I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 26, 1992:

The question this afternoon deals with behavior that is intended to be of service to others but which seems, in the eyes of the one offering the service, to fall short because the one that one is attempting to serve is somehow impaired, either perhaps by old age and difficulty in remembering conversations and visits, or by alcoholism so that the memory there is also faulty, or perhaps just a pattern of behavior that has been set up through the life that makes it difficult to really feel like one is making a solid contact, that there is clear communication, and that there has been a recognition of the visit, of the service, of words, of conversations. What kind of consolation can one take in attempting to offer such a service to another person, knowing that the person, for one reason or another, probably won’t remember it, won’t appreciate it, and may not be affected by it in any observable degree? Is there some value in continuing to attempt to serve in this manner?

(Carla channeling)

We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Greetings and blessings to each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator whose intelligence is the intelligence of infinite Love. We would preface this discussion of service by informing this instrument as to the reason for the gathering of other discarnate entities at this working. This instrument usually prays for all those unseen friends symbolized by the archangels to attend in strength in the purification of the place of working. On this particular occasion, this instrument asked for all of its unseen friends and did not ask for the archangels as symbols but as those among others who would be present. Consequently, this is a very crowded meeting. Each and all thank the instrument and the group for the privilege of being able to share in this meditation. And we thank this instrument that we may through it offer our service, that of humble opinion.

When the question is asked, “What service is not such a good service?”, there are two general ways of approaching the query. One is from the viewpoint of that entity who desires to be of service; one is from the viewpoint of the actual needs of the entity which is being apparently served. Because the query is more centrally that of the one serving, we would like to address the confusion generated by gazing from the viewpoint of the one who is apparently being served.

The needs of an individual entity are never completely apparent unless the entity is transparent to all that is beautiful and true. Entities seldom know their own needs or how to judge them. So, it is not surprising that the third-density servant becomes confused and loses sanguinity when faced with the task of attempting to determine what service is appropriate, what service meets the real needs of the entity being served.

From the most general standpoint, we might opine that true service involves working with spiritual principles that will in some way aid in teaching the one who is being served about what spiritual evolution consists in and what the process of spiritual maturation might involve. This teaching does not necessarily have to be a teaching of words. Silence and actions speak loudly also. However, if one who is a servant is ruled by the calm logic of spiritual principles in the abstract, one is moving from a place of impersonal compassion, and this attitude is conveniently and comfortably separated from a deep involvement with, and fellow feeling for, the entity one is attempting to serve.

Thusly, we would not recommend that one approach each and every opportunity of service by using the calm and detached logic of the analysis of events in terms of spiritual principles. It is perfectly acceptable to inform oneself of one’s opinion from this point of view, but it is the wisdom of the heart which moves the servant into open and full giving of the self without reservation, not the temperate demands of logic. This information may be helpful to ponder when one truly does feel that one is not of service. In this case, an analysis of the entity’s situation in terms of the opportunities for spiritual maturation may yield telling results and we recommend it for this use.

The weight of the query at this working revolves about the consolation one might find when performing a service which one feels is a portion of one’s duty, one’s responsibility, indeed, as the one known as Ra would say, “one’s honor.” It is an honor, a responsibility, and a duty to treat with perfect love those companions of family, and the informal family of deep friendships, with the dedication to being the mouth, the hands, and the lifting and carrying shoulders in manifestation of the one infinite Creator which is forever unmanifest. The very heart of service is the request of the one know as Jesus to love others as one loves the self.

If the self gives the self a bath or tidies its habitat or offers itself food, the need for thanks of self to self seems small. When one serves another self one does not interiorize the service, but rather perceives the service as moving from one field of energy, that being the self, to another field of energy, that being another separate self. This reach seems long to the servant, and it is no longer of the relaxed mind of one who is hungry and so prepares itself food, or one who needs society and so calls a friend or goes to the amusement. Now it is one entity reaching out through space and time to a separate entity. It seems there is a transaction. The servant gives a service like a gift or a present to another self. Perhaps the reason is a desire to express love, to express loyalty, or to express some one or other of the many strands and kinds of emotion one feels concerning those things which one’s personal character structure inform one’s conscience that it is just, rightful, dutiful and honorable for the self to do.

In actuality, whether one who is served is a parent, a child, a member of the family or of the extended family of friendship, or of the nature of complete strangers, service is always service if it is given purely. The challenge is to love others as one loves the self.

The group question for this session was: What consolation can one take in attempting to be of service to a person who may be impaired in such a way that they are unaware of being served? Q’uo said that this question could be viewed from the perspective of the one being served or the one serving, and they said that they were going to begin their response from the perspective of the one being served. However, the rest of their response was focused on the one being of service to another. They said that truly knowing one is being of service is never totally clear but, in general, one should attempt to teach spiritual principles in words, or in silence and actions, but rather than using logic to determine the service one should use the wisdom of the heart. Then Q’uo said that it is an honor and a duty to serve another self in a manner which is based upon the giving of love, no matter how this is manifested, for to love the other as one loves the self is the basis of any service to others. On February 2, 1997, Q’uo agreed that to love others as the self was the basis of service:

To love the Creator, to love the self, and to love others as the self; these are very simple suggestions, and from that soul level they are fairly comprehensive instructions.

When one is becoming spiritually mature, one loves the self without reservation, seeing in full the iniquity, the foibles, the insecurities and fears which it as a third-density illusory entity carries. Each self in third density does walk carrying a burden. That burden is its humanity, and that is a work which describes those things which the illusory self experiences as successful distortions of the truer, deeper nature of the mind, body and spirit as a unified being. The humanity contains all those energies concerning the self, the relationships with others and with groups of others, be they churches, nations or athletic teams, which affect the true entity—or may we say—more deeply true entity, by baffling, distorting, blocking or causing to be over-active the energies which must be penetrated by the energy of the Creator which is breathed into the being from the base of the energies and comes up into the heart to be used for spiritual work such as service.

Insofar as these energies of what we would call the red ray of survival and relationships with the self, of orange and yellow ray which concern relationships with self, other entities, and other groups of entities, all can be most confused. And insofar as these energies are allowed to remain murky, the power that moves into the heart will be less. It is only when one is able to release the so-called lower energies so that no grudges are held, no sorrows clutched close, and no fears ruling the nature, that the energy centers become clear and are able to pass on the full strength of the infinite energy which many call prana.

When this prana moves into the heart and then moves out upon the wings of service in full strength, there is no need for any concern on the part of the servant as to the relative success of the service. It is then that one may experience the treating of another as one treats the self. That which seems appropriate is done. If it is good food and is eaten and appreciated, very well. If the food is not that which can be taken and the plate must be refused, that is too bad, but not a reflection upon the service offered.

Now see where each is caught. It is at the point where one wishes for one’s service to be successful that one finds oneself suddenly separated from the flow and the process of the Self serving the Self by serving the other self. That is, the flow of the Creator, the capital “S” Self serving the capital “S” Self. This is true service to capital “S” Self, service to the infinite Self.

Linguistics can become confusing, but it is a point trenchantly to be considered that the left hand path is service to small “s” self, and the right hand or positive path is service to capital “S” Self. The difference is in the definition of the self, and as a small self serves another small self and does not remember that one is serving the capital “S” Creator Self by serving another Self, that service will seem incomplete without the thank you, without the good feeling of success. But if service is offered with the firm memory that one is serving the infinite Creator, one intends by the greatest desire to serve the infinite Creator, and one is simply serving other selves as a means to this noble end, then one can free oneself of the misery of feeling unappreciated and unnoticed. Perhaps the service is appreciated, perhaps it is not, by the self which is apparently being served. But in the generation of positive intentions in the great and ever more purified desire to serve the one infinite Creator in all of Its infinite parts, one may more and more feel falling away from the self the need for recognition, the need for the thank you, for the justification of the service.

That extreme good judgment of offering only the excellent service is a butterfly too elusive to catch. Better it is to gaze at one’s duties, one’s responsibilities, one’s honors, and the ever present strangers in one’s midst as perfect opportunities for service to the Creator Self so that service is not scattered among people and places and categories but, rather, service is a way of life expressing the spiritual principle of offering love to one’s Creator and Preserver, offering the self to the Creator Self, and in return feeling the Creator Self pouring through the self in infinite energy so that there is always energy for more service, until this way of life becomes, may we say, self-perpetuating and the life glows with love reflected in love.

Now, this we realize is cold consolation for us to say, “Do not expect any outcome when you serve, for your desire to serve is that which is relevant.” This is not emotionally satisfying. We may, however, remind each to think in memory of all the unexpected gifts of service which have moved into manifestation in each of your lives: the bread returning upon the waters again and again tenfold, a hundredfold, until you cannot count all the blessings which come into the life. The energy for these blessings is begun in the self’s desire to give of the self. As it gives, it creates an energy which is forever spherical, and returns and returns and lifts one higher and higher each time it returns. The way of service is a way of spiritual evolution. To figure out how to be unselfish in an illusion—and a deep illusion, for it is ours also—where service to others is the most efficient of service to the self if one desires to evolve spiritually, is somewhat marvelous, is it not?

May this bread returning upon the waters be a sign to you. When you see the manifestation of love given to you, hear that consolation, hear those energies being registered in the heart of the Creator Self, for all is one and as you serve one, those tender and merciful feelings, those gentle hands and soft, kind words, those strong supportive silences move out through whatever bafflement may seem to stop the service into the memory of your entire planetary sphere and become a part of that which is positive about your planet. No good intention, no desire to help is ever lost. Do not let the illusion’s disconsolate, apparent nature cause you or any to stumble upon the path of service to others. But let it redouble your desire as you know that all your love has flown to the heart of the Creator Self of this planet and is immediately a portion of the light of the world.

Q’uo continued by saying that each person in third density needs to love itself even though it carries the burden of insecurities and fears that must be worked with by opening the lower energy centers so that the energies of the Creator can activate the heart center for spiritual work. They said that when the lower energy centers become clear they may be able to pass on the full strength of infinite energy which is called prana. Then Q’uo said that when the prana reaches the heart one is able to love others as they love themselves, and their service to others is more fully realized. However, Q’uo said that if one has the desire to know that its service is successful, they are separating themselves from the flow of the Self serving the Self when they are serving another self. Q’uo said that if one wishes to be thanked for serving another self, then they are not realizing that they, as the Self, are serving the Self. Q’uo continued by saying if one could realize this, that no thanks would be necessary because they would know that they are always serving the Creator in all that they did. Q’uo said that if one served everyone around them as their way of living that they would be offering their love and self to the Creator in all people, and then the love of the Creator would flow through them. Then Q’uo said that we should give without any expectation of return because this kind of giving creates a spherical forcefield which returns this energy, and it lifts one higher and higher so that this way of service becomes one’s way of spiritual evolution. They completed their response by saying that all services given in this manner become part of the love of the Creator, of this planet, and a portion of the light of the world.  On April 7, 1996, Q’uo said that we all are a portion of the light of the world:

My dear ones, you are the light of the world. It is from hearts such as yours that the light of your planet comes. It is from lives such as yours that the great procession of life and death is imbued in the passion play of life on earth with honor, dignity, compassion, and deep caring. You have within you every force of death and every force of light. Nothing has been left out of your makeup. It is the way of the spiritual sojourner to live that uncomfortable life that is aware of these matters, that is aware of the great wheel of evolution working through time and space to bring consciousness to that infinite present moment, where that great Love that created all that there is suddenly explodes into Light infinite and indivisible.

We would continue through the one known as Jim with thanks to this instrument. We leave it in love and in light. For the vast company here assembled, we leave this instrument, saying greetings from all and blessings. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

This morning I continued recording Gaia meditations that were written by our webmaster. Later in the morning I made an errand run with my first stope being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some bird seed and cat food. My second stop was at Kroeger’s where I bought some low carb bread and some shredded cheese. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought more food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s where I picked up a prescription and some non-food items.

This afternoon I went outside and weeded the seven gardens around the fish pond using my hands in those areas that were too small to use the trimmer and using the trimmer in the larger areas. Then I used my backpack blower to blow the area clean.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 2

Give Thanks!

I am of the consciousness of the most high. I greet you in the realization of unconditional love, the consciousness of the Christ.

The morning has come again. For what can you give thanks? If there is no sunshine to praise, then praise the clouds and rain.

If you cannot give thanksgiving for the plenteousness of water and the shade of the trees in an oasis, give thanksgiving instead to the clean, clear, lucid and deep desert wherein may be found plain answers and the untangling of many a mystery.

If you seem tossed about on the stormy ocean and find that you cannot praise this condition, praise instead the endlessness of that ocean and the infinity and freedom of the water.

For all things made by the Creator are equally to be praised. All moods, feelings and thoughts of those conscious beings whom He made are equally worthy.

Therefore, in whatever condition you find yourself, give thanks. But chiefly give thanks for the Creator which has made all things. For in all things lies love; the love of the consciousness of wholeness, healing and peace which is the gift in embodiment of Jesus the Christ.

May you feel blessed regardless of circumstance, because you are a witness to the creation. You may not understand it but you may praise it in faith and hope, and in that spirit shall you be consoled.

We leave you in the peace and consolation of the spirit of unconditional and infinite love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 19, 1992:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the capacity of speaking to further queries, if there are any at this time. Is there a query to which we may speak?

M: Yes, I have some confusion about truth not being possible in this incarnation yet possible in another incarnation, but then the statement later that there is no truth. Can you help clear the confusion for me?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. Within this illusion, the life that each of you leads, there is almost complete covering over of those basic qualities or truths which are the foundation stone of your being. That is, those answers to questions such as who each of you is, how you are related to the one Creator in a very fundamental sense, and how the power of love moves through each life to shape and form it in a way which is perfect, and yet which to each of you may seem confusing and out of kilter, shall we say, from time to time. There is the possibility of approaching these truths in ways which words cannot begin to assume, through a kind of experience which many of those of your religious orders have called the transformative or unitive experience, where the light of truth fills one’s being, and one for the extent and duration of the experience is able to become those truths.

There are these opportunities presented to each entity, perhaps not in the current experience but in one which shall follow it in another of what you may call incarnations. This illusion which you inhabit is one which is by its very fabric one which causes you to ask these questions and to begin to make tentative assumptions concerning the quality of truth, yet the very fabric of illusion is one which only permits the beginning, for here you are as the student who first enters school at an early age and you begin this process which shall take you…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I am again with this instrument, as it was necessary for it to accomplish the tending of the recording device. The one known as Carla is asked to speak that which it desires.

Carla: Thank you, Q’uo. I’d just like to restate M’s question. There were statements that in reality there is no truth, also that there is a truth that will be experienced later in our evolution, and a third statement that no truth is final. Could you clarify?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. We can say that the means of transferring information which we use at this time—that is, words and concepts—are incapable of transferring that which is truth, and we can suggest that there will be opportunities offered to each as your journey proceeds for you to experience the truth of unity with the one Creator and All That Is, and we can say that as you continue upon this journey in that fashion that the creative power that is the one Creator shall learn from Itself those lessons that shall increase Its knowledge and experience so that that which was true shall be added to, shall we say, so that experience grows for all of creation as each portion of creation learns and seeks this one creative force, so that which has been true and which has become the foundation stone for one experience shall be built upon for further experience, further truth, and shall enhance that truth, so that in the ultimate sense, though all is one, all learns, all grows, all teaches and evolves in a fashion which causes truth to be enhanced, and in the sense of apprehending such a truth, there is no truth that can be apprehended and kept in a static and understandable fashion, for it is a dynamic universe and Creator in which we all live and move and have our being.

M asked Q’uo: “I have some confusion about truth not being possible in this incarnation yet possible in another incarnation, but then the statement later that there is no truth. Can you help clear the confusion for me?” And while I was turning the tape over in the cassette recorder Carla also asked a refinement of M’s question: “There were statements that in reality there is no truth, also that there is a truth that will be experienced later in our evolution, and a third statement that no truth is final. Could you clarify?” So, I will comment on Q’uo’s answer to M’s question and follow that with Q’uo’s response to Carla’s refinement. Q’uo began by saying that within the third density there was no way to find the truth to questions like: “Who each of you is, how you are related to the one Creator in a very fundamental sense, and how the power of love moves through each life to shape and form it in a way which is perfect.” Q’uo said that there was no way to answer these basic questions with words, but for some people there were transformative experiences which would fill the entity with light that would allow the entity to become these truths at some point in the many incarnations within the third-density experience. In response to Carla’s clarification question, Q’uo continued their thoughts by saying that the infinite Creator learns from each entity’s experience so that It’s knowledge and the nature of truth continues to grow for all of the creation in a dynamic situation so that no truth can ever apprehended as the final truth. On March 26, 1995, Q’uo spoke of the inability to know and communicate the truth:

When one attempts to communicate the truth one can be sure that if the matter has substance the full truth shall not be revealed. The arbitrary and contrary nature of this intangible called truth is such that while one may asymptotically approach truth from many angles, one cannot arrive at it in time and space. Consequently, all efforts that we are aware of to define, capture, or communicate pure truth are attempts which this instrument would call quixotic, errands of the soul doomed to a noble and worthwhile attempt and failure.

