The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo and Latwii channelings for this session come from July 20, 1986:

(S channeling)

I am Hatonn, and we wish to greet you, our brothers and sisters, in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We again are most happy to be with you, and we are glad that this instrument decided to let us work with him, for he has been a part of this group for some time. We wish to share on something that is most important to many of you at this time the ideas of [inaudible] and lessons…

[The rest of the channeling is inaudible.]

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We too greet each in the name of infinite intelligence, and offer our thanksgiving that we may embrace your vibrations with our own. When we speak to you, we must ask you to take our words lightly, as if we were members of your family, close to you and loving you, yet full of errors. In no way do we wish to represent the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator as an unimpeachable source of information. We offer what we know or think we understand, but we offer also that which we are, for we are as you—the Creator, made of Love, and yet dwelling in illusion. The stuff of our illusion is fuller of Light than your own, and we enjoy more experience as souls, shall we say. We have made our choice, and that is to serve others, and yet we find that there is much that we do not know and that which we do know we are continually refining. Therefore, all that seems second-rate, unusable, or incorrect to you, we ask that you discard. All that seems inspiring, we ask you to retain and use as you would, just as you would the loving words of a sister or brother.

We would speak to you about the manifestation within your incarnational patterns of the one original Thought which is the Creator. The one original Thought upon which all creation was founded and with which all creation redounds is Love. Yes, my friends, Love is a thought, a principle, a Logos. You, by your very consciousnesses, are the Logos in a holographic representation, yet you are completely unlike any other holographic representation of the Creator, for your experiences are unique to your particular consciousness. Your field of energy is completely unique and precious to the one infinite Creator, and your greatest gift is your being, for by your mirroring of your perceptions, the Creator learns of Itself. As each of you has to some degree or another already considered this present incarnation, like all in third density, yet none more so than this, is an incarnation of choice, the choice having to do with the one original Thought of Love and your manifestation of it. There are two basic manifestations: one, service to others or Love for others, and, two, service to or Love for self.

You will note that in the service-to-others path, it is necessary first to Love the self, that one may then Love each other self as the self. Therefore, the service-to-others choice is one offering a more vast range of experiences than the service-to-self path in which others are loved only insofar as they serve a particular self, that being one’s own self. Polarization then, takes place upon a more intense but smaller scale. It is, therefore, a difficult path to follow. We have chosen service to others, and we would speak to you of it and would encourage you to consider not only making the choice, which as we have said, each of you to a greater or lesser extent have already done, but also to press forward, then, in investigating the ramifications of the one original Thought of the Creator, for how does that one original Thought think and manifest in the life of one who wishes to serve others?

In this session Q’uo spoke about the original Thought of Love. They said we would speak to you about the manifestation within your incarnational patterns of the one original Thought which is the Creator upon which all creation was founded and with which all creation redounds is Love, and Love is a thought, a Logos, so you, by your consciousnesses, are the Logos in a holographic representation, yet you are unlike any other holographic representation of the Creator, for your experiences are unique to your consciousness, so your field of energy is unique and precious to the one infinite Creator, and your greatest gift is your being, for by your mirroring of your perceptions, the Creator learns of Itself, so as each of you has considered this incarnation, like all in third density, is an incarnation of choice having to do with the one original Thought of Love and your manifestation of it, for there are two basic manifestations: service to others or service to self. Q’uo went on to say you will note that in the service-to-others path it is necessary first to Love the self, that one may then Love each other self as the self, for the service-to-others choice is one offering a larger range of experiences than the service-to-self path in which others are loved only insofar as they serve a particular self, that being one’s own self, so polarization takes place upon a more intense but smaller scale, and it is a difficult path to follow, so we have chosen service to others, and we would speak to you of it and would encourage you to consider not only making the choice, which each of you has already done, but to press forward in investigating the ramifications of the one original Thought of the Creator, for how does that one original Thought think and manifest in the life of one who wishes to serve others? In 17.30, Ra described the service to others path:

I am Ra. The best way to be of service to others has been explicitly covered in previous material. We will iterate briefly.

The best way of service to others is the constant attempt to seek to share the Love of the Creator as it is known to the inner self. This involves self-knowledge and the ability to open the self to the other-self without hesitation. This involves, shall we say, radiating that which is the essence, or the heart, of the mind/body/spirit complex.

Speaking to the intention of your question, the best way for each seeker in third density to be of service to others is unique to that mind/body/spirit complex. This means that the mind/body/spirit complex must then seek within itself the intelligence of its own discernment as to the way it may best serve other-selves. This will be different for each. There is no best. There is no generalization. Nothing is known.

Our brothers and sisters of Hatonn have spoken to you of peace. Love, of course, is the principle upon which the concept of peace rests. However, like many expressions of Love, the achieving and maintaining of peace among brothers and sisters within third density is not made easy by the illusion which you now enjoy. Peace is perhaps best achieved by dwelling upon the nature and filling oneself with the presence of the one original Thought, and out of the Love you bear for Love Itself, you then open yourself in Love and as a channel for the Creator’s Love, for, my friends, your own love will fail you to those who are striving. Now, to open yourself in Love to those who are disharmonious seems to be an act of folly, and yet let us look at flowers. They open their faces in Love to the sun which offers them the Light of its countenance and the Love of its radiation, and yet they do not withhold their perfume from any being. There is no judgment upon the part of a flower as to who shall receive its gifts of beauty.

You yourself are crystalline and many-petaled and capable of a great radiance. Yet, if you only open to those whom you already Love, you are not a flower who has centered upon the one original Thought. Open, then, in Love as a channel, for we do not recommend that you depend upon that limited supply of Love which your illusory personality can offer you, and Love those who seem to wish you, if not harm, then at least quarrelsomeness. The nature of service to others is such that you will find again and again that you have nothing to offer except your very being. And yet, my friends, if you will investigate the nature of the one original Thought, you will discover that your consciousness, your attention, your sympathy, your compassion, your attempt to understand, is the most precious service you can offer.

Q’uo went on to say our brothers and sisters of Hatonn have spoken to you of peace, and Love is the principle upon which the concept of peace rests, but like expressions of Love, the achieving and maintaining of peace among brothers and sisters within third density is not made easy by the illusion which you enjoy, so peace is best achieved by filling oneself with the presence of the one original Thought, and out of the Love you bear for Love Itself, you open yourself in Love as a channel for the Creator’s Love, for your love will fail you to those who are striving, but to open yourself in Love to those who are disharmonious seems to be an act of folly, yet let us look at flowers that open their faces in Love to the sun which offers them the Light of its countenance and the Love of its radiation, but they do not withhold their perfume from any being, and there is no judgment upon the part of a flower as to who shall receive its gifts of beauty. Then Q’uo said you are crystalline and capable of a great radiance, yet if you only open to those whom you already Love, you are not a flower who has centered upon the one original Thought, so open in Love as a channel, for we do not recommend that you depend upon that limited supply of Love which your illusory personality can offer you, and Love those who seem to wish you harm because the nature of service to others is that you will find that you have nothing to offer except your very being, yet if you will investigate the nature of the one original Thought, you will discover that your consciousness and your compassion are the most precious service you can offer. On June 17, 1984, Latwii described our very being:

Therefore, if you feel that words fail, do not give up the words, but place them upon the firm foundation of a strong and pure desire which you shall communicate by your very being, your presence, your feelings, the movement and motion of your hands and eyes and the Love which flows from your heart.

It is not givenyou to act on instinct. That is where the analogy to the flower breaks down completely, for you are not preordained to do or be anything. All choices are yours, and you may make and remake them again and again, softening, firming, rearranging, adjusting. My friends, in this incarnation you shall go through many phases. You shall change your mind many times about the finer points of your spiritual search for truth, and yet we feel that it may well be that you will find that the heart of that journey shall remain as you first discovered it with the excitement and the joy of an explorer discovering a new continent or ocean.

The core of choice is Love. There is nothing lukewarm about Love Itself, and as you refine your choice, remember the power of that with which you are dealing, for you deal with something that has created all that you can see and all that you cannot see. It has created all—from stars to relationships, stones to the concepts of beauty and truth. You would not wish to take such power and toss it casually here and there, a fire hose sprinkled hither and yon upon a town that is not burning. No, my friends, you wish to take something that you sense is at the center of Light, that you wish to make the center of your own life. You wish to hone it, to sharpen it, to discover and rediscover the joy of it and to be channels for it, learning more and more about the original Thought as you manifest it to yourself by manifesting it to others.

Q’uo continued by saying it is not given you to act on instinct, so that is where the analogy to the flower breaks down, for you are not preordained to do or be anything since all choices are yours, and you may make and remake them, and in this incarnation you shall change your mind many times about the finer points of your spiritual search for truth, yet we feel that it may be that you will find that the heart of that journey shall remain as you first discovered it with the excitement and the joy of an explorer discovering a new continent or ocean. Then Q’uo said the core of choice is Love, and there is nothing lukewarm about Love, so as you refine your choice, remember the power of that with which you are dealing, for you deal with something that has created all that you can see and all that you cannot see from stars to relationships, to the concepts of beauty and truth, so you would not wish to take such power and toss it casually here and there, for you wish to take something that you sense is at the center of Light, that you wish to make the center of your own life, and you wish to discover and rediscover the joy of it and to be channels for it, learning more about the original Thought as you manifest it to yourself by manifesting it to others. On March 11, 1974, Hatonn described the nature of the original Thought:

The Love that produces the configuration of Light occurs in what we term various vibrations—or, using a word in your language that is not sufficient but somewhat descriptive, “frequency”—Love occurs, then, in various vibrations or frequencies. These vibrations or frequencies are the result of free will. When the Creator produced this original concept, the concept included the gift of freedom of choice to all of the parts that It created. Those parts are then totally free to change the original Thought. In doing so, they change what you understand to be the vibration of some portion of the original Thought.

Each of you here this evening has a vibration. This vibration is yours, and you have control over it. Your freedom of choice has created the Love that manifests the Light that is the fabric molded into your physical form.

This is the simplest analysis of all created forms of all of the creation. Each part of it is able to utilize its own consciousness, through the principle of freedom of choice, to vary or change the original vibration. The creation, therefore, continues to be self-generating, in an infinite variety. This was provided for in the original Thought of the Creator. It was provided that the Creator might generate in an infinite way, in an infinite number of forms.

You see, my friends, service to others is actually service to self, for as you serve others, you learn. If you serve yourself first, the learning is so much harder and comes so much more slowly. As you give, so you receive. As you put yourself into difficulty, so you discover peace. As you remain serene within yourself, so you maintain all of the peace that you can. Note, we did not say, “may.” There is only so much that you can do in service to entities other than the self. This is due to the free will of each individual. It may seem within the illusion that there are individuals who may have an inflated idea of the gravity and expense necessary in the demanding of free will choices. It may seem to you that another’s fist has moved into your nose before it has said, “I stop. This is where your free will takes over.” It may seem to you that you are injured. We say to you that it is impossible to be injured unless you allow that concept to enter your consciousness.

What is the worst that can happen in this illusion, my friends? You may lose your life. What is that to you who have your eyes set upon eternity? Fear not, therefore, a lack of freedom, for you give yourself freedom as you offer yourself in service to others, and this is your peace, that you may love others, that you can love others, and that all that you need to do to be effective beyond your hopes is to love. Each of those within your illusion wishes and hopes for perfect harmony betwixt all, one way or another. It is a universal concept, for it is the birthright of each person of the consciousness of infinite intelligence. The nature of the one original Thought is unity. Therefore, how can any portion of that unity be disharmonious?

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

It is a good thing to desire peace and to wish to serve in Love, yet we encourage you to consider the possibility of remaining detached from solutions. When one wants a solution or outcome, when one thinks one has a right answer, one is often pulled away from the one original Thought of Love and finds it difficult to allow other solutions, outcomes or answers to be in the end chosen by others.

Q’uo went on to say service to others is actually service to self, for as you serve others, you learn, but if you serve yourself first, the learning is harder and comes more slowly, so as you give, so you receive, and as you put yourself into difficulty, so you discover peace, for there is only so much that you can do in service to entities other than the self which is due to the free will of each individual, yet it may seem within the illusion that there are individuals who may have an inflated idea of the expense necessary in the demanding of free will choices, so it may seem to you that another’s fist has moved into your nose before it has said, “I stop. This is where your free will takes over,” and it may seem to you that you are injured, but it is impossible to be injured unless you allow that concept to enter your consciousness. Q’uo continued by saying fear not a lack of freedom, for you give yourself freedom as you offer yourself in service to others, and this is your peace, that you may Love others, and all that you need to do to be effective beyond your hopes is to Love, for each of those within your illusion wishes for perfect harmony between all, for it is the birthright of each person of the consciousness of infinite intelligence, and the nature of the one original Thought is unity, so it is a good thing to desire peace and to wish to serve in Love, yet we encourage you to consider the possibility of remaining detached from solutions, for when one thinks one has a right answer, one is often pulled away from the one original Thought of Love and finds it difficult to allow other solutions to be chosen by others. On September 24, 1995, Q’uo spoke of the nature of perfect harmony:

Now let us step back and gaze at the unity of creation and know the sweetness of perfect harmony, harmony that is not still but which carries desire in its arms, but in a rhythmic and graceful fashion. To desire Love and Light is an instinct in the human blooming just as it is instinct which turns flower to the sun.

Now let us step back and gaze at the unity of creation and know the sweetness of perfect harmony, harmony that is not still but which carries desire in its arms, but in a rhythmic and graceful fashion. To desire Love and Light is an instinct in the human blooming just as it is instinct which turns flower to the sun. Yet it does not matter what the result of your service is, in terms of your own growth and learning; spiritually speaking, it is important only that your pure desire was to serve. It is, of course, helpful if one uses the tools available to one in order to refine techniques of service so that they are as effective as possible. However, free will is so important a concept that if a service is abrogated, refused or denied, it should be as acceptable to the one who serves as the alternate outcome, that is, that one’s service is accepted, enjoyed, and in terms of the illusion, successfully manifested. May you Love each other, my friends, in joy and without demand insofar as it is possible on your end. To paraphrase one of your holy works, “Live at peace with all other selves.” You are not responsible for them, but for yourself. When it is not possible to influence others to say they are at peace with you, it is always possible to become peaceful within yourself with others.

Do you demand to change the world, or do you ask of yourself that you become more and more one with the original Thought of creation? We suggest to you that the latter course is profitable. As you love each other, and as you love the one infinite Creator, so we love you, and so we love the one infinite Creator. We speak with Its voice, we think with Its mind, and you listen now with Its ears, and all of us dance one dance together in Love, in seeking of peace. Oh, my friends, may you have the joy of knowing Love, of being in Love with Love and of serving as a channel, as a lighthouse, as a beacon for the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator which bathes each of you, which shines through each of you, which is the essence of each of you, and in which we leave each of you, with the promise that we shall come to you at any time you may request our presence mentally.

Now Q’uo said it does not matter what the result of your service is in terms of your growth and learning spiritually speaking, for it is important only that your desire was to serve, but it is helpful if one uses the tools available in order to refine techniques of service so they are as effective as possible, yet free will is so important a concept that if a service is denied, it should be as acceptable to the one who serves as the alternate outcome, so may you Love each other in joy and without demand insofar as it is possible, but when it is not possible to influence others to say they are at peace with you, it is always possible to become peaceful within yourself and with others. Then Q’uo said: “Do you demand to change the world, or do you ask of yourself that you become more and more one with the original Thought of creation?” Now Q’uo said we suggest to you that the latter course is profitable, for as you Love each other, and as you Love the one infinite Creator, so we Love you, and so we Love the one infinite Creator, for we speak with Its voice; we think with Its mind; and you listen now with Its ears; and all of us dance one dance together in Love, in seeking of peace, so may you have the joy of knowing Love, of being in Love with Love and of serving as a channel and as a beacon for the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator which bathes each of you, which shines through each of you, which is the essence of each of you, and in which we leave each of you, with the promise that we shall come to you at any time you may request our presence mentally. On November 9, 2019, Q’uo described the nature of the one infinite Creator:

The Law of One says simply that all things, all beings, all is One, One Infinite Creator, Intelligent Infinity, that which is all that is. Consciousness is a portion of the One Infinite Creator that becomes enabled, or created, when the universes begins to take shape as the One Infinite Creator and through Free Will creates the Logos or Love, which creates Light, which then condenses into the creation that is made of consciousness.

Thus, the consciousness comes from the One Infinite Creator’s unity. As each entity perceives its own consciousness, then, it discovers that it is related to all other entities through this consciousness through its various levels of consciousness within its own being that move through the roots of the tree of mind into the subconscious, into the planetary consciousness, into racial consciousness, into cosmic consciousness, into the consciousness of all that is, all that is created.

Thus, if each entity begins to examine its own consciousness, then, it discovers that it is as related to the One Infinite Creator as is any other entity or any other portion of the One Infinite Creation. Thus, to know the consciousness of the self is to know, in microcosm, that which is in macrocosm. Thus, the One Infinite Creator knows itself in each iota of beingness of its creation, and each iota of beingness of the creation knows itself as the One Infinite Creator.

We have nothing to offer you except our Love. Perhaps we may help to deepen a meditation, perhaps we may be of comfort simply because there is an indefinable something about not being alone in one’s perceptions, whether they be of happiness or sadness. Whatever your reason for calling upon us, know that we will hear you and will respond, for you are not alone, nor have you ever been nor shall you ever be. We leave this voice, yet the Creator speaks in every breath of air that breathes through any entity, or sighs through any tree, or disturbs any blade of grass. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you, my friends, in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. It is our pleasure as well to join this group this evening, and we thank you most humbly for allowing us to do so. It is once again our honor and our joyful duty to attempt in some way to be of service by considering those queries which may be offered us, and sharing our opinions with you as each of you move yet another step forward upon the journey of seeking the one Creator. Please do remember that we are as you, seekers of truth, and fallible in our perceptions. Take that which we offer that is of value and leave that which is not. May we begin, then, with the first query?

Carla: What’s the impact in terms of raising the consciousness of planet Earth of people attempting and seemingly failing in many ways to achieve a peaceful great peace march? What’s underneath that illusion?

I am Latwii. My sister, so many times those of your people begin an effort, whether alone or with others, that is hoped will be of service to others, that will Light a path that perhaps has not known Light sufficient for its realization in previous times. Thus, an effort is begun, difficulties ensue, and perhaps the result is not as intended, and those who have attempted feel disheartened and wonder within where can be found this which was sought. We look upon such efforts, my sister, and see the great Light of intention that shines within all, and this is what is the heart of all such efforts, for none within your illusion is wise enough to know how an effort can yield fruit. Within your illusion, you move within a darkness of knowing. It is a difficult illusion in which to find solid footing. Thus, each seeks in a unique fashion to find the one original Thought, and in a unique fashion manifests some portion of that Thought within the illusion life pattern which is apparent.

What is seen, and what is registered, and what has its effect is the intention, the intention that survives the struggles and the turmoils, the intention that does not die with seeming defeat or difficulty. This intention, then, my sister, is that which works in a way that affects each other person within the illusion in a way that adds a certain lightness and potential for finding greater Light within the illusion as a whole. Do not ever confuse results which seem magnificent with the intention that produced them, for your wisdom is small, and little of it do you experience, yet what you can do is to desire, is to seek, is to intend, and in this way do you set your compass upon that which is unknowable yet desirable. In this way does your own beingness radiate that which you have made available through your intentions and through your struggles to others who see in ways not always known or shown to the outward eye. Thus, does that which truly inspires come from mystery and move through mystery to lighten the hearts of those within the mystery of this illusion.

Carla asked: “What’s the impact in terms of raising the consciousness of planet Earth of people attempting and seemingly failing in many ways to achieve a peaceful great peace march? What’s underneath that illusion?” Latwii said so many times those of your people begin an effort, whether alone or with others, that is hoped will be of service to others, that will Light a path that has not known Light sufficient for its realization in previous times, so an effort is begun, difficulties ensue, and the result is not as intended, and those who have attempted feel disheartened and wonder where can be found this which was sought, and we look upon such efforts and see the Light of intention that shines within all, and this is what is the heart of all such efforts, for none within your illusion is wise enough to know how an effort can yield fruit, for within your illusion you move within a darkness of knowing, but it is a difficult illusion in which to find solid footing, so each seeks in an unique fashion to find the one original Thought, and in a unique fashion manifests some portion of that Thought within the illusion life pattern which is apparent. Latwii continued by saying what is seen, and what has its effect is the intention that survives the struggles, the intention that does not die with seeming defeat, so this intention is that which works in a way that affects each other person within the illusion in a way that adds a lightness and potential for finding greater Light within the illusion, but do not confuse results which seem magnificent with the intention that produced them, for your wisdom is small, and little of it do you experience, yet what you can do is to desire, and in this way you set your compass upon that which is unknowable yet desirable, and in this way does your beingness radiate that which you have made available through your intentions and your struggles to others who see in ways not always shown to the outward eye, yet does that which inspires come from mystery and move through mystery to lighten the hearts of those within the mystery of this illusion. On April 25, 1982, Latwii described some of the mystery of this illusion:

We do not mean to be short, shall we say, of information but again find it an infringement to comment upon a specific experience, for experiences of this nature occur to entities for the very purpose of providing a mystery which must be solved. The entity so experiencing this mystery, then, hopefully shall be intrigued to pursue the mystery to its solution. The path of pursuing this mystery does then provide the entity with an exercising of the spiritual desire to seek the truth. To exercise this desire is to strengthen it, and in the seeking shall come the fruits of the seeking, and when the mystery has been solved then that portion of the seeking will have served its purpose for the entity.

We might suggest in general that experiences such as this experience are those which can be used by Confederation entities, by personal guides, shall we say, and by other portions of the entity’s own being, those portions being within the subconscious mind. Each of these particular types of communication has a purpose in that it provides a mystery which then inspires the seeking further.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

K1: I’m not sure this is an appropriate question at this time, and if it’s not, please let me know. I’m wondering if it’s possible to know if K2’s son, D, is still alive, and if he is, if it’s possible for us to find him?

I am Latwii, and we pause to scan. It is possible for us to speak in a limited fashion in order that there might be some small service offered that does not infringe upon the Way of Confusion. This entity of which you speak is one which has in its own pattern of movement through its incarnation embarked upon what within your illusion is seen as separation and trauma in order that it might, with the aid of others, provide for itself and the one known as K2 a balancing opportunity that has its roots in previous incarnational existence. To speak further in attempting to locate or predict the future location of this entity we find to be beyond the line of confusion or free will. However, we can suggest that this is not an accident, and that all is truly well.

May we answer further, my sister?

K1: Can you tell me if he is alive at this time?

I am Latwii, and we find as we look upon this entity that its current condition is one which we may not fully describe, but may suggest that there shall be a contact that will reveal the presence of this entity. We may not speak in greater detail, and we must apologize for our lack of words for a situation which is of obvious concern to the one known as K2 and to your own self.

May we answer further, my sister?

K1: No. Thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister.

S: Can you tell me, if it’s possible, of my last incarnation?

I am Latwii, and we greet you, my brother, in joy. We look upon the query and we must smile, for we see somewhat beyond this query and note that the experience which preceded your current incarnation is one which, if it were described even in general terms, would provide you with information which may be of such a staggering potential to your current way of thinking that it may in some fashion tend to bias that thinking unduly. We can, however, say that the experience which preceded this experience is one of Light, and is one which moves through this experience because of your decision to allow it, in a time some small distance in your past of this incarnation, as you would call it. We encourage you, my brother, to find means within your own being which we see that you have developed to move your own consciousness to a place, shall we say, within, from which you will be able to view that which is of meaning to you from that experience. Though it may not be entirely possible to view it as the motion picture, you shall however find an ability to glean from it the emotions, the motives, and the attitude which was its fruit and which served as the seed for this incarnation.

May we answer further, my brother?

S: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

C: If it is appropriate, could you elaborate and possibly help me understand the experience and the entity that is encountered by my friend W and I at the end of my road, which appeared to be living in my car at the time?

I am Latwii. My brother, we have been waiting for this query. We have scanned this instrument’s mind, knowing that it does not mind, and have wondered if we would have this opportunity. We find this information both interesting, harmless, and somewhat unusual within your illusion, therefore we shall attempt to speak, if this instrument is able to relay those concepts which we offer it, for as we have said this is a quite fascinating and unusual situation.

The entities of which you speak are, indeed, within your reality somewhat more than a thought form, as you would call them. They are a type of pattern of livingness which is neither a creature of your second nor of your third-density illusion. They are a possibility which becomes probable when a certain set of circumstances is achieved. This set of circumstances is that which we may have some difficulty describing.

Within your illusion, time, as you know it, and that which you call space, move at a certain rhythm in order that the third-density illusion may take on the character which you know as real. When there is a certain mismatching of that which you call time within an area that you know of as space that has been brought about, in this case by the condition not only of your automotive vehicle, but of your own frames of minds as well, and by certain points of instreaming energy within the location of your domicile, there may be transferred to your physical illusion entities of a playful and somewhat obnoxious nature in your way of thinking, from what you would call the lower astral planes, and these entities take up their residence in a form which they are able to construct from all of the patterns of energy of the foregoing parameters which we mentioned.

Thus, they find a residence within an environment which is most closely associated with their own patterns of expression upon the lower astral planes and are on what you might call a vacation, skipping about your illusion in a way which is most perplexing and somewhat frightening to you, but most joyful and carefree to them. It is not likely that they shall be able to maintain their existence within your illusion for a very significant portion of what you call time, for the conditions which allow their presence are most tenuous. Therefore, you may not expect further interference with the performance of those automotive vehicles in care in what you would call your future.

[The telephone rings.]

I am Latwii, and we were at the completion of our query and waited with amusement as this instrument remembered what it had forgotten (i.e. to unplug the telephone).

May we answer further, my brother?

C: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

J: Yes, Latwii, this is J. I fell asleep there for a minute. Sorry about that, but my question is, tonight at the beginning of our meeting here with you, were you with me for a moment? Did you try to speak through me? I felt like you were, and at the end I wasn’t quite sure what to do.

I am Latwii, and we greet you, my sister, in joy—ah.

[Laughter from those present.]

And we may suggest that we have been with each within this circle for the purpose of the aiding in the deepening of the meditative state. We do not intrude upon any potential instrument’s consciousness by forcing an instrument to speak before it has clearly chosen that service and has been trained, shall we say, in some degree. We do not feel it is appropriate to do this for any new instrument, for we cherish each instrument and each opportunity to speak through yet another instrument and wish this opportunity to be given its fullest range of freedom of choice in order that the one serving as instrument may, with as much confidence and assurance as possible, begin that service with such as its foundation. To do otherwise would be asking overmuch of one which in its part desires to serve, yet in its mind knows nothing of how to do so.

May we answer further, my sister?

J: No, I understand. Thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: Well, before you go, old chap, do you have any suggestions, since we’re on the subject, of how I might improve the training techniques for new channels?

I am Latwii, and am aware of your query, my sister. Ahh, now let us see. Reviewing all those venerable techniques of the masters of the past… three raps to the skull—no, that will not do. Silence—too, too perplexing. Written instructions—too boring. My sister, we are at a loss—it seems you do an adequate job. Seriously, now…

Carla: Is that Sirius the star or… oh, never mind!

Latwii: …we do believe that we have been able to make somewhat of a breakthrough with this instrument this evening, and we ask your pardon for somewhat blowing its circuits.

[Laughter]

We find that your techniques are most appropriate, my sister, and will find their own additions as the opportunity to exercise them makes itself available to you.

May we answer in any further detail, my sister?

Carla: Oh, no—that’ll be fine. If you think of anything, just drop me a paper napkin with the instructions on it.

I am Latwii, and we shall do so, my sister, and then you may guess who is coming to dinner.

Carla: [Laughing] Thank you.

Latwii: Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We join with you in the appreciation of the sounds of your evening, and we thank each of you for inviting our presence to join you on such an evening and with such a seeking that we are aware of within this group is a joy that we cannot describe. We appreciate with you the silence between sounds, the difficulty in seeking the darkness and the Light, and the joy in coming together with those of like minds to rejoice in the presence of the One that makes Itself known in each. We are those of Latwii, and we leave each of you in that joy, in that Love, in that Light, and in the peace of unity. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “When we are fully and completely aware that “I and my God are one” and when we no longer have any desire for person, place, thing, circumstance, or condition we are reborn of the Spirit; we are purged because into that state of consciousness we carry with us none of the desires that could result in sin. It did not take a God to forgive us: it took a dying and a rebirthing, and in this new state of consciousness we need no forgiving because there is no sin.

When we come to the state of consciousness that realizes our Self-completeness in God so that we truthfully can live in the full and complete realization of fulfillment, without a trace of desire or need, there is no block between us and the inner Source of our being, and consequently no block of condemnation, criticism, or judgment, no unfulfilled desire, no greed, lust, or anger. There is only the realization that we are at peace with God and with all humanity.

And so, as I continued in meditation another question came to my mind, “Have I died to all that is human?’ If I have, forgiveness is complete; and if I have not, there must be a continual dying until I have realized my Self-completeness in God. I may not be able to praise  myself and declare that I am pure, but this much I can do: I can turn and with an open heart forgive every offense that has ever been aimed at me or mine—at me personally, at my family community, nation, and the world—and entertain a complete and full sense of forgiveness.”

With that realization, I settled down into peace and quiet, and a few moments later I had to jump out of bed to make a note, and within the next couple of hours I was up four different times making notes that became two lectures, lectures that came out of a heart and mind at peace. There was no barrier—no unforgiveness, no sin, no judgement of anyone—nothing but a purity of vision, and in that purity of vision, there was peace.”

This afternoon I went outside and used Whip Lash to trim the grass around the fishpond, the side of my home, and the front yard where Venus could not go when I cut the grass yesterday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 26

The Spirit Of Love

I am the spirit of Him who comes in the name of the Lord.

All things dwell within the Love of God. The Love of God is a power which emanates from each living thing. Long before one reaches another person the two sendings of Love have intertwined and greeted each other.

There are those whose sensitivity causes them to find pain in the contact with the Love of the Creator and pain in the contact with other souls. For the Love of God is a strong and vibrant thing, and one which removes one’s isolation completely.

Yet even in the midst of isolated countryside, that consciousness which emanates and exudes as the Love of the Creator is sent out by each creation of the Father, each flower, grass, and tree. There are some sensitive souls who must then seek the cave.

There the emanations of stone, water, and air are silent or at least quiet enough that the soul who works alone may find rest.

We urge each to open the doors of acceptance to the life of the Spirit of Love in people and places and circumstances, but even if we speak to one within a cave we know that the Love of God in Christ shall work with you at your chosen speed.

Peace be with you, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo and Nona channelings for this session come from July 6, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our Infinite Creator. May we thank and bless each of you for inviting us to share in your combined life-streams at this time. To be so invited to share our thoughts is a very great privilege, for it is by attempting to be of service to you that we gain in polarity and advance along our own path. We ask that you remember, as always, when hearing any opinion, whatever, that the truth is already seated in your own spirit, and if you do not recognize it in our words, it is well for you to release it from your consciousness, for we would not be a stumbling block before you to retard you in your spiritual growth. Indeed, that is far from our purpose.

However, this evening we would stress that in the illusion, which is your so-called third-density reality, all people are manifestly created unequal. In the illusion of personality, each entity is unique. This illusion is a deep illusion which will continue to hold sway through several densities of existence and many millions of your years and far, far into your spiritual development and your journey back to the One Original Thought. It is an important illusion. Why, indeed, does it seem so clear that in this illusion of personality, each is unique and obviously different and therefore unequal to and from each other? Let us consider one individual spirit. There are two basic influences which shall govern what occurs within the life experience of this individual. The first is, shall we say, the law of finished beginnings. This is not a law, but an influence. We use the term “law” advisedly and ask that you understand it as a pervasive influence rather than an unshakable law. Your vocabulary does not have such a nice word, so we must use the closest in meaning. This pervasive influence is that which indicates that that which has been previously unfinished in an entity’s experience in other lifetimes shall be once again brought before the attention of the entity in order that the entity may work, consider, meditate, and do whatever seems to be advisable with these pervasive influences which are familiar.

Many difficult relationships are the result of previous unfinished beginnings, and the difficulty of the relationship is much like the difficulty of a person that receives that which seems to be fresh from the grocery but which when taken home, though sweet and fresh to every physical sense, yet seems still somehow aging and putrefying. There is something ancient, something one cannot put one’s finger upon, something which smacks sometimes of déja vu. This is that with which you shall deal as lovingly, compassionately, and may we say, dispassionately with in this life experience in order to finish that which has been begun, that all may be balanced with that particular relationship, or in regard to that particular point, that the entity has been attempting to learn and has as yet not completely gotten, shall we say, under the belt.

In this session Q’uo spoke about how Love and Wisdom aid our spiritual growth. They began by saying this evening we would stress that in the illusion of your third-density reality, all people are created unequal, and in the illusion of personality, each entity is unique, for this illusion is a deep illusion which will continue to hold sway through several densities of existence, and many millions of years, and far into your spiritual journey back to the One Original Thought, yet it is an important illusion, so why does it seem that in this illusion of personality, each is unique, different, and unequal to and from each other? Then Q’uo said let us consider one spirit where there are two influences which govern what occurs within the life experience of an individual, and the first is the law of finished beginnings, for this is not a law, but an influence, so we ask that you understand it as a unwelcome influence rather than an unshakable law, and this unwelcome influence indicates that which is unfinished in an entity’s experience in other lifetimes shall be brought before the attention of the entity in order that the entity may meditate upon these unwelcome influences which are familiar. On May 19, 1985, L/Leema said that each of us is unique:

Each of you has, however, chosen a path of conscious realization of the one Power which generates all creation. You have placed before yourselves a unique means by which you shall, shall we say, “throw your own switch,” and illumine your own being. Each is unique, for each of you has had a great many incarnational experiences through which you have gained certain biases, tendencies, and characteristics. You have learned a great variety of lessons in a unique manner and in this present incarnation, you seek then to complete lessons which you have left undone and to balance those biases which you have developed previously. Thus, each has a unique journey that leads to the same point, the same source of power that is found in all portions of creation.

As each is familiar with the so-called karmic influence, we need not dwell upon this influence, but would note only that it is well to take such influences seriously, in that each entity gives such challenges careful and persistent consideration, but also that the entity employ the light touch, the laughter, the seeking of joy, the discovery of love within each difficulty and each challenge. And the other influence, although equally pervasive, is not an influence that is much noticed, however it is equally important to your development and to your understanding of the process of development. You understand already that that which you seek will come to you. This follows the basic law of finishing the beginning.

However, there is a balancing influence, and that is the influence of finding that which has least been sought. Each of you will repeatedly during your incarnation have a new experience, an experience to which you come as a virgin comes to her first love. You will have no previous experience to guide you within the incarnation or within your memory, for what is occurring is a balancing process. If you have sought and sought and sought again that which is good and perfect, it is a just balance, and one with which the Creator is generous, that that which is painful shall occur to you, not because you deserve it, but because the way to transformation is the way of balancing. And for every familiar line of thought which you work upon in order to progress spiritually, there will be a brand-new circumstance which has not been called for which shall occur to you also, and for which you have no previously molded personal tools. This offers you the chance of assimilating new catalyst without incurring what you would call karmic responsibility or debt.

Q’uo went on to say as each is familiar with the karmic influence, we need not dwell upon this influence, but we would note that it is well to take such influences seriously, so that each entity gives challenges careful consideration, but also that the entity employ the laughter and the discovery of Love within each difficulty, and the other influence, although equally pervasive, is not an influence that is much noticed, but it is equally important to your development, and you understand that which you seek will come to you, for this follows the law of finishing the beginning. Now Q’uo said there is a balancing influence of finding that which has least been sought, for each of you will repeat new experiences to which you come as a virgin comes to her first love, but you will have no previous experience to guide you within the incarnation, for what is occurring is a balancing process, so if you have sought that which is perfect, it is a just balance, and one with which the Creator is generous, so that which is painful shall occur to you, not because you deserve it, but because the way to transformation is the way of balancing, and for every familiar line of thought which you work upon in order to progress spiritually, there will be a new circumstance which has not been called for which shall occur to you, and for which you have no previously molded personal tools, so this offers you the chance of gaining new catalyst without incurring karmic debt. On January 12, 2008, Q’uo described the nature of transformation:

It is ironic, is it not, that in the search for truth the answers lie not in discovering that which can be known, but in discovering that the secrets to the mystery of transformation lie in unknowing and faith. Faith is the most powerful force in the universe, it being another name for realized or positively realized Love. You live in a universe made of Love. The original Thought was a Thought of unconditional Love.

