I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Ra quote comes from 106.12:

Questioner: I’m going to come back to a couple of points here, but I have to get in a question here about myself. It’d seem to be critical at this point. Can Ra tell me what is physically wrong with me, and what’s causing it, and what I could do to alleviate it?

Ra: I am Ra. The questioner is one also in the midst of further initiation. During this space/time the possibility for mental/emotional distortion approaching that which causes the entity to become dysfunctional is markèd. Further, the yellow-ray, chemical vehicle of the questioner is aging and has more difficulty in the absorption of needed minerals such as iron and other substances such as papain, potassium, and calcium.

At the same time the body of yellow ray begins to have more difficulty eliminating trace elements such as aluminum. The energizing effect has occurred in the colon of the questioner and the distortions in that area are increasingly substantial. Lastly, there is a small area of infection in the mouth of the questioner which needs attention.”

In this question Don finally asked Ra about his own condition which had been deteriorating for some time. The first part of Ra’s response said that Don was also undergoing initiation, as was Carla. However, in Don’s case the nature of this initiation involved a strong potential for Don to become dysfunctional in the mental and emotional senses. Ra mentioned that Don had gone through another initiation back in 42.16-.19:

 Questioner: I had one experience in meditation which I spoke of before which was very profound approximately twenty years ago, a little less. What disciplines would be most applicable to re-create this situation and this type of experience?

Ra: I am Ra. Your experience would best be approached from the ceremonial magical stance. However, the Wanderer or adept shall have the far greater potential for this type of experience which, as you have undoubtedly analyzed to be the case, is one of an archetypal nature, one belonging to the roots of cosmic consciousness.

Questioner: Was that in any way related to the Golden Dawn in ceremonial magic?

Ra: I am Ra. The relationship was congruency.

Questioner: Then in attempting to reproduce this experience would I then best follow practices for the Order of the Golden Dawn in reproducing this?

Ra: I am Ra. To attempt to reproduce an initiatory experience is to move, shall we say, backwards. However, the practice of this form of service to others is appropriate in your case working with your associates. It is not well for positively polarized entities to work singly. The reasons for this are obvious.

Questioner: Then this experience was a form of initiation? Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. Yes.

In that initiation Don was meditating and simply became aware of being on another planet that was golden everywhere, the land and the sky as well. There was no test or trauma involved. However, in the initiation spoken of in this question there was some feature of this initiation which was far more demanding that Don be able to pass some kind of test or demonstrate some kind of quality that posed a risk as serious as becoming dysfunctional mentally and emotionally. I don’t know what that was, but I have thought that possibly this initiation could have something to do with a choice that Don made when he was 26 years old. At that time he had observed that most people allowed their positive and negative emotions to take them on wild and uncontrolled rides which resulted in poor decision-making. So Don decided that he would not be swayed by his emotions. He decided that he would become an observer of life and not use the catalyst that came his way. So he became a very wise and unemotional person. Basically, he seemed to shut down his heart, and I am wondering if this initiation might have had something to do with opening his heart again. And maybe after having is heart shut down for so long—combined with the deleterious energy exchange with Carla—was unable to handle all of the emotions that were suddenly swamping his perceptions and ability to deal with them. In 18.5, Ra seems to be speaking to this quality that Don had of ignoring or overcoming his emotions:

Questioner: Thank you. I have a question here from Jim that I will read verbatim: “Much of the mystic tradition of seeking on Earth holds that belief that the individual self must be erased or obliterated and the material world ignored for an entity to reach ‘nirvana,’ as it’s called, or enlightenment. What is the proper role of the individual self and its worldly activities in aiding an entity to grow more into the Law of One?”

Ra: I am Ra. The proper role of the entity is in this density to experience all things desired, to then analyze, understand, and accept these experiences, distilling from them the love/light within them. Nothing shall be overcome. That which is not needed falls away.

The orientation develops due to analysis of desire. These desires become more and more distorted towards conscious application of love/light as the entity furnishes itself with distilled experience. We have found it to be inappropriate in the extreme to encourage the overcoming of any desires, except to suggest the imagination rather than the carrying out in the physical plane, as you call it, of those desires not consonant with the Law of One; this preserving the primal distortion of free will.

The reason it is unwise to overcome is that overcoming is an unbalanced action creating difficulties in balancing in the time/space continuum. Overcoming thus creates the further environment for holding onto that which apparently has been overcome.

All things are acceptable in the proper time for each entity, and in experiencing, in understanding, in accepting, in then sharing with other-selves, the appropriate description shall be moving away from distortions of one kind to distortions of another which may be more consonant with the Law of One.

It is, shall we say, a shortcut to simply ignore or overcome any desire. It must instead be understood and accepted. This takes patience and experience which can be analyzed with care, with compassion for self and for other-self.

And in 54.21, Don could well have been talking about his own situation when he asked Ra this question:

Questioner: A positively oriented entity may select a certain narrow path of thinking and activities during an incarnation and program conditions that would create physical pain if this path were not followed. Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct.

Ra went on to say that Don’s body was having difficulty in absorbing certain minerals and in eliminating certain trace elements such as aluminum because his body was getting older. I am betting that the aluminum came from being an airline pilot and having many, many meals served to him in aluminum trays. Apparently this aluminum was having a bad effect in his colon, and our friend of negative polarity was intensifying this effect. Ra finished their answer by saying that Don had an infection in his mouth that needed attention, probably because our negative friend might also be able to intensify this infection to cause bigger problems in his body in general.

This morning I sprayed the Hibiscus with fungicide for the third week in a row. I love these Hibiscus and hope they can survive, but I may need to get a variety that is native to this area so that this doesn’t happen again. Then I ran some errands to pick up food for myself and more fungicide for next week.

This afternoon I drained a quarter of the water out of the fish pond and used it to water the surrounding gardens. As the pond was refilling I did some odds and ends in the yard and made plans for the work that will need to be done the rest of the week before Homecoming begins on Friday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

September 13

The Powers Of Death

I am of the spirit of Jesus the Christ which speaks to the world today. I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

The powers of death have held great sway over the minds of your peoples in all times, for it is to the powers of death that all that which is negative tends. Yet all the sighs and sorrows in reaction to the experiences of the day guide one ever so subtly away from vitality and towards distraction and distress.

There is no need for the powers of death to have hold upon your mind and your heart. For even where there is perceived an unquestionable catastrophe, yet at the same time the softening voice of spirit speaks to those who listen.

We ask you to tap into this source of peace and life, for there is abundant life in any circumstance, insofar as the will and faith of the struggling seeker may open the inner eye and reach the inner hand to the spirit of truth within.

We leave you in the ineffable peace and love of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts, our minds, and our souls to send love, light, and healing energies to Mother Earth as she brings forth a New Earth in fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energies of the One Infinite Creator heal the heart of each soul in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energies in their hearts, in their minds, and in their souls. Amen.