The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo channeling comes from November 29, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each in love and light this evening. It is our great privilege to be called to your group once again. It is gatherings such as these for which we are most thankful in our attempt to give voice to those concepts which are answers to your heart’s seeking.

We have been observing your group this evening and have noted the sense of fatigue and discomfort that is present within the circle, and we shall be mindful of these distortions as we utilize the instruments this evening. We would not wish to tax or overtire each instrument. We realize that your daily round of activities, as you call it, provides each of you with as much food for metaphysical use as is possible for you to process at this time.

Each of you works with a personal system of processing that utilizes both similar and dissimilar means of interpreting catalyst. Each is able to make a certain kind of sense, shall we say, out of those activities that occur as part of the day’s natural rhythm that many entities, less aware of the evolutionary process, fail to notice or would notice in ways which would not be to the heart of the meaning and purpose of the catalyst. This is not unusual, for most entities will satisfy themselves with penetrating but the outer shell of experience and in this way will remain somewhat at a distance from the transformative effects of catalyst that has been well used.

This distance, however, though it may provide a certain amount of shielding from the intensities of the well-perceived catalyst, does not offer the opportunity for the entity to immerse itself within the sea of experience. So it is for those who choose to look more deeply and more carefully with respect, looking again many times at those moments of imprinting, where catalyst moves through the perceptive film or net and is seen in a certain way, according to this net of perceptions, this grouping of ways in which certain events, certain entities and relationships are formed and have an effect upon an entity’s senses, both those of the outer or normal way of sensing and those senses which are more of an interior nature and which take a more active part in providing an interpretation of outer stimuli.

These inner sensing devices are those qualities which have been developed during the early part of the incarnation, according to the experiences at that point within the incarnation which came before the entity was able to recognize certain configurations to be significant and to be worthy of consideration when perceived.

An entity will notice those portions of its environment which in its past were proven to play an active part. Now, this active part is determined by the entity itself and not by the structure of the stimuli. However, there is the necessary interaction between the entity and its outer environment that there is the establishment of correspondences between certain stimuli and the welfare of the entity.

We would at this time seek to transfer this contact so that we may continue this topic with the one known as K. We transfer this contact to the one known as K. I am Q’uo.

(K channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each of you once again, in love and light, through this instrument.

We were speaking about catalyst on a day-to-day basis by those aware, to various degrees, of the process of evolution. The procedures used by various entities in processing this catalyst vary greatly. Many, as you are aware, simply go through their lives, day by day, taking part in their various activities with no clear concepts or even much thought given to the purpose of their lives, the nature of the spiritual dimension, of the personality, or the process of spiritual evolution itself.

There are those who give some thought to this process, but what realizations they may come to do not impact their lives. There are those others which we may call the serious seekers which give much thought to the process, attempting each day as much as possible to utilize those awarenesses they may have come to in their lives. This is a very frustrating process for many, for, as each of you are aware, it may seem that one is making no progress. Much thought may be given; much may be studied; much may be realized; and yet their life seems unchanged. This is part of the nature of the illusion which you inhabit at this time. And we salute your continued efforts for you are, as we have said before, largely groping around in the dark.

As you continue upon your metaphysical journey you know you are pointed in the direction of mystery and in that direction you ever proceed. But you are constantly entangled in the day-to-day-ness of your daily round of activities. How busy your peoples are! How intensely focused on the many, many details of the life. We realize the extreme difficulty of transcending this nature of your culture.

The encouragement we can offer you is that the progress you make is largely invisible to yourselves. It may go unseen, unfelt, and yet it is taking place, for on the metaphysical planes, the intention is all. The desire and the will are what carry you on toward your goal. We would urge you not to judge yourself in these matters, not to be constantly taking stock of your estimation of your progress or lack thereof, for this serves only to inject criticism and blame, which is never helpful. Your powers of observation are valuable to you, and we do encourage you to observe yourselves, your reactions, your thoughts, and feelings. And, whatever they may be, to continue your journey in the dark with the companions you have to comfort you in this process.

We would speak to you now of the one thing we would have you keep uppermost in your minds upon this journey, and that is faith. The faith that there is, indeed, a mystery beyond the illusion. That there is just cause to warrant your great and often painful efforts and sacrifices as you continue your activities upon your goal, as you continue the disciplines of the personality, the integrity in upholding the spiritual principles which are truth for you at this time. The faith to continue when all the illusion about you seems to be calling you the fool—for such you are, in the eyes of the illusion.

The journey of the seeker, with regard to the illusion, may be a very lonely one. You have your companions but they do not always walk with you, for each has his own truth to follow, which does lead to the same mystery. The will of each in this group is strong, yet we would offer what encouragement we may, for we see your weariness, and would seek to encourage you where possible. We know you are aware of the nature of the illusion, and from our point of view, outside of your particular illusion, we are aware of many things. Yet, faith and will must remain strong with us as well, for the mystery recedes ever before us, and we, as you, must continue on our path.

The catalyst that comes to you day by day may seem to you to be often of an overwhelming nature. You are aware that you have programmed for yourself large amounts of catalyst to maximize the experience available to you in this incarnation. We are aware that there is much inefficient use of catalyst. Yet, the encouragement we would offer you on this point is that, once again, much progress is made on levels not perceptible to your conscious mind. The conscious focusing upon spiritual principles you wish to incorporate into your lives, the disciplines of daily meditation, the examination of the life, are types of work that you do on a conscious level, but they do not stop there. They begin patterns that continue, carried on by levels in your sub-conscious mind to process the catalyst that comes to you.

Thus, changes may begin in your life of which you are not aware. This is the nature of the change which you would call “from the inside out.” Only much later, if at all, will you see the changes manifested, and yet they begin to take place at the core of your being.

We would at this time transfer once again to the one known as Jim. I am Q’uo, and transfer now.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time we would offer ourselves for the answering of any queries which may be helpful to those here gathered. Is there a query to which we may speak?

Carla: I would like to ask a question, which you may or may not be able to answer, and that is simply that I am not aware because I haven’t been in this situation before, where a sustained period of intense pain has made me feel that perhaps I could not tune properly. I went through the tuning process, and I felt surprisingly secure even in the midst of the physical illusion of pain. It is now my perception that neither pain nor lack of pain has anything to do with the clearing of the energy centers or the tuning process, if the heart and the mind and intent are purely positive, which surprises me. I would have thought that there would be some point at which I would be unable to carry a strong positive signal. If this is, in fact, an illusion, incorrect information which I am perceiving incorrectly because I am in pain, I would enjoy knowing that. However, I totally accept your need to maintain free will and release you from any obligation to answer this question in any way if it is not important [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We thank you for your great care in providing the easiest environment in which we may speak to your query. However, we find that there is no infringement in reminding you of that which you know. You have discovered that there are certain activities that are a central portion of your being, which you may engage in and have the release from the physical pain. You have been able to put aside, through a process of long experience of dealing with this pain, great amounts of this catalyst. It has been your experience that singing sacred music will bring your perceptions to the door of beauty and devotion, without the feeling of the great discomfort which pain brings while you are engaged in the singing of sacred music.

You are also aware of this effect as it is related to the transfer and sharing of the sexual energy exchanges. This is due to the fact that there is a certain enjoyment and expression of this enjoyment of the life experience which you find closely connected to the worshipful attitude, and this phenomenon of the ability to move aside the pain during these experiences is also noticed within the offering the self as vocal instrument. These experiences are those which you place a great amount of faith, devotion and praise in the doing and experiencing. It is your ability to set aside the concerns of the mundane level, and also of the physical pain, which serves you now in the vocal channeling process. However, this is not a phenomenon that has no limitations, shall we say. It is only that you have not currently exceeded the amount of the pain that you may experience without affecting your ability to serve as a vocal instrument.

Thus, we commend your willingness, your dedication, your preparation, your perseverance. However, we would take this opportunity to remind you of that which you are perhaps becoming more familiar, and that is that the increase in pain past a certain point can have the debilitating effect of removing one’s ability to carry out the desires of will and faith. However, at this time you have found yourself yet within that area where the ability to experience pain does not yet overcome your ability to worship and serve in a manner which is central to your life path.

Carla had been experiencing a lot of pain recently and was concerned that it might affect her tuning in preparation for channeling, but so far it hadn’t done so. So she wanted to know if the primary necessities for tuning were having her heart, her mind, and her intentions positively polarized. Q’uo began their response by saying that she was correct in her assumptions, and then they said that she had found that singing sacred music and engaging in the sacred nature of sexual energy exchanges were also ways by which she had been able to put aside the feeling of physical pain. Then Q’uo said that at some point there could be such an increase in pain that it might overcome her ability to serve and worship as she wishes. In 44.13, Ra mentioned the singing of sacred music and the sharing of sexual energy exchanges were helpful for Carla:

Questioner: What I am trying to get at in this session is any practices that we might be able to do to best revitalize the instrument, for it is going to be necessary to do all we can to do this in order to maintain our contacts. Can you tell us what we could best do to increase the instrument’s vitality for these contacts?

Ra: I am Ra. We have spoken before of those things which aid this instrument in the vital energy: the sensitivity to beauty, to the singing of sacred music, to the meditation and worship, to the sharing of self with self in freely given love either in social or sexual intercourse. These things work quite directly upon the vitality. This instrument has a distortion towards appreciation of variety of experiences. This, in a less direct way, aids vitality.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: Well, I am extraordinarily thankful for that answer. I have a little follow-up, and then I have one more question based on what you said. When I get to the threshold where I cannot make safe contact, will I know it ahead of time, that is, will I be so involved in dealing with the pain that it would not occur to me even to try? Or need I be watchful past any particularly overtly evident signs?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We have found that you are sensitive enough to all stimuli that you will be able to discover this configuration in which contact would not be possible by your own experience. For you it would be as though a door had not been opened that you were used to having open almost without effort.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: Yes, there was something that you said that I’ve always meant ask you. It has been my feeling for as long as I can remember that the physical act of making love is kind of a thanksgiving or Eucharist, a sacrament, and is as holy as the passion of the spirit and the passion of the open heart or service-oriented passions are. Does this idea show some distortion, and if so, in what way? What is the clear perception?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. It is, to our best knowledge, true that the sexual energy exchanges offer the potential for the most sacred of worship as the two entities become one in seeking, one in experience, and one in expression of that which is sought and that which is experienced. However, for most entities, as is the case for most opportunities for such worship and serving, there is only the beginning movement into that which is truly sacred and that which gives the heartfelt praise and thanksgiving that is possible to give within this type of energy exchange, and expression of this exchange. Thus, again, we have the intention, the purity of intention, being the primary factor in determining whether such an experience, or any experience, shall provide the sincere and sacred joy and praise to the one Creator.

Now Carla said that she always had felt that physical love-making was a sacrament and just as holy as taking communion or any open-hearted service, and she wanted to know if she was correct. Again, Q’uo agreed that the sexual energy exchange was the most sacred of activities that could be engaged in because two entities sharing this exchange of energy become one in seeking and in experience, but this would only be the case if both entities shared the intention of giving joy and praise to the Creator as the focus of their sexual energy exchange. In 73.22, Ra spoke of this kind of intention which Carla utilized when she engaged in sexual energy exchanges:

The second energy transfer of which we would speak is the sexual energy transfer. This takes place upon a non-magical level by all those entities which vibrate green ray active. It is possible, as in the case of this instrument which dedicates itself to the service of the One Infinite Creator, to further refine this energy transfer. When the other-self also dedicates itself in service to the One Infinite Creator, the transfer is doubled. Then the amount of energy transferred is dependent only upon the amount of polarized sexual energy created and released. There are refinements from this point onward leading to the realm of the high sexual magic.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you very much for all, and just thank you in general.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister, for your queries, for your presence and your perseverance. Is there another query at this time?

K: I have a question. I am usually unable to distinguish between my own thoughts and what I consider to be those given to me by you. Can you let me know whether I was adhering relatively well to [inaudible] approximate [inaudible] what you communicated to me, and, if so, when I felt there was time to transmit a thought, were you done at that time?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that this evening you were able to perceive and transmit our thoughts in quite an accurate manner and to a degree which is quite acceptable. We are very happy to be able to make and maintain a secure contact through your instrument. We were satisfied with the amount of information we were able to transmit through your instrument, and though were not completely ended with that which we could have offered through your instrument, we found that the degree of fatigue was such that in order to maintain your instrument at a more efficient level of functioning, shall we say, it was well to end when we did, rather than to attempt to extend the exercise period with what one may call diminishing returns, due to the degree of fatigue.

Thus, in the case of every instrument there is the limit that is reached where it is well for the contact to consider termination of the contact, in order that the information transmitted might be of the highest quality or the most accurate transmission.

Is there another query, my sister?

K: Do you have any suggestions as to how I might focus more clearly on the contact, or improve the contact in general?

I am Q’uo, and [inaudible] working with this instrument. The degree of concern you have shown for the practice of vocal channeling is commendable, and we thank you for your care and for the increasing desire that we have noticed within you for wishing to improve the service which you offer. For most instruments that are new to this practice it is almost always correct to suggest that the relaxation during the channeling process is most helpful, continuing the honing of the inner perceptive skills. This is to say that allowing undue worry to wash away from one’s consciousness and to relax as much as is physically, mentally and emotionally possible provides the framework in which work may be done most successfully. Thus, we have for you no suggestion beyond that which you already do, and have done well for some period of time, and that is to be as meticulous as is possible in the tuning, in the challenging, and then to give away the cares and concerns so that one may relax into that inward posture which will allow one to perceive and transmit those thoughts which we give to you.

Is there further query, my sister?

K: [Inaudible] practice. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and again I thank you, my sister. We find that we have spoken for a relatively short period of time, for us, this evening, and we take this opportunity to—this instrument has some difficulty with this concept—to congratulate ourselves for curtailing that which we have to offer. We, however, cannot take full credit, for, as we have noted before, this group has some significant degree of fatigue this evening. Thus, our credit-taking is offered as our form of humor, which this instrument has some difficulty in penetrating.

We thank you, my friends. We enjoy your presence, your determination, and your good-humored laughter. We shall leave this group at this time, in the love and the light of the One infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I ran a few errands with my first stop at Walmart to see if I could find any artificial flowers that I could put in the two flower pots on my front porch which have pansies which the deer have mostly eaten. I bought about twenty of various colors that came in bouquets of six to eight flowers each. Then I stopped in at Kroger’s to buy some kitty litter. My third stop was at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some non-food items.

This afternoon I used the hose and sprayer to clean the filters for the fountain in the fish pond, and then I “transplanted” the artificial flowers in the two flower pots on the front porch.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 8

Seek The True Image Of Love

I am the Holy Spirit of the Lord Jesus Christ and I overshadow this instrument with the consciousness of love.

Just in such a way may we greet each and overshadow each with the love that is a kind of truing device, so that each spirit which seeks love may, by asking, receive the comfort of closer and closer knowledge of the true wholeness and unity of creation.

The untrue perceptions which abound within your experience are a matter of gazing upon the streaming array of scenes and experiences about you as if through a vastly distorting carnival mirror. Seek, then, the true image of love in whatever your gaze falls upon by invoking the Comforter, the pure consciousness of love.

We leave you in the symmetry and grace of the love of Jesus Christ and in His peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 25, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time we would open this session of working to those queries which may be upon the minds of those present. Again we would remind each that we offer that which is but our opinions, and though we offer them gladly and freely we would not wish any word that does not ring of truth to the listener to be kept within that listener’s mind. Take only those words which seem useful to you and leave all others behind. May we ask if there is a query at this time to which we may speak?

D: I have a question. Is the planet healed by third-density attempts to heal it?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that there have been for many, many years attempts by various individuals and groups upon your planetary surface to bring about the healing within this planetary vibration, a healing which would seek to mend that which has been broken and distorted by the careless and violent upheavals within so many of your cultures for so much of your history. Those angers and acts of disrespect for self, for other selves, and for your planetary entity itself, have the accumulated effect of causing these disharmonious vibrations to be accepted by the planet itself, and these vibrations then build up a kind of karma, if you will, that which is the wound within the planet. This is also added to by the carelessness of the manner with which the planet and its resources are utilized within the human process of evolution, industrialization, standardization and the large scale manufacture of items for convenience.

Though there are many efforts that have had marked success in attempting the rebalancing and healing of your planet’s ruptures, we find that there shall be for some period of time that is significant in your measure of time, a remaining evidence of this disharmony that will necessitate a continuation of this healing process into the fourth-density experience that has begun upon this sphere at this time. We encourage all such efforts at not only healing that which has been broken, but in ceasing to cause further damage by the conscious application of those principles of stewardship which each entity and culture creates and undertakes as a way of life and realizes as a standard of living, or of relationship, each with the other and with the planet itself.

D asked if our planet was healed by third-density attempts to heal it. Q’uo responded by saying that there were many attempts to heal our planet of the difficulties of war and the unwise use of the resources of our planet, and there had been some success in this healing, but it would be necessary to continue these healing efforts for some time to come. In 26.28-31, Ra spoke of how healing efforts have been utilized for some time for our planet:

Questioner: I was thinking specifically if an entity was in Hiroshima or Nagasaki at that time and he was reaching harvestability at the end of our cycle, would this death by nuclear bomb possibly create such trauma that he would not be able to be harvestable at the end of the cycle? That was specifically my question.

Ra: I am Ra. This is incorrect. Once the healing has taken place the harvest may go forth unimpeded. However, the entire planet will undergo healing for this action, no distinction being made betwixt victim and aggressor, this due to damage done to the planet.

Questioner: Could you please make the instrument cough? And…

Ra: [Cough.]

Questioner: And then, can you describe the mechanism of the planetary healing?

Ra: I am Ra. Healing is a process of acceptance, forgiveness, and, if possible, restitution. The restitution not being available in time/space, there are many among your peoples now attempting restitution while in the physical.

Questioner: How do these people attempt this restitution in [the] physical?

Ra: I am Ra. These attempt feelings of love towards the planetary sphere and comfort and healing of the scars and the imbalances of these actions.

Is there a further query, my brother?

D: Is the planetary entity being formed more by the passive sending of love and light than [inaudible]?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. It is quite correct that the planetary entity is greatly benefited by that which you call the passive sending of love, light and healing energy, which may be done in any number of ways, including the meditation, the imagination, contemplation, prayer and the simple attitude of right use which each entity vibrates as a tone of the being, shall we say, as it accomplishes its daily round of activities. These sendings, or thoughts, in the metaphysical sense, are things which are felt and which find their place within this planet’s web of energies and which work in an harmonious fashion with the planetary energies.

Is there a further query, my brother?

D: Is it better to accept someone who [inaudible] as they are even though it may be self-destructive, or to encourage change?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that it is helpful to accept every entity that one meets as being whole and complete in the basic sense of being a portion of the one Creator which seeks to know Itself. That there may be apparent disharmonies within an entity’s thinking or behavior may become a means by which a relationship is established with this entity in order that both entities may learn of a balanced path. It is such relationships that allow entities to work upon that catalyst which is the life’s pattern and purpose, for as each partakes in the mirroring process it is as though each helps the other much as would the sculptor, in chiseling away that which is not desired, so that that which is the ideal becomes more clearly formed in each entity’s life pattern.

However, we must add that the most important ingredient in this relationship and process of mirroring is the acceptance each of the other so that there is no need for change to occur for the entity to be accepted. When this level of trust has been established the foundation work has been accomplished and the structure of the relationship then may be built upon this firm foundation, and when there are difficulties that arise within the relationship, as most assuredly they will as a part of the playing out of catalyst, it is well for each to remind the other that the foundation of the relationship is acceptance, that is, not conditional, and which is all-embracing.

Is there a further query, my brother?

