The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 5, 1982:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light. At this time we would offer ourselves to the speaking to further queries, if there be further queries upon the minds of any present. Is there a query to which we may speak?

Carla: Well, I guess the thing that puzzles me the most is that you are into a communication blockage before you know it. The kind of work that you were speaking about seems like you are like two blocks ahead of the place you are supposed to turn off before you figure out that you should have made a turn. How do you get back to where you can say, “Wait a minute, this is the way it looks to me. Is this the way it looks to you?” You have already gotten stuck. There are emotions, not just words, but there are emotions.

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I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. We are aware of your query, my sister, and would suggest that when you become aware of the turn that was made at some point previous to its realization, that you state that fact as soon as you can so that there might be a reevaluation of the conversation. All of your interaction with others is that which is of the moment, that which is inspired by the thoughts that spring both from your own mind and from the mind of your fellow creatures as you attempt to communicate and act together in a certain fashion. As there is a movement away from the desired objective, the noting of this movement is that which is most helpful in bringing both entities once again into the alignment that each has desired, whether the desire is spoken or consciously recognized, or not.

For you are more than you think you are as you interact each with the other. You have your histories with you, both that which is known and that which has become unavailable, shall we say, to the conscious mind, and these histories are a kind of momentum that are colored by experience so that there is an unknown factor in all intercourse, the factor of the creative expression inspired by that which is within the experience of one or both entities. As you find your interchange of energies, of ideas, of directions, of feelings, moving in a fashion which becomes uncomfortable or unfamiliar to you, then it is your responsibility to note this deviation and to move again toward the desired objective that you have set before you.

Carla said that it seemed to her that she got into a blockage of her communication at times where she should have made a turn two blocks before she actually made it, and she wanted to know how she could continue the communication by saying: “Wait a minute, this is the way it looks to me. Is this the way it looks to you?” She said at this point she felt stuck not just in the way of words but in emotions as well. Q’uo began their reply by saying that when she realized that she had made the turn at the wrong time she should state that, so the conversation can be brought back on course as a part of the spontaneous nature of any conversation where both parties desire to correct any errors that have been made. Q’uo said that such deviations are a product of the years of experience of both parties in the conversation, some of which is remembered and some of which is not, so that when the conversation becomes uncomfortable that it is well to note the deviation and move back into the mutually desired goal of both parties. On October 6, 2007, Q’uo spoke about how to communicate more clearly:

We would acknowledge that many times communication is layered. There is the voice that is speaking the words that are being used, which represents one level of communication which speaks to the logical and rational mind. Yet also, no matter how skillful the words or how well put the sentiments, there are many unspoken layers to communication which do not yield to the logical and rational mind. This is due to the fact that there are emotions and feelings concerning the words that create layers of either helpful awareness or unhelpful resistance to the words that are being spoken.

We could make a couple of suggestions for those times when one is caught upon a moment where one becomes aware that there are unseen elements to the communication, and yet this has confused and muddled the communicative energies that are moving between those two or three that are communicating.

Firstly, it is well to remember that you speak with a great deal more than your voice. Each of you has body language which communicates on a level which is below thought. Yet other entities will receive the communication of your body: how you hold it, whether there is tension in it, whether emotions are within you that are causing your facial muscles to change your appearance. It is well to acknowledge those levels of communication and to honor them, and, if possible, to address them within the self.

Secondly, it is helpful to remember that intent is everything, both in the self as it communicates and in the other self as it responds. The same words can be said with various intentions. Therefore, we would say, “Look you to your intention!” Is your intention pure? Is it entirely service-to-others oriented? Does it have any aspect of the desire to control or the attachment to an outcome? These are not aids to open communication.

And lastly, we would remind all of those who attempt to communicate that if you hold words in one hand and love in another, love is heavier. Love is more important. Love is the essence; words are the form. Find the love in your heart, and let your heart fill the form of words with love, affection, compassion, and laughter.

May we speak in any other fashion, my sister, to this query?

Carla: I have one more question. It may not be worth anything, but I was thinking about the model of the triangle shape that you showed, or the pyramid, and I was thinking about our actual situations, which is that, although we do get a broad base fairly early in life, still, if we don’t limit ourselves to that base, we use that broad base and we get even broader if we don’t insist that we are this kind of person or that kind of person and hold on to those early things, then we do what the model was in the renaissance of man, and that was just to have more and more options of ways of thinking and ways of processing information and so forth. And that’s true of other people, too, so that instead of the model being a pyramid, it would be more like a trapezoid, I guess you’d call it, with the top side broader than the base, but not an upside-down pyramid because you don’t really start with just one thing as a very young child. You get everything at once, but always with that kind of pulsar center of the essential self, so that it is not that we are getting more scattered. Do you see what I am saying, and does that make any sense as the kind of model that we might be trying to keep in mind for ourselves and other people to open up the possibilities? They might be different this time than they were yesterday, or last year.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Indeed, the triangle shape is one of the simpler models that can be used to describe an entity and its base of experience and information upon which it shall draw and build further experience in the life pattern. It would more nearly be correct to look at each entity as a faceted gem with many sides and many angles or perceptions on a number of topics, for each entity has within it the ability to pursue interests in a wide variety of fields of endeavor that will enrich and influence the further learning and growth of the entity. So that when entities gather together to share that which is theirs to share and to learn that which they desire to learn, one may see the shining of the light of this desire through the facets of the gems which each entity is, and as the desire is moving through the different points or angles of perceptions, there will be a light that is bent in a certain way as your white light is bent and separated into the colors of the spectrum as it moves through the prism.

Just so is the desire to learn and to share, in its movement through the faceted gem of each entity, bent and colored by the experiences, the information, the desires and potentials that are within the entity and which make it a multi-layered being. Thus is intercourse or interchange between your entities enhanced and enriched.

Carla said that it seemed that when she was a small child all of her identity and experiences came to her rapidly so that the base of her being was like the bottom of a triangle, but as she got older and had more experiences in her life that she, symbolically, had a larger image of herself that was much broader on top, more like a trapezoid, so that she had more options in her life, and she wanted to know if this was correct. Q’uo said that her triangle analogy was basically correct, but that one could also see her experiences as likened to a faceted gem with many perceptions of topics that enhanced her interests in wide variety of fields of endeavor which increased her learning and growth. Q’uo went on to say that when she gathered with other faceted gems of people, their desire to learn together produced a light that is bent as the white light is bent as it moves through a prism, and each entity is seen as multi-layered and enriching the exchange of information between them. On December 5, 2015, Q’uo spoke of the value of the exchange of information between seekers:

Thus, beginning with this view of the other as the Creator itself, another portion of yourself, then offer yourself as freely as you can in that which you share of thought, of experience, of possibilities, of questions, of doubts. Allow an interchange and exchange of information so that the flow of energy is a two-way flow so that you are both teach/learner and learn/teacher, for this is the situation in which all entities find themselves, even those who are far more learned in a particular category that is being discussed than are those who are receiving the information, for all teaching results in learning, and all learning results in some form of teaching.

May we speak in any other fashion, my sister, to your query?

Carla: First, let me thank you for that answer. I’m going to have to read it to get it all, but that really sounded rich, meaty.

I had one other question that just came to me as an image. The triangles again. I was thinking about how we do have an essential self and if it was a triangle, then it would start at the point and not get very far out before it began the line through the very essential middle of the shape of the triangle. And if you took the triangle of one person with the point upward and the triangle of the other person with the point downward, and you moved them together until they sort of clipped into place with that central essential point in alignment and agreement, then you would have a six-pointed star which is the symbol of the white, Western, Christian magical tradition. I was wondering if there was truth there of the magical way that people can interact if they are linked together, because if you can follow the image, when the six-pointed star is made of the two triangles that move together with one point up and one point down, the essential selves would look like a pencil that is sharpened at both ends within the triangle, and it would also then look like a common crystal, a quartz crystal, which is known to be magical, but only when it is charged by a magically oriented entity who holds it in the hand and is itself crystallized. Are we crystals to and for and with each other? And does our communication, our coming together, have that kind of absolute magical nature, if we can find it?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. There is much within your query that is fertile ground for communication and we shall chose only the most basic portions to comment on at this time. Returning to your original image of the two triangles coming together in a manner which creates the six-pointed star, one may look upon each entity as having the mind, the body, and the spirit sides of the triangle, both in the conscious and in the subconscious realms, shall we say. So that each entity is both that which you may call male or conscious, that which you may call female or subconscious, in that the functions of each of these portions are somewhat different but complementary. Blending the two together in a balanced fashion creates that which you have called the six-pointed star that makes available to the entities all of the experiences during the life-pattern so that there is very little that remains in the shadows, shall we say, or in the distant memory, yet affecting the present experience.

The entity that has been able to gain a knowledge of itself to this degree is the entity that has increased its crystallization, shall we say, its regularization so that when it desires to move in a certain direction, it has at its disposal all of the energies of its incarnation, both those that are normally conscious and those that for many remain subconscious. Thus, its resources are greatly enhanced and it may move with more certainty along any line of desire that it constructs for itself due to the regularization of its mind, body and spirit complexes on both the conscious and subconscious levels. Thus, each of you is truly a crystallized being, becoming more and more crystalline as you discover those facets of yourself that have heretofore been unavailable to you as resources upon which to draw for further problem-solving, shall we say.

Again, Carla used the image of the triangle with the point up as representing one person and then the triangle of another person with the point down and put them together so you would have the symbol of the white magician. She went on to say that this combination of two triangles could also be seen as a crystal, and if it was charged by a magically-oriented entity the crystal is magical as well, so she wanted to know if we all are crystals for each other that give our communication together a magical nature? Q’uo began their reply by saying she could look at each person as having a mind, a body, and a spirit that would represent the triangle, and each would also have the conscious/male and subconscious/female minds, and when they are blended together then all of the life experiences are available with nothing left in the shadows. Then Q’uo said this knowledge crystalizes the person as it now has all of its conscious and subconscious energies of its incarnation available, so such a person is, indeed, a crystallized being with all of these resources to call upon for problem-solving. On October 21, 1990, Q’uo described the process of becoming a crystallized being:

Concerning your query of the maturation of hope into that which is faith, we would suggest that each entity begins with that spiritual food, as you may call it, that it can digest with comfort. For many this beginning is in that term or concept that is known as hope. The entity with hope is aware that there is more to the earthly existence than those things which seem to comprise the earthly life, that there is more to the purpose of one’s existence than completing a daily round of activities after another daily round of activities, and completing an infinite number of such days, and accomplishing the tasks that come with them, that there is a Self which is greater than the self, that there is a binding force within all of the creation, that there is indeed a purpose which gives the life a nobility and a shining quality, a strength to continue and to find a more fully realized conception of that which is life, that which is direction, and that which is service.

This entity, however, being somewhat young in the spiritual childhood, as it may be called, is tested by the passage of days and the catalyst that is contained within each day that will, as the fire tempers the metal to strengthen it, will also temper the spirit of this entity as it is manifest in the personality. And as the entity continues on in the hope that there is a purpose behind all of its actions and all of its desires, the entity grows in this inner knowing that it has first called hope.

As it continues in growth and grows in strength, the entity begins to enter that concept or area of the metaphysical or spiritual self which is called faith. The quality here which differentiates the faith from the hope is that when the faith becomes developed within the entity it has a sureness that comes not only from the experience that the entity has gained in its own growth, but in a feeling deep within the self that is like unto the iron filing as it approaches the strength of the magnet. The entity begins to feel that it is drawing close to a power that is far greater than any power it has found within itself or its own experience before.

Thus, the entity begins to feel and experience this quality of faith and finds that its feet are placed upon a firmer ground with each step that it takes, each testing that it passes, shall we say, for all of the experience within this illusion serves as a kind of catalyst that will allow the entity to become a crystallized being so that there is a strength and clarity to the purpose for such an entity’s life pattern.

Thus, we would say it is the experience of the entity that moves it closer and closer to a realization of its oneness with all of creation that eventually changes the entity’s philosophy, shall we say, of the life, from that which is guided by hope to that which is stayed by faith.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you. That’s more than enough. I take it that the question about that general line thinking might be a group question at sometime.

I am Q’uo. And this is correct, my sister.

Carla: Very well. Thank you so much, Q’uo.

We thank you, my sister, once again. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Yes, what suggestions would you have for stubborn pride that keeps people from taking responsibility for themselves and communication?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. If that, as you have called it “stubborn pride,” which blocks one’s ability to assume the appropriate responsibility in communication and relationship, resides within one’s own being, it is well to take that concept as an image into your meditative and contemplative or prayerful states and look therein the silence within at that quality, observing how, as the pebble thrown into the pond, it ripples outward in all its affects and effects within the life pattern; to see a trail of its experience within one’s being and to trace that trail to its source so that whatever impulses or experiences were the genesis of this trait may be looked at and re-experienced in a safe environment, perhaps within this same meditative state, so that the entity which experienced this need to behave in this manner might have a chance once again to re-respond to this situation and fashion a more helpful means of response to others.

If this trait is within one that is close to you and not within the self, there is far less that can be done, for the desire the work upon those qualities which are seen to be hindrances to affect teaching and learning need to have an inner motivation in order for any actions to be effective in removing or balancing such traits. One can make the suggestion that such a trait exists, and can be worked with in a helpful manner. Various suggestions can be given, as we have suggested to you in the working with such in a quiet place and quiet moment within. One may suggest that such work may be accomplished together if the other entity is in relationship to the self in a close enough fashion to allow such work, and for it to be appropriate. In most instances, the general run of the day, shall we say, the interaction of entities in a normal way, as the daily round of activities moves in its pattern and each entity within that pattern will provide the periodic mirroring effect where this trait of pridefulness will show itself, and at those times there may be a gentle reminder made that will allow the entity with this trait to note its presence and also note its effect upon the interaction that is being mutually experienced.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: No, I don’t think so, not from me. Thank you, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank each for allowing us to speak to those topics which are of importance to you. And we would take this opportunity to remind all present that we do not wish our words to provide stumbling blocks upon your own journey of seeking. We suggest that you take those that have meaning to you, and leave behind those that do not. We are those of Q’uo, and at this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my trimmer to walk around the yard and trim back the weeds that were growing in various places. Then I took the second bundle of blue clothesline rope that came in the mail yesterday and finished putting it around the fishpond to keep birds from flying into the netting around the pond. The netting is to keep raccoons and grey herons from getting the fish in the pond. Then I cleaned the filters on the fish pond.

This afternoon I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to pick up some food for myself. After I got home I went back outside to dig up another load of moss in the pet cemetery and transplanted it in the Moss Garden.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 28

Only This Love Abides

I am of the Holy Spirit of the consciousness of Jesus Christ. I greet you in unconditional and divine love.

What does the spirit have to say to the world this day? What comfort and consolation may mere words bring to those who dwell in the shadow of death; who live in constant fear of war and rumors of war?

Only this: love abides. Where is the spirit in this chaos of society? Love is in every budding flower; in every passing cloud; in the unfurling leaves of Easter days; in the smiles of children too innocent to know the burdens of intelligence. Love is a comfort within you that dwells in your heart.

As spirit moves across the waters, so the spirit of Jesus the Christ moves across the waters of your troubled consciousness, saying, “Peace; be still. Be still and know that I am the Lord, the Master, the chief of a kingdom not visible upon your earth, but within each heart that beats.” That is the kingdom of which the Comforter speaks.

Gaze you, then, not upon the works of man to see the kingdom of the Father, but upon the works of the Father: the temples made of wildflowers and trees and the temple of your own heart and consciousness.

Enter into that tabernacle and be silent. And in that silence shall you find comfort, strength, renewal and transformation.

We leave you in the peace of the love that knows no bounds and is forever near, both now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 5, 1992:

The topic this afternoon has to do with communication, especially communication between partners or people who are very close in their relationships, where we would expect that such a situation would lend itself to clearer and easier communication than one with perhaps a stranger. What occurs frequently is that there is a difficulty or a baffling in the communication, where even though both people try to their best abilities to communicate clearly, there is something that injects itself in the communication that causes a difficulty or a muddying of the communication. What would be the advice in such a situation? Would it be better if we attempted to stick it out and work as hard as we can with the person and to finally achieve a mutually agreed-upon clear communication? Or, when you find such difficulties and they recur, perhaps as a pattern, is it better to look at yourself in the contemplative or the meditative state to see if there might be some kind of an internal blockage or problem that you are working with in that particular area where the communication is unclear? Would that be an avenue that might provide clarification, not only to that particular communication, but in your ability to communicate in general? What would be the advice in such a situation as a way by which we could clear our communication?

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle Q’uo. Greetings to each of you in the love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. What a privilege it is to be called to your group this day and to rest in the beauty of your vibrations as you sit in meditation. We would offer to you our opinions this day upon the subject of communication, more especially, the problems of communication with those with whom an entity communicates most frequently, those best known, those most familiar other selves within an entity’s environment.

As we speak of communication in this light, it is well we begin by pointing out that the difficulties of communication with strangers are far more easily addressed by linear linguistic analysis than those difficulties in clear communication harbored by those whose interactions are numerous and have taken place over a substantial period of what you call your time. If there is a misunderstood word betwixt oneself and another self which is a stranger, there is either the prejudice which is generic—the one not knowing the word feeling the other is a snob, the one knowing the word feeling that the other is ignorant—or there is a querying as to the meaning of the not-understood word, and communication resumes quickly. If there is a point of view that does not make sense to another’s point of view, strangers may well say they do not understand. Again, communication breakdown is not at all probable, for it is more obvious that there needs to be a question for information.

There are many cases where, because of deeply ingrained distortions in concept about the nature of certain kinds of entities, whether the prejudice be racial, or economic, or social, or intellectual, breakdowns in communication will follow more closely the pattern of breakdowns in communication amongst intimates. The more heavy the bias or distortion, the more frequent the breakdowns and the more characteristic is the underlying cause being a distortion of mind which refuses to admit certain information from certain types of people as judged by the communicator. Now, let us move into the area of your query this day.

The group question for this session was how to communicate clearly with someone who is close to you. When you have difficulty communicating clearly with them, is it better to keep trying until you are able to communicate, or if the difficulties continue to occur, is it better to take some time to examine one’s own being to see if there are some blockages to clear communication that need to be removed? Q’uo began their response by sharing some general information about clear communication. They said that communication with strangers is usually easier because of linguistic analysis or referring to things like grammar, spelling, and punctuation, or being able to use language effectively. However, Q’uo also said that communication with strangers could be ineffective due to certain prejudices like racial, economic, social, or intellectual qualities that would cause a lack of understanding to occur. On October 27, 1985, L/Leema spoke of how to deal with unclear communication:

When it seems apparent that there is a lack of communication between two entities, that there are hurt feelings and insults, one must look to the love in the insult and the love in the hurt feelings, for both of these pains belong to the emotional self and are a distortion of love.

Moving back beyond the beginning of a relationship, moving to a time before there was a relationship, each entity within the relationship was an entity unto itself, yet beneath that truth lay substrata of influences carried into the incarnation and further distorted by early experiences with other selves in the intimate family circle. When two entities meet, they are seemingly to each other fresh out of the bandbox: sparkling, virginal and new. Yet in each case, the surface appearance deceives, for each carries a tremendous baggage of previously held biases, some of which might be contradictory to the self, yet equally strongly held, many of which may well be self-destructive. These biases and distortions of opinion are as much a part of what is to be called good about an entity as those things which seemingly would be more apparently good, clear and positive traits such as honesty, judgment and fairness. For each eccentricity, each distortion creates a catalyst with regard to the reflections given to the other self in an intimate relationship, a catalyst that the entity would not have if there were no distortion whatsoever within the intimate mate or companion.

So, as the one known as Jim was thinking and feeling earlier it is indeed true that miscommunication, as well as communication, is good and proper and to be appreciated. Even with clear communication and no bias, errors in transfer of opinions, concepts, processes of learning and ideation will occur. There is not such a thing within your density as perfect communication, certainly not while words are being used. So we do not suggest devaluing the self because of biases that seem to thwart easy communication. Before any relationships have importance enough that they constitute that to which attention must be given, lies the attention to the self, to the grasping of the generalities about the self, while respecting always the infinite mystery of the self.

