The Camelot Journal

I would like to let everyone know that because of the devastating war going on in Israel and Palestine we have created a ritual of sending love, light, and peace to all of the soldiers and civilians on both sides of the war. This is the link that will give you the process of this peace ritual: https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/group-peace-visualization

I did the Morning Offering and the got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 16, 1989:

The question this evening deals with the common situation which everybody at some point in their lives finds—that there is difficulty that is almost unsolvable; that we have to find our way out of frustration, repeating patterns of behavior that continually bring us into situations in which we are tested. Is this test something that we have devised for ourselves? Are we being tested by some source outside of ourselves? How can we learn from our experience and find some peace or grace or means of dealing with the difficult situations that seem to add up to a cross that each of us bears in our life? Is there any alternative to bearing the cross? Or are we destined to suffer? Or is there some meaning in the suffering that we can take inspiration from, and continue on the same path with a better means of feeling about it, dealing with it?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, I greet you with great joy in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. Our hearts are brim-full in thanks for your calling us to your meeting here this evening, for sharing with us your love for each other, your love of the Creator, and your earnest and sincere seeking for the truth and the mystery of creation.

Truth recedes, we have found, as the path is traveled, therefore we cannot give you final truths, for we are not a final source. We are ourselves pilgrims on the same road whose stones stub your feet and whose nettles may catch and scratch.

You have asked this evening about suffering: whether it is necessary, why it repeats itself, and what its uses may be. Let us lay a little ground work first. Each of you was created before your planet emerged from its timeless and chaotic state. This is, as we understand it, due to the fact that each of you was an unit of consciousness in the creation before this one, so that when the Creator began this creation, He sent out those agents of His active love housed in physical vehicles in many different illusions so that they might add to the complete knowledge of the Creator of Himself, for the Creator wishes, as anyone, to know Itself and It cannot know Itself without experiencing Itself as each of your Christ-selves within offer, as a gift to the Creator, all that you feel and suffer and think and manifest.

You are active agents of the Creator, part of your being truly a Creator-self. The majority of the people do not have an awareness of this fact. This is not necessary, this awareness, in order to make the harvest that is to come, a harvest of souls that have learned to be of service to others to the extent that they spend more than half their time in terms of service to someone else besides themselves. It is not necessary to understand, intellectually, any particular point, if the entity is a natural worker and has a feeling for the evolutionary process of humankind.

Now, as we gaze over the octave which all of us are now engaged in experiencing, we see the analogy of the classroom to fit fairly well, and we have used this many times, but, my friends, it is also a certain kind of school. It is a school for the evolution of homo sapiens into a new man, one who is consciously aware of the God-self within, and one who acknowledges it, treasures it, and attempts to experience and manifest its presence.

Each density in the octave of creation we now experience is a very long affair in terms of your time, millions of years passing in one density, as the problems to be learned have no resistance. There is no polarity in this type of learning of elements, animals and the vegetable world, for there is no self-consciousness.

In densities after your own, again you shall be spending what you conceive of as “time,” for each density is an illusion, working to refine something that has been chosen the hard way. The density of choice, the density of sorrow, the density of the cross, the density of the hard way, is third density.

As we gaze within our memory at other third density planets, we may honestly say that some have done less well than you in producing a harvestable crop of entities who are ready to move on to more light-filled lessons. We feel very hopeful about many making positive choices and polarizing in power and strength in the spirit of love and light in service to the infinite One.

Each entity who dwells upon the planet at this time has the capacity to graduate into the fourth density, that density in which the veil between the conscious and the subconscious mind is lifted, and once again you may for yourself, without any egotism, see the Christ within, see the harmony—and those harmonies that can be so easily made harmonious, for no one is hidden from anyone.

The social memory complex is being formed and thoughts about being “One” are available, as in a data bank, to all others within that planetary population of entities which has decided to seek as one being.

The death of the illusion which you experience is tremendous. We do not minimize your task. Indeed, as we remember what you suffer, without understanding, as we remember how we suffered also, we can only, in humility, bow to your bravery and your steadfastness, for it is courage and persistence and will that lead one to an understanding that transforms suffering into a life of transcendent joy.

The group question this session was about suffering; why is it necessary; why it repeats itself; what are its uses. Q’uo began their response by saying that each person was created before time began as a portion of the one Creator with the purpose of helping the Creator to know Itself through all of the suffering that one experiences in its many lives. Q’uo said that our purpose in this third density is to learn how to be of service to others more than half of the time in order to graduate to the fourth density, and they said they felt that many would make this graduation and become part of the social memory complex that is now forming on Earth. However, they said that there was a lot of suffering necessary in third density and it would take a great amount of courage and persistence to transform this suffering into a life of transcendent joy. On June 24, 2005, Q’uo gave an example of how suffering aids in spiritual growth:

If you use the gifts of your own thoughts to examine them and when you begin to see a pattern then to move into that pattern with an eye to working with it, then you begin to see that most suffering is a series of triggers that you have allowed to be imbedded deep within you so that when something happens on the surface it creates a reaction that is greater than it deserves. Look for those inappropriately large reactions and responses. Look for the hidden triggers that mask the suffering that lies deep within.

And then gently, ever so gently, a little bit each day, go after those triggers. See what you can do to mine them for the treasure that they represent. For they represent parts of yourself, and the infinite hall of mirrors that other selves represent, that you have taken into yourself in a distorted and untrue fashion. Bring them gently to the surface. Look carefully at them and begin to forgive the other person and yourself for the damage that has been incorporated within your being as a falsehood that need not exist.

Let the healing of your suffering begin. Let the healing of your incarnation begin so that you can, as this instrument said earlier, stand on your own two feet and look the world in the face, saying, “I know I make many mistakes. I am heavily flawed. Sue me. This is who I am and I am still ready to explore the possibility that love is the answer to all suffering.” Lift up off the cross of thinking it is necessary. Realize it is a training aid. When the training aid is no longer necessary, then you may spend your time rejoicing and giving thanks.

This instrument has a great deal of this knowledge locked within its subconscious, as do each of you, and is, perhaps, somewhat more transparent to it than to some, but to no one is it clear why the illusion is set up to be so difficult, so wearing, so confusing, so irrational and in many ways so continually, endlessly negative—when all that you wish for yourself, or for those you love, is peace, harmony, joy and laughter.

These are very, very good things. These are, however, manifestations of a state of mind which can only be achieved when those things which trouble one, in the incarnational pattern, have been finally perceived in their spiritual sense, the challenge read correctly and the lessons well completed.

The reason that many times an experience will happen again and again and again is that the situation is one which demands change. And more specifically, change which can only be made by one who is confident within the self and who has no fear for the future. You may think of making difficult choices of service to self versus the martyrdom—which sometimes seems to be the essence of service to others—is difficult to sort out within the illusion—the kernel, the heart, the core, of the lesson about love one is attempting to learn. Therefore, the reason for the repetition is that you are obeying the dictates of your own deeper will, which lies deep within inside you, in the unconscious part of you, and it takes both a clear and logical mind and contemplative, meditative, intuitive consciousness to achieve a fair understanding of the love inherent in this difficult situation.

You have called yourself to this lifetime and have had the privilege of being incarnate at this very exciting time because you deserve to be here. Each of you is capable of moving into the fourth density at the end of this incarnation. It is no wonder, then, that you are receiving the final and the hardest lessons.

Q’uo said that each of us is here now because we have a chance to graduate to the fourth density, but in order to do that we need to be aware of the lessons we have programmed for learning that repeat and repeat. Q’uo said that this repetition of certain lessons was necessary to remind us that spiritual growth involves change, and change is difficult. Then they said that it takes both the logical, conscious mind and the deeper intuitive mind to discover the types of change necessary for us to learn these lessons. On May 20, 2017, Q’uo spoke about these lessons:

There is, within each soul’s incarnational pattern, those pre-incarnative lessons that each has fervently hoped would be able to be learned within the incarnational pattern. The subconscious mind of each has been programmed by the soul to look with a certain bias upon catalyst that comes in the notice of the seeker, so that at some point the heart chakra might be opened enough to experience a sense of loving those about one, of loving the self, of loving the universe about one. This type of transformation is possible when one is able to be alert and aware of the pre-incarnative lessons so that when catalyst comes one’s way, it can be seen in a certain fashion, so that no two entities would look at the same catalyst in the same way, since all are unique, and all have programmed certain lessons that are indeed unique, though they may include the lesson of love in some facet or fashion for each entity.

Now, let us take the lesson of the one who is under another’s thumb, the one who is the slave. How can the slave feel spiritually free, how can the one who is habitually beaten down be dignified, whole and triumphant? The answer lies in change of perception about self. The answer lies in beginning to stop the resistance one naturally has towards change, since that is painful in this process, and urge oneself to become that better self which one has not yet been able to be.

If the slave frees itself, mentally, and chooses to do all for the love of the infinite Creator, the owner, no matter how mistaken in his feelings of possession, has no longer any true power to disturb the one who prays to change in freedom.

Now, what is the essence of freedom? Each of you certainly feels that it is “somewhere else” and certainly not in the present moment, or in the present life experience. And yet we say to you that full freedom is available to you within this experience, just as the Kingdom of Heaven is available to any who will do the work to transform themselves into a lighter being. Therefore, we ask you to have faith in your own self when you face repetitive problems. You have simply put yourselves into a situation which is a challenge to love the unlovable; to accept the unacceptable; to return the good for the negative; to be blithely oblivious of the negative, and see the good in all; to retain the hopefulness of close and deep association with nature, both second-density trees, grasses and blooms, and third-density entities.

Once you have been able to come to the heart of the repetitive pattern you may break it by forgiveness of that which may be forgiven, and by the remembering of the self by the self of the nature of the self. Each of you has, within you, the creation and the Creator. You are entities to be honored—you are all one, and you are all the Creator’s children.

Now Q’uo used the analogy of our being slaves that are constantly being beaten down by the necessity of change, and the solution to stop the pain of change is to free ourselves from the resistance to pain and to continue to change in order to serve the Creator better. Q’uo said that in order to truly free ourselves we need to have faith in ourselves when we face repetitive lessons by moving “into a situation which is a challenge to love the unlovable; to accept the unacceptable; to return the good for the negative; to be blithely oblivious of the negative, and see the good in all.” Q’uo said that this would allow us to forgive ourselves and remember that we are children of the Creator, and by forgiving ourselves we will have learned the lessons of this incarnation. On September 17, 1989, Q’uo described what it means to be children of the Creator:

Realize, each of you, that stress must not get in the way of the light touch, the merry joke, the smile, the grin, the laughter, the good times. That is your true nature. You are all children of the Creator, and the Creator is love and joy, merriment and peace. Therefore, it is a matter of shifting the point of view from gazing at stressful situations and realizing that they are stressful to gazing at the same situation and asking the self confidently, serenely and surely, “What may I do to be part of the good that is occurring upon the planet at this time? What service may I perform?”

Now, when you began this octave of experience, each of you had made certain progress in a previous creation. You had made progress to a certain point, and to that point the Creator now knows about Itself. But the Creator is generous and curious and in perpetual motion. And so, when all of us come together at the end of what could be done in one octave of creation, then from the heart of the infinite One will set again a new creation, incorporating all of those things which the Creator had learned about Itself—making pathways for the evolution of the Christ-self within clearer and plainer with each octave of experience.

So, you see, you bring to this incarnation a pattern, what would be to you an infinite amount of experience, which has caused certain biases. Now, it is these biases, prejudices, and foolishly held opinions of the self that create an atmosphere of pain, of one entity to another. To one who has safely anchored within the gate of the Creator, the noisy clamor of the critical and foolish world comes as against a picture window all about one, splatters and falls like rain, leaving you untouched, for you are no longer finding it necessary to have that suffering.

But, as you finish one lesson, your ambitious higher self will prepare you for another. Thus, your incarnational pattern, if you do not learn the first lesson, will be an endless repetition of that pattern. If you wish to accelerate the process of growth, then you will take the harder and less traveled road. And when you have solved one riddle of love, another challenge shall be put before you.

It is the tendency of entities at this particular time, so close to harvest, to have made for themselves extremely ambitious processes of learning, wishing to learn to give love without expectation of return; wishing to see the Christ in the self without doubt, without pride, and with humility, and you learn to bend the will to that Christ-self so that the willfulness that is free will ceases being various, ceases enslaving one, and, instead, becomes guided by the will of the infinite One.

Paradoxically, when one has completely given the life over to the service of the infinite One, when one does all that one does, from the meanest chore to the most magnificent, one will be polarizing rapidly. Entities which you see about you are illusory. You also are illusory, but the one thing which is not illusory is your consciousness. Most of your people are not taking full advantage of this intensive experience upon your sphere at this time, but rather have diverted themselves into non-polarizing paths of existence. There is no harm in this, but neither is there any gain. Each of you has eternity to move through this creation and back to the one infinite source of all that is.

We find that each find it a bit difficult to believe that the basic self is what this instrument would call the Christ-self, for you experience the vagaries of your free will willfully. You do this and that, willfully. You have this sensitivity and that doubt, and this guilt and that lack, or limitation, and you do not see yourselves as the completely equal, quite perfect metaphysical beings that you are. It is not pride, nor is it arrogance to claim the Christ within oneself, for by doing this one is then able to gaze upon the difficult and challenging situation. If one is being misunderstood, one may attempt clear communication, but without attachment to an outcome.

Each of you is far more independent and strong than you may be aware of. This does not mean that there will be an end to suffering. It is possible to move to third density without suffering to the extent your peoples have. Your own planet has had many, many conflicts, which have added many negative biases to the thought patterns of the inhabitants of that fragile sphere. So, perhaps our best advice to you would be, if you wish to make an end to the repeated lessons: meditate, pray, ask to dream, and focus upon the love that must be, for you know by faith that that must be, in the situation that is repeating and repeating and causing you pain—the pain is the pain of change. If you may flow with the change and become that which is needed to balance the challenge, then you will have finished with that lesson and it shall not be repeated, except perhaps to make sure that you have understood the lesson.

Now Q’uo began to give the history we all have shared as portions of the one Creator in previous octaves where we have developed a certain pattern of experience as portions of the Creator who now wishes to learn more about Itself, and we can learn more about that Christ-self/Creator that exists within us. Then Q’uo said that our higher selves create more lessons for us that will repeat until we learn them and have continued to make progress towards the harvest to the fourth density. As we more completely give our lives over to the Creator and meditate, pray, and work with dreams, we realize that Christ-self within us, and we are more able to deal with the pain of change. On August 8, 1976, Q’uo described the Christ-self within us:

And you can only progress by offering up your little human self to the Christ Self within you. You cannot influence the world and most especially you cannot influence the Creator. Yet this is not necessary, for the world is as darkness and the Creator is light. If you can ask the Creator to influence you, it will be as light turned upon darkness and the darkness will be no more.

Most frequently the challenges within third density are those of relationships. Entities who love each other do not know the depth of each other, yet they begin to discover patterns that are sometimes destructive to the relationship, in that there is a separation by this action within the relationship. Therefore, any action which is a separating action—we do not mean this literally, but figuratively—is to be regarded as an intellect solution, for you are at this time choosing to lead a whole and complete and unique life in service to others, polarizing constantly towards service to others. You are committing yourselves to a series of painful changes as the unnecessary portions of personality—especially that which this instrument would call low self-esteem—are simply vacuumed away by the realization that one does not have to take in that which is given, but can instead create a unity and end to discord simply as an act of will. Communication is very helpful, but there are few among your people who are capable of clear communication. This is due to the fact that the illusion is indeed so very, very convincing and there really does seem to be a bias within all that one may see of humankind towards the negative.

There will be a negative harvest from this planet, but it will be small. Most of you who graduate shall have graduated because you have polarized in service to others.

The question of martyrdom is interesting to us, for in fact one of the lessons of love is martyrdom. It is the most foolish choice, and therefore the most blessed of all choices, but if it is martyrdom for no good reason, then, though it may help you, it shall not aid the creation as much as if the concentration of the seeker is moving always towards questions of substance and changes of substance. For you wish to hollow yourselves out as an earthen vessel is described in your holy work, that sacred things may be held therein. Your earthly vessel has but a little time and it shall perish. Therefore, we encourage each to realize the incredible amount of aid each is to each, for when there is a relationship difficulty, it is often not the entities themselves who first grasp the lesson, but a third party, one who observes, one who makes the opinion known when asked, one who sees from the farther perspective as one who is uninvolved in this particular catalyst.

Each of you may do that, as a mirror for the other. Mated relationship is both the best place for this to happen and the place where it most seldom does happen, because of the way your lifestyle, shall we say, has been arranged by you. You seem to be a planet of scurrying, hurrying, worrying elves, with pickaxes over their shoulders, constantly whistling as they work, constantly trying to find the gold of life, the silver, and the precious stones. Look upon the ground before you—the simplest pebble sings of heaven. It is all an illusion. You can pay attention to anything you wish, and when you see that you are being attacked and the bias is unfair, you may perhaps choose to defend yourself. Or you may, perhaps, choose to create a new situation, to move with confidence against the challenge of criticism and say quietly and confidently, “All is well, let us move forward from here. We cannot resolve this today. Let us pray on it, and resolve it tomorrow.”

Some there are who are skilled at communication, and when two such entities come together, the work that is done is very intense. But even in this case, there will be the repetition and the lesson may be somewhat more refined. The choices which one makes for harmony, union, love and an increase in joy, and, above all, the choice of the light over the dark thing to say or do, the more you become ready and able to see through the illusion, if only dimly, [and] choose not to suffer, but to be confident of the self to be humble before all and before the Creator, and yet to know at the heart of oneself is the Creator.

This is your birthright, this is your nature, this is your destiny. What you are building now is the cornerstone of that structure of personality, that disciplined character, which shall be reformed and refined and refined again, until compassion and wisdom have blended as one, and all that is possible to be learned by each unique entity within the creation has been learned. Needless to say, the process is infinite.

It is also, we feel, a great blessing. For we find it a blessing to be conscious, to be able to make our choices. We are building, shall we say, the skyscraper that is based upon the firm foundation you now are laying, the foundation of accepting the unacceptable, of loving the unlovable, of changing the insult into the light touch. You have the control to make these choices at will. Each of you has this within, but how difficult, my friends, it is to call upon it. As always, we move to the suggestion of persistent daily meditation, the listening within, the learning of who you really are, the centering of oneself within the creation, so that no thing is strange and no one a stranger. Nothing threatens, but only challenges.

Try to make your decisions for love with all the passion within your heart, with all the caring in your spirit, for the depth of your commitment to the positive path of service to others in the service of the one infinite Creator will be the measure of the amount of light that you may use and enjoy when this incarnation is at an end. We realize each of you wishes to be able to use the love and the light of the fourth density. We assure you the challenges and the problems do not stop simply because the choice has been made. It is a long, long process of refinement of the knowledge that one has gained, of the biases that one has earned.

Q’uo said that most of the problems of the third density come from relationships where seeming separations in the relationship result from unclear communication. Q’uo noted that in relationships the mirroring effect can show us much about ourselves and aid in our desire to be the best self that we are capable of being. They suggested persistent daily meditation to help us deal with difficult changes brought on by  our lessons being experienced in a variety of ways. Q’uo recommended that we make our decisions with all of the passion in our hearts and our dedication to service to others. On July 28, 1985, Q’uo described how the mirroring effect works:

These male and female qualities, then, being expressed within this mated relationship allow the mirroring effect to occur with greater intensity and frequency. This mirroring effect is the effect that occurs when one sees within another self those characteristics that are loved and accepted and those that are not loved and not accepted. In truth, these are the characteristics of the self which are loved or not loved, and are those characteristics which outline the lessons and services that the entity has designed into the life pattern from the pre-incarnational state.

So, when you see the repetitive event, analyze with the mind, ask the intuition, in dream, to speak to you upon the subject, begin to discover the nature of the change that will bring into the situation a balance of love. And when you have decided what that action is, quietly and confidently and doggedly do that, in the face of the repeated catalyst. Without the reaction of bias towards difficulty towards you, actions towards you meant to harm or inadvertently meant to harm, cannot touch you, cannot come close to you. You are forging the foundation of your very being as a metaphysical entity. In this particular density, by the choice you make in this density and by the excellence with which you make it, so you create the atmosphere for that which must be refined and refined and refined until that which is left of the personality is that which is of the Christ-self and the rest has been burned away, that one may be truly be the earthen vessel that holds great treasure. That treasure is your Christ-self.

Before we leave this instrument, we wish wholeheartedly not to be discouraging. You may think that you have made many mistakes. You may think that you have failed many times. This is not important, this is not what should be upon your minds. Rather, immerse yourself in the present moment, for each moment your life begins now, and each moment, the old life is ended. There is the constant opportunity of renewal, growth, inspiration and positive change. To learn to flow gracefully with the tides of experience is indeed the work of the pilgrim sailor who seeks the land of milk and honey. It is there, my friends, it is there. And all that is broken shall be healed. You may yourself accelerate this process, with your trust, your love, your refusal to allow the weary world to influence your consciousness.

Q’uo completed their response by saying that we should look in our dreams or use our intuition to see nature of the lessons that repeat and what kind of change in our thoughts and behavior might now be required. Then Q’uo said that when we know what changes we need to make that we set our intentions to persevere until those changes are made. They suggested this would make us a stronger and stronger metaphysical being, as we will have become the Christ-self. On January 12, 2008, Q’uo described how we can become transformed into stronger metaphysical beings:

Then there is the part of the transformational experience which has completely to do with your will, your hunger, and your thirst for understanding and truth. The more passionate that you are about seeking the truth, the more you are able, as a metaphysical entity working in time/space, to have an effect upon the pace of your transformative rhythm. It is entirely possible for an entity who is awake and conscious and aware of the process of change to accelerate the pace of that change by quite a bit.

The fundamental transformation of a human being within incarnation is from that spiritual childhood of feeling that one is tossed about by outside forces and dependent upon luck and chance for the road one is on and the road one may choose to be on, to a more mature spiritual awareness in which the entity has taken responsibility for the occurrences and events of everyday life, realizing that in those very events lies all the grist needed for the mill of transformation.

Consequently, if a seeker wishes to maximize the opportunity for accelerating the rate of spiritual evolution within this refinery of souls which is third density, the seeker may decide to begin to hone and focus his efforts by the focusing and whetting of his appetite for the truth.

The most effective tool in working towards transformation is the self-conscious living of the life. We are not talking about those who mull endlessly over every detail of their life and thought throughout each day, but rather we are talking about the most effective way to work towards transformation. The most effective resource is one’s own ability to observe oneself without affecting that which is being observed.

The one known as Jim spoke of being aware that in transformation it was important not to judge. And this is the kind of objectivity about which we are speaking. It is indeed important, indeed central, to refrain from judgment as one goes through the collecting of information about the self that is necessary in order for the self to be offered up and thus become empty enough to have the space in which to transform.