As you transform, the core of your transformation is an awareness that has not been there before about the nature of your central or deepest self as being part of Love itself or the creative principle, which is the one great original Thought of unconditional Love.

As you become full of new information that brings you to a place of transformation, you suddenly discover that you are no longer full. You discover that this very fullness and sense of new life tips you into the corresponding and balancing awareness of oneself as knowing nothing. It is a devastating portion of transformation, this realization that nothing is known, and that nothing can be known within the illusions of the Earth world.

Yet as one moves through that which has been called the Purgative Way, one becomes aware that one is utterly empty. And there is a kind of purity in that emptiness that is powerful. You become the Holy Grail which you seek because you are that cup which is now empty or that hand outstretched which has nothing in it, ready to receive that which is new, that which comes from the great original Thought to transform you as a creature so that you have become that which is new.

Then that cycle begins again, where you start from a new place in the spiral of evolution. It is if it were, in a flattened spiral, the same place you have been before in this incarnation. Yet, because it is an upward spiral, you are always moving to that place you were before with a new mind, so that you meet that repeating theme or those repeating themes of your incarnation from a new place of observation and experience.

If there are very difficult lessons in your life and one thing after another has been a half-remembered nightmare through which you wearily but determinedly move in order to stop forever the wheel, as you would say, of karma, or as we would put it, to finish that which has been begun, then it is that something utterly, unexpectedly marvelous and wonderful shall occur. Not because you deserve it, but because a balance needs to be brought. And so, the Creator has gifts for you to aid in transformation, to surprise you and to offer you the opportunity to teach yourself that which you have begun to learn but have not yet finished; and that incalculable something which the balancing law offers as a teaching but which has been rarely spoken of and even less rarely grasped, and that is that there is such a thing as grace. There is that which rains when there is drought and which shines to brighten an interior dim landscape. There is an inborn keel which shall manifest itself within your life experience—not when you expect it, but always as a gift. And whether these occurrences are happy or unhappy, you may find within yourself the blessing of lessons which are more simply learned because you have been learning their opposite.

When you do not recognize in a situation or relationship any half memory of any past association, when you have no personal feeling of attachment to a challenge, then it is perhaps well to consider whether or not this may be a gift from the Creator, that which you already have the tools to understand, if we may use a term that is incorrect in your density. Each of you has this balancing influence on hand at this time, and we encourage each of you to look to such lessons with gratitude for grace which offers the easy lessons once in a while and with determination, for even though these lessons are easy because they come as gifts, it is easy to waste them.

Now Q’uo said if there are difficult lessons in your life, and one thing after another has been a nightmare through which you determinedly move in order to stop forever the wheel of karma, then it is that something unexpectedly wonderful shall occur because a balance needs to be brought, so the Creator has gifts for you to aid in transformation, to offer you the opportunity to teach yourself that which you have begun to learn, and that is that there is such a thing as grace, for there is that which rains when there is drought and which shines to brighten an interior dim landscape, and there is an inborn keel which shall manifest itself within your life experience as a gift, and whether these occurrences are happy or unhappy, you may find within yourself the blessing of lessons which are learned because you have been learning their opposite. Then Q’uo said when you do not recognize in a relationship any personal feeling of attachment to a challenge, then it is well to consider whether or not this may be a gift from the Creator, that which you already have the tools to understand, for each of you has this balancing influence on hand, and we encourage each of you to look to such lessons with gratitude for grace which offers the easy lessons once in a while, for even though these lessons are easy because they come as gifts, it is easy to waste them. On June 30, 1985, Latwii spoke about the nature of grace:

When an action, a thought, or an energy has been set into motion in order to gather experience, this energy will continue in motion until an equal energy in the opposite direction has been generated. At this point there is the balancing of energies. Each entity within any incarnation is subject to this so-called law. This is how experience is gained and variety is achieved in the experience. The grace which has been described is the environment in which this law operates. This so-called grace is that support within all of creation which each entity stands upon and breathes within its being as it sets into motion the various distortions or experiential patterns that are set before the incarnation for such and such a purpose. The grace that supports each entity then is available as the very fabric of the creation through which an entity moves. It assures each entity that no matter what experience it may entertain, it shall not truly move from Love, shall not truly move from Light, from joy, or from unity. No entity can travel a distance so far that there is the lack of Love. This grace, so-called, therefore, assures this infinite and eternal support.

Therefore, be meticulous in acknowledging each gift, in seeing the balance which is internal to your own development and no one else’s. Thus, shall you use the illusion which makes you seem unequal, one to another. We encourage you to rejoice in this seeming inequality, for the Creator so rejoices. You are the glory which the Creator could only realize by reflection, you are the manifest of that which is and always shall be unmanifest. And while you are manifest, you are not only Creator and co-Creator, but also creation, and the Creator finds you lovely. We ask you, my friends, to allow all those concepts which you may be learning to become seated in your consciousness by the process and discipline of regular meditation. We encourage the daily meditation, for seeking within without words is analogous to returning once again to the truth that all men and women are created equal, for you move into that portion of your being which is co-equal not only with your brothers and sisters, but with the Creator. And it is in this portion of your being that learning shall be seated, or it shall be lost. That which skips along the top of the water does not influence the deep. Let that which you are learning sink, as the stone shall do when it ceases its headlong flight across the top of the waves.

Q’uo continued by saying be meticulous in acknowledging each gift, in seeing the balance which is internal to your development and no one else’s, and you shall use the illusion which makes you seem unequal, one to another, so we encourage you to rejoice in this seeming inequality, for the Creator so rejoices, and you are the glory which the Creator could only realize by reflection, and you are the manifestation of that which shall always be unmanifest, but while you are manifest, you are not only Creator and co-Creator, but also creation, and the Creator finds you lovely, yet we ask you to allow those concepts which you may be learning to become seated in your consciousness by the discipline of regular meditation, for seeking within without words is analogous to returning to the truth that all men and women are created equal, for you move into that portion of your being which is co-equal not only with your brothers and sisters, but with the Creator, and it is in this portion of your being that learning shall be seated, or it shall be lost, for that which skips along the top of the water does not influence the deep, so let that which you are learning sink, as the stone shall do when it ceases its headlong flight across the top of the waves. On January 11, 1987, Q’uo spoke of the value of regular meditation:

Thus, it becomes necessary at some point for the seeker to choose the manner by which it will view those experiences of which it finds itself a part. These perceptions, then, have the power to transform experience. This is why the messages which we and others of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Creator offer always stress the benefit and necessity of regular meditation in order that the nature of the illusion in which each finds itself moving might be made more clear and coherent to the inner eye, and thus be seen as the infinite manifestation of one Being, the one Creator.

I am Q’uo. We would like to experiment with moving this channel in order that we may answer some questions, if there are any this evening. Therefore, we shall transfer this contact at this time, thanking each of you again for requesting this particular vibration and thanking this instrument for its service. We shall transfer. I am Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo and greet you once again in Love and in Light. We are pleased to have been able to make contact with this instrument and would at this time ask if we may be of further service to this group this evening by attempting to answer queries which those present may find value in the asking. May we begin with a query?

Carla: Q’uo, you feel like a fifth-density contact. Are you?

I am Q’uo, and this is correct, my sister. May we answer further?

Carla: Not unless you have anything that you wish to say about yourself—or yourselves.

I am Q’uo, and we have little to offer as biographical information, as you would term it, for we are as you are, that which is and that which seeks the One Creator.

May we answer another query?

L: What can you tell me about an event in our history known as the French Revolution?

I am Q’uo, and we would need to move with this instrument to deeper levels of its consciousness in order to speak in any detailed fashion concerning the event that you have called the French Revolution, for we are not historians and do not study this facet of your planet’s history, as you call it. And in order to move beyond our abilities and desires to be of service in those ways which are ours to offer, we would need to be able to transmit information which was totally unfamiliar to this instrument.

That which is of the philosophical distortion, shall we say, is that which we are most able to offer, for the philosophy of one’s existence and the attitude concerning the meaning in one’s life pattern and life in general is that common factor which binds all who seek what you have called the truth. Therefore, we may speak upon this topic with far less difficulty than we would encounter should we move beyond these limits. Is there some particular aspect of this event which you have called the French Revolution that we may speak upon, for, as you are aware, it is an event with many, many facets and to speak in even the most general of terms would be a great distortion of any one facet?

L: I think at this time I would prefer to withdraw the question. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother, for your understanding and acceptance of our obvious limitations.

May we attempt any other query?

Carla: I would like to take up L’s question and work with it a little bit because I think there may be something of substance which you could answer. So, what I’ll do is guess at the direction that he was going, supply you with some background and then ask a question that is philosophical, if that is acceptable to you?

I am Q’uo. We are quite pleased to attempt our service in this manner.

Carla: About the middle of the eighteenth century, Europe rather exploded with revolutions having to do with freedom. Middle European nations and—I suppose England actually started it all in 1660 to 1680 with a civil revolution. It didn’t work out, but it started things off. In the later 1700’s America declared its independence and its freedom, and the idea of liberty and freedom really took hold in people’s hearts. And when this came to France, it was in the 1790’s, and it was a rather bloody rendition of revolt, as I suppose revolutions tend to be, but there was a particularly nasty cast to this one—people got beheaded instead of merely having to go back to the old home countries. Nevertheless, the goals were liberty, equality, fraternity, and it has often been surmised and has been stated by some Confederation members that some within the American revolutionary movement were very, very wise souls who had no home contact with Earth. This was not their home planet. They came here as wanderers. Jefferson, for instance, was one who was a wanderer, and who came here in order to aid the entities of this particular part of the planet in affecting a transformation of thought. The same could be said—the same could be surmised—of some entities within the French revolutionary movement, and certainly the goals were laudable.

The philosophical question is: There seems to be an interweaving of souls not of this planet who come to share an increased radiance of spirit with those who may still be sleeping and who will waken to a brighter beacon. I feel that wanderers have a far more organic tie with their adopted planets than is usually thought. In other words, that wanderers to this planet take from it as well as give to it. And I wondered if you would like to comment upon the intertwining of energies of wanderers and those who are native or at least have spent many, many incarnations on this particular planet which we call Earth?

I am Q’uo, and we thank you for the opportunity to speak upon this topic, for it is one which is central to the lessons and purposes which each entity upon your planet’s surface has incarnated to learn and to offer. The population of this planetary influence, being a third-density population, is one which attempts to learn the lessons of what may in general be called Love. There is no better word in your language, yet it falls short. This lesson, as it makes itself apparent to those attempting to learn it, manifests in differing degrees and through various stages that one may liken to the growth of the tree which produces a fruit, and may also be likened within each human entity to the movement of Light to higher and higher centers of energy within the mind/body/spirit complex.

Thus, there is a season when the gardener, shall we say, may do its work, and a season when the natural evolution of the tree may take its course. Those you have called wanderers, then, have incarnated in various periods of your planet’s historical past in order to aid the overall growth of the tree of mind, or of your planet’s population, as it has proceeded through those stages of growth which precede that aspect of Love which may be seen as manifesting in the form of the ideals of liberty and freedom and equality.

We must pause.

We shall continue. This instrument was concerned that its contact with the one known as Carla was incomplete. To continue. As the entities which comprise your population have moved through the understanding of a racial …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we shall continue.

As then, your planetary population has moved through the identification with groups and the giving and taking of energies between groups and has evolved in the individual sense, as well to the appreciation of the ability to express one’s own thoughts and actions without restriction, then this becomes the signal to those that you have called wanderers that there is the need and the call for assistance in aiding those who have begun to appreciate the individual expression and who now are in need of finding within their being the ability to allow that expression within others as well.

Carla asked: “There seems to be an interweaving of souls not of this planet who come to share an increased radiance of spirit with those who may still be sleeping and who will waken to a brighter beacon. I feel that wanderers have a far more organic tie with their adopted planets than is usually thought. In other words, that wanderers to this planet take from it as well as give to it. And I wondered if you would like to comment upon the intertwining of energies of wanderers and those who are native or at least have spent many, many incarnations on this particular planet which we call Earth?” Q’uo replied we thank you for the opportunity to speak upon this topic, for it is one which is central to the lessons which each entity upon your planet’s surface has incarnated to learn and to offer, and the population of this planet, being a third-density population, is one which attempts to learn the lessons of Love, for there is no better word in your language, so this lesson, as it makes itself apparent to those attempting to learn it, manifests in differing degrees that one may liken to each human entity and to the movement of Light to higher centers of energy within the mind/body/spirit complex. Q’uo went on to say there is a season when the gardener may do its work, and a season when the natural evolution of the tree may take its course, and wanderers have incarnated in various periods of your planet’s past in order to aid the overall growth of the tree of mind, and your planet’s population, as it has proceeded through those stages of growth which precede that aspect of Love which may be seen as manifesting in the form of the ideals of freedom and equality, so as your planetary population has moved through the identification with groups and the giving and taking of energies between groups, and has evolved in the individual sense, as well to the appreciation of the ability to express one’s own thoughts and actions without restriction, this becomes the signal to those wanderers that there is the call for assistance in aiding those who have begun to appreciate the individual expression, and who now are in need of finding within their being the ability to allow that expression within others as well. In 12.26, Ra spoke of who wanderers are:

Questioner: Thank you. Well, you spoke of wanderers. Who are wanderers? Where do they come from?

I am Ra. Imagine, if you will, the sands of your shores. As countless as the grains of sand are the sources of intelligent infinity.

When a social memory complex has achieved its complete understanding of its desire, it may conclude that its desire is service to others with the distortion towards reaching their hand, figuratively, to any entities who call for aid. These entities, whom you may call the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow, move towards this calling of sorrow. These entities are from all reaches of the infinite creation and are bound together by the desire to serve in this distortion.

As the energies of the Light move through the lower three energy centers and begin to approach the heart energy center or chakra, and that which is known as Love or compassion begins to be activated within the individual and group consciousness, the ideals of liberty and equality then become paramount in a form which begins in a distorted fashion, for those who have long labored under the bonds of some form of slavery or have found themselves in a service to others which was not chosen but which was, shall we say, dictated to them. The desire for freedom and equality bursts forth in a fashion which first is quite gross and unrefined in its nature. Thus, the various tendencies towards retribution in the form of revolution begin to develop, and within this framework of transformational change that is somewhat of a chaotic nature, then those gardeners, or shepherds, shall we say, that you have called the wanderers move in order to lend their assistance in a fashion which does not infringe upon the free will of those whom they have come to serve. Thus, the incarnational entrance into your illusion is chosen in order that only the bias to serve be remembered, and thus the service is offered as an equal to those who call for it. Thus, the concepts of liberty and equality are born in a season that is the result of a great span of experience of both the individual and collected consciousnesses of the peoples of your planet.

Then Q’uo said as the energies of the Light move through the lower three energy centers and begin to approach the heart chakra, and Love begins to be activated within the individual and group consciousness, and the ideals of liberty and equality become paramount in a form which begins in a distorted fashion, for those who have labored under the bonds of some form of slavery, or have found themselves in a service to others which was not chosen but which was dictated to them, so the desire for freedom and equality bursts forth in a fashion which is unrefined in its nature, for the tendencies towards retribution in the form of revolution begin to develop, and within this framework of transformational change that is somewhat of a chaotic nature, then those gardeners called wanderers move in order to lend their assistance in a fashion which does not infringe upon the free will of those whom they have come to serve, for the incarnational entrance into your illusion is chosen in order that only the bias to serve be remembered, and the service is offered as to those who call for it, and the concepts of liberty and equality are born in a season that is the result of a great span of experience of both the individual and collective consciousnesses of the people of your planet. On November 14, 1993, Q’uo spoke of the nature of liberty:

May we say that to each of you the moment when you are one with the work, or, to put it another way, when there is a feeling of complete freedom when doing that activity you hope will serve, then shall you be able, not to pat the self upon the back, but to turn and give thanks, for the feeling of complete liberty is at the heart of the state of mind which does often signify service well done.

May we answer in any further way, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: I’ll ask one more and then shut up. What is the nature of infatuation, compared especially with love? And what is its function?

I am Q’uo. We find that this concept which you have called infatuation is the mental and emotional analog to the natural attraction of oppositely polarized biological sexes. This may be likened unto the magnet and the iron filing. There is no thinking required to bring the two together. Thus, when an entity notices an attraction to one of the opposite biological sexual nature, the entity may seek further contact in order that the attraction may be explored. When further contact reinforces the initial attraction, then the mind and the emotions begin the processing of this catalyst and the beginning of what may later develop into that which you recognize as love is at hand.

The so-called infatuation period, then, serves the purpose of drawing entities of similar vibratory complexes together in order that they may proceed upon the evolutionary path in a manner which is efficient and appropriate to each, that is, in the utilizing of the daily round of activities as catalyst, that when pondered to a sufficient degree allows experience to be born and recorded within the significant portions of the self. Thus, does the infatuation propel or, more correctly, provide the potential for the entities to propel themselves further along the path which each has chosen before the incarnation.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: The portion of the question left unanswered, perhaps deliberately, was, “What is its relationship emotionally to the human emotion that we call love?” Although I understand that the creative principle Love is not what we mean by the kind of love that people have in their eyes on their fiftieth anniversary. That’s the emotion that I’m talking about.

I am Q’uo, and we see here a paradox, my sister, for in one way of looking upon infatuation, it is a pure form of Love, for it accepts totally another without condition. The other at this point in the relationship is so desirable that the one feeling the infatuation will, shall we say, go to any length to please the one with whom the infatuation is felt. All of the self and the attention of the self is given without reservation in order that the feeling of infatuation may continue. Thus, in this sense, the period of infatuation is a pure form of Love—pure, however, in the sense that it has not been tested. It, as yet, lacks the depth of experience.

When the two who have become infatuated continue the relationship and begin the processing of the catalyst which is inevitable within any life pattern, the opportunities then arise for the love to gain in strength and depth and richness and purity, for there will be many, many times in the processing of catalyst that one or the other or both entities will feel less than acceptance for the other and will need to find within the self the ability to accept that which was previously not acceptable; to forgive that within self and other self that which was unforgivable; to have compassion for that which held little interest, or perhaps even dislike.

Thus, the lessons of love and acceptance make themselves known within the relationship born of infatuation and with the faith that the relationship will endure and that meaning may be found for both within it and the will to persevere in finding that meaning and growth. Thus, does each entity grow in acceptance and in Love, and thus does the relationship do likewise, and thus is Love strengthened by testing through catalyst that each brings to the relationship. Thus, the love which results is a Love which has greater strength and depth and variety of experience, shall we say.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Questioner: Yes. You’ve basically covered this, so please answer briefly, but you seemingly place more importance upon the broader definition of Love which is compassion, as I understand that as acceptance of people and situations and self as they are, and allowing them room to grow in their own way. So, for an entity who is attempting to develop love as we know it, probably the most expeditious way for them to do this would be for them to work on acceptance of others and themselves. And I know this is not—This is something that I believe I know, but could you give a simple yes or no, if that would suffice?

I am Q’uo. This is basically correct, my brother, for within your illusion of seeming separateness and limitation there is much which offers the challenge to be accepted, much which seems traumatic, tragic, and filled with sorrow, distaste, horror, anger, jealousy, and so forth. Yet, each entity and event is the Creator, knowing Itself in a way mysterious to most. Yet, each in any portion of the experience may increase its evolutionary progress by finding the joy, the Love, and the Light of the Creator within that person, that moment, that event, that thought. When this can be done in a relationship, then the relationship has served as the means by which the continuing ability to expand the point of view and the acceptance, the Love, and the compassion for that which falls within the point of view then is also increased, and the entity has moved itself further along its chosen path of evolution.

May we answer further, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you. You answered that quite sufficiently. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and we find that we have exhausted those queries which have been offered to us this evening, and for each query we are most grateful, for in our attempt to answer your heartfelt questions, we find further ways to know and to serve the Creator in all. We are humbly grateful for this opportunity, and we would remind each present that we are those who seek as you seek, fallible in many ways. Take those words and thoughts which have meaning to you and leave those which do not. Thus, would we offer that which we have found helpful in our seeking to you in your seeking.

We shall take our leave of this group at this time, thanking each again for allowing our presence. We leave you in the Love and in the Light of the One Creator. We are known to you as Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

(Carla channeling)

I am Nona. We thank you for requesting healing, and we greet you in the Love and the Light of the Infinite Creator.

[Lovely vocal healing melody channeled by Carla from Nona.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “There is a secret about forgiveness: there is not anything or anybody that can forgive us. Therefore, there is not any possibility of our ever being forgiven except under one condition, and that is when there is no possibility of the offence being repeated. In other words, no matter what the offense may have been, as long as there is the potentiality within us of its being repeated, we are not wholly forgiven.

Just let us suppose for a moment that we could carry on a conversation with God about our faults. We confess our faults. We confess our faults, and we seek forgiveness, and to all this God says, “What forgiveness, to do it all over again?”

“Oh, no, God, it will never happen again. It couldn’t happen again. I’ve realized the wrongness of it.”

At the moment, we actually believe that, but let us not forget that God, being God, sees right through to the center of our heart and knows that the same thing that made us guilty of this act once could make us do it again if similar circumstances arose. And so, in God’s omniscience, God says, “Ah, it’s still there. There is still a block within you, and you will continue to be under the penalty of it until you are completely purged of it.”

And so, we go our way and ponder this response from God. We meditate and look at the situation upside down and from every angle until all of a sudden we do catch a clear picture not only of the wrongness of what has been done but of the truth that only the state of consciousness that made us commit this offense in the first place could make us do it a second time, and if we find that that state of consciousness does not exist anymore, we have then “died” and have been reborn of the Spirit. Then we can go back again and ask for forgiveness.

This time, God says, “I don’t even know who you are any more. I don’t see anything wrong in you to forgive.”

That is the true idea of forgiveness. When the state of consciousness that could be guilty of resentment, anger, jealousy malice, or whatever it may have been “dies,” there not only is nothing to forgive, and nobody to forgive, there is not even a remembrance of a memory, not even a “smell of smoke.”

It is pure fiction to believe in some God in heaven who is going to look down and begin all over again? The Master had a sharp answer for that, “lest a worse thing come unto thee.” He did not preach a God who permits us to go on our way sinning with impunity and then reassures us with a gentle “I forgive you.”

Every time we come to a place in our consciousness where we actually give up our errors of thought and deed and confess—not necessarily outwardly but inwardly—to our errors of omission or commission and feel that deep sense of contrition in which we know it cannot happen again, we are washed white as snow. We are never held in bondage to anything once we have recognized it as error and have forsaken it. Every time that we come to a place of inner grief over our errors, we are forgiven. That ends the episode, but it carries with it the command, “Sin no more lest a worse thing come unto thee.”

There is really no such thing as one person forgiving another or God forgiving us: there is only a “dying daily” to the state of consciousness that accepted good and evil and acted from that premise, and when that consciousness has been purged or is thoroughly “dead” we come to a place of Self-completeness in God, where we know, “I and God are one, and all that God has is mine. I am a child of God, an heir to God and joint-heir with Christ in God.”

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at The Home Depot to buy some netting. My second stop was at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some kitten food and some cat food. My third stop was at Kroeger’s where I bought some food for myself. My fourth stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought more food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Dug Store where I dropped off a prescription to be refilled and bought some Kleenexes and more food for myself.

This afternoon I went outside and used Huff and Puff to blow the leaves under the giant Sycamore tree into a pile, and then I put the leaves into a garbage can. Then I used Venus to cut the grass in the side yard, the front yard, and the back yard. Then I used the garden hose and sprayer to clean Venus. Then I used Huff and Puff to blow Venus dry.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 25

Life Within Each Cell

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

The answer to many riddles lies beneath the surface of stone and earth and all things which seem hard, uninteresting and mundane. The life within the stone and the earth and all things is an eternal part of the Spirit of living Love and exists in an eternal fashion.

The life within each cell of the physical body rests in eternal life also, so that far from being a creature of darkness, the living body dwells in eternity as it dwells within the Earth sphere.

Open the thought about the body to the knowledge that it is instinct with the Holy Spirit of the living God and call upon the eternal life and health of each cell. Then you may feel the excitement of the cells of the body receiving permission to be what each cell truly is: a perfect representation of Love.

We leave you in the peace of that Love, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from June 29, 1986:

Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn, and I greet you, my friends in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. It is a great privilege and pleasure to mingle our energies with yours at this time, and we would greet especially the one known as L, as this entity has not sat in physical proximity with this group for some time. We send Love and blessings to each of you and are most grateful to be able to share our humble thoughts with you. The evening that spreads about you at this gentle, quiet moment glistens with beauty and throbs with the heartbeat of many lives as we experience it through the ears of this channel. We find it to be most wonderful, and we thank you also for this experience.

We would share some thoughts with you this evening upon the subject of freedom. Freedom is very much in each entity’s consciousness at this particular moment in your solar year. Amongst you who call yourself Americans, you celebrate your independence and your freedom, the freedom that has been defined as “the pursuit of happiness.” Indeed, my friends, the nature of freedom in third density is in large part social. We would emphasize that this is true in more and more full a measure as your cycle draws near to harvest. How is this so? It would seem upon the surface of it that the nature of freedom is intensely personal and individual. One’s inner freedom is to make one’s own choices of thoughts and ideas, to choose the manner of one’s agenda of living, and in all ways to pursue what shall enlarge happiness. And yet we would suggest to you that the deeper nature of freedom is no such thing. You have heard countless times that the Creator manifested Itself as Love—but what is Love? You know that you are in pursuit of something called truth—but what is truth? The nature of Love is such that it has created consciousness that is self-conscious. Each of you is Love, thus each of you is the Creator. As the Creator is Love, so therefore are you Love. How then, we ask, does love seek truth?

Love chooses betwixt Love of self and Love of other self. We speak to those who are upon the path in which Love is manifested as Love of self and other self as self. If that were a mathematical equation, all the selves would be struck out and what you would have left with is the equation: service to others’ self is Love manifested towards other selves. We ask that you ponder this not once, but many times, for the truth in this statement is not immediately apparent. In no way do we suggest a lack of Love for self; we suggest only that other selves are loved as the self. And what does this have to do with freedom?

In this session Hatonn spoke of the concept of freedom. They began by saying we would share some thoughts with you this evening upon the subject of freedom, for freedom is in each entity’s consciousness at this moment in your solar year, and among you who call yourself Americans, you celebrate your freedom, the freedom that has been defined as “the pursuit of happiness,” and the nature of freedom in third density is in large part social, so we would emphasize that this is true in a full measure as your cycle draws near to harvest, but it would seem upon the surface that the nature of freedom is personal, for one’s inner freedom is to make one’s choices of thoughts, and to pursue what shall enlarge happiness, yet we would suggest to you that the deeper nature of freedom is no such thing, so you have heard that the Creator manifested Itself as Love, but: “What is Love? You know that you are in pursuit of something called truth, but what is truth? The nature of Love is such that it has created consciousness that is self-conscious. Each of you is Love, thus each of you is the Creator. As the Creator is Love, so therefore are you Love. How then, we ask, does Love seek truth?” Hatonn continued by saying Love chooses betwixt Love of self and Love of other self, and we speak to those who are upon the path in which Love is manifested as Love of self and other self as self, so if that were a mathematical equation, all the selves would be struck out, and what you would have left is the equation: service to others’ self is Love manifested towards other selves, but we ask that you ponder this many times, for the truth in this statement is not immediately apparent, yet in no way do we suggest a lack of Love for self, but we suggest that other selves are Loved as the self, and what does this have to do with freedom? On May 16, 1993, Latwii spoke of the concept of freedom:

The concept of allowing the self to move along the path of evolution in a free and open manner is a concept which has meaning to an entity which works with the blue-ray energy center of the throat. Such a configuration of energy is then experienced by the seeker in a manner which promotes the clear communication of the self with the self and with other selves, accepting the self and other selves, and freely expressing the self to all which surround the self. In this manner, the giving of freedom and acceptance to others springs from the giving of freedom and acceptance to the self, for you are also a mirror and reflect that which is your being to those about you.

Therefore, as you seek to move freely along your path of evolution, you shall also give that freedom to others and shall inspire such freedom to those who come in contact with you. It is therefore helpful to consider the deeper ramifications and implications of such a message as you meditate upon it that you might continually refine that journey that lies before you and which you have long traveled, making refinement upon refinement. And as you continue upon this journey, you shall find those messages arising from within your deeper self to be more and more frequent, more and more clearly perceived.

You are given freedom in totality. There is no holding back upon the part of the Creator; there are no hidden loopholes or clauses. You are free. You are free to do nothing. You are free to work diligently upon a personal agenda which has no contact with other selves. You are free to create a rigid agenda in which things for the self and things for the other self are compartmented. You are free to throw yourself into service of other selves at every available opportunity, whether service is requested or not. And finally, you are free to leave yourself open to the potential for the opportunity of being of service to others whenever that opportunity is offered. We have found the more virtue in the latter course, and this brings us to freedom.

For what we are suggesting may seem upon the surface many times to smack not of freedom, but of slavery. Let us observe slavery among your people. There is no time, as you call it, in the history that you know in which humans have not been slaves. There is a reason for that and that is this. To some, happiness—that happiness which is the manifestation of freedom—lies in seeing a loved one happy, in tending a loved one’s hurts, in tending and encouraging a loved one in distress. Many are those even now who are in actuality slaves against their will. This is not that of which we speak. We speak of those who Love their masters and who are Loved in return and who, therefore, find happiness in service. Were slavery uniformly disagreeable to all, it would be attempted unceasingly, but it would be found to be counterproductive. It is those happy combinations which insure that slavery, whether traditional or untraditional, as in some marriage relationships, endures.

Then Hatonn said you are given freedom in totality, and there is no holding back upon the part of the Creator, and you are free to do nothing, or you are free to work upon a personal agenda which has no contact with other selves, or you are free to create a rigid agenda in which things for the self and things for the other self are compartmented, or you are free to throw yourself into service of other selves at every available opportunity, whether service is requested or not, and you are free to leave yourself open to the potential for the opportunity of being of service to others whenever that opportunity is offered, so we have found more virtue in the latter course, and this brings us to freedom. Hatonn said what we are suggesting may seem upon the surface to speak not of freedom, but of slavery, so let us observe slavery among your people, for there is no time in which humans have not been slaves, and the reason for that is to some is that happiness, which is the manifestation of freedom, lies in seeing a loved one happy and in encouraging a loved one in distress, for many are slaves against their will, but we speak of those who Love their masters, and who are Loved in return, and who find happiness in service, so were slavery disagreeable to all, it would be attempted unceasingly, but it would be found to be counterproductive, for it is those happy combinations which insure that slavery, whether traditional or untraditional, as in some marriage relationships, endures. On July 6, 1986, Q’uo described the nature of slavery today:

As the energies of the Light move through the lower three energy centers and begin to approach the heart energy center or chakra, and that which is known as Love or compassion begins to be activated within the individual and group consciousness, the ideals of liberty and equality then become paramount in a form which begins in a distorted fashion, for those who have long labored under the bonds of some form of slavery or have found themselves in a service to others which was not chosen but which was, shall we say, dictated to them. The desire for freedom and equality bursts forth in a fashion which first is quite gross and unrefined in its nature. Thus, the various tendencies towards retribution in the form of revolution begin to develop, and within this framework of transformational change that is somewhat of a chaotic nature, then those gardeners, or shepherds, shall we say, that you have called the wanderers move in order to lend their assistance in a fashion which does not infringe upon the free will of those whom they have come to serve.

Thus, the incarnational entrance into your illusion is chosen in order that only the bias to serve be remembered, and thus the service is offered as an equal to those who call for it. Thus, the concepts of liberty and equality are born in a season that is the result of a great span of experience of both the individual and collected consciousnesses of the people of your planet.

Now we are not suggesting that you choose a master and become a slave. Indeed, the scope is somewhat small in that suggestion, although it is not that learning and growth in the metaphysical sense would not be possible in this configuration of personalities. Rather, we are suggesting that freedom lies in the concept of oneself as a manifester of servanthood to any and all who cross the path. Circumstances cannot be predicted by most among your peoples, and there are many surprises that await you, many unbidden and hitherto unheard of possibilities for service, and we would encourage you in this context to think of service in terms of slavery, for one of the great paradoxes of the spiritual search is that freedom and that service which approaches what you call slavery are both paradoxical and synonymous, for the totally dedicated entity, having heard the call to seek the truth, moves forth upon the path without looking back, and whatever the circumstances, looks for the opportunity to hear a call for help. When such an opportunity is perceived, it is then that the seeker offers itself in service, not condescendingly or patronizingly but as servant to all. And if all are servants to all, then where shall be contention? And if all serve all, where is slavery?

The concept of service carries with it a semantic burden, a connotation of unhappiness or degradation of self. We ask you to consider the possibility that slavery, surrounded and infused with joy, is perfect freedom. Service by itself shall always be a duty and shall not feel like freedom at all. Yes, you may learn many, many lessons without joy. It is the willing openness to the finding of peace and joy in the concept of the self as a servant which opens one to a freedom beyond that of human freedom. For in human freedom, you attempt to please yourself and gain happiness, and yet the happiness is caught up entirely in the pursuit and the goal is never truly attained. Not for those upon the path of service to others, and we again emphasize we are speaking to that group and not to those who follow the service-to-self path, against which we say nothing except that we are not those upon that path and do not presume to teach upon that path.

Now Hatonn said we are not suggesting that you choose a master and become a slave since the scope is small in that suggestion, although it is not that learning and growth in the metaphysical sense would not be possible in this configuration of personalities, but we are suggesting that freedom lies in the concept of oneself as a manifester of servanthood to any and all who cross the path, yet circumstances cannot be predicted by most of your people, and there are many unheard of possibilities for service, and we would encourage you in this context to think of service in terms of slavery, for one of the paradoxes of the spiritual search is that freedom and that service which approaches slavery are both paradoxical and synonymous, for the totally dedicated entity, having heard the call to seek the truth, moves forth upon the path without looking back, and whatever the circumstances, looks for the opportunity to hear a call for help, and when such an opportunity is perceived, then the seeker offers itself in service, as a servant to all, and if all serve all, where is slavery? Now Hatonn said the concept of service carries with it a connotation of unhappiness of the self, so we ask you to consider the possibility that slavery, surrounded and infused with joy, is perfect freedom, for service shall always be a duty and shall not feel like freedom at all, for you may learn many lessons without joy, so it is the willing openness to finding peace and joy in the concept of the self as a servant which opens one to a freedom beyond that of human freedom, for in human freedom you attempt to please yourself and gain happiness, yet the happiness is caught up in the pursuit, and the goal is never attained, but not for those upon the path of service to others, and we again emphasize we are speaking to that group and not to those who follow the service-to-self path. On February 7, 1993, Q’uo spoke about the nature of freedom:

We would ask each to reflect upon freedom, the freedom of the self, and attempt to see where this freedom comes from. If one is free in a chaotic way, one will either be random or somewhat destructive, than somewhat positive. However, if a deeper singularity of self is sought, a deeper connection with unity, then many puzzle pieces which are not relevant to your decision-making can fall away, and the true nature of the decision lies then uncovered in far more simplicity. The connection between freedom and the basic decision of serving the infinite One shall give your heart a strong structure and the best possible way to seek the understanding to move forward in support of your own spiritual evolution. Because this is far from obvious, we simply wish to emphasize this consideration.

We ask you to glance back over your life experiences within this incarnation and look at the fruits of the seeking of personal happiness as “master of your fate and captain of your ship.” We suggest that some of these fruits may include anger, frustration, jealousy, licentiousness, quarrelsomeness and dejection. We ask you now to consider the many times each of you has, indeed, sacrificed the self seemingly as servant of another when that other was in need. Remember doing all that you could and more, and feel again the peace that comes from knowing that you have done all that you can and that you shall continue and the joy that comes when in any small thing another self turns to you and says, “Truly I have asked you and truly you have served.” And so, the fruits of service to others, though challenging to accomplish, are joy and peace that no one can take from you unless you take them from yourself, for you only can undo the work that you have done within yourself. And on that point, we would admonish you not to judge yourself when you have served to the best of your ability. If you feel you could have done better, remember you have done all that you can and be again at peace and allow joy to enter your being.