The life experiences need to be examined, not simply analyzed, but felt and considered, somewhat out of focus, in their relaxed and reflective manner so that patterns will appear, so that dream material can be correlated to events of the day, so that all of the parts of the mind and the deep mind may, in that relaxed state of mind, merge together to form new possibility, new avenues of thought, and a grasp of situations, so that new ways and tools may be found to forge simpler and more lasting bonds of word in body motion, making communication lighter and clearer and more lucid. So, as always, the work with another begins within the self and communicating with the self. When your feet are on solid ground in regard to the self, there is then the placement of the pivot, the point of balance, the fulcrum, the place from which one may move without losing the balance, without toppling too heavy a load, and without toppling as a life experience as one falls completely away from balance in a traumatic situation.

So we assume as we go on that it is understood that always the work by the self, for the enlightenment of the self, be undertaken in a humble but daily method or manner. Emphasis being given not to the length of the experience, or the perceived depth of the experience, but rather to the purity of intention to seek, to desire to know the infinite One, to feel one’s ground as holy ground, and to discover the will of the infinite One for the self in service to all other selves. If this be daily, it need not be elaborate, and the elaboration may come as each entity finds its own path and its own most efficient way of processing information, insight and depth of worship.

Now Q’uo spoke to the question for this session by saying that before two people who are close friends became close they were biased in their natures and experiences by lessons from previous incarnations and the experiences that they had in this incarnation before meeting each other, and these would become catalyst for each other in their companionship. Q’uo went on to say that there was no such thing as perfect communication in this density, and we should not feel bad about that but use it as an opportunity to discover more of the mystery of the self. Q’uo suggested that the nature of one’s self could be discovered as one works with life experiences to see patterns that may be reflected in dreams, and new possibilities for action could be created by the mind and deep mind working together to make communication lighter and clearer as the self works with the self. They said that this process of the enlightenment of the self is based upon the purity of one’s intention to seek to do the will of the infinite One in the service of other selves and finding one’s unique way of processing information. On November 12, 1995, Q’uo said that we all are part of the Creator and the creation:

As we all are a portion of this one Creator, cells within the one great body of Being, each may through the process of meditation retire in a single-pointed fashion to that sacred room within and in those special moments of illumination become aware of the nature of the self and the nature of the Creator and the nature of the creation as being One.

Now let us see two selves: A and B, shall we say. As they meet each other and begin to build a bridge of communication, the first efforts at communication may well be very unsuccessful, but may also be quite undervalued if A and B are extremely fond of each other. It may not seem to matter so much what is said as the fact that there is the sound of the voice wishing to speak, and that feeling of one who wishes to hear what you have to say. This communication level is so satisfying that there is very little editing of information, and all kinds of information are allowed into the mind’s memory without editing or rejecting. This is a very efficient way to communicate, for a large base of data is gained.

The secret to this type of communication is the refusal to interrupt that which another is saying, upon both A and B’s parts. This joyful type of communication bubbles forth when each experiences the other for the first time, when history must be learned, and it is particularly exhilarating. More than entities realize is communicated during this period in which the subjective evaluation of information transfer is that much has been lost because of the bedazzlement of infatuation, love, or friendship. However, insofar as this has been the first and imprinting information, it does remain the very most important and deepest of the information base and is the basis for communication with the other entity until such time as any misperceptions in the original communication base have been discovered and work has been done to reprogram that misperception so that it reflects more accurately the true nature of the other self.

We may look at the base of information, then, as a kind of bottom of a pyramid. For as the time moves by in its perceived stream in your illusion, fewer and fewer bits of information transferred seem new to the self about the other self. A knows more and more of B, and begins to predict more and more of those things which B will tell. B does the same with A. A and B discover they have swapped their history to the point that there is less and less new to be learned. The base that was once so broad has been built on and built on until all of those things which are central and predictable within the terms of that special relationship begin to overshadow the entirety of the information base, and the useful bits of information are now perceived to be fewer and simpler and larger.

A and B begin to predict that which the other will think, begin to assume that they will have a certain reaction to a certain question, each from the other. We are not talking here about those times when A may be upset or angry with B, or B depressed or upset in some way. We are speaking of two entities of good will who have begun to assume that he or she knows the other entity.

This is the central difficulty in communication between intimate companions. Each entity has very riveting experiences, certainly, and much behavior is predictable, certainly, but the possibility of depth, eccentricity and nuance is prominent in any exchange of information which deals with deeply felt things, especially. And it is skillful not to assume that anything is known. It is skillful to listen precisely to what is said, and not to what is assumed to be true if that is said. This is a subtle point, simply because entities do not realize how many assumptions they make about their intimate companions. Such assumptions may be in general true, but all spiritual truths contain paradox. And no paradox is plainer than that every rule has its exception. Every generality that you use to predict your companion’s way of thinking and behavior will have substantial exception, and this exception is most important and needs to be given pride of place, needs to be given that blank space where there are no assumptions yet, in order that a difference may be explained.

Now Q’uo speaks about how two people, A and B, meet and begin a communication that may start unsuccessfully, but it is happily continued by both A and B because they are glad to gain information about each other and begin to build a large data base of information. However, Q’uo said that in this exchange of information there could be some information that is lost by both due to the bedazzlement of emotions caused by infatuation or love. Q’uo continued by saying that these concepts of each other are the basic foundation of information that will remain even after certain misperceptions about each other are discovered and reprogrammed to reveal more of the true nature of each other. Then Q’uo said that as time moves on in the relationship both A and B have accumulated enough information about each other that they begin to make predictions about how each will react to various situations, but this is not always helpful in the relationship because each has a depth of beingness that goes beyond description and contains paradox and exceptions to whatever rule of thinking one knows about how the other experiences its life. Q’uo suggested that this makes it necessary to listen carefully to what is said and realize that all rules have exceptions that need to be honored in order that a different point of view may be explained. On May 25, 1997, Q’uo described the virtue of listening carefully to what is said by another:

To listen with the compassionate ear, accepting that which is heard without judgment, is the most nurturing attitude that one may assume in such a relationship of entities. The answers to the puzzle, the untangling of the pain, is a process which can only be accomplished by an entity for itself in the ultimate sense. Other entities such as yourself may provide the listening ear, the compassionate heart, and occasionally the insight or wisdom to direct the entity where one’s intuition discerns that motion and movement may take place profitably, shall we say. It is the seeker itself that must engage the listener, that must engage the self, that must search relentlessly for the clues in this untangling process. It is this experience of untangling that which has been tied and fused together that provides the means whereby the entity will eventually find the Creator within, and the Creator within will come to know Itself more fully because of the experience of the seeker.

How then does one move into an awareness of the assumptions one is making? And perhaps should not make? We may suggest, not the walking away from the conversation, nor the working harder at the conversation, but a shift in the direction of the conversation. For in conversation entities normally tell each other things. In the midst of perceived breakdown of communication, we would suggest for those who are in deep distress, that perhaps a brief song, wise word, or some brief seconds-long ritual of centering, even in silence with held hands, provide a new base, a new place for two spirits to begin a different kind of communication. When this has been achieved, then we would suggest this general approach: Let either one begin by saying, “This is my reality. I know I have created it myself. And I am aware that there are things in it that are misperceptions. Otherwise, we would not have trouble communicating. Let me tell you the world that I, at this moment, create, and how in my world I am seeing myself in perceiving you.” This is done without interruption. Then the other takes the responsibility for the self, too, and says, “This is my universe. I am aware I have created it and I allowed and am alone responsible for it. In my universe, I have created my feeling this way, and feeling that you feel this way.”

These are not declarative statements alone; these are statements that are also requests, requests that the other not only state its reality that it has created, but also that it speak quite directly to those things about the creation of that entity, which is the self, that the other entity feels have biases that are not justified by that which the other entity’s creation contains. It is a feeling of the way, a moving back from an addiction to fact. One moves away from knowing what one knows when the blockages of communication between two intimates are to be cleared away. For it is not only the words themselves, it is the assumptions that have been created through years of repetitive actions that can destroy communication so effectively.

If there is the expectation, and it is not owned, if there is the prejudice and it is not owned, if it is not brought out into the open, how can the other entity do anything but respond to the feeling that lies behind the statement, which is seemingly innocent and harmless. So when there is a blockage that is inexplicable, it does not have to do with vocabulary or amount of information given. Then it is that one begins anew at another level of communication: a telling of the story of the self, a speaking of the legend of the moment. “This is what I have created. Respect this, but tell me what you have created, and I shall respect that.” And from this exchange, all differences in perception may be communicated back and forth, back and forth, until the two creations have a consensus reality, special to those two entities at that moment in the combined myth of two entities upon a journey of seeking together, thus unifying what was broken, and healing that which was sore and painful.

This does not mean that agreements can be reached in which each party feels the same, for each entity is unique and each path is different. Yet, if free will is respected, we feel that it is always possible to come, if one is humble enough, to express one’s perceptions and misperceptions as one who is responsible for them, to come to some mutually acceptable pleasantness and unity, wherein each respects the other’s points and sees what preferences caused the other person, who is quite honorable, to continue to hold a varying opinion.

Agreements do sometimes occur, but this is not the goal of communication. The goal of communication is the exchange, in freedom and peace, of information. To have an addiction to agreement is the same with the answer as having an addiction to fact in posing the question. Fact is to be released, for there are always exceptions. Agreements are to be released, for there are always possibilities of two unique points of view, both of which are correct in the personal truth of each. Thus, free will is preserved, mutual respect is given, and respect to the self is also given.

Here Q’uo suggested that when communication becomes difficult, that it is well to move away from erroneous assumptions by entering into a dialogue where one person says: “This is my reality. I know I have created it myself. And I am aware that there are things in it that are misperceptions. Otherwise, we would not have trouble communicating. Let me tell you the world that I, at this moment, create, and how in my world I am seeing myself in perceiving you.” Then the other person would do the same. Q’uo said that this was an effective way to clear away the blockages and assumptions that each may have been making through years of intimate interaction with each other that can destroy clear communication. Q’uo continued by saying that when this process is shared back and forth for a number of times that a consensus reality can be achieved between the companions. This technique of reaching a consensus reality is the topic of the book Nonviolent Communication by Marshall B. Rosenberg, PhD, and a brief synopsis of it is:

Nonviolent Communication is the integration of four things:
 
• Consciousness: a set of principles that support living a life of compassion, collaboration, courage, and authenticity
 
• Language: understanding how words contribute to connection or distance
 
• Communication: knowing how to ask for what we want, how to hear others even in disagreement, and how to move toward solutions that work for all
 
• Means of influence: sharing “power with others” rather than using “power over others”
 
Nonviolent Communication serves our desire to do three things:
 
• Increase our ability to live with choice, meaning, and connection
 
• Connect empathically with self and others to have more satisfying relationships
 
• Sharing of resources so everyone is able to benefit

Now we would only touch less centrally upon what would seem to be clear, that is, that other disturbances in the life pattern, changes in work, in geography, in circumstance, the loss of friends or family, these and many other things can cause one to be quite erratic in communication skills. There are two ways to deal with this truth. One is less efficient but more merciful. The other is more efficient, but does not partake much of tenderness.

It is the nature of each entity to move as he will between these two types of coping with special problems at special times. The merciful way to cope with an entity which is under tremendous strain is to move away from speaking of serious things, to attempt to give support, and to attempt to share the laughter, and to attempt to find ways, always to make merry and to, in the deepest sense, distract the entity from gazing at the situation which is so difficult and so puzzling because of its newness, and because of the grief and pain of loss. A far more efficient way to deal with this type of situation, which is special, is to continue to communicate as if both entities were not under stress. To continue to take responsibility for creating the universe in which each is living. This will lead to a large volume of communication. It is, however, a very efficient means of assimilating and aiding each other in assimilating the processes of change, wherein much old information is found no longer to be useful and must be, as this instrument would say in computer language, “dumped,” and that energy of the dumped program used then to create a new program, if you will, a new software program that will work in the new reality, which is perceived as true by the self.

Neither way is more correct than the other. How one deals with special circumstances, how one deals with self-pity, with sorrow, with all of the tragic sentimental and enfeebling emotions connected with the reactions of loss, pain, and limitation are equally acceptable. The less self-destructive that they are, may we say, the more efficient. Consequently, if one perceives oneself to need to cry, to feel self-pity, to feel weak, and to feel helpless, then by all means we suggest feeling this way; but feeling this way when it does not infringe on communication with others. And if one must feel this way in the company of another, it is well to communicate simply that one is incapable of clear thinking, thus again taking responsibility for the inability to communicate clearly before difficulties have arisen because of these special circumstances. Some entities need very badly to act out all of the anger, pain, and frustration of loss, whatever it may be. Others find themselves more invigorated by distracting the self, and moving positively in any direction while allowing the work of change to be done more or less subconsciously.

This information is known only to the self. And it is the skillful spirit which knows the self well enough to allow it the tenderness it may need or to give it the action in all directions that it might need, but in each case being responsible enough to say to the companion with whom one must communicate, “I am being unhappy now.” Or, “I am behaving in a manic way now, because this is how I need to deal with this trouble and sorrow. Consequently, I will not communicate well, and if I become troubled, I ask you please, to hug me, reassure me, leave me alone.” Each entity may fill in the blank.

However, my friends, most communication problems between those who are intimate are those of assumption and the lack of knowledge of the programs that the self is running. As you sit in meditation each day, if you find yourself coming to the end of your meditation, and you see that there may be time for prayerful quiet thought, and something is puzzling you, set your mind upon it gently, lightly. Don’t worry about it or attempt to untangle it, but gaze at it. There it is; this thing that seems rather fearsome; this place where one cannot communicate with another. There it is. Look at it. Do you fear this? What do you fear in this? Do you fear abandonment? Do you fear a loss of love? Do you fear being completely understood? Do you fear being right? Do you fear being wrong? Where there is a blockage, somewhere there is fear. Rest and gaze and sit with this companion of yours that you call a blockage, and when you again come to that state of mind, move to that again and rest and sit and admire it. And one day, it will burst into a candle flame and lucidly, clearly show you the untangled, the clear situation. For you ask, and so you receive, not in the time of humankind, but in the time of knowing, when you are completely ready to accept responsibility for the knowing. Be patient in these searches of the self, with the self, for your time of knowing may be now, or it may be some time from now, but once you ask, you may be sure that you shall know.

May you have the faith and the grace to have that patience and to seek in that steady persistent manner, regardless of circumstance. It is to the humble persistent seeker that doors are opened, questions are answered, and desires are given. Often not as you would expect it, but in the end in ways that always seem to contain so much more than you ever thought possible. May glory be with you in the harmony of the process of pilgrimage. In darkness and in light, in pain and in joy, love one another, my friends, and realize that you are never alone, that you always have the help of those friends who are unseen, those energies which are those of grace and clarity, beyond all human understanding.

Now Q’uo said that when there is a significant loss within a person’s life the communication skills might be significantly reduced, and they suggested two ways to deal with this situation. The first way was to distract the one suffering the loss by supporting it through laughter because the pain of loss is so new and puzzling. Then Q’uo said that the more efficient way was to continue communicating in a normal way in which the feelings of loss are described in detail and the pain of change is revealed as old programs are purged and the new being begins to emerge into a new reality. Q’uo said that neither way was better than the other as some people would need to remain distracted from the traumatic loss and let it be resolved more subconsciously while other people would need to act out their emotions by crying or getting angry. Q’uo said that the less destructive the response to loss the better it was for the one suffering the loss, and if the one suffering the loss had enough knowledge of itself it might communicate this to its companion by saying “I am behaving in a manic way now, because this is how I need to deal with this trouble and sorrow. Consequently, I will not communicate well, and if I become troubled, I ask you please, to hug me, reassure me, leave me alone.” Each entity may fill in the blank.” Then Q’uo said that the one suffering the loss may use meditation to discover more of the nature of the loss as to what one may fear such as the loss of love, being abandoned, being wrong, being right, or being understood. Q’uo recommended that when the blockage is perceived, that one may sit with it and give it time to clarify within one’s being, and when the time is right that which is needed will be found when one is patient and has faith that all will be well. Q’uo said that we are never alone as our unseen friends of grace and clarity are always with us. On November 16, 1986, Q’uo revealed the purpose of the mated relationship regarding the suffering of loss:

May we say that a persistent difficulty in speaking of your matings within your civilization is the great variety of motives for inaugurating and sustaining such a relationship. Almost never is it for the reason that is most closely aligned with the actual function and purpose of the mated relationship. Almost never is suffering, hardship and trouble used as the reason for choosing a future partner. And yet, this is the precise experience you wish to share, for your illusion is created in order that you may suffer and learn. That is the purpose of there being an illusion, for self-consciousness must be awakened. The third density begins with a sense of self asleep, and happiness and contentment do little to awaken the soul. It is the interactions with others that bring grief, suffering, loss, and trauma which create the opportunities you most cherished before the incarnation.

At this time, we would transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, if this entity would accept it. And we would leave this instrument in love and in light and in thanks for this instrument’s willingness to serve in this way. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I went outside and transplanted the last five azaleas into the area around the cross in the back yard.

This afternoon I dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted it into the Moss Garden. Then I used rubber bands to tie down most of the daffodils in the astilbe patch so that the new astilbe can get more light for growth. Then I used my trimmer to weed some in the astilbe garden and around the forsythia bushes in that area.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 27

A Nation Of Priests

I am the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

The concept of nations among your people has not been aided by the Holy Spirit’s work within those who long ago formed the nation you call Israel.

Let the spirit of Christ proclaim that humankind is a nation of priests, an order holy to God. The state of Israel was not intended literally, nor do any nations, namings or boundaries form a portion of the full and perfect consciousness which is love.

Nay! Rather, love is that city within each which, like Jerusalem of your holy works, shines with the gems, pearls and precious metals, seas of crystal and light without limit. The kingdom of heaven, not the kingdom or nation of Israel or any other place, is the native land of humankind.

Its comforts reach out to you. Its beacon calls. And all the memories of home thrill one’s spirit as one gazes about the confusingly alien landscape of the smaller life of Earth-bound things.

Think not that a holy nation must needs conquer or be conquered. For the only nation that shall be holy shall be the nation with open arms and free consciousness to love all as priests of God in Christ should indeed do. Only in undifferentiated love may peace come to comfort the pilgrim.

We leave you in peace, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 29, 1992:

The question this afternoon has to do with relationships in general, and in particular, when we find ourselves in a relationship that isn’t exactly to our needs or specifications, how we can accept that portion of the relationship that is other than we would have it be, if it is to be the spouse, or ourselves, or the situations that we find ourselves in, whether they are financial or social or any situation that we would like to change and seems to be unchanging, or perhaps changing too quickly? How can we find within ourselves the acceptance and the support that will help us to help our spouse and to strengthen the relationship so that the relationship and the ideals for which it stands will endure?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is an enormous privilege and blessing to us to be called to your group this day, to be able to share our humble service with you, to offer our opinion in sure knowledge that you shall not take us as authorities, but as companions upon the way of seeking the truth, for we have no authority that you do not also have—just do we have a few steps more along a very dusty path that, as far as we know, has no ending.

It is a joy to speak with companions upon this path, a beauty to us to feel the companionship of your seeking, and to share in your beings as you meditate in one circle of seeking. You ask us this day about that which you know not, that you ask, for you believe you are asking an active social question, a question concerning a relationship. You wish to know how to be better at relationships, at the important central relationship of mates, of dearest friends and companions, of lovers and those who hope together and despair together, and share the deep places of life together. Yet without knowing it, you have asked about yourselves, and how you may achieve that which is yours by nature, but has slipped your mind. That is the balance of a quiet and sure peace, a gently quiet mind that is staid upon faith and confidence in the balance and appropriateness of each occurrence in each present moment of the incarnational experience which you now enjoy at this point in which you call your time and your space.

This little experience of life, my friends, is set about like a gaudy gem, full of brilliance, but quite without the purity of true crystallization. The lives you experience consciously are rhinestones—false and beautiful, part of a complex series of illusions of dreams within dreams. Is the Creator, therefore, the carnival master who delights in fooling His sons and daughters? We do not believe this to be so. We believe that every puzzlement, every confusion, every distortion that is part of the house of mirrors that is a perceived life, is given to you that you may have pain and pleasure in great intensity, so that you may look at the distortions and say to yourself, “What lies behind this distorted mirror? If I had a true mirror, what would this experience be?”