Is there a further query, my sister?

M: No, that’s clear [inaudible] and involving God [inaudible].

This is so, my sister, as far as we are able to ascertain, and we are but the humblest of messengers for such a dynamic Creator.

M: Thank you.

We thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: One last one. So that is the reason why, as the possibilities of one creation end and all coalesces back to the one infinite Creator, there is always another creation, and the branches are sent out again from the roots of the vine. That’s why it never stops, because the Creator Itself is infinitely learning, infinitely [inaudible] is that so?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. Again, to the best of our knowledge and the knowledge of those who serve as teachers to us, this is so, for all entities gain from experience and produce a seed, shall we say, of knowledge, and when all such seeds have reached the final ground of being in reunifying with the one Creator, there they are planted to grow again into another creation that stands, shall we say, upon the shoulders of preceding creation and the one Creator harvests in a cyclical fashion those experiences from all of its portions and utilizes them in a learning fashion so that each succeeding creation becomes enhanced by all that which has gone before.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Not for me Q’uo. That’s just a wide and wonderful picture, thank you very much.

M: And from me, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we are also thankful and grateful to each of you for inviting our presence and presenting us with the queries which illuminate the journeys of all of us, for we also learn from you that which is of importance to you, and especially do you learn that great desire which you have for seeking that which you call truth. This desire also is felt, may we say, by all of creation, for each portion seeks to return to its source and that source of all creation seeks the knowledge and experience of each of its portions. Thus, this dynamic desire to seek, this yearning between Creator and created, is that force which propels all creation forward that the one Creator may be glorified by each of Its portions, and each of Its portions may know the Creator through each experience.

We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we again thank you for this blessing and opportunity to speak with you. We shall join you again in your future upon your request. We shall take our leave of each at this time, leaving each as always in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted it in the Moss Garden. Then I carefully wound the long and strong rose vine stalks around the other two portions of the arbor on which it has been growing for some years. The two other vining roses on these two arbors died out a few years ago, but this third vining rose is long enough and has enough vines to easily cover the whole arbor.

This afternoon Austin came over and got me set up in the recording studio to record some of Daniel’s guided meditations.

Today is the ninth anniversary of Carla’s passing into larger life. While she was on this Earth she gave us so much inspiring channeled information, and I think that these channelings from the Holy Spirit are some of the most beautiful I have ever read. She also channeled her life as a constant devotion to serving the one infinite Creator in all that she did. I feel that her legacy is one of love for everyone who reads any of her channelings, or her talks, or who might have known her and had the opportunity to feel the love of her presence which gave her the ability to love everyone at the level of the soul, even if she never had met them.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 1

Cost And Fruit

I am of the principle of the consciousness of divine love and I greet you in radiant joy.

It is the season of Easter, the time when Jesus’ emergence from the earth is held in remembrance and His ascent therefrom rejoiced at. Now is the season of blooming, for just as Jesus grew like a flower from the earth, so too may we see in each flower that resurrection glory.

In this season may you find much to rejoice at, never regretting the cost of winter but glorying instead in the fullness and promise of spring. Such are the cycles of eternal life. The cycles contain different kinds of blooming and different kinds of growing, but always the pulse of cost and fruit.

We leave you in the peaceful harmony of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 19, 1992:

The question this afternoon has to do with truth, personal truth in particular, when we are speaking to ourselves or to any other person and relying on what we feel is a personal truth or a general truth. Is there some way in which we can present this information so that the person to whom we are speaking can get the feel for what we see as a truth, and yet realize that the information may not be as particularly applicable to them as it is to us? And, as another part of that question, how can we know just what our personal truth is when we dig down past habits, defense mechanisms, fears and other habitual ways of behaving that may be covering what really is the truth that we hold and the truth by which we act; how can we know what our truth is, and how can we share it with others in service to them?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings and blessings to each of you in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. It is our privilege to be able to be called to this group and to have the pleasure of working with each of you, with energy, with your desire to know and with this instrument. We would say a preliminary word or two concerning the event mentioned previously by this channel. The perception of contacts during the process of challenging by a fastidious instrument is affected by subtle alterations in consciousness. One which affected the challenging this particular day of working was the song of tuning, as there was the focus upon the suffering servant. The tuning of the group was satisfactory, however, the tuning of the more sensitive, inner sensibilities of this instrument were gently affected towards perception of suffering. Consequently, that shining consciousness called Christ had taken upon it for this instrument the shadow of dark suffering.

When a challenge is made in the name of the consciousness of Christ the focus is upon the consciousness itself and not upon events to which this consciousness reacted. Therefore, the refocusing of the instrument’s tuning was necessary in order to avoid what could be called a “voice of doom,” in actuality not as negative as misled. We are grateful, as always, to this instrument’s sensitivity to the process of accepting contact, for we would not have been able to speak through this instrument at this working had the instrument not accepted the contact as being less than that which it had tuned itself to discover, that being the highest contact it could stably carry.

We mention this at this length because you ask us to speak concerning the question “What is truth?” In something as central to this instrument as the truth of its most basic and life-giving faith, it had the ability to be swayed towards a perception of the savior of this instrument’s choosing that celebrated a behavior at the expense of the truth of the one known as Jesus the Christ that informed the behavior. That is, the one known as Jesus is not a man upon a cross, suffering unselfishly, but rather an entity willing to do the will of the one infinite Creator at whatever cost to itself. This is the essential Christ consciousness.

Before addressing the group question for this session Q’uo began a discussion of the tuning song for the group and of Carla’s method of challenging any discarnate entity desiring to speak through her. Apparently, the tuning song concerned the suffering of Jesus Christ, and it affected Carla by causing her to perceive the “voice of doom” as the suffering she felt Jesus went through. However, Q’uo said that they were grateful that Carla was willing to accept contact with them even though they were not of the level of Carla’s perception of Jesus. Q’uo said that they wanted to explore her challenging technique because the group question of “What is truth?” would reveal that Jesus was more than a man suffering upon a cross. He was willing to do the will of the Creator at whatever the cost. On December 14, 1986, Q’uo spoke of the nature of Jesus Christ:

The concept of the Christ was this: that intelligent infinity as experienced by the Logos and with the bias of the Logos would enter a third-density experience, not erasing the one known as Jesus’ personality or being, but coming into the closest possible harmony with that being. There needed to be one who wished to sacrifice an incarnation to the ever-increasing pleasure and agony of the Creator, experiencing what this instrument would call the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, for it is the nature of the Christ and the nature of third density that the two, perceiving each other, should react, the third density with a lack of understanding, and the Christ with wonder, joy and sacrifice. Such is the sorrow of your illusion and the joy of sensation and communion.

In the end, Jesus the man became so able to bear both joy and agony that this entity stopped experiencing the Creator and for long periods of time became the Creator experiencing third density. Such is the perfect channeling of Love. The achievement of the perfect channeling was the mystery of union between Creator and illusion.

After this bonding, the burden of channeling rather rapidly began to tire the master teacher, Jesus. At the time of the crucifixion, as this instrument calls it, there were almost no tears left; there were no bones unbroken; there was no companionship that had not been betrayed in one form or another. Nevertheless, Jesus the Christ lived well and did not stop the channeling until the breath left the physical vehicle. We witness to this Christ with thanksgiving and joy, not suggesting that any worship or not worship, but celebrating the Creator poured into a channel who could share in full the nature of the Logos, the nature of Love, the Creator’s powerful, terrible Love.

Let us examine this consciousness. Gaze upon a consciousness whose personality consists of one query: “What is Your will for me, beloved Creator, Father and teacher?” Immerse yourselves in the feeling of this consciousness. It lacks salt. It lacks personality. It lacks any persona or mask. It is infinitely vulnerable, infinitely willing, and infinitely desirous of serving the infinite One. Does this consciousness not feel full of light, almost a quality of floating, of being lighter than the air which you breathe? Yet to bring the circle back to what you call so well your Earth, let us point out that the circle is not levitating. The circle remains glued by gravity and humanity to the illusion in which there is personality, in which there must be the persona, the mask. Each of you desires to know the truth in an illusion which will forever deny knowledge of that truth. In your incarnation you shall not know a factual, provable, repeatable truth. All your truths shall be subjectively perceived, subjectively proven, and subjectively held. They are not transferable.

Why would the Logos, that Original Thought which created all that there is, that thought of Love, create an illusion in which people make serious choices, and create it in such a way that the choices must be made without sure and certain knowledge of any provable truth? Let us attack this question from a completely different vantage point. Each of you walks alone, and if there were no ground, if there were no bodies, if you were spirits, yet still you would walk alone, perhaps without legs but certainly as spirits unto yourselves, each unique. Not precisely the “Monet” of philosophy, but certainly in any apparent way, solitary.

What is the situation of millions and millions of spirits who move in patterns and out of them again, intertwining with one another and moving back out of a pattern, moving into other patterns with other entities, perhaps back to the first, perhaps real while alone, the combinations freely chosen, freely left? If each of you is a light then it could be said that each of you is a version of truth, a wandering, questioning mystery in which the truth is, yet cannot be reached consciously.

As each light is light and has the quality of unchanging reality, so are all spirits one, yet each is unique. Each is the product of one line of experience, one set of choices made that lead to other choices that lead to others. Where, then, is the common ground, where is the truth? We have said already that the only truth that can be held in common is the common mystery of the sure and common knowledge that there is a truth worth seeking, that truth shrouded in mystery in this illusion.

Each experiences the impulse to know the truth, that certainty that there is one somewhere that makes humans moral beings. That stubborn impulse is the hallmark of your species and the glory of your kind, and it opens to you the possibility of maturing into the light of a reality that you seek and will not find within this incarnation, within this illusion. You seek that which you will not know until you leave this illusion, yet you seek it all and all of you shall experience it.

What is the ground of that which you seek? Where within this illusion of yours can the truth be said to be hidden? We would use this instrument’s knowledge of its Christian holy work and recount to you the parable of the vine. The one known as Jesus said “And I am the vine, you are the branches.” There is something called the consciousness of Christ—which is personified for those who choose to follow the myth called Christianity by the name of Jesus the Christ—that lies deep within each. It is rooted in that one great creative Original Thought, that Logos, and it makes all one. From these roots grow a vine and as the roots are made of love, so the vine is love, and entities discover within themselves that root and nurture it until it springs forth into the conscious light of consciously lived, philosophical, ethical, moral or religious life.

We ask you to call it that which is most comfortable to you. Like a young and wondering child, that spiritual self that is born within this incarnation, within this illusion, within this density, wakes up in the crib of experience and looks around, and its first thought is “What is truth? What is happening? I see between the bars of my crib but it all is so loud, so stunning, and so much, where is the sense, where is the truth?” And as that spiritual self begins to grow it begins to make choices. It may choose one way or another, and that which is now above the ground of conscious living begins to make a bend in that branch of vine that is rooted and grown in love, and still is love, but now is love veiled and unknown.

Now Q’uo used Jesus’s only desire being: “What is Your will for me, beloved Creator, Father and teacher?” as that which has no personality, or mask, which makes it a true expression and manifestation of desire. Q’uo continued by saying that within our third-density illusion we all have the mask, the personality, which seeks to know the truth, but the illusion will forever deny our knowledge of truth. Then Q’uo asked why the Logos of Love would create such an illusion where everyone needed to make life choices as facets of the light and as versions of the truth, but this truth can never be completely known. Q’uo went on to say that we all are one and are unique in our seeking of truth, and we all will continue to make choices that lead to more choices. They said that all we can know for sure is that there is a truth that is worth seeking, and we will never know that truth until we leave this incarnation. Then Q’uo said that the nature of that truth is the one great Original Thought of Love that is within us and which we must discover and nurture it until it springs forth as a light of a consciously lived spiritual life. On September 18, 1983, Latwii spoke of the nature of truth:

I am Latwii, and we shall be most happy to attempt clarification of this point, which may at first seem quite contradictory and confusing to those who have long sought the nature of truth, shall we say. The seeker is one who is conscious of the process of evolution. Though each person learns as the one Creator, many do so in a manner which you may consider unconscious. To use our brothers and sisters of Hatonn’s analogy, there is the stumbling into the spotlight, the falling into the orchestra pit, and eventually the entity begins to write the script, which is another way of saying begins to seek in a conscious manner the keys which shall unlock door after door within the inner self, and reveal those treasures of being that await such seeking.

At some point in this process there is another transformation which occurs. This is the transformation in which the seeker not only knows intellectually with the conscious mind that it and all it observes are the one Creator, but experiences more and more the being of the one Creator within its own being. The one Creator is found within, and the entity is found everywhere within the one Creator. As this process becomes more apparent and becomes that which is experienced more and more within the incarnation, the seeker discovers that it is that which it seeks.

How many twists and turns to the branches of that vine make each of you consider the twists and turns of your life, the spiritually, morally, ethically based choices that you made. The ways that you have turned your leaves to the sun or felt that you must shelter them from the sun that burns, that is too intense. Think of those pesticides that you have sprayed on yourselves because you felt a threat, other vines that do not seem to be lovely, other branches of that vine that threatened. Yet, do not all the branches of the vine have the same root? Are there male branches and female, you ask. We say to you, in your culture, in your learning—yes; in any spiritually based sense—no.

Yes, we have talked about the archetypical mind, but the archetypical mind is that which is held in the root, not in the branches. It is used as a blueprint for that which is the deepest treasure of the mind, its deepest and most primal distortions as it looks at itself against the vast background of passing experience. It is not the truth; it is a categorization of attitudes which may aid in influencing behavior. Is the truth about behavior? Each of you says inwardly, “Nay, in no way can the truth be behaved.” But we say to you that there are shining moments when each branch of the vine finds the grace that illuminates the self and makes the truth visible to others for one bright moment. That often is enough to change the course of a relationship or of a personal understanding on a very deep level within the illusion, so that one comes closer and closer to accepting that there is a basis for seeking the truth, and that it can be glimpsed in the behavior of the self and others at gifted, illumined moments.

Now, how may one seek to dwell within the incarnation in such a way as to make these moments more accessible? We ask you, as always, to move to the inner closet of meditation, opening the self to the silence, sometimes, yes, to speak. You call this prayer, but, oh so importantly to listen, to listen to that silence, to accept it, to allow it to wash over the self until the self is full and more than full, until the self begins, indeed, to feel that light, heady effect of fuller light, fuller life, what we have called the consciousness of Christ. Open inwardly if you would wish to open outwardly, for the straightest road to the roots of being is bathed in silence and in the listening in a focused and caring manner, full of desire, to that silence, that silence in which the creative principle of Love ever speaks without sound and without words.

The more grounded that a spirit becomes in this root system of love the more this grounding may inform the persona and the more transparent that persona may become to the love itself. This does not make an entity, no matter how spiritually aware, able to speak the truth on command, for, indeed, there is no such thing precisely, although one may live the truth of a straight branch, lifting itself to the sun of love and light that is eternal. That is essence, and there are no words and no behaviors that speak the truth which are essential. Yet, can you come ever closer to being the truth through the discipline of the daily turning within to being washed in silence. There the work is done.

Now Q’uo asked how we may have used the knowledge of the vine that is rooted in love, and have we considered how it has influenced our perceptions and spiritual choices as everyone is rooted in this same vine even though some of their choices may seem threatening to us or others may seem lovely. Then Q’uo described the archetypical mind as one of the deepest roots of mind that influences behavior, but behavior is not truth for most of the time. However, Q’uo said that at some point one finds the grace that illuminates the self and makes the truth visible to others for one bright moment and allows one the realization that there is a good reason for seeking the truth. Then Q’uo suggested that we can increase these shining moments by using meditation to develop the ability to listen to the silence and to the creative principle of Love which will allow us to come closer to being the truth. On February 26, 2006, Q’uo spoke of the value of listening to the silence:

We encourage any who choose to open the heart to make use of the gifts that are so close and so easy to use. The main gift is that of silence. The ability to choose silence, to enter into the silence, and to listen to the silence, is an ability that will stand any seeker in good stead. Waiting in silence is the whole undistorted essence of unconditional Love, that Thought, that Logos that created you and the creation in which you exist. That Thought is your deepest and most primal self. You are Love.

As you communicate with each other, may we say it is our opinion that the greatest truth that each may offer each is the truth of fearlessness, for when one abandons fear and speaks from as close to the heart as one may find the grace to speak, and this does vary, one is as open as possible to that which cannot thrive in fear—honest and open communication. Shall you communicate that which is subtly wrong, that which is inaccurate, that which is less than perfectly understood within the self? Very well, what is to fear in that? What is to fear in any communication? One must always tell some onion skin of mistruth if one is speaking at all. But if one speaks that mistruth as carefully and lovingly and honestly as possible, then somehow every distortion is lit with the obvious good intentions.

There is one last secret we would share with you. There is great truth in laughter. One who takes himself seriously and goes solemnly about the business of telling the truth will find himself with his leaves turned away from the sun, unfed by light and love. Take a light touch, each of you with yourselves. Love and care passionately, and burn for your highest ideals, but not for your own performances and behaviors. At these you may laugh, for to be human and to be foolish is to say one thing twice. You will be foolish. Enjoy the folly that allows you to care so much, too much, that you risk everything and leap into midair knowing nothing because of your love of mystery that you know only by faith and hope.