D: Is the form of energy work that I’ve come across out here in Oregon beneficial for spiritual growth, and how?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. In this work, as any work which focuses upon the contacting of that shuttle known as the spiritual complex, is work which is beneficial to the evolution of any entity which partakes in it, for the most important ingredient in any such work is not necessarily the apparent efficiency of the philosophy, the ritual or the practice, but is instead the intention of the entity which undertakes the philosophy, the ritual or the practice.

When the intent is strong and when the intent persists, then there is constructed within the entity a channel to those energies which are being expressed in whatever manner the practice sets up as a means of expressing these more subtle energies. Working as you are with the subtler energies that enliven and undergird the physical expression of spirit, you may notice that there is within the life pattern added a certain vitality which is as a resource or reservoir of energy which may be utilized according to one’s desires and will. This choice of use of subtle energy vitality is a choice which is crucial in the polarization of any entity, for the choice to utilize such energies in service to others will continue to enhance the evolutionary process.

Thus, the energies with which you work are powerful according to your intention, your perseverance and your choice of usage.

Now D asked if the energy work that he had done in Oregon was helpful for spiritual growth, and if so how? Q’uo replied by saying that work that was directed towards contacting the spirit complex was helpful in one’s spiritual growth because it enlivened the physical expression of the spirit and could be used to aid one’s polarization. On March 2, 2002, Q’uo described the nature of energy work:

Consequently, people who yearn to do higher density work often find themselves with very sickened and failing bodies because the physical complex has not been strengthened to receive higher energy. Consequently, the prelude to working upon the blue ray or the throat chakra is the same as any other energy work. It begins with red ray and clears blockages sequentially, red, orange, yellow, green. Once the energy into the heart has been secured as a good supply then it is that entities may work further and begin that which is truly a blessed and healing thing, work in consciousness. Work within blue ray is helpfully preceded by time spent in silence within the heart chakra, for there is the need to become undefended and it is only in the heart chakra that you are able to reprogram fear into love.

Is there a further query, my brother?

D: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have one, which you may or may not be able to answer, because it’s specific, but it’s something that I’ve been experiencing for awhile and I felt that I should question you for any comments you might have. I keep waking up in the middle of a sentence. It’s very distracting, and has thrown me off a couple of times this evening because I must have sort of, without leaving my body, just gone very deep. And the question is, is this an artifact of my low vitality, or is it a sensitivity of some kind to something that you have in mind, for instance, [inaudible] the best state that I can be in without being in trance?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Your latter assumption is more nearly correct. We are working with your instrument and your vital energy, especially the physical energy level, in a way which we hope may stabilize the contact at a level which is both efficient in the transfer of concept and relatively comfortable to you as you partake in this process. We would recommend that you not be overly concerned with the phenomenon of awakening, as you have put it, in the middle of a sentence or a concept, but continue as you have for lo these many years to step off the cliff without knowing where the foot will land. It is this willingness to offer the self wholeheartedly as an instrument which will aid any instrument’s progress as it seeks to improve its function as an instrument.

Thus, we congratulate you on your continued perseverance and practicing of your art and would comfort your concern with these words.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Just what is happening? I mean, am I going out of time, because to tell you the truth, tonight it was—I thought I’d been talking for maybe five minutes, and the recorder clicked, it was supposedly 45 minutes. I guess it’s the truth, but I wasn’t aware of most of it. What was I doing if I didn’t leave my body? I mean, was I actually going to sleep? I’m not overly concerned about it, I just want to understand it, in case it happens to somebody else that I have been teaching.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The process that is ongoing as you continue in your channeling is one which takes you deeper into the subconscious levels of your mind complex and which approaches that which you call the trance level without actually entering into this level of mind, for we do not wish to work with your instrument in that kind of experience, for reasons which you are well aware. However, that which we have noted within your conscious mind more nearly approaches what you would call the sleep state, or more correctly, the hypnogogic state that is associated with the rapid eye movement or dream state that is within the sleep state. This…

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This morning I went back to the County Clerk’s Office and found out that my payment of the taxes on my trailer had been returned to me because I had made a donation to the Kentucky Veteran’s Trust, and their computer system was not able to process donations at this time. On the way home I stopped in at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up a prescription.

This afternoon I went to see my dentist to have him look at a couple of sores in my gum line above the teeth on both sides of my mouth. He prescribed some steroid cream that he suggested that I rub on the sores four times a day, and then I will go back in a week so he can see if they are being healed.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 7

Softness Of Heart

I am the spirit of the living Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of perfect love.

We would give to you and to all the peoples of Earth the grandeur and the glory of creation, the aspect of heaven which your eyes do not see but which rests imperishably within each perishable mote of shape and substance in the creation.

We would give to you the softness of heart to perceive glory. And yet often you who seek the living spirit of love feel that you must toughen and harden yourselves to be more effective blunt instruments for Christ. Yet Christ is not one desirous of seeing large generalities or of using blunt instruments.

Jesus the Christ wishes to send you into the world as a soft, complex, subtle and quietly shining being, one who celebrates the imperishable in every perishable situation; one who can ignore the perishable even when a less subtle heart would be prone to condemn and turn away.

The strength of Jesus the Christ seems often like softness, yet there is more steel in the velvet manipulations of the spirit than in the hardened thrusts of all the righteous lances in the perishable universe.

May your hearts be softened and may you find peace in the imperishable, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 25, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with how one can find the way of being of service that is the most appropriate for that person at that time. Are there any techniques or procedures or ways that a person could make this information more available or discover this information in any way whatsoever?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet each of you with great joy and gratitude in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is most delightful to us to be able to have the chance to attempt to share our thoughts with you, but we must ask, as we always make a point of asking, that our words not be taken as unexamined truth, for personal truth is different for each person, and that which may help another may be a stumbling block to you. Consequently, take that which is recognized by your own discrimination and discard any other words which did not make personal sense. Trust not any source but yourself, for within yourself lies a far better discernment than you know. It is within the grasp of each to imagine, but what you know is not that of which third density is greatly privileged to know, and although our illusion is more transparent, yet still we also seek to learn, as we are still aware of our own consciousness, and we have a long process ahead of us. So we feel not in any way different from you, for all consciousness is one.

How pleasant it is to listen to the soft household sounds through this instrument’s ears. The melodies of your planet are beautiful, and we do appreciate them—the melody of your environment, the melody of your elements, the melody of the tone poem which is your incarnation. These are sweet, and sometimes sorrowed songs, yet they have called us to you, for there has been more and more a call among your people for information, resources and tools to use in the path of spiritual growth. We thank this instrument and all instruments for making themselves available to serve in this capacity.

However, we would, and not for the first time, point out that all services are dependent, not upon your assessment of your importance, but on the wholeheartedness with which you pursue that which is in your eye’s shot. At any particular moment your path of service is with you. It is in many ways very difficult, we realize, to grasp the nature of service. And it is appealing and interesting to wonder if one could become a healer, or a channel, or some other dramatic path of service that would consume the life. However, service is not graded, except insofar as it is sincere in the attempt and genuine in refusing to do work in consciousness until you have examined, satisfactorily, any blockages that might be caused by misunderstood, misused or misperceived catalyst.

The Creator’s thought was part and parcel of Its very nature. This thought is what we call love, because we cannot find any more appropriate word in your vocabulary. But it is a love of charity, of positivity, of creativity and of transformation. The main offering that you give in your incarnation to the world about you—and make no mistake, this is the density wherein one reckons with society, and all that it implies, for weal or woe—the first thing that you offer to the Father is yourself, your consciousness. The Creator, as described in older holy works, wished sacrifice. We ask only for the sacrifice of praise and thanksgiving, regardless of circumstance. In this lies the main and fundamental service each entity has to offer to the planet and to the Creator, which is Love Itself.

It is difficult for an entity within the illusion in which you dance to believe that something as simple as consciousness could be your greatest service. Yet consciousness is only simple to those who have not begun to search for the truth, and above all, we do not wish you to stand by in opportune polarizing situations, and say, as Pontius Pilate did, “What is truth?” and then walk away. This is not an incarnation in which you shall walk away from the catalyst, the lessons, the personal service to yourself, and the service to others that stems therefrom.

The group question for this session was how can we determine what the most appropriate service is for us? Q’uo began their response by saying that our service was always with us, but we may not be able to determine what it is until we have worked with any blockages that we may have been misperceived and are in need of clarification. I am guessing that this would involve the first three energy centers being unblocked so we could access our heart center and more of the true nature of our purpose in life. Q’uo recommended that our consciousness be used to offer praise and thanksgiving which is a way of sharing love for all in a universal way, and is actually the greatest service that we can offer. In 15.7, Ra also spoke of our greatest service in similar terms:

Questioner: What is the greatest service that our population on this planet could perform individually?

I am Ra. There is but one service. The Law is One. The offering of self to Creator is the greatest service—the unity, the fountainhead. The entity who seeks the One Creator is with infinite intelligence. From this seeking, from this offering, a great multiplicity of opportunities will evolve depending upon the mind/body/spirit complex’s distortions with regard to the various illusory aspects, or energy centers, of the various complexes of your illusion.

Thus, some become healers, some workers, some teachers, and so forth.

Let us gaze upon this concept from a slightly different point of view. The love that you have within you is finite due to the limitations of the heavy chemical illusion and your physical body whose sensing equipment is designed more to make choices than to understand. So, what is necessary for you to grasp if you wish to be of primary service in this incarnation and at this time, is to, as frequently as possible when you find yourself drifting into a nonpolarized or negative emotional state, to think back to that meditation with which you began your morning. Remember that then you did stand upon holy ground, no matter what your conscious experience, for it is your intent, it is your thought, that is real in the metaphysical universe.

We realize that this is a bitter pill to swallow for those who wish to have a path of service, for in working to find your own definitive self, in the effort to polarize, is often implicit the suggestion that one must somehow radically alter one’s set of experiences and choose a path of service. This is not necessary, for you cannot leave the path once you are on it. You may sit by the roadside, you may walk, you may sing or you may cry. But once the mystery is perceived clearly for the first time, and once the nature of that mystery is gazed at clearly, one must see that, indeed, consciousness itself is chaos from which the mind, working like a computer, chooses this and that, this and that, to notice, but for most of the rest, not to notice. This is the physical and mental body complex’s way of protecting itself.

The most strengthening gift that you can cultivate in the regard of this most important and central service is the gift of persistence and unflagging acceptance of any and all circumstances, because it is only an illusion that lies between you and that which is the truth. To extend across the chasm between doubt and faith some entities need great structures to guide them. Other entities find their chapel in the woods, or in the mountain, however it is that you are most comforted by meditation. Therefore, a basic step, if you wish truly to accelerate the pace of spiritual evolution, is first of all to learn to honor, love and value yourself as an absolute whole and perfect being. All else is illusion. You within are imperishable. You will one day discard this physical vehicle in order to grasp by review those things which you have done in this life, so that you may, with guidance, whether you call it the Holy Spirit, inner planes aid, or contacts such as this one, form a new life plan. This inner guidance is most transparent when the meditation is daily, without necessarily being as long as this instrument informs us our messages are.

Q’uo said that as we begin our day with meditation we are setting our intention to live a spiritual life, and this seeker is who we are in the metaphysical universe. They went on to say that no matter what our experiences we are on our path of service, and the mystery of our being is that we have a consciousness that randomly chooses that which it will notice and from which we will learn and serve. Then Q’uo said that we need to learn how to love, honor, and accept ourselves as a whole and perfect being that will grow and be of service as we have planned to do. They said that when we leave our bodies we will work with our guidance systems to form another life plan of service. On September 26, 1977, Hatonn also said that we are whole and perfect being:

You must love your brothers and sisters. But, my friends, the beginning of love is the love of yourself as a whole and perfect being. It is in meditation that you become aware of the true nature of yourself and therefore, my friends, the true nature of the universe, for you are inseparable, completely linked with all that there is. That is why you and we are brothers, for neither time nor space, nor all the dimensions of creation can separate the oneness of consciousness.

The next point that we would like to discuss is that of the seeming disparity of potential for service that various entities have. Some seem to have many gifts, and as each gazes at itself it realizes it is lacking somewhat. That thinking needs to stop right there. In order to follow the law, which this instrument calls the Law of One, it is quite necessary to be vulnerable and open to circumstance, guided always from within, and if that guidance is not seemingly forthcoming, patience is your next, greatest, resource as a spiritual seeker.

There are many whose voices have been heard who speak of prophecy and doom and planetary catastrophe. We do not cavil at these people’s messages, but only make note that where there is love there is not fear. If there is to be an opportunity for you to share that which you now are aware of as difficulties happen to cause those about you to remember that you are a spiritual seeker, then that is a beautiful service to offer—to answer the questions asked, to bear witness to the truth that you can have faith in, blind and unreasoning faith.

Now, we do not speak here of doctrine, of dogma. We would express our bias that these theologies are to be realized as structures available to people who find that particular structure to be the appropriate way to increase polarity, to drink of the water that shall never make you thirsty again, to eat the bread of eternal life. We use these images because this instrument is a Christian. However, these thoughts may be expressed in many variations of vocabulary, and perhaps the one that we would choose might be different. In each case where we speak we gauge the needs of the group, or gaze at the universal need that the group expresses by being more than two.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and greet you again in love and light. The instrument was experiencing catalyst which it could not continue channeling with, and we believe this is now back to an acceptable level. We shall continue.

In the event of what you call your catastrophes, the service-to-others entity will be given great opportunities for service, and bear in mind that service is action, is doing, as well as being, but the doing is not important, it is the frame of reference from which you approach each moment. We are not being mysterious on purpose, but the truth does not lie within our ability to offer to anyone without one’s free will being abridged. However, if one relaxes, finds merriment to be freely bubbling forth, finds a place where the joy of loving and being loved is immediately experienced, then each may gaze at whatever one does as being done for the love of the infinite One. And as the emotions of devotion are turned towards the environment of the existing life and gazed at with an eye to being one who offers the positive point of view, then you may see that in any circumstance an entity with a positive, affirmative and hopeful point of view may well be foolish, which is acceptable in third density, indeed, almost necessary, for who but a fool would take the leap of faith that would say “I do not need to be concerned about my path of service, for I see in front of me a dish to wash, a compost heap to turn, a child or a friend to hug and share love with.”

Develop the listening ear, for you have nothing to sell. We ask that it be considered whether or not evangelism is not an infringement upon free will. No matter how excited you may be over that which makes complete sense to you, it is not well to offer this to others without first dropping a few seeds, measuring things and seeing if the area in which you are interested is the area in which another is. If the two paths are mutually exclusive it is a kindness not to attempt to change others’ paths because you feel that you have found more truth. You have found it because you were able to hear it. Those who are not ready for this material, or any material, simply will not take it in, or will have a mistaken opinion of that which was said.

It is very difficult to face the great key that unlocks the path of service. Meditation is a matter of discipline, and is very important. Reading inspirational things is helpful; many things are helpful. But where the Christ consciousness is allowed to seek opportunities to serve, the self finds that it never has enough hours in the day, but that the work is worth it. It all begins with the journey from temporality to infinity, and you are most open to infinity when you stay in the immediate present moment, for that is eternity. When the resonance of each moment can be felt, instead of simply a river of time moving from birth to death and robbing you of all that you have and eventually your body entirely, gaze at this entire experience with a calmer eye. You are here not to be happy, but to serve. This was your choice, else you would not be here, for the number of souls wishing to incarnate at this particular time is large, and incarnation is offered only to those who, by what this instrument would call seniority of vibration, that is, souls old enough to take an active part in designing the life experience so that they may learn.

It is difficult to believe that it all begins with forgiving yourself. Everyone has a different perception of himself than entities do of that entity. In other words, it is our observation from the limited experience we have had with your people that your culture is such as to greatly discourage precisely that which you are doing. But if you can—and you can—move back always to the memory of that holy ground, then you will be open to murmurings of Spirit. This entity experiences the will that is greater than its own as a kind of two-by-four hitting one between the eyes so that there is no question about what the choice of service should be. This is a sensitive instrument, consequently it does experience the touch of spirit strongly. Others have less success in discerning guidance.

Q’uo continued by saying that as spiritual seekers we all have various gifts of how to be of service to others, and if we are unsure as to what service to offer we should be patient until we feel our guidance from within us that will reveal our service. They continued by saying that whatever service we have to offer be offered as love to the infinite One in any way that comes before our notice whether it is dishes to wash, hugging a friend, or even turning a compost heap. Q’uo also suggested that meditation could be a great key to unlocking our path of service as it can put us in touch with our Christ consciousness which exists in the present moment of infinity and provides us with the all the chances to be of service that we could ever hope for. Then Q’uo said that this whole process begins with our forgiving ourselves for any seeming imperfections and then move back to that holy ground where we can hear the voice of the Spirit and find our path of service. On November 15, 1998,
Q’uo described how we can hear the voice of the Spirit:

The voice of Spirit seems to speak in so many ways to one who is listening, and the more one begins to attend to coincidences and synchronicities the more one begins to get a feeling of spirit talking back to you, being that unseen companion that is willing to place within the consciousness alternate ways of being. This is work for the persistent, for, indeed, it is the work of the incarnation, not a work done in a day, or a year, or a decade, but rather that goal of self-awareness and self-choice that is as the star that each follows.

Perhaps the second greatest service an entity can provide is the giving of self in relationship, for by this means each can mirror to each the perceived personality, thus enabling both entities, if both entities are honest and clear, to proceed much more rapidly than if they did not have a mirror, if they were not held accountable for self-deceit. Especially of service is the sacrificial care and tending of young ones, for if you are able to offer support, confidence in the small entity, and charity, the charity of the greatly opened heart, then you shall have done a service for this soul that redounds through many lifetimes.

In all cases, if the presence of mind is yours at a time, ask yourself, if it is your catalyst, “Where is the lesson, where is the love in this catalyst?” If you have an analytical mind, it is helpful to think about it. If you are one who moves directly from the heart, it is well, rather, to ask for clear dreaming, and to keep the dream notebook at hand. We realize that that which we have to say may seem to deny each entity the choice of service paths. Indeed, although the decision has been made, it was your own. What is remaining is for you to discover by whatever means native to your gifts are most excellent, how to perceive the urgings of the guidance of the Christ-self or the love within.

The journey of service is the journey of the servant. This is not an easy mentality for your culture, but in truth, having loved yourself completely, you are then free to love others with the same unconditional flowing of love. First yourself, then others. We do not say this to make you be selfish. Quite the opposite; we say this to make you effective. For if you embark upon work in consciousness in an unworthy manner, soon you shall be exhausted, and sit at the side of the road you shall, until you regain that blind faith that keeps you stepping out constantly into thin air.

We have circled back to the key concept that creates the possibility for entities to take courage and move forward. It is when the self has been learned to the best of one’s ability that one may be able to carry a more and more impersonal and all compassionate consciousness, trusting that although you did not make this up within your lifetime, as the arena upon which you would play your part, you did choose it, but there is no proof that you did chose this program. There will never be spiritual proof, for you are a being of free will. That is, there will not be truth itself, but you can be in the immediate presence of the most high, the most infinite, Creator.

Firstly, to love the Creator and to share it forth in your very consciousness in whatever condition, this is the first and greatest service. Secondly, in order to prepare yourself for service to others, the self who is going to be a servant needs to be well enough grasping of its own nature that it does not transfer the biases that it has towards the self to another. Thusly, we urge each always to give the first thought to clearing the self, polishing up the brass, washing the windows of the soul, becoming able to be a conduit for an infinite love, a resonant and creative love.

We feel that this is a beginning, and would now transfer this contact, due to the instrument’s fatigue, to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument for serving, and all instruments who serve, and we would thank all entities who may discover their paths of service by looking in front of their face, and seeing for the first time that in a universe created of Love, no matter what the illusion, all is alive, all will return the love you give, tenfold, a hundredfold, and a thousandfold.

