The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from August 22, 1993:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in the love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the answering of any further queries. Are there any further queries at this time?

Carla: I have a question, Q’uo. When I was on vacation, immediately that I started the journey, I began … the first time that I got involved in thinking about a spiritual question, I began getting a very strong signal. It seemed to be giving me very good information, but I had not tuned; I had not challenged; I had not asked for any channeling to be done. There were only two of us in the car, and I did not want to channel without three. It was very persistent, and that made me question its polarity. However, once I had explained this carefully within my mind the contact did stop as I requested, and has not resumed except on the way back. Again, I was relaxing in the car, and I began thinking about some spiritual question and again this occurred. The strong contact, the very strong and clear flow of information, almost like I could read it, hear it. Very specific. Again, I asked it to stop, and it did, this time much less reluctantly.

I want to investigate what that was. Would it be in my best interest to work with it, using my own channel; would it be in my best interest to work with it using Aaron, Barbara’s inner guide? Would it be in my best interest to let it go, as being most probably negative? And finally, the other option I guess is this … the way personal guidance is received, and should I now be looking at trying to more fully develop that inner guidance that I call the Holy Spirit?

I am Q’uo, and we are aware of your query, my sister. The response to this query is somewhat complex. We shall begin. Firstly, the inner guidance of which you have spoken is available to all entities through the serious and heart-felt seeking of information leading one along the path of spiritual evolution. The means by which any seeker is able to perceive the response of such guidance depends upon each seeker’s avenues of opportunity, shall we say. The avenues of opportunity are those means by which any seeker has attempted to receive information or inspiration from those angelic presences which you may for convenience call guides.

Your particular means of perception moves along the line of your channeling ability, that is, your ability to clear a pathway through the conscious and subconscious mind, through which sources of information may move, be they the contact of Confederation entities such as we are or the movement of energies of those guides which look over your incarnational experience, or any other entity for that matter which may wish to communicate with you through this channeling ability.

The desire to know certain spiritual principles which you exhibited upon this recent journey, combined with your developing channeling ability, further combined with the substance which enhances your receptivity, allowed you to be aware of the response to your query in a much more immediate fashion than is normal, shall we say, for your experience. It is our opinion that it is indeed possible to work with these guides in furthering your own understanding, if we can use this misnomer, of your spiritual journey. However, it is our recommendation that the pursuing of this source of information and inspiration be accomplished under more normal, shall we say, conditions, such as those now utilized, that is, without the use of the enhancing substance that was a portion of your recent experience. The holding forth with the challenge is, of course, also necessary at each working, and it would be well that the group be numbered at least three. There is the possibility of receiving concept information using only your own tuning and energies, however, this information would remain in the form of concept rather than words being utilized to convey information. Thus, you would need to be able to remember the concepts for later elucidation and refinement in your conscious expression of them—words or images set to paper.

While Carla and I were on vacation there were two times when she was relaxing in the car and became aware of an entity wishing to channel through her, but she didn’t want to do so without three people present as a means of protection, and she wanted to know how she should proceed in the future if this should happen again? Q’uo began by saying that inner guidance is available to all seekers according to the means of their seeking of inspiration. Then Q’uo said that Carla’s means being able to clear a path from her conscious and subconscious minds gave her the opportunity to channel various sources of inspiration, and on these two occasions it was her desire to seek spiritual principles, her channeling ability, and her use of marijuana that had enhanced her ability to become aware of her desire to receive spiritual principles. Q’uo suggested that in future channeling efforts that Carla not use the marijuana, that she utilize the challenging of spirits before channeling them, and that she only channel with at least three seekers in the group. Q’uo also said that Carla could channel inner guides through concept communication, but she would need to remember the concepts and either put them in words or images. On March 25, 1989, Latwii spoke of the necessity of the tuning and challenging of spirits before accepting the contact of any source of information:

The practice of the vocal channel is one which requires a great degree of study, of practice and of persistence, for it is not an art that might be learned and perfected in a short period of time. Therefore, though we would commend your efforts in pursuing this means of service as you have done, we would suggest that it is but the beginning, the opening of a door, shall we say, that must be done in a careful and persistent manner. There is the possibility for any new instrument to move more quickly, shall we say, than is normally advisable for one seeking to be of service in this manner, for as one serves as a vocal instrument, one is placing oneself potentially closer to a source of light and of power than is normal for any seeker of truth.

This placement of the self in the close proximity to light and to the power that it generates is a step which has some risk, for there is the attraction to this light of beings that are less than desirous of being of service to you as you move toward that light and attempt to reflect or channel to others in a manner that might be of service to them. There are entities, shall we say, of the loyal opposition, those entities who are of the negative polarization who also would seek to control and master the power that is generated by the light that you would attempt to give to others through your vocal channeling. Their presence is a possibility which each new and, indeed, each experienced instrument must take the proper precautions in order to provide protection that will not allow their influence within your circle of seeking while you are practicing the art of the vocal instrument.

We find that you are familiar with the concepts of the challenging of the spirits by the name or concept of that which you hold most dear and that which is the central sun around which your desire orbits in order that you might be of service to others. The challenging of spirits is most centrally necessary at each opportunity that you take to serve as a vocal instrument. It is also quite necessary before each such session to prepare oneself in such a fashion as would be analogous to placing the dial of your radio squarely upon the station that you wish to receive. This we have found this group calls the tuning of the instrument. By this procedure, whether it be by the singing of the sacred music, the visualizing of light, the reading of those inspirational words of meaning to you and to your group, or by whatever means has significance to you, is necessary in order that your desire during the channeling process be only that to serve others and to serve to the fullest of your ability while serving as a vocal instrument.

When these precautions are properly taken, there is little chance that entities of a negatively oriented nature may influence one’s efforts, for the light that one generates by these efforts of tuning the instrument and challenging spirits is that light which shows the truth to those about one and reflects it back to those who would seek to disrupt those efforts that you offer in service to others. When these precautions are left undone or poorly done, there is the possibility that the efforts may for that sitting be contaminated, shall we say, or influenced, and the contact mixed. The feeling of coldness is a sign, shall we say, that such entities have made their presence known.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: There is a query, but I don’t know if there is an answer right now, and that just has to do with why I would want to do this. I feel that I have in the Confederation entities an excellent source of information, and I fail to really see why I would need a personal guidance, other than the Holy Spirit that I always trusted, and that I probably felt was moving me around by hunch and by guess rather than by anything, kind of A, B, C … you know, out there where you can write it down and prove it. I always was satisfied to live my life that way and it’s always worked so far. So, for myself I never have desired to seek any further about guidance than just knowing that the Holy Spirit will guide me.

The reason that I thought to pursue this was monetary. I thought if I could in all conscience develop a good personal guide, as Barbara has Aaron, I could charge money for readings which I feel I cannot do with the Confederation’s universal messages. So, I kind of question whether I should move forward with this at all. I can ask your opinion, that is about as far as I can question on that. Do you have an opinion as to the excellence of offering people personal readings in general, and of my doing it specifically?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. We must withhold any opinion about this portion of your query, for it is a portion of your experience which must be left to your own discretion. We feel that you have already answered your query, and refer you to your own feelings.

May we respond to any other query, my sister?

Carla: No, I would just repeat the part in general. Is there in your opinion useful information, helpful information to be gained through personal guides that is unavailable to the universal guides concerning spiritual principles?

I am Q’uo, and again we move most carefully, wishing not to step over the boundary of infringement. For those who feel there is such value, indeed there is such value.

Is there any further query, my sister?

Carla: Are inner guides and universal guides one and the same?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. In truth, are we not all one? We do not mean to be facetious, but refer you again to that which is the nature of your service and your journey.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and we thank each for the inspiration of your experience. We are gratefully blessed to have been able to join in this circle of seeking. We walk with you at all times and enjoy the diligence, the humor, and the patience with which you grapple in this illusion. It is an inspiring sight, and we cannot express enough our admiration for your efforts. At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and transplanted the four trays of flowers: one into the flower garden in the middle of the Moss Garden in the back yard, two into the Ruins Mound in the side yard, and one into the Wuthering Heights Mound in the front yard. Then I made an errand run with my first stop at AutoZone to purchase some 2-cycle engine oil, the second stop at Speedway to fill my car with gas, the third stop at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy more zinnias and Deer Stop, and the last stop at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up two prescriptions and some hair thickener.

This afternoon I was on a zoom meet with two old friends from over 50 years ago to study the Law of One and Living Buddha, Living Christ. I had been three months since we had met, so we spent quite a while catching up on what has been happening in our lives during that time. Then I went outside and transplanted the three trays of zinnias into the Wuthering Heights Mound in the front yard.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

June 5

Experience The Heaven Within

I am of the Light, and my spirit lies within all. And Love abounds in every portion of creation.

Let not appearances make you feel betrayed by the Creator, but make this your prayer, “Heavenly Father, grant us grace this day to know and to do Thy will with single-heartedness, joy, and faith,” never doubting that the Spirit of unconditional Love, as promised, remains with each seeker until the end of the age, until the end of creation. And yet even then we shall continue to be the spirit of the infinite Creator as new creations emerge.

See this infinite portion of yourself that is one with us as the principle of unconditional Love. And allow that vision to be your prayer today: “Heavenly Father, let me be of the principle of infinite Love. Let me react to all stimuli in the love of God in Jesus the Christ.”

This is your choice, day by day. We urge you to make it each and every day, that you may experience the heaven within; the peace and the joy of knowing that you are not alone but supported in all that you do.

We leave you in the love and the peace of Jesus the Christ, both now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from August 22, 1993:

Group question: The question this afternoon has to do with our spiritual focus, or our spiritual attention span. R was concerned that he was going through his days only occasionally remembering that he was in an illusion and most of the time getting so caught up in work that he was thinking about nothing but the work. When he would get home he would be more able to remember that it was an illusion but wanted to know more how focus could help in his life. Carla was concerned that she was focused on too many projects and energy expenditures and by focusing on too many projects might not be able to do what she wanted to with any one of them, and I was concerned about the focus that a creative person or a skilled artisan of any kind uses in order to bring forth the creativity that is their expression, and also the practical focus of hanging your little toes on the side of the roof so you don’t fall off. So we would like to know something about the spiritual attention span and the focus of our consciousness as we go through our daily round of activities.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings to each, and in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator it is our blessing to be with you at this meeting, and we gratefully thank you for calling for this information. It is a blessing to us, for we are by this means able to offer our service, that of sharing our thoughts and opinions with those of your density who wish to work consciously upon the study of spiritual principles which animates and enlivens the incarnation, and creates a far more intensified and accelerated rate of potential spiritual evolution and transformation.

You wish to know more about lengthening the spiritual attention span. You wish that the weaknesses in your natures, the places where you perceive yourself less skillful, can be made stronger and more crystallized, and these are the wishes of one who seeks to do the work of consciousness in a conscious manner.

Each entity in your density works upon these spiritual principles in an unconscious manner, and if you were to bury the self and the consciousness in all manner of distraction and labor, yet still would you move forward along the path of evolution. There is no ultimate resistance possible to the truth, no matter how greatly the truth has been deleted and biased as it has traveled through the increasing distortions away from the infinite oneness of unpotentiated Love. However, there is a substantial percentage of this journey which can be walked at a quicker pace, shall we say, and we do encourage each to continue to work consciously.

This conscious working may seem to be repetitive. Your questions may be perceived by you to be less than inspired. However, we ask each to continue asking, for it is to the persistent questioner that the universe reveals itself. Yet at the same time it is equally true that when the revelation occurs it shall occur not as you expected it. The transformations of the third density almost always come from an oblique angle and are not possessed of those obvious hints that this instrument would call “telegraphing the punch.”

So, the situation as regards the basic seeking is that it is excellent to seek intensely and to practice a regularity of meditation, contemplation, and prayer. But it is well to widen the inner definition of environment to include that spiritual environment into which each is permanently imbedded, in and out of incarnation. It is from this bedrock of spiritual selfhood that the moments of transformation shall rise and the angle of perceptions of these transformations shall almost always be confusing at first but not necessarily obvious. The state of mind, then, that we can recommend is that of the utmost intensity, and at the same time, that of one who is dancing in and out of the steps of living, feeling the rhythms that murmur through the endless hallways of self.

Firstly, there is that energy to recommend which does indeed take one out of the world while one is yet quite active within this same world. Indeed, it is a useful practice to find the triggers in the daily routine which fire almost automatically and act as reminders of who the true self is which is perceiving the experiences which you perceive and experience. What sort of triggers which each can think of within the daily round? Perhaps there is the bell that strikes, or the clock which strikes the hour. Perhaps there is one symbol which can be invested—we correct this instrument—by the seeking self with a mnemonic meaning, for instance, perhaps there is a doorway through which the seeker goes quite often. This seeker can then create a secondary illusion for this door, and in the mind it becomes a magical doorway. Each time the doorway is passed the reminder becomes visible and tangible. Each time there is that momentary opportunity which reminders offer to center the self and to orient the self with regard to that overarching principle of truth which is love and service.

The second principle requires that each who listens turn the self around mentally so that the self is seated in the portion which does work in consciousness. From this point of view you are gazing at the incarnation strictly with regard to the primary environment which is a spiritual environment. This environment is within each, but it must be named, expected, and sought before it can be perceived. Yet, once it is perceived, this environment recreates the day-to-day environment so that whatever the environment within the illusion, yet the consciousness is to some degree stayed, settled, and rooted in spiritual truth so that the self continues to vibrate in harmony with the one great original Thought while it is in the midst of the busy, humming day.