It is ironic, is it not, that in the search for truth the answers lie not in discovering that which can be known, but in discovering that the secrets to the mystery of transformation lie in unknowing and faith. Faith is the most powerful force in the universe, it being another name for realized or positively realized love. You live in a universe made of love. The original Thought was a Thought of unconditional Love.

We join in mediation not only at this time but at any time you wish to have a meditation partner. It is our honor to add our vibrations to yours. We do not speak at such times, but only share in the holy silence of sacred ground. Please be aware, as always, that these are our opinions and are not to be taken as absolute truth, for we know no absolute except that All is One. Each of you seems to be separate, yet you all are one. You all are part of the Creator.

We would leave this instrument at this time with many thanks to the this group for its excellent focus and energy for this contact, for this instrument has been much aided thereby. We are those of Q’uo, and would now transfer the contact to the one known as Jim, in love and in light.

This afternoon we will have a public channeling meditation, so this morning I have been getting ready for it by getting all of the chairs in the living room set up, getting the cats’ litter boxes cleaned and garbage cans’ trash bags thrown out, and then I had an early lunch. I am also posting this Camelot Journal entry early as well.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 11

Great Companies Within

I am the Holy Spirit of our Lord, Jesus Christ, in the vibration which comforts this instrument. I offer you greetings in the consciousness of love.

You who are in distress are urged not to turn to those who would extend and amplify that distress by disharmony or even by sympathy which has as its unconscious purpose the deepening of misery.

Turn instead to the companionship of those who rejoice. Within the depths of the interior of your consciousness lie gateways to great companies of those whose songs are always of praise and thanksgiving. And within your conscious life, the careful ear may hear the steadfast encouragement of those whose minds and hearts are fixed on the love of Christ.

For Jesus was a master not of indecision but decision; not of despair but of hope. And even in His moments of trial, He, acknowledging the certainty of human despair, trusted in a greater will than His own and an infinite and ultimately good disposition of all things by and for the Creator.

 May you find peace in ultimate things, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I would like to let everyone know that because of the devastating war going on in Israel and Palestine we have created a ritual of sending love, light, and peace to all of the soldiers and civilians on both sides of the war. This is the link that will give you the process of this peace ritual: https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/group-peace-visualization

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 9, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to attempt to speak to those queries which may yet remain upon the minds of those present. We would ask if there might be a query with which we may begin?

C: If the lesson is repeated [inaudible] in the case where the [inaudible] will be passed along to the child [inaudible] that when the child is born [inaudible] that the child is [inaudible] is more difficult [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. In many cases, this would be the situation which would pertain, however, in other cases, it is possible that the entity which decided upon the abortion and carried it out to its completion might have what you would call a change of heart and welcome the next opportunity that presented itself within the life pattern to conceive, bear and raise the young entity. The attitude of the parental entity is the attitude that is paramount in importance in this situation. For the entity which resists the lesson which it has placed before itself and resists with great fervor is the entity which will find that lesson somewhat difficult according to the degree of resistance. Therefore, the passing of the opportunity by abortion is a portion of the, shall we say, equation which determines the intensity of the lesson when it does appear again in the life pattern, and we may add that in most cases, the lesson shall appear again within the current life pattern, and if it remains incompletely processed in one life pattern, then it shall be available for future incarnations.

C’s question is confused by many inaudible words, so I will use Q’uo’s reply to attempt to clarify the question. It seems that Q’uo is saying that the mother may have an abortion when first pregnant and then when she became pregnant again have a change of heart in which she agreed to bear the child and raise it. This would allow the lesson of the mother to be undertaken with the child. On July 29, 2022, Q’uo described these lessons:

The producing of the child in third density, then, provides many services which the parents of the child may then find offered to them as they begin to raise the child through the series of stages of growth that each child goes through. Each stage of growth, then, requires a kind of investment of information and opportunity for physical expression to accompany the mental and emotional child-nature that continues to expand as time, as you know it, proceeds.

There is an interaction of the parents with the child that is not only a service to the child in that it provides it a means by which to mature, as you would say, in body, in mind, and in spirit, for each child is indeed a mind/body/spirit complex that has the ability to utilize the functions of the mind, the body and the spirit in ways that continue to proceed in the pattern of growth that you would call the maturation of each complex. As these stages of growth proceed, the parents are tasked, shall we say, with the needs of the child, in order that it may become acclimated to the third-density body and begin to feel the pre-incarnated choices that it made prior to joining with the parents.

Is there a further query, my brother?

C: One further question. Abortion before the current [inaudible]. How, in a situation such as that, that the [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Each entity within a mated relationship brings, shall we say, the baggage, the lessons which await the learning, the lessons which have been processed to some degree, and the lessons which have been ignored or refused, shall we say. As the couple proceeds in the mated relationship, each shall find that there is the necessity of focusing upon certain lessons that are individual in nature and are shared in nature. Each shall find that it becomes a portion of the other’s incarnational pattern, and must in some way process that other self’s experience in order to find the harmonious or agreed-upon balance in the relationship in each area awaiting the learning. Thus, if an entity has…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. To continue. If one entity in a mated relationship has chosen previous to the relationship to engage in any action which resists a certain lesson, that entity shall find at some point within the life pattern that the opportunity for learning that lesson shall again present itself in a form which is easier to distinguish, that is to say, which may cause somewhat more difficulty if the entity still presents the resistance to the lesson. If this is the case, then the entity’s mate shall find that there is a further ramification to the relationship that shall also affect it in a manner which is consonant with the overall design or purpose of the mated relationship.

Therefore, each entity brings into the relationship those areas which each shall find the necessity of focusing upon. It would seem at first glance that there could be the possibility of unfairness or an injustice in such a situation, for those areas left undone by either entity would then present both entities with the increased need to focus the attention and to process the catalyst in these areas. We would suggest that in truth there is no injustice or unfairness, for when the mated relationship is entered into, this is a function of preincarnative choices that have set forth the possibility of a relationship which would offer certain opportunities or challenges to each entity within the relationship. The fact that there are certain areas within each entity’s life pattern that may have been less well learned or processed is simply a portion of the overall nature of the relationship and those opportunities that the relationship has presented to each entity.

Once again much of the question is inaudible, so I will work with Q’uo’s answer to try to uncover the question. Q’uo said that if one of the entities in a mated relationship resists a portion of its lesson it might affect both in a way that would be more or less difficult to determine, but since there are pre-incarnative lessons at play–that may be less well learned–this is simply the way that any lesson manifests for any entity. On January 30, 1983, Latwii spoke to how missed signposts are often part of our spiritual journeys:

We would simply comment at this time in response to both queries that it is often the plight and pleasure of the seeker to find the opportunities for increasing service and oneness to be presented in situations which provide the trauma, the doubt, the confusion, and the difficulty in perceiving clearly. This is the nature of any exploration into that which may be called the unknown. Rejoice, my friends, in your doubt, in your confusion, in your frustrations, and in your angers. For they are signposts which alert you to the fact that your seeking is increasing, and the opportunities for knowing the love and light of the one Creator are also increased.

Is there a further query, my brother?

C: [inaudible]

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. This occurs with some frequency within your illusion, my brother.

Is there another query?

C: When you talked about mated relationships that in the case where the relationship failed and the parties split, that one of the lessons that were to be learned would come back in an even stronger version. Is there the case where the lesson learned is that it is right for the mated relationship to end?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. In this situation, we find that there are those instances in which the lessons which have been set forth by each entity have been learned to the fullest extent that each is able to achieve without some deterioration of the overall purpose of the relationship. In most cases, a relationship which is entered into is that situation which is most appropriate and beneficial for the lessons which remain for each entity. Oftentimes, however, there is a, shall we say, a souring of the catalyst which each feels due to the inability to balance certain distortions within the individual life pattern. In such a situation, the separation of the entities is much like the marathon runner discovering that at the midway point through the race it must stop and catch its breath, so to speak.

In each instance, whether it be the race or the relationship, it is advisable for each entity to consider well the obstacles that caused the need to catch the breath, in order that these might be worked upon as catalysts, so that there is a balancing of distortions that would then allow the beginning again of the race, whether with the same mate or with another is not of the greatest importance as is the beginning again of the race in order that the lessons which have been set forth might be worked upon as much as is possible, for the lessons have been chosen with great care and offer the greatest opportunity for each entity’s personal growth and service to others.

C’s question was: Is it ever possible that lessons in a mated relationship that are missed might be the proper catalyst for the mated relationship to end? Q’uo suggested that the separation of mates from their relationship might be a temporary solution to difficulties that could be solved over time so that the relationship was once again undertaken, or it might also be appropriate that new partners might be joined with to pursue the same lessons. On June 28, 1987, Q’uo described a situation where the mated relationship might end and yet, from time to time, be functional in a lesser way:

I am Q’uo, and as one might expect within a universe of infinite possibility, there is infinite probability that entities which have engaged in the mated relationship for a period of your time and then found reason to end that relationship yet continue in what may be either the conscious or subconscious fashion to share experience and offer a portion of the self to the other even when the relationship has in the physical sense been terminated. In many cases this pathway which each has forged to the other becomes somewhat dusty and falls into disuse, yet from time to time is utilized for the gathering and sharing of experience upon the metaphysical levels of experience.

Is there a further query, my brother?

C: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

J: For the entity that was aborted, does that entity prior to conception, does this entity have the choice or is it a part of the process of the choice for abortion, and if so, of what benefit is abortion to this entity?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. In many cases, the entity that wishes to enter the incarnation and which is the focus of the abortion, as you call it, does partake in the making of this decision, but not usually at the level of the decision to abort this particular entity, but rather has made a choice with the parental entities that it shall offer this opportunity and shall take part in the decision to limit the opportunity in order that that which can be learned from the overall process might be offered to those who serve as the potential parental entities. This is in some few cases. However, in the great majority of cases, the entity which has its opportunity to enter the incarnation stopped momentarily by the decision to abort will find that there are other opportunities which are then made available to it, for the experience within the metaphysical realms is more obviously multifaceted than is your own, although your own experience is indeed multifaceted as well, although you are aware that as one choice is made, those other potential choices that could have been made as well are then set aside and do not manifest within your reality. However, within the metaphysical realms, the entity which has had the opportunity ended in one area will find that there are other potential entities with which it has made preliminary agreements, each of course, needing certain conditions or prerequisites to be in place before the entry into the incarnation is complete. Therefore the decision of the parental entities to have the abortion rather than the child is a decision which then offers the aborted entity the opportunity to seek the entry into incarnation with other parental entities.

J asked if the entity being aborted has a part in the abortion. Q’uo suggested that in some situations that this might be the case in order to offer the parents the experience of deciding upon an abortion. But then Q’uo said that in the majority of cases the entity which was aborted has other opportunities to seek entry into an incarnation with other parents. On September 14, 1986, Q’uo mentioned the possibility of an entity that was aborted could find other opportunities for an incarnation:

In yet another case, it might be that the aborted physical vehicle known as the fetus must be abandoned by a mind/body/spirit complex which had hoped that there would indeed be the possibility for a lengthier stay, shall we say, within the incarnative experience. In such a case the entity may seek other parents, as you call them, and find a successful entry into the incarnative process in that manner.

Is there a further query, my brother?

J: At the moment of conception, is the fetus at that point a spirit/mind/body complex, or is it simply physical, at that point lacking spirit and mind?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. There is no general response that is accurate in each instance, for though the entity which is conceived is indeed a live being, at the conception, it is not always the case that the entity contains the mind/body/spirit complex. The very nature of the physical vehicle brings with it a consciousness which is intelligent, however, the entity which will eventually incarnate or desires to incarnate may not enter this physical vehicle which has consciousness until a point later in the gestation period, according to the needs and desires of that entity to experience more of the metaphysical realm prior to the birth or the need and desire to experience that which life within the womb may offer it. It is rarely the case that the entity defers entry into the physical vehicle until after it has been birthed into your illusion. However, this is possible and does occur in rare instances. Therefore, we can suggest that the point of entry into the physical vehicle created by the parental entities is quite various.

J asked if, at the moment of conception, the entity is a mind/body/spirit complex or is it just a body. Q’uo said there was no general response that could be accurate as in some cases even though there is only a body, the body has a consciousness. Q’uo also said that there was no standard time for the entity to enter into the body of the fetus. In 92.18, Ra alluded to this very situation:

The mind/body/spirit complex which is an infant has one highly developed portion which may be best studied by viewing the Significators of Mind and Body. You notice we do not include the spirit. That portion of a mind/body/spirit complex is not reliably developed in each and every mind/body/spirit complex. Thusly the infant’s significant self, which is the harvest of biases of all previous incarnational experiences, offers to this infant biases with which to meet new experience.

Is there a further query, my brother? 

J: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I’d like to go back and look at what you answered C earlier about when people get together they take on each other’s catalyst and work it as if it were their own. Just before Don Elkins died, I had a complete mental breakdown, and I have had several suicidal attacks since then, and it has occurred to me that what I am doing is getting well from the mental illness that Don had, as well as the one that I had. But I don’t know if that is in any metaphysical way correct. Could you comment?

I am Q’uo, and we shall attempt to speak to this query in two different modes. Firstly, the statement that the mated couple may take on themselves each the other’s catalyst is not exactly correct, for we wished to state in that response that the catalyst of either entity may be enhanced by previous experience which would include the resistance to catalyst. The effect this has upon each partner is to intensify the catalyst which each partner already possesses, for catalyst is of the subconscious mind, that is to say, is personal in nature, so that one entity cannot truly take upon itself another entity’s catalyst unless that other entity’s catalyst is already identical to its own. This is usually the case when an entity has a difficulty that it ascribes to another. It has, in truth, not taken the other’s catalyst, but has used its own in another manner or in a more intense manner.

To speak to the specificity of your query, we would suggest that the relationship which existed between the one known as Don and yourself was a relationship anomalistic enough in its nature that it would be quite difficult and indeed quite inadvisable to apply what might be learned from it to another relationship. For that bond which existed between the two of you was unique in that it had been tempered by many, many previous experiences. Thus, we may agree in general with your supposition that you have been completing much of that which was begun during the life of the one known as Don, however we would not extrapolate from that experience and suggest that this is common amongst entities within the third-density illusion.

Carla said that just before Don Elkins died she had a complete mental breakdown, and after he died she had several suicidal attacks, and she was wondering if she was getting well from the illness that both she and Don had before he died. Q’uo began the first part of their answer by saying that mates may share catalyst and use it in their own way which would be different for each. Then in the second part of Q’uo’s answer they said that Carla and Don had a unique relationship with each other that spanned many incarnations that did, indeed, allow Carla to work through the same lessons for both of them. In 106.13, Ra spoke about this unique relationship:

Questioner: Could Ra recommend what I should do to improve my state of health?

Ra: I am Ra. We tread most close to the Law of Confusion in this instance but feel the appropriateness of speaking due to potentially fatal results to the instrument. We pause to give the questioner and the scribe a few moments of space/time to aid us by stepping away from those distortions which cause us to invoke the Law of Confusion. This would be helpful.

[A few moments pause.]

I am Ra. We appreciate your attempts. Even confusion on your behalves is helpful. The questioner has, in the recent past, allowed a complete transfer] of mental/emotional pain from the questioner to the instrument. The key to this deleterious working was when the instrument said words to the effect of the meaning that it would be the questioner and be the strong one. The questioner could be as the instrument, small and foolish. The questioner, in full ignorance of the firm intent of the instrument and not grasping the possibility of any such energy transfer, agreed.

These two entities have been as one for a timeless period and have manifested this in your space/time. Thusly, the deleterious working occurred. By agreement in care and caution it may be undone. We urge the attention to thanksgiving and harmony on the part of the questioner. We may affirm the previous recommendation in general of the skills and the purity of intention of the one known as Bob, and may note the sympathetic illness which has occurred due to the instrument’s sensitivities.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: I have one on another subject. Thank you for that. That’s very interesting and informative. I observed two coincidences tonight. One was that while I was cleansing and doing my prayers, I did something I hadn’t done for a long time. I invoked the archangels, whom I’ve always loved. And when I sat down here and took a look around the watchtower—is the way I call it—took a look around the mental atmosphere in here, I saw the usual white, green far away of entities that are not good that would like to come in, and I got rid of them in an instant. But there was over arching all of this circle a beautiful golden dome, except that it did not have any end to it, it just went up and up and up. And it is very beautiful and I just wonder if that had anything to do with the archangels?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. We might suggest that you have perceived that which has always been so as a function of your own desire and invocation within your own being that this circle of seeking receive the added blessings of those who always watch from some distance, as you would say, such proceedings.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

T: This question doesn’t follow the line of thinking we’re pursuing this evening—yes, I guess it does in a way. When you have a relationship, specifically with a child/parent relationship, spouse type relationship, if you have a relationship where seemingly at a conscious functional level, one person in the relationship does not seem to be willing to face up to or even acknowledge that there is a problem or lesson to be learned or problems to be worked out in this relationship between the parents. Can this carry over for the half of this relationship that is trying, say it’s the child that is trying to work out the parent and they’re not acknowledged, does this carry any karmic problems into later lives for this child where this child, where what he is, is trying to work out the problems because the other entities would not agree to work out their problems, at least on a conscious level?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The lesson, whatever its nature, may be ignored in any degree by either entity, in which case this lesson shall be again chosen and faced and worked with to the point that it has offered complete harmony and balance, whether in this incarnation or another. For the entity that has given its fullest effort and has received little effort in return in the processing of the catalyst, the intention to process the catalyst fully will serve that entity well in that it shall find alternate opportunities, shall we say, to specifically apply that desire to learn and utilize that particular lesson or set of lessons. This is to say that the entity shall not find its opportunity ended or diminished because of the unwillingness of the other entity to engage in the processing of the catalyst, but shall instead find that there are other means by which this particular lesson might be learned, and the desire to learn this lesson will then, shall we say, ease the processing of the catalyst, whether that catalyst might be discovered within the current incarnation, which is most likely, or in a further incarnation where it shall be joined again with yet other catalyst.

T asked if a parent and child were working on the same problem in their relationship but only the child was actually working on the problem and the parent ignored it, would this create any karmic problem for the child. Q’uo said that in this case both the parent and the child would find other opportunities to work with this catalyst either in this life or in future incarnations. On November 11, 1984, Latwii used Don Elkins as an example of having missed signposts during his life which would be fulfilled in a future life:

But we may assure each that the transition shall be completed well and there shall be the clear experience of the one known as Don of his being the one Creator. This point of view shall so illumine the beingness of the one known as Don that the experiences of the previous life now ended shall be seen in a way that shall expose those signposts missed and shall offer the one known as Don the opportunity and the privilege of setting those signposts right by renewing the experience at another of what you call time.

Is there a further query, my brother?

T: So, just to take it a little further. One of the other entities recognizes that this is just a seemingly impossible situation, where the other will not do anything, and if he was trying to learn something to work this out, he’d probably be better off just dropping it than to try to get the other the other entity to work with him. Is that correct?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my brother. We would suggest that it would be most appropriate not to cease the attempt, but to leave the door, as you would say, open so that if there is a change of heart or attitude upon the part of the other entity, that the processing of the catalyst might begin again. However, we would suggest that the entity continue in its desire to learn this particular lesson and make itself available, perhaps upon a more passive level if it feels that it is presenting a stumbling block to the entity which refuses to share the catalyst.

Is there a further query, my brother?

T: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there a final query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we would take this opportunity to thank each for offering us the blessing of joining your circle of seeking this evening. We cannot thank each of you enough for this blessing, for we learn as you do within these sharing and blendings of vibrations. We learn of your great desire to know more of that which you call the truth, and we learn of your courage in persevering under circumstances which are obviously quite difficult to comprehend and to harmonize within the life pattern. And we learn that the desire to know the Creator grows strongly and brightly within each heart, as it does within our own. We thank you for sharing with us that which is of utmost importance to you, and we look, as you would say, forward to those opportunities when we again have the opportunity to blend our vibrations with yours.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this circle of seeking, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I made an errand run with my first stop being at PNC Bank where I made a cash withdrawal. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My third stop as at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some ice cream and non-food items. When I got back home I vacuumed the first floor of the house.

This afternoon I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the front yard into the area between the fish pond and the pet cemetery and covered them with a tarp to keep them from blowing away since all my garbage cans are already full of leaves from yesterday’s work.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 10

The Inner Room Of Thanksgiving And Prayer

I am the spirit of the consciousness of Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of that love.

We move through timelessness to the point of entry which is the opening of this instrument’s spirit to the inner room of thanksgiving and prayer. And we find that within the inner room of this child are many things that do not belong in such a holy closet.

Why is your meditation not set apart from the things that distress and worry you? When you enter the house of prayer, why do you not shut the door upon the tatters and barking dogs of mundane concern? Think you that by carrying them upon your back into holy places, you shall bless and sanctify petty concerns? Petty concerns shall never be sanctified but only transformed by a simpler and stronger understanding of the value and importance of love.

If you come to listen, to ask, and to be fed with holy things, then come with a light heart, empty arms, and no burden upon your back. For that which is spiritual will not grow in the soil of familiar problems but must have the soil of quiet, darkness and patience.

How patient is the King of Love! Though His heart is full, His empty hands stretch out to the spirit of one who prays in the house of silence.

Let your inner room, then, be such a house and let your opening into the realm of spiritual things be uncluttered by the concern that you are not wise enough to observe as a being under the dominion of a powerful and triumphant love. May you triumph by becoming less than your concerns, a humble and silent servant, open to love.

May that love bring you peace, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I would like to let everyone know that because of the devastating war going on in Israel and Palestine we have created a ritual of sending love, light, and peace to all of the soldiers and civilians on both sides of the war. This is the link that will give you the process of this peace ritual: https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/group-peace-visualization

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 9, 1989:

Concerns abortion and the ramifications to both the entity that is aborted, what type of difficulties or opportunities are presented by being aborted, and to the entities that are conducting the abortion, what sort of difficulties or opportunities are presented to the mother and the father that decide upon an abortion?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We were sometime in passing this instrument’s challenge, and we find her spirit to be very fierce. We are glad that we are the good guys. That is what we told her, finally, and it made her smile.

It is a great privilege to share your meditation this evening and to offer our opinions on a subject that you have a need to know the truth of. We will give you what truth we know. It is not infallible, and we may be mistaken, for we are pilgrims along the same road as are you, and though we have gone many steps beyond you, yet as we gaze ahead, we see only more to learn. Consequently, know that we give you the best information that we have, but we ask you not to regard this information as an authority, but rather look and listen and discriminate, for you will recognize your own truth. It will be as if you remember that which we say. When that occurs, when that resonance is felt, allow that thought to be a part of the good in your life, and we shall be most happy to have been of this humble service.

The question of abortion is much like all of the environmental questions of your ecosphere, that is, it is a question that would not be asked in any other density. In second density, propagation is natural and behavior instinctual. Seldom is an animal left to die because the mother is a rogue. When it happens, it happens. There are no abortionists for animals. If they have too many children, they simply die.

