. When you were small you recoiled from the touch to the oven. This was wise. Now you put yourself to more subtle testing of the boundaries and nature of your journey. You will frequently touch something very “hot” and have the healthy fear which allows you to recoil and remove the self from spiritual or mental pain. Allow yourself to move naturally and vulnerably through the unknown. Accept and love the fear, the frustration, the anger. Note them. Honor them. Comfort the self experiencing them, but do not deny them their appropriateness.

Why should you not feel the difficult process happening? Why should the changes not cause many bumps, stops, and starts, and discomforts, which express themselves in manifestations of fear, anger, and frustration? When the unknown has been penetrated by desire, the new country cannot even be seen. A transforming individual is mapping for the first of many times the new and changing territory of its road. The way is mazed and muddled, and, in many ways, the sensing self is blinded by so much incoming data concerning a novel situation. The computer mind of the physical body gives many, many alarms when receiving this kind of data from the meta-program. The resulting fear, anger or frustration is completely understandable and acceptable, at least to us.

We hope we have enabled you to have compassion upon yourselves. You have asked a question which can only be asked by those who are consciously working within themselves and who have accomplished to have purified the desire and begun to co-create a life in faith. We speak to experienced wayfarers and we say to you: When did you expect to be perfect, comfortable or settled if you wish to be a pilgrim on this particular road to infinity? You know well you expected none of those things. Comfort yourself, therefore, through the frustration. Love yourself through the anger. And cherish yourself through the depression and the grieving at the loss of the old, familiar ways. Above all, release the spirit pilgrim from the strictures of perceived time and know with every fiber of the being that the Creator’s time will become your time at the absolute moment of manifestation of transformation. Watch, wait, pray, praise, and give thanks. Always give thanks. And this thanks and praise will inform to a great degree the attitude that must lighten up the load of negative emotion.

We cheer you on in your desires and we are sympathetic with the painfulness of transformation, but we realize you wish to know not only comfortable words, but uncomfortable ones, if we feel them to be true. We do feel that it is just to experience negative emotions in an illusion which seems chaotic. We exhort you to lean on praise and thanksgiving, and then, filled with this buoyancy of spirit, gaze again and again with compassion on the weary, weary traveler that is your outer conscious self.

Now Q’uo said that fear is natural, and we should accept and love the fear and comfort ourselves as we move through this unknown territory of transformation that contains so much new data for a totally new experience. Then Q’uo said that we are co-creating a life in faith on a spiritual journey that is infinite, and we should comfort, love, and cherish ourselves through all the anger, depression, and loss of our old ways of being. They went on to say that we should have faith that the time of the manifestation of our transformation will come when the Creator’s time becomes our time, and that we should always give praise and thanksgiving for this process of change and look with compassion on our conscious self. On November 3, 1996, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the process of change:

Each of you has this sterling opportunity to break through the defenses, the shells, the masks that each has gathered about itself to defend itself from those pains which it fears. And the answer to these pains and difficulties is simply to accept them, to embrace them, to walk through them by faith, working in each case to see the love that is in the moment and to be a part of that which is good for all those whom you meet. You see, the confusions, the difficulties, the suffering are symptoms, shall we say, of the process of change or transformation when you have incomplete information. Each of you has woefully incomplete information in the conscious mind.

We apologize for taking this much time with this query, but we felt that there was no quicker way to express what are a fairly complex and subtle series of points which attempt to ground you in a new way of perceiving the spirit self in transformation. We would, at this time, thank this instrument and transfer from it that the one known as Jim may conclude the session. We leave this instrument in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I had an appointment with a dental surgeon to discuss how to deal with two sores that are in the gums above the teeth. He said that these sores were located above my canine teeth and had probably become injured at some point and that surgery was not necessary. eWhen I left the dental surgeon’s office I drove over to Thieneman’s Nursery to buy two more flats of snapdragons, zinnias, and dianthus. I also bought four pots of coral bells and a couple flats of double impatiens. Then I went by Paul’s Fruit Market and bought some food for myself. My last stop was a Walgreen’s to buy some Tylenol and some Glucosamine Chondroitin. When I got home I began my transplanting of flowers and completed the

This afternoon I went back outside and completed the transplanting of the all the flowers that I bought this morning, so I returned to Thieneman’s Nursery to buy two more flats of double impatiens, two more flats of Zinnias, four more pots of coral bells, and one more flat of dianthus that I hope to plant tomorrow morning.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 18

The Inward House Of Prayer

I am of the principle of the love of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of that living love.

If you seek to do the Father’s will this day, be not satisfied with actions which leave a residue within the mind and spirit of anxiety, restlessness, and fatigue. For if these things are felt, then mundane concerns have not been sacrificed in order that the Spirit may be dead to Earth and made alive to the moving will of the Creator.

If goodly and Godly effort has fatigued you, turn to the inward house of prayer and offer up the self with all of the opinions and requirements of the world in which you live.

And await the refreshment that the Spirit gives to those who pray. For it is the soul refreshed in Spirit which faces all earthly tasks without a sense of labor and all mundane toils without the expectation of fatigue.

Be only satisfied in prayer when the state of mind that is within you is that the world is alive and filled with joy, as the Spirit moves and recreates all that there is to become more and more the image and manifestation of Love.

We leave you in the inward peace which is the hallmark of the consciousness of Love amidst any circumstance. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 5, 1992:

The question today has to do with the concept of nurturing self-love. How do people who are naturally oriented towards being of service to others, and perhaps even serving beyond the ability to fully care for the self, take the time and energy and effort to nurture themselves? What is a way in which people can look at the nurturing of the self as a natural part of service to others? What kind of suggestions can you make as to how we can become aware of our needs for nurturing, and fulfill those needs as we go about the process of serving others and learning and growing in our daily activities?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We find great joy in joining in your circle, blending our vibrations with your own, and experiencing the unity of your seeking and the beauty of your meditation. You ask this day if we have some thoughts upon how to nurture the self, as well as nurturing other entities. The service-to-others path through the fourth density of love asks the question in this manner, and by this way of asking, points directly to the core of confusion. For the question, when wisdom is applied, becomes “How do we nurture other selves, if we are those who nurture the self?” Yet, we do not encourage you to feel foolish by putting others before self in thought or action.

We wish to note for your benefit the stance which you rightly and justly, as developing spirits, take. The lesson of compassion is learned first, then the larger lesson of wisdom. You are those seeking in the school of love, therefore this query is central. The beginning of grasping the way of nurturing the self is, however, implicit in the question. We have said to this group before that the one known as Jesus taught that there was a new covenant, a new set of commandments, which superseded the commandments given to the one called Moses. The commandments were two: to love the Creator with all one’s heart, all one’s soul, all one’s mind, and all one’s strength; and to love the other selves within your environments as you love yourself. The second of the commandments was not to love yourself as you love others, but to love others as you love yourself! Thusly, this master of compassion suggested the turning of mercy inward upon the self, prior to asking the self to expand the manifestations of mercy outward.

The way of those within the illusion wherein one cannot usually hear the thoughts of others is to take others at their word in trust, and to take the self not at one’s own word, but with each and every thought which is unexpressed held like a load upon the back. Thusly, it seems appropriate to serve others, but there is a chip upon your shoulders in your attitude toward yourself.

One set of suggestions concerning the nurturing of the self is nurturing systematically each chakra by vivid visualization, and not only by meditation, but by contemplation also. Let us demonstrate using this instrument to avoid infringement upon free will of others. Each needs must make assessments of chakra strength and clarity for each. The first chakra is always the root or red-ray energy center. Gaze at this center which loves life, which breathes the air and has appetite for preservation and procreation. This root energy is anything but base. It, as this instrument is fond of saying, contains the first sacrament, as all energies are potentially sacramental. This energy gazes—we correct this instrument—this instrument gazes at this energy and finds it very strong and clear.

There being no visualization to do, this instrument proceeds to the orange-ray energy center or chakra. Here there can be seen those muddied energies which, though small, yet block some energy from moving into the open heart. How can one gaze at the shadows that dog one’s path? If one turns about to look at them, they shift. They cannot be directly confronted, for they are shadows, yet the more firmly excellence is striven for, the darker will seem every small imperfection. This instrument then must contemplate indirectly the cause for shadows. This is the area of relationships person-to-person. Whom is this instrument not in good relationship with? The answer comes by reflex. The instrument is not in good relationship with the self. There ensues a forgiving process. Why should this instrument forgive? Intellectually, the instrument can say, “I am forgiven because I am a child of the Creator.” To the heart, no reasoning is necessary. One evaluates the self. First, may we suggest that the self be visualized as being held in the arms of the infinite One, lovingly, firmly and comfortably, rocked in eternal rhythms and loved with infinite love. When one can see oneself as the child of eternity, one can see oneself at the correct distance.

How important the instrument finds the environment of the present illusion, and how typical this is, indeed, how necessary to the growth of each spirit. Yet, in the nurturing process the reestablishment of the point of view of infinity, eternity and mystery is central, and can bring order and simplicity out of chaos.

We linger at this energy center because in your particular nation state, the outer forces which compromise free will are comparatively lesser, so that the most common blockages and over-activations of energy which confound the open heart are those of orange ray.

Now, this instrument is willing to forgive the self, and we know that each is willing to do so for the self. However, this willingness is time limited because within the experience which has become memory of your peoples, it is almost without exception that this state of self-forgiveness is lost. The attention shifts, the polarity is lessened and forgotten for the moment.

The group question for this session was: What is a way in which people can look at the nurturing of the self as a natural part of service to others? Q’uo began by saying that Jesus had made a new covenant from that of Moses’s Ten Commandments which was that we should love the Creator with all our heart, all our soul, all our mind, and all our strength; and to love others as we love our self. Then Q’uo said that one way we could do this was to visualize the nature of each of our chakras in meditation and contemplation. So, the first chakra of survival and sexual reproduction is one that the instrument had no problem with since is basically fixed in nature. [ Ra, 34.15] Then Q’uo moved to the orange ray of one-to-one relationships that tend to be somewhat muddied energies that inhibit movement of energy into the heart until one is able to see the areas of the self that need forgiveness, and this forgiveness can be achieved by seeing the self as a child of the Creator, a being of eternity. Then Q’uo said that most people have problems with the orange chakra of blockage or over stimulation which causes the state of self-forgiveness to be lost. On January 7, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the value of self-forgiveness:

Firstly, we would remind all that they are in the third density. The amount of will which it takes to balance pain and the counting of blessings is enormous, and if it is not balanced, but merely suppressed, it does much more harm than good. It is well to ventilate any negative emotion while it is small, that it does not escalate into a crisis in the spiritual walk of a pilgrim. Breathe in; breathe out. This is the first blessing. You are alive. You are in this illusion, and you are learning. You earned this position, this incarnation. Carefully did you select that which shall come to you. Carefully did you estimate your limits and move catalyst to the very limits, for you wish once and for all to learn the lesson of unconditional self-forgiveness that opens the door to compassionate love. Therefore, the first thing that we should suggest is dwelling whenever possible upon the all-compassionate love and the immediate presence of the one infinite Creator.

The instrument moves to the yellow-ray energy center, and gazes at the energies which deal with the societal groups which affect it. This energy in this case seems fairly under-energized, but quite clear. This is normal in general for entities to have certain energies which are not the forte, not the strong point of an entity’s service. Yet, they do need to be visualized to be sure that, though relatively small in influence upon the learning process, the energies are clear.

Moving into the heart chakra, the green-ray energy center, the instrument visualizes a nearly fully open, very strong heart energy which is normal for this instrument. The entity finds it sparkling at this time, and realizes the effect of those in a group which love one another, causing the heart energy to dance and shine. This is the portion of the nurturing of the self wherein others move in help from whatever other energy center is being used, the blue ray of communication, the orange ray of interaction in addition to communication, and so forth. All then comes through the heart chakra to others and from others.

It is to be suggested by us that when one sees the heart fully open, one then may do well to suggest to the self the beauty of giving and receiving of love. The reception of love, it has been noted this day, is often very difficult. When the orange-ray center is blocked by self-judgment, then the shining love of others is blocked from entering the heart. Loving gestures, thoughts, and words may batter against the heart closed to itself in vain. Until the entity is willing to open the door to comfort by ceasing to judge the self as unworthy of comfort, no comfort can move into effective service.

Thusly, service to others directly denotes the allowing of others to love the self. This is often the most difficult relationship lesson of all, for if one is not in love with the self, how can one believe or have trust and faith in the illuminating light and love pouring into one’s heart from another? There is no basis for trust, for the self is not willing to trust the self. It is an irony of the third and fourth-density illusions that more and more energy is consumed in the desire to love, to open the self to more and more complete service to others, while there remains the grudge against the self. It is as though each were running away from the self, throwing the self into as many seemingly good actions as possible, in an attempt to even the terribly lopsided score of unworthiness of the self.

However, worthiness is not a quantitative matter, and is not available to the point grading system. There is no amount of service one can be to others to offset one’s own self-judged lack of worth. Until one forgives and accepts the self, one’s service will be stunted; one’s heart will be darkened, even in the fullness of the most loving service. Perhaps this points to the centrality of the learning of self-nurturing ways.

Moving into the blue-ray energy center, this instrument sees its strongest center working well, and not in need of further balancing or energizing. This is the center of communication. It is most often blocked by those who would communicate that which has not been requested. It is well to have opinions and thoughts on every conceivable matter; this is the fruit of an active mind. It is not loving, however, to answer questions or address seen problems which have not been asked about or advice sought upon by the one to whom the entity is attempting to communicate. Service to others is very much a matter of waiting and having the patience of being the quietness of mind to feel and respect other entities’ freedom to make choices.

If there is a great desire to communicate without there being a request, it is possible to enter into conversation about whether the entity you wish to serve would be glad to hear an opinion. If the other self agrees, then an appropriate channel has been opened. If the other self does not agree, then woe betide the spirit which plunges ahead regardless, for this is specific infringement upon free will. Remember that other selves and the self come into the valley of the shadow of death that is third-density life, not to be comfortable or correct, but to make mistakes and thereby learn the lessons of how not to express love and how to express love; how not to accept love and how to accept love; and most of all, how not to conceive oneself that is as unloving, unlovely or unloved, or how to picture that same self loving, lived and love itself.