Spiritual peace is a terrible thing in the parlance of what you might call your culture, the ethos into which you were born, for it is a peace that comes from having exhausted oneself in an effort to serve others and setting again one’s foot on the path, looking again for the next opportunity to serve, wherever it may be. Thus, one is at peace without having a spiritual contentment, shall we say, for you do not have a spiritual resting place in the sense that your body has a domicile. You are on a path. That path will continue, and you will be where you were not, and you will never be where you are now again. This is not so of those who do not attempt to become servants of others. The inner life for those who sleep is as stable as the outer, and a peace bound up in quiet dreaming is most glamorous and may take up an entire incarnation with no problem whatsoever for those who have not yet found the spark that sets them upon the path.

Hatonn continued by saying we ask you to glance back over your life experiences within this incarnation and look at the fruits of the seeking of personal happiness as the “master of your fate and captain of your ship,” and we suggest that some of these fruits may include anger, jealousy, and dejection, and we ask you to consider the many times each of you has sacrificed the self as servant of another when that other was in need, so remember doing all that you could and more, and feel the peace that comes from knowing that you have done all that you can, and that you shall continue and feel the joy that comes when another self turns to you and says, “Truly I have asked you, and truly you have served,” so the fruits of service to others, though challenging to accomplish, are joy and peace that no one can take from you unless you take them from yourself, for you only can undo the work that you have done within yourself, and we would suggest that you not judge yourself when you have served to the best of your ability, so if you feel you could have done better, remember you have done all that you can and be again at peace and allow joy to enter your being. Hatonn went on to say spiritual peace is a terrible thing in the language of your culture, for it is a peace that comes from having exhausted oneself in an effort to serve others and setting one’s foot on the path, looking for the next opportunity to serve, for one is at peace without having a spiritual contentment for you do not have a spiritual resting place in the sense that your body has a domicile since you are on a path that will continue, and you will be where you were not, and you will never be where you are now again, but this is not so of those who do not attempt to become servants of others because the inner life for those who sleep is as stable as the outer, and a peace bound up in quiet dreaming is most glamorous and may take up an entire incarnation with no problem whatsoever for those who have not found the spark that sets them upon the path. On November 5, 2021, Q’uo spoke of the nature of spiritual peace:

There is a dance that the entities who come to the theater to view such a performance are experiencing; they are watching a dance within the dance of their own life. And then, there is the greater universal dance going on all around them as well. In this way, we may point out that all levels of this dance are a thing of beauty, a thing of purpose, a thing of Love, in which, it is both an honor and a duty to experience and which leads to that ultimate place of growth, which we call, reconciliation, where all is reconciled, where there is a kind of spiritual peace that, through the activity and the beauty of the dance, each entity resolves, feels, and understands all parts of the experience that have contributed to the rising up of the entity through octave after octave of experience.

Spiritual joy can be a frightening thing, for it is a joy which has its roots in a Love that is mysterious, for it is the manifestation of a sense of the Creator which is mysterious. You may experience joy, but it is an unknown joy, an unspeakable joy, a happiness which is both silent and creative. In this regard we encourage you to remember that anything at which you look is not only the Creator but is also less than the Creator. We are fond of paradoxes, are we not? Let us clarify. The Creator is not only each tree, each stone, each bird, and each conscious entity. It is also the mystery that created these things. It is the invisible, the infinite. Why does it say in your holy works that the trees clap their hands and the mountains dance like rams? Does the Creator play so? You may look at it that way, but it is also possible to recognize the signs of worship and praise of a Creator that infuses all with ove and joy.

My friends, you are far more complex than trees and hills, and within yourselves you have many, many beings interpenetrating each other, communicating with each other, and forming one whole and conscious hologram of the Creator. And yet there is also that mystery which you seek that is beyond and within your consciousness. As you approach what you call your Independence Day, we ask you to gaze many times at the concept of freedom, for there are many metaphysical systems which indulge in a hedonism that suggests that the Creator shall be used as a panacea to achieve happiness, prosperity, health, and all manner of positive and comfortable things. We suggest to you that true happiness is often quite uncomfortable and yet so exhilarating that once having been experienced, it shall be the way you seek to manifest Love. Love one another, my friends. Serve one another. And find your freedom, your joy, and your peace. We ask your pardon for causing what we so enjoy, the sensations of third-density incarnation. You are so rich, my friends. Feel it. Such a wealth of things to hear, and see, and taste, and smell, and feel and all things servants to you, there for your learning, your contemplation and your discretion. Open, then, the doors of your heart and Love each other, and you will find yourself loving all manner of things and finding the life that you serve in every blade of grass.

Hatonn said spiritual joy can be a frightening thing, for it is a joy which has its roots in a Love that is mysterious, and it is the manifestation of a sense of the Creator which is mysterious, so you may experience joy, but it is an unknown joy, an unspeakable joy, a happiness which is both silent and creative, and in this regard we encourage you to remember that anything at which you look is not only the Creator but is also less than the Creator, for the Creator is not only each tree, each stone, each bird, and each conscious entity, but it is also the mystery that created these things, for It is the invisible, the infinite, so: “Why does it say in your Bible that the trees clap their hands and the mountains dance like rams? Does the Creator play so?” Then Hatonn said you may look at it that way, but it is also possible to recognize the signs of worship and praise of a Creator that infuses all with Love and joy. Hatonn continued by saying you are more complex than trees and hills, and within yourselves you have many beings communicating with each other, and forming one conscious hologram of the Creator, yet there is also that mystery which you seek that is beyond and within your consciousness, so as you approach Independence Day, we ask you to gaze at the concept of freedom, for there are many metaphysical systems which indulge in hedonism that suggests that the Creator shall be used as a panacea to achieve happiness and all manner of positive and comfortable things, but we suggest to you that happiness is uncomfortable and yet so exhilarating that once having been experienced, it shall be the way you seek to manifest Love, so Love and serve one another and find your freedom, your joy, and your peace, for all things are servants to you, there for your learning, so open the doors of your heart and Love each other, and you will find yourself loving all manner of things and finding the life that you serve in every blade of grass. On April 29, 1990, Q’uo said that we should Love each other:

And we say to each who may wish to walk with others in the service of the one infinite Creator, Love each other unconditionally; bide your words, bate your tongue, hold and release your judgments. Is not each attempting the very most it can attempt already? Have you not faith in each other to this extent, that you have faith each is attempting the impossible? You know it is impossible to act ideally in this illusion. The illusion is what you see. The illusion is what will form your actions, and they will be relative, not absolute. Again and again you yourselves shall perceive yourselves in error. Is it so strange you should perceive error in others also? But if you wish to work for Love, if you wish to serve in Love and Light, Love each other, care for each other, be for each other, advocate each other, burn with Love and passion for the portion of each that wishes to serve. Is this not beautiful? Is this not beyond the understanding?

We are known to you as Hatonn of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator. We are, if you will, your slaves for the moment, and we are filled with great joy at the thought that we could have been of some service to you at this time. We do not know what you may be able to use from what we have said, and we ask you to discard anything that is not helpful to your development at this time. We do, indeed, hope that we have been of service, but we know only this we have offered, this channel has offered, and you have offered by listening. And all have been of service, one to another. We leave you in the love and the light of perfect freedom. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We, too, are filled with joy at being able to join your group this evening, and we hope with our brothers and sisters of Hatonn that we may serve in some small way by attempting to answer those queries which each may find value in the asking. May we then without further delay begin with the first query this evening?

L: If I may be the person to read that, it would be a rather small inquiry from someone who isn’t here this evening, but is concerned about carrying on some positive work. The sale of a violin—although I know this may sound a little enigmatic, the exact wording of the question merely says, “Concerning the expediting of the sale of my violin, any suggestions?” I just would offer that in behalf of that person not here. [Inaudible] The name of the person is J.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We find in this instance an entity who has for a great period of your time attempted to be of service through those avenues which have been opened unto this entity and the construction of the instrument which has been described as the violin has been of an inspirational nature which this entity has become aware of in an increasing fashion as a result of certain discoveries or revelations, shall we say, which have made this entity likened unto an instrument itself.

Thus, as those inspirations become available to the conscious mind of this entity through its increased desire to seek the truth and to serve others, this entity shall find its own directions continuing to be placed before its inner awareness. Therefore, we find it most helpful, we feel on our part, that we speak only in these general terms and urge the entity to redouble its own desires to seek and to serve, for these motivations are the key factors that will release into this entity’s awareness those actions, thoughts and attitudes that are most appropriate in providing the service through its own instrument and those which it manifests within the…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and am again with this instrument. May we answer in any further fashion, my brother?

L: I thank you for that reply. I think that certainly covers that question. If I may, I should perhaps, if I’m able, read the one other question from this same party that is perhaps more profound, difficult, and complex to reply to. I will again read it as he wrote it so as to pass it along, and it reads as follows: “Is the technique of endocrine chakra stabilization and detoxification a suitable modality as I’ve developed it in the treatment of AIDS; if not a cure, possibly a palliative?”

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We scan the information and trace the implications and may without infringing upon the free will of this entity suggest that the technique which it has devised to treat the condition that is known among your people as AIDS as being that which is at the basic level of understanding, if you will, sound. This initial beginning is that which with further study may be refined so that the basic process of balancing the entity’s centers of energy in the fashion described may be enhanced as the patterns of behavior are themselves traced into what you would call previous incarnational patterns. Thus, the scope of treatment would include not only the current incarnation, but would stretch back, as you would say, to include patterns developed in previous experiences which are of a significant enough nature to be carried over into the current incarnation in a symbolic fashion which then, when unattended by conscious work, provides the opportunity for increased conscious effort by taking a form of a disease or disjunction which requires immediate attention.

Thus, one area which may be fruitfully investigated is the heart chakra or energy center as the entity sees itself in relation to the creation about it and more specifically as it sees itself giving and receiving Love with the mate in the relationship which endures, shall we say. The relationship of mates, as you call them, is one which provides an entity with increased and intensified opportunities to learn and to teach, to give and to receive Love. And when accomplished over a significant portion of what you would call time and experience with the dedication of each to the other to be of this service, the lessons and patterns of programs within each entity may be attempted in a manner which is far more efficient than the kind of relationships which are constantly in change and motion with little stability or dedication to service.

L asked a question for a friend: “Is the technique of endocrine chakra stabilization and detoxification a suitable modality as I’ve developed it in the treatment of AIDS; if not a cure, possibly a palliative?” Latwii replied the technique which it has devised to treat AIDS as being that which is at the basic level of understanding sound, and this beginning is that which with further study may be refined, so that the basic process of balancing the entity’s centers of energy in the fashion described may be enhanced as the patterns of behavior are traced into previous incarnational patterns, and the scope of treatment would include not only the current incarnation, but would stretch back to include patterns developed in previous experiences which are of a significant enough nature to be carried over into the current incarnation in a symbolic fashion which then, when unattended by conscious work, provides the opportunity for increased conscious effort by taking a form of a disease which requires immediate attention. Then Latwii said one area which may be investigated is the heart chakra as the entity sees itself in relation to the creation about it, and as it sees itself giving and receiving Love with the mate in the relationship which endures, the relationship of mates is one which provides an entity with increased opportunities to learn and to teach, to give and to receive Love, and when accomplished over time and experience with the dedication of each to the other to be of this service, the lessons and patterns of programs within each entity may be attempted in a manner which is more efficient than the kind of relationships which are constantly in change with little dedication to service. In 22.1, Ra spoke of Carla’s dedication to service:

This instrument has spent a lifetime in dedication to service. This has brought this instrument to this nexus in space/time with the conscious and unconscious distortion towards service, with the further conscious distortion towards service by communication. Each time, as you would put it, that we perform this working our social-memory-complex-vibrational distortion meshes more firmly with this instrument’s unconscious distortions towards service. Thus, we are becoming a part of this instrument’s vibratory complex and it a part of ours. This occurs upon the unconscious level, the level whereby the mind has gone down through to the roots of consciousness which you may call cosmic.

May we answer further, my brother?

L: Thank you. I think that is a very positive beginning on that question. I don’t know what further to ask about it, it really is for another person, and I’m glad for the reply that is provided as we have.

I am Latwii, and we thank you and your friend. Is there another query?

Carla: I have a question that may seem to be whimsical, but it’s not, because I don’t, spiritually speaking or metaphysically speaking, believe in coincidence. I’ve noticed for a long time that the word AIDS means “helps” in English, not as an acronym but as a word. Could you speak to the subject of how AIDS is an aid to spiritual growth?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We may suggest that as with any disease, as you call these conditions, the condition of AIDS is that which focuses one’s attention upon the most salient feature, shall we say, within one’s being that is in need of the attention of the entity. When catalyst or the opportunity for growing and fulfilling those patterns designed before the incarnation by the entity has not been well used or appreciated sufficiently by the conscious mind, then that catalyst is given to the physical body in a symbolic form which then may be more successful in attracting the attention of the entity in order that its own desires to learn and to serve in such and such a fashion may be fulfilled. The physical disease, thus, is that which offers again the opportunity to accomplish certain lessons.

We may in general continue with the previous response by suggesting that one facet of the condition known as AIDS which many share, each in a unique way, is that of the fidelity, of giving and receiving Love. That is to say, it is most helpful and efficient for most upon your planet to find the mate with which to journey upon the path of seeking the truth, as you have called it. For some, this efficiency in seeking is not only appropriate, but is by their own choice and design most necessary in order to complete patterns begun in previous incarnational experiences. Thus, there are, shall we say, training devices or aids, in this particular case provided by the entities themselves, that enable a more finely focused attention upon the symbol of the lessons and services that they have programmed before the incarnation.

Carla asked: “I’ve noticed for a long time that the word AIDS means “helps” in English, not as an acronym but as a word. Could you speak to the subject of how AIDS is an aid to spiritual growth?” Latwii said we may suggest that as with any disease AIDS is that which focuses one’s attention upon the salient feature within one’s being that is in need of the attention of the entity, for when the opportunity for fulfilling those patterns designed before the incarnation by the entity has not been well used by the conscious mind, then that catalyst is given to the physical body in a symbolic form which may be more successful in attracting the attention of the entity in order that its own desires to learn and to serve in a certain fashion may be fulfilled, and the physical disease is that which offers the opportunity to accomplish certain lessons. Now Latwii said we may suggest that one facet of AIDS which many share is that of the fidelity, of giving and receiving Love, so it is helpful for most upon your planet to find the mate with which to journey upon the path of seeking the truth, for this efficiency in seeking is necessary in order to complete patterns begun in previous incarnational experiences, and there are training devices provided by the entities that enable a more focused attention upon the symbol of the lessons and services that they have programmed before the incarnation. On August 3, 1997, Q’uo described the quality of giving and receiving Love:

Thus, the consciousness that each possesses are the dynamic rules by which each may co-create the illusion in which you move, that each may co-create the experience of giving and receiving Love. These experiences are many, through many incarnations and many densities, for this creation is rich and varied and offers to each seeker the full reach of the one infinite Creator.

May we answer in any further way, my sister?

Carla: Yes, in two ways. First, I would just like to clarify what I suppose to be correct from previous questions that we have had answered in this group. Can you confirm that in many cases the mate of a male biologically will be a biological male; the mate of a biological female will be a biological female? In other words, would you confirm that you are not suggesting that only the biological males and biological females can achieve a mated relationship?

I am Latwii, and this is correct, my sister.

Carla: Okay. The other question is typical of my rather pessimistic nature, but it seemed to me when contemplating AIDS that one of the things that it might help to do is offer a very unhappy person a rather rapid way of dying. This is one of the functions of disease, not to be sentimental about it. And further, not to be sentimental, but it is absolutely appalling how many ways homosexuals are beleaguered in this culture, not just in obvious ways, but in very subtle ways having to do with upbringing and self-image. Therefore, there is many a wretched homosexual just totally caught in the toils of human opinion, and I thought perhaps that that might be one of the reasons for AIDS would be a fairly speedy delivery from such an unhappy condition that could no longer be borne, but it would be an honorable way to die. Could you either confirm or correct this possibility, this supposition?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We may suggest that the condition of AIDS is that which offers the choice. The entity may use the opportunity of the disease to discover those means by which it may find its own bearing, shall we say, with another and with that other seek in a fashion which unfolds life more abundantly as the condition is used and the catalyst is successfully processed.

There is, however, the choice of which you have spoken, and with the same opportunity the entity at some level of its being may decide to retire from this particular incarnation in order that that which has been learned may be seated within the totality of the beingness of the entity and that which has been left unlearned may be formulated in such and such a fashion so that at another time, as you would call it, another incarnation may be provided for the learning of those lessons.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

L: Well, I’m tempted to ask one that’s a sort of a difficult question, and I would be grateful for whatever reply could be given. In the fullness of my question, I think the core of it is I’d like to understand a little better what the difference is between different so-called levels of teachers. In the studies I’ve pursued, frequently a particular entity or source is referred as causal teacher or from the high Buddhic plane or providing perspective from the astral plane, and if you could, Latwii, comment upon this issue of discarnate teachers coming from different planes, perhaps giving an example of one from one or the other plane or what is meant by these planes and distinguishing the teaching thereby? I could try to make the question clearer, but that’s the general phrasing I can come up with.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. Within your planetary influence in those portions which are of the metaphysical realms, shall we say, those which are unseen, frequently referred to as your inner planes, there are various levels of understanding, shall we say, much likened unto what you could call a spiritual distillery. Light and Love as realized in a pattern of beingness which you can call an entity or a mind/body/spirit complex, then, is radiated, for the positive path, in a more and more efficient fashion according to an entity’s success, shall we say, at moving itself along the path of evolution and into greater and greater realization and unity with the creation about it. Within your planetary influence there are then various levels of light beings which gather themselves in a fashion which is appropriate to their understanding or their ability to transmit the Light through their crystallized beings. These levels of existence have been termed by many of your population in various and sundry ways and described differently by different groups.

That which is generally referred to as the astral level is that which itself contains seven basic frequencies of vibration, shall we say, with the lower levels comprising those entities which are of the grosser form of thought and which in many cases are creations of the darker thoughts of the population of your planet. As one proceeds through these lower levels which are of a darker nature, one may find that the efficiency of the light transmission by the inhabitants of each succeeding level grows greater and brighter until at the upper levels of the astral planes one finds beings of greater Light which may move in service to others by serving as what you may call guides or angelic presences, and may or may not make themselves known through your spoken words, whether verbal or mental, but nonetheless, move in service in whatever fashion the entity they have chosen to serve can understand or perceive.

L asked: “I’d like to understand a little better what the difference is between different so-called levels of teachers. In the studies I’ve pursued, frequently a particular entity or source is referred as causal teacher or from the high Buddhic plane or providing perspective from the astral plane, and if you could, Latwii, comment upon this issue of discarnate teachers coming from different planes, perhaps giving an example of one from one or the other plane or what is meant by these planes and distinguishing the teaching thereby? I could try to make the question clearer, but that’s the general phrasing I can come up with.” Latwii began by saying within your planetary influence in those portions which are of the metaphysical realms of the inner planes, there are various levels of understanding much like what you call a spiritual distillery, so Light and Love as realized in a mind/body/spirit complex is radiated for the positive path in a more efficient fashion according to an entity’s success at moving itself along the path of evolution and into greater realization and unity with the creation about it, and within your planetary influence there are various levels of Light beings which gather themselves in a fashion which is appropriate to their ability to transmit Light through their crystallized beings, and these levels of existence have been described differently by different groups. Then Latwii said that which is the astral level is that which contains seven frequencies of vibration with the lower levels comprising those entities which are of the grosser form of thought, and are creations of the darker thoughts of the population of your planet, and as one proceeds through these lower levels which are of a darker nature, one may find that the efficiency of the Light transmission by the inhabitants of each succeeding level grows brighter until at the upper levels of the astral planes one finds beings of greater Light which may move in service to others by serving as guides or angelic presences and may or may not make themselves known through spoken words, whether verbal or mental, but move in service in whatever fashion the entity they have chosen to serve can understand. On November 29, 1981, Latwii spoke of the nature of the astral planes:

There are many beings of many forms which inhabit those planes of your planetary existence, which are known as the astral planes. These planes are not of another density, but are associated with the third-density experience. This is much likened unto the form your people take upon the passing through of the stage of death. The activation of the fourth ray or the green-ray body, also known as the astral body, does take place upon the process of death and may pass through many planes of existence which are contained within the astral and devachanic levels of your planet.

Many of the creatures which you have referred to are inhabitants of these planes of existence and may from time to time become visible to some of the people of your planet who have a certain relationship with these creatures. It must be understood, however, that these creatures are not what you might call regular or normal inhabitants of your planetary surface, for their pattern of existence is not within the space/time complex or location of your third density, but is upon a level which is what you might call not visible to the normal third-density eye.

As one moves beyond the astral planes or levels of vibration one enters what has most frequently been called the devachanic planes of experience. These are also frequently called the heaven worlds of your planetary influence. Within these realms of vibration, also numbering seven at the basic level, or in the basic manner of description, one may find that the population is somewhat reduced in number but is more efficient in transmitting the Love and Light of the one Creator to those whose seeking attracts or calls for their service. Again, service in this general level is that which is more of the specific call being answered rather than the constant guiding or watching over the incarnate entities of your third density as is the nature of the upper astral levels.

These beings which inhabit the devachanic planes in the lower levels of these planes, then, move to answer specific calls. Within the upper frequencies of the devachanic planes, there is less and less desire to serve in the manner of communication with the third-density incarnate population of your planet. The service at this level of vibration takes more the form of the sending and in some cases the providing of Light, Love and healing to the planetary entity itself and to larger portions of the population of your planet than one or two or a few of your entities which may call for service and receive it from other levels of either the astral or devachanic planes. We would prefer not to name certain entities that may be placed in one level or another, for to do so would be to seem to judge, for many upon your planet view one level or another as being higher and therefore better than another, when in fact, each speaks with the voice of the Creator to the Creator which calls for that which is of the appropriate vibration of service.

Latwii went on to say as one moves beyond the astral planes one enters the devachanic planes of experience, and these are called the heaven worlds of your planet, so within these realms of vibration, also numbering seven at the basic level, one may find that the population is reduced in number but is more efficient in transmitting the Love and Light of the one Creator to those whose seeking calls for their service, for service in this level is that which is more of the specific call being answered rather than the constant watching over the incarnate entities of your third density as is the nature of the upper astral levels. Now Latwii said these beings which inhabit the devachanic planes in the lower levels of these planes move to answer specific calls, so within the upper frequencies of the devachanic planes, there is less desire to serve in the manner of communication with the third-density incarnate population of your planet, for the service at this level of vibration takes the form of sending Light, Love, and healing to the planetary entity and to larger portions of the population of your planet than one, or two, or a few of your entities which may call for service and receive it from other levels of either the astral or devachanic planes, but we would prefer not to name certain entities that may be placed in one level or another, for to do so would be to seem to judge, for many upon your planet view one level or another as being higher and better than another, when in fact, each speaks with the voice of the Creator to the Creator which calls for that which is of the appropriate vibration of service. On 17.37, Ra described the nature of the devachanic planes:

In the devachanic planes, as you call them, are those whose vibrations are even more close to the primal distortions of Love/Light.

May we answer further, my brother?

L: I think that’s a very good reply, and I appreciate it. I don’t think I could qualify the question further except that the Ra material makes a reference to the gateway to intelligent infinity and I wonder if that corresponds with other systems referring to what are called the Buddhic planes, and that would be the only final part, I guess, to ask you.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my brother. We would suggest that the contact with what has been called intelligent infinity may be seen not just as that which contacts higher and higher levels of vibration within a planetary influence, but that which reveals unto the entity experiencing this contact the nature and unity of all creation and all that which lies beyond creation, all that from which creation springs. Thus, the contact with intelligent infinity is the fully experienced presence of the one infinite Creator.

May we answer further, my brother?

L: No, thank you very much. That covers it.

I am Latwii, and we thank you again, my brother. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Latwii. It has been our great honor and privilege to blend our vibrations with yours this evening. We hope that each is aware that we share our own experiences and our opinions which are most fallible. Please take that which has value and leave that which has none in your own journey of seeking. We are your brothers and sisters who have traveled perhaps a bit further upon that same path which we share with you. We travel with you always, as does the great company of seekers both seen and unseen which moves in service, each to the other and all to the one Creator. We are known to you as those of Latwii. We bid you adieu for this evening. We leave you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: The first thought that comes forth from the materialist when they hear about this radical teaching of praying for our enemies is, “Do you mean that I should pray for my enemy to be successful over me, that he succeed in his deceit, trickery, and conniving?” No, those of spiritual vision would not pray for that at all, but that the enemy’s mind be opened and made receptive and responsive to the will of God.

How few people remember that praying for their enemies opens the very doors of heaven, showering its blessings upon them. It matters not whether a nation is an enemy or an ally, the same prayer must prevail, “Open their eyes that they may see with spiritual vision.”

Whether the offender is personal national, or international matters not one whit. There must be the desire that all people be awakened to their true identity and the Source of all being. Even to those who would crucify him, the Master said, “Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.” To his brethren after they had thrown him into the pit and sold him into slavery, Joseph said, “It was not you that sent me hither, but God.” He did not hold them in bondage for their act, but he gave them food to carry home, returning good for evil. One of the most important lessons for all of us to learn is that there is no room in the spiritual life for the return of evil for evil. There is no room for anything but a life of forgiveness.

From the moment of waking in the morning until going to sleep at night, there must be periods in the day in which we consciously remember:

I forgive. If I have aught against any man, woman, or child, here and now I forgive completely, perfectly, entirely. If anyone’s misdeeds persist in coming back to my memory, over and over again I will forgive. I seek no punishment for anyone; I seek no revenge; I see no justice. I loose everyone and let them go.”

This afternoon I took the Bougainville plant out of the living room and put it on the front porch so that I could take all of the lights and decorations off of it without making a mess in the living room. Then I hung it on the east side of the fishpond. Then I mopped up the front porch with a wet mop. Then I went into the living room and vacuumed up the leaves that fell off of the Bougainville plant. Then I went into the garage and found a length of burlap that will cover the Bougainville plant from 10 am in the mornings until 2 pm in the afternoons after the rainy days are over later this week in the hardening off process.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 24

Peace, Be Still

I am the principle of infinite compassion which is the Love of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in thisLlove.

So many doubts assail your minds; so many self-destructive thoughts; so many stumbling blocks which each seeker puts in its own way through doubt. Let us speak to you of faith.

In all of the ways of existence there are those things which one may question. Yet, undergirding all that there is, is a mysterious splendor of that which was created by Love.

The attitude of faith asks no words, brooks no sentiments, and discusses no implications. Faith is that abiding belief that a kindly Creator has a will for each to learn and to grow spiritually and to be of service to others.

Many situations seem quite devoid of that opportunity. Do not be fooled. When you can, show faith. When you can gaze upon the stormy waters and say, “Peace, be still,” within yourself, then you have not dogma or doctrine but a solid rock upon which to stand and the overreaching arms of the Father to protect you, comfort you, and hold you as you walk the steps of the seeker.

We leave you in the peace and joy of that mysterious journey, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer for the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the L/Leema and Yadda channelings for this session come from June 15, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am L/Leema. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are most privileged and grateful for your call to us this evening, and we are most pleased to blend our life energies with the stream of your own vibrations. We rejoice too in the unity of the circle, for it is larger than you may think, as there are many who join with those within this domicile in order to lend desire to the seeking and, therefore, more clarity to the material. It is, of course, to be noted, and we wish you to take special note of this in light of tonight’s subject, that it is far more important, my friends, that you are together in the light, seeking the light, persistently, steadily, over and over again making of this sphere which you call your home a place where there does beam light even in darkness, than that any word of inspiration or information be transmitted. Were never another word to be transmitted through this Light center, it is well to know as individuals and as a group that the Love collected and given to the Creator in such group meetings and each by yourselves is what will make or break your society, shall we say, as a group. The critical mass for achieving fourth density as a group is nearly reached. Therefore, each effort to add Light to the planetary consciousness is by far the greatest service you can be at any time.

We now speak upon the subject of healing energy. The question put before us, if we may paraphrase, is this: if, as Dr. Andrija (Puharich) says, healing energy is eight hertz or cycles per second, how can one achieve that rate of vibration naturally, and how can it be used? It is to be noted that this group for the most part has much previous information about energy centers, therefore we shall speak of one heart energy center, or the green-ray energy center. Each ray and each combination of rays has at least one vibration, depending upon the combination of rays used for an activity within the undertones to a vibration. However, in the use of healing energy, one is not using healing energy as such. This must be emphasized, for it tells much about healing. The wave of what you would call the alpha state includes the eight cycles per second rate. In this state, the self is laid aside, and the greater self is that which potentially the seeker can realize within the self. Therefore, there is an impersonal self which is far purer, as you would say, than the waking conscious as it manifests itself. We say “clear” in the sense of vibratory tone.

This energy which is oblique and electrical in nature is brain wave activity, no more and no less. It is, however, that which occurs within the meditative state when an entity turns purely to the heart chakra and moves the brain wave energy in concentration to that locus. From that locus, then, enters a very pure Love vibratory emanation, crystallized by the crystallized being which acts as a catalyst in the connection between the two green rays and in the interruption of the outer shell of the one to be healed in its auric sense. Once the auric shell has been pierced and the green ray opened in the one to be healed, the energy is sent forth and the one to be healed may choose healing at that time.

In this session L/Leema spoke about healing energy. They began by saying the question put before us is this: if, as Dr. Andrija (Puharich) says, healing energy is eight hertz or cycles per second, how can one achieve that rate of vibration naturally, and how can it be used? It is to be noted that this group has much previous information about energy centers, so we shall speak of the green-ray energy center, for each ray and each combination of rays has at least one vibration, depending upon the combination of rays used for an activity within the undertones to a vibration, but in the use of healing energy, one is not using healing energy as such, and this must be emphasized, for it tells much about healing, so the wave of what you would call the alpha state includes the eight cycles per second rate, and in this state, the self is laid aside, and the greater self is that which the seeker can realize within the self, yet there is an impersonal self which is purer than the waking conscious as it manifests itself. Now L/Leema said this energy, which is oblique and electrical in nature, is brain wave activity, but it is that which occurs within the meditative state when an entity turns purely to the heart chakra and moves the brain wave energy in concentration to that locus, and from that locus enters a pure Love vibratory emanation, crystallized by the crystallized being which acts as a catalyst in the connection between the two green rays and in the interruption of the outer shell of the one to be healed in its auric sense, so once the auric shell has been pierced and the green ray opened in the one to be healed, the energy is sent forth, and the one to be healed may choose healing at that time. On July 28, 1985, Latwii gave Jesus as an example of a crystallized being:

The one known as Jesus, as is necessary for any conscious seeker, was able to consciously move this energy received at the base chakra through each successive chakra or energy center, and with each move was able to step up the vibratory frequency of this energy and balance each chakra in turn, thereby regularizing and crystallizing Its own being. Therefore, the intelligent energy or Love of the Creator was free to move through this entity without diffraction or distortion in any way.

Thus, the white Light of the Creator, this intelligent energy, moved through the crystallized being of the one known as Jesus in such a fashion that there was no color other than white, shall we say, which emanated from this entity’s being or any chakra, as it was able to channel this intelligent energy in a pure fashion because of Its conscious understanding and mastery of the evolutionary process at work in Its own incarnation.

Love, my friends, is a creative, fiery, intelligent, and ever-present source that is concentrated at the heart chakra of your beings and sent forth to nurture, to help, to encourage, to grow, and to transform. Such are the uses of protection. Many healings there are wrought by one who listens with a wide-open heart. The listener may never speak, but the talker will feel the healing of green ray, which is Love. The babe at the breast seeks green-ray nurturance. Milk is the second-density reason for suckling. The green-ray exchange betwixt mother and child is the metaphysical reason for such nurturing as does take place in the suckling of an infant. Indeed, there is so much healing associated with the green-ray energy center that when something as far different, physically, from a person as your very planet is, is looked at in a nurturing sense, it is always described in terms of a breast, that is, putting one’s head upon the breast of Mother Nature as one lays one’s head upon the mother’s breast. We retrieve this reference, which we discover to be somewhat obscure, from the instrument’s reading of the letters of John Keats. However, there are far more accessible instances of this as in other of your poetry.

As to how one may enhance the eight hertz center, we may say that it is not currently within the abilities of—we give this instrument the figure of 99.5 percent—cannot shield themselves from the effects of the transmissions spoken of, which vary. The human brain, you see, is able to manufacture only weak electrical charges and is, therefore, sensitive to similar vibrations. However, the use of this weapon is, may we say, less prevalent than was supposed and has only been used experimentally, and is not… we are sorry for these pauses, but we tread close to the Law of Free Will and we look for ways to avoid specificity.

Then L/Leema said Love is a creative, fiery, intelligent, and ever-present source that is concentrated at the heart chakra of your beings and sent forth to nurture, to encourage, and to transform, for such are the uses of protection, so many healings there are experienced by one who listens with a wide-open heart, so the listener may never speak, but the talker will feel the healing of green ray, which is Love, and the green-ray exchange betwixt mother and child is the metaphysical reason for such nurturing which takes place in the suckling of an infant, and there is much healing associated with the green-ray energy center so that when something as different, physically, from a person as your planet is, is looked at in a nurturing sense, it is always described in terms of a breast, that is, putting one’s head upon the breast of Mother Nature as one lays one’s head upon the mother’s breast, and we retrieve this reference, which we discover to be somewhat obscure, from Carla’s reading of the letters of John Keats. L/Leema continued by saying as to how one may enhance the eight hertz center, we may say that it is not currently within the abilities of—we give Carla the figure of 99.5 percent—cannot shield themselves from the effects of the transmissions spoken of, which vary, so the human brain is able to manufacture only weak electrical charges and is sensitive to similar vibrations, but the use of this weapon is less prevalent than was supposed and has only been used experimentally, and is not… we are sorry for these pauses, but we tread close to the Law of Free Will, and we look for ways to avoid specificity. In 73.17, Ra speaks of healing through the green-ray energy center:

When the magical personality has been seated in the green-ray energy center for healing work, the energy then may be seen to be the crystalline center through which body energy is channeled. Thus, this particular form of healing uses both the energy of the adept and the energy of the upward spiraling Light.

As the green-ray center becomes more brilliant—and we would note this brilliance does not imply over-activation but, rather, crystallization—the energy of the green-ray center of the body complex spirals twice: firstly, clockwise from the green-ray energy center to the right shoulder, through the head, the right elbow, down through the solar plexus, and to the left hand. This sweeps all the body complex energy into a channel which then rotates the great circle clockwise again from right—we correct this instrument—from the left to the feet, to the right hand, to the crown, to the left hand, and so forth.

Thus, the in-coming body energy, crystallized, regularized, and channeled by the adept’s personality, reaching to the green-ray energy center, may then pour out the combined energies of the adept which is incarnate, thus offering the service of healing to an entity requesting that service. This basic situation is accomplished as well when there is an entity which is working through a channel to heal.

This device is not what would be considered to be a life-threatening or quality-of-life-threatening problem for most probability/possibility vortices. That is, only in the event of a declared war would these devices be freely used. As to how to enhance one’s own brain wave energy, we may note, as always, the efficacy of persistent meditation and opening to the silence. Perhaps the attempt is never perfect or even near to perfect. Perhaps one’s thoughts are led astray. This matters only insofar as the seeker allows this to discourage it from pursuing calmly and patiently the clearing of the mind. This is the work of a lifetime. However, the discipline of silence, not easily begun and not easily maintained, is all-important to the eventual and continued contact with intelligent infinity. This is the simplest and most important method of enhancing green-ray intensification and crystallization.

We need hardly offer the information that each attempt one makes to serve another is, when given freely and with no design other than to serve, a polarizing and crystallizing green-ray activity. Thus, there is no time that is too insignificant of enhancing green ray and therefore becoming a nurturing and healing person. Each word that is spoken to mate or colleague, friend, stranger or seeming foe vibrates with intention. If the intentions are persistently compassionate, so you shall enhance development of green-ray crystallization and power as well as working oftimes upon higher energy centers.