How glorious you are in your folly, oh humans! How glorious is your search for the truth and how telling are your choices. We commend each of you as you courageously seek to know the nature of love, to know the mystery of faith and to find the gifts that you have that may serve the one infinite Creator and each other. To others you are the hands and the voice of the one Creator. Treat yourselves and each other gently, humorously and tenderly and you shall not be so afraid to let the branches that each of you are become close, almost as close in consciousness as is implicit within the root of the vine.

What is truth? Each of you is the truth, yet to be born. Nurture yourselves, and smile as you wait in care and intentions the days of understanding that are yours in what you would call “a life yet to be experienced.” We do not believe there is any final truth, yet at each juncture of your path, at each death and entrance to a new life, you shall discover a larger version of the ground of being that informs the branch that you are, of the nature of your essence, and this mystery is the truth.

May you love each other, may you love yourselves. We thank you once again for allowing us to speak upon this—we search the instrument for the word we wish—Jesuitical subject. Words to discuss that which has no words—that is, the truth—must of necessity be roundabout, intertwined and complex. We hope that out of this knot of reasoning and unreasoning you may have found the flavor of that legacy which we would hope to leave you with our opinion, that although the truth is not reachable it can be experienced, and it can be your gift to each other when truth, that being love, chooses to give the gift of grace and illumine the self with sudden, essential meaning.

Q’uo said that when we communicate with each other we should try to communicate from as close to the heart as possible, and we should have no fear of speaking less than accurately while maintaining the intention to speak as well as we can. Q’uo went on to say that we should attempt to speak our truth from the highest and best of our ideals, but we should remember to laugh at ourselves and others from time to time because to be human is to be foolish. They suggested that we continue in our search for truth by seeking the nature of love, the mystery of faith, and find our skills to serve the Creator and each other gently and humorously as we move closer together in our consciousness. Q’uo said that there was no final truth but a continuous journey of discovering more of the mystery of truth in our lives. Q’uo completed their response by saying that words cannot describe truth, but we can experience truth when we share the gift of love to illuminate the self with the essential meaning of life. On March 21, 1982, Hatonn described the gift of love that we can give to each other:

All these are gifts of a consciousness which some call the Spirit and which we choose to call Love, that one great original Thought of the one Creator, and, my friends, as you seek in a group this gift of Love, as you seek to feel the wholeness, the purity of this Love, and to find yourself mended as well, it may seem to you that this group is absolutely necessary in order to experience this wholeness, this purity, and this Love, but we say to you, my friends, this gathering is for the purpose of sending you forth alone into a world sorely in need of the wholeness and purity of the Love of the infinite Creator.

You may experience it here. You may identify it with being with the group, but, my friends, you are only resonating each with one common vibration, that great original Vibration of Light, and this can be taken with you, and as you follow your path in the Light, in service, remembering the Creator, so you take with you this wholeness, and without saying any word or making any gesture you are then, yourself, an offering to the world of the manifestation of this enormous creative Love.

You cannot do this yourself, for you are as you are in this illusion, but there is that within you which is more yourself than that self which you now know, and that deeper self can do all these things that you may wish to do. It can love. It can show forth patience and understanding, and, my friends, it can sing alone in the darkness and offer to those who grope, the seeking for Love, that beacon which may guide them to their own paths, toward Light.

We would at this time transfer from this instrument, thanking it for its service, and as always asking each to value our words only insofar as they have meaning for each of you, for we are not authorities. We are those of Q’uo, and leave this instrument in love and in light.

This morning I changed out my blue sheets and pillow cases for the green ones. Then I took the blue ones to the basement where they were washed and dried, and then I ironed the flat sheet and pillowcases.

This afternoon I went upstairs and did my weekly cleaning of the upstairs by using the carpet sweeper on the hall runner rugs. Then I used my broom and dustpan to sweep up the kitty litter in Benny’s room. I completed the job by using my dust mop to clean all three rooms. Then I went outside and dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery to transplanted it to the Moss Garden.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 31

The Messenger Of Love

I am of the principle of living love and I greet you in the consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

I greet you as a messenger sent out before the dawn of each thought in the mind.

I greet you as a new beginning in every moment of the day.

I greet you around trick corners and sudden hurdles. Reach for the arms of comfort in times of distress, for we are there.

We are the principle of love, and as you speak to us of love, we come to you with love. And as our comfort is sweet to you, so is your heart to the Creator, the Father of all things. And so you have the opportunity at each and every dawning to become one with God in Christ through the grace of the spirit of love.

We leave you in the peace and joy which are yours to experience through the birthright of Christ, both now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 12, 1992:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves for any remaining queries. Is there a query with which we may begin?

Questioner: In all that was said I didn’t hear anything about how one may aid a companion or a loved one in this quest for feeling the rhythms of life. Am I to assume that it is not the place of another to do this sort of work?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. It is appropriate to provide the atmosphere of support for a mate or a friend who is working, as is each seeker, upon some aspect of the self which is seen as less than balanced. Each entity must make the decision that work is necessary and then must set about to accomplish that work. One cannot work for another or change another, for that is neither appropriate nor possible. Each entity lives a life which is generated from those patterns of perception and experience that have been gained over the entire period of that life and, indeed, which have been set in motion by choices made prior to the incarnative experience. The free will of each entity is paramount in the pursuing of the life pattern and in the attempt to alter or transform that pattern in the desired fashion.

When one sees another that is close to one’s experience, and, indeed, may be an integral part of the life pattern, and one wishes to offer the greatest assistance to that entity, we would suggest that one begin from a point of view that is as filled with compassion as is possible, so that understanding and support for the entity and the experience in all of its ramifications may be given without qualification. To give this kind of unconditional support provides the free and open reach for the entity seeking change and transformation and does not provide any other obstacle for this transformation, other than those that the entity may find within itself.

If one attempts to tinker, shall we say, with this process that is internal for the other entity, it is more likely that there will be the interference that becomes as the stumbling block where the desire to aid the other may become distorted into becoming a desire to change the entity in a fashion which meets your needs rather than the other entity’s needs.

Thus, to provide the atmosphere and the freedom for the other entity’s free will to operate is the greatest aid one can be in this situation.

Questioner asked: “How one may aid a companion or a loved one in this quest for feeling the rhythms of life. Am I to assume that it is not the place of another to do this sort of work?” Q’uo began by saying that when a loved one discovers that there is work to be done on its spiritual path that this work comes not only from a lifetime of experience but also from choices made before the incarnation, so the best that Questioner could do was to provide support for her loved one. Q’uo also said that it was neither possible nor appropriate to try to do work for another person because that would be an abrogation of their free will. Q’uo completed their response by saying that giving compassion and support to her loved one gives them the total freedom to seek the needed transformation and change that they desire. On February 13, 1983, Q’uo spoke about how love and support may be given to one who needs it:

To give support to an entity who is suffering these difficulties may take many forms. Our suggestion is that one love without conditions. How this love is expressed is not set firmly or strictured rigidly. One may love and support another in specifically the manner in which the entity of which you speak desired. When an entity speaks in such a manner and asks for that type of assistance, then to love most purely, it might be the case that these desires are met. It may be many—we correct this instrument. It may be that many such entities would desire this type of assistance, and that it would be successful in aiding their recovery. Others may need some variation. If one can know what another needs by hearing those needs from the other, then one may best serve as one has been asked. If one knows not how to serve, one then must follow the heart. The love then that is given may take another form. Begin in love, refine with the wisdom which you discover either through your own discernment or through the lips of the one needing service.

Is there another query, my sister?

Questioner: No, but I would like to thank you for the clarity of that answer. I think that was really helpful to me. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we would take this opportunity to thank each present for once again inviting our presence in your circle of seeking. We are most grateful for this opportunity, for it allows us to see how valiantly each of you struggle within this heavy chemical illusion in which the mystery of life is ever present and the rays of light and illumination are treasured as they shine in response to your desire to seek that which you call truth. We walk with you upon your journeys, and we value you as companions. We shall at this time take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and began my second round of transplanting it in the Moss Garden. On my first round I chose the areas that had the most weeds or bare soil to transplant the moss, but in this second round I will try to get other areas with less weeds covered with new moss for as long as I have enough moss in the pet cemetery to use. Then I used the rest of the white paint and roller to paint the lower part of the bricks on the north side of my home as they were showing more of the former red color of the bricks.

This afternoon I walked around the back yard and picked up small tree limbs that have blown down in recent winds. I also used my leaf rake to rake up a lot of very small tree limbs between the north side of the garage and the fire pit and was able to fill a garbage can with these limbs. Then I used my backpack blower to blow the stone walkway around the firepit clean.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 30

To Grow Through Change

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the consciousness of divine love.

Changes seem to be occurring ever more rapidly. Such is the subjective experience of all beings as occasion upon occasion mounts up in a life experience. Thus, as one becomes older one has the opportunity to become less and less comfortable, for change is indeed uncomfortable if seen only as the challenge to the will and faith.

We urge each to realize the great value of change. “To go through changes” is the normal expression. “To grow through changes” is the desired expression.” May each lose fear when change looms before the path and find that limitless love and peace which will allow the growth of the spirit through these experiences.

We leave you in peace, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 12, 1992:

… or any transformation occur in both the metaphysical and physical sense. What steps can we go through to bring about change in our lives, particularly in respect to slowing down and enjoying each experience more fully?

(Carla channeling)

I am of the principle known to you as Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We find it to be a great blessing to be called to your group at this time to share our humble opinions with you. And we bless you in return, and share the love of the infinite One with you from all our hearts. We are bathed in a sea of love and light, walking forever supported in a net made of love, a metaphysical net that caresses one in all directions and supports one in whatever modality and vector each desires.

You have asked us about moving quickly through life, rushing through experiences during an incarnational period so quickly that the details of that experience begin to blur and some of that experience is, therefore, lost. As we listen to your chimes that sway and sing in the wind, we are minded to suggest to you that these wind chimes do not have a previous agenda. The wind moves them; they readily yield to the extent of their mass. And when mayhap two pieces of this metal touch, the pleasing sound is emitted for which this instrument was created.

So it is with a human instrument. There are, metaphysically speaking, winds that come sometimes and sometimes are still, that may move from one direction or another, at one speed or another. An incarnational experience is marked by its variety. The wind, whereby experience goes by, is not measured as your clocks measure time, but, metaphysical weather plays about the sea of experience as do ocean winds upon the liner. Certainly, the ship is big enough to withstand gale winds as well as calm and pleasant breezes. But the captain of that ship adjusts his methods of navigation according to the wind, the conditions of the ocean, and the weather in general.

Each of you exists in a frail barque, that physical vehicle which you call your body, and it does move through a physical sea and a metaphysical sea of experience. In sheerly physical terms, the winds of stimulation and the potential for experience are so numerous that they can best be described as infinite. No entity can process the information that comes through the physical senses. There is a thousand, nay, ten thousand times too much information to be processed. And so, a ruthless making of choices ensues. Those bits of information that come in that seem to apply most directly to survival and comfort are recognized and processed first. And the hierarchy of those things which are noticed is individualized and put into place in what you may call your biocomputer very, very early in your incarnational experience.

Metaphysically, each entity also is buffeted about with the mystical winds of metaphysical chance and destiny. There are the strong trade winds of destiny, those that blow from forever; and there are the delightful, seasonal, unpredictable whims of spirit that offer the chance and change that marks the unique experience of being a conscious individual given the gift of free will. Metaphysically speaking, the dance between destiny and free will provides a way of thinking about those whims which affect the spontaneous, expressive self, that meaningful, substantive self to which that question about “hurrying up” has reference, for the blurring of experience through rushing too much is not simply a physical phenomenon, but also a spiritual one.

The group question for this session was: What steps can we go through to bring about change in our lives, particularly in respect to slowing down and enjoying each experience more fully? Q’uo began their reply by using the wind chimes outside of the house as a symbol of how the beautiful music they make is not planned but occurs due to the changing wind, and then they suggested there are metaphysical winds that blow from one direction and another to provide variety in our life pattern. Q’uo went on to say that we all move about in our physical bodies in a physical sea that provides an infinity of experience that cannot be processed because there are too many stimuli to be processed, so we must make choices as to what we will attend to with those necessities of survival and comfort getting our primary focus from our early years. Then Q’uo said that there are also metaphysical winds of chance and destiny with the winds of destiny blowing from infinity and the winds of chance and change that are unpredictable which provide the opportunity of free will to be exercised. Q’uo continued by saying that the dance between destiny and free will is where the potential for “hurrying too much” becomes not only a physical phenomenon but a spiritual one as well. In 36.7, Ra spoke of the balance between destiny and free will, or the known and the unknown as Ra put it:

Thus the higher self is like the map in which the destination is known; the roads are very well known, these roads being designed by intelligent infinity working through intelligent energy. However, the higher self aspect can program only for the lessons and certain predisposing limitations if it wishes. The remainder is completely the free choice of each entity. There is the perfect balance between the known and the unknown.

Let us attempt to gaze at why this may be so. We speak many times of the dynamic between service to others—or the radiation of light in a free and spontaneous manner—and service to self, which consists in control of the self and control over others for the benefit of the self in a magnetic, attractive kind of energy which pulls those things which are needed to it and orders them carefully for the self’s best advantage. We see the way of love expressing radiantly without stint, often foolishly in the eyes of the world, as opposed to that which may seem to be very logical and civil in the same eyes of this same world, the ordering, the controlling of the self for the benefit of the self, and of circumstances and individuals, also for the benefit or convenience of the self.

It is not usual that entities who are rushing through life have any conscious intention of behaving or providing catalyst in a service-to-self or negatively-oriented manner. Indeed, the rationale for moving without rhythm, but simply as quickly as possible, is that of service to others, that the utmost be done, and all of the things that are done are intended to be of service to others.

My friends, the work of disciplining the personality and purifying the emotions is subtle work. The entity which is yourself is not all good, nor is it all negative. The more positively-oriented an entity is, the more quickly it will jump to the conclusion that it is behaving in a negatively-oriented manner, and the more judgmental it will be with the self. Therefore, as we show to you the basic negative polarity of rushing without rhythm, without consciousness of the winds, physically and metaphysically, we also say to you, refrain from any judgment. Do not assume that because you see the negative cast of this attitude you are indeed a negatively-oriented or polarized person.

Under no circumstances should a spiritual student who is seeking the truth attempt to monitor its rate of success or its place within its journey or pilgrimage. What value could such self-judgments have? One looks into and pulls out of the same informational system the question and the answer, for the Creator will not inform any entity of its spiritual score. We may say, as this instrument would put it, that the Creator grades on a curve. It is not yours to know or to be concerned with the relative positivity or negativity of actions or intents. It is yours to desire and to make choices based upon the deepest and truest emotions, biases and opinions which one is capable of finding within the self. And, at this point, we are observing the amount of awareness of the rhythms of life mundane and life eternal which each entity might have.

Now, those who rush through an agenda, crossing things off the list of the day, may well not be very aware of the mundane or metaphysical wind. Thus, they may well cut themselves off from the dance that enlivens the rhythm that blesses and makes spontaneous and joyful the thoughts and the actions of each moment. If one stands ignorant of the wind, gazing only at the compass and saying doggedly, “This I shall do now, then this, one step then another; I shall go north; I shall always go north; I have my compass and I shall go north;” one shall not go long before one runs into a tree, a bus, a child, or some wind of destiny that, if caught, if heard, if felt, could indeed transform the experience—not from the level of the bio-program, but from the level of the meta-program, that deep program within each entity which has to do with the unique patterns of one individual who has a spark of the infinite Creator within, and thus is set upon a lodestar that cannot be seen by the self or any other, but must indeed exist awaiting that moment when the wind of destiny does indeed cross the path.

Perhaps the most characteristic feeling of one who is dogged and determined and unrhythmical is the feeling that one is deadening one’s own experience, numbing one’s own enjoyment, killing one’s own gift of spontaneity. How can one lift one’s feet from the ground and not throw away the compass, but place it amongst other instruments which will read the mundane and metaphysical weather?

Now Q’uo said that there is a dynamic relationship between the service-to-self and service-to-others polarities that is in the use of love to benefit others or the self, and that each of us has both polarities within us that causes the positive entity to move rapidly in its path to attempt to serve others and may occasionally judge itself negatively for doing so. But Q’uo said that we should not judge ourselves negatively because we cannot know whether we are of service to others or to the self. They said that all we can do is to create the desire to make our choices of service from the deepest emotions within us and, thusly, blend our actions between the mundane and the eternal nature of our path. Q’uo went on to say that if we rush through our daily life, we may not become aware of the mundane or the metaphysical wind, and not become aware of the joyful and spontaneous actions within each moment when the wind of destiny may cross our path. On December 13, 1992, Q’uo spoke about the workings of the wind of destiny:

As the end of any lesson approaches, this realization of the flowing nature of learning and destiny is clearer and clearer. Finally, one is somewhat comfortable, and then of course it is time for another lesson to begin. Thus, there is always the discomfort, the angst, but the amount of angst is not necessarily consonant with the amount of change but is rather more nearly consonant with the amount of resistance to or standing athwart of that change because of preconceived ideas about what one’s path of destiny is. It is well to release all expectations beyond a certain point in order for the play of the wind of destiny to aid rather than to seem to hinder.