The violet ray is fixed, and can simply be assessed as a good indicator of the balance which is present in the energy of your own self as a whole. If it seems weak, then meditation upon power, that is, the aspect of the self which expresses power, is recommended. Although, as in the material this instrument has recently read, it is recommended that meditations about the power aspect of the self not be accomplished more than once in a row, rather, if the power aspect needs work, then one works upon the love aspect and the wisdom aspect in two subsequent meditations before returning to the power aspect. This is recommended, as in the work of the one known as Butler, to avoid the distortion of the personality which is the spirit’s own attempting to find itself on what this instrument would call the King’s Highway.

Now, this is one way in which the nurturing of the self can be done. This way is important in that it is completely inner in the nature of its work. Just doing this work, that is, taking the time and the energy to do this series of visualizations, is a way that moves deeply into the self’s perception web of saying that the self is indeed considered worthy of attention. Often the service-to-others path is strewn with those who have paid attention to every opportunity to aid others’ needs, but have not given the self the same gift—the gift of time, the gift of energy. Outer ways of nurturing the self—the new dress, the new car or computer game or trip—is a very kind and good gift to the self. But nothing moves more deeply into the area of the self which deals with self-judgment than the self sitting down and taking time to pay attention to the self’s spiritual health. This is subtle work.

Now Q’uo moved to the yellow-ray chakra of interaction within societal groups and noted that even though it is not the strong point of one’s service it still needs to be clear. Then Q’uo spoke of the heart chakra, which is the giving and receiving of love, and it needs to have the lower chakras open and clear so there is no judgement of the self, so one may love and accept the self. Q’uo moved on to the blue chakra of clear communication that can be blocked when one gives advice that has not been requested, so sometimes the best service one can offer from the blue ray is to wait until one has been asked for their opinion. Then Q’uo moved to the violet chakra which they described as being fixed in its reflection of the balance in the lower chakras. They also said that power of the violet chakra can be balanced by working on the green chakra and the blue chakra in two meditations before moving back to the violet chakra. Q’uo went on to say that doing these balancing exercises is a way of nurturing the self by paying attention to one’s spiritual path. On August 26, 1992, Q’uo emphasized the value of paying attention to one’s spiritual path:

I am Q’uo, and we would respond by suggesting that it is appropriate that each seeker feel a certain amount of doubt as it approaches a new experience upon the spiritual path. For this kind of doubt or questioning is that which prepares the seeker in an inner sense to take the step from the cliff not knowing whether the foot that steps shall rest upon firm fundament or not. Thus, if there is interest upon your heart and doubt in your ability, we recommend that you rely upon that desire which you feel and that you put aside for the moment the doubt in order that your journey may continue along that path which is designated by the passion and desire within you.

Now, you may note that we moved from blue to violet. That is because that of which we are speaking, the time to work with the self, is the function and the only function of the indigo ray! This ray works completely within the self, and only upon the self. To find the discipline to spend time upon the self’s spiritual welfare is more of a challenge than finding the time to attend to another’s spiritual or bodily or emotional or mental welfare. We cannot stress enough the importance of this point. Think you that one of the highest of energies possible within the self, in terms of subtlety and strength, is somehow to take the very back seat, nay, even the trunk of the automobile of life? Please see and honor the instrument that you are, no matter what outward way you treat yourself, you love yourself, you give to yourself.

The first gift of the spiritual wayfarer is the time and the energy to move within, to work upon the discipline of the personality, that more and more of the personality may be imbued with the indigo ray of joyful accepting love of self. Consider the usual indigo ray of the underdeveloped student as a pool. The polarity of service to others fills this pool, but it is simply rain falling into a conserving receptacle, a still pool within one, until it has been enlivened by the acceptance of love that is beyond the possible love when judgment remains. Until this block is removed, this pool of polarity remains still and lacking in appropriate propinquity to the…

[Side one of tape ends.]

…There’s a moment when the pool of polarity within is opened to what lies beyond acceptance of the self. Then it becomes a truly potent force within the life, as though a fountain or spring came forth from that still pool, and sprayed and dropped like rain into each present moment; so that no key must be turned to start up the engine of self-acceptance which opens the door to unconditional channeling of infinite love through one. The key is already inserted. The work is being done within in such a way to genetically affect the energies of polarized beingness.

Thus, if you now feel that you are accepting yourself over and over and over, the secret may be that the gifts you give yourself do not include the appropriate concern for inner loving work. Not so that discrimination becomes judgment, but so that the powers of discrimination within you may help you to become that which you are, but have not realized or allowed yourself to be. And why? Because you fear to look too closely. You have heard those thoughts. So, all becomes fearful at a deep level.

We ask you to free yourself from this fearing of thoughts deemed unworthy. We assume in general that entities in service to others have largely mastered the techniques of avoiding manifesting of unacceptable actions, and so we concentrate on what is considered by the self to be unacceptable thoughts or intentions. Let us gaze for the last of these thoughts at this fear. The one known as Aaron, as spoken through the one known as Barbara, has said in this group that fear is not a bad or wrong thing; it is therefore a reason, it is a good protection until the self is ready to deal with it. Then and only then, may one sit down with the fear, gaze at it, picture the self within the cave with the—we correct this instrument—opening to the cave blocked by many bands that hide the light from one.

This is the fear, and no fear is greater to the good, gentle, and kind of heart than the fear of finding the canker within. It need not be thrown away from the mouth of the cave all at once, for this might do damage to the fearful self. Take one band away, and see if that much freedom from fear is comfortable. When it is, move to take another, and another, but have the patience with the self to accept less than perfect deliverance from that fear of unworthiness at any one sitting. You have infinite time to do this work, but in each present moment, you have only that moment to do this work. Therefore, be importuning for the present moment, yet patient in the long view. If the self cannot or is fearful to do this work now, return to the image of being held in the arms of the infinite One, and rocked and lullabied and loved, for this is your true state at a deep, deep level. How you are loved! How you are loved! Feel that. Know that. Spend time with that. When you feel how much you are already loved by the infinite One, how treasured you are, then you can gain courage to go ahead and walk the King’s Highway, and do the work of falling in love with the self, even in its illusory rampant imperfection.

Now Q’uo said that the indigo chakra is concerned with the discipline of the personality of working upon the self and only upon the self in a manner in which one learns to joyfully love the self which then becomes a potent force of being able to channel the unconditional infinite love through one’s being. Then Q’uo said that if we try again and again to accept ourselves but are unable to do it that we may look within ourselves to see if there is any judgement of ourselves or fear that we are still unworthy that is manifesting as inappropriate thoughts and intentions. They said that the best way to deal with this kind of fear was to work with each inappropriate thought or intention in the present moment, discarding one and then seeing how it feels to be without it. Then at another time Q’uo said that we should discard another inappropriate thought slowly, being very patient, and if necessary to return to being held in the arms of the One, rocked gently in Its Love, and to feel how loved and treasured we are, and then we can continue to do the work of falling in love with our self even with all of our illusory imperfections. On February 15, 2004, Q’uo spoke of the value of falling in love with our selves:

The harder and more fervent the desire to be of the light and to serve at one’s highest and best, the more sharply delineated are those portions of the shadow side of yourself that have not come into full harmony and acceptance within the self as loved, forgiven, and redeemed. Only you as a self, falling in love with the self and going through a full circuit of forgiving, accepting, redeeming of self, can do the work that enables one not to have the chinks in the armor, as this instrument would say, of light. That armor of light shall always have chinks. It shall always, within third-density incarnation, be imperfect, because, were you able to be perfect, it would be time for you to move on, and you would simply not any longer be of third density. You would go through the experience of physical death so that your energy body, your soul, would be free to move into a more appropriate garment for continuing your experience.

What an illusion you have, my dear, dear ones. What a magnificent bubble of utter confusion. You are brave souls to sail forth in this chaotic illusion. May you be to each other the beacons that bespeak love for and to each other. We send our love and light to you through this instrument, and would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, that it may conclude this working. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I went outside and weeded the Morning Glory garden in the middle of the cross in the back yard, and then I put netting around it to protect the new sprouts from the deer. Then I drove to Thieneman’s Nursery and bought another 60 SunPatiens. On the way home I stopped at Feeder’s Supply to buy some fish food since I am now feeding them daily since the weather has warmed up. Then I stopped at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some Pepsi Zero, Diet Coke, and some non-food items. When I got home I finished transplanting the Flower Fall in the front yard with SunPatiens.

This afternoon I transplanted the remainder of the SunPatiens in the Sun Mandala in the back yard behind the garage and discovered that I needed to go back to Thieneman’s Nursery to buy another 30 SunPatiens to finish the Sun Mandala. I also bought three flats of Dianthus.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 16

At One With Love

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

Become very quiet. This moment is the linchpin of your busy day. This is your moment of communion. This is your heavenly meal.

For in this silence, in this moment, as your heart opens its inner door, so may you become Christed, at one with love. Thus the roots of your spirit are fed and you are given the strength to do that which it is for you to do this day.

Perhaps you will move very quickly this day. The spirit moves quickly with you. Remember as the day goes by to touch into that place of communion in the heart and you will find that love is always with you, as Jesus the Christ said, until the end of the age.

Root yourself in heaven and give your fruit to the world of the Creator that many think is the world of humankind. Let the smile upon your face be a smile knowing of the untruth of a world ever without love.

For love is in the midst of you. Love has created you. Love sustains you. And love will give you work to do. At the end of your silence, at the end of your listening, go gladly to that work and rejoice that you are alive to experience the love in this day, with these challenges.

We leave you in love and peace, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 14, 1992:

The question this afternoon has to deal with the phenomenon of the visitation of a third-density human being by a negatively-oriented entity or energy that is sent from another third-density human being practicing what is usually called the black magical arts. We are wondering how the person receiving this energy or another wishing to help this person receiving this negative energy would deal with it. What is the best attitude, the best actions and the principles that need to be considered when dealing with negatively oriented visitations, whether of an entity or an energy?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are most blessed to greet each of you this day, especially welcoming one new to our circle, the one known as K. Those of Oxal greet the one known as H, and are with this entity in silent enjoyment during this period. We are honored to have the privilege of being called to your group to speak of negative entities among your own people, and to speak also of those non-physical principles and entities which may be called upon by those within your density who are polarizing upon the path of service to self or negativity.

Let us first define the term black arts or black magical art. The metaphysical—both of the service-to-others path and the service-to-self path—is that which takes place upon a field which appears to be dark. The background of metaphysical work for both polarities is a metaphysical environment of darkness, for the metaphysical consciousness of the living spirit within third-density illusion is hidden within the deep and unlit roots of mind. Consequently, both those who seek the darkness and those who seek the light begin in a common ground of darkness, the darkness of that which is not known.

Upon this level of seeking for energy or power the search for truth is conducted in night conditions. The moon’s dimmest light is the brightest illumination as one seeks spiritually. It is extremely subtle and difficult work to distinguish truth from [inaudible] or outright falsity, to distinguish the positive leaning towards the love of the infinite One in service to others from the same activity which may seek service to self. Many are those metaphysical seekers who expect that the seeking towards the positive truth will be done in noonday sun metaphysically speaking; this is untrue. The metaphysical search is not clear, obvious, or simple. Each of you here who listens to this voice speaking our thoughts knows of the case of mistaking apparent truth for truth, and can recall instances in which that which one thought one had discovered to be a shining light was instead relatively valueless and not filled with light or power.

In the dim moonlight, shadows can be deceiving. The metaphysical search, then, is one in which faith is the great illuminator, that faith which cannot be given by one to another, that faith which each gestates within the spiritual part of the mind and body so that there becomes a faith which is personal, founded by the self.

The group question for this session was: How do we deal with negative energies that are sent to us from a negative third-density being? Q’uo began by dealing with the concept of the black magical arts as a process which occurs in darkness as also does the positive path because the metaphysical consciousness of spirit in the third-density illusion is hidden within the darkness of the deep roots of the mind which are not known. They said that under these conditions it is very difficult to distinguish truth from apparent truth or falsity, and it is very easy to make mistakes so that it is necessary to use one’s personal faith of the spirit to illuminate the darkness. On November 4, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the value of using faith to bloom in the darkness:

The illusion creates an emotional, mental, and spiritual twilight in which ideals, the purification of emotions from attachments, and the mindfulness of continuing awareness of the worship bloom in the darkness of blind faith. That is, the true worship is worship of a mystery; awe, wonder, a greater and greater subjective feeling of being held firmly by that which is not illusion, although one cannot understand it, so that the entity rests at last in a completely subjective and subjectively truthful journey. In this regard, worship may be seen as motion, motion of a metaphysical kind rather than a physical kind.

Now we return to a view of how to deal with negative entities. As a positively polarized person living a life in faith, one is prone to feel safe in the arms of the good, the true, and the beautiful. However, the entity upon the negative path feels that there is no safety, feels that there is no haven, feels that it and only it shall be the one to be counted upon, relied upon. Therefore, this entity wishes to build personal power with a greater initial reason and impetus for building a magical personality. Furthermore, this magical personality is simpler to build than the positively oriented magical personality. The negative entity need only attempt to collect to the self all possible power of any kind whatsoever without the need for discrimination or judgment.

The positively polarized entity instead is moving through processes of balancing the seemingly opposite of all things to ascertain the most careful balance of truth, of beauty, of goodness, for to the positively oriented entity it is clear that the illusion has the appearance of a bias toward negative events and circumstances. In order to clarify right action and the positive use of power, careful balancing of all stimulus needs must be done. Thus, each of you has the seemingly more difficult task in living a chosen life of faith, for both paths are given by the one infinite Creator. Although the Creator offers suggestions implicit in experience that the positive path of serving others is preferable and more to be desired, the negative path beckons, and it too is also effective, as this instrument would say, godly in that there is no energy [but] that of the one infinite Creator.

Further, the nature of your experience in third density offers simpler beginnings to a metaphysical base of power for those which choose negativity. What is not obvious is that the negative path becomes more and more difficult, until at last it is a road impossible to be walked, whereas the positive path is eternal.

Therefore, one who is assaulted by word, dream, feeling or other action by a negatively polarized entity of third density is dealing with not only a godly person but his own self, for all are one in the creation of the Father. In each mind, body and spirit which together make up the person there is all that there is. Each person is an holograph of the creation, the created and the Creator.