Yet all about you, whether it be sought by science, or mind or feeling, is perceived with significant and persistent distortion. This is not a life experience in which you may depend upon knowing anything at any time with any provable or objective surety. That which you think should be, and that which you think should not be, whether it seems to be about the self, or about the self as seen in other selves, is in actuality misperceived to some degree and in several ordered and hierarchical ways.

This being a large subject, we merely indicate these directions and move back to the heart of the query, for this query about manipulating relationships so that one may be more metaphysically or ethically correct and skillful and free of fear in giving all one can to a relationship, is in actuality a question about the inner balance of an individual with no relationship whatsoever to contact, communication or manipulation with or of another entity.

The group question for this session was how can we accept relationships that are less than we hoped them to be, and how can we support our spouse and strengthen our relationship so that it, and the ideals that it stands for, will endure?  Q’uo said that in our question we had actually asked about ourselves, and that we may have forgotten that we should have faith that what occurs for us in each present moment is appropriate for our growth. However, they said that our lives were like a dream within a dream, and every puzzlement and confusion provides us with a variety of pleasure and pain that has the purpose of causing us to ask: “What lies behind this distorted mirror? If I had a true mirror, what would this experience be?” Then Q’uo suggested that we would always misperceive this mirroring effect according to some kind of pattern that would be related to our inner balance, and it was not related to any other kind of relationship or how to manipulate a relationship to be more metaphysically or ethically correct in giving all one can to a relationship.  On November 6, 2009, Q’uo described how the mirroring effect can help us find an inner balance:

When a community such as L/L Research gathers and begins to attempt to work as one, the original impetus that drew entities together must be tested. And so the mirroring effect sets in. Each looks into the mirror of the others’ perceptions and begins to see all of those parts of the self that the self least wishes to see. That is because it is a very positive and helpful function of the community that is operating on a spiritual level to help each other to grow closer to the one infinite Creator. And the way that this is done is by bringing up all these lost sheep of self, all these parts of self that are not redeemed, loved, and accepted.

There are many occasions, for each member of such a group, when the information given about the shadow side simply overwhelms sight. The world darkens and the shadows lengthen. It is easy to lose one’s way, to trip and to fall in the dark. It is a somewhat painful experience, literally speaking as well as figuratively, to fall. And falling is a rather drastic way of saying, metaphorically, that sometimes it is necessary to let go of what you think you know.

While you are fallen, touch the Earth. Reestablish contact with the ground underneath your feet, both physically and metaphysically. Realize that you are always safe within the context of having fallen down. The ground of being is very real and trustable, as is the ground beneath your feet. In the process of all this growth, you can always find the ground of being by letting yourself fall down. Indeed, rejoice in having fallen down! Rejoice in having expressed some of this energy that was previously being expressed in mental and emotional frustration.

How shall you dust yourself off and begin again? Shall you simply assume that you are now standing up in the same world in which you fell down? We encourage you to open up your mind to the possibility that you stand up in a new world. What shall you make this new world to be? How shall you grow?

Let us step back at this time and view one relationship more mysterious than any other, that which has been spoken of by the master known to you as Jesus the Christ, as the relationship of a metaphysical father and son. In the holy work known among your people as the Holy Bible, a question was asked this rabbi or teacher having to do with prayer. “Teach us how to pray, Teacher,” asked those who truly cared to know. And after this teacher gave to those who questioned that which you know—with some distortion—as The Lord’s Prayer, he asked the simple question about the relationship of father and child. If a child asked for something good to eat, would his father give him a poisonous snake to bite in? You see, this teacher had a sense of humor, and asks people to look at things with a light touch. After all, is a father’s relationship to his child so complex? Does a father not simply wish to keep the child alive, to keep it fed, to keep it comfortable if possible and to preserve its life until it can take hold of things for itself?

You have this relationship metaphysically, each of you, with an indwelling and eternal father, if you wish to think of this, shall we say, in an archaic relationship in terms of that which you know, that which you have experienced within this incarnational time and space. You have been supported, you have survived into mature years physically, yet spiritually you are but children, and spiritually your father wishes also to feed you. Yet, when does a father feed his children? Yes, he does the work, he has the groceries, and is the same father as mother metaphysically is, in the terms of your people’s culture, prepared with a meal, with a feast, with all the food and drink needed for nourishment. But does a father and a mother prepare the table when there is no hunger and no request? And do children always know when they are hungry, if they do not have habits of regular times to ask for food and drink, to expect it, to look for it, to find it and consume it with blessing and thanksgiving and happiness of heart?

We speak to you about prayer, for this is at the heart of any query that has to do with dealing with the mirrors that other selves offer to you. Any—shall we generalize—any question concerning the lower energies—and by this we mean dealing with the self, dealing with any other self, or dealing with groups of other selves—has reference either to being energies that are blocked within the self, energies that are distorted by over-action within the self, or energies that in some way do not find it possible to move into the open and loving heart, that great energy center which is the first energy center capable of unconditional love.

Moving from this center, the first communication is, “Lord, teach me how to pray.” Everyone’s Creator is different. Everyone’s mode and method of prayer and hope and desire is different, often radically different, yet each path is utterly appropriate for the person to whom it is natural and the part that is appropriate to an entity must needs be respected by that entity with an authority that is above all teaching, all outer authority and all discrimination that is not one’s own, for the truth that is yours is not heard, but heard and recognized, somehow remembered. If it is not recognized, if it remains in the head and does not move to the heart with a feeling of recovered memory, it is not your truth, and no matter who says it to you, it is to be laid aside gently and with respect, but with a firmness that allows no stumbling block to enter your path.

So when we say to you that questions about relationships are actually questions about how to seek and to pray, we offer this as opinion, and we ask you to subject this and all opinions to your discrimination. Let us look briefly now, as briefly as we can look—this instrument has just said, with some irony—at the nature of prayer, at the nature of asking.

Now Q’uo used the relationship of Jesus and the Father as an analogy for how each of us may use the Lord’s Prayer as a means to survive and grow because we have a metaphysical father who wishes to help us grow physically and metaphysically. Then Q’uo spoke about prayer as a means of dealing with the mirrors that our other selves provide us with a means to grow in the lower chakras of dealing with our self, an other self, or groups where there may be blockages that keep us from moving into our open hearts of unconditional love. Q’uo said that this state of unconditional love is where we may ask: “Lord, teach me how to pray.” They said that each of us would have our own way of prayer, and it is this prayer that we somehow feel and remember within us that is the true way of enhancing our relationships.  On January 30, 2010, Q’uo affirmed that each of us has a unique way to pray:

Now let us shift focus once more, my friends, to talk briefly concerning how to pray most efficiently. Perhaps by now you might guess we would say that you have a very wide range of ways to pray, one of them not being better than another, each of them being a child of your personality, your sensibility. Prayer is a very intimate, personal thing. It is a conversation between you and the Creator.

As it is also said in your holy works, “Seek and you shall find, ask and you shall be answered, knock and it shall be opened to you.” My friends, there is so much more truth in these words that we ask you to be careful what you seek, what you ask and what doors upon which you would knock, for you will learn the answer that fits this particular moment in your seeking, that opens to you the understanding—if we may use that word—that may be available and useful to you at this moment, and this is a heavy responsibility for that which you have become aware of, that seeking that has ended in a desired response, becomes for you a ribbon to wave in a very courtly battle against the dragon that caused you to ask this question. It is something to take up and work with and live with and sit with in silence, not asking, but only listening, allowing the ground about you to become holy ground, allowing these answers of the moment to become part of a metaphysical muscle memory, if you will. Fundamentally, you are asking for a change in consciousness, and this is uncomfortable in the progression which brings about the seating of the change desired, the seating of the information desired, so it becomes part of who you are.

How can you pray? How can you seek? You simply put aside the time—thirty seconds, a minute, five, twenty, there is no time in metaphysical seeking. There is only intent. You seek with the attitude that you are aware that everything in this illusion is mirroring to you, with more or less accuracy, the processes of your own balancing and centering and seeking. You sit and you spend time as you would spend precious, precious money, for you have so little time, my friends. And all that occurs after you sit, after you learn, and as you are undergoing the discomfort of spiritual change, you become aware that all that occurs to you is a reflection of the processes that are occurring as the spiritual child that you are grows, sometimes jerkily and awkwardly and sometimes with unexpected grace and freedom.

Love one another, my friends, for it is the outward expression of being in love with yourself. All that you wish to know, and, indeed, the Creator in all of It’s infinite intelligence, lies in mystery within you, and you shall not know anything. But you shall seek and you shall learn more and more about loving and allowing the being loved to occur as a reflection of an unjustified and utterly appropriate spiritual oneness with the Creator.

Relax into unknowing. Find the faith to seek without ever hoping to know and prove it, and in mid-air you shall find the relationships that are so central to your comfort and peace becoming more and more full of the love that is the special and exquisite freedom of a quiet and faithful mind and heart.

Now Q’uo suggested that when we set our intentions to seek, we will very likely find what we seek, so we need to be careful of what we seek in prayer because what we are asking for is for our lives to change, and change can be painful. But as we change Q’uo suggested that we are growing spiritually, and then we should love others as well as ourselves as we become spiritually one with the Creator. They said that we should relax into unknowing and have faith that we shall find the relationships that bring us comfort, peace, love, and the freedom of our faithful minds and hearts. On November 8, 1992, Q’uo spoke of how a variety of relationships can enhance our spiritual journeys:

The male/female partnership of mates is intended to be central. However, the centrality of this relationship is echoed in any male/female relationship where energies are moving freely and without prejudice. Thusly, even those who live in the nunnery, for instance, may work with the male and female balancing because of the many relationships within any life between a father and children, a mother and children, various relatives, friends, teachers, and all of those whom one meets in the course of life. Those who are willing to rest in the atmosphere or ambiance of the male or female energy, whichever is dynamically opposite of its own, may move ahead efficiently, although not as potentially quickly as the very powerful central male/female partnership which you often call marriage.

My friends, it has been a great joy to speak with you. We cannot express how much we have enjoyed meeting the one known as M, greeting again the ones known as C and Jim and Carla, and using this instrument. We thank this instrument for making itself available to us and we would close this meeting if the one known as Jim will make itself available at this time through that entity. We leave this instrument in the love and in light and in unity. We are those known to you as Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which may remain upon the minds of those present. Is there a query with which we may begin?

Carla: I have one to start this off. When two people are talking together and both feeling confused and maybe frustrated, what active thing besides going into the silence—which feels passive and like going away from each other—what thing in the moment can two people do to clear and sort of clean the air?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. It may be that such centering and clarification could be aided by selecting a passage from whatever source of inspirational information is pertinent and has meaning for you that would become a focus for your attention at those times when you seek to bring yourself and your mate to a point of receptivity. Choosing such a passage, whether it be written prose, poetry or perhaps even the song that is played upon your recording device, would be a symbol for the centering that you wish to achieve and could be a triggering device, shall we say, that would give each of you the opportunity to allow your confusion to recede as the waves upon the ocean, and to focus upon the inspirational passage that you would make together at a time when you feel centered and whole and without confusion that causes misdirection and miscommunication at the moments of crisis.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Just one follow-up. I’ve always noticed, as a person sensitive to poetry and to music, that if you think something or if you read something, it has a certain amount of power, but if you, well, I would say vibrate it, if you say it out loud or if you sing it, it has not just more power, but it has a different order of power. Would you say that something that is not just listened to or read together, but is said together or sung together, in addition say, to being heard or looked at, would have that kind of difference in getting into the real heart of both people?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. This is, of course, possible in just the manner in which you have described it, but is also possible that the confusion of the moment could be of such a degree that participation would be difficult. If this is so, then the listening or more passive participation would provide the easier entry into the reading or the musical passage. If it is possible to actively participate and to read or speak together that which has been chosen for the centering or the focus, then this is also recommended.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: Just to confirm. Probably, if two people are confused together, they can get a whole lot more out of listening, in general.

I am Q’uo, and this could well be the case. Each situation has unique characteristics, and must be dealt with uniquely. Follow that which feels most appropriate in the moment, my sister.

Carla: Golly, Q’uo, you mean I can’t make another rule? Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: What about if just one person is willing to do the work? Can it still work with that one person, can it still help?

I am Q’uo. We believe that this is so, my sister. As one entity finds the center of love and acceptance, then this energy of love and acceptance is radiated to the other entity and the possibility of calming the storm is increased.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: One, and then I promise I’m done. Do you feel that if we listen to this or read this and have more questions that this is fertile ground for further examination and questioning?

I am Q’uo, and we believe that if there are further queries upon your part upon this topic, there is fertile ground always. Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you, Q’uo. Thank you very much. I really appreciate your time and your effort.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we would like to take this opportunity to thank each present for inviting our presence in your circle of seeking this day. We are honored to have been invited to join you in seeking clarification for your journeys as you travel together that great road that leads into the mystery of unity and into the experience of the love and the light of the one infinite Creator.

At this time, we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in that same love and light. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted it in the Moss Garden. Then I put some netting over the Striped Solomon’s Seal behind the garage to keep the deer from eating them.

This afternoon I went over to Thieneman’s Nursery and bought eight azaleas and then stopped by Walgreen’s to buy some 2% milk. When I got home I transplanted three of the azaleas in front of the house where the three Fire Light Hydrangeas died.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 26

Bloom In Due Season

I am of the principle of the most high; of the consciousness of divine love. I greet you in peace.

The sun shines, beckoning to spring. Spring comes to the sun as a dove to its dovecote or the weary cow to its barn. For one more cycle the travail of earth is over. And, born anew from the dead and sleeping land, new life appears, shyly peeking from the safety of the soil’s womb but drawn ever onward by the nourishing warmth of the sun and the blessing of the rain.

So it is with each of you who are seeds. You are planted in the soil of your humanity. What can you do with the seed that you carry within you? Nothing. You may only improve the soil, cultivate that small plot where your spirit may rise in bud and bloom in due season.

If it be wintertime in your heart, it is time to accept that each seed needs times of deep contemplation and the gathering of energy. But when each sees that first glimmer of sunlight, let your spirit be glad. Let your heart leap for joy within you.

May you prepare your soul in all gladness for the beautiful blossom that lies budded and waiting within you.

We leave you in the peace of Christ Jesus, now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 26, 1991:

[Question not present on audio.]

(Carla Channeling)

Q’uo: The relationship between the healer and the one to be healed, indeed, is that which taps into the unity that connects all things. For as the one to be healed seeks the healing energies, the entity is attempting to bring into a more harmonious state of balance some portion or portions of its mind/body/spirit complex that are currently in such a state of disharmony, that they have begun to impinge upon the entity’s ability to learn or continue to incarnational pattern. The one to be healed, then, in seeking the offices of the healer, offers itself to the One Creator, that moves through the healer in whatever modality is utilized, and brings the two into a harmony for the moment of healing, shall we say–that moment in which the one to be healed accepts a new configuration of attitude in the metaphysical beingness from which the manifested third-density physical vehicle depends.

The question is large enough that we fear we cannot do parts of it justice. But we believe that this is a beginning at a discussion concerning healing–the ethics of healing and the modalities–as all being acceptable.

At this time, the instrument is informing us we have to stop our florid language and move to other questions that may have been brought up by this or any question which you may wish to ask.

We leave this instrument in thanks, in love, and in light. This instrument is upon what is known as a hospital bed. It is limited. It is also healed. Gaze at the glory of the One Infinite Creator, and do not take the definitions of society and worldly wisdom as truth. If an entity is whole, it may sit in the baking sun until it has broiled its skin away, and yet still it is whole.

The question was inaudible but according to what Carla channeled as a response it seems to be dealing with the nature of healing. Q’uo began their response by saying that the one to be healed offers itself to the Creator which moves through the healer and brings the healer and the one to be healed into a harmony so that the one to be healed is able to accept a new/healed configuration of its body. On December 12, 1982, Latwii described the process of healing:

The process of healing, as we have mentioned, is the process of realizing that the self at the heart of self is one with all, therefore, is whole, perfect, and healed of any distortion. You inhabit an illusion that allows great distortions in many directions that you might experience the variety and depth of meaning of the one Creator. As you bring these distortions into balance you create the process of healing for yourself, for in that process of balancing polarities of distortion, you emphasize within your deep mind the unity that binds all of creation.

As this process of balancing continues within your own being, this growth then acts as a healing process to your own complex of mind, body, and spirit. The process of growth and the process of healing, therefore, are one process. As you proceed upon this journey you become able to offer a service to others which has been likened unto shining a light in the darkness. The minds and hearts of others are touched, and inspiration is delivered and received. You may further refine this process by offering to the physical vehicle of another the catalyst, shall we say, that allows that entity to complete the process of healing within itself in a certain distortion if that entity so requests it to the depths of its being. Then you function as what you may call a healer upon the levels of mind, body, and spirit.

We would at this time transfer to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo and leave this instrument in love and light. I am Q’uo.

(Jim Channeling)

I am Q’uo and greet each again in love and in light. At this time, we would ask if there would be any further queries to which we may speak?

A: [Inaudible] the use of an individual’s birth chart with the [inaudible] opportunities to grow [inaudible]?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my brother. The practice of that which you call astrology–the study of the nature and effects of the planets and the stars upon those entities which inhabit your planetary sphere–is a study which, like many other studies, offers to those interested in it the opportunity to view the road which has been traveled, is being traveled, or shall be traveled.

It is often helpful to the seeker of truth to be informed of those qualities which are primary in the personality of the present incarnation, so that the seeker might work from those areas of strength, and build and stabilize those areas of weakness, so called, in the attempt to achieve an overall balance within the mind/body/spirit complex. It is often helpful for the seeker to know, for instance, that certain of its abilities are helpful in circumstances which have heretofore been puzzling and confusing to the entity. It is helpful to view those wide places and those narrow places in the road, so that there might be the movement through both with the most efficacy.

The offering of one’s self to others in providing this service is beneficial when the ones seeking assistance have the sincere desire to know, not the details of the daily life which shall change from day to day, but seek the undergirding principles that inform each incarnation and infuse each entity’s opportunities for learning in the areas which have been chosen for the current incarnation.

We look upon this study as a means by which entities may also approach a more informed understanding of the mind of the Creator as it is reflected in the movement of planets and possibilities within the incarnation. Thus, some look to this study for information regarding those primary qualities that we find you have in this group called the archetypical mind. That is the study of the mind of Love.

In this study, one is able to see a kind of mythology, if you will, which places the entity as a seeker of truth upon a great journey; and, as a seeker on this journey, is accompanied by many friends who may lend assistance as archetypical images when they are called upon in a conscious and sincere fashion. Thus, the seeker of truth may begin–and we stress begin–to apprehend more of the qualities of the self and the Creator that are infinite in nature; and which, in the sense of the self, are reflected or manifested in a certain way so that the seeker, by studying the self, becomes aware of a pattern that may be utilized in the traveling of the journey and in the study of all mysteries which present themselves to each seeker. Thus, that which is found within the self may be seen reflected within those portions of the Creator that you see as stars and planets, just as those features of the Creator are found in the stars and planets may be found in and affect the seeker in each portion of its journey.

Apparently the question from A concerned how he might offer  the study of astrology to be of aid in the spiritual seeker’s life path. Q’uo began their response by saying that astrology could be seen as a kind of road map for the seeker that utilizes the stars and the planets to give the seeker an indication of its path in the past, the present, and the future. They said that this worked by showing how one’s strengths may help to increase one’s weaknesses so that the life path may be more balanced as the wide places and narrow places are traveled. Q’uo continued by saying that it would be helpful to use astrology as a means of helping the seeker to discover the basic principles that astrology can provide that reveal one’s pre-incarnative choices to discover the mind of the Creator in the movement of planets or the archetypical mind, which is the mind of Love, the Logos. Q’uo said that astrology would give the seeker of truth a way of discovering those qualities of the self and the Creator which are infinite in nature and which affect the seeker in each portion of its spiritual journey. On November 28, 1993, Q’uo described the use of astrology in the seeker’s life:

Astrology is a complex and detail-driven technology, if you will, a system of ephemeral, mathematical constructs having to do with the configurations of heavenly bodies.