Then Q’uo said that the second greatest service that we can offer is in the relationships with others where each serves as a mirror to the other, and both grow in the ability to serve by clarifying their intentions and actions. They said this could be done by processing our catalyst either by rational analysis or from the contact with our hearts to find guidance from the Christ-self within us so that we learn to love ourselves and then love others as well. Then Q’uo said that all of this is the process by which we come to know ourselves and discover the lessons and services that we have come to offer in this lifetime are focused on loving and serving the Creator and then becoming a conduit for the Creator’s love for others that will come back to us many times over. On October 27, 1985, L/Leema spoke of how we learn our lessons of love of the Creator in all:

It is rather the salient lesson and ambiance, if we may, of your illusion that entities work upon the lessons of love. Those lessons include the seemingly foolish giving of self without expectation of return, the movement within darkness with the faith that the love of the one Creator exists in each portion of that darkness without knowing any fact for sure and yet giving wholly of the self regardless of the not being able to know. Yet do entities learn the lessons of love.

At this time we would leave this instrument. I am the principle known to you as Q’uo. I am at this time transferring to the one known as Jim. We leave you in love and light through this instrument. I am the principle known to you as Q’uo.

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at the County Clerk’s office to solve the mystery of why they sent back my check in payment of the yearly charge on my trailer. However, there was a great crowd of people waiting to be seen, so I decided to come back early tomorrow morning when there may not be as many people there. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My third stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some treats for Bosco.

This afternoon I decided to repaint the small area above the mirror in the bathroom that I painted yesterday because it had streaks of light and dark green that I wanted to unify as one color.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 6

Today

I am the Comforter and I speak to you in the wholeness of the love of Jesus the Christ.

Today is a word which means “the present.” Yet how little time each may spend in peaceable, comfortable thought concerning today! Many hark back to yesterdays which seem unsatisfactory and experience emotions negative and sorrowful. Many more gaze into tomorrow with fear and apprehension.

Yet it is today that the Father watches and sets His angels to guide and guard each of you. It is in the present that situations and relationships belong and in the present that help need be asked.

Yes, it is well to pray for forgiveness of yesterday’s sins and for peace of mind concerning an uncertain future. But the spirit of the living Christ urges you to release all and focus upon the moment at hand. For in this moment lies the wholeness of creation, the energy of goodness, the love of Christ, the sacrifice of crucifixion and the sure knowledge of resurrection from any crucified pain or trouble.

Speak in your soul and heart this day of today and, as you ask for comfort, it shall rain upon you in a gentle, peaceful rain. There is help and comfort today.

May your joy be complete in the present moment. And in that moment may you find the peace of the consciousness of love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 18, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to those queries which may be upon the minds of those present. Again, we remind each that we do not wish to be considered in any degree infallible but wish to offer our thoughts and opinions freely, asking that you take those which ring of truth to you and use them as you will, leaving behind all others. Is there a query at this time?

Questioner: This is one that we use. We were taught and it has been very effective in my experience to use the holy name of God to concentrate our minds at all times. It seems that from this type of doing I’ve been very much able to get rid of a lot of bad programming as we’ve been speaking of. How do you all view this?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. When one uses the sound vibration complex that you call name for the one Creator and give to that name your own acceptance and adoration then you provide for yourself a channel or a gateway into that portion of your being where this is true. For within each has the one Creator hidden Itself that through the expression of the individualized self the one Creator might know more of Itself and each portion of Itself might then partake in this discovery, one for the other, as the yearning for union grows.

Is there another query, my brother?

Questioner: Also, you spoke earlier of acknowledging the negativities or the positivity of one’s being in the programming of the biocomputer. This is not very clear. Could you restate it in another way so I might be able to understand it more easily?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my brother. It is often the case for many of your peoples as they look consciously and carefully at themselves that they will see those portions of behavior that they do not appreciate and consider to be less than worthy of study, those portions which may be seen as inability to love, the ability to give insult and injury, the less than honest expression of truth, and so forth. Oftentimes these characteristics are ignored or discarded, hoping in the ignoring of them that they will disappear.

We suggest instead that they also be honored as portions of the self which have a role within the larger scope of the incarnational process and that such character traits or behaviors or beliefs might be followed to their source in order that the entity might discover a more complete picture of the nature of the self and the specific kind of balancing that is in process in the entity, for it is oftentimes true that the negative expression of a character trait is merely one end of a pole or a range where a more positive expression may be found if first the roots of both are uncovered.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: Thank you for that.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Questioner: The answer that was given was very good. I understand it to be that we have to follow those negative aspects of ourselves to find out from where they arise and in doing so we gain that greater knowledge of each of ourselves. I assume that’s what’s meant by exhibiting negative characteristics and outward demonstration.

I am Q’uo, and this is correct, my brother. Is there another query?

Questioner: My query is what density are you operating on and do you have access or perception of all other densities either through travel or exploration?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We of Q’uo are what you might call a group mind or more correctly the blending of two such group minds for the purpose of making an entry into this particular group for the purpose of being able to communicate our thoughts in response to this group’s queries. This is the reason for the blending of two such groups in our case. We seek at that level of vibration which you would equate with the fifth density of experience or that which is of light where the limitless light of the one Creator shines in such a fashion that the truth of unity is without doubt and the relationships between various portions of the one Creator might be more clearly seen.

We of Q’uo seek the lessons of unity, those lessons which are found within that density numbering six where those we call teachers reside. We may travel in thought to such locations and experience a portion of what is available there and as our point of viewing or ability to perceive is expanded by our own learning and experience then more of that which lies ahead on our path becomes available to our perception. Thus, we can speak from experience only through the density numbering five and must rely upon that which has been told to us by our teachers and those bits of our own perception where we have traveled in thought in relation to densities beyond our own.

In answer to Questioner’s question about who Q’uo was, Q’uo only mentioned that they were of the fifth density of light without giving their name as that of Latwii. They said that they were seeking the density of unity, but they did not mention that Ra of the sixth density was also a portion of Q’uo as was stated in the January 7, 1990 session. They also did not mention that those of Hatonn were a part of Q’uo as was stated in the session of November 4, 1990. I am wondering if there was some kind of blending and re-blending of these three social memory complexes from time to time until all three would become a permanent portion of Q’uo and then would be mentioned as the identity of Q’uo at some future date.

Is there another query my brother?

Questioner: I was wondering, I have a teacher in this density also that I hold with great reverence and adoration. I call him by the name of [inaudible]. In what density is he vibrating now on this planet? Or what density has he come from or descended into this incarnation, if you have that information? I am curious about that.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We find a difficulty in giving a direct answer to this query for we do not wish to infringe upon the free will of any who revere this most positively-oriented entity. To describe such an entity by the density to those who honor this entity would be perhaps in some cases to skew this appreciation in an undue manner, which would obscure perhaps the message this entity had to offer. Each entity of this nature comes to serve those of this planetary vibration by hollowing the self in such a fashion that it becomes a pure and clear channel for the one Creator in order that information and inspiration of a certain nature may be offered. This is the message and the purpose of the incarnation for such an entity and each such entity wishes that the message might be delivered as clearly as possible with as little tendency towards distortion as possible. We humbly beg your forgiveness for being unable to give the density of this entity for we wish this entity’s message to remain as clear as possible.

Is there another query, my brother?

Questioner: No, I appreciate that answer. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Just on the off chance that you might give suggestion—when I do a reprogramming write out what I wish to change and the reason involved and a kind of object that makes it, I suppose, more real psychologically, and as I write it I vow and I request my mind to accept the new program and to dump the old one. Are there a number of different ways to do this or is there one that you would recommend? Have you any suggestions upon it?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. There are as many ways of reprogramming one’s biocomputer as there are entities wishing to do so. The most potent program for any entity is that one which has been constructed from the pure desire found within the heart. The expression of this desire is that which gives form as a channel to that desire. This, however, is secondary to the successful reprogramming. The generation of this desire so that it is complete and fills the entity and overflows the cup, shall we say, is that which is of primary importance in the root—we correct this instrument—in the reprogramming of any thought or behavior pattern.

If, as in your case, an entity finds it is helpful to form this desire by writing it upon the paper, by speaking it as a vow, by dancing it as a dance, praying it as a prayer, or meditating it as a mantram then this is the form that is appropriate for that entity. It is well to use those tools which one has been given in which one has found a certain degree of mastery in previous use in order that a form which is most effective might be utilized in giving the clear voice to this heart-generated desire for a closer approximation of love within the life pattern.

Questioner said that when she engaged in reprogramming behaviors she would write out what she wished to reprogram and then requested that her mind accept the reprogramming and dump the old one, so she asked Q’uo if they could recommend any other way to reprogram her behaviors. Q’uo said methods of reprogramming were unique to each person, but they would need to come from the pure desire of the heart and utilize whatever tools to reprogram behavior that have worked for them in the past. On November 8, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the value of reprogramming behavior:

The intellect is not a dictator, unless you accept that nothing can change the pain, the sorrow, and the various anguishes that have previously programmed the computer of your mind towards safety, security, self defense and caution. It takes a great deal of courage, given only by will and grace, to be able, consciously, to work at the reprogramming of the mode of perception used by the conscious mind; the reprioritizing of concerns from those things which seem vital at the mundane level, to value given to those things which, within your culture, would be dismissed as the musings of the sophomore-wise-school, must be grasped and in actuality surrendered. The surrender of long held convictions, as to that which is of priority in life, will cause a kind of mental pain that is a result of the energy involved in delving into the conscious prioritizing portion of the self, and the specific reprogramming of the self towards the affirmative, positive, self-respecting, self-forgiving consciousness that has no part of the illusion in which you live.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Questioner: No, I’m done. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Questioner: You mentioned the deep mind, and I was wondering what are the symptoms of reaching the megamind or the infinite intelligence and whether one can actually be in that awareness or consciousness all the time within this density, third-dimensional density? And the symptoms, of course, you can elaborate on and can maybe give a clue to the path to tapping into that gateway that we can manifest greater love and light of the infinite Creator which I call Krishna. That is my question. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we are most appreciative of this question which ranges quite broadly within the field of the evolution of consciousness. To give a full answer would be the work of many sessions such as this one but we may give a, shall we say, a crystallized response and ask that further queries be given if there is more information desired.

The ability of any entity to reach deeper levels of the subconscious mind and move therefrom to other levels of mind which would include the racial, the planetary, the archetypical, and the universal mind depends upon the ability of the entity to still the conscious mind to such a degree that silence is able to prevail and open a door that is more clearly seen, or shall we say, felt, due to the lack of interference in the activity of the mind. This ability to move through this doorway to deeper levels of the mind is a, shall we say, product of work done upon the personality.

This includes work at each level of existence that corresponds with each chakra or energy center as you know them within the physical vehicle, each center allowing the entity the opportunity of more fully expressing the intelligent energy or prana of the one Creator. It is within each center or chakra that various blockages have been programmed before each incarnation to bias the learning of the entity in such and such a fashion.

As this learning proceeds apace the entity is able to see the self, all other selves, and the creation and experiences about it as those expressions of love which have for some time been disguised as other than love. Therefore, the greatest indication or symptom of an entity able to move through deeper levels of mind is the ability of the entity to see love in all portions of the creation. This is a product of a great deal of work over many periods or incarnations for the seeker of truth.

We feel that this is a great deal of information which if added to at this time might be somewhat confusing, therefore we shall allow any further query that you would have at this time.

Questioner asked Q’uo if a person could contact intelligent infinity in the third density; could they stay there; and what was the experience like? Q’uo said that if a person could use disciplines of the personality to still the conscious mind and use the key of silence to open a kind of door, that it was possible to move through the door to the cosmic mind. Q’uo said that this discipline of the personality would require work at each of the energy centers to unblock them so that the person would be able to see love in all portions of the creation. In 50.8, Ra spoke about this kind of process:

Questioner: Thank you. How does the ability to hold visual images in mind allow the adept to do polarization in consciousness without external action?

Ra: I am Ra. This is not a simple query, for the adept is one which will go beyond the green ray which signals entry into harvestability. The adept will not simply be tapping into intelligent energy as a means of readiness for harvest but tapping into both intelligent energy and intelligent infinity for the purpose of transmuting planetary harvestability and consciousness.

The means of this working lie within. The key is first, silence, and secondly, singleness of thought. Thusly a visualization which can be held steady to the inward eye for several of your minutes, as you measure time, will signal the adept’s increase in singleness of thought. This singleness of thought then can be used by the positive adept to work in group ritual visualizations for the raising of positive energy, by negative adepts for the increase in personal power.

Questioner: I have one more query. The bias towards learning or the biases that are created within the consciousness for learning I’m being taught more is, even though it sometimes creates in our experience pain—what we experience is pain or the illusion of suffering is also perfect in the eyes of the Creator and the consciousness of the higher self…

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we feel that we have the gist of your query and would agree that though much learning partakes in that which appears to be great suffering, disease, poverty, pain and separation one from another that these are often the most effective means of directing the attention which has not focused clearly upon the lessons at hand. The catalyst of pain, for example, is that which grabs your attention and points towards an area which contains the opportunity for uncovering a portion of the self which waits to be born. With each birth there is the pain of the delivery. That which is old and has been replaced by that which grows anew oftentimes must be allowed to be removed in a painful fashion.

Since the illusion in which you move has many veils across the far-seeing ability of any entity, it is necessary oftentimes that the eyes which see only dimly be given the assistance or the reminder that trauma and suffering provide. However, when the pearl has been won, no price or pain is too great.

Questioner was asking if the process of experiencing pain and suffering was acceptable to the Creator and the higher self. Q’uo agreed that the experience of pain was a way to accelerate one’s spiritual growth at various levels of experience where old portions of the self die and new portions are born. Q’uo said this process was like obtaining a pearl of great price that was purchased with much experience of pain. On July 18, 1982, Latwii spoke of how we may obtain the pearl of great price:

The burden of the seeker is that it shall bear the responsibility for the purity of its seeking. The path in union with the one Creator is a path which is hard-won, the traveling of which is not always easy. The pearl of great price, as it has been called, has as its price the constant seeking and the constant choosing to be of that positive polarity. To refine the seeking to the purity necessary to achieve the pearl requires that there be the constant opportunity to have a choice, the constant opposing force, shall we say against which to push. It is a testing. It is a choosing. It is a seeking and a refining. And those of the positive path rejoice in this process, for each opposing force which acts within the life of the seeker presents yet one more opportunity to increase the desire to seek the truth. If there were no force against which to push, there would be no motion, no movement, no evolution. Rejoice, then, my friends, for your opportunities of seeking are greatly enhanced, yet you must bear the responsibility of this seeking and of the increased opportunities.

At this time we feel that we have extended the energies of this group far enough that it would be well to give rest. Therefore, we shall once again thank each for inviting our presence and shall leave this group as we have found it in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I painted the vertical portions of the steps that go upstairs in white paint. Then I did some touchup painting of the area on both of the walls next to the steps also using white paint.

This afternoon I used green paint to paint a small area above the sink and mirror in the bathroom and then went back to the stairs to touchup some of the walls on both sides of the stairs with the green paint.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 5

Vehicles Of The Spirit

I am the spirit of the living Christ and I speak to you through this instrument in peace.

May you experience love washing over you in waterfalls and great channels of swift-moving power.

Yet if you do not experience the spirit in this wise, know that it is also through quiet and subtle movements and effects that the spirit makes itself known to the churches and to humankind. For it is not only those who gesture and speak with authority, claiming a closeness with the spirit by virtue of station or special knowledge that others do not have, that spread transformation upon the Earth but also every movement of light, every creation of form and every happenstance and event which carries the message of the spirit of Christ.

Look for the spirit of love in unlikely and hidden places as well as the great shelves and benches of sunlit and authoritative existence and information, for we of the principle of love scorn nothing. All is a vehicle fit for the spirit, and all is fit to be transformed through Jesus the Christ.

May the peace of transformation be with you now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 18, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with how individuals and groups, or any people that are in relationship with others, can work through the blockages that seem to get in the way of sharing as fully as possible the feeling of love, with ourselves, with each other, and with the group. How can we remove those patterns of thinking and behaving that tend to drain away, or even keep us from seeing the feeling of love and compassion for others?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings to each of you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We thank you most humbly for allowing us to share in your meditation and for calling upon our people to offer what information it is within our grasp to offer. By this we mean to imply that we are not without error ourselves, for we are brothers and sisters along the infinite path.

We have had your experience, and you do not think that you have had ours. That is an artifact of your perceptions of time. Time, space and all that dwells in those areas are illusions. Not relative illusions, but absolute illusions. Were one to be able to see with the eyes that pierce flesh and see spirit, we would see beings of light surrounded in a matrix of energy vortices. Each of you is an unique being, yet one with all that there is. It is when one finds paradoxes such as this one that one realizes most clearly that one is treading on fruitful metaphysical ground, for paradox and mystery are the signs of the infinite One.

You wish this evening to know more about the alteration of behaviors in order to operate affirmatively and positively. We would ask you to move one step backward with us, for it is not your behavior, but your being, your consciousness, your inner choices, that dictate with a ruthless certainty that which you shall perceive and notice, as you are not within the density you enjoy aware that the illusion is so complete it is easy to identify consciousness with behaviors, and gaze at the behaviors instead of finding the root of those behaviors. Now we have said to you before that the biocomputer which is your conscious mind is designed to make choices. In reality, your consciousness has the very basis of the illusion, that is, thesis and antithesis. So let us turn our gaze inward, and realize that our biocomputers have been programmed for this incarnation on a continuing basis; however, as it is popularly suspected…

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and greet you once again in love and light. This instrument was much distracted because it required a liquid. We shall proceed. Those decisions made early in the incarnation when one was quite behind hand in grasping the larger truths concerning the great difficulties those you know as parents experienced. You were therefore victimized by whatever patterns of their negative influence were at that time present or at any other previous place in your flow of time present; further, much of the popular culture of your people given as the absolute understanding of “they,” as in “they say,” “they think,” you have purchased, without reading the ingredients, metaphysical food that you may find giving you a metaphysical stomachache.

The most common legacy of the childhood in your culture is low levels of admiration and love, nurturing and forgiveness of the self. The entire world of personalities you may well be willing to forgive; but you yourself are often dazed by such excellent conditioning that there is no way to please the self, each having internalized in its own way the negatives of parental disapproval and lack of understanding, verbal and physical abuse, often in subtle ways, that you have experienced. Once these patterns have been set up, and this occurs quite early in life, usually, the rest of the incarnation is spent upon an arena which has been constructed to challenge you with these seeming self-destructive and limiting programs within the biocomputer. After these biases are in place, more and more the entity will notice and be aware of those things which are relevant to its self-destructive concerns. We ask you to allow the inner feeling of self to become crystallized at this time, and we shall pause.

[Pause]

Do you see the treasure that lies within you? Which do you think is reality? Which do you think is illusion?

The first step towards altering one’s state of consciousness is the honest and actual realization that you are not that which begins and ends in this incarnation or within this illusion. This begins to distance the self, that is, the consciousness, from that beloved animal of second density which sacrifices a great deal to carry you about. It is well to be a careful and generous steward to your own physical vehicle; however, it is your ally and your friend, rather than yourself. When you have clearly made that distinction, you may begin to see the absolute subjectivity of perception, which is your own.

The environment gives you a thousand messages, a hundred thousand, a million, so quickly, so very quickly, and the computer chooses that which it will notice, that which it will perceive. However, most are not aware that they have, at some point in the past, chosen to program the computer in such a way as to offer detuning, depolarizing and the heaviness of blocked lower energies. Instead of feeling helpless, instead of watching your behavior that you may behave correctly, take thought of your spirit and realize that all choices that have been instrumental in creating existing programs are your own.

