(03-18-2017, 01:52 AM)Aion Wrote: [ -> ]Would you also be able to do that for the posts that were in reaction to his post?
It should be done to every post on b4, a test run to meet those same energies face to face outside of a digital area.
I'm happy e_s is back, with that said.
Lets talk, e_s. I'll save the ladies some trouble and hopefully start a calmer respomse.
Firstly, I have been abused by my father and mother. My father was physical, he threw me into a wall out if frustration with me when I was around 4 years old. Used to punch and violently yell at me and was extremely selfish and emotionally unavailable.
My mother was crazy. Everything was another's fault. When she got my father put in jail by lying then put a restraining order on him, there was only one person left to take the brunt of her 'everything is your fault, you do nothing!' behavior, since 11. For over a decade I have been taught by her that I am less than nothing, the cause of her future death, and that everything is my fault and that I'm to blame.
She also has several times tried to arrest me and use legal action to control me. If I didn't go right into college she'd make me homeless. If I didn't do something I'd lose something. She didn't even give me an allowance, I had to skip school lunch and save up my money to get anything I wanted.
So I've an idea of abuse and neglect. I've basically an Associates in Psychology bordering a bachelor's, I just never finished school...
E_s, lets talk about why you feel these ways about men and women. Now I won't say you're wrong...I just want you to know that I worry about you. I'm all for your biases and choices, I share precisely a desire to be with another regardless of their sex to give them the love and passion I seldom had. I especially resonate with your want for a feminine guy (who i imagine must at least have n androgynous body type and be 'cute') so that you can give another sharing your attributes that which you desired the most of another.
I especially feel that way in a sexual regards and were I more attractive, I'd probably be with another every week. The down side of a high sex drive when you're not 'hot' or 'cute'.
The plus side, sexual pleasure is a key to me, a key to unity. I want sex not to be pleasuresd, but to give. In fact, basically all but 1 sexual relationships I had were 1 way, me pleasing her/him. All but one.
But of all of this, through the resentment and bitterness of being used and even molested and raped as a kid by 'friends'... That want never faltered.
Its not entirely wrong I remain balanced in view of another through my sexual desire and want of certain energies. But the real foundation to that is a deep ingrained lesson I learned from my mom. Life is a series of lessons, follow what you feel is right to do. (If only she knew that was a key part of my becoming the stubborn way I am...)
Also to say please and thank you.
I feel deep down that we're all similar in more ways than dissimilar. Yeah so the hormones, neurochemical, and anatomy are different. Yet we have the same thoughts, emotions, sensations, senses, we taste the same ways (with physical taste bud preferential differences), we feel and we laugh and cry.
I think the blame game is a farce, an excuse to hide from something. I can be like my mom, blame her and the world and reality for all of my problems. But I don't feel that'd be right. I've seen where that got her and she is often miserable because of it.
I don't think any of us see through any colored lens, we simply see through the lens that is our experiential biases. We attract to us things to enforce these biases.
You could say bias is the key to knowing ourselves, they are facets there to be understood and to distill the lessons they provide.
E_s, I agree the English language leaves much to be desired in clear and concise communication. Will you share with is some background information about you, where you're born and raised, what your native language is and what your culture is like towards women, just so we have a clearer understanding of where you're coming from?
I don't think mothers are to blame. Despite this I do empathize that there are a lot of parents out there who do a poor job at nurturing their children with love... a very poor job, many who are culturally acceptable are borderline cruel and unusual. I've heard enough teenagers and kids talk about doing something extremely dangerous 'just because' which is a silent way of saying they're thinking of suicide. I had a coworker at McDonald's who was only about 15 and kept telling us he's going to go jump in front of a bus,
he could use the money. I met his mother one day, she takes his entire paycheck for herself, and she is RUDE and humiliating to her child in front of everyone without a care for what its doing to him.
Yet I feel it is stillup to him to not go jump in front of a bus or be humiliating and cruel to others, the blame rests on the shoulders of the performer in this play.
If we all work together, to share our experiences and discuss our views. I hope we'll learn from and teach each other a little more about one another.
You have many valid points e_s but they are shaped like spiky balls that hurt to grasp. You don't need to be so assertive in that kind of way that it hurts to read. It is of course your prerogative but as a friend man, won't you help yourself by smoothing out the idras to bee more encompassing with reasons why that don't amount up to 'these people are this problems cause'.
I don't know if that's your intention, but I feel its blameworthy manner of seeing things is hurtful and harmful no different from extreme views of feminism or of a 'man-perpetuated' patriarchy. Both angles still blame an entire demographic or target a demographic.
I want us to be able to find the Creator we love and cherish so much in each other. I see Love in you e_s, the same love I see in everyone, I see this same love in Jade and SMC and Nicholas and Aion and more.
So no man, you're not wrong but I feel sadness at your views, I feel like you're hurting parts of yourself with them.
I feel this way towards SMC and Jade too.
And I just want you to see, that everybody is worthy of love and respect of their divine being, and not so much their views and opinions.
I love and respect you, Jade, and SMC, even if I disagree with the angles and views you each have.
In everyone of you I see a Lover hurting and trying to make it known, and just know. Whether or not that is true.
I respect all of you and your decisions. I just hope one day we'll all, myself inincluded, be able to be better lovers, to each other as compassionate fellow hu-mon beings