The group question for this session was: “We would like to know something about the spiritual attention span and the focus of our consciousness as we go through our daily round of activities.” Q’uo began by saying that all seekers are engaged in increasing their spiritual attention span even if they are unconscious of it because there is no way to ignore the truth of one’s unity with unpotentiated Love, but there are ways to accelerate one’s spiritual pace if one becomes conscious of the process. Then Q’uo said that our conscious asking of questions is an effective way of getting the universe to reveal itself to us although the transformative answers may not come to us in the way we may expect them to. Q’uo went on to say that meditation, contemplation, and prayer are tools that we can use to move within the spiritual environment, that we utilize before and during the incarnation, in order to experience the transformations that will occur in proportion to the intensity of our seeking. Then Q’uo said that it would also increase our spiritual attention span to use symbolic reminders, such as walking through a doorway, to take us out of our daily round of activities and serve as triggers to help us remember that the nature of our being is to love and serve others. Q’uo continued by saying that there was a second way to increase our spiritual attention span which was to see oneself as living within the spiritual environment in which one does work in consciousness so that no matter what happens in the illusion one continues to vibrate in harmony with the one great original thought of Love. On October 31, 1976, Hatonn spoke of vibrating in harmony with our true self:

First, each of you who is in this plane of existence has one purpose which is of a primary nature. That purpose is to become aware of your true self and in so doing you begin to vibrate in harmony with that true self; that is, to vibrate within the harmonies of Love. This one vibratory Thought created all that there is, and as you come into harmony with this Thought you become a beacon of light that lights all those about you. This is your primary service. Whatever else there is for you to do it is best served by you becoming more and more able to be who you truly are.

You may practice for these attitudes in various ways. We shall discuss a very few. In meditation, you may with the in breath visualize the bringing in of the truth, the light, the love, bringing in the truth of love in every circumstance. With the out breath, you may visualize the releasing of all spent energies, including those judgments and self-judgments, those businesses, and distracted thoughts, so that with each outbreath there is the emptying of darkness and fatigue and the inbreathing of truth, love, light. Each—we correct this instrument—we would request each to, at this time, take a few deep breaths and practice this technique. We are those of Q’uo.

[Pause]

We are again with this instrument. We are Q’uo, and greet each in love and light once more. Perhaps you shall have felt the health being breathed in as the out breath cleansed the self of that which was used up. This cleansing of the energies does indeed strengthen the stability and the spiritualized awareness of the seeker. Each is familiar already with the basic principles of working with the day’s experiences in such a way as to balance these experiences, but we would mention at this time that this a technique which is very useful for consistent and constant realignment of the self in the direction which the seeker perceives to hold more and more of truth. That technique is to, within meditation, allow the mind to ripple through the day’s experiences, searching for those things which have distracted or attracted, repelled, or drawn the self during that diurnal period. Those things which were perceived as negatively oriented, then, would be brought to the conscious mind and the memory replayed.

When the self feels that emotional distortion which was the initial reaction during the day’s busy rush, this feeling or ideation shall be allowed to express and intensify within the emotional self, or more precisely, within that portion of complex of energies which is the self which deals with the emotional and mental perception, allow these feelings and ideations to become ever stronger until you feel they are well intensified. Then mentally lay down that emotion and sit with that emotion without any attempt being made to change it. Allow the complementary emotions and/or ideations to arise, allow the other side of the coin to become slowly visible. When the opposite of the first emotion is felt and has been respected and honored allow the thesis and antithesis, the original feeling and its complimentary one, to exist side by side within the mind’s eye. Both of these things are you, for each self is universal and contains all that there is. If you see that you are both things, then you may also see that you are neither. These events are then transitory, as is the entire incarnation which you now enjoy. Then all may be dropped aside, for by this route you have arrived at the position in mind and heart where you recognize that fundamental environment which is spiritual and which lies around, beneath, above and beyond any of your illusion characteristics, features or realities, so-called.

A third technique for increasing the focus is to choose to undertake a short visualization on a regular basis. Some entities prefer visualizations which are static, others those which flow. Whichever the seeker chooses, we recommend the object be simple. That is, if a specific object is chosen let it be a colored object, for instance a blue circle, or a red square, or a rose. One object. Demand of the self that it continually visualize this for, say, one of your minutes to begin with. At two week intervals, if the visualization is going well, begin to lengthen that time of gazing within at that visualized object. If the preference is for a flowing visualization let it be that of watching the waves upon the shore, or the clouds rolling past, or the gazing out at the passing countryside as though one were on a train, or in a small airplane within which one may look out and see the countryside. The time constraints are the same. This is difficult work, however, it has often had good results for those who are persistent.

A fourth technique is the technique of reduction. This is especially helpful when the seeker is facing more than it can do. The principle here is to reduce the point of view, the focus, shall we say, of attention until only the part which is in front of one is receiving notice. This often might be a matter of physical rearrangement of workplace, for instance, if the desk is full of several projects, allow the time to remove all but one project from the desk. This affects the point of view and makes it materially easier to do the mental work of reduction.

This should, for best results, be integrated with the meditative work on a daily basis for without this silent listening time the energy necessary to focus down upon that one thing which one wishes to do well now will often sorely flag. It is difficult to convince seekers how much work is done within those flawed meditations which to the seeker’s own perception are not done very well. But we do assure each that it does not matter how one perceives the experience of meditation as being. What is perceived spiritually is the intensity of commitment of the continued attempt. Fidelity to the truth within one is won day-by-day, meditation by meditation, and distraction upon distraction.

The fifth and final of the techniques we would describe best as holy silliness or silly sanctity. Many are the third-density luminaries which have offered redemption to many souls by helping each entity spill forth the unhealthful tensions of perceptions, those perceptions which carry pain in their arms, burden, and trouble each soul, and blessed is the entity which can learn to laugh. We recommend in the spirit of silly sanctity seeing any situation—we correct this instrument—of gazing at a situation which for some reason has involved you to the extent that you are exercising the emotions within you, and see this “gestalt” as a cartoon. Consider then what caption you would write under the picture of this moment. Allow the self to make a little fun of all of the emotions, all of the perceptions, all of the energies. It often will generate at first the kind of humorous caption which contains sarcasm, irony, and bitterness. But as the work continues the seeker may well find itself generating gentler and more sweetly humorous captions as the lighting up of the whole environment begins to come more and more into alignment as the one great original Thought.

If you have difficulty feeling that laughter is holy, think back to the last time in which you laughed and laughed. Was there not a full feeling of receiving the expression of love, forgiveness, and healing within the heart of that laughter? Laughter is the fire’s communication with the Earth as mercy is the rain’s communication with the Earth. Laughter first burns away pain, then it builds golden castles and offers to the joyous recipient the universe.

All of these techniques have in common the perception on our part, fundamentally, that there is a country within that is native. You are at home in this spiritual country which is reached only when one is willing to go deeper than the surface of things. With the will to recognize this comes the opportunity. We hope these techniques enable each to make use of the opportunity. Once this country within is truly sensed it can be re-entered in the split second that the thought …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

Work in consciousness tends to deepen feelings of isolation until it is seen that work in consciousness simply creates channels whereby memories and knowledge of that native land may be routed through the higher subconscious levels of mind to cross the threshold of consciousness and be perceived consciously as characteristics of whatever environment the seeker is inhabiting at any moment. There is nothing that is not full of glory and beauty and truth in the fundamental sense that higher truth, deeper truth, interpenetrates and shows the truth of all other environments of conscious living. By consciously becoming aware that as a seeker you are always in the native land of spirit and only visiting in the foreign land of incarnation, that incarnational web of perceptions shall be transformed. Where can the spirit not travel? It is said within your holy works “If I take the wings of the morning, yet you are there. If I go even to the depths of hell, yet you are with me.” There is no unspiritual environment. It is only that instance of intent that lies closed between the seeker and the living of every moment in the presence of the infinite One.

We encourage each to seek the peace of moment by moment living. This shall serve you well as you seek your focus, and, indeed, this is the key to focus—to look not back nor forward except insofar as it is necessary to inform this present perfect moment. If the attention strays, then bring it back, and if you do this a million times in a day and still forget, then when you remember, bring it back. No judgment, no expression to the self of disapproval, just realign. The habit is hard to make but once made it is even harder to break. May the joy of this journey enliven and transform your daily experience.

Now Q’uo gave some exercises that would help us to expand our spiritual attention span, and the first one was to use our inbreath in meditation to bring into our being the truth of the love and light in every situation, and then with the outbreath to remove any self-judgements or negative thoughts. The second exercise Q’uo suggested was to use meditation at the end of our day to look at those moments of experiencing catalyst that have made a mark upon our mind and emotions, looking both at the positive and the negative so that the original catalyst is magnified in our mind, and then let the opposite emotion grow to a similar magnified nature on its own. Then you accept both emotions as a part of yourself while realizing that you are both, as is the Creator, and you are neither as all third-density experiences are transitory. The third exercise that Q’uo mentioned was to visualize a blue circle, or a red square, or a rose for a minute each day for two weeks, and then add a minute to it every two weeks. They said that visualizing waves of the ocean or the view from an airplane also increases the attention span. Q’uo said the fourth exercise was that of reduction where, in a meditative state, one look at all of the work to be done for the day, and choose just one portion of the work, and move through it in a focused way so that it is done to the best of your ability. The fifth exercise was what Q’uo called “silly sanctity” or exercising a sense of humor to deal with difficult situations by seeing them as a cartoon and then adding a caption that uses irony or sarcasm. Q’uo said that as time goes on one may use gentler captions until the Love of the Logos shines through the caption as laughter is holy since it burns away pain and offers the Love of the universe to the seeker. Q’uo said that all of these exercises are helpful in increasing the spiritual attention span because they reconnect the seeker with the native land of spirit which is our true home whereas the incarnation is a foreign country which can eventually be transformed into living every present moment in the presence of the infinite One. On October 15, 1989, Q’uo used their own experience to reveal how we can experience the presence of the infinite One:

The creation is a subjective thing. We have found nothing but illusion, and yet still we seek the one infinite Creator as we refine our path, as we become more rested, more trusting, more joyful, more relaxed and more intent upon a single-minded goal of practicing the presence of the infinite One. We find, as we have said, that we continue to find ourselves in the divine discomfort of learning, in the difficult and sometimes painful cleansing of the self of those idiosyncrasies which are not necessary and perhaps are seen as stumbling blocks to a continued, persistent and successful seeking to accelerate the rate of one’s spiritual growth.

That one may so accelerate this growth is so, else we would not be here. However, my friends, we cannot tell you that the work is all joy, all love, all ease and all merriment. When one is dealing with mystery, when one comes up against paradox after paradox, one can be fascinated, but never comfortable, in the ways of those heedless ones who feel that they are but hairless apes which are born and then are no more.

Each of you is a portion of the infinite Creator. Each of you is precisely equal: the murderer, the rapist, the saint, and the fool. For each of you has the entire constellation of possibilities within, and it has been with each a matter of choice after choice after choice as to how to live the life, how to serve the Creator, how to practice the presence of the Creator, and how to serve others, perhaps the most difficult question of all.

At this time we would transfer to the one known as Jim, and would continue with this instrument. We leave this instrument with thanks and transfer now. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I went outside and took one of the garbage cans that was full of small tree limbs and put the limbs on two lengths of twine and tied them up. Then I used the garbage can to put the small limbs from the Black Locust tree that came down in my neighbor’s yard. Then I changed out the sugar syrup in my three hummingbird feeders and my neighbor’s two feeders. Then I put the Quickfix solution in my fish pond to improve its water clarity. Then I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Feeder’s supply where I bought some birdseed and cat food for Benny. My next stop was at Paul’s Food Market where I bought some food for myself and more flowers to plant in a couple areas of the Ruins Garden. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I picked up a prescription, some supplements, and Pepsi Zero.

This afternoon I went back outside and began dead-heading the dead blooms on the Wuthering Heights Mound and in the gardens along the parking area in front of the house. My last jobs were to mop the floor where the electrician who installed my new generator had been coming and going and tracking in dirt, and then I the mopped the far end of the floor on the front porch.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

June 4

Compassion Replaces Offense

I am of the spirit of the love of Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of perfect love.

It is said that compassion blots out all offenses. Yet what your peoples feel most often is not compassion but guilt and anger. For you judge yourselves and others most harshly.

Compassion has little or nothing to do with offense. Rather it calls forth a higher reality, a more imposing presence, not overcoming mistakes and errors but simply offering a larger viewpoint.

Thus it is that compassion replaces offense, forgives offense, and sees offense for what it is: that which is perceived by man. Yet who can say what is perceived by the Creator? Allow the spirit of the living Christ to form compassion within your hearts and minds, not judging and not believing in a great paper towel that somehow wipes up the sin.

Know that there is a saner, more balanced, and more compassionate level of mind which brings mind and heart together in the compassionate love of Christ, which sees the true beauty and perfection of souls who feel they may have made mistakes. We leave you in that higher reality of the peace which proceeds therefrom.

We leave you in the kingdom of heaven, now and forever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 27, 1993:

Group question: We Earth-dwellers are exhorted to praise and worship our Creator by both our earthbound religions and extraterrestrial sources alike. It is inconceivable that the Creator would perform the stupendous feat of the creation simply in order to provide an adulating audience. Can you please explain this seeming enigma?

(Carla channeling)

Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. It is a privilege to be with you and to be called to respond to your queries. We thank you for this beneficial request. That is, we express that it is beneficial for us to be able to attempt to serve you in this way. We ask that if we do say that which you feel is beneficial to you, that you may consider this thought, but not the thought which you do not find helpful. Those thoughts which are not recognized by you, by your inner guidance, are thoughts to be left behind. With this understanding we may begin.

When in the primeval unity of the creation the Creator chose through free will to express Itself the creation was articulated. The proper response to this Being has in your culture formed around itself a large number of ways and means which are deemed to be appropriate so that one gives one’s rightful response to a Creator which has chosen to manifest that which is the seeker. Each of these instructions seems wise and proper to some and inappropriate to others. Therefore, it would seem that there is no consensus as to what the Creator Itself might want from Its creation.

This seems to be the situation; however, the Creator, as we feel this mystery, is unworldly and incompletely grasped by us, and seems to us not to desire any response over other responses, but rather, the Creator acts and continues in action rather than reaction. The seeker wishing to address the infinite One in most cases is addressing a Logos or sub-Logos, the Love manifest, or some expression of Love manifest, such as the higher self. To this higher self, still, no one mode of address is preferred precisely, rather the praise and thanksgiving are accepted without emotion.

Questioner: Then why do so many sources state that it is good and just to offer praise and thanksgiving to the infinite Creator?