The group question for this session was: How can individuals and groups work through the blockages that keep them from loving and serving each other? Q’uo began their response by saying that it is our inner being, or consciousness, that determines what we will notice and how we will behave, and the root causes of these choices have been programmed into us from our childhood. Q’uo went on to say that this programming is usually a result of our parent’s own difficulties in their lives manifesting as lack of love, understanding, verbal and physical abuse for us when we were children. Then Q’uo said that the rest of our lives will be spent mentally and emotionally processing this kind of catalyst that has come from previous incarnations that we have chosen as lessons to learn in this incarnation. On March 6, 2016, Hatonn described the nature of pre-incarnative choices:

There are, for all entities, confusions that occur during the life experience that make the perception of the pre-incarnative choices a difficult feat, for there is much that distracts even the serious seeker from the seeking, much which seems at odds with previous experience, much which needs to be processed in a conscious fashion and then taken to the meditative state in order that it might be seated there as an experience which has been learned and is now available for future use.

Many entities have programed situations which are most difficult to consider experiencing in a conscious fashion in the third-density illusion. There are various reasons why entities may choose to suffer, as you would say, to place themselves in a situation which seems to cause excessive pain physically, emotionally, mentally, and perhaps even spiritually.

Why would entities do such a thing as this—to bring upon themselves that which one would wish to avoid? Is not happiness the goal of your illusion? No, my friends, happiness is not the goal of your illusion. Learning to love under all possible circumstances is indeed the goal which each of you seeks. This is not to say that one cannot feel happy, or joy, and still be upon the spiritual path. It is that the happiness is not that which you seek primarily. Happiness may be an outgrowth of your seeking.

So when you look upon those entities about you who experience what you would call the suffering, you know, within your own being (if you are conscious of the process of pre-incarnative choices) that there is a reason for such suffering. Perhaps the entity wishes to learn endurance. Perhaps the entity wishes to learn strength. Perhaps the entity wishes to empathize with others about it who suffer that it might partake in the strengthening of the inner resolve to continue forward into the light in spite of the suffering, the pain, the discomfort, the confusion.

Listen. Can you hear the sounds of the household? Were you aware of them before we asked? Feel the slight breeze that drifts languidly in warm air currents across your skin. How many millions of receptors there are. Think of all that you have seen as you came into this environment, this domicile, and met those in the circle of one, some for the first time. How much of that which you saw did you perceive? Perhaps two or three percent at the most, for the computer cannot carry the full sensory stimulation and create aught but chaos. Thus, choices are made which enhance, or seemed at one time to enhance, one’s ability to survive, to cope, and to behave. That which has been programmed can be reprogrammed.

Now we do not speak as if the Creator has nothing to do with this process. However, we believe that it is the will, passionate and joyful and complete, of the seeker to become an authentic being, that allows one to reach a state of mind in which the seeker may gently, sweetly and lovingly move into the deeper mind to find the seeds of the low self-esteem, the tendency to repeat patterns of addiction or abuse of various kinds given by parents which seemed godlike. Inevitably, either imitation or refusal to imitate figures of seeming authority in childhood forms the essence of your programming. One, having discovered to the best of one’s ability the nature of the trigger of self-destructive behaviors, can then, with enough passion, will and grace, reprogram the biocomputer.

Let us give an example well known to this instrument. This instrument has a physical vehicle which has been created by its own choice in such a way that it shall do inner work. These seeming limitations, on the other hand, have been seen by this entity as opportunities. This leaves that artifact known among your peoples as pain. The instrument, therefore, realizing the distracting nature of pain, spent some time recently in reprogramming in order to fail to notice pain. In this way, when there is enough need, when there is a perceived suffering within the self, then one is motivated to do the very disciplined work necessary to reprogram.

Remember that each of you is a co-creator. You have been created, but you have not been created imperfect. You have chosen to leave the house of the Father, to travel the circle path from source to source, from mystery to mystery. There is a program which can only be reached by one who is willing to do meditation and persevere, for in most cases this does take time. As one sits in meditation, day after day, year after year, one slowly becomes aware that one is more able than previously to discern intuitions and deep hunches. Thus, not only are you programmed for the tangible things, but, perhaps more importantly, for the intangible.

Quite often, entities within your culture have a native programming of working hard, creating a safe amount of your money, and seeking that which is known as happiness. Happiness is entirely a portion of your illusion. For if the Creator is absolute, then so are you, joy is absolute. Have you found it today? Have you looked for it? You may encourage each other, exhort each other, comfort and console each other, and so minister to each other, that each mirrors a more and more accurate reflection of the other self and the self, so that there is constant opportunity to learn, to consider, and, when a behavior has been identified as not being congruent to the being, to move into that behavior and remove it from your programming, with the help of the deep portions of the mind, where dwell what we might call a metaprogram of divine inspiration, and a deep awareness of all that there is, then one may work in consciousness.

One may have come to this point from different agendas. One entity may wish to be of more service, another may wish to avoid suffering. The reasons are as many as entities are. But truths do remain simple, and that which you seek, you shall find. Thusly, if you but persevere in the reprogramming, and request the aid of that vast metaprogram of enhanced knowledge not available to you as a personality, you become more and more able effectively to create your experience.

The old question of the tree in the forest that we find in this instrument’s mind is quite apt here. That which you do not choose to perceive does not exist for you. Thus, it is quite important for the seeker of truth to identify those things which separate it from others, which cause distress to the self, and which limit love, and so speak to that necessity that effectual transformation results, more real, again and again, on ever deeper levels of bias, that may well be self-destructive in your own opinion, for you in your free will are anything but simple.

When the programming, however, is to be tackled, it is well to become simple, single-minded and wholehearted, because you are asking yourself, in a subjective sense, partially to die, and to be no more. Thus, your faith that all will be well, and your will to continue spiritual evolution are the strengths and resources that bring you to holy ground, whereon the Creator, that lies so deeply within, in the metaprogram of love and infinite peace, is made available. Again and again you must seemingly retrace your steps. However, it is our opinion that this seeming repetition is in fact the peeling of the onion, layer by layer by layer. Many things which are self-destructive have only been kept because the programming is so deep. There are so many layers with which one must work, and one cannot fully reprogram one’s biocomputer unless one actually and in truth is ready to allow that portion of the personality to die. However, it is in that death that you find larger life, in this incarnation, or in any illusion.

Now Q’uo spoke of the way in which these programmed lessons may be reprogrammed and learned. They suggested that the seeker use meditation as a daily practice to gently and lovingly move into the deeper mind to see where the difficult programming originated. Q’uo said that it is also a mutual service to others to serve as mirrors for each other to see some of the great variety of lessons that each desires to learn through difficulties and suffering. Then Q’uo said that the reprogramming could be accomplished when we realize that we are asking that a portion of our personality to die, and this is a process that is enhanced when we are able to find the Creator within us to activate the metaprogram of love and infinite peace that is our true nature. However, Q’uo said that this is a process that must be repeated many times as we work with a variety of lessons that require a portion of our selves to die, but it is in this death that we find a larger life within this incarnation. On April 21, 1995, Q’uo described how we can find this larger life:

And as one says goodbye to times in one’s life, to things which one has loved, to relationships that have changed beyond recognition, we encourage each to find strength and courage to praise and give thanks for each and every experience that has created within perhaps much pain and suffering. In the process of transformation there is almost always a great deal of sorrow and feelings of loss, for when change is going to occur naturally it simply takes one as destiny will and almost never is it a completely smooth road from that one way which was to that other way which has yet to be worked out. And yet we encourage you to have the faith to praise that which is past and to open the heart to that which is, was and shall be.

The keeping of silence, the keeping of the listening ear as part of the daily round of activity is always, we feel, an excellent practice, for in the silence, in the listening lies the key that unlocks the door of your own wisdom, that which is within the deep mind, whose voice is silence and which can only be heard by the open and listening heart. If you can trust destiny enough to release the attempts to control it the natural waves of energy moving out from the center of that kindly destiny, which is each seeker’s, will gradually take that seeker upon the path and in the direction which is deeply desired.

We would at this time transfer this contact, offering it first to the one known as K. It is perfectly acceptable if this instrument does not wish to speak, in which case we shall transfer to the one known as Jim. I leave you through this instrument in love and light, and with great joy. I am Q’uo.

[Pause]

(Carla channeling)

I am again with this instrument and we find that neither of the other channels within this particular group wish [inaudible] this instrument wishes to complete the main message. This is acceptable to us and we shall continue through this instrument in love and light.

[Pause]

Greetings again from those of Q’uo. We have said that the most difficult thing one can do is to forgive oneself utterly. Most entities require some kind of structure, which seems to dispense understanding, enlightenment or redemption from without. These forces are without and within, and as you are the only inhabitant of your creation and everything else is perceived through the ruthless economy of your biocomputer there is little or no hope of discovering truth using only an object which symbolizes worship. This is quite appropriate and acceptable as a path of inspiration, as a guide.

However, you yourself are indeed in dominion over that which you wish to have in you. That which this instrument calls the Holy Spirit—which many call guidance, or guides or inner masters—is able at all times to allow one to rest and to be comforted. When one allows oneself, finally, to love the self very deeply and passionately, one is then ready to serve. For the one known as Jesus spoke—we must pause. I am Q’uo. This instrument is having some difficulty.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we are again with this instrument. The master known to you as Jesus said that it was not he but the Father that strengthened him. So it is with you, eventually. You are more informed and more powerful in a personal sense than you realize quite often. You have by the grace of the one infinite Creator enlightenment, redemption and love of self alone, for the two requests that the one known as Jesus made to replace entirely the Ten Commandments were to love the Creator and to love other selves as the self. Consequently, it is essentially important to work with the self in consciousness until one realizes that regardless of the illusions in one’s own spiritual temperature-taking, it is not selfish or service to self but indeed necessary first to find charity towards the self. For you contain all within and if you do not feel self-forgiven how then can you feel in truth the joy of all being self-forgiven? How can you feel joy for the truth that is someone else’s and not your own?

The hardest work that you can do within this incarnation is work in consciousness. Yet this work in consciousness is by far the most effectual means of accelerating in any spiritual evolution, innovating, enlightening the consciousness of your sphere, when you have no solemnity, no love, that many enjoy and so shall you, each of you, as you find you truly are a person to be esteemed, a person who has gifts and whose only desire is to offer them to the one Creator. Is this not a beautiful thing? Can you not step back and see the courage involved in having faith where there is no evidence to support it? Nor can there ever be, for this is the density of choice, blind choice. You work in the dark, you suffer, then discover the suffering, accept it, grasp its nature and eventually reprogram it over and over and over again, moving away from suffering and towards mindfulness not because you have behaved differently but because you have told your mind to register different portions of catalyst. Have you ever, for instance, purchased an object which you had not seen before but thought well of and then found in every nook and cranny someone else who had found the same thing. They had, of course, been finding that all along but you had not. So the information was not relevant to you and was simply deleted from conscious thought.

[Side one of tape ends.]

We find that as this instrument’s fatigue is great, it is well, in addition to each entity’s sore derrière, that we leave this instrument. We would like to attempt to crystallize the material we have offered you. Your universe is completely subjective and consists only of energy and magnetic fields. Within those vortices of magnetic fields rests by a slender thread an infinite consciousness. Your power cannot be seen by you, for you dwell in clothes of flesh and bone. Yet this power is within you. The mind is a kind of computer. It may be analyzed as to what choices it has made that are disruptive, unpleasant or inappropriate. Yet, one cannot change oneself from the outside in. One must first find the truth of oneself and then the truth of consciousness. Moving from that point, more and more aware of love being all that there is, the courage slowly becomes gained to allow self-destructive portions of the self to die that a new and more harmonious state of mind may be the response when one is faced with the choices of what to perceive.

Never judge your behavior or your thoughts but rather be compassionate, openhearted and above all, persistent. And as you discover your beautiful self so will all others become beautiful. As you discover that you are all things possible, including all the negative things—the thief, the rapist, the killer—you then become aware of that great importance of choosing again and again for you cannot only perceive good so-called, you perceive in a full circle and have a full complement of abilities to act negatively and positively in the normally understood sense of those words. Take the leap of faith when you are ready, not before, and certainly not after for the adventure in this arena becomes much more interesting, we feel, for those who create rather than accept their own universe—we correct this instrument—universes. May you create yours and recreate yours gradually, persistently and with great love for the self as a spark of the infinite One until at last you are hollow through and through with no blockage to keep infinite light and infinite compassion from flowing through you.

You are not a victim, but it is your choice which determines your perception. Choose well that which you desire, my friends. For as the cliché goes, yet it is true, “seek and ye shall find.” Be therefore careful of that which you seek.

Now Q’uo said that it was important for us to be able to forgive and love ourselves because this would also allow us to love and forgive others and to be of service to others. Q’uo used Jesus’s condensing of the Ten Commandments into “Love the Creator, and love your neighbor as yourself” as an analogy of this process. Then Q’uo said that this could be seen as work in consciousness which we undertake when we use the difficult times of change in our lives to exercise the faith that we can move in the darkness of the third density and continuously reprogram ourselves from suffering to mindfulness. Q’uo completed their response by saying that we all have the ability to discover that we are 360 degree beings—both positive and negative–and we can create our own universe where we are hollowed out so that we can feel the love of the Creator flowing through us. On June 3, 1990, Q’uo described the process of our being hollowed out:

The breaking of boundaries, the breaking of rigid perception, has the function of increasing boundaries, perception and possibility. Thus, it is imperative that each entity who seeks the one Creator experience this breaking in order that that which is new, stronger, deeper, larger, richer and more varied may be contained in a vessel which is now larger, richer, deeper and more varied in its capacity, as each of you are vessels which are hollowed out by the experience which is the means by which you seek the One. Thus are you strengthened; thus do you go on in your journey.

We are those of Q’uo, and would at this time transfer the contact to the one known as Jim in case there are any questions upon the mind of any present.

Again, we leave this instrument in love and light and service. I am Q’uo.

This morning Anna and I synchronized our computers to listen to Carla channeling those of Ra. We listened to Session #12 where the topics were Orion UFOs, Men in Black, and Wanderers. This was also the session where we discovered that when Ra was saying that we needed to correct the alignment of some of the appurtenances (Bible, candle, incense, and chalice of water) that they were really talking about our line of questioning needing to stay on spiritual principles or we could lose the contact with Ra.

This afternoon I cleaned the upstairs by cleaning the hall runner with the carpet cleaner. Then I used my broom and dust pan to sweep up the kitty litter in Benny’s room. My last job was to use te dust mop to clean the floors in all three room and the hall. 

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 4

The Tides Of The Spirit

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

How deeply below the ground of sensation, feeling and thought run the tides of the spirit within each individual! If you wonder at the seemingly random turns and twists of daily life, the answers that deny randomness and proclaim the harmony of the great Deity’s plan lie far too deep for discovery.

Like a great underground sea, the spirit makes all things new and guides circumstance in order that the fullness of experience may provide the opportunity for divine change. Thus when you ask for the Comforter of the spirit of Jesus the Christ to come upon you, know that the more intense your asking, the greater your opportunity for renewal and change. For you may be created anew at any time that you truly wish it.

With love of such power, peace may not seem possible, yet this power is harmonious, and, whatever the appearances, its outworking lies in perfect peace.

And in this peace that is strife to the world, we leave you, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 11, 1990:

We continue this evening with information on the concept of worship.

(Carla channeling)

I am the principle known to you as Q’uo. We greet you in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. It is a blessing to be among you and to be asked to serve in our humble way. We are, as always, eager to express our desire that we be considered as fallible, and not infallible, for we tend to catch the spirit of that which forms not in words, and our own spirit is still limited. Within the boundaries of these limitations, we believe our opinion to be fair, but subject at all times to the personal considerations of each, for each has a personal path to truth, to love and to service.

We are most pleased to be able to continue upon the subject of worship. The instrument known as Carla has the underlying alarm which expresses the emotion-laden thought that it has no concept of that which we wish to speak upon. However, we ask the instrument to steady itself, and to allow us to speak.

We spoke earlier of the three basic approaches to worship: worship of nothing, that is, worship without an object; worship of an object; and worship of mystery. The worship without an object runs contrary to the genetic structure of many of your races which in glad array make up the population of your sphere. To those within a highly technological culture and society, worship without an object is much like loving without an object. This creates confusion within entities such as yourselves who have been exposed to many, many objects. Thusly, although this path is useful to some, it is not easily conformed to the character of what you would call the Western or Occidental racial natures.

The worship of mystery cuts to the heart and spirit of worship, and without this instrument’s being aware of it, its underlying nature is that of worship of the mystery, although it has successfully created an object in order that it may participate in refining the gifts of emotional intensity and unstinting compassion. Without the grouping or societal nature which is so deeply a portion of the character of your density—we must begin again with that sentence, we would correct the instrument. Without the gifts of faith offered to all people, but available only to a few, it once again is difficult to conceive of a passionate and active devotion. This is, however, an excellent type of worship for those who have a predisposition to mysticism, or love of mystery.

Thusly, what we would speak about at this working is the second of the three choices, or, as this instrument would say, the middle part: the worship of an object. The situation within manifestation—and we all dwell in various illusions and manifestations…

We must pause, for this instrument is moving in consciousness into sleep. We are sorry, and will encourage this instrument to move away from the unconscious state.

The situation within all the densities of manifestation is that of illusion. When we encourage each to worship, although we are aware that the true, infinite Creator is without manifestation, the possibility exists for the Creator with Its free will to send forth messengers which speak of worship in homely and simple ways, ways which are adapted to the culture in which the messenger abides. Various cultures and atmospheres within those cultures have produced various Christs which are willing to pour out their own personality upon whatever earth there may be, in order to be filled with that which may be called the Christ, or mind of Christ, or the consciousness of Christ. This Christ is one. Its various manifestations are called for when a culture reaches the stage of yearning for an object of worship that is able to express the deep truths that when pondered over and over begin to create biases within the mind which are spiritual in nature. An entity without this influence is in chaos, and no amount of rigid structuring of the entity or its environment shall be able to induce an entity to emotion.

Once again the group question for this intensive practice channeling meditation was worship. Q’uo began by saying that there were three kinds of worship: worship without an object; worship of an object; and worship of mystery. Q’uo said that worship without an object didn’t make sense to many people as it was like loving without an object, so Q’uo said they would focus on worship with an object and said that the infinite Creator was without manifestation, but It could send forth messengers that had achieved the Christ consciousness. These beings could help the entities who worshipped the Creator to begin their spiritual journeys. On July 16, 1989, Q’uo spoke to the nature of the Christ consciousness:

The seeker may turn to those sources of inspiration that are found in your literature which record the voices of those seekers of your past who have traveled this same trail and left records that illustrate the reality of their faith and of faith that might be found by others of their kind on similar journeys. One may look to such sources for a kind of inspiration that speaks to a deeper portion of the self that is beyond the confinement of your narrow, walled illusion and which vibrates in recognition of the truth when it is heard by these voices who have traveled the same journey.

Thus, the inspiration of others may speak to that spark of the self that we have called the Christ Consciousness and in which the still, silent moments of reflection and contemplation and meditation and prayerful attention cause a feeling of purpose and goodness and direction to well up from within and bolster, shall we say, the faith that has been nurtured by much experience through each seeker.

However, one of the seed thoughts which produces the fruit of worship is the realization that the illusion is truly thoroughgoing, and it will count for nothing within an entity if it does not choose to attempt to grasp the nature which lies beyond illusion.