Now Q’uo began to describe how the positive entity utilizes the balancing exercises to ascertain the nature of what is true, good, and beautiful since the third-density illusion has a bias towards negativity and requires the positive entity to live a life in faith. Q’uo continued by saying that even though the Creator has a bias toward positivity, the negative path is also offered as a simpler choice for negativity as a spiritual path, even though it becomes more difficult to travel and must end at some point, whereas the positive path is eternal. Then Q’uo said that when a positive person is assaulted by a negative entity they are dealing with an equally godly person as their own self and of the Creator, for all are one. In 7.15, Ra described the equality of the positive and negative paths:

The Law of One blinks neither at the light or the darkness, but is available for service to others and service to self. However, service to others results in service to self, thus preserving and further harmonizing the distortions of those entities seeking intelligent infinity through these disciplines.

Thusly, when negative greeting is known or suspected the positively oriented person of power sits down and prepares itself to reckon with its own universal nature. It is fully capable and fully supplied with negativity. The perceived negativity from the outside in is successful when the positively oriented intended victim knows not that it is being greeted by its very self. If a ravening beast comes at one’s body, one attempts to slay that beast to save the self. If a metaphysical ravening beast attacks one in the manner of magical arts, one reckons with this attack by visualizing this creature, welcoming it into the self, and accepting fully that this horrible monster is a part of the self.

When one chooses a path one has the full spectrum from which to choose precisely because one contains all that there is. The first defense, therefore, is to visualize this negative power and fearlessly to invite it to take up a loving absorption within the very heart, for positive power is power balanced by knowledge of the self. The decision not to attempt power over another is made when the entity grasps that there is no need to have power over others, for all of creation expresses its power in the self. All magical work, therefore, is done upon the self. There is no need to manipulate, teach, control, move or advise other entities. The need is only to do these things within the self, disciplining the self to a more and more balanced and clear acceptance of the universal nature of selfhood, and therefore choosing lucidly and clearly to serve others, to withhold judgment of or control over others, and to practice loving the self, accepting the self and allowing the errors perceived within the self to be self-forgiven.

As one forgives one’s self, one then is able to forgive all. As the negative greeting is seen, then it is visualized and made materially real within the metaphysical world of thought as a creature of the night, a mythical creature which then is lovingly absorbed, accepted, and forgiven. The forgiven selfishness becomes harmless. This alone is enough to dissuade most negative third density entities who are wishing to control others, for most are not particularly skillful. Being accepted is unacceptable to a negatively oriented entity, who gains power by causing fear, anger, hatred, disgust and other negative reactions of emotion.

When this entity’s selfhood is seen for its blackness, yet lovingly, compassionately accepted, absorbed into a strong goodness of self and forgiven, the negative entity experiences loss of all [inaudible] power and chooses to attempt to control others who will be satisfactorily afraid and terrorized by such. In the case of the very few who have the energy and endurance to pursue the path of control over others to the point where they are able directly to contact metaphysical sources of negativity, the situation, while no less solvable, is not as easy and simple to deal with from the standpoint of the one greeted. Again, in the unthinking person of third density, the response to perceived attack is counter-attack.

It takes a good deal of wisdom to be able to calmly and objectively gaze upon the face of metaphysical malevolence, for those who have contacted those metaphysical sources which are of fourth density have garnered to themselves two things. One is a third-density personality within incarnation of sureness and confidence. There is in such entity a true blackness of spirit, a honed hatred which sees no shadows. The positive path is full of shadows, of questions and doubts, of continual learning and balance. The choice for positivity is not the choice for simplicity of early lessons. The choice for negativity is a choice for simplicity of early lessons. Thusly, an entity which is negative has an apparent advantage once it has progressed to a certain point of being absolutely sure of the self without the need for faith, whereas the positively polarized entity is still dealing with the endless and confusing shadows of the spiritual landscape, which is lit by the dim star of hope and the thin, delicate moonlight of faith.

In this situation where there is not only the living incarnate negative entity who greets one but also the spirit of higher density cooperating in its peculiar manner in this negatively oriented entity, the positive path must be seen to be a place of hope and faith which are accepted without proof. The positive pilgrim takes into the heart a strong desire to leap foolishly into the abyss of the unknown, unprotected by certainty, facing in mid-air the seeming destruction of personal safety, clinging to nothing but a faith that all is well and that there is nothing to fear. Many are the loving and positively oriented souls who yet are not able to do this. When such entities are greeted by these relatively powerful negative sources the most—we search this instrument’s mind for the appropriate word—practical solution is to find one among your people which is positive in nature and is steeped in rituals of positivity, which include in their language the seeking of the greeting of fourth-density or higher positive metaphysical entities. Such people are the so-called priests of various of your religious belief systems which believes in the war betwixt good and evil. This war is fought by fourth-density negative entities and fourth-density positive entities which still believe that a battle is appropriate.

Now Q’uo said that when a positive person feels the attack from a negative source it may deal with it by seeing that it is a part of its self that is offering the attack, as it is part of all that is, and should welcome the attack into its heart. Then Q’uo said that by seeing the universal nature of the self, the person may forgive any failings of the self, and forgive the negative entity as well. Then Q’uo said that this acceptance and forgiveness of the negative entity is unacceptable to the negative entity because it gains power by causing fear and loses power by being loved and forgiven. Q’uo said that this process by the positive entity is one which requires a good deal of faith that all is truly well when the third density is full of shadows, of questions and doubts, of continual learning and balance while the negative entity has a simpler path where it is sure of its self and needs no faith. Then Q’uo said that the positive entity must “take into the heart a strong desire to leap foolishly into the abyss of the unknown, unprotected by certainty, facing in mid-air the seeming destruction of personal safety, clinging to nothing but a faith that all is well and that there is nothing to fear.” On February 13, 2010, Q’uo revealed the value of leaping into the abyss:

Now, what is faith? What is that leap into faith, which is not obvious and is not provable? How does that work? There comes a time for each seeker when there is a choice-point at which he must choose to act in faith that all is well in spite of evidence of the contrary, or to retreat in fear into a cave of his own imagining and to be thusly limited.

It is after an entity has chosen by faith to take that leap into faith that faith begins to prove itself a sturdy place to set one’s foot. It is only after the leap into the abyss of the unproven and mysterious that one gains one’s sure footing and becomes fearless and willing to be that entity whose approach to life is to look for love. With the veil in place, the decision to leap into faith has great weight and value.

It is a risky thing to do. It feels risky. It takes courage, integrity and will. It takes that of which the one known as G was speaking as a focus of desire, a seeking, a hunger, a thirst for the Creator, for truth, for love, for beauty. Therefore, there is tremendous intensity and power given to the one who makes that choice in faith.

Before we leave this topic we would focus once more upon the mysterious and fertile land of spiritual choice, the dark world within. Each of you gaze within. Do you feel magical? Do you feel powerful? If the answer comes too easily it is likely that there is that within you which would choose the easy way towards power, that is, the path of negativity, for each step upon the negative path seems from within to be positive: one wishes power so that one may help people; the way to help people is to give advice, give teaching; make sure that all is well by controlling various people and circumstances. All these things feel natural and good. Most beginning negative entities have no idea that they are embarking upon the path of negativity.

Contrasting with this is the positive path, where power is accrued by being the weakest, and greatness is achieved by being the servant of others, where advice and teaching are given only when asked for. How many among your religious systems, caught up in the fervor of rightness and righteousness, judge, condemn, and control many for their own good? How few there are in your belief systems of religion who ignore doctrine and dogma and seek to serve each entity according to its requests when it can, and offering only benediction, forgiveness, and acceptance when it cannot. Yet to those few who know themselves well enough not to judge, not to control others, but to work on the self, to these few come strength, magical power and illumination of incandescent light which shoots through that darkness of metaphysical field like lightning. The world, as this instrument would say, cannot see that lightning. Only each individual pilgrim upon the positive path who moves into a life in faith, a life without fear, may be illumined. It moves through one, it does not stay with one. And such entities are channels of joy and peace.

Whether the greeting of negative entities seems, or seems not to succeed, such entities are forever safe in spirit. We are those of the positive path. We are also dusty pilgrims who have searched long in the shadows of hope and faith. We do not expect third-density entities to be without fear. We simply ask entities who wish to live in faith not to be afraid of their fear, not to be ruled by their fear, but to accept this fear, to love this fear, as part of the universal self, and to move on, leaping foolishly into the next step in blindness and in faith. May each of you find each step to be one which is offered to the infinite One as a gift, a testimony of love, for if the Creator is love, then the choice of fearlessness is always correct.

We encourage each to be patient, forgiving, accepting and slow with each fear that keeps it from progressing. Take time to work through the balancing of that fear, overcome it never, but take it within the self, love it, accept it, and gently, strand by strand, part the curtain that keeps the self from progressing fearlessly. This is slow work but it moves one ever towards the truth, the good, and the beautiful.

Now Q’uo suggested that we look within ourselves to that fertile and mysterious land of spiritual choice and ask ourselves if we feel magical and powerful. Then they warned us that if we feel the answer is “yes,” that we may be opening ourselves to the negative path that would use these qualities to control others for their own good and, thusly, begin the negative path. They described the positive path as one in which power is gained by being the weakest, and greatness comes from serving others, and teaching is given only after being asked, and then they said that: “Yet to those few who know themselves well enough not to judge, not to control others, but to work on the self, to these few come strength, magical power and illumination of incandescent light which shoots through that darkness of metaphysical field like lightning.” Then they said that by living in faith that this is true, we can become channels of joy and peace that do not live in fear but accept and love it as part of our universal self so that we can continue to leap into the next step of our spiritual journey in blindness and in faith. Q’uo completed their response by saying that each step on our journey is a gift to the infinite One as a testimony of love, for if the Creator is love then fearlessness is always a good choice.  On February 27, 1983, Hatonn recommended fearlessness as a critical part of our spiritual journey:

You think, “My will is strong and my heart shall be light, and I shall meet all obstacles with love, that love that I know, that love that I feel, that love that I seek.” And yet, these things you do not always do. You do not know. It is the seeking, continuous, balanced between seriousness and joy, fresh each day, that accelerates your rate, speed, and leads you upon an ever-narrower path.

And this, my friends, is good, for it is the narrow path, the path of courage, the path of fearlessness in the face of not knowing that will grant you more and more a sense of being able to reach into the resources of your higher self, of your deeper self, of your inner self, of Christ consciousness, and manifest the true joy of faith and will. It has often been noted that justice is blind among your peoples. We would further note, so is love, so is seeking. Do not let the dimness of your mirror images ever discourage you for long. Do not let your own lack of manifestation ever discourage you for long. Do not let any error, as you may consider it, discourage you for long, for this creation is the Creator’s. You live in a creation of love and in an illusion of mystery. See far enough to find the love and have the courage to release yourself from the responsibility of certain knowledge. Those who are certain about philosophy and those things of the spiritual evolution have simply placed themselves on a slower path where they will be borne upon the shoulders of their comrades, given more encouragement, offered frequent rests, and sustained by many comforts. Courage, my friends. You who have it shall inherit a great mystery of being as can no one who seeks certain knowledge. You seek the wind. It is invisible, it is infinite, and it will come and go when it will. Do you suggest that you shall know it, that you shall measure it, and put it between the pages of a book? Or do you instead seek to be it? Lift your wings, my friends, and soar in the love and the light that is yours for the seeking, yours for the taking, and yours to manifest in glory.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument and the [inaudible] and in light. We are known to you as Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. We are aware that we have spoken long and apologize for the length of our delivery. We are aware that we have fatigue in the circle [inaudible]. We are, however, privileged to offer ourselves at this time for any further queries that you may have for us. Is there a query at this time?


I am Q’uo, and we shall take this opportunity to thank each once again for inviting our presence into your circle of seeking this day. We are most filled with joy to be able to walk with you upon your journey at this time. We shall now leave this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my nippers to remove one dead stalk of the Oak Leaf Hydrangea in front of the front porch and also trimmed off all the old blooms from last year. Then I used my trimmer to trim the weeds out of the Moss Garden and out of the Nandina Garden beside the fishpond.

This afternoon I drove over to Thieneman’s Nursery and bought 60  SunPatiens to plant in the Flower Fall Mound in the front yard since that was all my car could hold. When I got home I transplanted them into about half of the Flower Mound, so I will need to buy that many more tomorrow. Then I noticed that the water quality in the fishpond had gone down a lot as had the height of the fountain, so I drained half of the water out and refilled the pond with fresh water.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 15

You Seek The Uncreated Things

I am of the consciousness of love and I greet you in the name of Jesus the Christ.

I am the spirit, created before all worlds and uncreated, attaching creation to un-creation in the fullness of the Father.

Before your minds lie things created. And yet you seek the uncreated things, that which you call the mystery. You need seek no further than the depths and recesses of your being. Each soul is uncreated as well as created, potential as well as active, unstructured as well as infinite, full and whole, with a wholeness of that which is not created but merely is a gift.

For love is that substance which not only is created but creates its own creation from itself. Never fear that you shall lack, in the spirit of love, to be able to offer love in any amount if you but seek the uncreated strength and fullness of the spirit of Jesus Christ. Infinity lies within you and light which seems inaccessible to the eyes is accessible in prayer.

We leave you in the peace of wholeness, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 7, 1992:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time, it is our privilege to offer ourselves for any further queries that may be upon the minds of those present. Is there a query at this time with which we may begin?

Questioner: I’d like to ask how does one let go of one’s self-control, to learn to contact personal guides like you are or just get in touch with your own feelings?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We would suggest that one possible technique would be for the entity wishing to release that which it sees as control, that it does not wish to retain within its behavior patterns, to enter into the meditative state and to look at the patterns that the entity has developed throughout its life pattern, and to see these patterns of behavior as a web of rituals or habits which have given comfort to the entity for a large portion of its experience. Look at this pattern and the barrier that it presents to further experience, in that there is the holding of the thought and action of the entity within the pattern. Imagine the experience that would ensue should the pattern be altered. Look to those areas where there is the desire for inspiration, for innovation, for the breaking of the patterns and the introducing of new experience. Feel how this breaking of old patterns and the introducing of new behavior would affect the life, the feelings, the concept of self. Imagine this process mentally.

