Over the course of many decades now, my spiritual development has made a number of adjustments. Starting as a Christian, I wandered in and out of churches, and developed not just a few misgivings as to where it was all heading. Around 2000, I started investigating Judaism, and finally became Jewish. To actually make the conversion, I was expected to go before a Beit Din, which was a religious court of several rabbis who would judge whether I should become a Jew. By way of preparation, I was to write a few pages explaining why I was before them: Part 1 is drawn from that material.
Later, in Part 2, I’ll pickup the last 10-15 years to get where I am right now.
In Feb 2021, I added Part 3, which deals with the Jesus issue that really needed attention. Part 3 comments will appear after Post #20 below.
When I was about eight or nine, I remember my parents taking me to their Methodist Church. I remember that well, not because of the experience at church, but rather because I had to dress up in a suit and wear a tie. We attended church sporadically, and I was always glad when we skipped a week. My grandparents were active members, and I think they hoped I wouldn't turn into a heathen. They set a good example, but didn't explain to me what they believed nor why it should be important to me.
It was the same with my parents as well. They lived a good, moral example, but never discussed their beliefs with me. What I learned came primarily from Sunday-school classes and various church social events. I was a Protestant, which made me a minority in a town that was predominantly Roman Catholic. That was fine with me, because I didn't want to eat fish on Friday and cross myself when I walked in front of the church.
The Journey Starts
When I got out of the Army in 1968 and moved to Virginia, I started going to a local Baptist church and was “saved” by accepting Jesus as my savior. Within a few years, while at the University of Virginia, I was involved in the Charismatic movement and became what I referred to as an “enthusiastic Christian.” At that time I studied the OT and NT quite diligently, and read both of them completely several times. I came to know and trust the one true God of Israel; I trusted the Bible as His word to man on how to live and worship. I prayed, experienced miracles, and enjoyed good health and a certain measure of prosperity. However, I never really belonged to a church that I felt was for me. I found nice people usually, but not much substance beyond Sunday attendance. I drifted along asking myself questions and not hearing answers. Where did God go anyhow?
My understanding at this point: Jesus became a blood sacrifice to atone for my sins and to provide for my salvation, thereby avoiding an eternity in hell. Adam had sinned, I inherited his sin nature, and unless I accepted the pardon provided by Jesus, I was lost.
First Questions
So I asked what would become of the righteous folks who didn’t hear this message; I found that they were lost unless someone got the word to them: thus, I should evangelize. But, something was clearly wrong here if the righteous are condemned. Abraham argued with God about the destruction of the righteous when Sodom was judged; it would be out of character for God to destroy the righteous without giving them a chance. The Christian answer is that God does give them a chance ... they hear the Gospel, and if they accept Jesus, they’re saved. If they don’t accept, too bad, they had their chance and rejected the free gift of salvation. On the other hand, I assert that the righteous do receive their just reward and are not condemned.
Another question I had early on was the “unpardonable sin” mentioned in the NT. What does it mean? Nobody knows. Is it rejecting Jesus at some point after a person had become a Christian? How can there be a sin that cannot be forgiven? I suspect that it’s undefined to cause folks to stay within Christianity and not leave. Ever.
More Questions
Having read the Bible, I see that Jews approached God directly, and at Sinai a bit more directly than they wanted, but there was no intermediary other than Moses. He gave the Torah and described the sacrificial requirements for various sins; however, the people could always pray directly to God, repent, and expect to find forgiveness within the framework of the Torah. Although temple worship and sacrifices are not possible now, people can still pray and repent of their sins: blood sacrifices are not necessary. How could this all be abrogated by the arrival of Jesus? Impossible. Additionally, there’s no mention of his vicarious atonement for sins in the OT, and certainly no suggestion that he would be God on earth, which would violate the Commandment to “... have no other gods before Me.” The Christian approaches God in the name of Jesus; my conclusion is that I can come to God directly.