In the density to which you aspire at this time, the density of love and understanding and compassion, it would not occur to entities that were unsuited, to create new life, because each could see each other’s radiance and particular aura and configuration of spirit. When there is no need for behavior or communication, then things become far more simple.

It is within third density that the illusion is so thick that each of you is unable to link himself to all else in the universe. Consequently, such things as the acid rain, the various pollutants of farming and those of war, all of these things exist because you are in third density, and in third density the illusion is that there is the dark and the light and it is for you to make a choice. Many things are misdone by entities seeking their path. Many may feel that they have erred in some way, but there is no more of an ethical nature to aborting an unborn entity than there is in polluting the air, polluting the water, and above all, polluting the minds of those within your culture. In your culture, passion is veiled; true passion, true love, for creation, for the Creator and for each other are not things that are intensely felt, appreciated, given thanks for among the majority of your people.

The same abuse is given to the body of the animal which carries each entity about. Instead of cooperating with this animal and using the human skills of reasoning and communication to make wise decisions about mated relationships, there are games within games, shadows within shadows and communication is quite unclear among your peoples, as you well know. Therefore the basic moral turpitude which has been suggested to be the lot of those who abort children is unreal. It is part of the illusion.

The group question for this session concerned abortion and what effects abortion had on the entity that was aborted and the mother and father who sought the abortion. Q’uo began by suggesting that in our third density illusion we cannot see the unity of the creation and because of this we misperceive much about the world around us, and that there is no more error in abortion that in polluting the air, the water, or the minds of our culture, and I am assuming Q’uo is speaking of our mass media like television, newspapers, and magazines that could pollute the minds of our culture. Then Q’uo said that we also don’t make wise choices in our mated relationships by using clear communication, and we look at those who engage in abortion as wicked whereas abortion is actually just part of our third-density illusion. On July 12, 1989, Q’uo described this nature of our third density illusion:

It is the nature of the third-density illusion of your planetary sphere that within the illusion you will be taken beyond your limits and fail according to the conscious methods of judging among your peoples.

Now let us get to the meat of the question, that which interests us as well as you, and that is what dynamic moves an entity into birth, into incarnation, and in what way is this process guided and governed?

We wish each of you to know that you decided upon who your parents would be. Not only that, but as your higher self between incarnations, you drew the basic geographical map of the journey that you would take and the lessons that you would learn within this lifetime. This is why we encourage each never to be disappointed because you have seemingly failed. Because the only thing that is important is that you persist in attempting to communicate love and light. Causing it to be manifest is the gift of grace, not the hallmark of humanity.

Let us say that we deplore and find very sad the sleep that has overtaken most of the people that are, as this instrument would say, civilized. The basic numbness and indifference of the good entities within your density is quiet and low in profile. Your culture is oriented to examining in detail the negative emotions involved in murders, crashes and other disasters. Consequently, one becomes quite numbed to experience, and one does not feel deeply.

Furthermore, because of the—we search for a word—dinosaur nature of the established church, it does not meet the needs of entities who wish to have good moral guidance at this particular time in the face of a world which has no morals except those of capitalism, that is, the conservation of capital by all. Different of your nation states do this in different ways, but that is the somewhat grimy nature of your density. It is built upon something that does not exist, that is true money, and therefore all of the society which depends upon this for personal verification is annihilated. Entities for the most part have no moral guidance which reaches the heart, which engages the mind and which stirs the passion. All of the religions that are established are moribund, soon to die, and those that will be coming are now in the making. You live in the darkness before the dawn. And you see much that is soiled and spoiled and sad. And you ask yourself, “How could this be a good world and a good Creator?” when all of the suffering goes on.

Let us examine the process of choosing an incarnation. Each of you has had enough experience as an entity of third density that you have the capacity within this lifetime of becoming harvestable. That is the only reason that you are now here: to aid in the harvest and to be part of the harvest. This includes wanderers and natives alike.

We cannot give you passion and wisdom and integrity. We cannot urge careful morals or ethics in any mass way, because it is simply not a message which anyone wishes to hear. Those who attend your organized religions for the most part are sleeping through the opportunity for group worship. The children then, because the parents are not fed the bread of heaven, also starve at the same table, and we would urge each parent to have a daily worship and to feel very strongly and passionately about it, for this is the way your children learn what life is like within this illusion. You are their teacher, each parent, and you hopefully will desire to give passion and love and a sense of peace that you feel within your heart to those children that are yours to teach and rear and tend.

Between the incarnations, after you have finished healing that which was unbalanced in the incarnation previous, each of you has gone through the process of deciding what the lessons are that need to be learned in this lifetime. Often there will be a former relationship which was unbalanced and a particular person will be in the life pattern against all reason for the simple advantage of the opportunity to be able to balance previous distortions of love and free will. The parents are chosen not for their niceness or for their wealth by most entities who are seeking to learn and to serve. Many put themselves in very difficult positions where they will have to do a maximum of thinking, analyzing, going within, and depending upon the self. Many of you have undertaken ambitious case loads, shall we say, this semester, who are taking perhaps more classes than you should. All we can say to each of you is, please have faith, for your higher self knew better than you know now that which was needed for your spiritual growth.

When one picks one’s parents, one looks for the opportunity to learn the lessons of love that one has decided are still to be learned. In this instrument, for example, this instrument chose parents to whom she would be the parent and experienced a difficult childhood for such a young mother. This was, however, not because the instrument wished to hurt herself, but because the instrument wished to learn more carefully and fully to love without any expectation of return. Each of you can look back through the incarnation and see a pattern. The pattern is for you to transcend—not overcome, but balance.

Growth comes from within the self. Everything that is outside of the self, including the most intimate of relationships, is part of the illusion, is working within the illusion, is communicating within the illusion and will remain within the illusion. What must be done by the person who seeks to grow is to find what the entity in the relationship wants from you to determine that which can and cannot be done and to attempt as openly and as clearly as possible to communicate that of which you are capable and those things which you would wish of a relationship. May we note that this clear communication is very seldom seen among your people. We would suggest more of it for each of you, for each of you that has chosen a mate has chosen a mate as carefully as you have chosen the parents, and if you cannot learn the lesson that this mate offers and you move on to another, then you shall learn the lesson, but it will be more difficult so that it will get your attention completely and you will be moved to passion, to love, and to selfhood. What you are attempting to do is become a whole metaphysical being.

Then Q’uo said that before this lifetime we each have decided who our parents will be and what lessons we wish to learn, but most people have no awareness of this and, in general, live their lives without any kind of moral or spiritual guidance. Q’uo said that each of us has chosen lessons that will help us achieve the harvest to the fourth density, and our higher self has been part of this planning and knows what we need for becoming a spiritual seeker. They also said that an important part of this process is using clear communication with our mates as to what we wish to learn together for we are attempting to become a “whole metaphysical being.” On October 1, 2000, Q’uo described the whole metaphysical being:

 Focus upon devotion is a metaphysical or time/space focus, and when the choice of the seeker is first to move into devotion and devotional principles such as thanksgiving and praise there begins to be established a point of view or an attitude which automatically links the seeker with its own subconscious or metaphysical mind. And in this attitude or construct of metaphysical being the connections become stronger and information moves into the conscious mind ever more quickly with iteration and experience until you are responding to better information and are finding a less troubled outer existence where instead of being surprised by your limitations you are responding to them in loving awareness of them.

When a woman decides to have an abortion, what she is doing is taking away one opportunity for that particular entity to enter incarnation. It is sometimes a way in which painful relationships are balanced, for it is certainly abuse to be aborted, yet that same entity may well have needed this balancing so that that which you call karma would be balanced. Each entity within each fetus comes into the body at a different time. The more consciously entities live, the more that they will feel the call of the soul that awaits them and the more they will put personality into their thinking about the child to come. In this case, the bonding of mother and child is as flowing and instinctual as any other mammal’s carrying of her young. It is the human’s unfortunate aspect to be melancholy even when blooming to new birth.

Thus you choose; not for comfort in a lifetime, not for convenience, but for growth. It was each of your decision to experience that which you have experienced and that which you are experiencing now. If for some reason this situation becomes intolerable and you escape it, you will meet it again with a more fearsome face and a larger growl. The wolf at the door will come back again and again until you have turned into a lamb and have walked innocently and in a balanced fashion through the tattered remnants of what was a ruined relationship or a lack of love.

You see, my friends, it is possible to live one’s own life, not in relation to another’s life, but in essence and in depth the living of the life is a responsibility that must be seen to be completely one’s own. Only in this way can each entity experience itself as a living imperishable metaphysical being. You do realize, we are sure, that no souls are lost in the abortion. It is merely that there is a carelessness and lack of appreciation for the sanctity and beauty of life itself in one thoughtless enough to engender such a child and then remove it. Many are those who skate upon the pond of life, as we have said before, and never ever find the magical kingdom beneath that thin crust in water consciousness.

Now Q’uo said that some abortions may be the result of previous karma that must be balanced, but for entity that is conscious of the soul about to enter it, there is a bonding of mother and child that begins very naturally. However, Q’uo said that at some point in the process the lessons that have been chosen may seem too intense and the choice is made to escape the lessons through abortion. Q’uo also reminded us that no soul is lost in an abortion, but the abortion is the result of failing to appreciate the sanctity and beauty of life. On October 3, 1982, Latwii said there were repercussions to abortion:

The ability of entities upon your planet to utilize what you have called abortion adds yet another variable to entities which are deciding upon the means of relating one to another and of beginning the incarnation. Within your illusion are an infinite variety of such considerations which must be taken into account by each entity before the incarnation. Thus, the addition of one more variable does have its effect, and this effect may or may not be profound. It is, however, considered by each entity before the incarnation is begun and does, as does each consideration, have certain repercussions which then must be balanced.

Even though we say there is no moral or ethical problem about abortion, we do recommend that an entity who is pregnant go through a careful process of listening within to the intuitions and feelings of the heart. This deeper mind, this intuitive mind, is a medium through which may be transmitted answers to such thorny questions as, “Do I keep this baby?” It is at that level that the unborn child that has agreed to stay with you communicates with you, at all times, before birth and after birth, the surface communication being important, but the very deep communication always being there. So you do no one harm by aborting the body of an unborn one, but yourself, in that you did not value a relationship which, had you faith, you would perhaps have felt was acceptable under whatever circumstances there needed to be to allow a soul which had chosen you to be given the opportunity to experience you.

Now, there are guards put against childbirth for some. This is due to their having come to this plane for other reasons. These entities will not have children, but will not have the decision of abortion either. If an entity which has come here only for a spiritual path conceives, the child is simply spontaneously aborted, as the body’s consciousness already knows that the mission of this particular entity does not include the luxury of loving a child, but rather the entity must face the fact that that work to which he gives his love and labor is his child.

I feel that there is some disappointment because we have neither said that it was good or bad to abort a child, except of course, in terms of the consciousness of the self. If there is anything that you can take away from this particular evening, it is that you are part of all that there is, and the more consciously that you relate to everything and everyone, the more honest, straightforward, open and clear you are, regardless of catalyst, the more you may become an interest for the Creator’s light to shine in a very dim world. You cannot do this of your human self, therefore we ask you to go into meditation at least once a day for however long you can, placing yourself in the presence of eternity and the Eternal One Who is Creator of All.

As you go through your day, retain the resonance of eternity in each present moment if you can, and you shall do precisely that which you and the Father have set out for you to do. It seems to be a muddled and imperfect world. It is, in fact, a nearly perfect illusion, and when you leave the chemical body you have used during this incarnation and are again a being of light, you will gaze back and thank that body that suffered on your behalf and died for giving you the opportunity to feel so intensely, that you discovered a passion that was stronger than death. That passion is the love of the one infinite Creator. When you feel the orgasm of your sexual union, you then understand the Creator’s love for you. It is that intense as a steady state, and for that reason you can see why we find the word love to pale and not be adequate to convey what the Creator’s love truly is. You can only imitate that love by returning it.

Now Q’uo suggested that if a woman is pregnant and is in doubt about whether to keep the baby that she enter into her deeper mind where she can access her intuitions and ask if she should keep the baby. Q’uo said that the unborn child will likely communicate its desire, and if the mother decides not to keep the baby she is the one who will not take the opportunity for growth. Then Q’uo apologized for not giving a clear answer as to whether abortion is good or bad but dependent upon various circumstances. So Q’uo suggested that one who is considering abortion meditate daily to find the light of the Creator within and shine that light as clearly as possible in all life decisions. Q’uo finished their thoughts on abortion with an analogy of how each of us will leave our bodies at the end of our lives and thank them for suffering in so many ways to give us the opportunity of seeking the love of the Creator and for feeling the love of the Creator for us. On November 18, 1984, Hatonn gave a beautiful description of the purpose of the human body:

In your illusion, may we say that you tend to undervalue your contributions to others. The least of those among you contributes in a vital way. It is not a conscious contribution in many cases, but the contribution of flesh within which a consciousness has been placed, so precious that to think it could be broken as the human body is broken is almost not to be thought, not to be accepted, not to be tolerated. This precious consciousness, you say to yourself, cannot possibly be part or parcel of this flesh. Yes, my friends, you are inextricably bound about the cells of your third-density chemical body. All your acts will be those of men incarnate, men who pour out the blood of heart or mind or will or body without knowing the truth. The chances for courage, for polarizing, for serving, for allowing your flesh to become bread for others, are enormous. How little you value yourselves or your circumstances compared to the reality as we see it. If someone gave you a perfect stone—this instrument’s mind does not know precious stones well; we see in her mind diamonds, rubies, emeralds—someone gave you a perfect emerald, and then told you to swallow it and wear it within your body, you would think that man to be mad. And yet that is your consciousness—perfect jewel, a jewel of perfect shape. Not tossed thoughtlessly into a body, but placed with care, with love, with wisdom, into flesh that you may pour out your life beautifully if you wish, having nothing more to go on than deep-felt feeling that this is your road.

We would now transfer this channel, with thanks to this instrument, so that questions may be asked. I am known to you as Q’uo, and I leave this instrument in love and light.

This morning I went outside and once again used my backpack blower to blow leaves into position so that I may mulch them into leaf dust with my big mower. It was once again pretty windy, so I was not able to get leaves in every part of the yard blown where I wanted them.

This afternoon I went outside and used Venus to mulch the leaves that I had been able to blow into position in the back yard, but I decided to put the leaves from the area of the pet cemetery and fish pond into the garbage cans that were emptied this morning by the yard waste pickup.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 9

Love One Another

I am of the principle of the love of Jesus Christ. I greet you in that full consciousness which is the Logos: love.

Love one another, my friends. The Comforter may comfort as it can. But it is only a voice which speaks in the darkness of the interior of the mind. It is only heard when faith and hope allow the inner ear to hear.

Be of good cheer, therefore and be comforted in the knowledge that it is completely up to you to ask for comfort, wisdom or succor, or to refrain and attempt living upon the energy of humankind, which is finite.

You will find that as you open yourself to the comfort that is behind the shut door of your meditative heart, you will more and more desire to be in that state of consciousness which is aware of unconditional and infinite love. All the turmoils of humankind are born and pass away, but your spirits shall be comforted in joy, in hope, in faith, and in peace, as you request it, as you desire it, and as you have the grace to accept it.

We wish you infinite love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I would like to let everyone know that because of the devastating war going on in Israel and Palestine we have created a ritual of sending love, light, and peace to all of the soldiers and civilians on both sides of the war. This is the link that will give you the process of this peace ritual: https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/group-peace-visualization

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 3, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries. Is there a query at this time?

Questioner: I have one. To continue the question of the paradox just a little bit further. In the direction now of spiritual practice, when one meditates there seems to be a fine line between making an effort and letting go. Can you speak to the question of what the most effective way of meditating is, whether it involves the use of imagination or simply not thinking?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of the query, my brother. We cannot say that there is one means of meditating that is, in general, better than another, for each individual will approach the meditative state and the balance point of which you speak in an unique fashion. The ability to prepare the self inwardly, whether it be by the imagery or the mental ritual that is constructed for personal use or by any other means is the active phase, shall we say, of this preparation. The entity which wishes to set the table, shall we say, must needs prepare the self in whatever manner has meaning to that self. This is determined by the experience of the entity. There are a variety of ways in which an entity may go about this, and each may discover that the final choice is not so final when refinements are discovered.

We do not mean to, shall we say, dodge the query, but mean to express the nature of the flexibility that the seeker has at its disposal for preparing to open the inner eye to a field of vision and experience which is not available to the entity without such preparation within the meditative state. Thus, we recommend experimentation, choice, dedication, perseverance and, as the theme of this meditation has been, the ability to remain open to new ideas and possibilities. Thus, the seeker shall find that the experience is one which will offer itself—that is, the seeker—the continuing possibility for growth. There is much within each seeker which remains hidden and which through the perseverance and dedication to regularity will be revealed as the seeker [is] ready.

Thus, we find the most important point to emphasize in this regard is the dedication or the regularity in the practice of the meditation and the motivation for such meditation, that motivation being most helpful when the heart of the desire is to seek union with the Creator. When such dedication and regularity are a firm portion of the foundation of the seeker in its daily round of activities, there will be made available to the seeker those opportunities for refining the process which are appropriate at a certain time determined by an inner rhythm that is a great portion of the mystery which forms not only the larger portion of the Creator but the heart of the seeker as well.

Questioner asked what the best way of meditating was, whether it was the use of imagination or simply not thinking. In general Q’uo suggested that the best way to meditate was unique to each person. Then Q’uo recommended that the seeker experiment with various ways to meditate on a regular basis and suggested that there was a refining process that the seeker would discover that comes from the mystery that is not only a part of the Creator but is the heart of the seeker as well. On August 2, 1987, Q’uo described one type of a silent meditation that might be useful to the seeker:

We may suggest to each that a silent meditation be carefully planned and immaculately executed, a meditation which asks no questions and seeks no answers, a meditation which is rich in nothingness, in darkness, in stillness of thought, for archetypal days are with you more and more. This work has nothing to do with any mental processes of the conscious mind, and it is perhaps one of the more exacting types of meditation.

Is there another query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: So, basically, what you’re saying is we’re like a block of stone and the friction of experience and catalyst chips away everything that’s not an elephant, to use the old adage. Basically, is that what you’re saying?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. This is indeed a large portion of the concept which we wish to convey, however, this analogy is one which describes primarily the subconscious nature of experience for any entity within your illusion, for whether the entity seeks in a conscious fashion or not, there is yet the catalyst of each day which does indeed chip ever so slowly away at that which is not desired according to the overall plan of the incarnation.

However, at some point, each seeker will discover the beginning working of this process of evolution and will seek to accelerate this process in order that it might, in a conscious fashion, take part in the creation of the statue, shall we say, that is the self, the truer self, the ideal self, within certain boundaries or limitations, those limitations being set by your third-density illusion. Thus, the seeker seeks to become co-creator of that which it is and that which it experiences and seeks to place the chisel in just the right location and seeks to strike it with just the right force.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes, I just have one more. I have been working with a feeling of low self-esteem forever, since I started being disabled, and I wonder if you have any comments concerning work in the area of reprogramming early childhood misconceptions which one has mistakenly brought into the present as biases. How does one most easily go about the reprogramming process? I have as yet been relatively unsuccessful.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that you have at your disposal techniques which are effective in this regard, those being the working with the subconscious mind through dream states and through the keeping of what you have called the daily journal and the analyzing of the fruits of each endeavor in order to bring into a synthesized whole the overall picture of the incarnational pattern. It is well to have one with whom this type of activity might be shared so that there might be the comment and criticism that expands the viewpoint and enriches the conclusions.

Thus, we find again that the beginning of such activities and the perseverance on a regular basis is most helpful in this regard.

Carla asked Q’uo what the best way of working with childhood misconceptions that have resulted in her having to work with low self esteem all of her life. Q’uo said that working with her subconscious mind via recording her dreams in a journal on a regular basis and then sharing these dreams with another person would aid in interpreting the symbolism of the dreams. On September 4, 2005, Q’uo gave a detailed description of how we may work with dreams:

One of the ways that is safest for the individual to use in exploring the deeper reaches of the unconscious or subconscious mind is an investigation of one’s dreams. Such an investigation may begin very modestly, but it is a type of investigation, which if pursued with persistence and stability, tends to deepen and begin to yield insight and an ever enlarging and more sturdy point of view from which to look at the self and creation in general.

In terms of the mechanics of working with dreams, we would encourage the habit of keeping a small flashlight of some kind, a pad of paper, and a writing instrument at hand before going to bed. If one does awaken during the night with the memory of a dream, one is able, without waking oneself up totally, to turn on this small and non-intrusive light that gives one the opportunity to write down one’s memories.

It is not necessary at the time of writing those memories down to work with them. It is enough simply to record the thoughts and then to turn off the flashlight, put down the paper and pen, and go back to sleep. It is, however, helpful at some point during the next waking period to go back over these hastily jotted notes, perhaps typing them into a more lasting record and journaling about them in any way that you find yourself wishing to do.

It is perfectly acceptable to use the rational, intellectual mind with its analytical capabilities. It is equally acceptable, and to be encouraged, to help the mind to run off of the logical tracks on which it so often stays due to old habit, and to invite the quirky combinations of thoughts and the insights that come at one from sideways when one allows what this instrument calls the “mind sagging in the middle,” so that points that seemingly are far distant from each other are suddenly brought close and new connections are made. We speak specifically of that seeming dichotomy between the so-called left brain and right brain.

Allow the dreaming process to create opportunities for you to link those two ways of thinking as you contemplate your dreams with insight as well as logic. Encourage your mind to become more and more integrated with itself and able to move with more and more facility between that logic of space/time and that insight of metaphysical space or time/space. You are a dweller in two worlds and the dreaming process helps you to investigate that second world, which is not easily available to be seen in the haunts of humankind.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No, Q’uo, thank you very much and thank you for coming.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there a further query at this time?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we are most grateful, once again, to each for inviting our presence. We cannot thank you enough for this honor. We look, as you would say, forward to each gathering in which we may participate as your brothers and sisters seeking the source of the same mystery which each here finds the center of the life pattern. We shall leave this group at this time in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I removed the dead flowers killed by recent frosts and put them in the garbage can. Then I took both the garbage can and recycling bin into the garage to do a purging of items I no longer need and put recyclables into the recycling bin and the non-recyclable things into the garbage can.

This afternoon I ran some errands with my first stop at Walmart’s to pick up a ream of paper for the printer. Then I stopped at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My next stop was at AutoZone to pick up some 2-cycle engine oil. My last stop was at Walgreen’s to pick up an emery board.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 8

Come, Holy Spirit

I am the spirit of the Son of Man. I am the consciousness of divine love. I come to you and I come to all in every moment, saying, “Comfort! Comfort be with each.”