L/Leema continued by saying this device is not what would be considered to be a life-threatening problem for most probability/possibility vortices, so only in the event of a declared war would these devices be used, and as to how to enhance one’s own brain wave energy, we may note the efficacy of meditation, but the attempt is never perfect, and perhaps one’s thoughts are led astray, yet this matters only insofar as the seeker allows this to discourage it from patiently clearing the mind, so this is the work of a lifetime, but the discipline of silence is all-important for the continued contact with intelligent infinity since this is the most important method of enhancing green-ray intensification and crystallization. Now L/Leema said we hardly need to offer the information that each attempt one makes to serve another is, when given freely with the desire to serve, a polarizing and crystallizing green-ray activity, and there is no time that is too insignificant for enhancing green ray and, for each word that is spoken to mate, friend, stranger or foe vibrates with intention, and if the intentions are persistently compassionate, so you shall enhance development of green-ray crystallization and power as well as working upon higher energy centers. On May 1, 2005, Q’uo spoke of the value of the discipline of silence:

Certainly, one with a sense of a discipline may create a rule of life in which there are certain things to be done each day in order to create the most favorable environment for spiritual evolution. There are those such as the one known as R1, the one known as T, and the one known as Carla who strive each day to set aside time for meditation. They do this because they have found that it is helpful. There is a fruit to this discipline of silence. But we are not speaking here of that rigid kind of management of time. Rather, we are speaking of the discipline, of the management, of mind, of thought, shall we say.

We shall cease this discussion at this point, as we have noted in the past that we have spoken far too lengthily, and we are attempting to clean up our act. We do enjoy your language and are very glad we are able to speak in your language, as it is very humorous with many idioms. We enjoy the American language very much. We are so grateful for having been able to speak to you on this subject, and would now leave this instrument with thanks, in order that we may transfer to the one known as Jim. We are those of L/Leema.

(Jim channeling)

I am L/Leema, and we are happy to greet you again in Love and Light through this instrument. We hope that we might continue our humble service by attempting to answer those queries which may remain within this group this evening. We remind each of you that our opinions are indeed opinions, though we may have experienced more of the journey than those present this evening, we wish no extra weight, shall we say, be given our words. Use them as they fit your needs. May we attempt a query at this time?

J1: Last week we had a session on the use of Light and crystals in healing. Would the use of the crystal be then to magnify or intensify the green-ray healing frequency from healer to the one to be healed in some manner?

I am L/Leema, and your statement is basically correct in that the use of crystals by those offering the healing energies which they are able to channel is a use which may enhance these energies and their availability, shall we say, to the one to be healed. The one serving as healer through its own balance of centers of energy is likened unto a crystal itself and when it is able to channel energies of the green-ray nature, then it charges or potentiates the crystal in order that it might vibrate in harmony with the one known as the healer and amplify the energies which this entity channels.

May we answer further, my brother?

J1: If the heart chakra is the source of the green-ray healing energy from the healer, would the crystal then be placed in the proximity of the heart chakra for the most benefit to the one to be healed?

I am L/Leema, and this positioning is one fundamental position which any entity serving as healer may begin with, for its efficacy is most easily achieved for those who have worked for some time upon this path of service, but which have as yet not utilized the more finely tuned placements of crystal and techniques of use such as the use of the swung crystal which utilizes the transfer of the green-ray energy in a somewhat refined nature by allowing its movement through the right arm and hand and thereunto the crystal.

May we answer further, my brother?

J1: Could you repeat that, and describe further that technique and first of all, what is the “swan” crystal and how is it used once more?

I am L/Leema, and the crystal which is swung from the right hand of the healer is a technique which is somewhat advanced in that it utilizes the spiraling field of green-ray energy that emanates from the heart chakra or energy center in a precise fashion which allows the one serving as healer to transfer or transmit the healing energy in a more precise fashion than is accomplished with the use of the crystal from the chain about the neck which places the crystal at the heart chakra location.

May we answer further, my brother?

J1: Thank you. I understand now. Does the green ray—is that the only ray that vibrates at eight hertz? Does each ray, does each color of the spectrum vibrate with a different frequency?

I am L/Leema. The spectrum of colors which has its origin within the white Light, shall we say, or prana, that is instreaming to each portion of creation may find a slight refinement as each color is filtered through the various centers of energy in the mind/body/spirit complex. Thus, the white Light is instreaming in this basic fashion and may be utilized in a specific fashion by the one serving as healer. The use of this Light by, shall we say, the usual configuration of energy centers of any mind/body/spirit complex then is according to a more widely diffused range of frequencies that center about the eight cycles per second, using this frequency as a foundation or background frequency which is then added unto by swings on each side of the eight cycles per second by each ray or energy center. The variation is not large, however, and is that harmonic vibration which enhances certain aspects of this basic frequency.

May we answer further, my brother?

J1: No, thank you.

I am L/Leema, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

J2: Is it possible to use a charged crystal to transfer the healing energy from the crystal to water, so that water may be used for healing? And if so, could you give me an explanation of that?

I am L/Leema, and, though this is indeed possible, it is not necessary to utilize any crystal for such a transfer, for the water may be seen as a crystal itself and may be directly charged or affected by the conscious intent of any entity seeking to use the water crystal for the purpose of healing. The charging may take many forms. It is possible to charge this crystal water by the placing of the hands above its surface and imaging by the mind and intention healing energies being passed through the hands and into the water crystal.

May we answer further, my sister?

J2: Yes, please. Does it enhance the healing capability, or is it necessary for this charged water to have healing effect for the person who receives it to understand and recognize the intent?

I am L/Leema, and though it is not strictly necessary that the one to be healed be aware of and consciously utilize such charged water, it is most helpful for the degree of utilization or efficiency for this entity to be aware of the opportunity and to consciously avail itself of this opportunity. For indeed, each entity is constantly bathed in such healing energies and according to the efficacy of any one to be healed in its desire to be healed and its opening of its own being to such healing, healing may take place, for the process of healing is one which occurs upon the metaphysical level as a direct function…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am L/Leema, and am again with this instrument. May we answer in any further way, my sister?

J2: Yes, please. If there were a group, and they wished to send healing energies within the group and from the group to those outside, or were to use energy charged water and share the water, does one have more efficacy than the other?

I am L/Leema, and as we consider the many possibilities in utilizing these techniques of offering the healing energies, we note that though the sharing of the water may in many cases be more helpful, such is often the case because of the one to be healed holding the viewpoint that physical manifestations or vehicles of healing are more helpful than that which it cannot see. Thus, it is often helpful to ground the healing offering in whatever fashion has significance to the one to be healed. If, however, the one to be healed is not present, the sending of the healing energies by thought may be the means by which the most efficacy is achieved.

May we answer further, my sister?

J2: Thank you. I have just one more question on that subject. If the water which is used in this situation is placed in direct sunlight and receives the rays of the sun, preliminarily to receiving energies from the group, does this enhance its healing capabilities?

I am L/Leema. Again, upon the purely mechanistic level, the enhancement of the ability of the water to transmit the healing vibrations by such placement is small. Yet, if the intention of those seeking to serve as healers is to increase the water’s ability to serve as such a transmitting medium, this intention itself will carry far more weight, shall we say, in determining the water’s ability to serve as a medium of transmitting healing energies. As you can see, we return again and again to desire, the focus of the will, and the intention of those seeking to serve as healers and the ones serving as the ones in need of healing.

May we answer further, my sister?

J2: Well, my observation is going to be, then, that essentially it is the intention. It seems to me from what you said that the intention and the strength of intention of the ones who want to heal is essentially the only thing, that the crystal or the water is really not necessary if the intention of the crystallized healer is there. Would you comment on that?

I am L/Leema, and one may see the use of the crystal as a step upon the path of service of that called healing. The intention of the one serving as healer is that which is paramount. It may be that at some point within this entity’s progress that the use of the crystal shall be helpful in amplifying the fruit of the intention, that is, the ability to channel the intelligent energy through the green-ray energy center. It may be that the one serving as healer spends a great portion of its incarnation utilizing the abilities of the crystal in its service of healing. It is also possible that such an entity in its continued evolution of being shall be able to function without the need to utilize the crystal and shall in a more direct fashion channel those healing energies which it becomes more and more able to contact and transmit.

May we answer further, my sister?

J2: No, that’s been very helpful. Thank you very much.

I am L/Leema, and we thank you, my sister.

Carla: I just wanted to check a couple of things. First of all, is the reason that we feel so instinctively more nurtured in the country than the city is because of all the second-density plant life which can’t help but do anything but vibrate in total Love at all times—it doesn’t have free will yet?

I am L/Leema, and this supposition is basically correct, for within the natural environment, shall we say, the rhythm and pulse of the expressions of the one Creator move at a pace that is, as you have surmised, of an automatic nature, shall we say. The one Creator moves in a clearer and simplified manner, becoming more available to the third density entity within your urban environment. One may find that there have been various overlaid distortions which affect the natural rhythm available within your rural areas.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Well, the other question was just another logical extension. It was that I’ve always noticed that saltwater helps my arthritis a great deal or helps any wound to heal very quickly. And I imagine that there are perfectly good chemical reasons for that. But I also wonder if the water isn’t magnetized? Is it magnetized by the sun that shines as a symbol of Love, or is it magnetized, for instance, [inaudible] that run around the ocean sending Love vibrations, or is it naturally magnetized? Or what? Or is there another explanation, and if so, what is it?

I am L/Leema, and you may see the waters of your oceans, lakes, and seas as large crystalline structures which absorb much of the instreaming Light or prana of the one Creator in what you have called a more natural fashion. Thus, when one immerses the physical vehicle in any body of water, one is utilizing the natural ability of the water to absorb and transmit that vibration of Love which is Light and to feel the healing energies then is more easily accomplished by any entity who is in need of or seeking such transfers of energy.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am L/Leema, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

J2: When one is in one’s backyard and is being aware and conscious of and directing thought and attention toward the local inhabitants, the chipmunks, the birds, the squirrels and so on, and directing thought toward them in terms of communication, is there communication from us to them, and also is there communication between those backyard inhabitants?

I am L/Leema, and this is quite correct, my sister, though the communication that you transmit may be received in a much simpler form, the second-density creatures are quite aware of this communication and of communication not only from others of the second density within their vicinity, but of forms and sources of communication that originate from areas and entities not visible to your own physical eye. And these second-density creatures, then, respond to a great variety of communications, your own directed communication being one of many, many sources.

May we answer further, my sister?

J2: No, thank you. That was very interesting.

I am L/Leema, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

J1: Well, on one seeking to be healed without benefit of the crystallized entity healer, is there a technique by which the one to be healed could use crystals to his benefit?

I am L/Leema, and though the response to this query is in the affirmative, we find that it is more probable that an entity seeking to be healed would utilize techniques other than the crystal, including that which may be seen as the attempting to achieve the crystallization of one’s own being by utilizing the catalyst available daily in a fashion which penetrates to the heart of the entity’s pattern of lessons which in some fashion become distorted in those experiencing the diseased condition. The use of the crystal or the crystallized healer or any external source of healing is but a step, shall we say, or crutch, as it were, for the one seeking healing.

In all cases of healing, the process is accomplished when the faith of the one to be healed has been activated to such an extent that it is able to accept a new configuration of mind, body, and spirit that more closely resembles the balanced condition for this entity. The use of sources outside of the one to be healed is a kind of triggering device that is useful to many because of the shared belief of many that in order to be healed, one must seek an healer or healing device.

May we answer further, my brother?

J1: No, thank you.

I am L/Leema, and we thank you, my brother.

T: Yes, I have a question. It concerns healing somewhat, but more so, at least to me, it concerns the inner energy flow in a person’s body, and meditative techniques for acquiring an even energy flow or removing energy blockages in the nervous system and the circulatory system. I’m specifically referring to… In order to heal or to achieve a balanced inner strength, this flow is necessary, I think—now I’m asking for a comment on that. And I’m also asking for comment on a meditative technique to achieve this specifically, the practice of Tai Chi Ch’wan. Could you speak on that please?

I am L/Leema, and we would comment by suggesting that, indeed, the one seeking to serve as the healer must first heal the self in order that the ability to channel the instreaming intelligent energy or Light may be enhanced to the degree that it may then be offered to another. The technique of achieving this balanced flow of energy is as we have previously stated, that is, the continuing awareness of the entity of those portions of its experience which are less than harmonious and the placement of these disharmonious experiences or blockages at the proper energy center, and then the utilization of the meditative state in discovering the balanced configuration that the dysfunction or blockage points toward. This in many cases will necessitate the untangling of many physical and symbolic symptoms as well as mental configurations that have held the diseased or disharmonious state in place for the entity. When the balanced view of any particular distortion is achieved and seated within the entity through meditation, contemplation, or the prayerful attitude, then the blockage or dysfunction is removed in that it is enlarged in its scope, shall we say, making available a larger point of view and a lighter channel therefore through which the healing energies may eventually be channeled.

T asked: “I have a question. It concerns healing somewhat, but more so, at least to me, it concerns the inner energy flow in a person’s body, and meditative techniques for acquiring an even energy flow or removing energy blockages in the nervous system and the circulatory system. I’m specifically referring to… In order to heal or to achieve a balanced inner strength, this flow is necessary, I think—now I’m asking for a comment on that. And I’m also asking for comment on a meditative technique to achieve this specifically, the practice of Tai Chi Ch’wan. Could you speak on that please?” L/Leema replied the one seeking to serve as the healer must first heal the self in order that the ability to channel the instreaming intelligent energy or Light may be enhanced to the degree that it may then be offered to another, and the technique of achieving this balanced flow of energy is the continuing awareness of the entity of those portions of its experience which are less than harmonious and the placement of these disharmonious experiences at the proper energy center, and then utilize the meditative state in discovering the balanced configuration that the blockage points toward, for in many cases this will necessitate the untangling of many physically symbolic symptoms as well as mental configurations that have held the disharmonious state in place for the entity, so when the balanced view of any distortion is achieved and seated within the entity through meditation, contemplation, or the prayerful attitude, then the blockage is removed in that it is enlarged in its scope making available a larger point of view and a lighter channel through which the healing energies be channeled. On May 5, 2002, Q’uo spoke of how we can deal with a blockage in any energy center:

We would recommend in the meditative state, at the end of your day or during a portion of your day where you have time to relax and reflect, that you look at the blockage as it has been experienced in your daily round of activates. Within the meditative state then look at the experience which represents to you the blockage of the red-ray energy center. Re-live that experience, allowing it to fill your being, and then in a natural fashion allow that image to dissipate and allow its opposite to emerge into your consciousness so that you see it with the same intensity that you saw the blockage to begin with. Allow this image to continue for as long as feels comfortable. Then see both the blockage and its balance as means by which the Creator may know Itself through you, and accept yourself for having both as means for the Creator to know Itself in your being. Repeat this exercise upon a daily basis for as long as is necessary for the blockage to be resolved.

May we answer further, my brother?

T: Just one thing. Could you comment on the use of physical movement, specifically Tai Chi, as a meditative technique? It seems to me that for a person with nervous energy blockages that—it seems to me that it’s easier to get into a meditative state if you can be in a concentrated movement type of meditation. It seems to work for me, maybe that’s all I need to say. Maybe I don’t need a comment, but if you have anything to say on that, I’d appreciate it.

I am L/Leema, and we would agree that such a technique is useful to some entities who are of a nature which can appreciate this type of meditation. Many, however, would find another technique more helpful in that the stilling of the mind would be more available as a result as a stilling of the body. However, this is quite variable among your people, and we recommend that whatever technique feels appropriate be utilized, and that the seeker remain alert to those refinements which shall naturally be drawn unto it as it achieves its purpose within the meditative state.

May we answer further, my brother?

T: No, thank you, that’s fine.

I am L/Leema, and we would ask if there might be a final query before we take our leave of this group as this instrument is growing somewhat low on the energy necessary to continue its service.

[Pause]

I am L/Leema, and we are most happy to have had the opportunity to join our vibrations with yours this evening. We look forward to each opportunity with great joy. We leave each of you in that Love and Light which is ever present and available to all. We are known as L/Leema. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu.

(Carla channeling)

I Yadda. I greet you in Love and Light of infinite Creator. We not give instrument any trouble this time about coming in name of Christ because so many others have been giving her trouble about whether we do or not. We better tell her, “Of course we come in name of Christ—why would we send someone, we of the Confederation which cares so much for consciousness and its development, why would we send someone to live in Christ consciousness if we did not come in that name?” Our only gripe is that this instrument picks the one Jesus, who carried perfect Christ consciousness—so did some other good teachers—but we do not to argue that. Of course we come in name of Christ. How else would we come? There is only one Love, and that Love’s consciousness is Christ. That what we show, pure compassion, you know.

Okay. We come to talk about shadows. You know, you all think you so vivid there in this room as you sit and watch the sky far into the beautiful evening. You think maybe you should even paint the face a little even, eh, you women? Heh? Make yourself more vivid? Well, we tell you, you are nothing but shadow. You know what you do in this incarnation? Heh! You build. You are architect. You know what you build? Something you cannot see. That why you don’t know about it and you go about painting face and putting on funny clothes, eh heh!?

Now. What you build? First thing you build, you build something called you. What you gonna look like when you enter larger life? This instrument say “larger life,” she means death. Okay. We not know if we larger, but we have more fun—eh heh! Anyway, we want you to know that you are building something called you. You build day by day by weary, weary day. It is weary—we know—we not argue that. What we encourage is that you know that the face you see in the mirror is not what you are doing here. What you are doing here is you are building behind the shadow world that whole person that you can, are and shall be.

Furthermore, second thing. You build other things. You have mate—yes? Then you build a person—not you, not me. It called “relationship.” Okay. You not see that, but that what you building. What you putting into that building. You cannot control what your mate builds. You control what you build. Forget the shadows of your mirror. Forget what you can see and move to what you are building. You architects of the spirit.

We come to you in Love and leave you in Love. We come to you in Light and so we leave you. We thank you for calling us. We getting our words better—heh?! We so glad to see you and we say good-bye. We Yadda of Confederation of Planets in Service to One Infinite Creator. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Let us not wear our spiritual heart on our sleeve. Let us not boast that we have found the secret of communion with the Source of life. Let us not expose our spiritual pearls to those unprepared to receive them, for in so doing they may be lost or trampled upon. Let our Light shine by its fruitage rather than be flaunted before people and obscured by a veil of words.

It is not selfish to keep our relationship with God secret because our Light will shine to those prepared to see Light, and our wisdom will be heard by those who have ears to hear—even that which is imparted without words or thoughts.

The spiritual fast is an inward communing with God while abstaining from words or thoughts. It is an abiding in God unobserved by those around us. It is prayer in its highest sense in that it is a refraining from seeking anything of God, yet it is an awareness of God’s grace freely flowing.

A teaching on such a high level of consciousness can never be understood by the human reasoning mind and, therefore, can be obeyed only by those whose goal is spiritual realization. How seldom are these esoteric teachings of Jesus on secrecy openly taught! How seldom is it recognized that there is a spiritual center in every person which is referred to in such revelations as “Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I have is thine” or “I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee,” or “I am with you always, even unto the end of the world.”

How many of us understand the mystery of these teachings. How many of us know that the I is literally in the midst of us. How many that we seeth in secret rewardeth us openly? By contemplation and meditation, we must solve the mystery of the spiritual life, and this we can do only when secretly and sacredly contemplating the nature of the Infinite Invisible which is closer to us than breathing. We must never believe that the mysteries of God will be revealed to us in the midst of the noise and clamor of discussion, argument, or theorizing. The hidden mysteries are not hidden from those who understand and obey the teaching of the Sermon on the Mount.”

This afternoon I drove to the Providence Care Home in New Albany, Indiana to visit my friend. I gave her a hug and asked how she was doing. Then I asked her if she would like a banana, and when she said “Yes” I peeled it for her. Then I showed her some pictures of my flower gardens and my kitten on my iPhone. Then I read her some quotes from Carla’s Autobiography and some of Carla’s poetry. We talked about what I had just read for a minute or two, and then I read from her book about women who were declared saints over the past 300 years. We meditated together for about 10 minutes, and then I gave her a hug, told her that I loved her, and that I would be back to see her next month.

From A Book of Days channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 23

The Touch Of The Spirit

I am of the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the consciousness of love.

We find this instrument contemplating the lightness of our touch upon its consciousness. Would this instrument wish the Holy Spirit to come upon it in such power that it were struck blind? There are times when the spirit must come upon one or many in the boldest strokes of light and thunder.

Yet far more often is the spirit’s influence felt in the light movements of the wind of love’s consciousness upon the texture and fabric of your illusion. Yet if it is desired that greater light in greater strength strike the life, the pilgrim may seek to condemn, vilify and persecute those things which it does not understand. Then the spirit, soft and sweet, becomes dire and terrible and light becomes awesome.

May your ways be unbound by judgment and may the spirit touch you in peace, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Yom channeling for this session comes from June 8, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am Yom. I greet you in the Love and in the light of our infinite Creator. It is a great privilege to speak with this group, and we thank you for calling us to you. It has been some time since I and my brothers and sisters spoke to this group, and we find that this instrument is apprehensive in its ability to be a useful instrument for us. However, we find no serious bar against using this instrument, for the vocabulary, if not the knowledge, of the instrument suffices for our purposes.

We would speak with you this evening about some applications of that which you call Light. We shall begin with what may be seen to be a mechanistic description of the influences which Light may have using various catalysts upon each entity. It is not known to your people the nature of Light, for the necessary paradigm for grasping its nature is not available to your scientists. It is because of this lack of understanding that the nature of the crystalline structures have never been satisfactorily researched or understood by those you call men of science. We find this instrument requesting that we amend this to men and women of science.

Light itself, being alive and being the first creature created of Love, forms all that there is. It furthermore in its creative freedom surrounds and interpenetrates in original form the structures which have been created by the influence of Free Will upon Light. Thus, all that there is is not only made, mechanically speaking, of articulated Light, but is also interpenetrated by limitless Light, which some among your students of metaphysics call prana. We have, then, a vast array of crystalline structures, for you may term each atom an inchoate crystalline structure, that is, the active elements are inchoate, some being without the need to bond with other elements, are themselves articulated. Each element has the capacity to bond with other elements and form either non-crystalline or crystalline structures.

In this session Yom spoke about the concept of Light. They began by saying we would speak with you this evening about some applications of Light, and we shall begin with the mechanistic description of the influences which Light may have using various catalysts upon each entity, for it is not known to your people of the nature of Light, for the necessary example for grasping its nature is not available to your scientists, so it is because of this lack of understanding that the nature of the crystalline structures have never been satisfactorily understood by your men of science, but we find this instrument requesting that we amend this to men and women of science. Now Yom said Light, being alive and being the first creature created of Love, forms all that there is, and in its creative freedom surrounds and interpenetrates in the structures which have been created by the influence of Free Will upon Light, for all that there is is not only made of articulated Light, but it is imbued by limitless Light, which some of your students of metaphysics call prana, so we have a vast array of crystalline structures, for you may term each atom just formed a crystalline structure, that is, the active elements are just formed, some being without the need to bond with other elements, are themselves articulated, and each element has the capacity to bond with other elements and form either non-crystalline or crystalline structures. In 78.9, Ra described limitless Light:

In the most basic or teleological sense you are incorrect as the One Infinite Creator is all that there is. In an undistorted seed-form you are correct in seeing the first manifestation visible to the eye of the body complex which you inhabit as the Third Distortion, Light, or to use a technical term, limitless Light.

The nature of the crystalline structure—that is, the window or opening wherein limitless light may form an influence… We must wait while this instrument retunes. If you will be patient. We are Yom. I am Yom. We have instructed this instrument to refrain from analysis, and we feel we have a better contact now, if the instrument can refrain from examining the words it uses. Unlike our fifth-density brothers and sisters, we do not have the ability to tune to a sufficiently narrow band of contact to enable this instrument to go deeply enough into meditation to lose the fear of speaking about that which it does not know. Therefore, the instrument must take conscious responsibility for being patient with us, as we give word by word that which we would that you could hear this evening, as many in the group have an interest in the applications of that which is called light. We continue.

The crystalline structures within your creation are many. Some crystals have properties in time/space, others in space/time, others in both. For example, galaxies, stars, and planets have a time/space crystalline structure. Your own planet has such a structure. You yourselves are time/space crystalline structures. Those among you who learn to heal are manifesting in space/time that crystalline structure which is the essence of regularized Light. Therefore, Light has many influences upon each entity, for the nearer stars and the planets of your sun system have regularized time/space properties which result in instreaming from planet to planet which in turn affect the crystalline entities of third density which inhabit the planet. It has often been questioned whether the art you call astrology has a basis. The basis, in fact, is most dry and scientific. It does not, however, yield to present measurement techniques, due to time/space properties inherent in the nature of crystalline structures. Thus, the orientation of your being at the time of conception shall affect the physical parameters of the illusory physical vehicle which you now enjoy.

The orientation of this particular sphere towards the cosmos at the time of entry into incarnation has an effect over the mental, emotional, and to some small extent, the spiritual nature of the entity within incarnation, it being remembered at all times that each entity, though influenced within an incarnation, is as it is, was, and will be, changeless, unified with the Creator and completely whole. However, in your illusion, you deal with the illusion of the state of the body and the state or nature of the personality. It is, therefore, interesting to observe that astrology is in fact the science of the crystalline properties of Light in time/space, the influence of this upon the planet and the residual influence of entities in a particular place upon the planet of these crystalline structures.

Then Yom said the crystalline structures within your creation are many, and some crystals have properties in time/space, others in space/time, others in both, for example, galaxies, stars, and planets have a time/space crystalline structure, and your planet has such a structure, so you are time/space crystalline structures, yet those who learn to heal are manifesting in space/time that crystalline structure which is the essence of regularized Light, for Light has many influences upon each entity, and the nearer planets of your sun system have regularized time/space properties which result in instreaming from planet to planet which in turn affect the crystalline entities of third density which inhabit the planet, so it has been questioned whether astrology has a basis which is dry and scientific, but it does not yield to present measurement techniques due to time/space properties within the nature of crystalline structures, so the orientation of your being at the time of conception shall affect the physical parameters of the illusory physical vehicle which you now enjoy. Yom continued by saying the orientation of this planet towards the cosmos at the time of entry into incarnation has an effect over the mental, emotional, and the spiritual nature of the entity within incarnation, it being remembered at all times that each entity, though influenced within an incarnation, is as it is, was, and will be, changeless, unified with the Creator and completely whole, but in your illusion, you deal with the illusion of the state of the body and the personality, so it is interesting to observe that astrology is the science of the crystalline properties of Light in time/space, the influence of this upon the planet and the residual influence of entities in a particular place upon the planet of these crystalline structures. On May 27, 2008, Q’uo described the nature of crystalline structures:

We may say that the coherence of which you speak is that which the spiritual seeker of third density tends towards or becomes more able to express. Coherence is an excellent word to use when thinking of the human energy body and that consciousness that it contains, eternity and infinity cradled in crystalline structures that seem so fragile and yet are so incredibly powerful.

That is, you see, the challenge of any helping technology: to advance the ability of entities to sense their own coherence and to do so without blowing their circuitry. The quality of faith is the living coherence of the spirit, and we encourage you to increase your faith. As you proceed, we wish you Light in your research, my brother. You already have Love.

The planet itself will influence entities to a varying extent, depending upon the development of time/space awareness in the entity as it moves through the incarnation, for not all Earth energies are the same as one would expect in a crystalline structure. Picture, if you will, the gem which is cut. If it is not properly struck by the tool which cuts it, it will shatter. If it is touched in a place which does not fracture, there will be no breakage, clean or splintered. So it is with your Earth. There are points of energy instreaming upon your planet, not only in your—we find this entity calls your illusion third density—but also first density, second density, third and fourth, all now activated to a large extent. In potential are also far more complex crystalline structures which will resonate when the planet achieves fifth, sixth, and seventh densities. This particular planet has not yet done so. However, theoretical work may be done by those with the technical skill to pursue this field of study.

Thusly, there are instances where entities may desire to remove themselves from a given geographical location. In a sensitive entity, this well may be the result of an awareness in the deep mind that the particular location is not harmonious with the entity’s nature, or is not a place which is live enough, shall we say, for the entity to achieve the maximum energy or power from the crystalline structure beneath the entity’s feet. Lest you find yourself believing in a mechanistic universe, we hasten to suggest that each cell within the physical vehicle has a great portion of its nature hidden in time/space and is in that portion in a crystalline structure which is open to influences from other crystalline structures. The greatest of these influences is that influence of the third-density entity which has achieved to some degree the manifestation in space/time of its crystalline nature in time/space. Such entities are often teachers, healers and leaders, those which serve as the watershed over which many entities will move and thereby be transformed, or in many cases, specifically healed.

Now Yom said the planet itself will influence entities to a varying extent, depending upon the development of time/space awareness in the entity as it moves through the incarnation, for not all Earth energies are the same as one would expect in a crystalline structure, so picture the gem which is cut, for if it is not properly struck by the tool which cuts it, it will shatter, but if it is touched in a place which does not fracture, there will be no breakage, and so it is with your Earth, for there are points of energy instreaming upon your planet, not only in your first, second, third, and fourth densities which are crystalline structures which will resonate when the planet achieves fifth, sixth, and seventh densities, but this planet has not yet done so, but theoretical work may be done by those with the technical skill to pursue this field of study. Yom went on to say there are instances where entities may desire to remove themselves from a geographical location, and in a sensitive entity, this may be the result of an awareness in the deep mind that the location is not harmonious with the entity’s nature, or is not a place which is live enough for the entity to achieve the maximum energy from the crystalline structure beneath the entity’s feet, yet if you find yourself believing in a mechanistic universe, we suggest that each cell within the physical vehicle has a portion of its nature hidden in time/space, and it is in that portion in a crystalline structure which is open to influences from other crystalline structures, and the greatest of these influences is that influence of the third-density entity which has achieved the manifestation in space/time of its crystalline nature in time/space, so such entities are often teachers, healers, and leaders which serve as the watershed over which entities will move and be transformed or healed. On April 25, 1983, Latwii described how we may become transformed:

Therefore, if you can take what we might call the larger view, and see each entity as the Creator and Love and accept each entity as such, the self included, then you build a strong harmony where perhaps seeming disharmony once existed. You will then build the remainder of the situation and its resolution upon a firm foundation, that is, Love and acceptance, blessings and joy. It is most often the case that the strength of the seeming difficult catalyst will act upon the mind of those involved, and most usually produce lesser feelings, shall we say, those of resentment, of anger, of disappointment, of confusion, of jealousy, and so forth. Each of these emotions may be worked with by the seeker and may be transformed into Love. The process is aided by the conscious ability of the seeker to take the larger viewpoint of which we spoke. Such a viewpoint is as the alchemical process in which the pseudo-scientists of old attempted to change the lead to gold. The viewpoint which sees the Creator indwelling all about and within the self is the viewpoint which changes each difficult emotion and situation into an opportunity to know, to Love, and to express the one Creator.

The mechanical structure of space/time crystals is a good tool also, though not as efficacious as the crystalline being, for healing both physical and subtle or etheric. The use of crystals is an art rather than a science, because each entity using the same crystal will mesh its points of crystalline energy with the points of energy of the crystal itself in an unique fashion. Thus, one healer’s crystal may work well for it, while being inefficacious for another. However, the more highly evolved crystals such as the ruby and the diamond are powerful enough that very nearly any somewhat crystallized being may efficaciously use the ruby and diamond for the healing techniques. It is to be noted in this regard, that it is well to work, if one desires this service of healing by crystals, with the lesser crystals first in order that one’s technique is able to keep pace with one’s power, for there is a great deal of power in the more articulated crystals, and it is well not to experiment with the more powerful ones before having become sensitized to energy instreaming by using lesser structures.

The most powerful crystalline structure may be perceived to be the self. As we have noted, the nature of each self is consciousness or being which is co-eternal, shall we say, with Love itself. Each of you was created before your planet was created and shall be a being after the planet has become uninhabitable for third density. Thus, the great tool of Light, the one we recommend to you, is the conscious use of the unconscious and almost always sleeping powers of the crystalline self. This instrument, and perhaps some of you, have made light of writers who advocate the use of affirmations. We would suggest to you that if one is not satisfied with any portion of the being, it is well to write or use another’s affirmation repeatedly as a way of moving from conscious thought to concept to Light to the sending of that Light to the cells of the body, or the brain, or the subtle bodies in order that healing at the cellular level may take place. The Light cannot infringe upon free will, therefore, if the—we find this instrument calls the etheric body the form-maker body, or the higher self—has prescribed an incarnational experience for the body in which one of the parameters is some physical dysfunction or mental dysfunction, the crystalline sendings will not cause the change the conscious mind may request. This is the only stop against the use of Light by the self for the self for healing.

Yom continued by saying the mechanical structure of space/time crystals is a good tool also, though not as efficacious as the crystalline being for healings both physical and subtle, so the use of crystals is an art rather than a science because each entity using the same crystal will mesh its points of crystalline energy with the points of energy of the crystal an unique way, and one healer’s crystal may work well for it, while not working for another, but the more highly evolved crystals such as the ruby and the diamond are powerful enough that any crystallized being may easily use the ruby and diamond for the healing techniques, but it is to be noted that it is well to work, if one desires this service of healing by crystals, with the lesser crystals first in order that one’s technique is able to keep pace with one’s power, for there is a great deal of power in the more articulated crystals, and it is well not to experiment with the more powerful ones before having become sensitized to energy instreaming by using lesser structures. Then Yom said the most powerful crystalline structure may be perceived to be the self, for the nature of each self is consciousness which is the same as Love, for each of you was created before your planet was created and shall be a being after the planet has become uninhabitable for third density, for the tool of Light that we recommend to you is the conscious use of the unconscious and the sleeping powers of the crystalline self, so Carla, and some of you, have made light of writers who advocate the use of affirmations, but we would suggest that if one is not satisfied with any portion of the being, it is well to write an affirmation repeatedly as a way of moving from conscious thought, to concept, to Light, to the sending of that Light to the cells of the body, the brain, or the subtle bodies in order that healing at the cellular level may take place, so the Light cannot infringe upon free will, therefore, if the higher self has prescribed an incarnational experience for the body in which one of the parameters is some physical dysfunction or mental dysfunction, the crystalline sendings will not cause the change the conscious mind may request, but this is the only stop against the use of Light by the self for the self for healing. On November 6, 1984, Q’uo described ways that we may be a part of our healing:

There are many tools, as you have put it, that are available to an entity for the finding of the wholeness within. There are, for example, the uses of meditation, contemplation, the prayerful attitude, which are most helpful in preparing the entity for healing. There is the examined life, shall we say, that looks at the need for healing and sees many behaviors, perceptions, thoughts and attitudes, which flow from the distorted being that is in need of healing. These behaviors and attitudes may be worked upon by the conscientious seeker to bring them into a balanced state. The entity may seek the healing catalysis from one of your medical profession that may utilize any number of healing modalities that themselves become tools for the healing to occur.

The entity, in the long run, shall we say, will rely upon an inner faith that will take form in whatever manner has meaning to the entity. This faith will then provide a channel, or a doorway, through which the healing efforts of others may move into the life pattern of the one to be healed. Thus, you may find that there are many, many tools available to an entity seeking healing, yet the attitude of this entity and its ability to exercise its own faith, coupled with the entity’s work in consciousness focused upon its own patterns of thought and behavior, are those tools which are most efficacious in this healing process.

Consider yourselves stewards of the Love that created you, and the Light that manifests you. In meditation, call upon the silence that you may hear the silence which speaks of Love, and both in meditation and in contemplations such as the use of affirmations, offer yourself as instrument for the manifestation and realization of the limitless possibilities of creative Light. We may note that while most affirmations find their benefit to people in the mental and emotional areas, physical healing is also quite available through the use of affirmations which, indistinct or poetic, prosaic or wondrously beautiful, nevertheless have the intent of focusing the Light of the infinite Creator in such a way that it interpenetrates and enlivens each cell of each of your bodies.

Light is used in another way in your language, and that is as the opposite of heavy. We would end by suggesting to you that to be full of Light is to be Light, that is, cheerful, joyful, and resilient. This is not, shall we say, a characteristic encouraged by the catalyst of your illusion, and we are sure that time and time again each finds itself growing heavy. It is well, then, to recall the nature of illusion and the nature of time/space and its limitless Love and Light. While illusory, it is a far merrier illusion, and is as available to you as is the experience of difficulty after difficulty that the illusion of third density will offer you.