What was the motivation for the concept of Jesus being a blood sacrifice? This shows up in Paul’s writings, but not the four Gospels. Decades after the death of Jesus, Christianity continued as a sect within Judaism, but problems began when Paul started bringing in the Gentiles without the new converts first becoming Jews. How was he getting all the converts? Evidently the pagan worship involved blood sacrifice, and if he described Jesus as their personal sacrifice, it made sense and won them over. Because the doctrine of Jesus as a sacrifice appears to have been added later to grow the church, it does not follow that my redemption and salvation should depend on it. Therefore, I should look to the Law of Moses as given directly by God: I have confidence in that truth.
During the first century CE, Jesus was also given divine status through the Trinity concept. It all worked well to increase the popularity of Christianity, but at the same time, the new church doctrines became severely at odds with Judaism’s monotheism. Jesus made no claim to be God, but rather did the works of God by demonstrating love and living the Golden Rule. I think that Jesus never intended to be more than man, and did not consider himself deity. (Did he really say he was the only way to the Father?) Years later, the Trinity concept was added in because it supported the evolving beliefs that disregarded the Law of Moses. The result was that the Law of Moses was replaced by the Christian law of love, but provides neither guidelines nor discipline.
Miracles? Answered Prayers?
Based on my reservations concerning Christianity, how could I have experienced miracles and seen my prayers answered? Without Christianity, will I no longer enjoy the benefits of the relationship I have with God? Why has Christianity worked even if it seems broken? The answer: God is loving and patient to wait for me to find myself; in the meanwhile, even if I’m not worshiping as I should, He still honors my monotheism that holds Him as the one true God of Israel. He stays in contact even though in my past He’s shared His glory and honor with Jesus. I find that the Christian concepts are not necessary to have a vital living relationship with God, our Father.
That begs the question then, what of prayers for healing? As a Christian, the doctrine is that I’m healed by the sacrificial blood and stripes of Jesus when he suffered on the cross. The OT, the foundation for the NT, provides ample precedent for God’s healing sickness and disease. The healing ministry of Jesus, as described in the four Gospels, illustrated that healing came from God the Father. In fact, Jesus said, “I can of myself do nothing ...” (John 5.30) I suspect that he was operating in the same power that God provided the various OT prophets such as Isaiah and Elijah. Consequently, because I’ve looked to the God of Israel for health, He’s honored that for decades, and I’m confident He will continue to answer my prayers as I become a Jew.
Why Judaism?
The simple answer is that I believe in the one true God of Israel. The Torah is true, and it provides answers to all the questions I have now or might have in the future. It shows the way for repentance and the forgiveness of sins. It shows how one might live a fulfilling life with purpose. As to Judaism itself, it’s true historically, philosophically, and spiritually: it’s an authentic religion based on facts beyond dispute.
What Have I Done?
Twenty years ago, I first started learning Hebrew; then I examined the larger picture of spiritual issues that needed answers. I’ve associated with the Jewish people, attended synagogue services, studied the Tanakh, read a variety of Jewish books, and considered Jewish values. I do tzedakah, attempt to eat kosher (somewhat), and have mezuzot on doorways. I do mitzvot, or attempt to, and find they add meaning to my daily life.
During the next ten years, I found Judaism a fulfilling way to live and worship God, growing in my relationship with Him. Life does matter, and my actions can give meaning to my daily activity. I can make life holy by acts of kindness; I can sanctify the ordinary and make it holy. I can do what’s right and just, uphold Jewish values, and keep the commandments. Continued Torah study provides spiritual growth at home and within the Jewish community. The expected result? A genuine life of blessing doing the will of God.
By 2015 or so, I began to sense that my development might need some adjustment. Although I was seeing some of the expected results of Judaism, my feeling of “spirit” during typical weekly services was missing. Being curious, as well as studious, I began investigating other options, the first being mystical Judaism, Kabbalah.
Kabbalah was a bit of a stretch, but it did speak of reincarnation as part of Judaism. At this point, I had not considered that topic at all, especially because it was not part of my experience within Christianity or Conservative Judaism. I filed the concept away, along with Kabbalah, at least for the time being.