Then, when you feel that you would like to experiment with such innovation, allow yourself a period of time that is unstructured so that whatever feelings or intuitive inclinations might wish to surface may do so. Move with these feelings as you wish, as feels appropriate. Explore in this safe arena of unstructured activity and thought all the attendant feelings and activities that move into the mind as you are experimenting. Repeat this process a number of times so that you begin to get the feel of releasing comfortable patterns and the feeling of accepting that which is new and unknown within one’s self. Become aware of the intensity of feelings that result. Explore the feelings and their ramifications within your life experience and within your being.

Then, again, in the meditative state, look for other areas where there is the possibility of introducing new behavior or of releasing old behavior without knowing that which shall follow. As you become more familiar with the feeling of letting go of control, you will find that there is a kind of skill developing, much as you developed the ability to ride a bicycle as a young child.

The ability to release that which is structured and safe and accept that which is new and unstructured can be learned by any entity that has the sincere desire to release that which it has held onto for a great portion of its life experience. The meditative reflection before and after entering into this process prepares the deeper self for this experience, and, once the experience has occurred, seats the new learning at that deeper level of the self so that it can become a portion of the patterns of behavior that are your tools for processing catalysts, for learning, and for being of service to others by utilizing that which you have learned.

Questioner asked: How does one let go of one’s self-control, to learn to contact personal guides like you are, or just get in touch with your own feelings? Q’uo began by saying that in order to release the behavior patterns of control that are no longer desired, Questioner should retire into meditation to observe these patterns that have been developed over the lifetime which have provided comfort but also have created barriers to further growth, and then she should look for those areas where there is the desire and inspiration to break these patterns and create new experiences. Q’uo went on to say that she should take some unstructured time to experiment with these new patterns of thought and activity to see what releasing comfortable patterns feels like as she accepts the new and unknown within herself, and then she should repeat this process a number of times. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that anyone can release old patterns of control that are structured and safe and replace them with those that are new and unstructured by using meditative reflection to seat this new learning in the deeper self as an enhanced means of being of service to others. On August 10, 1980, Latwii spoke of the value of learning new experiences:

It is very difficult, my friends, to learn if you do not have trouble because it is difficult to get the attention of those within the physical unless they have some stimulus. Difficulties, problems and troubles are the way that this incarnation which you have chosen works in order to give you the lessons that you need. Let your mind analyze the material which you meet, let it find the balances, and let it choose the new experiences with an eye towards enhancing your own understanding and that of those around you.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: [Carla talks about how she has helped many people with such concerns as that of the previous questioner, and has noticed in her work that others give her more authority in their lives than she feels she should have. She asks Q’uo if there is something that she is unconsciously doing that she could learn more about so that she would not have inappropriate, unwanted control or authority in others’ lives.]

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We would suggest that a large portion of your fear of assuming too much authority in the eyes of others can be quelled by simply reminding each entity that that which you share is but your opinion, and, though joyfully and freely shared, is but opinion. Once this is stated and understood, both by yourself and by the other self, then we would recommend the free sharing of that which is yours to share without further concern, for over-concern in this area may simply become a stumbling block for yourself.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: [Carla follows up with the statement that with some people, the more one says that one does not have all the answers, the more respect one is given, and the more people will take what one is saying with weight, and she doesn’t know a way around that. She notes that Q’uo may share this problem as well.]

I am Q’uo, and am aware once again of your query, my sister. This difficulty we find is that which resides not in the one seeking to offer assistance but in those to whom the assistance is offered. Not all learning or all experience of any kind shall be free of difficulties. Thus, we suggest the going forth bravely without over-concern for this feature of many student/teacher relationships, but continuing in the open-hearted giving without this concern. For, as one shares in a free and open manner the, as they have been called, “clay feet” will make themselves apparent time and again so that there will no longer be the necessity for the reminder to any that the feet are made of clay and the opinion is prone to error.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?


I am Q’uo, and as we appear to have exhausted the queries for this session of working, we would take this opportunity to thank each entity for inviting our presence in your meditation this day. We are most grateful for the opportunity to walk with you upon your journeys of seeking. We are always filled with great joy at such opportunities, for in this manner we are privileged to experience the depth of your seeking for truth and the intensity of your desire to be of service to others.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning Anna and I drove over to the Watterson Trail house where Don, Carla, and I had the Ra contact. We took a short look at it from the bottom of the driveway so I could point out the living room, the Ra contact room, and Don’s bedroom. Then we drove up a road in the new subdivision that has been built in the last few years so we could see the other side of Carla’s bedroom, the office, and the back of my bedroom. We were talking about how the hawk was the totem animal for Don, Carla, and me during the Ra contact, and then a minute later we saw two hawks that were flying in circles above the house. We took that as a very good sign of our visit being an appropriate part of our spiritual journey for today. When we got back home we watched and listened to Carla channel Ra in Session #24.

This afternoon I was on Daniel Hodapp’s Law of One Study Group and had another great time speaking to the questions that the seeker’s of truth in his group asked me. I always enjoy sharing the space of their lives from the viewpoint of the Law of One and my own spiritual journey. After our session was over I took half of the house plants outside, and put most of them on the front porch and four hanging from the canopy over the fish pond.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 14

May Your Spirit Speak

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of Love and in its spirit.

As one person looks upon another, creature looks at creature and spirit looks at spirit. In the eyes of some the creature is awake and the spirit quite asleep. In the eyes of others the spirit has so far awakened that the creature needs no expression, for all has been sublimated to the transformation of spirit.

In each glance, in each touch, and in each word with other entities, may your spirit speak mutely and creatively to those about you and may you rejoice to find the lively spirit when and where you will. Indeed, the spirit is in all.

And it is well that all encouragement be given by you, that it may be awakened. To each creature which has the spirit underneath there are awakening and enlivening words and graceful gestures of love and compassion which can be made which do not preach in words but speak volumes to the spirit within others in a sense which goes far deeper than words. Thus may your spirit speak, and thus may you aid in recreating and transforming all to spirit.

We leave you in the lively, creative and transformational peace of the spirit of Christ.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote come from June 7, 1992:

The question today has to do with the concept of the ethics of control. When we are in relationship with friends or family, especially children, we often find ourselves in the situation of exerting some sort of influence over the person, oftentimes for his or her own good. We do this to friends, family, and even to ourselves, controlling our behavior, our thoughts, our responses, in order to make them align with what we think is more appropriate or “higher” or better. And we are wondering today what the ethics are of attempting to affect our own, and especially other peoples’, behavior because we think that the effect we desire is better or more appropriate or will be more helpful to the person in the long run. What are the ethics or results, metaphysically and spiritually, of attempting to affect other peoples’ behavior in this fashion?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are transformed with joy that you have called us to offer our opinions at this time. We do ask each to be aware that we are imperfect, sentient beings such as yourselves. Our store of memories and experiences is consciously greater than your own, but our opportunities for error precisely the same. Therefore, we ask that all of our thoughts be understood to be opinion and not fact. We ask that each discriminate within the self to take up those ideas which seem welcome and useful and to leave the rest behind. This would be doing us a great service.

You ask of the ethics of control. The foundations for such a question must move back to the larger view so that we may begin from a sturdy foundation of thought. It has often been noted in scientific, nonscientific, brilliant, and foolish ways that the universe is in one way or another in balance: the stars in their courses, the galaxies in their huge orbits, the seas within their limits. All speak of the immeasurable amount of control with which the universe is created. The tiny fertilized egg has the life and the death of the body it shall become written in miniature within its tiny self, just as the seed knows precisely what form of plant it shall grow into, the manner of its blooming, and the nature of its fruit. Thusly, the universe is set upon its course with an intricacy the finest watchmaker could hardly conceive.

Against this fundamental dynamic is its echo and that which offers the opportunity for balance; that is, the freedom which all sentient beings have within the Creator’s universe to choose that which they shall pursue, that which they shall think and choose. Were the universe to relax its discipline, there would be no universe. Yet, the fixed quality of stellar events and cycles is the backdrop against which is played out the choices of humans for themselves, for their families, for their communities, for their nation states, and for the sphere, the world, at large. Therefore, each entity has both more power and less power than it may think it has.

No entity may stop the sun in its course. No entity may control the stars or the tides. Yet, the cosmic influences of star and planet and moon move the tides of the blood within each entity’s veins. The various energies within an entity create cross-tides, cross-currents, the flooding of emotion, the desert of blocked emotion. These things are offered not simply by fate, not by predetermined laws, but by the series of free will choices which have been made by the seeking individual as the individual walks upon the path of spiritual evolution. That each free will choice is one’s own means to each seeker that it is powerful in its choice-making. This power is underestimated.

The group question for this session revolved around what the spiritual ethics were regarding the control of others or the self for the greater good. Q’uo began by giving an overview of how the universe is created and functions with the greatest control of galaxies, planets, and down to the tiny seed that grows and flowers in a controlled fashion. Then Q’uo said that there was a balance to this type of control that is seen in the ability of all sentient beings to make free will choices upon the various levels of the individual, their families, their communities, the state, nations, and the world as well. Q’uo went on to say that the stars, the sun, and the moon also have a kind of control over each person, and each entity also used its free will to flood or to block its own emotions as it walks the path of spiritual evolution.  Then they said: “That each free will choice is one’s own means to each seeker that it is powerful in its choice-making. This power is underestimated.” On November 22, 2002, Q’uo spoke of the power of the choice-making ability of the seeker:

The self may be seen by the self, and the self may find itself helpful if it is able to retain an objectivity concerning the incoming data which it is receiving. The very heart of third-density existence is the experience of utter confusion. It is the goal of this density to create an atmosphere in which only by faith can one see the health and rightness of the present moment. The purpose of this confusion is to wean the infant spirit from its biological choice-making brain and into the fourth-density gateway, shall we say, which is the fourth chakra of the energy system of the human vehicle, the green-ray energy center or heart chakra. Once the seeker is able to grasp the value of this opened heart and the limitations of both intellect and personality, the seeker is far more able to retain a certain sector of consciousness which is devoted to refining the accuracy and lack of emotional bias with which it receives the incoming information.

The effect that entities have when controlling or attempting to control other entities is far from fixed, for the relationship betwixt the two entities shifts constantly as your experience and your time seem to pass; and the relationship, the connection, between two entities shifts and grows as constantly and restlessly as wind or tide. Therefore, the ethics of choosing to control another, or choosing to attempt to control another, are ethics of a corollary nature, the primary ethic being the control of the self.

The ethics of the control of the self may be seen to be a careful and subtle process of learning and making choices. The advent of consciousness into the physical vehicle, which is the body of those in third density such as you, creates a situation where a self-conscious, sentient being lies helplessly within a nearly completely useless physical vehicle. Thusly, from babyhood to adulthood there is a continuing spiral of the attempt to order and control one’s universe: the small universe of the infant with needs for comfort and food; the larger world of the toddler, the world of parents and personal ability to say “no”; the larger still world of the young, learning, growing child with friends and teachers, and a growing sense of the self; until finally, one day, the culture in which an entity lives says to that entity, now you are legally and officially an adult.

At this point, the adult is the product of many, many choices which have been played out against the dramatic interplay of the child needing and grasping enough control of the self to be comfortable, and those who are concerned for that entity attempting to describe boundaries within which choices may effectively or safely be made. Suddenly, the shoe, as this instrument would say, is upon the other foot. This young adult moves into environments of work, of bearing and raising children, of mated relationships, of far more group participation, in that adults are more often asked to help make decisions for church or community or charity, or in some way take part in making social choices.

The, what you call, political system is an example of theoretical free choice-making. It is to be noted that the concept may become overburdened when too small at one end and too large at the other. Your societies tend to spin like tops because the balance point of power is small, those over whom power is held, many. In this regard, we may say that for the ethics of control to be more nearly applicable to yellow ray social decision-making, the communities in which decisions are made must needs be small, small enough that each entity choosing has some small idea of who and what sort of entity each person is.

We move back to our image of the young adult discovering that now, instead of being the radical or rebellious youngster attempting to be free from constraints, the situation now is that there are times when it is ethically correct to attempt to control others to some extent. This is a shock, indeed, to many a young parent in particular.

As an entity gazes at the choice between allowing another entity to make what seems an unwise choice, questions may helpfully rise to the mind in this process of ethically controlling or ethically refusing to control. The first question is, “Will my inaction prevent this entity from surviving?” There is no case where there is any negative karma, shall we say, which is accrued from the attempt to keep another from becoming unviable. To save another, indeed, is a hero’s or heroine’s service. But, usually, the questions are more subtle.

Ethics is a system of thought which describes those actions which are appropriate. So, one may ask, is this a situation in which I should attempt to control because of an appropriate end? Appropriate ends are suggestions that may aid someone in achieving spiritual maturity, suggestions that may aid another in a savings of time or other valued commodity. Perhaps you see the general tendency of this word “appropriate.” If control is used when it is appropriate, then, regardless of whether the entity controlled is in fact able to be controlled or not, the choice has been well made. If, on the other hand, an entity desires to control another from fear—that is, the fear that another is not doing the correct thing spiritually, politically, socially or economically—then this choice of control may be seen to be inappropriate.

The term “war” may be seen as the largest written, broadest spanning, example of inappropriate attempts to control others. The choices for spiritual, economic political, and social movements that have only rhetoric and ideas behind them are those things which one need not attempt to control. Look at how much control is attempted to be exerted by those who would that others do as they do, believe as they believe, dress as they dress, behave and so forth.