The principle of love is that which touches and comforts, nurtures and nourishes. Yet comfort and love are meek and will humbly wait to be asked to enter the heart, to heal the soul, and to bind up the wounds of sorrow and time.

We ask that you say to the spirit of love, “Come, Holy Spirit, enter the hearts of your faithful.” This invitation is your comfort to love itself, for when love asks for love, the whole creation sings with joy.

May peace and comfort be yours, for they are yours for the asking, whoever you are, whatever you believe. It matters naught but only that you have faith in love.

In that love and in that peace we bless you, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I would like to let everyone know that because of the devastating war going on in Israel and Palestine we have created a ritual of sending love, light, and peace to all of the soldiers and civilians on both sides of the war. This is the link that will give you the process of this peace ritual: https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/group-peace-visualization

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 3, 1989:

Has to do with two concepts, the first of which being the necessity for remaining open-minded and willing to process new information and to change as we travel on our journey back into unity with the Creator, and the second concept has to do with the individuality that we construct that is our personality, the core of ourselves, which makes choices, makes decision, and is open. We would like to have some information concerning the relationship between the somewhat fixed and stable nature of the personality that makes these choices and the ability to remain open and flexible so that one can change and become a new being and eventually become more unified with the Creator.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet each of you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator and thank each for requesting our service which we may humbly perform, for in our life experiences at this time, our service to those upon your sphere who wish to hear the words of light and truth is our way of progressing and refining our understanding of love, compassion and wisdom. Therefore, you are being of great service to us, as well as to yourselves, by pondering those questions that have substantive meaning without regard to time or space.

The question that you ask this day seems to contain a paradox. This means that the questioner is on the right track, for the spiritual quest has as its signal virtue continual paradox. In this case, the paradox is “How does one be oneself while one is becoming oneself? How does one be, yet be open to change?”

Firstly, we would like to express that beyond any control of your own, you are. You have no choice but to be what you are, for you are an imperishable metaphysical entity, a form of light. The beauty of your vibrations is unique to each. The balance of service is unique to each, yet each is beautiful and cherished by us. And we thank all who seek the truth and turn their face towards the mystery of infinity and the Creator’s Love.

Each of you existed as a definite consciousness before the world you dwell upon was created and each will continue infinitely to be a consciousness for many millions of years into your future, as you would call it. Indeed, the infinity of our consciousness stretches before us too, although our teachers express to us that they are aware of those entities which have gained enough spiritual gravity or solidity or crystalline nature, shall we say, where compassion is enough perfected that the entity moves into the consciousness of the one Creator. That consciousness, then, is lost, but informs the one Creator and is part of the active principle of the one Creator.

By far the greater part of the Creator is not active but resides in a state of Love, which force created all that there is, and which force each of you seeks to bind into your lives more and more naturally, more and more authentically, more and more deliberately. The thrust of this thought is that you cannot help being. It is within you, unquestionable, from our viewpoint, as to what vibratory complex each of you is. We realize this is not available to you in this illusion, but we assure you that you are imperishable ones and that there is no mistake that one may make that could eliminate the beingness, the consciousness of the self.

The group question for this session was how does one be oneself while one is becoming oneself? How does one be, yet be open to change? As a prelude to answering the question Q’uo gave a brief background as to the nature of each seeker as having existing before the world was and also that which will exist for millions of years into the future. They said that we could not help but exist as a being and that we are seeking, more and more, to partake of the creative principle of the Creator which is Love. On September 13, 1981, Hatonn described the nature of our being:

One may learn how to make the illusion work. What one may not purchase for any price from outside oneself is the knowledge of why things are as they are, why we are here, and what is the nature of our being.

To look in the mirror is to see an infinitely small part of the creation. This, my friends is, to the best of our knowledge, a creation made entirely of Love. As you view yourself, you may see a tiny portion of an infinite Love and yet, within that image in the mirror, there lie depths through which you may only see given a great deal of desire, time and discipline, for that which you seek within yourself, that which is the true heart of Love, is locked within you like a seed within the earth or a babe in the womb, and it is through quietness, confidence and meditation that you may let this plan germinate, this babe be born. This entity is that part of yourself that is more fully the original Thought of the Creator—the original Thought of Love.

Now, let us turn our minds to the phenomenon of learning. Any learning experience is a kind of ordeal. The spiritual learning experience is one of a great deal of catalyst and change, for the spiritual seeker who attempts to accelerate the rate of his spiritual growth will discover more and more how uncomfortable change can be. So it may be that, in the darker moods, one wonders whether one is spiritual enough, whether one has stayed upon the road to the kingdom that awaits. One questions oneself.

We ask each to pull back the focus of attention, the point of view, as though you were a camera moving farther and farther away. First you see your entire block, then the entire planet, and then you are so far away that you can only see the Sun. This is a point of view worth attempting. The discomforts of the spiritual journey are all linked to the desire to change. It is a blessing to one who serves others when that entity understands that that which he is to do is prepared for him and sits in front of his face.

Thus, no one needs to use an enormous amount of discrimination in order to do the work necessary to make changes necessary in consciousness. The trap of those with spiritual pride is that they would rate dramatic services to others above the less dramatic services and those who render them.

This will never advance the cause of lightening the consciousness of Earth. Rather, it is a series of paradoxes which we suggest you consider—that is, the middle way, the via media—for walking in balance with the life about one in service to others. Non-dramatic services to others—those who tend the child, those who sweep the hearth, those who work in jobs that do not seem to have satisfaction in them—are just as capable as the most experienced seeker of bringing into manifestation within their creation the love of the infinite One.

Now, the paradox between judgment and tolerance or open-mindedness is solved only by faith; that is, the faith that we are, that each is, that oneself is an I AM. All you are responsible for, in that regard, is learning who you are. Many there are who get so caught up in spiritual growth that they do not ever establish for themselves the roots of their faith. Consequently, they move from one spiritual practice to another, never getting the satisfaction and consolation of spiritual guidance and service to others in community.

Thus, we would say it is well to know the self well, to know what the physical vehicle that moves each about needs, and to provide it carefully, to treat that instrument kindly, for it carries you about. Then one may turn one’s face to the changing, assured of who one is, for in changing, you are not changing in kind but in refinement of quality.

Therefore, the open mind, the attempt of new things, will, of course, bring changes within the conscious mind and the programming of the subconscious mind as well, and this, as always, will be experienced as times of discomfort, frustration, sorrow, anger or some other negative stress. From within the illusion that is the picture that the eyes carry to the brain. This is not an accurate picture, for in retrospect one may always discover that where there was catalyst for change and the difficulty of changing in order to be of more service to others, there has also been the balance of learning that intensifies during traumatic events.

Thus, each seeking entity must do the work of discrimination and judgment for himself. Let no one express truth to you in a way which is infallible, but rather allow that which is infallible, the Creator-self within, to have constant daily opportunities to center and tabernacle with the one infinite Creator.

You would be very startled, my children, if you knew what your true spiritual temperature is. None of you knows himself to the extent that we do, simply because we may read you. We may see your vibrations and your balances in their uniqueness, in their crystalline purity. Within the illusion you do not see a crystal forming in consciousness, but rather you see lumps of bone and muscle and sinew, hair and various features, things very much touchable, and it is almost impossible to experience, without experiencing through the senses of the physical body with relationship to the physical world, the pain of change. In actuality, when the pain is occurring, frequently this is the time of the greatest step forward for an entity. The challenge of the catalyst has focused the attention and, therefore, the seeker is more ready to welcome change in terms of increasing one’s polarity in service to others.

Now Q’uo began to discuss the nature of learning is the experiencing of change. They said that we change according to how we offer our service to others, and this service is that which is basically in front of our face as the everyday life that we lead. Then Q’uo said that with the faith that we are all the Creator we also need to know how we express that beingness in our life paths. We all have pre-incarnatively programmed learning that will expand our experience of ourselves that will often involve lessons that are traumatic, and we will have to determine what those lessons have to teach us. Q’uo said that daily meditation would be the way to make this determination as difficult lessons often take us further on our spiritual journeys. In 48.8, Ra described the process that we utilize before our incarnation to learn certain lessons that will produce spiritual growth:

When the entity becomes aware in its mind/body/spirit complex totality of the mechanism for spiritual evolution, it, itself, will arrange and place those lessons and entities necessary for maximum growth and expression of polarity in the incarnative experience before the forgetting process occurs. The only disadvantage of this total free will of those senior entities choosing the manner of incarnation experiences is that some entities attempt to learn so much during one incarnative experience that the intensity of catalyst disarranges the polarized entity and the experience thus is not maximally useful as intended.

Now, we realize that none of you knows precisely how to know the self. May we suggest that especially in the mated relationship, the mate which is upon the spiritual quest with the other mate functions as teacher and mirror so that that which one hears comes into the biocomputer of the mind, is filtered through subconscious biases and thus becomes a rather distorted reflection of yourself. When conversation takes place, the two seeking entities are seeking to aid each other, to comfort each other, to console each other and to learn together. Thus, they become honest; they become malleable to speaking clearly on any subject.

Within your culture many subjects are considered inadvisable to dwell upon. The spiritual is a matter of life, and, in this illusion, death, for that which you do within this illusion, the choices that you make here, will in turn affect your being at the harvest, and the more polarized towards the light you have become, the more loving, the more compassionate, the more accepting, the more peaceful, the more joyful, the more light you may accept in joy and use. And in that term, light, we do not mean simply the photon, but rather the energy that is the Creator’s. The photon is the manifestation of that great original Thought of Love.

So, we would suggest that each examine the portions of experience which have caused each to feel an emotion, for emotion is a very deep and purified kind of thinking. As one gazes into one’s prejudices and biases, one has the opportunity to attempt to balance them, to acknowledge the paradox, the opposite, and to see that they are two sides of one thing, that all is one, that there is no separation. The practical difficulty which we find this instrument feels is so, is that there is a great deal of material which refers to philosophical and spiritual principles. Much of that material has been mixed with specific material concerning what this instrument would call eschatological concerns.

We do not deny in any way that there is the possibility of planetary disaster upon your sphere. However, we do suggest that the true nature of the New Age is that which comes after the death in this illusion and the walking of the path of light until one has found the light that one can accept the best and enjoy most fully. We ourselves are on that same path and we ourselves have a great deal of refining yet to do, for to understand how to blend complete compassion and wisdom is the study of much, much experience. Where you are now is in a decisive blink of an eye. The little life that you experience, great and whole and wonderful as it is, is very short, and at the end is the death. And those who dwell upon the last days and the New Age are receiving much information from the feeling portion of the subconscious having to do with the fear of death. Although it is inevitable and therefore seemingly uninteresting, it becomes a vital concern for entities as they approach the limit of the life experience and prepare to go on.

Now, one may polarize and continue changing in any circumstance or condition. We suggest that you see the balance and walk the middle road, using your discrimination after you have heard the ideas that are presented to you, not judging ahead or during the experience, but allowing each learning experience its own shape and space and color, allowing it to sink into that portion of the mind which is far more accurate, that portion of the mind which lies below the level of conscious thought. In meditation daily this is done, and it is well done to be daily in meditation.

But who you are is how you behave, and service to others is not pleasing others. These are thoughts to be pondered. Many attempt to polarize towards light by helping and pleasing people. The question that needs to be asked by each is this: “Has this person asked for my help? And am I able to respond?” If you can find no spiritual principle, yet you can help another by refraining from judgment and offering sympathy. If your advice is asked and you not know what to say, that is acceptable. You do not have to please the entity by making a guess at what the trouble might be. The goal, you see, is to be in a state of consciousness within which is preserved the feeling of unity with the one Creator, the experience of tabernacling in meditation, the experience of opening the inner door by meditation. Many times learnings will come to a seeker through dreams, daydreams or visions. These should never be ignored, but should be valued as deep indicators of who you are.

A paradox, too, is the result of a life lived in faith and service, for as one serves, one is served a dozen-fold, a hundred-fold, a thousand-fold. As one gives, one receives in plenty. Thus, the paradox is that compassionate feelings and actions in service to other entities by loving, by supporting, by sharing or by a brief smile to a stranger, these things commend you as a servant of the one infinite Creator, yet what you receive back from the creation is a thousand-fold that which [you] have expressed.

Now Q’uo said that none of us really knows how to know ourselves, but if we have a mate we can attempt clear communication that provides a mirror of ourselves within our mates that gives us more of an idea of who we are. Q’uo went on to say that another way we can get a clearer idea of who we are is to look at the deep emotions that we feel, and through balancing them with their opposites we expand our knowledge of who we are. Q’uo also suggested that meditation is a good way to use to evaluate the worth of walking the middle road of these pairs of deep opposite emotions to realize more of who we are. Q’uo said that our goal should be to arrive at a state of unity with the one Creator and seek to serve the Creator by loving and serving the people that we meet in our daily lives. As we are able to do this, what we receive in return is far more than what we have given. On September 5, 2010, Carla gave a talk where she revealed how we can know who we are as spiritual beings:

So, the Creator chose to know Itself. And we choose what? To know ourselves. We know that we are creatures of Love because, logically speaking, how can we be anything else? There’s nothing but Love. There’s nothing but the Logos. There’s nothing but the unconditional Love of the infinite Creator. And we who are infinite and eternal beings have come into these very limited bodies. Why? Because we are this incredible way-point between eternity and all the forces of eternity, and the here and the now and the present and the limited and this wonderful world we have come to experience.

Thus, we suggest that each begin to become aware of the very core of the being that is joyful and merry and full of passion. You see, my children, when we say that we greet you in love and in light, we are only using words which are inadequate, because there is no word in your language for the extreme amount of infinite passion the one infinite Creator has for each of its parts of consciousness that are active and teaching the Creator about Itself.

Seek that inner fire. Seek to deepen the ability to worship the Creator, to give adoration, praise and thanksgiving to the Creator for all things, including those challenges which have been set up that you may learn what you intended to when you came here. You shall never be rid of your selfhood. It is only possible to be unaware of it. The practice of honesty with the self is the cornerstone of this basically analytical process.

In the case of the questioner and in many other cases the amount of learning that has been programmed into this incarnation is the maximum amount that the higher self felt that each was capable of in this density. Many entities, therefore, experience great difficulty and have designed that in place in the life experience for the purposes of learning to serve without expectation of return. This instrument has a great deal of trouble remembering that it is a service to receive, and we would remind each that those who receive are as blessed as those who give. The blessedness lies in the compassion between the two people. That which is done grudgingly is not going to polarize your consciousness towards the positive, so if it is impossible to serve cheerfully, it is well to move into solitude and meditation until one has the balance back, until one’s faith is firm, until one no longer feels despair.

You have a choice to make, my children, in this incarnation, since this is the last probable incarnation for each within this density. You have the opportunity and the ability to move into the next [density]…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

…yet you have some work to do in this incarnation in order that you may be harvestable as a service-to-others entity. Thus, the illusions of illness, limitation, financial ruin and any other life disturbing patterns may well not be disasters at all, but, rather, marvelous challenges that enable you to polarize thousands of times more quickly than we ever could within our density, which is the fifth, or any other density besides your own. The third density is the intensive density. It is the density of making the choice to serve the Creator by serving the self or to serve the Creator by serving others.

So Q’uo said that we should be aware of how much the Creator loves all of us for providing It a way to know Itself, and we should give praise and thanksgiving to the Creator for all things in our lives including the challenges that give us an opportunity to know ourselves as we hoped to as we planned our incarnations. Q’uo reminded us that our work in this third density is to polarize our consciousness enough to become a service-to-others entity and make the harvest to the fourth density, but often this is done through traumatic experiences. These experiences give us the opportunity to polarize our consciousness more powerfully when we are able to serve the Creator more fully as we meet the challenges of our incarnations. In 34.14, Ra noted the value of trauma in our lives:

It is to be noted that among your entities a large percentage of all progression has as catalyst, trauma.

Now, you came, each of you, into the life experience with the biases which we encourage you to discover for yourself. You may then evaluate these biases for their polarity in service to others and in mutual love. Remember the great passion that is the Logos. You have been created with that steady state which you experience during orgasm in the sexual sense. This is the intensity of the Creator’s love for each, and to be oneself in fact and not in conjecture, one needs to open oneself carefully and gaze with interest and an acuity of observation upon each and every situation, looking for the opportunity to serve and to share love.

As you understand your biases better, so may you work upon increasing the biases you feel worthwhile and decreasing the biases you feel not worthwhile. You may change your own consciousness, but again we say, your becoming is illusory, for in the ultimate sense there is no time, there is no space—there is the present moment which is infinite. Very few entities are able to dwell in the present moment, but, rather, they are chastising themselves or congratulating themselves on that which is passed or worrying about that which is to come. It is well to remember that each moment intersects eternity. We ask each to release the fear of living in this illusion, to release the fear of leaving the illusion, and to become content with whatever conditions prevail, accepting any condition as agreeable, even though it may seem to be a serious challenge or difficulty.

You are not alone, as you work towards becoming more of what you are. Basically, you are uncovering who you are as you refine yourself, for the original self that is your consciousness is the consciousness of the Creator, that great, intense, passionate love which calls into being the photon and from that point all manifestations of your illusion.

There is much to be said for sheer persistence and the refusal to rebuke the self, for the more unsparing you are of the self in the attempt to realize the Creator-self within in manifestation within the illusion, the more difficulties you will experience. Allow the fact that this is an illusion to sink deeply into the mind. Think of all that there is. It is made, we are aware that your scientists have said, of atomic and subatomic particles and combinations thereof. However, there has never been a sighting of an actual mass, merely the track of the energy has been found by your scientists. They see at first-hand the depth of the illusion.

May you too realize that you are a mind and body and spirit composed of complex energy patterns, that you are sensitive to the environment in which you dwell and the universe in which you find yourself. We believe that we have said what we wished to about this topic, although we are most happy to answer further questions. The art of becoming is not an art that is won easily. It is a craft, and you are the artist. It is a play, and you the actor. Know yourself as well as you can, and then listen open-mindedly to all information and put it to the test within and within you will come the answer, for you will recognize your own truth. Each entity has a slightly different path to the Creator. What is functional for one entity may be useless to another, with the exception of the practice of silent meditation and listening.

Q’uo said that each of us has programmed biases that we hope to see manifested in our incarnations, and we should persistently attempt to discover these biases as we move through our lives. They suggested that we focus on biases that are of service to others and that in our service we attempt to remain in the present moment rather than focusing on the past or the future. Q’uo said that ultimately our consciousness is the consciousness of the Creator which each of us expresses in a unique way. On May 23, 1999, Q’uo reminded each of us that we are unique portions of the Creator:

Truly, the mystery of deity is wrapped up in this question of how to be one’s true self. For as the one known as Jim read from the Law of One material earlier this day, each is the Creator. And the challenge before all living in illusion is how to become more aware of that personhood as infinite Creator.

The workings of what this instrument would call God and men are as complex and as assorted and varied as the grains of sand upon the shore. It is difficult to comprehend the myriad numbers of sparks of the Creator that are, just as you or we, attempting to be their true selves.

We wish you the joy of knowing, even in pain and difficulty and distress, that work in consciousness that you have planned for yourself is being accomplished fruitfully, beneficially and steadily, so that each persistent and faithful pilgrim along the way shall, by conscious decision and intention, live more and more the life of the instant which is eternal, bringing infinity into the illusory experience, bringing the vast point of view into the mind which is saddled with many words and numbers.

We wish you to be extremely nurturing of yourselves as you perceive failure within the illusion. You have no idea of how you are doing within the illusion. You will not know how you have done until you have left the heavy chemical illusion that you experience and are once again able to look at the life experience as part of what this instrument would call the Akashic Record, turning the pages of the life, gazing at the tapestry one has woven of love and sorrow and service and selfishness. May each weave the most beautiful tapestry he can. May each look to the life experience as to a poem, an attempt to write each line with grace and beauty. In this you are supported and are never alone, for the higher self, under any guise which you wish to call this energy, is with you as comforter and nurturer, and when despair does overtake the soul, we ask that you suspend all judgment, all discrimination of the self, and move into an awareness that one is being held in the infinite arms of the infinite Creator, that one is, in truth, nurtured.

We thank this instrument and would at this time transfer to the one known as Jim, leaving this instrument in love and light. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

This morning I went over to the Presbyterian Church and cast my vote for Andy Beshear to be re-elected the governor of Kentucky. Then I came back home and began blowing the leaves back into areas where I could get to them with Venus and mulch them. I got the leaves blown into place and then took a break for lunch.

This afternoon I went back outside and mulched the leaves with Venus.

Today is the 39^th anniversary of the passing of Don Elkins. I only knew him for six years, but in that time Don, Carla, and I were honored to have experienced the contact with those of Ra.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 7

Inner And Outer Weather

I am the spirit of the living Christ, the full consciousness of that love which is Jesus, and in that divine love I greet you.

Outer circumstances often do not seem appropriate to the inner feelings of those who awaken to the day. Perhaps the heart is heavy and the sky blue, or the soul full of cheer and the day weeping and chill. This is an expression of the divine inclusiveness of all apparent states of what you may call the weather within and without.

Just as the Earth needs both the sun and the rain, so the fertile soil of your soul needs both the gift of joy and the ordeal of difficulty. It is in the times of ordeal that the gifts planted within the sun, which have bloomed and flowered and been harvested, gain a new life, a new birth and a new learning for your consciousness, that you may bloom once again in love and know the gift of light ever better.

So let your hearts be peaceful in good weather and poor, in happy times and sad, seeing the cycles of experience and nourishment as excellent in their entirety and perfect in their working. Such is the justice of the Creator.

In Christ’s peace we leave you, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I would like to let everyone know that because of the devastating war going on in Israel and Palestine we have created a ritual of sending love, light, and peace to all of the soldiers and civilians on both sides of the war. This is the link that will give you the process of this peace ritual: https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/group-peace-visualization

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 2, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries. Is there a query at this time?

T: Yes, I have a question. When attempting to go within and listen to the still, small voice within, there are times when it seems that I’m very sure that I am not bringing something out of my own everyday conscious mind. There are other times when I’m not, and there are times when I’m sure that it’s just me, my everyday self saying this. How can one tell? Your thoughts on how one can tell you’re truly listening to the Creator within, your own higher self?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that though you asked the query, you have determined to a large extent the answer, for you have discovered that there are times during which you feel that the information and guidance that you receive when you ask for the voice of that small and still voice, that the response is indeed that voice, and other times it is more of the conscious waking self’s response. We may affirm that each entity has not only access to this voice, but has the means to determine the depth from which information comes. For as you look upon your own mind, much likened to a tree that stands with roots traveling deep into the earth, that your own mind is like this tree; that you have a simple and sure connection to the voice which speaks from the center of your heart in simplicity and in clarity; that you listen to this speaking, and that the feeling that you have in response to the speaking is that which shall inform you as to the nature of that speaking and of the voice which speaks it.