The Reading Begins
As an engineer, albeit retired, I’m inclined to pick up on the scientific approach to a new topic. Lynne McTaggart’s The Intention Experiment and The Field got my attention; they led next to multiple books on quantum physics, non-local events, entanglement, reality, and consciousness.
Dr. Larry Dossey’s One Mind was one of the seminal books that I read multiple times; his ideas of universal consciousness stretched my understanding of what might be possible. I read five of his other books, and started searching for more like it.
Another that I found was The Last Frontier by Julia Assante, PhD. I learned more about reincarnation and what might be going on in the spiritual domain. What is the afterlife all about? By this point, I was reading everything I could find.
One comes to mind: The Heart of the Mind, by Katra & Targ. Here was a book bringing science, spirituality, and God together to form the basis of Perennial Philosophy … I think. This was all uncharted territory for me.
The big turn came when I read Dr. Michael Newton’s Journey of Souls. It made sense! I read his other books, then turned to Dr. Brian Weiss. He presented the same metaphysics as Dr Newton, but coming from a different angle. His first book, Many Lives, Many Masters, convinced me reincarnation is real; I read all his other books.
The Law of One
Somewhere in all the reading, I stumbled onto the Law of One. By this time, I had dozens of ideas of what might be happening, but not much structure. The Perennial Philosophy had an organized metaphysics, but did not resonate at all with me.
***** 8/7/2020: The Synchronicity Key by David Wilcock was likely the book that sparked my interest in the Law of One. *****
So what did I find when I started The Law of One, Book 1? Certainly not much structure at first glance. To be sure, the question-answer exchanges were a difficult read, but by mid-Book 2, I began to get my head wrapped around some of the concepts; I bought printed copies of both Teaching the Law of One volumes. Then I read the eBook version of The Choice, and the printed Concept Guide. Currently reading the Wanderer’s Handbook eBook.
Where Am I Now?
Someone once said, “The more you know, the more you know you don’t know.” Yes, that’s me, and I’m soaking up the concepts as fast as I can. I was looking for spiritual life (I found it) and metaphysical structure (found that too).
I have my daily early-morning routine: 20 minutes meditation and prayer; 40 minutes hatha yoga (Jon Kabat-Zinn); and walking at least three miles in an hour or so. Every morning for the last two years this has continued.
Recently, I’ve been able to listen to the Podcasts when I’m walking. Starting from the first episode takes awhile – I’m up to around #40 at the moment. Those discussions add to my reading.
I have questions:
Here in Part 3, I revisit my understanding of Jesus. He was a major factor of much of my early life, and now I examine this topic from a perspective of the Law of One. My prior concept of the Holy Spirit still concerned me as well, and I consider that first.
In Part 1, I discussed many of the reasons why I made a break with Christianity, and why I embraced Judaism instead.
In Part 2, I described my feeling of spiritual lack, and why I began investigating far beyond Conservative Judaism. My search led to the Law of One.
The Holy Spirit
Near the end of Part 2, I had some questions, one of which was "... where/who is the Holy Spirit? My higher self? The Creator?"
A number of insightful responses led to my tentative conclusion of what might be an answer of sorts. So, in Post #14 (following Parts 1, 2, 3 in this thread), I wrote:
"My conclusion then becomes this:
What I formerly believed was the 'Holy Spirit' really was my Higher Self speaking to me while meditating, praying, or dreaming. Meanwhile my guide is more of a present chatting with me, who also catches my attention with synchronicity now and then."
Finally, in Post #20, I said, "... another thought I had was that perhaps the Holy Spirit is Intelligent Infinity making the connection into our Spirit Complex."
This seemed the most plausible to me, and that led me to the "Spirit Complex" chapter in Gary Bean's A Concept Guide. I need much study yet in that area.
The Jesus Issue
As I reflected on the Holy Spirit, I gradually became convinced that Jesus might be important to consider as well. After all, his message of Love is entirely consistent with all that I've understood thus far in the Law of One.