When one attempts to open to the deeper and more purified emotions, the first thought vortices which appear are those daily beneath the threshold of consciousness, a milieu given over in large part to fear. Thus, again and again, when entities begin to attempt to learn from the electric silence of spirit, they are opened to messages reflecting the simple mental fears of all peoples—the fear of the dark, and the fear of the unknown, the fear of death. It is at this stage that many spiritualized entities capable of much more become quite stuck, for they have conceived a desire to seek, a desire to love and a desire to serve, but they defeat themselves by gaining access only to information within the deeper mind which is an artifact of the conscious mind. This is not the direction in which we suggest entities experience the learning and searching out of a personal life in faith.

In order to move past one’s fear, one needs to be aware without need of self-reproach or defensiveness that one is oneself not able to gain access to authentic experiential data concerning worship. Thusly, there is that impossibly difficult first step, that being the decision to suspend disbelief long enough to experience the illusions which are involved in belief systems. As there is no direct way to apprehend that which occupies no area or period of time, those within the illusions or manifestation of the creation are placed in an untenable position, where that which they seek involves fearlessness of the dark, of the unknown, and the apparent death. One at this point, most likely, does not have sufficient faith to leap into an abyss that is extremely dimly lit, an interior landscape whose first requirement of an observer is utter patience.

To move into worshipful and adoring qualities, one must redefine oneself without reference to that which takes up space, or that which takes up time. The physical vehicle itself, which carries you about, is that which produces the deepest fears, for it is a second-density entity in all but consciousness, the consciousness being without time or space, the manifestation being quite necessary in order to gain appropriate experience. When it is clearly seen that there is nothing to fear, that there is only the unknown, that there is only the dark, and that there is only death, in terms of the physical entity, one may then proceed to grasp the vaunted nature of the physical vehicle. Although the spirit creates its mark upon the lined visages of those who have had experience within an incarnation, and who are what you call old, it itself is without age. There is that within you of glory. However, to this you do not normally have access. Consequently, without any knowing the seeker first makes its decision to love, to worship, to serve others in the name of the one infinite Creator, having no idea how to do this. It is as if the seeker fell off a bottomless cliff.

However, due to the effect upon the connections between conscious and subconscious, when this decision is made and this action taken with an whole heart, the entity may find itself certainly without a floor, certainly without walls or ceiling, and certainly alone within itself, but it will not be without experience, for the will and faith to begin with has been created.

Thus, it is most often a conscious decision to begin to see the self as a steward of the property called consciousness, which is one not with time or space, but with the plenum of infinity, the place of the object of worship within this path. To this pilgrimage, which begins with the deliberate rejection of fear and the determination of a fool or a madman to worship that which is unknown, comes the beginning of a blooming that starts because of the message you have given your deep mind. You are now far more suited to be able to gain access to that within the deep mind which informs, nurtures, uplifts one. One may in visualization grasp the object which denotes the mystery to oneself, and with that security within, one may begin to explore the almost unbelievable choice that has been made. You choose to have no fear; you choose to love. This is a deeper way of stating the same fact.

Now Q’uo said that in order to develop the true nature of worship one must go beyond the nature of the illusion, but when many go deeper into their minds through meditation they are likely to contact the fears of their conscious minds regarding the darkness, the unknown, and death. So Q’uo suggested that they can realize their dreams to seek, to serve, and to love by being willing to redefine one’s self by having the faith that there is nothing to fear, and by setting one’s intention to love and serve others in the name of the Creator which is the equivalent of falling off of a bottomless cliff. Then Q’uo said that this choice to deliberately reject fear and to worship that which is unknown gives a message to the seeker’s deep mind and thereby allows it to gain access to that which informs and uplifts the seeker. Q’uo said that this is the choice to love over the choice to fear. On November 13, 2010, Q’uo described how setting one’s intentions to love and serve others can help seekers to reject fear and know that all is well and that the universe makes sense:

We are not saying that this habit of setting the intention and then allowing peace to overcome one takes three weeks to make, but what we are saying is that it is to the patient and determined seeker that the rhythm of life will be given time to work.

You see, where you put your energy, where you put your mind, is vitally central to your experience. If you begin with an act of faith and say, “I think life is this way, and I’m going to live as if it were this way,” then you cast yourself into the midair of faith having no proof of anything but the simple feeling, the knowing, that all truly is well and that the universe does make sense. It is not meaningless, and you are not alone. You are loved, you are needed, you are full of purpose, and you simply need to let go of any preconceived notions as to how that works and simply engage in life to the best of your ability, as a conscious seeker that understands the power of choice, the power of desire, the power of intention.

The you that worships is already worshipping. You, as an incarnate entity, are not aware of this. But as you distance yourself from your physical vehicle, and become more aware of the alien nature of manifestation to the deepest self, you begin the process of shedding the garbage of total responsibility. It is not possible for an entity to be entirely responsible within manifestation. It is not possible for an entity to be truly wise, or truly compassionate, for as the entity is limited by its physical vehicle, so the mind limits consciousness. When one realizes that one needs not buffalo oneself with one’s mind, or any other manifestation of the illusion, it begins to seem hopeful that access may be had to the deeper, worshipful awareness that that place whereon you stand is holy ground.

Within your culture it is encouraged that each take complete and full responsibility for the self. If you will examine this concept carefully you may see that within each day there are a multitude of things said or done that you would gladly unsay or undo, and upon the other hand, there are hiatuses which you have not filled, places you did not go, within the heart, in listening to another, in cherishing, in listening to and cherishing the self. Does this mean then that you are poor at being responsible? We suggest that it means only that you are incarnate, and within that which is by nature flawed by polarity and crazed by indifference, that it is impossible not to make errors. Yet you know within yourself the divine, and you hunger, or you would not have taken that first step.

Thusly, you proceed to deepen and solidify the daily awareness of being a spirit of eternal gifts, a messenger of eternal life. In short, to be that which you so adore, to identify more and more, and to be open and vulnerable to the wishes and the guidance of that entity which symbolizes the infinite Creator. Thusly, if one gives oneself the message, “I want to believe, I seek to understand,” and so forth, it is well to realize that the yearning and the hungering of itself will bring you just so far.

There is this generous thing of which you need to be aware within yourself, that being that the Creator’s will is in no wise different from one’s own; it simply sees from a vastly improved point of view. To this point of view ten thousand years mean little, for the values which create the absolute you that you are, are also absolute. Thusly, it serves one better to affirm to oneself, as well as to express the seeking. This may be done by changing questions into declarations. We speak in an area difficult to express, however, one of your ministers of grace whose works are recorded in your holy works, the one known as Paul, in the body of work which he left indicated with a good deal of clarity the identification of the self will to the will of the Source. The entity saw clearly that within what you may call the human condition, or third density incarnation, the leap was impossible. Thus, the entity prayed honestly that he did not believe, but that he believed. He chose to make the declaration even while expressing doubt and many remnants of fear.

In this way, worship is a self-generating process wherein one realizes one’s identification with an object, a messenger or a symbol which denotes the infinite Creator in manifestation. When that choice has been made it is affirmed and reaffirmed, not in a dogmatic or doctrinal way, but in the spirit of the teachings of the one Christ to which you give the honor of devotion in the [inaudible], for you are not truly worshipful of the object, but rather that Source to which the object inevitably points, that which is shrouded in mystery, and until we become without manifestation or the need for it…

Now Q’uo said that as we continue to go beyond the limits of our body and conscious mind we become more aware of the mystery of the creation and are able to gain access to our deeper mind where we can begin to see that we stand on holy ground. However, Q’uo reminded us that we are imperfect beings who make errors, but this does not stop us from continuing our seeking to become a spirit of eternity which is seeking the guidance of the Creator. Then Q’uo said that we could enhance our ability to take the leap of faith into the unknown by repeating Paul’s prayer that “he did not believe, but that he did believe” so that that our worship of the mystery of our Source becomes a self-generating process. On September 10, 1995, Q’uo described the value of taking the leap of faith into the unknown:

We have often said that faith, when first chosen as a way of living, is nothing more than a leap into space. Faith creates itself in the mid-air, when the will of the seeker has been surrendered. That first so-called leap of faith is a beginning. It could be nothing more than the conscious decision, the promise to the self, “I will live by faith.” This is a good beginning.

The will is invoked by such an affirmation. Each time the seeker subsequently finds itself mired in useless and cyclical worry the affirmation may be repeated, “I will live by faith.” Sooner or later there comes a moment when the repetition has bred a new and positive habit of mind, and in that moment the seeker finds that she has skipped the usual habit of worry and been inspired spontaneously to affirm, “I will live by faith.” That moment of peace is as precious as your rare metals and should be stored carefully in a special part of the memory, that memory that lies just behind the surface of things.

Now, the faculty called faith stems from an infinite sureness, a knowledge of self that rests deep within the roots of mind. All that the seeker does when invoking faith is to reach towards the root of mind where that faculty lies waiting to be encouraged to grow. Eventually, faith does become a habit, and during periods of the incarnation when an entity is experiencing those things which are perceived as pleasant, she may rest and experience the peace which passes understanding.

[Side one of tape ends.]

I am Q’uo. I greet each once again in love and light as a principle of members of the Confederation of Angels and Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator. You will notice that we included in our identification, “angels.” That is because of the biases which this entity has. The force or spirit is such that the yearning for it will create a manifestation which betokens mystery. Within your culture, the manifestation of angel, or being of light, holds little attractiveness as a messenger of mystery, whereas that which is, and we use this term in quotes, “scientific,” is of a seeming authority, a seeming and obvious advancement beyond the human condition. The phenomena associated with unidentified flying objects is in large part the objectification of that which comforts an entity, that which speaks to the entity of the noumenal, the unknown.

You see, we are attempting in this portion of speaking about worship to reposition one’s own intelligence with regard to the image of the self as seen by the self. If you see the self as caretaker of the body, then you shall take care of the body and refrain from allowing yourself to be remade. That each of you has chosen this darkness in which to seek, that each of you has chosen the catalyst that does in fact occur, is difficult to grasp or to believe in any logical way. However, the further one moves in mind from the identification of the self with that which seems to be living within manifestation, the greater the rate of acceleration of that which may be grasped of evolution in spirit can occur.

The troublesome question that remains is that simple question, “How can we know? Are we being duped? Are we being fooled? Are we giving our will over to the forces that we neither understand nor trust?” This may be addressed at another time. And for now, with many thanks to this quite exhausted entity for allowing us to use it for a conduit, we would at this time transfer to another instrument within the group. I am Q’uo.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I am again with this instrument. It is to be noted that we did greet the one known as K, but found the entity to be concerned, overly, and greeted the one known as Jim, who was also found to be in a state of concern.

The only reason one would choose a life of devotion and worship is because one might apprehend the unseen hand of the true source of self within the third-density illusion and thusly yield, while becoming open and vulnerable to the Spirit of Love. The accepting of a channel is simply [inaudible] to the accepting of the self, as an assistant or servant to and for the source, the source that cannot mix with any free will of the world that you experience. Thusly, we suggest that as we again transfer to end the meeting, that the one known as K allow herself to be vulnerable to the Spirit of Love. That which can never be understood can at last be trusted, and with each entity that accepts the servant role of the manifestation that reflects the unmanifest, so does unmanifest light illimitable begin to move through such an entity building light not only in a metaphysical sense, but also in a very visible sense in which the difficulties of a situation are seen, not as implacable, but as that which creates opportunity for learning and growth.

This openness and fearlessness is the chief necessity of creating for oneself the point of view which becomes truly and absolutely worshipful. And in so doing, there is created within you the potential of altering the face of your sphere. This is the power of faith. It is a program that is beyond the capabilities of the computer which you use to think. It is indeed, literally, an higher authority. And the life lived in praise and thanksgiving to the Source lives in whatever object you choose, lives in total surrender, that moment of the most freedom, the freedom to do that which you truly wished to do before you entered the miasma, the phantasmagoria, of illusion.

Now Q’uo said that they wanted to speak of how worship is affected by the image that we have of ourselves. If we see ourselves as the caretaker of the body, then that will limit our image of ourselves to our body whereas the less we see ourselves as our body the more quickly will our spiritual evolution occur. Then Q’uo said that when we choose a life of devotion to worship, we open ourselves to the true source of ourselves as the Spirit of Love, and as we become servants of the Spirit of Love we open ourselves to a light which increases our metaphysical nature and allows us to see the spiritual growth that comes from experiencing difficulties in our lives.  Then Q’uo said that this fearless choice creates a point of view within us that is truly worshipful, and it gives us the opportunity to live a life of praise, thanksgiving, and service to the Creator in everyone and our planet as well. On November 22, 1992, Q’uo described the worshipful point of view:

The turning from the self and the concerns, whether shallow or deep, of the self to the infinite Creator in praise and thanksgiving is an orientation in intelligent infinity, that is, in the Creator, or what this instrument would call Christ consciousness. This consciousness is the essential portion of both the consciousness which is infinite and the incarnate being with the biocomputer which makes so many hasty judgments. Calling forth in the conscious mind the holy, worshipful attitude in which only the Creator exists reestablishes a center within the being which merges unconscious and conscious beings together in a useful and balanced way.

We would move now to the one known as K. I am Q’uo.

(K channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. This instrument is feeling considerable concern over the attempting to be a channel for the answering of queries which may be [inaudible], and it wishes for us to convey the request that if any answers received are not acceptable to those entities asking, the queries be asked upon another occasion. This is acceptable to us. Is there a query at this time?

Carla: The only question I have is to concern over the instrument. [Inaudible] if the entity is uncomfortable, then I don’t understand why the one known as Q’uo wished to [inaudible]. What is the principle involved [inaudible] this instrument [inaudible]?

I am Q’uo, and we find that this instrument is experiencing various physical and emotional concerns at this time which [inaudible] feelings of imbalance and discomfort, as well as its trepidation at attempting to answer queries. These other feelings, however, are exacerbating this natural trepidation at this time on the part of this instrument. We find, however, that the instrument, despite its degree of discomfort, does have a strong desire to be of service, and has offered itself to us at this time for that purpose. Therefore, we are willing to work with this instrument to whatever degree it is able to work with us at this point.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes. [The question is almost completely inaudible, but has to do with concern over infringement of free will in using the instrument despite its degree of discomfort, principles and/or purposes involved.] [Inaudible] is it to challenge and [inaudible]?

Q’uo: I am Q’uo, and this instrument is requesting that we transfer to the one known as Jim for the purpose of the answering of this particular query.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. We look at this query in respect to the kind of exercise that is offered new instruments. Each instrument as it begins the work of familiarizing itself with the nature of the contact will feel from time to time the trepidation concerning some facet or other of the contact that it is now focusing upon, having mastered to its own satisfaction those previous concepts. We have offered ourselves to this instrument, the one known as K, this evening, in the attempt to expand her abilities, and to begin to familiarize her with the opportunity to exercise her instrument in those areas which may be more challenging, for this instrument has willingly offered itself, though it is not comfortable in this capacity.

It is not necessary that the entity be comfortable with a new level of learning, indeed, that lack of comfort is oftentimes a quite efficient means of focusing the attention, building that which you call the adrenaline, and calling from within the self those resources which will aid the entity in accomplishing that task which is set before it.

Thus, what we have offered this evening is much like that which we have offered many instruments at many times in your past. That is, the opportunity to expand the level of channeling work. We do not wish to make any instrument unduly uncomfortable, but as you are aware, the process of learning in general is one which takes place within a certain degree of discomfort, for it is when the attention is caught by that which causes discomfort that an entity may first begin to notice an aspect of the self or the pattern of learning that has heretofore been ignored. This is true in each area of learning in which any entity shall engage. We wish only to offer ourselves in the attempt to meet with the instrument this challenge. We shall not, if at all within our ability, challenge an instrument overly much.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: I’ll have to think that over. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Yes, I just want to make sure that it was not an error on my part in channeling when I received the concept of handing off to K.

I am Q’uo, and you are quite correct in that we were attempting to speak through the one known as K with the first, as you call it, hand off. This is correct, my sister.

Is there another query?

Carla: Well I have concerns about infringement on free will, but I feel that I am unaware enough at this point [inaudible]. Indeed, I am almost not aware of what was channeled [inaudible] possible to finish [inaudible]?

I am Q’uo, and we are happy to accommodate you, my sister, for you have offered yourself as instrument in quite an openhearted manner this evening when your resources have been at a low level. Thus, we thank each entity in this group for inviting our presence. We take great joy and pleasure in being able to blend our vibrations with each of those in this circle of seeking, and we shall take our leave of this group at this time, leaving each as always in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning the zoom meet that I was scheduled to have with Jonathan Tong’s Seattle Law of One Study Group had to be re-scheduled for next Tuesday evening because my computer was unable to activate the code for the zoom meet. Austin was able to correct the problem later in the day so the problem won’t happen again.

This afternoon I decided to paint the area next to my chair in the living room since I have made some cracks and worn spots in the paint in that area in the twenty years it has been since it was first painted.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 3

Echoes Of Love

I am of the spirit of Jesus Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of that love for which the remainder of the creation is but a synonym.

We gaze upon the palsied, frail, wandering thoughts of humankind with cheerfulness and love, not with sadness and despair as do you who gaze upon your own thoughts with disappointment. For we know that your thoughts may wander in arid regions. Yet the more unprofitable you find your thinking becoming, the more rich becomes the potential for your turning from the unformed to the formed, from the uncreated to that which is full of grace and purpose.

Your infinite and loving heart is not a machine, that you may produce an output according to your quota. But, rather, it is a sounding board by means of which the spirit of love may echo to the infinite reaches of the created universe.

Turn, therefore, from despair and free the echo chamber of your heart from all tense worries that, surprised by inspiration, it may reverberate in love and peace.

I am of the spirit of Christ, and I leave you in peace, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 8, 1990:

The question is about faith.

(Carla channeling)

[ I am Q’uo.] Greetings and blessings to you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. As we work with each channel this evening, we wish each to know that there are those of the Confederation of Planets, which many prefer to call the angelic hosts, who will be with each. Those of the principle of Q’uo, which are of Latwii, shall be with the one known as Jim. That entity known as Laitos and that entity known as Oxal shall be meditating with the one known as K. And we find this instrument to be well guided by its own comforter.

How blessed it is to be in the company of those who seek to have that which the world can give them not, that which the world promises not, that which the world can never promise. It is a joy to us to experience your questing hearts. In each moment of anguish in the life experience, there has always been, sooner or later, that turning towards a quest for the truth of the spirit, a sincere desire to know the spirits well—in that dogged persistence of an absolute being in highly, worldly, mundane illusion, which is entirely relative. We would share some thoughts about that which we call faith, and we shall be doing so through each channel, in order that each may give its own special gifts to this very large subject which may well, if interest continues, be ongoing within this group for some time.

That which one calls faith has been, within your holy works, called, “Hope in things unseen.” How difficult it is for you within your culture to hope in things unseen. The illusion all by itself, without the many distortions which have occurred in difficult and ambivalent polarizations among your peoples, is such that the contemplation of claiming an absolute, living by it, being willing to die for it as witness to the truth, is ludicrous. This is the outer environment in which you are attempting to become aware of your metaphysical, imperishable consciousness, that spark of the Creator which expresses its unity and hope, and all that may be expressed within your illusion.

Though you may be of little faith in your own estimation, the search itself is a search begun only in the blindness of faith. This is one of the elements of faith itself which creates a kind of meniscus or layer of resistance for those who wish to have faith. For if one claims faith, the world that is seen, the illusion that is perceived, is forever changed and not in ways which exemplify the search for happiness or the contentment of resting in a comfortable space. There are comfortable belief systems, systems which enable one to know all the truths all the time according to the subjective path of literal, dogmatic belief systems. However, that which each Christ that has come into your environment has offered is not a comfortable or happy journey. It is a journey begun on courage alone. It is a journey in which one persists by will alone. It is a journey which claims that which it does not feel with its whole heart, but which instead is felt as a hunch, an instinct, a bias. On these slender threads hang the beginning of a life in faith.