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

I am Yom. We shall conclude. Therefore, my friends, when you discover heaviness within the heart, you have a choice. It is acceptable to the Creator if you wish to experience the heaviness or darkness of the illusion. This informs the Creator just as efficiently as any other experience, and you are being of service to the infinite Creator whom we all wish to serve, by feeling terrible, sorrowful, or in any way upset. You may, however, choose to turn to some affirmation, one of what you call your jokes, or any inspiration which yields realization of Light. It is without you and within you, interpenetrating each cell of your body and your brain, and it is a tool for your use in learning the truth in seeking the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator and in becoming more and more a polarized instrument, designed to manifest the Creator’s Love and Light to other beings.

Yom went on to say consider yourselves stewards of the Love that created you, and the Light that manifests you, and in meditation, call upon the silence that you may hear the silence which speaks of Love, and both in meditation and in contemplations such as the use of affirmations, offer yourself as instrument for the manifestation and realization of the limitless possibilities of creative Light, and we may note that while most affirmations find their benefit to people in the mental and emotional areas, physical healing is also quite available through the use of affirmations which have the intention of focusing the Light of the infinite Creator in such a way that it interpenetrates and enlivens each cell of each of your bodies. Yom completed their reply by saying Light is used in another way, and that is as the opposite of heavy, and we would end by suggesting that to be full of Light is to be Light, joyful, and resilient, but this is not a characteristic encouraged by the catalyst of your illusion, and we are sure each finds itself growing heavy, so it is well to recall the nature of illusion and the nature of time/space and its limitless Love and Light, for while illusory, it is a merrier illusion, and it is as available to you as is the experience of difficulty that the illusion of third density offers you, so when you discover heaviness within the heart, you have a choice, and it is acceptable to the Creator if you wish to experience the heaviness of the illusion, for this informs the Creator as efficiently as any other experience, and you are being of service to the Creator whom we all wish to serve, by feeling in any way upset, but you may choose to turn to some affirmation, jokes, or any inspiration which yields realization of Light, for it is without you and within you, and it is a tool for your use in learning the truth in seeking the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator and in becoming a more polarized instrument, designed to manifest the Creator’s Love and Light to other beings. On February 10, 2024, Q’uo spoke of how we may experience the Love and Light of the Creator:

The experience of samadhi, which has various other names in various cultures, is the experience of union with the Creator which has been brought about when one has removed the blockages of the lower energy centers of the red, of the orange of the yellow, the green, the blue, the indigo and moving then into intelligent infinity, or the experience of samadhi. This is the experience that each entity seeks within the life path at some point, whether this incarnation or another, for it is the great goal of each spiritual seeker of truth to know the Creator intimately, to become the Creator, to shine the Creator’s Love and Light about one. And the experience of samadhi is that which has the ability to do so.

We thank you for your interest, and as we have not said for so long, this is a good group, and we thank you for requesting information that lies within our realm of inquiry. We have not previously contacted others in this group with the exception of making satisfactory, though limited, contact with the one known as A. We shall therefore attempt to make our vibrations known to the one known as L and the one known as Jim. We would now transfer this contact to the one known as L, asking this entity to feel free to express inner reluctance if it does not desire to be used at this time. We would then make this vibration available to the one known as L. We are those of Yom.

(L channeling)

I am Yom. I come to you in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator and wish to express to you our appreciation for your attentiveness as well as for your consistent striving in your efforts to perceive beyond your illusion. It is our desire to be of assistance to those present whenever possible, and we place ourselves at your disposal that you may call us as one would another self in moments of confusion. We desire to be of assistance whenever possible and will respond if you simply open yourself to our vibration and mentally request our presence.

We shall now transfer our contact to the one known as Jim. We are of Yom, in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator.

(Jim channeling)

I am Yom, and am pleased to greet you again through this instrument in Love and in Light. We have quite a bonanza this evening in the utilization of three instruments, and for this we are most grateful. We realize that we have used a good deal of your time as you reckon it and your patience and comfort in speaking as we have spoken. We at this time would attempt to answer those remaining queries that you may find the value in asking. May we attempt such a query at this time?

L: I’d like to ask a question concerning affirmation. Frequently things or conditions which we desire to occur may be associated with our illusion and place us in a position of advantage in relation to our other selves. For example, one might be considered for a promotion in one’s area of employment and using an affirmation to attain that goal is an act which places one in a position of advantage over others who are being considered for that position. Could you discuss the morality of using affirmation, because I have some qualms in that area.

I am Yom. We may note two points of possible interest. Firstly, within your illusion you are never certain as to whether one position or another is more or less advantageous in the metaphysical sense. This is determined by those lessons which you have chosen to undertake and the services which shall be the fruits of those lessons. As to the morality of such affirmations and desires, within your illusion it cannot be said that one act is more or less good than another, for, indeed, these judgments are reserved for the point of view that is far wider than that which is possible within your illusion.

Secondly, the general nature of the affirmation is to specifically focus the attention, the expenditure of personal energy which is always at your disposal. Indeed, the life pattern itself without such affirmations of a specific nature is an affirmation of a general nature, for whatever you seek and in whatever degree you seek it, you shall eventually discover within your life pattern, for it is indeed true that as ye seek, ye shall find. To bend the will and exercise the faith by forming them around a spoken or visualized affirmation is to make the specific use of those powers that are always yours. This is likened unto utilizing the scalpel of the surgeon as opposed to a cruder technique of achieving the same results.

May we speak in any further fashion, my brother?

L: No, that’s given me a lot to ponder. Thank you very much.

I am Yom. Our gratitude to you, my brother. May we attempt another query?

Carla: I’d like to understand something, because I share L’s concern about ethics. It seems to me that affirmations having to do with working on the self are what you were talking about, and affirmations resulting in power over others or something of that nature, although possible, would be along the negative path. Is this correct?

I am Yom. This is basically correct, my sister, for any tool may be utilized in the positive or negative sense. The tool, however, remains neutral. The choice of its use then lends the, shall we say, coloration of your ethical system.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Yes, because I have known people that you could just say were lucky, but like L says, these are often people who say, “Well, I’m going to get that job—no problem—I’ll get a job; it’ll be a good job.” Or they’ll say, “Everything’s going to be fine,” or they’ll say, “Oh, this cold will be gone in a couple of days.” And they won’t say, “Gee, I hope I get the job,” and they won’t say, “Well, I probably won’t get the job.” They’ll just from within themselves have the buoyancy of spirit to say, “Oh—no problem—I’ll get a good job, I just know it.” And yet they’re not attempting to be negative in any sense of the word. How do you draw the line ethically between that and the negative use of power?

I am Yom, and again we would suggest that we would not draw any line for any entity, but would rather suggest that each entity will determine for itself the motivation for its actions and thoughts. Much within your illusion is shrouded in mystery, including one’s own awareness of one’s own motivations. It is most difficult to untangle the life pattern of any being. One may observe such entities and make judgments for oneself, and yet the value of such judgment is personal unto yourself, for you cannot know the forces that are moving within another, their purpose and their means of manifestation. Each entity undertakes the journey of seeking these inner truths for itself and does well to begin to glean the nature of one’s own experience. Therefore, it is well not to attempt to draw any line for any other being.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Only in noting that in my own experience, the hardest entity to unshroud the mystery of is myself because I don’t have the objective point of view that other people do. I wonder if that’s a common experience?

I am Yom, and, indeed, this experience is shared by all within your third-density illusion, for the catalyst of thoughts, words, and deeds that move through your being is colored in an unique fashion by your own pre-incarnative programming. Thus, what has charge in the emotional sense for you may carry little or none for another. Thus, the bias you have placed within your own being in order to learn and to serve in such and such a fashion is that coloration which you will use as your food and nourishment for your journey of seeking, learning to discover these biases, seeking their roots and then balancing each with its opposite so that your journey may be complete and your lessons and services fully expressed.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Yom, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

G: I have one if no one else wants to speak up. The affirmation and the decree that I’ve heard, the understanding that I have, is that a decree is basically affirmation which is in multiples of three. Is there some reason or some explanation on why the multiples or repetitions of the affirmation being used is empowering? I don’t know if that is clear or not, but that is my question.

I am Yom. We may respond in a general fashion by suggesting that the repetition of any affirmation is likened unto driving the nail deeper into the inner conscious awareness in order that the focus of attention be firmly affixed to that which is desired.

May we answer further, my brother?

G: Yes. Then you’re saying the significance of the decreeing as opposed—with the thought in mind of three repetitions, this is not particularly significant itself, it’s just that repetitions as such will help to deepen that state of openness. Is that what you’re saying?

I am Yom, and this is correct, my brother.

G: Thank you.

I am Yom. We thank you. Is there another query?

L: I have one more quick one for the sake of curiosity. In your discussion, you selected specifically diamonds and rubies as crystals that were specifically more effective. Is there a specific area of use that you would attribute to each of these two crystals? And if so, what are they?

I am Yom. These crystals were selected because of their purity of structure and what is seen in your illusion as the analog to this purity which is the hardness, shall we say, the sureness with which the structure is made, thus they lend themselves well to the general uses which one who is beginning in the study of crystals might begin with. The diamond and the ruby, then, would offer to the beginning student the greater ability to realize effects within the preliminary diagnosis of dysfunction and the basic treatment of such.

May we answer further, my brother?

L: Yes. Is there a capacity to perform in this manner due to their inherent qualities or due to our perception and value placed upon those qualities?

I am Yom. It is more nearly correct to say that their efficacy in diagnosis and treatment stems from the inherent qualities of the crystal. Yet, these qualities are combined with other qualities such as rarity of number and size which tend to make the crystals quite dear within your economic system of valuing.

May we answer further, my brother?

L: No, thank you very much.

I am Yom, and again we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

J: I have read that the entities of Atlantis have used crystals in healing. If this is true, does that mean that they used space/time crystals such as the ruby and diamond? Or does it mean that they somehow tapped the crystals of time/space which were earlier discussed?

I am Yom. The use of the crystal by these entities, or any who would seek to utilize crystals for healing, is accomplished by using a third-density space/time crystal in such a manner that the aura, as you would call it, of the one to be healed would be interrupted long enough that the diseased configuration of mind, body, or spirit could be worked upon by the time/space or metaphysical analog of the one to be healed. If the one to be healed was able to utilize the interruption of its auric fields, and accept the more balanced configuration of mind, body, or spirit, it is at this time that such a healing would be accomplished within the metaphysical or time/space realms, then to be translated to the manifest space/time illusion.

At this time the one serving as healer would then allow the auric field to be closed once again in order that the new configuration of a more balanced mind, body, and spirit would become a part of the one to be healed’s experiential nexus.

May we answer further, my brother?

J: Is it true that the Atlanteans did use crystals for such purpose of healing? I’ll leave the question at that.

Yom: I am Yom. This is correct. May we answer further, my brother?

J: Were pyramids also used in healing in Atlantis?

I am Yom. This is also correct, my brother. May we answer further?

J: Could we today in modern times learn how to use such crystals for healing?

I am Yom. This is correct, and, indeed, many of your people are presently rediscovering these abilities which have always been within the ability of the population of your sphere.

May we answer further, my brother?

J: Would the ruby be considered a solidification of the red-ray light?

I am Yom, and we find that this is much too narrow an interpretation of this crystal’s full nature, for within each crystal, and, indeed, within the ruby lies the full expression of the spectrum of Light, though in many cases there is the outer manifestation of one portion of this spectrum.

May we answer further, my brother?

J: No, thank you.

I am Yom, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: Two real quick ones. First, would a spectroscopic analysis of a mineral, the colors of it, in any way correspond with the colors of the energy centers—question number one. Question number two, does the healing by the crystallized being, without the stone, work just as the healing through the stone?

I am Yom. We find that the analysis of the spectrographic qualities is relatively unimportant and not related to the crystal’s ability to aid in providing healing catalyst. Indeed, to move to the second query, the most important portion of the healing process is the one to be healed’s faith in the possibility of such, combined with this entity’s realization of the fruits of the so-called diseased configuration.

Also to be considered of primary importance—beyond that of the crystal and short of that of the faith of the one to be healed—is the crystallized nature of the one serving as healer, for it is, indeed, the case that each energy center within any entity is likened unto a crystal itself, and when each center is properly balanced, then the one serving as healer may channel the instreaming prana or limitless Light of the one Creator through its green-ray energy center and therefrom through the crystal being utilized, and therefrom to the one to be healed in order that its auric field might be momentarily interrupted.

Carla asked: “First, would a spectroscopic analysis of a mineral, the colors of it, in any way correspond with the colors of the energy centers—question number one. Question number two, does the healing by the crystallized being, without the stone, work just as the healing through the stone?” Yom replied we find that the analysis of the spectrographic qualities is unimportant and not related to the crystal’s ability to aid in providing healing catalyst, and to move to the second query, the most important portion of the healing process is the one to be healed’s faith in the possibility of such, combined with this entity’s realization of the fruits of the diseased configuration. Then Yom said also to be considered of primary importance—beyond that of the crystal and short of that of the faith of the one to be healed—is the crystallized nature of the one serving as healer, for it is the case that each energy center within any entity is likened unto a crystal itself, and when each center is properly balanced, then the one serving as healer may channel the limitless Light of the one Creator through its green-ray energy center and therefrom through the crystal being utilized, and therefrom to the one to be healed in order that its auric field might be momentarily interrupted. On October 17, 1991, Q’uo spoke of the limitless Light of the Creator as a means of healing:

You understand that we are redefining healing as a healing into wholeness and that is different for each entity. Once the red-ray chakra has been cleared and energy from the Limitless Light of the One Infinite Creator is flowing upward into the body of the healer, or the patient, one then encounters the challenges of relationship. And that is why we started, so strangely perhaps, with the urge for each in this meeting to encourage and exhort oneself in positivity, and calm, and serenity with each and every relationship with the self and with others.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Yom, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query?

L: I have one more question, and this may be off the wall or completely off the mark, and if it is, a brief statement to that effect would be sufficient. Would it be correct to state that the individual who is acting in the role as healer attempts to maintain within himself as a crystal a balance of the various spectra of Light, and that the crystal itself acts in the manner of a capacitor, that the healer attempts to project a balanced spectra of Light to the individual to be healed through crystal, the crystal in the manner of a capacitor delays that projection until a balance of the spectra has been attained and then allows it to project, thereby giving what is intended instead of the variations and fluctuations which would be existent in the human crystal at a specific instant?

I am Yom, and we may comment as follows. It is basically correct…

[Tape ends.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “The Creator within us is our very own Soul, and anything that we do, our Soul knows; and if we do it in silence and in secrecy It knows how to reward us openly. But when we do anything of a good nature and do it openly there is first of all the implication that we are doing it, which is not true since God is the author of all good works, and we are at best instruments or transparencies through which God’s grace is appearing. Moreover, subconsciously we want others to be aware of our good works and to praise, admire, or thank us for our generosity and philanthropy as if we of ourselves were good.

When, however, we do our alms secretly, the personal sense of self is entirely absent, and God alone witnesses our good works. Any act of good performed secretly and sacredly attests to the absence of personal sense and the presence of God.

Let us not wear our spiritual heart on our sleeve: let us not boast to people that we have found the secret of communion with the Source of life. Let us not expose our spiritual pearls to those unprepared to receive them for in so doing they may be lost or trampled upon. Let our Light shine by its fruitage rather than be flaunted before people and obscured by a veil of words.

It is not selfish to keep our relationship with God secret because our Light will shine to those prepared to see Light, and our wisdom will be heard by those who have ears to hear, even that which I imparted without words or thoughts.

The spiritual fast is an inward communing with God while abstaining from words or thoughts. It is an abiding in God unobserved by those around us. It is prayer in its higher sense in that it is a refraining from seeking anything of God, yet it is an awareness of God’s grace freely flowing.

A teaching on such a high level of consciousness can never be understood by the human reasoning mind and, therefore, can be obeyed only by those whose goal is spiritual realization. How seldom are these esoteric teachings of Jesus on secrecy openly taught! How seldom is it recognized that there is a spiritual center in every person which is referred to in such revelations as, “Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I have is thine,” or “I will never leave thee nor forsake thee,” or “I am with you always even unto the end of the world.”

How many of us understand the mystery of these teachings? How many of us know that the I is literally in the midst of us and that that I that seeth in secret rewardeth us openly! By contemplation and meditation, we must solve the mystery of the spiritual life, and this we can do only when secretly and sacredly contemplating the nature of the Infinite Invisible which is closer to us than breathing. We must ever believe that the mysteries of God will be revealed to us in the midst of the noise and clamor of discussion argument or theorizing. The hidden mysteries are not hidden from those who understand and obey the teaching of the Sermon on the Mount.”

This afternoon I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some fish food and some bird seed. My second stop was at Kroger’s where I bought some food for myself. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself and three hanging baskets of flowers. My fourth stop was at Concept Cleaning to check to see if my vacuum cleaner had been repaired. My fifth stop was at Speedway Gas Station where I filled Stanley’s tires with air and filled his gas tank with gas. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I picked up a prescription.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 22

The City Of God

We are of the principle of the living Christ, and we greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

For many days the instrument has felt beleaguered and puzzled. And so, we turn the mind of the instrument to patience and waiting. There are times during the life experience—and it is designed in just this way—when the overwhelming nature of experience is such that the conscious mind is pulled away from that great, slow rhythm of the consciousness of Love. The mind, then, is receptive not to the city of God but to the city of man.

Yet that high and holy hill exists in the world as well as outside of it. And it is in quietness and peace of mind that this kingdom is to be seen. Yet also is it to be seen in the beauty that informs each and every work of God and of man. The city of God, that glad place where man may tabernacle with his Creator, lies within as well as in the world to come.

May each who frets and worries sink into quietness and peace of mind, thus to discover the Holy City and God’s will.

We speak to you in love and peace, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then I got myself ready for the day. Today the L/Leema session for today comes from May 18, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am L/Leema, and I greet you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We greet each of you with great affection and thank you for calling us to your group this evening for it is your service to us to allow us to share our humble thoughts with you. And yet, you must know that in some degree we too are channels, and we pray, as does this instrument, that our words may have not only the meager understanding of our experience, but the inspiration of those who are our teachers as well, for are we not all channels of the one infinite Creator? And as we speak, do we not listen? And as you listen, does your heart not speak? We ask you these questions because the question has been asked of us, “What is the place of analytical thought upon the spiritual path of seeking the truth?”

The intellectual mind and the intuitive mind are two sides of one coin. Analysis is a form of speaking, and intuition is a form of listening. And yet, when one is speaking, does one not also have ears? And when one listens intuitively, does one not hear the voice of silence? We shall not over-generalize and say to you that it is impossible to reach a significant degree of, shall we say, enlightenment, for want of a better word, through the singular pursuit of either course. However, it is safe to say that a total dependence upon either the intellect or the intuition leaves one open to the imbalance that might come to one in the physical body standing upon one foot. Each entity who seeks has an unique character and, therefore, an unique way of approaching knowledge.

Now we caution you that knowledge is a word which is constantly misused by us and by anyone who speaks of spiritual knowledge, just as it is only with regret that we use the term enlightenment. However, we use these terms because in your intellectually based society, progress is measured by units of knowledge or degrees of enlightenment. It is our opinion that this method of measuring the walk upon the path of spiritual unfoldment is vastly incorrect and without virtue. This is perhaps the greatest single difficulty with an overdependence upon the intellect, for the presence of the Creator is an experience, not a knowledge. It cannot be said that there is such a thing as the consciousness of the Creator; nor yet would we deny in any way that you may attain it. We would not even deny that practicing this precedence, in other words, awaiting the experience, is repetitive and may, indeed, seem to improve with repetition. However, the Creator is always the same, is singular, is simple, and is not to be learned by degree, by method, or by rote.

The question for this session is what is the place of analytical thought upon the spiritual path of seeking the truth? L/Leema began by saying the intellectual mind and the intuitive mind are two sides of one coin, and analysis is a form of speaking, and intuition is a form of listening, but we shall not over-generalize and say to you that it is impossible to reach a significant degree of enlightenment through the singular pursuit of either course, but it is safe to say that a total dependence upon either the intellect or the intuition leaves one open to the imbalance that might come to one in the physical body standing upon one foot, for each entity who seeks has an unique character and an unique way of approaching knowledge. L/Leema continued by saying knowledge is a word which is misused by us and by anyone who speaks of spiritual knowledge, just as it is only with regret that we use the term enlightenment, but we use these terms because in your intellectually based society, progress is measured by units of knowledge or degrees of enlightenment, and it is our opinion that this method of measuring the walk upon the path of spiritual unfoldment is incorrect, so it is the greatest single difficulty with an overdependence upon the intellect, for the presence of the Creator is an experience, not a knowledge, yet it cannot be said that there is such a thing as the consciousness of the Creator, nor would we deny that you may attain it, and we would not deny that practicing this experience is repetitive and may seem to improve with repetition, for the Creator is always the same and is not to be learned by degree. On April 26, 1981, Hatonn described how the presence of the Creator is felt:

As you know, my friends, to live each moment in the full realization of the Creator’s Love and Light, of the original Truth, is beyond the capabilities of even the most gifted monk of your people and often among ours as well. Many are the moments in each of your experiences when the presence of the Creator seems far and distant, and the Love that surrounds you seems hidden, as though a great cloud had removed it from your environment. Illumination seems to take place not in a steady stream but in flashes, as if lightning had struck, and for just one moment the presence of the Creator is felt.

Let us then swim into the sea of intuition. My friends, you will find that total dependence upon intuition is a total dependence upon a portion of your deep self which is unreliable. Much comes through the intuition which is of extreme merit. Much occurs by seeming intuition which is in fact a product of deep fears, experiences from previous incarnations which have not yet been worked out, and the phantasmagoria of static, shall we say, as if you were between radio stations, as this instrument would call them, and were picking up no clear signal, but a babble of varying messages. So, you see that the mind is to be taken as a whole thing and not split, for the intellect and the intuition are both portions of the mind.

You are not your mind. Your mind is a kind of information processor which works for you as a tool. It is well to understand that the mind has great value in your seeking. It is well to balance your seeking, not shutting out the loud voice of intellect when it offers you new ideas, new questions, new waves of skepticism. It is wise to listen to your intuition, to quiet yourself, so that you may feel and be in a more whole and entire sense, for the heart of yourself is being—not thinking, not feeling—but being. You are consciousness, and that consciousness creates. It has created this moment for you by the work it has done in the past. It will create what you call your future as the work that you are doing at this moment comes into manifestation.

Then L/Leema said let us then swim into the sea of intuition where you will find that dependence upon intuition is a dependence upon a portion of your deep self which is unreliable, but much comes through the intuition which is of merit, and much occurs by seeming intuition which is a product of deep fears, experiences from previous incarnations which have not yet been worked out, and the imaginary images of static as if you were between radio stations and were picking up no clear signal but a babble of varying messages, so the mind is to be taken as a whole thing and not split, for the intellect and the intuition are both portions of the mind. Now L/Leema said you are not your mind because your mind is a kind of information processor which works for you as a tool, and it is well to understand that the mind has great value in your seeking, so it is well to balance your seeking, not shutting out the loud voice of intellect when it offers you new ideas, and it is wise to listen to your intuition, so that you may feel and be in a whole sense, for the heart of yourself is being, for you are consciousness which creates, and it has created this moment for you by the work it has done in the past, so it will create your future as the work that you are doing at this moment comes into manifestation. On January 6, 2018, Q’uo recommended the use of our intuition to solve our problems:

We would recommend that within your meditative state, you look at the existential pain, the moments in which you experience it, the effect upon your mind and your emotions, the effect upon your functioning, the total qualities then, of the pain, looking to any possible source within your memory for this pain. Perhaps it is from an early childhood experience, perhaps you have brought it with you into the incarnation. To answer questions such as these, we would recommend that you use your intuition, which moves between the conscious and the unconscious minds, and brings back information from the unconscious mind to the conscious mind, to direct the activity of thought and behavior. Thus, there may be sometimes when retiring into yourself for self-reflection and illumination from the unconscious mind would be indicated.

The tool of intuition is one which may be applied by the remembering and recording of your dreams and visions, by the listening to what this instrument would call the still small voice, the voice that says, “This is good; this is not so good. This feels right; this does not feel right.” An intuitive person often has no verbalized reason for these feelings. It is always well to recognize them and give them respect. It is also well to use the tool of the intellect insofar as that skill is a portion of your native character, for the intellect can analyze dreams and visions, can examine thoughts and find from them the harvest of Love therein, can temper the feelings of “should” and “could” and “yes” and “no” with sometimes an encouraging and sometimes a cautionary analysis of those intuitions. Many a baseless fear has been removed because of the work of the analytical portion of the mind.

However, neither analysis nor intuition can offer the heart of seeking, for the heart of your seeking is found in that fathomless portion of yourself which seeks, and wills to know and has the faith that there is something to know. These things are gifts. The mind has been earned. It is a product of many, many incarnations, and it reflects your biases. Neither intellect nor intuition often reach deep enough to uncover faith and will. So, turn, then, from the consideration of clear minds and clear intuition long enough to gaze at the mystery of the new moon. You have the will to seek. And what do you seek? Many would say truth; many would say Love; many would say the Creator. We say to you, there are no words, for the Creator is mystery infinite and invisible. It cannot be reached by analysis. It cannot be sounded through intuition. It is closer to you than that, for you are that which the Creator is, the one original Thought. That one great original and creative Thought is something that we can find no word for but Love in your language. You are the consciousness that is Love. The consciousness that you seek in knowing the Creator is Love. You are what you seek and you seek what you are.

L/Leema continued by saying the tool of intuition is one which may be applied by the recording of your dreams and visions, by listening to what Carla would call the still small voice that says, “This feels right; this does not feel right,” so an intuitive person has no verbalized reason for these feelings, but it is always well to give them respect, and it is also well to use the tool of the intellect insofar as that skill is a portion of your native character, for the intellect can analyze dreams and visions, can examine thoughts and find from them the harvest of Love therein, can temper the feelings of “should” and “could” and “yes” and “no” with sometimes an encouraging and sometimes a cautionary analysis of those intuitions, for many a baseless fear has been removed because of the work of the analytical portion of the mind. L/Leema went on to say neither analysis nor intuition can offer the heart of seeking, for the heart of your seeking is found in that portion of yourself which seeks, and wills to know and has the faith that there is something to know, for these things are gifts, and the mind has been earned which is a product of many incarnations, and it reflects your biases, but neither intellect nor intuition reach deep enough to uncover faith and will, so turn from the consideration of clear minds and clear intuition long enough to gaze at the mystery of the new moon, for you have the will to seek, and many would say truth; many would say Love; many would say the Creator, but we say to you there are no words, for the Creator is mystery infinite and invisible, and It cannot be reached by analysis, and it cannot be sounded through intuition since it is closer to you than that, for you are that which the Creator is, the one original Thought that is something that we can find no word for but Love in your language, for you are the consciousness that is Love that you seek in knowing the Creator, for you are what you seek, and you seek what you are. In 13.13, Ra said that the Creator is a mystery:

It shall be understood that any portion, no matter how small, of any density or illusory pattern contains, as in an holographic picture, the One Creator which is infinity. Thus all begins and ends in mystery.

What you are doing in seeking is remembering and recapturing that which you knew before anything that is visible was created. For you are old. You are as old as this creation, and you shall continue until its end, when at last you have achieved not only the presence of the consciousness of Love, but that consciousness Itself in such totality that you know longer feel the need for individuality. My friends, we have learned more, experienced more, and been exposed to more than you, and our yearning is just as strong. We seek our source. The tools of analysis and intuition, the tools of mind, are helpful, but the driving force that leads step-by-step, day by day in incarnation by incarnation and density by density back to the one infinite Creator are faith and the will, driven by faith, to walk that path.

We encourage each of you to find, ask for, and seek the grace to acknowledge within yourself the divinity of the consciousness of love within you, to seat that consciousness through meditation and so become a channel for that Love which is the one great original Thought. There is no portion of your mind nor any portion of your experience that will enable you to continue seeking or to continue manifesting Love. The seeking is too wearing and without the strengthening of Love itself, found in the silence of meditation, the feet drag upon the path and one finds a stone which looks to the eye of the dusty traveler more comfortable than the road. One sits down and one pauses and the will fails. And so, it is with manifestation. If one works from one’s human resources, in this illusion of yours, my friends, you are limited and you can only Love so much, you can only give so much, you can only bear so much fruit. Therefore, seek to enrich faith and will that you may become instruments through which the infinite supply of Love can come to you and through you that you may realize at last that you stand already upon holy ground and dwell in the consciousness and presence of the Creator.

We again thank each, especially welcoming one new to this group and greeting her with Love. We would now transfer this contact that there may be an opportunity for queries to be asked. We are sorry to relinquish this instrument, however we are eager to greet the one known as Jim, and so we shall leave the one known as Carla. I am L/Leema.

(Jim channeling)

I am L/Leema, and we greet you each once again in Love and light. We are pleased to be able to speak our thoughts through this instrument and hope that we may be of some small service in attempting to answer those queries which remain within this group. May we then begin with the first query?

C: In the field of Dianetics is the term “engram.” As I understand it, it is those things that have been impressed upon the mind. Could you briefly speak about what exactly an engram is?

I am L/Leema, and we shall attempt to speak upon this subject. As we are aware of the use of this term, for it is analogous to what one may call a blockage of energy centers or chakras which serves to distort one’s perceptions and experiences in a fashion which is somewhat imbalanced. The desire of those who describe such blockage is to remove the blockage that the life-giving energy of the one Creator may move freely through the being, allowing it to manifest its fullest potential. We see these blockages or engrams as that which each entity has chosen before the incarnation in order that during the incarnation certain lessons may have the opportunity of being learned, certain imbalances may have the opportunity of being balanced, and certain services may have the opportunity of being offered.

May we answer further, my brother?

C: No, you gave me plenty to think on. Thank you.

Carla: I’d like to follow up on that because I listened to someone talk about Dianetics for about two hours one time, and the whole idea of Dianetics was for a person to become “clear.” It all sounded very humanistic and unattached to any ethical perception. Could you comment on the goal of being “clear,” that is, having no blockages? Without any ethic?

I am L/Leema. We see the use of the term “clear” in this context as indeed that which seeks the free movement of energy and potential through an entity without there being a choice of direction or polarity. The entity which attempts this process in this fashion is one which must utilize the analytical mind to a large degree. It is much as a ship attempting to move upon the sea from one part to another without the firm operation of the rudder. It is difficult, but not impossible, to remove and balance the blockages programmed for learning and serving without a motivating force, or as it may be called, an ethical stance. We prefer to describe it simply as the making of the primary choice to be of service to others or to self. To have such a choice firmly in mind is most helpful to an entity which seeks to fully utilize the potential which it carries with it. Such a choice serves as the fuel, the primary motivation for accomplishing the work.

However, if an entity is, indeed, successful in achieving the clearing process, as it is called, then it will at some point become apparent to such an entity through its cleared perceptions that such a choice is necessary in order for its fullest potential to be realized, for though at a great and distant point removed from this third-density illusion, there will be the joining of polarities in a more neutral configuration, shall we say, within the illusion your peoples now inhabit, the making of the choice is quite necessary for progress upon the path of seeking the truth to continue.

Carla asked: “I listened to someone talk about Dianetics for about two hours one time, and the whole idea of Dianetics was for a person to become “clear.” It all sounded very humanistic and unattached to any ethical perception. Could you comment on the goal of being “clear,” that is, having no blockages? Without any ethic?” L/Leema replied we see the use of the term “clear” in this context as that which seeks the free movement of energy and potential through an entity without there being a choice of polarity, so the entity which attempts this process in this fashion is one which must utilize the analytical mind, for it is like a ship attempting to move upon the sea from one part to another without the firm operation of the rudder, and it is difficult to remove the blockages programmed for learning and serving without an ethical stance, so we prefer to describe it as making the primary choice to be of service to others or to self, for to have such a choice firmly in mind is helpful to an entity which seeks to utilize the potential which it carries with it since such a choice serves as the primary motivation for accomplishing the work. L/Leema went on to say if an entity is successful in achieving the clearing process then it will become apparent to such an entity through its cleared perceptions that such a choice is necessary in order for its fullest potential to be realized, for though at a distant point removed from this third-density illusion, there will be the joining of polarities in a more neutral configuration within the illusion your people now inhabit, the making of the choice is quite necessary for progress upon the path of seeking the truth to continue. On August 14, 1983, Latwii described some parts of the path of seeking the truth:

We may be of some small aid in this area by suggesting that each who joins a circle of seeking such as this circle will take from the information given that which has meaning to the entity. Each will hear in some fashion that is most helpful to that entity’s journey of seeking the truth, no matter what is spoken and generally available. In your particular case, the turn of your mind and seeking of recent time, as you call it, desires that nourishment which is of a most unique and personal nature. Therefore, it is the case that you seem not to hear the words, yet upon a deeper level receive the sustenance, and are not consciously aware of the information verbally transmitted. This is your pattern of seeking at this time. The process entails a somewhat deeper level of meditation which may have as an aftereffect the numbing or the making inoperable of certain portions of the physical vehicle.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am L/Leema, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

C: Then to be clear is to be in a static kind of state?

I am L/Leema, and we would describe in inadequate terms the state of being clear, as we understand its usage in this philosophy, as being likened unto what we could describe as an entity sitting within one of your automobiles after having perfectly cleaned and readjusted each portion of the engine and transmission so that the automobile would move perfectly upon your roadway if it had a direction in which to move. The choice of direction and the motivation for the choice then become necessary for the driving entity to make. Thus, the point is not so much static—in that movement is not possible—but is a point awaiting choice, that movement may then result.

May we answer further, my brother?

C: No, thank you.

I am L/Leema, and we thank you again, my brother. Is there another query?

C: With second-density creatures, with those far shorter life spans, when one lifespan is over, is there a very long period of time until they reincarnate if they reincarnate back into second density?

I am L/Leema. We look upon the great variety of creatures which inhabit your second-density illusion, from the tiniest single-celled creature to the greatest mammals, reptiles, and beings which you call trees, and we see that there is within these creatures a great variety of time span, as you would call it, which would separate one incarnation from another. For some there is a great portion of time, as you would mark it, that passes between one incarnation and another. For others the time is quite short.

Is there a more specific way that we may speak to this topic, my brother?

C: I feel that I’m getting a repeat as far as the second-density creatures that we have close to us in the family. More specifically, I feel the same entity is showing up in feline form…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am L/Leema and am again with this instrument. The phenomenon of which you speak, my brother, is one which is found at the highest level of the second density, that is the phenomenon of what your people call the pet. It is, indeed, true that due to the process of investment of identity upon these second-density creatures by their companions which you call owners that they oftentimes will choose after one incarnation is complete to move again into the life pattern of those they have grown to love and who have invested them with their Love. Thus, your perception that there is a returning to your family of an identity in second density is correct, and is often accomplished within your illusion in precisely the manner you have described in order that the second-density creature may be further invested and may eventually achieve its own graduation, shall we say, and begin an incarnation at some point within the third-density illusion, having received enough Love and given enough Love to have marked its own identity or self-conscious awareness, which is the beginning hallmark of the third-density creature that is known as the human being.

May we answer further, my brother?

C: No, thank you.

I am L/Leema, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: Well, L/Leema, if I can read this, there will be another query.

L of Long Island, New York… I can’t read it, so I can only ask one of the two questions, which is just as well. I’ll ask the next one next week when I memorize it. The one I remember is this question—and I hope that I get it right. L has been experiencing people commenting to her about conversations that she had with those people, things that she said when she was with them and so forth, when in fact she has been someplace else. She always has the sensation of being in her body doing what she’s doing where her body is and so forth, but having a “funny feeling”—she doesn’t describe it any more than that, I think, and she knows that it’s occurring. But she doesn’t know whom she’s seeing or what’s she’s talking about. She only finds that out later. Apparently, the advice that she gives is considered helpful. Her question is: Would it be helpful to her own spiritual development at this point for her to go more seriously and deeply into this phenomenon, and if so, how would it be spiritually helpful for her, and in what direction should she investigate?