Here Q’uo speaks about the ethics of control as that which changes as the relationship between entities changes, and the first consideration is the control of the self, which continues to grow as the child self matures more and more until it is finally an adult and has gained the full ability to control the self. Then Q’uo said that the adult may participate in more choices and make decisions for the family, the work environment, the community, the church, and in the political arena as well, but the ethics of control function best when the communities are small enough to know more about the nature of each entity within the community. Q’uo now looked at the young entity that has matured and is faced with the question as to whether it should allow another entity to make unwise choices, or should it attempt to control because of an appropriate goal of helping another in achieving spiritual maturity, for example. They continued by saying that the word “appropriate” is important in deciding whether to control a person or not, and if the choice to control a person is appropriate then the choice has been well made. Q’uo then said that attempting to control a person out of fear that another is not doing the correct thing spiritually, politically, socially, or economically is an inappropriate choice, and they used war as an example of an inappropriate way of attempting to control others. On March 2, 1991, Q’uo went into detail as to the appropriate and inappropriate ways of controlling another:

Look at fear and ask, “What am I trying to control?” It is well to know that it is only an illusion that we ever are in control of anything. Not that entities are not free to make choices, but that the reality which eludes the illusion you enjoy is that all are parts of one flowing fountainhead of an active, creative, beautiful and living ocean of light. All flow into each other, through each other, through the self; and always, whatever condition the flow experiences, it is experienced not only as harmonious or aesthetically beautiful, but perfect. Each of you, as a spark, perceives the self as imperfect and at risk. That stops your spark of light from joining in shared heart as one. The only control entities have is not in circumstances, but in choosing skillful actions to deal with the catalyst which has been given. Thusly, if you see, hear, and analyze mentally where the being is attempting to control and in what way, the start is made. However, it must be continually grounded in constant reaffirmation of faith and an awareness that one has no control except when one dedicates oneself to that highest and best occupation one may personally offer. We feel that we reach out to each other; but in reality we reach in to free ourselves from the fear of an unknown, only partially manifested other self or from a condition or substance with which one has experienced loss of control previously. The true freedom is that of the devoted and absolutely faithful seeker.

When teaching the child what is appropriate, many are the choices made for the child. When gazing at an adult, it may be seen that these choices have passed from the need for outer control. When an entity has the discipline of the self and the personality is touched and quieted by the surrender to that great original Thought of Love which is the nature of the infinite Creator then questions of control become far less necessary, for the more centered, self-knowing, and quiet-hearted an entity, the less fear this entity will have that entities seemingly different from him will in some way harm or hurt him or his sensibilities.

Intolerance, prejudice, and the cant of religious rhetoric are based upon fear. The ways in which individuals with fear may see themselves controlling may well be that of love and concern for the other self. Yet, no entity can learn for another, be safe for another, or do another’s work. Suggestions can be made. There is no harm in suggestions. If the expectation is that they will be taken, then the matter must be referred to ethics: is this desired result appropriate? Is this desire appropriate?

Leaning upon one word, love, one may learn a great deal about ethics. In your own way, you aid the infinite creation in its path. Each individual’s consciousness, if it rests in love, is more and more a part of that infinite, eternal, constant creation of the Father. As the whirlwind within the mind and emotions of living calms itself, and spiritual maturity advances, that part of each self that is of the infinite Creator and is an holograph of the infinite creation begins to manifest itself without words. Yet, this manifestation of love, flowing through one in infinite measure, gives to those entities whose discipline has been towards maturity an authority that makes it unnecessary to attempt to control, in most cases. For, as one is more and more the authority over the vagaries of the human self, just so does the heart within that self find itself peaceful and open and, therefore, a shuttle through which the love of the infinite One may flow freely.

We began with the image of the planets in their courses. We would end with a view of the constellation of the self. Gaze within. See the starry heavens of your own fixed universe as an electron microscope would see it. Your physical vehicle, all that is massive about you, is as the infinite creation: tiny, tiny apparent specks of matter in a vast, vast area of space. Each cell of your body is unimaginably vast compared to the particles which give it, through their motion, a field of electromagnetic unity. Within each of you there are subsystems or galaxies: the heart, the stomach, the liver, the musculature, and so forth. Each has its instinctually given work to do for the good of the whole. The liver does not sit down and say, “I will not work today.” Barring accidents of ill health, the liver will do what livers do, the stomach what stomachs do, the muscle what muscles do, all directed involuntarily by the primal mind, much directed by the conscious mind. All this space within, all these fixed orbits within, and you as controller over all.

You are a co-creator. Step back from the constellation of the self. See the constellation of your own mind. See the unimaginable number of choices that have brought you to this moment. And see that you will treat others as a corollary of the way you treat yourself. As you venture forth within this incarnational experience you are enjoying, see and feel the dance of interstellar space, of the constellations of the body and the marvelous structure of the mind, and realize that you enter the present moment powerful within yourself. As each fear is noticed, addressed, blessed, accepted, and eventually dropped away, for it is unneeded, there will be fewer times that the constellation that unifies as yourself finds, through fear, that it wishes to control an inappropriate way. Look always first to the discipline of the self and the acceptance, blessing and forgiveness of the self, as the self is imperfect, so it seems. Then when you gaze upon a fellow being there will not be the blinders of fear to distract the thinking or blind the eyes of judgment. As this instrument often says, free will is paramount. Let this and love be your guides.

Here Q’uo said that as we mature and gain more knowledge of ourselves as a portion of the Love of the infinite Creator, we have no further fear or need for control, whereas those with religious prejudices may have fear as their basis for feeling that they are controlling others for their own good and calling this fear love. Then Q’uo said that if love is truly within one’s heart, that individual’s consciousness is part of the creation of the Father, and the heart within this being becomes a shuttle through which the love of the infinite One may flow freely. Q’uo suggested that we look within ourselves as an analogy of the universe, galaxies, and planets to see the cells of the body, the various organs of the body, each of which has its own work to do for the good of the body under the direction of the primal mind of the body and the conscious mind as well. Q’uo went on to say that we all are a co-creator and have made a multitude of choices to bring us to the point of realization that we are whole and powerful in mind and body which gives us the opportunity to let all fears drop away so that we can love and accept ourselves and have no need to control others. Q’uo completed their response by saying that when we look at our fellow beings there will be no blinders of fear to distract our thinking, and we should let free will and love be our guides as to how we relate to them. On October 6, 1996, Q’uo revealed the goal of being able to love and accept ourselves:

So, we encourage each to gaze unafraid at those dark emotions within, to love and accept them, and gently and persistently and with humor to work with them, putting them in perspective, seeing them for the vampires that they are and allowing compassion to flow as you enfold your dark side in your heart. The goal here for each is to open the heart.

There is more material upon this subject if subsequent questions have a meaning to the group. At this time we shall depart from this instrument, thanking it for its service, and leaving each through it in love and in light, and would transfer to the one known as Jim. We are known to you as those of the principle of Q’uo.

This morning I arranged the chairs in the living room for the public channeling meditation that we will have this afternoon.

This afternoon we had our public channeling meditation with ten attendees and three instruments. I am always amazed that such beautiful seeker’s of truth come to these sessions and share their spiritual journeys in our round robin in such loving and authentic ways. The questions that were asked concerned many facets of their personal lives that gave those of Q’uo an opportunity to respond to that created a great deal of harmony for everyone in the meditation.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 13

You Are Love

I am the principle of divine love and I greet you in the name of Jesus the Christ.

I am of the spirit or principle of love that moves from age to age, from eon to eon, and from creation to creation: a principle of that which you call the Father; a principle which moves beyond imagination; a principle that is love created and uncreated, and a principle of power that is unimaginable.

This principle is the heart of each of your beings. You are potent, strong and loving beyond your greatest hopes. Equal to this is the power of the illusion to distort the power of love.

Thus must you take care in using your power and in expressing your love. For you and all others of your kind are outwardly children. And that of you which is grown into infinity must pass through a narrow gate, safely to dwell consciously within the soul while living within your illusion, within your world. But love is of yourself. You are not mundane. You are love. Your heart is the heart of the universe. And within your eyes lies infinity.

May these thoughts bring to you an appreciation of the self you truly are. Rest in that understanding and know that you are cherished infinitely by the spirit.

We leave you in love and peace, both now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 31, 1992:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. May we ask if there are any queries to which we may speak at this time?

Questioner: Yes. From what I understood of what you said before, it sounds like all systems, philosophies, religions, and principles that we in our density follow arise out of the present moment and are presentations of that present moment. In order for us to be able to continually relate to these, in a certain sense we need to come back to the present moment and revive them from that present moment. As soon as we try to codify them, put them into words, and then study the words, we are no longer in the present moment and they lose some of their validity. Is that a correct understanding?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We would agree that you have well stated that which we have spoken in regards to this afternoon, for it is the great strength of your intellectual mind that it may analyze and observe many phenomena and relate them in an infinite fashion. Yet, in all this complexity, there is the tendency to move one’s experience from the moment in which all occurs to a distant and objective reality that is created by this work of conceptualization and relation.

Thus, we have suggested that it is well to leave that kind of mentation for a time in each diurnal experience for the practice of that which you call meditation, in order that the mind might be quieted, be brought back to its source and experienced in its new and untouched fashion, thus opening to the meditator the doors of perception of the present moment.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Yes, but this is a question on something I have observed in the two sessions that I have attended. I noticed that in my first session it was very difficult for me to stay present with this experience, that my attention and consciousness would tend to wander, and that in some respects I felt that I fell asleep. I have felt that today I have had to make a conscious effort to keep bringing myself back to this experience, because in a certain sense I felt a loss of focus when I was present in this experience. In looking at the people with me today I felt that a similar process—although from the outside it is hard to know—seemed to be happening with them. I wondered if you could tell me what is going on that creates this kind of an environment that makes it hard to keep one’s attention focused?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We must assume a good deal of the responsibility for this phenomenon, for our manner of speaking is that of giving information at a set and uniform rate, shall we say, which has the effect of causing some of that which you call sleep or the attaining of a hypnotic state, for the conscious mind that you possess is oftentimes easily led into a more relaxed state by such regularized input of stimuli, thus there is that portion of the experience for which we are of necessity responsible.

There is also the quality of what you may call a kind of spiritual fatigue that many bring with them to sessions such as these, for those seekers of truth which are attracted to these gatherings have long sought that truth, both within themselves and in the world about them in their daily round of activities, and are much worn, shall we say, by the persistence that…

[Side one of tape ends.]

I am Q’uo, and am once again with this instrument. We would also suggest that there is the physical fatigue that also works upon the mental processes, and tends to lead one so fatigued to the state of sleep or drowsiness. And we have observed that the kind of personality that pursues the metaphysical quest with persistence, also in many cases pursues the physical experience with an equal amount of energy expenditure, thus wearying the physical vehicle, so that the sense of communion, peace and companionship that is offered in the group meditation is also a quality which allows the physical vehicle to relax to the point of drowsiness.

We commend those present for exercising the focus of the attention and the intention that is necessary in order to remain aware of the information and its direction. We are grateful to be able to speak to groups such as this, and willingly accept the, shall we say, drawbacks, that are necessary by the nature of your reality and ours blending at these times. We assure you that though you may find difficulty in consciously following the train of thought at these times, that your subconscious mind is absorbing many of these concepts in a more fundamental structure than the speaking of words allows. Thus, there is an understanding that is gained upon that more subtle level that can enhance the conscious apprehension of the information which we share.

Questioner said that in his first experience of a channeling meditation with this group he had a hard time staying focused and may have gone to sleep. In this session he noticed other folks were having the same problem, and he wanted to know what it was about these channeling meditations that created an environment that makes it hard to keep the attention focused? Q’uo responded by saying that the steady pace of their speaking tended to cause the mind of some people to relax to the point of experiencing the hypnotic state. Then Q’uo said many of the people who attend these meditation meetings have been on their spiritual journeys for many years and have a kind of persistent spiritual fatigue. They said that the feeling of communion, peace, and companionship within the group meditation could also cause drowsiness of the body. Q’uo completed their response by saying that the subconscious mind was able to absorb the fundamental nature of the concepts being channeled in a subtle way that allowed the conscious mind to apprehend the information that Q’uo had to share. On July 4, 1982, Q’uo spoke of how the subconscious mind can aid the conscious mind as it has resources that the conscious mind can use to increase its perceptions.

The subconscious mind, on the other hand, is directly linked to the creative forces which are the foundation not only of this illusion but of all illusions within this octave of experience. The subconscious mind, therefore, includes a great array of resources which the conscious mind might draw upon for inspiration and information to expand the boundaries of its perception. The subconscious mind has the basic purpose of allowing this expansion of perception and increase in the ability to learn by providing the catalysts which provoke, shall we say, new lessons and learnings.

Is there another query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo and we thank you, my brother.

[Tape ends.]

This morning I went outside and used the garden hose and sprayer to clean the filters on the fish pond which were full of mud that reduced the height of the fountain. Then I put some netting over the newly sprouting Morning Glories on both sides of the mail box. My next work was to dig the Sun Mandala garden behind the garage and around the giant Sycamore tree beside the Moss Garden. Then I used  my hedge clippers to cut down the daffodil leaves in the Astilbe Garden in the back yard because the daffodils are through blooming, and the astilbe need the light of the sun to continue their recent emergence from their roots. I used my backpack blower to blow the daffodil leaves out into the yard where I raked them up and put them in garbage cans for yard waste pickup.

This afternoon I went back to the Astilbe Garden and pulled the weeds and clean up a few daffodil leaves as well.  Then I weeded the gardens around the fish pond. Then I ran an errand to Paul’s Fruit Market to get some food for myself.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 12

The Healing Love Of Christ

I am the spirit of living love. I greet you in the full consciousness of that love which is Christed.

The light of your world comes only physically from the sun and shines in truth more greatly from the eyes of those who have the consciousness of love than from any other source.

Worlds of darkness vanish before the morning light and the most obscene horror grows pitiful in the gentle rays of sunlight. So, too, let the light of your eyes rest on things seemingly good and seemingly evil, seeing the Christ in all and the good in each. Whatever sadness or horror there has been, let your eyes heal it. Let your heart know the healing has occurred. For within each is the power of the spirit; within each, the healing love of Christ.

We leave you in the peace of infinite love. May you never grow weary of the spirit of love.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 31, 1992:

The question is about our apparent separate realities and the delusory nature of reality itself, where we think we exist in the world and a universe which is quite solid, which operates according to laws we believe we understand; and yet when those who understand them the best, our scientists, look carefully they see fields of energy but no actual mass. We look in our individual lives and we attempt to discover the principles by which we live, and those which we would carry out in our daily lives, and we see metaphysical and spiritual qualities that we appreciate. We join with others and attempt to aid each other in groups, and yet we find that many times the groups have differences among themselves, within the group and from group to group. There is separation and division, and the unifying factors that we believed in don’t seem to hold us together. So, we would like some information today about the qualities within us and within the creation around us that are dependable, that are real, that are sustained, that we can look to in times of difficulty to support each other and support ourselves on the journey of seeking the truth.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is a privilege and a blessing to be with each of you, and we greet old friends and new in the name of the infinite One.