The group topic for this practice channeling meditation was faith. So it seems like different Confederation sources were to be channeling through each instrument. Carla was said to be channeling her Comforter, which the person editing this transcript seemed to feel was Q’uo, but I believe it was the Holy Spirit. I was to be channeling Latwii which was usually the voice of Q’uo, and K was channeling those of Q’uo as well although Oxal and Laitos were meditating with her.

Q’uo, or the Holy Spirit, began their thoughts on faith through Carla by saying that the spiritual seeker experiences the difficulties of the seeking with the open heart of dogged persistence to know the truth that is dependent on living a life in faith within the illusion of the third density. Q’uo said that having faith could be described as “faith in things unseen”, and it can seem ridiculous to most people, but the seeker is attempting to realize its metaphysical self as a portion of the one Creator manifesting as unity and hope. They said that the beginning the journey of seeking rests upon faith that looks beyond the illusion of dogmatic descriptions of the seeker’s path and uses courage and will to begin living a life in faith. On September 22, 2009, Q’uo spoke about living a life in faith:

Faith, on the other hand, has no content. It contains no knowledge. It is an attitude. It is the attitude that knows beyond doubt, regardless of the circumstances, that all is well. And the entity who is living a life in faith cannot be daunted by circumstance. Faith is an attitude which assumes that the infinite Creator, the higher self, and that self which planned this incarnation before taking flesh have provided ample opportunities for learning and for service.

Sometimes involved in learning is suffering. Sometimes there is sorrow and pain. Yet one living a life in faith knows that that which is happening is perfect. It is precisely what is needed to advance spiritually and to be of service. Consequently, such an entity cooperates and harmonizes with circumstance and allows creativity and imagination to play a part in the flowing forward of events.

Faith does not recognize closed doors. Faith abides, patiently, trustingly and with infinite attention. For there shall come those hints, inklings and information from spirit that shall illuminate the situation within the present moment. And this faith is that which shall serve you well, my brother, as you learn to listen to and communicate with your guidance system.

We would at this time transfer. We are known to you as Q’uo.

(K channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet you in the love and light of the one infinite Creator. We return again to the same that is given in your homework. Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things unseen. Now, you know that the essence of faith is that surety that each entity has without objective, tangible proof of same. This inner surety is the substance and evidence I have spoken of. There are many among your peoples who have not developed a conscious awareness of their own inner sense of that surety and choose to believe that they will accept and act on nothing unless they have objective, tangible proof of such—what man would call “scientific proof.” What these entities are unaware of is that they accept many, many things on faith but do not realize it, for these beliefs have never been called into question. They pride themselves in not accepting ideas which seem foolish to them or to others, merely on the basis of a feeling of congruity within themselves.

The spiritual journey with each begins at that point when an entity feels this sense of congruity and acts on it for the first time. It may not be an obvious action but may be simply the acknowledgment of the feeling itself, the acknowledgment and the validity of a feeling. And it is at this point that faith becomes part of conscious action on the personal path. As each seeker continues to grow and develop, this capacity for faith, the ability to deny on the inner sense of congruence with an idea, is developed further and further, until each entity has created for itself its own personal collection of truths, that are based not on objective proof but on subjective assurance. The part of this process that each of you is aware of is the realization from time to time, the causes of obsolescence of some of these truths, when this first occurs. The faith of the seeker is often shaken, sometimes to a very great degree; especially, if this process occurs with truth that has been known long and deeply.

Sometimes, balance is never restored within the seeker, who then, as it is said, loses faith and never consciously returns to a path of seeking. For the undaunted, however, those who continue on the path despite their feelings of disillusionment, discouragement, despair, anger, pain and confusion, balance is eventually restored and the seeker begins to realize that truths, like faith, are not objective but subjective. As this concept is assimilated more and more, the seeker continues on its journey, developing more and more surely the ability to discern those truths which have the greatest degree of congruency for itself at that particular time. The capacity of faith is also further developed as a part of the same process, so that the seeker rests comfortably with the truth it finds, and grows with, and grows beyond, and finds others which it grows into.

Observing the ebb and flow of this process is part of the ebb and flow of All That Is. Throughout this process, the capacity of faith, although it grows stronger, unlike the truth which varies from time to time, remains the same. Now there are some, as you are aware, to whom this capacity comes most naturally, such as the instrument known as Carla. There are many among your peoples who possess this gift and have no awareness of the fact, but live their lives in a most simple, natural and harmonious manner.

These people may often be considered, by those among your peoples who have been taught by your societies to have a bias towards the strength of intellectual functioning, to be simple and perhaps of less value than their intellectual counterparts. There are many such peoples on your planet living an unconscious life within, in harmony with the natural rhythms, a very second-density life force in the planet itself. And as each here is aware, these beings have often made far greater spiritual progress than those others who pride themselves in demanding their proofs.

Those entities, however, who have been the most strident in demanding objective, tangible verifications for their various beliefs, once having grabbed the door just a little, having dared to act in however small way on that first intuition that is acknowledged, once these doubters make their way, at first timidly along the path, and then more boldly, will also be those whose faith is strongest, because it has been so rigorously questioned at the start. These may also be ones who understand the process of faith to a much greater extent than those to whom it comes naturally, because, again they have questioned the process so deeply and may find opportunities to help those they find in situations such as they themselves once where.

Q’uo continued speaking on the topic of faith through K by saying faith is that surety that one feels has no objective proof. Then they said that many people will only accept beliefs that can be proven scientifically, but they do not realize that they already do accept many beliefs on faith because they have never been called into question. Q’uo said that the spiritual journey begins for a person when they begin to feel a sense of congruity with certain beliefs and live their life within this system of beliefs. Then Q’uo said that as time passes some of these feelings of truth are felt to fail the seeker and may cause it to stop its seeking. But to those who endure these difficulties it then becomes apparent that feelings of truth are subjective rather than objective, and they will change from time to time reflecting the nature of spiritual growth. So truth may change, but faith will not, and some people have this simple gift of faith and practice it in a simple and harmonious manner. Then Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that it also occurs to some people, who have always required proof in what their beliefs are, may find the opportunity to move into the realm of faith through the use of intuition. Q’uo said that they can become more able to live a life of faith because they questioned it in their past, but now they understand the value of faith more fully than those to whom faith came more naturally. On May 29, 1983, Hatonn discussed the value of faith:

So, in your chosen service to another, the greatest efficacy may be found in relaxing into the flowing of a kind of communication from your heart and the deeper portions of your mind to your actions. In such a way you become inspired, and, indeed, you become inspiring. That is, you may inspire others by your lack of fear and concern, and by your wholehearted desire to serve, as well as by the radiance which is peculiar to those who have learned the value of faith governed by a carefully tuned desire.

Faith is much like the traveler who is weary. The traveler may move ahead in a blind faith that the end of the daylight shall bring shelter, and the traveler will indeed find somewhere upon which he may rest his head. There is another traveler who is equally weary who governs his faith in the kindness of the universe by as clear a perception as possible of the nature of the country in which he roams. It is far easier for the faithful weary traveler to exercise faith in the midst of one of your townships than in the midst of a wilderness. However, blind faith has its lessons also, and sometimes, when there is no way to judge the future so as to be a more intelligent user of faith, we recommend the attitude which allows our traveler upon his journey to be doing that which it is he must do whether or not he is in a wilderness. If a traveler departs from faith, he departs from that which is the governor of his journey.

At this time, we would transfer once again. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. We offer to those, whose path is well traveled or only just begun in the conscious sense, the concept of faith as that which shall be the rod and staff to steady the pilgrim on his journey. The faith with which an entity begins is a faith which is pure in its intention, is as yet innocent in its exercise, and which is full of the potential for engaging an entity’s resources. And through this expression developing much of quality of character and of personality, primarily in the ways of the disciplining of the personality. For the seeker, no matter what place it may imagine itself to be, or may actually be upon its own journey of evolution, we have spoken this evening of that call of your faith which is recognized from within an entity as a kind of inner confidence that propels and sustains movement and exploration.

Faith is as truth, that which is subjectively experienced, that which an entity can affect by its own perceptions, judgments, and beliefs. For the truest quality of faith that we can express in your words is an inner confidence that all is indeed well, that all entities and activities and interrelationships are proceeding with the same surety, rightfulness, purpose and completeness of expression. As the winds that blow upon the planetary surface in all seasons, as the sun which shines its warming and life-giving rays upon your planetary sphere, as sure as the earth which receives the molding effects of the wind and the fire, and is able to reproduce itself in any situation as is your waters that give a place of birthing to many forms of your second-density creatures.

This quality of faith is as sure as the procession of cycles of all kinds that are an expression of the evolution, not only of individuals but of planets, solar systems, galaxies and the one Creator as well. Faith is, and this instrument discovers that that was our complete thought—faith is! We can give analogy after analogy, likening faith to those things which exist within your illusion seemingly without doubt, and yet faith is far more. It underlies all Creation, all activity. Oftentimes, it is ignored as one ignores the ground upon which one walks, the air which one breathes, yet it is. For those who would wish to study the concept of faith, he shall find that it permeates all of your existence as you know it.

Each entity exercises a faith in various things, various concepts, various entities, associations, relationships and exercises. Without the concept of faith, indeed, there would be little activity upon your planetary surface or within any life pattern. For there must be this basic quality that concerns the sense of self, the sense of the environment, the movement of the self through this environment in such and such a pattern. All of these things at the very, very basic level are taken as articles of faith.

“Faith in” is one of the primary concepts with which each entity begins each incarnation and each activity within the incarnation. What we would wish each entity to realize through the speaking that we have offered this evening is that this quality of faith, though everywhere expressing and mysterious at the same time, is that which may be affected and directed by the consciously seeking entity. That which is at one’s disposal may be utilized evermore effectively with conscious attention, with the refining of one’s disciplines of the personality of discrimination and perception. Thus, we do not introduce a new topic to any entity but only seek to make each entity aware that this quality is always in affirmation in some form or another within the life pattern. To take this quality and utilize it in a conscious fashion is much the same as refining the general characteristics of the bonfire, so that that which could be likened to the laser beam is then utilized in a far more precise and powerful fashion.

We would like to leave you with a thought that has many ramifications, and like most thoughts within the spiritual realm, it is not a logically acceptable thought. For within spiritual seeking, one of the great hallmarks is that of the inherent illogic according to the logical systems of humankind at this time. For we present you with a circular thought, a tautology, one which has nothing of logic in it, but, perhaps, may be more helpful as it contains a carefully observed situation. Faith is not possible in most cases without the profound and persistent…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and continue. There is the tautology for circular argument concerning faith and will. It is the persistent and thoroughgoing will which leads each to wherever it truly desires within this illusion or outside of it. And so it is the will that enables faith. Be persistent, determined and ever hopeful in invocation of the will, no matter in what circumstance of mind, body or spirit. Will is impossible without the faith to persist in that will. Thus, faith and will are enabled by each other!

How does one move into a willing determination to see not the letter but the spirit of all that occurs and offers one catalyst? Your culture is so literal minded, that the very language which you use is being altered by the ruthless logic and limitation of a computer. This is informative, however, in that as one understands the methods whereby computers calculate their choices of the truth, thusly, it is that the mind complex has its mechanical functioning.

The mind complex is more than a computer, but that portion of the mind which entities most often use in the evaluation of catalyst is that of a computer. In a sense that computers operate according to a series of swiftly made choices, the analogy is most informative when gazing at the excellent qualities and the addictive qualities, which are one characteristic, seen from two different points of view of consciousness.

Within this illusion it is helpful to be able to reason and to make choices in a conscious manner. It is many times extremely helpful, and sometimes the only helpful suggestion that we may offer due to a momentary emotional or spiritual confusion, in attacking or analyzing the challenges and opportunities which catalyst presents. Thusly, it is well to grasp the nature of the mechanical workings of a mind. Just as you are in the illusion of choice, so is the mind created as a living computer which estimates the relative importance of all incoming catalyst.

It, and it alone, chooses the types of perception and the choice of those things to be perceived. For instance, you sit upon furniture. Yet, have you in any conscious manner considered the feelings of your integument? Each tiny portion and cell of your physical vehicle is, at this present moment, reporting pain, pleasure, coldness, warmth and a myriad of other details, along every single inch of the physical vehicle. Almost all of this catalyst tends to be ignored completely, gaining attention only if the program which you have accepted as your consciousness discovers within all the sensations that which may in some way fail to promote the continued health and welfare of the physical vehicle and its survival.

You are in a less illusory and imperishable way the choice-maker. It is not your intellect but you that chooses each perception of experience. Consequently, if there are those things which the mind has targeted for notice and prioritized heavily, and if those things do not redound to the strength, the love, the faith, the will in the path of seeking and service of the one infinite Creator, it is not the behavior which needs to change.

Were that so, you would be slaves. Slaves to computer programs within yourselves that cannot be changed. But you are not slaves, but free men. You have the will towards faith. You have the faith to use that will. If you wish to change, know that before any change can manifest, the actuality of the desires of the deep mind must first change in actuality and in practice. Those things, seen by any seeker to be those things which actively delimit and confuse spiritual search, have been noticed because they have been given priority as being relevant to the survival of an entity. There is a thoroughgoing process of realization of one’s identity as apart from that of the physical vehicle that enables a much accelerated development of spiritual faculties and the disciplines of the personality.

The intellect is not a dictator, unless you accept that nothing can change the pain, the sorrow, and the various anguishes that have previously programmed the computer of your mind towards safety, security, self defense and caution. It takes a great deal of courage, given only by will and grace, to be able, consciously, to work at the reprogramming of the mode of perception used by the conscious mind; the reprioritizing of concerns from those things which seem vital at the mundane level; to value given to those things which, within your culture, would be dismissed as the musings of the sophomore wise school must be grasped and in actuality surrendered. The surrender of long held convictions, as to that which is of priority in life, will cause a kind of mental pain that is a result of the energy involved in delving into the conscious prioritizing portion of the self, and the specific reprogramming of the self towards the affirmative, positive, self-respecting, self-forgiving consciousness that has no part of the illusion in which you live.

Now Q’uo described the relationship between faith and the will as that in which each enables the other in the intellectual or computer-like making of choices which determines how catalyst will be utilized. Q’uo suggested that the desires of our deep mind towards the survival of the body must be changed so that change can help us to realize our true identity and enhance our spiritual journey. They said that this would aid us in reprogramming our mode of perception by the conscious mind towards a more positive and self-forgiving consciousness that moves beyond the third-density illusion. On September 10, 1995, Q’uo described how the deep mind can change our experience of fear into an ability to invoke faith:

Faith is indeed a gift in that some entities have a clearer line or connection with their own unconscious mind. Faith is also a built-in, inherent and native portion of the deep mind and thusly it can be developed and pulled up into the conscious existence by one who works to form the habit of turning to faith and faith’s ability to give one the opportunity to create that area of control which changes the fear and fret of daily worry into an occasion to invoke faith.

My beloved, the journey that you take seldom requires a physical step, seldom necessitates a physical pilgrimage. For the impact of geography and novelty of experience is in and of itself trapped by the ruthless decisions of the programming of your mental capacity to notice this but not that, and that but not this.

Before we depart, although we did not feel within this group at this time the pressure of queries, we would, as always, open the meeting to any query which any might have. Ask us at this point anything that you wish, and we shall be most humbly grateful to share our most fallible opinion with you. Is there a question at this time?

[Pause]

Peace reigns within each of you. That is good. We appreciate the self-confidence that it takes to know when one must ponder and listen rather than forever thinking and questioning. For that which is of importance is that which will take much of your time to process from realizations to manifestations. And in that process, we of the Confederation of the Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator, or, if you prefer, we of the Angelic Host in Service to the Infinite Creator, are always with you.

You merely need mentally to request the strength of our vibration, and we shall join you in silence and faith and in determination. Yours are the choices, and they need not be made by an unquestioned intellect. Indeed, they must not be made by such. As you think within yourself in meditation daily, have no attachment to this process, for this process is not that which makes sense to the computer of your conscious mind. In meditation, those deep knowledges hidden beneath the veil, those sparks of the infinite One, which you all are slowly and gently given the opportunity to receive, rise within the deep mind and cross the threshold in many ways, informing most deeply and most purely the faith, the will, and the journey without words and without steps.

We leave you to the excitement, the challenge, and the pain of the learnings you seek—the learnings of love, service to others, and the secrets of true manifestation of the consciousness of light. You may feel alone—you are not. Have you the faith to know that? You will feel often in error, bewildered, uncertain. These are often times of great growth. Reassess these times of seeming sorrow and despair. And as you begin to know the self that is love, much of what is now programmed within you will change and you will seem to die a little at a time. You are not dying, you are being born. Be persistent and judge yourself not. For the moods and the weather of your conscious being are inevitable, acceptable and necessary to the process of growth.

Cease the present moment, make it your own and seek evermore a purer priority of concerns. For you are a treasure. You must learn to cherish that treasure that is you, and to cherish and deeply adore the Creator who gave you its own being and then allowed each to make all of its own choices, to follow its own destiny, to move to its own rhythm and to experience its own truth. The Creator is love. And love alone would take this risk. Put yourself at the same risk. For you, too, create your experience.

We shall speak as long as you wish upon this multifaceted subject. You have only to inquire, either mentally or more formally. May we say, that though we do not mind the speaking to those concerns which you have, we do ask that if a group question is not vibrated that each of you mentally offer us permission to gaze within each, to find the most common and deep concern shared by the group. We would not infringe on free will. This permission, however, heals that infringement. And we ask each to take a moment at this time, retroactively to offer us that healing, for we would not wish to mislead you as to the ways this contact could be abridged. We must not infringe upon free will. Our concern is based upon the very stringent free will requirements of a contact such as ours.

Now Q’uo spoke of the nature of our journey was not physical but was pre-incarnatively chosen to be a mental one in the way that we use our catalyst. Then Q’uo suggested that it was well that we ponder our lessons as they manifest in our meditations, and they would be glad to join us in this process in silence and in faith. They said that in this way we seek the knowledge of the Creator within our deep minds which will strengthen our faith and will on our spiritual journey. They said that there would be times on this journey where we may feel alone, in error, and bewildered, but these can be times of great growth if we have the faith that some portions of our being will die away and actually create a new life for us of the Creator’s love that created us and is within us. On July 5, 1981, Hatonn spoke of the nature of the love of the Creator within us:

My sister, we would answer you by saying that to seek the love of the infinite Creator in each moment of your life is the greatest service and the greatest learning that can be accomplished upon your plane, for it is the lesson of this dimension to discover the love of the Creator within all that is experienced within the self, within the life, within the family, within the community, within each activity, each experience and there is, shall we say, an infinite amount of time to discover this love.

We thank you for this acknowledgment of that meaning and the giving of permission. We thank you. We celebrate our unity, and together we turn towards the rising sun of an ever new day, the day of the spirit, in which that which has been dim comes to light, freeing the preceptor, to learn that which has been learned, and to hear for the first time new refinements that are possible in the conduct and the characteristics of blind programming, that were not available until summary reprioritizing has been accomplished. This is a multi-syllabic way of saying a very simple thing: “The road goes on forever.” The road of seeking, the road of promise, the road that leads finally to self-knowledge of congruency with love itself, the great original Thought and Creator of all that there is.

We would leave you now in peace. A peace that you may begin to understand more and more. It is not the peace of your culture. It is neither sleep nor contentment. It is the peace of one who has chosen completely the dedication of self to the journey of seeking, the desire to become ever more aware of the true nature of the self, the growing hunger for the kingdom within.

May you be light hearted and merry as you suffer, and may you never forget your suffering when the gift of happy days is given to you. In this way, you may find much greater use of your catalyst and much quicker rate of acceleration of your spiritual evolution.

Oh, eternal beings, oh, blessed children of life, we leave you now in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai. Adonai vasu. We are known to you as the principle of Q’uo.