I am L/Leema, and we are aware of this query. The phenomenon described is one which is common to those who have sought to be of service to others in the time/space or metaphysical portion of your illusion. Many there are who accomplish this service while in the sleeping and dreaming state, moving at that time to be of aid to others in a similar state. This is the means by which many healings are accomplished and the means by which many teachings may be presented that will nurture the being when the subconscious mind which has absorbed these teachings releases them in a careful fashion to the conscious mind at various times during the entity’s waking experience.

There are also entities among your people who perform this service while conscious themselves but are usually not conscious of accomplishing this service. There is much interaction between entities while conscious that entities are not aware of. The communication network, shall we say, is always in place, and is utilized when the need is felt without the necessity of conscious awareness. The unconscious mind may call, may hear, may move, and may receive without conscious participation on the part of either the one who calls or the one who hears. The one known as L has partaken of this service for a large portion of its incarnation and is now becoming conscious of the phenomenon in a small degree and seeks to enhance its service at this time. We appreciate greatly the desire to enhance this service, but can speak in no specific way as to how this may be accomplished, for it is necessary that such choices be made by this entity as a function of its free will. We may perhaps provide some comfort to this entity by suggesting that it serves well without conscious participation and that the unfoldment of its ability to serve moves in a sure and steady line of evolution.

Carla asked a question for L: “L has been experiencing people commenting to her about conversations that she had with those people, things that she said when she was with them and so forth, when in fact she has been someplace else. She always has the sensation of being in her body doing what she’s doing where her body is and so forth, but having a “funny feeling”—she doesn’t describe it any more than that, I think, and she knows that it’s occurring. But she doesn’t know whom she’s seeing or what’s she’s talking about. She only finds that out later. Apparently, the advice that she gives is considered helpful. Her question is: Would it be helpful to her own spiritual development at this point for her to go more seriously and deeply into this phenomenon, and if so, how would it be spiritually helpful for her, and in what direction should she investigate?” Then L/Leema said the phenomenon described is one which is common to those who have sought to be of service to others in the metaphysical portion of your illusion, for many there are who accomplish this service while in the sleeping and dreaming state, moving at that time to be of aid to others in a similar state, and this is the means by which many healings are accomplished, and the means by which many teachings may be presented that will nurture the being when the subconscious mind which has absorbed these teachings releases them in a careful fashion to the conscious mind at various times during the entity’s waking experience. L/Leema went on to say there are entities among your people who perform this service while conscious themselves but are usually not conscious of accomplishing this service, and there is much interaction between entities while conscious that entities are not aware of because the communication network is always in place, and it is utilized when the need is felt without the necessity of conscious awareness, for the unconscious mind may receive without conscious participation on the part of either the one who calls or the one who hears, for L has partaken of this service for a large portion of its incarnation and is now becoming conscious of the phenomenon in a small degree and seeks to enhance its service at this time, so we appreciate the desire to enhance this service, but we can speak in no specific way as to how this may be accomplished, for it is necessary that such choices be made by this entity as a function of its free will, but we may provide some comfort to this entity by suggesting that it serves well without conscious participation, and that the unfoldment of its ability to serve moves in a sure and steady line of evolution. On March 8, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the nature of our unconscious mind:

The unconscious mind, however, works not so much upon the catalyst, as does the conscious mind, as it provides the conscious mind information in various areas which very likely are the areas of use of catalyst by the seeker. However, the unconscious mind may also provide information which lies somewhat outside of the realm of the patterns or lessons. The use of the catalyst is by the consciously seeking entity. For example, the unconscious mind may be used in the manner of which we previously spoke to engage in the problem solving, as we believe you call it, where information is requested that would allow a completion of thought and activity to occur or another step upon this journey to be taken.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: I wouldn’t speak for L. I feel sure that when she reads this, she will ask further if she does have a question. On my own, I would like to follow up on when L was here. When I took a look at her hand, I discovered that although she had a strong line of protection in her birth hand, the hand that experience had lined had removed that line of protection and had confused what palmists call the line of destiny. And because of this mechanical way of looking at someone’s path, it occurs to me to ask just on my own, in general, if one person is setting out to be of service and does not have native protection in a strong degree, what would be most helpful to do to ensure that as one polarizes, one is also protected?

I am L/Leema, and we would remind you, my sister, that the polarity of service to others is one which contains a great deal of protection. The fruit of service to others is that which is guarded by the Light of those who observe the movements within your illusion from outside of your illusion. Within this general arena of protection, shall we say, the one who seeks to be of service to others may invoke this Light at any time the need is felt. At all times it is recommended that for the greatest protection, the one who seeks to serve others may attempt with a full and joyous heart to see the Creator in all beings and events which come before its notice, to seek the Light, to praise it and to rejoice in the opportunity to be of service. In this frame of being and attitude of seeking to serve, one bathes oneself in the armor of Light, that which is, and that which is not, the darkness, then becomes illumined and becomes as that which is Light. Thus, the Light speaks to itself and knows no fear or foe, for all is seen as one. The truth is known as the light is called.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: I think you’re tremendously eloquent tonight, L/Leema. Thank you, no. I do have one for the road if the instrument still has enough energy to answer one question.

I am L/Leema, and we are happy to be able to utilize this instrument for another query or two.

Carla: I only have one, I think. And that is—okay, we’ve asked before about palmistry and things like that, and the answer is phenomena are phenomena, and that’s cool; and it’s sort of a guideline thing; it doesn’t mean that your fate is fixed; it’s just sort of a general lay-of-the-land kind of way of looking at things. But I’ve been looking at peoples’ palms for a long time. L had a very clear one—very few lines, very well marked. But I’ve seen this before in looking at peoples’ hands, people that are seeking. Often the birth hand is very clearly marked with a line of destiny and a line of protection running right along side it happily, and then somehow, somewhere in life, the protection goes, and the destiny becomes a little bit cluttered or perhaps even broken. In L’s case it was actually vanished. And she said it just vanished within the last six months.

That isn’t the point. The question is: If one’s protection is native from birth, it’s in the birth hand, what in the world happens in the person’s being or consciousness that blocks that innate, inherent, inborn angelic protection from showing up in the actual experience? Is it a choice made consciously that is athwart the intended lesson to be learned? And if it’s not, could you comment at all on this phenomenon? If it’s a stupid question, just say so and don’t answer.

I am L/Leema, and we are happy to respond to this query which is not in the least lacking in sense. There are instances in which the incarnation and its purpose will be realized to a sufficient degree at a point within the incarnation that arrives sooner than expected, shall we say. When this occurs, a conscious choice may be utilized or a pre-incarnative parallel program may be invoked to, shall we say, up the ante, to make more opportunity for learning and serving available by presenting a greater degree of difficulty, shall we say, within the life pattern. The juggler may do quite well with both hands operating freely. However, by adding more objects for two hands, or by removing one hand, the difficulty is increased. The difficulty, however, is also that which offers greater opportunity.

Thus, the entity with great native protection surrounding its incarnational pattern, having achieved a large measure of its goals with such protection in place, may then seek to strengthen its will and faith by removing a significant portion of that native protection, as you have called it, in order that the will to continue to serve, and the faith that means to serve shall be provided are both strengthened in a manner which would not be possible if the incarnation moved with the ease provided by the native protection.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you. That’s very helpful. Thank you.

I am L/Leema, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am L/Leema, and as it seems that we have exhausted the queries for this evening, we shall with great joy and thanksgiving take our leave of this instrument and this group. We thank each for inviting our presence and allowing us to serve in our humble way. We remind each that we are but your fallible brothers and sisters in the seeking of truth. Take those words that we have spoken that have value in your own journey and use them as pleases you, and if we have spoken any word which does not ring true, please disregard it without a second thought. We wish to place no stumbling blocks upon the path of another’s seeking.

We shall be with this group in your future, as you call it, and look happily forward to that time. At this time, we shall leave each of you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as L/Leema. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Only by abiding in the inner sanctuary can the return to the Creator’s house be accomplished because in meditation the ego or personal sense of “I” – that Adam who lives by the sweat of his brow—is still. It is not claiming power, understanding, or wisdom. On the contrary, it is taking an attitude of humility, as if to say,
I am insufficient, incomplete, inharmonious, and so now I turn to the Source of my being, to That which is greater than I.” By our stillness, we indicate our humility.

Customary prayer makes one superior to God because it tells God what it wants and usually when it wants it. It sets up the ego because it dares to try to influence God on one’s behalf or in behalf of another. But in the silence of meditation, the prayer is:

I do not ask You to serve my purpose, to do my will, or my wish, or my bidding. I am Your servant—do what You will with me. Teach me; feed me; direct me. You are closer to me than breathing. You know my needs, and it is Your good pleasure to give me the kingdom. Therefore, I wait upon You.

In this waiting, a vacuum is created, and the ego is in abeyance. The personal sense of self with its desires, wishes, hopes, and ambitions fades away, and then there is room for that transcendental spark to be kindled. There must be humility, before the Spirit of the Lord can be upon us. So it is that when we pray in secret, realizing our oneness with the Creator and that, because of that oneness, all that the Creator has is ours by divine inheritance and, therefore, it is our Creator’s good pleasure to give us the kingdom, we then  need no longer look to any person for reward, compensation, gratitude, co-operation, or affection. When we understand our relationship with the Creator, we learn to mold every thought and deed in accordance with the Creator’s will.

The nature and purpose of secret prayer is little understood in the religious life of men and women today. Secrecy, however, is as potent as silence. Actually, it is the key to spiritual success, and without secrecy, spiritual demonstration is impossible.”

This afternoon I visited my neighbor who lives in a care home in Mount Sterling, Kentucky. I brought her a chocolate milk shake, which is her favorite treat. Then I showed her picture of her yard, her home across the street from me, and her gardens. I also showed her pictures of my gardens. I also showed her pictures of Terrapin Hill where we had our Homecoming Gathering last week. We talked for a while, and after about an hour I gave her a hug, told her that I love her, and then I drove back home.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 21

Burdens Laid Down In Faith

I am of the principle of the Love of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of that divine Love.

The instrument experiences much confusion at this time, and we find it very difficult to channel through her. The Holy Spirit, with its fiery strength, is perhaps for many a dim voice, heard with confused ears. We come in the name of Love, and yet Love itself is not a plunderer. Rather, we await the opening of the door of confusion and the removal of inner tension.

There is, in those who are confused, a feeling that all things must be held together by the self. Yet we say to you that there is no swifter road for the Spirit to enter than that road made by the faithful seeker who lays down control of a difficult situation and says with a whole heart, “Not my will, but Thine.” Then it is that we who are single as a flame and yet several and multiple as many tongues of fire may come in and lighten the darkness of confusion with Love. May burdens be laid down in faith by many this day.

We leave this instrument in the hope of peace, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Nona, L/Leema, and Latwii channelings for this session are from February 23, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am Nona, and we come to this group due to the great cry of one of this group who is not here. We come to you in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator and are most grateful to this instrument for allowing us to, shall we say, speak or intone through her. Also, we are grateful to those of L/Leema who have allowed us to be first, for there is some urgency in this calling which, as we have said, is not of the group in this room but for another.

[Carla channels a healing melody from Nona.]

(Carla channeling)

I am L/Leema, and I greet you, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. It is a great privilege to be called to your group, and we thank you for the opportunity of being of service to you, for it is your service to us to allow us this great privilege. We shall speak tonight of the positive, the negative, and the neutral; of the proton, the electron, and the neutron; of serving, of receiving, and of being. Of the positive, and the negative, and the neutral we feel that we need only say that each will have their own idea, and an approximately accurate one it is of the meaning of these words. In metaphysical terms, positive equals that which radiates or gives, emits or shares. In metaphysical terms, that which is negative is that which attracts or takes or enslaves. When we come to speak of what this instrument thinks of as fundamental building blocks—that is, atoms of your physical illusion—we find this instrument ill-equipped with the vocabulary sufficient for an elegant exposition of the subject.

Metaphysically speaking, however, we ask you to consider the great starry sea of space and star which you view now if your eyes are open and gazing skyward, for it is the nighttime upon this portion of your planet at this time. We do not wish to compare stars to that which is negative and positive, and yet we say to you that the one who looks into the heavens is gazing at a multiplicity of atoms in the larger sense. The model holds steady for the so-called atom and the difference between positive and negative will one day be found to be a part of your physics and is linked with what is now an incomplete and incorrect field, that being gravitation.

In this session L/Leema spoke of the positive, the negative, and the neutral. They began by saying we shall speak of the positive, the negative, and the neutral; of the proton, the electron, and the neutron; of serving, of receiving, so we feel that each will have their own idea, and an accurate one of the meaning of these words, for in metaphysical terms positive equals that which gives, but in metaphysical terms, that which is negative is that which enslaves, so when we come to speak of what Carla thinks of as the atoms of your physical illusion, we find that she is  not equipped with the vocabulary sufficient for a definition of the subject. Then L/Leema said metaphysically speaking, we ask you to consider the starry sea of space and the star which you view now if your eyes are open and gazing skyward, for it is the nighttime upon this portion of your planet at this time, so we do not wish to compare stars to that which is negative and positive, yet we say to you that the one who looks into the heavens is gazing at a multiplicity of atoms in the larger sense, and the model holds steady for the atom, and the difference between positive and negative will one day be found to be a part of your physics and is linked with what is now an incorrect field, that being gravitation. On September 27, 1979, Latwii described gravitation:

Gravitational attraction, as you call it, which you experience, is the result of what you might call planetary philosophy, due to general configuration of mind, the population of your planet, both incarnate and discarnate. Certain level density, what you call physical matter, is condensed out of surrounding space, condensed in such a way, in such an intensity you might say, so as to reduce the intensity of gravity that you experience. All particles are condensed or pushed towards the center. This push or condensing force is philosophical in nature. A less intense philosophy would generate a less intense grip. Gravity is more an emotional thing than it is a physical thing in its origin. Your planet has a uniquely strong gravitation force. This is because of intense philosophical or emotional condensing action. Put in another way, the need for the dense physical experience, of those entities trapped in your vortex experience, is such that they create the intense gravitational force that they now experience.

Let us look closer at some systems within galaxies. There in a sun system you may see several planets in an energy shell that binds them tightly to the star to whom they are attracted. We say to you that that which is termed the neutron, which seems to take up a great and vast majority of the actual matter or energy of an atom, is that which is lost in Love, or to put it more scientifically, it is that Thought or Logos which is uncreated, and thus is neither positive nor negative but remains at rest within the unmanifested mystery and personage, if you will, of the one infinite Creator.

Now let us carry this analogy more firmly into metaphysics, for we may assure you that far more of your own life within this illusion and far more of your seeking within that life is likewise lost in the Creator, safe within the Kingdom of Heaven, if you will, than any can realize while bound within the illusion, which makes it seem as though there is an endless series of things which are good and things which are bad. There may be things that do not matter, but it is seldom, my friends, that the value of the great majority of the self is ever seen, appreciated or used. it is seldom, my friends, that the value of the great majority of the self is ever seen, appreciated or used

L/Leema went on to say let us look closer at some systems within galaxies, and in a sun system you may see several planets in an energy shell that binds them tightly to the star to whom they are attracted, so we say the neutron, which seems to take up a majority of the energy of an atom, is that which is lost in Love and that Logos which is uncreated, and is neither positive nor negative but remains at rest within the unmanifested mystery and personage of the one infinite Creator. Then L/Leema said let us carry this analogy into metaphysics, for we assure you that more of your life within this illusion, and more of your seeking within life is lost in the Creator, safe within the Kingdom of Heaven than any can realize while bound within the illusion, which makes it seem as though there is a series of things which are good, and things which are bad, so there may be things that do not matter, but it is seldom that the value of the majority of the self is ever seen, or used. On April 12, 1981, Hatonn described the Kingdom of Heaven:

The Kingdom of Heaven is that place one reaches when one understands and shares the existence of oneness in this universe. Just as in a well exercised and cared for body on your plane, all cells work joyfully and share one set of vibrations, so also could be represented the Kingdom of Heaven.

How wonderful each of you is, my friends, how full you are of the Creator, how at one with the Creator you truly are, how joyful is the greater part of you. Yet it is a part that cannot speak to your conscious self; and it is a part that cannot be taught; it is a part that is not of time and not of space. Within it lies your future, for from its infinite regions, you yourself will require some small portion for each lesson which you accept the responsibility of undertaking and if possible, completing. In other words, my friends, that which is neutral, that which is your neutron, that which is of the Logos within you, waits and waits without time. My friends, each of you has one or more things which are desired at this particular juncture, yet the time has not yet come for this lesson to be undertaken. We ask you, therefore, to take the lesson of the atom to heart. Sometimes it is time to wait, for that which is unmanifest cannot be pushed, or pulled, or bullied. The rhythm of the Creator is such that only in the Creator’s time, which is your inner time, shall your lesson emerge from timelessness and act out its drama upon your world’s stage, and then you shall learn and know, and you shall go on and again you will wait. But for each of you now, there is waiting to be done.

We suggest, therefore, that you wait happily, knowing that that which is necessary for you to do is single, for that which you must do is ask, for is it not written in one of your holy works, “Ask and it shall be answered.” Therefore, we always and ever caution seekers to be careful of that which they ask, for in good time that which is asked will be received. Be sure that you are asking for that which you truly desire. We would say this in closing. Many are the notions that seekers have of the appropriate fruits of seeking. The products of seeking in many persons’ opinions are quite visible, often dramatic and most astonishing. Each seeker naturally wishes to be of service, to advance in seeking, to develop as a spiritual personality, and so forth. And yet we ask you to look at some of those whose lives have produced a content of speaking and action which people have followed for many of your years.

Now L/Leema said how wonderful each of you is, and how at one with the Creator you are, and how joyful is the greater part of you, yet it is a part that cannot speak to your conscious self, for it is a part that cannot be taught because is not of time or space, so within it lies your future, for from its infinite regions, you will require a small portion for each lesson which you accept the responsibility of completing, but in other words that which is neutral is the Logos within you which waits without time, yet each of you has one or more things which are desired at this juncture, but the time has not yet come for this lesson to be undertaken, so we ask you to take the lesson of the atom to heart, for sometimes it is time to wait, for that which is unmanifest cannot be pushed, for the rhythm of the Creator is such that only in the Creator’s time, which is your inner time, shall your lesson emerge from timelessness and act out its drama upon your world’s stage, and then you shall learn and know, and you shall go on, and again you will wait, but for each of you there is waiting to be done. Now L/Leema said that you wait happily, knowing that which is necessary for you to do is single, for that which you must do is ask, for is it not written in in your Bible, “Ask and it shall be answered,” so we caution seekers to be careful of that which they ask, for in good time that which is asked will be received, so be sure that you are asking for that which you desire, and we would say many are the notions that seekers have of the fruits of seeking, for the products of seeking visibly are astonishing, and each seeker wishes to be of service and to develop as a spiritual personality, yet we ask you to look at some of those whose lives have produced a content of speaking and action which people have followed for many years. On June 20, 1980, Latwii described the nature of our spiritual personality:

The mind is a function of the spirit which is an amalgam of the effects that a wealth of experiences in various incarnations have had upon the basic spiritual personality. This mind is a collection of biases, emotions, and feelings. Depending upon the uses to which the mind has been put in prior incarnations, it may consist of a large intellectual factor or little intellect. It is, however, a mind function rather than a brain function. However, standing between mind and brain is that which you call the will. If a person does not use the faculty of their will there will go into effect an automatic metaprogram which will cause that person’s mind to become linked to his brain in a fashion predetermined by his circumstances.

Let us look at Gautama Siddhartha. This entity was a king among men. It sought the truth, and it gave its fruits most productively when, after many adventures, it ferried people from one side of a river to another. We ask you to look at the entity known to you as Jesus of Nazareth. This entity did not even start incarnation as a king, but was without pretension from birth, living as a carpenter and a carpenter’s son, walking about in the dust and heat of desert land, and dying along with two petty criminals. Where are the fruits of these lives which were so dramatic? Put yourself in either of their places and attempt to define just when it would be that you would know that your life had become spiritually productive. The secret that these two extremely compassionate and wise entities shared was the secret of waiting, of metaphysical neutrality, so that one met each circumstance with spiritual freshness, with a vivacious Love that pierced the seeming tension and dissolved positive and negative so that all was Light and Love.

L/Leema continued by saying let us look at Gautama Siddhartha who was a king among men, so it sought the truth, and it gave its fruits productively when it ferried people from one side of a river to another, and we ask you to look at Jesus of Nazareth, yet this entity did not start incarnation as a king, but it was without pretension from birth, living as a carpenter and a carpenter’s son, walking about in the dust and heat of desert land, and dying along with two petty criminals, so put yourself in either of their places and attempt to define when you would know that your life had become spiritually productive, so the secret that these two compassionate and wise entities shared was the secret of waiting, of metaphysical neutrality, so that one met each circumstance with spiritual freshness, with a vivacious Love that pierced the seeming tension and dissolved positive and negative so that all was Light and Love. On May 2, 1999, Q’uo how we may become spiritually productive:

There is tremendous advantage to be gained in working with many spiritual practices, and one of the things that spiritually awakened beings do is find and employ spiritual practices that feel useful, and fertile, and productive. But, you see, when you are thinking about becoming more spiritually productive, you are thinking about being spiritual in the same way that you would think about finishing your physical labor for a given period. It is the work ethic of your culture carried over into the spiritual life. Again, we say, we are not in any way attempting to discredit those efforts which you make to become a better spiritual being. It is simply to point out that what you are spiritually will express itself the most clearly when there is no thought taken as to how one is doing spiritually.

Those lives which are dramatic are neither more nor less capable of being spiritually productive as those lives which seem to be prosaic and full of that which is daily and mundane. The eyes to see, the ears to hear and the hearts to understand lie in that part of yourself that has never left the Logos and that is waiting to be potentiated by your free will as co-Creator, for you are in God and the Creator is in you. We shall wait with you, my friends, in joy and without anticipation so that we may, as you, be surprised by the even greater joy of action within the Love and the Light of the One who is all. Never attempt to spin your electrons or to gather your protons so that you may gain more electrons—no, no, my friends—this is not the way to spiritual productivity, for that is not a shell, it is a situation which you shall inherit when the waiting is over for now. It is something you shall experience in the moment, and then you shall wait again in joy, in peace. Know yourselves as powerful beings. There is no circumstance which was not given you by your own self for a reason. Wait. And the time shall be ripe and the lesson learned.

Now L/Leema said those lives which are dramatic are neither more nor less capable of being spiritually productive as those lives which seem to be uninspired and full of that which is daily and mundane, for the eyes to see, the ears to hear, and the hearts to understand lie in that part of yourself that has never left the Logos and is waiting to be potentiated by your free will as co-Creator, for you are in God, and the Creator is in you, so we shall wait with you in joy and without anticipation, so we may be surprised by the greater joy of action within the Love and the Light of the One who is all, but never attempt to spin your electrons or to gather your protons so that you may gain more electrons, for this is not the way to spiritual productivity, but it is a situation which you shall inherit when the waiting is over for now, and it is something you shall experience in the moment, and then you shall wait again in joy, in peace, yet know yourselves as powerful beings, for there is no circumstance which was not given you by your own self for a reason, so wait and the time shall be ripe and the lesson learned. On January 29, 1989, Latwii spoke of our ability to know ourselves:

We would like you to get to know yourselves, and in the process of getting to know yourselves you shall know the Creator, you shall experience communion with the Creator in the way that you may comprehend. And from that point onward, you shall have a feeling of yourself, a sense of yourself, a comfort within yourself which may nurture you, and strengthen you, and empower you when all around you does seem to be negative and difficult. We would ask each to take it very easy. If there is intensity that is causing difficulty, back away from it. If there is a sluggishness that you feel has paralyzed you, back away from it.

Move to something that makes you merry, that causes you laughter, that moves the rubber band about the soul so that you may breathe, so that you are not constricted. Let yourself have fun; let the child express itself. Then move back with a full heart and single-minded devotion to your goals. Let them be those of service to others, and let your efforts be the best that you can produce. And let there be no emphasis placed upon the outcome of your efforts, for your efforts may fail or succeed, yet it is not important to your own choice-making procedure, as long as you may see that the best which you could do is done, and the outcome does not matter, for when you are expressing from a centered, loving portion of being, you are, in fact, acting as a channel for a higher self, still yourself, yet more beautiful, more focused, certainly more enduring. You are able to shine a Light through yourself, and you are then a great blessing.

We would transfer to another channel within this group at this time. We leave this instrument as a galaxy within a galaxy within a galaxy, and so on to infinity, for that which is true in the microscope is equal to that which is true in the telescope. That which is true in your smallest experience is that which is true in the deepest sense. Life has much of illusion to offer, and you wait in that blessed reality that is the Creator. We wait with you. We leave this instrument. We are those of L/Leema.

(L channeling)

I am known to you as L/Leema, and I greet you again, my friends, in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. We ask your indulgence at this time, for this is our first opportunity to speak to you through this instrument and desire a few moments that we might attune ourselves more efficiently to this instrument’s capacity to communicate our thoughts.

We desire, my friends, not to lecture nor to teach, but simply to share with those present those thoughts which your questions generate, that together your seeking and our own might lead us both to greater perception. My friends, it is the way of the wanderer to arrive without acclamation, for in silence is much work done. Therefore, my friends, those who would act in the role of catalyst both for their own growth and that of their brothers and sisters should consider that their own efforts may serve only to influence unduly those about them, should those efforts be directed toward the turning of a brother or sister to a specific path. To be truly of service, the seeker, the wanderer, does not seek to teach, to lead, or to guide, for to do so would be to exert an influence upon a brother or sister much as those forces described earlier as positive and negative in the physical realm would exert a force upon other minute particles of matter…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(L channeling)

To truly serve, my friends, is not to pull or to tug but simply to exist, to be that which is immune to the pulling and tugging, which of itself seeks not to influence but rather to simply show. It is only in this manner, my friends, that one might purely help a friend, for one may only demonstrate attainment and the values of that attainment by example. We leave you now, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of that which you term the infinite Creator. We are known to you as L/Leema.

(L channeling)

I am Latwii, and I greet you, my brothers and sisters, in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator. My friends, it is a great pleasure to be here as we have been waiting quite impatiently for our opportunity to be with you again. It is always our pleasure to eavesdrop upon such spiritual lectures as those provided by our brothers and sisters of L/Leema, yet we also have the desire to be of service and are quite pleased that it is now our opportunity to do so. At this time are there any questions we may in our humble efforts attempt to answer?

M: Yes, Latwii. We have spoken before. I’m the one from the planetary system Kreeton, approximately 246,000 light years away. My question is, does Kreeton have more than one moon, and does it have a sun like ours, and does it support a third- density experience like unto what we share on the earth plane?

I am Latwii. I am aware of your questions. My brother, it is our desire to answer your questions, yet we feel that we would be somewhat remiss if we did not include within our answer the observation that few entities are capable of claiming only one previous address. However, we shall continue in our efforts to answer your question. My brother, there are two moons in the system which you describe, and the solar disk to which you refer is quite similar in that most Logi seem to originate from the same source.

May we answer you further?

M: Yes. Does the planetary sphere, Kreeton, support a third-density experience that is like unto the one here on the earth plane?

I am Latwii. My brother, the planetary system to which you refer has at a different point in time, as you would describe it, experienced a third-density collective existence. However, this particular entity, as you might describe it, is not currently at the previously mentioned address.

May we answer you further?

M: Yes. In comparison to Earth, how large is this planetary system Kreeton?

I am Latwii. My brother, we assume that you refer to a specific body as opposed to a solar system. The terminology “planetary system” we find somewhat confusing and would request that you clarify this as we are uncertain as to the correct answer to your question.

M: Yes. Assuming that Kreeton is a planet like Earth, would Kreeton be much, much larger than our planet Earth?

Latwii: My brother, the planet to which you refer is of approximately the same dimension. However, as you are aware, one might equally well say that the planets Earth and Jupiter are also of approximately the same dimension. We would, however, further interject that such conjecture, while stimulating to the mind, might be of lesser importance than that existence within which one is currently occupied.

Is there another question?

M: No, thank you.

Carla: Is Kreeton a member of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator?

Latwii: The former occupants of that planet are not yet of that status. It is currently supporting that which might be referred to as early second density in this point in time.

May we answer you further?

Carla: Is it possible that the term “Kreeton” refers not only to a planet but to an entire planetary system?

I am Latwii. That is correct, my sister.

Carla: Are there wanderers from one of the planets of Kreeton to this planet at this time?

I am Latwii. My sister, we feel it inappropriate to divulge such information for the reason that there are those known to individuals present who feel themselves of this particular status. Should this indeed be true, there are more appropriate manners in which this information might be attained for the individuals concerned.

May we answer you further?

Carla: No, I just suspected that in M’s eagerness to get at his home he was remembering a planet which he had helped at a previous time rather than the planet from which he came. I don’t need you to answer that—I was just figuring that since I knew another person who was a wanderer from Kreeton that there was probably another planet that was other than the one that was remembered by M. Thanks for your help.

I am Latwii. We thank you my sister. Is there another question?

M: Yes. In this planetary system, Kreeton, collectively, Latwii, can you tell me how many planets might be in total in the planetary system Kreeton?

I am Latwii. My brother, we would offer to you the number five.

Is there another question?

M: I felt Latwii, always, that I am a wanderer from the planetary system Kreeton. Is it possible to divulge the name of the planet that I may have visited at one time or helped?

I am Latwii. My brother, it is our desire to be of assistance at all times. However, we are sure that you understand that the information you seek is that which should be sought from within, for it is our desire to avoid interfering with an entity’s path.

May we answer you further?

M: Yes. Do the five planets in the planetary system Kreeton, do they support densities one through six? Or maybe just one planet out of the whole group? Or all of them?

I am Latwii. My brother, the potential exists for all planets to support all densities, for as you are no doubt aware, the abilities of the Creator to adapt to specific situations are quite admirable, and the potential always exists for any location to be successfully utilized by any of the Logi. However, to attempt to answer more accurately your question, we would suggest that at this time there are two of the planets of this system currently occupied, and one of the two has recently been vacated, so to speak, by a third-density memory complex. As the conditions were suitable, the newly vacated planet was used for the continuation of the development of a second-density level of evolvement which had been initiated at an earlier point.

May we answer you further?

M: No, you have been most kind, Latwii. Thank you very, very much.

Latwii: We thank you, my brother. Is there another question?

Carla: Yes. In your pattern of answers to the questions from the member of Kreeton, I detect a gentle nudging of the mind of the questioner away from that line of questioning and onto another. And I would like to ask the kind of question which might be another kind of question which you might be able to work with better. And that is, what are the central things for a wanderer to seek, to work on, to hope for, to aim for, within this illusion on planet Earth at this time?

I am Latwii, and my sister, we are quite grateful for the opportunity to attempt to challenge our brothers and sisters of L/Leema for the award of great knowledge. We shall, however, attempt to show our stuff, so to speak, in a less wordy manner. We would offer for your evaluation, therefore, the suggestion first that the role of the wanderer within any existence be examined, for as in the catalyst to which our brothers and sisters of L/Leema referred, the wanderer is that which is injected into a previously developed level of existence so as to increase the intensity of energy without by doing so necessarily being affected by their own introduction into the situation.

One must be aware that the wanderer is in a sense both protected and numbed in a sense, for the wanderer must not be initially aware of the wanderer’s own origin and role. To do so would be to invalidate in advance the efforts to be made by that individual, much as introducing in one of your auto races a competitor who has three times circumscribed the racing field before those present have left the starting mark. In this manner, the wanderer is allowed to begin with the same level of confusion as those among whom he or she arrives, yet because of their previous attainment, finds it more in personal attunement to go within and to seek answers to questions not readily apparent to the society at large within which the wanderer has been injected.

We should point out at this time further that the role of the wanderer who desires to perform effectively is not that of a leader or of a savior but rather as one who single-mindedly follows a path of attainment, for to lead is to attempt to influence other selves. This from the superior vantage point of the wanderer is unacceptable and would cost in polarity, for it is what you would describe as a manipulative effort. It is further observed that the adage often quoted referring to hiding one’s light within a basket is also applicable, for to be effective as a catalyst, the wanderer must further make themselves readily available that their brothers and sisters might see their Light and seek to attain it themselves. In this manner all become followers of that which truly leads rather than most becoming followers of one who is slightly in advance yet has to attain perfection, himself or herself.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

Latwii: Is there another question?

A: Can you just reiterate something on… So you’ve got this wanderer. What kind of seeking do they do and questions do they ask?

I am Latwii. I am aware of your question. My sister, the wanderer, if we correctly construe your question, might be described as “at a loss for worlds,” and spends an early portion or perhaps of the entirely of their life in a state of confusion or puzzlement, the role of that which on your world is referred to as the “stranger in a strange land.” The attainment of the wanderer’s bearings, so to speak, is arrived at with the realization that one has landed oneself within an unfamiliar situation, and that there is no Scotty to beam one back up. At this point, should the wanderer decide to advance along the path of positive polarity, then the wanderer would tend to seek personal development.

We are aware that this seems puzzling in that the similarity between personal development and service to self will be readily available to the questioning mind. However, personal development is a path which might be characterized as the desire to develop positive polarity in a cautious manner that one might avoid unduly influencing their brothers and sisters to the extent of becoming themselves acclaimed as a messiah and becoming the object of respect rather than one who seeks to respect. As you may have guessed, this is quite a row to hoe.

May we answer you further, my sister?

A: So are you saying, in other words, that first of all, they tend to develop themselves cautiously, and in order to do that go within themselves to develop themselves in order to serve others more effectively?

I am Latwii. We would offer one correction, my sister, in that we would suggest that should the wanderer successfully arrive at that point described as “getting one’s bearings,” a successful wanderer might choose the path which you described.

May we answer you further?

A: No, that’s fine. Yeah, I was assuming that they would go with service to others. Yeah, they could go with service to self.

I am Latwii. Is there another question?

Carla: Thanks for coming by.

Latwii: We thank you, my sister. As there are apparently no further questions, we shall offer again our gratitude for the opportunity to join with you and to learn from you. And in the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator we shall bid you adieu. We are known to you as Latwii.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Prayer itself should never be a public display, nor for the purpose of being heard or seen. Prayer is a secret and sacred experience, and, therefore, it must take place within the realm of our own consciousness, and the “the Creator that seeth in secret” will reward us openly.

It is only after we begin the practice of secret prayer, that we learn the efficacy of true prayer and begin to observe the changes that take place in our lives when we have periods every day for retiring to some quiet place where we can enter into a peaceful Silence, and there in secrecy commune with God. The Master taught that our prayers must be addressed to the Father that is within us, and there is no way to reach that center where God is except when we are quiet, peaceful, and serene within. So, it becomes necessary to go into the closet, close the door of the sanctuary and shut out the sounds and sights of the senses that we may touch that Center. Every thought that takes place within our consciousness reaches the throne of God and returns to us. It does not have to be seen or heard. There is only one way in which it can be measured—it must be sacred and unselfish:

Right here within my own being is the Creator, and this Creator knows what thoughts I have; this Creator knows the meditations of my heart; this Creator knows whether I act from a standpoint or from self-interest and hypocrisy.

Within us are the issues of life, and they are decided there. Within us is the entire kingdom of God. That means that within us is the entire kingdom of immortality, eternality, virtue, prosperity, harmony, health, wholeness, completeness, and fulfillment. In our human selfhood, we can never bring that forth because as a human being we are living in terms of effect and not cause, but when a human being learns to make contact with its Source, they are then drawing on the Invisible and is back in Eden.”

As I was feeding the fish early this morning, I noticed that there was no water flowing out of the fountain tube. After I stopped working with my Camelot Journal entry for tomorrow, I went outside and discovered that the tube that was taped to the motor that runs the fountain had come apart from the motor. So, I used a box cutter to cut the duct tape off of the motor and the tube. Then I used duct tape on the end of the tube and tested it to see if it fit very tightly into the motor. Then I pulled it out and put super glue on it and put it back into the opening to the motor. Then I used duct tape to tape the tube to the motor. Then I put the motor and its filter back into the skimmer. Then I used the garden hose to fill the pond with about 6 inches of water which had disappeared overnight. While the water was filling the pond I used scissors to deadhead the flowers in the Ruins Mound Garden. After the water level was where I wanted it, I turned on the fountain and discovered that the fountain was running as high as it could go without going out of the fishpond. Then I replaced the netting on the front of the fishpond and breathed a sigh of relief!