I am Q’uo. The Creator created a great original Expression or Thought. This we have called the Logos or Love. This principle, this Love, created all that there is by the quantizing articulation of Light. Yet all that is created is of the nature of its parent source, which is Love. The reason for offering love, appreciation, a blessing, and thanksgiving to the infinite One is that the entity within incarnation is attempting to form its vibratory frequency more and more like that of the vibrational frequency of the one great original Thought, which is Love. The closer the seeker comes to matching that vibratory frequency, the more that entity will be perceived as offering praise and thanksgiving. This is true far beneath any articulation of words or even what you consider thoughts. Rather, it is in the nature of the way creation is built. That is, original Thought expresses in Love, thanks, blessing, praise, and rejoicing. Thusly, it is not a Creator hungry for praise and thanks that requires homage of its worshippers, but rather it is love, it is reflected in love, and in that infinite reflection lies truth.

Questioner said that our religions on Earth, as well as extraterrestrial sources, say that we should praise and worship the Creator, and he wondered why the Creator of “all that is” would want to be praised and worshipped? Then Questioner asked again why so many sources suggest that it is good to give praise and thanksgiving to the Creator? Q’uo began by saying that religions utilize various ways of responding to the Creator and don’t always agree on the best way, and there is no way to know what the Creator would desire. Then Q’uo said that most seekers are worshipping a facet of the Creator in the form of the Logos, a sub-Logos, or even the higher self, and each of these forms would accept praise and worship without any emotion. Q’uo responded to the second query by saying that each seeker is attempting to increase its personal vibrations to become one with the Creator by offering praise and thanksgiving to the one great original thought of Love. On August 31, 1986, Latwii said that the Creator created the creation in order to know Itself and so we might also know ourselves as the Creator:

I am Latwii, and indeed this is so, my brother, for each seeker of truth has discovered in one way or another that that which may be seen as the stream of consciousness is without beginning and without end, and moves in many ways throughout all of the one infinite creation, for the one creation is held in its place by that one Thought of Love, given birth ageless eons ago by the one Creator, that the one Creator might through the movement of various portions of Its own love come to know Itself in ways not available to It without such division of Itself into the infinite portions and expressions of Love that move throughout this same creation in order that each portion may come to know itself by gaining the experience of evolution in a unique fashion that will, at its culmination, bring the harvest of experience to the one Creator, that all may again know the heart of being as love, and may continue the process of movement and growth and seeking and gaining the experience that will reveal each portion of the Creator to each portion of the Creator as the one Creator.

Questioner: We are also encouraged to fill ourselves with inner joy. To maintain a state of inner joy whilst entombed in the physical body and being constantly inundated with horrific scenes of worldwide death and destruction is far from easy. Would it be correct to say that we must endeavor to convert our feelings of anger and despair to those of compassion, for we do not experience these dreadful acts directly and we upset our equilibrium by becoming emotionally involved?

I am Q’uo. As the seeker moves into the world scene, it moves from that inner pathway which at times seems shadowed and at times seems a wonderful King’s Highway into a theater, if you will, wherein there is all sorts of entertainment. Reliably, some of this entertainment will be terrible, horrific, and pitiable. Provision is made within each of your cultures for sheltered places wherein the gentle entities, there protected, may not have to deal with the seeming ugliness of the world. Good and loving persons move into these cloistered environments and the purity of love generated by these protected ones is beautiful. However, some hardy souls there are, who though not personally starving, or hunted, or otherwise in terror and desperation, still allow these experiences occurring with others to have a substantial place in the waking consciousness.

Many of those who are riveted by the grisly side of the world scene are those which are attracted to the negative clustering emotions surrounding these events. This in turn makes more metaphysical darkness appear around these happenings, which makes it seem even more appealing to protect the self, or those which are deemed most delicate, from having to experience, even in thought, these horrors.

However, it is our opinion that when the seeker feels called upon in its rhythms of being guided to bear witness to the universal nature of the self, the addressing of the self to the universal nature of the world which it inhabits is a very good entrance point into the challenging business of seeking to address the universal self, which must be done by those who wish to graduate into the density of compassion. It seems foolish and inappropriate even to consider gazing with thanks or rejoicing upon such suffering, yet this too is a portion of the one infinite Creator. This too is perfect.

We would suggest that when the seeker is struck by this situation, it may be productive to enter into the life experience of an entity within that war or that starving population which has drawn the attention. In thought, the seeker may become one of those suffering. We suggest that it is helpful then to move deeply into that persona, to experience as intensely as imagination allows the suffering and horror of this situation. Not simply touching into the thought and then leaving, but staying with this suffering, keeping company with this suffering, embracing this suffering, exploring and affirming this suffering, until the whole vibration re-echoes with this suffering in its fullness.

When this is done to the extent possible by the seeker, then allow this frame of mind to be offered as the offering of money to the one infinite Creator, for this suffering has been suffering in love of the fellow self. This is a goodly presentation to the infinite Creator. Each time the seeker re-experiences this horror, the feelings of helplessness and powerlessness, being unable to aid the situation, then we suggest repeating this, embracing the full extent of this suffering.

It is well also to send light to these situations. This is work well done and we do not wish to discourage this practice in order to encourage the embracing of the unrelieved and unchanged and unhealed situation, rather we wish to enable a seeker to use the resource of its own structure, that is, there lies within each the deep mind structure as part of the archetypical mind, wherein each may suffer as each, each may experience anything whatever as each. There is that deep within the mind in which all entities within one influence are together, and the change from individual-to-universal-to-individual is but a blink or thought away. To move in sympathy into another’s illusion fully is to take this black and bitter harvest, and in the way possible only to one which does this consciously and deliberately, to embrace the full travel and extent of suffering and so relieve by that imagining the bite of pain for all.

Here Questioner said that we live in a world of horrific death and destruction, yet we are advised to fill ourselves with joy, and he wondered if we should try to convert our feelings of anger and despair into those of compassion in order to keep our emotional equilibrium and not get emotionally involved in the negativity. Q’uo began by saying that some people joined monastic groups in order to focus only on the positive view of their life’s purpose whereas other people look upon the grisly happenings in the world as that which one must protect oneself from, which results in their experience to seem to be contained within a metaphysical darkness. Then Q’uo said that it was their suggestion that we seek the universal nature of ourselves in all that is happening in the world because it is all part of the one Creator, and this is the path to the fourth density of love and understanding. Q’uo continued by saying that it would be a helpful exercise for the seeker and a gift to the Creator if the seeker could move deeply into the thought of how many people are suffering in one way or another and “Not simply touching into the thought and then leaving, but staying with this suffering, keeping company with this suffering, embracing this suffering, exploring and affirming this suffering, until the whole vibration re-echoes with this suffering in its fullness.” Q’uo also suggested that it would be well to send love and healing vibrations to the various people and parts of the world who are in the midst of great suffering and turmoil. On September 1, 2002, Q’uo shared the concept of sending love and healing vibrations to those living in difficult times:

We are aware that there are those within this group and within many other groups as well who take time each day to meditate and to pray and to send love and healing energy to all who are in pain; to open their own hearts to the healing love and light of the one Creator; to send that energy to Mother Earth, herself, for her healing as she brings forth a new Earth into fourth density; to send that love and light to each entity upon the planet which feels pain, which feels weariness, which feels the sickness and hate and disappointment and disease and all those other various ailments which can take the attention and turn the mind to darker thoughts and ways of sharing that do not open the heart but close it. We would suggest that, whenever it is possible, upon a regular basis that you take time to pray, to meditate and to send love and light to all who need it.

Questioner: In an earlier session, Yom commented on the fact that humankind finds the need to adopt a choiceless, compassionate position as deeply threatening. Is this sensed threat, that of loss of identity, brought about by the need to do the will of the Creator, or as Jesus said, “not as I will, but as Thou wilt”?

I am Q’uo. To those who do find the attitudes of non-judgment a threat, we would say that it is so, that these so threatened fail to perceive that the attitude of choiceless compassion can possibly express the truth, for within the incarnational experience it would seem that all things have some positive or negative aspect, that is, seldom do entities experience people and situations without some bias governing the way the situation or entity is perceived. To let go of this judgment and embrace non-judgment seems if not actually threatening, at least poor judgment. The entire world of observed data is based upon choices and judgment. This, not that, is the way to proceed. That, and not this, is the way to react skillfully. Indeed, an entity which embraces non-judgment may certainly be seen to lack the appropriate cultural responses.

Within the processes of creating and transforming one’s consciousness there are paradoxical requirements for the seeker who is asked both to choose the manner of its seeking in polarizing and to attempt to apprehend all incoming data with no bias. Entities within incarnation will almost surely fail to express a complete lack of bias, but the paradox we wish to point out is that the seeker needs both to choose decisively the system of biases it wishes to encourage within the self and is at the same time attempting to see its catalyst more and more clearly, which involves removing both attraction and repulsion from the processes of perception.

To choose to be choiceless seems ultimately nonsensical, yet in the process of perception this is precisely what is required, and then, when perceptions have been formed, the seeker is required to move in a positive, purposeful way, either towards the light, metaphysically speaking, or towards the darkness.

The mind and metaphysical vehicle which is your second-density self does not involve itself with these niceties. Its instinct is to sort and catalogue all incoming catalysts and to give it importance in accordance with its agenda. That is, said impressions having to do with the survival of the physical vehicle are given priority over all other stimuli, and so forth, until the instinctual needs of body and brain are satisfied. To this entity it seems excessively poor judgment to withhold bias to maintain choiceless awareness. It makes no sense, and more than that does seem to represent a way of perception which could result in the cessation of life for the physical vehicle. If something is obstructing the air passages in a physical vehicle, it does not make sense to the physical vehicle to note this fact choicelessly. Action definitely seems necessary.

The threat of which the ones known as Yom spoke stems from this portion of the seeking entity. It is when work is beginning to be done in consciousness, when the second-density creature begins to work in harmony with the third-density consciousness which is your infinite selves, that the requirements of spiritual seeking begin to apply. Many there are among your peoples which at the present moment have no clear perceptions of their own infinite nature, or their eternal span of being. And to communicate from the spiritual being aware of non-sensation with that entity which is completely aware of its probable dissolution and ending of self seems impossible. Many entities attempting to walk the spiritual path are still deeply involved in that second-density consciousness which knows of its own dissolution, and the third-density consciousness then is much taken up with material having to do with catastrophes and difficulties, those things which we see in this instrument’s mind labeled as “conspiracy theories” and the “last days syndrome.” This is the effect of third-density consciousness, whose natural rhythms are based upon a choiceless awareness, interacting with, and acting as, second-density consciousness which has become aware of its forthcoming end.

The two consciousnesses, each of its kind, are excellent and express divinity. The mixture is confusing and creates confusion within the seeker. As the seeker becomes more and more familiar with how third-density consciousness actually feels, it may become more and more skillful at timely notings or notation of those thoughts which seem to be less than the desired third-density level. The seeker then can turn and gaze upon that which has been created in fear, that by which the consciousness without choice seems threatening, and can move to embrace that fear.

It is not skillful to drag one’s consciousness into a fuller expression of compassion or understanding. It is far more skillful to stop when the threat is perceived, when the feelings are engaged that are called fear and other negative emotions, to turn and go to meet that fearful or threatened entity, to metaphysically put the arms around that entity and to witness with that entity each iota of pain, to accept this limited entity and to be one with it.

When this has been done the seeker may then move forward in praise and thanksgiving until it next finds its processes of perception in a snag or snare, feeling threatened and fearful. Then the same process may be begun, completed without hurry and the journey continued.

This constant turning back to keep the straggling portions of the self-awareness at one with those which would march ahead, is most diligently encouraged by us, for we are of the opinion that when the laggardly portions of the recording self are offered the same compassion offered to others in pain, the actual rate of spiritual learning is greater than the rate of true spiritual learning which is achieved by those entities which leap forward from good thought to good thought and ignore, if possible, any portions of the self which will not come along for the ride. This is living in a judgment of the self, and in the long run does hinder and seriously slow the seeker’s steps.

We encourage each, therefore, to turn back again and again, always attempting to practice toward the self’s fears, be they light or very deep in nature, with that love which is felt from the infinite Creator. Ministering to the self in this way, the universal nature of the self may in a graceful way, which is full of rhythms of compassion, be put forward and practiced more and more.

Then Questioner asked: “Yom commented on the fact that humankind finds the need to adopt a choiceless, compassionate position as deeply threatening. Is this sensed threat, that of loss of identity, brought about by the need to do the will of the Creator, or as Jesus said, “not as I will, but as Thou wilt”? Q’uo began their reply by saying that it was indeed helpful to see all difficulties in a non-judgemental and compassionate way, as a means of transforming the self, and paradoxically, as a means of choosing its path of service to others or service to self. Then Q’uo said that our second density mind and body react to incoming catalyst in a way that gives priority to their survival, and choiceless awareness makes no sense to them until they begin to join in work in consciousness with the eternal self of the third density. Q’uo went on to say that many spiritual seekers are not aware of their own infinite nature and are living in the world of the second density consciousness, and look at the difficulties around them such as conspiracy theories and the end times as their reality, and it makes no sense to them to utilize choiceless awareness. Q’uo suggested that when this type of seeker experiences fear for its survival from any entity or situation, that it embrace the entity or situation and experience each iota of pain and become one with it, give praise and thanksgiving for it, and use this process each time that fear is perceived. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that this practice of responding with the love of the infinite Creator to both the good and the difficult experiences is the way to realize the infinite nature of the self may be realized more and more. On November 17, 1985, Q’uo spoke of the infinite nature of our selves:

The finite nature of your illusion presents one with the situation which reproduces the illusion of limitation. Sacrifice is a limited concept, for one who feels that it is sacrificing moves within a limited perception of what is available to the self at all times.

The limitless love of the one Creator enables each entity at all times to experience and to be. By limiting one’s awareness of this concept, many experiences become available that would not be available with the wider perspective. This is the nature of your illusion, and the reason that progress is possible in a rapid fashion within your illusion. For when one has worked long enough upon the concept of sacrifice and limitation and has through many, many experiences discovered that what is necessary is always provided, one discovers then that what was previously seen as sacrifice is a distorted perception which has allowed one to see the infinite nature of another, of a situation of the self.