Perhaps what we may suggest in this amount of time, as you call this measurement, is that one ponder at odd moments how one feels about the rhythms of life, how one feels about missing the dances, how one might feel about the possibility that one is unwittingly behaving in a way that is apparently along the negative polarity and gives others catalyst that is along those lines? For you see, the greatest hindrance to changing oneself is the honest and genuine belief that one is actually fine just as one is, and that there are things about the way one is that are more worthwhile than what would be gained by change.

The consensus reality and cultural values among your people are those dealing with a deep and endless illusion. All judgments made of the effectiveness of action using the rules of the culture—and of the self that has been taught by the culture—shall reflect the values of that culture and shall deal exclusively with illusion. Now, each of you is here because you feel that there is something deeper than this illusory experience, something of another order of being, something which does not fade, which does not die, which has not been born, but which simply is. Stubbornly, as you gaze at the bone-white graves of the centuries of people before you, the ideas that have gone down to dust before yours, oh so stubbornly, you stand in that dust and you ask, what is truth? What is real? What is beautiful? What endures? And praise and thanksgiving well up within you because you know that this question is a question that has more substance than all of life as you know it, regardless of the answer.

So, as you ponder the rushing and imagine the joy of the rhythmic dancing, of the chiming with the wind’s blessing and motion, think of that field of beingness that you know enough about to seek. Think of the mystery of that deeper reality, and of the inadequacy of cultural wisdom to rightly value such things as getting things done. This will not eliminate your ability to perform tasks or to perform them well. But, if such thoughts are mused upon over a period of time, you may discover within yourself a burgeoning attitude which allows, while keeping to the polestar of existence, for the metaphysical and physical windage and weather of the body and of the soul.

What can you do to change that program of rushing? We would not suggest that you do anything; you are already doing too much. What would you not do? We would not suggest that you not do anything either; this is more subtle work. The biases within your consciousness are available to you for self-knowledge. Analyze them. Accept them. And if you feel that they can be better informed, ask yourself to open a little to the possibilities of further work in consciousness, of the self by the self for the self, in order that one may become more and more an instrument that chimes in the wind and less and less a heavy metal object screwed down to consensus reality and dead to the chiming of eternity.

Q’uo said that we should take time to consider how we might unwittingly be acting in a negative way that provides catalyst for others because the real hindrance to changing ourselves is when we think that our behavior is as it should be, and this is the result of our having been raised in the consensus reality that only deals with the endless illusion of the third density. Then they said that we are here to discover deeper truths of what is real, beautiful, and enduring, and we realize that these are the basic questions of life which the simple asking of them causes us to feel like living a life of praise and thanksgiving. They said that as we think about the mystery and deeper reality of our beingness, that will allow us to perform our tasks well without the rushing so that we can work on our self and use our biases within our consciousness to change and become an instrument that chimes in the wind of eternity. On August 25, 1996, Q’uo revealed the mystery of the deeper reality of our beingness:

Let us call upon the deeper reality, that structure within the self that is infinite and eternal. It is this consciousness that is not a part of space and time that chose to move into just this perverse environment, just this materialistic society, just exactly this one and no other. Why? Why feel that it is a prize to achieve an incarnation of such suffering, such distraction and confusion? Sit with this “why” and know that only one answer will suffice, and that answer is love, for love is the beginning and the end and all things in between. Love it was, that one great original Thought of Love, infinite Love, creative, powerful Love that bore Light. Each photon, each particle, if you will, of Light is a pure manifestation of Love and of this Light are builded all the vibrations and nexuses of energy that form the universe and all that is within it.

And into this infinitude of worlds beings of light come, sparks of the heart of the infinite Creator—you and all of the family of humankind. Each of you unique as a snowflake. Each of you infinitely beautiful and valuable. Each of you powerful and able to serve, for you are love. Yes, within this veil of flesh each has distorted these structures and ideas and thoughts of love so that they do not shine like the diamond but are rough. And so within the flesh each feels the frustration of knowing her own imperfection. And this is a treasure, this awareness of the self in its illusory form as imperfect. This treasure is so precious because within this illusion, this seeming imperfection, entities have the greatest chance of choosing to live in love by faith alone, for there will never be any proof that there is a spiritual reality beyond that which can be seen, felt, heard, and tasted.

At this time we would transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument, and especially thank this instrument for the care with which it challenged at the beginning of this contact. Some energy was required to purify the portals of contact from our end, and we greatly appreciated the effort taken by this careful and cautious instrument. Such care is that which makes communications such as this possible. We leave this instrument in love and light and would now transfer. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I did my weekly vacuuming of the first floor of the house. Then I pumped enough water out of the fishpond to reveal the patch that I put over a leak about ten years ago. It has started leaking in the last few days, so I ordered a repair kit from the internet and used it to repair the leak.

This afternoon I went outside and dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted it into the Moss Garden.  

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 29

Your Deepest Name Is Christ

I am of the principle of divine and eternal love and I greet you in the most precious name of Jesus the Christ.

You shall, today, meet someone whose name you think you know, and you shall gaze upon the flesh, opaque and mortal, that is the prison of the incarnate soul.

Know as you meet friends, acquaintances or strangers that the name of the body, the personality and the mind which is used to live a life is not truly the deepest name, but that the deepest name of each is Christ.

For each is Christ. Each eye that meets yours is that of God in flesh. All beings are heirs together in eventual realization of Christhood. Jesus the Christ has said, “If you aid any person you are aiding me.” Let pure compassion melt the sight of flesh and mortality, that you may serve the Christ in all and find the peace and freedom of infinite love.

We of the spirit are here for you that, by grace, you may see the better, hear the clearer, and love the more purely.

We leave you in divine love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 5, 1982:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light. At this time we would offer ourselves to the speaking to further queries, if there be further queries upon the minds of any present. Is there a query to which we may speak?

Carla: Well, I guess the thing that puzzles me the most is that you are into a communication blockage before you know it. The kind of work that you were speaking about seems like you are like two blocks ahead of the place you are supposed to turn off before you figure out that you should have made a turn. How do you get back to where you can say, “Wait a minute, this is the way it looks to me. Is this the way it looks to you?” You have already gotten stuck. There are emotions, not just words, but there are emotions.

[Side one of tape ends.]

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. We are aware of your query, my sister, and would suggest that when you become aware of the turn that was made at some point previous to its realization, that you state that fact as soon as you can so that there might be a reevaluation of the conversation. All of your interaction with others is that which is of the moment, that which is inspired by the thoughts that spring both from your own mind and from the mind of your fellow creatures as you attempt to communicate and act together in a certain fashion. As there is a movement away from the desired objective, the noting of this movement is that which is most helpful in bringing both entities once again into the alignment that each has desired, whether the desire is spoken or consciously recognized, or not.

For you are more than you think you are as you interact each with the other. You have your histories with you, both that which is known and that which has become unavailable, shall we say, to the conscious mind, and these histories are a kind of momentum that are colored by experience so that there is an unknown factor in all intercourse, the factor of the creative expression inspired by that which is within the experience of one or both entities. As you find your interchange of energies, of ideas, of directions, of feelings, moving in a fashion which becomes uncomfortable or unfamiliar to you, then it is your responsibility to note this deviation and to move again toward the desired objective that you have set before you.

Carla said that it seemed to her that she got into a blockage of her communication at times where she should have made a turn two blocks before she actually made it, and she wanted to know how she could continue the communication by saying: “Wait a minute, this is the way it looks to me. Is this the way it looks to you?” She said at this point she felt stuck not just in the way of words but in emotions as well. Q’uo began their reply by saying that when she realized that she had made the turn at the wrong time she should state that, so the conversation can be brought back on course as a part of the spontaneous nature of any conversation where both parties desire to correct any errors that have been made. Q’uo said that such deviations are a product of the years of experience of both parties in the conversation, some of which is remembered and some of which is not, so that when the conversation becomes uncomfortable that it is well to note the deviation and move back into the mutually desired goal of both parties. On October 6, 2007, Q’uo spoke about how to communicate more clearly:

We would acknowledge that many times communication is layered. There is the voice that is speaking the words that are being used, which represents one level of communication which speaks to the logical and rational mind. Yet also, no matter how skillful the words or how well put the sentiments, there are many unspoken layers to communication which do not yield to the logical and rational mind. This is due to the fact that there are emotions and feelings concerning the words that create layers of either helpful awareness or unhelpful resistance to the words that are being spoken.

We could make a couple of suggestions for those times when one is caught upon a moment where one becomes aware that there are unseen elements to the communication, and yet this has confused and muddled the communicative energies that are moving between those two or three that are communicating.

Firstly, it is well to remember that you speak with a great deal more than your voice. Each of you has body language which communicates on a level which is below thought. Yet other entities will receive the communication of your body: how you hold it, whether there is tension in it, whether emotions are within you that are causing your facial muscles to change your appearance. It is well to acknowledge those levels of communication and to honor them, and, if possible, to address them within the self.

Secondly, it is helpful to remember that intent is everything, both in the self as it communicates and in the other self as it responds. The same words can be said with various intentions. Therefore, we would say, “Look you to your intention!” Is your intention pure? Is it entirely service-to-others oriented? Does it have any aspect of the desire to control or the attachment to an outcome? These are not aids to open communication.

And lastly, we would remind all of those who attempt to communicate that if you hold words in one hand and love in another, love is heavier. Love is more important. Love is the essence; words are the form. Find the love in your heart, and let your heart fill the form of words with love, affection, compassion, and laughter.

May we speak in any other fashion, my sister, to this query?

Carla: I have one more question. It may not be worth anything, but I was thinking about the model of the triangle shape that you showed, or the pyramid, and I was thinking about our actual situations, which is that, although we do get a broad base fairly early in life, still, if we don’t limit ourselves to that base, we use that broad base and we get even broader if we don’t insist that we are this kind of person or that kind of person and hold on to those early things, then we do what the model was in the renaissance of man, and that was just to have more and more options of ways of thinking and ways of processing information and so forth. And that’s true of other people, too, so that instead of the model being a pyramid, it would be more like a trapezoid, I guess you’d call it, with the top side broader than the base, but not an upside-down pyramid because you don’t really start with just one thing as a very young child. You get everything at once, but always with that kind of pulsar center of the essential self, so that it is not that we are getting more scattered. Do you see what I am saying, and does that make any sense as the kind of model that we might be trying to keep in mind for ourselves and other people to open up the possibilities? They might be different this time than they were yesterday, or last year.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Indeed, the triangle shape is one of the simpler models that can be used to describe an entity and its base of experience and information upon which it shall draw and build further experience in the life pattern. It would more nearly be correct to look at each entity as a faceted gem with many sides and many angles or perceptions on a number of topics, for each entity has within it the ability to pursue interests in a wide variety of fields of endeavor that will enrich and influence the further learning and growth of the entity. So that when entities gather together to share that which is theirs to share and to learn that which they desire to learn, one may see the shining of the light of this desire through the facets of the gems which each entity is, and as the desire is moving through the different points or angles of perceptions, there will be a light that is bent in a certain way as your white light is bent and separated into the colors of the spectrum as it moves through the prism.

Just so is the desire to learn and to share, in its movement through the faceted gem of each entity, bent and colored by the experiences, the information, the desires and potentials that are within the entity and which make it a multi-layered being. Thus is intercourse or interchange between your entities enhanced and enriched.

Carla said that it seemed that when she was a small child all of her identity and experiences came to her rapidly so that the base of her being was like the bottom of a triangle, but as she got older and had more experiences in her life that she, symbolically, had a larger image of herself that was much broader on top, more like a trapezoid, so that she had more options in her life, and she wanted to know if this was correct. Q’uo said that her triangle analogy was basically correct, but that one could also see her experiences as likened to a faceted gem with many perceptions of topics that enhanced her interests in wide variety of fields of endeavor which increased her learning and growth. Q’uo went on to say that when she gathered with other faceted gems of people, their desire to learn together produced a light that is bent as the white light is bent as it moves through a prism, and each entity is seen as multi-layered and enriching the exchange of information between them. On December 5, 2015, Q’uo spoke of the value of the exchange of information between seekers:

Thus, beginning with this view of the other as the Creator itself, another portion of yourself, then offer yourself as freely as you can in that which you share of thought, of experience, of possibilities, of questions, of doubts. Allow an interchange and exchange of information so that the flow of energy is a two-way flow so that you are both teach/learner and learn/teacher, for this is the situation in which all entities find themselves, even those who are far more learned in a particular category that is being discussed than are those who are receiving the information, for all teaching results in learning, and all learning results in some form of teaching.

May we speak in any other fashion, my sister, to your query?

Carla: First, let me thank you for that answer. I’m going to have to read it to get it all, but that really sounded rich, meaty.

I had one other question that just came to me as an image. The triangles again. I was thinking about how we do have an essential self and if it was a triangle, then it would start at the point and not get very far out before it began the line through the very essential middle of the shape of the triangle. And if you took the triangle of one person with the point upward and the triangle of the other person with the point downward, and you moved them together until they sort of clipped into place with that central essential point in alignment and agreement, then you would have a six-pointed star which is the symbol of the white, Western, Christian magical tradition. I was wondering if there was truth there of the magical way that people can interact if they are linked together, because if you can follow the image, when the six-pointed star is made of the two triangles that move together with one point up and one point down, the essential selves would look like a pencil that is sharpened at both ends within the triangle, and it would also then look like a common crystal, a quartz crystal, which is known to be magical, but only when it is charged by a magically oriented entity who holds it in the hand and is itself crystallized. Are we crystals to and for and with each other? And does our communication, our coming together, have that kind of absolute magical nature, if we can find it?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. There is much within your query that is fertile ground for communication and we shall chose only the most basic portions to comment on at this time. Returning to your original image of the two triangles coming together in a manner which creates the six-pointed star, one may look upon each entity as having the mind, the body, and the spirit sides of the triangle, both in the conscious and in the subconscious realms, shall we say. So that each entity is both that which you may call male or conscious, that which you may call female or subconscious, in that the functions of each of these portions are somewhat different but complementary. Blending the two together in a balanced fashion creates that which you have called the six-pointed star that makes available to the entities all of the experiences during the life-pattern so that there is very little that remains in the shadows, shall we say, or in the distant memory, yet affecting the present experience.

The entity that has been able to gain a knowledge of itself to this degree is the entity that has increased its crystallization, shall we say, its regularization so that when it desires to move in a certain direction, it has at its disposal all of the energies of its incarnation, both those that are normally conscious and those that for many remain subconscious. Thus, its resources are greatly enhanced and it may move with more certainty along any line of desire that it constructs for itself due to the regularization of its mind, body and spirit complexes on both the conscious and subconscious levels. Thus, each of you is truly a crystallized being, becoming more and more crystalline as you discover those facets of yourself that have heretofore been unavailable to you as resources upon which to draw for further problem-solving, shall we say.

Again, Carla used the image of the triangle with the point up as representing one person and then the triangle of another person with the point down and put them together so you would have the symbol of the white magician. She went on to say that this combination of two triangles could also be seen as a crystal, and if it was charged by a magically-oriented entity the crystal is magical as well, so she wanted to know if we all are crystals for each other that give our communication together a magical nature? Q’uo began their reply by saying she could look at each person as having a mind, a body, and a spirit that would represent the triangle, and each would also have the conscious/male and subconscious/female minds, and when they are blended together then all of the life experiences are available with nothing left in the shadows. Then Q’uo said this knowledge crystalizes the person as it now has all of its conscious and subconscious energies of its incarnation available, so such a person is, indeed, a crystallized being with all of these resources to call upon for problem-solving. On October 21, 1990, Q’uo described the process of becoming a crystallized being:

Concerning your query of the maturation of hope into that which is faith, we would suggest that each entity begins with that spiritual food, as you may call it, that it can digest with comfort. For many this beginning is in that term or concept that is known as hope. The entity with hope is aware that there is more to the earthly existence than those things which seem to comprise the earthly life, that there is more to the purpose of one’s existence than completing a daily round of activities after another daily round of activities, and completing an infinite number of such days, and accomplishing the tasks that come with them, that there is a Self which is greater than the self, that there is a binding force within all of the creation, that there is indeed a purpose which gives the life a nobility and a shining quality, a strength to continue and to find a more fully realized conception of that which is life, that which is direction, and that which is service.

This entity, however, being somewhat young in the spiritual childhood, as it may be called, is tested by the passage of days and the catalyst that is contained within each day that will, as the fire tempers the metal to strengthen it, will also temper the spirit of this entity as it is manifest in the personality. And as the entity continues on in the hope that there is a purpose behind all of its actions and all of its desires, the entity grows in this inner knowing that it has first called hope.

As it continues in growth and grows in strength, the entity begins to enter that concept or area of the metaphysical or spiritual self which is called faith. The quality here which differentiates the faith from the hope is that when the faith becomes developed within the entity it has a sureness that comes not only from the experience that the entity has gained in its own growth, but in a feeling deep within the self that is like unto the iron filing as it approaches the strength of the magnet. The entity begins to feel that it is drawing close to a power that is far greater than any power it has found within itself or its own experience before.