This morning I did my usual Friday vacuuming of the first floor of my home.

This afternoon I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply to buy some bird seed and cat food. My next stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 2

Every Flower Rejoices

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

Be it known to you that every flower that nods in the sunlight rejoices in love; that every green leaf that shakes upon the bough lifts its voice in songs of praise to love.

Know, too, that every cell of your body and every cell of your mind is full of the love of the Father, full of the Christ, full of rejoicing.

It may seem to you that portions of your body or your mind have been cut off from the love of God in Jesus Christ. Believe and know that this is in no case the final truth and press on in faith, holding the vision of love in every cell, of rejoicing in every iota of the body and the mind. By this may the power of the spirit of love be called to you, be drawn upon you, and begin to heal you.

We leave you in the peace of love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 4, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. We would offer ourselves at this time in an attempt to speak to queries if there are any queries that we may address. May we begin with the first one at this time?

Carla: Yes, I have a question. In my teaching, I request that those who are working with me choose a symbol or an object to specify who they are in order that they may do work in metaphysical realms, but you suggest that true worship is worship of a mystery. Am I misguiding anyone by my method of teaching?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. When an entity wishes to offer itself in the service which those present seek to offer, as the vocal channels, it is well to have a central concept or representation of this great mystery which is the Creator and the creation available to it to offer as the means by which unseen spirits may be challenged or hailed, shall we say. It is recognized that there is no concept or quality that can adequately summarize the infinite mystery of the Creator, yet the vocal channel does well to find a facet of this mysterious Creator by which it may approach the Creator, and through which it may offer the challenge to those contacts which would wish to speak through it. Though a concept may be fashioned, and an approach may be made, it is always known in the heart of each seeker that mystery is at the heart of each concept and each approach.

Carla asked Q’uo if, when she teaches new channels, it is appropriate to choose a symbol or object to symbolize who they are. Q’uo said that it was well for each instrument to create a concept that would symbolize the mystery of the Creator which then could be used to challenge any entity that was being channeled. On August 12, 1987, Laitos described the necessity of challenging unseen spirits:

The challenging of unseen spirits is quite necessary, for as populated as your illusion is, we may assure you that those illusions beyond your own are at least as equally populated, and there are many who stand ready to speak through instruments, and instruments need a means by which to be assured that the entity speaking through them is one of the highest positive polarity possible in order to gain information that is as sound and useable as possible, or else the value of the information is small.

Thus, it is our recommendation that each instrument determine for itself its own desire to serve as an instrument, and if its determination is that it wishes to do so in as pure a fashion as it might, then it shall gather about itself those qualities which it feels are its essence and utilize these qualities in a fashion that may be formed into that which is called the challenge of the spirit, so that the contact which is made may know who you are and what your desire is in a clear fashion, for this is your first communication with it.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Just one, and I was asking this of Jim this morning. It is difficult for me to grasp that people honestly don’t open their eyes, look around, take it in, and immediately feel the instinct of faith. Nor it is it understandable to me personally why people lack the intensity of desire to attempt to learn and serve at the very limit of their ability with a complete passion, because of this instinctive identification with the Creator, which is faith, and love and surrender, and willingness to serve, all sort of mixed into one. How can I brook this chasm in my own understanding, in my own failure to understand, in such a way that I can better serve? Because it’s my blind spot.

I am Q’uo, and we are aware of your query, my sister. The central mystery of which we have been speaking is reflected in each entity that seeks the one Creator. Each approaches this path from an unique position. There is much learning within the life pattern of any entity that is quite incomprehensible to most other entities that may be acquainted with a specific entity and may wish to know more of that entity in order to draw closer to it in companionship, compassion and in common seeking.

That each of you contains mystery may be seen as a benefit or detriment depending upon one’s point of view. Many feel more justified, shall we say, for lack of a better word, in their own idiosyncrasies, when they realize that others contain such as well, variety thus becoming an enhancement when looking at the qualities of the human species. If an entity is not comfortable with the mystery within itself, perhaps it will have more difficulty in adjusting to that which is mysterious within others, for there is much of what seems to be of—we allow this instrument to search—undependable nature that mystery represents to some entities.

However, when that which is known of others is explored, oftentimes it is seen that along with the differences between entities there is much that unites those of your population. Entities will pursue their paths of seeking in a conscious or in an unconscious fashion with the character of the seeking determined by forces which are unique to each entity. When it is realized that each entity is unique, relationships between entities and the attempt at understanding between entities will then be seen as doubly unique.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: I just want to clarify what I think you said. I think that you basically implied that what I see as an instinct, as a part of the self that could not be denied, is that, but that is for the most part in other people covered. And further, you are intimating that a teacher for the most part teaches by being, not by what it says. Are these conclusions acceptable?

I am Q’uo, and though we have not specifically iterated our reply in such a manner, we find that the interpretation which you have made of our words is an interpretation which stands on its own as valid, in our humble opinion.

Though entities are most mysterious, each in his or her own way, much of this mystery, though remaining in a covered, as you have called it, condition, due to perhaps the lack of conscious seeking, would, even with active conscious seeking remain mysterious, not only to others observing such an entity, but to the conscious seeker as well, for this illusion which you inhabit is one which guarantees a great deal of mystery, since the unifying qualities and the fundamental concepts of the Creator, of the creation, and of each entity within the creation, are covered over, much as the earth beneath your feet covers the gems and jewels that may be found within your geological strata.

It is also well said that a teacher will provide the most effective instruction to those who learn from it, not so much by what it says, but by, as you have said, its very being, for it is the being that informs the working.

Carla asked Q’uo why people have such a lack of intensity to serve the Creator, and why they don’t exercise their faith and their passion more in seeking to serve the Creator. After Q’uo responded to her first query, Carla asked if what Q’uo said was that one teaches best by their being than by what they say. Q’uo spoke to her first query by saying that each person is unique in how they perceive the mystery of the Creator within them, and some people are not comfortable with that mystery, and they may not appreciate it in others which also increases that feeling of mystery. Q’uo agreed that the teacher’s being is more important that its teachings. Then Q’uo went on to say that whether a person is a conscious seeker or not, the mystery within each person that could reveal the unifying concepts of the Creator in all are not apparent in the third-density illusion. In 85.18-.19, Ra spoke of the veil of forgetting covering the various facets of the Creator:

Questioner: After the veiling process certain veiled functions or activities must have been paramount in creating evolution in desired polarized directions. I was just wondering which of these had the greatest effect on polarization?

Ra: I am Ra. The most effectual veiling was that of the mind.

Questioner: I would like to carry that on to find out what specific functions of the mind were most effectual and the three or four most effective changes brought about to create the polarization.

Ra: I am Ra. This is an interesting query. The primary veiling was of such significance that it may be seen to be analogous to the mantling of the Earth over all the jewels within the Earth’s crust; whereas previously all facets of the Creator were consciously known. After the veiling, almost no facets of the Creator were known to the mind. Almost all was buried beneath the veil.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: I do have a trivial query, and then I’ll shut up. I was struck throughout this contact by a change in your focus which prohibited me from using pretty words. I assume, as I did surrender, and I believe I was getting an accurate flow, that this had a purpose. Is it within the bounds of free will at this time for you to express the purpose of speaking in such a clinical manner of that which is at the heart of all passion, all life and all eternity?

I am Q’uo, and we are aware of your query, my sister. Before beginning this session we were aware that you felt some concern for your ability to channel in an undistorted fashion upon a topic which is quite dear to your own way of thinking and being, shall we say. Thus, we wished to facilitate the transmission of concepts by forming those concepts in a manner which would not continue to trigger this concern within your mind complex as you observed familiar phrases being utilized in the fashioning of this concept.

Thus, we attempted to speak in a manner which was not only somewhat foreign to you, but which would seek to describe this core concept in a manner which would be more acceptable to many entities upon the intellectual or analytical level that may come in contact with this information, and to the conveying of more objectively oriented concepts, that find an easier entry into the more emotional or, shall we say, heart-filled areas of the personal life pattern.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, my brother, I suspect since you said that there is more, that we will be hearing more, and I will wait. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we again thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we are most grateful for this opportunity of speaking to this group. Indeed, there is a good deal more information upon this topic, which we shall be happy to share with you at your request in your future gatherings. We are always happy to join this group, for we find that the queries from this group are fashioned from the desires of the heart and not just those of the mind or of the curiosity.

We shall at this time take our leave of this group. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. We would leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I changed out the sheets and pillow cases on my bed and then washed them and ironed the flat sheet and the pillow cases. The fitted sheet doesn’t need ironing because it fits to tightly on the mattress that no wrinkles can withstand the stretching.

This afternoon I replaced the globe on the ceiling fan/light in the kitchen for the fourth time, as the previous three attempts ended in the globes breaking away from the light fixture, for some unknown reason, and then crashing to the floor.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 1

Open Your Hearts To Love

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ left to the world upon this Master’s removal from it. I greet you in the comfortable Word of divine love.

We proclaimed ourselves to this instrument this morning as the spirit of the one infinite Creator. And so we were challenged again in the name of Jesus the Christ, for the instrument felt we were too close in feeling to other material this instrument has received which seems not to be of Jesus the Christ.

Yet we must remind the instrument that all those of the world of spirit move from the one Creator and as this instrument challenges in the name of Jesus the Christ, so all who come to this instrument are linked in unity of consciousness.

To some we are angels; to others, alien beings. Yet in our essence is our function; in our love and its communication, our hope of service. You, who seek to serve Jesus the Christ, open your hearts to the perfect love of yourself, for you were created by love. You are love. The rest is surface behavior and confusion.

May you sink into the comfort of your true nature. May you seek the comfort of the spirit of Christ. And may you manifest the love which flows through you to all whom you meet this day.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said that prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator (heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 4, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with the concept of worship. What is worship, especially in regards to the one Creator? What kinds of worship are there, besides the kind that we’re familiar with in church? How does worship affect us, and how we can enhance this effect?

(Carla channeling)

Greetings and blessings to each from the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow of the principle known to you as Q’uo. The joy that we feel when we are called to your meeting to attempt to begin to examine the question that is at the heart of that which we come to share is a great privilege for us, in addition to the privilege of sharing in your selfhood, your meditation, your seeking, your tolerance of the illusion that is about you, your desire for harmony, and your single-minded desire to serve in love and faith and praise, thanksgiving and prayer.

The one known as Hatonn has been requested by the instrument because of that which the instrument does not itself understand, and it is part of that which we would speak of this evening, that when this ideation moved into the floor of this instrument’s conscious thinking, it did not doubt its own instincts. There are reasons for the one known as Hatonn to be with this instrument as the energy, once again, is quite low in the group. The placing of the meditation in low energy timing is a choice that you have made because of the schedules among your people, the appointments, the details, the needs to be here and yonder. We hope this is subject for some thought.

This is the first time that Hatonn has been mentioned as serving as the voice for Q’uo. The reason for this, apparently, was that the group energy was low due to the members of this group being too involved in the workaday world.

We would turn now to the question at hand this evening, the question of worship, in what it consists, what its various subgroupings may be as to type, what function it plays, and how it can be encouraged as well as begun. We would like to begin with a seemingly shallow linguistic point, yet we feel that this damaging translation of the holy work most familiar to your culture is in the present instance, and in regard to the present question, misleading and even damaging. There are many urgent requests from those whom you call, since in any and all religious paths, but especially within your Judeo-Christian culture, the basic emotion laden word that is almost always misunderstood when read, as it has been misunderstood when translated, is the word “fear.” In worship, there is not fear; in worship, there is a surrender, without fear, and without knowledge of that which is to come.

Having chosen the path of service to the infinite Creator by means of service to others, why would any entity make such a choice? There are humane and humanitarian reasons to care for one’s fellow man, but not to feel that it is necessary to surrender the heart, the mind, the soul, the strength and the life to a voice which cannot often be heard, but which must be taken upon faith by its outer garments of manifestation. The fear of the Creator is simply awe and wonder, and fortunate is the entity who has released itself from all fear, for only within this illusion which you experience is there this fear of the Creator. This is simply a distortion of that love which is so great that the desire to serve this Creator fills one with awe.

Fear, of any one, any thing, any circumstance or any idea indicates that there is preparatory work still to do within the boundaries of the illusion which you now enjoy. The illusion is placed before you not only in a day-to-day manner, but in subtle and myriad ways. Your very consciousness, that is, that consciousness of which you are aware, is or can be constantly informed as to what means of service lie before you. In order to reach this consciousness of awe and wonder, there must be a variable amount of your time spent in whatever kind of contemplation reveals and manifests to you personally the most information about the state of your mind, your emotions, your physical vehicle and your consciousness.

Within that which is called the negative path, the consciousness more and more begins to conclude that all power, all glory, indeed, all of the creation resides within the consciousness of the self. Insofar as this conclusion is reached, it is identical to the conclusion reached by those who serve others. The negative path, however, chooses to worship not that which created this universe experienced, but the self for containing all that there is. Those who can handle this concept in a positive manner are few. There is no true surrender, no true desire to do the will of the Creator, but rather the Creator and the self, so co-mingled, become a non-thing, a non-thought, and in the end, an unworkable path of service.

The group question for this session revolved around the definition of worship. What it is regarding the Creator? How does it affect us? And how can we enhance it? Q’uo began by saying that the Judaeo/Christian (Old Testament) Creator was seen as fear whereas the nature of the true way of relating to the Creator is in releasing all fear and, instead, feeling the awe and wonder for the Creator’s love. Q’uo suggested that we use contemplation to discover the true nature of our consciousness is awe and wonder, and this consciousness of the creation and the Creator resides within us as positive seekers. On October 11, 1987, Q’uo spoke of the true nature of our consciousness:

The goal of one who incarnates into third density, designed before your incarnation, is to attempt to sow experience and evaluate the experiences of the lifetime that your self, your beingness, and your consciousness becomes more and more as you would have your gift to the Creator to be. For ultimately, at the end of an intentionally lived life, is the giving of the life as a gift to that Creator whence you sprung and whither you are bound once again to lose yourself.

Very well, then, the way in which one sees life is all-important to the interpretation one makes of it, and that is where trust becomes most, most helpful. The truth which we ask you to trust, if indeed your heart vibrates in tune with this thought, is the truth that as eternal beings we have one purpose more primary than any other, for before circumstance came to be, our consciousness came to be. And that which is most important, therefore, is an investigation into the nature of our consciousness, the nature of that force which created us, and the nature of our relationship with that force or principle of creation.

Let us move to another way of gazing at this question. Within your social intercourse, one finds many, many ways of perceiving others, perceiving one’s own thoughts, perceiving meanings which may be given to various manifestations, either mundane or highly spiritual, and your choice of accepting the reality of the self seems to include accepting the reality of the illusion. However, this is not, in our opinion, an accurate, logical conclusion. Can you control the wind of Spirit, or must you allow the Spirit, that living principle of the Creator, to move you? Many, many desires are those things which are natural to the natural entity, that is, the entity in an unawakened state. To people such as this, worship may well be important, but they see themselves as those who take advantage of the sacrifice of another without whose sacrifice there would not be a life or consciousness continued beyond this one.

So, you may see that which worship is not. Worship is not the pressing forward to one’s goals, the satisfaction of one’s desire to accumulate and amass those things which encourage happiness. Many have called devout love of many finite things various kinds of incorrect worship, that is, worship of those things which do not endure, and are therefore only able to be worshipped within this local and provincial illusion, so soon over. And if the entity who wishes to worship does so for any motive other than love, awe, amazement, joy and a seeking after truth, one has chosen that to worship which shall surely not last as long as the consciousness which at present inhabits your physical vehicle will last. Thus, if one worships a religion, a person, a goal within the illusion, one is worshipping in a negative manner, blocking the natural flow which the Spirit intends to be available to you at all times, that is, the Spirit of Love Itself.

Worship is that which underlies whatever complex or simple structure of personality and desire one has which manifests as an incarnation. Worship begins with the awareness that is known, but much may be inferred. Clues within the illusion that hint at one single Original Thought, which we call Love, or Christ, Christ consciousness, or the Creator, is a kind of firm ground upon which the self may stand as it gazes at, evaluates, discriminates and analyzes its own thoughts, feelings and emotions, until the self has concluded much about the nature of the self, the illusion and the program of lessons which was intended. Worship is that surrender to imperishable and perfect light and love which is the Creator. Worship is a blind thing, a shot felt to be in the dark, having an unknown target. Worship is that gathering of purified emotions which moves the entity from considerations of the milieu of the physical vehicle to considerations of the milieu of the imperishable light being which you have found within yourself as the deepest portion of yourself.

There is a great difference between love and worship. Those who seek to love will in the end find all that they desire because of a great steadiness and firmness of desire. But neither the leap of faith nor the intensification of desire can move that true self within one to that which is basically a protection, for the Creator is within you, yet within you cannot be seen by you. Thus, for all except the most non-literal and lyrical of mystics, worship generally consists in an attitude of surrender in purified emotion to that which is considered the source of the being, and of all that there is.

There is a necessity in most to objectify worship so that there is an identifiable object, idea or person onto which one may reflect one’s deepest desires to serve. And as no one within an illusion can know adequately how to serve any entity in the best way for that entity, the worshipful or faithful entity watches and waits and prays and does all that it does for the love of the object of that worship, the infinite One.

In sum, worship is that gathering of purified emotion which kneels in surrender to the purity itself, the beauty itself, the truth itself, the love itself, that is the Creator. The outgrowths of worshipful, faithful living, moment by moment, are those things which many may perceive to be most beautiful and hard won contests against the temptation to make sense within the narrow definitions of your mind, of that which is infinite as the object of worship is infinite.

Now Q’uo said that we must be aware of the valuing of the nature of money and other facets of the mundane world cannot be considered worship because they do not endure, so the true worship is the seeking and valuing of the Spirit of Love that moves like the wind around us and within us. It is in our surrender to the Light and Love of the Creator that we can find within us the deepest portion of ourselves. On October 1, 1989, Q’uo described the nature of true worship:

The first realization is that the Creator loves you with a passion most intense, for you are a portion of the Creator experiencing Itself—Love experiencing Love. True worship is a response to the unconditional Love that lies at the center of the universe and of your being. Within you is infinity and within that infinity, an infinite intelligence. And this principle is one of Love and so all that there is, is Love.

Yet, you would wish, and we would recommend, that you strive to attain the emotion of worship, for within the process of moving toward worship one first dies to the self. That is, one releases oneself from one’s humanity; one surrenders the self to the greater Self that lies within in complete trust that that which is Love may be answered with the most profound and purified Love in return.

There are identifiable types of worship. There are three main categories of worship. The first is worship without an object. When one moves into the frame of mind that says that all that there is, is the Creator, and all is to be worshipped, one has failed to identify any object of worship beyond the phenomena experienced by the self. The closest name that you have to this type of worship is pantheism, that is, the thoroughgoing worshipful attitude towards all that one beholds, but with the unspoken inference that when one comes to the end of all that there is, that is the limit of the Creator. Thusly, with those who worship without an object, many see difficulties connected with the inability to move beyond a certain point in evolution of spirit without either a subjective or reflective object of worship upon which one may focus again and again and again, infinitely, in each present moment.

The worship of an object, or symbol, which indicates to the entity a living and participating Creator, is most, most helpful in the simplification and clarification and lucidity of what one is aware of about one’s self, for worship must be the worship of an entity for nothing or something. The unexamined thoughts and feelings and actions of many of your peoples create distortions which indicate that worship is a kind of hysteria within which one is able to release all the negative portions perceived subjectively within the self. This is not particularly helpful to the evolution of the individual’s spirit. However, we mention both worship without an object, and worship of an object, as being somewhat helpful, for these are stages which may be traversed as the incarnate entity slowly begins to open the door to the possibility that the object of its worship is an utter and complete mystery.