This is not a quick process, my sister, yet it is one which teaches well, for that which is limited is seen to give way to that which is infinite, and that which is seen as the sacrifice gives way to that which is seen as another opportunity to give freely of the infinite love which is available to all at each moment.

Is there one more query before we leave this instrument?

Questioner: No.

We are those whom you call Q’uo. It has been our pleasure and our privilege to work with this instrument and this group. We thank the one known as K, who has made it part of his practice to be a witness with this group. We thank this entity and are thankful for these queries which allow us to be of some humble service. At this time we would leave this instrument and this group, wishing all the utmost awareness of the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and filled my last seven garbage cans with the small tree limbs that were put beside the fire pit last Monday by two of our Homecoming attendees. There are still more limbs to get rid of, but I will have to wait until all of the garbage cans of limbs are picked up Thursday before I will be able to have empty cans for the remaining limbs.

This afternoon I began weeding the flower garden on the Ruins Mound by hand and then did the same with the flower garden in the middle of the Moss Garden. Then I used my trimmer to weed the rest of the back yard gardens and side yard gardens.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

June 3

How Quickly The Moment Passes

I am the voice of Jesus Christ in the world, and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

How very quickly the moment passes! How very swiftly the days run together! How soon each sunset comes upon those who dwell in sunlight! And in the end, how rapidly and suddenly does the daylight end, the night come, and the body become dust once again.

You, my children, dwell in dust, yet you are not dust.

You dwell in time, yet you are not time.

As you are the Father’s own children, may you see the preciousness of this moment, this hour, this day, this life. Turn to the living Christ.

Turn to divine Love. And find each present moment stretched, enhanced and savored.

Turn, then, to the world and, with the eyes of the consciousness of love, see the world remade in love. Let your vision be carried in the brightness of the eye, in the lilt of the smile, and in the serenity of the heart, into the world this day and every day.

We leave you in the peace and love of Jesus the Christ, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from June 21, 1993:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is a privilege at this time to ask if there might be any further queries to which we may speak. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: I have a comment and see what you can say about it. A feeling this whole year has been that it has not been my third density personality, fourth density, whatever density personality that is going through the difficulties that I, in the past, have always gladly with light heart and, as Carla would say, as “keeper of the watchtower” offer back to the Creator gladly the hardships that I would travel and meet. But something has happened this year that has, I feel very firmly about, has affected my magical self, a part of me that I never really thought would ever be attacked, because of my utmost naiveté and faith and automatic turning to the light.

The valley and the shadows that I have been walking through have shaken the very foundation of my magical place, something that I find frightening. It’s only been because of the habit of turning to the light that I have held on. Because I have heard self say, “No.” And that in itself … something has happened, and it’s only been in the reservoir of having led the life on the magical path that has kept a darkness at bay, but I am concerned because I am finding myself, my magical self, growing less purposeful in experiencing and giving back to the Creator the experiences of my magical identity, the purpose for my being here. I need to know more than just giving back to the Creator the experience that seems very arrogant, the purpose of my magical identity, because the price this year has been incredibly high and the pain, incredibly deep.

I am Q’uo, and we listened with great sympathy to the pain and anguish which you describe, and we feel a great kinship with you, for each of you who walk through the valley of the shadow of death that is the third-density illusion walks with great courage and as you have said this day, a kind of naiveté, that is at once a shining light and a protection to those who walk in the valley of illusion.

We would hasten to suggest that it is not your magical personality that has suffered the blows that you have felt, for each entity such as yourself that has come to this illusion to serve in the light has a magical personality which is unblemished, as is yours. That which you have experienced as your magical personality is, in relation to your true magical personality, but the barest beginnings of a description of its fullness.

For as you work in a magical sense in this illusion, you establish a contact with this personality that is truly magical in its essence. This contact is made of but the finest fibers of light and love, constructed with the greatest of efforts by you in your work that is metaphysical in nature. As you continue to travel this pathway, this light and love woven thread leading to the magical personality, you strengthen this pathway, Even the strongest of magicians, shall we say, in your third density illusion, touch only a portion of that personality which resides, safely and securely, within the six-density level of experience.

What you have felt in this past year, as you have described it, is more the pathway becoming less and less accessible, or so it would seem to you in your experience. Yet, may we also suggest that this pathway is accessible though it may seem to be not so accessible as previously. This is as because as you go through those experiences of difficulty which we have described as initiation, there is the changing perception of your third-density personality as it seeks for that which it once knew as a pathway, and finds brambles and stones and dryness of experience.

This is a part of this transformative experience which, when completed, will have served to temper even more precisely and finely that pathway which you travel to the magical personality, but there will be a new you, for the third-density entity which you have been, and are now, is that entity which is being transformed by the difficulties of the experience. Thus, the tempering is by fire and seems to destroy that which once was.

As the …

[Side on of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo. We shall continue. Those of your friends and your guides and teachers are with you always and are aware of your difficulty and give aid where they can and guidance where it is possible. However, this particular kind of transformation is that which requires the one undergoing the transformation to seek with one’s own efforts, as fully as possible. Thus, the darkness seems far more black and full of difficulty than has any previous experience.

However, we assure you, my sister, that there is aid at hand, and even though you feel there is no response to your call for assistance, there is the love and the light sent by all those whose honor it [inaudible] is to walk with you upon this journey.

We counsel you to have faith and take heart that in these times of trials and testings that you will survive. You will make the feeling of unity that once was yours become again as the steady state of your experience. This testing is a great gift that is given, both to you, as you experience it, and given by you to the Creator, as you are victorious in your testing.

We can say to you that you are doing well, though it may seem such is not the case. Be of good spirits, my sister, for we walk with you, always.

Questioner said that she had been having a terrible time with psychic attacks upon her magical personality that she has been experiencing in a way that she would have easily been able to handle previously, and she even heard herself say “No.” So she felt less able to give back to the Creator as she had been able to normally, and she wanted to know the purpose of her magical identity as her spiritual pain has been so powerful. Q’uo began their reply by saying that it was not her magical personality that had suffered the attacks because her true magical personality is truly magical and formed out of light and love. Q’uo went on to say that it was the beginning formation of that magical personality that seems to have become less accessible as she has been going through the difficulties of herself changing in a manner that is known as initiation, and when this process was completed that she would have become a new person. Then Q’uo said that even though her guides and teachers were with her, and assisting her when possible, that she must go through this process of change on her own, and this makes it seem that she is moving in darkness, so she must have faith that she will survive the trials and testings and become one once again with the Creator. On September 1, 2019, Q’uo spoke of how the process of initiation occurs:

The process of initiation is one which requires great dedication to the seeking and serving of the One Infinite Creator. It would be well for any entity so desiring this initiation to engage in frequent meditation, in which there is observed within the being those forms of catalyst which have remained unprocessed, or not completely processed, for it is necessary for the energy centers of any initiate to be functioning in a fashion which is clear and somewhat crystalized, shall we say. This requires the efficient use of catalyst. Thus, one may observe at the end of your day the experiences that were intentionally noted, be they what you would call happy, or be they what you would call sad—any experience that leaves the mark within the mind at the end of the day is that which must be observed, then balanced and accepted within the beingness of the seeker of truth, for each of you is like a crystal. Each of your energy centers may, indeed, be crystalized so that the love and light of the One Infinite Creator moves clearly and cleanly through each center. The love and the light of the One Infinite Creator contains that which you call catalyst that has been colored by your subconscious mind in a fashion which biases you to see the actions of those around you in a certain way that corresponds to pre-incarnative choices that are the lessons you have chosen to learn within this incarnation.

If you will look, then, at the experiences of your day which move you one way or another, but move you, then use the balancing exercises, this will allow you to become in effect, an initiate. You do not need a pyramid with the Queen’s Chamber position in order to avail yourself of this ability to become initiated. You are, yourself, the King’s Chamber position that is able to utilize the power of the upward spiraling light as it moves through your energy centers, to become the true initiate.

Is there a further query?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query, at this time?

Carla: I have one. You said, “Don’t be afraid.” You said it somewhere. “Take courage,” I think you said and the verse says, “I will fear no evil.” But it is scary. It is terribly frightening. It’s terrifying, especially when you feel like the negativity’s right within yourself and it’s you and you’re sort of attacking yourself, in the end.

I had that after Don died. I really just felt very suicidal and hopeless and the only thing that kept me going was, like S said, the habit of turning to the light. I just was determined to keep my faith, but it didn’t make it the less hurtful or terrifying and I had lots of nightmares.

Is there some way that you can reduce the terror factor while you’re having to go through it? I mean, I realize what you’re doing is building a whole new personality that takes in the fruits of everything that was learned before, and I know that means pain, because change always mean pain. But how can you get comfort when you’re so wretched?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We must suggest that there is but little comfort in this transformation experience. There is the strength that comes from faith, continually exercised. Faith that there is an end to this experience. Faith that there is strength within to overcome that which seems to be overwhelming, and we can assure each of you that as you move from this illusion and look back upon your experiences here, you shall rejoice at those areas of darkness, that you have been blessed with light, with love, and with the faith in your journey and in your efforts and in the unity of all things.

Is there a further query?

Carla: No. Thank you very much for that.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, once again, my sister. Is there another query, at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as it appears that we have exhausted the queries for the nonce, we shall once again express our great gratitude at being invited to join you in this circle of seeking. It is not often that we are able to bathe in these vibrations of harmonious interaction that are born at the meeting of these entities present. We especially are grateful for being able to speak with, and walk with, the one known as S.

At this time, we shall take our leave of this group and this instrument, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning Anna and I synchronized our computers in Nashville and Louisville to listen to Carla channel Ra in Session 33. Before we got started each of us shared the updates on what has been going on in our lives since we saw each other, and my great news was that my power came back on last night at 6:30, after being off for six and one-half days, due to the electrician finishing the installation of my new generator. The power was available from LG&E a couple days before, but it had to be turned off until the new generator was installed, or the electrician would have been electrocuted. (Fortunately, the electrician loaned me his gas-powered generator that allowed me to use extension cords to power my refrigerator, microwave over, and gain access to the internet.) After that I vacuumed the house and then took the first load of laundry out of the dryer that I started earlier in the morning and put the second load in the washing machine. Then I ironed the flat sheet for my bed and the bedroom in the basement that is under my bedroom and also put the bed sheets, cover, and pillow cases back together again.

This afternoon I took the second load of laundry out of the washing machine and put it in the dryer and later, when it was dry I ironed the flat sheets for the second bedroom in the basement that had been occupied during our Homecoming and put the bed sheets, cover, and pillow cases back together again.  

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

June 2

Your Connection With Eternity

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

Experience in this moment the fullness of joy. Let go of every limitation, every negative thought, and everything that may keep you from perfect joy. Experience this natural and wondrous feeling in its purity and allow it to remove your consciousness from the mundane concerns of a limited world.

You are creatures of a human lifetime and in that expression you may offer certain gifts. The ground of these gifts, however, lies in your connection with eternity.

We leave you in love and peace, both now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 21, 1993:

The question this afternoon has to do with walking through the valley of the shadow of death in our daily lives, and in our metaphysical apprehension of our lives. Can you talk to us about what it is like, metaphysically, to feel the feelings of hypocrisy, of being worn out, burned out, angry, resentful, feeling that the Creator and the creation have, more or less, let you down? That things aren’t the way they should be?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. What a privilege and a blessing it is to be with this group. To blend our vibrations with yours, and to welcome the one known as S. We are most blessed by this opportunity to share our humble service with you and thank you for calling us to this session of working. How radiant is this circle. How deeply does each wish to know the truth and to bear witness to it. The courage of those who choose to live a life governed by blind faith astounds us afresh each time we are able to blend with this dedication of self in a circle such as this one. We ask as you listen to our thoughts that you use discrimination and accept as truth only those things which seem to you to be your own personal truths.

We use this instrument’s knowledge of the context of the phrase, “The valley of the shadow of death,” to quote that part of one of your holy works, “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil for thou art with me. Thy rod, thy staff, comfort me.”

This psalmist whose works have praised the infinite Creator and given voice to many a desperate prayer, spoke most truly of third-density incarnational experience. Third density is the first self-conscious density; therefore, it is the density in which consciousness deals with the paradox of life and death.

To the flower, there is only the experience of the moment. The flower is whole and entire. Each moment of its life, its nature is fixed. It responds to love and to light; it is moved by these things and flourishes and thrives, or wilts and dies in utter contentment with its lot for it knows only the seeking towards the light. Though these second-density creatures have no wit and no voice, yet they manifest wisdom, which is lost in the migration into third density.

The tasks of humankind, then, are marked by the first consciousness aware of its own surcease. This life and death is the first of many self-contradictory and paradoxical opposites or pairs of opposites that are met in this density of the valley of the shadow of death. The magnitude of this shadow and its complexity and reach is hidden from those of third density not yet ready to awaken to the call of the inner self, to make the choice of light or darkness. When a seeker first becomes aware of the hunger to know of the mystery it has apprehended then comes the time of the taking up of the journey of pilgrimage, which is the life lived in faith.

At each juncture, each pivotal choice, the entity who seeks first becomes aware of a new level of unknowing and then finds itself in the position of dealing responsibly with this new level of awareness. One word for this quantum move from one level of awareness to a fuller level of awareness is called initiation. It may be called that or any other term as long as the seeker grasps that at this level there is the full flowering of previous work and study. The onset of a new awareness of the depth of the shadows of death is in this way a compliment which destiny pays to the seeker. For as the new level of unknowing strikes one, as one begins working with the raw materials of the universal self thrown up by this new awareness, all that has been learned before is now integrated into the wider and deeper awareness of that universal self. In this way, when a time of testing comes, this time, in addition to being a beginning, is also the servant well done, which resounds within the heart of self. A seeker who has a keen awareness of suffering is also a seeker who has reaped the bloom and blossom of much effort before.