We speak to you this day upon a subject difficult to deal with by means of words, for any discussion of what unity is must needs be undertaken in the fragmentary sense created by your various ways of speaking. The letters of an alphabet are several, but the words of a language very many; yet each word tends to separate thought rather than unify thought. The language itself, then, tends towards divisive understandings. However we shall offer our opinions with the request that all that we offer be taken as opinion and not as authoritative fact. We do not have that sort of authority and are prone to error. However, insofar as our thoughts may be of use to you we offer them with gratitude and a feeling of honor that we are called to offer our service to you.

The pebble drops into the pond; the ripples flow out from it. So is each monad of personality, which you experience as a self, a pebble with its own ripples impinging upon the ripples of other pebbles dropping into the pond. This is the experience each has of interactions upon the social scene. The mate, the friend, the group does not know how to move in synchronized perfection, but rather each self and its energies ripple into the energies put out by others.

The way these energies meet has a great deal to do with how the two entities view each other, and what information of themselves or of their opinions the two are liable to share. One is one person to self A, and seemingly quite another description to self B, and so forth; each entity receiving a somewhat different facet of the projected energies of the self and connecting with those energies in a way comfortable to the energies projecting from that other self. So, no two of your friends know the same person in you.

Nor do you know yourself as the same person, even though you seem to be a pebble, a solidity which impinges upon the societal world. Yet, also within your self there are many pebbles being dropped at various levels of consciousness into that admixture of personae which make up the mask of personality which defines, refines and confines one within the illusion you now enjoy. Therefore, you define and redefine the self again and again and again, yet never do you even know the self in its entirety. The crux of this point is duple: firstly, it can be seen that the same perceiver sees all of these differing selves within the self. Here lies the first unity. We shall return to this thought.

The group question for this session was: What is the nature of reality and our separate realities that we can depend upon in times of difficulty that will help us as seekers of truth? Q’uo began their reply by saying that this question would be difficult to answer because it is the nature of words to separate rather than unify thought. They went on to say that each person is like a pebble that is dropped into a pond, and the ripples of each person intersect with other friends’ ripples in a way that gives each friend a different image of each other so that no one sees the same person that you are. Q’uo said that each of us also has different aspects of our mask of personality that continues to change over time, and we never know our self in its entirety. Then they said that the same perceiver within us sees all of these different selves within the self, and this was the first unity that we would experience.  On March 19, 1995, Q’uo spoke of the perceiver who sees both the nature of illusion and the nature of unity:

We would suggest that all which any entity perceives, as we said previously, is illusion, for if there is the perceiver and the perceived there is illusion, for all, in truth, is one. As each seeker moves through its own personal illusion seeking that which it can of truth it will perceive as best it can. We always recommend retiring to the meditative state for the clearest possible perception and indication of direction even though we realize that here, as well, lies illusion.

The nature of this journey seems to be moving from the greater to lesser illusion in what you might call the long run or way of viewing experience. In this process, when it is functioning efficiently, there is the clarification of experience, of perception, and of desire to seek further. Thus, it would be expected that one could look, as you would say, back upon experience and see more clearly the nature of the experience as being more or less, or partaking of that which is real.

The second corollary of this process of statement is that as each entity sees many differing views of other entities, and even in a simple small societal complex there are misunderstandings, confusions, and disagreements as to events very commonly, it is not difficult to see the same tendency repeated in larger and larger groups of entities.

Why does a group form? Supposedly, a group forms because there is a vision, an ideal, or a set of principles which the group all wishes to express honor for and respect for. However, entities which place great emphasis upon things that can be known will have the chronic tendency to define the precise nature of those ideals, principles, and so forth that they wish to honor.

That which begins in the generous outburst of honor, respect and devotion, soon becomes that which has been defined, and ceases its growth. It then has a hard carapace, a builded structure which will not accept expansion or the movement into different shapes.

Consequently, faith of all kinds periodically eschews and sheds the exoskeleton of dogma and doctrine, and begins retelling the great story or myth which is used to focus upon the great set of spiritual or metaphysical principles which each wished to honor. And so the faith, free in the individual urge, and free in the first communal urge and the moving together under the banner of a great principle such as love, soon becomes prey to the desire to nail down and put structure to a system of believing which can be built as a model airplane, and admired, painted, viewed and discussed.

In the moving from the first rapturous experience of love for this principle to the desire to codify it, the entity or group has moved from the open heart to what must always in the end be the closed mind. The trip is typical of your peoples, who are not encouraged by your culture to dwell, abide and trust in the wisdom and compassion of the heart, but have learned through many dealings with other entities to put up the structures which are ways of communicating belief systems easily, and are therefore capable of being discussed more easily. The intellectual discussions concerning belief systems is circuitous and tautological; however this only makes the pursuit more appealing to many who simply do not wish to change, but rather to consider endlessly the various delightful aspects of a certain and known truth.

Consider, as each sits in this circle, what each thinks of the nature of the self; of the nature of the environment about the self; of the path upon which the self is journeying; of the purpose of this path. Although there would be many points of agreement, there would also be radical points of departure as each entity has its own way of perceptions, its own way of weighting and valuing perceptions, and its own way of creating, recreating, or reacting to these perceptions.

It would seem thusly that for factions to occur divisively is inevitable in any group situation. The inevitability of this pulling apart is, in service-to-others organizations which remember their polarity, a dynamic which is matched by the adherence to, and overriding respect for, the free will decisions of each, and an underlying respect for the power of the metaphysical principle which has brought these souls together. Thusly, in a spiritual family there will always be the disharmony which can be tempered by daily, constant remembrances of the power of that great original Thought which brought the group together.

Though this thought is called by many names, and has many faces, may we simply call it Love. The Logos, the creative principle, is in our opinion, Love. Not the dead love of fixed romance, nor the friendship, or any definition which lies within the parameters of your experience, but Love as a fiery creative principle which has dynamically created and set free the universe, which moves endlessly from its source back to that same source, dwelling always in what has been called a cloud of unknowing.

Now Q’uo speaks about the tendency of people to see each other differently, and because of this, misunderstandings can easily develop in any size of group that has come together to support certain principles. Then they said that groups also come together to honor and support certain principles which they tend to define in precise ways that reduces any potential for growth of the principle, and it becomes frozen and will not be able to expand into different shapes or concepts. They gave the example such as the coming together of a group to honor the metaphysical principle of love and then define it in such a way as to codify it, which is the equivalent of moving from the open heart to the closed mind. Q’uo said that this tendency allowed the members of the group to discuss these principles in various ways that repeated themselves so they could feel comfortable with certain principles that do not require any change of perceptions. Then Q’uo used the meditation group that they were speaking to as an example of those who are able to have differing opinions about a great variety of topics that recognized the freedom of each person to have their own point of view, and when any disharmony occurred within the group there would be the memory of the power of the great original Thought that brought the group back together. Then Q’uo said that this fiery and creative Love created and set free the universe and moves from Its source back to that source in the cloud of unknowing. On March 17, 1996, Q’uo spoke to the group about how they had all come together to learn more about the great original Thought of Love:

Over the years of your time during which this group’s efforts have been offered in the form of service to others in the channeling there has indeed been a great array of topics covered, for there are many, many ways by which Love may be approached and it is our great privilege to assist any who wishes to know more of this power of Love and the one great original Thought that produced Love in all its infinite forms. Though the sharing of this information in many forms so that the mind may consider and the heart embrace more fully the concept of Love is a great service to offer, it is not the heart, for the heart of this blending of our vibrations with yours at each working is the seeking of Love and the sharing of Love, the birthing of Love that did not exist before the blending occurred.

Each time that we are able to utilize instruments such as these present, we are able to give and receive not only information and inspiration but the essence of Love, the seeking to know, the seeking to share. The seeking . . . this is that which is most fundamental to our times together. This is much like the carrier wave of the radio stations that infuse messages upon this primary wave of energy. Thus, at each working we, with you, are able to create another form, if you will, which Love may take in the attempt of entities to apprehend it. It is a joy and a pleasure to see what interesting and intricate forms we and you create. Yet it is a blessing that each is made of Love. Through the opportunity that you offer to us and we offer to you, thus the treasure is the time together. We thank you for each such opportunity and bless you as you sit and ponder the possibilities of your purpose and your gifts.

We gaze at what may be helpfully said about the eternal divisiveness of spiritual and all other groups, and can only refer each again to the inner divisiveness of the self. When the self has so far learned its own nature, and accepted that nature unconditionally that it can love the self, that self is then ready to become part of an unity of selves which shall remain unified; not in the deadened sense of agreement to a dry, creaking structure of words and creeds, but because of adherence to love. That love is diverse; each self which loves itself unconditionally is unique, yet each is love.

When entities can rest comfortably within their own skins, shall we say, then shall the peoples come together; not to become clones, all reciting the same credo, but gloriously various, with all the colored strands of ribbon imaginable, to fly together as the rainbow, strengthened by love and blessed by a lack of judgment.

Entities who fear the divisiveness within the self will also fear the divisiveness within societies, and will choose to adhere to one group within a society to which it can belong and with which it can be sure of acceptance. Then when another way of believing is offered this self, it rejects that other way for fear that it might lose its safety, its haven, its structure of faith. The faith that becomes one is the faith without structure, without an initial cause or reason which can logically be explained.

Entities may come together in faith in the mid-air of absolute faith. Not the faith that says, “I believe this and this and this,” but the faith that trusts and believes that all is as it should be, all is truly well. This quality of faith survives war, disease, loss, limitation, death, and the myriad other ills facing one in physical body form.

A faith which describes limits unto itself will not comfort the sick, the lost, the hurting, the pained; for there is, in any prescribed set of virtuous ways of behavior, the implication that other ways of behavior will be punished.

You see there is a marvelous richness of reasons for the divisiveness nature of your density’s societal structures. That which is true for the self will reflect upon the society. As the self is divided over against itself, even so shall this be reflected in the dynamics of the social structure created by such entities.

Those who wish to be peacemakers may work upon the self, gazing patiently and without judgment at the activities of the emotions, the mind, the stirrings of conscience, and the desires of the physical complex. Over a portion of your time, such an entity shall learn that it is by its own set of standards quite iniquitous. This is a helpful realization, as it opens the way for true humility. Not that humility which abases itself, but the humility of one which knows itself, and without judging the self for being imperfect, acknowledges that being within incarnation, and being veiled from knowledge of the true nature of things, the self will necessarily be somewhat confused, and full of unknowing and doubts.

The first act of the peacemaker is to have faith in this dubious seeming self. When faith has been found in the self, then the entity has no more point to prove; no more battles to win; no preferences which reach the point of necessity to receive or promulgate. Such an entity then is a likely peacemaker, for with a humble heart such a self listens to divisive speech and by its nature finds the point of balance wherein each party departed from the unifying principle. The means of making peace then lie in an accurate observation of the spiritual principle from which two seemingly warring entities have departed. The path back to unity from discord lies in the calling to remembrance of this unifying principle.

Here Q’uo said that when each self has been able to see its diverse nature and is able to love itself, then it is ready to join a group of others who are also unique expressions of love. Q’uo said that when each entity in a group is able to come together in faith that all is as it should be–and all is truly well–this allows the survival of war, disease, loss, limitation, and death. Then Q’uo gave the example of the peacemaker, who knows and accepts itself for its failings, develops a humility that realizes that being in an incarnation in the third density can be confusing because the true nature of reality cannot be known. They continued by saying that when the peacemaker is able to have faith in its dubious self then it is ready to help others who are experiencing division and separation from their unifying principle to find the point of balance that will bring them back together in harmony with this unifying principle. On January 16, 2006, Q’uo used Gandhi as an example of a peacemaker who utilized unifying principles to bring people together:

In the balance between love and wisdom, there is always the quality of paradox. The key to understanding such writings within third density is to focus on the common ground that is held by both self-contradictory ways of thinking that are the dynamics of a particular bit of writing. When you look for the commonality in such dynamics, you can begin to see the direction of thinking which is the special province of one who is working with the concept of the unifying principle undergirding both love and wisdom.

The other character whose name we would mention at this time is that of Mahatma Gandhi. This entity was an entity which came into incarnation to work upon that balance between love and wisdom as a sixth-density wanderer. This entity worked substantially in his early life in areas of fairness and justice. At a later point in this entity’s life he founded a spiritual community. And in the third phase of this entity’s life he worked to ground an entire nation of diverse people in that sweet spot or common area that is indwelt both by love and wisdom.

He found ways to encourage fairness and justice while never releasing concerns for love itself. In the writings and actions of this entity also lie valuable lessons in the keys to combining love and wisdom in creative and sustainable ways.

We feel this is sufficient for the first general statement, and at this time would leave this instrument and move to the one known as Jim, that queries may be asked, if indeed any would wish to do so. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we thank this instrument and leave this instrument in love and light. We transfer now.

This morning was filled with enough rain to cause all three of the sump pumps in the basement to run continuously, so I was not able to do any digging in my flower gardens. However, I did make an errand run to the vets to pick up some meds for Bosco, and I also stopped at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up some air thickener and Pepsi Zero.

This afternoon I was able to get back to digging in the flower garden in the center of the Moss Garden and was able to dig all three levels very easily as the nearly three inches of rain last night and this morning made the ground very soft without being muddy.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 11

A Fine Pilgrimage

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

I am the Comforter. Come, take my hand. Together we may walk through the land of experience. Together we may see the illumination of day and rejoice in the velvet darkness of night. Together the soul and its Comforter may make a fine pilgrimage of any road and any weather.

Seek the consolation and the comfort of the consciousness of love. It lies waiting for the touch of your hand, the invitation of your heart. Perhaps you may want to travel for awhile, experiencing the feeling of aloneness and calling to feelings of helplessness and despair. These experiences, too, are most wonderful. Yet when the pitch of experience becomes too keen to bear alone, hold in remembrance that you are not without comfort at any time, in any place.