True worshipful living is a high risk occupation. It is not a loop into the light, but rather a loop into darkness. The illusion creates an emotional, mental and spiritual twilight in which ideals, the purification of emotions from attachments, and the mindfulness of continuing awareness of the worship bloom in the darkness of blind faith. That is, the true worship is worship of a mystery; awe, wonder, a greater and greater subjective feeling of being held firmly by that which is not illusion, although one cannot understand it, so that the entity rests at last in a completely subjective and subjectively truthful journey. In this regard, worship may be seen as motion, motion of a metaphysical kind rather than a physical kind.

We would once again advise this instrument to peruse these thoughts upon worship, for in her nature, in order that she may be what she wished to be and do what she wished to do before incarnation, she has gifts of faith and will. This instrument, therefore, has little idea of what may form worship, what may begin a craving for impossible virtue, for it experiences these things as a portion of its nature, and in this it is not incorrect. However, most are aware neither of the surety of faith nor a complete surety of desire.

Knowing that one will receive what one desires, one attempts to desire the most whole, beautiful and truthful expression of the Creator that may by made available to it. The entire panoply of a culturally gutted civilization…

[Side one of tape ends.]

…the choice of the intellectual to worship nothing or everything, both of which contain a weak strength of acceleration, although the vector is promising. Those who worship an object, but do not go beyond the literal object in itself, are those who do not yet desire to surrender to that which is, in the end, the unknown. Such entities have the need for structure, for certainty, surety, a firmness of intent which is the blossom of that structure, and many are those who have found the gateway to eternity in this way. But they are few, in that they have not become universal in their thinking, feeling and acting process.

It is to those who acknowledge that nothing is known, and yet who choose to be certain of those things which they feel as they consciously purify their emotions, that the sight of what this instrument would call the Kingdom, comes. There is no visualization of objects, such as being seated at the right hand of the Creator, or ruling, or judging, or being in some way a master of the creation. The one who wishes to develop the ability to worship must first square off against two illimitable concepts; that is, that nothing can be known, objectively; and that the self can be known by the self more and more through meditation, contemplation, analysis, prayer, and the observation of one’s personality as it shows itself in any present moment.

Worship, then, is worship not only of the Creator, but of the mysterious and largely unknown Creator. The choice is then made, with no evidence whatsoever, to surrender to that unknown, for as one is aware one did not make oneself, one is aware that whatever the nature of the unknown, that unknown is responsible for one’s being, one’s continuance, one’s imperishability and one’s opportunities to express and manifest the glory of this mystery.

Now Q’uo said that there were three main types of worship, and the first one is the kind that sees all as the Creator as is the case of pantheism, so there is no true object of worship. But Q’uo said this type of worship limits the development of the spirit complex because there is no subject or object to focus upon again and again infinitely in each present moment. Then Q’uo said that worship of an object, such as the Creator, was helpful in that it clarified what one feels about one’s own nature, and it also begins to open the door to the concept of the object of one’s worship is a complete mystery. The third type of worship that Q’uo described as true worship which was a type of worship in which we practice within the illusion of third density where we move into the darkness, and it is a metaphysical kind of worship where we worship a great mystery of awe and wonder in which we rest in a subjectively truthful journey. Q’uo completed their description of this type of worship by saying that nothing can be known objectively although one can subjectively know more and more about one’s self “through meditation, contemplation, analysis, prayer, and the observation of one’s personality as it shows itself in any present moment.” Q’uo said that then we can choose to surrender to this unknown Creator which created us and which sustains our being infinitely as we continue to manifest the glory of this mystery. On April 26, 1997, Q’uo described the glory of this mystery:

Each of you is as a starry messenger that has become tangled in flesh. There is that portion of yourself that is eternal and infinite. That eternal and infinite being is steeped in unknowing—truly a mystery of mysteries. Each entity is as deep a mystery as the mystery of the Creator, for each, truly, is one face of the Creator. And in each manifested illusion, each entity is the face of the Creator, and each face shall be unique. But to all these sparks of Love sent forth upon the winds of free will there is given the knowledge of home and the desire to be moving in the direction that home lies.

We realize we have only begun upon this subject. It is a large one, and because of this instrument’s request to us, as it perceives the very large amount of material on this subject, we shall be satisfied to have begun. We would at this time transfer this contact. We are known to you as Q’uo, and for those of Hatonn, we bid you fond farewell as we leave this instrument. We are those known to you as Q’uo, and we would at this time transfer this contact.

This morning I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. My next stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up some non-food items.

This afternoon I went to the drainage ditch on Hazelwood to clean the silt out of the end of the PVC pipe that my sump pumps in the basement are pumping the large amount of water from recent rains into. The technician that installed my sump pumps said that keeping the silt cleaned out of the end of the PVC pipe would help the sump pumps to do a better job.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 31

The Arid Seedcases Of Words

I greet you in the consciousness of the love of Jesus Christ.

I am the spirit of that love among the nations of the world, the force which carries the single concept of love in the clumsy containers of words to all who may have ears to hear.

Yet how can words wake up to the aliveness of the spirit, which cannot be contained within the arid seedcases of words? It is a great temptation to speak only in poetry, only in stories, to attempt to evoke feelings beyond words, emotion beyond concept.

For though we offer knowledge, it is not knowledge of words but knowledge of faith. For the full consciousness of love evokes an assurance and a delight. If you feel not these things, ask again for the spirit’s comfort, that you may know the love of Jesus Christ and reflect it in your life; that you, too, may carry in awkward seedcases the living and fructifying love of Christ to all who have ears to hear.

In peace I leave you, now and always. I am the Holy Spirit of Jesus the Christ.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 25, 1990:

(Carla channeling)

We are known to you as those of Q’uo. We greet you in joy and offer you blessings in the name of the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. As you well know, it is deemed by us an enormous privilege to be able to share with you in your concerns. As one becomes more and more refined in one’s awareness of what a family truly is, perhaps of what remains of one’s unwisdom one is most concerned. We have been concerned about your people for some time, as you know. And when we feel a call go forth, that enables us to try to be of service, it is as so someone from our family would be calling us, someone we love and would want nothing in the world more to do than to go to them to share their sorrow, ease their pain and strengthen their walk upon the path of the search for truth.

We are the privileged ones. We were able to be perceived by an instrument who was able somehow to receive concepts and to speak words which we find almost entirely appropriate. We would speak to you at this time about this as each of you is attempting to channel ever better. It is well not to regard words with an idea to their having one effect upon people. It is not hypocrisy to speak in a language of those whom you come to serve. It is not hypocrisy but kindness to use no more of emotion in your expression than the circle is able to accept without invoking either fear or guilt, which is actually a kind of fear. The silence itself will teach you better than that.

So we wish to be very careful to speak always in terms that have relatively little power within your illusion, insofar as they are emotionally charged. We do not say, for instance, the word “God.” From time to time, because we are allowing the instrument freedom, it will speak that word. And it is acceptable to us. Of our own self we would prefer a less emotionally charged term. One that moves cosmology out of superstition and into a simple knowledge of how eternity creates itself. So we ask each channel, always, to hear and remember words and phrases that are particularly delightful; we may be able to use them. Remember, we came to light as experiences that gave you joy, that fired your passions and that created the purest you that you have yet been. Move always back into these things that are your strength, your gifts. And one of the gifts of a channel needs to be that of grasping the nuances of vocabulary. This is not a group to which we must lecture, for each is already quite aware, for the most part, of this helpful information that it is well to be reminded again and again, that as servants of men and as sons of the one infinite Creator it was given to you to be the humblest, to be the least, to be strong enough in self that such things are irrelevant to your state of mind. The path asks a great deal for one who begins it. Little by little, untruth must be sloughed off as if it were dead skin. Those blockages which could always be blamed on a childhood are suddenly those blockages for which you are responsible. Because you know how to clear them. You also know the kind of work and time that this effort will take. But we exhort you to continue. Those who seek the path of spirit must also seek the path of discipline. For the time to do spiritual work is always now, not tomorrow, not last week but right now.

Each of you has begun that process of realizing the responsibility of policing yourself, of gauging for yourself, not the quality of the message, but only the quality of the preparation. This instrument, for instance, has never been satisfied with its preparation. We shall not give our opinion of this, as this instrument does not want to channel it. However, it is well not to assume that you now have become good at channeling, ever, anymore then you can reach your limits as an artist in any work of art, in any work of creativity, in any work where imagination and craftsmanship work hand in hand. It is only necessary to remember all that comes through you, because you have tuned yourself to your innermost self, the self that loves without sin. Often against its own will, but loves and loves and loves.

This was another Intensive Meditation where new instruments were learning the art of channeling. Q’uo began speaking about how they had heard the call of this group to learn more about the channeling process, and they were honored to be able to answer that call. Q’uo suggested that instruments realize that Q’uo is ever careful in their choice of words and use only those that inspire the seeker on its spiritual journey and not emotionally charged words.  They suggested that those serving as instruments should use discipline in their attempt to remove any blockages from childhood as this would aid in channeling. Q’uo said that this type of preparation for channeling would use the qualities of imagination and craftsmanship which would connect the instrument with its innermost self so that all that comes through it is constantly loving.  On November 6, 2019, Q’uo described how instruments are channels of love:

We are well aware of the work each has done this weekend as you, too, seek to become channels of love and light through the impression and speaking of the words of your language, for each of you is a channel in this respect and in many others. The life you live you channel; the love you give you channel; the thoughts you have you channel. There are many blessings upon you that have been given to you because you have drawn them to you as channels of love and light, the blessings of friends that are now gathered here—of those whom we have become close to throughout the years—the times and places, the families of each, the pursuits of your interests. All of these are blessings of the Father upon you.

We are ready at this time to transfer the contact to the one known as K. I am [sounds like] Mantuk, and I am one of those of Q’uo.

(K channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each of you once again in the love and the light of the Creator and this instrument. We are aware of this instrument’s weariness and shall therefore speak more briefly than usual, but wish to continue upon a subject of the concerns that each of you have: in your performance, in your integrity and in your desires to communicate as clearly and accurately as possible the concepts you receive as you serve as vocal channels.

There is concern in this group, especially among those less experienced, such as this instrument, with regard to concepts that they are either not translating, shall we say, as accurately as may be desired, or that are missed all together. We know this is not an altogether unknown occurrence for those with more experience also. We wish to encourage you in your efforts in this regard to seek to grasp those concepts which seem the most clear to you. And if there is a concept that you have difficulty in grasping, we urge you simply to let it go, not consider it lost, for if it is part of the message that we wish to bring to you, we will bring those thoughts back again.

We urge you each to be diligent in the continued scrutiny of your own lives as you continue what we consider to be the most important work of those serving as vocal channels; that is, the work upon yourself, the process of becoming ever more transparent, where you become more and more transparent in yourselves. The concepts that are communicated to you will flow through more clearly, more easily and naturally and there will be less blockages within yourselves to help with the progress. Everything that you experience in your life you experience as an end result, that which is passed through many and various filter systems which you have set up for yourselves. You are aware of this process.

As you continue in your efforts to know yourself, you’ll become more and more conscious from the way this process operates and will become more and more able to consciously choose that information which you wish to receive from all that is available to you. Processes will become less automatic, shall we say. And you will find yourselves able to incorporate more and more of life as the experiences and energy of the entire universe that is around you enter yourselves. All of this will aid you in your work as vocal channel, as this work is, indeed, that part of your journey along the path.

Q’uo transferred the contact to K and began to channel through her by saying that new instruments may feel that they are not translating accurately or may be incorrect, but Q’uo said this should not be a concern as they could repeat the concept later on. Then Q’uo said that each new instrument should continue to work upon themselves in order to become more transparent as this will allow them to become better instruments and also will increase the nature of their own spiritual journey. On June 18, 2005, Q’uo explained the need to be transparent in order to be a good instrument:

Those of the principle of Q’uo who speak through this particular instrument speak only through this instrument. The reason is that this instrument tunes for channeling by asking for the highest and best contact of the Christ energy or consciousness that she can receive in a stable and conscious manner. She’s very precise about that for which she asks, for she wishes to make the best use of her energy and her time in terms of offering clear and transparent information that may constitute a resource for those who are seeking.

Therefore, we as a principle have created ourselves specifically to speak through this instrument. Many other entities are less careful in their tuning and in their challenging of spirits, and so you may find time and time again that you are reading a channeled source, and you must put it down because it does not ring true. And this is not the fault of the instrument itself, which is service to others, but rather it is the fault of an unclear tuning. Perhaps the channel does not know precisely who she is and perhaps she has not challenged the spirit which is attempting to communicate through her in the name of that for which she lives and that for which she would die.

We would at this time transfer to the one known as Jim, and thank this instrument for the efforts she has made in sustaining this contact this evening. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each in love and light once again. It is a privilege to work with each instrument this evening. We feel that we have made progress with the one known as K, and the ability to generate concepts which are complex in nature and which continue a logical thread of thinking, developing it with further information and illustration as the contact continues. We are very grateful to be able to enlarge that which we offer in this instrument and we would commend her perseverance. At this time it is our privilege to ask if we may speak to any queries which are upon the minds of those listening.

[Only portions of Carla’s questions have been transcribed.]

Carla: I have one. Actually, are you aware personally [inaudible] who was able [inaudible] are you not happy [inaudible]. This is the feeling I have got all along.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We scan ourselves for permissiveness. We are, shall we say, most happy to be able to make any kind of contact whatsoever with an entity who wishes to serve as an instrument. If we are able to make ourselves known and are able to speak the simplest of concepts through a new instruments, we feel as do those of your planetary sphere who become parents, shall we say, in that we have a new opportunity through which to offer concepts which, though they are, as it has often been said, ever and always the same, yet are a means by which at least one entity shall experience the possibility of being in service in a way which we find most helpful. The concepts which we offer are, as you have surmised, of a layered nature, as are all concepts within the creation, for all evolves from the one great original Thought of Love. This one simple thought of a creation made of Love, generated by Love, formed in that fashion is that from which all multiplicity [depends].Thus, when we speak through any instrument we offer that which is the instrument’s comfortable level of ability to perceive and to transmit in a fashion which corresponds in clarity and precision to the crystallized nature of the instrument through whom we speak.

You ask if we have had any opportunities to utilize instruments who were able to perceive each nuance which we have to offer. We are sure that you shall not be surprised to discover that the answer to this query is no, for that which we have to offer is beyond the ability of any entity which depends upon words for communication to express. Language itself is a barrier. However, we accept the limitations, both of language and of the understanding, if you will pardon the misnomer, of each entity in its previous knowledge and experience in the areas in which we speak. It is not our intent to give information that is minutely illustrated with each possible nuance. In certain instances and at certain times it is helpful to be able to describe the concept in finer and more precise terminology, using terminologies which are especially apt. However, what we wish most in these communications is to repeat, in whatever manner is helpful to a student, the simple nature of the creation and the strong and simple relationship that each has to each other and to the one Creator, to the creation, to all things, that this relationship is one which endures, that there will always be mystery, that there is always loving support for those who venture into the dark and mysterious night of the soul. Thus, in short, our answer to your query, my sister, is that though we seek to refine each instrument’s ability to perceive that which we have to offer, we rejoice at every word and concept which we are able to transmit through any instrument.

Carla seems to have asked about how she has been able to perceive Q’uo’s concepts when she channels Q’uo. Q’uo said that the messages which they offer through instruments are based upon the One Great Original Thought of Love, but, depending upon the nature of the instrument various of the many layers of this information may be transmitted. Q’uo went on to say that they were not able to transmit every nuance in their answers to questions because there was no instrument which could perceive all such nuances, and the limitations of language to describe some the mysterious nature of creation also kept Q’uo from transmitting all of the nuances to some questions. In 13.13, Ra speaks of the mystery of creation:

Questioner: Was the galaxy that we are in created by the infinite intelligence or was it created by a portion of the individualized infinite intelligence?

Ra: I am Ra. The galaxy and all other things of material of which you are aware are products of individualized portions of intelligent infinity. As each exploration began, it, in turn, found its focus and became co-Creator. Using intelligent infinity each portion created an universe and allowing the rhythms of free choice to flow, playing with the infinite spectrum of possibilities, each individualized portion channeled the love/light into what you might call intelligent energy, thus creating the so-called natural laws of any particular universe.

Each universe, in turn, individualized to a focus becoming, in turn, co-Creator and allowing further diversity, thus creating further intelligent energies regularizing or causing natural laws to appear in the vibrational patterns of what you would call a solar system. Thus, each solar system has its own, shall we say, local coordinate system of illusory natural laws. It shall be understood that any portion, no matter how small, of any density or illusory pattern contains, as in an holographic picture, the One Creator which is infinity. Thus all begins and ends in mystery.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: Just a comment… The reason that I felt that this was true is that one of the best channels I know…

The other question is… I really would not know how to speak to this… And I wonder if I have…

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. This is a query which would be interesting to investigate at any time in which there was the proper energy, shall we say, to move deeply into the nature of the creation, and its relationship to each entity in your third-density illusion. We may recommend that this might be one topic that could be explored during the workshop for contact, shall we say. For there would be at that time the interest and the opportunity to exchange points of view that may be illuminating to all concerned.

I am Q’uo, we are grateful to you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: The other question is about free will…

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. If it would be helpful to you in your preparation for one of these sessions of working to make a conscious dedication to open the instruments and the self freely, then this would be well. In our way of perceiving your desire to serve as instruments, we see that this commitment has been made when the commitment to serve as an instrument has been undertaken. Because the first work of the instrument is upon the self and the clearing of and balancing of those energy centers in need of such is undertaken, this, of necessity, means that each wishing to serve as an instrument presents itself, and its course of study, which is the self, freely. Thus, we see no problem with the concept that you have called “pot luck,” though it is oftentimes more helpful to each within the circle of seeking here [that] there has been an agreement upon a general area of investigation for the evening. We are happy to work with each instrument, even when there has been no specific designation for a topic agreed upon.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: I would just like to know…

I am Q’uo, and we are grateful, my sister, for your dedication to this work as well. At this time, we feel that we have both exhausted the queries and the participants in this circle of seeking. We thank each for offering the self as instrument for our humble words and thoughts. We send you our greetings and our blessings upon your journeys which move each of you in ways which are not always easily understood nor easy to assimilate. We commend you upon the dedication with which you undertake each of your days within this illusion. At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. We leave you in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator.

This morning I walked around the yard to pick up any limbs that have come down in recent rains, and I gathered enough to fill up another garbage can.

This afternoon I used my trimmer to weed the Moss Garden, and then I used my backpack blower to blow the garden clean.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 30

The Presence Of Heaven

I am of the principle manifest in the love of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

Where is the keeper of the keys to your idea of heaven? Indeed, what is your idea of heaven? Within the infinity behind the closed eyes, consider this: how far lies heaven or how near? What holy ground is nearest to your own situation?

The spirit of love is that which is the essence of heaven and that heaven is available within each spirit that abides in faith.

Pause within this moment to feel the great galaxies of inner space that lie within the silence behind closed eyes. Sense the divinity of this space. Sense that floor of heaven out of which each entity and all of its experiences grow.

Yes, my friend, your roots are in heaven. That is your native land and you carry it with you, within yourself. It is not to be put off so that you may suffer now. Allow your suffering to lift long enough to sense the blessed presence of love within. This presence is that which you call heaven, whatever its manifestation.

Do not submit to misery when there is, to the faithful seeker, the certainty of heaven. Allow the heaven within to speak to the misery within. Allow the eyes of that consciousness to find for you the peace within suffering, the options not noticed before that may alleviate this suffering and above all the greater point of view which glories in the challenges of lessons learned and heaven recognized within.

We leave you in love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.