Know that each guidance from within has come from a deeper portion of your own self and has been filtered through more or less of your conscious awareness according to what you might call the inner weather or conditions of that particular day or time, or as with the weather of your planetary sphere, there is a weather that is active within your own mind in both the conscious and subconscious realms that is responsive to various mental, emotional and experiential conditions within your life pattern. Therefore, there will be times when the inner communication is far more clear than at other times when the weather conditions, shall we say, might have a distorting influence due to the coinciding of certain rhythms or cycles within your own nature.

Thus, if there is ever doubt as to the nature of the voice that speaks from within, we would recommend that first you ask yourself the nature of this voice, that if doubt remains, that you at another time seek again that guidance. Do this until you are certain that you have received the clearest and most substantial information that you can receive. Thus, you take advantage of the varying inner conditions of your own being and affirm that which is given, or determine that you must seek again.

Is there a further query, my brother?

T wanted to know, while he was meditating, when the contact he had made was with the still, small voice, the voice of the Creator, and when it was not. Q’uo suggested that there was a kind of inner weather of perception which might be more clear in some meditations than others. Q’uo said that if T’s doubt remained after any meditation that he should meditate at another time until he felt more certain that he had made contact with some form of his inner guidance. On September 4, 2016, Q’uo described the nature of the still, small voice within us:

The conscious seeker, however, has the great advantage in that it is a conscious seeker, and it is willing to put itself forth in this great quest to discover that which is hidden not only in the illusion around you, but within your very self—to find that pathway through your intuition, through that still small voice of the Creator that resides within you, to give you hints and clues and indications of directions to take; and then, if you have the faith and the will to take them, and the strength and perseverance to continue, you will find great rewards available to you.

T: No, thank you very much. That was excellent.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Questioner: I have one, too. At the beginning of this meditation, when I was holding myself in a state of openness, I felt an enormous power that I had felt before when I was very young in a dreaming state. Was this of the kundalini?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. When we speak to matters that are of an intensely personal nature, we must take great care that we do not move beyond the boundary that signifies an infringement upon an entity’s free will, for many mysteries there are in each seeker’s life pattern that must remain mysteries until that seeker has of his or her own accord and effort discovered a significant enough portion of the riddle to be given hints and clues as to the further unraveling of such a riddle. The experience of which you speak falls within this type of information and mystery. We may speak in a general sense only in this regard in order that we do not infringe upon your own free will.

The power of which you speak does indeed have close relationship to the energy which we have been calling kundalini this particular evening. The nature of this relationship is one which is likened unto the guiding sign, shall we say—we search for the correct word within your language—the inner clue that reveals a possibility to the self from a deeper portion of the self by having a certain center of energy or chakra energized to the point that the feeling of overwhelming power elicits from your conscious self the desire to penetrate the mystery, to follow the thread left upon the ground and which leads into the forest. Thus, this experience is much like a letter from home, shall we say, and we find that this is the extent of the information which is permissible at this time to give upon this topic.

Questioner wanted to know if the intense feeling he had at the beginning of the meditation, which he also had as a kid in a dream, was like the kundalini experience, which was the topic of this meditation. Q’uo began by saying that they could only respond in a general way that did not infringe on Questioner’s free will because it is necessary for the seeker to uncover a certain portion of answers to such riddles before more information may be given. So Q’uo said that Questioner’s experience was linked to the kundalini experience and was a clue from a deeper portion of his mind that was designed to generate his desire to solve the riddle. On February 6, 2000, Q’uo explained how they determine what infringement on free will is:

We look at the choices which have been made by the entity in question. If the entity has begun to utilize the catalyst which has been placed before it in a direction which needs only confirmation in some degree, then we feel free to speak. If the entity has not yet used enough of the catalyst placed before it to be able to make this beginning choice, then we feel it is an infringement for us to make it for the entity.

Is there another query, my brother?

Questioner: Thank you for that answer.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I’ve got a couple. I’m not sure if you can answer one. This is about the fifth meditation in a row that I have had to chase off fairly low level negative entities. This time it was all around the circle, not just around one side. Why are they hanging around? Can you answer that? They don’t usually.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. You may liken the gathering of this nature to the gathering of entities around the campfire at night in the woods. The entities around the campfire warm themselves by the heat of the fire, light themselves enough to see each other’s face and communicate that which is of meaning at that moment. Many other eyes there are that see this fire and look upon it as that which offers something of interest, something of potential gain. These eyes from outside the circle may or may not be those eyes which wish the circle well, however, their presence is assured when the fire is lit, for elsewhere there is but darkness. That you have not been aware of the entities of which you speak previously before the last few of your meditative seeking is a function of your own ability to perceive that which is present and may be expected to continue in its growing acuity.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yeah. This is the one that’s general. I think I’m like everybody, in that with the best will in the world, I have three or four people in my life that simply will not forgive me for something they think I’ve done or not done or something. The people like the one known as N—you can get all that information out of my mind or Jim’s—people that I have not been able to please and have attempted everything in my power to make things right with and have simply fallen flat on my face. And I wonder sometimes, is it acceptable to forgive the self until the other self forgives you?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. You and each seeker would be quite surprised, we believe, if you knew the number of entities that may have yet to forgive some thought, word or deed that was your offering to them. It is well to forgive these entities and to forgive yourself for those offerings which missed their mark or have been misunderstood. Indeed, it is all that any individual can, for within your illusion, misperception and miscommunication are the rule, for you exist in an illusion, which means that you exist in a frame of reference that is other than it appears to the surface glance, and, indeed, is other than it appears even to the serious seeker that attempts to move beyond the surface appearance.

Thus, it is not important in the ultimate sense that one is fully forgiven by each entity that one touches in the life pattern. But it is quite important that one forgives not only each entity that touches one’s life pattern, but that one forgives the self for those efforts which have fallen short of the desire to be of service. One is responsible for the self. One cannot learn for another. One can learn only for the self, and then share with others that which has been learned and forgive all for any misunderstanding or injury that has been done.

Carla said that there were three or four people in her life that would not forgive her for one reason or another, and she asked if it was OK to forgive herself if these people did not also forgive her. Q’uo said that it is common for people to experience miscommunication because the third density is an illusion. So it is necessary that the spiritual seeker forgives all people and the self, but it is not necessary that one is forgiven by another that is not forgiving because one can only learn for the self and cannot learn for another. On October 15, 2016, Q’uo discussed forgiveness:

If you go forth with the light of love within your heart and seek to share as best you can that which is yours to share, then you have done what you can. What more can you do? Go forward to see the Creator in all; to love the Creator in all; to be a person with a large enough mind and an open enough heart to include all within your prayers. Pray for those who feel they are your enemy; pray for those who despitefully use you. Pray that that entity may become one with you and you with it, for all are truly one. Eventually this truth will be born within your illusion. The fourth-density population of this planet will come forth. How long it will take depends upon the choices your people make.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: Yes, just a quickie. And again, this may infringe on free will, and it’s perfectly okay if you don’t answer it, but I’d just like to check my perceptions, because we’re working in an invisible metaphysical field here and there isn’t anything but subjective proof, but if you could confirm this. I heard Oxal at the very beginning, but he was not wanting to give a message. He was wanting to be present and to give his blessing. Is that correct? Can you confirm?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We can indeed confirm that which you have correctly surmised. Those of Oxal offer their blessings to those that are of a nature to appreciate and welcome this blessing.

Carla: Well, then, would I be correct in assuming that Oxal was here to greet our new guest?

I am Q’uo, and this, too, is correct, my sister.

Carla: Okay, that works out. Thank you so much, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo. Again we thank you, my sister. Is there a further query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we are most happy to have been able to speak to those areas of concern for each of those gathered this evening. It has been a great honor, and we humbly thank each for inviting our presence. Again, we remind each that we do not wish to provide a stumbling block for any seeker. If we have spoken any word which does not ring true, we ask that you forget that word and use those which do ring of truth to you as you will. We would at this time take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went to the Post Office to mail a birthday card to a friend of over 50 years since I no longer have her email address due to the hard drive failure of my computer this past July. Then I went to Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. When I got back home I used my backpack blower and began blowing the leaves in the front, side, and back yards into place so that I can mulch them tomorrow after the forecast rain and avoid the dust that occurred when I mulched them when it was dry. Just as I was going into the house to have lunch I noticed my neighbor was using a small, hand-held blower to blow the leaves in his front yard into the drainage ditch on the road beside his house, so I loaned him my backpack blower that is much more powerful than his blower so he could get the job done faster.

This afternoon I went back over to my neighbor’s house and used my backpack blower to help him and his small blower blow the leaves in his back yard into the drainage ditch. It was a challenge since the wind had come up and was in our face, but after about an hour we got the job done. Then I came back into my yard and blew more leaves into position for mulching with my big mower tomorrow.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 6

Offer Sorrow And Thanksgiving

I am the voice of unconditional love which speaks to the world in the name of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of that love.

How many of you, while aching within the heart, must move through the day attempting to manifest the plenty from which that heartache seems to detract? We focus today upon heartache, upon the sorrows of living.

Within your life, within all life that matures and moves forward, there is a balance of sorrow and joy. Allow a knowledge of the kingdom of the Father to touch that septic sorrow. See that pain as the true, sore ache and agony that it is and offer it to love for love’s nurturing, comforting care.

You who seek so diligently are not alone. The principles of love and light are with each at all times. Therefore we say to you, “Take your sorrow, your sadness, as well as your joys and offer them up in thanksgiving to the Father, for all things work together to create a balanced compassion within the faithful seeker.”

May you find that balance this day and every day. Open the self to the power of infinite and unconditional love. We are with each of you, but though we may knock upon the door of your consciousness we cannot open it. We cannot comfort or aid without the turning of the sorrowful spirit to the door and the welcoming in faith of that positive principle of love. Then over your threshold shall move peace and confidence and a balance to sorrow.

We leave you in that balance, that peace, that wholeness that is love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I would like to let everyone know that because of the devastating war going on in Israel and Palestine we have created a ritual of sending love, light, and peace to all of the soldiers and civilians on both sides of the war. This is the link that will give you the process of this peace ritual: https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/group-peace-visualization

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 2, 1989:

Has to do with the concept of the kundalini energy. In many of the teachings of the East it is suggested that the student of evolution not attempt to energize or raise the kundalini energy on his own, but rather should attempt to do this only in the presence of a guru or an enlightened master, and when this is done with the guru, that it is much more effortlessness and much safer. And what we are wondering this evening, if it is possible in any other fashion for the conscious seeker to be able work upon the kundalini and to move it along its upward path?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We thank you gratefully for your gracious invitation to join our vibrations with yours at this circle of seeking and bless all who seek for truth. Our love is shared with each of you as we enjoy this privilege and hear through this instrument’s ears the sounds of your quiet evening, the soft, soaking rain of summer and the seeking thoughts of those who wish to serve others, to serve the Creator, and to know the truth.

The query that you ask shall take us some untangling of vocabulary to answer because in the older established religions of your planet those words which at first were innocent and neutral in their meaning have become laden with emotional bias towards the positive or towards the negative depending [on] the entity which hears the word. So we shall try to work around the vocabulary that so greatly differs between what we may call in general the Western tradition of faith in the Christ and the Eastern tradition of faith in Buddha.

Now, the entities which enjoy Buddhism and Hinduism are those which have experienced many lives in a culture which has been set up to furnish certain spiritual lessons about love, just as your own situation is. However, those who move through those lessons are those of other temperaments, of other needs, of other feelings that they have had in gazing at the past incarnation. As a result, they will move back into that system of polarizing towards service to others and realization in the way [most suited] to them, life after life after life.

Now, in the Western systems—and we will allow the danger of over-generalization to occur for the sake of time—the Creator is sometimes barely noticed because of the devotion many put upon the guru of this particular religion, that being the one known as the teacher, Jesus. It was his intent to create a guru that would live and speak within each as the spirit within and that would give guidance, that would have a higher self, so that the situation between those who work with the kundalini in the Eastern way are those who are working with the multiplicity of divinities, but one teacher, whereas those in your Western religion claim a three-in-one Creator and many, many saints, yet one entity stands out as the guru.

The Creator does not call the ordering of the growth of the human spirit. Each is co-creator and has completely free will. As a general suggestion, we suggest that in whatever culture one is, one take a long and mystical view of the religion of that culture, using that myth as the guru for protection, for inspiration, and for information. That which you desire to know lies latent within yourself. It is the process of recognition of that which is already known, the process of remembering that occurs during the raising of what you have called the kundalini.

The group question for this session regarded the Eastern concept of it being necessary in the work with the raising of the kundalini to have a guru guide one in this process, and was there any other way of doing this. Q’uo began their response by saying that those of the Hindu and Buddhist religions were familiar with the concept of past incarnations and sought to build upon previous work done in them when it came to working with the raising of the kundalini. Then Q’uo said that in Western Christianity the Creator was seen as the Father of Jesus who also spoke of the Holy Spirit that lived within each person whereas in the Eastern Way there were many divinities and one teacher. So Q’uo suggested that the seeker utilize the mystical view of whatever religion they are part of to access that which is already within one as it is in this remembering that the raising of the kundalini occurs. On September 3, 2006, Q’uo gave a general outline for the raising of the kundalini:

Inherent in the process of the raising of the kundalini is the concept of the possibility of perfection. One must be able to accept one’s creatorship or one will never be able fully to utilize this whole concept of the raising of the kundalini. For when one has attained the supposed goal of the raising of the kundalini and the kundalini has settled at the brow chakra, the gateway to intelligent infinity can swing open—but only for the one who is able to consider himself a creator.

Now, the outpourings of what one may call prana are everywhere and move from every point in every direction so that the universe is full of creative life and light. It moves this energy into the body complex with sometimes quite physiological feelings, sometimes none, and one who is doing work in consciousness may then lean back into the arms of the guru’s meditation. In the case of Jesus the Christ, this leaning back is called faith. Yet, let us say in this regard that those of the Eastern tradition have a different kind of faith, so that the culture might be accommodated. They believe that which they see. The challenge of those who do not choose the guru that is living is to have faith that the guru, which is Christ, has its consciousness within you and will yield to the persistent knocking and opening of the door to that inner room within you, to that rag and bone shop of the heart, as the poet would say. The guru indwells each.

Because you are of the Western culture, those to whom we speak this evening, we would recommend moving along those lines, if the Christ myth is able to express each spiritual feeling and emotion, adoration and worship that you wish. The process of raising the kundalini is as simple as that of removing blockages or dams from a swollen river. An infinity of prana enters the physical vehicle which houses your consciousness.

If you are blocking energy by holding it at any chakra before the heart chakra, the kundalini will have a very quiet time resting within. The blockages of relationship that are not peaceful or a situation that is not helpful in the workplace, things of these natures, may well block and stop the universal energy which is the one infinite Creator from providing sufficient energy to the heart chakra. This is why over and over again we encourage that entities meditate and that they do so from time to time in groups, for in the group comes the universality of worship, adoration and love.

To have companions along the road of spiritual seeking is extraordinarily helpful, and to have the guru is, as we have intimated, nearly necessary in order to advance beyond a certain point. We say nearly necessary simply because anything is possible. However, the same physiological, mental and emotional changes occur within each, whether in the Eastern, or negating, tradition or the Western, or radiating, condition. Each has the guru in place. Now, this teacher is important, for not only does this teacher give information, but more than that and mainly, the time that is spent in communion with this teacher gives to that deeper mind which is the feelings, the emotions, and the biases the nourishment that it needs in order to see one’s own blockages and difficulties, to see that one has created them, to see that they may be healed and forgiven.

The greatest danger we find in those upon your sphere is that of the attempt to open the higher energy centers without dealing first with whatever material the seeker has brought into his life as he lives it in the present. Many times the early childhood or the failed marriage, the groom left at the altar or the death of a parent, may completely confuse and befuddle the seeker and the seeker must rest. In this situation it is not well to go forward, for in confusion can come biases that are false and you wish to find out what you are, not what you are not.

Then Q’uo said that the prana, or love/light of the Creator, is an energy that is omnipresent and that which moves through the energy centers or chakras when blockages have been removed from them. Q’uo recommended meditation on the blockages needing removal and to join with other seekers who are also engaged in this process, but they suggested a teacher would be necessary to go into the higher chakras, beyond the heart chakra. In 15.12, Ra mentioned a possible reason for this:

Those with blockages in these first three energy centers, or nexi, will have continuing difficulties in ability to further their seeking of the Law of One.

Therefore, as one who is, as you call it, in the Western tradition of mystical seeking, we greatly encourage the spending of time with the teacher, that is, in silent meditation visualizing, if you will, the mind of Christ or Christ consciousness, allowing yourself to be bathed in it, allowing it to do with you what it will. This is very useful in bringing up energy to the heart chakra and in many cases such as the communications you hear this evening, the indigo chakra and blue chakra are also much involved in the service to which you come by spiritual coincidence.

It is necessary to have a teacher for one simple reason. The energies which each seeks destroy as easily as heal. The light does not blink at negative or positive, but is available to both. One who seeks erratically or without guidance, one who does not practice dailyness in offerings and worship, is either simply unawakened or, when the meditation does occur, may be open to receiving information or subconscious biases which are service to self. The teacher and the pupil is the relationship to be treasured above all. Yet, we feel that in the Western world the myth of Christ functions perhaps more appropriately at this time than the myth of Buddha because the responsibility for opening the door to the teacher then becomes completely subjective. You cannot get out of your car and open the door and walk into the room with your guru and sit and meditate and gaze upon the guru’s face. The face of the mind of Christ you will never know. Therefore you are a faith-filled people when you are working at the parables of Jesus the Christ’s life and the parable within the parable, each parable which he told, that is.

It is our feeling that it is more indicative of the joy of creation to move the kundalini in the Western manner for those who are of Western feelings and belief, simply because the physiological body needs, in most cases, a lifetime of preparation in order to move culturally into the subconscious rhythms and archetypes of a different belief system.

We hope that you are not at all surprised that you are not alone. Since the creation is within you, you are far, far from alone, for you have infinity within you. Thus, we urge each to the dailyness of meditation and taking oneself seriously enough in the intention of the meditation to move thoughts out of the mind that come into the mind, to continue refocusing and recentering for a short time, rather than sitting with the eyes closed and planning the dinner menu, as this instrument has been known to do. This is your moment of nourishment. This is the bread of heaven. Your energy rises as you put out the fires, shall we say, in red, orange and yellow chakras.

Now, how can this be done with the guru and with no speech in the Eastern tradition? It is done in this way because the Eastern tradition is passive and negative. It seeks a nothingness. It is not sacrificial, but, rather, joyful, and it demands of its priests—as this instrument would call them—that they be realized enough entities to perform some small portion of what Christ consciousness may perform. In that culture the teacher simply entrains the consciousness of the chela, or student, to its own impersonal vibration in adoration of the One.

In this Western culture of yours, such would be considered brainwashing. Instead, in this culture entities are encouraged to use the mind, the intellect, as well as the heart to discover a life in faith. This is unfortunate, in that it emphasizes that which is not important, that is, the specifics of the life in history of Jesus the Christ. In order for this entity, Jesus, to be a guru or teacher or rabbi, the entity had to dismantle several thousand years of brutal solipsistic thinking concerning the Creator. Against a backdrop of many gods, those who preceeded the one known as Jesus tried to cling to one, but they were not successful. Thus, the path was not single and progress was difficult.

Within the Western tradition there have, of course, been just as many difficulties, and so it is with the Sufis and Elijah and with Muslim and Allah. One cannot say this or that way of worshipping is perfect. One can only firstly assume that it is probably that the greatest grist will be ground from the mill of the religion of one’s culture that one has been steeped in all of one’s incarnational experience. We urge that careful attention be paid first to settling within oneself one’s feeling about one’s being and sexuality.

So Q’uo suggested that we spend time in meditation to experience the infinity that is within us and to commune with the Christ consciousness within us that is our teacher in working with the red, orange, and yellow energy centers. These deal with our sexual activity and survival, our personal eccentricities expressed in one-to-one relationships, and our participation in groups. Q’uo emphasized the need for us to be especially aware of our being and our sexuality in this process. In 50.2, Ra explained how the reproductive nature of the red ray sexuality was the foundation for all of our experience:

Questioner: In the last session [you] made the statement that experiences are attracted to the entity through the south pole. Could you expand on that and give us a definition of what you mean?

Ra: I am Ra. It takes some consideration to accomplish the proper perspective for grasping the sense of the above information. The south or negative pole is one which attracts. It pulls unto itself those things magnetized to it. So with the mind/body/spirit complex. The in-flow of experience is of the south pole influx. You may consider this a simplistic statement.

The only specific part of this correctness is that the red-ray or foundation energy center, being the lowest or root energy center of the physical vehicle, will have the first opportunity to react to any experience. In this way only, you may see a physical locus of the south pole being identified with the root energy center. In every facet of mind and body the root or foundation will be given the opportunity to function first.

What is this opportunity but survival? This is the root possibility of response and may be found to be characteristic of the basic functions of both mind and body. You will find this instinct the strongest, and once this is balanced much is open to the seeker. The south pole then ceases blocking the experiential data, and higher energy centers of mind and body become availed of the opportunity to use the experience drawn to it.

We realize that the one known as Jim was speaking of this previously, but what the Eastern guru does with the chela is put metaphysical training wheels upon the chela that are false, that is, they are of the guru, and as long as the meditations with the guru continue, then the meditations are satisfactory. But the guru is an entity, one who cannot move past the hump of humanness, that none can within third density. Therefore, these entities are weaker in wisdom and compassion often than the teacher known to you as Jesus. They all, each prophet, each savior, each figure, has something to add to an overall perspective, for it is agreed, if nothing else, that there is one Creator. Upon this point, most of the world’s religions would settle.

Therefore, [if] you wish to ask the guru’s help, that is, in meditation, ask within if there is a difficulty with the sexuality, with the feeling of being worthwhile, with anything which might threaten the stability and comfort of the body. This should be worked with consciously and rooted out, that that energy center may be clear and energy flow through it. We are not saying that each must have the sex life; we are saying that each must feel good about having a sex life, whether one is or is not in a relationship at the time. One must feel not only tolerant but good when one thinks of one’s passion and sexuality, for the passion that you feel at orgasm is your first experience of the steady state of the Creator. It is brief and fleeting, but it is an indication given as a gift and also as a perfectly practical means of evolving the species [offered by] the one infinite Creator.

When we move from red to orange, we gaze at the murkiness of relationships, and we say to you that if you are at odds with any, do your best at this point to seek forgiveness and to forgive self. If there are those whose forgiveness you cannot ask, know that you are forgiven, for others forgive you easier than you forgive yourself. The clearing of the orange ray and the yellow ray has a good deal to do with how one’s conduct is, whether it is spontaneous, heartfelt and honest, or whether it is studied, positional and angular.