To the student who wishes to probe more deeply within the self to become more and more familiar with those uncharted regions of the self represented by the marker in consciousness which you would call sub-awareness, it [astrology] offers one way of learning more about the deeper mind. There is this sub-awareness that the deeper studies at this crux may be those which have fruitful results. On this level, let us say, the awareness of specific and personal detail is not that of which we speak at this time. Rather, the archetypical mind finds explication by the relationships of heavenly bodies to each other and to the planetary sphere upon which you presently enjoy incarnation.

At this level, much deep awareness can be encouraged by immersion in that complex set of relationships of star to star and star to the system of star and planets which you call home. On another level, the personal level, yield of useful information from continued study of and awareness of the progression of one’s own—this instrument would use the word “chart”—is shall we say, a good way to develop both an instinct for influence and a relatively authentic feeling of control over the continuing life experiences which is so precious to you. To one entity, such a study would be work, a difficult chore done in order for the learning. To such a one, we would suggest investigating other avenues for learning more attuned to the environment and for aid in the feel of control over the life experience.

Astrology, then, is that for which some entities are well suited, others not. To the entity which feels positively or affirmatively concerning keeping up with the chart’s progression for the self, astrology can bear that aid in consciousness which creates for the seeker a vantage point: consciousness which can act as a collecting area for the amassing of one’s psychic self. The gift of being psychic or aware in non-physical ways is within all persons. The means of developing this gift are tremendously large, infinite, we would think. However, to a fairly large percentage of those now seeking to increase the rate of learning, spiritually speaking, a substantial number would, indeed, find in astrology that place from which to continue to learn how to gather more and different information from the environment, for the environment is illusory and more than that is an illusion with many sub-illusions which further color the catalyst which is retained for use by your minds.

Is there a further query, my brother?

A: Not on that one. Thank you. I can give some space now for someone else to ask a question.

Carla: I had a couple of questions about the message. And I probably didn’t hear it all because I was channeling. But I was surprised that the patient and the healer seem to you to be the same. The healer and the healee–however you want to say it–they seem to be… And I wasn’t being deductive here, but inductive. But it just felt as though you were suggesting that there was a oneness between the healer and healee, and that oneness was normal. [Inaudible]

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. The relationship between the healer and the one to be healed, indeed, is that which taps into the unity that connects all things. For as the one to be healed seeks the healing energies, the entity is attempting to bring into a more harmonious state of balance some portion or portions of its mind/body/spirit complex that are currently in such a state of disharmony, that they have begun to impinge upon the entity’s ability to learn or continue to incarnational pattern. The one to be healed, then, in seeking the offices of the healer, offers itself to the One Creator, that moves through the healer in whatever modality is utilized, and brings the two into a harmony for the moment of healing, shall we say–that moment in which the one to be healed accepts a new configuration of attitude in the metaphysical beingness from which the manifested third-density physical vehicle depends. Thus, the one to be healed brings itself to the healer in order that the work previously done by the healer in the healing arts, which have been practiced upon the self of the healer, so that this same river, if you will, of energy may engulf both the one to be healed and the healer. And for that moment of healing, these entities are, in the metaphysical sense, seen as one.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes, I have one more. Actually, I had two more, but I can [inaudible]. I have noticed I’ve been ill a lot in my life, according to the [inaudible]. I’ve noticed that when someone who really loves me is around, even if that person is doing absolutely nothing–off in a corner sitting there doing his or her own thing–that I feel better, I feel more healing energy. And I was kind of surprised that you didn’t say anything about that whole area of healers that aren’t officially healers, but are unconsciously in some way. Could you comment?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. Indeed, there are many areas of the healing process which we are not able to investigate at this time due to the limitations of time. The effect of which you speak is one which is oftentimes the most called upon form of healing in the unconscious sense. For any entity which has worked upon itself, shall we say, in order to bring itself into a more complete or fuller understanding of the mysteries of evolution of mind, body, and spirit, is an entity which has begun the healing or making-whole process within the self.

As this process continues within any entity, such an entity then is as a beacon, one who radiates this more intense level of harmony to those about it, so that those about it feel the healing or harmonious energy emanating from such an entity. Such emanations tend to cause one, who is what you would call ill, to begin to vibrate in synchronistic fashion with this entity’s healing vibrations. Thus, there is the feeling of peace and of increased wellness as a result.

Is there another query?

B: I have one. I had my friend who was a healer who had a calling [inaudible]. And it sounds like from your description that as both healer and healee [inaudible].

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. In such an instance, where the healer begins to take on those qualities of the one to be healed that are within the illness range, shall we say, this is oftentimes the result of a misconception on the part of the healer, which is that the healer heals. In truth, the healer does not heal. The healer allows healing energies to move through its being in some fashion so that, for the moment of healing, both the healer and the one to be healed are experiencing the same healing energies. It is not necessary nor advisable, however, for the healer to see itself as the one accomplishing the healing, for that attitude will, in some cases, attract to the healer those distortions being balanced by the one to be healed.

The healer, in order to be most efficacious or helpful, must see itself as a channel through which energies move, both the energies to heal and those distortions being given up by the one seeking the healing. These energies need to move through the healer and not remain with the healer. The attitude in this instance is critical for that to occur.

Is there another query, my sister?

B: I was wondering if [inaudible] create an opportunity [inaudible] what happens then?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. Those energies being released by the one to be healed most often move back into the basic element of Earth, which is able to absorb all such energies and transmute them into a neutral state. It is well for the healer to offer some ritualized practice or object of practice that will aid this absorption of the distortions by the earth’s energies, such as the stomping of the feet upon the ground, the shaking of the fingertips to the ground, and so forth.

This may also be done mentally by either the healer or the one to be healed, so that the distortions are seen as leaving both entities and entering the Earth.

Is there a further query, my sister?

B: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

A: I have a question. Those so-called healers that I know appear to have gone through a phase of being wounded and then being healed. Here, there’s this process of being a wounded healer, and wounding seems to make the healer a better healer. Could you comment on that?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my brother. In truth, all healers have at some time been wounded, as you would say, or distorted in a certain fashion that is congruent with the pre-incarnative choices for lessons to be learned. Each lesson to be learned begins as its antithesis, so that, for example, if there is love for an entity to be learned, that this may begin as a dislike or lack of compassion for an entity or a quality.

The healer is one who has been able to apply certain principles to its own incarnational pattern, and through the application of these principles, has been able to affect its attitude in the metaphysical sense to the degree that it becomes, what you would call, healed. This healing then is accomplished by the work of the healer upon the self.

Oftentimes, there are additional lessons or woundings that are necessary for any entity, including those called healers, that will allow the healer to experience a transformation that will not only benefit the healer in the personal metaphysical sense, but will allow it to present itself in a more purified or potent form as a healer, able to open to the universal healing energy of the One Creator more efficiently for those who seek the healer’s services.

Is there another query, my brother?

A: No. Thank you so much.

I am Q’uo. And again, we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I don’t have any questions. Thank you.

D: I’m looking for the answer to a question, and it has to do with an exploration of [inaudible] parts of the Earth on which we live, and how we serve this energy to their location for a certain healing sort of power that is inherent near that spot. Those spots can be very natural spots on the surface, or they can be spots that have been created by man’s handling of the planet. And I’m curious about whether we all have this sort of energy within us that can create these spots in our own backyard, so to speak. Could you explore that for a period of time?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my brother. It is indeed true that there are many physical locations upon your planetary surface that are efficacious in the healing process, for they remind the one to be healed, either consciously or subconsciously, of certain qualities that may be necessary for a healing to occur. Such areas also offer various beneficial qualities, such as the negative ions that are generated in your streams when the surface of the water is broken by rocks or falls. There are inspirational qualities available from the distant view of mountains or scenery of a physical nature, so that the entity observing such may be inspired to place the mind upon certain principles that remind it of its connection to this natural environment. And through the exploration of this connection over a period of time, the entity may be able to bring itself into a more complete balance, offering to the self a less distorted experience, or one which is more whole or healthy, as you call it.

There is also the possibility that any entity seeking to create a physical location with healing in mind may so infuse this location with its intention to heal, that this intention will become an energy vortex in that area that will offer to the one constructing it, and all who enter thereafter, the harmonious vibrations of that intention. The subconscious mind of each entity works through such construction of physical location in a way that allows the placement of artifacts to reflect the subconscious need and idealization of the healing process.

For indeed, each entity upon your planet may be said to be seeking healing, for each is wounded by a perceived lack of love in some degree. And the healing process, in its most basic elements, is that process which introduces love into some portion of the entity’s personality where it has been lacking previously. Thus, as an entity seeks to construct a location that will facilitate the healing process, the entity is constructing a subconscious understanding of the environment of healing within the subconscious mind. There are certain relationships that are brought forth into the conscious mind and therefrom into the physical environment that will, by their placement, inspire this feeling of harmony, wholeness, health, and healing.

D wanted to know if there were locations on our planet that would be of aid in the healing process, and also could a person who has this energy within them construct places like this in their own yards? Q’uo replied by saying that many places like waterfalls generate negative ions that are helpful in aiding healing as are the distant views of the natural environment of mountains and the connection one may make to this scenery that allows a more balanced feeling or a healing of the life experience. Then Q’uo said that an entity may set its intentions to create such a place that will become a vortex of healing energy as the subconscious mind introduces the power of love into this environment and the various artifacts that the person may utilize to symbolize the environment of healing.  On May 16, 2002, Q’uo said that there were many ways for one to create a vortex of healing:

We may suggest that there are many opportunities to heal, to be a healer, to be an agent of healing energy, and that this healing has as many avenues as there are personalities. It is as though each of you were as the stained glass of a rich and beautiful design. All those colors within the window that is you are your very own; no one else has selected the way that you move energy through your energy body. And this means that you are creating a constant tapestry of color and music that is the personal signature of yourself, and this energy vortex, as it moves through the cosmic energy vortexes that are figured forth in the outer world by your planets and your stars, moves you along with the flow that you and your guidance created at the beginning of that web of energy that is called a given incarnation.

Is there a further query, my brother?

D: No, I thank you for the explanation.

I am Q’uo. And as we are aware that this has been a lengthy session and that energies are beginning to dwindle, we shall at this time take our leave of this group, thanking each for inviting our presence. It is a great honor and a joy for us to blend our vibrations with yours, and to walk with you for this time upon your journey of seeking. We cannot thank you enough for this blessing.

We are those of Q’uo and, at this time, shall leave this group, as always, in the love and in the light of the One Infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I took Bosco to the vet to have another glucose sensor affixed to his back and linked to my cell phone so that we can get readings of his blood sugar levels throughout the day. Hopefully, we can get 5 or 6 days of readings to give the vet an idea as to the best dosage level of insulin for him. Then I went to Feeder’s Supply to buy some birdseed and cat food for Benny.  My next stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s to buy a case of bottled water and some non-food items.

This afternoon I went outside and dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted it into the Moss Garden. Then I took the old clothes line rope off the netting around the fish pond and replaced it with a bright blue clothes line rope that I weaved in and out of the netting in a peaks and valleys pattern to keep birds from flying into the netting and getting caught, and the netting is to keep grey herons and raccoons from getting into the pond and eating the fish. But I only had enough rope to get half way around the fish pond, so I ordered more on the internet.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 25

Love As Motivation

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the fullness of the consciousness which is divine love

That consciousness is the ground of being of all who may hear our voice. That single word, love, created all that there is. The image of love draws each seeker on; with visage veiled and beguiling; with footsteps infinitely retreating before the advancing soul.

For that consciousness which is pure and creative and all-powerful is that consciousness which is its own source; that light which shines through the ages; that factory of all that there is, and that home to which all that there is shall return.

Do not sentimentalize the love of Jesus the Christ, for He left His spirit with you not only to comfort you but to excite and motivate each soul to act in that same consciousness and live in that same light and energy.

Know that your feet rest upon love, the ground of your being and that that creative energy is the active principle. The passive principle is peace.

In that peace we leave you, both now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 17, 1991:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to ask if there be any queries upon any other topic that we may attempt response to?

Questioner: I have a question, Q’uo. Prior to the session, a situation was discussed about helping ourselves to [inaudible] the disadvantaged within our particular society, and my observation was that the feelings that came to me during that [inaudible] were unexpected. I wonder if there is any use for logical reasoning in trying to observe one’s own reaction in giving aid or helping another, or if it is more useful for a seeker just to accept it as it is and sort of try to do the best every time with the situation that comes up? I wonder if you could comment on it?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The situation of which you speak is one in which you were offered the opportunity to be of service to another in a very direct and immediate fashion. This quality of immediacy is that which catches the seeker, shall we say, in an off-guard position, as you may put it. The spontaneous response of any entity to any stimulus is to act in this off-guarded moment in a pure and unpretentious fashion. To look at this experience as it has been completed, and to review one’s reactions, thoughts and emotions is the archetypical path of the seeker, for the examination of the life pattern is the seeking of truth.

The illusion exists for your seeking and your learning. Thus, we applaud the care taken in investigating one’s responses to significant stimuli. The significance is chosen by each of you according to that which moves your inner rhythms, those patterns programmed previous to the incarnation. Thus, is it well to spend time daily reflecting upon the day as it has passed, to note those experiences of significance where there was movement in your own consciousness that felt and left behind a strength and a mark upon your memory.

May we speak in any other fashion, my brother?

Questioner: I will take it further by saying that when I agree to help, I have some expectation of the way it would feel, and it did not feel that way. So I would ask you, what kind of experience does a seeker set himself up for when the approach is giving aid with some frequency of idea of what it might be like, or what it should be like? If you could comment on that in any way you feel you can.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. To have a preconceived idea as to the outcome of any event is to confuse the perception of that event when it occurs. This provides additional catalyst to the seeker, and it is not inappropriate to have these preconceptions; however, it may be noted to be inconvenient. It may also be noted by the seeker that there are a great many responses possible as a result of the giving of service, and each response may be carefully noted and investigated so that the connection with giving without condition can be made.

Questioner had the chance to be of service to a disadvantaged person, and he experienced unexpected feelings when thinking about this opportunity. So, he asked Q’uo if the best way to move forward in giving service was logical reasoning or to just accept the chance to be of service? Q’uo responded by saying that the immediate nature of the chance to be of service caught Questioner by surprise gave him the opportunity to respond in a pure and unpretentious fashion. Q’uo recommended that as he reviewed his response he was demonstrating the archetypical path of the seeker of truth. Q’uo said that this type of reviewing one’s responses to the stimuli of the day gives the seeker a chance to see its pre-incarnative choices and movement in one’s consciousness. Then Questioner refined his question and said that he had expectations of how it would feel to be of service, but he did not feel that way, and he wanted to know how these expectations affected his ability to be of service. Q’uo said such expectations were not inappropriate but could confuse the service, so they should be examined with an eye to how they would affect the goal of being able to give without expectation of return. On September 25, 1994, Q’uo described in detail what it means to give without expectation of return:

This process of seeking which we have described in our previous words is one which is universal for all third-density entities which live within the illusion of the separation of conscious and sub-conscious mind. To penetrate the veil of forgetting enough to love without expectation of return is a process which has steps, or as you know them, the archetypical images, that reflect the seeker’s journey.

We have been speaking this day of The Choice that is represented by the twenty-second archetype, known as the Fool. The entire process of seeking within your third-density illusion is one in which you become that Fool. It is a process which contains the, as your Bible has called it, the valley of the shadow of death. There is in this process a rod and a staff which comforts those who walk through the valley of the shadow of death. These are the will and the faith components that ring throughout each archetypical image and are as the guiding star, for the faith that this process will end well must be fueled by the will to persevere. Thus, there is the threat of the falling to one’s death, the being eaten alive by the illusion, the inability to see the danger about one, for it is all about one in darkness, it would seem.

Thus, the image of the Fool is well suited to your illusion and is given as that motto by which each might look for inspiration and illumination of the heart. We speak of the heart for there the love of the Creator may be found and experienced for the self and for all other selves as the self which is the seeker which continues to place itself in positions similar to the walking from the cliff, willing to be vulnerable and to give without expectation of return.

Thus, you see this image again and again invoked by the seeker in the daily round of activities and, indeed, within this circle of seeking. As you have begun your meditation, each placed the self in that position to share openly with all others gathered here that the effort of seeking might be enhanced by the open-hearted sharing of what was in each heart.

This archetype is the most active archetype, shall we say. Though it is the last to be mastered, it is the first to be called and the one to be called most often, my friends.

Is there any further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, Q’uo, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Well, this is personal, but I was talking with Jim the other day and we were wondering what had changed since the readings that I was given by Ra that had enabled me to do things that at that time I simply could not do. If this is not a subject you can speak upon, that’s fine. If you can comment, great.

I am Q’uo. We first ask if we spoke too soon?

Carla: Well, Q’uo, only because I always have something else to say. I was just going to say I’m just asking in general.

I am Q’uo—still. And we give this instrument the image of the steel door locked carefully, and apologize for the lack of information. Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: Would it aid my understanding of the energies at work in my life for me to meditate on this door?

I am Q’uo. And we would suggest that the query itself be the focus of meditation.

Carla: Very well.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank each for your patience, and most especially for your invitation to us, for we are always filled with joy to receive it and to have the opportunity to blend our vibrations with yours. We are most grateful to walk with you during this portion of your journey and assure each of you that there are many such as we who walk with you always, and there are those who rejoice at your every step. We shall take this opportunity to leave this instrument and this circle of working, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

Yesterday afternoon we had a public channeling meditation that had 13 people in attendance, and in our round robin we each had an opportunity to share the nature of our current spiritual journey. I am always amazed at how we seem to get such open-hearted people, and this kind of sharing seems to make the questions that they ask Q’uo to be of such an inspiring nature. After the channeling was over everyone stayed for about an hour with a good deal of the conversation focused on the types of dreams that each had in the recent past and how much working with dreams inspired them.

This morning Anna and I listened to Sessions 18, 19, & 20 of Carla channeling Ra. It was a great experience once again as the slowness of Carla’s channeling combined with being able to read the words she was channeling gave us a deeper grasp of what was being discussed by Don and Ra.

This afternoon I dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted it into the Moss Garden. Then I weeded the day lilies on the south side of the garage and put up a wire fence to keep the deer from eating them.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 24

The Ore Of Humankind

I am of the spirit of Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

The gem-like quality of the pilgrim’s soul may be seen seldom with your dark physical eyes, for the ore of humankind is rough and the exterior of most gem-like souls is pitted, darkened, and scarred by erosion and age.

It is the function of the spirit of love to enhance one’s eyesight when gazing at gold and gems in the rough. There is a vision which comes only to those who refuse to trust their physical eyes.

 May you ask this boon of the spirit of Christ, for each time that you see the Christ in another, you have become Christ to that other, and the gem that is your pilgrim’s soul is polished and faceted by deed and thought.

We leave you in the peace and comfort of love. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from November 17, 1991:

This Sunday’s meditation has to do with the practice of astrology. And we’re wondering if it is a helpful thing to look more deeply into the practice of astrology, to get more of an idea of the patterns and the rhythms, the opportunities and the lack of opportunities that present themselves on our path, or if it’s just as well to content ourselves with a passing knowledge of astrology. In other words, do you think astrology can be used in the seeker’s daily life and, if so, how?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is a privilege and a blessing to be joining in your circle of seeking this day. And we wish to thank each who has called us for the purpose of transmitting information, for by so doing, each has enabled us to perform that service which we seek at this time to do. We are most happy to share our thoughts on astrology with the disclaimer that our thoughts are to be heard as the thoughts of a friend rather than those of an all-wise teacher, for we make errors. The request we have of you is that you simply leave behind any thought which does not seem worthwhile to you.

We give this instrument the picture of the world that lies in a darkness, a kind of waiting or anticipatory darkness such as the eve of a great holiday. The present period among those upon your sphere’s surface at this time is an increasingly exciting one as there has been more and more of that consciousness among all of your world’s peoples that some great event seems to be in the offing, so that the coming of the night is more acceptable. It is into such a frame of consciousness, if you will, that we bring the discussion of astrology. This instrument wonders what we do, but we ask it to relax and go with us on this.

There have been centuries in which it would not have aided most to look more closely into the archetypical mind. These centuries have passed. For this third-density experience which you enjoy at this time, the end truly is near, if you will. Not physically, but more and more mentally and spiritually. There is that subconscious or unconscious amongst your peoples that there are special reasons to look more deeply into natural phenomena and their possible effect upon the self, be it body, mind or spirit that is affected.