For the peace and the love of Jesus the Christ are in the world in which you truly live. And in that kingdom of consciousness we leave you, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 24, 1992:

Our questions today have to do with how we tend to look at a new challenge before us with some fear, foreboding, dread, wondering if it’s going to work out. No matter what the situation is, there is in many people the tendency to feel that the worse case scenario is staring them in the face and that there’s a good chance that it will come about. Is there a value to what we might call this fearful or fear-filled approach? To some apprehension? To anxiety? Is there some way that this might be used in a positive fashion by people who are preparing to set out on a new adventure, to undertake a new challenge or opportunity? Or is it better if the person completely relies upon what we might call blind faith and just has the optimistic point of view that everything’s going to be all right no matter what it might look like to begin with, and that if we just believe that things are going to be all right that this is the proper attitude with which to meet any challenge? Or is there a dynamic tension between blind faith and anxiety that brings out the best in us? Is there a balance that can be achieved to increase our efficiency in problem-solving and in meeting new challenges?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are grateful this day to be called to your circle and to be able to speak upon the subject of the usefulness of fear and pessimism as regards entities looking at situations and needing to make decisions. As always, we ask each to be aware of the paucity of our wisdom and the fallibility of our statements. We offer the best opinion of which we are capable, but this opinion is flawed by our own distortions, which do in some measure continue. We thank each for allowing us this luxury, else we could not in good conscience speak.

Our statement to you that we are fallible is an example of our use of pessimism. We find there to be occasion to use what seems to be pessimistic thought at times when we are dealing with ourselves or other selves in a way which may cause a difference to be made in the decision-making processes of spiritual evolution. It is not likely that any would consider our words infallible, but, as this instrument would put it, the worst case scenario is that an entity would take our words out of context and literally, and, using them rather than the entity’s own discrimination, make a choice which would have an impact upon that entity’s spiritual evolution. We hope to have the impact upon your people’s spiritual evolution which your people choose to take from us, thinking for themselves. We do not at all wish to ask any to take our words on blind faith. Thus, you may see that we cannot give an easy answer to your question.

Let us consider the aspect, nearness of decision. Many are the times when one creates mentally a possible future situation. It may not be probable, and, if probable, it may not occur. And if it is most probably to occur, it will be long enough in coming that consideration of a decisive kind is premature. In this case, the use of consideration which could be called pessimistic of many possible scenarios is not recommended, as it is not utile. When there is simply a concern or worry on the horizon, it may be seen as weather—the storm cloud which is over someone else’s land, some other farmer’s crops, some other person’s hapless head. It will not impinge upon you.

This concern or cloud is real. Far more real in the thought world—or, as some perceive it, the world of spirit—than it is within your continuum. However, only damage can be done by the application of rational intelligence to a situation which has not yet become susceptible to rational thought. In this circumstance, the appropriate frame of mind or attitude would be prayerful and affirmative. That is to say, that any storm cloud of difficulty not directly impinging upon one can, with good results, be placed in the heart, be taken into meditation, and be contemplated with affirmative visualizations concerning its eventual process of outcome. In the example we used, it would be appropriate to know that the cloud brought rain to the farmer and watered his crop well, but that lightning did not strike the farmer while crops were being so fed.

When a worry, anxiety or concern enters the mind, therefore, the first question to put to the self is, “Is this a concern which has come to the proximity wherein I must needs consider and choose a plan of action?” If the answer is “No, this situation is not proximal, but is further from the entrance into imminent illusion than that,” then the persistent and gentle effort may well be made to downgrade concern until it becomes that which is the concern of one who prays in faith, holding all things up to the light and asking for light so that the possible situation dwells in thought in light, and the self possibly overly-concerned about this question dwells also in light in the beneficial rays of faith’s connection with the spiritual riches of an inexhaustible Source of Love.

The group question for this session was how new challenges may be responded to whether in fear, or the optimism of blind faith, or a combination of blind faith and fear? Q’uo began their response by saying that their opening reminder that they are not infallible sources of information was what could be seen as a pessimistic, or fearful, frame of mind because they want to be of service but wish for seekers to think for themselves. Then they said that when one is looking into the distant future it is not well to be fearful or pessimistic of any potential challenges because they may not occur. Instead, Q’uo suggested that one take any potential challenge into the heart and use meditation to create positive affirmations of the eventual outcome. Q’uo said this could manifest as using praying in faith and holding any concerns for the future up to the light and the infinite Source of Love. On December 17, 2000, Q’uo spoke of the value of seeking the Source of Love:

Thus, though one may seem to be lost from the many, the journey of being lost is that which, in itself, holds great potential. For the ability to move with faith and to power this faith with the will to seek the truth is that which aids any entity in its journey of seeking. Many there are who move in a fashion which seems to reflect this being lost, and yet we know there is a day in which all shall be found. There is within each heart that which may be seen as a beacon, a homing device which ever brings one nearer to the source of the self, to the source of love. And in each daily round of activities the opportunities are presented to the entity to avail itself of its desire to seek the One. Though the period of being lost may be what you would call extensive, always is the higher self offering to the incarnated self the opportunity to find the way home. There are many hints upon the trail, shall we say, and each entity shall eventually find each step on the journey to be complete.

There is another category of considerations which we shall mention, for those considerations are important; yet, they have but a slender portion of the percentage of room in an entity’s usual considerations. These are general questions which one may have concerning keeping one’s word, being a certain way, dwelling with a certain point of view, and then noticing that one has emotionally or mentally slipped away from this standpoint or point of view. We may use the example from your holy works of the ones who awaited the bridegroom, each supposedly a bride to be. Each had, in this story, a lamp which used oil. Yet, some who hoped to marry did not carry the fuel to light the lamp. Others were prudent and had both light and fuel.

In this case, it is always well to look most pessimistically and firmly upon one’s perceived lack of forethought in fuel-carrying. One’s principles are the result of choices already made. They are your lamp. They are what you hold up before you as you await marriage with the present moment. However, without the fuel to light this lamp, the bridegroom of the present moment cannot find you in the darkness. Your forethought, your energetic concern in backing up previous ethical and metaphysical choices with the fuel to keep them fresh and lighted, are your way of being prepared for the usually unexpected arrival of a present moment, the bridegroom of which has need of your light, your face, your ethical positivity, your polarity in consciousness.

One who seeks the truth cannot rest upon the previously found truths or previously made ethical choices of one’s pilgrimage, but must continuously be prepared to meet that present circumstance which uses all past choices and demands then a living witness of your own polarity. Your choices, without the energy of your will, are like lamps without fuel and are not useful. Thusly, in your theoretical, abstract, metaphysical being, be very conscious that the entity who seeks shall be tested and the seeking shall go forward when the test has been passed, the passing of the test being the responsible and reliable remembrance and embracing of past choices which have increased positive polarity.

Now Q’uo turned to the topic of how one may move away from their normal keeping of their word and living their life in a certain way, and then mentally or emotionally deviate from these ways of living. Q’uo said that we should look pessimistically at this failure to follow our normal ethical and metaphysical practices because they are what give us the opportunity to meet the challenges of the present moment which needs the light of our positive polarity. Then Q’uo said that we will be tested by challenges, and in order to pass these tests we must remember our past choices which have increased our positive polarity. On June 25, 1989, Oxal spoke of how we are tested by challenges and how we may meet them:

Thus, the individual point of view is that which is of paramount importance in any situation, for each incarnational pattern will contain the challenges and the resources to meet those challenges, and each incarnational pattern will have the potential to increase the intensity of the experience if that is the desire of each entity involved. That each moves through your illusion as a function of the exercise of free will is of primary importance, for some there are that prefer one type of lesson over another, some there are who prefer greater intensity to lesser intensity. Yet each chooses freely to engage in that which it is felt will be of the most assistance in both the learning of those lessons which are placed before the entity and in the providing of services to others as a function of giving of that which has been learned. Thus, there are various ways of operating within your illusion, of moving the self along the evolutionary path, and each is quite capable of allowing the seeker to explore those realms which it desires.

We recommend that each look at the situation that comprises the life pattern, and if there are areas which do not please the discerning eye, then we would recommend that these areas be investigated even more closely with an eye that sees with a somewhat different focus, looking for that which has not previously been found, the opportunities which lie waiting, waiting for the careful gaze of the patient seeker.

The third consideration in wondering about the wisdom of pessimism is the largest of the three considerations, for it is the one which needs balancing and which has an impact upon the decision-making process. As in many things, there is the balancing act. Let us divide this third kind of pessimism into two parts: firstly, the situation where a possible difficulty is intuited clearly as being present; the second, a situation which is proximate and has come to what may be called a “turning point.”

Firstly, there are those things about which one may have lucid intuition. A well known example within your culture is also found in your holy work, the Bible. It is the situation in which Joseph of the Many-Colored Robe is asked to interpret the dreams of a ruler. The young Joseph does interpret the dreams of the ruler in such a way that the dreams seem to have an internal order and consistency and to point to right action. Therefore, the ruler and Joseph move upon this dream’s suggestions concerning an unknown future. Seven bumper crops are first to be harvested and plenty is to rain. Then there are predicted in the dreams a like period of drought and consequent hunger and even starvation. The response to this clear dreaming is the preservation of enough food to buffer successfully a drought, should it indeed occur. This is a right use of what you might call fear or pessimism.

If there is a lucid and clear dream or process resembling clear dreaming wherein a precaution seems wise in the taking, and if this precaution is able to be done without destructive impact upon the integrated life of the self or family or society as a whole, then such a precaution is well made, as long as the effort is made not to dwell upon such a possibility being inevitable. The example in this instrument’s mind closest to its surface is the placing of the matches and the lighting instruments such as candles and lamps in case your electrical power fails. It is not foolish to prepare for this possibility, and shows prudence rather than random fear.

In the case of being faced with the necessity for making a decision, we hope you may see that much of the concern evinced in this query is irrelevant. When a decision must be made, there is no fault either in blind faith or in worst case scenario spinning. The movement of a personality through third density provides each entity with various lessons concerning loving. What love is, how it may manifest through one, how it may come to one, how it can be discerned, are all questions which the pilgrim of the king’s highway must needs ask. In some cases, an entity’s lessons are those in which an entity must learn to be less wise and more faithful.

Let us give the example told by Jesus in your holy work where a master gives several servants money. One servant buries the money. The others create, through enterprise, interest compounded to the money. When the master receives again the money, those who acted in faith that their judgment in investing for their master was adequate were rewarded with thanks and more duties, more services to perform for the master. The one who buries the coin, the pessimist, has what it has had, that and no more. And then the master takes even that coin away. This seems, in your logical terms, to be a harsh penalty. However, within the parable, the point is being made that one who acts without faith will not progress in polarity. The use of faith as a portion of each decision is a central requirement. The faith may show itself simply as a compassionate way of expressing wisdom, but it is centrally important that this impulse be respected and nurtured in each and every situation.

Upon the other hand, many are the lessons of love wherein an entity moves foolishly and quickly, in blind and unreasoned faith, thereby abandoning tools and resources which have been given within the illusion in which each lives by the infinite Creator. These faculties of reason were not given in order to create excess. These abilities of reasoning and questioning are valuable tools. Thusly, when one must needs make one’s personal choice, one first ascertains that the time has come to make the choice. If the time is not yet, the mind should remain out of gear and the concern given to the heart, to the inner room of prayer, and to the affirmative workings of an over-reaching faith in the rightness and goodness of all that there is behind and beyond the visible illusion.

Here Q’uo talks about the wisdom of pessimism in one way which is to react to the inevitable occurrence of a situation like the power going out by keeping candles and matches ready to use if the power does go out. Then they talked about a second way where a person abandons the tools of using reason and questioning and moves in blind and unreasoned faith to make the choices necessary to meet life’s challenges, and if the time has not come to make such choices one should turn to the heart, prayer, and the faith in the rightness and goodness of all that there is beyond the visible illusion: On November 23, 1986, Q’uo spoke of that which is beyond the visible illusion:

Know that all you experience is the Creator. See in each face, that greets your own, the Creator. Seek in each experience the source of light and love that forms experience. Seek beyond the illusion of separation that which binds all that you experience. Look, in other words, my brother, beyond the outer appearance of the illusion which surrounds you, for it is in its own way that which teaches you that the source of all creation and experience within it is the one Creator which moves by the power of Its Love, and reveals by the power of Its Light the unity of all things.

The second consideration is that of one’s principles, one’s spiritual or metaphysical facets of one’s gem of spiritual or magical personality. Are these principles upheld with the enthusiasm of one with the fire to light the lamp of builded, metaphysical structure? If such principles are in place and are not being subverted or denied, then this consideration may be closed. If one sees oneself slipping away from a truth which one has responsibly perceived, then efforts must needs be made to restore the firm potential of builded polarity for further evolutionary choices.

If a concern still rests within the mind, then there is a decision to be made. We can only suggest to each that when that self which is uniquely you sets out to choose, both the faculty of faith and the faculty of wisdom may usefully be invoked. If a balance can be achieved quickly, very well. If there is a continuing disquiet, then there are two ways in which one may learn more about one’s true desires. Firstly, one may refuse any thought concerning this choice for a limited period. This neglect allows the deep unconscious roots of mind to express deeper wisdom. The other technique is to choose on one diurnal period to spend every free second espousing a positive choice. In the next diurnal period, one must then take every free moment espousing the wisdom of a negative choice. This over-stimulation of the mind’s duality—yes, no, yes, no—achieves the same inner quiet within, and, again, a way is made for the wisdom deep within one to rise to the surface either through dreaming, a sudden feeling, or, as is more nearly the general case, a growing awareness which soon amounts to certainty that one particular choice is the appropriate one for the self at this crux.

We do not disparage the intellectual mind. We do not disparage the uses of fear. We do not disparage the uses of faith. We point out to one who wishes to be an ever more radiant person in the citizenry of the universe that both faith and doubt are necessary in the discovery of the true self and the truth of that self by the becoming, birthing being that is the universal citizen known locally as the self.

Each of you builds for eternity. Make haste, therefore, slowly, knowing that the safety of corrected error is absolute. Any self may feel, after the fact, that a choice has been wrong. Another choice shall come. The same procedure is available, and the self-perceived previous error is that for which one may give thanks. It is the homework problem solved wrongly, explained to some extent by the teacher within or without, granting the self better tools and resources for making the choice again.