From the dialog in the Ra Material, I gather that Jesus is perhaps a fifth-density entity who incarnated on earth to show the Creator's Love and Light. Being enlightened, he was seen as being divine by the people of that time. Their subsequent misunderstandings led over time to the concepts of vicarious atonement, Jesus being the only son of God, the virgin birth, and other distortions.
At this point, I began to see that Jesus could indeed be more real than I had thought in my earlier years. As an ascended entity, his "being" is no longer the distant figure portrayed in what I considered Christianity was all about. My horizon widened, and I began to think of new possibilities.
Six months ago, while I was meditating, I experienced the feeling of a great spaciousness and stillness around me: a quiet peace that's happened only infrequently for me. I heard/perceived just three soft words, "I love you." At the time, I guessed it was likely my guide, or maybe even the Creator.
Several months later, during my daily three-mile morning walk, I was still considering who the voice might have been, especially given that perhaps Jesus might have been speaking to me. After all, with my wider horizon, an ascended being like Jesus could certainly have spoken to me. My walk is also a meditation and prayer time of sorts, so I asked Jesus if we could have a relationship together. I asked, "Could we chat? Were you the one who spoke to me earlier?" Made sense to me.
Synchronicity is typical during my day, and I expected something would turn up that might answer the questions. I knew he could easily communicate with me; my guide does that, and I recognize her. However, how to know Jesus was speaking rather than me talking to myself? Within a week, I received a book that confirmed that it was indeed Jesus speaking; shortly after that, I heard during meditation, "All is well."
Perhaps all this was part of my pre-incarnation plan: to become more loving. In a previous lifetime, I might have been quite unloving, so I planned to be born into an unloving family in order to learn love. This was certainly my childhood situation, and during the course of my life, I looked for love in all the wrong ways. The recent encounter with Jesus supports my quest and gets me in line with my original plan.
Meanwhile our relationship continues to deepen. He's teaching me to be more loving, which is perfectly on target because of the daily caregiver challenges I face.
So what am I? Certainly I don't consider myself a "Christian" because I don't subscribe to all that comes with it. The Love message and the relationship with Jesus resonates, but I surely wouldn't be welcome in church without accepting all the dogma.
Conclusion: I'm simply a person who follows Jesus and learns Love from him.
Later, in Part 2, I’ll pickup the last 10-15 years to get where I am right now.
In Feb 2021, I added Part 3, which deals with the Jesus issue that really needed attention. Part 3 comments will appear after Post #20 below.
Part 1
When I was about eight or nine, I remember my parents taking me to their Methodist Church. I remember that well, not because of the experience at church, but rather because I had to dress up in a suit and wear a tie. We attended church sporadically, and I was always glad when we skipped a week. My grandparents were active members, and I think they hoped I wouldn't turn into a heathen. They set a good example, but didn't explain to me what they believed nor why it should be important to me.
It was the same with my parents as well. They lived a good, moral example, but never discussed their beliefs with me. What I learned came primarily from Sunday-school classes and various church social events. I was a Protestant, which made me a minority in a town that was predominantly Roman Catholic. That was fine with me, because I didn't want to eat fish on Friday and cross myself when I walked in front of the church.
The Journey Starts
When I got out of the Army in 1968 and moved to Virginia, I started going to a local Baptist church and was “saved” by accepting Jesus as my savior. Within a few years, while at the University of Virginia, I was involved in the Charismatic movement and became what I referred to as an “enthusiastic Christian.” At that time I studied the OT and NT quite diligently, and read both of them completely several times. I came to know and trust the one true God of Israel; I trusted the Bible as His word to man on how to live and worship. I prayed, experienced miracles, and enjoyed good health and a certain measure of prosperity. However, I never really belonged to a church that I felt was for me. I found nice people usually, but not much substance beyond Sunday attendance. I drifted along asking myself questions and not hearing answers. Where did God go anyhow?
My understanding at this point: Jesus became a blood sacrifice to atone for my sins and to provide for my salvation, thereby avoiding an eternity in hell. Adam had sinned, I inherited his sin nature, and unless I accepted the pardon provided by Jesus, I was lost.