This afternoon I was once again honored to be a co-host on the European Law of One Telegram group. Today I read Ra Session #74. Some of the questions that I was asked were: “What is the source of the Hebrew and Sanskrit languages?” “What is the purpose of the archetypes?” “What is the purpose of Angels?” “How is the exercise of fire performed?” “Have I ever met Andrija Puharich?” and “What are the plans for next year’s Homecoming Gathering?” As always, this was another beautiful session with other spiritual seekers of truth!

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 20

Sins Flee Before Love

I am of the Spirit of the full consciousness of Love, and I greet you in the name of Jesus the Christ. This instrument has little awareness of true holiness this morning.

This is the state of almost every spirit who dwells within the earthly bonds of flesh. It was some time before we were even able to make ourselves known to the instrument ,and this is an instrument trained to recognize coherent spiritual vibration.

The reason for this is the in-turning of the eye of spirit upon the self in order to bemoan what the spirit feels is sinful or full of error. When each spirit causes the flow of generous Love to turn in upon itself in judgment of the self, the flow of Love is forced to a standstill within the judgmental spirit.

It is true that there is no earthly body which is not a creature of flesh. And it is further true that many are the follies of flesh and countless their encumbrances. However, to unstop the flow of Love it is well simply to release each sin perceived and turn with a glad and simple heart towards the direction of the full consciousness of Love. For Love does not come into the sinful being but, rather, sins flee before the full consciousness of Love.

Do not attempt to groom the self to be ready to receive the Spirit of Christ but, rather, open to the Spirit of Christ in the knowledge that every strength will be given by that Spirit for all errors to be removed in due time.

We leave you in the peace of the positive and radiating Love of Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Hatonn and Latwii channelings for this session come from February 16, 1986:

(S channeling)

I am Hatonn. I greet you, my friends, in the Love and Light of the one infinite Creator. We ask your indulgence, our brothers and sisters, for it has been some time that this instrument has channeled our words, and we are grateful that she has been so cautious, for as each of you know, there are those times when the duplicity of vibrations has been mistaken. We are very grateful, and it is with much joy we join you this evening, for the Love and the Light which glows around you is as great a thing for us to behold as it is for each of you to feel.

Many things, my friends, have been happening upon your planet’s surface, much growth of the Light and its balance, for in all things, my friends, as each of you perhaps have heard many times in the past, there is a balance, and there must be that balance. And it is in this that many of your questions may be answered, for the times when doubts arise remember that for all of the darkness that seems to be happening within your illusion, there is that much Light as well, and it is within that Light that each, if it be their choice, will dwell. For we have found, my friends, by our choice that in that Light will each find much joy and peace, for in the path of service to others there is joy.

We would now transfer this contact, as this instrument is experiencing some difficulty in maintaining our contact. I am Hatonn.

(Jim channeling)

I am Hatonn, and we greet you again in Love and Light. We would like to thank the one known as S for offering herself as an instrument for our words. We are overjoyed that we have been able to make contact with an old friend. We rejoice at each opportunity to utilize one who wishes to serve as an instrument in vocal channeling.

We would remind you, my friends, that each of you is an instrument, each of you serves the one Creator in a manner which is very like unto the phenomenon of vocal channeling, as you call it, for each of you with your own unique abilities, interests and desires takes that gift of Love which is yours each day and makes of it an offering that seems upon its surface to be merely another daily round of activities. Yet from the deeps of your own being and from reaches and resources far beyond that which you call your own identity, do you draw the inspiration and motivation to take that enabling force that you call love and form it into each thought that you think, each action that you complete, and each word that you speak.

Thus do you, each of you, all of you, articulate that great unspoken thought that dwells ever present and ready to serve as the base upon which you stand, the palette from which you draw your colors, the canvas upon which you place them and the appreciation within each heart and eye that looks upon your creation. And thus do you provide glorification of the One which dwells in all. The particular type of channeling that you experience this evening as you gather together in your seeking is but one small form of articulation of the one original Thought that is Love. We are privileged to partake in this offering with you, for in this participation do we also discover more about the one Creator and the means by which it may be manifested within your illusion. We spoke of doubt at the beginning of this contact and we would choose at this time to expand somewhat upon this concept, for if what we have just spoken has truth within it, then it must be asked by any seeker of that truth what part doubt plays and why it seems many times that doubt plays such a large part within the process of seeking and experiencing that each of you and your fellow beings experiences in your daily life.

In this session Hatonn spoke of how Love can be used to deal with the difficulties that are faced as we travel our spiritual journey. They began by saying we would remind you that each of you is an instrument, and each of you serves the one Creator in a manner which is like vocal channeling, as for each of you with your own unique abilities, interests, and desires takes that gift of Love which is yours each day and makes of it an offering that seems to be another daily round of activities, yet from the deeps of your being and from reaches and resources far beyond your own identity, do you draw the inspiration and motivation to take that enabling force that you call Love and form it into each thought that you think, each action that you complete, and each word that you speak. Now Hatonn said each of you articulates that unspoken thought that dwells ready to serve as the base upon which you stand and the appreciation within each heart and eye that looks upon your creation, and so you provide glorification of the One which dwells in all, for the type of channeling that you experience this evening, as you gather together in your seeking, is one small form of articulation of the one original Thought that is Love, and we are privileged to partake in this offering with you, for in this participation do we also discover more about the one Creator and the means by which it may be manifested within your illusion, so we spoke of doubt at the beginning of this contact, and we would choose at this time to expand upon this concept, for if what we have just spoken has truth within it, then it must be asked by any seeker of that truth what part doubt plays, and why it seems that doubt plays a large part within the process of seeking and experiencing that each of you experiences in your daily life. On January 30, 1983, Hatonn spoke of the value of doubt:

We would simply comment at this time in response to both queries that it is often the plight and pleasure of the seeker to find the opportunities for increasing service and oneness to be presented in situations which provide the trauma, the doubt, the confusion, and the difficulty in perceiving clearly. This is the nature of any exploration into that which may be called the unknown. Rejoice, my friends, in your doubt, in your confusion, in your frustrations, and in your angers. For they are signposts which alert you to the fact that your seeking is increasing, and the opportunities for knowing the Love and Light of the one Creator are also increased.

Within the cultures of your people at the current level of development of technology, it would seem that much of doubt would have been erased from the daily life and experience of your people. For do you not have shelters to protect you from the elements? Are not the great majority of your people clothed and fed at least to a minimal degree? Do you not have relationships and means of communication with each other? Do you not have pursuits of work and leisure with which to focus your attention? Are there not within your culture areas in which each may find the potential of reward and satisfaction? Are there not many who speak of the one Creator and who provide paths by which a seeker may find that one Creator?

Yes, my friends, you and your people have all these things and more in great abundance, and yet we would suggest that perhaps it is this very abundance of things, of ideas, of entities, of groups, of possibilities, and opportunities that itself seems to provide the basis for much confusion and doubt. For with such great variety available in these areas of seeking of the mind, of the body, and of the spirit, how then does one decide in each particular instance what shall be the choice that is most appropriate for one at any time? In your daily round of activities, from time to time you find the difficulty perhaps due to misunderstanding with one of your fellow beings. There is perhaps the intention of each entity to give of the self in a manner which is unique to the self. The gift perhaps finds little acceptance though the intention be relatively pure. Yet there is the disharmony, the accusation, the harsh and disharmonious words. Then, perhaps, there is silence, the heart being wounded, the mind being confused, the tongue then holds its peace. And the entity goes its way wondering to itself where was the missed step? How was it that one with the intentions one knows one had could give so freely and yet seemingly be so mistaken and misunderstood?

Then Hatonn said within the cultures of your people at the current level of development of technology, it would seem that much of doubt would have been erased from the daily life and experience of your people, for: “Do you not have shelters to protect you from the elements? Are not the great majority of your people clothed and fed at least to a minimal degree? Do you not have relationships and means of communication with each other? Do you not have pursuits of work and leisure with which to focus your attention? Are there not within your culture areas in which each may find the potential of reward and satisfaction? Are there not many who speak of the one Creator and who provide paths by which a seeker may find that one Creator?” Hatonn went on to say your people have these things and more in abundance, and we would suggest that it is this abundance of ideas, of entities, and opportunities that seem to provide the basis for doubt, for with such a variety available in these areas of seeking of the mind, of the body, and of the spirit, how then does one decide in each instance what shall be the choice that is most appropriate for one at any time? So Hatonn said in your daily round of activities you find the difficulty due to misunderstanding with one of your fellow beings, so there is the intention of each entity to give of the self in a manner which is unique to the self, but the gift perhaps finds little acceptance though the intention be pure, yet there is the disharmony, and then there is silence, the heart being wounded, the mind being confused, the tongue then holds its peace, and the entity goes its way wondering to itself where was the missed step? In 54.7, Ra revealed the value of misunderstanding:

If you will penetrate the nature of the First Distortion in its application of self knowing self, you may begin to distinguish the hallmark of an infinite creator: variety. Were there no potentials for misunderstanding and, therefore, understanding, there would be no experience.

Yes, my friends, this is not an unusual occurrence; each of you has had similar experiences far more times than perhaps one cares to remember. And it returns again and again to the mind and to the heart, the wondering how can intentions be purely translated and communication made clear with those with whom one has contact on a daily basis? How can the relationships be smoothed and harmony be found and maintained? How can doubts be overcome and how can the next step be placed with surety on the path of seeking and sharing relationships each with the other?

We suggest to you, my friends, that it might be helpful if one can perhaps, only briefly at first, adopt a somewhat different attitude as one looks at the, shall we call it, metaphysical import or nature of one’s daily life. When you experience the disharmonious relationship, the angry word, the cold and shriveled silence, that what you have is not so much the missed opportunity as a renewed opportunity for that which seems lost. Within your illusion it is not apparent in even the least degree that each is the Creator and that Love binds all as one. Yet if you can within the heart of your being draw upon that realization and look upon each situation in which you find yourself with that point of view or attitude, you will see unfolding before you the limitless opportunities to discover Love, harmony, peace and joy where there seems to be none or very little of these ideals which each shares.

Hatonn continued by saying this is not an unusual occurrence, for each of you has had similar experiences more times than one cares to remember, and it returns again to the mind and to the heart, wondering: “How can intentions be purely translated and communication made clear with those with whom one has contact on a daily basis? How can the relationships be smoothed and harmony be found and maintained? How can doubts be overcome, and how can the next step be placed with surety on the path of seeking and sharing relationships with each other?” Now Hatonn said we suggest that it might be helpful if one can adopt a different attitude as one looks at the metaphysical nature of one’s daily life, for when you experience the disharmonious relationship that what you have renewed opportunity for that which seems lost, but within your illusion it is not apparent that each is the Creator, and that Love binds all as one, yet if you can within the heart of your being draw upon that realization and look upon each situation in which you find yourself with that point of view, you will see unfolding before you the opportunities to discover Love, peace, and joy where there seems to be little of these ideals which each shares. On May 26, 1974, Hatonn revealed the nature of our experiences:

My friends, within meditation make contact with the timeless, the infinite, the eternal truth of creation. Discover the Love and Light of the Creator. It is all about you, and if you are able to make contact it may flow to you and through you so that you are lifted upward along the spiritual path and are finally free of the illusion.

These experiences are necessary to you, my friends. They are simply your means of spiritually growing while you enjoy the physical experience. However, you need not be limited by the difficulties of this illusory existence. While you are learning you may also go within, my friends, and speed your learning considerably by contact with all that there is.

For when you have experienced the smoothly functioning relationship and the either spoken or unspoken joy of sharing time, words, and experience, you are living upon the fruit of a harvest that has been completed, and you now, as you view that which is disharmonious, may take what has been completed and move into a new experience, another opportunity to plant a seed of Love, to nurture it with will and faith, with perseverance, with the kind gesture, the loving word, the respectful attitude, and watch that seed take root. It may be a great portion of what you call time before the seed sends a shoot into the Light of your daily experience, and an even greater portion of what you call time before that plant of Love bears fruit. Yet, is this not what each of you have come to do in some fashion within the incarnation that you now know?

That you have Love and harmony a portion of the time with those about you can become an inspiration that motivates you, shall we say, to plant those seeds in areas that seem to have the most barren of ground, for it is within such seemingly barren soil that the greatest of opportunities may be found. If you look upon the purpose of your incarnational patterns as not so much for experiencing Love as for you to discover and nurture Love where it has not been, then we suggest that you may find that the daily round of activities becomes far more acceptable within your sight, for if one becomes involved enough in the mundane nature of the world about one, it is far too easy to forget that the world about one is more the training ground than the, shall we say, finishing school, for there is the need and the opportunity to work the mind and the heart in the barren fields of your environment that these fields might become as the oasis and produce the life-nourishing waters of Love that may then be offered freely to all about one.

Now Hatonn said when you have experienced the smoothly functioning relationship and the either spoken or unspoken joy of sharing time, words, and experience, you are living upon the fruit of a harvest that has been completed, and you now, as you view that which is disharmonious, may take what has been completed and move into another opportunity to plant a seed of Love, to nurture it with will and faith, and watch that seed take root, and it may be a great portion of time before the seed sends a shoot into the Light of your daily experience, and an even greater portion of time before that plant of Love bears fruit. Hatonn went on to say you have in Love and harmony a portion of the time with those about where you can become an inspiration that motivates you to plant those seeds in areas that seem to have the most barren of ground, for it is within such barren soil that the greatest of opportunities may be found, so if you look upon the purpose of your incarnational patterns for you to discover and nurture Love where it has not been, then we suggest that you may find that the daily round of activities becomes more acceptable within your sight, for if one becomes involved in the mundane nature of the world about one, it is too easy to forget that the world about one is more the training ground than a finishing school, for there is the need and the opportunity to work the mind and the heart in the barren fields of your environment that these fields might become an oasis and produce the life-nourishing waters of Love that may then be offered freely to all about one. On October 13, 2019, Q’uo described the world around us:

This intimacy is a kind of conscious union with the small self, the greater self, and all selves that reflect some portion of the One Infinite Creator. The intimacy that is possible for each entity to experience and express becomes that which is a unifying factor so that when the eyes look upon the world about one, there is less and less division and separation noted and experienced, and instead there is more of the feeling of oneness with all of creation—which is, indeed, the truth of the creation, thus the intimacy of which you speak is a tool which may be utilized to increase one’s perception of that which is the truth, that the One Creator exists in all things, and is there deep within each entity waiting to be discovered, to be expressed, to be loved, and to be experienced as the greater self that exists within the smaller self.

Where you find yourself in your daily round of activities is where you have planted yourself, shall we say, in order that you might tend the field in the most loving fashion that you may. It is not so much the ability you may have to change those about you that is important as it is the ability that you have to look upon those about you in a new way, in a way which gives acceptance and Love as freely as each of you is given the air you breathe, the ground that you walk upon, and the experience that comes before you each day that you draw the free air into your lungs and each day that you find yourself once more moving in a world of seeming confusion, of endless choices and of seemingly multiple confusions and opportunities for misunderstanding. To be able to move one’s own point of viewing from the mundane to the sacred, shall we say, is but a small step within one’s own mental viewpoint, but one which can produce great changes in one’s experience.

These changes, my friends, are those which grow from within your being and are nurtured by that quality that we have called Love, the topic, the only topic, of all our humble words to you over the many years that we have been privileged to speak with you and through you. It may seem far too simplistic an attitude with which to move through your daily round of activities, yet we would remind you, my friends, that the one Creator is simplicity itself. Within your illusion much seems complex. It is as though the one Creator has played hide and seek with Itself and with Love. And yet as each of you is a portion of that one Creator, and as all creation is that same Creator, there is no place beyond your reach where Love may be hidden that you may not find it. Persevere, my friends, and yet persevere with a light heart, knowing that all is truly well, that all things move in Love, that you are an infinitely valuable portion of that Love and of that one Creator and that you cannot err in your seeking of Love. You may discover many and variant ways to seek, to find, and to experience, and yet you shall make no mistakes, for all efforts are born of Love, move within Love, and in some fashion produce Love.

Then Hatonn went on to say where you find yourself in your daily round of activities is where you have planted yourself, in order that you might tend the field in the most loving fashion, but it is not the ability you have to change those about you that is important as it is the ability that you have to look upon those about you in a new way, in a way which gives acceptance and Love as freely as each of you is given the air you breathe, the ground that you walk upon, and the experience that comes before you each day that you draw the free air into your lungs, and each day that you find yourself once more moving in a world of confusion and endless choices, so to be able to move one’s point of viewing from the mundane to the sacred is a small step within one’s own mental viewpoint, but one which can produce great changes in one’s experience. Then Hatonn said these changes are those which grow from within your being and are nurtured by Love, the topic of all our humble words to you over the many years that we have been privileged to speak with you and through you, but it may seem too simplistic an attitude with which to move through your daily round of activities, yet we would remind you that the Creator is simplicity itself, for within your illusion much seems complex, yet as each of you is a portion of that Creator, and as all creation is the Creator, there is no place beyond your reach where Love may be hidden that you may not find it, so persevere with a light heart, knowing that all is well, that all things move in Love, that you are an infinitely valuable portion of that Love and of that one Creator, and that you cannot err in your seeking of Love, so you may discover many ways to seek, yet you shall make no mistakes, for all efforts are born of Love, and in some fashion produce Love. On April 15, 1984, Latwii said that we cannot make an error:

This is a most interesting query, for it appears quite complex, and, indeed, may be such unless one is able to distill the heart of Love from each complexity and therein find the simplicity of Love which is to serve. We may suggest that as foundation to our reply it be stated that there are no mistakes, a phrase which has found frequent utterance in this dwelling, yet let us reaffirm its truth. As you move through this illusion, you cannot err, for each movement serves and each movement teaches. The question then which the seeker must ask is, “How do I wish to serve, and what do I wish to learn?”

We thank each of you for allowing us to speak our simple and humble words, and we shall be with each upon request in your meditations in order that you might experience a deeper vibration of that love of which we have spoken. We shall pause for a moment before leaving this group and move among each that you might experience our vibration. If that be your desire, mentally request that this be so and we shall be honored to be with each. We pause for a moment.

[Pause]

I am Hatonn. It has been our privilege to be with each of you. We leave you now in the Love and in the Light of the One who is All. We are those of Hatonn. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we are also most happy to join you this evening, my friends. We have not had the opportunity to greet this group in Love and Light for some time,  and we take great joy in doing so at this time. We hope that you will be somewhat patient with us as we have been attempting for a portion of your time to work with this instrument in a slightly variant fashion. We are attempting to utilize the word-by-word type of channeling with this instrument in hopes that we might allow it to be somewhat more flexible in its perceiving of our contact. We shall attempt those queries which those present may have brought this evening and we would now ask if we might begin with the first query?

S: I have a question, Latwii. I’m sure that some of those present in this room this evening have dealt with this question before but I would like, if you don’t mind, some information on the subject of what, if any, in your opinion, is the value and/or effects of using what could be termed as a crystal generator to heighten the transmission, perhaps, of this type of contact?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. We feel that we may be of the greatest aid by suggesting that the intention that motivates the use of any gadget of this variety is that which is the foundation principle that will determine the value of such use. There have been many gadgets, shall we say, which have been utilized throughout the history of your cultures upon this planetary influence that have had the purpose of enhancing the abilities of the initiate or the one who wishes to serve as an instrument in the service of others. The desire to serve in as pure a fashion as possible is that factor which determines whether a device such as the one of which you speak will be of any true assistance or not to any individual or group. There is with the use of such a device a potential temptation to see such devices as necessary for such a service to take place. There is also the temptation to utilize such devices for purposes of one’s own gratification, shall we say, for it is true that such devices can be helpful and are indeed powerful when utilized with a strong enough intention. The polarization of the intention, therefore, is that which must be carefully achieved.

May we answer further, my sister?

S: Yes, please Latwii. Would you suggest a diagram of an apparatus such as this to be used? And you don’t have to do it right now, it’s basically a yes or no question.

I am Latwii, and we find that even if we were willing to produce such a drawing, we would be greatly hampered in doing so by the limitations of this instrument’s mental configuration, for not only is this instrument quite untutored in this area, but this particular instrument has some degree of resistance, shall we say, to the use of such devices, and we would be hampered by this mental configuration. We remind you, my sister, that the use of such devices is much as the use of a crutch in some instances for those who have abilities that would remain untapped if there were such a device handy to rely upon.

May we answer further, my sister?

S: If I might ask one more question. I attended a meditation Thursday night. Latwii, I’m going to ask this because I need some outside affirmation, so to speak. Were the members of the Confederation actually present and in attunement with those that were present at that meditation Thursday night?

I am Latwii, and, my sister, it is our desire to be of the greatest service possible in this regard, but we find that the query moves within an area which is sacred unto your own seeking. It is, therefore, with some regret that we must refrain from giving any definitive response, for the decision as to the nature of the experience of…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am once again with this instrument. To complete our response, my sister. This decision must be one which is achieved by your own efforts, for it is just this kind of decision that allows one to exercise one’s own spiritual muscle, shall we say, and grow stronger in discrimination. If we were to give a definitive response, we would be removing from you the opportunity to accomplish that which you have set before yourself, and we would, in our humble opinion, not be serving as well as we can serve by refraining from a definite response.

May we answer in any other fashion, my sister?

S: No, Latwii. By your answer you have answered, and I thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we thank you very much as well, my sister, for allowing us to speak. May we attempt another query?

J: Yeah. What was the cause of the disappearance of the colony of Roanoke?

I am Latwii. We shall attempt a response, though we are not certain that this instrument is capable of transmitting that which we shall give. We shall pause for a moment to deepen this instrument’s state.

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We find that the entities of which you speak were those who had for many incarnations moved as a group in the service of the one Creator as those who partook in a, what you may call, tradition or mystery school which had the purpose of serving in the capacity of generating certain potentials in the consciousness of what you may call the racial mind of those about them. This was not completely a conscious function and moved within the subconscious realms of these entities in order that the work to which each was apprenticed might be accomplished in what you may call more of the mundane fashion than is normally ascribed to those operating within such a mystery school or tradition.

Thus, the approximate cause of the disappearance of these entities was their seeming capture by groups of other entities known to your peoples as various tribes of the American or Native American Indians who were themselves agents of this same tradition and who, by the seeming capture and removal to other locations of this colony were playing their roles in the mutually agreed-upon purpose that was the motivating factor for the incarnations of all those involved.

May we answer further, my sister?

J: Are you saying that they willingly disappeared? That they willingly moved to another location?

I am Latwii, and this is basically correct, my sister, although the willing choice was more pre-incarnative and subconscious than conscious. Yet as these entities adjusted to their new surroundings, the memory of this choice became more clearly defined within the conscious minds of each.

May we answer further, my sister?

J: May I ask where they went?

I am Latwii. We present to this instrument the picture of the area of your continent known as the southern portion of the Canadian provinces bordering the Great Lakes area as the final destination of these entities as they were moved by various tribes to a succession of locations, eventually ending in the southern province of the Great Lakes region in your Canadian area. This instrument is unable to transmit the precise location.

May we answer further, my sister?

J: No, thank you very much.

I am Latwii, and we thank you very much. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Latwii. We find that we have exhausted the queries for the evening, and we have been most grateful to be able to speak those words which were ours to speak. We hope that you will remember that we are but your brothers and sisters upon the same journey which you find yourselves and are most fallible as well. Take that which has value in your own seeking and leave that which we have spoken which does not ring true. We thank you for allowing us to join you this evening. We shall look forward with great glee and joy to our future experiences with this group. We are always happy to be called to your midst and rejoice with you in your songs, in your words, and in the Love which each brings to the other. We are those of Latwii. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “When our prayers become a matter of public utterance, we are inflating our ego, trying to make something of ourselves, setting out to glorify ourselves, not realizing that thereby we sacrifice the reward of the Creator and separate ourselves from the very blessings we are seeking. Anything that glorifies ourselves or attempts to make the world believe that we are something of ourselves tends to separate us from the Love of God. The whole teaching of the Master is, “I can of mine self do nothing. The Father that dwelleth in me, He doeth the work. My doctrine is not mine, but His that sent me.”

This injunction to pray in secret does not mean that we cannot unite with others in prayer or meet in church or temple for the purpose of prayer because Jesus also taught that “where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.” His intent was that we should not attend church because it is the accepted thing to do—fashionable or politic—or because our neighbors would gossip about us if we were not there. Our reason for going to church should be because of a desire to unite in a holy atmosphere in silent and secret prayer with other devoted followers of the spiritual way of life for the purpose of being in communion God, in order that we may receive the baptism of the Holy Ghost.

Jesus also reminds us not to pray on holy mountains, nor yet in that Temple in Jerusalem, again meaning that we are not to expect any grater realization of the Presence in holy mountains or in temples than we would find if we were praying in our garden or at home or in our living room because “the kingdom of God cometh not with observation: neither shall they say, Lo there! For, behold, the kingdom of God is within us. The only way we can pray without ceasing is to pray wherever we are—in the home, on the street, in the air, under the water, in church or out.”

This morning I voted in the elections in the Anchorage Presbyterian Church. Then I drove to Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up a couple of prescriptions and some Tylenol.

This afternoon I rode Venus to the various locations around Anchorage that I put up signs with a picture of my kitten, MJ, that I thought went missing last Thursday and took down the signs and the nails I used to hold them to telephone poles and trees.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 19

The Spirit Of Adventurous Space

I am of the principle of the Love of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

This instrument has been anxious this morning, wondering if the Spirit came and went in the night, marveling that rather than feeling porous and full of the Spirit she feels hard and flinty as a rock.

Are all who seek so full of fears in the night watches and the mornings when all is not just as would be wished? We encourage in all who are timid the spirit of adventurous space. Allow the self to expand, not to include new territories but to include space: space within the self; space within the personality; space within the day.

Those spaces may be filled by those whims and hunches which come to one who has allowed space; those hunches and whims that cause one to reach out and express the Spirit of Love.

It is in small things that the Spirit is transmitted from one to another of the children of God. And there is never any holiday from the Spirit’s promptings, not in the night watches and not in the morning nor any time whatsoever.

We leave you in the peace of the constant presence of divine Love, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then I got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo and Latwii channelings for the session come from February 9, 1986:

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. It is a privilege to be allowed to share our thoughts with you at this time, and we thank you and bless you with all our hearts. We wish to reassure especially the one known as C that our brothers and sisters of Hatonn are overshadowing this contact in order to aid this instrument especially in deepening the state of meditation to the appropriate level for our contact which is somewhat more narrow band, as you might call it than some. Because of this there will be the energy of Hatonn present in the room, and we trust each may use that vibration to aid in the clarity of meditation achieved by each.

We would speak with you this evening upon Love. It will not seem at first as if we are talking about Love, for what we wish to do is gaze with a clear eye at what many among your people call phenomena. The more obvious of these phenomena are those so-called occult arts of astrology, Tarot, and those who work within the trance state in inner level work as opposed to the work with those influences which are external to your planetary sphere.

We would not wish to discredit either the art itself or its reality, if we may use that term within an illusion. The energies or vibrations, much like waves upon a pond which emanate from your whirling spheres, especially those relatively close to you, as you whirl about upon your island home, enter the planetary energy web at certain points which may be calculated by those with the ability and the time for such calculation. Further, these instreaming energies affect each entity upon the planet in an unique fashion. Therefore, there is validity in prophecy by astrology, nor would we wish to deny any other form of prophecy of a personal nature which an entity may find helpful.

In this session Q’uo speaks about Love. They began by saying we would speak with you this evening about Love, but it will not seem at first as if we are talking about Love, for what we wish to do is gaze with a clear eye at what many among your people call phenomena, and the more obvious of these phenomena are those so-called occult arts of astrology, Tarot, and those who work within the trance state in inner level work as opposed to the work with those influences which are external to your planetary sphere. Q’uo went on to say we would not wish to discredit either the art or its reality, for the  vibrations, much like waves upon a pond which emanate from your whirling spheres, as you whirl about upon your island home, enter the planetary energy web at certain points which may be calculated by those with the ability and the time for such calculations, for these instreaming energies affect each entity upon the planet in an unique fashion, so there is validity in prophecy by astrology, nor would we wish to deny any other form of prophecy of a personal nature which an entity may find helpful. On November 25, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the nature of prophesy:

There are many whose voices have been heard who speak of prophecy, and doom, and planetary catastrophe. We do not cavil at these people’s messages, but only make note that where there is Love there is not fear. If there is to be an opportunity for you to share that which you now are aware of as difficulties happen to cause those about you to remember that you are a spiritual seeker, then that is a beautiful service to offer—to answer the questions asked, to bear witness to the truth that you can have faith in, blind and unreasoning faith.

Now, we do not speak here of doctrine, of dogma. We would express our bias that these theologies are to be realized as structures available to people who find that particular structure to be the appropriate way to increase polarity, to drink of the water that shall never make you thirsty again, to eat the bread of eternal life. We use these images because this instrument is a Christian. However, these thoughts may be expressed in many variations of vocabulary, and perhaps the one that we would choose might be different. In each case where we speak, we gauge the needs of the group, or gaze at the universal need that the group expresses by being more than two.

However, we would like to examine the situation where one gives information, and another receives it. The one giving information is doing so in one of several ways. By this we mean that it is not necessarily a sign of spiritual advancement, as this instrument would say, that one is able to use some means such as astrology or cards to tune in to the planetary energy web’s emanations as they impinge upon an entity. It is rather an indication that such an entity as you may call psychic has in its past incarnations worked in these areas. One would not consider, for instance, a world-class pianist to be spiritually advanced, although the depth of emotions which such an artist may offer his audience may be a spiritual experience far too deep for words. Such transcendent talents are the result of more than one incarnation spent in the development of that particular characteristic.

“Phenomena” is another way of saying “things.” It would be a poor argument, indeed, to debate the possibility that spiritual advancement is aided by things. We speak to you thusly because we are concerned to notice that there is within the community of those who seek the emphasis on knowledge of the near future, knowledge of one’s past before birth. In other words, knowledge of things. The spiritual stance cannot depend upon any thing. It is, we feel, natural and comfortable that one with the talent for some sort of phenomenon to share it with those who request it. In this way such an entity is being of service to the best of his ability. But to live one’s life as a seeker, dependence upon any thing outside the self is to have denied the self the greatest opportunity for learning that there is, and that is the untutored and unbiased circumstance. In other words, we suggest that it is one’s instantaneous reaction or action to or in the face of circumstances wherein the great opportunity for spiritual evolution lies.

Q’uo continued by saying we would like to examine the situation where one gives information, and another receives it, so the one giving information is doing so in one of several ways, and by this we mean that it is not a sign of spiritual advancement that one is able to use some means such as astrology or cards to tune in to the planetary energy web’s emanations as they impinge upon an entity, but it is an indication that such an entity that is psychic, has in its past incarnations worked in these areas, yet one would not consider a world-class pianist to be spiritually advanced, although the depth of emotions which such an artist may offer their audience may be a spiritual experience too deep for words, for such transcendent talents are the result of more than one incarnation spent in the development of that particular characteristic. Then Q’uo said “phenomena” is another way of saying “things,” and it would be a poor argument to debate the possibility that spiritual advancement is aided by things, for we speak to you because we are concerned to notice that there is within the community of those who seek the emphasis on knowledge of the near future, knowledge of one’s past before birth, and knowledge of things, but the spiritual stance cannot depend upon any thing, for it is natural that one with the talent for some sort of phenomenon to share it with those who request it, and in this way such an entity is being of service to the best of their ability, but to live one’s life as a seeker, dependence upon any thing outside the self is to have denied the self the greatest opportunity for learning that there is, and that is the unbiased circumstance, so we suggest that it is one’s instantaneous reaction or action to or in the face of circumstances wherein the great opportunity for spiritual evolution lies. On April 30, 1974, Hatonn spoke of the nature of spiritual advancement:

My friends, what we are attempting to tell you is that it is not possible to know within the physical illusion precisely what your short-term objectives of service may be. However, my friends, it is sufficient to your spiritual advancement that you be ready to serve by abiding within the Light of a spiritual consciousness, and that you respond to any request for service  from whomever it comes. The abiding within spirit that you do by constant meditation is of the greatest service. We suggest that you think within yourself of your knowledge of the meaning of the past five years of your life. My friends, do the events not come into clearer focus after a longer period of time has detached you from the illusions of the moment? What is meant will occur by the techniques with which you meet each day. You will begin more and more to fill your consciousness with the environment that you truly desire within spiritual consciousness. Do not fear that you will not be of service. Only be ready to be of service, for you will surely be asked if you are ready to serve.

Let us look then not from the standpoint of the one who receives prophecy but one who generates it. Each within this room has generated spiritual material for the use of other seekers. Each, therefore, has accomplished a phenomenon known as channeling. We do not need to tell each of you that this in no way distinguishes any channel as one spiritually advanced because of its skill at being a channel. Let us go further, now that we have considered both the one who receives prophecy, and the one who generates it, and consider the things, the phenomena of the illusion in which you dwell. This instrument has spent a significant portion of its intellectual concern during the past twenty-four hours, your day, considering how much it desires to do a thing that will brand it as one who cares. This instrument has considered that it would be a valuable thing to do. That which this instrument wishes to do is to walk for the cause of peace for many of your months, and we say to this instrument and to all who feel that the great quest is best taken as a literal journey that neither this nor any other thing will necessarily make an entity progress spiritually or be in any way more polarized towards service to others or service to self.

To be more extreme, one may consider those who give all that they have to the poor, thus becoming poor. One may consider an entity who makes a great sacrifice in order that it may advance spiritually. The phenomena of your experience revolve about such insubstantial words as power, glory, money, and so forth and because seekers dwell within a physical illusion of this certain type in which outer things are seen, a fruit is seen, but the originator, or planter, or cultivator are not. It is not surprising that entities wish to do things to both express and encourage spirituality. We say to you that you must turn from the outside manifestations that meet your senses, turn from your own opinion of yourself, your own judgment of the fruits of your spiritual labors, and from any and all prophecy having to do with your probable future, and instead join the great darkness of the sea of mystery which surrounds and expresses the gateway to the spiritual progress. You cannot see, or hear, or feel, or taste or smell anything in this darkness. You are, shall we say, without feedback as you progress upon a path that is narrow because it is only the span of footsteps—there are no things to carry. Why do you think the spiritual path is so narrow? If it needed to be wider it would be. It is your metaphysical feet touching the very stuff of spiritual reality that walks the path of the seeker. There is no luggage; there is no rest; and there is no turning back. And so, you walk on in darkness, each of you berating yourselves many times for your lack of spirituality.

Now Q’uo said let us look not from the standpoint of the one who receives prophecy, but one who generates it, for each within this room has generated spiritual material for the use of other seekers, and each has accomplished channeling, for we do not need to tell each of you that this distinguishes any channel as one spiritually advanced because of its skill at being a channel, so let us go further now that we have considered both the one who receives prophecy, and the one who generates it, and consider the phenomena of the illusion in which you dwell, for Carla spent a significant portion of her intellectual concerns during the past twenty-four hours considering how much it desires to do a thing that will brand it as one who cares, and she has considered that it would be a valuable thing to do, so that which she wishes to do is to walk for the cause of peace for many of your months, and we say to her and to all who feel that the great quest is best taken as a literal journey that neither this nor any other thing will make an entity progress spiritually or be more polarized towards service to others or service to self. Then Q’uo said to be more extreme, one may consider those who give all that they have to the poor, thus becoming poor, and one may consider an entity who makes a great sacrifice in order that it may advance spiritually, for the phenomena of your experience revolve about such insubstantial words as power, glory, and money, and because seekers dwell within a physical illusion of this type in which outer things are seen; a fruit is seen; but the cultivator is not; but it is not surprising that entities wish to do things to express spirituality, so we say that you must turn from the outside manifestations that meet your senses, and turn from your own judgment of the fruits of your spiritual labors, and from any prophecy having to do with your probable future, but join the darkness of the sea of mystery which surrounds and expresses the gateway to spiritual progress, for you cannot see, or hear, or feel, or taste, or smell anything in this darkness, so you are without feedback as you progress upon a path that is narrow because if it needed to be wider it would be, yet it is your metaphysical feet touching the stuff of spiritual reality that walks the path of the seeker, but there is no rest, and there is no turning back, so you walk in darkness, each of you berating yourselves many times for your lack of spirituality. On January 25, 1974, Hatonn described the nature of our spiritual reality:

You are Love and Light, yet you have freedom. This is your spiritual reality: that you are a being articulated in Light and fashioned in Love, and by your very nature destined to progress back towards your point of origin which is the Creator. But also, by your very nature having the freedom to choose just when you will decide to make that journey.