We are speaking of the Western tradition of living upon the very surface of the pond, shall we say, of life. People skate across the ice and enjoy the beautiful things that your planet has to offer without living in a state of praise and thanksgiving, without looking at each moment and asking, “Can I help? Can I love? Can I share?” The mind of Jesus is a most helpful interior guru. To move ahead without such an one to guide and govern these times is to ask not only for a lack of inspiration, but even a decline or regression in one’s spiritual growth. The human entity does not have the simple, persistent strength to be daily throughout a lifetime without opening the door within to the teacher that bids you take up the cross, take up your condition, take up your humanity and follow in the footsteps of one who healed, who loved, who brought light, who brought union, who brought joy.

Within your culture you are tolerant of your Earthly priests, and this is healthier, we feel. You know that they all have clay feet—so do gurus. That is the difficulty, the one salient problem with the system of teacher and pupil both being incarnate. However, whether you learn from an Earthly teacher or whether you have your hand in the Christ’s or visualize in some other way the identification of that consciousness and yourself, you will be less strong than if you can make a simple habit of moving in consciousness to the center of one’s being, the open and compassionate heart.

When the red, orange and yellow energy centers are all functioning, spinning brightly and moving the energy well, the conditions are good for the seeker to undertake work in consciousness. It is not good to undertake work in consciousness of a higher kind before one has gazed at one’s life and, to the extent it is possible, made amends, squared away debts and, in general, until the person no longer has the love of the wealth of the planet, but the love of the Creator as the motivating force. This change in attitude often comes in an instant, but that instant is preceded by a good deal of work. And when realization has come, then you shall find your next lesson and you shall find that the idea of becoming perfected and realized by yourself is quite impossible and not of this density. The teacher is there to guard, to protect, and to deepen the meditative state by meditating with an entity. You may ask any of us to do the same thing. We are happy to.

Now Q’uo began to move through the first three energy centers beginning with the red ray of sexuality and reproduction. They said that we need to feel good about our sexuality and realize that when we have an orgasm that we are experiencing the steady state of the one Creator. Q’uo said that the orange ray involved our feelings about another person and how forgiveness for any difficulty in a one-to-one relationship is the key to opening and activating the orange ray center. We would look to do the same with the yellow ray center of groups where we would expand this process with all in the group. They also suggested that we needed to open our hearts in compassion for those around us, and I believe there would also need to be work in the blue ray of clear communication. When this work is done Q’uo said that then we are able to take up work in consciousness which involves the indigo ray energy center. On July 5, 1992, Q’uo described how our work in consciousness proceeds:

The indigo-ray center being that of the brow, where there is the work in consciousness that each seeker achieves when it begins to use the force of its will and faith to move its attitudes and perceptions into alignment with the ideals that are its guiding star.

Therefrom moving to the violet-ray center where the totality of the being is expressed as a measure, a mark, or a register of the entity. By utilizing this desire to serve others in balancing and harmonizing each center of energy, you have cleared this path for the flow of the love and light, or the prana of the one Creator to move cleanly through your centers of energy, in order that you may be a smoothly functioning reflector and creator of the love and light of the one Creator.

Each entity has his own understanding of teachers, gurus, guides, angels or the Holy Spirit. Do not let the differences in vocabulary cause you to think there are differences in the emotional and mental experiences of those who seek to live a life in faith. We believe it is well that the kundalini move easily and flowingly into the heart chakra and right up through into that measure of the vibratory rate of the self, the violet ray.

The problem one faces in achieving realization of the self within Western incarnation is distraction. You are the most bombarded society upon the planet. The music, the television, the loudspeakers in the stores, the traffic noises, the constant movement about that is characteristic of your society…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

…is that which puts out the light; which keeps the kundalini asleep. Now, we do not condemn any of your gadgets. We realize that—as is in this instrument’s mind at this moment—there are interesting and informative and enjoyable programs of entertainment within the media. Information is passed about which one cares. And it is not necessary to move to a cave and block out all sensory input in order to work with the kundalini. For this kundalini is nothing more nor less than the way the body physiologically organizes the infinite instreamings of prana and those effects which various stars and galaxies have upon the entity, keeping it moving, keeping it alive, letting it flow through one. This is a goal much to be desired, for though the life has become simple and—as the one known as T would certainly say at this point—impersonal, it is also free, for the first time in the life experience.

Each of you is dragged about by the free will of each. That is the willfulness which masks the Creator-self within. There is that in you of the mischievous child, that which wishes to play hooky. Consequently, we urge two things upon you, first that you attempt a very intentional time of just spending time with the Christ consciousness each day, silent and listening, and we ask that you love each other, for in loving each other, you shall work very actively upon the kundalini. Love expressed is infinitely valuable. Know that it comes through you, not from you. Don’t expect this to be a human task. It is a superhuman ordeal, but you have that within you which is superhuman, that is, above the state of third density. You have within you the Creator-self. It is simply that you begin your life experience somewhat deaf to the inner voice and the outer voices are so riveting to the young soul in the childhood years, that it is the rare child who begins to seek spiritually in any way except in imitation of the parents.

And in that regard, we may say [to] those with children who wish to help their children become more aware and to raise their own kundalini power that the most effective way to move children into relationship with the one infinite Creator is by example. It can be a totally unspoken example. There is simply one place where the mother, the father, go to sit and worship and adore and intercede and give thanksgiving and share hopes and talk and then listen. Silent prayer or meditation is the greatest key to spiritual growth.

Q’uo completed their response about working with teachers in the raising of our kundalini by saying that we all had such teachers which went by various names such as the Holy Spirit, guides, gurus, and angels. However, they said that one of the great impediments to working with the kundalini was the constant background noises of traffic, music in stores, and television in our western culture. Q’uo suggested that as an antidote to this noise we could engage in daily meditation to listen to the Christ consciousness, or Creator, within us and share the love that comes through us with those who are around us. By sharing love in this fashion we are also working upon our kundalini in a way which Q’uo called a “superhuman ordeal” which is possible to accomplish because we all have the Creator within us that is the source of this love that can flow through us and aid in the rising of our kundalini. In 49.6, Ra described the process of working with the rising of our kundalini:

Questioner: What process would be the recommended process for correctly awakening, as they say, the kundalini, and of what value would that be?

I am Ra. The metaphor of the coiled serpent being called upwards is vastly appropriate for consideration by your peoples. This is what you are attempting when you seek. There are, as we have stated, great misapprehensions concerning this metaphor and the nature of pursuing its goal. We must generalize and ask that you grasp the fact that this, in effect, renders far less useful that which we share. However, as each entity is unique, generalities are our lot when communicating for your possible edification.

We have two types of energy. We are attempting, then, as entities in any true color of this octave, to move the meeting place of inner and outer natures further and further along, or upward along, the energy centers. The two methods of approaching this with sensible method are first, the seating within one’s self of those experiences which are attracted to the entity through the south pole. Each experience will need to be observed, experienced, balanced, accepted, and seated within the individual. As the entity grows in self-acceptance and awareness of catalyst, the location of the comfortable seating of these experiences will rise to the new true-color entity. The experience, whatever it may be, will be seated in red ray and considered as to its survival content and so forth.

Each experience will be sequentially understood by the growing and seeking mind/body/spirit complex in terms of survival, then in terms of personal identity, then in terms of social relations, then in terms of universal love, then in terms of how the experience may beget free communication, then in terms of how the experience may be linked to universal energies, and finally in terms of the sacramental nature of each experience.

Meanwhile the Creator lies within. In the north pole the crown is already upon the head and the entity is potentially a god. This energy is brought into being by the humble and trusting acceptance of this energy through meditation and contemplation of the self and of the Creator.

Where these energies meet is where the serpent will have achieved its height. When this uncoiled energy approaches universal love and radiant being the entity is in a state whereby the harvestability of the entity comes nigh.

We find that we have again taken up too much of your time. This instrument is telling us that she asked us to speak shortly, but, my children, we have spoken shortly; there is so much more upon the subject that we could say. This was the shortest we could make it. We wish you to know we were trying to coincide with your wishes.

At this time we would like to thank this instrument for allowing us to use it, would remind each that we are not an infallible source of information, but merely those in the group which has gone through the density which you now enjoy and has learned some further lessons. We are not perfect. We are far from it, my friends; we could be wrong. It is well for you to listen and discern that which is for you and toss the rest away, for you will be attracted to and recognize your truth.

And as that truth changes as you change, we advise you to let that flow also, as change is the hallmark of the raising of the kundalini. You may be often uncomfortable in, what this instrument would call, the fast lane of spiritual progress, for change equals discomfort. It is your choice. We encourage you to work on your polarity, to use your teacher, whether it be incarnate or discarnate and to allow some discomfort into the life, that one may burn away that which is not needed and temper the personality that remains to be flexible, gentle and very, very strong in love of neighbor and of Creator.

We shall leave this instrument now in love and light and transfer to the entity known as Jim. I am Q’uo.

This morning I used my vacuum cleaner to suck the lint out of the four inch tubing that connects the clothes dryer to the vent on the outside of the house.

This afternoon I went outside and cleaned the filters on the fish pond and took all of the water lilies off of their rock pedestals and put them on the bottom of the pond for the winter. Then I took all of the remaining impatiens out of the two flower pots on the porch and replaced them with pansies which can take freezing temperatures.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 5

The Life Lived In Grace

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ. Your Lord and Savior is my very essence.

We would speak to you most fervently of the eternally abiding nature of all that you call true knowledge. We who greet you in the consciousness of Christ realize that you who seek the consciousness of Christ yearn for there to be information on certain subjects in order that you may learn and that those about you may gain in understanding. And yet we assure you that all information and understanding whatsoever is invariably and securely within your grasp and awaiting your accurate reach.

You who seek the consciousness of love need to seek, therefore, not for knowledge but for a life lived in grace. For it is the nature of your life, your thoughts, your actions and your intentions that will avail to you all the information, wisdom and learning that you could ever wish to acquire.

Information which involves the seeking of the consciousness which is Christ must always partake not in what you think and what you may understand of the mind, but in who you are entirely.

Seek always, therefore, to be more and more a creature surrendered to love and guided by the highest and best which you may see in any situation. Then the understandings will walk to you and open themselves before your inner eye in the silence of the consciousness of love.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I would like to let everyone know that because of the devastating war going on in Israel and Palestine we have created a ritual of sending love, light, and peace to all of the soldiers and civilians on both sides of the war. This is the link that will give you the process of this peace ritual: https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/group-peace-visualization

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 18, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. Before we take our leave of this group for this evening, we would offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any queries which those present may have remaining upon the mind. Is there a query at this time?

Questioner: You spoke just now of how we act as a battery for the primary channel. Could you say more about that process?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. As each has entered this circle of seeking this evening, there is the desire that is paramount in each heart and mind to partake in the seeking for some portion of truth, some portion of light that might be utilized to inspire the service to others within the self, to inspire the greater understanding within the self of how service is rendered and how one might evolve in the sense of mind, body and spirit.

Thus, the desire that each brings into this circle of seeking which has been enhanced by a lifetime of service may be seen as a kind of food or energizing force that, when taken cumulatively with each other entity’s desire, provides a sustained level of energy for the one serving as instrument to draw upon. The desire, then, of the entire group might be seen to be likened unto the antenna of one of your radio devices which is able to receive a signal from a distant source in direct relationship or ratio to the amount of power or energy that is available to that antenna. Thus, each of you provides a portion of that energy, and for this service we are most grateful, my brother.

Questioner asked how each member of the meditation group could act as a battery as was mentioned earlier in the session. Q’uo responded by saying that each seeker present had been a seeker for a long period of time, and this process of seeking provides an energizing force that can enhance the ability of the one serving as the instrument to utilize in channeling the messages that Q’uo has to offer. On September 2, 2007, Q’uo described the process by which each member of a channeling meditation can serve as a battery for the instrument:

It is to be noted that this instrument does not ever seek to channel outer sources without a supporting group. It is further to be noted that this instrument has been channeling for thirty-three years, and that no harm has ever come to this instrument. The safety net, for balancing and regularizing the energies involved in channeling outer sources such as we, is the principle of batteries in series. One battery is not enough to sustain a universal contact such as ours. There needs to be a minimum of two batteries in series linked to the third battery in series which is the instrument itself.

To a certain extent, the more batteries you have in series, the more energy that can be developed and the more powerful a signal the channel itself may pull in.

Is there another query?

Questioner: I had a question about the concept of a dark force, an evil force, and the light force. I’ve heard it said that the evil force is an illusion, and the only evil is between your ears, that it doesn’t really exist, and we are in this illusion, learning, leaning towards the light. And my question is that, in that leaning, should one even acknowledge that there’s darkness, that it is illusion?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We would first begin by reminding each that the creation itself is a finely wrought and intricately designed illusion which gives each portion of the Creator a means whereby it might come to know the Creator through experience, and the Creator might come to know each portion of Itself though that same experience. Within the illusion of the creation, there is that which is of the positive or radiant and that which is of the negative or magnetic. There are many terms that are used to describe the duality of forces which together form the dynamic tension which holds the creation in place as a manifested thought that might be utilized for growth and for service.

Within the illusion of this creation there is that which is not illusory, that from which the creation has been made, the one Creator, that which is beyond thought, beyond mind, beyond consciousness. There is that truth, then, of unity from which is created that which you know as the creation. There is that which is—unity–and that which is not–and that is separation. From these two paths, then, come the two viable paths that might be traveled to the one Creator. That path which attempts to see the unity of all creation, to recognize it in each face that comes before your own, this is the path of service to others, the path of radiance, of giving and of positivity. Far more travel this path than travel that path of negativity, that path which enhances the concept of seeming separation and takes it to its logical conclusion, the path of service to self that attempts to gain for the self the power of the light and use it in subjugation of those about one in order that the power of each might redound to the one exercising control.

Within your illusion of the third density these two paths have been seen as good and as evil. This is a distortion, as you may be aware of the true nature of these paths. The more difficult of the path is that of the negative polarity, that which is called within your cultures, evil, for the attempt to bend the wills of others to one’s own desire meets the difficulty of the dissipation of the power thusly gained as the ability to blend one’s seeking with another is blocked by the separation that has been enhanced and pursued.

This path finds its conclusion within that density numbering six, where it is of necessity required that each entity wishing to proceed further in the path of unification with the Creator see all about one as the Creator. This is not difficult for those of positive polarity, for the path of positive polarity attempts as the fundamental quality of that path to see all as the Creator. It is difficult enough for those of negative polarity that the negative polarity must be abandoned at that point, and an immediate shift in polarity, shall we say, is then accomplished, for the power is the same, from the same source, and might then be reversed, shall we say, with some difficulty, in order that the seeking then proceeds with the eyes looking upon a new world and a new creation and a new sense of self.

Therefore, that which has been called evil or negative might be seen as that journey which turns upon its head all that is positive and in reverse fashion finds its pleasures in that which is dark and that which is hidden, in that which provides the opportunity for advancing the self at the expense of others. However, the end point and the final goal of each path is the one Creator, for there is no other goal, there is no other source, there is no other journey. There are, however, two means of apprehending this journey and of accomplishing its end.

Questioner asked whether or not there was such a thing as evil or dark forces. Q’uo began their answer by saying that the creation itself was an illusion in which each seeker could come to know itself and the Creator could also know Itself through each seeker’s experiences. They went on to say that after a period of time there were two paths of seeking the Creator that could be seen as positive, or radiant, and negative and magnetic. They could also be described as the path of that which is and the path of that which is not. Q’uo said that most people would describe them as good and evil. Q’uo completed their response by saying that the negative path was not able to proceed very far into the sixth density because it could not see all other selves as the Creator, which is necessary in the sixth density, so they would need to reverse their negative polarity and become positive. In 85.11, Ra described the nature of the negative path of “that which is not”:

Questioner: Then the service-to-others path have potentiated that which is not. Could you expand that a little bit so I can understand it better?

Ra: I am Ra. If you see the energy centers in their various colors completing the spectrum you may see that the service-to-self choice is one which denies the very center of the spectrum; that being universal love. Therefore, all that is built upon the penetration of the light of harvestable quality by such entities is based upon an omission. This omission shall manifest in fourth density as the love of self; that is, the fullest expression of the orange and yellow energy centers which then are used to potentiate communication and adepthood.

When fifth-density refinement has been achieved that which is not is carried further, the wisdom density being explored by entities which have no compassion, no universal love. They experience that which they wish by free choice, being of the earnest opinion that green-ray energy is folly.

That which is not may be seen as a self-imposed darkness in which harmony is turned into an eternal disharmony. However, that which is not cannot endure throughout the octave of third density and, as darkness eventually calls the light, so does that which is not eventually call that which is.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Another question. I was curious about what you said was the energy, as I understand it, showering down on the planet at this time. You said something about the negativity increasing or the energies that people are working with, if they happen to be of the resistant path, they’re going to be increasing. I guess that is true on the positive path, also? And it will continue until the fourth density comes into completion?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that you have in essence provided the answer to your query, in that it is, indeed, our observation that as your planetary sphere moves into a new sector of time and space that the increased love and light of that sector is felt as it streams through the web of energy vortices of your planet by each entity upon your planet, much as would the print on the written page be enlarged by the magnifying glass. Therefore, the directions which have been chosen, either to the positive radiant or the negative and magnetic, be enhanced in their direction and vector.

Therefore, it is a situation in which there is more energy as a resource to call upon and therefore becomes a natural portion of the everyday environment, shall we say, so that each individual within your planetary cultures has available the stepped-up level of vibrational energy that is affecting the daily round of activities and the perceptions of the individual, so that there is an intensification of experience.

Questioner asked whether there were both positive and negative energies showering down on Earth as we get closer to the fourth density. Q’uo said that the Earth was indeed entering an area of time/space in which more love and light energy was available for all entities to use to enhance their chosen paths of positivity or negativity. On May 18, 2019, Q’uo described the effect that the fourth-density vibrations are having on seekers on Earth:

You correctly perceive the process by which the cosmic energies now engulfing your planet serve as a kind of magnifying glass to give each seeker of truth an enhanced opportunity to move into a greater and greater harmony within the self and with all other entities about one, due to the necessity to deal with the enhanced feelings of disharmony, or misunderstanding, or doubt, or whatever blockage to the free flow of intelligent energy is working upon the seeker. Those who are unable to meet the self, shall we say, at this time, are those who are unable to utilize the increased psychic, cosmic energies now available to all.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my brother. Is there a further query at this time?

Questioner: May I ask a question of a personal nature?

I am Q’uo, and we will be happy to entertain any query that is presented to us, however, we are bound by the desire that we not infringe upon an entity’s free will by giving responses that would affect that entity’s future or the personal interpretation of experience that is, of necessity, best left to the entity. With these caveats, we are happy to respond, my brother.

Questioner: I understand. I experience from time to time jolts of energy coming through my body which cause my head to jerk or tremble, even when I am not intending to channel healing energy, although it is quite prevalent at those times. And I am desirous of knowing what exactly that phenomenon is. What am I experiencing?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that we may speak in a general fashion, leaving the specific application to your own discrimination. For one who has offered the self in the capacity of serving as healer to those who are broken or incomplete in some fashion, according to their own perceptions, there is over a period of time and the experience of serving as a healer, a buildup of a certain kind of energy that is of an healing nature. There is within some entities the need to discharge a portion of this buildup of energy which has, in what might be seen as a consciously unbidden manner, moved into the energy pattern of the healer as a kind of natural reflex, shall we say, the path of energy having been traversed many, many times previously. Thus, the buildup has the need of discharge in order that there not be a, shall we say, back-burning of the circuits within the electrical body.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you.

Carla: I’d like to follow up on that. Is that like… Never mind. I know the answer. Forget it. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank each. Is there a final query at this time?

Questioner: Tell us about our fondness for and our attraction to felines, particularly of the Siamese societies like these.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We look upon the second density which you have called within your culture the cat, the member of the feline family, and see an entity that has from ages past within your third-density illusion served as that which might be seen as the guard, that which watches carefully the path that is traveled by the seeker of truth. There have been many cultures within your planet’s history that have revered the cat for this particular quality of serving as one which watches, as one which guards, and gives a certain nurturing care to the seeker of truth which travels the path of the positive polarity. Thus, there is the general attraction to this particular creature by those who feel a sensitivity towards the inward seeking.

There is in many individual cases a further attraction to the cat, having been established within previous incarnations in a culture which did, indeed, revere the feline creatures. We look especially to that culture of ancient Egypt which found great use for the form and the function of the cat, serving as guard to many of the rooms of the initiation chambers and rooms used for the learning and service to others. Thus, the cat is old within the archetypical mind of all of your peoples, and is especially placed upon a cherished point of focus for many individuals upon your planet who have had previous experience with these nurturing creatures.

Questioner asked why our culture seems to be so fond of Siamese cats. Q’uo said that cats had been seen by many cultures throughout history to be a kind of guardian to those positive seekers of truth. Q’uo specifically named the ancient Egyptian culture as that which revered the cat as Ra suggested in 95.22-.23:

Questioner: And it seems that the square upon which the entity sits, which is almost totally black, is a representation of the material illusion and the white cat is guarding the right-hand path which is now separated in experience from the left. Would Ra comment on that observation?

Ra: I am Ra. O student, your sight almost sees that which was intended. However, the polarities need no guardians. What, then, O student, needs the guard?

Questioner: What I meant to say was that the entity is guarded along the right-hand path, once it is chosen, from effects of the material illusion that are of a negative polarity. Would Ra comment on that?

Ra: I am Ra. This is an accurate perception of our intent, O student. We may note that the great cat guards in direct proportion to the purity of the manifestations of intention and the purity of inner work done along this path.

At this time we would like to thank each within this circle of seeking for inviting our presence amongst you in order that we might share some of our thoughts upon some of those topics which are of greatest interest to you on your journeys of seeking. It is a great honor for us to be asked to such a circle, and we cannot thank each enough for this privilege. Again we would remind each that we offer that which is but our opinion, that which we have learned upon our own journeys. We do not wish any word that we have spoken to be a stumbling block for any present. Please disregard any words which have not rung of truth to you, and use those which have in that way which serves you most. We would leave each at this time in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning, since it is the first Saturday of the month, I was once again a guest on Jonathan Tong’s  Seattle Law of One Study Group’s Q & A session. As always, it was an honor to try to answer questions regarding the Ra contact and the Law of One. They always seem to ask the most central questions that any seeker of truth would need to know to continue on the path of service to others.

This afternoon I went outside and painted the side door on the garage white. It was replaced yesterday by a carpenter from Mr. HandyMan, and he said that it is now difficult to find a solid wood door with the kind of panels that the old door had, so I am grateful that he took the time necessary to find this beautiful door. Then I used Venus to crunch the leaves between the fish pond and pet cemetery that I blew into place yesterday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 4

Time To Blossom

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

Love, beauty, truth, the ideal and the absolute are greatly appealing to those who are seeking for that which does not perish. They are irrelevant to many others. This is an individual matter. Thus, it is well for those who seek and wish to serve to find an endless tolerance.