Thus, the entity begins to feel and experience this quality of faith and finds that its feet are placed upon a firmer ground with each step that it takes, each testing that it passes, shall we say, for all of the experience within this illusion serves as a kind of catalyst that will allow the entity to become a crystallized being so that there is a strength and clarity to the purpose for such an entity’s life pattern.

Thus, we would say it is the experience of the entity that moves it closer and closer to a realization of its oneness with all of creation that eventually changes the entity’s philosophy, shall we say, of the life, from that which is guided by hope to that which is stayed by faith.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you. That’s more than enough. I take it that the question about that general line thinking might be a group question at sometime.

I am Q’uo. And this is correct, my sister.

Carla: Very well. Thank you so much, Q’uo.

We thank you, my sister, once again. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Yes, what suggestions would you have for stubborn pride that keeps people from taking responsibility for themselves and communication?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. If that, as you have called it “stubborn pride,” which blocks one’s ability to assume the appropriate responsibility in communication and relationship, resides within one’s own being, it is well to take that concept as an image into your meditative and contemplative or prayerful states and look therein the silence within at that quality, observing how, as the pebble thrown into the pond, it ripples outward in all its affects and effects within the life pattern; to see a trail of its experience within one’s being and to trace that trail to its source so that whatever impulses or experiences were the genesis of this trait may be looked at and re-experienced in a safe environment, perhaps within this same meditative state, so that the entity which experienced this need to behave in this manner might have a chance once again to re-respond to this situation and fashion a more helpful means of response to others.

If this trait is within one that is close to you and not within the self, there is far less that can be done, for the desire the work upon those qualities which are seen to be hindrances to affect teaching and learning need to have an inner motivation in order for any actions to be effective in removing or balancing such traits. One can make the suggestion that such a trait exists, and can be worked with in a helpful manner. Various suggestions can be given, as we have suggested to you in the working with such in a quiet place and quiet moment within. One may suggest that such work may be accomplished together if the other entity is in relationship to the self in a close enough fashion to allow such work, and for it to be appropriate. In most instances, the general run of the day, shall we say, the interaction of entities in a normal way, as the daily round of activities moves in its pattern and each entity within that pattern will provide the periodic mirroring effect where this trait of pridefulness will show itself, and at those times there may be a gentle reminder made that will allow the entity with this trait to note its presence and also note its effect upon the interaction that is being mutually experienced.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: No, I don’t think so, not from me. Thank you, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank each for allowing us to speak to those topics which are of importance to you. And we would take this opportunity to remind all present that we do not wish our words to provide stumbling blocks upon your own journey of seeking. We suggest that you take those that have meaning to you, and leave behind those that do not. We are those of Q’uo, and at this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my trimmer to walk around the yard and trim back the weeds that were growing in various places. Then I took the second bundle of blue clothesline rope that came in the mail yesterday and finished putting it around the fishpond to keep birds from flying into the netting around the pond. The netting is to keep raccoons and grey herons from getting the fish in the pond. Then I cleaned the filters on the fish pond.

This afternoon I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to pick up some food for myself. After I got home I went back outside to dig up another load of moss in the pet cemetery and transplanted it in the Moss Garden.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 28

Only This Love Abides

I am of the Holy Spirit of the consciousness of Jesus Christ. I greet you in unconditional and divine love.

What does the spirit have to say to the world this day? What comfort and consolation may mere words bring to those who dwell in the shadow of death; who live in constant fear of war and rumors of war?

Only this: love abides. Where is the spirit in this chaos of society? Love is in every budding flower; in every passing cloud; in the unfurling leaves of Easter days; in the smiles of children too innocent to know the burdens of intelligence. Love is a comfort within you that dwells in your heart.

As spirit moves across the waters, so the spirit of Jesus the Christ moves across the waters of your troubled consciousness, saying, “Peace; be still. Be still and know that I am the Lord, the Master, the chief of a kingdom not visible upon your earth, but within each heart that beats.” That is the kingdom of which the Comforter speaks.

Gaze you, then, not upon the works of man to see the kingdom of the Father, but upon the works of the Father: the temples made of wildflowers and trees and the temple of your own heart and consciousness.

Enter into that tabernacle and be silent. And in that silence shall you find comfort, strength, renewal and transformation.

We leave you in the peace of the love that knows no bounds and is forever near, both now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 5, 1992:

The topic this afternoon has to do with communication, especially communication between partners or people who are very close in their relationships, where we would expect that such a situation would lend itself to clearer and easier communication than one with perhaps a stranger. What occurs frequently is that there is a difficulty or a baffling in the communication, where even though both people try to their best abilities to communicate clearly, there is something that injects itself in the communication that causes a difficulty or a muddying of the communication. What would be the advice in such a situation? Would it be better if we attempted to stick it out and work as hard as we can with the person and to finally achieve a mutually agreed-upon clear communication? Or, when you find such difficulties and they recur, perhaps as a pattern, is it better to look at yourself in the contemplative or the meditative state to see if there might be some kind of an internal blockage or problem that you are working with in that particular area where the communication is unclear? Would that be an avenue that might provide clarification, not only to that particular communication, but in your ability to communicate in general? What would be the advice in such a situation as a way by which we could clear our communication?

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle Q’uo. Greetings to each of you in the love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. What a privilege it is to be called to your group this day and to rest in the beauty of your vibrations as you sit in meditation. We would offer to you our opinions this day upon the subject of communication, more especially, the problems of communication with those with whom an entity communicates most frequently, those best known, those most familiar other selves within an entity’s environment.

As we speak of communication in this light, it is well we begin by pointing out that the difficulties of communication with strangers are far more easily addressed by linear linguistic analysis than those difficulties in clear communication harbored by those whose interactions are numerous and have taken place over a substantial period of what you call your time. If there is a misunderstood word betwixt oneself and another self which is a stranger, there is either the prejudice which is generic—the one not knowing the word feeling the other is a snob, the one knowing the word feeling that the other is ignorant—or there is a querying as to the meaning of the not-understood word, and communication resumes quickly. If there is a point of view that does not make sense to another’s point of view, strangers may well say they do not understand. Again, communication breakdown is not at all probable, for it is more obvious that there needs to be a question for information.

There are many cases where, because of deeply ingrained distortions in concept about the nature of certain kinds of entities, whether the prejudice be racial, or economic, or social, or intellectual, breakdowns in communication will follow more closely the pattern of breakdowns in communication amongst intimates. The more heavy the bias or distortion, the more frequent the breakdowns and the more characteristic is the underlying cause being a distortion of mind which refuses to admit certain information from certain types of people as judged by the communicator. Now, let us move into the area of your query this day.

The group question for this session was how to communicate clearly with someone who is close to you. When you have difficulty communicating clearly with them, is it better to keep trying until you are able to communicate, or if the difficulties continue to occur, is it better to take some time to examine one’s own being to see if there are some blockages to clear communication that need to be removed? Q’uo began their response by sharing some general information about clear communication. They said that communication with strangers is usually easier because of linguistic analysis or referring to things like grammar, spelling, and punctuation, or being able to use language effectively. However, Q’uo also said that communication with strangers could be ineffective due to certain prejudices like racial, economic, social, or intellectual qualities that would cause a lack of understanding to occur. On October 27, 1985, L/Leema spoke of how to deal with unclear communication:

When it seems apparent that there is a lack of communication between two entities, that there are hurt feelings and insults, one must look to the love in the insult and the love in the hurt feelings, for both of these pains belong to the emotional self and are a distortion of love.

Moving back beyond the beginning of a relationship, moving to a time before there was a relationship, each entity within the relationship was an entity unto itself, yet beneath that truth lay substrata of influences carried into the incarnation and further distorted by early experiences with other selves in the intimate family circle. When two entities meet, they are seemingly to each other fresh out of the bandbox: sparkling, virginal and new. Yet in each case, the surface appearance deceives, for each carries a tremendous baggage of previously held biases, some of which might be contradictory to the self, yet equally strongly held, many of which may well be self-destructive. These biases and distortions of opinion are as much a part of what is to be called good about an entity as those things which seemingly would be more apparently good, clear and positive traits such as honesty, judgment and fairness. For each eccentricity, each distortion creates a catalyst with regard to the reflections given to the other self in an intimate relationship, a catalyst that the entity would not have if there were no distortion whatsoever within the intimate mate or companion.

So, as the one known as Jim was thinking and feeling earlier it is indeed true that miscommunication, as well as communication, is good and proper and to be appreciated. Even with clear communication and no bias, errors in transfer of opinions, concepts, processes of learning and ideation will occur. There is not such a thing within your density as perfect communication, certainly not while words are being used. So we do not suggest devaluing the self because of biases that seem to thwart easy communication. Before any relationships have importance enough that they constitute that to which attention must be given, lies the attention to the self, to the grasping of the generalities about the self, while respecting always the infinite mystery of the self.

The life experiences need to be examined, not simply analyzed, but felt and considered, somewhat out of focus, in their relaxed and reflective manner so that patterns will appear, so that dream material can be correlated to events of the day, so that all of the parts of the mind and the deep mind may, in that relaxed state of mind, merge together to form new possibility, new avenues of thought, and a grasp of situations, so that new ways and tools may be found to forge simpler and more lasting bonds of word in body motion, making communication lighter and clearer and more lucid. So, as always, the work with another begins within the self and communicating with the self. When your feet are on solid ground in regard to the self, there is then the placement of the pivot, the point of balance, the fulcrum, the place from which one may move without losing the balance, without toppling too heavy a load, and without toppling as a life experience as one falls completely away from balance in a traumatic situation.

So we assume as we go on that it is understood that always the work by the self, for the enlightenment of the self, be undertaken in a humble but daily method or manner. Emphasis being given not to the length of the experience, or the perceived depth of the experience, but rather to the purity of intention to seek, to desire to know the infinite One, to feel one’s ground as holy ground, and to discover the will of the infinite One for the self in service to all other selves. If this be daily, it need not be elaborate, and the elaboration may come as each entity finds its own path and its own most efficient way of processing information, insight and depth of worship.

Now Q’uo spoke to the question for this session by saying that before two people who are close friends became close they were biased in their natures and experiences by lessons from previous incarnations and the experiences that they had in this incarnation before meeting each other, and these would become catalyst for each other in their companionship. Q’uo went on to say that there was no such thing as perfect communication in this density, and we should not feel bad about that but use it as an opportunity to discover more of the mystery of the self. Q’uo suggested that the nature of one’s self could be discovered as one works with life experiences to see patterns that may be reflected in dreams, and new possibilities for action could be created by the mind and deep mind working together to make communication lighter and clearer as the self works with the self. They said that this process of the enlightenment of the self is based upon the purity of one’s intention to seek to do the will of the infinite One in the service of other selves and finding one’s unique way of processing information. On November 12, 1995, Q’uo said that we all are part of the Creator and the creation:

As we all are a portion of this one Creator, cells within the one great body of Being, each may through the process of meditation retire in a single-pointed fashion to that sacred room within and in those special moments of illumination become aware of the nature of the self and the nature of the Creator and the nature of the creation as being One.

Now let us see two selves: A and B, shall we say. As they meet each other and begin to build a bridge of communication, the first efforts at communication may well be very unsuccessful, but may also be quite undervalued if A and B are extremely fond of each other. It may not seem to matter so much what is said as the fact that there is the sound of the voice wishing to speak, and that feeling of one who wishes to hear what you have to say. This communication level is so satisfying that there is very little editing of information, and all kinds of information are allowed into the mind’s memory without editing or rejecting. This is a very efficient way to communicate, for a large base of data is gained.

The secret to this type of communication is the refusal to interrupt that which another is saying, upon both A and B’s parts. This joyful type of communication bubbles forth when each experiences the other for the first time, when history must be learned, and it is particularly exhilarating. More than entities realize is communicated during this period in which the subjective evaluation of information transfer is that much has been lost because of the bedazzlement of infatuation, love, or friendship. However, insofar as this has been the first and imprinting information, it does remain the very most important and deepest of the information base and is the basis for communication with the other entity until such time as any misperceptions in the original communication base have been discovered and work has been done to reprogram that misperception so that it reflects more accurately the true nature of the other self.

We may look at the base of information, then, as a kind of bottom of a pyramid. For as the time moves by in its perceived stream in your illusion, fewer and fewer bits of information transferred seem new to the self about the other self. A knows more and more of B, and begins to predict more and more of those things which B will tell. B does the same with A. A and B discover they have swapped their history to the point that there is less and less new to be learned. The base that was once so broad has been built on and built on until all of those things which are central and predictable within the terms of that special relationship begin to overshadow the entirety of the information base, and the useful bits of information are now perceived to be fewer and simpler and larger.

A and B begin to predict that which the other will think, begin to assume that they will have a certain reaction to a certain question, each from the other. We are not talking here about those times when A may be upset or angry with B, or B depressed or upset in some way. We are speaking of two entities of good will who have begun to assume that he or she knows the other entity.

This is the central difficulty in communication between intimate companions. Each entity has very riveting experiences, certainly, and much behavior is predictable, certainly, but the possibility of depth, eccentricity and nuance is prominent in any exchange of information which deals with deeply felt things, especially. And it is skillful not to assume that anything is known. It is skillful to listen precisely to what is said, and not to what is assumed to be true if that is said. This is a subtle point, simply because entities do not realize how many assumptions they make about their intimate companions. Such assumptions may be in general true, but all spiritual truths contain paradox. And no paradox is plainer than that every rule has its exception. Every generality that you use to predict your companion’s way of thinking and behavior will have substantial exception, and this exception is most important and needs to be given pride of place, needs to be given that blank space where there are no assumptions yet, in order that a difference may be explained.

Now Q’uo speaks about how two people, A and B, meet and begin a communication that may start unsuccessfully, but it is happily continued by both A and B because they are glad to gain information about each other and begin to build a large data base of information. However, Q’uo said that in this exchange of information there could be some information that is lost by both due to the bedazzlement of emotions caused by infatuation or love. Q’uo continued by saying that these concepts of each other are the basic foundation of information that will remain even after certain misperceptions about each other are discovered and reprogrammed to reveal more of the true nature of each other. Then Q’uo said that as time moves on in the relationship both A and B have accumulated enough information about each other that they begin to make predictions about how each will react to various situations, but this is not always helpful in the relationship because each has a depth of beingness that goes beyond description and contains paradox and exceptions to whatever rule of thinking one knows about how the other experiences its life. Q’uo suggested that this makes it necessary to listen carefully to what is said and realize that all rules have exceptions that need to be honored in order that a different point of view may be explained. On May 25, 1997, Q’uo described the virtue of listening carefully to what is said by another:

To listen with the compassionate ear, accepting that which is heard without judgment, is the most nurturing attitude that one may assume in such a relationship of entities. The answers to the puzzle, the untangling of the pain, is a process which can only be accomplished by an entity for itself in the ultimate sense. Other entities such as yourself may provide the listening ear, the compassionate heart, and occasionally the insight or wisdom to direct the entity where one’s intuition discerns that motion and movement may take place profitably, shall we say. It is the seeker itself that must engage the listener, that must engage the self, that must search relentlessly for the clues in this untangling process. It is this experience of untangling that which has been tied and fused together that provides the means whereby the entity will eventually find the Creator within, and the Creator within will come to know Itself more fully because of the experience of the seeker.

How then does one move into an awareness of the assumptions one is making? And perhaps should not make? We may suggest, not the walking away from the conversation, nor the working harder at the conversation, but a shift in the direction of the conversation. For in conversation entities normally tell each other things. In the midst of perceived breakdown of communication, we would suggest for those who are in deep distress, that perhaps a brief song, wise word, or some brief seconds-long ritual of centering, even in silence with held hands, provide a new base, a new place for two spirits to begin a different kind of communication. When this has been achieved, then we would suggest this general approach: Let either one begin by saying, “This is my reality. I know I have created it myself. And I am aware that there are things in it that are misperceptions. Otherwise, we would not have trouble communicating. Let me tell you the world that I, at this moment, create, and how in my world I am seeing myself in perceiving you.” This is done without interruption. Then the other takes the responsibility for the self, too, and says, “This is my universe. I am aware I have created it and I allowed and am alone responsible for it. In my universe, I have created my feeling this way, and feeling that you feel this way.”

These are not declarative statements alone; these are statements that are also requests, requests that the other not only state its reality that it has created, but also that it speak quite directly to those things about the creation of that entity, which is the self, that the other entity feels have biases that are not justified by that which the other entity’s creation contains. It is a feeling of the way, a moving back from an addiction to fact. One moves away from knowing what one knows when the blockages of communication between two intimates are to be cleared away. For it is not only the words themselves, it is the assumptions that have been created through years of repetitive actions that can destroy communication so effectively.