Astrology offers one way of learning more about the deeper mind, or what we have called the archetypical mind. It is a complex and detail-driven technology, if you will, the system of ephemeral, mathematical constructs having to do with configurations of heavenly bodies. To the student who wishes to probe more deeply within the self, to become more and more familiar with those uncharted regions of the self represented by the marker in consciousness which you could call sub-awareness, there is this sub-awareness that the deeper studies at this crux may be those which have fruitful results. On this level, let us say, the awareness of specific and personal detail is not that which we speak of at this time, but rather the archetypical mind finds explication by the relationships of heavenly bodies to each other and to this planetary sphere upon which you presently enjoy incarnation. At this level much deep awareness can be encouraged by immersion in that complex set of relationships of star to star, and star to the system of star and planets which you call home.

The group question for this session was “Do you think astrology can be used in the seeker’s daily life and, if so, how?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that within many people on Earth there was a feeling of change coming that Q’uo related to as a moving into the darkness of discovery. They said that our third density is truly coming to its end, and there were changes coming that could be perceived within the subconscious mind that would reflect these changes to the mind, body, or spirit. Q’uo suggested that the study of the archetypical mind was a means of gauging the effect of various planets, stars, and our Earth to the sub-awareness or subconscious mind. In 88.23, Ra described the relationship between astrology and the archetypical mind:

Questioner: You mentioned earlier that the tarot was a method of divination. Would you explain that?

Ra: I am Ra. We must first divorce the tarot as a method of divination from this Major Arcana as representative of twenty-two archetypes of the archetypical mind.

The value of that which you call astrology is significant when used by those initiated entities which understand, if you will pardon the misnomer, the sometimes intricate considerations of the Law of Confusion. As each planetary influence enters the energy web of your sphere those upon the sphere are moved much as the moon which moves about your sphere moves the waters upon your deeps. Your own nature is water in that you as mind/body/spirit complexes are easily impressed and moved. Indeed, this is the very fiber and nature of your journey and vigil in this density: to not only be moved but to instruct yourself as to the preferred manner of your movement in mind, body, and spirit.

Therefore, as each entity enters the planetary energy web each entity experiences two major planetary influxes, that of the conception, which has to do with the physical, yellow-ray manifestation of the incarnation, and that of the moment you call birth when the breath is first drawn into the body complex of chemical yellow ray. Thus those who know the stars and their configurations and influences are able to see a rather broadly drawn map of the country through which an entity has traveled, is traveling, or may be expected to travel, be it upon the physical, the mental, or the spiritual level. Such an entity will have developed abilities of the initiate which are normally known among your peoples as psychic or paranormal.

When the archetypes are shuffled into the mix of astrologically oriented cards which form the so-called Court Arcana and Minor Arcana these archetypes become magnetized to the psychic impressions of the one working with the cards, and thusly become instruments of a linkage between the practitioner of the astrological determinations and divinations and the one requesting information. Oft times such archetypical representations will appear in such a manner as to have seemingly interesting results, meaningful in configuration to the questioner. In and of themselves, the Major Arcana have no rightful place in divination but, rather, are tools for the further knowledge of the self by the self for the purpose of entering a more profoundly, acutely realized present moment.

On another level, the personal level, the yield of useful information from continued study of, and awareness of, the progression of one’s own—this instrument would use the word “chart”—is, shall we say, a good way to develop both an instinct for inference and a relatively authentic feeling of control over the continuing life experience which is so precious to you.

To one entity, such a study would be work—a difficult chore done in order for the learning. To such an one, we would suggest investigating other avenues for becoming more attuned to the environment and for aiding in the feeling of control over the life experience. Astrology, then, is that for which some entities are well suited, others not.

To the entity which feels positively or affirmatively concerning keeping up with the chart’s progression for the self, astrology can become that aid in consciousness which creates for the seeker a vantage point in consciousness which can act as a collecting area for the amassing of one’s psychic self. The gift of being psychic or aware in non-physical ways is within all persons. The means of developing this gift are tremendously large. Infinite, we would think. However, to a fairly large percentage now seeking to increase the rate of learning, spiritually speaking, a substantial number would indeed find in astrology that place from which to continue to learn how to gather more and different information from the environment. For the environment is illusory. And more than that, is an illusion with many, many sub-illusions which further color the catalyst which is retained for use by your minds.

Now let us speak more in general, for there is a point to be made as regards the use of systems created by the mind and observations of mankind. Insofar as the system is internally valid in its logic, that system may be to the entity which plumbs its depths that crutch or aid which acts as the collector for the abilities and gifts of the seeker. In general, it is well to choose a system, whether it be astrology or numerology, the study of the eye, or head, or hand—and we could list systems for a substantial length of your time. What avails them to the seeker as efficient tools is that very systematic nature, for the mind within incarnation has the instinct for the pattern. Each entity in each experience is, in part, working internally to place the present moment into a context which will yield the maximum amount of information. This information is usually heavily biased toward comfort and well-being. However, the mind can be increasingly trained to retain catalyst which is presented to the mind, which perhaps has little, if any, survival use, but which does indeed aid in spiritual learning.

And the way to become more able to do this work in consciousness is to persist in experiencing and studying one system, be it of, or any system whatsoever, which—we correct this instrument—to which the seeker is personally and individually drawn.

For you are, indeed, living on the eve of that which shall come to be. It is almost impossible to describe the nature of the shift of consciousness from basic third density to basic fourth density. This shift shall take you with it, if you dwell now on the planet Earth. Therefore we encourage the twin awarenesses that it is a good time to be watchful and that it is a good time to celebrate. That which astrology or any “ology” might do is aid in development of that sharply tuned hunger for the truth revealed within the present moment.

How we do encourage each to more and more dwell and marinate the complete entity in that present moment? It may seem odd that the mind’s structure is such that the entrance to the present moment is often round about, moving not through the invisible door into the fully accepted present, but rather going completely around the entire structure of living to surprise the present moment only after the long walk has sharpened the appetite. Astrology is, shall we say, the hors d’oeuvre which encourages an entity to more aptly fit the intellect to accept an increasing number of inferences.

This ability to loosen the self from the physical, and move into an abstract system of gazing at the self, is key. What you do in gazing at astrology is to sharpen the intellect’s ability to let go enough so that the gifts which are called psychic may express themselves intelligibly to that mind which has been softened to accept increasing numbers of inferences. For that which you seek cannot be deduced or reasoned. Discuss what you will, you cannot bring instrumentation, as you now know that, to bear on the nature, the power and the position of that Word or Logos which is the original Thought of the one infinite Creator.

Now Q’uo said that if one made a study of astrology by looking at one’s chart there could be a feeling of being in control of one’s destiny and also the beginning development of psychic gifts. They said this could be done in other areas of study as well that could be determined by the seeker according to its instinct for patterns and how it wishes to gather information that can be used to affect its present moment experience. Q’uo continued by saying that there was a shift going on as our planet moved from third density to fourth density, and this shift in consciousness could be enhanced if one studied myth, science, philosophy, or ethics to obtain more experience in the present moment. They said this would open one’s self to the psychic abilities within one’s being which is to know the nature and power of the Logos which is the original Thought of the one infinite Creator. On October 12, 1986, Q’uo defined the potential of the present moment:

However, as you well know, my brother, the present moment is also that which is complete within itself, and in this light needs no addition from the past or from the future. The present moment may become, if it is one’s desire, a finely focused experience of all that one is, and all that one can be, and all that one has been. In this focus of experience the full potential of one’s being is brought to bear upon one’s thinking and the boundaries or limitations of one’s thinking or one’s beliefs are offered the opportunity to expand. As one begins to create a space in experience in the present moment which is undiluted by the past or the future, one then harvests potential. One in this harvest may become inspired, shall we say, by that which is and that which exists within one’s being. In such present moment experiences, one may fully appreciate the completeness which is the foundation of any entity’s being.

Of course, my brother, you are aware that the meditative state is that state which offers the easiest access to such present moment experiences, for such experiences of the power of the present moment and the perfection of one’s being are those which become available to an entity when there is no coloration of past or future or thought of any kind to form a filter through which the present moment must be perceived.

Thus, within the present moment experience one may, in a manner of speaking, not only recharge the battery of one’s personal energy, but may discover that that battery is fully charged at all times, and in this discovery and from this discovery one may then move into the daily round of activities inspired and ennobled, shall we say, so that the ability to utilize what has been learned is enhanced, and the ability to gather further lessons available in each present moment is also enhanced.

We would at this time declare with regret that this is the substance of our discussion at this time, unless there is a query which would take this line of reasoning further. Might any have the desire to proceed further at this time with this particular query?

[Pause]

In that case, we would close this particular session through the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and light.

This morning I continued to move the sprinkler around the two area in my yard where I am hoping to grow grass: between the fish pond and the pet cemetery and the left side of the back yard. Then I arranged the chairs in the living room where we will have our public channeling meditation this afternoon. So I will post this journal entry early rather than late and give a report of the channeling meditation in tomorrow’s Camelot Journal.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 23

Look Again

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

Divinity may seem to have no part in your experience as you awaken to yet another day of traffic, work, chores to do and lists to be made and scratched out. Yet it is the prayer of the spirit of the living Christ that divinity may be at all times in utterly close proximity to each spirit, however concerned with the mundane, however overwhelmed with the everyday chores of a busy life.

 You will find the spirit between the motes of dust, within the glimmer of moisture upon a cobweb, rounding like fog at the corners of the heart.

Our prayer is our presence. Do not turn from dust and chores and dailiness to seek the living waters of spiritual food but, rather, gaze at them more closely, for there is no day so busy nor prison so closely bound that the spirit is not within each task and each bar.

We would rescue that state of mind, which does not relish earthly things yet sees none other, from inward blindness by saying, “Look again.” For shall not divine love penetrate and, with your desire, have strength to transform each and every action which you may take this day?

We leave you in that striving which is the peace of Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 17, 1991:

A: I’d like to have some general information today concerning the field of healing. We would like to know the conditions of a metaphysical nature that bring about the necessity for healing in a person. We would also like to know, considering there are so many different ways to attempt to heal, so many different kinds of healing, is there one way that is better for certain people, certain attitudes, certain diseases or conditions, or is there one energy that is available through many different modalities of healing? And what can a person who seeks healing do to aid the healing process? What kind of attitude is most helpful? If there’s assistance, for example, from the natural environment? Could we receive healing energy from gardens, fountains, streams, mountains? What in general is the most helpful component in the healing process between the healer and the one to be healed?

(Carla channeling)

Greetings. I am of the principle of Q’uo and bless you each in the Love and in the Light of the One Infinite Creator. We are most delighted to have been called. We offer our humble opinions to your group.

Truly, many in your group feel that there is a lack of wisdom, a lack of knowledge, a lack of authenticity. And before we begin to speak directly to the question of healing, we would ask you to gaze upon your own attention that you pay to yourself, for indeed the coin of the dearest account is mined, and when you pay attention, it is as though you were delivering the gold that was given to you as a steward in the best way possible.

Healing is always best done in an atmosphere where an entity conceives of itself as real. Not simply real within one body and one density, but truly real as that which existed before this illusion occurred and which will remain in existence after this valley, shall we say, of the shadow of third density death is with you. Gaze back at this time, over each event that has occurred to you this day. Have you insulted yourself, belittled yourself in some way or another that you were lacking? Very few people in third density are able to say, “I have done no sabotage to my state of mind.” One’s state of mind, one’s attitude, is primary both for the healer and the healed. So now we shall move then to the question itself.

Entities generally consider that there is a common and complete definition of health and wellness. There is also this strong belief that someone besides the self must enter into the picture of ill-health and create wellness within the entity. In no case is this true. If an entity comes to you in strong yellow-ray abundance and is able to, shall we say, jump start a condition, there is a lightening effect of that which the sickness has caused. Yet when an individual squarely gazes at the picture of itself, it realizes that it and it alone has the choice. The yellow-ray healer will be gone tomorrow, and the illness shall return.

There is no need to form dependency upon one entity, especially one which, by its practice, encourages you to come again and again to the sadness of your pocket book and the joy of a doctor’s bank account. This kind of so-called healing is prevalent not simply in New Age, or any of the other modalities of healing, but is also true of those of the healers who work within the limits of that which is taught within the medical schools. Now allopathic medicine as it is called by your peoples, just as all other modalities of healing, are as good as the healer and the healed. Let us gaze first at the healer. A healer does not heal. A healer learns to be clear that the Light of the Infinite One may pour through it and give to another entity the possibility of making its own choice. The various modalities of healing are those which are most effective within the ethos of the culture in which the healing is done. A healer administers to an ill person, not simply by medication, surgery or other processes, but because of the fact that the mind of the entity who is ill sees that healer, usually an allopathic one, as one who will make things better. And the simple fact that they have gone to a doctor renders many who are ill the opportunity to allow themselves the healing which they desire but which they have been unable to allow themselves.

This is not to say that the allopathic healer is not extremely effectual in many cases. It is rather that dependency upon a particular doctor that may create a place within the patient which has fear unless that particular healer is with that ill person. Consequently, if something needs to be excised from the physical vehicle, that excision is profoundly due to the healer and the art and the necessities which have been learned in the years of experience. However, that doctor does not and cannot erase the cause of that illness. And the loss of an organ or cancer or any symptom whatsoever, is chalked up, shall we say, not to the benefit of the healer but to the one who is to be healed and its willingness to accept this opportunity to take the catalyst of the healer’s presence and to accept it.

The healer is as the crutch, the thing that can be hung onto, the focus about which the entity begins to heal itself, believing not in itself, but in the doctor. Of course, the doctor is a patient; the patient a doctor. All things are one.

And so to doctors we would probably say, allow this vision of the self as a channel of Love and Light, to open your heart to the Infinite Wisdom that cannot be spoken, that shows itself in the hunches, in the slightly different things, in the one more test—all within the confines of allopathic medication. For an entity is not necessarily a healer because it is a doctor. Healing is indeed a state of mind, energy, or consciousness field. We use the term diamond—that which is crystalized. When the healer has itself out of the way then pouring through that healer and to all that need it is the healing gift that has been given within this incarnation of which each healer is a steward. All entities have their gifts and to some that gift is healing. Whatever modality has been offered by circumstance, the learning will be secondary to the flow of love and compassion and acceptance, with strength and courage not to shrink away from an entity which is clearly, very, very ill.

Consequently, we would suggest to each who wishes to be a healer that it recognize itself as a minister, a giver of grace, a catalyst through which the Spirit sends the opportunity o; Love – that Love which heals every cell because it is every cell. At the density of the body itself, that wisdom is sure. It is the third-density illusion which does not give us this fullest understanding.

A asked the group question which concerned what the metaphysical principles are that bring about the need for healing, the best way of achieving healing, and what the one to be healed can do to aid the healing? Q’uo began by reminding us that we are eternal beings and will continue to be such after this life is over. Then Q’uo said that one’s state of mind is most helpful to the healer and the one to be healed as there is no set definition of health and wellness. Q’uo suggested that it is not necessary to be dependent upon the allopathic type of healer for healing to occur, for the true healer does not heal but clears itself so that the Light of the Infinite One may flow through it and gives the one to be healed the choice to heal itself. Q’uo went on to say that many people who are ill can go to an allopathic healer and find a temporary cure for their illness, but then the illness may return as the allopathic doctor cannot find the cause of the illness. Then they repeated that the true healing comes from the healer that is able to become a channel for Love and Light so that healing becomes a state of mind, much like a crystal, and the healing gift of which the healer is a steward pours through from the Spirit to the one to be healed. On February 3, 1988, Hatonn described the conditions necessary for the process of healing to take place:

There are certain requirements if one is to heal, that is, if one is to heal in a spiritually balanced manner, healing with the self rather than with chemicals or with mechanical devices such as surgery. The one great requirement of a healer is that the healer be one with the desire to live a balanced life. The balance of a life is unique to each entity, yet the key to that balance is that within the hurry-scurry of the daily round, the healer has hollowed out a place within heart, mind, and spirit wherein the light exists and is acknowledged, so that at all times the healer is capable of being and functioning as a living crystal.

It is this balance which enables a healer to use a tool such as channeling, teaching, or hypnotherapy as a focus for those intuitions and deep promptings which may see far more deeply into the one who presents itself to be healed than could one whose eyes were those not filled with crystal light, but rather with human error. The process of healing is a process whereby the healer acts as a catalyst, arranging the sensing, thinking, and feeling apparati of the one to be healed in such a way that, for a short time, a new vision of a new balance may be brought before the attention of the one to be healed. It is then the matter of free choice for the one to be healed. It may choose to accept the new balance made possible by this catalyst, or it may choose, in time, to disregard it and remain unbalanced. Thus, even the most powerful of healers is not itself expected to use its will upon another entity, but rather simply to act as a living crystal which may correct unbalanced light vibrations within the energy web of the one to be healed.

So as a doctor approaches a patient, it is well to think not in terms of the pharmaceutical and ether forms of harsh chemical therapy, but first to gaze in the mirror of the self and see that the self is not what you are looking at in the mirror. It is not you. You are not defined as a healer. Healing defines and refines you as any steward has a gift which puts it out, as in a parable, to gain interest. All of the enormously intricate routines and processes of healing are worth nothing whatsoever unless the patient and the healer have been able to come closely into interaction with each other to the extent that each loves the Creator in the other and which is only to do the best which it can as a healer.

So the healing, though often frenetic and busy, is actually a slow, gentle reassuring love emanating from the green-ray chakra of the healer and received when the patient is ready to become well in the green ray chakra of that entity. As hearts are shared and become one, the strength of one becomes the strength of all.

Perhaps the best advice we could give to healers is to feel that relationship as organic to the earth and its cycles. Healing, when gazed at from the perspective of second density, takes a far different meaning than that which we think of as healing. For each harvest time, all the trees are skeletons and the grass has died and even the weeds have trouble rising up from the ground to. seek the winter sun.

As the healer gazes at each case, we suggest that the healer ask of its Higher Self, “Where is the healing and the love in this situation?” For there are some who heal to life, some who heal to a somewhat limited life—but for a reason—and those who heal into death, that being a beautiful healing and not at all to be despised. We realize that these words leave out of consideration the sentiment and the worldly wisdom of those who wish to see their loved ones’ physical bodies made well and perhaps even judge the entity or the family for creating the conditions which caused this sickness.

Now Q’uo said that the healer and the patient must develop a relationship of love for the Creator in each other so that the love in the heart of the healer moves in a reassuring way into the heart of the patient, and the strength of the One becomes the strength of all. Then Q’uo said that it is well for the healer to ask its Higher Self “Where is the healing and the love in this situation?” Q’uo also said that some patients heal into a longer life, and some heal into what we call death of the body which can also be looked upon as a beautiful healing. In 30.4, Ra spoke of the nature of the death of the physical body:

Questioner: Is there any loss to the mind or spirit after this transition which we call death or any impairment of either because of the loss of this chemical body that we now have?

Ra: I am Ra. In your terms there is a great loss of mind complex due to the fact that much of the activity of a mental nature of which you are aware during the experience of this space/time continuum is as much of a surface illusion as is the chemical body complex.

In other terms nothing whatever of importance is lost; the character or, shall we say, pure distillation of emotions and biases or distortions and wisdoms, if you will, becoming obvious for the first time, shall we say; these pure emotions and wisdoms and bias/distortions being, for the most part, either ignored or underestimated during physical life experience.

In terms of the spiritual, this channel is then much opened due to the lack of necessity for the forgetting characteristic of third density.

Now let us move to the entity who is to be healed.

Perhaps firstly we should say, that unless an entity wishes to be healed, just at that moment and just by that person, it is a far better thing to relinquish that opportunity of healing. For the healing must take place at a level of very high trust. Open heart to open heart, so as the patient reckons with itself and finds that it does indeed feel that it still needs this apparent disease, that is alright. That is acceptable. It is not necessary to take damaged entities and refurbish them for the entire chemical engine of your physical being, though very wide in a cellular way, will not respond to that which the Higher Self does not feel that that entity needs or wants on a deeper level. And once again patience of the cycles of the year: the gleaning of the harvest, the darkening of the days, the rejoicing when the sun starts once again to make a lighter and brighter world for the eyes and for the hearts of all. Those things which most often create difficulty for both healer and patient are the blockages that keep entities from opening their hearts. For you see, that which is done in green-ray is fueled by the sacred energies of the lower chakras. As this entity comes to love and respect, one’s sexuality may seem to some a folly, yet it is a wonder, a Eucharist, a time of thanksgiving. Not merely because new entities are created, but because there is a transfer of strength from one partner to another, some balance wherein one who is physically weaker, may receive more strength and one whose mind is full of grand ideas, but no real aspiration, may find a blessing of the energy exchange at the green-ray level.