The question for this session was: “Can you talk to us about what it is like, metaphysically, to feel the feelings of hypocrisy, of being worn out, burned out, angry, resentful, feeling that the Creator and the creation have, more or less, let you down? That things aren’t the way they should be?” Q’uo began by saying that our third density is the first density where self-consciousness exists, and it is where we become aware of the paradox of life and death as we walk in the valley of the shadow of death. Q’uo continued by saying that this shadow is the cover that conceals the call of the inner self’s need to make the choice between the light or the darkness and take up the spiritual journey of a life lived in faith. Then Q’uo said that on this journey of seeking we move from one level of awareness to a greater level which could be called initiation, which is a reflection of work done previously as one continues to realize its destiny and a wider and deeper awareness of the universal self. They said that this time of testing resounds within one’s heart as its suffering during the testing allows one to experience the bloom of much spiritual growth. On October 30, 1988, Q’uo spoke of the process of initiation to allow growth through suffering:

There is oftentimes the need for what you have called the desert experience, in order that the finest qualities of the being be enhanced and refined by the trials of the isolation and the testing of the resolve to exercise the will and the faith that are the rod and staff of the seeker. The conscious mind, in such instances, which asks for the assurance in an understandable manner that the self is not alone or that the experience has such and such a purpose, are oftentimes the crying in the wilderness which must be accepted, but if the initiation and the testing is to be successfully completed, must be endured rather than catered to, shall we say.

The process of the evolution of mind, body and spirit within your illusion, your illusion having such great mystery, is one which is, as the progress is accelerated, oftentimes difficult in nature. But, as we are aware that those in this group have heard it said, that happiness and the contentment are not the goals. The enhancing of the quality of compassion and the offering of its fruits are more to the heart of the purpose, from our point of view. Thus, there is much of difficulty that must simply be endured, and must be allowed to work its unseen function over a period of what you would call time, in order that the deeper qualities of the being which will survive such storms and tempests might be reinforced, and, indeed, brought to the fore in order that the evolutionary progress of the seeker will find its greatest expression within the life pattern.

Do we then suggest you rejoice at the new awareness that bites like a sword at the consciousness? Yes, my friends, indeed, we ask you to turn to the one infinite Creator and offer thanks and praise. Then we ask further, that the seeker be aware that in addition to thanks and to praise there are those communications which the one infinite Creator delights in hearing. These are those confessions of anger, of disappointment, of sorrow, and of suffering. To share these gifts with infinite One, it is to give to this mystery the most precious of gifts, for as each emotion whatsoever goes through the continuing process of refining and purification, so does the infinite One become infinitely more than It was. This is the greatest gift, to share all things, seemingly positive and seemingly negative, in a continuing and honest, heartfelt dialogue with the infinite One.

This is a dialogue whose part is silence. This is the inner working of consciousness and it is a great gift that each offers, as each continues to seek steadily, doggedly, persistently, unwaveringly for the truth, the light, the fuller awareness of life moves to the heart.

We wish each of you to do this now. Focus the attention upon this energy center. Touch, if you will, into that pool of sorrow. You are a stranger in a strange land. You seek amidst the deepest illusion. You are lost in solitude of spirit, feeling abandoned, stranded upon an alien shore. Allow this sorrow to become intense and then give it to the infinite One.

We pause briefly …

[Pause]

We are again with this instrument.

As you allow these feelings their silent expression, there was the answering expression … silent and unmanifest. Truly, each sorrow is a treasure and the thankfulness and love of the infinite Creator speaks directly to that deep heart within, wherein lies a true intelligence and true knowledge.

This walk through the valley may be seen with the eyes of faith as other than it seems. It may, if the seeker chooses, gradually begin to seem not only the valley, but also the high place. Not only the dark path but also that path which streams, full of light, [inaudible]. Both perceptions are equally true and to refrain from seeing things both ways is to refrain from wholeness.

This instrument spoke earlier of a phrase we have used, “The healing of the incarnation.” We feel that as a third-density incarnational experience begins to mature and to be shaped by the growing consciousness within one distortion is added to another. Until, bias upon bias, the life has attained its characteristic shape. Within this shape, in virtually every instance, there is a fairly regular system of distortions which need a certain kind of healing which is unique to each biased yet balanced entity.

As the self does enough work in consciousness to have the capacity of looking upon the life experience as an whole, then the opportunity comes to offer a new level of commitment to the spiritual path, or what this instrument would call “The King’s Highway.”

We do not urge any to make commitments that do not feel right to the seeker, but we suggest when that time of testing comes and the new lesson of love begins, there is the opportunity to turn deliberately and with greatest desire to the mystery of all that there is and say, “Yes, I accept this lesson and through harsh experience, rediscovering the joy at the heart of my self.” Do not do this quickly or before there is the inspiration to make this commitment to the forces of life, evolution and destiny, but when there is that moment when the grand Quixotic quest is clearly seen and there is that foolish, heartfelt impulse to accept, again, the process of healing and self-forgiveness, then we encourage each to leap in joy and faith with that affirmation that through long experience can be carved out of what would otherwise be a wilderness of sorrow.

You cannot, of yourself, create order out of the chaos of suffering. Any manmade order imposed upon such, in order to avoid pain, also avoids further knowledge of the self and diminishes the self’s capacity to know and heal the self’s balance within.

The road recedes before each. It shall continue, as far as we are aware, to do so infinitely.

Turn in mind and heart so in strength then to that companion that is never absent, the higher self or Spirit within. Welcome all those, such as we, who move in thought to love, support, and undergird the seeking strength of those who call upon our names and turn ever and again to those precious ones whom you serve and who are for you companions upon the way. To love one another. To share one another’s sorrows and to walk hand in hand, rejoicing and singing upon that precious, dim, shadowy walk through the valley of the shadow of death.

Life and death are but shadows. The Creator is all that there is. Rest then in shadow and in sunlight, and feel compassion flood you in your innermost being for your own courage, as you struggle with light and darkness and choose again and again, in blind faith, the manifested light.

Now Q’uo recommended that we rejoice and give praise and thanksgiving for the difficult times in our lives and even share them in detail with the Creator because each one is a gift to the Creator that allows It to know Itself better. Then Q’uo said that as we walk through the valley of the shadow, and see this walk with faith, that there would be the experiences of both darkness and light, and as we are able to balance one with the other that gives us the ability to experience a new level of joy for and commitment to the spiritual path. Q’uo continued by saying that as we practice self-forgiveness that we heal our selves and move into harmony with the evolution of our spiritual destiny. Q’uo completed their response by saying that we should turn to our higher selves, the Spirit, and all of our spiritual companions to love them and to walk with them, knowing that life and death are but shadows, and as we struggle with light and dark times that we choose in blind faith the manifested light. On October 14, 1992, Q’uo revealed the value of choosing the light:

To make decisions is the great experience of this illusion, to use each opportunity to choose the light, to choose the love of that which is before you. This we know is difficult in itself, even under what you would call the best of the conditions that are to be found in this illusion. When you find yourself as you have with great sorrow and confusion, the making of decisions is even more difficult, but with this increased difficulty comes also the opportunity to reap the greater metaphysical benefit from even attempting the decisions.

As to how those difficult choices may be best made by you at this time, we can say very little for it is these very choices that will form your experience in what you call your future and will thereby provide the greatest opportunity for you to learn that which you have set before yourself to learn and to be of the greatest service to those about you.

To approach each decision from the aspect of seeking to serve and seeking to love is that suggestion which we find is most appropriate at this time. As you look to those whom you love and under whose care they are awaiting, shall we say, these choices is to place the welfare of these entities in the greatest position of responsibility.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument. We are those of Q’uo, and leave this instrument in love and light.

This morning I was on my monthly zoom meet with Jonathan Tong’s Seattle Law of One Study Group. As always, the questions were all focused on some aspect of the spiritual journey, and I did my best to share my opinions as to what kind of answer would be most helpful to each seeker. We always have a lot of fun together as Jonathon Tong always plants the seeds of a great sense of humor for us all to participate in.

This afternoon a good friend of mine from Chicago came by for a visit, and we spend a couple of hours catching up on what has been happening in our lives and the possibilities for the future. I also have been told by the electrician that my power will be back on later this afternoon, and I am looking forward to returning to normal with the use of power in my home. However, I am grateful that he loaned me his gasoline-powered generator that has allowed me to use my refrigerator, the microwave, and have access to the internet.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

June 1

Eternal Peace

I am the voice of Jesus the Christ in the world today. I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

The kittens upon this instrument’s lap bask in each other’s affection. The sounds of the neighborhood, the barking of dogs, the singing of birds, the crunch of far-away tires on gravel filter gently through the cool summer morning, and all seems ecstatic, peaceful and easy.

Yet this is a peace of this experience. There is a further peace, a peace beyond understanding, the advent of which comes to one who finally perceives the eternal peace of which all the sensual descriptions are but small manifestations.

Carry this eternal peace in your thoughts, in your heart, and in your actions this day. The situations that seem not so peaceful to the world may still be blessed by your perception, founded in Christ.

It is in the love and the peace of Jesus the Christ that we leave you now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 20, 1993:

Group question: The question this afternoon has to do with the metaphysical appropriateness, or value, in consciously choosing the more difficult path when we are aware of more than one path facing us in a particular direction. Is there a value, metaphysically, to consciously choosing more difficult paths or more difficult catalyst and being able to find joy anyway?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We greet you with undiluted pleasure and thank you for calling us to your circle of seeking. It is our pleasure to share our thoughts on the subject of difficulty and would—we correct this instrument—we would ask of you only that you hear our thoughts with the awareness that they are our opinions and have no authority over you except that authority you give them because you recognize them as your personal truth.

Move with us in your mind to the gardens outside this dwelling place and gaze about you at the various flowers, bushes, shrubbery, grasses, and trees. Walk along the brick pathways looking at the perfection in each leaf, each blossom, be it clover or rose, green thing or colorful. Turn towards the light and visualize the beauty of this tranquil environment. Listen to the songs of the small birds twittering in the trees. The Creator moves through each fiber of each thing whatsoever that your eye can fall upon. Shall the lilies find some labor to justify their existence? Indeed, in your holy works the teacher known as Jesus asks to behold the lilies, for they are so lovely not even a great king could be dressed in such splendid apparel, yet they had done no work, put out no special effort to gain this glorious beauty. It was simply the Creator’s gift.

Turn within now to look at the self. How, within, is your self arrayed? What clothing do you use to dress your thoughts, your personality, your character? Is the character that is your inner self that which has come to you by taking thought, or is this self of yours that which you have by some effort chosen? We ask you to see yourselves as natural creatures like the lilies and the roses. There is a beauty and a virtue in the self that is natural. There is a truth within which is given, and by no thought can this truth be duplicated. Indeed, all who seek truth seek out in the world only as a reflection of the seeking within to strip away the illusions of shadow which cover from one’s own inner eyes the truth that lies at the heart of self.

The spiritual journey is a journey of taking away those things which are not natural until the natural beauty, the natural truth of the self is at last uncovered and is able to stand free of the fetters of darkness and radiate as the light bulb. Let us then move to another image. The self is now the light bulb. It is in itself simply a clear, empty channel. When that which is exterior to the bulb places it in a position in which it can receive energy, and then this pathway is opened the bulb becomes radiant. As the lily radiates in its fragrant color the Love of the infinite One so does the creature of spirit, the natural man stand in its empty openness of heart and radiate the love and light of the infinite One.

You ask if one should choose difficulty in order to express love under more difficult circumstances. We say to you, rather, the circumstances are before each. There is a period where no choices seem to need to be made and the seeker expresses its nature in peace and harmony. Inevitably, however, the seeker comes to some choice. Say it is the choice of one activity over another. The activity of riding the bicycle or the activity of listening to the concert of music. Shall the entity choose the physical effort of riding the bicycle, or shall the seeker choose to sit quietly and listen to beautiful music? One is physically difficult; another is physically easy.

Do you then choose to ride the bicycle so that you may choose the difficult path? We suggest, rather, that the seeker consult its desire. Which activity is the more natural to it? Some would find the bicycling, though physically more difficult, yet still preferable because the nature of that particular seeker is to find joy in activity, in feeling the muscles working, the body moving and the harmonies and beauties of the natural second density creation of the infinite One delightful. Another seeker might well choose to listen to music and feel its inner nature expand in feelings of positive joy and praise at the beauty of the creation of the race of humankind in all of its harmony and its joyous expression.

This seeking for some way to intensify the offering of love to the infinite One has a long history among your peoples. There are those in every generation who seek to wear the hair shirt next to the skin, to make this creation uncomfortable in as many ways as possible so that joy will be found not in this world but in the Creator only and the world of the Creator which is not here. There are many seekers who instinctively attempt to find the hardest jobs, the most difficult and intractable people to befriend, all for the sake of the infinite One. To those who find this an expression of their true nature we say go and do that which is natural to you for the path to the infinite Love and infinite Light in its purest manifestation within your illusion is that path which is—we correct this instrument—which has attained most purely a realization of the natural self within.

There is no intrinsic value either in ease or in discomfort. There is no special learning in arbitrarily choosing the more difficult or the more easy paths. What the seeker is attempting to do is to attain the inner vibration which is most natural and true, which most expresses the core of the self, the heart of that which is infinite and everlasting.

Thusly, to one seeker one way is the most straight path to that original Thought. Each entity will have its own way of moving towards that vibration of love and light. Perhaps we would say that as each seeker attempts to vibrate in the vibration which is most close to the original Thought which is the Logos or the Love of the infinite One the attempt is aided not by questions concerning difficulty or ease but rather the seeking to express and echo the original Vibration is aided by those who are willing to become transparent to that original Vibration.

When one is transparent then all things whatsoever color one, touch one, affect one. When one opens in transparent trust and love allowing the radiance of the original Thought to pour through one then that which is natural to that entity simply is in front of that entity. The choice has been to bear witness to the infinite Creator. Thus, if this purely vibrating entity is offered either the bicycle or the concert the transparent entity simply gazes upon each activity with the question, “How may I serve in this environment?” If the entity vibrates more in love and praise while physically active, then this is the greater path. If the transparent entity vibrates more radiantly as a passive listener then the entity joyously sits and serves in praise and thanksgiving for this beauty all about.