If there is the expectation, and it is not owned, if there is the prejudice and it is not owned, if it is not brought out into the open, how can the other entity do anything but respond to the feeling that lies behind the statement, which is seemingly innocent and harmless. So when there is a blockage that is inexplicable, it does not have to do with vocabulary or amount of information given. Then it is that one begins anew at another level of communication: a telling of the story of the self, a speaking of the legend of the moment. “This is what I have created. Respect this, but tell me what you have created, and I shall respect that.” And from this exchange, all differences in perception may be communicated back and forth, back and forth, until the two creations have a consensus reality, special to those two entities at that moment in the combined myth of two entities upon a journey of seeking together, thus unifying what was broken, and healing that which was sore and painful.

This does not mean that agreements can be reached in which each party feels the same, for each entity is unique and each path is different. Yet, if free will is respected, we feel that it is always possible to come, if one is humble enough, to express one’s perceptions and misperceptions as one who is responsible for them, to come to some mutually acceptable pleasantness and unity, wherein each respects the other’s points and sees what preferences caused the other person, who is quite honorable, to continue to hold a varying opinion.

Agreements do sometimes occur, but this is not the goal of communication. The goal of communication is the exchange, in freedom and peace, of information. To have an addiction to agreement is the same with the answer as having an addiction to fact in posing the question. Fact is to be released, for there are always exceptions. Agreements are to be released, for there are always possibilities of two unique points of view, both of which are correct in the personal truth of each. Thus, free will is preserved, mutual respect is given, and respect to the self is also given.

Here Q’uo suggested that when communication becomes difficult, that it is well to move away from erroneous assumptions by entering into a dialogue where one person says: “This is my reality. I know I have created it myself. And I am aware that there are things in it that are misperceptions. Otherwise, we would not have trouble communicating. Let me tell you the world that I, at this moment, create, and how in my world I am seeing myself in perceiving you.” Then the other person would do the same. Q’uo said that this was an effective way to clear away the blockages and assumptions that each may have been making through years of intimate interaction with each other that can destroy clear communication. Q’uo continued by saying that when this process is shared back and forth for a number of times that a consensus reality can be achieved between the companions. This technique of reaching a consensus reality is the topic of the book Nonviolent Communication by Marshall B. Rosenberg, PhD, and a brief synopsis of it is:

Nonviolent Communication is the integration of four things:
 
• Consciousness: a set of principles that support living a life of compassion, collaboration, courage, and authenticity
 
• Language: understanding how words contribute to connection or distance
 
• Communication: knowing how to ask for what we want, how to hear others even in disagreement, and how to move toward solutions that work for all
 
• Means of influence: sharing “power with others” rather than using “power over others”
 
Nonviolent Communication serves our desire to do three things:
 
• Increase our ability to live with choice, meaning, and connection
 
• Connect empathically with self and others to have more satisfying relationships
 
• Sharing of resources so everyone is able to benefit

Now we would only touch less centrally upon what would seem to be clear, that is, that other disturbances in the life pattern, changes in work, in geography, in circumstance, the loss of friends or family, these and many other things can cause one to be quite erratic in communication skills. There are two ways to deal with this truth. One is less efficient but more merciful. The other is more efficient, but does not partake much of tenderness.

It is the nature of each entity to move as he will between these two types of coping with special problems at special times. The merciful way to cope with an entity which is under tremendous strain is to move away from speaking of serious things, to attempt to give support, and to attempt to share the laughter, and to attempt to find ways, always to make merry and to, in the deepest sense, distract the entity from gazing at the situation which is so difficult and so puzzling because of its newness, and because of the grief and pain of loss. A far more efficient way to deal with this type of situation, which is special, is to continue to communicate as if both entities were not under stress. To continue to take responsibility for creating the universe in which each is living. This will lead to a large volume of communication. It is, however, a very efficient means of assimilating and aiding each other in assimilating the processes of change, wherein much old information is found no longer to be useful and must be, as this instrument would say in computer language, “dumped,” and that energy of the dumped program used then to create a new program, if you will, a new software program that will work in the new reality, which is perceived as true by the self.

Neither way is more correct than the other. How one deals with special circumstances, how one deals with self-pity, with sorrow, with all of the tragic sentimental and enfeebling emotions connected with the reactions of loss, pain, and limitation are equally acceptable. The less self-destructive that they are, may we say, the more efficient. Consequently, if one perceives oneself to need to cry, to feel self-pity, to feel weak, and to feel helpless, then by all means we suggest feeling this way; but feeling this way when it does not infringe on communication with others. And if one must feel this way in the company of another, it is well to communicate simply that one is incapable of clear thinking, thus again taking responsibility for the inability to communicate clearly before difficulties have arisen because of these special circumstances. Some entities need very badly to act out all of the anger, pain, and frustration of loss, whatever it may be. Others find themselves more invigorated by distracting the self, and moving positively in any direction while allowing the work of change to be done more or less subconsciously.

This information is known only to the self. And it is the skillful spirit which knows the self well enough to allow it the tenderness it may need or to give it the action in all directions that it might need, but in each case being responsible enough to say to the companion with whom one must communicate, “I am being unhappy now.” Or, “I am behaving in a manic way now, because this is how I need to deal with this trouble and sorrow. Consequently, I will not communicate well, and if I become troubled, I ask you please, to hug me, reassure me, leave me alone.” Each entity may fill in the blank.

However, my friends, most communication problems between those who are intimate are those of assumption and the lack of knowledge of the programs that the self is running. As you sit in meditation each day, if you find yourself coming to the end of your meditation, and you see that there may be time for prayerful quiet thought, and something is puzzling you, set your mind upon it gently, lightly. Don’t worry about it or attempt to untangle it, but gaze at it. There it is; this thing that seems rather fearsome; this place where one cannot communicate with another. There it is. Look at it. Do you fear this? What do you fear in this? Do you fear abandonment? Do you fear a loss of love? Do you fear being completely understood? Do you fear being right? Do you fear being wrong? Where there is a blockage, somewhere there is fear. Rest and gaze and sit with this companion of yours that you call a blockage, and when you again come to that state of mind, move to that again and rest and sit and admire it. And one day, it will burst into a candle flame and lucidly, clearly show you the untangled, the clear situation. For you ask, and so you receive, not in the time of humankind, but in the time of knowing, when you are completely ready to accept responsibility for the knowing. Be patient in these searches of the self, with the self, for your time of knowing may be now, or it may be some time from now, but once you ask, you may be sure that you shall know.

May you have the faith and the grace to have that patience and to seek in that steady persistent manner, regardless of circumstance. It is to the humble persistent seeker that doors are opened, questions are answered, and desires are given. Often not as you would expect it, but in the end in ways that always seem to contain so much more than you ever thought possible. May glory be with you in the harmony of the process of pilgrimage. In darkness and in light, in pain and in joy, love one another, my friends, and realize that you are never alone, that you always have the help of those friends who are unseen, those energies which are those of grace and clarity, beyond all human understanding.

Now Q’uo said that when there is a significant loss within a person’s life the communication skills might be significantly reduced, and they suggested two ways to deal with this situation. The first way was to distract the one suffering the loss by supporting it through laughter because the pain of loss is so new and puzzling. Then Q’uo said that the more efficient way was to continue communicating in a normal way in which the feelings of loss are described in detail and the pain of change is revealed as old programs are purged and the new being begins to emerge into a new reality. Q’uo said that neither way was better than the other as some people would need to remain distracted from the traumatic loss and let it be resolved more subconsciously while other people would need to act out their emotions by crying or getting angry. Q’uo said that the less destructive the response to loss the better it was for the one suffering the loss, and if the one suffering the loss had enough knowledge of itself it might communicate this to its companion by saying “I am behaving in a manic way now, because this is how I need to deal with this trouble and sorrow. Consequently, I will not communicate well, and if I become troubled, I ask you please, to hug me, reassure me, leave me alone.” Each entity may fill in the blank.” Then Q’uo said that the one suffering the loss may use meditation to discover more of the nature of the loss as to what one may fear such as the loss of love, being abandoned, being wrong, being right, or being understood. Q’uo recommended that when the blockage is perceived, that one may sit with it and give it time to clarify within one’s being, and when the time is right that which is needed will be found when one is patient and has faith that all will be well. Q’uo said that we are never alone as our unseen friends of grace and clarity are always with us. On November 16, 1986, Q’uo revealed the purpose of the mated relationship regarding the suffering of loss:

May we say that a persistent difficulty in speaking of your matings within your civilization is the great variety of motives for inaugurating and sustaining such a relationship. Almost never is it for the reason that is most closely aligned with the actual function and purpose of the mated relationship. Almost never is suffering, hardship and trouble used as the reason for choosing a future partner. And yet, this is the precise experience you wish to share, for your illusion is created in order that you may suffer and learn. That is the purpose of there being an illusion, for self-consciousness must be awakened. The third density begins with a sense of self asleep, and happiness and contentment do little to awaken the soul. It is the interactions with others that bring grief, suffering, loss, and trauma which create the opportunities you most cherished before the incarnation.

At this time, we would transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, if this entity would accept it. And we would leave this instrument in love and in light and in thanks for this instrument’s willingness to serve in this way. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I went outside and transplanted the last five azaleas into the area around the cross in the back yard.

This afternoon I dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted it into the Moss Garden. Then I used rubber bands to tie down most of the daffodils in the astilbe patch so that the new astilbe can get more light for growth. Then I used my trimmer to weed some in the astilbe garden and around the forsythia bushes in that area.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 27

A Nation Of Priests

I am the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

The concept of nations among your people has not been aided by the Holy Spirit’s work within those who long ago formed the nation you call Israel.

Let the spirit of Christ proclaim that humankind is a nation of priests, an order holy to God. The state of Israel was not intended literally, nor do any nations, namings or boundaries form a portion of the full and perfect consciousness which is love.

Nay! Rather, love is that city within each which, like Jerusalem of your holy works, shines with the gems, pearls and precious metals, seas of crystal and light without limit. The kingdom of heaven, not the kingdom or nation of Israel or any other place, is the native land of humankind.

Its comforts reach out to you. Its beacon calls. And all the memories of home thrill one’s spirit as one gazes about the confusingly alien landscape of the smaller life of Earth-bound things.

Think not that a holy nation must needs conquer or be conquered. For the only nation that shall be holy shall be the nation with open arms and free consciousness to love all as priests of God in Christ should indeed do. Only in undifferentiated love may peace come to comfort the pilgrim.

We leave you in peace, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 29, 1992:

The question this afternoon has to do with relationships in general, and in particular, when we find ourselves in a relationship that isn’t exactly to our needs or specifications, how we can accept that portion of the relationship that is other than we would have it be, if it is to be the spouse, or ourselves, or the situations that we find ourselves in, whether they are financial or social or any situation that we would like to change and seems to be unchanging, or perhaps changing too quickly? How can we find within ourselves the acceptance and the support that will help us to help our spouse and to strengthen the relationship so that the relationship and the ideals for which it stands will endure?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is an enormous privilege and blessing to us to be called to your group this day, to be able to share our humble service with you, to offer our opinion in sure knowledge that you shall not take us as authorities, but as companions upon the way of seeking the truth, for we have no authority that you do not also have—just do we have a few steps more along a very dusty path that, as far as we know, has no ending.

It is a joy to speak with companions upon this path, a beauty to us to feel the companionship of your seeking, and to share in your beings as you meditate in one circle of seeking. You ask us this day about that which you know not, that you ask, for you believe you are asking an active social question, a question concerning a relationship. You wish to know how to be better at relationships, at the important central relationship of mates, of dearest friends and companions, of lovers and those who hope together and despair together, and share the deep places of life together. Yet without knowing it, you have asked about yourselves, and how you may achieve that which is yours by nature, but has slipped your mind. That is the balance of a quiet and sure peace, a gently quiet mind that is staid upon faith and confidence in the balance and appropriateness of each occurrence in each present moment of the incarnational experience which you now enjoy at this point in which you call your time and your space.

This little experience of life, my friends, is set about like a gaudy gem, full of brilliance, but quite without the purity of true crystallization. The lives you experience consciously are rhinestones—false and beautiful, part of a complex series of illusions of dreams within dreams. Is the Creator, therefore, the carnival master who delights in fooling His sons and daughters? We do not believe this to be so. We believe that every puzzlement, every confusion, every distortion that is part of the house of mirrors that is a perceived life, is given to you that you may have pain and pleasure in great intensity, so that you may look at the distortions and say to yourself, “What lies behind this distorted mirror? If I had a true mirror, what would this experience be?”

Yet all about you, whether it be sought by science, or mind or feeling, is perceived with significant and persistent distortion. This is not a life experience in which you may depend upon knowing anything at any time with any provable or objective surety. That which you think should be, and that which you think should not be, whether it seems to be about the self, or about the self as seen in other selves, is in actuality misperceived to some degree and in several ordered and hierarchical ways.

This being a large subject, we merely indicate these directions and move back to the heart of the query, for this query about manipulating relationships so that one may be more metaphysically or ethically correct and skillful and free of fear in giving all one can to a relationship, is in actuality a question about the inner balance of an individual with no relationship whatsoever to contact, communication or manipulation with or of another entity.

The group question for this session was how can we accept relationships that are less than we hoped them to be, and how can we support our spouse and strengthen our relationship so that it, and the ideals that it stands for, will endure?  Q’uo said that in our question we had actually asked about ourselves, and that we may have forgotten that we should have faith that what occurs for us in each present moment is appropriate for our growth. However, they said that our lives were like a dream within a dream, and every puzzlement and confusion provides us with a variety of pleasure and pain that has the purpose of causing us to ask: “What lies behind this distorted mirror? If I had a true mirror, what would this experience be?” Then Q’uo suggested that we would always misperceive this mirroring effect according to some kind of pattern that would be related to our inner balance, and it was not related to any other kind of relationship or how to manipulate a relationship to be more metaphysically or ethically correct in giving all one can to a relationship.  On November 6, 2009, Q’uo described how the mirroring effect can help us find an inner balance:

When a community such as L/L Research gathers and begins to attempt to work as one, the original impetus that drew entities together must be tested. And so the mirroring effect sets in. Each looks into the mirror of the others’ perceptions and begins to see all of those parts of the self that the self least wishes to see. That is because it is a very positive and helpful function of the community that is operating on a spiritual level to help each other to grow closer to the one infinite Creator. And the way that this is done is by bringing up all these lost sheep of self, all these parts of self that are not redeemed, loved, and accepted.

There are many occasions, for each member of such a group, when the information given about the shadow side simply overwhelms sight. The world darkens and the shadows lengthen. It is easy to lose one’s way, to trip and to fall in the dark. It is a somewhat painful experience, literally speaking as well as figuratively, to fall. And falling is a rather drastic way of saying, metaphorically, that sometimes it is necessary to let go of what you think you know.

While you are fallen, touch the Earth. Reestablish contact with the ground underneath your feet, both physically and metaphysically. Realize that you are always safe within the context of having fallen down. The ground of being is very real and trustable, as is the ground beneath your feet. In the process of all this growth, you can always find the ground of being by letting yourself fall down. Indeed, rejoice in having fallen down! Rejoice in having expressed some of this energy that was previously being expressed in mental and emotional frustration.

How shall you dust yourself off and begin again? Shall you simply assume that you are now standing up in the same world in which you fell down? We encourage you to open up your mind to the possibility that you stand up in a new world. What shall you make this new world to be? How shall you grow?

Let us step back at this time and view one relationship more mysterious than any other, that which has been spoken of by the master known to you as Jesus the Christ, as the relationship of a metaphysical father and son. In the holy work known among your people as the Holy Bible, a question was asked this rabbi or teacher having to do with prayer. “Teach us how to pray, Teacher,” asked those who truly cared to know. And after this teacher gave to those who questioned that which you know—with some distortion—as The Lord’s Prayer, he asked the simple question about the relationship of father and child. If a child asked for something good to eat, would his father give him a poisonous snake to bite in? You see, this teacher had a sense of humor, and asks people to look at things with a light touch. After all, is a father’s relationship to his child so complex? Does a father not simply wish to keep the child alive, to keep it fed, to keep it comfortable if possible and to preserve its life until it can take hold of things for itself?

You have this relationship metaphysically, each of you, with an indwelling and eternal father, if you wish to think of this, shall we say, in an archaic relationship in terms of that which you know, that which you have experienced within this incarnational time and space. You have been supported, you have survived into mature years physically, yet spiritually you are but children, and spiritually your father wishes also to feed you. Yet, when does a father feed his children? Yes, he does the work, he has the groceries, and is the same father as mother metaphysically is, in the terms of your people’s culture, prepared with a meal, with a feast, with all the food and drink needed for nourishment. But does a father and a mother prepare the table when there is no hunger and no request? And do children always know when they are hungry, if they do not have habits of regular times to ask for food and drink, to expect it, to look for it, to find it and consume it with blessing and thanksgiving and happiness of heart?

We speak to you about prayer, for this is at the heart of any query that has to do with dealing with the mirrors that other selves offer to you. Any—shall we generalize—any question concerning the lower energies—and by this we mean dealing with the self, dealing with any other self, or dealing with groups of other selves—has reference either to being energies that are blocked within the self, energies that are distorted by over-action within the self, or energies that in some way do not find it possible to move into the open and loving heart, that great energy center which is the first energy center capable of unconditional love.