So if each who seeks wishes to begin somewhere, it is well to begin at the red-ray chakra of generation, of survival. How blessed it is. How thankful we must all feel, to be breathing, to be living this day. If that joy is lost or removed it still may be joy to one who has faith, just as those who live through the night have faith that the morning will come. The female in the culture in which you live is programmed to block the red-ray chakra to a great extent because the consequences of bearing children are much more devastating to an entity who has casually found oneself with a child. Therefore, we do not mean that to claim the red-ray energy and clear it one must be sexually active. That is not so. However, one must be comfortable within one’s body, with one’s sexuality. Within each fart and giggle and mole the world offers these chemical engines which make such funny noises and do such funny things and so gallantly carry the consciousness that you are through the experiences that you have sought and from which you hope to learn.

You understand that we are redefining healing as a healing into wholeness and that is different for each entity. Once the red-ray chakra has been cleared and energy from the Limitless Light of the One Infinite Creator is flowing upward into the body of the healer, or the patient, one then encounters the challenges of relationship. And that is why we started, so strangely perhaps, with the urge for each in this meeting to encourage and exhort oneself in positivity and calm and serenity with each and every relationship with the self and with others. Likewise, in yellow-ray or societal energy, it is most important to be free of the desire to control or the desire to be controlled.

For instance, before this meeting began, while the entity known as Carla was moving through the process of tuning, it became aware of that which was pulling from the yellow-ray chakra, whereby the entity took the simple fingers of the hand and made the motions of cutting with a scissor. This did not take place in space time, but there was a metaphysical drain upon the channel which is not a good idea for either the one who drains the channel or the one who is drained and thereby fails to be as strong as it could be.

When the entity has become able to clear red, orange and yellow chakras, the sexual energy, the energies of personality, the energies of ego, the energies of relationship, the energies of society, and can still move about with at least half of a grin upon the face and a light-hearted attitude, then the entity has a heart that is full of love and no longer must depend on that paltry amount of love which is given to those who live and die and that is what you experience at this point.

You cannot count upon your character or all of those things which you think are you to power you through a situation which is unacceptable. You cannot expect to live a life which is always lived within your limits of your ability to cope with it. A great deal of life is involved in failing, and to many people those failures are things to be healed, or they create things in the body which may be healed. The prejudices in this direction are amazingly ingrained. The body, like any fertile soil, will take the ideas given to it, and will take that energy which it restores itself with, and will create an instrument during which some activity will take place. As the healer touches or loves or prays for or excises from the patient, it needs to know that The Great Healer is the Love and the Wisdom in every cell of the body and in every cell of the healer. There is a bridge betwixt patient and healer. When it is a partnership it is glorious and much can be accomplished. When there is a desire to make someone well in the ways that we think we know as wellness, we are taking upon ourselves the wisdom of the world. That is to say, folly.

Therefore, let those to be healed gaze long at that illness. What is it there for? What is your lesson? What shall you do? What shall you refrain from doing?

As one looks at the various modalities of healing we find that the question is: “What is the best healing, and how is it done?” has its answer. There is no one definite way. It is unique to the healer and to the patient that that relationship may open the heart in a certain way and may give the entity who is to be healed the opportunity to choose, which it had always, but was not aware that it was allowed to have.

Often times those who are sick in a way which seems to people serious, they are concerned for the wellness, concerned for the providing, concerned for the future, gazing back into the past and saying, “Did I cause my own cancer?”, for instance. These are only distractions. Although it may seem grossly selfish, if an entity wishes to heal from a disease and understands the cause of that disease, not that it may be healed from it and does no longer need it, then it must focus upon the Light and the Love that surround it, that permeates every cell, that is the Wisdom of the body. To surrender to this one point of wisdom of the body is to be very difficult for many who wish to help because the well or healthy one experiences helplessness and an inability to change the situation and thereby sees the illness as a terrible weakness. However, the time for self-judgement or the time for worrying is specifically not when one is ill and attempting to progress well into health. Turn off the music in the ears that would irritate, the musical voices that speak disparagingly of one thing or another. Tune out all but that which is of help. And if there is no help to be found in a person, then let that person to be healed surrender.

Now Q’uo spoke about the one to be healed and said that if at some level the entity does not desire to be healed, perhaps because of not having learned certain lessons from the Higher Self that are manifesting as a certain disease, that that is acceptable. Q’uo said that there may be blockages in one of the lower chakras that are keeping energy from moving into the heart. Q’uo went on to say that the red-ray energy center of sexual activity and being comfortable within one’s body is necessary for the energies of the Creator to move into the orange-ray center of the serenity of interpersonal relationships, and then the yellow ray of societal relationships to be sure that all blockages are removed regarding the desire to control or to be controlled. Then Q’uo said that blockages in any of these lower energy centers can cause a disease that is related to one or more of the blockages that will need healing. Then, when this healing is completed, the heart is opened to the love of the great healer of Love and Wisdom that is in every cell of the healer’s body, and, through the prayerful connection between the healer and the patient, healing is accomplished. Q’uo continued by saying that, in general, the one to be healed should ask itself what the lessons are that need to be learned, and then the healing modality that is felt to be most appropriate to be used be chosen so that the one to be healed may surrender to the Light and Love that is in every cell of the body as was possible when the connection made from the healer’s body to the patient’s body. On November 6, 1994, Q’uo spoke about how the one to be healed may utilize various healing modalities to aid in its own healing process:

There are many tools, as you have put it, that are available to an entity for the finding of the wholeness within. There are, for example, the uses of meditation, contemplation, the prayerful attitude, which are most helpful in preparing the entity for healing. There is the examined life, shall we say, that looks at the need for healing and sees many behaviors, perceptions, thoughts and attitudes, which flow from the distorted being that is in need of healing. These behaviors and attitudes may be worked upon by the conscientious seeker to bring them into a balanced state. The entity may seek the healing catalysis from one of your medical profession that may utilize any number of healing modalities that themselves become tools for the healing to occur.

The entity, in the long run, shall we say, will rely upon an inner faith that will take form in whatever manner has meaning to the entity. This faith will then provide a channel, or a doorway, through which the healing efforts of others may move into the life pattern of the one to be healed. Thus, you may find that there are many, many tools available to an entity seeking healing, yet the attitude of this entity and its ability to exercise its own faith, coupled with the entity’s work in consciousness focused upon its own patterns of thought and behavior, are those tools which are most efficacious in this healing process.

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This morning I did my weekly vacuuming of the first floor of my home. Then I went outside and dug up another cart full of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted them into the Moss Garden.

This afternoon I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to pick up some food for myself. When I got home I dug up another load of moss and planted it in the Moss Garden.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 22

Your Inner And Outer Universe

I am the spirit of the living Christ. I greet you in the name of Jesus the Christ, in the full consciousness of divine love.

We ask you to consider your environment at this moment. Each of the stars in your night sky careens in perfect balance along its cosmic track and about your sun your planet travels in that self-same regularity, all elements harmonizing into the divine plan which affords opportunity that spiritual consciousness may grow in you.

Contemplate, within, that universe of cells which makes up each organ and member of your physical body. Know and feel the utter harmony and regularity of those infinitesimal galaxies as in their whirling they create bases for that energy field which you experience as a living body.

Is any member or organ of that body seemingly out of harmony? If so, allow the spirit to offer instruction as, in your knowing and inner faith, in a deep way, you speak to your own body, telling it of the wonder and perfection of the creation of the Father.

Each of you has within you the means whereby to call bodily, mental, emotional and spiritual harmony to you. If such be your need this day, do so and be merry, resting in the vibrant peace of the Father.

We leave you in that peace, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 28, 1991:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. We would take this opportunity in speaking through this instrument to offer ourselves to further queries at this time. Is there a query to which we may speak?

Carla: I have a question [inaudible] from Susan [inaudible] her situation. First of all I would [inaudible].

[Side one of tape ends.]

Carla: [Inaudible]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We cannot answer this query, for it is that which infringes upon the free will. We are, as always, sorry that we cannot speak in a way which seems to be of the immediate comfort, for we know that you and many like you upon your planet are suffering from distortions of mind and body which cause pain and discomfort. And there is much desire to be able, if not to be free from such, then to treat such so that there is at least a modicum of comfort. The comfort that we have to offer is a comfort that is not of the mundane world, but that undergirding reality which supports all creation, that Thought of Love of the one Creator that expresses Itself in your illusion in a manner which is mysterious and elusive.

We are aware of the confusions and the frustrations that attend attempting to penetrate the mystery of your illusion, and we can only commend your continued efforts in this regard. For by persisting in your seeking in the face of all the difficulties which you encounter, you bring yourself to the peak of the Creator, humbled in worship of the might and the majesty that can create a universe that contains the stars, the planets, all the galaxies revolving in their time and in their turn, along with all of the energies of your life pattern that move about you as do the planets move about the stars.

There are those experiences of difficulty which you face which seem at times overwhelming and which seem to be beyond any comprehension according to purpose or plan. We can only assure you that there is much purpose in the suffering within your illusion. For suffering done in service to others and in the name of the one Creator is a kind of tempering of the spirit that strengthens and crystallizes this means by which the Creator may be known and may shine through your being.

Is there another query to which we may attempt a response?

Carla: Yes, a couple more [inaudible]. I have observed in my eating, not preferences, but in what is easiest for me to eat in that I am not able to eat very much solid food. If I can make this choice for myself of what to eat it would be all liquid or partially liquid or whatever. I realize you can’t give me a diet, but, in general, gazing at someone with longstanding difficulties, could you confirm that the intelligent thing to do would be to eat even more sparingly, and even more sparingly until an equilibrium is reached?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We are aware that your intuitive capabilities allow you to discern those foodstuffs that are available to you that would be most easily assimilated by your body. And we would recommend that you utilize this intuitive capacity in the greatest degree during this time of difficulty for your digestive tract. We would recommend that there be a variety of foodstuffs, as great as possible, in whatever form, be it solid or liquid, that you ingest, in order that your body be given as much opportunity to take from those foodstuffs that which was offered and that which it needs.

The human body has a great deal of ability to utilize foods in the most appropriate manner. However, there is a certain variety that is necessary in order to allow the body to find those ingredients which are most helpful to it in whatever its given condition. Thus, we do not recommend one kind of diet that is liquid or solid, over the other. Rather, the blending of these in a fashion which feels to you to be appropriate according to the time and condition of your body.

Carla was having difficulty eating solid foods and wanted to know if it might be better for her to eat mostly liquids and perhaps even less food altogether. Q’uo suggested that Carla continue to use her intuition as to what foods to eat, and they said that a greater variety, whether solid or liquid, would be helpful as this variety would allow her body to get the nutrients that it needed. In 83.28, Ra made similar suggestions:

We offer the following, not to infringe upon your free will, but because this instrument has specifically requested information as to its maintenance and the support group does so at this querying. We may suggest that the instrument has two areas of potential distortion, both of which may be aided in the bodily sense by the ingestion of those things which seem to the instrument to be desirable. We do not suggest any hard and fast rulings of diet although we may suggest the virtue of the liquids. The instrument has an increasing ability to sense that which will aid its bodily complex. It is being aided by affirmations and also by the light which is the food of the density of resting.

We may ask the support group to monitor the instrument as always so that in the case of the desire for the more complex proteins that which is the least distorted might be offered to the bodily complex which is indeed at this time potentially capable of greatly increased distortion.

Is there another query my sister?

Carla: Yes. I realize that I’m not the only channel who’s ever been told that my body is weak [inaudible] and that if I continue channeling it will shorten my life. I’m also aware that in each of the cases of which we’ve heard both channels chose to continue the work. I realize that there is much to be said for the wisdom of being, and not attempting to add to the productivity. But I find it impossible to grapple with intellectually, and consequently to move into my heart, with a feeling of real worth in just being, instead of doing.

I was thinking, for instance, this evening and tomorrow of going to do more exercise and yet I have heard Ra say before, “You do not need the pain, you only need the limitation,” which would suggest that I accept the limitation of being on my bed all the time. Yet it has only been since I have been on my bed all the time that my stomach troubles have become more threatening, and I feel that there is a delicate balance there between the desire to live longer and the very way of living longer being an instrument which will lead to a shorter length anyway.

So, basically if you have an observations on that, in other words, exercise seems to be a fighting against my limitations. And, indeed, it does usually, if I am successful, enlarge my arena of possibility of action. If I do not attempt to go beyond my limitations at this point, I will be bedfast except for my walks, which may or may not shorten my life, simply because of the diseases or illnesses or whatever is, I think, the result of not exercising. Mainly the difficulty with the digestive tract. I can’t think my way through this. If you have any comments whatsoever I’d appreciate them.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Again, we find ourselves in the position of not being able to give a specific response, for the confusion which you express is that particular condition which is a product, or shall we say the precursor of the exercise of free will. We are aware of your confusion, we are aware of your concern, and we can only recommend that you follow that which you feel is most important to you at this time, whether or not it is that which has been recommended previously. Follow that which wells up within you as the greatest desire amongst all your desires. Follow it to its completion, observe again, choose again. Whatever wisdom has been shared with you previously will prove itself or not by your own experience.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: Only how could I better serve the Creator?

I am Q’uo. We do not find a better possible, for each here in this dwelling place attempts to serve in every way possible. We instead would recommend the compassion that is given to the self by the self in order that that vehicle that you offer to the Creator as your means of glorification of the Creator, namely your very self, might be nurtured in a manner that would allow it to bloom to its fullest extent as a flower in a field, providing the beauty and aroma to the Creator according to the nature of its beingness.

For all the work that you do in your life pattern is that which adds to the beauty and the fragrance that is yours as a flower in this field. The work itself is not that which is of importance, though you are aware that many have expressed gratitude at the work which you have accomplished. However, it is not the work that is important, it is the enhancing of your own beingness as you seek to serve that is important. Your work in this illusion is a means toward that end and we commend each for the great dedication and sincerity with which service to other selves and to the Creator is attempted. We suggest that you appreciate yourself. The acceptance of self by self is that which builds the firmest foundation for any other service that may be offered.

Now Carla asked how she could better serve the Creator, and Q’uo replied that she should give more compassion to her self so that it could be nurtured as a flower in the field to provide her own beauty and lovely aroma as a means of enhancing the nature of her beingness, and then she should accept her self as this would provide the most stable foundation for all other of her services. On May 1, 1994, Q’uo described the benefits of self-acceptance:

Thusly, to move from tolerance to celebration of others, the first challenge is to begin to perceive the self within this larger view which does not judge but rather uses energy in a positive and creative manner, in self-acceptance, self-forgiveness and self-empowerment. To keep faith, continue in hope and do all such good works as open before the eyes. When this has been perceived as a goal towards which to move, then it is that the self becomes able to extend this charity to other selves.

Is there another query my sister?

Carla: No. As I search my mind I see that any questions I would ask you would have to say that [inaudible] unable to answer because of free will so I just thank you for coming to [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister, for the dedication to service that your queries indicate. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I do have one last query which I’d almost forgotten. I repeatedly get mail from people who explain to me that I am very unhealthy and that something within me, by my own decision, has caused me to remain unwell, and I’m holding onto it and if I let go of it, I will become well. I don’t defend myself against people like this, there’s nothing to defend. On the other hand, I don’t precisely know how to thank someone who has spent large amounts of time attempting to change me around so that I will be well, when in my own perception of myself, given my birth defects, my very, very bad sickness at the age of two, rheumatic fever when I was thirteen, all the things that have gone wrong with me since, I see myself as one of the most healthy, tough human beings in the world. I’ve survived all that. So, my vision of myself is a very well, whole person. I do not know how to say this to people without causing them to feel that somehow, they haven’t gotten across to me my own wrongness and the error of my ways. And I have no wish to quarrel with anyone. Is there a more skillful way to deal with this sort of attitude towards wellness than I have so far discovered?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. You may respond to each such entity as you have responded to us if you wish to go into the same amount of detail with each entity as you have at this time expressed. There is no need for the defense for each is as he or she is, and each entity will in time discover that there are situations which confound and perplex each entity. That the old ways of approaching a problem with solution fail. That there is mystery all about and that there will be suffering, bringing forth the questions, “For what end?” and “How best to respond?”

Each shall face these challenges again and again, for your illusion is one of challenge. You are here to be challenged. It is challenging to live in a manner which does not directly partake of the immediacy of unity and seems to be cut off, each entity separate from the other. You may assure each that you are aware of the value of their suggestion, that you have valued that concept enough to have considered it carefully a number of times in your experience, and that you find that there is mystery and that you feel you share this mystery with all. And that sometimes there is the confusion that surpasses all efforts, and that this also is that which is to be treasured, accepted, and worked with in the most loving and harmonious way possible.

Now Carla described how, over the years, many people had told her that her lack of health was because of some way of her process of thinking that, if she let go of it, would restore her health. She felt that she had survived so many illnesses that she was actually very tough, and she didn’t know how to thank people for these thoughts without seeming to argue with them. Q’uo replied that she could either go into the detail with these people as she had done in her question, or she could simply say that sometimes everyone will experience a problem of health that can’t be explained and will simply be a mystery that must be lived with as each of us is here to be challenged, and these challenges should be treasured and accepted. On June 25, 1989, Oxal described how challenges are a part of the nature of our incarnations:

Thus, the individual point of view is that which is of paramount importance in any situation, for each incarnational pattern will contain the challenges and the resources to meet those challenges, and each incarnational pattern will have the potential to increase the intensity of the experience if that is the desire of each entity involved. That each moves through your illusion as a function of the exercise of free will is of primary importance, for some there are that prefer one type of lesson over another; some there are who prefer greater intensity to lesser intensity. Yet each chooses freely to engage in that which it is felt will be of the most assistance in both the learning of those lessons which are placed before the entity and in the providing of services to others as a function of giving of that which has been learned.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, I truly am through now. Thank you so much, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I’d like to ask on M’s behalf that if physical people looked at her in a [inaudible] way, in a scary way, were in any way different from the metaphysical or dream type psychic greetings which come to many in the process of initiation, was there something special about these being actual physical people, or was it simply a matter of one person’s character or personality being such that that was the best [inaudible] of teaching [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To those who work for the spreading of the light upon the surface of your planet, there shall be attracted those entities and energies which are desirous of controlling that light or, if necessary, to put that light out. Most of these entities are of what you would call the discarnate or unseen nature. However, they are able to work their efforts through a variety of means so that they might utilize incarnate entities with certain mental and emotional distortions that fit their purposes for a specific working. Thus, all is seen by such a negatively-orientated discarnate entity as a tool or target of opportunity that may be pursued at a specific time and in a certain way according to the desires of the negatively-orientated entity.

Thus, such entities may utilize other incarnate entities, the circumstances of a certain pattern of activities, the various distortions of the mind/body/spirit complex of the entity that is being greeted, and so forth. Thus, there is much interweaving of effort of such negatively-orientated entities, as there is the same kind of interweaving of effort by those entities of a positively nature which also seek to aid, as they are called, and to guide as is possible.

Here Carla asked a question for M and wanted to know if physical people looked at her in a scary way were they any different than metaphysical people or dream-type of psychic greetings? Q’uo replied by saying that when a person is spreading light upon Earth there are negatively-oriented entities that may utilize incarnate entities to offer psychic greetings to one such as M to either control that light or to put it out. In 80.6, Ra spoke of this process:

Questioner: What would our fifth-density visitor hope to gain for himself if he were to be successful in terminating this contact?

Ra: I am Ra. As we have previously stated, the entity hopes to gain a portion of that light; that is, the mind/body/spirit complex of the instrument. Barring this, the entity intends to put out the light.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: [Inaudible]

I am Q’uo, and we thank you yet again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as it appears that we have completed the queries for this session of working, we would take this opportunity to thank each present for inviting our presence in this circle of seeking this afternoon, as you term it. We are most grateful to be able to blend our vibrations with yours and to walk with you yet a few steps further upon your journey of seeking. Your journey and our journey is one journey that does not partake, strictly speaking, of time or space, yet is that which always continues, for always does the One seek Itself through the many, and always do the many seek the One through every breath, word, and step that is taken.