The group question for this session was: “Is there a value, metaphysically, to consciously choosing more difficult paths or more difficult catalyst and being able to find joy anyway?” Q’uo began by saying that we are like the lilies of the field, that we have a natural beauty within us, and this natural truth within us is that which is accepted as a given quality of our being, and those who are seekers in the outer world are actually reflecting this inner truth within to strip away the illusions of shadow, which cover one’s own inner eyes, the truth that lies at the heart of self which radiates the love and light of the infinite One. Q’uo went on to say that choosing the easy path or the difficult path is like choosing to listen to music or ride a bicycle, and the choice as to which choice to make should be made by what feels natural and true because this is what expresses the inner vibration which constitutes the core of the self, the heart of that which is infinite and everlasting. Then Q’uo said that when the seeker wishes to express the Love of the Logos it is suggested that one open the self to becoming transparent to the infinite Creator and ask how best to serve the Creator in love and praise, which may be choosing either the easy path or in the more difficult path. On February 3, 2009, Q’uo describe the value of becoming transparent to the light:

The being that you are is a combination of spirit and the physical. They are intertwined within you so that you are one mind/body/spirit complex, all together, not separated. Consequently, from the standpoint of spirit within flesh, the central service to others of any life will always be the way you have allowed your energies to open, so that you may be an instrument for the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. This instrument sometimes calls this process “becoming transparent to the light.”

The net result of one who is more and more comfortable with being who he is, is that whatever the personality is, it is open to the light so that the light can shine through him and out into the world. This radiance of being shall always be each entity’s main purpose.

Now, when there are choices which are partaking of the incarnational level, such as the choice of life mate and the choice of worldly vocation, it may seem more difficult to determine which of two choices is the more natural choice, yet in this too we suggest the process of becoming transparent to the original Thought, becoming able to be a channel for that great original Thought, so that there is allowed the self the process of choosing that life mate or that vocation in which the entity might most deeply bear witness to the Love and Light of the infinite One. This takes more and more awareness of the true nature of the self. The Creator does not ask of its children that they choose those things which are unnatural. It rather allows complete freedom. However, it is our observation that the more a choice conforms individual nature with the more representative way of relating or way of working the more profound will be the expressions of praise and thanksgiving that become possible as this relationship or this vocational activity is pursued.

To all who may listen to the voice of Spirit comes suffering, limitation, difficulty, loss, and the experience of death. To any activity that the sons and daughters of the infinite One may move there comes the difficulty, the pain, the time in which stamina, nerve and determination are called upon. It is not necessary to choose a more difficult path for all paths will contain the difficulties which you have prepared for yourself. Each of you has great trials in the past and in the future. That is the nature of the illusion in which you have chosen to pursue the learning of the lessons of love. If you attempt to choose an easy path, difficulties shall come to you. If you attempt to choose the difficult path, difficulties will come to you. It is impossible to avoid them.

So the virtue lies not in choosing difficulty, for difficulty is inevitable. The choice well made is that choice which seeks the most opportunity for service to others. We do not find it necessary to encourage any to wear hair shirts and make themselves uncomfortable thereby, for each will be very uncomfortable and feel as though he were indeed wearing the hair shirt again and again throughout the incarnational experience. It is just as futile to attempt to avoid difficulty. Those who attempt to make their lives easier and choose the easier path will still find the same lessons learned and every single iota of difficulty experienced whether the attempt to avoid the experience is made or not. You cannot move from your own nature and your nature as you experience yourself will be that which recedes before your understanding’s grasp.

We began this talk thinking of the flowers in the garden who turn towards the sun. Just so, we encourage each to consider itself as that which by its very nature turns towards the sun which is the one great original Thought. Unlike the lilies in the garden you in third density have legs, you are mobile, you can move and express with mind and heart by using your voice and in all of your communication ways, writing, singing, drawing and expressing again and again. In your expression seek to allow to drop away those things which you do not find to be congruent with the attempt to express that great original Thought. Sometimes this will occasion the choice of the more difficult way. Sometimes it will prompt the choice which seems the easier way. The choice, however, we encourage you to make on the basis of its rightness for you as you attempt to praise and serve the infinite One. Follow your nature and know that your nature is joy, light, peace, and love. Yes, you shall strive, you shall find difficulty, you shall perform feats of overcoming difficulty and still bearing witness to the light, but in any choice between two paths follow your light, follow your joy, follow your nature so that you may be your own unique self, most wholly and most entirely.

As you give up yourself to service you simply seek to maximize that service by choosing those …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

We see that we have overspent our allotted time once again and apologize for this length. We sense a low energy within this group, however, we do thank each for opening this channel this day. Perhaps you may see in this activity the example you seek. There were two ways to work with that with which you came to this circle today. You came to this circle without a clear and intense desire to seek the truth. You could have chosen not to sit in this working, yet you chose to be faithful to a practice which you consider a portion of your spiritual seeking, and you turned toward the light and sat in faith, hoping in faith that light would be given. In that energy you created that vehicle through which we were able to contact this instrument. Was it the more difficult of the two choices? We believe so, yet this is not why this choice was your proper choice but rather it is because the choice was made to be of service and to open the self to the seeking of truth. In this you fulfilled your nature as you understand it at this point in your development. We thank you for this attempt to seek to grow closer to the one original Thought. We thank you for allowing us to be of service by your seeking and allowing us to speak.

Now Q’uo said that when one is considering the incarnational choices of a life mate or a vocation that it is also well to become transparent to the original Thought of the Creator in order to become a channel for the Love and Light of the Creator. Then Q’uo reminded us that in this third-density illusion, whether we choose the difficult path or the easier path, that difficulties of many kinds will still come to us as this is the way that we learn the lessons of love, so it would be well to let the basis of our choices be that of service to others and to praise and serve the infinite One. On July 21, 1985, Latwii revealed how the difficulties that we experience aid our spiritual growth:

There is what often seems difficulties both small and large, both trivial and tragic, which will confront the doughty seeker. If there were no such difficulties, if there were no price for the steps taken upon this journey, the lessons could not be learned, for there would be no weight against which to test and strengthen the spiritual muscle. For those who have gained much of the strength through many of the trials, further testing will require added weight and difficulty, shall we say. Within your illusion, such difficulties are not often seen for the great opportunity for growth which they offer. This is not surprising, my sister, for little within your illusion is seen for what it truly is. Much of sight rests upon the surface of things, the heart seldom seen. Yet it is our suggestion to you that within all such difficulties, the opportunity for learning and experiencing the love of the one Creator is infinite.

And as you leave this circle we ask you to look not for difficulty but for opportunity to bear witness to the light by your very nature. Thusly, may your beauty shine and the Creator manifest Itself in the outworking of your life. We leave each in the resting and abiding of that selfhood which is the true nature of all. We leave you in love and in light, holograms of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I spent the first couple of hours working on my Camelot Journal entries from today through this Sunday as I always like to be able to edit each entry three times before posting it. Then I went outside and used my limb loppers to cut off the limbs of a couple of large bushes that went down in the windstorm Sunday as well the Black Walnut limb that blew down into the forsythia hedges in the back yard.

This afternoon I went outside and used the garbage cans that were emptied this morning by the yard waste service and then filled them with the limbs that I cut up this morning.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 31

Slow Down!

We are of the principle which is called the spirit of Jesus Christ and we greet you in perfect love.

How your minds are scurrying this morning! What room does the spirit have to speak when there is so much of small detail and little meaning that covers your mind like a blanket? Can the spirit of the Father and the joy of Christ enter into any cracks in this mind filled with haste and hurry, fluster and worry?

Slow down! You cannot be peaceful if you give too much importance to things that have no peace in them. Your world is not built of paper or the information upon that paper. It is built, rather, of people who move their paper and their business back and forth, forgetting to allow space for themselves to be born of the spirit and to grow in Christ.

Seek the comfort that this world’s business and hurry can never have, for the sake of Jesus Christ.

In love and peace we leave you, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 13, 1993:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. May we say that it is a privilege to be able to utilize each instrument present in the dissemination of our thoughts and opinions in response to your queries. At this time we would ask if there may be any further queries to which we may respond.

Carla: You didn’t say anything about when people are depressed and like to be off by themselves. I was wondering about that.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The second designation of the conditions that one may experience that would cause the seeking of solitude is that in which the entity is greatly sensitive to the movement of the world about it and feels, in a sense, easily jostled by the disharmonious vibrations, and which seeks the condition of solitude as a means whereby a refuge can be taken and the life pattern explored in a less threatening environment. The condition of depression, as you have called it, is a special example of this sensitivity that has been distorted by an imbalance of personal experience and the difficulty in processing a catalyst to clear the, shall we say, line to the inner self. When an entity experience—we correct this instrument—experiences the condition of depression, there is at the one time over-sensitivity, and yet there is the distancing or numbness, shall we say, to hope and to faith which causes the entity to feel the despair that will, at some point, cause the entity to retreat into a smaller, safer and solitary environment, much as the turtle retreats into the shell when danger is perceived. An entity with the feeling of despair in the mental and emotional energy systems oftentimes attempts to lick its wounds, shall we say, by seeking solitude.

Carla asked Q’uo: “What causes people to be depressed and then to seek to be by themselves?” Q’uo said that this situation was caused by some people being so sensitive to the disharmony and distress in the world around them that they would seek the comfort of solitude to survive the disharmony and to pursue the life pattern in a less stressful manner. On May 25, 2019, Q’uo provided another means of dealing with disharmony:

G: Q’uo, for those who sorrow and feel deep worry about the disharmony and disorder of our institutions and societies, and maybe civilization itself, would you have any words of encouragement or inspiration or illumination to offer?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my brother. As we mentioned at the beginning of this session, it is always an inspiration to us to join your circle of seeking, because we know what kind of challenges you face on a daily basis, as both individual seekers of truth, and as groups of those who attempt to work together to make positive changes in the society around you. There is so much of anger, so much of confusion, so much of jealousy, so much of retribution, so much of destruction, that it is overwhelming to any sensitive soul who seeks to make sense of the world around it within the meditative state, within the conscious state, within the sleeping state. One cannot escape the disharmonious interactions that are the day-to-day experience of most entities upon the surface of your planet. Each entity is bombarded with one report or another of killings, of anger, of challenges, of threats, of limitation, of one kind of mass murder or another, whether it is mental, physical, psychological, or emotional. There is so much of dissention that is the normal way of things in your third-density illusion.

We would encourage each seeker of truth that wishes to make sense of it all to look within the heart and to see that each entity that is crying out for assistance, that is crying out in anger or frustration is the One Creator that has provided itself with challenges enumerable to find a reason to open the heart in love to all. At some point in each entity’s journey, there comes the time when one throws down the intellectual defenses, the intellectual attack, the emotional retribution, and says within, “This must stop. I now stop my anger and open my heart in love.”

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Thank you very much, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there a further query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we thank each for offering the support for this circle of seeking and for searching the heart for the part each has to offer in bringing this query to us. We are full of gratitude at the opportunity to be with you in your seeking and to share with you that which we have found helpful in our own journey. At this time it is our great and joyous privilege to please the instrument known as Carla with a shorter than usual session. We realize that we speak at great lengths more frequently than not, and we are happy that we are able to, at this time, offer a more succinct answer to your query.

We shall take our leave of this group at this time, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those known as Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I did two loads of laundry in the washer in the basement after hooking it up to the gas-powered generator. Then I discovered that the dryer would not hook up to the same three-pronged extension cord, so I went to the laundromat and put each load of laundry in its own dryer. Then I ran some errands with my first stop at the Speedway gas station to get another five gallons of gasoline for the gas-powered generator. My second stop was at the PNC bank to make a cash withdrawal. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to get some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some paper plates, some hair thickener, and Bounce sheets for the dryer.

This afternoon I used my connection to the internet in the office, also powered by the gas-powered generator to begin working on the Camelot Journal entries for the next three days, which I have not been able to do the last few days because I didn’t know how to use the connections that we have in the office until Gary showed me how to use them yesterday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 30

Seek The Light Heart

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of that perfect love.

When souls harden their hearts by judgment they become out of balance. And if they ask for the spirit to move within them, the spirit will act as a gentler and softener, that the heart may become humble and balance be obtained in the life experience.

When, as with those to whom we speak this day, a soul has a heart over-soft and over-sensitive towards others, then it is that the heart is hardened towards the self and that same spirit of love being summoned moves into the consciousness to restore balance by enlivening and strengthening the heart to have compassion upon the self and thus to bring balance.

The spirit speaks variously to each soul with one hope and that is that each soul may come more and more into the knowledge and experience of the wholeness of perfect love. Condemn not others or the self, but seek the light heart, the merry laugh, and the strong arm of the Comforter within. May each dwell in the freedom and peace of Jesus the Christ, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 13, 1993:

Group question: The question this afternoon has to do with solitude. We would like to know what the value of solitude is to the seeker of truth; and why it is that some people seem to need more solitude or others less; and are there any problems or pitfalls with too much or too little solitude? Is it sort of like dreaming in the sleep stage? Do you need so much of it?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Thank you for calling us to your circle of seeking that we may offer our thoughts to you on the subject of solitude.

[Pause]

We are those of Q’uo and apologize for refraining from speaking. This instrument is experiencing flares of pain which temporarily removed the instrument from tuning. We shall proceed but we’ll attempt to be shorter than our usual lengthy discussion. This instrument feels that [inaudible] remains unlikely.

The uses of solitude are various. Thusly, there is not one clear answer to a question attempting to evaluate this condition. If the goal of the seeker is to assimilate truth, then certainly it may be seen that solitude has a part to play to some extent in this search. Perhaps looking at the question from the standpoint of what a seeker is working toward is helpful. If a seeker seeks to move its vibration more and more nearly into attunement with the one great original Thought whose vibration is called Love; if the seeker already is feeling that it needs to seek more this growing attempt at a congruency between the vibration of the self and the greater Self, then the entity will look more favorably upon solitude and its right uses spiritually. If a seeker is considering itself as moving well in attunement, but needing the work of service for others, then the seeker will find solitude less spiritually appropriate. This is one clear and simple way of evaluating the spiritual uses of solitude in that, to be of manifested service to others, the servant usually must spend time with those others whom he serves.