First Questions
So I asked what would become of the righteous folks who didn’t hear this message; I found that they were lost unless someone got the word to them: thus, I should evangelize. But, something was clearly wrong here if the righteous are condemned. Abraham argued with God about the destruction of the righteous when Sodom was judged; it would be out of character for God to destroy the righteous without giving them a chance. The Christian answer is that God does give them a chance ... they hear the Gospel, and if they accept Jesus, they’re saved. If they don’t accept, too bad, they had their chance and rejected the free gift of salvation. On the other hand, I assert that the righteous do receive their just reward and are not condemned.
Another question I had early on was the “unpardonable sin” mentioned in the NT. What does it mean? Nobody knows. Is it rejecting Jesus at some point after a person had become a Christian? How can there be a sin that cannot be forgiven? I suspect that it’s undefined to cause folks to stay within Christianity and not leave. Ever.
More Questions
Having read the Bible, I see that Jews approached God directly, and at Sinai a bit more directly than they wanted, but there was no intermediary other than Moses. He gave the Torah and described the sacrificial requirements for various sins; however, the people could always pray directly to God, repent, and expect to find forgiveness within the framework of the Torah. Although temple worship and sacrifices are not possible now, people can still pray and repent of their sins: blood sacrifices are not necessary. How could this all be abrogated by the arrival of Jesus? Impossible. Additionally, there’s no mention of his vicarious atonement for sins in the OT, and certainly no suggestion that he would be God on earth, which would violate the Commandment to “... have no other gods before Me.” The Christian approaches God in the name of Jesus; my conclusion is that I can come to God directly.
What was the motivation for the concept of Jesus being a blood sacrifice? This shows up in Paul’s writings, but not the four Gospels. Decades after the death of Jesus, Christianity continued as a sect within Judaism, but problems began when Paul started bringing in the Gentiles without the new converts first becoming Jews. How was he getting all the converts? Evidently the pagan worship involved blood sacrifice, and if he described Jesus as their personal sacrifice, it made sense and won them over. Because the doctrine of Jesus as a sacrifice appears to have been added later to grow the church, it does not follow that my redemption and salvation should depend on it. Therefore, I should look to the Law of Moses as given directly by God: I have confidence in that truth.
During the first century CE, Jesus was also given divine status through the Trinity concept. It all worked well to increase the popularity of Christianity, but at the same time, the new church doctrines became severely at odds with Judaism’s monotheism. Jesus made no claim to be God, but rather did the works of God by demonstrating love and living the Golden Rule. I think that Jesus never intended to be more than man, and did not consider himself deity. (Did he really say he was the only way to the Father?) Years later, the Trinity concept was added in because it supported the evolving beliefs that disregarded the Law of Moses. The result was that the Law of Moses was replaced by the Christian law of love, but provides neither guidelines nor discipline.
Miracles? Answered Prayers?
Based on my reservations concerning Christianity, how could I have experienced miracles and seen my prayers answered? Without Christianity, will I no longer enjoy the benefits of the relationship I have with God? Why has Christianity worked even if it seems broken? The answer: God is loving and patient to wait for me to find myself; in the meanwhile, even if I’m not worshiping as I should, He still honors my monotheism that holds Him as the one true God of Israel. He stays in contact even though in my past He’s shared His glory and honor with Jesus. I find that the Christian concepts are not necessary to have a vital living relationship with God, our Father.
That begs the question then, what of prayers for healing? As a Christian, the doctrine is that I’m healed by the sacrificial blood and stripes of Jesus when he suffered on the cross. The OT, the foundation for the NT, provides ample precedent for God’s healing sickness and disease. The healing ministry of Jesus, as described in the four Gospels, illustrated that healing came from God the Father. In fact, Jesus said, “I can of myself do nothing ...” (John 5.30) I suspect that he was operating in the same power that God provided the various OT prophets such as Isaiah and Elijah. Consequently, because I’ve looked to the God of Israel for health, He’s honored that for decades, and I’m confident He will continue to answer my prayers as I become a Jew.
Why Judaism?