You gaze upon our perception of the entire point of the third-density experience which you now enjoy. Each present moment brings its burgeoning harvest of possibility. Some moments are over-burdened with the need to choose. Let your faith keep you as unflustered as possible. Let your skills at using reason keep you aware of mundane concerns. But, above all, realize that both are but tools. The decision, the choice, is best made when it is made not only by you, but by such a deep portion of the self that one is one who knows, one who has a quiet mind because there is an inner sureness, “Yes, I have opened the heart to faith, the mind to rational consideration. Decision is not mathematical. Beyond a certain point, I cannot defend my choice. However, I know and feel sure that it is the one I need to make.”

If this luxury may be yours in times of hard choices, then truly have you done all that one in your life experience can do, for you have used your resources and then opened the self to the greater compassion and wisdom which lies within in that portion of the self which is a portion of the one infinite Creator’s Love reflected in Love, as this instrument would say. You are all entities of love reflecting the Creator to each other. Be aware as often as possible of the nature of the self and other selves. This is one of the greatest resources for spiritual evolution which exists.

Now Q’uo began to discuss how one may look at the magical personality nature of one’s being to determine if one has moved away from those principles that have allowed the positive polarization to be strengthened. They said that there were two ways to restore the potential for continuing to make evolutionary choices, and the first way was to refuse to think about this situation for a certain period of time as this would allow the deeper mind to reveal its wisdom. The second way was to use one day to make positive choices and the next day to make negative choices, and this would also allow the deeper mind to reveal its wisdom through dreaming, intuition, or a growing feeling of rightness. Q’uo said that both faith and doubt were necessary to discover more about the self, and any errors may be corrected so that the knowledge about the self grows continuously. They said that the present moment of choice is the way spiritual progress is made in the third density, and we are wise to use both our intellectual analysis and the faith of the heart in making these choices that will allow us to see that we are all part of the Creator’s Love reflecting the Creator to each other in all that we do. On February 15, 2004, Q’uo related how we are all reflecting the Creator to each other:

However, if the question is asked of the present moment, “What does it want?,” “What does the life’s situation at this moment want of me?” that is a blind and non-intellectual question, and consequently it has a big possibility of reaping a harvest of some sense. But that sense may well be a sense of substance rather than a sense of the form of the appropriate path to take. When the question is opened up so that it is clear that there is a relationship between the self and the creation, it enlists the cooperation of the creation which is, of course, an extension of the self, just as the self is an extension of the creation and just as both are holographic in nature, reflecting the Creator.

We have often said that all is one thing, and yet, when you relate to the outer world, that seemingly outer world of consensus reality, consciously including it in the decision-making process and asking it what it wishes, the question is made whole in a very special way. It is well to consult not only the inner self but that outer self that is the system of mirrors that reflects the Creator to you, that is, the outer creation, the Earth which you inhabit, the people which are your companions upon its surface. These energies and essences also have life, sentience and will. And, when cooperation is asked, it is immediately received. Then it is a question of continuing to listen, continuing to ask, and continuing to have this living and protean dialogue that penetrates all forms and moves into the world of substance. The nature of coincidence or synchronicity or the unfolding of fate, if you will, is such that the more cooperation is asked and expected on a continuing basis, the more rich the sources of information will be that are eager to share information with you.

We would close this working through the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument and would transfer at this time, leaving this instrument in love and in light. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. We realize that we have spoken overly long and wish to ask if there might be any queries with which we may complete our presentation this afternoon?

[No questions. All thank Q’uo.]

I am Q’uo, and again we shall take this opportunity to thank you, each one of you, for your patience, your dedication, and your desire to know more of that which you call truth. That which we have shared we share with great joy, and also share with the admonition that you take only those words which have meaning to you, leaving behind those that do not. At this time, we shall take our leave of this group and this instrument, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I took Bosco to the vet to have his glucose monitor removed as it has given us the information that we needed to know in order to keep his insulin injections at 6 units twice a day. Then I ran some errands with my first stop being at Speedway to get some gas for Stanley. Then I went to Feeder’s Supply to buy some bird seed, kitty litter, and cat food. My third stop was at PNC Bank to make a cash withdrawal. My fourth stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself.

This afternoon I went outside and dug up the areas in the Ruins Mound that don’t have any perennial flowers growing in them. There are about two dozen cone flowers there that are a few inches tall now. Then I used my seed spreader to bring Gloria from the living room to a stone bench next to the driveway where I used to put her in the spring through fall. She is an Arrowhead Vine which has been so beautiful for over 30 years, but since last September has been going rapidly downhill until now she has no leaves or vines. I am hoping that Mother Nature can perform a miracle and bring her back to life after my two attempts at repotting her have failed. Fortunately, a few months ago, when she did have a few leaves and vines, I cut a vine with two leaves off of her and put them in water. It rooted and now there are two vines and ten leaves, and I have named it Glorietta. I put her in the living room where Gloria was, and I hope to see her continue to thrive.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 10

Offering The Self

I am of the consciousness of love and I greet you in that love which is Jesus the Christ.

Gaze upon the qualities of love divine. See the body broken, the life split and sacrificed. See that in the breaking and in the offering lie the secret of infinite love. Each life may be offered up and thus broken, and from that break may come an infinity of gifts.

We do not suggest for one instant that all sacrifice is good. Rather, we suggest, for one who would love, that there is a blessing and sanctification in offering the self to be used, to be broken, to be opened, and to be shared that is most godly. “When He had given thanks,” it is written, “He took the bread and broke it and gave it to each of His disciples, saying, ‘Take. Eat. This is my body. Do this in remembrance of me.’” May your day and your life, day by day, be a process of thanksgiving, breaking, offering and remembering.

We leave you in the peace and love of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.


I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 17, 1992:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time we would ask if there might be any other queries to which we may speak. Is there a query at this time?

J: I have a query. I am curious as to the nature of restlessness, restlessness and always constantly needing to [inaudible], boredom in things and this [inaudible] different work that I do, I do it for a while and become bored and must move on to something else, and I do that for a while and there never seems to be anything that I am settled in for very long [inaudible] is there something that I can do to become more rested and settled?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. As we look upon the characteristics of any seeker’s life pattern we see that there are those which are understood in some degree and not understood in yet other ways. Each entity, as it journeys upon the path of seeking the truth, will find that there is a pattern that develops that will inevitably create the web of information and service opportunities that was desired before the incarnation began. Thus, we are cautious in attempting to give information that would infringe upon this process, in that there would be the loss of opportunity if certain characteristics were altered. However, as we look upon the query which you have offered to us, we may comment by suggesting that within the personality structure that you have adopted for this incarnation there is the need to gather a great deal of information in a variety of fields so that there is a resource available to you upon a very deep level of your own being that will allow you to create a mythology, shall we say, that is various, that is full, and that is of a balanced nature so that you are able to express feeling tones and emotions and desires in a way that is satisfying.

We can suggest that if you feel that this quality that you have described as restlessness is playing a detrimental part in your overall process of growth, that you examine your desires to move from one endeavor to another very carefully within the meditative state, and that you picture that which is your current experience as fully as is possible and see this experience from a point of view that looks at relationships of self to others, self to concepts, self to the environment about you, and begin to see this experience as one portion or piece of a larger puzzle. Look at those areas that have been enriched by it, look at the possibilities that depend from it, and then look at that feeling that has grown within yourself that you describe as boredom and follow that feeling as it were a trail, exploring each turn and tangent that is touched as you explore it so that you come to a more complete understanding of its origin, its process, and its consequences.

Thus, as you accomplish this meditative examination you may inform yourself as to the step that you are taking and become aware of its significance upon a level which is more fully informed than would be possible if you merely moved upon the impulse with a more cursory kind of examination.

J said that she was always getting bored and feeling restless in whatever activity she chose to do, and she wanted to know how she could become more rested and settled. Q’uo began by saying that each seeker plans a pattern of opportunities before the incarnation that will give it chances to be of service, and that J had done this by gathering a great deal of information that would allow her to create her personal mythology and give her the chance to express emotions and desires in a satisfying way. Then Q’uo recommended that J use meditation to see how her experience of restlessness affected the relationship of her self to others, to the environment, and to various concepts as pieces of a larger puzzle, and how her path has been enriched by it. Q’uo said that she should look at her feeling of boredom and follow its trail to see its origins, its process, and its consequences so that she could become aware of its purpose on a level that was more fully informed.  On April 30, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the value of creating a personal mythology:

Thus, the beginning of the creation of the personal myth is a burning, passionate, consuming desire to know the truth, the truth of who you are, of that which you are constructed, of your relationships to eternity and imperishability. Consciousness is malleable. It is plastic. And you are either at the helm of your consciousness or being dragged along by it, having lost the reins. Therefore, when deciding to create a personal mythology it is well first to grasp the reins of desire and discipline and passion, to hone and whet the edge of the need to know, the desire to understand. If you seek the Creator, your path will come to you.

Is there a further query, my sister?

J: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: Is there a principle here to look at? Is it probable that each time we think we have a fault or that something is inconvenient to us, if we follow it through we see that it’s one side of the coin, the other side of which is our greatest opportunity?

I am Q’uo and we are aware of your query, my sister. In general, this is correct. It is easy within your illusion to see feelings and experiences as separate from the overall journey that is being made so that there is the possibility that one portion of value may be discarded as irrelevant when, in fact, it has a close connection to the primary program for the incarnation if more carefully examined. Thus, each portion of the experience presents the opportunity for discovery of the self and of the great Self from which we all come and to which we all return.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query?

R: How does one find lessons for the self in frustrations encountered during the seeking?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my brother. The lessons that are before one, oftentimes as they are becoming apparent, are in large part hidden so that what is necessary is the continued application of attention and effort by the seeker upon that which is the source of frustration, for there is within each frustration a trigger point or place of beginning which is the key to unraveling more of the nature of the experience that is before you. If you can look—and again we suggest the meditative state for this looking—at the experience which provides the frustration and look at that experience objectively so that it is but experience and see the frustration that comes to you as that which you have created and which is not inherently contained within the experience, then it is more likely that you will see the point at which frustration becomes the experience for you.

This examination will provide you the means, once again, of following a trail. The trail begins at the point at which frustration is noted. Look at the series of events, the relationships, the entities involved at each of the portions of the experience before you. Look at them not only in their practical and mundane senses of everyday activities but look at them also as symbols of higher principles that are at work within your incarnational pattern. The more carefully you have observed patterns of all kinds within your incarnation the more easily will you be able to connect the relationships of these patterns to the nature of the lessons that are yours to learn and the services that are yours to offer within your incarnation.

The point of frustration is as a sticking point, shall we say, at which time there is more that is not understood than there is that which is understood. If you can explore what qualities within yourself have brought about the response of frustration in relationship to the experience before you, you will have informed yourself of the basic relationship that can yield more understanding of not only the experience but of yourself as well. If you can, shall we say, cross-reference the various causes of this frustration you may begin to see themes repeating in your pattern of experience, and as these themes repeat you may discover that there is a certain quality within your character or personality that you are developing, and that the feeling of frustration is a kind of friction that wears away those lesser qualities, those which are no longer useful to you, and which provides you a more polished surface so that you may see yourself more clearly. Thus, frustration can be an indicator that there is an opportunity to expand one’s concept of self, of service, and of learning within any particular experience.

R asked: How does one find lessons for the self in frustrations encountered during the seeking? Q’uo replied by saying that lessons are often hidden to the seeker, and R should use meditation to look into the source of what was causing him frustration, so he could see that it was his reaction to this experience that was causing him frustration and not the experience itself. Q’uo went on to say that these experiences were symbols of higher principles which created patterns within the incarnation that contained the lessons of the incarnation and the services that were chosen to offer. They said that frustration occurs when there is a lack of understanding of the patterns, so they suggested that R should look at the repeating themes or patterns as qualities that he was attempting to use as a means to expand his concepts of self, of service, and of learning within any experience. On January 24, 2009, Q’uo said that repeating themes were a way to discover our incarnational lessons:

You came with an agenda for your learning and with a similar agenda for your service. In order to create the proper environment for your learning you chose challenging relationships. You chose limitations within yourself, both physical and mental. You chose areas in which you would work, themes within the incarnation, shall we say. Perhaps by now you have identified your biggest theme or two or three largest themes of repeating patterns within your life. It is by the repetition of these patterns that you can begin to recognize what your higher self and you before incarnation felt was the appropriate direction of your lessons.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?


I am Q’uo, and as we have exhausted the queries, we would take this opportunity to thank each of those offering queries and each present for inviting us to join your circle of seeking on this afternoon. We are most honored to do so, and feel a great joy of walking with you upon your journeys. We feel a great affinity for seekers such as are gathered here this afternoon, for the desire that is evident to know the nature of your paths and the desire to be of service as you travel them are most inspiring for us to observe, for we know that the paths that each of you travels during an incarnation in this illusion is a path that is filled with mystery, is a path that is filled with difficulty, and is a path that has much confusion, for most of the qualities of the one Creator that we all seek have been covered quite carefully by the nature of your illusion so that those lessons and services that you are able to discern are far, far more valuable than would be lessons and services within an illusion that were less heavy, less dense, and less filled with mystery. Your challenges are great, yet we see that your desire is greater, and we commend each of you for your stout-heartedness, your good will, and your cheer upon this difficult journey.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we leave each of you, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and continued digging my flower gardens and started with the pool area of the Flower Fall in the front yard. Then I dug the four small gardens that surround the Flower Fall. I finished my digging on the top of the Wuthering Heights Mound.

This afternoon I weeded the Yellow Creeping Jenny garden in the back yard.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 9

The Moment’s Inspiration

I am the spirit, the breath, of the consciousness of pure love and I radiate the name of Jesus the Christ and greet you in its fullness and glory. When things done by others seem to have been done so beautifully and well, it may seem to the one who beholds that there is no need for fresh inspiration, for that which is and can be held in the hand is already enough.

For spirit, that which is in the past is never enough. For the spirit lives in the moment. Thus it is to the moment that the mind is to be made open, that the freshness and the glory of the creation may astound and stun the senses and the intellect anew each moment.

There is a peace in the resting in beauty that is full of the lively excellence of the word, “love.” May all that you conceive and manifest be filled with the present gift of love, for there is no need to rely upon the past for the moment’s inspiration. Turn only within and seek peace and love.

We leave you in peace, now and forever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.