As one rests in hope that all may seek the truth, one releases that hope to the infinity of the appropriate time for each flower’s soul to blossom. Though your hearts may have compassion upon those who are quite different in their feelings and thoughts, yet know that each chooses.

If any appear to be unhappy, having turned from their birthright of love and service, let them appear as they will and await the moment of sharing of love, joy and peace.

There is the time of jubilee for each, a time of self-acceptance, self-forgiveness and the simple faith of the child. That time cannot be forced. It can only be given thanks for when it occurs. Rest in your jubilee or rest waiting faithfully for that same jubilee. There is all the time and space necessary for each to grow, to learn, and to come at last to that heavenly kingdom whose name is love.

We leave you in that love and peace which is of the principle of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I would like to let everyone know that because of the devastating war going on in Israel and Palestine we have created a ritual of sending love, light, and peace to all of the soldiers and civilians on both sides of the war. This is the link that will give you the process of this peace ritual: https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/group-peace-visualization

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 18, 1989:

Most people feel that the spiritual journey should become easier, happier and healthier the further and longer that you travel. This doesn’t seem to be so. In many cases there seem to be more difficulties or challenges, shall we say, that are put in the path of the sincere and persistent seeker. Why is it that the path does not necessarily become easier or happier or healthier the longer that you travel?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We of Q’uo thank you for the desire which has come to make you one circle of seeking, one desire for truth, one unity of spirit. The question that you have asked this instrument to channel upon is one which this instrument will find interesting because this instrument has immediately previous to this read a similar message to a similar question. It is a good chance for those who have been channeling to see that there are nuances and subtleties to questions within a group that are personalized by the group so that although the end result is hopefully an inspiration which may be universal, it is carefully shaped to the questions between the lines of the question.

Within your culture, you have a condition of emotion, spirit and body which is called burnout by this instrument. The cause of this is that you have not given over those portions of yourself which are not good fruit and, therefore, that within you which is not good fruit tries to take over the good vine, as your holy book would put it. Now, we are starting from a spiritual standpoint, because we feel that to this group meditation, inspiration, integrity and singleness of heart are already in place. This is [the] spiritual atmosphere in which we urge each to come. Each of you comes already in this mode, centered by meditation and contemplation and a burning desire to serve the Creator and all of your brothers and sisters. Therefore, we shall move into the subject from the secular standpoint.

When you face a challenging task, it is often exciting, and if you are given the opportunity to finish the task before beginning another, there is much satisfaction. If you begin another large task while in the midst of finishing the first, the stress and anxiety of time allotment occurs, not because there is not enough time, but because you are depending upon yourself. This is a secular world, a secular culture, an unchurched culture. The offering of unity and unconditional love that the master known to you as Jesus offered has been so subverted and contaminated with doctrine and dogma that it seems that there is no longer the possibility of what one may call Christian worship.

Yet I say unto you, my children, this is an untruth. You may, in opening yourself to the less personal side of yourself, find the strength, find the time, and find the grace to know the will of the Creator and to do it. This cannot happen to you secularly or in a human fashion, for you are, in your waking consciousness, very, very little aware of the fact that all of you are channels. Therefore, you attempt to channel your own deepest love and service to others. And at some point, you reach your own limits and can go no further, and this seems to you to be a great failure.

We ask you first of all never to judge the self. That judgment will come, and you yourself shall be the God-self which evaluates this lifetime experience for you. As you well know, you are your own hardest critic, your own most difficult audience. To please yourself with what you do is the greatest challenge. Paradoxically, in order to maximize one’s service, there is much of oneself that needs to be burned away, as the chaff from the wheat, so that the wheat may be gathered as it springs green upon the hillside, and then golden, and then ripens unobstructed by the weeds of daily concern.

The group question for this session was why doesn’t the spiritual path get easier rather than getting harder the further it is traveled. Q’uo began by recognizing that the group they were speaking to was already conscious seekers of truth and familiar with meditation, contemplation, and a strong desire to seek and serve the Creator as the means of traveling their spiritual paths. Q’uo said that we might enjoy solving problems in our spiritual lives if they did not come so rapidly and within a secular culture that does not appreciate the concepts of unity and unconditional love that Jesus taught. They said that we may consider ourselves failures when we are unable to meet all of the challenges that we face, but we should not judge ourselves for this but realize what we feel is failure is a burning away of the chaff of wheat so that we may gather the wheat or the spiritual growth that we now experience as the grace and will of the Creator. On October 21, 2017, Q’uo gave an example of the grace of the Creator:

We, of the Confederation of Planets of the One Infinite Creator, serving that One Creator for all of our being, and all of our time, as you would call it, have always suggested that meditation is the path to the One Creator within. This is the means by which each seeker of truth can access some portion of that One Creator, whether it be to feel some of the presence of the Creator, to feel the grace of the Creator and to live by that grace, to feel the love of the Creator and to share that love with all about one, including oneself, to feel the light of the Creator, the power that has made all that is made, to feel the unity of the One Creator, so that the self is seen as the One Creator, for indeed, you are here to be the One Creator to those around you, as they are here to be the One Creator to you. There is not only love in every moment, as has been previously said, there is the One Creator in every moment and in everything, for there is nothing but the One Creator in all of the one creation.

So our focus, perhaps, to you this evening would be to suggest that a time be set aside, and, if possible, a special place where one may go to listen within one’s heart, having opened the door behind which stands the consciousness of Christhood, the consciousness of Love. This consciousness is infinite, and one who trusts it and has faith in it is able to tap into that overflowing, beautiful and ineffable stream of the Creator’s love. You tap into it, it flows through you, and you are not weary or disappointed or saddened, for you have done your best, you have done your work, you have prepared yourself, you have challenged each spirit and found that spirit to be true to your own beliefs.

Then there is no burnout, there is no tiring, there is simply to do more and more because of the joy in the doing of it. We may say that this is equally true of healing. Those who attempt to heal by the power of their own inner being, by anomalistic electromagnetic fields, or by any other means will soon find themselves beleaguered and truly unwilling to act anymore as a healer, for there is great heartbreak in working as a healer. Sometimes the healing involves the end of this particular physical body. Sometimes the answer to your prayer is a simple no. Always, you are asked to sacrifice the personal self in some way.

Now let us look at the process. You have given over yourself to the ideal of service to the Creator by serving as the Creator. You have opened that inner door, that closet within, and metaphorically knelt there in listening reverence. You have spent time worshipping in your own way. You have not begrudged those things which fall away from you, because they do so naturally to someone who is meditating daily.

At this point we feel each of you is at this time. Now what lies ahead of you is what one of your poets would call “the road less traveled.” For we are not here to evangelize. We are not here to ask you to believe in dogma or doctrine. We are here because we are those of the consciousness of love, and we come to you as called for this particular kind of information which we give you in love, asking you always to remember that all that we say is opinion and not gospel. If anything that we say disturbs or disquiets you, we urge you to put that aside immediately, for you will recognize your own personal truth. It will be as if you remembered it.

After the first several years of an intensely lived spiritual life, some good habits and some bad habits are in place. The good habits tend to be that of dailyness and regularity and intensity in worship. More time is spent thinking about the one infinite Creator and Its loving nature; less time is spent considering the treasures of this particular illusion. Yet, there are always teachers which will urge you onward, and the primary teacher which always urges you onward is yourself, for you came into this incarnation blazing with zeal to do the Creator’s will in whatever way it has been laid out for you to do. By faith alone can you silence each day, “What is there for me to do?” and find a feeling in answer. We advise that you sit in meditation until you reach the point at which you are illumined, may we say, and lost in the Creator, so that each cell of the body and mind and spirit–if spirits may be said to have cells–is comforted, strengthened, sustained and blessed.

Gaze about you in your mind’s eye at the beauty of the surroundings that you have just traversed. It is a fragile beauty, blooming one day and dying the next. And yet each perfect bloom in its moment of glory is ineffably beautiful to the Creator and to those with the eyes to see. We ask you to see that nature itself, the second density upon which you so depend, works hard to renew itself, to heal itself of the wounds that mankind has inflicted upon it. We would ask you in your daily meditation to pray for the peace and the integrity of your planet, for as each of you does so, the consciousness of this planet is lightened and more and more entities are ready for graduation into the next density.

Then Q’uo recommended that we meditate in order to commune with the Love of the Creator and open our hearts to let that Love flow through us and bring us the feeling of peace. After engaging in this type of meditation for some time Q’uo said that we would be on what was called “the road less traveled” and we will have developed some good habits like meditation and some bad habits like seeking the treasures of the material world. Q’uo suggested that we all have come into incarnation to do the Creator’s will and that meditation is a good way to discover that path for us each day. They went on to say that one way of being of service was to enjoy the beauty of our natural environment and pray for the peace of our planet to lighten its vibrations and enhance the harvest into the fourth density. On December 17, 2016, Q’uo shared the process of doing the will of the Creator:

As the seeker of truth, which we are calling the adept, proceeds further and further along its path, it will discover that those qualities of the outer world which at one time were happy experiences, no longer have attraction. The world and all its lures falls away, and the inner world only is that of importance to such a seeker, for only within the seeking of truth by meditation, by contemplation, by prayer, by fasting, by giving oneself completely to the will of the Creator, can the true seeker achieve this goal of union with the One Creator.

Now, you have already experienced that things become harder as one goes along throughout an incarnational experience. It may seem simplistic to you, but we ask you to think of your school system: first grade, second grade, third grade, and so on. Such is the classroom in which you are now in terms of the way we measure dimensionality. You lie at the very cusp of third and fourth density, finishing the old and beginning to feel the new vibrations. Those who are negatively inclined will be more negative. Those who are positively inclined will be polarizing more and more towards service to others, for there is no one upon this planet at this time who does not have a chance for graduation. Each of you has earned this incarnation, this precious experience, by seniority of vibration, by being able, by learning the lessons of this incarnation to make that step from thinking more about the self than others to thinking more about others than the self. If one were to be given calculus in the first grade and reading in the tenth, it would be rather chaotic, would it not?

Therefore, we begin slowly. The creation, first density of rock, sea, fire and air; the second generation or dimension of plants and animals, all of these are connected intimately with love. This is why many of you experience such a deep peace when surrounded by wilderness of nature, for it sways with the rhythm of creation and has an open heart for all beings around it. It even offers to each of you the oxygen that you breathe, just as you offer it the carbon dioxide which it needs.

So you learn the beginning of things first. You learn to turn towards the light in second density, and by the end of second density you have become an individual, whether you be an animal, a plant, or a rock formation. If it is invested with enough devotion and love from third-density entities such as yourself, it too will become ensouled within a physical body which is able to be self-conscious.

The third density, in which you now enjoy experience, is a density in which one thing is raised high before everyone’s eye. And that is the choice: faith or doubt; light or darkness; hope or despair. Each time that you pass through the fire and find that you have learned something very difficult, you wipe your brow, metaphysically speaking, and say, “Ohh, I hope that is all I need to learn right now.” My friends, your higher selves are ambitious for you. They are not content with a little of this and a little of that. They ask you for your life, and in return give you the sense of life eternal, which is the imperishable truth about each of you, for each of you is a consciousness which was before the world began. Each of you is a spark of God-self with a matching and appropriate amount of free will, set loose to make your own choices, to decide whether you shall serve others and serve the Creator, or serve yourself and so serve the Creator.

There are two reasons why things become more difficult as one goes along. Perhaps the most characteristic reason is that of the unlearned or incompletely learned lesson of love. Each lesson which comes to you, each challenge and difficulty and demand, holds a lesson of love for you. If you do not successfully work out this particular lesson through the aids of meditation, contemplation, inspiration and analysis, you may not learn the lesson in front of you. You may decide instead that perhaps you have a more glorious ministry, a more exciting gift to give to the world. You are impatient. Yet there is no room for impatience in timelessness, and, my friends, all of your spiritual growth takes place in the timeless present moment. Until you have removed yourself from today, yesterday and tomorrow, you have not contacted infinity, and it is infinity for which you yearn, for that is your birthright.

Any lesson, then, which was not successfully observed, analyzed, intuited and acted upon will in another way, but with the same dynamics of feeling, repeat itself in a more intense fashion so that you may hear more and more clearly the internal urgency of making the choice between the positive path and the negative path. One of the most terrible misconceptions of any group of seekers is elitism, the fallacy that because one is seeking, teaching, channeling or learning, one is better, elect and special compared to those who gaze upon your television sets and consume your alcoholic beverages.

Your higher self is very patient. It does not mind how long it takes for you to learn a particular lesson. It is gazing at you from the prospect of several million years. It is helping you as its gift; your gift to yourself from what you would call the future. Learn to trust in that gift. Learn to trust your own advice. Tackle the job. Talk it through and work it out the first time. There then need be no two-by-four applied to the forehead with a more stringent second lesson or an even more stringent and difficult third lesson.

Gaze at the pattern of your incarnation. What do you suppose the lessons were that you came to learn? What has your life been patterned like? All lives are a patchwork quilt when seen up close, bewildering to the eye. Yet when one backs off, one sees a pattern, a beautiful, carefully sewn pattern. All the pieces are stitched together, making the truth of love complete. And quilting is placed beneath the coverlet that you may be soft in your zeal, gentle in your speaking of the truth, never intrusive but always ready to witness to that which is in your heart when someone asks.

Therefore, the first and greatest cause of the feeling that things are getting harder as one goes along is that one is resisting a change. For in order to be of service to other people in a truly compassionate manner, one must stop making assumptions about what, in a human term, one would think this or that person needs, this or that person desires, this or that person should hear.

You may drop the seed now and again. You may suggest a thought, but toss it as if it were a lighthearted shuttlecock in a badminton game. Let it flow gently and freely over the net of another’s resistance. And if it is caught and hit-very well; you may move on. If it is not caught-very well; you may move on. It is not your responsibility to change anyone’s life but your own. It is no one’s responsibility that you have difficulties or joy. Each of you is a completely independent, metaphysical, equal being, equal in stature to any being in the creation, for that of which you are made is the Creator, and that of which all things are made is of the Creator.

We suggest to you, therefore, that whatever your strong point is-intuition, analysis, meditation, prayer or contemplation–that you focus upon this in a daily and earnest manner, seeking to know how you may offer love, asking that the opportunity be given to you to share that love with others. If one does this, the lessons will still become harder, but they will at least have the interesting factor of being different. It is when one resists the pattern that one must repeat the lesson again and again.

Now Q’uo began to explain the nature of our evolution as a means of setting the stage for revealing why our spiritual journeys get harder the further we go. They began with the first grade or density where we began as earth, wind, fire, and water and a simple awareness. Then the second grade or density is where we turn towards the light as plants, animals, or minerals that begin to become enspirited as they approach third density. Q’uo then said that in our present third density experience our higher selves offer us assistance in dedicating ourselves to serving the one Creator either in service to others or in service to self. They said that now our lessons and challenges all contained the lesson of love that would continue to repeat and become more challenging until we have learned them and have made the choice of the positive or negative path. Q’uo said that the hardest thing that we are asked to do in this process is to change, and we need to use contemplation and meditation daily with determination to discover how we may share love with others as a part of this process of change. On March 4, 2001, Q’uo discussed the nature of change:

However, often within your density you have made choices as a seeker before incarnation that place you in a situation where you will continue to suffer, and that is what was intended. It was not seen before incarnation that this would be precisely suffering. It was seen that this would be learning. It was seen that this would be a great opportunity to make the breakthrough, the step forward as a spiritual being in evolution. Evolution is change. Change is difficult. Change is painful. Change engenders suffering. Consequently, some blockages that are looked at and are experienced are placed there by the self before incarnation, not in order to break through quickly, but in order to initiate a process of self-acceptance, self-understanding and self-forgiveness that is far deeper than the issue that begins this process of understanding, acceptance, healing and forgiveness.

There is another reason that the road becomes stonier and rockier as one moves along. What you are seeking to do is to take a bipedal animal with self-consciousness and so far integrate that bodily self into the consciousness that every cell of the being may listen to the secret, small voice within the closed door of the closet of your heart. You shall not ever be satisfied with yourself. This is one of those facts of the illusion which may seem to be sad, yet there is no sadness here, for you are wanting to lose those odd little parts of yourself that do not serve in any way, and wanting to fill the places that you have made with the choices of service to others.

The third reason that the lessons become more difficult is simply that there is a great subtlety to the art and the craft of service to others. Very many of your people confuse this with pleasing others, and if they please others, they feel they have served. We suggest that this may not, indeed, be the case, and that each request for service be gazed at, not from the standpoint of pleasing the self or the other self, but from the standpoint of where the love is in the situation so that you may fasten on to that lodestar of love and light and act accordingly to those principles which stream therefrom.

How we admire you. We remember third density. It is the shortest of the densities, the density of choice. You are here to choose to serve the Creator by serving others or by serving the self and manipulating others. As you serve others, you may be asked to do outrageous things, to go beyond your limitations, to do what cannot be done yet which shall be done because it must. And in those situations we strongly advise that you release your personal personality and move to an impersonal portion of your deep self, that God-self of unmitigated and straightforward compassion. To determine what is pleasing as opposed to what is serving another entity is sometimes difficult, especially on the spur of the moment. Therefore, we ask you to steep yourselves as you would immolate a tea bag in the teacup in the love and the light of the infinite One, that what needs be done for you to polarize, for you to choose, may be done with what this instrument would call singleness and gladness of heart.

Much of the illusion is based upon the feeling that you are not all right, that you are imperfect, that you are flawed. In a human sense this is true. Each of you has free will and that free will causes you to act variously at various times. Some of those times are successful, some of those times are disgusting and failures. We do not ask that you succeed, nor does your higher self ask that you literally and in a worldly sense succeed in service to others…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

…you spirit, this polarization as the steps between the polarity you experience and the polarity you wish becomes smaller or shorter but much more intense, for you are burning away a great deal of what people may call personality. This is not to say that you should not be merry, full of laughter and joy, comforting and exhorting each other always in love. Each of you was put here for each of you. You have the freedom to be one with everyone or to single out the self as more important than everyone.

Q’uo said that another reason that the spiritual path becomes more difficult is in determining what service to others really is because many people think it is simply pleasing another person. To truly serve another Q’uo recommended that we go beyond our personality and move deeper into our God-nature which shares love within each moment with everyone around us. On November 27, 1994, Q’uo described what it means to truly serve another:

Consequently, we ask each who wishes to know the truth, wishes to find true vocation, wishes to truly serve, to gaze unblinking at the cost of walking this dusty seeker’s path, for it shall cost all that you are and all that you have to become that truth which you are seeking. We say to you that as far as we know you cannot know the truth; you can only become truth.

Now, there is a trick, which we may shamelessly call that, for aiding the floundering spirit, and that is this. The Creator, if asked, will give you what you desire. Indeed, this is so much true that in a way we fear to say the truth, for that which you wish you will surely get. And many of you wish sometimes for very self-destructive things because you are unhappy with yourself. Let no illusion trouble you, but remain in your heart, in your spirit, on your path, for all paths lead to the one infinite Creator.

Now, as you gain experience and service to others, you may find your work with other people in service changing, because you are changing. Change, of course, is painful, yet it is what you are desiring, each and every one of you. If you do not wish to feel pain, refrain from the meditation, refrain from helping others, be secure and safe within your own four walls and live your life. Perhaps in the next incarnation you shall take up the quest once again. You have all the time in the world, and we mean that literally. There is no hurry; there is no judgment; there is simply a large portion of the Creator which has separated itself by the action of free will that it may know itself, that it may know itself better and better.

This is not the first creation, nor shall it be the last. Each of you is old, older than you can imagine, wiser than you can imagine. But these attributes are very deep within the subconscious mind. When you desire to seek the true service as opposed to pleasing entities, it is well to spend time in silence, allowing all the situation, the feelings, the expectations of others and so forth, to wash through you, and then to tune yourself to the highest and best that you possibly know and can carry on a stable basis.

We speak simple truths. There isn’t anything new about what we say. It is just that we have, shall we say, no ax to grind, no churches to build. All we care is to serve one person, one soul at a time, and we are most, most happily content, for each of you, my friends, is worthwhile, imperishable, perfect and beautiful. Now, the process that you go through in becoming a less personal servant and a more impersonal servant through which things come involves more and more sacrifice, adjustment, understanding and laughter. If you are not laughing and feeling merry at some times as you meditate, then it is time for you to learn to laugh, for you to release the spontaneity which is your birthright.

You see, each of you has complete free will. You do not have to follow the path of the Creator. You may stay in one place, or you may move in a negative fashion, controlling others and manipulating them to serve yourself. The choices are yours, and as you make one successful choice the strength is then given to you to try again and again and again. You will many times feel that you have failed. But remember, you cannot judge yourself, not until this illusion is gone from you and you can see the truth face to face. The very desire and zeal to be faithful and loving to one another is a light for the nations, a lightening of the planetary consciousness and the hope of your planet [at] this particular time.

Now Q’uo said that as we continue to serve others our service will change because we are changing, and change is a painful experience. Q’uo recommended meditation could help us perceive what our true service is and that we should continue to serve others whenever possible even if we feel that we fail to do so. But Q’uo said that we should not judge ourselves for our perceived failures because our great desire to be of service creates a lightening of the planetary consciousness. On October 18, 1978, Hatonn described the  nature of lightening the planetary consciousness:

The planetary consciousness becomes lighter and lighter as it receives the love generated, first from that central sun which is the Creator, but then flowing through you persons of free will on planet Earth [who] have good wishes for all on your planet, and the Earth itself begins to feel it.

Let us reckon with free will before we close in this instrument. You have an equal measure of free will and of God-self. This is your makeup. When you are small in stature and have not learned you are very self-involved. You are hungry, and you cry; you are wet, and you cry; you wish to be comforted, and you cry. Communication is very easy. The free will of the mother and father who nurture is not given many options, for it is in the nature of the relationship of parent and child that nurturing will in some way be done or at least attempted. But now all of you have passed that stage of living a free-will life and have found that the only true free will is the will to serve.

Thus, willfulness becomes willingness, and difficulty becomes a smoothly running river of love and light that cascades you know not where. You do not know whose lives you touch, but by faith your life itself may touch many and give them the light that they need to make their choices.

We urge each neither to proselytize nor to refrain from witnessing to that truth which is yours personally when asked. This is simple, solid, metaphysical information which has been written down many times in your holy works. But it is always new, as each day is new and as each day you are new. And so we turn to that which breaks the back of willfulness, and that is forgiveness. In willfulness you want to do this and you want to do that, and you will do this and you won’t do that. And the God-self sits in a corner with Its hands folded in the closet of your heart, waiting for you to open the door. One day you open the door, but you see nothing. You go in and you seat yourself and you prepare yourself and you find nothing. Perseverance brings awareness, a subtle awareness of the God-self, the Christ-consciousness within.