However, within the cultural attitude—we correct this instrument—attitudinal ambiance which you enjoy at this space and time, it is very nearly guaranteed that those seeking solitude will not already be in a vibratory state congruent with the one great original Thought. It is probably that the entity may not even be seeking solitude for a spiritual reason, but rather seeking solitude as a surcease from suffering and pain of some kind. So let us look at the right use of this gift.

Perhaps the solitude which is often spoken of in your literature as the “desert experience,” or “forty days and forty nights in the wilderness,” in this situation, the seeker is in crisis. The seeker has been stimulated and its sensory systems overtaxed by wisdom, by sense perceptions, by the opinions of others. In this crisis, the seeker often typically must needs walk by itself in terms of sharing with another third-destiny entity the verdance and thirst of this journey.

As the old folk song says, “You’ve got to walk that lonesome valley. You’ve got to walk it by yourself. Ain’t nobody else gonna walk it for you.” This, my friends, is true to the best of our knowledge. You walk though the valley of the shadow of death as your holy work is quoted. And although you have your higher self and the inner planes, entities who come to your request, although in fact you are not alone ever nor cut off from the love of the infinite One, yet in terms of someone to help with the burden of the learning, each seeker perforce must do this work for and by itself.

The next great category of reasons people yearn for solitude is the category which is a dynamic of sensitivity. There are many to whom relating to the self has been in some way blocked. This usually occurs in the younger years of incarnation. Part of the young experience has caused the entity to seek solitude in order to be comfortable, for there is perceived the discomfort in company, and this discomfort builds up within such an entity. When such a one reaches a solitary place, there is the feeling of safety and of relaxation. It is almost as though the mind and emotions constituted another organ such as the lungs, and as the lungs need to breathe for the organism to live, so the entity must be solitary in order for the emotional and mental faculties to remain acute, for if this need is ignored, there is the equivalent lack of oxygen to the brain—that is, oxygen to the emotions and mind.

Such an entity is correct in assessing the need for solitude. However, it is well for a seeker of this character type to look well to the right use of solitude, for the potential is there for distraction and the lessening of the impact of this gift to the self by a lack of considered thought as to how to create within solitude.

“Create what?” this instrument asks us irritably. However we leave this a blank on purpose, for those who seek solitude are often given within that solitude, when it is used well, creations and fantasies of the heart, the mind, the emotions, and of the spirit.

Thusly, we say to those seekers whose way is solitary, be aware of the joy of this gift, and if riches pour into you, pour them through yourself and into manifestation, so that that which has been given you and you alone in the darkness of the sanctum sanctorum within you may open-handedly allow such creation to occur through yourself and bless all who may hear or see.

The group question for this session was: “We would like to know what the value of solitude is to the seeker of truth; and why it is that some people seem to need more solitude and others less; and are there any problems or pitfalls with too much or too little solitude?” Q’uo began their response by saying that if the seeker desires to become one with the Source of all, then solitude would be the way to achieve that goal, but if the desire is to be of service to others that less solitude would be appropriate. Q’uo continued by saying that when the seeker is in crisis it may seek solitude because it is overtaxed in its sense impressions, and it must walk through the valley of the shadow of death by itself although it does have its higher self and inner guides to provide it the love of the infinite One. Then Q’uo said that another reason that solitude might be sought begins in the younger years where the seeker is overstimulated by feeling the discomfort of the presence of others, so it would seek solitude so that its emotional and mental activities could function more effectively. However, Q’uo suggested that the seeker should pursue the right use of solitude so that whatever riches of the heart that are gained by the use of solitude are manifested in a way that becomes a blessing to all who hear or see. On September 28, 1986, Q’uo spoke of the value of solitude:

However, there is a function of your spiritual evolution which it is impossible to fulfill unless you are to a significant extent empty instead of full, and doing nothing instead of keeping all the balls in the air. Have you ever wondered why there are so many of your people who have turned to solitude, fasting, and silence as means of spiritual growth? They are attempting to empty themselves, that there may be room in their lives for the fulfillment of the spiritual function of polarizing by turning the attention to the search for the perception of the infinite Creator.

How much of yourselves are you willing to empty in order that you may behold the perception that is possible for all of the infinite Creator? We assure you that it is not necessary to give up all the responsibility except the responsibility to engage in any specific spiritual activity, for many entities, having made contact with a consciousness of love, are then capable of keeping that relationship with direct perception of the Creator as a part of the point of view which is used to evaluate all those things within the illusion. May we suggest that this is indeed a worthwhile process. It will intensify experience from the point of view of generating more catalyst for your heart to digest than meditation in a cave would.

There is that to be considered which is inclined towards the negative path of service to self in most desires for solitude, and the threads or the strain of this can be picked out and discovered by the seeker, that the times of solitude may become more productive. And we use the term “productive” to include, first of all, the lightening of the planetary consciousness. These service-to-self portions or threads or melodies, entwined within the tapestry of incarnational experience in solitude, occur naturally. This tendency to desire to be distracted is an artifact of the blockage of energy which is almost inevitable within the dense chemical distillery of the human frame.

The exhaustion of living occurs frequently, and certainly more frequently as the physical vehicle becomes more aged and less able. This is not to say that it is always service to self to allow the self to be distracted. Occasionally, and more for some than others, such distraction within solitude is salutary and salubrious, for this method enables one who is uncomfortable to achieve a more pleasant state of mind. However, the seeker may look carefully at the service-to-self entity’s habit and custom of considering the self separate from all else. Solitude, you see, is among many other things, an illusion. There is no solitude in a full, teeming, living creation. The force of life about all is unbelievable, literally. You cannot even imagine how crowded the universe is. It bursts with life.

You dwell within a deep, deep illusion. Out of the unknown, yet felt, glory of the great Self within, you come to a realization that you wish to walk what this instrument would call the “King’s Highway.” You put your pack on your back, your walking stick in your hand, and you set out with one tunic and one pair of sandals. Your situation grants to you one opportunity after another to so choose your environment and your actions that you may be the most aware of the love of the infinite One, and may be most able to be a channel for that infinite vibration to others. It is completely dependent upon each situation, each entity, as to the appropriate amount of solitude. There is no one best way, just as there is no one best path.

However, there is one form of solitary practice which deserves notice above all else, and that is the solitude within in which one turns to the holy of holies within the self. In meditation, a link is sought in spiritual solitude. Through that solitude the seeking soul stretches out its purified desire, and the silence answers in thought too poignant, too profound, too deep for words. Treasure those moments with the infinite One, and know that each moment wherein the Creator has been sought is lightening the consciousness of your people and doing needed work in establishing the generation of an ever fuller light upon your sphere.

Now Q’uo said that it was easy to use solitude in the negative sense of service to self and become distracted from serving others and lightening of the planetary vibrations. Then Q’uo said that sometimes it is well to become distracted as one ages so one can feel a more pleasant state of mind. Q’uo also said that actually solitude is impossible as we live in a universe that is bursting with life, but since we live in an illusion in third density, and are still feeling the infinite Creator within us, we become seekers of truth on a long journey of sharing the Love of the Creator with all those around us. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that we use the practice of spiritual solitude in meditation to seek the answers to our questions from the silence of the Creator as to how we may lighten the vibrations of our planet. On May 1, 1994, Q’uo described how we can use solitude to live with others in a loving way:

So, to begin to be able to make the transformation about which your query spoke one must first begin to allow the judgment of the self concerning the self to fade away and become unimportant, for there is no possibility of accurate judgment of the self by the self. It is well to examine the life as much as is possible but only in that it enables one to see into the uppermost layers of selfhood. Certainly this is valuable, however, it does not make you a judge. When one is able to lay self-judgment aside and instead to take up the solitude and the dust of the spiritual path taken on faith then is one beginning to be able to dwell and abide with others in a creative and loving way.

We would at this time transfer to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo and we leave this instrument with thanks in love and light.

This morning I went outside and rolled up the various extension cords which were plugged into an outside electrical outlet that have provided me power for my sump pumps, computer, cell phone charger, and electric toothbrush for the last three days but which seems not to be providing power anymore. Fortunately, the technician that is in the process of installing my new generator brought me a gas-powered generator that I can now use for all of the above as well as my microwave oven, refrigerator, and L/L refrigerator. Then I went back over to my neighbor’s house across the street to finish up cutting and bundling the small tree limbs that the fellow threw into her yard yesterday as they were in the process of getting the huge tree that fell down in the windstorm Sunday out of the road.

This afternoon Gary came over to complete the cleanup of the house after our Homecoming Gathering, and while he was here he showed me how I could get internet access and post the Camelot Journals for the last three days. It seems like such a long time since I have been able to post my Camelot Journal entries, and I am so grateful that Gary showed me how to do so while I am still without power and am using a gas-powered generator that was loaned to me by the technician that is installing my new generator.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 29

Use The Light Of Christ

I am of that principle known to you as the consciousness of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in full and divine Love.

This morning, as we sit with you in meditation, we who comfort urger you to feel the Love of Christ moving and the Light of Christ as it is with us at this moment.

Know that the Light of Christ moving through your eyes shall enable them truly to see.

Know that through the perfect Light of Jesus the Christ our ears may be made truly to hear. Know that as the divine Light of the Spirit of Christ plays through your mind, disturbances shall be blessed by the addition of light. And the fire of divine Love shall burn out the rush fires of petty emotion.

Visualize, acknowledge, and use the Light of Christ when you pen your mouth; when you extend your hand; when you learn and when you teach. For the Light of Christ renews all things.

And each thing that is renewed, in turn may then rerate that which seems, in this light, to be able to become more blessed and more whole, more at balance and more at peace.

May the Light, the Love, the Joy, and the Peace of Jesus Christ be with you now and evermore. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from June 6, 1993:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves for the further query if those present have additional queries. Is there a query at this time?

Carla: I have a question. Let me see. I don’t exactly know how to frame it. First of all, I would very much like to know—did I get any part of what you were trying to give me? It was very difficult to go through some of those concepts; and if I didn’t, could you re-say them—whatever I didn’t get—another way through Jim?

I am Q’uo, and we are quite pleased that you were able to move through what was indeed difficult conceptual framework, shall we say. This is not material that is easily apprehended, and we are happy that you have applied yourself with such determination and …

[Side one of tape ends.]

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes. I think I grasp what you’re saying about how worry is good to the extent that we need it to alert ourselves to the fact that we need to pray; and that prayer is good, or communication with the divine is good. But there is a trigger in there where you’re worrying about something and you hope that you somehow could get a trigger in there, so that you move right on from worry to dealing with it in a prayerful and communicative way. And I think the original impetus for this question was, “What trigger can I use to point out to myself the fact that I’m worrying, and get me into a frame of mind in which I can do something about it?” What keeps us from just worrying and worrying and worrying? What kind of trigger can we put in our consciousnesses that alerts us to this in ourselves?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The threshold of worry, shall we say, varies from entity to entity. There are entities who feel comfortable only as they are able to worry about a situation. There are others who feel little distortion towards worry and allow whatever situation is occurring to continue with little concern for their part in the situation.

Each entity must determine when worry has begun to wear out one’s ability to find peace and equanimity concerning a given situation. There is the necessity, as we have previously mentioned, of giving enough concern and worry to a situation to alert the deeper self that there is the need for creative problem-solving, shall we say. When an entity has thusly alerted not only the deeper levels of its own mind—reaching into that which is below conscious awareness—but has through this same process alerted those presences which serve as guides and teachers, then it is that these presences along with the more whole self must be allowed to present their comments, shall we say.

When these resources have been heard and whatever action that is possible has been taken—even if only to prepare for action—then it is that the entity must trust and have faith that all it can do and all that is appropriate to be done, it has done. By having this faith, the entity is affirming that all is, indeed, well, and has added that ingredient of faith into the mix of catalyst to serve as what you may call a kind of yeast that will affect the outcome, shall we say, in a manner which is most appropriate, considering the various qualities, energies and entities involved.

Carla’s question for Q’uo was: “What trigger can I use to point out to myself the fact that I’m worrying and get me into a frame of mind in which I can do something about it?” Q’uo replied by saying that the use of worry varies from one person to another with some needing to worry in order to deal with a certain situation and others feeling no worry about any situation. Then Q’uo said that when one loses its peace of mind about a situation, then it is time to make contact with the deeper mind or various teachers and guides for some direction to take, and then take the action to the best of one’s ability, having faith that all will be well. On September 10, 1995, Q’uo spoke of the relationship between worry and faith:

Faith is indeed a gift in that some entities have a clearer line or connection with their own unconscious mind. Faith is also a built-in, inherent, and native portion of the deep mind and thusly it can be developed and pulled up into the conscious existence by one who works to form the habit of turning to faith and faith’s ability to give one the opportunity to create that area of control which changes the fear and fret of daily worry into an occasion to invoke faith. Once that feeling has been experienced of the support given by faith, then it becomes more and more natural to turn from the small circle of worry to the upreaching of prayer, intercession, praise, and thanksgiving.

Those things which aid in connecting the faith deep within to the conscious mind include first of all the regular meditation, for in the silence of meditation connections from within the deep mind are being made and information is flowing. Also, we suggest the encouragement within the self of praise and thanksgiving for all, large and small, or the ephemeral world that may meet the senses. Prayer, praise, and thanksgiving are three resources that add and strengthen the connection to faith.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Just one. I sense that we could study this topic further to good advantage. Would you confirm that, if it’s true?

I am Q’uo, and we agree that this is fertile ground for further consideration, for there is much of foundation attitude formation and its effect upon the external environment that reflects the nature of your illusion and the general field of that which you may call magic.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you, Q’uo. This has been an interesting session.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister.

Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: No, not from me, Q’uo. It’s been good to continue [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and we have also enjoyed this session. We feel that the queries which come from your mutual concern are those which are rich in possibility for study, and we study with you that which you seek, for are we not all One? We thank you, each of you, for your dedication, your courage, and your sense of proportion which you call humor. We are most grateful to be able to join you in your meditation and in your seeking of truth.