The simple answer is that I believe in the one true God of Israel. The Torah is true, and it provides answers to all the questions I have now or might have in the future. It shows the way for repentance and the forgiveness of sins. It shows how one might live a fulfilling life with purpose. As to Judaism itself, it’s true historically, philosophically, and spiritually: it’s an authentic religion based on facts beyond dispute.
What Have I Done?
Twenty years ago, I first started learning Hebrew; then I examined the larger picture of spiritual issues that needed answers. I’ve associated with the Jewish people, attended synagogue services, studied the Tanakh, read a variety of Jewish books, and considered Jewish values. I do tzedakah, attempt to eat kosher (somewhat), and have mezuzot on doorways. I do mitzvot, or attempt to, and find they add meaning to my daily life.
During the next ten years, I found Judaism a fulfilling way to live and worship God, growing in my relationship with Him. Life does matter, and my actions can give meaning to my daily activity. I can make life holy by acts of kindness; I can sanctify the ordinary and make it holy. I can do what’s right and just, uphold Jewish values, and keep the commandments. Continued Torah study provides spiritual growth at home and within the Jewish community. The expected result? A genuine life of blessing doing the will of God.
Part 2
By 2015 or so, I began to sense that my development might need some adjustment. Although I was seeing some of the expected results of Judaism, my feeling of “spirit” during typical weekly services was missing. Being curious, as well as studious, I began investigating other options, the first being mystical Judaism, Kabbalah.
Kabbalah was a bit of a stretch, but it did speak of reincarnation as part of Judaism. At this point, I had not considered that topic at all, especially because it was not part of my experience within Christianity or Conservative Judaism. I filed the concept away, along with Kabbalah, at least for the time being.
The Reading Begins
As an engineer, albeit retired, I’m inclined to pick up on the scientific approach to a new topic. Lynne McTaggart’s The Intention Experiment and The Field got my attention; they led next to multiple books on quantum physics, non-local events, entanglement, reality, and consciousness.
Dr. Larry Dossey’s One Mind was one of the seminal books that I read multiple times; his ideas of universal consciousness stretched my understanding of what might be possible. I read five of his other books, and started searching for more like it.
Another that I found was The Last Frontier by Julia Assante, PhD. I learned more about reincarnation and what might be going on in the spiritual domain. What is the afterlife all about? By this point, I was reading everything I could find.
One comes to mind: The Heart of the Mind, by Katra & Targ. Here was a book bringing science, spirituality, and God together to form the basis of Perennial Philosophy … I think. This was all uncharted territory for me.
The big turn came when I read Dr. Michael Newton’s Journey of Souls. It made sense! I read his other books, then turned to Dr. Brian Weiss. He presented the same metaphysics as Dr Newton, but coming from a different angle. His first book, Many Lives, Many Masters, convinced me reincarnation is real; I read all his other books.
The Law of One
Somewhere in all the reading, I stumbled onto the Law of One. By this time, I had dozens of ideas of what might be happening, but not much structure. The Perennial Philosophy had an organized metaphysics, but did not resonate at all with me.
***** 8/7/2020: The Synchronicity Key by David Wilcock was likely the book that sparked my interest in the Law of One. *****
So what did I find when I started The Law of One, Book 1? Certainly not much structure at first glance. To be sure, the question-answer exchanges were a difficult read, but by mid-Book 2, I began to get my head wrapped around some of the concepts; I bought printed copies of both Teaching the Law of One volumes. Then I read the eBook version of The Choice, and the printed Concept Guide. Currently reading the Wanderer’s Handbook eBook.
Where Am I Now?
Someone once said, “The more you know, the more you know you don’t know.” Yes, that’s me, and I’m soaking up the concepts as fast as I can. I was looking for spiritual life (I found it) and metaphysical structure (found that too).
I have my daily early-morning routine: 20 minutes meditation and prayer; 40 minutes hatha yoga (Jon Kabat-Zinn); and walking at least three miles in an hour or so. Every morning for the last two years this has continued.
Recently, I’ve been able to listen to the Podcasts when I’m walking. Starting from the first episode takes awhile – I’m up to around #40 at the moment. Those discussions add to my reading.