It is inevitable that each grade, shall we say, is going to be more difficult than the last, more challenging, more interesting, for that which is before you now is based upon that which you have learned so far in this incarnational experience. Perhaps the key to being able to distinguish that which you wish to do is the letting go of the decision and the allowing of inner wisdom to inform you in your free will what seems the best service to perform. Then one can turn the will with a glad and merry heart to the task at hand, wasting no time in doubt, but only tuning yourself always to the highest and best that you can be, moving again and again to the center of your being, and, no matter how harsh the failure seems to you subjectively at any one time, to refrain from the judgment of the self.

Learning has always been a painful task. It is exciting, and when one looks back upon it, it is wondrous and adventurous. One feels as a voyager would, going to conquer new lands, going to embrace the world with love and light. Just about the time that you feel this way, the next lesson shall begin. This is what you planned for yourself for the utmost polarization for service to others.

Q’uo completed their thoughts on the path of service to others by saying that we would do well to persevere in seeking the Christ-consciousness within us to discover our continually changing ways of service, and they repeated that we should not  judge ourselves for any perceived failures because learning is always a painful task. However, they said that this is what we planned for on our path of service to others. On January 19, 1997, Q’uo spoke of the value of service to others:

There is always an abundance of ways in which we may speak of the ways of service and the ways of polarization, and yet nothing is more direct a way of addressing the issue of polarity than to speak of the open heart. Those who wish to serve the Creator by serving others are those who truly wish to open the heart.

[Pause]

We paused briefly, simply to enjoy the beauty of this circle of seeking, and we thank and bless each of you for calling us this evening to your meditation to share in your vibrations at this time. It is most blessed to us to be able to share our thoughts with you, our most hoped-for event, and we thank you, for as we speak with you, and as we share in the anguish and joy that each brings this evening, we re-experience the third-density illusion, the heaviest of all illusions, and we see and are inspired by the bravery, the courage, and the determination of those who wish to do the Father’s will, regardless of what it costs.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, thanking this instrument and each instrument in the group and all in the group, indeed, for acting as batteries for this instrument. We leave in love and light. We are Q’uo.

This morning I went outside and pulled up the SunPatiens in the Flower Mound in the front yard that were killed by recent frosts and put them in the garbage can. Then I did the same with the flowers on the Wuthering Heights Mound which is also in the front yard. Then I went inside the house and vacuumed the first floor. After that I made an errand run to pick up some food for myself at Paul’s Fruit Market. On the way home I picked up a pizza at Hometown Pizza.

This afternoon I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the side yard and the back yard into place so I could use Venus to mulch the leaves in place

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 3

The Birds Of Night And Day

I am of the principle of love, that full consciousness of divine love which is Jesus the Christ. I greet you in blessings and in peace.

Like a quiet bird the morning flies before you, pulling in its flashing feathers a veil of heaven and earth and all the many colored illusions of your day.

And all too soon the great night hawk will fly and in its dark feathers shall be carried the veil of darkness, nighttime and slumber. So does the illusion shift before your eyes, first light and then dark, all seemingly unattached to your consciousness, to your attention and to your caring.

Yet know that you are both birds: that which brings the day and that which brings the night. Within you lies the power of each. Choose, then, that which you prefer: radiance and light or darkness and the blank O of nothingness.

Choose the environment for your consciousness and abide in peace and love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I would like to let everyone know that because of the devastating war going on in Israel and Palestine we have created a ritual of sending love, light, and peace to all of the soldiers and civilians on both sides of the war. This is the link that will give you the process of this peace ritual: https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/group-peace-visualization

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from May 28, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to those queries which may yet remain upon the minds of those present. Is there a query at this time to which we may speak?

J: Yes, I have a question. Earlier, Q’uo, in the channeling you spoke of if a person decides to go rapidly in your spiritual seeking and take the hard path, I believe you said, it is best to have a kindred spirit making the journey with you. I think I understand why, but could you elaborate just a little bit in case there’s some things about that I’m not thinking of?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. As one progresses upon the journey of evolution of mind, body and spirit, one will discover that the catalyst which aids in this progress is most usually configured in a manner which will present the challenge in order that abilities of the entity may be stretched, shall we say, to the limits and the possibility of enlarging these abilities then offered. If one chooses to progress in a more rapid or conscious fashion, this in the mundane world of your daily experience may well mean that the difficulties will be enhanced.

Thus, it is well upon such a journey to travel with a companion of similar desire that wishes above all else with you to make this journey of seeking, of learning and of service, for those who are of a like mind will far more surely find those clues within the catalyst that point the direction for the next step, and those who travel together will experience their catalyst and processing of same in an unique fashion, with one utilizing the intensity of experience at a time, perhaps, when the other has less intensity, so that there might be assistance given from one to another. The support of one seeker for another is crucial in those times during which the night of the soul is experienced and despair descends upon the perception of the one who is experiencing the battle of learning and of service. For there is much to untangle within each incarnational experience and when one seeks to speed this process, one is asking to suffer in the mundane world in order that the limits of ability might be enhanced and enlarged.

Thus, there is much of comfort and of solace and of support that each may provide the other as the goal of learning and of serving is achieved.

J asked Q’uo to elaborate on a statement that was made earlier in this session when Q’uo suggested that the seeker would be aided in its spiritual path if it was able to join its effort of seeking with a kindred spirit. Q’uo said that the catalyst which must be processed on any spiritual seeker’s journey will at times be more than the seeker can handle, and it is at these times that each seeker could be aided by a mate that could help in the processing of such catalyst in a more effective way. On August 29, 2001, Q’uo spoke as to how a mated relationship can aid in the spiritual evolution of each person in the mated relationship:

The mated relationship is a specific kind of service, an experience of mutual desire for seeking the one Creator, for serving the one Creator, and for sharing the life pattern out of which seeking and service are born. Thusly, you may consider the words which we have spoken concerning the occupation and its service as being applicable to the mated relationship as well.

There is the need to love and to be loved which is as normal and natural a function of the human being as is the sleeping, the eating, the breathing, and the moving about within your illusion.

The experience of being of service with the mate is one which has a great deal of joy and direction in that each in the mated relationship feels a kind of wholeness which is not present outside the mated relationship when one is alone.

Although it is quite possible for each entity to be of great service and to seek with great purity in a solitary fashion, the yoke of such honor/duty/experience is more easily borne when shared.

In opening oneself to such a relationship there is the need to become truly open, to prepare the self for change and to be willing to accept the changing currents and depths of the river of life.

Is there a further query, my brother?

J: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: Could you speak on the reprogramming of the mind?

I am Q’uo, and we shall speak but briefly…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. We shall continue. The term “reprogramming” has some misdirection within it to which we would first speak. It is possible to assume by this term that one would change the program that has been set in motion in some fashion due to conscious desire and specific efforts. We would rather focus upon the completion of programming rather than that which would change programming which has been chosen previous to the incarnation’s beginning. For the preincarnative choices that have allowed certain biases and tendencies to manifest within the incarnational pattern have the purpose of allowing a greater point of view or perspective to be achieved as the preincarnative biases are experienced, analyzed, meditated upon, and consciously worked with in a manner which draws unto them their appropriate complements, in many cases these being the opposite of the original bias.

Thus, one may experience a good deal of frustration and anger pointed toward the self within an incarnational pattern as a result of various what an entity may call mistakes and ineffective application in order that a greater love and compassion might eventually replace the anger and frustration which were the first distortions or biases with which the entity began. Thus, the continued experience of this anger pointed toward the self may eventually attract the attention of the entity to the degree that the entity begins to consider why such anger exists and what use may be made of it, all the while building the potential for eventual acceptance and compassion for the self and then for others about the self.

Thus, it is our recommendation that each entity seek to understand and to identify those biases or programmings which are prominent within the life pattern and to trace these behaviors of thought, of word, and of action to their deepest source within the being and to then note the effect that these programmings have brought about within the point of view or attitude of the entity. It is well to enter into the daily round of activities without pretense or predisposition to, shall we say, clamp down upon the self certain behaviors due to their being felt to be of an unhelpful nature, but rather to allow the natural response in each situation to find its expression within the self and to work with that response at a later time when the emotional coloration has left the mind and to work in the contemplative or prayerful or meditative state with these spontaneous responses in order that they might be enhanced to the point that their logical conclusion is seen and felt within the being.

At this point it is then possible that the appropriate complement that is meant to be drawn to the entity through these spontaneous experiences will make itself known as well within the field of vision of the inner eye. When this has occurred with equal intensity, then, at the deepest level of awareness possible for the seeker, it may be seen that the life pattern has the purpose in this instance of allowing this range of experience to be had in the life pattern in order that certain opportunities and lessons and services might be made available.

Thus, it is our recommendation that the conscious working with catalyst, that which may be called the reprogramming, be done as a function of the natural experience that forms the life pattern and be done in a conscious fashion with the desire to penetrate to the heart of the experience so that the surface appearance is soon left behind and the deeper significance is discovered, buried layer upon layer within the symbolic formation of this programming within the entity’s life pattern.

Carla asked Q’uo to speak about the reprogramming of the mind. Q’uo began their answer by saying that rather than reprogramming the mind it might be better to see this process as completing the pre-incarnative programming of the mind which was made before the incarnation began. In order to do this, Q’uo said that the seeker needs to look at its various biases in behaviors to see where the deepest layers of the being from which the behaviors comes from are, and then to attempt to work with them in meditation to find their opposite so that the learning process is completed. On November 3, 2018, Q’uo described how to process the behaviors that come from pre-incarnative programming:

Thus, if entities will simply, in the meditative state, at the end of the day, observe those activities which made a mark upon the mind that moved the entity to remember in some intellectual or emotional fashion that which occurred, then there may be the perception that a certain amount of experience of pre-incarnative choices has occurred.

As this process of evaluating each day’s activities occurs in meditation at the end of the day, there may seem to be a certain kind of pattern evolving within the experience of such an entity so that the pattern expresses the nature of the pre-incarnative choice that has been experienced by the entity. Thus, paying attention to what is occurring in the life experience is the surest means by which to become aware of those choices one has made with the hopes that the learning of them will move the entity further along the path of the evolution of mind, body, and spirit, eventually resulting in the opening of the heart, and the movement into the fourth density of love and understanding.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: It says in the Bible, “By their fruits you shall know them,” and that’s sort of a biblical equivalent of the work ethic which Americans have. It sounds to me that you’re saying that worldly ambition and the work ethic work, or can work, against living a life in faith or living a life by spiritual principles. Is that correct?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. If one’s focus of attention remains solely upon the surface of experience, that which you call the worldly ambition, then, indeed, it is so that such can retard the progress of one upon the path of evolution. For it is truly said that it is an illusion in which you now dwell. “It is far more than it appears,” is another way of stating this point of view. Thus, there are various levels of realization that one may obtain from any particular experience. One may remain upon the surface of experience and realize only that which is mundane and worldly in your normal round of activities. One may chose at some point within the life experience to seek further the meaning of the experience.

At this point the entity will begin to see beyond the appearance of the illusion and the daily round of activities so that a pattern of purpose begins to form itself within the conscious seeking entity. Thus, the journey inward has begun and may continue for as long and as far as the entity wishes to pursue it.

May we speak further, my sister?

But you can do a job and make a living, as long as you don’t take it home with you. It wouldn’t matter then, right? You could still progress spiritually?

I am Q’uo. One may, indeed, complete the job, as you have called it, and provide a living for the self and the family and yet be able to take great strides of evolution. For all that comes before the conscious seeker of truth in the daily round may be utilized in a higher and higher sense, shall we say, once the mundane level of experience has been accomplished.

Now Carla asked if the work ethic and worldly ambition could work against living a life guided by spiritual principles, and her second question was similar when she asked if having a job and making a living wouldn’t matter if you didn’t take it home with you. Q’uo began their answer by saying that if you simply stayed upon the surface of your experiences then you would not be able to progress spiritually. Then they said that if one explored further layers of their experiences they would find greater meaning in their daily experiences for as long as they studied them. On January 11, 1998, Q’uo described the greater meaning that we might be able to find in our daily experiences:

But the meat of living is in the ordinary and the often ignored daily affairs. Your mind is infinite. If you could only see into the self, the roots of mind come through the life of one self into the life of many, into the greater and greater groups, and finally into the All. And each of the steps and ramifications is a universe unto itself, and this infinite repository and resource indwells each of you. You have all the material that you will ever consciously pursue and adore resting comfortably and in fullness within your being. A portion of that infinite Self that begins with your personality shell knows this fire. But for you within this density at this time, embrace the confusion. Do your best to live consciously, aware of the issues of free will, love and service. But do not be upset or discouraged with the self or with getting lost within the illusion. You are supposed to be lost most of the time. This is how you learn. And this pattern of the discovery of your self, it will show you to yourself, and that self that it shows you, ah, what an infinite thing you will find!

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: Is the opposite true? Can one who does not do any physical service find a way to progress spiritually?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Within your illusion it is quite possible to progress in a spiritual sense without physically doing any particular thing, for the entity which is consciously aware of the process of evolution may utilize any experience, thought or desire in order to advance the ability to feel love and compassion for the self and for all other selves.

Thus, it is only necessary that the desire to learn and to serve be present within the entity for these goals to be realized within your illusion.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, Q’uo, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

J: I have another question. I don’t want to be a hog, but this has been bothering me the whole time we’ve been sitting here. It goes back to when Carla was channeling at the very beginning. Before she was channeling, just before we said the Lord’s prayer, I was running a real negative trip in my head about a common friend and our experiences, and it was really just bothering me, because here we were about to start praying together and I was running all this real heavy negative stuff. And then Carla came and channeled and said and was thanked by Q’uo for challenging a negative entity. My question is, was this negative entity in any way involved with the intensity of my thoughts, my negative feelings? If this doesn’t infringe upon free will, could you comment upon it, please?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my brother. The entity of which we spoke through the instrument known as Carla was an entity which was attracted to the desire to be of service that was present within this circle of seeking. This desire is seen upon the metaphysical planes as a light. This light is seen in its intensity to possess a power to transform. The negatively-oriented entity desired to influence this light in as great a fashion as possible in order that the light might be brought within its domain, for this is the nature of the negatively-oriented entity, to gather from whatever source possible as much light power as possible in order that its own power might be enhanced at the expense, shall we say, of others.

The thoughts of those within the circle of seeking, inasmuch as they would deviate from the harmony normally present within such a positively-oriented group, may be utilized by such an entity to provide a chink, shall we say, in the armor of protective light that this group or any such group provides by its desire to seek information in order to be of service to others.

Thus, the thoughts that were present within your mind complex were available as a resource for this entity which would have been happy to utilize them by enhancing their intensity and removing your positive contribution to the circle of seeking. This was in potential and was not yet a possibility for the entity, however, the entity was aware of such possibility.

Is there a further query, my brother?

J: In other words, from what you just said, this entity hadn’t really focused on me, but was just aware, because this is not the first time this particular thought had been entertained by me. But you’re saying that it really wasn’t a focus at this time of this entity on my particular thoughts that made them so intense?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Without infringement, we may suggest that the notice of the thoughts of which you speak was as far as the entity was able to proceed, though the normal process for such an entity is, indeed, to intensify such choices freely made that deviate from the harmony possible for an entity. There is no ability of negatively-oriented entities to plant, shall we say, such a thought within the mind of another without the other first creating that thought of its own free will.

J asked Q’uo if the negative thoughts about a friend that J was entertaining just before the channeling session began was the same negative entity that Q’uo had mentioned had attempted to speak through Carla but was unable to because of her challenging process. After Q’uo’s first response that such was possible but had not occurred, J asked again to be sure that his negative thoughts had not been what Q’uo was talking about. Q’uo began their response by saying that negative entities are attracted to channeling circles such as this one because in these gatherings the strong desire to be of service to others is seen as a light which has the power to transform seekers, and the negative entity would like to control that light and use it for itself. But Q’uo said the negative entity was only aware of this as a possibility and had not utilized it. On June 21, 1989, Latwii described how light is able to attract negative entities:

There is a great deal of desire to be of service amongst those presently gathered. There is, therefore, the notice upon the metaphysical of this light. This light attracts the attention much as does your electrical light attract the attention of the night creatures which fly about in your air. Thus, there are many of the negative orientation that are interested in this light, but for the most part have little other than curiosity to bring them to this light, for it is that which is of the moment at this time.

Is there another query, my brother?

J: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Would you address the difference between judgment and discernment?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The hallmark difference from our point of view between the judging and the discerning is that in the act of judging an action, a thought, or an entity, one in some degree removes that thought, action or entity from the loving compassion that one would feel in a normal sense without the judgment. In the act of discerning, one looks at a thought, a word, an action, or an entity and attempts to describe what is occurring without removing this thought, word, action or entity from the heart, shall we say, and attempts to relate to that thought, word, action or entity in a fashion that is consonant with the feeling of compassion and love that each portion of the Creator has as a natural birthright.

May we speak in any further degree, my sister?

Questioner: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there a final query at this time?

Carla: I guess I’d like to ask the one that was brought up about the sevens. There were a lot of seven densities and seven sub-densities and so forth. Have you any comment to make on that particular arrangement?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Each density of light provides a certain vibrational possibility for learning and for service. Within your third density, as is true with each density before and after the third density, there is the primary division of the density into seven levels of vibration, each building upon the previous level in the possibility of obtaining experience, of learning through experience, and of serving through utilizing that which has been learned. There is within each sub-density a further division of seven that proceeds yet into further division of seven, until one may assume that the division is infinite.

Thus, possibility for learning and serving through the gradation of experience is also infinite. The divisions of each density and sub-density are not arbitrary or created by any particularized entity or group of entities, but are rather a function of the nature of the creation itself which has certain vibrational characteristics that naturally fall into those areas which in your numbering systems correspond to that which equals seven.

Thus, within your illusion, there are many mystery schools, shall we say, which find meaning in this division of sevens, so that in a mathematical sense there is the possibility of creating the model or the analog which approaches the deeper levels of understanding of the very nature of creation. Thus, one finds that the pursuit of the understanding, shall we say, of the mysteries of life, as you would call it, may be described in a general fashion by the application of the qualities that are associated with the seven levels of vibration of light which form the creation or the universe as you know it.

Thus, each entity within this circle of seeking and within the third density in general has reproduced within its energy systems, or those areas which you have called the chakras, the seven levels of vibration, each energy center or chakra containing also a division of seven levels of apprehending the basic nature or tone of experience that is possible within each energy center, with each succeeding center providing a finer or more refined application of the basic energy which enters through the root chakra and proceeds through the system of chakras or energy centers in the form of light, so that the entity is able, or potentially able, to apply its own level of understanding to its daily round of activities and discern those experiences which have significance in the journey of evolution.

Thus, the system of sevens provides each seeker of truth the ability to penetrate beyond the surface appearance of any thought or experience so that there might be gained from each a variety of levels of experience or symbolism that will enhance the evolutionary process.

Now Carla asked what was the significance of there being seven densities, each of which had seven sub-densities and on an on with sevens repeating. Q’uo responded by saying that the seven densities with seven sub-densities repeating infinitely are a representation of how the process of learning and serving is also infinite. Q’uo went on to say that each person has seven energy centers that also can refine the love/light that enters through the root chakra in higher and higher ways to aid the evolutionary process. On January 4, 2004, Q’uo described the sub-densities of our energy centers:

You have the sub-densities of red through violet within third-density. And each of those sub-densities: red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet, contains seven sub-sub-densities so that each chakra, shall we say, in the energy body is a fully integrated system within itself. Then as a system it is further fully integrated as one being. This layering of bodies or states of beingness within the system that is you is infinite, potentially. In most entity’s cases there are perhaps three or four levels of beingness which are plumbed during incarnation. In a circle such as this, with entities that have been doing inner work and spiritual processes for a considerable time, perhaps you begin to penetrate into more and more layers, or levels, of being. Each one has its characteristic environment, experiences and learnings to offer. All of them are colored by the characteristic nature of their place within the energy vehicle.

At this time…

Carla: Could I ask just one more question? To follow up? It’s just this. Excuse me—I didn’t mean to interrupt you, but I was so curious. Would it be correct to say, then, that the peculiar plangency and heartfeltness of music, especially sacred music, is due to the fact that music is the physical analog of that spiritual truth, since it moves in octaves—seven notes and then the next note is the same as the first, only an octave higher?

I am Q’uo, and this is correct, my sister, for the vibration that is felt within an entity as a response to the musical notation being reflected through voice or instrument is a vibration which sets up the possibility of viewing the present experience of the entity from that level of vibration created by the music. Thus, certain music, as you call it, will excite certain centers of energy, and through that excitation the entity will feel various levels and qualities of inspiration. Thus, the perception of the entity will blend in an harmonious fashion with the music and provide the entity an experience that would not be possible without the presence of the music.

Carla: Thank you, Q’uo. I’m done now, and I just want to thank you for being with us tonight and invite you to join us afterwards for our merriment and laughter. Be with us, and we thank you so much, all of us. Adonai.

I am Q’uo, and we are most grateful, my sister, to each present for allowing our presence this evening, for without your invitation we would have no beingness within your circle of seeking. We are most grateful for the opportunity to speak those words which we offer freely and which are the fruits of our own seeking. We remind each that we offer that which is but our opinion, and we do not wish any word to provide a stumbling block to any seeker. Please accept those words which have meaning to you and use them as you will. If any word does not ring true, please forget it at once.

We at, this time, would leave this instrument and this circle, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and put the leaves that I blew from my neighbor’s driveway into my parking area in front of the house into the garbage cans that the yard waste guy emptied this morning.

This afternoon I used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the front yard into pile, and then I put them in three more garbage cans and covered these cans and the cans from this morning with a tarp to keep forecasted rain this weekend from making the cans too heavy. Then I made an errand run with my first stop at Walmart’s to buy a small rug to replace the worn out one in front of my chair in my bedroom. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. The last stop was at Walgreen’s to buy some vitamins and some Tylenol.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 2

The Manna Of Joy And Peace

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of the love of Jesus the Christ.

Behold, the day has been made new! Yesterday’s dew has long since passed, and the manna of dew has come once again for this special day.

Do not be fooled by the seeming imperfection of your thoughts nor the seeming inadequacy of your actions. Stay in this moment, in that point within the mind which receives this very morning’s dew, this very morning’s manna of joy and peace.

Feel! Feel the sanctity of your own true nature palpably, consciously.

Focus upon that hunger for spiritual food, for the dew of righteousness. Be still in your seeking. Be still in your knowing.

And then, when your joy is complete—only then—move forward into the world of illusion where good seems bad and bad seems good and the manna of love has been dried up by the false sun of circumstance.

You shall carry the consciousness of the soul well satisfied with spiritual food throughout the day. And then each illusion may be met with an infinite love. Such is the Father’s gift through Jesus Christ to you. Rejoice and be glad.

We leave you in the joy and peace of the consciousness of Christ, now and forever.

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.