Moving from this center, the first communication is, “Lord, teach me how to pray.” Everyone’s Creator is different. Everyone’s mode and method of prayer and hope and desire is different, often radically different, yet each path is utterly appropriate for the person to whom it is natural and the part that is appropriate to an entity must needs be respected by that entity with an authority that is above all teaching, all outer authority and all discrimination that is not one’s own, for the truth that is yours is not heard, but heard and recognized, somehow remembered. If it is not recognized, if it remains in the head and does not move to the heart with a feeling of recovered memory, it is not your truth, and no matter who says it to you, it is to be laid aside gently and with respect, but with a firmness that allows no stumbling block to enter your path.

So when we say to you that questions about relationships are actually questions about how to seek and to pray, we offer this as opinion, and we ask you to subject this and all opinions to your discrimination. Let us look briefly now, as briefly as we can look—this instrument has just said, with some irony—at the nature of prayer, at the nature of asking.

Now Q’uo used the relationship of Jesus and the Father as an analogy for how each of us may use the Lord’s Prayer as a means to survive and grow because we have a metaphysical father who wishes to help us grow physically and metaphysically. Then Q’uo spoke about prayer as a means of dealing with the mirrors that our other selves provide us with a means to grow in the lower chakras of dealing with our self, an other self, or groups where there may be blockages that keep us from moving into our open hearts of unconditional love. Q’uo said that this state of unconditional love is where we may ask: “Lord, teach me how to pray.” They said that each of us would have our own way of prayer, and it is this prayer that we somehow feel and remember within us that is the true way of enhancing our relationships.  On January 30, 2010, Q’uo affirmed that each of us has a unique way to pray:

Now let us shift focus once more, my friends, to talk briefly concerning how to pray most efficiently. Perhaps by now you might guess we would say that you have a very wide range of ways to pray, one of them not being better than another, each of them being a child of your personality, your sensibility. Prayer is a very intimate, personal thing. It is a conversation between you and the Creator.

As it is also said in your holy works, “Seek and you shall find, ask and you shall be answered, knock and it shall be opened to you.” My friends, there is so much more truth in these words that we ask you to be careful what you seek, what you ask and what doors upon which you would knock, for you will learn the answer that fits this particular moment in your seeking, that opens to you the understanding—if we may use that word—that may be available and useful to you at this moment, and this is a heavy responsibility for that which you have become aware of, that seeking that has ended in a desired response, becomes for you a ribbon to wave in a very courtly battle against the dragon that caused you to ask this question. It is something to take up and work with and live with and sit with in silence, not asking, but only listening, allowing the ground about you to become holy ground, allowing these answers of the moment to become part of a metaphysical muscle memory, if you will. Fundamentally, you are asking for a change in consciousness, and this is uncomfortable in the progression which brings about the seating of the change desired, the seating of the information desired, so it becomes part of who you are.

How can you pray? How can you seek? You simply put aside the time—thirty seconds, a minute, five, twenty, there is no time in metaphysical seeking. There is only intent. You seek with the attitude that you are aware that everything in this illusion is mirroring to you, with more or less accuracy, the processes of your own balancing and centering and seeking. You sit and you spend time as you would spend precious, precious money, for you have so little time, my friends. And all that occurs after you sit, after you learn, and as you are undergoing the discomfort of spiritual change, you become aware that all that occurs to you is a reflection of the processes that are occurring as the spiritual child that you are grows, sometimes jerkily and awkwardly and sometimes with unexpected grace and freedom.

Love one another, my friends, for it is the outward expression of being in love with yourself. All that you wish to know, and, indeed, the Creator in all of It’s infinite intelligence, lies in mystery within you, and you shall not know anything. But you shall seek and you shall learn more and more about loving and allowing the being loved to occur as a reflection of an unjustified and utterly appropriate spiritual oneness with the Creator.

Relax into unknowing. Find the faith to seek without ever hoping to know and prove it, and in mid-air you shall find the relationships that are so central to your comfort and peace becoming more and more full of the love that is the special and exquisite freedom of a quiet and faithful mind and heart.

Now Q’uo suggested that when we set our intentions to seek, we will very likely find what we seek, so we need to be careful of what we seek in prayer because what we are asking for is for our lives to change, and change can be painful. But as we change Q’uo suggested that we are growing spiritually, and then we should love others as well as ourselves as we become spiritually one with the Creator. They said that we should relax into unknowing and have faith that we shall find the relationships that bring us comfort, peace, love, and the freedom of our faithful minds and hearts. On November 8, 1992, Q’uo spoke of how a variety of relationships can enhance our spiritual journeys:

The male/female partnership of mates is intended to be central. However, the centrality of this relationship is echoed in any male/female relationship where energies are moving freely and without prejudice. Thusly, even those who live in the nunnery, for instance, may work with the male and female balancing because of the many relationships within any life between a father and children, a mother and children, various relatives, friends, teachers, and all of those whom one meets in the course of life. Those who are willing to rest in the atmosphere or ambiance of the male or female energy, whichever is dynamically opposite of its own, may move ahead efficiently, although not as potentially quickly as the very powerful central male/female partnership which you often call marriage.

My friends, it has been a great joy to speak with you. We cannot express how much we have enjoyed meeting the one known as M, greeting again the ones known as C and Jim and Carla, and using this instrument. We thank this instrument for making itself available to us and we would close this meeting if the one known as Jim will make itself available at this time through that entity. We leave this instrument in the love and in light and in unity. We are those known to you as Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which may remain upon the minds of those present. Is there a query with which we may begin?

Carla: I have one to start this off. When two people are talking together and both feeling confused and maybe frustrated, what active thing besides going into the silence—which feels passive and like going away from each other—what thing in the moment can two people do to clear and sort of clean the air?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. It may be that such centering and clarification could be aided by selecting a passage from whatever source of inspirational information is pertinent and has meaning for you that would become a focus for your attention at those times when you seek to bring yourself and your mate to a point of receptivity. Choosing such a passage, whether it be written prose, poetry or perhaps even the song that is played upon your recording device, would be a symbol for the centering that you wish to achieve and could be a triggering device, shall we say, that would give each of you the opportunity to allow your confusion to recede as the waves upon the ocean, and to focus upon the inspirational passage that you would make together at a time when you feel centered and whole and without confusion that causes misdirection and miscommunication at the moments of crisis.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Just one follow-up. I’ve always noticed, as a person sensitive to poetry and to music, that if you think something or if you read something, it has a certain amount of power, but if you, well, I would say vibrate it, if you say it out loud or if you sing it, it has not just more power, but it has a different order of power. Would you say that something that is not just listened to or read together, but is said together or sung together, in addition say, to being heard or looked at, would have that kind of difference in getting into the real heart of both people?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. This is, of course, possible in just the manner in which you have described it, but is also possible that the confusion of the moment could be of such a degree that participation would be difficult. If this is so, then the listening or more passive participation would provide the easier entry into the reading or the musical passage. If it is possible to actively participate and to read or speak together that which has been chosen for the centering or the focus, then this is also recommended.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: Just to confirm. Probably, if two people are confused together, they can get a whole lot more out of listening, in general.

I am Q’uo, and this could well be the case. Each situation has unique characteristics, and must be dealt with uniquely. Follow that which feels most appropriate in the moment, my sister.

Carla: Golly, Q’uo, you mean I can’t make another rule? Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: What about if just one person is willing to do the work? Can it still work with that one person, can it still help?

I am Q’uo. We believe that this is so, my sister. As one entity finds the center of love and acceptance, then this energy of love and acceptance is radiated to the other entity and the possibility of calming the storm is increased.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: One, and then I promise I’m done. Do you feel that if we listen to this or read this and have more questions that this is fertile ground for further examination and questioning?

I am Q’uo, and we believe that if there are further queries upon your part upon this topic, there is fertile ground always. Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you, Q’uo. Thank you very much. I really appreciate your time and your effort.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we would like to take this opportunity to thank each present for inviting our presence in your circle of seeking this day. We are honored to have been invited to join you in seeking clarification for your journeys as you travel together that great road that leads into the mystery of unity and into the experience of the love and the light of the one infinite Creator.

At this time, we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in that same love and light. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted it in the Moss Garden. Then I put some netting over the Striped Solomon’s Seal behind the garage to keep the deer from eating them.

This afternoon I went over to Thieneman’s Nursery and bought eight azaleas and then stopped by Walgreen’s to buy some 2% milk. When I got home I transplanted three of the azaleas in front of the house where the three Fire Light Hydrangeas died.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 26

Bloom In Due Season

I am of the principle of the most high; of the consciousness of divine love. I greet you in peace.

The sun shines, beckoning to spring. Spring comes to the sun as a dove to its dovecote or the weary cow to its barn. For one more cycle the travail of earth is over. And, born anew from the dead and sleeping land, new life appears, shyly peeking from the safety of the soil’s womb but drawn ever onward by the nourishing warmth of the sun and the blessing of the rain.

So it is with each of you who are seeds. You are planted in the soil of your humanity. What can you do with the seed that you carry within you? Nothing. You may only improve the soil, cultivate that small plot where your spirit may rise in bud and bloom in due season.

If it be wintertime in your heart, it is time to accept that each seed needs times of deep contemplation and the gathering of energy. But when each sees that first glimmer of sunlight, let your spirit be glad. Let your heart leap for joy within you.

May you prepare your soul in all gladness for the beautiful blossom that lies budded and waiting within you.

We leave you in the peace of Christ Jesus, now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 26, 1991:

[Question not present on audio.]

(Carla Channeling)

Q’uo: The relationship between the healer and the one to be healed, indeed, is that which taps into the unity that connects all things. For as the one to be healed seeks the healing energies, the entity is attempting to bring into a more harmonious state of balance some portion or portions of its mind/body/spirit complex that are currently in such a state of disharmony, that they have begun to impinge upon the entity’s ability to learn or continue to incarnational pattern. The one to be healed, then, in seeking the offices of the healer, offers itself to the One Creator, that moves through the healer in whatever modality is utilized, and brings the two into a harmony for the moment of healing, shall we say–that moment in which the one to be healed accepts a new configuration of attitude in the metaphysical beingness from which the manifested third-density physical vehicle depends.

The question is large enough that we fear we cannot do parts of it justice. But we believe that this is a beginning at a discussion concerning healing–the ethics of healing and the modalities–as all being acceptable.

At this time, the instrument is informing us we have to stop our florid language and move to other questions that may have been brought up by this or any question which you may wish to ask.

We leave this instrument in thanks, in love, and in light. This instrument is upon what is known as a hospital bed. It is limited. It is also healed. Gaze at the glory of the One Infinite Creator, and do not take the definitions of society and worldly wisdom as truth. If an entity is whole, it may sit in the baking sun until it has broiled its skin away, and yet still it is whole.

The question was inaudible but according to what Carla channeled as a response it seems to be dealing with the nature of healing. Q’uo began their response by saying that the one to be healed offers itself to the Creator which moves through the healer and brings the healer and the one to be healed into a harmony so that the one to be healed is able to accept a new/healed configuration of its body. On December 12, 1982, Latwii described the process of healing:

The process of healing, as we have mentioned, is the process of realizing that the self at the heart of self is one with all, therefore, is whole, perfect, and healed of any distortion. You inhabit an illusion that allows great distortions in many directions that you might experience the variety and depth of meaning of the one Creator. As you bring these distortions into balance you create the process of healing for yourself, for in that process of balancing polarities of distortion, you emphasize within your deep mind the unity that binds all of creation.

As this process of balancing continues within your own being, this growth then acts as a healing process to your own complex of mind, body, and spirit. The process of growth and the process of healing, therefore, are one process. As you proceed upon this journey you become able to offer a service to others which has been likened unto shining a light in the darkness. The minds and hearts of others are touched, and inspiration is delivered and received. You may further refine this process by offering to the physical vehicle of another the catalyst, shall we say, that allows that entity to complete the process of healing within itself in a certain distortion if that entity so requests it to the depths of its being. Then you function as what you may call a healer upon the levels of mind, body, and spirit.

We would at this time transfer to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo and leave this instrument in love and light. I am Q’uo.

(Jim Channeling)

I am Q’uo and greet each again in love and in light. At this time, we would ask if there would be any further queries to which we may speak?

A: [Inaudible] the use of an individual’s birth chart with the [inaudible] opportunities to grow [inaudible]?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my brother. The practice of that which you call astrology–the study of the nature and effects of the planets and the stars upon those entities which inhabit your planetary sphere–is a study which, like many other studies, offers to those interested in it the opportunity to view the road which has been traveled, is being traveled, or shall be traveled.

It is often helpful to the seeker of truth to be informed of those qualities which are primary in the personality of the present incarnation, so that the seeker might work from those areas of strength, and build and stabilize those areas of weakness, so called, in the attempt to achieve an overall balance within the mind/body/spirit complex. It is often helpful for the seeker to know, for instance, that certain of its abilities are helpful in circumstances which have heretofore been puzzling and confusing to the entity. It is helpful to view those wide places and those narrow places in the road, so that there might be the movement through both with the most efficacy.

The offering of one’s self to others in providing this service is beneficial when the ones seeking assistance have the sincere desire to know, not the details of the daily life which shall change from day to day, but seek the undergirding principles that inform each incarnation and infuse each entity’s opportunities for learning in the areas which have been chosen for the current incarnation.

We look upon this study as a means by which entities may also approach a more informed understanding of the mind of the Creator as it is reflected in the movement of planets and possibilities within the incarnation. Thus, some look to this study for information regarding those primary qualities that we find you have in this group called the archetypical mind. That is the study of the mind of Love.

In this study, one is able to see a kind of mythology, if you will, which places the entity as a seeker of truth upon a great journey; and, as a seeker on this journey, is accompanied by many friends who may lend assistance as archetypical images when they are called upon in a conscious and sincere fashion. Thus, the seeker of truth may begin–and we stress begin–to apprehend more of the qualities of the self and the Creator that are infinite in nature; and which, in the sense of the self, are reflected or manifested in a certain way so that the seeker, by studying the self, becomes aware of a pattern that may be utilized in the traveling of the journey and in the study of all mysteries which present themselves to each seeker. Thus, that which is found within the self may be seen reflected within those portions of the Creator that you see as stars and planets, just as those features of the Creator are found in the stars and planets may be found in and affect the seeker in each portion of its journey.

Apparently the question from A concerned how he might offer  the study of astrology to be of aid in the spiritual seeker’s life path. Q’uo began their response by saying that astrology could be seen as a kind of road map for the seeker that utilizes the stars and the planets to give the seeker an indication of its path in the past, the present, and the future. They said that this worked by showing how one’s strengths may help to increase one’s weaknesses so that the life path may be more balanced as the wide places and narrow places are traveled. Q’uo continued by saying that it would be helpful to use astrology as a means of helping the seeker to discover the basic principles that astrology can provide that reveal one’s pre-incarnative choices to discover the mind of the Creator in the movement of planets or the archetypical mind, which is the mind of Love, the Logos. Q’uo said that astrology would give the seeker of truth a way of discovering those qualities of the self and the Creator which are infinite in nature and which affect the seeker in each portion of its spiritual journey. On November 28, 1993, Q’uo described the use of astrology in the seeker’s life:

Astrology is a complex and detail-driven technology, if you will, a system of ephemeral, mathematical constructs having to do with the configurations of heavenly bodies.

To the student who wishes to probe more deeply within the self to become more and more familiar with those uncharted regions of the self represented by the marker in consciousness which you would call sub-awareness, it [astrology] offers one way of learning more about the deeper mind. There is this sub-awareness that the deeper studies at this crux may be those which have fruitful results. On this level, let us say, the awareness of specific and personal detail is not that of which we speak at this time. Rather, the archetypical mind finds explication by the relationships of heavenly bodies to each other and to the planetary sphere upon which you presently enjoy incarnation.

At this level, much deep awareness can be encouraged by immersion in that complex set of relationships of star to star and star to the system of star and planets which you call home. On another level, the personal level, yield of useful information from continued study of and awareness of the progression of one’s own—this instrument would use the word “chart”—is shall we say, a good way to develop both an instinct for influence and a relatively authentic feeling of control over the continuing life experiences which is so precious to you. To one entity, such a study would be work, a difficult chore done in order for the learning. To such a one, we would suggest investigating other avenues for learning more attuned to the environment and for aid in the feel of control over the life experience.

Astrology, then, is that for which some entities are well suited, others not. To the entity which feels positively or affirmatively concerning keeping up with the chart’s progression for the self, astrology can bear that aid in consciousness which creates for the seeker a vantage point: consciousness which can act as a collecting area for the amassing of one’s psychic self. The gift of being psychic or aware in non-physical ways is within all persons. The means of developing this gift are tremendously large, infinite, we would think. However, to a fairly large percentage of those now seeking to increase the rate of learning, spiritually speaking, a substantial number would, indeed, find in astrology that place from which to continue to learn how to gather more and different information from the environment, for the environment is illusory and more than that is an illusion with many sub-illusions which further color the catalyst which is retained for use by your minds.

Is there a further query, my brother?

A: Not on that one. Thank you. I can give some space now for someone else to ask a question.