We are known to you as those of Q’uo. We leave you at this time in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I went outside and removed the fence from around the spirea bush garden and put it over the daylily patch on the south side of the garage to protect them from the deer.  Then I put the poles that had been holding the fence in the garage. I also made a small circular fence about a foot in diameter and four feet tall and put it around the area in the spirea garden where the Ironweed grows each year to protect it from the deer.

This afternoon I went outside and dug up two more loads of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted them into the Moss Garden. I am now at about the half way point in the Moss Garden. Then I went down to Kort Physical Therapy for another session to see if the therapist can help me deal with the back pain that has returned after two months absence. She gave me a variety of tests to test my leg strength and flexibility, and she asked a lot of questions about the pain that I experienced Sunday when I did my stretching exercises. She had no answers about why the pain came back, so she asked me to go through my stretching exercises just to see what would happen. Amazingly enough, I didn’t feel any pain after doing them, so I will continue to do them, including the forward stretches that caused the pain, and see how it works out.  

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 21

The Building Block Of Faith

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ.

I greet you in the full consciousness of love divine, unending and eternal.

How brave an instrument who admits it needs the practice! How brave any seeking entity who admits the need for constant improvement, for constant mindfulness, and for constant seeking.

How firm the faith of one who knows that the gift of the spirit of Jesus the Christ is given to those who are humble as dust before it. Such humility will not be scattered to the winds. Such humility cannot be trampled upon. Such humility is the building block of faith. Such determination is the foundation of will.

Let each day be a day in which you are prostrate before the infinite love of Jesus the Christ. For it was in humility to the physical death that Jesus the Christ expressed love, not in bragging or boasting but in opening the self completely to the will of the one God of all.

Open yourself to that will. Be humble as dust before it. Yet know that you carry it within you, if you are mindful of it.

Let your light shine through your humility; through your humanity; through the ashes of the life of the mundane world. Heaven may shine through your eyes! The kingdom is that near!

Yet the kingdom shall never shine through the eyes of one who boasts that he knows of the kingdom and has no more to learn. Be humble and faithful and bow before the Lord God, that, as you rise, you may shine with the eternal light of unity, love and peace.

We leave you in the eternal love and peace of Jesus the Christ, now and forever. May you be saved by an awareness of this holy love. Peace be with you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 28, 1991:

M has a couple of questions. One concerns an experience she had for about nine months in 1990 where she felt that her spiritual body was separate or apart from her physical body. She could see as the observer in her spiritual body that it was observing the things that were happening to her physical body, was like a 3-year-old child having a lot of people’s negative emotions and difficulties thrown upon it, visited upon it, and she felt like the spiritual body was more an observer and was not in close contact. She would like to know if this is something that could be commented upon and what kind of comments you would make upon that, and then if perhaps there might be any relationship between what is happening to light workers, such as M, and what is happening in the world as far as the metaphysical evolution of our planet is concerned. Is there a comment you could make upon how our planet is evolving, and are there particular times that we experience certain changes in our vibratory rates that can be pinpointed, say, next January 11, is there some kind of time framework that has meaning for us. Can you comment at all upon the changes occurring on the planet and how they are occurring and when they occur?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet you in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. We thank you for this blessing of calling to us for this wisdom which is not at all infallible, but seems wise only to those who have not yet come to where we are. But we assure you that we have very much further to go in our own development, and would not wish any word of ours to be a stumbling block for any who may listen. Therefore, discriminate in our source as in all sources, that your personal truth be remembered and recognized by you so that you may live the life that you hoped to live.

Let us speak about the visualizations of the child and the adult and the observer in the dreamlike state of being out of one’s own body, and seeing this child also, not only out of its mental body, but its physical one as well. Gaze at this child’s eyes, for this child is your spiritual self. Gaze in compassion on the hardships and the difficulties of being a young entity, for no matter how very hard one tries as a newborn soul, one cannot exert its will in order to make itself comfortable or warm.

Now, as you gaze at the observer, look at the observer and ask what relationship this observer has to the self. We would be going beyond our boundaries of free will were we to solve this riddle for you, but can only say to you that, indeed, you saw a symbol of that which was occurring in heaven, occurring, the making of hardship for the spiritual self because of the feelings and emotions of the physical self.

Each entity has many roles: the observer, the audience, the critic, the players, those who paint the scenery, those who work the lights. And all these parts of you are still all of you, so that all that any seeker does is inevitably seen at last in the mirror of the self. When the physical third-density animal which carries an entity’s consciousness is not loved by the self or others, is not shown to be beautiful by the self or by others, there is a slowing down of the energies of the self. Consequently, the observer may note the entity upon the floor, very weak, very weary, very saddened, and completely at a loss as to what may be done better when one’s best has already been done. And as you gaze at that situation, and as each gazes at such situations, we ask each to ask forgiveness from the self, for within you there is that critic that will not give the self its rightful place as a wonderful instrument through which each is learning the laws and the ways of love.

If this spirit child casts itself in vision in an inner plane to some distance from its own physical selfhood, its own womb, it is expressing a hunger and a thirst for love. And is there not in each of us not only the spiritual child but the human third-density child—or for us, various densities, but still children—that yearn for attention and love and respect and care.

The first question that M had concerned how she felt that her spiritual body, or observer, was outside of her physical body and observing it as if it were a 3-year old child that was absorbing negative emotions from those around it, and she wanted Q’uo’s comments on her experience. Q’uo began their comments by suggesting that M look at her adult self, her child self, and the observer. They said that her child self was out of its body, and if she looked at its eyes she would see her spiritual self, and she should have compassion on it because on its own it could not make itself comfortable. Q’uo said she should look at her physical self and see the difficulties it was making for the spiritual self, the 3-year old infant. They said that when this 3-year old physical self was not appreciated it became weak, weary, and saddened and did not know how to better its situation, so it is now necessary for M to ask forgiveness from the self because the inner critic that does not see the beauty of the self as an instrument learning the ways of love. Q’uo said that in each person there is the spiritual child and the third-density child that yearns for respect and love. On June 12, 1994, Q’uo suggested this same love be given to the spiritual child:

It is well, then, to strive to be your best, but far better, when you feel you have not given your absolute best, to realize the value of that which you have given and to take any thought which may be self-critical and turn it so that the other side of that thought shows that side wherein you take to yourself the self within which feels imperfect, and allow the love of the infinite Creator to flow through you into this spiritual child, for each of you within this illusion is a spiritual infant.

The awakened spirit makes many cries, yet it needs so much given to it, like any infant. Is the infant’s job, then, to be wise? We suggest rather that it is your job as the caretaker of your own consciousness always to offer mercy, kindness, and unconditional love as you perceive it in all conditions and situations, as best as you can. The imperfection you perceive is literally true, yet it hides the infinite perfection which lies beyond appearance.

It is most common that one who is seeking with utmost might, in the main, moves quickly to the heart to begin doing work in consciousness when this occurs and for an entity who has not yet balanced the energies that move below the heart chakra into it, there will be some blockage of energy and a mismatch between the energy of the spiritual self and the energies that are coming in because of the request of that spiritual self, because one needs to live that which one has learned. It is most often the case that the one who too quickly undertakes the higher spiritual, almost discarnate skills, of devotion, may well have been leaving behind a neglected body, an unloved body, and without the knowledge to do any other, the neglect of the spirit child within which was born in each entity when each entity first chose to seek the truth with all of his heart.

The experience of being outside of one’s own physical body is, in the strict sense of the available data on your plane, common. However, this vision was not given simply that you may see that there is a spiritual child and, indeed, a child, a simple human child, that was not given what it needed, that was hurt when it should not have been hurt, that was helpless to fight against or to balance the pain of living. And as long as this child remains within, the spiritual child has a great deal of difficulty growing because it is the child within that chooses not to love the self, not to love others, and not to love this that you call Earth.

So, in dealing with this clear memory we would encourage the swelling of compassion. Allow the upsurge of compassion for this child. No harm was meant, no evil or sin was committed, but only a simple unknowing, a simple ignorance of how very special, and how very helpless, the child within is.

We do not mean to suggest that those who have not become aware that there is an unhappy and grasping child within who constantly wishes reassurance should drop all that they do and pay attention to this child. The childhood of the body is now past. That child that was abused is no longer, for that which is occurring occurs now and for the first time.

Now, when a baby is born it is most important to nurture it, to feed it, to hold and jiggle it on the lap, so gently cradling it in the arms, sending it love, letting it feel the beat of your heart. So, without saying a word do you love that little child, and in general we would, in our opinion, advise each to see and recognize first that the human child must be balanced before spiritual work can be done safely. And secondly that the spiritual child that is, in Christian terminology, born anew through love of the Creator equally deserves nurturing, this protection. For when an entity is young even the smallest tree blown over upon it can hurt it, even the tiniest tripping, so many things can harm and hinder the spirit within from its growth.

So, in terms of those who realize the infancy of themselves as spiritual beings, to take that infant and cradle it in the heart, to protect it, to nurture it, to honor and respect and support it. For this child is more truly who you are than the entity which you see in the mirror, and it is in this density that this spiritual child makes its most important and its first choice, a choice for love or a choice for fear. Let the environment of your spiritual child be such that there is no fear, but only love, and you shall have done your utmost to nurture your own spiritual evolution, not simply in this density but in the infinity of destinies that await the seeker.

As we leave this image it is well to thank the observer for the observer has seen what the eye could not see but what the heart can understand, and by this vision has given a picture, an image of the beauty of the perfect child within. Be maternal and fierce in your protectiveness. Do not offer these beautiful gifts that you have to those who do not ask. But simply move through your days honoring Christ consciousness, honoring love, and honoring that child within you which is the metaphysical being which is truly yourself.

Then Q’uo said that when we move too quickly into the work in consciousness of the heart chakra, we may be leaving behind the balancing work in the lower chakras that would make our spiritual child feel accepted and supported. They said that M was given this vision of being outside of her body to show how the physical child was not given aid in balancing its pain of living, so the spiritual child has difficulty growing because the physical child does not love itself, others, or the Earth. They said that M should give this physical child love. Q’uo said that this physical child must be balanced before spiritual work can be done, and then the spiritual child is born anew through the love of the Creator, and then it has the chance to make the choice between love and fear. They said that if M could provide an environment of love for her spiritual child, she would be aiding her own spiritual evolution through this density and all higher densities. Q’uo completed their response by saying that M should simply move through her days honoring the Christ consciousness, honoring love, and honoring that child within her which is the metaphysical being which is truly herself. On July 16, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the Christ consciousness:

The seeker may turn to those sources of inspiration that are found in your literature which record the voices of those seekers of your past who have traveled this same trail and left records that illustrate the reality of their faith and of faith that might be found by others of their kind on similar journeys. One may look to such sources for a kind of inspiration that speaks to a deeper portion of the self that is beyond the confinement of your narrow, walled illusion and which vibrates in recognition of the truth when it is heard by these voices who have traveled the same journey.

Thus, the inspiration of others may speak to that spark of the self that we have called the Christ Consciousness and in which the still, silent moments of reflection and contemplation and meditation and prayerful attention cause a feeling of purpose and goodness and direction to well up from within and bolster, shall we say, the faith that has been nurtured by much experience through each seeker.

We turn now to the question of psychic greeting and the movement from our first topic to the topic of psychic greeting is organic, in that the difficulties posed in the first question are some of the causes of a lack of protection in doing spiritual work. That is, that the lower energies, the energies of sexuality and survival, the energies of relationships with yourself, with other people one at a time, and your relationships with all the groups in your society, all of these things have been in many cases pushed aside, perhaps placed in boxes and tucked away in the attic of yourself. But these do not stay in the attic. These rags and bones climb back down the stairs and back down into the lower energies and recreate the blockage. These blockages are not to be overcome, they are not wrong, they are simply unbalanced, as if instead of standing on the fulcrum of a seesaw you were to stand to one side or to another and the whole side would go down.

Each energy expresses itself uniquely through each unique entity, so the balance in each ray for one is not necessarily the balance for another. The job of the seeker is constantly to attempt to keep those energy [inaudible] clear in whatever way the entity has learned. It is especially so in orange-ray difficulties, where not only does the entity have things about himself which he sincerely dislikes, but is being bombarded by others who also have a sincere dislike, distrust or fear of the entity.

The difficulty of doing profound and high reaching work in consciousness is always going to be apparent. For when there is true light generated, attention is drawn to that light, and there are those forces who wish to…

[Telephone rings. Pause.]

I am Q’uo, and greet you again in love and light. Pardon us for the interruption.

When one has a great desire to be of service and wishes to work with powerful energies, one well may not know that it is not in balance. It may well feel that it is in balance, but that is the human cerebral, intellectual judgment, not the wisdom of the heart. So, it is always well to ask the heart, “What is the work I must do upon myself this day to be in line with the will of the one infinite Creator?” And insofar as this question is not asked and higher energies are brought forth while the heart itself is constricted somewhat in its energy flow, there will be illness or nightmares or hallucinations or a conviction that a contact has been made that is indeed a negative one which is passing itself off as a positive one.

So, instead of moving quickly past those lower charkas, those who aspire to being holy among men must look first to the most common, mundane and everyday things for that is where holiness begins, that is where transcendence and courage begin. As you arise in the morning and when you look at yourself you think, “Oh, what a pretty face,” instead of, “Oh dear, I don’t want to look in the mirror.” It is that simple. It is a matter of opening your heart to yourself, to others, and to the society. It is easier to do each time that you fail, because each time that you perceive within yourself that you have failed and make the subjective judgment that may not at all be true, it nevertheless teaches you the way in which you are to go, the way in which you wish to live a righteous life. So, there can be no mistakes. You cannot feel guilty. You cannot feel truly a failure in anything because all things whatsoever in the mundane world are also holy.

So, the first requirement of one who wishes to do higher work is to fall in love with the self. Not in a selfish way but in a way of recognizing that within that strange body that the consciousness carries about lives a wonderful, everlasting and perfect spark of infinite light. If you denigrate yourself to some extent you also repulse the light that is within you and tell it to back away from you because you cannot see it. So, we stress to those who wish to do positive work in consciousness the valuing and the hallowing of mundane and earthly tasks, for all things are of service and nothing is to be thought better than another way of service.

It very often does happen that when an entity skips through the lower chakra work and moves directly into the invocation of names and the evocation of power, that one may contain far more wisdom than it can possibly express. Consequently, the entity will in some way express the discomfort that it has put upon itself because it asks of itself those things for which it does not have the power. It is always well then in all work to ask to give the highest and best of which you are capable in a stable manner. In a manner which can be held steady for an indefinite length of time.

In other words, it is not necessary to make a brand new self to breathe the Creator. The Creator is already with you and loves you already and does not need you to be more beautiful, but needs only the beauty which you now are at this moment. And most of the beauty is seen in terms of intention and desire. The intention to help, the desire to help, the desire to be closer to the one infinite Creator, and to know true love. These desires are precious and are treasures to be held close to you, for these are the desires of the young physical child within. When you open carelessly—by ignorance, usually, not by design—the energies overwhelm the self as it is, energies which cannot be held stably in the daily life, that cannot be brought back into the work, the ordeal and the joy of living. Then that entity is simply opening itself more and more to the possibility of difficulties occurring, whatever they may be. And in each case where this happens, we ask each first to forgive the self for doing this, for the self did not know and was not aware, but was only attempting its very, very best. And that attempt is what is noted, not the degree of success or failure, but that the intention was pure and persistent and as full of joy and laughter as possible.

Now Q’uo spoke to the question of the cause of psychic greetings by saying that it is necessary for the spiritual seeker to be aware of the lower chakras of sexuality and survival for the red chakra, one-to-one relationships and personal eccentricities for the orange chakra, and working in groups for the yellow chakra so that any blockages there are worked with and balanced. Q’uo went on to say that one cannot intellectually determine if these chakras are in balance, but this information can be obtained by asking one’s heart where there is work to be done. They said that if this work is not done, and the energies of higher chakras are brought forth while the heart is constricted, there could be illness, nightmares, or contact with negative entities. Q’uo suggested that it is necessary to do the basic work of the lower chakras in order to fall in love with one’s self and see the self as a perfect and infinite spark of light. Then Q’uo said that we should always try to share our energies in the highest manner that we can stably achieve by our intentions and our desires to serve others and to know the love of the Creator. On July 5, 1981, Hatonn described the love of the Creator:

My sister, we would answer you by saying that to seek the love of the infinite Creator in each moment of your life is the greatest service and the greatest learning that can be accomplished upon your plane, for it is the lesson of this dimension to discover the love of the Creator within all that is experienced within the self, within the life, within the family, within the community, within each activity, each experience, and there is, shall we say, an infinite amount of time to discover this love.

We would, at this time, wish to transfer this contact to the one know as Jim, if this entity desires contact at this time. We thank this instrument and leave it in love and light. We are of the principle of Q’uo.

This morning I went outside and put some netting over the area of the Wuthering Heights Mound in the front yard where Hosta grow to protect them from the deer. Then I went to my barber in Middletown to get a haircut.

This afternoon I dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted it into the Moss Garden. Then I used my trimmer to go around the gardens and trim away weeds that were growing in various locations.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 20

Run With Love

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full and divine consciousness that is love.

How shall the Holy Spirit appear to you this day? What are your needs? For as you express and inwardly feel those spiritual needs, so is the spirit called to appear, to strengthen, to comfort, and to enable.

Is it energy and will that you need? Then experience the force that produces these words as flames of divine and enabling fire, energizing and enlivening.

Must you run the straight race very quickly today? Must you hasten and hurry? Crowd your day, then, but open your heart that love may run with you; that love may hasten and hurry and worry and fret in comfortable companionship with that state of mind you choose for yourself.

Are you in grief, in sorrow, and in despair? Call, then and open within to the divine Comforter, to the nurturer and lover of all souls.

There is no condition in which the spirit of love cannot enter and heal. There is no activity in which the spirit of divine love and compassion cannot enable, enliven and strengthen.

The spirit of love is an active, plastic, malleable, universal expression of the absolute presence of divine love in each soul, everywhere, always, in every moment.

May you find peace that you are not alone, be you hastening, resting or weeping. Always there is the Comforter.

We leave you in this reassurance, this knowledge, of love and peace unending. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from September 22, 1991:

The day before fall, a season ends, a new one begins. Our question is the same. We had a season of a threesome together here for a time. It seems, if we look in subjective terms, that there might have been a failure in the effort that the three of us put forth in this forming of a group to be of service for the life pattern. But, we would like to know from you at this time how you would look at a situation such as ours where three people come together with the desire to be of service to others and may have certain goals in mind of a specific nature that would allow them to consciously define for themselves the effort as being a success. First of all could you comment upon that type of a definition of a success, and could you also comment upon how we can move from this point where we are working more individually, with K moving on her own to study those things of herself that are necessary for her to continue on her journey, and how we remaining here, Carla and I, work on our own to do that which is ours to do.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle of Q’uo. We greet you through this instrument in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. We see you as you call to us with a sorrow of life upon your hearts, with the heavy burdens of living upon your back, with the stress and the confusion and the turmoil and the great inner travail of growth to which you have committed yourselves spiritually, causing you ever to feel uncomfortable. We see within this group those who would prefer to be uncomfortable and seek the truth, and we can only share with you our blessings to you as you search for that truth as you share with us the blessing of allowing us to speak with you in an attempt to be of some service, always knowing that our opinions are but as nothing compared to the overarching mystery and truth which we in poor, tattered [inaudible], dance and strut upon our stages, miming and acting and singing and dancing and telling pretty stories, and doing anything we can think of to alert people who are ready to awaken to a new search for truth, that faculty of awareness of the mystery that lies between, around, above, beneath and beyond all things, the mystery that is in fact you, each of you and each of us.