At this time we shall take our leave of this group and this instrument, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I got the gas-powered generator, that the technician from New Circle Mechanical dropped off yesterday, started and hooked up to my microwave and the L/L refrigerator. Then I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves and small twigs from the driveway and from both parking areas on both sides of the driveway into a pile so I could put them in a garbage can for yard waste pickup next Thursday. Then I made an errand run with my first stop being Anderson Supply to drop off my chain saw to see if they can get it fixed since it won’t start for me. Then I stopped by the vet to pick up some meds for Bosco. My third stop was at Kroger’s to pick up some food for myself. My fourth stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to pick up more food for myself.

This afternoon I went over to my neighbor’s house across the street and cut up some small branches from a large limb and tied them up in bundles for yard waste pickup next Thursday. I wasn’t quite able to finish the job because some of the limbs I wanted to put into bundles were too close to the power lines that were taken down by the wind storm last Sunday. Workers from Louisville Gas & Electric were cutting up the big tree which had brought the power lines down, so I hope that tomorrow I will be able to go back and finish the job. While I was there, I also refilled her two hummingbird feeders.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 28

Be Christ

I am the Spirit that is meek, the heart that is humble, and the hand that is turned to service. I come to you as the spirit of the infinite love of Jesus the Christ.

Reach out your hand. You see before you an illusion. Yet within the illusion of that hand is warm flesh and blood, a tool and resource for the manifestation of this humble spirit of love.

Open your mouth and give voice. You may give voice in manifestation of the Love of Christ. It is not necessary to be loud, dramatic and strident to know within that the infinite Love of Christ goes before you and behind you and upon either side and that your stretched-out hand, therefore, though meek, has all the infinite power of the love of Christ.

Be Christ in manifestation to those who are seeking and hungering for the truth.

We leave you in the peace that passes all understanding, in the love of Jesus the Christ, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 6, 1993:

Group question: The question this afternoon has to do with the process of worry and prayer. It seems that when one worries overmuch about a situation, one is really sowing seeds for allowing that situation to take root and to sprout, to grow, to become more likely to be a reality. And the suggestion was made that a form of prayer might be the more helpful of the paths to choose in dealing with a situation that you are quite worried about; that talking out your worry to the Creator, to an angel, to a saint, to your higher self, to whomever, is much more helpful in creating the internal environment that not only gives you a peace of mind and a feeling of perspective, but sows the seeds of greater possibilities, so that that which you are concerned about has more chance of turning out in a favorable fashion rather than in the way which you fear that it might turn out, and the way which you tend to worry about. And we would like Q’uo’s comments on the concepts of worry and its effect upon a situation, and the concept of prayer and its effect upon a situation.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. We are gratified to be with you this afternoon and to be that source called to your circle to comment upon your query concerning worry and prayer. As always, we request that personal discrimination be used as you listen to these thoughts, for we speak not as authorities, but as your brothers and sisters.

In responding to your query, we begin by observing the estate of your species and your density. It has been written that man is a little lower than the angels. What separates the estate of third density from that angelic host is an illusion in which the truth is hidden, so that the generator of either positivity or negativity is chosen in faith alone, not because the circumstances of any situation are or become clear.

The essence of third density is the striving for clarity in the midst of unremitting confusion and darkness. In this situation it would be miraculous for any not to worry. There seems to be a continual stream of circumstance which cannot be controlled; efforts to control are often useless. In the absence of action that is effective the concern and returning to the concern is natural. Yet, as your question posited, it is true that over-concern and worry cooperate with what may be called desire-driven destiny in such a way as to more nearly solidify the matter about which the worry and concern is expressed.

We ask you to sit for a moment with the sheer inevitability of worrying circumstance. You have come into this density and into this incarnational experience fully aware of and willing to undergo the dropping of the veil of forgetting. Before your present physical vehicle was created, you chose this circumstance and this continuing line of circumstance. What about this was so valuable? The gem which you chose was this very veil of forgetting and the blindness of the choices you would be making within this density and this incarnation. It is to this present worrying moment that you have come, not by mistake or error and not by chance, but step by step you have moved hither in chosen blindness and each issue before you now is faced in this blindness.

What is the supreme value of this blind choice, but that it is blind. We emphasize this repeatedly because, although it feels as though those of spiritual discretion and learning will have a greater and greater ease and pleasantness of incarnational experience, yet, in terms of the matter which acts as catalyst, the reverse is true: the greater the activity of the seeker within incarnation, the more frequent the choices and the more heartily each choice is tested.

So, this situation which precipitates worry is the common coin of third-density incarnation, and as such, we recommend a quiet and contemplative consideration on each occasion in which worry arises of this fact. You did not come here to dispel worry and to be comforted; rather, you came into the arena of third density to strive in darkness. Your greatest sight is the blind but loving heart, for one sees with the heart the light which is not visible to the mind; for within the heart rests the spirit of love.

This spirit is a side of wisdom which has no words in your density, and it expresses its wisdom in the more and more purified emotions. When the seeker comes first to the conscious study of the processes of spiritual choice-making, at first the heart is less than optimally pure in its expression. The seeker begins, day-by-day and meditation-by-meditation, to empty out of the heart the less pure of that heart’s contents, as though the heart were a pocket in which many things had been placed, some of which were not desirable. After a time meditating and seeking, the heart begins to be released from having to hold so much of that which is less than pure; and then the heart may begin to shed its wisdom upon the conscious mind. This purifying process is not short, and we do not wish to suggest that you must become consciously pure in heart. We simply encourage each to do the work of opening in meditation regularly and allowing the heart to empty itself of the petty trivia so that its strain may be deeper and ever more pure.

The path to the deep mind goes through what we call the heart. This is why we focus upon this word, “heart.” We wish, centrally, to disengage the mind from the intellectualizing capacity of your brain, for although one may speak intellectually of spiritual truths, the truths are only true in and as a whole when they are felt rather than intellectually understood.

The group question for this session was: “We would like Q’uo’s comments on the concepts of worry and its effect upon a situation, and the concept of prayer and its effect upon a situation.” Q’uo began by saying that in the third density we live in an illusion of darkness in which our choice of polarity can only be made by faith, and that it is our worry that cooperates with desire-driven destiny to solidify that which is the object of worry. Then Q’uo said that we pre-incarnatively chose this situation of needing to blindly choose and be tested by the darkness so that we may discover the light of the heart, the spirit of love, which has no words but expresses itself through purified emotions. Q’uo went on to say that we should use meditation to allow the heart to empty out those emotions that are impure so that we may disengage the intellectual brain and reach the deep mind where the spiritual truth of our situation is felt rather than intellectually understood. On November 21, 1993, Q’uo spoke of the value of contacting the deep mind:

The act of meditation, then, not only works upon the mind and body to relax and open up the flow of energy, it also triggers a closer alignment of the self which is conscious with the fundamental or basic nature of that great mountain within the subconscious or deep mind which is the area which contains those deep and vast truths which have structured and formed all that there is.

You carry the blueprint of all things within, and the potential to activate any or all of this knowledge. That you are protected from burning yourself out in discovering these fiery truths beforetimes is to be expected in a universe where there is the possibility of advancing. The Creator has not hidden these truths in order to cause hardships, but in order to prevent premature awareness. Each entity is intended to open itself to transformation in this natural way, so that there shall be no loss of incarnation that is not necessary.

Now, we have placed you in the situation and legalized worrying to an extent. Yes, you shall worry; you shall not break this habit entirely. Yet, we have suggested that the truth of the situation is not best served by worrying.

What, then, is the manner of moving in harmony with desire-driven destiny in such a way as to make the most effective and positive choices? We ask that you recall from one of your holy works that the one known as Peter saw the one known as Jesus walking upon the water. Peter, it is written, was excited to see this miracle and leapt out of the boat to walk to his teacher. But then Peter realized that he was doing the impossible, and immediately he stopped walking upon the waves and began to sink; however, the one known as Jesus reached his hand to Peter, and Peter was again able to walk upon the water with his teacher.

This reaching of the hand to the infinite intelligence that is source and ending, is an image showing the essence of prayer. It is a direct communication with that which surrounds and makes possible the illusion now experienced. To pray is to organize the energies within the self and point them directly at communication with, and ultimate congruency with, the great Original Thought of Love.

Thusly, prayer needs not to be answered to be effective. It is not given that a seeker see clear answers to each and every prayer; rather, it is given that communication and interaction with the infinite and the divine is not only possible, but inevitable. Prayer organizes this direct communication and identification in a polarized way; worry makes the connection with the divine in an unorganized way. The very process of communicating with infinite intelligence causes the seeker to refine, reconsider, restate and begin to see the truer dimensions of that situation about which he has been concerned.

We do encourage more than prayer, however. The praying to be led is most helpful and efficacious; yet, there is also the great energy which dwells in this connection with infinity, which may then be released from intended communication as a reflex of this communication, as, if you will, an answer to prayer. To the open-hearted there comes that spirit which enlivens hope and faith; and in its turn, this faith organizes the intellectual mind so that it is more worry-resistant when next the situation causing worry arises.

The answer to prayer is not only the response of infinite intelligence to the matter for which intercession has been offered, but also a feedback which more and more informs the intelligence of that seeker who has prayed. Indeed, we would substitute for “prayer” the term “conversation,” for prayer is a word which in your culture has many negative connotations concerning the feelings of lack of faith, lack of confidence, lack of worth, and similar shadows. It also is connoted with the concept of the elite, as though some were more able to pray or had more right to pray than others. We would instead call prayer a conversation with infinite intelligence. In this conversation, the seeker speaks his mind as it is given him to do. Infinite intelligence responds in silence and in power; and free will being observed, destiny moves on, affected to some degree by this interaction. More than this, he who converses with infinity grows more and more full of this energy which is the reflex of this conversation—the silent encouragement of the infinite for the seeker within illusion.

We would suggest that as the seeker moves through the illusion day-by-day, and repeatedly goes through the practice of worry, of noting the worry, and of turning to communicate this concern in an organized way to infinite intelligence, there is the self-contradictory need both to release the free will to circumstance and to enter into that worrisome situation in imagination, to turn and face that about which the seeker is worried. Again, this turning and facing of catalyst does not bring about simply an answer to prayer, but rather, it acts as a teaching aid, if you will, opening more and more the seeker’s heart, enlarging the scope of the seeker’s identity to itself, and bringing about more and more in the thinking patterns of the seeker an awareness of the self as a universal Self.

Much of what prayer and worry do, is offer a definition or qualification of selfhood. Much of what seekers do in blind faith is seek and seek outwardly, reaching and reaching, yet learning more and more about the heart of the self, for the creation reflects that self, and those circumstances which are so obviously happening outside the self within the illusion are, in fact, reflecting part of the nature of the inner self.

Behold your own visions and all sense impressions not only as outer events, but also as a grand system of mirrors reflecting your own inner nature, for all that seems outer, all that seems divergent, all that seems to have this and that quality in and of itself, is that within the illusion which is positioned in a way that shall teach the seeker of his inner nature.

We join you in moving along this bewildering path. We encourage each in that cosmic conversation which shall reveal the seeker to itself, and the self to the infinite One.

Now Q’uo said that our habit of worrying was best dealt with by manifesting our desire-driven destiny through prayer is to direct our energies to becoming one with and manifesting the One Great Original Thought of Love so that we can see the truer nature of the source of our worries. Then Q’uo described prayer as a conversation with infinite intelligence so that one’s destiny might be realized in the silent encouragement of the infinite intelligence for the seeker within the illusion. Q’uo continued by saying that as we deal with the catalyst of our worry it begins to open our hearts to the greater reality of our inner nature being the universal Self. On September 25, 1993, Q’uo described our nature as the universal Self of Love:

Yes, each of you is all too aware of the missed steps, the erroneous conclusions, the impulses which do not do Love justice. Yes, you are completely unfinished. Is this a reason not to be in love with your self? Can your self, in all its distortions, depart one iota from the truth of Love? Yes, it may seem to, just as all whom you come in contact with may seem to. Yet the heart that loves knows that beneath, above and around all confusion, all missed steps, all seeming imperfection, lies the One—unblemished, unbroken, beautiful, and perfect. Your nature is love.

The walking of the spiritual path is an opening of the universal Self within, to embrace more and more without distortion the heart of love in each entity and each moment. Your challenge is always to discern where the love is in this moment and to move—whether by attitude, thought or action—to support, encourage and enable that love. Giving that attempt your best effort shall occupy you well through this illusion which we term third density and through several densities to come, for we witness to our continuing pilgrimage through longer and more subtle illusions wherein the choice we made in third density is refined, first by attention to love, then by attention to wisdom, then by attention to the merging of love and wisdom.

We would close this sitting through the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo, and leave this instrument in love and light.

This morning I took Beatriz and Sara to the airport, and when I got back I spent an hour talking to Anna before she headed back to Nashville. Then I went outside and began working with Gary, Ken, Joshua, Greg, and Peggy to get the two large tree branches cut up as well as getting the smaller tree branches put in garbage cans and then in bundles. These branches came down in the strong windstorm yesterday afternoon and provided a great challenge to get cleaned up.

This afternoon I continued working with each of the above mentioned until most of the tree branches have been cleaned up, and I am so grateful to have had such a great crew of friends to help me with this huge project. I should be able to complete the branch cleanup tomorrow.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 27

Hunger And Hope

I am the spirit of the living Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

This instrument has been bewildered, as we have flooded the instrument with images of hunger, poverty, entities without homes, without shelter, without clothing, and without hope.

This is a part of the perfect beauty of your illusion. This is that which may be found, not just in other places, but in yours. The spirit of Christ speaks to the world in love, in peace, and in service. What shall you do this day to acknowledge that your very selves are hungry?

Seek in your heart to find a call to renew, revive and replenish the concept of hope, for you are the Spirit of Christ in the world today. Your hands give heavenly food as well as provender.

Above all hunger and disorder, may you see the overriding and underlying peace of Jesus Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.