I have questions:
- Holdover from years ago: where/who is the Holy Spirit? My higher self? The Creator?
- How to integrate with Larry Dossey’s “one mind” connection? We’re all one with each other, so is it really that simple?
Part 3 - The Jesus Issue
Here in Part 3, I revisit my understanding of Jesus. He was a major factor of much of my early life, and now I examine this topic from a perspective of the Law of One. My prior concept of the Holy Spirit still concerned me as well, and I consider that first.
In Part 1, I discussed many of the reasons why I made a break with Christianity, and why I embraced Judaism instead.
In Part 2, I described my feeling of spiritual lack, and why I began investigating far beyond Conservative Judaism. My search led to the Law of One.
The Holy Spirit
Near the end of Part 2, I had some questions, one of which was "... where/who is the Holy Spirit? My higher self? The Creator?"
A number of insightful responses led to my tentative conclusion of what might be an answer of sorts. So, in Post #14 (following Parts 1, 2, 3 in this thread), I wrote:
"My conclusion then becomes this:
What I formerly believed was the 'Holy Spirit' really was my Higher Self speaking to me while meditating, praying, or dreaming. Meanwhile my guide is more of a present chatting with me, who also catches my attention with synchronicity now and then."
Finally, in Post #20, I said, "... another thought I had was that perhaps the Holy Spirit is Intelligent Infinity making the connection into our Spirit Complex."
This seemed the most plausible to me, and that led me to the "Spirit Complex" chapter in Gary Bean's A Concept Guide. I need much study yet in that area.
The Jesus Issue
As I reflected on the Holy Spirit, I gradually became convinced that Jesus might be important to consider as well. After all, his message of Love is entirely consistent with all that I've understood thus far in the Law of One.
From the dialog in the Ra Material, I gather that Jesus is perhaps a fifth-density entity who incarnated on earth to show the Creator's Love and Light. Being enlightened, he was seen as being divine by the people of that time. Their subsequent misunderstandings led over time to the concepts of vicarious atonement, Jesus being the only son of God, the virgin birth, and other distortions.
At this point, I began to see that Jesus could indeed be more real than I had thought in my earlier years. As an ascended entity, his "being" is no longer the distant figure portrayed in what I considered Christianity was all about. My horizon widened, and I began to think of new possibilities.
Six months ago, while I was meditating, I experienced the feeling of a great spaciousness and stillness around me: a quiet peace that's happened only infrequently for me. I heard/perceived just three soft words, "I love you." At the time, I guessed it was likely my guide, or maybe even the Creator.
Several months later, during my daily three-mile morning walk, I was still considering who the voice might have been, especially given that perhaps Jesus might have been speaking to me. After all, with my wider horizon, an ascended being like Jesus could certainly have spoken to me. My walk is also a meditation and prayer time of sorts, so I asked Jesus if we could have a relationship together. I asked, "Could we chat? Were you the one who spoke to me earlier?" Made sense to me.
Synchronicity is typical during my day, and I expected something would turn up that might answer the questions. I knew he could easily communicate with me; my guide does that, and I recognize her. However, how to know Jesus was speaking rather than me talking to myself? Within a week, I received a book that confirmed that it was indeed Jesus speaking; shortly after that, I heard during meditation, "All is well."
Perhaps all this was part of my pre-incarnation plan: to become more loving. In a previous lifetime, I might have been quite unloving, so I planned to be born into an unloving family in order to learn love. This was certainly my childhood situation, and during the course of my life, I looked for love in all the wrong ways. The recent encounter with Jesus supports my quest and gets me in line with my original plan.
Meanwhile our relationship continues to deepen. He's teaching me to be more loving, which is perfectly on target because of the daily caregiver challenges I face.
So what am I? Certainly I don't consider myself a "Christian" because I don't subscribe to all that comes with it. The Love message and the relationship with Jesus resonates, but I surely wouldn't be welcome in church without accepting all the dogma.
Conclusion: I'm simply a person who follows Jesus and learns Love from him.
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