Carla: I had a couple of questions about the message. And I probably didn’t hear it all because I was channeling. But I was surprised that the patient and the healer seem to you to be the same. The healer and the healee–however you want to say it–they seem to be… And I wasn’t being deductive here, but inductive. But it just felt as though you were suggesting that there was a oneness between the healer and healee, and that oneness was normal. [Inaudible]

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. The relationship between the healer and the one to be healed, indeed, is that which taps into the unity that connects all things. For as the one to be healed seeks the healing energies, the entity is attempting to bring into a more harmonious state of balance some portion or portions of its mind/body/spirit complex that are currently in such a state of disharmony, that they have begun to impinge upon the entity’s ability to learn or continue to incarnational pattern. The one to be healed, then, in seeking the offices of the healer, offers itself to the One Creator, that moves through the healer in whatever modality is utilized, and brings the two into a harmony for the moment of healing, shall we say–that moment in which the one to be healed accepts a new configuration of attitude in the metaphysical beingness from which the manifested third-density physical vehicle depends. Thus, the one to be healed brings itself to the healer in order that the work previously done by the healer in the healing arts, which have been practiced upon the self of the healer, so that this same river, if you will, of energy may engulf both the one to be healed and the healer. And for that moment of healing, these entities are, in the metaphysical sense, seen as one.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes, I have one more. Actually, I had two more, but I can [inaudible]. I have noticed I’ve been ill a lot in my life, according to the [inaudible]. I’ve noticed that when someone who really loves me is around, even if that person is doing absolutely nothing–off in a corner sitting there doing his or her own thing–that I feel better, I feel more healing energy. And I was kind of surprised that you didn’t say anything about that whole area of healers that aren’t officially healers, but are unconsciously in some way. Could you comment?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. Indeed, there are many areas of the healing process which we are not able to investigate at this time due to the limitations of time. The effect of which you speak is one which is oftentimes the most called upon form of healing in the unconscious sense. For any entity which has worked upon itself, shall we say, in order to bring itself into a more complete or fuller understanding of the mysteries of evolution of mind, body, and spirit, is an entity which has begun the healing or making-whole process within the self.

As this process continues within any entity, such an entity then is as a beacon, one who radiates this more intense level of harmony to those about it, so that those about it feel the healing or harmonious energy emanating from such an entity. Such emanations tend to cause one, who is what you would call ill, to begin to vibrate in synchronistic fashion with this entity’s healing vibrations. Thus, there is the feeling of peace and of increased wellness as a result.

Is there another query?

B: I have one. I had my friend who was a healer who had a calling [inaudible]. And it sounds like from your description that as both healer and healee [inaudible].

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. In such an instance, where the healer begins to take on those qualities of the one to be healed that are within the illness range, shall we say, this is oftentimes the result of a misconception on the part of the healer, which is that the healer heals. In truth, the healer does not heal. The healer allows healing energies to move through its being in some fashion so that, for the moment of healing, both the healer and the one to be healed are experiencing the same healing energies. It is not necessary nor advisable, however, for the healer to see itself as the one accomplishing the healing, for that attitude will, in some cases, attract to the healer those distortions being balanced by the one to be healed.

The healer, in order to be most efficacious or helpful, must see itself as a channel through which energies move, both the energies to heal and those distortions being given up by the one seeking the healing. These energies need to move through the healer and not remain with the healer. The attitude in this instance is critical for that to occur.

Is there another query, my sister?

B: I was wondering if [inaudible] create an opportunity [inaudible] what happens then?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. Those energies being released by the one to be healed most often move back into the basic element of Earth, which is able to absorb all such energies and transmute them into a neutral state. It is well for the healer to offer some ritualized practice or object of practice that will aid this absorption of the distortions by the earth’s energies, such as the stomping of the feet upon the ground, the shaking of the fingertips to the ground, and so forth.

This may also be done mentally by either the healer or the one to be healed, so that the distortions are seen as leaving both entities and entering the Earth.

Is there a further query, my sister?

B: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

A: I have a question. Those so-called healers that I know appear to have gone through a phase of being wounded and then being healed. Here, there’s this process of being a wounded healer, and wounding seems to make the healer a better healer. Could you comment on that?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my brother. In truth, all healers have at some time been wounded, as you would say, or distorted in a certain fashion that is congruent with the pre-incarnative choices for lessons to be learned. Each lesson to be learned begins as its antithesis, so that, for example, if there is love for an entity to be learned, that this may begin as a dislike or lack of compassion for an entity or a quality.

The healer is one who has been able to apply certain principles to its own incarnational pattern, and through the application of these principles, has been able to affect its attitude in the metaphysical sense to the degree that it becomes, what you would call, healed. This healing then is accomplished by the work of the healer upon the self.

Oftentimes, there are additional lessons or woundings that are necessary for any entity, including those called healers, that will allow the healer to experience a transformation that will not only benefit the healer in the personal metaphysical sense, but will allow it to present itself in a more purified or potent form as a healer, able to open to the universal healing energy of the One Creator more efficiently for those who seek the healer’s services.

Is there another query, my brother?

A: No. Thank you so much.

I am Q’uo. And again, we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I don’t have any questions. Thank you.

D: I’m looking for the answer to a question, and it has to do with an exploration of [inaudible] parts of the Earth on which we live, and how we serve this energy to their location for a certain healing sort of power that is inherent near that spot. Those spots can be very natural spots on the surface, or they can be spots that have been created by man’s handling of the planet. And I’m curious about whether we all have this sort of energy within us that can create these spots in our own backyard, so to speak. Could you explore that for a period of time?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my brother. It is indeed true that there are many physical locations upon your planetary surface that are efficacious in the healing process, for they remind the one to be healed, either consciously or subconsciously, of certain qualities that may be necessary for a healing to occur. Such areas also offer various beneficial qualities, such as the negative ions that are generated in your streams when the surface of the water is broken by rocks or falls. There are inspirational qualities available from the distant view of mountains or scenery of a physical nature, so that the entity observing such may be inspired to place the mind upon certain principles that remind it of its connection to this natural environment. And through the exploration of this connection over a period of time, the entity may be able to bring itself into a more complete balance, offering to the self a less distorted experience, or one which is more whole or healthy, as you call it.

There is also the possibility that any entity seeking to create a physical location with healing in mind may so infuse this location with its intention to heal, that this intention will become an energy vortex in that area that will offer to the one constructing it, and all who enter thereafter, the harmonious vibrations of that intention. The subconscious mind of each entity works through such construction of physical location in a way that allows the placement of artifacts to reflect the subconscious need and idealization of the healing process.

For indeed, each entity upon your planet may be said to be seeking healing, for each is wounded by a perceived lack of love in some degree. And the healing process, in its most basic elements, is that process which introduces love into some portion of the entity’s personality where it has been lacking previously. Thus, as an entity seeks to construct a location that will facilitate the healing process, the entity is constructing a subconscious understanding of the environment of healing within the subconscious mind. There are certain relationships that are brought forth into the conscious mind and therefrom into the physical environment that will, by their placement, inspire this feeling of harmony, wholeness, health, and healing.

D wanted to know if there were locations on our planet that would be of aid in the healing process, and also could a person who has this energy within them construct places like this in their own yards? Q’uo replied by saying that many places like waterfalls generate negative ions that are helpful in aiding healing as are the distant views of the natural environment of mountains and the connection one may make to this scenery that allows a more balanced feeling or a healing of the life experience. Then Q’uo said that an entity may set its intentions to create such a place that will become a vortex of healing energy as the subconscious mind introduces the power of love into this environment and the various artifacts that the person may utilize to symbolize the environment of healing.  On May 16, 2002, Q’uo said that there were many ways for one to create a vortex of healing:

We may suggest that there are many opportunities to heal, to be a healer, to be an agent of healing energy, and that this healing has as many avenues as there are personalities. It is as though each of you were as the stained glass of a rich and beautiful design. All those colors within the window that is you are your very own; no one else has selected the way that you move energy through your energy body. And this means that you are creating a constant tapestry of color and music that is the personal signature of yourself, and this energy vortex, as it moves through the cosmic energy vortexes that are figured forth in the outer world by your planets and your stars, moves you along with the flow that you and your guidance created at the beginning of that web of energy that is called a given incarnation.

Is there a further query, my brother?

D: No, I thank you for the explanation.

I am Q’uo. And as we are aware that this has been a lengthy session and that energies are beginning to dwindle, we shall at this time take our leave of this group, thanking each for inviting our presence. It is a great honor and a joy for us to blend our vibrations with yours, and to walk with you for this time upon your journey of seeking. We cannot thank you enough for this blessing.

We are those of Q’uo and, at this time, shall leave this group, as always, in the love and in the light of the One Infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I took Bosco to the vet to have another glucose sensor affixed to his back and linked to my cell phone so that we can get readings of his blood sugar levels throughout the day. Hopefully, we can get 5 or 6 days of readings to give the vet an idea as to the best dosage level of insulin for him. Then I went to Feeder’s Supply to buy some birdseed and cat food for Benny.  My next stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s to buy a case of bottled water and some non-food items.

This afternoon I went outside and dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted it into the Moss Garden. Then I took the old clothes line rope off the netting around the fish pond and replaced it with a bright blue clothes line rope that I weaved in and out of the netting in a peaks and valleys pattern to keep birds from flying into the netting and getting caught, and the netting is to keep grey herons and raccoons from getting into the pond and eating the fish. But I only had enough rope to get half way around the fish pond, so I ordered more on the internet.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 25

Love As Motivation

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the fullness of the consciousness which is divine love

That consciousness is the ground of being of all who may hear our voice. That single word, love, created all that there is. The image of love draws each seeker on; with visage veiled and beguiling; with footsteps infinitely retreating before the advancing soul.

For that consciousness which is pure and creative and all-powerful is that consciousness which is its own source; that light which shines through the ages; that factory of all that there is, and that home to which all that there is shall return.

Do not sentimentalize the love of Jesus the Christ, for He left His spirit with you not only to comfort you but to excite and motivate each soul to act in that same consciousness and live in that same light and energy.

Know that your feet rest upon love, the ground of your being and that that creative energy is the active principle. The passive principle is peace.

In that peace we leave you, both now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 17, 1991:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to ask if there be any queries upon any other topic that we may attempt response to?

Questioner: I have a question, Q’uo. Prior to the session, a situation was discussed about helping ourselves to [inaudible] the disadvantaged within our particular society, and my observation was that the feelings that came to me during that [inaudible] were unexpected. I wonder if there is any use for logical reasoning in trying to observe one’s own reaction in giving aid or helping another, or if it is more useful for a seeker just to accept it as it is and sort of try to do the best every time with the situation that comes up? I wonder if you could comment on it?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The situation of which you speak is one in which you were offered the opportunity to be of service to another in a very direct and immediate fashion. This quality of immediacy is that which catches the seeker, shall we say, in an off-guard position, as you may put it. The spontaneous response of any entity to any stimulus is to act in this off-guarded moment in a pure and unpretentious fashion. To look at this experience as it has been completed, and to review one’s reactions, thoughts and emotions is the archetypical path of the seeker, for the examination of the life pattern is the seeking of truth.

The illusion exists for your seeking and your learning. Thus, we applaud the care taken in investigating one’s responses to significant stimuli. The significance is chosen by each of you according to that which moves your inner rhythms, those patterns programmed previous to the incarnation. Thus, is it well to spend time daily reflecting upon the day as it has passed, to note those experiences of significance where there was movement in your own consciousness that felt and left behind a strength and a mark upon your memory.

May we speak in any other fashion, my brother?

Questioner: I will take it further by saying that when I agree to help, I have some expectation of the way it would feel, and it did not feel that way. So I would ask you, what kind of experience does a seeker set himself up for when the approach is giving aid with some frequency of idea of what it might be like, or what it should be like? If you could comment on that in any way you feel you can.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. To have a preconceived idea as to the outcome of any event is to confuse the perception of that event when it occurs. This provides additional catalyst to the seeker, and it is not inappropriate to have these preconceptions; however, it may be noted to be inconvenient. It may also be noted by the seeker that there are a great many responses possible as a result of the giving of service, and each response may be carefully noted and investigated so that the connection with giving without condition can be made.

Questioner had the chance to be of service to a disadvantaged person, and he experienced unexpected feelings when thinking about this opportunity. So, he asked Q’uo if the best way to move forward in giving service was logical reasoning or to just accept the chance to be of service? Q’uo responded by saying that the immediate nature of the chance to be of service caught Questioner by surprise gave him the opportunity to respond in a pure and unpretentious fashion. Q’uo recommended that as he reviewed his response he was demonstrating the archetypical path of the seeker of truth. Q’uo said that this type of reviewing one’s responses to the stimuli of the day gives the seeker a chance to see its pre-incarnative choices and movement in one’s consciousness. Then Questioner refined his question and said that he had expectations of how it would feel to be of service, but he did not feel that way, and he wanted to know how these expectations affected his ability to be of service. Q’uo said such expectations were not inappropriate but could confuse the service, so they should be examined with an eye to how they would affect the goal of being able to give without expectation of return. On September 25, 1994, Q’uo described in detail what it means to give without expectation of return:

This process of seeking which we have described in our previous words is one which is universal for all third-density entities which live within the illusion of the separation of conscious and sub-conscious mind. To penetrate the veil of forgetting enough to love without expectation of return is a process which has steps, or as you know them, the archetypical images, that reflect the seeker’s journey.

We have been speaking this day of The Choice that is represented by the twenty-second archetype, known as the Fool. The entire process of seeking within your third-density illusion is one in which you become that Fool. It is a process which contains the, as your Bible has called it, the valley of the shadow of death. There is in this process a rod and a staff which comforts those who walk through the valley of the shadow of death. These are the will and the faith components that ring throughout each archetypical image and are as the guiding star, for the faith that this process will end well must be fueled by the will to persevere. Thus, there is the threat of the falling to one’s death, the being eaten alive by the illusion, the inability to see the danger about one, for it is all about one in darkness, it would seem.

Thus, the image of the Fool is well suited to your illusion and is given as that motto by which each might look for inspiration and illumination of the heart. We speak of the heart for there the love of the Creator may be found and experienced for the self and for all other selves as the self which is the seeker which continues to place itself in positions similar to the walking from the cliff, willing to be vulnerable and to give without expectation of return.

Thus, you see this image again and again invoked by the seeker in the daily round of activities and, indeed, within this circle of seeking. As you have begun your meditation, each placed the self in that position to share openly with all others gathered here that the effort of seeking might be enhanced by the open-hearted sharing of what was in each heart.

This archetype is the most active archetype, shall we say. Though it is the last to be mastered, it is the first to be called and the one to be called most often, my friends.

Is there any further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, Q’uo, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Well, this is personal, but I was talking with Jim the other day and we were wondering what had changed since the readings that I was given by Ra that had enabled me to do things that at that time I simply could not do. If this is not a subject you can speak upon, that’s fine. If you can comment, great.

I am Q’uo. We first ask if we spoke too soon?

Carla: Well, Q’uo, only because I always have something else to say. I was just going to say I’m just asking in general.

I am Q’uo—still. And we give this instrument the image of the steel door locked carefully, and apologize for the lack of information. Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: Would it aid my understanding of the energies at work in my life for me to meditate on this door?

I am Q’uo. And we would suggest that the query itself be the focus of meditation.

Carla: Very well.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank each for your patience, and most especially for your invitation to us, for we are always filled with joy to receive it and to have the opportunity to blend our vibrations with yours. We are most grateful to walk with you during this portion of your journey and assure each of you that there are many such as we who walk with you always, and there are those who rejoice at your every step. We shall take this opportunity to leave this instrument and this circle of working, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

Yesterday afternoon we had a public channeling meditation that had 13 people in attendance, and in our round robin we each had an opportunity to share the nature of our current spiritual journey. I am always amazed at how we seem to get such open-hearted people, and this kind of sharing seems to make the questions that they ask Q’uo to be of such an inspiring nature. After the channeling was over everyone stayed for about an hour with a good deal of the conversation focused on the types of dreams that each had in the recent past and how much working with dreams inspired them.

This morning Anna and I listened to Sessions 18, 19, & 20 of Carla channeling Ra. It was a great experience once again as the slowness of Carla’s channeling combined with being able to read the words she was channeling gave us a deeper grasp of what was being discussed by Don and Ra.

This afternoon I dug up another load of moss from the pet cemetery and transplanted it into the Moss Garden. Then I weeded the day lilies on the south side of the garage and put up a wire fence to keep the deer from eating them.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 24

The Ore Of Humankind

I am of the spirit of Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

The gem-like quality of the pilgrim’s soul may be seen seldom with your dark physical eyes, for the ore of humankind is rough and the exterior of most gem-like souls is pitted, darkened, and scarred by erosion and age.

It is the function of the spirit of love to enhance one’s eyesight when gazing at gold and gems in the rough. There is a vision which comes only to those who refuse to trust their physical eyes.

 May you ask this boon of the spirit of Christ, for each time that you see the Christ in another, you have become Christ to that other, and the gem that is your pilgrim’s soul is polished and faceted by deed and thought.

We leave you in the peace and comfort of love. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.