We are aware that you wish to know at this time what some of the dynamics are which cause completely sincere seekers of the truth who wish to band together to be of service sometimes work and sometimes not, in the critical subjective evaluations of each of you. We can begin by asking each of you to gaze at the moment of commitment to this task. Much emphasis has been placed upon promises given and commitments made. But we ask each of you, in all earnestness, when each of you first said, “I commit myself to a life of service in this particular way called L and L,” was there some special, permanent, unusual commitment, a commitment that took you from your humanity and made you into some entity with no capacity to do anything but keep that commitment? We ask you to look at this question very carefully. Can you not see, my friends, the absolute dedication of yourselves at that moment to the task of a lifetime, but the absolute ignorance, in that moment of dedication, of what sacrifices would have to be made to create a common path of service.

We of the Confederation in the Service of the One Infinite Creator, make such commitments and are able to keep them, because we are able to see, in a way that you are not, the harmonics of interpersonal relationships. We are able to see if there are tone clusters that can never be resolved. We are able to see if there is that within a twosome, a threesome, a foursome or a social memory complex that will hold, that will keep its center, that will not fly apart. My friends, each of you is a third-density student, regardless of what you were before you incarnated upon this planet. As you came into this world you accepted darkness, spiritual blindness, and an unknowing so deep that it beggars the imagination. The only tools that you have, and the only tools that you do have now or will ever have within this incarnation, are the spiritual biases with which you came into this incarnation, and which have been worked upon within this incarnation. You do have comrades along the way, but that service that you wish so much to give is being given. It is simply that there are some harmonious threesomes or foursomes in a third density and there are many who are not harmonious, as this instrument would say, to the bone, and so must deal with each other and find it very educational, shall we say, to learn to deal with each other, trusting entirely in the good wishes of each other, having no fears that any will be rejected and simply continuing to do that which feels appropriate, knowing that as the work did not begin because of an event which you have called contact with the one known as Ra, so it did not end with the ending of that contact. Your service did not begin with your birth and it shall not cease with your death.

The group question was how Carla, K, and I had come together to be of service to others, but now K was going on her way to continue her spiritual studies on her own. Carla and I wondered if we could call our time together with K a success or a failure, and what was the best way for us to move forward? Q’uo reminded us that when we committed ourselves to work with K for the benefit of L/L Research that we could not predict the sacrifices that would need to be made nor the outcome of this commitment. Then Q’uo said that we had incarnated into the darkness of the third density with the desire to be of service, and no matter what difficulties may occur along with way that that desire would remain throughout the rest of our incarnations and beyond them. On April 26, 1992, Q’uo described how the desire to serve others is fundamental on our spiritual journeys:

It is said that the uninformed desire to serve is, at its heart, foolish in nature, for it is not informed by what you would call wisdom, for wisdom is a lesson that is learned in a higher density after the lesson of compassion and love has been accomplished. It is necessary that the foundation of service be placed upon love, with wisdom refining it at a later time, in order that that quality which is strongest and most important in the seeking and serving of the Creator be emphasized and placed in its proper place.

As you become aware or informed by wisdom, it may be that your service becomes more effective, but until one has the pure heartfelt desire to serve and to offer oneself in service at each opportunity available, wisdom is useless. The desire to serve is that which begins the process in a manner which is, in the overall sense, most effective. That your service may or may not be effective according to your estimation from what you call “hindsight” is relatively unimportant. The important factor is that the desire is generated to serve. This desire is that which you have incarnated to find and to nourish as the seedling which later becomes the great oak.

What you have achieved is something we wish you to gaze upon now. There are many levels of achievement in learning to live together in peace. Each of you has been learning lessons of respect, of charity when one cannot understand yet one must accept, of the strengthening power of being firm in friendship against adversity and in being loyal against discomfort. Please see these beauties. For these blossoms, though painfully born and raised in some season of drought, are beautiful to the Creator. This threesome has accomplished much. It has brought into physical expression words which each intended would be of service not necessarily to them alone but to any who might read them. But the main service we ask you to look at is that which you have felt less than excellent about, and that is functioning as a trinity in this world of darkness and moonlight that you call life.

See yourselves in compassion at this moment. See with compassion the pain within you. All the pain about these relationships, see it and bless it for it has taught each of you much. Gaze at the unquenchable spirit of hope that’s shown when all else was dark at so many times within these relationships. Gaze at the courage that in blind faith you exhibited each, and working towards an ever higher goal of harmony together. Look at the adaptations and the flexibilities which troubled each of you in that you could not be flexible enough. Gaze and see what each entity is, who he is, and to deny that would be a far greater harm to you than to attempt to behave in such a way that there was apparent harmony. See this not as failure but as an honest effort, cheerfully and wholeheartedly given, with but a single mind between the three. And see that there are three pilgrims upon this path that shall always be safe places for each other. Within this incarnation, within this experience, within this illusion, the harmonics of the three gathered here today were extremely powerful, yet there was not the complete loosening of fear. There was always the feeling of some separation, and this was because it was necessary. These feelings of separation among those who seek to be one cannot be seen in terms of failure. It must be seen simply that it takes an enormous spiritual courage to attempt to offer a life to the Creator, especially one in the context of other entities. Always each has his own ways to be of service to the infinite One, and for many that path of service suffices and more than suffices for it is a sacrifice of a life in love. So that it matters not that which you do, but the spirit in which you do that which you do.

We ask you to take these heavy loads of things you feel left undone away from your shoulders. You do not need to carry them. Those were constructions you placed upon yourself. You planned to go backpacking and you chose a high mountain. And though the flowers of the meadows were beautiful in their alpine bloom, the air grew thinner, the temperature colder and the rocks, crevasses and cliffs ever more difficult to climb. There was not, within this threesome, that harmony which is a gift and which comes from before incarnation, that enabled each of the three to carry the other two. No, my friends, there were different lessons for each of you to learn. For becoming a social memory complex is not becoming an entire society made up of mates who are able to pull well together. In fourth density the situation which you observe at this moment continues to be observable, but the archetypical mind and the realizations of your mind and other minds are open to you in a far greater way than they are in the third density. Within fourth density, my friends, you still would be the one known as K, the one known as Jim and the one known as Carla. You still would have the same harmonics. The same ways of expressing and of not expressing. The same choices and the same disagreements as well as agreements. The difference is that these things would not distress you because you would see them as perfect, and you would see yourself as being able to harmonize in this way and in that, if not in all the other ways. You would see those opportunities that now, in third density, you have a tendency to lump in with all of those things which you feel you have not done correctly. Yet indeed, my friends, there has been great learning between the three that sit here.

Each has been trustworthy, each has given, and each has suffered. Feel this, respect this and honor this. Things that you do not see are always at work in you, and if you wish to glorify that mystery that is within you, then as these things work within you they work in such a way as to open the heart, to clear the eyes and the voice and the ears, to sensitize the heart to the wisdom it may feel but not explain. We ask you not to see any portion of this experience as beginning, middle or end. You did not begin, you are not ending. You have worked together before, you shall work together again. You have given the best of yourselves, you have done so before and you will in the future. You are comrades along the way.

Now Q’uo said that each of the three of us had accomplished much while we were together by being firm in our friendship as we faced adversity; we had channeled words of inspiration for seekers who might need them; and we had done this together within the darkness of the third density. Then Q’uo suggested that we look with compassion at the pain we shared when we could not be flexible enough to maintain our harmony, but we should also realize that we were always working together to achieve greater harmony and to be safe places for each other. They said that we should not see the fear that still remained between us and the separation that it caused as any kind of failure because each of us had offered ourselves in loving service to the Creator in our unique ways. Q’uo continued by saying that the three of us should not worry about work left undone because we had chosen a difficult path to travel together and each of us had different lessons to learn without the gift of the harmony that came before the incarnation, and I am assuming Q’uo was referring to the kind of harmony that Don, Carla, and I shared during our time together because of having worked together many times before this incarnation. They said that each of us had been trustworthy in our suffering, and that we should honor this and open our hearts to the mystery within us. They said that we had worked together before and would work together again. On April 2, 2000, Q’uo shared the value of opening our hearts to each other:

And, yet, we find that if we can move into that awareness that sees all entities and souls and all behavior as distortions of love, no matter how we feel about the actions involved we can continue to open our hearts and allow the love of the infinite Creator to flow through us and out into loving that distorted entity that is attempting to act negatively towards us. No matter how opaque the negative action may seem from the human standpoint, the rising to a level where all are seen as souls places the mind in a position which gives it the capacity to grasp that all is truly one, that all is truly well, and that all will truly be well.

Now I ask you to look in a slightly different way at the concept of being of service. The way entities feel that they are of service is the ways in which the counting may be done. The number of words offered as spiritual inspiration, the number of jobs completed so that others may see the published works that have been created. The gazing at the past and the gazing at the future for what can be done better to serve the Creator. What new things can be added to the pile and the quantity of things offered. My friends, we do not say to you that this is not only illusionary, but fruitless; that is not so. When one attempts to be of service to the infinite Creator, one is of service to the infinite Creator. That is in the eternal now. What we would ask each of you, and especially this instrument to consider, is where the service begins and where the service resides when something of quantity is not upon the center stage in the limelight. Are these words of service, or is it the personality and the determination of an entity to open itself to contact in the right manner for service? If these words were not here, would that careful tuning and intensity of seeking still be helpful? Yes, my friends, it would indeed. It would not be something that could be shown to the world, but many, many things have been shown to your world, and many, many complexities have arisen as entities attempt and strive more and more to study the truth so that the truth becomes more and more detailed, more and more complex, more and more studied. Do you truly see the greatest service that you offer adding to that pile of words, no matter how well intentioned or inspired?

Perhaps we can move to a slightly less quantitative kind of evaluation of service when we say to you what have you given of yourself? You have given the stewardship of time. You have spent time in seeking. You have spent that precious coin which can never be got again. Of the moments of service, of upliftment, of inspiration and above all in offering, in hoping, in begging in all of one’s heart to be of service in any way which the infinite Creator intends for you. Yes, you are still working with thoughts of quantity. You are still saying, “I gave this much time,” and so you know in a way that this too is hollow. Yet is it not closer to an honest evaluation of the self to say, “I gave of my being; I was not doing something else; I was doing this,” and as you say that of yourself, to yourself, the Creator within smiles. And in that joyful smile the universe is suddenly infinite, and you have transformed time into eternity.

But to move to the true value that you have been to each other, as well as the Creator and others for whom you intended the service, we ask you to look at who you are, what you have sacrificed to be with each other, what you have attempted with the best heart possible to you to offer. Soft words that have been spoken when harsh words filled the mouth and the mind. Trust that came from the heart while the mind was holding back saying, “I am afraid.” You have been courageous with each other. You have trusted. You have gone beyond that which you thought you could do. My friends, each has grown. Each a teacher to each. Let the benediction of your love for each other, that you have had such difficulty in expressing, fill your heart. Pause in this moment and feel this great love that you share.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo. Remember this feeling, and this love, and this moment. You have been good and kind and caring, and you have struggled. But beneath it all you have been three wounded soldiers in arms, soldiers for peace, soldiers for love. Soldiers become wounded and sometimes die, whether they fight in hate or whether they fight by refusing the hate. Each of you has had wounds, and the group has had its casualties as the war of love that is endemic to this illusion carries on. Look and see and rejoice that you have never stopped attempting to love and support and care, each for the other, and in the name of the Creator for service to others.

Was this wagon that you hitched yourself to a bit bulky? Sometimes, in a desire to do so much, entities move faster than their deepest selves can walk. So, unhitch yourselves from this yoke. Let the wagon go. You have pulled it long enough. And come always together as new entities, new souls, newly dedicated as if at the very first of meetings. For each of you is new this day and will be new tomorrow, and the service that each of you does will be different yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Do not write long sentences with periods as you describe this portion of your life that you have walked together in a certain way. But rejoice that you have had companionship and as you walk into your future, let the knowledge of a companionship that has been tried in the fire and has remained lovely be your strength and your armament. You have been soldiers. You shall continue to be so. Let those deep feelings within guide you to each new day and each new field of battle in which love and fear strive. And as you are unafraid, know with certainty that you are old soldiers, and that you can and will persevere. Not as you think the Creator has in mind for you, but as you receive from the Creator those opportunities which spring up day by day. You are in no way diminished by this time that you have had together, though you may have, as this instrument has, called yourself a failure. You have not failed. You have begun to attempt to become a social memory complex and you will continue in each relationship, and in the relationship within yourself, to be more and more harmonious as a comrade in arms. But remember always the great and sturdy team that you were and are in your honest and single-hearted desire for the truth, the desire to know the love of the infinite One, and to offer all that you are and all that you ever will be to that service.

Q’uo said that in order to be of service to the Creator it is not the counting of words, or of time, or of the number of any quality that is of service, but it is the desire to be of service to the Creator that is of true service in the eternal present moment. They said that when we truly desire to be of service in the way that the Creator within intends for us to be, the Creator smiles, and in that moment the universe becomes infinite, and time is transformed into eternity. Q’uo continued by saying that each of us should look to how we have sacrificed much and given to each other with an open heart which overcame the moments of being afraid, and each became a teacher to each. They said we should rejoice in our companionship that has survived the test by fire and seek to do the Creator’s will as it presents itself to each one of us every day. They said that we should remember that we were a sturdy team that sought to know the love of the infinite One, and we should seek to offer all that we ever will be to that service.  On August 24, 2005, Q’uo spoke of the value of companionship:

The hidden benefit of such a group is the opportunity that the members of such a group offer to each other for learning about themselves. This instrument has spoken often about the mirroring effect of other people in her life. And certainly, this mirroring effect is greatly enhanced when a group which is conscious of wishing to be of service comes together in commonality of purpose and offers friendship and companionship, one to the other.

Each entity becomes a mirror that reflects back to the self what the self is creating and expressing within that group. Certainly, many of the reflections which one receives from such a hall of mirrors, as this instrument has called a spiritually-oriented group, may be warped or distorted in some way, therefore not offering a completely accurate image. However, the colorations and distortions offered by each entity within the group are in themselves interesting and offer in some cases that precious item which is so often under-appreciated by your peoples; that is catalyst. Even those who may see you in a critical or otherwise distorted fashion are of benefit to you in that they offer you material upon which to work both by using your powers of analysis and your powers of intuition and insight.

Go forward from this meeting saying not farewell, for you are only moving into the part of the path in which you may not see each other so often. You are all still working together.

We would ask you lastly to think about the implications of becoming a social memory complex. We have said one does not learn to become a social memory complex by the mating of individuals alone. Just as important is the relationship that you have with all others. Whether you experience that relationship as positive or negative, successful or failing, you are attempting to learn the mind that is yourself but not yourself, that mind that is hidden from you by the illusion of separation. And rest back in the knowledge that in addition to all guidance that is unseen, each of you has learned that there is a—we correct this instrument—totally trustworthy entity in each other. Someone with whom it is safe to speak of things that are painful. Someone who you know will not harm you in any way that is intended. Someone that you know will not be petty or mean. Someone whom you can trust to give its best not only on your behalf but in any concern that you might have.

These things do not take place simply in what you call marriage. That which you have attempted is almost completely impossible within the third density. That you have attempted this forming of the family of spiritual entities stands in its intentions golden and perfect, and we ask you never to doubt that that which you have done was truly beautiful and without blemish. Let all else fall away, and remember only this, that three entities loved the Creator and worked and prayed and gave of time and energy and will to the absolute limit of possibility in the attempt to serve. Know that that intention and that perseverance of attempt are the truths that will remain, are the truths which you have chosen to work on in this incarnation. And as you each have moved closer to some idea of what love is to you, for it is to each entity a different lesson, know that no work that you have done has been in vain. For you have under adverse circumstances loved and been loved, and that is the lesson of this density.

We shall meet again. The illusion which you call time will speed very quickly and we shall be with you. We bless each of you with our love and our admiration. We are aware that there is sorrow, but we ask you not to hold that to yourself, but to release it little by little, until all things between each are positive and free. For each has done nobly. So in the end we shall not say farewell to you but we shall say hello. Hello to each, you are new this moment, and we look forward to experiencing that new self that you are becoming in what you call the future. Our joy in meeting that which is becoming you is very, very great. And our deepest respect to that which you carry from the old self to the new is also very great, for you have chosen wisely. You have not released your faith into despair. You have not given up. You have not condemned yourself as being without the ability to serve.

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Hello, my friends. We shall meet again and we greatly look—we correct this instrument—and we greatly look forward to this delightful prospect. Meanwhile, we are with you and if you wish us to be with you in a way that comforts and quiets you, you have only to ask. We will of course not speak with you, for we would not interfere with your free will. But you may feel our love and our blessing and our support, just as you know the blessing and love and support of your friends in this room. You may have this at any time, you may have this at all times, you have only to ask.

Q’uo said that the three of us had attempted to form a social memory complex, and we had formed a relationship with each other that we could trust, depend on, and share our difficult times with. They said that we had made a beautiful effort to love and serve the Creator together by exercising our intention and perseverance to love and be loved and, thereby, learn the lesson of the third density. Q’uo went on to say that even though each of us felt sorrow we should slowly release it and realize that we were becoming new beings, so they said “Hello” to our new beings while respecting our ability to continue to exercise faith through difficulties that we shared. They said that they would be with us in the future and share with us their love, blessings, and support. On September 8, 1996, Q’uo explained the value of exercising faith:

Once one is aware that one is being apparently limited but with great resources which lie beyond space and time, that seeker can choose much more consciously and much more on a daily basis to make use of the various catalysts that cause confusion and to see these experiences as positive opportunities to exercise faith. The exercise of faith is simply that willingness to believe and to act upon the belief that there is a plan that is in effect and that cannot fail, and that that plan will constitute a destiny that is a safe passage regardless of the many twists and turns that always occur.

It is not that one must have faith in a destiny that is absolute, for that is not the way the world of spirit works. The lessons that each came here to work on are not lessons to be learned literally. They do not constitute specific wisdoms. Rather, they are lessons of the nature of, perhaps we might say, a seminar upon one issue or another. The issues are always about love. Some must work more on how to love. Others must work more on how to accept love. Some must learn how to love without possessing. Others must work on how to love with commitment and possession.

We are those of the principle of Q’uo. Go always with the Creator. Be always the Creator to your friends and allow your friends to be Creator to you. This is the meaning of “adonai vasu borragus.”

We leave you drifting from your ear’s hearing, but never from your consciousness, in that one great original Thought—love. And in all the areas of manifestation—life. And in these two things we leave you with the sum and the substance of the one infinite Creator. As you feel yourselves move towards eternity, as time has less and less grasp upon you, we ask always, simply, that you meet your experiences, unafraid and with love. With love and with light. We are those of the principle of Q’uo, and with love of the morning when the sun shall shine upon all of our souls again. And that sun that is the kingdom of love and understanding. Adonai. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop at Thieneman’s Nursery to buy three more bales of pine straw. My second stop was at Kroeger’s to buy some kitty litter and Sharp Shredded Cheese. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I picked up a prescription. After got home and unloaded all of my purchases I went outside and spread the three bales of pine straw in the far corner of the back yard to complete the grass sowing project.

This afternoon I went back outside and weeded the three areas in the back yard that have new Hosta growing and where I put protective wire fence yesterday to keep the deer from eating them. I also weeded the small patch of Yellow Creeping Jenny in the back yard. Then I cleaned the filters for the fountain on the fish pond. Then I gathered two loads of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted them to the Moss Gardeen.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 19

Instead Of Judgment

I am of the consciousness of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

The tongue of the pilgrim is often swift to judge the thoughts and actions of the self and others. This is understandable because the pilgrim is greatly concerned with distinguishing true paths from false leads which seem promising at first, yet meander off in unhelpful directions.

However, judgment creates a relationship which is not of the spirit of love between the one who judges and the one who is judged. Love does not cause such a separation and such a relationship.

And thus it is that the pilgrim may find himself much confused in attempting to place the moral impulse into logical settings. The spirit of Christ would offer, instead of judgment, a warm compassion and gentle mercy which acknowledges the infinite mystery of the pilgrim’s heart and the infinite mystery of Christ’s love.

Seek first compassion and mercy, and by the time these attitudes have furnished the pilgrim with information concerning a situation, the pilgrim may well find that even the impulse to judge has been healed and the pilgrim is at peace, resting in mystery and love.

Judgment there shall be, but not as the pilgrim may think. For judgment shall be a peaceful thing and no pilgrim shall feel slighted or bruised by the compassionate and merciful judgment of the Creator, who wishes only to bring all things into unity once again, a unity bonded and bounded in love and peace.

In that happy estate we leave you, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.