How you people love phenomena. But within the darkness that is complete lies your heart, beating without sound, gleaning that Light as you intensify and intensify your seeking to the point at which your inner beating heart is manifested as the star of hope, the beacon of faith. Can you then see? You can see the star. At that point that is all that you can see. It does not shed light upon your path but by your own seeking you have planted that which is no thing, but which is a symbol of Light, the Light that shall shine until there is no darkness, the Light that is without time and without space. Footstep after footstep you walk on, lit by a dim but very real star, a star kindled within your heart and within no other. Walk on in majesty, walk on in humility, walk on in trust, for you are not alone in this darkness, you are not alone upon this path, and you are not beguiled or mistaken in seeking Light. When you reach past the phenomena to touch your own heart, it is then that you have placed your feet upon the path.

Without this heart, all actions are without spiritual reality. All fruits are withered in the merciless glare of the spiritual sun. You see, the fruit does not become the plant which becomes the seed which is then sown. That is not the way of growth. And yet your people so often consider their spiritual path in just such a reverse manner, first looking at the fruits, wondering how to arrange them by asking for phenomena and working backwards to the heart that sows the seed. What a treasure your hearts are when they Love. I beg you to Love. It does not matter that you do not Love perfectly according to your own judgment. It does not matter that you do not Love all the time. It matters that you see your inner state of Love as the cornerstone of your existence, your seeking and your destiny, for this universe is one thing and one thing only—it is Love, the creative Love—the one original Thought is Love. It is within your heart that this Love is reproduced so that you become creative also.

Now Q’uo said how you people love phenomena, but within the darkness that is complete lies your heart, beating without sound, gleaning that Light as you intensify your seeking to the point at which your inner beating heart is manifested as the star of hope, the beacon of faith, and you can see the star, but that is all that you can see, for it does not shed Light upon your path, but by your seeking you have planted a symbol of Light that shall shine until there is no darkness, the Light that is without time and without space, yet footstep after footstep you walk on, lit by a star kindled within your heart and within no other, so walk on in majesty, in humility, and in trust, for you are not alone in darkness, and you are not mistaken in seeking Light, and when you reach past the phenomena to touch your heart, it is then that you have placed your feet upon the path. Q’uo continued by saying without this heart, all actions are without spiritual reality, and all fruits are withered in the glare of the spiritual sun because the fruit does not become the plant, which becomes the seed, which is then sown, but that is not the way of growth, yet your people consider their spiritual path in just such a reverse manner, first looking at the fruits, wondering how to arrange them by asking for phenomena and working backwards to the heart that sows the seed, so what a treasure your hearts are when they Love, but it does not matter that you do not Love perfectly according to your own judgment, and it does not matter that you do not Love all the time, for it matters that you see your inner state of Love as the cornerstone of your seeking and your destiny, for this universe is one thing: it is Love, the one original Thought of Love, and it is within your heart that this Love is reproduced, so that you become creative also, so you cannot know the Creator except by being the Creator or seeing the Creator in others, so you cannot think your way to devotion, and your best approach to becoming able to be devoted is to see yourself approaching your own heart, for within your heart lies that part of yourself which is completely and wholly the Creator, so the object of your devotionwaits for you at the core of your being. On June 2, 1985, Latwii said we are the one original Thought of Love:

My sister, begin first with the foundation of all creation, that is, unity. From this unity the one Creator, the one original Thought of Love, springs all the infinite variety of forms of life and directions for each. Look then to any which seem of a fearful or doubtful nature. See there the Creator that rests as well within your own being. Love that Creator as if It were yourself, for in truth It is. See that which is feared; bathe it in Love, and see it as self, bless it, bid it travel its journey, and then bathe your own being in the Love and the Light of the One. In so doing, you have affirmed the unity of all creation, for in truth that is all that there is. To move from that truth and to see any separation is to step upon the grounds which the entities of the negative polarity rule when fear and separation are with the entities there.

And when you are Creator, what shall you create? Do not be concerned, for you have planned, each of you, what your service shall be. And you have been given grace sufficient to enable you to do what you have planned. What thing is it that you shall do? Many are those who feel that they are of no spiritual worth because all that they do is work, Love their children, and die. And yet we say to you that you may well have prepared this as your mission, as your lesson, as your offering of Love. There are those who have come with larger missions, larger in the sense that more entities will hear of the fruits of their particular labors. This in no way distinguishes one Love from another, one fruit from another. Insofar as each fruit or manifestation takes part in Love, just so each fruit is equal, for unbounded Love and limitless Light are all that there is. And whether you extend Love and Light upon your little ones or upon some more dramatic object, you have loved—and Love is all that there is.

We appeal to you to meditate without judgment of yourself or others, to accept phenomena as they enter your life, to use them, to be alert for them, for it is well to receive the many hints that you will give yourself concerning that which you are to be doing, that which you have planned for yourself to do. We earnestly implore you to grasp that this channeling is also a phenomenon, that our words are things. We cannot prove our Love to you nor can we say it, and you must realize that our words are nothing but shadows flitting across the inside of your mind. They may be without worth for you and if so, we ask you to discard them, to shrug them away and to move on. Our love for you is part of our spiritual path. Your love shall be yours.

Q’uo said do not be concerned what you shall create, for you have planned what your service shall be, and you have been given grace sufficient to enable you to do what you have planned, so many feel that they are of no spiritual worth because all that they do is work, Love their children, and die, yet we say to you that you may have prepared this as your as your mission and your offering of Love, for there are those who have come with larger missions in the sense that more entities will hear of the fruits of their labors, but this in no way distinguishes one Love from another, and as each fruit takes part in Love, just so each fruit is equal, for unbounded Love and limitless Light are all that there is, and whether you extend Love and Light upon your little ones or upon some more dramatic object, you have Loved, and Love is all that there is. Then Q’uo said we appeal to you to meditate without judgment of yourself or others, to accept phenomena as they enter your life, for it is well to receive the hints that you will give yourself concerning that which you are to be doing, and that which you have planned to do, so we ask you to grasp that in this channeling our words are things, but we cannot prove our Love to you, nor can we say it, and you must realize that our words are shadows flitting across the inside of your mind, but they may be without worth for you, and if so, we ask you to discard them, and to move on, for our Love for you is part of our spiritual path, and your Love shall be yours. In 78.9, Ra defined limitless Light:

Questioner: Now, we have the First, Second, and Third Distortions of Free Will, Love, and Light. Am I correct in assuming that the central core of this major galaxy began to form with the Third Distortion? That was the origin of our Milky Way Galaxy?

I am Ra. In the most basic or teleological sense you are incorrect as the One Infinite Creator is all that there is. In an undistorted seed-form you are correct in seeing the first manifestation visible to the eye of the body complex which you inhabit as the Third Distortion, Light, or to use a technical term, limitless Light.

May all that is true and beautiful in your mind and in your heart be of blessing to you. May you dream, may you seek, may you Love, and may you know that you are not alone. The sensation of the air touching the ears of this instrument is remarkable to us. The heartbeat, the dilation of the veins—this is all new to us. We are enjoying the experience of sharing this instrument’s body. Because we have had to move rather deeply into meditation with this instrument to use it, we shall continue speaking of what we sense through this instrument until we are certain that this instrument is at a good state of conscious awareness of the illusion. We find this instrument’s mouth to be dry. We are experiencing a very noisy environment within the body, and we find variations of surface temperature across the lower portions of this entity’s physical vehicle. The energy is not apparent to this instrument as it breathes. It does not breathe deeply enough. It is capable of a great deal more of the deep breathing and it would be helpful for clearing out many impurities for this entity to practice such.

Q’uo said may all that is true and beautiful in your mind and in your heart be a blessing to you, and may you dream; may you seek; may you Love; and may you know that you are not alone, so the sensation of the air touching Carla’s ears is remarkable to us, and the heartbeat, the dilation of the veins—this is all new to us, for we are enjoying the experience of sharing this instrument’s body because we have had to move deeply into meditation with her to use it, so we shall continue speaking what we sense through her until we are certain that she is at a good state of conscious awareness of the illusion, but we find her mouth to be dry, and we are experiencing a noisy environment within the body, and we find variations of surface temperature across the lower portions of this entity’s physical vehicle, but the energy is not apparent to this instrument as it breathes, for it does not breathe deeply enough, but it is capable of more deep breathing, and it would be helpful for clearing out many impurities for this entity to practice such. On June 14, 2002, Q’uo described the value of deep breathing:

For each entity there is a most congenial way to enter into the self through the use of silence and the resting in trust. It is as simple as releasing the breath and the energy of striving, so that there is deep breathing in and out, that is not stressful but rather greedy for that life-giving fuel of air that fuels body and spirit. It is possible to breathe in peace and to breathe out stress, to breathe in light and to breathe out weariness. The key always for this kind of inner work is silence.

We believe we are now able to leave this instrument. It is reluctantly that we do so, for we speak rarely with your people. We thank this group for being of a nature which calls to us. We send our Love to you, and we leave you in that Love and Light which is the infinite Creator. We are those of Q’uo. Adonai.

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii and am very glad to be able to greet this group in Love and light and to speak our few humble words of inspiration and the joy of being. We, as always, offer ourselves in an attempt to join with you in your seeking by attempting to answer queries which may have arisen as you seek. May we now begin that service with the first query?

Carla: I have a question that I’ve been pondering; I haven’t figured anything out about it yet. It seems that some changes hit you over the head with a hammer, and there’s no getting away from the changes, there’s no thinking about it—it’s just something that has changed. It seems that other changes are completely within our conscious control. How can one determine when one has thought about a change to the point where it’s best to leave it alone?

I am Latwii and if we have understood your query, we shall attempt response. For those who seek in a conscious fashion the steps to be taken upon the path, there are…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Latwii, and we are once again with this instrument. To continue. For the entity who has consciously begun the journey of seeking there are points upon this journey at which time the placement of the foot is indicated by a sign, shall we say. This sign is that which is of the unconscious, shall we say. The greater Being that each is, and which has put the particle of itself which you call a person into the illusion which is your daily life then at various points may direct and indicate the most appropriate journey or step within a journey for the conscious seeker. This is in response to the seeker’s desire to know. For as it has been written in your holy works, as one seeks, so shall one find, for the universe in which we each move and have our being is made of one thing—that is Love, and by one entity—that is the Creator.

As the small self which is seeks, then, that which is sought is a greater portion of that which seeks. There is for each, then, guidance which may be sought with benefit in the seeking. The seeker at some point in its journey will find that the aids or indications thusly received may take on a more and more subtle nature in some cases. This is in order that the entity’s own discriminating faculty of free will might be further enhanced. Thus, if one has for a great portion of its incarnation been used to receiving the, shall we say, two-by-four between the eyes as obvious markers along the path, it may be that less and less force is required to guide the entity, and the entity may well be better advised to look within its own being for that still small voice which when consulted gives the answers that are most appropriate for that entity at that time.

Carla asked: “It seems that some changes hit you over the head with a hammer, and there’s no getting away from the changes, there’s no thinking about it—it’s just something that has changed. It seems that other changes are completely within our conscious control. How can one determine when one has thought about a change to the point where it’s best to leave it alone?” Latwii said for the entity who has consciously begun the journey of seeking there are points upon this journey at which time the placement of the foot is indicated by a sign, and this sign is that which is of the unconscious, so the greater Being that each is, and which has put the part of Itself which is a person into the illusion which is the daily life, and then at various points may indicate the most appropriate step within a journey for the conscious seeker, so this is in response to the seeker’s desire to know, for as it has been written in your Bible, as one seeks, so shall one find, for the universe in which we each move and have our being is made of one thing—that is Love, and by one entity—that is the Creator. Latwii went on to say as the small self seeks, that which is sought is a greater portion of that which seeks, so there is for each guidance which may be sought with benefit in the seeking, for the seeker will find that the indications thusly received may take on a more subtle nature, and this is in order that the entity’s discriminating faculty of free will might be further enhanced, but if one has been used to receiving the two-by-four between the eyes as an obvious marker along the path, it may be that less force is required to guide the entity, and the entity may well be advised to look within its own being for that still small voice which when consulted gives the answers that are most appropriate for that entity at that time. On January 16, 2016, Q’uo said that the still, small voice within us is the Creator:

If you want nothing more in your life than to know what it is to do, to serve, to Love, to be, to share, to experience that which you came to experience, these answers will come to you. You are all aware of that still, small voice inside you—some have called it intuition. My friends, this is the Creator within speaking in a faint whisper, perhaps in words almost inaudible, in feelings of inspiration of one way or another. Listen to this voice. It is your greatest ally. You have assistance all about you through friends, through synchronicities, through your dreams, through people you meet in your daily round of activities, to people you meet by chance it would seem, on the street. That which is most necessary from you is your persistence and your passion—your true desire. Hone these qualities within, my friends, and they will bring to you that which you seek, for that is the law. That which you seek shall come to you and that which you seek in the ultimate sense of Love, and Light, and unity, will not only come to you, but will come into you, so that it will become you and you will become it.

We apologize for a somewhat deliberate and involved response to your query, my sister, but we are attempting to work with this instrument in a somewhat variant fashion from the more conceptual techniques which we have employed in the past, as you call it.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Well, I will give you specific information and see if you can add anything to what you’ve already said, realizing that it is often true that one can’t get anything from us, specific questions, but I’ll risk it because I’m really puzzling this one out. What you have said is very clear and it isn’t convoluted at all as far as I’m concerned, in talking about making spiritual choices and hearing the hints and everything for yourself. In this situation there are two of us, myself and Jim, who have been talking about the possibility of forming a community for some years. For some reason, we have been talking about it far more intensely lately. The decision is a weighty one, is a heavy one in that it’s sort of like buying a car or buying a home or having a child—you can only do it once or twice in a lifetime—you can’t start something and then run away, at least not if you’re Jim or me.

So, what I see in Jim is that he is desirous of change but at the same time is of such a nature that the loss of solitude which even the most carefully run community would involve, could be a real life-threatening thing for him. In other words, we both feel the impulse towards change, and I am deeply questioning whether this is the right change because I am concerned for Jim. Neither of us knows whether to drop the thing for now or to go on thinking and talking about it. Sometimes we feel one way, sometimes we feel another. It’s this situation that I’m trying to address. Can you be of any more assistance than you were to the general question?

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister, as we were aware of it with the more general form previously asked. We find that we may speak in general only, and this is well for each must retain the full use of the free will in such matters. As one wishes to do that which is most appropriate within the incarnation in regards to being of service and to learning those lessons that are one’s pattern, it is well to balance the great desire to accomplish these two goals with a lightness and lack of concern in order that one remain open to the influence of the creation about one, for it is sometimes the case with the over-serious seeker that it will try so hard to be diligent and correct in its movements and thoughts that it will develop a type of tunnel vision that is overly focused upon a matter to such a degree that the spontaneity and wide-ranging viewpoint suffer. These lighter and—we search for a word—more carefree characteristics are those which play an important role in aiding an entity’s movement of intuition, for when one becomes overly dedicated to any particular thought or action, one then closes off certain helpful avenues of assistance that are open to those of the more balanced nature.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Latwii, and we thank you, my sister. We would ask if there might be another query.

Carla: Well, since you’re about to close, I’ll just throw this one in as an oddball question. The word “Belgium” has been rolling around in my head for the last few hours, and I wondered if you could tell me why, or in general, why words roll around in people’s heads, if you can’t tell me specifics. I have no emotional ties, any ties of any kind to Belgium.

I am Latwii and am aware of your query, my sister. Consider, my sister, who has pulled the rug out from under the feet and the condition of the rug and its origin.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: The rug. I’ll have to think about it. Thank you.

I am Latwii. We thank you, my sister, and would be happy to attempt any further queries that either present may have.

[Long pause.]

Carla: I get it! Thank you. Okay.

I am Latwii, and we shall at this time relinquish our use of this instrument. We are happy to have been able to speak to this group. This instrument is in the process of attempting to expand its ability to serve as an instrument, and we are happy to work with it in this capacity. We hope that its desire and practice of this skill will allow us to speak in a fashion which is more nearly characteristic of our own nature, which is much lighter and more free-flowing than the somewhat rigid framework that this instrument provides us in the form of its mind. We leave each of you in the Love and in the Light of the one infinite Creator. We rejoice with you in that peace and in that power of Oneness. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu.

This morning the quote from The Thunder of Silence is: “Those who live by the sword, even a mental sword, shall die by the sword. So put it up. Stop defending yourself. In every prayer and in every meditation, every treatment, remind yourself to put up your sword. When we no longer use human weapons, physical or mental, we relax, not into letting the world do what it wants with us, but into that Spirit which is within us in order to let It take over and govern our experience.

The Sermon on the Mount gives us a choice between two ways of life—the law or Grace. If we choose the law, we will probably have a little easier time of it because we shall be conforming to common practice, going along with the crowd, and in some measure we may for a time benefit, until the day of retribution comes. On the other hand, if we attempt to live by Grace, we shall find ourselves out of step with this world, and we may temporarily suffer injustices that we do not deserve. In the final analysis, however, we find that we have come under God’s grace, God’s government, and God’s protection. God’s will and not the will of a person is being done in us. And that is an entirely different life.”

Later this morning I went outside and used the garden hose and sprayer to clean the filters in the Skimmer. Then I began pumping water out of the fishpond, and while the water was being pumped out I fertilized each of the five water lilies in two locations within each water lily. Then I began filling the water back into the fishpond.

After I was done working with the fishpond I ran five errands with my first stop being at Kroger’s where I bought some food for myself. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought more food for myself. My third stop was at Speedway Gasoline where I filled Stanley’s tank with gas and filled his tires with air. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I picked up two prescriptions.

This afternoon I repaired the damage to the structure of bricks and sandstone at the end of the driveway that I made this morning when I was backing out of my driveway and noticed a car was parked in the street where I was planning to go on my errand runs. So, I tried to avoid hitting the car by going the other way. Unfortunately, I ran into the structure and knocked half of it to the ground.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 18

Turn From Your Books

I am of the principle of the Spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

Behold, my children! There is a boundless curiosity in you, a drive to know the wisdom and understanding of the universe. And to this end you bestow many long hours on study and contemplation of the divine mysteries.

And yet the language of the spirit is not wisdom but Love, and it is through ecstasy that teaching is done. Thus, turn from your books, you students of the consciousness of life, and stretch out your arms to joy. Moved by the infinite rejoicing echoing throughout the creation, the seeker will finally come to know wisdom by being that which wisdom is, whole and complete, in the consciousness of Love.

We leave you in the peace of that Love, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Oxal, Q’uo, and Nona channelings for this session come from March 16, 1986:

Carla channeling)

I am Oxal. I greet you in the Love and in the Light of our infinite Creator. We thank you for allowing us to come and share our thoughts with you. We would like to say to the one known as L that we are very grateful for his openness to our contact but found some difficulty in establishing our identity. We shall be most happy to use this instrument as he desires and will begin through this instrument.

We would speak with you this evening of joy, that quality which is beyond its name, that energy which creates in fire and yet in peace, that explosion which is yet a steady state, that translation of that which proceeds into that which is. We would speak to you of history. Those among your peoples are fascinated with history, that which is past history and that which shall be future history, and we would point out to you that if you wish a specific remedy against joy it would be history that would take the first place among the active distractions of those who seek.

We speak to you of these things at this time because there are those among you who have spent a good deal of time, as you call it, in prayer and in meditation supporting what this instrument calls the great peace march. We would like to point out to you that the ideal involved is a part of joy and that the history of that effort is not. It is difficult to perceive the possibility of feeling joy when watching what could have been disintegration, and we understand that among your people that which does not eventuate as a finished process is counted as failure.

In this session Oxal spoke about joy. They began by saying we would speak with you this evening of joy, that quality which is beyond its name, that energy which creates in fire and yet in peace, that explosion which is a steady state, that translation of that which proceeds into that which is, so we would speak to you of history because your people are fascinated with history, that which is past history and that which shall be future history, and we would point out to you that if you wish a specific remedy against joy it would be history that would take the first place among the active distractions of those who seek. Then Oxal said we speak to you of these things at this time because there are those among you who have spent a good deal of time in prayer and in meditation supporting what this instrument calls the great peace march, but we would like to point out to you that the ideal involved is a part of joy and that the history of that effort is not, for it is difficult to perceive the possibility of feeling joy when watching what could have been disintegration, and we understand that among your people that which does not result in a finished process is counted as failure. On March 13, 2010, Q’uo described the nature of joy:

When one cries with joy, one is opening the energy body as a whole, for joy is the steady state of the creation of the one infinite Creator. Joy and bliss are the natural, default settings of the open heart. Consequently, crying tears of joy removes an over-activity of awareness, where the keenness of emotion becomes too much to bear, and there is a great clearing of the entire energy body.

Success and failure belong to that outward portion of yourselves which belong to history. The discipline of joy is the discipline of remaining outside of time, or to speak more precisely, within that womb from which time issues and towards which it shall once again be drawn in the great rhythm of the cosmos. To remove oneself from processes is to remove oneself from all of those things which seem real, beginning with the processes of one’s own physical vehicle, continuing on with the processes of the daily living: the telephone that rings; the doorbell that rings; the visitor that knocks at your gate; the information that comes through the post; and all those things which remind one again and again of the processes of dailyness.

Shall you then reject all of these things in order to remain joyful? We suggest to you that there is a portion of you which should do just that in order to achieve something which you may wish to nurture and that is the sense of humor, the light touch, the feeling of being seated within Love and its expression—joy and laughter—regardless of outward circumstances. Processes, as all things which partake of time, begin and end, are successful or fail, and yet consciousness is variably affected by these processes. May we suggest to you that by reserving a portion of yourself to be centered within that great womb of time where joy holds sway, one can experience differently the processes of living within the illusion which you now enjoy and from which you shall learn as you choose to learn, slowly or more rapidly, ineffectually or more effectively.

Then Oxal said success and failure belong to that outward portion of yourselves which belong to history, and the discipline of joy is the discipline of remaining outside of time  and within that womb from which time issues and towards which it shall once again be drawn in the great rhythm of the cosmos, for to remove oneself from processes is to remove oneself from all of those things which seem real, beginning with the processes of one’s own physical vehicle, continuing on with the processes of daily living: the telephone that rings; the doorbell that rings; the visitor that knocks at your gate; the information that comes through the post; and all those things which remind one again and again of the processes of dailyness. Oxal went on to say we suggest to you that there is a portion of you which should reject all of these things in order to achieve something which you may wish to nurture, and that is the sense of humor and the feeling of being seated within Love and its expression—joy and laughter—regardless of outward circumstances, for processes, as all things which partake of time, begin and end, are successful or fail, and yet consciousness is variably affected by these processes, so may we suggest to you that by reserving a portion of yourself to be centered within that great womb of time where joy holds sway, one can experience differently the processes of living within the illusion which you now enjoy and from which you shall learn as you choose to learn, slowly or more rapidly, ineffectually or more effectively. On March 1, 1998, Q’uo described the nature of living within the illusion of third density:

This Prayer of St. Francis is the outcry of the soul who wishes to be free of self and subsumed into the service of the infinite mystery that it worships and adores. And this is the door that opens into a larger and less fear-filled view of living within the illusion, this realization that there are different ways to look at each situation, that it is not terrible to have faults or to have sins or to have pride about the good things and fear about the bad things. That one is intended to be very confused by this illusion. That there is positive value in this confusion in that it, and it alone, tear most people away from those things that they cling to in fear.

The more one throws the whole self into that which may be called petty, the more one allows oneself to worry and be concerned over seeming failures, the more one robs oneself of the opportunities for transformation, and yet transformation is what you have come to choose to do. It seems that that which is new becomes old, but we say to you to consider whether it is not one’s interest that becomes old. When one perceives things from the standpoint of joy, nothing can escape the illumination which Love brings.

Now Oxal said the more one throws the whole self into that which is petty, the more one allows oneself to worry and be concerned over seeming failures, the more one robs oneself of the opportunities for transformation, and yet transformation is what you have come to choose to do, for it seems that which is new becomes old, but we say to you to consider whether it is not one’s interest that becomes old, for when one perceives things from the standpoint of joy, nothing can escape the illumination which Love brings. On January 12, 2008, Q’uo described the nature of transformation:

There is the part of transformation which is involved in very deep and subtle energies, such as the stars in your sky, the sun especially, and the moon. The monthly, annual, and slowly revolving astrological patterns of your life will have some sway over the rhythm of your cyclical transformations.

And certainly, the times that now are upon you, where the fourth density is virtually present, interpenetrating third density, has set you awash in energy tide after energy tide, so that you are constantly being washed with rhythmic waves of truth, Love, and understanding. This has the effect upon anyone who is at all sensitive to these energies of creating a more lucid ability to look at the mirroring that is going on in your particular life at this time.

Each relationship which you have gives you a mirror for yourself. Just as in your dreams, each character represents a portion of yourself. So, in the waking life each interaction with another entity shows you the mirror of yourself, in part, in the actions and behaviors, the thoughts and the concepts offered by that interaction. Consequently, you are constantly seeing portions of yourself mirrored in a somewhat distorted way by those who are in relationship with you.

All of these changes and chances, all of these natural cycles, create a basic default. The human was created to transform. That is the nature of the self-conscious, physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual being that you are. That is your potential, and that is your destiny: change from one form into another, from one kind of thought into another whole paradigm of thought. You cannot help but progress. So, you may feel easy about whether or not you are changing, whether or not you are being successful at transforming. It is inevitable for you to go through transformation upon transformation, and you do not have to push or thrust yourself towards transformation. You may relax in the knowledge that it is inevitable.

We would at this time again attempt to communicate through the one known as L. I am Oxal.

(L channeling)

I am Oxal, and I greet you again, my friends, in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator. We are encountering a slight difficulty in working through this instrument but will continue so that the instrument may become familiarized with our vibration and become more fluent in its ability to communicate our transmission. We of Oxal appreciate the effort displayed and request your patience as we work with the instrument. It is our desire, my friends, to be able to be one with you in your pursuit—correction—in your efforts to seek awareness.

We shall relinquish our use of this instrument at this point as the instrument is fatigued and having difficulty with our communications. We are grateful for the opportunity to exercise this instrument and thank those present for their patience. We are known to you as Oxal. Adonai, my friends.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we greet you in the Love and the Light of the One who is All. It is a great blessing to blend our vibrations with yours and to drink in the beauty of your beings. We would speak only briefly through this instrument, however there is a calling at this time for our particular bias in vibration and we gladly share it with you, knowing that the fellowship which we feel with you is only the surface of the service that you do us by allowing us to be with you.

We would give you our encouragement and speak upon meditation, for it is the key which unlocks the door to that which is within you, and that which is within you is nothing less than the one original Thought which is the Creator. You may call this Creator “Universal Mind,” yet that is not precise, for the mind proceeded and precipitated from the Thought which was thought without mind, but only with consciousness. You are the Creator, and as you experience each other, the Creator gains experience.

We speak from the point of view that the Creator has made a great sacrifice in causing a portion of Its being to have mind and to become independent, for there is much effort in accepting the free will of portions of Itself which seem disharmonious with other portions of Itself. And yet the Creator has repeatedly made this sacrifice of wholeness without effort in order to bring Itself an expanded Self. The Creator, shall we say, takes the very, very long view and looks upon all that occurs through all the densities and dimensions, of which there are an infinite number, in order that It may key into Its own Self all of the selves that have become unique and learn all those things which each unique portion has learned. And you yourself are a sacrifice to your own mind, for without mind you would constantly be in a state of meditation, and all things would be whole and entire unto themselves and one with you and acceptable in every respect. Yet you have sacrificed that awareness to come into incarnation and to be limited by your separation from those things about you, the material of the seat upon which you now bear your weight, of each other because you can touch but you cannot become in one in physical sense.

In this session Q’uo spoke upon meditation. They began by saying we would give you encouragement and speak upon meditation, for it is the key which unlocks the door to that which is within you, and that which is within you is the one original Thought which is the Creator, so you may call this Creator “Universal Mind,” yet that is not precise, for the mind precipitated from the Thought which was thought without mind, but only with consciousness, are you the Creator, and as you experience each other, the Creator gains experience. Then Q’uo said we speak from the point of view that the Creator has made a great sacrifice in causing a portion of Its being to have a mind and to become independent, for there is much effort in accepting the free will of portions of Itself which seem disharmonious with other portions of Itself, yet the Creator has made this sacrifice of wholeness without effort in order to bring Itself an expanded Self, for the Creator takes the long view and looks upon all that occurs through all the dimensions, of which there are an infinite number, in order that It may key into Its own Self all of the selves that have become unique and learn all those things which each unique portion has learned, and you are a sacrifice to your mind, for without mind you would constantly be in a state of meditation, and all things would be whole unto themselves, and one with you, and acceptable in every respect, yet you have sacrificed that awareness to come into incarnation and to be limited by your separation from those things about you, the material of the seat upon which you now bear your weight, of each other because you can touch, but you cannot become in one in physical sense. On October 19, 1986, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the state of meditation:

That is, in the process and state of meditation, one begins to become aware of the unity of Love which binds all things and which moves all experiences in intricate patterns which then offer the lessons of Love to those of your illusion. The desire, then, to seek the heart of the life pattern is that desire which is most helpful to propel one into the meditative state, no matter what technique of meditation is chosen.

Separation seems to run very deep, and one forgets that the stones sing, that the earth shouts with rejoicing, and that the trees skip in the springtime. How easy it is to feel separate from life that indwells all things. How easy it is to feel separate from oneself, to feel that there are factions within the self which must be reconciled, to find oneself analyzing and reanalyzing to no avail. The only road from separation into unity is keyed with meditation. Some there are who benefit from meditating at great length. Some there are who benefit from meditating a brief few minutes in each day, and some there are whose meditations are in action and through action they are centered and one with all that there is. Therefore, do not assume that you know what meditation is, and what your goals should be towards it, but rather, as you meditate, listen to that voice which speaks within and meditate as that voice instructs you. There is no set time, nor is there a set method. There is one thing, however, which we must emphasize and that is the fidelity to the practice.

Then Q’uo said separation seems to run very deep, and one forgets that the stones sing, that the earth shouts with rejoicing, and that the trees skip in the springtime, and how easy it is to feel separate from life that indwells all things, and how easy it is to feel separate from oneself, to find oneself analyzing and reanalyzing to no avail, for the only road from separation into unity is keyed with meditation, so some there are who benefit from meditating at great length, but some there are who benefit from meditating a few minutes in each day, and some there are whose meditations are in action, and through action they are centered and one with all that there is, but do not assume that you know what meditation is, and what your goals should be towards it, but as you meditate listen to that voice which speaks within, and meditate as that voice instructs you, for there is no set time, nor is there a set method, but there is one thing which we must emphasize, and that is the fidelity to the practice. On April 27, 1974, Hatonn described what meditation is:

This is what meditation is designed to do. To put you, part of the creation of the Creator, into direct communication with the Creator, which is all that there is. The creation of the Creator is all about you, my friends.

We thank you. We are most privileged to have been able to speak through this instrument to this group. We ask only that you treat our words as those of your brothers and sisters and not as those from, shall we say, on high. We are imperfect and most fallible, yet we have that to share which we have experienced, and so we shall with many thanks for the invitation. We would leave you now upon the many, many sounds that drift past your inner ear as the domicile rests in the chilly wind of springtime and the night sky sings with the songs of galaxies and stars. We shall drift away so that our voice is no longer heard, and yet we are always with you if you request our presence mentally. We leave you in the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai, my children. Adonai.

(Carla channeling)

I am Nona. I greet you in Love and in Light and am so happy to share this evening with you. We shall say no more.

[Carla channels a lovely healing melody from Nona.]

This morning the quote from The Thunder of silence is: “It is not necessary to overcome hate, fear, jealousy, or resentment, but it is necessary to sit down, close the eyes, and realize: “These are mental images in thought. These are projected states of thought  of the vast mental illusion.” Then by abiding in an inner peace, they are dissolved. They are not destroyed because there is nothing to be destroyed; there is no substance to them, and they have no more reality than the pictures on our television screen, True, back of the moving picture there is a real picture with substance, just as behind every belief, theory, or false picture that is presented to us, there is a reality; but the reality is distorted in the picture, and it is that distortion that is dissolved as the reality appears.

The conditioned mind forms our problems, and there are times when that mind might form an answer to the problem, but that is not what we are seeking. What we want is a higher capacity than the human mind, and so now, without calling upon the thinking process, we let our mind be an instrument through which the Soul can reveal Itself.

A problem can exist only in the mind. But if we make of our mind a vacuum, if there are no thoughts in it, where would our problem be. There is then no probable, and in place of the problem the truth or reality rushes in.

If, instead of fighting a problem, we are willing to admit that to all appearances this problem seems to be overwhelming and turn within asking to have the reality revealed, then we are not trying to rise above or destroy the problem. We are merely trying to understand—not understand the problem, but understand the reality behind the problem. If we can be perfectly quiet and perfectly still with no attempt to overcome, destroy, remove, or escape from any situation or condition, the flow of the Spirit will rush in, and there will be freedom.

When error is presented in any form, there is a tendency to set up a wall against it, and in doing that, the opportunity to make the demonstration is lost because no wall is needed. Do not put up a wall against evil; do not put up a defense: understand that no external thing has power, not even the good things. All good is in Spirit, or Consciousness, not in the things that Consciousness produces.

Come with me now into an inner stillness in which we do not resort to any power to do anything. We resist not evil nor affirm. We will not seek God, and we will not fear a devil, but sit at peace, with no struggle, no strife, no battle:

The Lord is my shepherd. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside the still waters. He prepareth a table before me in the presence of mine enemies.” He performeth that which is given me to do; He perfecteth that which concerneth me.

I live and move and have my being in God; therefore, I need not fear; I need not fight because the battle is not mine.

“Where the Spirit of the Lord is there is liberty”—no struggle, only peace. “Peace, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth,” a peace that comes from destroying the neighboring country or people, not a peace that comes from having a stockpile of atomic bombs, but My peace. Nothing can destroy me; nothing can harm me; for there is nothing but My peace.”

This morning I drove down to Terrapin Hill for the last day of our Homecoming Gathering. The first presentation that I attended was Heidi Yurka’s where she was asked: “When did Andrija Puharich begin his spiritual journey?” “How long was Heidi with Don and Carla?” “What did the first UFO entities look like that Heidi saw?” “Can you use your psychic abilities to see the future?” and “What do you do to enhance your psychic abilities?”

At 3 pm we were had a Round Robin where we shared the most important experience that we have had in the Homecoming Gathering so far. Then we had our channeling session, and the questions that Gary, Trish, Austin, and I were asked were: “How do we deal with anger?” “What is the purpose of the physical body?” “Talk about how we are the Creator and, therefore, our best friend?” And “What is the nature of the mystery of the Creator in our spiritual journey?” I must say that since Carla began holding Homecoming Gatherings in 1995, this was the best Homecoming Gathering that I have ever attended! I made a lot of new friends, and I got to spend time with a lot of long-time friends, and I hope that all of these spiritual connections last for the rest of my life!

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 17

Hope Is Always A Choice

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the divine wholeness of Love.

This contact is very weak, as this instrument is very weak. A great deal of the strength or weakness of a person’s essential being hinges upon its desire to be strong.

Why would one wish to be weak? Because one is lacking in hope. Why would one wish to lack in hope? It is not seen that this is open to the process of choice. Yet hope is always a choice. Despair is only one side of the coin which may be turned by the will, at any moment, by anyone, in any circumstance, to hope. Thus, we say to you this morning, “Hope! Hope in little things! Hope in grand things! Fill your hearts, your bodies, and your minds with the strength of hope.”

For hope is unending and is that which guides the weary spirit to its place of rest where it may gain strength. And hope shall be turned into joy.

This is part of the grace of the Spirit of Love that lives amidst each conscious entity. This is part of the comfort that may astound and transform your experience. This is for you!

These are not vain words. You who despair, turn your mind to the power of hope. Gaze upon it as upon a star and affix your intentions upon it with perseverance. And so shall you be made strong, to be the will of the Father.

In Love and peace unending do we leave you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of Love and open our hearts minds, and souls to send Love, Light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite Love, Light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our Love, Light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.